#my friend got tired of my rants and so i'm posting them here now

[crescynnt]

Some thoughts about The Showdown

People say Dark is stronger than Chosen with his Virabands, but realistically, Dark can't do anything to hurt Chosen. Chosen is immune to his deletion powers (and has a decent resistance to his regular powers), and in the end, Dark was only able to subdue him. He's strong, but not strong enough to kill (not that I believe he wants to... or at least, not yet).

Throughout the Showdown, Dark was seen to be using his virus powers more than his own (once he had his Virabands on). Powers that he knows won't kill Chosen (because I refuse to believe he's stupid enough to think if he tried enough times the deletion will start affecting him). Even once Chosen was subdued, he just sent his Virabots across the internet instead of finishing the job.

(long rant about Dark incoming-- wow I actually remembered to cut my long posts)

I never really believed that Dark wanted to kill Chosen (in the Showdown). The first real hit came from Chosen. Sure, Dark shot off an energy ball first when Chosen stopped him from launching the first Virabot, but it was more of a warning shot than anything. Even when he was scuffling with Chosen over the launcher, his real goal was to launch the Virabot to Alan's PC, not to fight his friend.

When Chosen came back after fighting the Virabot, Dark had just moved houses and was working on his project again. He had his Viraband next to his computer that whole time and never put it on. He never intended to fight with Chosen over this. But when Chosen came in, he just started attacking again without question (Chosen woke up that morning and chose violence lol).

During the first few hits, Dark was really caught off guard. He didn't expect his friend to have such a big reaction. His first few shots were always in retaliation to Chosen's. Every single time he fired a shot was right after Chosen hit him. And after retaliating he usually stops to check on/wait for his friend to make a move.

But when Red accidentally opened the portals to the internet, he finally got his s/it together and started fighting Chosen like he meant it. And the first thing Dark did upon coming out was to subdue Chosen for a couple of moments to check on his work.

And that is when he finally decided to duke it out and knock some sense into his friend.

It's a theory of mine that Dark only got serious when he realized someone was messing with his project. Fighting with Chosen was all well and good, but when he thought Chosen was only a distraction while someone else was sabotaging his project, he flipped out.

That was the moment the true betrayal happened.

But he was still willing to talk to Chosen. He was angry, sure, but when Chosen was caught by his Virabots, he stopped raising his blade at him.

But when Second and his friends came into play, he immediately went offensive again. He may have still wanted to reconcile with Chosen, but Second- a literal stranger who was likely the one to mess with his Virabands- was a different story. And he was a lot more ruthless to them than to Chosen.

Moral of the story? Talk to your friends if you're unhappy about their newest world-domination project lest they end up dead. (lol)

[straightcraig]

Nine Sols headcanons and scenarios.

My first post On tumblr. Joy. I suck at wording stuff so if something is misunderstood i'm sorry.

Headcannons(some of them were also written on Reddit almost half a years ago)

1 Eigong didn't understood that there was an actual hatred between Yi and Goumang. She just though it was a friendly bickering like the one she had before becoming head of tiandao council.

2 Lady Ethereal was a fan of horror genre. Either became a fan after Xiaohe showed her or even before.(That changed after the accident)

3 Yanlao was very good at all types of video games. His favourite were claw machines.

4 Goumang has issues with being left behind. Possibly abandoned by her parents. Which also translates to trust issues.

5 Ji could outdrink everybody.

6 Yi gets good at everything when he's drunk even things that he sucks at like cooking(Yi's diet consists of cup noodles and whatever his sister sends him).

7 Yi is THE densest guy on Penglai. He just doesn't understand romance except few romance novels he read and scientific explanations of it.

8 Fu Die and Kuafu tried playing cupid and help Yi find somone, there was alot of problems with it as most girls were very wary due to his status as a Sol and felt very inadequete or Yi being Yi said something that made other hate him. Lady Ethereal almost strangled him when he made another girl cry. She still picked him up like a toddler and shaked him while screaming at him.

9 Lady Ethereal found Yi endearing like a child pretending to be adult. He also made her realise she likes short people.

10 Jiequan is suprisingly a good motivational speaker.

Scenario 1 "mind to mind" (platonic/romantic?(I don't know how romance works.))

Goumang:Just my s$&@#8 luck to run into you of all people.

Yi:(just minding his own buisness while trying to ignore Goumang, which is hard taking into account she's sitting next to him. Why did he chose to sit next to her again)?

Goumang:What are you doing here?

Yi:Am I forbidden from drinking?

Goumang:Well you definitely don't look like you can. You don't act like it either.

Yi:(ouch an indult that strikes both of my insecurities. As ruthles as ever).

Yi:Listen I came here just to have a nice drink in possible quiet and outside of everyone's consistent nagging. So we can either make this a very s$&#@8 evening for everyone involved or we shut up, have our drinks and leave like nothing happened.(Yi wasn't joking Kuafu and Lady Ethereal already gave him a great headache when they tried to get him to meet with another "candidate" and no he wasn't interested in men Jiequan stop asking).

Goumang:Fine but if you pass out don't expect me to help you get back to dorms. You're on your own.

Yi:You think you can keep up with me?(Yi may not look like it but he did outdrink everybody. Ok, almost everybody, the amount of wine Ji drank is scientifically impossible and yet it happened. How did he drink 2 times the body weight of Kuafu is beyond him but honestly he's to scared to ask).

Goumang:Is that a chalenge, shorty?

Yi:I don't know, do you accept it?(Yi was honestly too tired to even question why did he agree to this. He already got stuck for several days while trying to fix many Bugs and glitches in the new systems. Overworking himself and when he was done the Kuafu asked him nicely to come help with something that something being Kuafu playing matchmaker with him. Kuafu might be one of the only friends he has in the council but sometimes his nagging reminds him too much of a mother hen.

Goumang:You're dead.

Spongebob narrator voice:3 bottles later

Goumang(absolutely wasted):I never envied somone as much as I envy you right now. That's why I hate you!

Yi(Dazed after Goumang rant about how much she hates him for taking away her teacher and a rolemodel she never had as a child):...I never felt like I deserved it.

Goumang:...Hah?

Yi(tipsy):I mean yeah I kinda understand that Eigong is interested in me but I never really felt as if I deserved to be in a council or rather not as fast as I did. Like everyone there feels like an hyperinteligent monster. Kuafu helped recreate entire rhizomantic tower system, a technology that was lost after Lear turned his back on science. We had next to nothing about them in terms of technicalities and we were left with their ruins and he reverse engineered entire thing. Jiequan is heir of the kingdom that sparked entire science revolution during the warring era and despite its falls from grace is still the country where science is most prominent(made it up but if we take into account that transmutation is legal in Jie Kingdom I wouldn't be surprised). Lady Ethereal helps created technology that can make mental images into computer ones many of the modern system run on her research. Fuxi and Nuwa basically financed the entire thing while supporting Feng clan which is quite a feat. Yanlao for as much as I hate him is very knowledgable about history and his collection has a lot of past technologies so at least he's useful. Eigong is the leader of entire council, my teacher and knows about science more then all of us. And as for you...

Goumang:...WELL?!

Yi:Your research into biotechnology did basically feed half the Penglai. And you were here before me. So lucky, you were already here making people life easier with science. While I was making small experiments surrounded by ignorant folk and my first experiment almost killed me. Taken under Eigong wings only becouse I survived.

Goumang:...Now you're just trying to make me feel bad about myself for bashing heads with you.

Yi:I see no point in lying about it. Also we should stop here before you forget how to walk.

Goumang(reaches for the fourth bottles):Is that a chalenge?

Yi:Well you said you won't carry me but I can't exactly carry you either.

Goumang:Hah weakling.

Yi(while taking bottle from her):Lightweight.

Goumang:Well now look at us, talking as if were friends.

Yi:Are we?

Goumang:I don't know you're still an annoying shortstack but at least I know you a little bit more then "mr. Steal your teacher"

Yi:...What does that mean?!

Goumang:Do you not know what is a meme?

Yi:(slightly embarrassed)...No.

Goumang:...huh...(hysterical laughter)

Yi:...Yeah that's enough wine for you today.

Scenario 2 "friendly rivaly"

Context:Its been two weeks since Goumang and Yi's heart to heart, and they haven't argued with eachother. No bickering, not even a verbal jab.

Yi:Huh...maybe Heng was right sometimes being honest can make miracles happen. I jinxed it didn't I.

Ruyi:Master Yi am I interrupting something?

Yi:You didn't Ruyi, what is it?

Ruyi:Eigong wished to meet you here in your lab.

Yi:Why my lab specifically.

Ruyi:she didn't mention a reason just that she wanted to speak with you. From her tone I imagine it to be rather important or maybe very personal.

Yi:...Ok, when?

Ruyi:Right now.

Yi:Wait, she's waiting under our door! Why didn't she knock?

Ruyi:She did. Four times infact. However you weren't reacting my Lord, you were just staring into workshop wall.

Yi(in a whisper):Why do I feel existencial dread, its like that one time my mom called me 3 times and I didn't answer.

Ruyi:...should I let her in my lord?

Yi: ah! Yes yes.

Eigong:Hello Yi.

Yi:Good morning, teacher.

Eigong:Its noon Yi.

Yi:Good afternoon then, what is it you wished to talk about.

Eigong:Lets sit Yi.

Yi:Very well. Abacus prepare tea.

Ruyi:Understood-

Eigong:It won't be necessary. I'm just here to ask Yi a question. ... What happened?

Yi:... Teacher may you elaborate?

Eigong:You haven't bickered with eachother and Im a bit worried for relationship of my Students. So what happened? Did you two fight.

Yi:Are you talking about me and Goumang? Nothing happened we just talked with eachother and came to an understanding.

Eigong:Was there a misunderstanding between you I wasn't aware of?

Yi:...Ok, with all due respect teacher. Relationship between me and Goumang was nonexistent up until two weeks ago.

Eigong:???

Yi:Frankly we hated eachother. Well more like she hated me but I was just adding oil to the fire.

Eigong:But you were bickering like an old married couple.

Yi:Yes we... Hold on did you think our screaming matches were just friendly "bickering".

Eigong:...(Nods).

Yi:...And Kuafu calls me the densest guy on all of Penglai.

Eigong:What Kuafu Has to do with anything?

Yi:Absolutely nothing. Going back to your question teacher all you need to know is that we explained stuff between eachother and we won't bicker as much.

Eigong:I'm unsure if that should calm me down or make me more worried.

Yi:...Anything Else?

Eigong:No this will be all thank you for your time Yi.

Yi:No problem teacher.

[tonix3]

We're all 🤡 here - Group-hallucinations are a real thing: Update on The & An Observer on IG & X

I'll preface this with: give this (lilac) link a look. It's unbiased, just a documentation of all that has happened.

@fookinhellcurlyyy thank you, for your work for the fandom. I can't wait for this to be a big bad archive of literally everything important & dear to us. You're my hero 💓🙏🏻 my first & loveliest Larrie friend. But you don't really know, how much I value you as a friend.🥹 Love you to pieces 🫶🏻

SPREADSHEET - EVERY MOVEMENT DOCUMENTED

(you can click on everything: it has links screenshots, dates, additional info and so on)

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I WANT TO HOLD IT SHORT & BRIEF BECAUSE YOU CAN ALL FORM YOUR OWN OPINION WITH THE HELP OF THE ABOVE LINK

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The happenings & my thoughts (during and after) follow now:

All Observer posts linked

Beginning of TO/AO on IG

Today's rant regarding TO & the fandom

The day starts with an article about Brianna & Freddie by The S*n. - New papwalk, fresh pics, breaking down the past ten years. Interesting.

After Zouis the next post follows on Insta from An Observer at 13:00 (UK TIME) and 20 mins later an additional post from The Observer on X.

The triangle gives no results when searching. After the additional tweet I waver from searching the triangle to trying to make something of the color.

Same Gemma, same.

After hours of people not finding anything someone says they can see faces in the little black shapes.

Everybody starts seeing faces or pictures of the boys. 😭 Which is kinda hilarious afterwards but if you asked me yesterday, I was just creeped out about the creepy faces I could see after staring at this longer and longer with my tired brain.

When I wanted to go to bed TO pops up with a sitcom quote featuring a sun reference (😉😉😉) from actor John Clegg.

That's me (below) saying everyone should chill and still tweaking about the triangle.

Today AO posts a guitar peek at 14:00 UK Time.

Same steel, new stories. - NEW STORIES !!!! (important soon)

40 mins later the follow - up of TO

@/ Larrysbestie28 finds the triangle reference.

The shoot features some white chucks we may have seen on a papwalk a few days prior and also had a Love Island headline 😉 (I'm literally laughing like an insane person right now)

Everyone was occupied with trying to see faces until someone debated looking into what Clegg also did - write books.

And then Lewis wants to kill us. (17:09 UK TIME)

I got the TO notification first (which could be because IG is a bit slower with notifications) before seeing that Louis posted a story too. (Counting one story 😉)

Now is the time to watch the video in the lilac link under the favorite tweet because you will see it is just around 40 seconds apart. How lucky would the TO scammer be to see that this fast (when notifications are slower?) and post it in under a minute.

Coincidentally so lucky with their tweets. ✨ 🤡

He also liked Zaras new pic and the timestamp 1:14 of the song shows these lyrics. (THE NEWEST CLOWN 🤡🤡🤡 🙂‍↕️)

Also the song is about a long-term relationship, you know.

And then he wants to kill me again. Posting a guitar picture on the day of AO posting a guitar picture.

SO UNLUCKY. THE UNIVERSE LITERALLY HATES THEM. (2nd story - NEW STORIES 😉)

And you know what this little shit does? He deleted the damn story again‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

(also look at what's scrabbled on it! please STFU)

SO SORRY IF IM CRASHING OUT BUT WE ARE LITERALLY RE - LIVING RBB AND LOUIS IS THE OBSERVER

You heard it here first. In a few years this will be head canon, you can all thank me later, hahhhahahahahahahhaha

Believe me @delicateperspective , @fookinhellcurlyyy and me are trying to debunk this (them more than me, I have to admit 😅)

but you know, I'm standing by it until proven otherwise.

And if this turns out to be fake, I am not ashamed of clowing. It's not delusional to hope that he revived RBB because we have a storm coming at us maybe (regarding bbg), hopefully this will end on a positive note.

Stay positive,

stay kind,

talk soon, peeps. 🫶🏻✨

[madrone33]

I don't know what to say. Thank you. Thank you Jorge. Thank you everyone who sung, and drew, and edited, and worked on EPIC: The Musical because you have all given me something that I will always - ALWAYS - remember and cherish.

I've been on this journey for over a year now, since Halloween 2023 when WolfyTheWitch posted a random short of Poseidon with the coldest musical lyrics I've ever heard. Ruthlessness brought me to this project, to this fandom. I was in all the events my timezone could reach, posted and messaged and freaked out with fellow fans on discord and tumblr and youtube and tiktok and twitch. I scoured the whole internet to find every piece of music, read the interviews, watched every livestream - most notably of which were the Ocean Crowdcast stream, the Circe Stream Crash of 2024, the Policy Violation Stream, and the IRL Odyssey streams XD

I got my family into it and was able to gush and rant and ramble to them about it; I've made so many friends because of this, and entered so many other fandoms too: MHSG, Udad, PJO, Hadestown, JCS, Lucids, DEH, and so many, many more; I've made essays and graphs and spreadsheets and analysis, discussing and picking apart the themes, characters, music details, motifs, lyrics; My voice has grown leaps and bounds because of how much I sing out loud now, I learned the songs on the piano, I started drawing?? I've written almost 112k words of fanfic for Epic, it's insane (and also not written down so much more LMAO). I even went out of my comfort zone and posted some of my writing and my covers which is CRAZY and nerve wracking and really fun!

Each saga I was left completely stunned and awestruck. Each saga I thought "surely, nothing can top this" and yet EVERY TIME I was blown away again the next time. The writing, the singing, the voice acting, the visuals, the orchestration, the lyrics, everything is just- !!!

Jorge. Miguel. Rivera-Herrans. HOW?? It's so good! It's SO GOOD!! And everyone's voices?? Everyone, just everyone is just talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same- THIS MUSICAL IS PURE ART, A MASTERPIECE OF A LEVEL HITHERTO UNKNOWN, THE LIKES OF WHICH MAY NEVER BE SEEN AGAIN. The fact that I was born in this spot in time, able to experience and appreciate and bask in the light of this glorious concept musical?? I am unfathomably lucky, and I thank the musical gods that it is so.

This past year has been one hell of a journey. I laughed a lot, I wrote lmao while actually only internally laughing a lot, I was tired and comforted and excited and anxious, I cried which I'm almost never able to do with media; Every day I would wake up and immediately check my phone for an upload notification, which is how I caught the Livestream today instead of missing it, so phew; I felt burned out sometimes, but managed to catch it and diversify my activities a bit, sinking into something else for a while before coming back refreshed and even more excited; My entire music wrapped this year was Jorge, Epic cast members' independent music, and greek mythology musicals; I watched the fandom grow even more, all the art, the fanfic, the theories, the memes, the friends.

I still don't think it's fully sunk in yet, but the entire musical is out now. It's done. I'm watched from saga three to nine, from Ocean to Ithaca. I've been here, every day, for a year. This is something that I don't think I'll ever experience again. I am so so thankful.

Thank you, Jorge, for bringing this into the world. What would it be, five and a half years now that he's been creating EPIC? He should be so proud, because I'm sure as hell proud. Odysseus finally made it home. The story is over.

But still, as Jorge said - This not the end of the journey, this is just the end of a chapter; the journey goes on!!

And I'll be here, taking that journey with you.

[edennill-archived]

Beleriand Dashboard Simulator • part 3

Part one, part two

🔆 hador-lomin following

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♟️narrond following

wait, are @turin-deactivated4841207 and @outlaw-neithan-deactivated4880911 the same person as @mormegil?

⚔️ adanedhel

Not really my business to say, seeing as I'm neither of these, but people have reasons for changing blogs/names/URLs. If this was true and if I was that person I would be very annoyed at whoever posted such a thing for everyone to see.

#please take it down for general safety of people who might need it

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⚓ nenil-noriel

I am sick and tired of Gondolindhrim complaining they're bored. How about you try living here and fighting orcs for a while? I'd be glad to switch.

👤 house-of-the-mole following

I'll let you know we fought alongside everyone in the Nirnaeth.

⚓ nenil-noriel

Sure, do pat yourself on the back for doing the bare minimum.

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👰🏼‍���️ celebrin following

Guess who got engaged today?!!! 💕💍🥰

#no one even got ordered to bring a Silmaril lol #so I dare say it went perfectly #!!! #can you tell I'm excited?

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🎼noldolanteyy following

thinking of changing my url (for pretty obvious reasons)

#doriath kinslaying

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🎼musiquendil-former-noldolanteyy following

No, really, this is the worst time ever to be a musician. I'm not pretending that the way he let us down is in any way worse than everything else Maglor Feanorion has done, but...

Can we separate art from the artist when the art itself is so interwined with the artist's deeds? Can we appreciate the noldolante itself ignoring that it was entirely a lie, regrets that apparently didn't stop him from committing the same evil over again?

But it is impossible to cut oneself away from all influence Maglor Feanorion has had on our music. And even keeping to the apolitical pieces, should we ignore the person of the artist? Does it help anything?

It's like the famous Fëanorian lamps debate all over again. Do we change the name since we're uncomfortable using it? Do we try to forget who was their creator - but is that even ethical, no matter what evil he wrought? Or is that maybe wrong? Maybe, if we use the lamps, we should be discomforted?

#I really don't know how to approach this

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👰🏼‍♀️celebrin following

So, we've arrived at the havens. I thank you all for the condolences, thoughts and prayers... I still don't know what to do from now on, but I guess maybe I can finally rest a bit. And mourn.

To all the people asking, yes, my husband and son are thankfully okay; this is the one silver lining. My son seems to have made a friend already...

#personal #gondolin

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🕊️queenelwing-unofficial

putting this under cut so I can delete this later, but please have a passionate rant about how a girl actually feels about receiving missives from the people who killed her parents.

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#honestly why do they presume I might want to actually meet with them #though tbh now that the anger's worn of I'm mostly afraid #and of course my husband *has* to be gone right now... #I'll probably delete all this tomorrow but I couldn't help myself

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[pseudowho]

Hi! It’s the anon who had trouble liking her brother's friend. So update! After I sent that ask in, my parents came to notify me that they would be staying over for two weeks. (perks of going to an international university is that for thanksgiving break they give 2 weeks for students who have to travel.) Anyways, I was post shower and tired and wearing gray sweats and a pink alpha male shirt (I know the most attractive thing a woman could wear) but I was sitting on the couch drawing and listening to my favorite podcast that i’ve been nagging him to listen to for a bit. After he got inside from being out with my brother he sat down with me and we listened to the podcast and blah blah blah. Later that night he sleepily confessed to me and obviously I said yes.

For the next few days he was amazing. We just, Clicked. That’s the best way I could describe it. Anyway me and him were canoodling (thank you for teaching me that word) in my room and my brother passed by the doorway. he got me to the other room and scolded me (it was basically this, excuse if it sounds bad i don’t speak cis white men that well) “He checked in on you two times yesterday and i knew something was up. Turns out you can’t pull so you just whore around with my friend and make him all soft and shit.” I waited for him to leave before I cried. I was comforted by my now boyfriend and i can’t help but feel like it’s my fault for me and my brother's relationship to be ruined. I want to be on good terms with him and I know the workload at his uni is a lot and stressful but I’m not sure if it’s just him being stressed or I actually did something. Could you give me some advice at all? Thank you so SO much for listening to my mini rant!!

You surely don't need to tell me you're in no way in the wrong here, and that your brother is entirely in the wrong?

Not only that, but all it took for your brother to call you both 1. WORTHLESS AND UNATTRACTIVE and 2. A WHORE was him not having control over you.

Really stop and think. Really, really stop and think. You are asking me to advise you on repairing your relationship with a man, a grown man, a grown man who would like to control you by controlling who falls in love with you, and when he doesn't get his own way, calls you a whore who is unable to attract someone.

It would be unethical for me to advise you to repair anything with this man.

As I said in the first Ask, you have the right to both happiness and falling in love with someone who falls in love with you. You have done nothing wrong. Nothing nothing nothing.

Your brother has had has to sort his own maturity and rampant sexism out. And that's not for you to fix.

It's not your job to fix men or to diminish yourself to not 'encroach' on them.

Good luck. I'm so happy for you. I hope you enjoy your new boyfriend. I'd advise him what your brother said to you; sadly it may be that your brother respects the man you're with more than he respects you.

My personal opinion is that we should tie your brother to a chair, and we stand there with baseball bats, and we thoroughly interrogate his feelings about women.

Love,

-- Haitch xxx

[stestir]

Heres my rant about Amethio age discussion and why I think the age range excuse is stupid. I should probably keep this out of the main tag, but I'm tired, sick, and angry, so idc.

Big really angry rant under the line.

So please can anyone explain to me why everyone thought that VAs comment about Amethio being a teen means hes between 13-19 and also 100% CAN be a 19 years old?

Cause English says that a teen is between 13 and 19? Well we all know that English has a lot of stupid stuff in it, so doesnt really count. Plus, quick reminder, this is anime. Japan. The meaning behind teenager could be very different here.

The difference between 13 and 19 years old is so contrast that giving Amethio this range in the first place is moronic. A 13 years old still needs to ask their daddy to go out with their friends. 19 years old already expected to pay taxes, move out of the house, is probably already on a antidepressants.

And the thing is, Amethio doesnt even act like a 19 years old! He acts like a 14 years old emo that tries his very best to look serious and is desperate for attention.

The whole his beef with Friede is a big ass example of this, that Anime just shoves into your face! Amethio becames irrated immediately after Friede stops giving attention to him, everything in his actions screams "Take me seriously!" He wants to be seen as a professional serious trainer by someone who has authority [ Friede ] and is hurt when it doesnt happen. Its literally how neglected children act.

Also the whole excuse with "B-but hes working with Explorers and has his own subordinates that he commands" GUESS WHO ALSO A MINOR BUT IS A BOSS OF A SHIP? ZUKO. The literal icon of redemption arcs. He also was casted away in the age of 13 and had a whole small army under his command. Does that make him an adult? NO. Both Amethio and Zuko are clearly special, thats why they both are forced into a weapon by their respective parential abusers [ Ozai / Gibeon ], and given some special privileges to make it seem that thse abusers love them, when in fact they are just using them.

He doesnt look like a 19 years old either! His body type barely resembles one of Friede or Spinel, both being a clear cut adults. And before someone says "Well I think that Friede looks 20 and that Amethio is just a really twigy guy" no hes bloody not! Reminder, this is pokemon, we have Lusamine and Cyrus that look like 20 and 40, but actually the opposite. And the thing is, Amethio closely resembles Silver with his body! Whos, yk, A CANONICAL 13 YEARS OLD.

What is more hysterical to me is when the Interviews AND Anime itself start to make parallels between Amethio and the kid Trio, whos, yk, OBVIOUSLY KIDS. Like- in both interviews before the big arcs the boy was compared to Liko & Roy [ And Dot, by extension. ] Amethio was literally called a kid alongside the kid Trio, [ One of the kids that still havent found their dream ] which not only makes him a minor, but also puts him the same age group with Liko, Roy and Dot!

And Anime situation is even more comedic. Khem khem. Literally an episode that got out not so long ago, 44. Amethio is called a spoiled brat by Sango [ Which already makes him a kid, but alas ]. Guess who was also called a spoiled kid? LIKO. BY MOLLIE IN THE ABROLIVA EPISODE. Liko, whos canonically we seen as a child child in the episode 18, was called the same thing as Amethio. I get that Anime tries to make parallels between them in general, but that doesnt matter to me now. The most important thing is - they are both viewed as a kids. Yk. MINORS.

Ending this, I'll say - Amethio is a barely 14, maybe at maximum 15, and he is sure is not a 19 years old. I'm sure hes in the same age bracket as Liko, Roy and Dot.

Also AmeFriede is the worst ship that deserves its own place in hell, alongside AmeSpinel. I hate both of these. They are bad from all perspectives.

[ Also, this is the angriest I felt lately, so I wont probably post any other rants like that. This is just me being beaten down by flu and projecting my anger towards this shitty and stupid "discussion". ]

[stormoflina]

re: Stef/ @macallisters

It's quite sad to find out that the lfc community here is still unnecessarily toxic due to one person's constant, never ending antics. Yes, Stef, I'm talking about you, if you are reading this by any chance, from one of your many side accounts. I have kept my silence for months, not once did I make nasty or even slightly suggestive posts about my experience with you, but what is enough is enough. Despite the kindness people showed you, despite the many chances you were given, it seems like you just don't learn. I'm tired of the anons, the rants and rumbles, the side accounts or seeing people I care about having to waste their precious time on this. I even care about those who are perhaps not even on this app yet. The Euros is coming soon, and with that most likely a new wave of people interested in the players/the club, dipping their toes into our community, and I don't want the same to happen to them what  happened to me and many others, having what is supposed to be a fun experience turned into some laughable internet drama.

You keep mentioning February, well, let's talk about February then. You know, it's one thing that you sent me weird or mean anons for months, while you were being all nice and kind in my DMs, but it's a completely different matter when one day you decided to message a close friend of mine here, with the intention of spreading lies about me and trying to paint a picture of me, that was and sadly still is, a picture of you. You very well know that I never sent you hateful messages, either as anons or ones with “forgetting” my name there. It was you who did it, to me, to many others, and sadly, you still keep doing this. After you got called out by others you blocked me, before I could have personally messaged you. I tried to let it go, even if for some time you did make me a bit paranoid, leaving me thinking about to how many others you tried to sully my name. We tried to move on, but you kept sending them to my friends, even getting  meaner, more hateful, and now, despite deactivating your old account, you keep doing the same thing.

You keep mentioning your poor mental health and your current struggles in life. If that is true, Stef, then please, first of all and most importantly, for your own sake and well-being quit this website for a while. I understand how hard it can be, when you are going through a difficult part of life, but this is not an acceptable form of dealing with it. To me, it seems having a tumblr blog is a great joy to you, so please, don't ruin your own fun. Take responsibility for your actions, admit your wrong doings, and reflect on your time spent here. I promise you, having a football tumblr is not that deep. Would you stop sending anons and creating unnecessary drama and perhaps as I mentioned, take responsibility and change, nobody would have a bad word to say to you. Sharing our bad experience is not bullying you, simply sharing the truth. There were a lot of people who were supportive, kind and helpful to you, and by the looks of it, there are still many who do the same. Don’t limit the number of these people in your life by petty internet stuff, time changes and so can you.

[unclewaynemunson]

Jeff is one of my favorite characters and I think we should start a post of all our favorite Jeff headcanons. He and Freak get left out in almost every Eddie-centric fic I read, with his "best friend" being either Gareth or Chrissy, and I'm tired of it. Jeff is wonderful. Here's my hc's:

- Jeff and Eddie have been best friends since middle school. They started CC and Hellfire together.

- they went to the Snowball together and rigged the bubble machine to spew bubbles during the slow dance songs. The dance had to end early and Jeff and Eddie never got caught

- Jeff's parents loves Eddie. They used to have sleepovers at each other's place almost every weekend.

- Jeff was the first person Eddie came out to. Jeff tried to be surprised and "that's great, man, thanks for telling me!" But Eddie saw right through that.

- Eddie is afraid of geese and spiders. Jeff thinks this is fucking hilarious.

- post-Vecna, Jeff is the one Eddie reconnects with first. Eddie tells him everything, despite the NDAs and Steve's warnings. Jeff believes him, because he knows there's wacky shit going on in Hawkins, and he's seen Eddie's wounds.

- they have that kind of friendship that nothing can break. Even if they don't see or talk to each other for years, because Life Happens and people lose touch, they'll always have part of themselves carved out for their best friend.

Ok, that's all I got for now, and sorry for the long ask! I just love Jeff so much and he (and Freak, too, because Freak gets ignored because of fatphobia) deserves just as much love and attention as Gareth gets.

What are your Jeff and Eddie headcanons?

I am loving this Jeff love and your headcanons, thank you so much for sending this to me!!! <3

I think with Unnamed Freak things are a bit different bc, yaknow, he doesn't have a name. For me at least that makes me hesitant to write about him so I don't wanna go as far as to say it's all bc he's fat (even though I'm not gonna deny that that probably also plays a part in how popular he is in this fandom urgh). Anyway, yes this fandom certainly does Jeff dirty. I think it's this gross combination of racism and people copying a lot from already existing stories, characterizations and headcanons without much critical thinking of their own (which baffles me, if you're creative enough to write a story please use that creativity for some originality ffs). Anyway, this is gonna turn into a rant again can you tell I'm still annoyed? so let's turn to something more positive now, like my headcanons for our beloved Jeff:

He was the first person in Hawkins (after Wayne obviously) that Eddie got close to. For Jeff it was kinda the same, being a black, nerdy boy in this town had been very isolating for him and Eddie was his first real friend.

Unnamed Freak made their duo into a trio a bit later. All the others in the group (including Gareth) were Eddie's "lost little sheepies" who he sought out to protect. This means that Jeff and Unnamed Freak are the only people who don't borderline worship Eddie but see him (and love him) for who he is including all his flaws. They're also the only ones not afraid to call him out on his bullshit.

Jeff's mom is really cool. Her name is Pauline and she's not like Jeff at all (she was a cheerleader in high school). Despite their differences they love each other a lot. (Jeff's mom is actually heavily featured in one of the fics I wrote so I got her all fleshed out lmao)

He has two little twin sisters. They're friends with Erica, one of them is one of her friends we meet in the mall in s3. He has this typical hate-love relationship with his sisters: they fight a lot, but at the end of the day, he would die for them.

HE'S BISEXUAL

While he can't wait to get out of Hawkins and to a place that'll be more accepting of him, he doesn't want to move too far away from his family.

He's the most loyal friend in the world, 100% a ride-or-die kinda guy

While he does love metal a lot, his guilty pleasure is Tina Turner

Tell me all your Jeff headcanons i wanna hear more about him!

[snow-on-mtsilver]

ranting about my ex [1/2] (there's gonna be a lot of images)

OH BOY SO this person is going around twisting everything without context to make me seem like the bad guy so i'm gonna post a lot of things they have said or done

obviously not everything because i'm not going through all that(and can't jump to blocked messages and don't feel like unblocking just for this) but

gonna start with what started this situation in the first place: jealousy

the FIRST red flag that i should've seen

like??? okay???

but yknow i can brush it off, so i tell them they're allowed to join a server i LITERALLY invited a server to that THEIR IN and MODERATE

then almost two weeks later they're getting jealous over MY FRIEND (note i was also close to other people at this time)

and shock of all shocks: they get upset over matching profile pictures(?????)

which sure ok but like??? you can match platonically??? not to mention "with characters you ship and stuff", saying this to a multishipper, who ships anything non-problematic, also saying this about ANOTHER multishipper who ships anything non-problematic

even if i did something relating to shedletsky and 1x, i didn't know if their hate for shedletsky(for being shedletsky(a ragebaiter) would make them upset if me and azure matched smth like shedletsky and 1x

which like, there's not much we can do here

and with how... eh? the jokes we make can get(eh as in very suggestive), i wouldn't have felt comfortable matching something obviously platonic

then after that they mention this???? and it feels like they were expecting me to be jealous???? like????

i don't even know what to comment for this next part(/neu) but

so anyways at this point i'm getting tired of the constant back and forthing, but i can handle it

gonna step back from the jealousy real quick to mention something that REALLY set me off from them: complete lack of accepting our other at-the-time partner's boundary

for context: our other at-the-time partner doesn't like gore, so they didn't like a mod for a possible smp i suggested (saint suggested the mod)

i'm. gonna let the screenshots speak for themselves (note how saint only got pissy after our partner's headmate sided with me(it's a surprise tool that'll help us later /cj) (these screenshots are semi old but are from the 22nd)(will provide an image with a date after)

(i also have a feeling this is a good time to mention they're oddly obsessed with (fictional but still) flesh and cannibalism)

also please note about that last image that this SAME PERSON was so adamant about having a boundaries channel in public servers (including one with about 300 people)

since it's also on-topic (and also shows how little sense they make), they got upset that an EVEN MORE PUBLIC SERVER(WHICH IS LITERALLY A SERVER FOR A POKEMON-BASED ROBLOX GAME) didn't want them talking about whump (basically angst but physical torture) and then got EVEN MORE mad when they wouldn't add a boundaries channel???

anyways back to the main point they claimed I was "being aggressive"... as they're typing in all caps... after i mention how still begging for a mod that makes their own partner super uncomfortable isn't a good response

so at THIS point i'm getting pissed off, then later on they move to dms, now acting like I started the whole thing...

...then misreading/misinterpreting my response

(next screenshot provides the date) so me, getting pissed off atp, said this, then they claim i ignored THEIR feelings when they didn't care that i didn't feel comfortable having a mod i knew luna was uncomfortable with due to the gore

so i hit them with this

they then send a VOICE MESSAGE (i have mentioned multiple times my voice comprehension is shit and that i get uncomfortable with certain audible stuff)

at this point i'm crashing out in another server (i'm not gonna bother censoring my nickname because honestly i'm not feeling it)

anyways back to dms

so i send this in response

AND I KID YOU NOT (NOTE THAT ONE OF THEIR POINTS WAS "you're not listening" AS THEY THEN PROCEED TO SEND THAT)

the only other message after that from that situation was a voice message of them crying and saying "sorry" on repeat... again... completely ignoring everything i said

so anyways the next night i figure i really can't handle this anymore and sent this (for luna it was just what i said, but obviously i couldn't tell saint that it wasn't just that for them)

which like sure the last two messages are fine

but the first two???? "it didn't really seem like you were acting like yourself" then only mentioning GLITCHY (i feel like stubborn(yknow a prosecutor) would've been a better one to mention but oh no just glitchy can only mention one headmate to make it seem like it's a rare occurrence for me to be super pissed off at something

HOWEVER

I BRING UP THIS BREAKUP FOR A GOOD REASON

THEY COULD NOT HANDLE IT (ALSO SEMI-BACK TO JEALOUSY(AND BACK TO PREVIOUS SCREENSHOTS)

LIKE??? VRO??? "i think i wouldve preferred to keep a delusion that you still loved me" "because i just don't think i can handle it" ????????????????????????????? VRO???????????????????????????????? THAT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU SAY TO SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T FEEL ROMANTIC FEELINGS FOR YOU ANYMORE????

SO, I TRY EXPLAINING THE BEST I CAN WHILE ALSO BEING HONEST ABOUT WHAT WILL SPLIT US APART(also another thing to date this)

(again unsure of what to say for this other than this is just more proof of them being clingy and obsessive(specifically the "pls don't forget about me" message) (for more context this was the same day and they wanted me to watch an unfortunate series of events(?) so when we finished the 2 episodes we said we were gonna watch i said this when they asked if i wanted to do something else)

(FUCKKKK I GOTTA MAKE ANOTHER POST)

[packingpest]

Making this post from the hearts of me and my friends and their friends who like Rhythm Heaven here on Tumblr and Instagram

TANGOTRONIC FANS SHUT UP.

NOT EVERYTHING IS ABOUT THEM.

I HAVE TALKED TO A LOT OF RHYTHM HEAVEN FANS IN MY TIME, SOME GREAT AND SOME QUESTIONABLE. BUT YOU TANGOTRONIC FANS.

NEED TO BE PUT.

ON A LEASH.

I WAS FRIENDS WITH ONE ON INSTAGRAM. All they ever dmed me?

"YOU WANNA SEE THIS TANGOTRONIC ART?"

"*SENDS RANDOM FANARTS ANYWAY*"

"WANNA SEE THIS TANGOTRONIC STORY?"

"WANNA HEAR ABOUT TANGOTRONIC?"

NO WE DON'T.

IT WAS GREAT THE FIRST WEEK. OKAY THE NEXT. THEN I GOT TIRED. AND NOW I SEE MY FRIENDS GETTING BOTHERED TO HELL? WE ARE TIRED OF IT. If it was just me I could live but the fact it's not just this one person to me, it's multiple people to everyone.

I like Tangotronic3000 as much as the next guy, but YOU PEOPLE ARE TOO INCONSIDERATE. YOU SPAM THE FEEDS AND DMS WITH SO MUCH. I COULD BE HAVING THE WORST DAY EVER AND I CHECK MY ONLY DM TO SEE "HEY LOOK AT THIS TANGOTRONIC HEADCANON" SHUT. UP. AND STOP SPAMMING THE FUCKING ASK BOXES WITH IT.

IT'S NOT BECAUSE OF TANGOTRONIC EITHER, ITS JUST THAT EVERY TIME ANY OF YALL SPEAK ITS ABOUT TANGOTRONIC. NOT A HI, NOT A HELLO, FUCK, I BET YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW MY NAME OTHER THAN PACKINGPESTS. IT'S NICE IN MODERATION, BUT NOT EVERY FIVE SECONDS.

I leave them on read so many times for so long to no avail. I wake up to a tangotronic message. STOP IT. PLEASE. ALMOST EVERY RHYTHM HEAVEN MUTUAL OF MINE I'M CLOSE WITH IS SOMEWHERE BOTHERED (I have about 8, some ive actively had rant to me about them and a few ive just seen mention it once so far [Across a few platforms]). I have some that are just like, "Ehh, yeah it's annoying, but let them do what they want," then on the other side I have someone sending me "GOD FUCKING DAMNIT ALL MY FEED IS IS STOLEN TANGOTRONIC ART." Me personally I am at a 7 out of 10 on the annoyed scale.

Stop making everything about your niche game. I love talking about manzai birds or packing pests or munchy monk, but I don't make it a life style, and I especially wouldn't make it a lifestyle 1 to 1. An account about it? Sure, whatever, but god please make a group chat for y'all, you have each other to talk to who actually want to 24/7 eat sleep breathe tangotronic, some of us don't. Some of us don't have the heart to tell you, but thank God that ain't me. I've already blocked a few, but some remain, so if you see this, take fucking note.

CALM. THE FUCK. DOWN.

This was posted as of them being rabid and off the leash, if they are now, then hallelujah

This post is made up of 80% the rage of my friend Curtis who is at like a 11/10 in Tangotronic hatred and I didn't want him to feel like the only one so if you got a problem with it you fight me not him I love arguing

[ztarvokwrites]

why i don't post to tumblr anymore.

hello. i'm sure you're all wondering why i'm no longer posting to ztarvokwrites, ztarvok, or any other of my side blogs relating to or containing one piece related content.

it's because i no longer feel welcomed in the one piece tumblr community.

i'm going to be cold and honest. currently, i refuse to post here. all i get are likes nowadays, my inbox is empty, and it seems nobody gives a shit about oc x canon — which is a topic that makes me incredibly happy.

"but star, you seemed to be doing fine! you even collaborated with a bunch of people to make one blog right?"

yes. when i had tumblr mutuals who i considered my friends. where have they gone now? how am i supposed to know that — most of them have me blocked. that's another reason as to why i no longer feel welcomed here.

allow me to be uncharacteristically bitter as i describe exactly how i felt when i found out that i was pretty much abandoned;

it was the beginning of this year i think when i discovered that the discord server we were all in had disappeared from my list. i got confused, so i went to my friends list only to find that one of them had remained my friend on discord. one. when i clicked on their profile, we had no mutual servers, meaning i was either kicked or banned.

i was confused. did i do something to warrant that? as much as i wanted to ask that person, i knew that they most likely wouldn't respond or try to be all nice and dimmer down what the reasoning was.

i go to another one of them still in my dms list and hesitate for a bit before trying to react to one of their messages.

the reaction disappears immediately.

all those other people in that server have me blocked on discord and i have no idea why to this day. about the one person that kept me on their friends list; i took it upon myself to remove them as a friend.

all this took me into a spiral, my body just going through the motions as i went to work but going home in a mood because just why?? what the fuck did i do??

instead of blocking me and kicking me out of a server next time, TALK TO ME. TELL ME WHAT I DID SO I CAN MAKE THINGS RIGHT AND REMOVE MYSELF.

these people were my friends for TWO OR THREE WHOLE YEARS and they block me just like that? no prior warning or anything just "hey let's block star and never talk to them again!"

sorry. for whatever i did i'm sorry.

don't go attacking anyone if you find out who they are. don't go finding them. i just wanted to rant.

my inbox will still be open. my posts will still be up. my masterlist will be here.

this post will have tags. not because i want them to see this, but because i'm sick and tired of screaming into the void or making something i'm proud of only for it to flop.

if you want to see me post, here is my linktree. it has my socials on it.

and to my old tumblr friends; i sincerely wish you all the best and i hope life treats you well. i'll be logging out of library-of-ohara. i think it's best we continue forgetting about each other.

thank you for reading, and i love you all <3

- star/ztarvokwrites

[epickiya722]

I do not know if it was you, or another blogger that made a character analysis of Gojo that made me like the character and discover more about him through the manga.

While I never read the manga before or watched the anime, I had been exposed to it by my friends and some BNHA bloggers. Back then, I found Gojo to be overhyped (discount Kakashi) while liking the animation(?) style, bit still no interest.

BNHA and its Endeavour Redemption arc in the doing was tiring me to the point that I stopped reading it and manga altogether. For mayne six months or so, until now, at least. I randomly found your blog last week , and it got me a new hyper fixation 😃. You got me to start reading JJK (Megan cos playing also helps).

I bought Number 0 and Number 1 of the mangas. Only to remember midway in Number 0 that Walmart Kakashi will be snapped in two like a Kit Kat🥲. I saw that leak in one of the BNHA blogs, and I didn't mind it back then since I wasn't in the fandom, but Lord, now it sucks.

Anyways, all this long rant to say that I like reading your posts.

Gojo, rest in pain, I guess?

Probably was someone else, I don't write much analysis posts about Gojo. I think once or twice I did, I can't recall. Probably reblogged one though you saw!

I don't know, they're really just two different characters to me. Also... I was never really an active reader or watcher of Naruto like that (just very familiar) so when I first saw Gojo, Kakashi didn't register to me at all.

Like, I did not get similar vibes at all. And it actually annoys me that people will be like "He copied Kakashi's flow"! Kakashi ain't the only white haired, face covering character out there with magical eyes, y'all stop. 😆

Even funnier when, by this point, Gojo has probably been unmasked more than he has been wearing something on his face and switches up what he puts on his face. Kakashi been wearing the same mask for...? Also, didn't it take years for Kakashi's whole face to be shown or something? Took like seven episodes for Gojo to show that face.

**

I always been a fan of Megan's music and then when I found out she was into anime I was like "YYYYYEEEEEAAAAH". She cosplayed as Miruko one Halloween and it made my year. I am a former believer that Miruko would vibe to her music.

Just seeing other Black women being unapologetic fans of anime (or anything) does wonders for me and I hate it when people act as if it's such a foreign idea to understand. Honey, we can have interests, too, like everyone else. It's normal.

**

I always try to be careful about spoilers for anything I'm into. Like, I can talk about a chapter that happened two years ago, but I'll still mark as a spoiler because I know some people don't read Mangas or even if they do haven't caught up to that specific part.

That actually what set me off when Usher cosplayed as Gojo because he literally put "rest in peace, Gojo" or something along those lines and the amount of people who weren't even aware of 236... like bro, come on.

I knew it just had to be a marketing tactic because I know damn well Usher ain't seen JJK a day in his life and how convenient it is he comes out with that cosplay around the time when "Daddy's Home" becomes a fairly popular song used in Gojo's edits. I can't go watching one video on YouTube without hearing that song play when Gojo pops up. And even if he has... WHY WOULD YOU TAG IT LIKE THAT?!

Oh, but Megan definitely doesn't know any of the characters she be cosplaying, alright... okay... 🙄

I'm just going off on a whole tangent here, I apologize for that. I've been sick for like three days and just woke up from a nap. 😅

**

Also, thank you! Glad you enjoy my posts!! Anytime anyone says they like reading my posts, I still get shocked. They're really are just random thoughts I been having and really I'm still learning grasping the characters and story myself. And this is just for any. I don't even for them to get read, let alone for anyone to actually agree with me. I guess because, at the end of the day, I really just needed to throw a thought out there before I lose it or keep rethinking about it over and over.

[fersauce47]

I'm stuck inside my house again =/

If you'd have told me a month ago that I'd still be inside my home ranting on Tumblr, I would have told you to leave me alone. I may be a mess, sorry for being gone. But I'm back now and I made you some posts! =D What a beautiful day to be inside ranting on my PC.

First off, the world is changing. There's a lot going on, from the (not so) recent election to all the TikTok drama I won't mention by name, to the global warming, and to the lack of new music from my favorite artists like Bo Burnham.

The world is so fucked up. It needs direction from someone like me... a white man who has little problems. There's only one thing I can do, (While getting attention) and it's tell jokes. So if you start to panic, don't. Come to my page to see my jokes!

I got this idea while I was on the phone with my mom earlier. We were on the phone, she was talking about nonsense the season 6 finale of The Blacklist, while simultaneously covering the camera with her thumb and holding the phone 6 inches from her face.

When I was a sophomore, I took AP World. My teacher would always dumb down and white wash history, telling us that everything was great and the world works by every creature giving what they can and taking what they need. But no, the real world is a lot more messy. It's full of genocide/exploitation of minorities, and protects the interests of the top 1%. Sorry for being dark.

Why do you see the same things on every millennial white woman's Instagram? Golden retrievers, cheesy poems in the sand, bible verses, latte foam art, etc. Can we switch it up a bit?

What's the deal with these internships? Sorting papers, running around, sitting in a meeting room acting like you aren't there, and getting coffee for everyone? I should just go back to living with my parents.

It'd suck if Bezos joined Muskrat's group of friends. We need at least ONE billionaire who isn't THAT fucked up.

Have you ever done what they call sexting? Me and my gf did last night bc I'm out of town. They say it's just like regular sex, but no, it wasn't. Emoticons cant give me a bj. =[

I'm just trying to be funny. I've been stuck in my room for a while now, and I'm starting to wonder if being funny while trapped in the same room is even possible...

Some of my jokes might be problematic. But at least they aren't bad as my old YouTube channel, that'd be a yikes.

Guys... I'm officially unc status. I turn 20 in a couple weeks, and I CANNOT deal with allat. I used to wake up with a smile and ride my bike through people's yards, but now I'm gonna be the old man yelling at all the kids for doing exactly that.

Are these jokes okay? Are you tired of them? Too many? Too little? Nevermind, I'd prefer not to know.

How are you guys feeling today? I'm still in my house, I feel like shit.

You know, I don't think I'm alright. I'm approaching an ATL. (that's an "all time low" not Atlanta)

While you're here, welcome to Tumblr! If nothing interests you here, you'd be the first! Just nod or shake your head and we'll do the rest! Be happy, be horny, be crying at rage bait, there's a million different ways to engage. Hope you enjoy!

MAN FUCK BEZOS

Although Tumblr is fun, a lot of things on here give me that funny feeling. Like all the people who preach about Tumblr being a "dead site" and how they wish there were more people here, and then turning around and saying they like the community. Pick a side!

Did you really make it this far? Damn, didn't know I'd have so many eyes on me.

I'm pretty much done here, I'm out of jokes. But do I really have to finish? Does returning usually feel like this? So this is how it ends... If I can chase this high for any longer, I'll promise to never go outside again.

Here's a fun idea: How about I go scrolling and watch YOU rant next time? I wanna hear you tell a joke to an empty text box.

Am I going crazy? Would I even know? Am I gonna end up right back where I started? Fuck this, I'm over it. I'm not leaving my house, I'll rot here. I'm panicking... is there anyone's page I can go to for a joke?

This post will end any day now... I swear...

[caxycreations]

I think I'm done here.

I tried the tumblr thing. I put effort into the tumblr thing. I tried making connections and tried making friends and tried networking and publicity and venting and ranting and talking about my work with all the pride I had left

And it didn't amount to anything, in the end.

My work means so little.

I have a few friends who support it.

But they don't talk with me about my work much anymore, if at all, and it's become little more than a "oh yeah they do that" in their minds.

It's so incredibly impossible to want to work on something that so few people give such little of a shit about. And to add insult to injury, I know for a fact people are seeing my work and just ignoring it.

The top one, Snippets. 88 hits, 7 kudos, all 7 of which are from friends I specifically asked to read it.

Middle, my main WIP and the pride and joy of my creations, 587 hits, 37 kudos, 23 of which are from people I directly asked to read it, 9 of which said they weren't a fan but "wanted to support the idea".

Bottom, my nsfw stories, 354 hits, 8 kudos, all of which are people I directly asked to read it.

And those comments on them all?

Most of those are by the same 3-4 people, all of them being friends of mine that were asked to read the work.

When I do post here, about my work, I get little to no engagement at all. A like here or there from a friend or two. No comments. No questions. No headcanons or interest or intrigue.

And when I've tried to branch out, tried going to discords, it's the same. My friends support it, but it's such little interaction outside of mild comments about it being mildly interesting, and never from those outside my friend circle.

Now I'm on bluesky and it was supposed to be better. But it isn't.

So many likes. Only friends repost. And nobody wants my work. Nobody there has interest in my story. Nobody there has interest in my work.

And the interaction is only there when I ask about theirs. They don't want to know anything about mine, and get so disinterested the second it's brought up, no matter how naturally the subject arrives.

So

Yeah, I think I'm just

done with tumblr for now

Maybe for good

Cause it's just one more website making me want to fucking die.

Even the person I trusted most on here, the person I looked to for help and advice and aid, the person I've known longer than anyone I talk to these days, seems to have abandoned me.

She's never there. Never responds. Never has anything to say to me.

Even when she posts, my DMs go unanswered.

Fuck me I guess.

And for the record, if you're one of the friends who's been actively supportive of me and my work, please don't take this as being unappreciative of what you do for me. You're the only reasons I've made it as long as I have, and you're the only reasons this book will ever be finished.

I'm just tired of putting energy into spaces like this, where I'm given absolutely nothing for my work besides the deep, uncaring silence that I've grown so tired of.

To those who have actually supported me, and taken the time to actually read what I have to offer

Thank you

Y'all are the only reason I'll ever finish the book

Y'all are the only reason it got to the point it's at now

Y'all mean the world to me

Goodbye.

[ezra-editss]

"Dean doesn't reciprocate" MY ASS

I'm just kinda gonna write down my thoughts about this. I'm in season 7 now, I know what happens in the very last episode, but nothing else so I don't read any posts about the show here yet :) (just so yk and don't accidentally spoiler me) Oh and I do this mostly out of memory and some notes that I took, so this might be a little chaotic :,)

Okay, so the whole season 6 fight was crazy to me. The way Cas was watching while Dean kept on defending him. And he knew how much Dean trusted him. ("The worst part was Dean. He was trying so hard to be loyal, with every instinct telling him otherwise.") It hurt him, but the whole time he was, again, protecting Dean. And yes, he hurt Dean, but I think it was as bad for Cas to hurt Dean, as for Dean to be hurt.

Then, Dean apologizing for the others? They (thought they) were wrong and Dean had kept on trusting Cas, so why was it him who apologized? Because he knew it meant more to Cas when he did it? Idk.

Cas wasn't able to lie when he looked in Dean's eyes.. come on? Also, the fact Dean wasn't actually mad when he found out was really interesting. He was just extremely sad. Yes, his trust got broken and maybe he was just tired of it all, but it didn't seem like that to me, I felt like he usually got madder.

I love how they always share those sad looks when they go apart after the fights btw, such a best buddys thing to do.

It was really hard for both of them. We can see that Dean can't sleep that night and that Cas comes back to talk to him alone, because it only matters to him that Dean understands.

Oh and the "I'm doing this for you, Dean." I don't even need to explain his motives, because he reveals them himself.

Then the scene from my edit. (at the top) (it's kinda laggy, bc it's slow-motion, but anyways) They both have teary eyes a lot, but this is different. Dean turns aways because he knows he's gonna cry and Cas disappears before he really starts crying, but they are both fuckin crying about this. They're both just sad and want this to end. Even when Dean said he's gonna stop him and so on, it was way less threatening than usually. And Cas kept coming back when Dean was in danger.

But Dean still cared as well. In the first episode of season 7, when Cas asks for help, he pretends he doesn't care about him anymore for a bit, but you can clearly see that he still does. You at least can see it when he thinks Cas is dead. He's devastated.

It's kinda funny how Bobby's there but Cas very obviously only cares to make it up to Dean. Like he always says "they're my friends" but in reality he means Dean.

AND THEN.. Cas tries to protect everyone else again and sends them away but DEAN STAYS. I think he knew that there wouldn't be anything he could do, but it didn't matter.

Cas dies again. (give my man a break, please) Dean keeps the god damn coat? I think he might've done it, because he was hoping that Cas would come back again. Anyways, scene was devastating.

In the judge/court episode about Dean's guilt, I immediately hoped Dean didn't feel guilty about Cas too, but was pretty sure he did. My worries were confirmed in episode 5.

So yeah, I suppose that's the part where I am, I guess I have to wait 'till Cas comes back now :,)

I don't think anyone read all this, but I hope I didn't make any grammar mistakes, bc English isn't my first language, so I sometimes get stuff mixed up (I definitely made the tenses confusing). Anyways, rant end.