#my despair helps no one!!!!
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mylittleredgirl Ā· 3 months ago
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i know ā€œvisualize world peaceā€ is a bumper sticker cliche they were already making fun of forty years ago but i think i literally have to start doing that or iā€™m going to go insane. in all seriousness from now on i need to spend five minutes at the beginning and end of every day just purposely imagining a future where in a hundred years the world is peaceful and just and sustainable so that i can get up and fold the laundry thatā€™s been on the floor for seven days and watch my neighborā€™s kids and vote for the district representative who wants to build affordable housing. the hippies who made those bumper stickers did so under the threat of mutually assured destruction and just because the end of the cold war didnā€™t end war, it doesnā€™t mean they were wrong to believe it could. weā€™re drowning in blood and hurricanes and the only way i can get my head above water and keep dog paddling in the right direction is to intentionally kindle the hope that our childrenā€™s childrenā€™s children can still live better lives on a more loving world.
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mocha-tapioca Ā· 4 months ago
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pov xander eye reveal speedrun (gone wrong)
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lleclerc Ā· 6 months ago
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iceman + his concern for maverick post-hop 31
#icemav#top gun edit#ice is a FASCINATING one to watch post-hop 31 imo because while yesā€š obviouslyā€š the focus is on maverick and his grief and devastation#ice is there the whole time in the backgroundā€š watching. and he's visibly disturbed by what he's seeing. because yeah -#he and mav had a rivalry going and yeah he called maverick dangerous and reckless to his face and he stands by that - he does.#but the problem is that this time - this one fluke freak accident of a time - it wasn't maverick's fault at all.#an unrecoverable flat spin brought on by a compressor stall from ice's jetwash isn't something that maverick could've outflown#by sticking to textbook maneuvers. it was just shit luck and shitty circumstances aligning to create a tragic mishap.#but now - now ice can see the way maverick is unraveling in the aftermath#and i'd bet that on some level it terrifies him to see that.#he's used to seeing maverick with all that brash cocky confidence with the moves to back it up.#he's maybe even had a bit of fun jockeying against that. not that he'd admit that out loud. (yet)#but maverick's spiraling now - a hollowed out shell of his former self - leaking grief and self-doubt and despair everywhere he goes#and it actually hurts to look at for iceā€š seeing maverick like this. seeing how much maverick really REALLY fucking cared under that facade#and wondering if maverick is finally taking the stuff ice said to him to heartā€š but applying it all wrong.#so he watches maverick and eventually that concern builds to a point where he tries to offer an olive branch in the locker room#you can SEE how carefully he gathers himself - how much he's holding back - he doesn't want to say the wrong thing to maverick NOW#he doesn't want to make this worse than it already is. so it comes out stilted. it's earnest - but restrained. he can't find his footing.#he doesn't know where he and maverick stand now but he's sorry - that goose is goneā€š that maverick's going through thisā€š#that he doesn't know how to help or what to sayā€š and - crucially - for his own part in this.#but he wants mav to stick around and push through this. even though he's dangerous. even though he's reckless. ice wants him to beat this.#so when maverick shows up to graduationā€š ice is encouraged. and he's a little warmer. maverick really might pull through.#but thenā€š all too soonā€š it's ice's life on the line in maverick's hands. and it scares the shit out of him because maverick's not ready#and now ice - and slider - are going to have to pay the price for that.#and thenā€š against all oddsā€š maverick pushes through. he comes back for them. he comes back for ice.#and after that...well.#after thatā€š ice does know what to say: a vow.#my amvs#linds original
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woolying Ā· 6 months ago
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i cant believe dead trio isnt gonna be a trio for much longer !!!
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poorly-drawn-mdzs Ā· 1 year ago
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Collection of edits from this comic with Disco Elysium dialogue.
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9ofspades Ā· 6 months ago
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Itā€™s disability pride month, and if you are disabled in the U.S. from Long Covid I want you to know that youā€™re not alone, and youā€™re valid in whatever you feel. Whether thatā€™s sorrow at your new problems or rage at society for failing you, you are valid, and it is truly messed up that society is continuing to fail you.
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monkey-overalls Ā· 9 months ago
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šŸ’› Head Over Heels šŸ©·
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another-clive-blog Ā· 1 year ago
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Why are we as a fandom not talking more about this scene ??
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Clive is literally asking the professor to come back and stop him. Like this isn't him pretending to be Future Luke : he looks genuinely upset/displeased even after the professor promises to come back. He only goes back to smiling after the professor says, and I quote "I wouldn't dream of leaving things here in that state" before talking about stopping his future self. Clive wants confirmation that Layton is actually going to confront the bad guys, that he won't just solve the mystery but fix it too.
And this is literally so important. Clive's speech at the end, about getting saved. This is concrete proof that he had truly meant it from the start, because he's asking for Layton to stop him and thus save everyone here. Which, hey- he didn't just hope and wait to get saved, he tried to save himself too.
Yep, that's right. The game talks about how dangerous it was for Clive to bring Layton underground : it doesn't talk about how even more dangerous it was to let him leave. He could have brought back cops (he did). He could have gathered precious knowledge out there (he did). He could have never come back (and yet he did !!). Clive letting Layton leave is the biggest threat to his plan, and yet HE DID. And you know what else he did ? Make Layton promise to stop him. You can't make a clearer call for help, you just can't.
"Oh but it doesn't make his crimes more forgivable, now does it-" of course not. This isn't about Clive's redemption, it's about Clive trying to avoid needing a redemption : his efforts are vain the moment he started using the fortress. But. There were efforts.
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badoccultadvice Ā· 5 months ago
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While it's sort of fun to invent new recipes out of the dwindling ingredients we have left in the pantry, I think it would be more fun if you supported us on KoFi so that we can buy cat food, milk, and protein.
The state is dragging its feet on food stamps for no reason and my disability application is moving at the speed of molasses, otherwise I wouldn't even ask. But we could really, really, really use help right now.
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rillils Ā· 1 year ago
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written for round 5 @stuckybingo, square I5 - Looking after each other wordcount: 1411 pairing: Steve/Bucky additional tags: fluff, kidfic, general silliness, slice of life, dorks in love, dorks in love + their baby
Steve never believed in sunscreen, no matter how many times he got the hide scorched off of him. Used to just sit there and let the sun fry his skin, seemingly content to suffer through all the pretty stages of a sunburn, the blistering and the peeling, the stinging and the itching.
The serum just gave his stubborn ass one more excuse to walk outside in all his dumb, unprotected glory.
ā€œYou know itā€™ll have healed by tomorrow anyway,ā€ he would shrug in the face of Buckyā€™s reasonable worry. But oh, how heā€™d hiss and cuss through gritted teeth, Later That Same Day, when Bucky inevitably wound up spreading cool aloe over his poor, neon-bright shoulders, the shade of them a hot raw pink thatā€™d probably get them both sued by Mattel sooner or later.
ā€œFuck. Fuck. I always forget how bad it gets. How do I always forget how bad it gets.ā€
And it would take a herculean effort for Bucky to refrain from saying ā€˜I told you soā€™, but refrain he would; heā€™d simply smooth his aloe-covered fingers down to the small of Steveā€™s back, where the tan line made his creamy-pale asscheeks stand out like two (somewhat flabbergasted) halves of a moon, and heā€™d lean over to whisper-kiss a fond, ā€œDumbassā€, against the crown of Steveā€™s head.
* It was fatherhood that flipped that particular switch for Steve.
Already within the first few weeks of her life, Sarah Barnes-Rogers managed a colossal feat which several people, including her very own namesake, had been fruitlessly attempting for no less than a century: knock some sense into her father.
That summer, they brought their five-month-old baby to the beach for the first time, and suddenly Steveā€™s baseline shifted from a glaring zero, to at least three separate bottles of sunscreen tucked in his backpack at all times ā€“ and he wielded them as dramatically and determinedly as King Arthur pulling his sword from the Stone.
ā€œNever thought Iā€™d see the day,ā€ Bucky teased while Steve re-applied lotion on their daughter, and then himself, for the third time in one morning, the delicate scent of coconut wrapped around them like a gentle cloud.
ā€œProtection is important,ā€ retorted his husband, always 101% ready to rise to the challenge, even when it was ridiculous degrees outside and the average human felt distinctly like warm ice cream oozing, slow and tragic, towards an indecorous end on a sizzle-hot curb. Sarah wriggled excitedly in his lap, her pudgy little body slippery like a newborn dolphin.
ā€œImportant for you, too? Really? I thought you were gonna heal by tomorrow anyway.ā€
Steve glared at him, mouth pouting with growing intensity within the neatly groomed frame of his beard.
ā€œWe lead by example,ā€ he said petulantly, and since he couldnā€™t exactly stomp away ā€“ at least not with all the dramatic flair required by such indignity as Bucky was willfully subjecting him to ā€“ he settled for looking away instead, fixing the hat over Sarahā€™s ears to keep his hands occupied. Stubborn, mulish smartass. Bucky was sure heā€™d never loved him quite so ardently as he did in that moment.
He leaned between their loungers and smacked the loudest kiss on Steveā€™s coconut-scented cheek, not bothering (oh, not too much) to hide his smug grin. ā€œGood.ā€
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Now, all things considered, itā€™s no wonder that Sarahā€™s grown to be such a sunscreen enthusiast.
The second they hit the beach, she wants nothing better than for Papa to help her get coated in the stuff, from head to wiggly toe; and once the procedure is complete, sheā€™ll scuttle off at lightning speed, drop to the ground, and ā€“ to Buckyā€™s endless horror ā€“ roll about until sheā€™s got every bit of her greased-up self nice and caked in sand. Sand which they'll still find sprinkled in every corner, crease and crinkle of every towel, bag and piece of clothing they own for a couple of months at least, but what is parenthood if not self-sacrifice?
Before she gets to that, though, Sarah has her own self-appointed job to do.
She plucks the bottle from Steveā€™s hand and, as per their private ritual, manhandles him into lying on his belly, announcing with her sweet, recently tooth-gapped smile, ā€œIā€™ll do your back!ā€
Steve always indulges her with a smile of his own, and lets her climb onto the small of his back, ready to surrender himself to Sarahā€™s loving, if somewhat fierce ministrations.
For once, though, she doesnā€™t simply smear the lotion around with her usual excitement. On the contrary, she holds the bottle up and squeezes it meticulously, her brow scrunched up in concentration as she works with slow, strangely deliberate moves.
Itā€™s only after a minute or so that Bucky really sees what sheā€™s trying to do; and by then, her masterpiece is all but complete. The sight of it makes his heart clench with unexpected fondness.
ā€œDaddy! Daddy, can you take a picture? I wanna show Papa, please!ā€
He takes one look at her hopeful little face, at the blond curls falling over her eyes, the sun-kissed freckles already crowding the bridge of her nose so early in the summer, and thereā€™s no way in hell heā€™d ever even dream of saying no.
ā€œā€™Course, baby,ā€ he says, reaching for his phone with no further ado.
ā€œShow me what?ā€ Steve pipes up, twisting his neck to try and peek over his shoulder. ā€œWhatā€™re you guys doing back there?ā€
ā€œNuh-uh,ā€ Bucky tuts, pushing Steveā€™s head back down to rest atop his crossed arms, ā€œyou stay put for a second, doll. Canā€™t ruin this shot. Alright, here we go.ā€ The camera clicks softly, once. ā€œHm. Nope.ā€ Twice. ā€œEhā€“ almost.ā€ Thrice. ā€œHa! There. Perfect.ā€
He helps Sarah down from her perch on Steveā€™s back, very, very careful not to smudge her precious work, then hands her the smartphone. ā€œGo ahead, baby, show Papa what a good job you did.ā€
In her eagerness, Sarah all but shoves the phone right in Steveā€™s face, with a squeal of ā€œPa! Look, look!ā€, watching him expectantly.
Itā€™s there, on the screen, that Steve finally gets to see it. A message just for him, spanning almost his entire back, spelling, in Sarahā€™s wonky six-year-old handwriting, ā€œI LOVE YOU PA ā™„ā€, big squiggly heart included.
Steve doesnā€™t breathe for three whole seconds; and when he starts again, itā€™s with a soft, awestruck, ā€œOh.ā€
And it might be the stark light, or the warm breeze, or the scent of ocean salt in the air, but when he props himself up on his elbows to look at their daughter, his eyes have a familiar, watery shine to them. One of his strong arms wraps around Sarahā€™s middle and pulls her in, and he plants a kiss on her forehead, smiling all the while. ā€œLove you too, munchkin. Itā€™s beautiful, thank you so much.ā€
ā€œYah!ā€
Satisfied with the feedback, Sarah can finally run off to fulfill her destiny as a pocket-size sand monster. Steve gazes adoringly after her, then lifts his big, gleaming puppy eyes on Bucky, looking about as lovestruck as Buckyā€™s ever seen him in the last ninety-five years or so.
ā€œBuck,ā€ he says, soft and just, just on the cusp of choked up. How anyone ever thought they could teach this guy not to wear his heart on his sleeve, Buckyā€™ll never understand.
ā€œYeah, big guy. I know. I know,ā€ he soothes, hovering close to place a sympathetic kiss on the swell of Steveā€™s bicep. ā€œListen, Iā€™m gonna ask a dumb question here.ā€
Steve blinks up at him, curious.
ā€œDo you maybe want me to fix your back for you, so you donā€™t actually burn to a crisp?ā€
And see, the truth is, he already knows the answer. He knows it with even greater certainty when Steve sinks his face in the crook of his own elbow, half laughing, half groaning, and a hundred percent utterly defeated.
Of course not. Of course heā€™s gonna lie directly in the nearest sunbeam, and let himself bake there until the words are branded onto his skin, pale white on Barbie-box pink, no matter how short-lived theyā€™ll be.
ā€œYep. Called it.ā€ He gives Steveā€™s bicep a gentle pat-pat, knowing that in about ten hours, even that will make Steve hiss with unrepentant, self-inflicted pain - and possibly loving him just that wee bit more for this tiniest of derring-doā€™s. ā€œIā€™ll make sure to grab some more aloe on our way home.ā€
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dazais-guardian-angel Ā· 9 months ago
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kinda wild to me that one of the most compelling aspects of both Chuuya and Kunikida's characters to me, that I never really see talked about, is how they're heavily set on a doomed crash course towards complete and utter destruction, and how I am so, so worried for them both.....
#bungou stray dogs#been thinking a lot about chuuya lately (shocking for me i know (said with no sarcasm truly lmao it is rare for me))#cause of the 15 manga and also playing the fucking jeht quest in genshin impact ugh (where's the one dual genshin bsd fan who Understands)#but like this pressure has been building up for chuuya for so long due to being used and manipulated by all these people#first the sheep then mori then verlaine then still mori now#he was groomed since childhood just like dazai#but unlike dazai he didn't have an oda to help him get out of the mafia........ he's still stuck there#and his personality is different from dazai's. dazai was more self-aware imo (but still a groomed emotionally abused kid don't get me wrong#but chuuya's whole thing is needing to belong and wanting a leader to be loyal to but ending up in positions of leadership himself#which makes him feel pressured but he accepts and stifles any negative feelings just because he wants to belong#and all this crushed him with the events in the light novels and yeah he went through character growth but he's...... Still In The Mafia...#and that fucking scene asagiri added to the cannibalism stage play i don't think hardly anyone even knows about bc IT'S NOT DISCUSSED ANYMO#where mori emotionally manipulates him with the flags!!! and it deeply hurts him!!! and he presumably deals with that shit all the time!!!#it is WORRISOME. it WORRIES ME okay.#chuuya doesn't have anyone who can save him from the mafia (dazai is in no position to okay; it's all he can do just to try to save himself#and it's so so scary. it spells awful things for him.#didn't asagiri say he'd have a rough path or something??? and he added that fucking scene in the play!!! it haunts me!!#i fully expected this shit to hit a turning point in the meursault arc but we can't have nice things i guess#and as for kunikida a;lskdfl (took me this long to get to him oop) literally the ending of Entrance Exam (the novel) is just#One Big Foreshadowing for Kunikida's downfall#he's compared to the azure king for a reason. Sasaki saw the azure king in him for a reason. it's fucking worrying!!!!!#there hasn't really been anything like that since in the manga (just like for chuuya lol ugh) but he's TERRIBLE at coping with his trauma#and it only gets more apparent once shit hit the fan in the doa/hunting dogs/meursault arc#it's not good!!! i'm worried for kunikida too!!!!#even if the manga isn't focusing on this these worries are always in the back of my mind man#both kunikida and chuuya are doomed to hit some kind of breaking point eventually and i await those moments with dread yet anticipation#i want dazai to be able to save kunikida from the despair being too good a person brings the way he couldn't save oda#and chuuya.... if we get a scene with him & mori mirroring the one in dark era where dazai finds out that mori orchestrated the kids' death#oh man i think i'll fucking die (give it to me i need to cry)
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seraphic-sibyl Ā· 2 months ago
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I should have been born a frog. I should have been born a frog. I should have been born a frog. I should have been born a frog. I should have been born a frog. I should have been born a frog. I should have been
#us elections#us politics#election 2024#i talked to an older friend today and he helped a lot#being with people helps#reminding myself that people care helps#47.5% of people in the usa care#which is a minority but at least it's close enough of a minority to a coin flip that i can always find good people#i am trying to be positive and not live out these last two months of peace in despair#being alone hurts more and i spent too much time today doomscrolling but i need some time to prepare for what i might see in the future#i do not want to make plans i do not want to make plans i should not NEED TO HAVE PLANS FOR A PRESIDENTIAL ELECTION#when i was 15 i had a whole plan for a novel i wanted to write. it was a whole carpe diem/memento mori about living life before it's over#it was going to be a good book. but now i'm not sure i believe in what i am saying enough to write it.#and i am not sure if it would be what the world needs.#but it would have been a good book. it would have been an amazing book and i didn't want to start because i didn't know how#and i wanted to wait until i had more writing and life experience to do it justice#and now i just don't have the OPTIMISM to do it justice and now it may never be written#moral of the story is write the thing NOW edit later make the thing now while you are still passionate about it existing#contrary to the contents of this post i am actually doing much better than i was this morning.#today an irl friend held my hand as i cried under a couch and an online friend reached out to make sure i am okay and i am not alone.#a lot of it is cold comfort. but at least i am regaining some faith in humanity. not all of it. i will never again have all of it.#but i will have enough.#i am a little more afraid of dying young than i was this morning and that is good. that is good.#i am not the only one who has lived through a historical event.#i will do a lot more tiredposting in the near future#especially as inauguration day comes up#but for now in the tags i feel at least a little better.#seraph rambles#seraph originals#side note: the content of the actual post is reminding me of otherkin back in like the 2010s lol remember when that was a thing on tumblr
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sillysealll Ā· 8 months ago
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Yā€™all Iā€™m really having a dickroy brainrot thatā€™s not funny. Iā€™ve created 2 AUs already and more are forming
Help me
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donutdrawsthings Ā· 2 months ago
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Ok based on some messages I've been receiving, I feel like I have to say something!
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amberinn Ā· 2 months ago
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Trying out my new drawing tablet this is Whit Young btw šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ™
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luck-of-the-drawings Ā· 8 months ago
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when i was in highschool one o my biggest coping mechanisms was drawing all the kids i hated getting killed and eaten and killed. and well. time is a slowly ascending spiral. you will find patterns.(i work as a blackjack dealer. gamblers are FASCINATING
#cw blood#luckys original content#ITS SMALL BUT ITS ART SO IT GOES ON THE ART BLOG#also wwaooooww its meee its my lil persona!!! i dont draw myself enough....#anyway i have bigger things in the works. im slowly but surely chipping away at a pd thumbnail for that pd thumbnail project#FINALLY COLORING. BUT COLORING IS SO HARD AND I HAVNT BEEN IN THE COLORING MOOD#SO IVE JUST BEEN MAKING RLY DUMB COMICS INSTEAD... OOPS..#idk if anything finished n polished will be posted here anytime soon. BUT i post wips of everything on my twitter#and i post jrwi exclusive wips on my slucky blog. you may look at those if u have Truck Art Wishdrawls. as many do. as many do#THIS BLACKJACK JOB IS RLY AWESOME BTW DONT GET ME WRONG#i work three 12-hour days ina row. i gotta take an hourlong bus up to the depths o the mountains and then#i get to stay in this delightful lil hotel that was built in an ooold hospital. its a whole casino town. and an OLD one at that#ITS GORGEOUS HERE. last week my bus home was delayed for 2 hours#so i finally got the chance to head to other casinos and try drinkin n gambling. lost ten bucks to a pretty girl. NOT the first time#i rlly wanna try it again!!! i love interracting w ppl and i love being inebriated in public bc im just so sweet and pleasant and friendly#and pretty girls LLOOOOVEE MEEEEE i think i just need to go to gay bars more#but theres fucking NONE HERE. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im collectin comrade queers up here tho#we wanna make a Group but we just gotta come up witha name first. i need something weird and strange#yknow i remember being in highschool. and being miserable n unmedicated. my mommas ultimatum was that;#if i dont drop out of highschool; i dont need to move out. she probably wouldntve kicked me out anyway bc my mommas sweet like that but#she REALLY wanted me to graduate. and i remember dreading that i might never do that#i remember feeling like the Resident Idiot. sweet but so so fucking dumb. it took me 7 years of strife n stress before i finally graduated#i remember worrying back then that i might not ever be able to handle myself out there. that i'd be too dependant on others#AND HERE I AM. DID U KNOW I WAS LOOKIN AT HOUSES A WHILE AGO? IM AN ADULT AND IM WWINNINNNGGGGGGG#IM RUNNING OUTA ROOM BUT HERES MY ADVICE TO YOU. BC I KNOW UR FUCKING SCARED TOO. THE ONE THING THAT SAVED ME.#THAT KEPT ME FROM SINKING INTO DESPAIR IS REMEMBERING ONE THING: ITS LITERALLY JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#MOST PPL YOU CAN JUST WALK UP TO N ASK A QUESTION N THEYLL ANSWER. THEYRE ALL NPCS THEYRE NOT REAL#LIKE IF U WALK INTO A BANK AND ASK HOW A DEBIT CARD WORKS THEY WILL HELP YOU#AND IF YOU THINK THEY HAVE ULTERIOR MOTIVES RELATING TO MONEY. YOU CAN ASK THE CUSTOMERS TOO. ITS JUST LIKE VIDEO GAMES#ANYWAY STAY SAFE KIDS HAVE FUNNNNN. IM GOING TO GO DO DRUGS NOW. HOPE U CAN DO DRUGS SOON TOO. I LOVE YOU
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