#my first time crying for a video game ♥

[lulu2992]

They keep doing it and it gets me every time.

[perotovar]

get to know me tag ♥

tagged by the lovely @pascalpvnk thank you, honey!! <3

1. Were you named after anyone?

technically, yes? my parents had a ton of boy names picked out, but no girl names (this is funny to me now as someone that falls into the genderqueer/nonbinary camp) but my mom was working in the electronics department at fred meyer in the mid 90s and a customer came in with the name "erin" and she was reminded of erin moran from happy days and she went "i've always liked that name" and here i am lmao

2. When was the last time you cried?

uhhh i think a tiktok made me cry a few nights ago lol

3. Do you have kids?

(did i have to do all that for an answer? no, but i did)

i'd be down for being a different kind of daddy tho 😉😌

4. What sports do you play/have played?

i played softball for a little bit but i got bullied pretty hard so i stopped. i discovered music a couple years later tho so it worked out in the end

5. Do you use sarcasm?

clearly we've never met if you're asking lmao

6. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

eyes/faces

7. What’s your eye color?

blue/grey

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

9. Any talents?

i've been playing the violin (inconsistently) for 20 years, does that count?

10. Where were you born?

washington state

11. What are your hobbies?

video games, making gifs, and reading fanfiction

12. Do you have any pets?

yes, my little psycho baby cat, tilly

13. How tall are you?

5’2"

14. Favorite subject in school?

well, i'm currently in school and so far my favorite classes have been orchestra, human sexuality, and history of the far east. my current astronomy and humanities classes are pretty cool too!

15. Dream job?

growing up, it was to tour in a band, but now it's to be a part of a symphony that makes score music for movies and/or video games

np tags: @sp00kymulderr @undercoverpena @mrsmando @kedsandtubesocks @for-a-longlongtime @chronically-ghosted @deathwife @qveerthe0ry @5oh5 @covetyou @userparamore and anyone else that wants to <3

[ocheeva]

5 Favourite Characters Poll (Tag Game)

i was tagged by @pangzi @melodious-tear and @psychic-waffles ♥♥♥

picking characters was pretty easy actually, i know exactly who i love most. the only hard thing was picking between xiao hua, shen qingqiu, and himemiya anthy but i ended up going with my bestie ♥

Rules: make a poll with five of your all time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favourite.

Tagging: @astrangedoor @lealdog @mishikaiya @jauffre & @margomadisons uwu

propaganda under the cut, not a formal part of the game but i love talking about these bitches!

commander shepard made me who i am and i'm not joking. i'm always a hoe for duty-bound characters and she is such a perfect example of what makes me love a character like that. she's also someone i roleplayed for years, i met some of my oldest friends & my soul sister because of her (thirteen years in august!) and when i need to stand up for myself or others with people i don't know i still model my approach on her, as well as a myriad other interactions (due to the autism it's easier to ask 'what would shepard do?' than to make something up). she means the WORLD to me!!

nie huaisang charmed me when a friend played a character based off him in a d&d oneshot and went on to become my favourite character in one of my favourite books. i'm deep into chinese literature and drama because of this little man. he was a gateway drug to SO many experiences, I've read ancient erotica and poetry because of him + gained a deeper understanding of chinese history and culture. and a bitch loves learning! but he's also just a character who gets to me in a really special way. he means things to me i can't even express. what a guy. god.

captain janeway came into my life when i was thirteen and star trek: voyager was on tv on some weeknight, and i was bewitched. my mother enjoyed it and i would sometimes join her, but after a while i barely could because janeway made me realise i was queer and i couldn't have those feelings when i felt unsafe and exposed. but, man, i never forgot her and i've rewatched voyager in its entirety twice as an adult. i'm overwhelmed every time. if she smiled at me and told me i'd be okay i actually believe i would. i love her. i've loved her for twenty-three years. loving her is such a core part of my personality it's ridiculous.

xie yuchen/xiao hua was mentioned to me when my didi and i talked about who i might get along with in the mess that is the dmbj franchise. among ridiculous claims, magnets that can affect time and your feelings, and snakes that can be used as video recorders thanks to their pheromones, he is a shining beacon of sensibility. he's been called 'competency porn made flesh' by more than one person for good reason. he's a big reason why i started watching terrible dramas and read terrible books but he makes every second SO worth it.

finally, estraven became a dear friend last july when i read tlhod. it was a slow read at first but around the halfway point i was suddenly rendered breathless; estraven as a character proved to be so much more than i expected. reading a single description of him by the main character brings tears to my eyes because he is so much. i'm crying a little just writing this! he's that same kind of duty-bound and loyal that makes me insane as shepard and janeway, and i'm so grateful he brought me across the gobrin ice. i left a piece of my heart there. i need to crochet a shawl dedicated to this book (and him) so i can wrap myself in my own feelings about it. the power of his nonbinary alien pussy is out of this world.

[bengesko]

15 Questions Game!

I was tagged by @decadentworld (Ty!! )

1: are you named after anyone?

Named myself after Nicolae Carpathia from Left Behind (just changed the spelling to be more Balkan to fit my last name. I chose it out of spite bc I loved the name as a kid, but my incubator told me "that name is EVIL, it's the same name as the Anti Christ!!!)

2: when was the last time you cried?

Uhhh.... Serious cry? I don't remember, but it was forced because I needed it. (I can't physically cry thanks to HRT- had to break out Land Before Time.)

3: do you have kids?

I have a ten year old step-daughter and I adore her ♥

4: what sports do you play/have played?

I did marching band in high school. Don't care if you don't consider it a sport; my high school's band was intense and we were so good, when we signed up for contests, other schools would back out.

5: do you use sarcasm?

50% of the time.

6: what's the first thing you notice about people?

Eyes- mostly because I'm trying to avoid eye contact.

7: what's your eye color?

Green ♥

8: scary movies or happy endings?

Both!

9: any talents?

I can play the flute and oboe, I like to think I'm somewhat decent at writing and drawing.

10: where were you born?

In the Southern foothills of Appalachia ♥

11: what are your hobbies?

Bone collecting, writing, drawing, video games.

12: do you have any pets?

A 35 year old cockatiel named Gino, and my partner has two Brussels Griffons named Callie and Maggie.

13: how tall are you?

5'1"

14: favorite subject in school?

Microbiology

15: dream job?

Honestly at this point, I'm too disabled by migraines for a "career," but I'm working on being a published author.

Tagging @nebulousmistress @thembohux @d0z0 @lindwurmkai @raverenn @voidsteeth @chilopodacrudus @corpsegods @thefoulbeast

[iamthecomet]

I found out today that my sister's mother-in-law got to see Ghost at a festival I think before Copia was Papa because she mentioned Rats. But now I'm crying again, like I keep thinking about concerts and stuff and it feels so stupid but it makes me so sad. And I feel bad because I keep wanting to talk about it to you know just get it out of my head but then I feel bad talking about it with people because I feel like I'm annoying them.

Sorry for the vent I just needed to at least say what I'm feeling to someone who understands it all, thank you for always listening to me by the way even if it is just random spurts of asks that I send you it means a lot to me 💜💜💜

I wanted to ask if you have any Copia headcannons at all or Phantom/Aeon they're the ones I've been obsessed with lately in writing, reading and everything else.

I spent most of the day with my sister and my friend though so I had a lot of fun today.

🕸️

♥♥♥♥ I'm sorry. It's totally fine and normal to be sad about it. And you can always come and vent to me about it. I don't mind, it doesn't annoy me. It's ok to need to get things out of your head, it's good to talk about shit instead of holding it. All that being said. Here's a handful of random headcanons I have about Aeon and Copia.♥

Aeon: -His skin sort of looks like the night sky. Complete with bright freckles that look a little like stars and lighter splotches that look like distance galaxies. -Maybe unpopular, but to me Aeon isn't shy necessarily. He's eager. Wants to fit in and be liked. He isn't overly confident at first (he's the new guy, come on) but gets that way quickly. -Outgoing. Friendly. Always happy to help even when other people don't want help. -Quint/Earth Hybrid. I don't know why--he just is. So, in line with my other headcanons this means he has one purple eye and one green one. -Much more in tune with his quintessence than earth. -So. much. energy. Where does he get it all? No one knows. Some of the other ghouls find him exhausting (in a lighthearted way) to watch.

Copia: -Closer with his ghouls than any other Papa. Very attached to them. Especially Mountain, Dew, and Aether. Who taught him literally everything he knows about the Ghost Project and ghouls, and honestly how to run the church. -Has a couple pet rats that he keeps in his room and takes very good care of. He is a very responsible pet owner, honestly. -Spends his downtime (what little he has) playing old video games, and trying to relax--which is harder than it should be. -Spends more time with his ghouls than the human members of the clergy. He feels safest with them--and accepted in a way he doesn't anywhere else. -Knows a lot more than he lets on. I think the "bumbling fool" personality is a ruse. He pays attention. -The brains behind all of the onstage costumes (including the ghouls) he has a taste for the opulent. And isn't afraid to spend the church's money to get what he wants.

[uselessmicrowave]

hihello could I possibly have a match up please? Continuity: MTMTE (Lost Light crew?) and/or TFP (Decepticons)

Appearance: very long curly hair! very soft, very bouncy, very thick, like a sheep!, skinny as a stick and physically weak, have a baby face and I hate it so much because I feel like no one takes me seriously-..don't know if any of this matters or helps-?

Personality: I’m generally a very quiet and reserved person, especially during first impressions! I’m kind of a shy and anxious lurking shadow who assumes the worst until I get a good enough feel of a person, you know? Then I'm comfortable popping in!

I tend to gravitate towards being "Designated Parent Friend" or "Big Sibling Friend?" I love being able to make others feel better about themselves or to help them out. Maybe it’s because of some rough stuff in my past, but I never want anyone to feel similar to the ways I have. If you hurt someone I care about, I am never going like you. I’m kind of..soft? I cry very easily, be it happy or sad, and it frustrates me! I’m not a soft and squishy person! ..okay yes I am but I’m also trying super hard to be the shoulder people can lean on if they need me! Growing a backbone is a work in progress, and sometimes I come off too harsh or mean when I actually use it.. A friend once described me like glass; it’s fragile, but a broken piece can still really mess you up, you know? Glass-ness aside, my sense of humor is honestly very dry and sarcastic and you probably wouldn’t expect it out of me! I can get kind of angry over petty things and sort of clingy, but I’ll be fine after some time to let it all pass.

I like playing videogames, drawing and writing, and reading tarot! I like doing things alone, really, but I love the company of others when they want me to join in. Because it does indeed get lonely being alone sometimes!

I have some really gross depression bouts and lots of anxiety disorders that I do my best to juggle, but, sometimes I just have to shut down for a bit and..sleep.

Values: Someone who can make me smile when I’m really having a hard time! I guess that sounds a little silly, but even something small to distract me from my thoughts is huge. Loyalty also? Admittedly I get kind of jealous and clingy when people I like hang around others too much..especially if I don’t like those others. I also really like um..acts of service I guess it is? Little things matter to me most!

NOPES: People who takes themselves too seriously. Disinterest/poking fun at in my hobbies..or insecurities. Being completely babied/not letting me try to grow. Making assumptions based on appearance or first impressions alone. Is this enough to work with? I just realized how much I wrote I'm so sorry- but um thanks again, you stay hydrated too! ♥

This is definitely enough to work with, thank you anon! I’ll be pairing you with MTMTE Swerve and TFP Breakdown!

Swerve

Your quietness in the very beginning of your relationship is probably a good thing because it gives him space to ramble.

He relates to you about the baby face appearance and your glass-ness, having some of the same experiences as you do seem to warm you up to him.

He loves your hair, he face-plants into love if you ask him to help you style or take care of it.

He thinks it’s so cool with the tarot card thing? He doesn’t know how it works but is totally supportive!

Swerve loves playing Earth video games with you, he prefers multiplayer games like animal crossing (new horizons) or even smash bros, but nothing too competitive.

You two will, without a doubt, eventually go on a double date with Tailgate and Cyclonus.

Swerve has his fair share of anxiety and he’ll take naps with you when you shut down.

If you drink alcohol, he will find a way to get some liquors that are safe to consume for you.

He has a snack supply under the bar for you but he doesn’t want you to think he’s babying you. He only reveals this to you when you admit you’re hungry.

Breakdown

This hunk is also very quiet towards the beginning of your relationship, which makes for a couple awkward moments

He’s also the ‘parent friend,’ so he’ll make jokes about having vehicon kids.

Your dry sarcastic sense of humor reminds him of Knockout, so you and the lead medic will interact a lot.

He, much like you, doesn’t like it when someone makes fun of appearance, hobbies, ect.. Not afraid to yell at a random vehicon that poked at your insecurities.

He tries his best not to baby you, but you’re just so very cute. He tries not to mention it but the baby fat on your face practically makes him have heart optics.

You’ll sit on his shoulder while he’s restocking medical kits or shelfs, that way he won’t get lonely. Breakdown loves it if you ask questions about the medical tools.

Your drawing and writing fascinates him. What kind of things are important enough for you to make art or write about it?

He’s definitely all for a stress nap with you, especially if you want to lay on his chassis.

Breakdown also values loyalty, but he won’t be spark broken if you decide to spend your time with Knockout instead of him. As long as you’re having fun.

This ^ hc above? Total lie. He’ll just say that to you, the poor bot won’t really have anyone to spend time with if you and KO are busy.

[endstation-sehnsucht]

pretending i got tagged by @hinamie like she said i can :D cause i'm bored at work hehe

tagging @outofmidgar and @charlythelee and @queenofwitchfuckery and @transtetia and everyone else who sees this and wants to do it! ♥

1. Are you named after anyone? my mum had a French penpal in highschool and like her name a lot! so that's why i have a French name :D

2. When was the last time you cried? *checks notes* apparently early April i saw a reel on insta featuring a scene from Digimon that made me cry. totally normal behaviour-

3. Do you have kids? only my plant children.

4. What sport have you played? i was really high up in the athletics (track and field) game as kid and teenager. i've also been horseback riding since i was six or seven.

5. Do you use sarcasm? not if i can help it. not a fan personally

6. What's the first thing you notice about other people? if people have a certain smell and how much i like it! i also tend to look at teeth for some reason.

7. Eye color? grey/blue

8. Scary movies or happy endings? honestly like all kinds of movies

9. Any talents? i can talk your ears off about things i'm passionate about if that counts? i draw sometimes too haha

10. Where were you born? northern Germany :3

11. Hobbies? drawing, playing pen & paper, video games, music (listening / singing / watching musicals or opera), reading, watching movies and anime.... yea.

12. Pets? i'm not home super much, so no. but i'd love to have a cat. one day...

13. How tall are you? 1.70m

14. Favorite subject in school? english probably, i also really enjoyed art class, physical education and philosophy!

15. Dream job? i work in an opera, so i'm already working my dream job!

[amberdablade]

💜💛🖤~Imagine~Yan!FnafCharacters React to You Having a Panic Attack~ 🖤💛💜

This one was actually fun to write Lol.

Me and my friend used a random Fnaf name generator to pick who would be staring in this wonderful headcannon, so if you're not satisfied with the characters...Sorry I tried. Blame it on the generator!

Shout out to my friend Rachel for writing out some of the personality headcanons for a few of these characters! Couldn't have done it without you bestie! <3

As always I hope ya'll enjoy!!!!

Requested by: Click to find out haha!

Funtime Freddy

♥ He would try his best not to panic and would do his best to comfort you.

♥ If you wanted to be left alone, he would make you as comfortable as possible. Gifting you a comfy place to sit/sleep. Lots of pillows and your favorite plushies would be provided (he might sneak a plush of himself in there as well).

♥ He would treat you like a younger sibling and make sure there are no dangerous things around you, such as needles, pieces of glass, screws, or anything that might make your panic attack worse.

♥ If you let him touch you, he would hug you or hold your hand. Bon-Bon (who’s usually jealous of you two) would feel bad and pat your head.

♥ If you cried during your panic attack, Freddy would probably start crying too. But he would try to cheer you up by pointing out random things and laughing at them (for example: pranking the other animatronics, making fun of other people, etc). 

"It'll be okay, d-don't worry! Bon-Bon go get Foxy!!!!"

Roxanne Wolf

♥ Would feel bad for you and probably blame herself for triggering you.

♥ If you were feeling up to it, she would race you at Roxy Raceway and let you win every time (she wouldn’t tell you that she rigged the game for your benefit). 

♥ If you wanted to be left alone, she would guard you and make sure no S.T.A.F.F. bots or other animatronics would come near you (protective af). 

♥ Afterward, she would pet your head and hug you telling you that she loves you and that you’re always safe with her.

♥ Would get absolutely furious at whatever triggered you if she found out later (whether it be Monty or a trash can, she will destroy whatever). If it was something she couldn’t attack (something that happened in the past and come back to haunt you), she would tell you how she would protect you from anything like that ever happening again.

"EVERYONE LEAVE THIS AREA! NO ONE COMES IN UNLESS I SAY SO. NO ONE GOES NEAR Y/N!"

Nightmare Foxy

♥ He would be clueless as to what to do.

♥ He would probably stand there and watch you until he eventually figured out you were having a panic attack.

♥ Foxy would try to make you feel better by awkwardly hugging you (he’s not very good at affection and showing his feelings). If that didn’t work he would disappear for a little while to ask the other Nightmares what to do.

♥ Might jump-scare you a few times to see if that will ‘scare’ your panic away.

♥ When that fails and you start crying/panicking more, he would apologize and quickly transform into his plush form for you to snuggle with.

♥ If he ever gets you to calm down, he would be extremely proud of himself and brag about it for days (however, the moment you have another panic attack, he will still be clueless about what to do).

"Sorry, lass, I didn't mean to scare ye."

Lolbit

♥ Would at first think you’re just trying to be funny until they realize you're actually freaking out.

♥ They would start talking a lot out of fear and start making dark jokes every couple of seconds to see if that would take your mind off of your panic.

♥ When that doesn’t work, they would convince you to play video games with them since it would “take your mind off of the problem.”

♥ If all else fails, they will start pranking other animatronics and making less dark jokes hoping you would laugh at them and feel better.

♥ Once you start feeling better again, they will hug you and tell you that you did amazing and that they’re proud of you for how far you’ve come. 

"Oh. O-oh my! I-It's okay, it's okay! O-Oh dear what w-will I do! U-uh... w-why did the c-chicken cross the r-road??"

Lefty

♥ Completely understand what you’re going through and knows how to deal with it.

♥ They first ask you if you’d like affection or if you’d prefer to be alone.

♥ If you want affection, they would comfort you and tell you that everything will be okay. If you like eating, they would make a full pizza for the two of you to share. If you liked playing video games, they’d pull out your favorite one and watch you play (they would eventually play with you if the game had a multiplayer mode).

♥ If you wanted to be left alone, Lefty would leave the room but keep an eye on you through the vents to make sure you were okay.

♥ When the episode is over, they will reassure you that everything is okay and that you are always safe with them.

"It's okay, I promise this won't last forever. Just try your best to be strong, my darling."

Toy Chica

♥ The moment you start acting off she clears the area of any animatronics and starts bringing you your favorite comfort items.

♥ She would be very motherly to you and know exactly what to do when the time comes.

♥ Want to be left alone? Don’t you worry, as long as you have water and some pillows/blankets with you, you can be alone for however long you want.

♥ If you let her, she’d give you her cupcake, Carl, to keep for a bit to comfort you (yes, you are allowed to pet him and kiss him).

♥ Constantly checks in on you and gives you hugs and kisses if you’d want.

♥ Afterward, she’d bake multiple pizzas for the two of you to eat and enjoy.

"Don't you worry, chickadee! Mama Chica has everything you need to feel better, I promise!" 

Toxic Springtrap (Joke for my friend, don’t kill me!)

♥ He would see you having a panic attack and simply shrug it off.

♥ If you continuously have them, he might start to feel bad and eventually cook your favorite food for you (Whatever you do, don’t eat it! It’s probably infected and it might kill you, or at least give you stomach pains for a few weeks).

♥ He might try to hug you, but his toxicity might burn your skin and infect you with his evilness (and diseases).

♥ If you wanted to be left alone, he would go into the next room and cough his heart out (You probably shouldn’t go in there after you feel better, the air might be infected).

♥ His clumsiness is probably the only thing that would make you feel better.

♥ In the end, once you're okay, he would say you were faking it and laugh at you for being weak (his saliva would burn your skin as he laughs and spits everywhere). 

"COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH. Your fine get used to it- COUGH COUGH COUGH *diseases get spread*"

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Lmao, sorry about the Toxic Springtrap joke, my friend and I love to make fun of the infamous William Afton...

[epaetaeya]

15 questions + 15 friends thanks for tagging me @betweentimes! :3

Are you named after anyone?

not that I know, no. But my second name is my aunt's / godmother's name.

2. When was the last time you cried?

like full crying.... don't remember, either in november or december last year

3. Do you have kids?

nope

4. What sports do you play/have you played?

as a child I used to do taekwondo and horse riding, in high school i did swimming, now i don't do anything anymore lol

5. Do you use sarcasm?

sometimes! the past couple times didn't work as intended, so I'm trying to tone it down.

6. What is the first thing you notice about people?

how do i say... "vibe" but in not an "I'm chronically online"-way? Some people just seem really nice and kind and like i'd want to get to know them better, and some... don't? that's not even based on what they look like or how they behave, they could just stand there.

7. What is your eye color?

brown! sometimes a bit of green shines through but it's mostly brown

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

scary movies!! currently trying to catch up on all the classics I never watched haha

9. Any talents?

ehhhh... i don't think so, tbh.

10. Where were you born?

in the good ol' south (of germany)

11. What are your hobbys?

video games! reading! writing (occasionally... and never showing anyone)! wasting my time on social media!

12. Do you have any pets?

YES a kitty!! and i still consider my mom's dog mine, haha. he's family!

13. How tall are you?

1,72/73-ish

14. Favorite subject in school?

that was definitely English :D

15. Dream job?

working with international students at universities!

if you want feel free to do it too! @kanayagf @no2da @mage-of-time - and anyone who sees this and wants to share, of course!! And of course only if you want to! No pressure! ♥

[ayakoito]

24. your first RPC 25. your character 26. another active muse 27. an old muse 28. your first muse 29. blocking 30. your choice!

24. your first RPC - On here? I used to only ever roleplay with one person at a time in some sort of forum or with my sister in MS Word/MSN lol

25. your character - You mean Aya? I mean she was the first character I created especially to play on here in 2016 and so far I really like her and her attitude! 😂 I've wanted a character who is strong, tough and female so I did her and I still wish I could be like her. She's a role model!

26. another active muse - Of mine? Okay, my second muse was Matthew (@rxcklessdxvotion) and he is highly inspired by the character of Vaas Montenegro. Like a reckless asshole you want to punch in the face all the time but who's also hot af haha. Most of the time he's the most difficult person for me to play but sometimes he can be so easy since he doesn't care about anything 😂 With him I have the fewest partners to play, because he can be really problematic and therefore I also understand when people turn away from.

27. an old muse - Before I came up with Ayako, Matthew and Lian as OCs I only ever played canon characters, mostly from video games. For example: Riku and Roxas (Kingdom Hearts), Altaïr (Assassin's Creed), Jason (Far Cry), Markus (Detroit: Become Human) and so on. Okay, only once I had a rp with my sister where I played an OC called Lian, but he was a bit different from my Lian now

28. your first muse - The first character I ever played in rp? Tbh I can't remember. It was either the first Lian I already talked about or some canon character!

29. blocking - I try to avoid hard blocking and do soft blocking instead. One exception are p0rn/spam blogs, they deserve a hard block! I soft block people only using me as their aes / ask meme resource and people who deleted / moved blogs so I don't have any "ghosts" following me.

30. your choice! - Hm... I don't know if this is for you to choose something different for me to talk about but if it's meant for me: I really really really enjoy being here and chat and rp with you people! It's such a great time ♥

[simstomaggie]

15 Questions for 15 Mutuals

I was tagged by my dear friends @theroyalthornoliachronicles, @historicalfictionsims and @kyriat-sims ♥♥

Are you named after anyone? My parents named me after the 2nd wife of Johann Sebastian Bach, Anna Magdalena Bach. They're both big fans of classical music, of Bach specifically, but they also really liked the name. Originally they wanted to call me Anna Magdalena, but they thought people would only call me Anna then, so it's just Magdalena today ;)

When was the last time you cried? I cry all. the. time. i think the last time was this afternoon when I saw a cute animal video on twitter. i'm a terrible cry baby, but i'll be fine after 30 seconds :D

Do you have kids? Just my two fur babies.

Do you use sarcasm a lot? Nooooo. Never. Who does that?!

What sports do you play/have you played? When I was a kid, I was in a dance group; I'm not sure what the proper name would be (we called it Jazz Dance, but it wasn't what Jazz Dance is to most people). We rehearsed dance performances that our teacher put together, loosely inspired by music video dancing in the early 2000s. I also played Handball (european handball that is!) for a while, and I'm still a fan of watching it.

What’s the first thing you notice about other people? Just vibes, mostly. There's not a physical thing that I notice most, but I usually can tell if a person is nice or not, or if i'll like them or not. i'm usually right about it, but of course... not always.

Eye colour? Green!

Scary movies or happy endings? I like both. I don't mind being scared. But for action movies, comedies, romance movies, dramas etc, i want happy endings. the world is bad enough, i don't need people to suffer just like that on my tv.

Any special talents? Literally none.

Where were you born? Germany!

What are your hobbies? The Sims, playing video games overall, making cc, reading, listening to and making music, but most of the time, i just hang out with my cats.

Do you have any pets? I have two cats: Woody (a long haired Maine Coon Mix, with heart disease) and Tigger (a short haired black cat, breed unknown) who likes to bite. Their previous owner mistreated them rather badly, so I'm spoiling them as much as i can.

How tall are you? As I read just yesterday, the same height as Nick Jonas!

Favourite subject in school? English ;)

Dream job? I used to want to be a reporter for TV news, or involved in that somehow; my dream would have been to report on US-politics. But when I interned at a tv station, it was so god awful that I decided to drop that dream. I love the job I have now in tourism, but it doesn't make near enough money to support myself 100%; if it did, it would probably be my dream job. oh well.

Since i think everyone on my timeline has already done it, please feel tagged if you haven't and would like to answer some questions!

♥

[saigonharrington]

Movies - Steve Harrington fanfic

word count: 2,3k category: fluff/angst warnings: cursing, crying

and a couple of old movies' references

i'm actually scared how quicky I wrote it and how emotional i was during some of the moments. enjoy! and don't forget to reblog as it helps me grow ♥ -> want to request something? <--> have an idea for the next superache fanfic? <-

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Working at Family Video quickly became a boring, mundane task for Steve. The only things excluded from the routine were his conversations with Robin. As the days flew by, they felt like they overshared a lot and created way too many weird games to keep themselves busy. But Steve had something, or rather someone else in his mind that made him busy. He started to space out a lot since the first day he saw you at his workplace. To say he was head over heels with you was an understatement. The boy became obsessed quickly, hearing how you talked to yourself while picking movies.

He either was too stunned to speak around you or said the most stupid things ever, only embarassing himself again and again.

"Hey Dingus, whatcha doin?" Robin approached him while he was trying to sort films on the shelves. "Your girl hasn't been here in ages, when do you think she's gonna come?"

"That's not my girl" He replied confused and afraid that you might ener the door right now and hear everything.

"Well it's the only girl beside me that you talk to lately. Where did your womanizer attitude go? All the girls from the Hawkins are waiting. Oh wait, half of them has already reject you."

"Hey! That was rude. I'm just too busy for dates. I have things to do, I have a job, kids that need to be taken care of. You know, usual stuff."

"I think there's still space for a girlfriend. You just need to think before you start opening that stupid mouth of yours."

"Thank's for the advice Robin. I'm obviously gonna listen to you becouse you are the romance expert and have a girlf... oh wait. You don't"

"Don't come at me! I just want to help. What do we know about... what's her name again?

"Y/N. Isn't it beautiful? I swear I haven't heard of anyone with that name from here. She's extraordinary."

"Yeah yeah okay. Let's start with simple things that we can figure out. What genre of movies is she into?"

Steve was a little embarassed, but he went to the counter and pulled out a little piece of paper. "I actually keep a list of the movies she rented..."

"You psycho! That's a bit too much of an obsession. Cute, but also TOO MUCH. So, what did she watch lately?" Robin seemed to change her attitude every ten seconds, but she wanted to be the best wing(wo)man to her best friend. Robin took the list and started analysing it.

"Y/N movies list:

"Grease" "Annie Hall" "Harold and Maude" "Breakfast at Tiffany's" "The shop around the corner" "His girl Friday" "Roman holiday" "What's up, Doc?"

"I've been meaning to watch them but it's so hard to watch every single one..." Steve felt the urge to explain himself as the Robin kept staring at the list

"Your girl slash not your girl is a cheesy romantic comedies enjoyer. I think you're fucked up, you're never gonna meet her expectations. Girl has standards, that's what she has. Well, good luck."

"I know, I'm trying. I enjoyed some of them. But every time I try to reference them and compliment her choices it feels like I'm making fun of her and the films. What's wrong with me?"

"That's a whole different story, dingus. Oh look! Here she comes! Alone! It's your time to shine." Robin patted Steve's arm and took a couple of casettes from the shelf to try to look busy and unbothered by your incoming. "Steve, go to her. Recommend her something." She whispered, making sure you can't hear it.

"I'm going. I'm gone, yeah yeah."

"You need to actually move. Do you want me to push you and force you to talk to her? It's going to look awkward. Here I go, your last chance before I'm gonna embarass you."

"Fine, I'm going."

Steve approached you quietly without saying anything. He tried to rehearse his speech in his head, but your silent soliloquy made it hard for him to focus.

"Looking for a romance?" He asked semi-confidently while leaning onto the shelf that moved under his weight. You looked at him confused, frowning, and trying to decipher what he wanted to say. "Shit. I mean, the movie genre. Something with secret pen pals or kissing in the rain?" He added, trying to impress you. "Not today. I came for something different. I think I need something animated."

"Oh, cute. For a date or what?" The words came out of his mouth way too quickly. He stared at you in silence, afraid that you might confirm his predictions."

"Yeah kinda." He almost puked. "If you count babysitting as a date." You smiled at him.

"Don't tell me more! I have been a babysitter once, I mean, more than once, almost every day since... nevermind, you came here to get a movie and I started oversharing out of nowhere."

"No, it's nice. You can talk." You calmed him down by patting his arm. "I'm actually surprised you can tell more than mumble three words. Guess I misjudged you. By the way, I must ask you: Are you making fun of me?"

"What?! No!" He almost screamed "Why do you think so?"

"Every time I come here I hear snarky comments about my movie choices. Is something wrong with me? You referenced couple of them minutes ago, so I assume you've seen them."

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry. They were not supposed to sound like that, these films are great. I just get a little stressed around you and it's a weird uncommon feeling that I have never felt before and that's why I'm babbling whatever comes to my mind. Actually, nothing comes here because my mind is a blank space but anyway I do like these movies I think I saw Roman Holiday more than once and..."

"Stop talking," You looked at his badge to note his name. "Steve. I'm quite happy to meet another romance movies enjoyer. People say that it's cheesy but I consider them realistic. I'd love to hear your opinion. Which should I borrow the next time I come here?"

"I think you saw every romantic comedy that we have here. But I'd love to debate with you tomorrow evening, maybe by the milkshake...?" He scratched his head waiting for your reaction.

"Have you been stalking me, Steve? How can you tell what have I watched?" You made a pause. "But I'd love to meet you tomorrow, since today I'm babysitting. So, see you?" Steve nodded his head, pulling off the best smile that he could.

"Thanks for coming to Family Video, glad that we could help you."

And that's how it all started.

From one date to another, you immediately fell in love with him, thinking of him as a perfect match. The relationship was still fresh, you were in 'the honeymoon phase' enjoying every minute with each other, watching your favorite movies, and imagining yourselves as the characters. Today was your one-month relationship anniversary and everything has been planned out perfectly. You were supposed to go to an amusement park dressed up as Danny and Sandy, but Steve was late.

You were preparing yourself for hours, only to find yourself waiting at the bench near your house. Seconds turned to minutes, and minutes turned to hours. You wanted to be patient, and understanding. You even romanticised this moment, thinking that maybe he's stuck at workplace desperately wanting to get out and see you, or he finished late and is preparing himself now. The thought of him doing his hair while humming the grease soundtrack and cursing every lock of hair that wasn't cooperating with him and his hair gel was making you smile through the tears. But he wasn't coming and you've grown too tired and resigned to try justifying his absence.

You came home after three hours of waiting, careful not to be seen by your parents. The last thing you wanted is for them to see you cry, especially after the boy they adored.

After shutting your door you fell on your bed, not changing your clothes or wiping the make-up that you have worked on for so long. You just didn't have the energy to do that.

You fell asleep almost immediately, trying to erase the events from the day. But in the middle of the night, you heard your door opening and someone entering through. "Y/N I'm so sorry I'm that late. I know we were supposed to go to that amusement park but I got stopped by Nancy and you know that crazy Vecna shit is happening and we had some stuff to figure out... are you awake? What's with the face? Why do you look like that?"

"I don't know, why do you think my face is looking like that? Maybe because I waited for you for like 4 hours and you never came? So I decided to cry myself to sleep? Have you thought of that? Or maybe I realised that everything is wrong! Why didn't you tell me that you have things to do! That you were too busy to spend some time with me on our anniversary?"

"Y/N please calm down. I said I'm sorry. I want to make it up to you. Let's take care of you and wash that pretty face. You need to hear me out before jumping into conclusions."

"What did I misunderstand that time? I know weird things are happening in Hawkins, I'm not a baby, Steve. Why do you always exclude me from this narrative? Why can't I get involved?" You cried while wiping your face because of arguing and because wiping things off mixed with tears was hurting you.

"It's dangerous, Y/N. I don't want you to get hurt. It's not the best time to explain everything."

"When's the time? Don't play the 'overprotective' card right now! Love's nothing like the movies! I thought I would be giggling and shit but you left me all by myself. Don't you think that it's dangerous for you too? Or for Nancy?! Seems that you two can manage but I'm the damsel in distress? I should have known. I should have known, Steve."

"What do you mean by that? What do you imply? Is it bad now that I want you to be safe? Don't be ridiculous."

"No! You don't be! Can't you see what it looks like? Open your eyes, Steve. For the last seven days, you have always abandoned me for the sake of solving 'the Vecna thing'. But why's it always you and Nancy? Nancy! Your ex-girlfriend who you seem not to be over with. For fuck's sake, leave me alone. Just say that you got bored of me and go. I'll understand. I'm no longer a movie enjoyer."

"I love you Y/N! I want to protect you, I'm sorry I didn't understand what it looks like from your point of view. You can get involved. I want you there if that's what you want. I didn't get bored of you, I'd never do that. It's not always me and Nancy, the kids are there, Robin is there, and you can be there too. I'm so so sorry. I'll never do that again." He touched your arm to calm you down. Seeing that you didn't walk away he hugged you and continued his monologue. "I'm a terrible boyfriend. But isn't it just like the movies? The climax point where everything gets so intense and the main characters are arguing or having some kind of problem to solve? Life is like the movies. Maybe not always romantic comedies, but we're obviously something with a happy end. Danny and Sandy ended up together after all, didn't they? I love you like the movies. Crazy, obsessed like I meet you for the first time every day. You're the smell of the strawberry milkshake that we shared on the first day. The rain surprising us when riding a Vespa. The paper and the pen that we used to pretend that we were secret writing pals. We literally live our movie lives. And it's perfect. The clouds will fade away after today, and I'm gonna make it up to you starting from now. Don't cry, darling. You said you consider romantic movies realistic. Isn't it like that now? We're facing the hardship to get our happily ever after. Think about that. Think how far we came. Let's not waste that. I don't wanna waste that. Do you?"

"Steve you're messing with my head. I don't know. I don't want to break up with you, but the truth is you're my first boyfriend and I don't know how to feel. I don't want to be treated like that. I don't want to be forgotten. I don't want to be excluded from your friends' group. Please talk to me about everything."

"I will, I will, I'm sorry. Don't cry anymore, I don't want to see you like this. Let's go to sleep and talk in the morning. Is your dad home? I hope he won't kill me for sleeping here. But I don't want to leave you again. I will stay. Do you want to take a walk? Or sing you to sleep?

My huckleberry friend Moon river and me"

Steve hummed the song from Breakfast at Tiffany's "I want to kiss away the tears from your face. Please forgive me."

"You talk a lot. And you're very annoying. It's hard to say no to you when you're cupping my face with your hands. My parents are away, they were supposed to leave at night to drive to my grandma's."

"I'm very lucky tonight, damn. And hey, at least I'm not mumbling three words to you. Let's go to sleep. I love you I love you I love you. My little girlfriend from the movies.

[amistytown]

Hello Noelle ♥️

Haven't talk to you for a while ㅠㅠ Sorry, I'm still in the middle of my busy week. But yesterday, I finished my Structured Oral Examination for MNT and today, I don't really have anything to do other than finishing the remaining of my assignments.

I still have to study for finals 2 weeks from now so that's that :') But overall, yay!!! I got through this rough semester! At first, I feel like I can't do it? But wow! I'm finally reaching the end now! Though, I'm not really looking forward to my semester break since it's probably gonna be me writing my bachelor's dissertation proposal and completing my pocket book, but well! A holiday is a holiday, right?!

How about you? Are you feeling better? I saw that you're anxiety's worsening again and I hope you can take a break. I'm sending you my love and hug ♥️♥️

You know, when I'm struggling in this semester, there were many times that I wish I could write some comfort fics. Where Levi will come hug me when I cried, or when Satan will take care of me everytime I'm in my hyperfocus phase. But I can't really write it down since assignments and tasks occupy the most of my time. I wish that I can be a bit more free after final to fulfill my wishes. And I wish I can write a Levi comfort fic for you too.

I hope you know that I'm always supporting you from afar. You're not annoying anyone at all, don't worry! In fact, I get worried if I don't see you update about your life or Levi-related stuff 😂

Sending love your way💕

HAN ♥

I miss you so much!!! I'm always thinking about you, but don't want to bother you while you're busy. And don't apologize! I know you're dealing with a lot, so please take all the time for yourself you need! I'll always be here for you! Good luck with your assignments! You've been working so hard. I wish I could give you the biggest hug right now!

You should definitely feel proud of yourself! It wasn't easy, but you did your best and accomplished a lot this semester! I wish you luck with your finals! You've got this! Sorry, you have to work during your break though. I hope it's not as hectic, and you get some time to relax at least.

Aw, thank you so much!!! I think my therapy session reopened some old wounds, but I'm feeling better today! I'm sending that love right back to you!!!

I really hope you can too ;; Those sound very comforting; I think similarly when I'm having a hard time, and it can help a lot. I know Levi and Satan would take great care of you! They'd hold you while you cry, give you plenty of hugs and cuddles, and do their best to make the semester easier on you by helping you study, bringing you meals and snack throughout the day, and surprising you with meaningful gifts to cheer you up! They'd be so supportive! Levi would gladly give up anime and video game time to check on you! Imagine them both showing up with some treats for you after a long study session ♥

Aw, you're so sweet T . T I feel the same about you though! I know you're busy, but I still worry about you, and sometimes I check to make sure your blog is still there. I wish there was more I could do to help, though I mean it when I say I'm always here for you! I'm really proud of you too!

Good luck today! I love you ♥

[chikkou]

I saw your tracker says "# earthbound stan(s)" and was wondering your opinions, as a whole and hot takes, on the Mother series.

well im glad u asked....

so it should go without saying that i fucking LOVE the mother series - almost every piece of media ive been a fan of in the last decade has taken influence from mother (undertale, lisa, homestuck, etc) and so even before i ever played any of the games i knew i was going to love them. i was nervous about them not living up to the hype, but after playing earthbound and mother 3, i can say that they not only lived up to it, they FAR fucking surpassed anything i could have expected from them in terms of quality. they are genuinely phenomenal games, and in my opinion, they are two of the greatest games ever made

i unfortunately havent played mother 1 since i was told to skip it, but i 1000% plan on doing so cause i get really mad when people dont play lisa the first so im super hypocritical for not playing mother 1 LMAO

as for hot takes, i dont have too many since i think the games really do speak for themselves and pretty much every analysis that could be done of them has already been done, but some of my favorite things about both games are:

- the minutia in both games is SO well done... there are so many little details that make the world feel truly alive, to the point that things i would have hated in a lesser game became genuinely enjoyable and compelling here. the little fetch quest in m3 where you can help a mother mouse reunite with her babies is a perfect example - do you need to do it? no. does it take fucking forever? absolutely. did i still go out of my way to do it? YOU BET

- by the same vein, i think the amount of utterly POINTLESS shit in both games really add so much life to them, like how the game will sometimes straight up lie to you, or how you can obtain items that have zero function whatsoever apart from something cosmetic (like the egg you can get that hatches into a chick and just peeps occasionally. for WHAT purpose)

- i think the sequence in m3 where you go through all of porkys memories of ness and earthbound is one of THE best moments in any video game. like the pure emotion that i felt in that moment.... it was like reliving my childhood all over again even though i literally played earthbound for the first time when i was 20 LMAO

- the anti-capitalist/pro-environmentalist message in mother 3 is handled SO fucking well. the game doesnt even need to point blank tell you that thats the intention, because it takes such care to SHOW you, with all the chimeras and the massive monument to greed that is new pork city. i was crying my eyes out at the end when the logo turned all wooden.... please god

- im not a big crier, but i cried a fuckton during earthbound and mother 3 both. that game really taps into something... it just bypasses all logic and sense and hits you with pure emotion. in particular i was inconsolable for like 20 minutes after the ending battle of mother 3, like at one point i was deadass just sobbing my fucking eyes out shaking my head saying "its not fair its not fair" over and over for at least 5 minutes LMAO

- i genuinely think the mother series also has the best cumulative video game soundtrack of all time, like to the point that its impossible for me to choose between them because theyre all so phenomenal in their own way. gun to my head, if i absolutely HAD to choose though, id probably give it up to earthbound by the slimmest of margins.

ok i can go on abt this game forever so let me stop, but yeah. mother series is the fucking best and i love it more than anything. not more than lisa tho ♥

[sometownie]

9, 10, and 26 for the video game asks :)

Kiitti!!! ♥

(Ask me video game questions and I will rant endlessly!)

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9. Age you started gaming?

idk about gaming, but I've been playing video games ever since I was little. I guess the gamer in me never got out until I was almost an adult. My earliest video game memories are of the original Jazz Jackrabbit and some flag collecting game on like Windows 95 I think? Also I've always been into Tomb Raider games as I was always watching my dad or my uncle play them.

I guess the first proper video game for me was The Sims while I was in elementary school? Also in later elementary years my parents bought us a PS2 and I fell in love with the Sly Cooper games. I don't think I got into gaming until I met my now girlfriend (we were friends back then), through whom I played the first Assassin's Creed, Kingdom Hearts and the Prince of Persia games. I was in upper secondary/high school back then! We started going out and bought PS3 together and I guess the rest is history.

10. Hardest video game you’ve played?

hmmmmmm I don't know to be honest! I mean I've tried playing Bloodborne and it was really hard but also not really my cup of tea. Dishonored (the first one, haven't played the second yet but I've played the first one twice or thrice) is also pretty hard to pull off completely clean. The game mechanics take a lot of time to master!

I'm usually the type of player who starts video games with the easiest difficulty to figure out the mechanics and focus on the story, although recently I've been more confident about my abilities so I've started new games on medium difficulty mostly? Once I get to know the game I'll up the difficulty until I can pull off nightmare mode (for example FC5 or Batman Arkham games), and with some games I never up the difficulty and keep playing at leisure (Skyrim).

26. Favorite gaming series?

I feel like I should say The Sims!

Well, besides sims, I think I'm gonna go with Batman Arkham games. I keep returning to it every now and then and I wish I could play them again for the first time.

I really love Far Cry 5, and I'm currently playing FC3, but so far it hasn't really impressed me, and I'm not really interested in the other installments of the series. I've played Oblivion and Skyrim, but can't speak for any other game in the series, although I do adore the lore and the world and everything. I love ME, but for some reason I don't feel like it's my absolute favorite. Also when it comes to my ultimate forever favorite target of obsession Saints Row, I love the first two games but don't really care for the last two (three) games.

So. Yeah. Batman Arkham.

[swanimagines]

15 questions

I was tagged by @tessaisalbright! Thank you sweetie ♥ And I’ll tag everyone who wants to do this? I don’t know how many have already done this, I think I saw this tag game circling around my dash a few weeks ago. Was I named after anyone?

- Not that I know of? I only know my grandma from dad’s side wanted to name me Jasmine, my grandma from mum’s side wanted to name me Jenny, my dad wanted Jasmin and I don’t remember what my mom wanted :D But yeah, compromise to everyone, I’m Jenni Jasmine. Last time I cried? 

- From personal reasons or because of a movie? If the latter, I cried two weeks ago (or not really, but I shed a few tears). I don’t think I remember crying the last time because of personal reasons tbh. I can recall only one time which was last December. 

Do I have kids?

-  If my three hairy kids aren’t counted, then nope. I’ve never even dated anyone. I love kids though and I would want to have my own someday but the thought of me being pregnant makes me anxious. I even have seen “nightmares” where I see myself from a mirror and I have that pregnancy tummy and though I’m usually happy in the dream, I’m anxious when I wake up because of that dream. Do I use sarcasm a lot? 

- Uh, sometimes. I like using sarcasm but the problem is that I usually don’t get it when people use sarcasm with me (if it isn’t over-obvious) and if I use sarcasm with people I don’t know properly, they get mad at me because they think I’m being serious XD   First thing I notice about people?

- IRL, the way they talk. I usually know from that if they’re the type of people I’m liking (ofc there have been a few exceptions and I’m trying to not to judge people if their first words to me are something I don’t like, except if they say something really mean to me which gets me crying or something).

On the internet, I’m not sure. I guess I just grow to like the posts they make and if I get in contact with them, I’m just talking to them and eventually I know if they’re my kind of people, and if they’re not, the conversation usually dries out on its own, I think they notice the same about me.

Eye color? 

- Blue, but I have a green spot in there (in both eyes, it’s smaller in the other tho). Have a 4-year old photo of them.

Scary movie or happy ending? - I would pee in my pants if I watched a scary movie so happy endings :D But it depends a lot though, a happy ending doesn’t fit for all movies. Talents? 

- Writing? I guess :D I also have been trying to learn to play the piano :) But I don’t have money for Flowkey (I use that to learn) at the moment tho so it’s on a break right now.   Hobbies? - Writing, long walks in the forest trails, reading, watching movies, playing video games and guinea pigs :D Pets? 

- Three adorable boys ♥  

Sport? 

- Walking outside :D I don’t like to do anything else.   Height? 

- 173cm, or 5′8″ Favourite subject? 

- Uhmmm, video games, history, movies, Rupert from Detroit: Become Human (at the moment), hehehe :DD 

(Yeah I’m too hearty-eyed for him and have been for almost a year now and I really don’t know why because you can see him for like 2 minutes. I’m drooling Illegal Intervention from @crownandwriter and I have read the two released chapters for like a hundred times and I swear I’m gonna scream when/if part 3 comes out :’D I don’t read any smut from her but honestly, sometimes I wish I could read it without feeling over-mortified and having the urge to close the tab and drown myself in Holy Water because CROWN’S WRITING IS SO GOOOOD) Dream job?

- I don’t have one. I wanted to be a photographer before and I got into a photography school. But while studying there, my love for photography died completely and hasn’t come back since. Then I had to terminate my studies because my mental health made a somersault.

When I was a teen, I wanted to be a scriptwriter (like for movies/TV series/theater), but the stress would be too much for me + I need special education and a small class because my mental conditions (a.k.a Asperger) wouldn’t allow me to study “normally” and that isn’t possible here in Finland if you want to go higher than “normal” professions. + Special education professions are very limited and a lot of them are for more um, technical people (car mechanic, plumber, electrician etc).

But yeah, I don’t have to hurry with studying yet.

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Thanks for tagging me Tessa ♥