#my favorite unhealthy perfectionist

[pandapyaar]

My life changed for the better after meeting Franziska von Karma in Ace Attorney: Justice For All (2002).

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❀. │GIRL DINNER (O2)│. ❀

❥ prompt: You're hungry. You want food. You want a snack. You just want SOMETHING. You send your HEARTSTEEL boyfriend(s) on a food-run adventure. Let's see what each boy brings back. ❥ content/warnings: sexually suggestive themes, fluff ❥ characters/pairings: v!Heartsteel (sett, yone, k'sante) / f!reader

SETT

foot-long sub and gatorade

When it comes to feeding you, Sett isn’t willing to compromise. He goes big, or he goes home. And he’s not going home empty handed. 

He Facetime’s you when he’s at the Deli counter of the local grocer, where the sub-meat selection is divine, options are abundant, and the portions are unbeatable. 

When you say you want double amounts of meat, you’re getting it. When you tell him you want more toppings, it’s done. Oh, you want your bread extra toasted and slathered in condiments? Baby, it’s yours. No problem—he’s got you.

When he comes home, you get a running head start, and jump into his arms without warning. The man has no trouble catching you, ever. 

As he greets your neck with a kiss, you lean and whisper into his soft ears about wanting to ‘share some’ with him. Since Sett has an uncontrollably tendency to go over-board with anything portion related, he’s more than willing to help you out. He understands you can't finish most things by yourself. Especially if he's the one serving you.

You huff with an embarrassed whine, shaking your head. You weren't talking about the food! 

Sett finally catches on by the squeezing of your legs around him, the flush of your cheeks, and the hot puffs you tow against his twitching ears. He hums a low and warm grumble at the insinuation. That large hand cradling your bottom squeezes in all the right places. It's enough to elicit a satisfied cry from your lips.

Sett really didn’t come home empty handed. In more ways than one.

YONE

home cooked meal and water

Yone was an expert and perfectionist—especially in the kitchen. Why would he buy you anything processed and unhealthy when he could make anything you desired? He wasn’t going to tolerate you poisoning yourself. Not on his watch. 

Insisting on cooking for you, you watched at how meticulous he was in the kitchen. His expertise with a knife was incomparable. You never realized chopping vegetables could be a discipline and an art form.

When he finished garnishing the plate, he served you. If you didn’t know any better, you would think the dish came straight from a Michelin five-star restaurant!

Not allowing it cool, you burned your tongue on your first bite. Yone chastised you (one of his ways of showing affection) before taking the next helping, and blowing away the steam. He raised the fork to your lips.

Yone was always cool, calm, and collected—but would then do things that were heart-pounding, sweet and seductive. You felt silly with embarrassment. You shook your head, declining his help.

Unacceptable. Yone took your chin without a word, pressed his lips against yours, and slipped a tongue to open your mouth. When you gasped a moan, he abandoned your mouth, and placed the food inside. He encouraged you to chew thoroughly, but all you wanted to do was collapse.

Yone was definitely an expert and perfectionist—at driving you absolutely mad about him.

K'SANTE

take-out and bottle of wine

K’Sante was never about the ‘Netflix and chill’ thing. More like the ‘Netflix and serve my Queen’ scene. And that’s exactly what he planned to do.

Knowing your favorite restaurant, he orders express delivery and pops the cork off of a pricey bottle of wine.

K’Sante has everything ready for the night. Lights dimmed, scented candles lit, and Netflix show ready to go at the press of a button. 

Like the Casanova he is, he serves you everything first. All the while showering you with compliments about how beautiful you are. K’Sante isn’t ashamed of expressing himself to what he likes—which is obviously you. 

After eating and having your fill of wine, you relax further into the couch with him. All the while, watching your shared guilty-pleasure reality TV-show; 'Too Hot To Handle'

The wine seems to get the better of you two. Spooning you from behind, you turn over a cheek expecting to see K’Sante watching the TV. Far from it—his lustrous gaze is on you. He graciously takes your mouth. Slow and passionate. And you can taste the spice of the wine. 

With eyes closed, you feel his trained hand slide across your waist, and slip between your thighs.

K’Sante wasn’t done serving his Queen. And that’s exactly what he planned to do.

[cocoabeloved]

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[lavenderravenith-hl]

The New Keeper - MC Masterpost

~•~ Basic Info ~•~

Full Name: Lavender Avery Ravenith

Birthday: June 29th

Height: 5' 7'' (170 cm)

Nationality: British

Blood Status: Half-Blood (Muggle mother and wizard father (previous) and stepfather)

Favorite and Least Favorite Subject: Astronomy; History of Magic (they’re all very close in rank)

Hobbies: Loves to read and journal with her beasts in the ROR vivariums

Love Interest: Definitely not crushing on Natty, nope, no way, that'd be crazy

Personality: Although Lavender is kind with strangers, she can come off as shy. But she is very artistic and bubbly once you get to know her, Hogwarts helping her come out of her shell. A perfectionist and people pleaser to a bit of an unhealthy degree though

~•~ All Outfits ~•~

1) Pre-Game: Only let dad braid her hair, it’s always really messy. Most of her clothes are from when her mom was young so the fit is a bit off 2) The Path to Hogwarts: Still didn’t let mom braid hair before leaving. Most of her outfit is still her mom’s, although the coat and tie were her dad’s 3) During Game: Let Fig braid her hair once she got to Hogwarts. School uniform slightly adjusted by her on the first night 4) The Final Repository: New clothes enchanted in the ROR before the battle. Necklace was a gift from Deek as a good luck charm 5) Post-Game: Scar from fighting Ranrok, Outfit used to be Fig’s. Started braiding her own hair after Fig’s death, not the best at it

~•~ Wand, Brooms, and Scar ~•~

1) Wand: Ringed, pale brown, fir wood type, phoenix feather core. 14 and a half inches and supple flexibility. Avian brown handle 2) Brooms: Night dancer was first broom, used throughout the game. Then she got Bright Spark and started flying it post-game 3) Scar: Flakey texture. Took a very long time to heal, partially blind in left eye and partially immobile in left arm after fully healing

Was this just an excuse to infodump about my MC? Possibly, but I hope you all enjoyed it anyways!

(More lore and backstory for Lavender will be coming out on this blog, as we as more HL stuff in general, so stay tuned if you'd be interested in that!)

[cinderella-ish]

Fruits Basket Personality Types Part 9: Momiji Sohma

Like Yuki, Momiji is a character I relate to on a deep level. I'm going to share more about why after we get into his personality types, but I wanted to say up here that Momiji is one of the clearest examples of his Enneagram that I can think of!

Momiji Sohma's Enneagram

Wound: His mother rejected him and had her memory of him erased after a major mental health crisis. His father asked him to be the one to make that choice, even though he was extremely young. He then lived alone (with occasional check-ins from his father and Hatori).

Wounding message: You're on your own.

Core desire: To have freedom and find his own happiness.

Core fear: Painful feelings.

Defense mechanism: Have as much fun as possible to distract from the pain

Strengths: Momiji is optimistic, highly emotionally intelligent, friendly, fun, creative, playful, energetic, spontaneous, and exudes a deep joy.

Challenges: Momiji can be scattered, manipulative, hedonistic, impulsive, unrealistic, and self-absorbed.

When healthy: I think we see Momiji in a fairly healthy place for much of the series, and the result of his stability is a person who's enamored of the joys of life.

When unhealthy: I don't think we ever really see Momiji in an unhealthy place. Perhaps the most stressed we see him is when his curse breaks and he realizes Tohru doesn't feel the same way about him. In that moment, he's a bit resentful and pessimistic (although that evening, when he goes back to see Akito, his optimism comes through in one of my favorite moments of the series!).

Have you figured it out yet? Momiji Sohma is quite clearly an Enneagram 7.

Since Momiji is such a clear example of a Seven, I'm going to copy the information on Sevens from my Enneagram post and annotate (my annotations will be in parenthesis):

Wound: deprived of nurturing (he lost his mother and then lived alone)

Wounding message: It's not okay to depend on anyone for anything. (See above)

Core desire: to be satisfied, to maintain freedom and happiness (he says this out loud at the climax of his character arc!)

Core fear: being deprived or experiencing pain (see below)

Defense mechanism: constantly seek out fun, exciting, and novel experiences; rationalize feelings to avoid pain (I mean!)

Strengths: adventurous, playful, imaginative, energetic, optimistic, quick-thinking, spontaneous, share joyful celebration of existence with those around them (this is just a description of Momiji!)

Challenges: hedonistic, self-absorbed, unrealistic, uncommitted, impatient, unfocused, superficial, restless, impulsive, rebellious, escapist (this is a bit of how he appears at the beginning of the series)

When healthy: more focused, restrained, okay with painful things, fascinated by life (like healthy Fives) (We see Momiji grow into this as the story gets into Act III)

When unhealthy: rigid, critical, pessimistic, angry, perfectionistic (like unhealthy Ones) (we see the barest hint of these qualities when he tells Kyo about Tohru's feelings and then confronts Akito)

I think Momiji is such a beautiful example of a Seven because he fits the stereotypes but he also possesses a ton of depth, and we really get to see how and why he developed his defense mechanism.

It also supports my hot take that it was good for Momiji's character arc to end with him accepting some painful feelings. It's bittersweet at the time, but it's opening doors for him to experience a much richer happiness in the future.

Sevens live in the Fear center with a tendency to repress fear by seeking out new and exciting experiences to occupy their attention. They will also rationalize painful feelings, which is something I think we see from Momiji in Ch. 23/"That's a Secret" when he explains why his mother's memories were erased.

Wing

The Enneagram Institute describes 7w6 as "The Entertainer," and 7w8 as "The Realist." 7w6 sounds more like Momiji to me.

Here's the description of 7w6 from EnneaApp:

Calm any sense of insecurity by being both productive & fun-loving

Has a good sense of humor; quick-witted and energetic; imaginative

Focus on life as positive; wants to create joy/make the world better

Can deplete self by being overactive; can be manic when unhealthy

Subtype

This is a little harder to determine for Momiji, although I think he's more likely a SX Seven (I'll be using SX instead of SE from here on out for ease). He has great relationships with most of the other cursed Sohmas, but we only really get to see the depth of that closeness in 1:1 encounters.

Enneagram Explained describes SX Sevens like this:

SX 7s see the world through rose-colored glasses. They focus on exciting possibilities and idealistic dreams. They can lean more towards naive but they also can charm others into new visions and adventures.

Tritype

I don't have a strong instinct for Momiji's Gut and Heart types. I doubt he's 8 or 4, because I don't think he overexpresses either anger or shame/sadness. I'd guess he leans more toward repressing both than underexpressing, so possibly 2-7-1, although 3-7-1, 2-7-9, and 3-7-9 may be possible.

After reading the descriptions of those types, I do think 2-7-1 ("The Teacher") is the best fit. Here's the description from Katherine Fauvre's website:

If you are a 127, you are diligent, caring, and innovative. You want to be ethical, empathetic, and inspired. Engaging, fun-loving, and outgoing, you want to be with people and be a part of what will make a difference. You seek fun with a purpose. You need to meet your goals and be responsible, but you also make sure there is time to play, celebrate, and enjoy life. You love discovering new things. You have a gift of being able to squeeze the boredom out of anything tedious.

Momiji is shown to be responsible and a hard worker (as with violin, plus he eventually goes on to lead his father's company), but I think he'll always be fun-loving at his core.

Momiji Sohma's MBTI

Just like Momiji's Enneagram, I think he's a great example of his MBTI.

E vs. I: Strongly E.

S vs. N: Moderately S.

T vs. F: Moderately F.

J vs. P: Strongly P.

Type Dynamics: Without working out what an ESFP's type dynamics are (since that's my most likely guess for Momiji), I see his Type Dynamics as Se Fi Te Ni.

Se: Momiji is always seeking out new experiences in an active, social way.

Fi: Momiji has a strong understanding of people, though he mostly keeps this to himself.

Te: Momiji can be goal-oriented and forward-looking. He's one who makes plans and executes them quickly (like the onsen and beach house trips).

Ni: Momiji does have a wealth of insight about other people.

Fi Ne Si Te is the type dynamic of ESFP! Woohoo!

Here's how the Myers & Briggs Foundation describes ESFP:

ESFP: Outgoing, friendly, and accepting. Exuberant lovers of life, people, and material comforts. Enjoy working with others to make things happen. Bring common sense and a realistic approach to their work and make work fun. Flexible and spontaneous, adapt readily to new people and environments. Learn best by trying a new skill with other people.

ESFPs are often referred to as The Performer or The Entertainer. I'm sensing a theme!

Having shared that Momiji and Yuki are the characters to whom I relate the most, I think it's interesting that they, as a 7 and a 4 respectively, represent where I go as a 1 when I'm healthy and unhealthy. I think this is why I sometimes feel like Yuki represents my inner world and Momiji my outer mask; I spend a lot of time with my melancholy and inner sadness, and I connected with how Yuki expressed that part of himself; meanwhile, I also connect with Momiji's sunny demeanor and his hidden pain, and I see in myself his desire for novelty and fun.

As an ENFJ who might actually be an INFJ, it's no wonder I connect with Yuki, an INFJ. We use the same four processes, just possibly in a different order. And I connect with Momiji's E-F qualities and the way he uses his sensing - Se is his Dominant process, and my Tertiary. I also think it's interesting that Momiji's Tritype of 1-2-7 includes my Enneeagram of 1 and my Wing of 2!

And I've commented before on how Kyo and Momiji are especially close. They are both in the Head center, Momiji's wing is Kyo's Enneagram of 6, and they share the first three letters of their MBTI (ESF). Of course, it's not necessary for two people to share MBTI or Enneagram designations to be close with each other, but I think there's something to be said for the ways their patterns of thinking and motivations overlap.

So, to summarize:

Enneagram: SX 7w6 (The Enthusiast/The Entertainer)

Tritype: 2-7-1 (The Teacher)

MBTI: ESFP (The Performer/The Entertainer)

What do you think? Did I get it right or wrong? I'd love to hear your thoughts!

Next up: Hatori!

Fruits Basket Personality Types: Enneagram | MBTI | Tohru | Akito | Kyo | Yuki | Haru | Kisa | Hatori | Ayame | Rin | Hiro | Ritsu | Kureno | Shigure | Kagura | Kazuma | Saki | Arisa | Machi | Kakeru | The Hondas | Kaibara Students

[ninas-gf]

Jean for the character ask game, 7, 16, and 26?

7. A quote of them that you remember

this has always been one of my favorite jean quotes, and i think it’s because of the implications behind jean swearing an oath to the traveler as herself, without her titles. it really shows that she does genuinely care, beyond just feeling obligated to repay a debt as a leader. and the way i interpreted it, in a way it also kind of implies that she’s acknowledging how much the traveler values her for who she really is which i think is really sweet

16. A childhood headcanon

i know this is nothing original, but i do really love what fanon has done with jean and her friendship with diluc and kaeya <3 personally i think frederica would have allowed them to hang out with jean only because she was under the assumption that they’d be studying or sparring together, but they were just determined to have fun with jean because they knew she hardly got to play with the other kids (they’d practically be dragging her to the beach because they knew she didn’t want to defy her mother but she also deserved a break 😭)

26. When do you think they were being "themselves" the most?

i think there are multiple moments where jean really feels like herself, and this is just one of them. only jean can do something that is objectively good (saving lives by destroying hostile machines) and still remain THIS critical of herself. it really highlights her perfectionist tendencies; her inner strength and willingness to always improve upon herself is admirable, but at the same time it’s often to an unhealthy extent. even if everyone looks up to her, she will never be pleased with herself… and unfortunately this seems to be a common theme in some of her voicelines,,, ALSO, it also seems to touch upon the idea of jean wanting to be a shield that protects rather than a sword that fights/destroys 🤔

[wisteria-lodge]

badger primary + badger secondary (unhealthy double bird model)

May I submit from the SortMe list please? The most difficult time in my life so far has to be in Nursing school. In hindsight I know that I pursued that career path for all the wrong reasons. It sounded good to me. Interesting, helping people and decent pay. It’s a job you SHOULD be pursuing. Even tho I distinctly remember a little while before thinking how I’d never want to be a nurse because that means I’ll be away from my future family.

Ah, okay. In that case, I think you're a Loyalist for sure. The first thing is to be close to your family. You made that decision in a kind of Bird primary way - it looks good on paper, the money is good etc. And for another person that might have been enough, but it sounds like for you particularly... not so much.

In hindsight I also found it ironic that my least favorite part was doing clinical. I always felt so exposed. Like I HAD to do everything perfectly or I look incompetent or stupid. I was warned beforehand how hard nursing would be. That just because I was a good student didn’t mean I’d do well.

This sounds a little like a perfectionist streak? Or maybe take that one step further, and it's about being *perceived* as a perfectionist? Perfectionism is unfortunately just a human flaw, but this focus on the *community* and what *they* think might be evidence of Badger primary.

However my family kept saying how hard of a worker I was and how I should take their advice with a grain of salt. I was a hardworker so I’d be fine. It also helped that it seemed like people were coming out of the woodwork to help me as soon as I made the decision.

This sounds like a Badger secondary. Like, it's possible that you modeled a Badger secondary to please your family... but you do seem to own it, and the 'people coming out of the woodwork to help' is a very Badger-secondary-to-the-core thing. You don't even need to ask them, most of the time. They just kind of show up.

Then I entered and I was immediately overwhelmed! The hardest part was the emotional toll. Everything was such high stakes it felt like I could never take a BREAK. Nursing became my world and nothing else mattered. Which I was warned about beforehand, but experiencing it is different.

Okay, so. YEAH, nursing school is very hard and very brutal. But I'm interested in what you found so hard. And what I'm hearing is permeable boundaries. Everything is getting though, you can always work harder, and the stakes are so high that it means you SHOULD. It sounds like we've got some Badger (and I suspect you're a Double Badger) lack of boundaries going on. You're throwing so much of yourself into your community, that you forget that you're part of your community too.

I generally a bit of a loner but I felt even more isolated.

Brutal for a Badger primary. You need your community.

I spent every night in the library studying my ass off eating and breathing Nursing and trying my HARDEST. I built a routine that wasn’t foolproof but it gave me decent grades most of the time. Got extra help everything that’s SUPPOSED to lead to success but it wasn’t enough.

You're doing the Badger thing - buckle down and work MORE, but it does seem that you're doing it in a Bird way, which you clearly didn't *love.* Like it worked *okay.*

The one thing I didn’t do was actually try to study with my classmates more. Which probably would have helped me the most.

I agree. That would be be something that would make your Badger primary happy (and fit in with your Badger secondary problem-solving as well.)

I ended up failing our. The thing about it though is that as soon as I knew for SURE that I’d failed out and there was no way to keep my spot I felt relieved. The pressure lifted for the first time since starting college. Sure I had to switch majors but anything I picked felt like it would be infinitely less stressful than Nursing. It felt nice to know that no matter what happened my fate was sealed when before everything felt up in the air.

I suspect that Birds make especially good health professionals *because* it's easier for them to keep everything at a bit of arm's length if they need to (and systemize things like self-care - they're *very* good at that.) And there was a period where you wanted to be, or were trying to be a Double Bird, and the whole process didn't suit you very much. I suspect that you'll be much happier (and more effective!) at whatever career you try next.

[kenthenugget]

I Don't Get Tangents (Art Rant)

During my formative years as an artist back 2017 up to early 2020, I can remember watching a ton of art related content ranging from DeviantArt cringe video's to tutorials on how to draw manga to general art community topics like tracing and so on. But up until mid 2021, I had never heard of tangents. And even now, I still dont fully get it.

If you don't know, a tangent is pretty much when lines intersect in a visually non pleasing way. There's a great blog that goes into this which I'll link here:https://schweizercomics.tumblr.com/post/11966164633/the-schweizer-guide-to-spotting-tangents

Let me be clear by saying that I do know what tangents are and what they mean. I'm not an idiot. And its not like I don't understand why they're bad but at the same time I don't get it, if you know what I mean. I've seen examples of tangents where it does a good job at illustrating why its bad but there are some where I just cant see it. Going to the post I linked, I had a difficult time discerning what the tangents were for examples 2 through 5 until someone pointed them out. Even then, I still didn't find anything wrong with them despite the tangents. And if I'm being honest (and I mean no shade at the creator of the post), it does feel nitpicky. Because you wouldn't know it was a tangent unless someone pointed it out.

I guess in general, tangents are not to big of a deal, which is probably why I never heard of them until recently. It is something that can be easily avoidable, especially if you're not that skilled of an artist. But for someone like me who is a perfectionist, tangents act as some sort of curse. Especially when it comes to digital art.

I honestly feel its a lot harder for tangents to form in traditional works than it is for digital ones. When you're creating a complex illustration on paper, the backgrounds, characters, and other objects are on the same surface. As opposed to digital where you can separate those things via layers, and this is where tangents often tend to form for me. Since everything is separated, I'll tend to work on those elements separately when inking. And its not until then where I turn on the character or background layer, I see tangents forming. And only when its inked do I notice these and not when I'm sketching them. Maybe that has to do with the pencil brush not being as thick and bold? Im not sure. This has happened to me constantly, ever since I began separating my backgrounds from the layers my characters are on. Tangents just form and there's nothing I can really do about it, unless I revert to drawing everything on the same layer. And its a problem when it comes to comic pages as well. Particularly with speech bubbles and sound effects, which is a whole other can of worms entirely.

Now this doesn't mean I hate everything I've drawn in the past year or two, but noticing these tangents really bothers me. That these images are immediately deemed bad because of one or two tangents caused by separation of elements on layers. And like I said, all of this feels very nitpicky, as in you wouldn't notice it unless you were actively looking for it. It honestly feels like tangents are a fuel for perfectionism, an unhealthy amount of it at that. Its partially why I try not to let it bother me and do my best to avoid it.

No one is perfect, and that's okay. I don't think something as small and hyper specific as a tangent should bring an illustration down. Hell, I'm pretty sure art created by your favorite artists have one or two tangents in them that down make them bad because of it. Im not really sure how to end this but I don't try to be perfect as an artist because no art is perfect. And if it was, is it really art anymore?

[cathyyyyyyyyyy]

Introduction!

Haaaay! My name is Cathy (Or Cat or Kitty or Catherine or whatever variant of Catherine you want) and my brother is @aluminum-allium.

Most of my posts will be stuff related to art so that also means I am open to criticism as I want to be the very best artist in the world! (Not like I am not the best or anything)

Personality

According to me, I am a very girly person in general. I am also very outgoing and (if you couldn’t already tell) confident! I will rarely be serious unless the situation I am in calls for it.

Also, just in case, I am a girl.

I am a tiny bit of perfectionist but I just like to think I like paying close attention to detail (Mostly because of my hobbies) for funzies! It also helps get a more satisfying outcome, in my opinion! With that being said, I am also very picky! Especially when it comes to food and clothing.

Hobbies

Here’s a list of things I do in my free time!

Practice violin (Ling Ling wannabe)

Draw (I don’t really like to color because I suck at it - favorite medium is charcoal)

Compose (I rarely have ideas now so it’s probably just music theory homework)

Eating something unhealthy.

Watch commentary YouTubers such as Pancho, Acheeto, and Pegasus.

Watch Boze Vs. The World.

Watch horror game play throughs/Reacting to scary videos such as the Mandela Catalog.

Listen to Yousa/Classical Music

Wanna be friends?

I’m usually open to meeting new people and I am veryyyy veryyyy chatty.

[tropicalsnuggles]

(Click the image Tumblr killed it) - Boom! Some more ocs! I try not to have so many ocs but these two just appeared at my doorstep one day.

Please take my lovely gay couple. They are a bit eccentric and I have spent two days drawing this,--

On the left - 

A four-inch fae named Dotburn. She is an aspiring paleontologist with a natural knack for the piano. Dotburn is serious, judgmental, and practical. She holds herself as if she comes from a prestigious line of royalty. When it comes to social settings she is extremely reserved but unafraid to let out a reputation-destroying quip when provoked. The fae is a radical perfectionist; having a hard time working with a flexible schedule. Having to take a different path to get to her room will deeply affect her. Dotburn has misophonia which leads her to become more isolated from society. Her favorite geological time is the Carboniferous period due to its giant insects. The fae avoids nicknames at all costs. Using constructive complaints as a sign of affection. Currently, she is the lead conductor and pianist for the theater run by borrowers and other small sentient species. She lives with her wife, Iriquoi, and the traveling theater.

On the right - 

Looking as if she has several diseases; Iriquoi the vulkey on first impression often upsets people. She quotes things that she has no context for which can lead to confusion and anger when interacting with her. She has a hyena-like laugh that can be heard even when the woman is crying. Despite her ragged appearance and the guilty way, she holds herself. Iriquoi is a very loving individual who will be a loyal friend to the end. She goes through drastic mood swings; she can go without sleep for days and then sleep for a whole week. There is no in-between. Iriquoi is obsessed with math to an unhealthy degree. Solving math equations that Harvard has been stumped by during random bursts of energy. Currently, she is a pyrotechnician for the theater run by borrowers and other small sentient species. She lives with her wife, Dotburn, and the traveling theater.

[bombasticprimekitty]

How many chapters do you plan for the Encanto/Pokemon crossover ? And why is Isabela your favorite character ?

Honestly, I don't know. Hopefully below 50 but if it goes above it then I'm fine with it. I don't really want to rush the story since being a perfectionist, if I don't feel satisfied with my writing, I would lose motivation to finish it and this story is one of the one's that I really want to see through to the very end. I want to be able to feel pride on how far I've gone and reread it without feeling a little cringe and dying on the inside like one of my old stories that I made.

As for why Isabela is my favorite, besides being fun to watch and the sheer versatile of her gift that I can go ham on the creativity, Isabela is a character that at a first glance look one dimensional. A character that can easily be hated and flanderized if someone isn't really willing to look below the surface (Or don't care to look). I always like complex characters like that, the one that you don't like at first but grow to like overtime. A character that actions I find questionable at first given context with the foresight of the second and more watch. That's what Isabela is to me. A character that takes effort to like. Heck, before I like Isabela, my favorite was Luisa. Not saying Luisa isn't a complex character, it's just that she's kind of easy to love at first watch since her troubles are easier to pick up and relate to compare to Isabela. Not helping that Luisa was kinder to Mirabel compare to Isabela.

But on a personal note, I feel that I can relate to her the most. Being the 'golden child' of my family is really tough, parents expect a lot from me and it's always physically and mentally exhausting. I was always hold up to be an example for my other siblings and someone to be flaunt at to everybody else. I was constantly stressed and force to do lots of things that I hated so much so that I got physically weak and got sick to the point that hospital visit become a frequent thing for me. It got so bad that my big sis have to intervene because I was basically working myself to death because I don't want to disappoint them. So seeing her break out of that unhealthy perfectionist persona and listening to 'what else can I do' and basically being her 'true' self was like an eye opener for me. Like I can have my own moment like that (Minus the singing, I suck at singing.). That and I admire how she can hold out that long without growing crazy. I was lucky to have an older sister that I can go to for support when things get too much, I can't imagine going through something like that alone. It's really why I fell in love with her character.

[heynowisavedyouright]

18 and 31 for the YTTD game

(- thorn)

ask game!

18. Opinion on Ranmaru Kageyama?

now ill have to admit first i dont have the kind of attachment to him that will have me sitting down middle of the day writing down his dialogue to understand him better and then being able to churn out a detailed take i myself agree with at any opportunity. i have to say that one because im a little freak and perfectionist. other than that

what can i say, hes fun! i love tragedies i love unhealthy relationships attachments full of unfulfilled yearning. being able to see ranmaru from different angles in emotion and logic really scratches something for me. he kills people & i sit down and yell go white haired boy go

hes a little the type of character defined by a specific relationship in fandom right? i think i would be complaining about that if i were a real ranmaru head. like this i can only say i dont really enjoy requited ranmaru/sara its kinda like ivan/till for me. the desire to reach for an understanding closest to the relationship dynamic in the original always fucks with me for unrequited ships like that. ie "the other person would behave too differently if they liked them back so i'm not really interested that way"

among screenshots that arent included in the hundred or so shin pics i saved during my first playthrough, as well as the sixty midori ones, i have this one sprite of him several times which i guess makes it my favorite of his

31. Character/s you would go on a road trip with?

you see its actually genuinely hard to scratch me out of the house. it has to be worth it. with that in mind... kai and nao are the safest bet. we would probably survive and i wouldnt even want to get out of the car and run the fuck away at any opportunity.

you see characters i like for their narrative value and amount of amusement they bring me and characters i like as people are two very different, well, different for the most part, because we do have kai here, lists of such

[1d1195]

HIIIIII SAMMMMMMMMM HONEYYYYY💓💓💓💓💓💓

Sorry for replying so late! Anyways, from our last convo, I totally get about balance being hard, I think I try to be healthy but being very unhealthy and then I just get too worked up on being great at every aspect...that might sound condescending and narcissistic, I get it...but living in the environment I am in, nothing seems good honestly...it feels like everything I am doing is a mistake so i feel I'm only worthy if every aspect of my life is perfect. If its not grades, its health, or mental health, or my weight or face, so I am constantly trying to achieve it all, it is so exhausting being in that pessimistic place...now that i write this, maybe that is where obsession come from, because I'm so eager to escape reality, I will take any new, dopamine inducing part of my life and turn into 'my world', you know?

Also please don't ever stress about posting...tbh you not posting immediately makes me want to read your previous stuff or re-read my favsss, so even in your absence, you have been a delight.

In other news, actually no other news, I have been planning my tbr that I am going to have after exams...I really wanna read a good enemies to lovers like a crisp one but I don't wanna buy one of those corny books where they are enemies for like two chapters and one of them didn't even hate the other, nothing wrong with corny, i just need some action... people recommend the cruel prince and if i buy that it will be my first fantasy book, have you read that? What's your favourite trope besides soulmate because I know dolcezza was made from that 🤧🤧🤧 (imissthemandgarlicbread)

Geez that is long, anywayss hope you have an amazing day and incredible week and all your wishes come trueeee buh byeeeee 💞💘����💖💗💓💕

-🧸

No I get it, I'm quite the perfectionist too about these kinds of things. If I'm not immediately good at it, I give up completely. I'm sorry you don't feel your environment is helping you thrive! That's extremely disheartening! I know you're studying to go into a medical profession--I obviously don't know a lot about it myself but I've seen a lot on TV and I hear a lot of things--I'm sure it's very common to feel the way you're feeling. I think there is an immense pressure on people in the medical field and I know you've put an immense pressure on yourself as well. I hope you figure out a good balance so you're able to enjoy the parts of learning the field that you've been studying for!

That sounds like a great book! I've never read it--had to Google it! I'm not really a fantasy kind of gal. I get a little overwhelmed with new worlds and phrases and I think if I got a good book and a got into it I would surely like it, just hasn't been the kind of thing I would pick up myself these days. The only enemies to lovers book I read recently was about Christmas and now I don’t even remember the name of it lol but it probably wasn’t real enemies like you were saying. On that same thread regarding a good enemies to lovers: I feel like you just described Zipper 😉 they were like enemies* but not really hehehehe

My favorite trope, oh Lord. I really don't know! Definitely a soulmate girly as you pointed out (I miss my garlic bread couple too). There's so many. Let me Google.

Probs these ones HAHAHAHAHA only one bingo, though so I’m not too dramatic I guess. But let me tell you how fast I fold for a “who did this you” or “hates everyone but you”

I'm just a sucker for any basic rom-com structure.

Don’t ever say sorry for the long messages. I love it!

Hope you have a magical weekend! 💕

Xoxo

[tansyuduri]

Hi! 🍋💌📎 for the ask? :)

🍋 favorite genre to read / watch / write I actually have two to read and watch and I know this will come as an ABSOLUTE SHOCKER but fantasy and historical fiction. To write is mostly fantasy. Fanfiction especially because my anxiety doesn't go lakdjsaldk;jasdlkas as much! OH also RP I do a lot of RP writing! Mostly in video games ATM! I'm a Storyteller+more on a Conan Exiles server that I view as my fantasy history playground. 💌 why did you start this blog? My original blog was dragon aged themes from back when I wrote in that fandom. but tumblr was not that healthy for me then for a variety of reasons. I left I tried coming back a few sporadic times. During one I revised this blog. But then when my brain recently latched onto Merlin and I actualy found the fandom (Its been wonderful here) and my new "emotional support romantic bantering idiots" I decided to come back to tumblr. I'm able to use it in a much more healthy way now. I cannot find the paperclip but this one has a little box so I assume its it 🪻what is the toughest thing you had to go through, but can say you’ve successfully overcome?

I would say its a path of them

(Warning for those triggered by someone being suicidal) In winter 2016 I got hospitalized for being suicidal twice, We had had to take me off one of my medications and we thought I might be able to function off of it. We were wrong and it turned out the medication was also hiding the fact I had developed Bipolar disorder. I literally lost touch with reality for a while. Part of my treatment was having electroconvulsive therapy for a few years. While It helped me get healthy again it did leave me hazy at times and the initial treatment threw the fantasy world and characters I was writing fanfic about out of my mind. Shortly after I didn't need it anymore I developed a Genetic disorder in which my body reacted badly to certain things causing my amonia levels to spike. For a long time, I stoped writing because it was not the same as before Then in november I got a bit sick. I was barly eating anything which helped with the amonia And I was also into merlin, I started writing a drabble and it turned into a long fic. My hunger has come back But I'm eating less than I was before (Not to an unhealthy level not to worry) because I have a reason to limit my diet more. I'm writing again. Merlin gave me back my writing and I remember telling myself that if I could ever write again I would not let old anxieties and perfectionistic traits stop me. I'm in a much healthier place mentally too. Writing doesn't always feel like it used to. There are not the moments I used to have where I'm in the flow and everything feels perfect in the world. But I'm writing more than I even could back then and it makes me happy. And proud of myself.

[in-my-feels-probably]

Congrats on hitting 1.2k!! I love your writing and am so happy you are getting the recognition you deserve!

I'd like to participate in your 1.2k celebration! I'd like to go with the Harry Potter fandom (marauders era) and would be preferred to be romantically matched up with a guy.

I'm a quiet girl who's been working a lot on confidence and finding myself. And it's been working, I'm going to the gym because it's fun and not because of unhealthy reasons, I'm taking my time thinking and observing life instead of being too busy to enjoy life, I'm communicating well with family and friends. I truly see the world in a positive manner, and I always want to spread kindness! But I also have a darkish humor, I love joking around saying 'thats what she said jokes' and teasing and just overall being rough and fun!

I always have off days though that get me sad and moody and bitchy. Which is why my main love language to calm me down would be physical touch. I love the way arms wrap around me and kisses i can give and nuzzles. It makes me feel so loved, especially when I'm extremely critical about myself. I'm a perfectionists and it really affects me when something doesn't really meet my standards. But I'm getting better at accepting that nothing is perfect and that I just gotta roll with it. Lots of kind self talk and yoga keep me grounded.

Music is a big part of my life, I love listening to it and playing it with my violin! Currently my favorite songs are Locked and Loaded by LAEL, Toki Doki by Takenobu, Oblivion by Halfy and Winks, Remembrance by Balmorhea and Bloom by Throttle (I would love you to death if you listened to them! Hehe)

I love to read but have a hard time prioritizing time to sit down and actually read. I'm currently reading the Throne of Glass series and it's so good!

I also loove food, I try new dishes and gobble anything down when I'm hungry. And I get them gains going to the gym, playing sports and running.

Hehe that what a big dump but thank you ! I hope your blog keeps on growing! ❤️❤️

hi!

thanks for participating :)

i ship you with james!

i don’t think james would have a problem with you being quieter. he’s a generally loud person, he can make up for anything you don’t put out. i think he’s a very intuitive person. he’d be able to tell when you were uncomfortable, and he could tell when you were beginning to settle in. he’d see all the work you’re putting in to trying to better yourself and gain confidence, and he’d be so proud of you. he’d try his best to help, working you into any social situations he’s in so you know he’s there with you. hed definitely be a good gym boyfriend to have. he’d make sure you were doing all that you could to stay healthy and not strain yourself, and he’d be such a hype man to give you motivation. he’s such a positive person, it would kinda bleed into you.

i do think there’s a darker side to him, not that that’s a bad thing. he’d find your sense of humor intriguing. he would love playful banter with you, you’d challenge him to keep up with you and always be on his toes. although he’s a positive person, i think he has days where he finds it really hard to be positive. he’s always such a light for everyone else, and so people forget that they need to check on him too. but you wouldn’t forget, and you’d always make sure he was feeling alright. and when you started growing into yourself and becoming more positive, it would start to effect him. he’s such a perfectionist. i know he doesn’t seem like one, since things look like they come so easily to him. but he constantly feels pressure on his shoulders, the weight of so much that he gets overwhelmed and doesn’t know how to manage it all. he could be having such a bad day, but seeing you and seeing how much progress you’ve made would just make his day so much better. i think he’s a very touchy person, ids definitely one of his main love languages, and he’d be a firm believer that there’s nothing a really good huh can’t fix.

james is definitely a foodie. he’s always so active, he gets hungry quite easily. i think good food would remind him of his moms cooking, and he’d always be down to go somewhere and eat. quality time is another one of his love languages, and any excuse to hang out with you is fine by him. expect many trips to hogsmeade to eat and get some sweets while you shop.

i don’t think james is a big reader. he’s always so busy, he’s got other ways to fill his time. but he’d definitely understand wanting to do something and not knowing how to properly manage his time. i think he’s got some undiagnosed adhd going on, and he’s just a little forgetful. but he’d know you’ve been meaning to get around to reading your book, and so he’d decide that spending quality time with you was just an opportunity to basically force you to read.

he’d be very content to lay down with you while you made, and maybe even ask you to read out loud to him so he could listen. i can see him getting really excited about a plot, especially if it’s fantasy.

“why didn’t you tell me this book had dragons in it? that’s so cool!”

you’d laugh, slipping a bookmark into the page. “if i had known all i had to do to get you to pick up a book for once was tell you there was dragons in it, i would have done it a lot sooner.”

“hey!” he’d scold, wrapping his arm around your shoulders and pulling you down next to him. “be nice to me! when do i ever tease you?”

“just about every day,” you’d muse, raising a brow.

he’d grin, wrapping his other arm around you as he pulled you closer. “maybe…but it’s funny when i do it. you’re just mean.”

“i think you can take it, love,” you’d chuckle, but you’d wrap your arms around him and cuddle close to him. “i’m kidding, if that wasn’t obvious. you know that right?”

you may tease each other all the time, but you’d never want him to feel like you actually meant anything you were saying. he’d laugh it off, and try his best to make sure you didn’t see that it hurt him, like he does with other people.

but he’d know you were kidding this time. he’d smile down at you, feeling his heart warm at you checking in on him like that.

“i know, darling,” he’d say, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. “now keep reading. you’ve got me hooked.”

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hi again! sorry for taking a bit to answer this, i’ve been in a bit of a writing slump. i hope you liked this! thanks again for participating :)

[olenvasynyt]

How many works do you have on AO3? 1 😀 But I got at least 5 or 6 drafted I’m just a perfectionist

What’s your total AO3 word count? a nice, healthy 27,790

What fandoms do you write for?  ACOTAR.  All I think about is ACOTAR.  It’s unhealthy.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?  A Court of Embers and Sunlight

Do you respond to comments? Omg absolutely!  I love reading and responding to comments!  I will write chapter-long comment when responding too lmao it’s just another way for me to gush about what I’m writing

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? ….well A Court of Embers And Sunlight in a canon-compliant backstory of Lucien’s life in Autumn so I think you can figure out how it’ll end

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? I got a smut fic of Lucien coming inside Elain and then eating her out so that’s probably the happiest.  Just the smut ones are happy though, everything else is sad af

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yeah I do!  I got Jesminda and Lucien smut which includes a lot of semi-public and outdoor sex…got a Crescent City Day and Night BDSM fic.  I’m not sure how good I am or how to explain the specifics but I do enjoy writing it 

Do you write crossovers? Not really, but I got an Outlander inspired Elucien fic in the works!

Have you ever had a fic translated? Nah, that would be cool though

Have you ever co-written a fic before? Yeah!  Me and my two friends were working on an ACOTAR AU fic of the cast in a 2014 college.  All of the chapters are named after 2014 songs, Feyre is a struggling artist who drinks starbucks, Azriel is a famous masked streamer, and Lucien and Elain are in a sweet loving college relationship and smoke weed on the porch during frat parties and make fun of people

What is your all-time favorite ship? Ugh fuck.  I love Elucien so so much but honestly, Jesminda/Lucien has my heart.  I think about both 24/7.

What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? At this point?  Every single one of my drafts 😭

What are your writing strengths? Worldbuilding and prose.  I feel like worldbuilding is something that comes very easily to me.  I can spend months coming up with different faerie races that are inspired by history and myths and cultures, and I love thinking about the geography of the Autumn Court and Pyrthian.  I just love coming up with details about the world and making it feel real.  It’s my favorite part of fantasy!  And I love describing the surroundings, like the nature a character is walking in, or the room decor.  I love to be immersed in the visuals.  Food descriptions?  Yum, give it to me.  Outfits?  Omg yes yes yes I got entire Pinterest boards for character’s outfits.  

What are your writing weaknesses?  I feel like a bunch of things but I’m also such a perfectionist 😭 I struggle with dialogue; I get stuck a lot because I’m thinking too much into it or it doesn’t flow well.  And I think just striving for perfection is my biggest weakness because it really drags me down in a lot of different scenarios.  And it leads to procrastinating…

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Oh, that would be a dream!  I definitely can’t do that though lmao, but I’d love to be able to in the future.  

First fandom you wrote for? ACOTAR!  But fun fact: I have also been writing an original fantasy series for several years but I took a break to get some practice and my Lucien x Jesminda fic was my practice!

Favorite fic you’ve written? A Court of Embers and Sunlight for sure.  It has basically been my life 24/7.  I am constantly thinking about it, constantly daydreaming…I love it so much. I just need to get it out into the world lmao. 

Every fanfic writer I know has been tagged lmao so I’ll just leave it at that and stalk the reblogs to read your submissions 👀

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 21

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 488,773

3. What fandoms do you write for? ACOTAR (active), Crescent City (active), A Song of Ice and Fire (former), The Big Bang Theory (former), Twilight (former - not on AO3), That 70's Show (former - not on AO3).

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?  The Pon Farr Hypothesis (Shenny, The Big Bang Theory), The Sweet Vibrations Discovery (Shenny, The Big Bang Theory), Burn Forever With Me (Elucien, ACOTAR), Summer Heat (Elucien & Erixius, ACOTAR), Our Hearts Still Beat the Same (Elucien, ACOTAR)

5. Do you respond to comments? Yes! I try my best to respond to all comments these days. I like having conversations with my readers!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I don't do angsty endings. I'm demure. I'm mindful.

LOL, but no really, I almost always do some kind of hopeful/HEA kind of ending. But I have written some angsty drabbles. There is a Satharion drabble you can find in my drabble series called Mr. and Mrs. Ketos that is pretty sad for the prompt "to distract".

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Most of them. I'm a fluff girl. I think the happiest of happy is likely Burn Forever With Me because it's basically Elucien accepting the mating bond and going into a frenzy. Which how much happier can you get?

8. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yes. Loads. At this point, the real question is when do I not write smut? And the answer is, not often.

My smut is very descriptive. I give people the manual. I like to make it immersive. I also have been told my smut is "smut with feelings" or "tender fucking". Which isn't to say it doesn't get raw and dirty. But I always am looking for what is the emotional core of this smut scene. How are they expressing love in this moment, even if it's one character snowballing cum into another's mouth? I also am always looking to make you kick your feet, even in the midst of a sex scene, so whenever I can, I try to show those little moments of tender touches that happen during sex.

9. Do you write crossovers? Yes! Actually I wrote a few crossovers when I was in That 70s Show fandom - notoriously cross overs with slasher films because loads of them had teenagers in the 70s haha. I haven't done one for ACOTAR yet, but I do have an ACOTAR/Crescent City Modern AU I've been thinking of for a while.

10. Have you ever had a fic translated? Not that I know.

11. Have you ever co-written a fic before? YES! Quite a lot. I've co-written with three authors. Two when I was in That 70's show fandom. And I've written two fics with my ACOTAR bff @crazy-ache and we have more plans in the future to keep writing together. I love co-writing. It's a great way to grow as a writer. And the creativity that comes from two brains is BIG.

12. What is your all-time favorite ship? I can't answer that. My OTPs are my children. All my ships I feel longing for, in different ways. I will say, I have been the most prolific with Elucien in terms of frequency of writing in a short amount of time. So clearly they have really touched a big part of me.

13. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I mean all the fics I abandoned when I was younger? Definitely those lol.

14. What are your writing strengths? Dialogue. As seen above, I have written for a lot of sitcom fandoms, and when you write for those fandoms, you get practice with writing with sitcom cadence which really helps with writing pithy dialogue in other genres. I also think I am a very good introspective writer. I think I am best being inside characters' heads. I also do think I am good at smut. I wouldn't write it so much if I didn't think so.

15. What are your writing weaknesses?  SHUTTING THE FUCK UP. No seriously, I do tend to be on the wordy side. It's one of the reasons I get into drabble moods because I do need to learn to be more concise and try to execute a scene without making it 5000 words. I also write very wordy sentences that need to be slashed and slashed.

16. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Oh, I doubt I'll be able to do that. I only know English.

17. First fandom you wrote for? That 70's Show!

18. Favorite fic you’ve written? Ack! Okay, that is so so hard. I don't even know what I'd say. I guess, if I had to absolutely choose, I would say Summer Heat because I think it is emblematic of all my skills as a writer in one fic. And it's the fic I introduced Alexius - the first OC I ever fully fleshed out and developed, and that will ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart because Alexius has given me so much confidence I never knew I had being a writer. He's really let me know that I can write original content with original characters on my own and shown me how to do it.

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No one tagged me 😭. But I ended up doing this anyways because I've been really wanting to and I decided I'd rather risk being a loser. But, to make sure no one else feels like a loser who wants to do it, I'm tagging everyone I can think of that I don't think I've seen do this. Sorry if you're tagged again and you did this! And if I didn't tag you I'm sorry. Please just be like me and go for it. At least we did it together!

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