#my deepest darkest secret is this

[rafasbiscuits]

I'm curious if anyone else feels sad at the rise of Carlos Alcaraz...part of me wants to root for him. More than his brilliance, he seems like a really nice guy. BUT...I don't want Rafa's supreme legacy challenged in any way, shape, or form. I selfishly want Rafa to always be Spain's biggest icon and for his tennis records to be untouched. So I find myself rooting against Alcaraz. Plus, I just miss Rafa...

omg I def understand u anon!! (And u are def not the only one)

Now don't get me wrong, I love Carlitos, he is a great kid and ik he has a big future ahead of him, but I have this feeling of bitter against him, I am a Rafa fan first and foremost, more than anything else. And ik this might sound toxic but I just can't shake this feeling off.

See, Carlitos is just like us, he looks up to Rafa as well. But I'm scared of what might happen if the young Spaniard surpasses Rafa's brilliance. I want Rafa to be legendary forever, to be looked up as the Spanish Legend, King Of Clay forever. Only him. I wonder sometimes is this what the Sampras-Agassi fans felt when Roger appeared and beat Pete? I don't know but damn it doesn't feel great.

As much as I want Carlitos to be the future of tennis, a big part of me just wants Rafa to stay forever, and a part of me that I hate just don't want that (Carlitos as the future) to happen, I want Rafa's legacy to be only his. Untouched. I want him to be the Spanish tennis king forever. ik it's impossible but I can't help it. It's selfish, yes, but I want the future tennis fans to search up Google and when they search up "Greatest Spanish Tennis Player Of All Time" only Rafael Nadal is there. The only single answer.

Even Rafa likes him, why should I, as a mere fan feel this way? But you see, just because we are fans doesn't mean we shouldn't feel what we want to. I know that fans wants to respect their idols/celebs/athletes alot but we shouldn't ignore our own feelings. So it's okay to feel this way, it's selfish, but aren't we all?

I always wish and hope that Rafael Vs Carlos will never ever happen. It did already but I don't want to experience it anymore. What if Carlitos beats Rafa? I don't think I can deal with that, people will start to adore Carlitos more and declare Rafa as "finished" I can't deal with that, I seriously can't. I will pretend to be happy for Carlitos but ik deep down that I will always want Rafa to win. Even though the man I want to win will be so very happy for the boy I want to see lose. I can't help but feel so bad. But I just cannot help it.

And I beat myself up cause Carlitos is such a great kid. But I will be honest sometimes that I didn't want him to win some matches, I didn't want him to be number 1. At the time. See, my motto is fake it till you make it.

Every era comes to an end, and another era will bloom and continue. Maybe the future era will surpass the past's greatness, but all we can do right now is just focus on the present, support the athletes we want to support and love because we will never know when their retirement will come. Like how the Federer fans already lost their fav tennis player, maybe they stopped watching tennis, or maybe they found another younger player to support. It's just how life works.

Your feelings towards this is valid, definitely, and you aren't the only one. trust me.

(and I miss Rafa too, but he'll be playing in Monte Carlo so yay!!)

[blurbery]

i miss those nights when you would come over

spent all night tryna get closer

(that was june and now it's october,

i don't want to get over you)

[wishchip106]

how i look when talking about cherik

forcing everyone to hear my thoughts

NO ONE CAN ESCAPE 😨😨😨

[lalalin-imacancer]

Remember in the first book, after mid-terms Keefe gives Fitz a tunic that says "I know what you're thinking... And you should be ashamed of yourself" or something like that

Yeah, this is it.

[dallasgallant]

Pony doesn’t like the Beatles because he’s a secret fan of the Monkees. At least their TV show.

Twobit knows of this and will sometimes greet him with a “Hey hey,”

Only for Pony to just 🧍‍♂️ from across the room.

[stars-n-spice]

Blond Cross

@here-comes-the-moose was telling me about natural blond Crosshair (like Omega and Rex) who just dyes his hair silver and I needed to see it so-

Tcw Era Cross and TBB Era Cross but make him blond.

It's just so silly I love it.

Bonus: Live Tay reaction.

Not pictured is Tay calling him "blondie" and/or "sunshine" and getting absolutely clocked.

[andrew-03-minyard]

me🤝neil

i dont think i have any traumatic reason for my trust issues and I don't even know if I can call it that. because I just don't tell people half the things about me especially what's going on in my head and there are so many things I purposefully don't tell people about me. like my family lore and some interests that i'll be made fun of for. thank god for my fake accounts on almost every platform. but then ill overshare some things and then regret them asap like damn I said too much, when it's just about a show or book series. idk, I'll tell you almost anything you want to know but I'll also only tell you the things that'll keep you satisfied. I'll say my genuine thoughts but I'll also filter myself to a crazy extent. in this essay, I will-

[mythmerth]

I keep thinking about the concept of magic changing over time. While Arthur was alive, magic was this very physical tangible presence that was imbued in everything. But maybe as merlin got older, he felt all of that change. With so many deaths, so many people on the earth, the magic shifted into something more spiritual, something that’s less in the fields and the trees and more keeping the spirits at rest or at least to peacefully roam the earth. In turn, this means that Merlin’s magic now has more spiritual implications. It’s gaining intuition from the dead, gaining some of their abilities, being able to guide them home and make sure the magic they sleep in is gentle rather than vitriolic. He becomes a medium and an “exorcist” while still retaining the magic from inside himself that behaves as it did back in his youth, albeit much weaker. Back when everything started to shift he would see arthur sometimes but thought he was making shit up, as he did go insane for a few years (decades) as any immortal being might.

However, as that spiritual magic gets stronger within him and Arthur is still around, he comes to realize that the real Arthur’s been here and helping him, watching him, caring for him, even in death for countless years.

[morsesnotes]

Mr. Booth, my neighbor in Leamington, said he called you.

Endeavour | Muse

[jasperyourmutt]

Therapy working so well that everytime I think something bad about myself I just see my therapist wagging her finger saying “nuh uh uh”

[wingsoar]

Does anyone want to be besties?

I can offer nothing.

[ging-ler]

My irl friend got me a "I ❤️ the once-ler" bracelet so naturally I have to kill him

[cactus-cactus-cactus]

I hateeeee having to get used to new place new food new water new eating schedule WHY does my body hate meeee I don’t enjoy spending half my day feeling like shit in the bathroom UGH :/

[creepycrawlycallings]

I have a confession to make, I love filler episodes. I don’t care about the overarching plot I wanna watch the characters fall in a bottomless pit and tell short stories. I want to see a side character handle a small plot that’s just about them. I LOVE NO STAKES EPISODES!!!

[call-me-pup2]

I think people need to be more nosey in my asks 😛

I won't be offended I just won't answer if its too personal

[a-ikuoliver]

one of my irl friends asked to read my fic last night so ig now she knows everything ever ab me