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Section 12 in review of Dragon Age Veilguard
96 Hours in, 94 hours playtime..
Obligatory disclaimer, feel free to jump to the cut if you've read it.
Something came to my attention. I need to make it crystal clear that I utterly love the diversity in DAV. It's fantastic. I'm also a heavily left leaning, non-binary, queer as fuck reviewer, editor, and author.
I'm on media blackout while I play this, so I'm only getting second-hand info on how awful it is right now in the DA Fandom. Please be safe and take care of yourselves. Arguing with incels and white supremacists is completely pointless. They sea lion worse than an actual sea lion. Your mental health is important.
Though, every single time the anti-queer brigade comes out for a new DA game, I sit there thinking 'have you bozos played any DA game, like, ever?' My guess is nope.
Spoilers for Dragon Age Veilguard (and other Dragon Age stuff, I'm a Lore fiend.)
Section 11 is here.
So, the whole Mourn watch section with the half Lich was very well written and put together. Had an interesting (if not difficult) puzzle and a poignant ending. Loved it.
Did the Treviso sequence where Illario gets his comeuppance. Even though it's a very stale plot idea, it was so very well written and executed (har har) that it's a shame they fired Lucanis's writer. (Mary Kirby wrote Lucanis.)
They probably should've kept her and let her write a lot more than that. The game would've been so much better. It might’ve actually approached good.
Instead of something that when my partner saw me loading it up he said 'wow, you look like you're about to be tortured'.
Rueful face. So much of this game has felt like torture that having two sections on the same day that were legitimately good is odd.
The ones with Taash in Rivain were fun or sad, depending. But still well written and put together.
Still seem to have more to do. Gonna play for a few more hours. It's rare and nice that it's actually curiosity I'm feeling while logging in tonight, vs. any of the gamut of yucky emotions this game has treated me to.
Oh! Before I forget and in the name of attempting to provide a fair review, I do really love the light puzzles and ancient elven tech stuff. That's been a great deal of fun.
There are good parts to this game, but they just don't make up for the shit.
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A. Single. Meaningful. Glance. As an intimate scene? Fucking DAO had better than that! Are they serious? Is there more in the final sequence? Dear gods, if I'd paid for this game I'd be bloody furious. Incandescently, explosively furious.
Let's talk about consumer expectation. It's something anyone hoping to sell things has to be aware of.
In its, what, 14 year Dragon Age history? Bioware has set certain expectations with their market share. As I mentioned, DAO, while dated and with poor graphics, actually had something extremely suggestive for the intimate scenes. You had no doubt what the characters were doing. Same went for DA2. Not much actual nudity, but again, no bloody question about what was going on. In DAI, some was sweet, some was saucy, but it was even more clear what was happening.
So the expectation for a behind door scene that you got to see has been set. If there had always been fade to black meaningful stares for the intimate scenes, fine, whatever. But that has not been Bioware's history. And it certainly isn't their gaming market's expectation.
Expectation isn't as important in a standalone game. There's no weight of expectation like there is in series work. Unfortunately for everyone who bought this game, the expectation of so many years and so much material has been firmly set. And a long, searching, intense look doesn't cut it. Are all the Romances like that? I don't have the stomach to replay it that many times to find out.
I still have to finish the final sequence. So it's possible my utter disappointment will be fixed, but given the way Bioware has structured its games in the past, the Romance parts were finished before the final sequence.
My level of disappointment with this game has been high all along, but this is indeed the shit cherry on top of the shit sundae of this game.
Hah! And to think I'd actually hoped for an intimate scene between Solas and Inky! (Hysterical, breathless, cackling. OMFG.)
The problem with market expectation? And not meeting it? Is that you utterly lose the confidence and trust of the people who buy your stuff. And that means they're less likely to buy your stuff again. I certainly won't ever buy anything Bioware makes again. I'm out. I'll enjoy the previous games, but if I'm right about my predictions? Veilguard doesn't exist as part of my universe. I'll pretend it wasn’t ever made. Unless I decide to write a long fix-it fic. Because OMFG.
If, as an author, I shifted from rather explicit, panties-melting intimate scenes to closed door fade to black... I would be betraying my reader's expectations and losing their trust.
If this is it for the intimate scenes? Oh man. Bioware, you fucked up.
Pre-play pithy commentary
If you want to skip the snarky paragraph ^?
13th review here.
#dragon age veilguard#veilguard#da veilguard#dragonage#bioware critical#dragon age#Veilguard Spoilers#Veilguard Review#Dragon Age Veilguard Review#Veilguard Critical#What the actual fuck were they thinking?#Were they thinking?#I have severe fucking doubts about how much critical thought actually went into this travesty of a 'role playing game'#The betrayal of almost two decades of history and consumer expectation burns like lit acetylene
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Finally letting my poor outward wizard dude sleep after keeping him tired for weeks for lockwells revelation
#poor little guy#i was in cierzo for a short while so i let him sleep in his old home#my characters mental health is very important#thats why i make him cast spells that raise the dead and cause his veins to explode :)#idk if theres many outward players on tumblr but#outward
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Randomized Robins AU - Ages + Worst Trait Exercise:
Steph (25):
Says her worst trait is her murderous rages (she is exaggerating for dramatic/comedic effect, she’s killed 3 people tops and for very good reason)
Thinks her worst trait is her spitefulness (one of the few traits she definitely got from her father + one that prevents her from fixing her relationships and living her best possible life. She’ll refuse to interact with someone she dearly loves after an argument (happens significantly less after Tim’s death) or will say things she knows are hurtful just for the sake of having the last word. This trait will worsen in some ways as the list of people who have wronged her and those she loves grows, but will also ease up as she matures and realizes the harm it’s doing to her relationships with those she loves most.)
Her worst trait really is her spitefulness
Cass (26)
Says her worst trait is her self-righteousness (she believes that her goals are righteous and, as a result, she is righteous. Cass becomes very defensive whenever someone questions the mission and often does not second-guess herself. This is a trait she only develops later in life as she grows closer to Bruce/learns to understand herself more/starts to love herself more. But she knows she isn’t perfect and when somebody she trusts criticizes something she is doing she is willing to listen. She just usually isn’t the one to START the introspection.)
Thinks her worst trait is her self-righteousness.
Her worst trait actually is her obsessiveness (she gets it from Bruce and, while not as bad as him, she will easily become preoccupied with her night-life and the mission if someone isn’t there to pull her back. She will do this to the point of self-destruction and it hurts her relationships with the people she loves, especially Steph.)
Tim (24)
Says his worst trait is his spitefulness (he actively rejects the idea of mending his relationships with the older members of the family and this causes him to also lack good relationships with the younger ones)
Thinks his worst trait is his obsessiveness (similar to Cass, if he gets fixated on a task or idea he will neglect everything else in his life in order to dedicate more time to it. Unlike Cass, he will almost never be dragged away from it unless Pierrot snatches control of the body and forces them to take care of themself.)
His worst trait actually is how manipulative he is (the KING of guilt-tripping and using people’s emotions against them. He’ll do whatever he needs to do to get what he wants, he’s not above crocodile tears. And he will do it to whoever he needs (or wants) to with little care for how his actions impact others.)
Pierrot (Insists: “Age doesn’t apply to me! And even if it did, I'd probably be the oldest. Or the youngest! I’d never be a middle child, though.” Mental assessments by the Bats have put him around 21, with a margin of error of 3 years. Pierrot has called this “blatant character assassination by my eternal rival!”)
Says his worst trait is that he is an irredeemable psychopath without any regard for the wellbeing of others (this is a lie and everyone who's important to him understands this).
Thinks his worst trait is his parasitic nature (he literally would not exist had Tim not suffered the way he did. Plus he is a living reminder of one of the worst things that happened to many of his loved ones. He is a parasite injected into a functional person's body and contributes to his continued suffering. This is also a largely incorrect judgement of himself, caused by his actual worst trait.)
His worst trait actually is his limited sense of self (he doesn’t really know who he is outside of ‘inheritor to the legacy of the Joker (a man he despises yet also views as a father)’ and ‘chip in Tim’s brain that became sentient’. He slowly develops an identity over the course of his life and relationships with other people, but he lacks the foundations of identity that most people have. Pierrot will often almost become a caricature of himself and what others perceive him to be because it's the only person he knows how to be. This causes wild swings in how he behaves and relates to others, sometimes to the detriment of himself and others.)
Dick (17)
Says his worst trait is his clinginess (he is a very extraverted person who likes to be around others, which mixed with his fear of abandonment after his parents died means that if he goes a few days without seeing/talking to a friend he will get very anxious.)
Thinks his worst trait is his anger issues (he gets ticked off very easily and will explode on people. He’s kind at his core and is usually very nice, but he has a temper that can escalate significantly. Spoiler (and later Twist) help him channel this anger into something positive.)
His worst trait actually is his anger issues.
Barbara (18)
Says her worst trait is her disability (internalized ableism, she thinks of herself as less valuable than the other Bats because she cannot be out there in the capes like they can. She will grow out of this as she matures and as she learns how invaluable her support for the team is.)
Thinks her worst trait is her disability
Her worst trait actually is her overly-independent nature (In an attempt to overcompensate for everything she can no longer do, she has resolved to do literally everything that she possibly can without any help from others. This results in many instances where she either takes on too much and winds up not being able to fully realize any of her tasks or where she makes her life and the lives of others significantly harder by refusing help when offered/not asking for it when she needs it.)
Damian (16)
Says his worst trait is his perfectionism (he is overly critical of both himself and others, taking any flaw or problem and amplifying it to an absurd degree. This is due in part to his life with the LoA (where even a brief misstep could lead to death), in part to how others treated him initially as Spoiler (any flaw was fixated on and used as a reason to either mistrust him or portray him as unworthy of the mantle), and in part due to the fact that he is Bruce’s son (the only person with worse perfectionism problems than Damian). Gradually, Damian has improved in this regard but it’s still a massive barrier to both his own happiness and his relationships with others.)
Thinks his worst trait is his perfectionism
His worst trait actually is his perfectionism
Duke (16)
Says his worst trait is his definitely-real secret evil side (says this as a ‘my dad is a villain so who knows??’ joke)
Thinks his worst trait is his impulsivity in his words (Sometimes he will crack a joke or say a remark without thinking it through, leading to a LOT of hurt feelings and drama. He’ll say something without thinking it through and wind up seeming insensitive. This isn’t done because of malice, rather because Duke is someone who’s quick to act and speak. But while the mantle of Insight and his awakening powers have helped him with his actions, they do not always help with his loose tongue. As such, Duke gains an unfair reputation in the media as an instigator and will accidentally cause family drama through what he says.)
His worst trait actually is his impulsivity in his words
Jason (14)
Says his worst trait is his bad manners (he grew up on the streets and has no idea how rich-people society works, which he’s pretty insecure about considering he’s now the youngest kid of Bruce freaking Wayne).
Thinks his worst trait is his reactiveness (Jason never got the privilege of planning ahead for various events in his life, so he instead needed to rely on being swift and harsh in how he could react to situations. It’s saved his life on multiple occasions and helps significantly in his role as Spoiler, but it can also lead to extreme overreactions (accidentally causing kidnapping scare after Jason ran away following a fight with Dick) and a struggle to plan things out ahead of time. As he grows more secure in his place in the family and in life, this trait will lessen but never fully dissipate.)
His worst trait actually is his reactiveness
#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#tim drake#dick grayson#barbara gordon#damian wayne#duke thomas#jason todd#batfamily#randomizedrobinsau#I'm debating whether I should tag this with the Joker Junior tag and those related to it for Pierrot#because like...it's not quite that. but it's also very close to that and is the direct result of that.#but Pierrot would fucking HATE to be tagged as that and sees it as an insult to his identity...which he already has problems with#so I don't think I'm gonna#anyways lmao I am totally projecting my younger self onto Barbara. How could I not? She's literally the reason I view my disability#the way that I do and she actively improved my mental health just by existing and saying some of the shit she did when I was in the#stages of accepting my own disability. So yeah I am projecting a lot onto her because I love her and see myself in her.#I'm mostly basing these characterizations on my favorite versions of them (ie Red Robin 2009 Tim and Birds of Prey Barbara).#so I'm taking the traits I like/think fit in this AU and discarding what I think either is bad or doesn't fit or if I just don't like it.#Damian's 'murder gremlin who is a meanie on purpose because he is a meanie' is entirely unappealing to me and also does not fit this AU#I prefer him when he's portrayed as a sympathetic kid (who is still an asshole) and not a demon child. So that's what I'm using.#same with Talia's 'abusive mother who is totally on-board with all of her father's bullshit and will kill someone for no reason' version#I have read enough comics to know what I like/what is most important and what I don't like/what is#BLATANT CHARACTER ASSASSINATION GRANT MORRISON YOU FUCK YOU SET TALIA BACK SO FUCKING FAR#I also decided to outline their WORST traits because I already know what I like about these characters/their best traits.#most people do. But what was a greater challenge was finding what would make their lives and those of others worse.#what would I hate about this person if I knew them IRL? What would I first suggest they get therapy for? What hurts them and why?#I found these questions really interesting in the context of this AU where some people are forced into completely different roles#the says/thinks/is was inspired by trying to answer that question for myself. I say my worst trait is my impulsiveness but when#I asked others in my life they answered 'oh so you said your weird thing where you don't ask for help right?'
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I uh. Finished the first chapter draft for Ouroboros. Little sneak peaks below the cut I suppose.
“Deep down, you know that something has changed. You can’t quite put your finger on it yet.
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That’s what it is. You’re alive.
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Death does not always mean an end. It is simply a pit stop on a very long highway. You still have many miles to travel.
It is best if you get back in your car and begin to drive again.
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How long can you take it? The way you have a mouth but no voice to speak through.
Can you take it?
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You realize you are being rebuilt. It is uncomfortable and itchy knowledge. You feel it in the prickling numbness at the tips of your fingers, the eternal ache in your temples, and most of all, you fear.
Your aches and pains are all fear.
You are no longer human.”
#the ouroboros cycle#oh god. here we go#I like this sequence a lot for a few reasons#it’s just ambiguous enough that there’s some wiggle room for interpretation#lines can be twisted in one way by one person or another by a different one#I like when writing does that quite a bit#definitely gonna be editing this but here’s something out of the rough draft as a treat#since a lot of the plot is set out already in my other post I’m just gonna have to figure out how I want to shape the narrative effectively#kepler is a very layered character to me and he’s even more compelling because we still don’t know anything important about his past#which leaves the community to whip up whatever interpretation makes sense to us on a personal level#we’re given so much to work with for Kepler yet so little at once#we know his surface level traits and flaws already but we don’t know HOW he got to that point#ugh warren kepler#throwing bricks at him#probably should’ve asked this earlier in the tags but would you folk prefer fic updates on here or ao3#or both#oh and before I forget#a lot of the story revolves around some pretty deep mental health struggles for a while#such as a disorder similar to dehumanization (not fully classifying it as such because there are some nuances that stray away from ->#some of the typical aspects of dehumanization disorder)#that’s one of the big ones but there will be others#which I’ll make note of before any content that contains anything of the sort (along with other tags that are featured)#I think that’s all for now#wolf 359#w359#warren kepler#daniel jacobi#isabel lovelace#renee minkowski#kepcobi
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This fandom is honestly...
Like, there is something to be said about fandoms in general and how they've changed as a whole generally but
There's also something about how the acotar fandom is especially toxic like
The idea that a post is surprised a murder hasn't happened yet and I found myself agreeing??? Is honestly telling
Like, also. A massive part of this is shipping and maybe it's because I have my corner of this fandom, but even then shipping the "wrong" thing in general has become something I honestly have to take in consideration when thinking of my mental health and if I can personally be prepared for any backlash??
This fandom at large doesn't feel safe and that's majorly concerning tbh
Maybe instead of saying shippers as a group are doing harm, we should just disavow harmful actions in general and not be complicit in it idk???
#anyway#just having thoughts#anti sjm#like I'm also pro Tamlin? and that doesn't help#i had to stop making intensive tamlin posts because my mental health honestly couldn't handle the constant discourse#which is sad when people genuinely come with the intent to discuss but since its all horrible in general I end up not having a lot of#emotional space to have a good conversation most of the time sighhhh#i also just end up blocking people in general when my timeline messes up my interests but#i have yet to block main ship tags because I still want to interact with my side of fandom on it but I'm sooooooo close to blocking#main tags because some people are vile on here#don't even get me started on gwyn because people end up saying shit they shouldn't be just because of shipping#and I don't have any personal feelings about gwyn but the way people say she's not important as a character gives me the ick tbh#like I get it from a sjm is a terrible writer standpoint#but gwyn did have narrative importance in acosf despite however I feel about how it coulf have been better written#and also as a character that is very explicitly a SA survivor some people here need to THINK about how they talk about her
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With me trying to apply, yet again, to get my work exhibited, i'm reminded of the censorship that has gone into Inigo this whole year:
He thinks he's responsible for someone's suicide a bearer of misfortune~ I hope it makes him G-rated enough for public display xD
#Because he has very much M for Mature themes here in Australia xD#Actually wait I checked what counts as a 'strong' theme and#A work depicting 'Strong mental health themes including references to suicide and self-harm.' got MA 15+#INIGO'S CHARACTER IS MA 15+ Y'ALL#very funny that i made him when i was 12. he's been illegally residing in my brain xD#Ngl with the repeated mentions of illegal drug use (Inigo and Daisy) and depictions of gambling (Theon)#and the fantasy violence and the MULTIPLE references to suicide depression and suicidal ideation between Archie Inigo and Daisy#You Have No Name looks MA 15+ as a whole lmao it's fucked up xD#but that was something i was worrying about before too because damn#i really have to do justice to the topics i'm covering#because as much as like to rattle on about my beloved two (2) fans YHNN might be able to make a bigger impact one day#and so the portrayal of these themes becomes important.............#something about doing it with sincerity and not for theatrics y'know?
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“a mothers love is the best uty track” “retribution is the best uty track” “gift is the best uty track” WRONG!!!!! organ demo
#I am joking of course but dalvs organ demo he keeps in his room is very important to me#bc dalvs arc is all abt self improvement both in regards to his mental health and his hobbies/talents#taking the harsh truth from#penilla and working on improving his art#keeping hold of his amateur organ recording because it could be great some day. and in the pacifist ending we see that firsthand#w/ him finally being confident enough to perform it to the world#like as someone who is kind of fucking going thru it rn both mentally and in trying to express myself fully in my art. seeing him thrive in#the true pacifist ending makes me so happy#yeah that’s right we’re talking about DALV. I love dalv he was honestly my favourite character until the last chunk of pacifist jumped in#with ceroba
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currently watching someone play omori because i know its highly regarded and i am sitting here taking notes for inspiration 📝
#putting it on the games that are inspiring a current project list alongside nitw disco elysium and aitsf#probably more i cant remember rn#kostik speaks#its not the tone (i dont fancy another horror indie game with Blood! and Blood!) but the portrayal of trauma generally is very interesting#night in the woods is my biggest inspiration i love the slice of life and art style and characters and pacing#and how it all portrays characters living with mental health issues#i really liked discos inner monologue that gave me Ideas#and aitsf just made me happy so i had to mention it#mob psycho is also probably a big inspiration now i think about it. the *** rep of all time#the cat imagery (mogami arc) and the entire last arc is very important to me#night in the woods 🤝 mob psycho. incredible media representing dissociative disorders that changed me as a teenager#never felt so seen
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-Hey everyone! Hry'all?
I'm stopping/passing by to give you guys a message that's quite important not only for me but for anyone too.
Not all the time I will be willing to answer comments, asks or messages.. It's not wrong for me to at least take a break for that, and I promise that then I'll definitely try to answer at least most of them!
Like- I just want you guys to know that I won't always be willing to do that, we won't always have what to say or answer or maybe we won't always be in the mood to do that..
And it's really good sometimes to give that time, because forcing yourself to answer or do something that you are not in the mood for, doesn't lead to anything and doesn't even reach a response made with the heart. So please bear this in mind. Well that goes for anyone reading this! Be kind to yourself, it's important to know the right time and moment for everything, like: time to take a break and time to go back to “work”. If you want to take some time to think and put aside messages or other things you want to do a little bit, no problem! It is very good that you do this, it is very good for your mental health. It doesn't matter if later you're too late to do that or something, as long as you take care of yourself first and then think about it, it's a big step forward <333 (I say this from my experience)
So.. Be patient when I'm not very active around here, I'm a little complicated and I have other responsibilities besides just answering asks, comments or messages. I'm going to do this in my time, and if I take such a long time to answer, don't worry, I'll answer/talk about it at some point.
Thanks to those who read this far, I hope you understand me and also understand the other people who also want sometimes to take time for this! It's an important message and it's for anyone.
-Hope you have a wonderful day/night💛
#I know that no one has ever forced me to post. reply or anything like that. but I still wanted to show and talk about this message#I thought it would be important and at the same time very useful for people who also sometimes go through this!#know that both the mental and physical health of yourselves needs to be at least a second priority#take care of yourself. make yourself better people and understand your real self <333#love y'all. hope you guys understand 💛#important lesson#important post#words of comfort#words of advice#advice#i'm mel and this is my blog✌️#my art blog#art#my art#my art <3#art mel#my art style#my oc character#mel creator#mel loly#bee kind to yourself
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Every time someone new follows me, I check their blog, and then usually follow them back and go Yes!! New moot for my collection >:)
#yall wanna see my collection of moots#what a silly question ofc u do#this is let-me-ruin-that-for-you shes married to a succubus#that * points at orange thingie * is taraninja shes obssesed with a ficcional character#and that is agrebel18 whos also obssesed with a ficional character but like in a gay way#this is aeroisamazing who draws the cutest flowers#that * points at A Lesbian Person * is isapolvorita#one time i talked to her about wlw media and it was very fun#that is tiny-lesbean aka The One Time I Found Another Brazilian Person On This App And It Was Awesome#those are el-fandom-bird stars-and-birds and wanda-the-anaconda#i do not understand their relationship#but their interactions are funny and thats what matters#that is localtorispring theyre a tori kinnie#yeah im worried about them too#relating to alice osemans characters is never a good sign for ur mental health#im sure theyre gonna be ok thou#thats n0-important aka the funniest bitch around here#those are tragedy-at-its-peak and torikinnie321 my rl besties who are literally never on tumblr but i love em nonetheless#finally theres hyperdragonthings whose personality is self explanatory#and pyromoon8 is literally my brother#i have many moots but these are the ones i interact with the most thus my favorite artworks in my collection#im also not tagging anyone here if youve found this then youve found this#hope i didnt forget anyone yall are awesomeee
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I do this too. :3
On top of other things I have depression, anxiety, and pretty severe PTSD, and being autistic (and Highly suspected ADHD) means oftentimes I am already struggling with sensory issues, emotional regulation, processing, etc. Not to mention my physical health issues! I need support and there’s not always someone around to ask. Loki goes with me most everywhere. I talk to him while I drive (helps me focus), he holds my hand when I’m nervous, he walks with me if I’m going to the store or somewhere crowded.
Sometimes I also talk to myself “as” him, taking an outside perspective and treating myself more kindly as a result. I’ve talked myself down from panic attacks and helped my mind not wander into Vivid Flashbacks by having “conversations” with him. He also helps me remember when to go to bed (I’m just problematic and balk on it /lh) and plan for the next day at night!
This past year taught me I’m not able to push as far as I thought I could, physically or mentally, and still be healthy. I have limitations and I’m learning to accept them. As you said, sometimes you just need help! And I think getting help from a safe place, like imagining a character with you so you don’t feel quite so alone or overwhelmed, is perfectly all right. <3
sometimes you just have to let yourself be a bit neurodivergent.
i hate going out, it gives me a lot of anxiety and sensory input that i dont like, and i am often forced to talk to people.
so i do this thing on more difficult days, or sometimes just for fun, where i "bring a fictional character with me". i walk and imagine Fictional Character walking next to me. they talk to me, reassure me, hype me up, whatever i need them to do.
today dean winchester came christmas shopping with me. he went over the list with me of stuff i needed to get, told me i was doing a good job every time i finished in a certain shop, reminded me to take a deep breath when i got a little overwhelmed.
and yea. its kinda silly. and i know its just me talking to myself in a different voice, but it Works! especially since all of my special interests/hyperfixations tend to be tv/movie related.
so do what you gotta do to Get Shit Done. stop holding yourself to neurotypical standards. if you need Fictional Character to tell you you're doing a good job, do it! if you need Favourite Singer to walk you to school, do it! yea it might feel silly but you're literally fighting against your own brain to get stuff done every single day. you can have a little self indulgent daydream, as a treat.
#imaginary emotional support husband#self-soothing is very important imo#and sometimes#it takes the form of mentally holding hands with your favorite character#gosh I adore Loki#the specialest of interests#autism#actually autistic#adhd#audhd#neurodivergent#ptsd#mental health#<3#loki my beloved
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no one would love me if i was a worm
#this is a joke but also i 10000% mean this and i will die alone never having known love unlike everyone around me#it really gets more difficult to accept being alone when you get older because your aloneness is constantly contrasted w everyone else#having parterns or otherwise active social lives with very close friends while you just? barely exist as a person to others#i flat out cannot understand how people grow to be close friends let alone romantic parters like what do you need to do? how is everyone#just doing it? talking to people? opening up? being an important part of someone else's life? i don't get it#i have friends at uni i can freely talk to people there and everyone is very nice and i have closer friends i hang out with but like#if i just disappeared one day there wouldn't be that big of a change outside of maybe a small adjustment period after which everyone would#carry on as before because i'm not integral to anything#that sounds super childish but i don't mean that i'm sad that i'm not the main character in other ppls lives. just that i don't matter#and while that's of course understandable and i'm not looking to changing that it's also undeniably sad#and because i am the only person who can do something about that i'm just stuck like this i guess#i want to ask my closer friends how good am i at masking everything but 1 it would be weird and 2 i don't think they would be honest#not because they don't like me but because they are nice people#anyway lately as i'm getting older and meeting new people things are just getting exponentially more overwhelming and it physically hurts#i know i'm just suffering because i put myself up in a position to suffer but also literally what else would i do#if i have any time to stop and think about things i will actually have time to get even more mentally ill#i'm not looking to die right now i have things going on i'm doing my silly little degrees and spending time with my friends but like#it's not forever and i'm not holding out any great hopes for what comes after#i know i probably should go and talk to the student health services again but honestly i dont have the time or energy#for that kind of process and i know i'm a terrible patient in therapy so what is there even to gain from that#shit talking
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Some ways people helped me while I was in psychosis:
Remaining calm since everything was amplified to me. Yelling at me could do something like trigger my mind to think nuclear bombs are falling
Listening to me without intentionally confirming my delusions or feeding them. This kept me safe from spiraling
Being kind. No matter how unwell I was I could still detect kindness
Having someone to advocate for me
Simply keeping me company. A silent distraction from a mind full of delusions goes a long way
Letting me vent however I needed to (as long as I wasn't an endangerment to myself or others)
Talking to me in good spirits. In psychosis a bad mood is contagious
Reminding me to take my medication or softly reinforcing their importance
Not acting like I'm unruly and viewing me with eyes of compassion
Providing me with basic comforts like food, drinks and clothing
Playing calming music
Laughing with me and not at me
Gently encouraging personal hygiene
Accepting that nonsensical ramblings or writings happen
Understanding that delusions may hold very big power over someone and can persuade someone to do things out of "character"
Being supportive of my being sober
Guiding me away from toxic individuals who don't have my best interest at heart
Not holding grudges no matter how embarrassing I may be when I was lost in my mind
Joining me outside to feel the comforts of the outdoors (once I was stable with mental health support)
Providing hugs as long as it was consensual
Most importantly I was seen as a person. Someone with as many complexities as anyone else
#psychosis#schizophrenia#psychotic#psychotic break#schizophrenic spectrum#anti psychotics#mental illness#schizo spectrum#schizoaffective#psychiatry
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you probably saw this coming… vil x reader/yuu dating headcanons 🤭 i know you have crush headcanons with him, so i think a dating specific one will help feed my vil obsession. if someone already made this request, then rook is good 😊 please and thank you! 🙏
*ੈ✩‧₊˚ dating vil schoenheit
summary: how he is in a relationship type of post: headcanons characters: vil additional info: romantic, reader is gender neutral, reader is yuu
Vil is a closeted romantic
he wasn't always; for a long, long time, he disregarded romance as a fantasy for the stage and screen
real love is impractical, difficult, messy
so not him
...and then he meets you
and, suddenly, Rook starts making sense
romance with Vil is tender and quiet
his life is already busy and dramatic; all he wants at the end of a stressful day is a warm, rose petal bath with his favorite person
...it's comfortable silences,
sharing a bathroom,
waking up to someone he loves every morning
save the grand gestures and professions of undying love and codependency for Rook. all he wants is you
and perhaps that's what surprises him most about romance
nothing could truly stop Vil from fussing over you, your health, your confidence, but the most, the only important thing is that you're you
he hides you away from the world
it's a little selfish of him, keeping you all to himself
the very last thing he wants is for your safety or mental wellbeing to be effected by his job
and, of course, he also just... likes having something that's all his
as stern and cold as he can be, he just gushes over you
someone gets him talking about you, and it never ends
he's unexpectedly corny
but in the most elegant way
the most stylish of complimenting couple's outfits, of course
expect to be pampered and loved like no other
dating him is just... nice <3
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It’s said canonically that simon riley has trauma around intimacy from torture 😔 If you feel comfortable writing it, can I please ask for a short fic of an Afab reader body worshipping/lovingly pleasuring Simon after they both work through his trauma and he’s getting all soft and emotional and babbling about how good reader is making him feel and how much he loves them and can’t believe someone cares about him this much? I always liked the idea of Simon being portrayed as vulnerable and soft and not this dom sex god a lot of people portray him to be. I really love your work and would love to see your take on this request :)
Soft ft. Simon 'Ghost' Riley
Author's Note: So I do recall someone making a post about this and I have to say I do not agree with everything. Men definitely process trauma, specifically sexual trauma a lot differently than women do. While women experience guilt, men experience anger. And maybe it's not all men who experience it that way, but after reading the comic and making my own assessment, I can say that Simon does have lingering anger. Of course, he is hell-bent on avenging his dead family, but all that pent-up energy could be going toward trying to even the score. He is pretty level-headed and able to compartmentalize. He has support from his comrades as well as undergoes mandatory rigorous mental health assessments because that's military protocol. He needs to be able to perform his duties on the field without putting himself or others at risk. He also most certainly gets mandatory counseling. Although he may be reluctant, his superiors are very much aware of the possible impact that it has on his mental health. So all that to say that Simon is not without help. He is not as "damaged" as people may perceive him to be. He's not a broken individual. As seen in the remastered MW's, albeit reluctant he can clearly put his trust in others. He develops relationships with the people who he works closely with meaning he is capable of change. SIGH. I just wish people would break this down a little more, but I do get what you're saying. His masculinity, trust issues, and the type of secret operations he goes on can lessen the effectiveness of the therapy. He's definitely a very complex character with layers to him, but I just don't think he's as weak as you may think he is. It's also important to note that it hasn't been confirmed that this current Simon went through the same thing. He could have a completely different background. Honestly, Activision is so fucking inconsistent but ANYWAYSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I hope you enjoy this. Also if you read this all the way through, I applaud you. But thank you for enjoying my work, I didn't mean to critique you and your request, but I just couldn't let it slide LOL
Warnings: PnV sex, AFAB!Reader, Some Canon Simon Lore, Sexual Content, Mentions of Sexual Trauma
"Si—Simon..."
You sigh out in pleasure with every roll of your hips as you grind down on him. Your clit grazes against his lower abdomen, and his cock stretches you out pliant. Fingers dig into his shoulders, marking half crescents into his pale, scarred skin. But something feels off.
His hands loosen their grip on your hips, and upon opening your eyes you find him his half-lidded gaze distant in a familiar haze. He isn't present.
"Simon." You halt the rutting of your hips, cupping his stubbly cheeks. "Are you alright?"
His onyx hues fixate on you. He is clearly readjusting his withdrawn eyes to refocus on you. You didn't want to say it yet, but you had felt him go a little soft a few seconds prior. "We can stop."
"No, no." His fingers squeeze your middle as he sits up a bit. You shake your head, but he's not letting up. "Why stop?"
You firmly grasp his face and his blonde lashes flutter up at you with a seemingly unreadable expression, but you're no stranger to Simon's detachment. Although he loathes to admit it, it happens. The relearning of being intimate is tumultuous for him.
"Because you're not mentally here, my love."
He frowns. "But I want y'to finish."
You exhale sharply. He doesn't even deny it. "No, Simon. I'd feel disgusted with myself if I finished while you weren't here with me."
He struggles to reply. In all honesty, he doesn't know what to say. It's not exactly a common occurrence, but he's not too keen on having a conversation about it. You never pry though. His therapy sessions are his own, unless, of course, you join him if he so desires.
Couples counseling is mandatory. A rule you established when you first decided to tie the knot. If you had problems that were beyond just a sit-down talk, a professional would have to intervene. And Simon agreed. No fuss, no muss. To preserve the sacredness of your relationship, he'd do anything.
He sighs. "'m sorry, dovie." He caresses your sides, feeling the gooseberries on your skin rise. A small smile adorns his lips and you giggle at his smugness.
"Stop it." You begin to get off of him, but Simon holds you firmly. You feel his dick harden inside of you, now kissing your cervix. A little gasp escapes your chest as you readjust yourself.
"Y'like tha'?" Simon's grinning now. It's his confidence gleaming through the abysmal darkness of his mind. The life in his eyes feels revitalized, and you now feel his vigor—literally.
"Yes, but..."
"'m here, love." He reaffirms, squeezing your waist again. "'m here. Please, 'm achin' for you."
He groans a bit and bucks his hips when he feels you pulsate around him. You return your own moan, leaning forward but his fingers thread through your hair and he brings you into a sloppy, heated kiss. His hips thrust into you slowly and deeply, earning a guttural moan from him.
For a moment as you withdrew from the kiss, your gazes meet and Simon's eyes soften and become glossy with tears that brim over his oculars and spill over the corners of his eyes.
"Oh, baby." You coo, holding him close as you kiss his face. His sadness is silent, yet palpable. You're now babbling sweet, sweet words to him as you pepper him with kisses, and Simon holds you as if you're going to slip away. You gently guide him through the double inhale technique you learned from your therapist, and with the sweetness of your voice, the kindness in your eyes, and the tenderness of your touch, he feels at ease.
"I dunno how y'put up with me."
You grin, kissing the corner of his lip. "It ain't easy."
"Oh?" He flips you over on your back, pressing you firmly against the mattress and you giggle into the nape of his neck. "Wanna say that again, love?"
You thread your fingers through his sandy blonde hair and kiss the tip of his nose. "You're not hard to love, Simon."
His eyes soften once more and he kisses you deeply. Simon has never cherished anyone more in his life. You were always so patient and kind from the jump. You were truly the "greater woman" behind the "great man".
He rests his forehead against yours and closes his eyes as you gently card your fingers in his hair.
"Thank you, lovie."
#call of duty#call of duty imagines#call of duty x reader#simon ghost riley#simon riley x reader#ghost x reader#ghost x female reader#ghost x you#call of duty ghost#ghost smut#simon riley smut#simon riley x female reader#simon riley imagine#simon ghost x reader#simon x reader#cod#cod smut#call of duty smut#simon ghost x you#simon ghost smut#simon riley x you#simon riley x y/n#simon ghost riley x reader
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Writing Notes: Character Development
Rick Riordan's Writing Tips
Rick Riordan:
Character development is paramount for me. I firmly believe that plot and character development must occur simultaneously. Plot cannot be left to chance. Neither can characters be automatons who carry out actions envisioned in the author's master plan. Below are some things I try to keep in mind when developing my characters:
RICK RIORDAN'S TOP 5 TIPS ON CHARACTER
Define a character first through action, second through dialog and description, never through explanation.
A character should be primarily defined by the choices he makes, and the actions he takes.
How does he respond to violence?
How does he respond to love?
Secondly, a character must be vividly but deftly describe through his speech, and through the initial view you give the reader.
Never stop to explain who a character is when we can watch him in action and decide for ourselves.
Be impressionist rather than realistic.
Describe characters as Dickens did – with a single deft stroke.
A laundry list of physical traits is realistic, but it is neither memorable nor compelling.
A jarring metaphor for the character, or a focus on one mannerism or physical trait, can be very compelling.
Example: She was a human tornado.
Do not be afraid to use real people as models, but do not be constricted by your models.
It is very natural to use parts of ourselves or the people we know when creating characters.
Do not be afraid to do this because someone might get mad at you.
At the same time, let your character develop.
Do not force them to do what the real-life model would do.
Characters seldom end up exactly like the real people they are based on.
The reader does not have to be told everything you know about the character.
It may be critically important to you that your character has blue eyes, or went to Texas A&M.
But if these details have no part in the story, the reader will not care.
Leave them in your subconscious.
If you are having trouble figuring out a character, fill out a character profile, or do some journaling in that character's voice.
Your character must act, not simply be acted upon.
We care about characters because we are interested in the choices they make.
We want to boo the villain, cheer the hero, and cry with frustration when the tragic figure makes the wrong move.
A character who does not act, but simply receives information and is acted upon by outside forces, is not a character who will compel the reader.
Remember, plot is what the characters do next.
If the characters do not create the plot, the plot is hollow.
Here's a character profile worksheet I sometimes fill out if I'm having trouble understanding a particular character I've created:
Character Profile
Name:
Height:
Age in story:
Birthplace:
Hair color, length, style:
Race/nationality:
Regional influences:
Accent: (include voice, style of speech, slang, signature phrases or words)
Religion:
Marital status:
Scars or other notable physical attributes:
Handicaps: (emotional, physical, mental)
Athletic? Inactive? Overall health?
Style of dress:
Favorite colors:
How does the character feel about his/her appearance?
Brothers/sisters:
Relationship with parents:
Memories about childhood:
Educational background: (street smart? Formal? Does he/she read?)
Work experience:
Occupation:
Where does the character live now? Describe home (emotional atmosphere as well as physical)
Neat or messy?
Sexual preferences/morals/activities:
Women friends/men friends:
Pets?
Enemies? Why?
Basic nature:
Personality traits (shy, outgoing, domineering, doormat, honest, kind, sense of humor):
Strongest trait:
Weakest trait:
What does the character fear?
What is the character proud of?
What is the character ashamed of?
Outlook on life (optimistic, pessimistic, cynic, idealist)
Ambitions:
Politics:
How does the character see himself/herself?
How is the character seen by others?
Do you like this person? Why or why not?
Will readers like or dislike?
Most important thing to know about this character:
Present problem:
How it will get worse:
What is the character's goal in the story?
What traits will help/hurt the character in achieving this goal?
What makes the character different from similar characters?
Why will readers remember this character vividly?
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