#posting to my personal to not give huaisang and bestie an unfair advantage lmao

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5 Favourite Characters Poll (Tag Game)

i was tagged by @pangzi @melodious-tear and @psychic-waffles ♥♥♥

picking characters was pretty easy actually, i know exactly who i love most. the only hard thing was picking between xiao hua, shen qingqiu, and himemiya anthy but i ended up going with my bestie ♥

Rules: make a poll with five of your all time favourite characters and then tag five people to do the same. See which character is everyone's favourite.

Tagging: @astrangedoor @lealdog @mishikaiya @jauffre & @margomadisons uwu

propaganda under the cut, not a formal part of the game but i love talking about these bitches!

commander shepard made me who i am and i'm not joking. i'm always a hoe for duty-bound characters and she is such a perfect example of what makes me love a character like that. she's also someone i roleplayed for years, i met some of my oldest friends & my soul sister because of her (thirteen years in august!) and when i need to stand up for myself or others with people i don't know i still model my approach on her, as well as a myriad other interactions (due to the autism it's easier to ask 'what would shepard do?' than to make something up). she means the WORLD to me!!

nie huaisang charmed me when a friend played a character based off him in a d&d oneshot and went on to become my favourite character in one of my favourite books. i'm deep into chinese literature and drama because of this little man. he was a gateway drug to SO many experiences, I've read ancient erotica and poetry because of him + gained a deeper understanding of chinese history and culture. and a bitch loves learning! but he's also just a character who gets to me in a really special way. he means things to me i can't even express. what a guy. god.

captain janeway came into my life when i was thirteen and star trek: voyager was on tv on some weeknight, and i was bewitched. my mother enjoyed it and i would sometimes join her, but after a while i barely could because janeway made me realise i was queer and i couldn't have those feelings when i felt unsafe and exposed. but, man, i never forgot her and i've rewatched voyager in its entirety twice as an adult. i'm overwhelmed every time. if she smiled at me and told me i'd be okay i actually believe i would. i love her. i've loved her for twenty-three years. loving her is such a core part of my personality it's ridiculous.

xie yuchen/xiao hua was mentioned to me when my didi and i talked about who i might get along with in the mess that is the dmbj franchise. among ridiculous claims, magnets that can affect time and your feelings, and snakes that can be used as video recorders thanks to their pheromones, he is a shining beacon of sensibility. he's been called 'competency porn made flesh' by more than one person for good reason. he's a big reason why i started watching terrible dramas and read terrible books but he makes every second SO worth it.

finally, estraven became a dear friend last july when i read tlhod. it was a slow read at first but around the halfway point i was suddenly rendered breathless; estraven as a character proved to be so much more than i expected. reading a single description of him by the main character brings tears to my eyes because he is so much. i'm crying a little just writing this! he's that same kind of duty-bound and loyal that makes me insane as shepard and janeway, and i'm so grateful he brought me across the gobrin ice. i left a piece of my heart there. i need to crochet a shawl dedicated to this book (and him) so i can wrap myself in my own feelings about it. the power of his nonbinary alien pussy is out of this world.