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"What's with this guy?? Is this really what I was like?"
hi go read @undercoversleepover's fic Through the Mirror for great stuff completely unlike what's depicted in this comic of AU!Loid x Loid
#spy x family#sxf#loid forger#twilight sxf#spy x family fics#idek how to tag this ship-wise#loid x louis#for the sake of simplicity i suppose#louis forger#i refuse to apologize#for putting this in the main tags#they drive me crazy and you Will be witness to my madness#and also receive this fic rec#my brainworms for them are still so real#send help please#btw when i said completely unlike i really mean it#wanting to smash these two together like dolls was what my brain did after reading them interact in the fic it cant be helped#so if selfcest isnt your thing dont worry it's not there#i love /loid with my whole heart#knife cat of a man#literally just loid but if u rotated him a bit#and it makes me so feral#anyways#i need to stop#selfcest#comics#blythe draws
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pitched battle inside my brain between the part of me that's desperately shaking myself by the shoulders going "YOU HAVE GOT TO ACTUALLY LIVE THE KIND OF LIFE YOU IMAGINE INSTEAD OF JUST SITTING AROUND IMAGINING IT UNTIL YOU DIE!!" and the part of me that's clutching my face going "is this allowed? is this allowed?? is this allowed???"
#trying to plan a solo cicada pilgrimage and getting brainworms about it yeehaw#'making a lot of plans and never actually doing things in real life' has been a problem for literally as long as I can remember#but I also feel like I've developed a learned helplessness over the last several years that's gotten worse as I've gotten older??#me age twenty: I think I'm gonna take myself to chicago next week because I feel like going to the zoo#me age thirty: am I allowed to go camping alone. am I allowed to do a solo road trip. I need a grownup#to be extremely clear I am very much allowed and this is not justin's fault and I don't know where it comes from#like I'll run things by him lowkey seeking 'permission' that I don't even need and he'll be like 'yeah that sounds good to me'#and then I STILL won't do the thing because like. my brain keeps insisting there needs to be a grownup in charge?? HELLO I'M GROWNUP#anyway I'm doing cicada trip solo BECAUSE-- the drive is so long I want to do five days because two of them will just be driving#and he can't get that much time off work right now#AND because I literally only want to Be Camping and Looking At Bugs but he'd get bored of a week of that he likes Activities#me this morning getting insecure and weird: what are your thoughts... on cicada voyage....#him after at first not even understanding the question: I'm SO excited for you?? you deserve to get to go absolutely feral???#I do.... ;n; š why am I so scared to be a person.......#about me#cicada quest
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I think so much about robin hood/bandit!Eddie kidnapping princess!reader entirely by accident (aiming for a landlord who's been terrorising local people but his information was a little off, thanks Dustin). Cue a slapdash plan to ransom her to the King, who's led entirely by his nefarious advisor (face of an angel, keeps spiders, creepy as hell). Reader learns about how the people she's supposed to protect are treated in her name. Sees Edward Munson, the crown's most wanted, for what he really is, and loves him for it.
But then the ransom is offered. And Eddie can use that money to help so many, but he'd have to give up his Princess.
#oooh i hurt myself#we hate the monarchy except for middle ages au's#and even then still kinda hate them#will is a full wizard in this fic a bbc merlin figure#i mayyyy write this#it's my real brainworm at the moment#somebody hold a gun to my head force me to make it like two parts and not a whole fic#also this is me so there would be a sexually charged bathing in the river scene#and reader gets fucked in a tent šŖ i am who i am
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https://www.tumblr.com/xxstaystillxx/766902362786988032/looking-forward-to-interpreting-pedophilic
homie what are you talking about
as the former president of little boy waycest i am simply saying that, considering past offences (namely scarecrow), if (based on the literal paper kingdom in the background of the recently released photo) they're actually making paper kingdom happen, a narrative based on missing children is going to be pretty rife for the carrion birds in my brain. like if i still cared about mcr it would be i mean. i wish i did. theres a lot of powerhouses drawing stuff for it im blown away at the quality of work being produced now versus when i was king nasty. but i simply have naught to say anymore. also the surprised tone of your question there is pretty funny to me. homie my pinned post is a eleven year old with cum on his face
#idk i think i literally aged out of the waycest brainworms. so did my partners in crime i still talk to them but mostly just about real life#like im trying to graduate from the worlds shittiest and most ineffectual art school rn. i just need to get these little girl sculptures up#txt
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I'm sorry tumblr I don't have anything exiting to post here... I'm hyperfixating on goat's narinder ...
He's not even real and he's just my favorite *broken heart emoji*
Anyway thanks to my oomf Bunny to give me brainworms about them !!
More stuff below, description references (tw for scars, many scars...) and some suggestive stuff because I'm so insane about him
Brief description of him: he's the opposite of our beloved black cat so he's really friendly, kind and gentle. Me and Bunny are really abusing the "dogs are so weird, even if you hurt them they still love you" line... Wolf nari and goat's relationship is really complicated, that's all I'll say for now
Reference of the boy (with nari, and yes we're still rocking that toh reference pose) :
Ok so, if you saw my other references you might have noticed that wolf nari has something in common with my goat, it was Bunny's idea and I just went crazy about it so:
My goat's execution was absolutely gut wrenching (haha), something really traumatic that scarred them mentally; after coming back to life all they wanted was revenge for everything they've been through and for everything they've lost, they're not gonna stop at the 4 bishops they want all gods gone.
So, when it's time to meet again with wolf nari, goat is not gonna surrender and when they win and defeats the last living God they can finally free all their rage and do what was done to them to someone else, killing the last god, they went a little out of control... It didn't felt good like killing the others.
Smh toxic yaoi
Aaanyway
The suggestive stuff:
Good for them! Good for them!!
#my art#cotl#cult of the lamb#the goat#the lamb#the goat's narinder#puppinder#we usually call him pupi but he's name really is just narinder lmfao#dog nari and cat nari meet one time and they just replicate the spiderman meme#chat we're really on it aren't we?#suggestive#pupi is really a sweet dog... he's just like the virgin Mary guys fr#and then I'm like: goat... kill that dog.#GOAT HOW COULD YOU KILL THAT GUY???? HE'S JUST A GUY!! A DOG!! A PUPPY!!!!#I'm losing my mind here#bro's not even canon#can i even post the last one here??#i guess I'll know it when they ban me
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hii! could I request stan/gender neutral reader fluff? maybe something along the lines of what mornings look like together? the direction you take it is absolutely up to you, thanks again YOUāRE AMAZINGGG <3
i got carried away can u tell stan's my favorite. I'M CRAZY!!! i'm crazy. also THANK YOU so much your request is amazing it gave me brainworms!!!!!! under the cut:
mornings together stan/reader (gender-neutral) pre/during/post-canon/unspecified fluff, 825 words
āStan,ā you say, nudging his shoulder. He grumbles in his sleep, rolling away from you so you're facing his back. You laugh openly, leaning further over the bed to nudge him again. Your other hand is adjusting your work pants, tugging it up and trying unsuccessfully to do your belt buckle. āStan, wake up. You're giving me a ride to work, remember?ā
āNo gas,ā he mumbles, pulling his arm away from you. When you poke him again, he raises a hand to wave you away. āQuit it.ā
āStanley.ā Your belt is left undone as you shove him with both hands, and finally he rolls over to shoot you a glare. You just grin at him, and his face softens, just a little bit. āYou're giving me a ride to work.ā
āWhat genius came up with that idea?ā he mutters, but props himself up onto his elbows with a groan. Stan rubs his eyes, some crust clinging to his lashes. His hair is all mussed up and his tank is crooked, one arm hole digging into his armpit and the other coming dangerously close to flashing a nipple. There's some dried drool on his face, from the corner of his mouth to the side of his jaw, and when he stretches his arms over his head, a series of concerning pops and cracks emit from his spine. One thing's for sure: if this were a cartoon, you'd have heart eyes.
āYou did, you dork,ā you say, the affection painfully clear in your voice. Stan picks the crust out of the corner of his eye and then looks at you, his brows furrowed still. He isn't glaring at you anymoreājust needs his glasses. Before you can turn to look for them, he grunts and beckons you closer.
āC'mere. Gimme a kiss,ā he grumbles, and you plant both hands on the bed to kiss Stan's cheek. A smile threatens his lips, but he keeps up the grumpy old man act: āWhat are you, Puritan?ā
āI'm not kissing you until you brush your teeth,ā you say matter-of-factly. Then, just to make fun, āI dunno where your mouth has been.ā Stan quickly switches gears.
āYou know where my mouth has been,ā he says, the sleaze, and you laugh as a flush crawls up your face. Stan beams at you then, a charming, sleepy grin that makes you giddy. āSay I drive you to work. What's in it for me?ā
āHere we go,ā you say, rolling your eyes. Your smile cancels out any sass. āYou've been awake for less than a minute and you're already hitting on me. You're a real perv, you know that?ā
āOh yeah, baby, love it when you talk dirty,ā Stan says, and suddenly tugs at your wrist so you topple over. You faceplant right into his chest, and before you can react, Stan wraps his arms around you and heaves you onto him with little effort. You're laughing the whole way, eventually managing to shove your foot between the mattress and bedframe so you can push yourself up.
āStan!ā you protest, even as you grin into his shirt. Stan manhandles you so you're right on top of him, like a lizard on a log, and he holds you tight to his body with brawny arms.
āAlright. Back to bed. Goodnight,ā he says promptly, tucking your head under his chin. He manages to fake one long, loud snore before you start squirming away from him. It's an impossible feat. His grip barely loosens. āHey, what gives?ā
āYou're wrinkling my work shirt,ā you say, and then squeal when Stan rucks up the back of your shirt like he's going to pull it off.
āWhy do you need a shirt, anyway?ā he snickers, and you manage to reach behind you to slap his hand away. Stan laughs and finally lets go of you. āAlright, alright!ā You push yourself up, hovering over his face. You try to look mad, but you're still smiling.
āStop fooling around,ā you scold him lightly. You know for a fact Stan won't take you seriously, so your heart isn't in it. Still, you bargain, āIf I give you a kiss, will you get up?ā
āA trade, huh?ā Stan doesn't even pretend to think. He tilts his head up at you, smug. āI'll take it.ā
āYeah, you will.ā You close your eyes and lean down slightly. When you peek, Stan's closed his eyes, too, readying himself for a kiss. You shift your weight and smack his face lightly, very lightly, then roll straight out of bed and stand up. When Stan sputters, blinking his eyes open to look at you, you laugh in his face. āI'll kiss you when you brush your teeth! You really thought thāOh, nope, you're getting up now, okay, meet you in the bathroom!ā
You dash away, your undone belt buckle slapping against your thigh, your pants falling from your hips a few inches. Stanās loud laughter follows you down the hall.
#i want him ur honor#i wont him bad give me a chance GIVE ME A CHANCE#gravity falls#stanley pines x reader#drabble requests#fluff#reader insert#my writing
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THIS ISN'T A ROAST. It's some thoughts and backgrounds on a thing that's been eating my brainworms for a bit.
haha ok so, the last few years I've been hearing a lot about how AI can be useful and a tool, which i refuse to believe it is (and if so, the damage it causes to artists FAR OUTWEIGHT any benefit).
So, there's this youtuber that covers, like, tech and stuff. When generative AI for images and text came up , they were rightfully poking at the ethical dilemma, and copyright infringement, but STILL made a soft argument about how useful it can be on pitch ideas, concepts, and other things that quick and cheap art could be used (also fuck whoever did this jobs before i guess lol)
BUT THEN an app finally did the same for music, generating indistinguishable quality music. The said youtuber makes music, usually vibe check music to hear on video's background and such.
but see
this time they were frustrated, and made a video about the ethical concern, how unfair it is, how it destroys the effort and passion of creating and all, and did NOT make an argument about how it could be useful, because now they knew that despite the benefit, if it goes off, their dreams is over.
A lot of people are quick to jump into "this can be useful" for generative tools, and very rarely i see artists, especially digital artists, agreeing with this. And most that do either have no stakes on their careers, aka they're already well off, or have no careers to begin with.
Serious artists KNOW how bad it is, no matter what. The youtuber had no stakes in visual art. They doesn't make them, they don't really profit or benefit from making them.
When it came to a thing they DO understand and make, now they've got to understand why it's bad. Why the benefits are not good enough to justify the disaster it makes on artist's life, on the humankind development as a whole.
idk what the point is here, i just really got pissed that at the point, they've been really kinda "this is bad but this exist, who knows, could be good if it's not unethical etc", to go fully into "this is bad. like, real bad for everyone here and music industry".
Wish that understanding came from their kindness, not AI coming with a baseball bat to their knees. Makes me real sad that it came for them too.
#not gonna tell who the youtuber is cuz idk man i don't see ill intent form them#and even so it's not that deep bro#it's like seeing someone go through the same bad thing you're going though#anyway#AI topic#āthis tool kills AIā and it's a baseball bat with nails. I am wielding it. I'll swing it.
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I am in the process of succumbing to The Social Media FOBF (fear of being forgotten) so I'm gonna write a little update post (Ė¶Ėā¤ĖĖ¶)
With Ecdysis finally wrapped up I have officially entered the rest period. I'm not gonna lie to yall, I have never crashed emotionally so badly after a project, to point creativity seems like a chore. Some would even call it a burnout.
But I also know that I am currently in the most hectic part of the year, the prophesized summer of horrors I saw the writing on the wall for already in December '23, and this situation is not contributing to my journey of resting at all.
They are not real horrors and I am merely jesting but the situation is still somewhat emotionally taxing in a very normal and predictable way. Anyone who had to move back in with their family past the ripe age of 26 can probably relate, being in a position where you're expected to revert to your old role (of the eldest daughter, in my case) can be challenging, especially when those pants don't fit you anymore. But it is what it is, and it's temporary, too. (And it's not all bad, I love my family and my family love me lots.)
There's this flat I will be moving into, finally a place I plan to live in long term, unlike all these previous house shares and flats I've lived in 1 year max as a student or a young young adult. But that place requires a ground up renovation and to be furnished and if you ever had to spend your weekends driving around town looking for tiles you know that it's its own brand of taxing. Alongside all this, it's work as usual. And I paint for a living so. little rest in the creative department there, too.
All this to say I am just really tired. Really really tired. Really really really tired. It will pass, but currently my time is not my time - it belongs to everyone around me.
And it will pass, it will pass. And I'll rest and find the space to be creative. Though "burnt out" I think I'm slowly starting to brim with potential creative pursuits. But before I do anything the summer of horros must settle into the autumn of resting.
I am positively ITCHING to draw the Clockmaster. If you've spent this long reading (puts a hand on your shoulder) buddy there are already 5 new clockmaster pages in existence. Fresh of the press, 2024 made, still warm still sizzling. I drew them last month between days of packing Ecdysis orders. They will stay in the vault for now because as I said in previous TCM related posts I plan to release the story in big meaningful chunks now rather than page by page like I used to. So it will be some time before you see them. But brother (squeezes the hand that is still on your shoulder) (visibly tears up) it's so good to be feeding the brainworms again. Orion I love you Rosie I love you Garret I love you Catherine I love you and- and- and there is a new character joining us too! You haven't seem him yet, obviously, but I think you could easily guess who he is. I can't wait for all of you to meet him.
I'll see you on the other side friends!!!
#marcia's post-ecdysis recovery arc#you know its mental illness when i gotta explain myself to the imaginary audience so they dont forget me#tbh you can forget me i wont let you forget about tcm tho#i think ill put this in the tcm tag since its an update on its status too#sorta anyway#tcm#the clockmaster
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SWTD Theory
Still Wakes the Deep has been a huge brainworm for me the past few weeks, so I wanted to make a post with one of my takes. Someoneās probably thought of this already, but I canāt find anything about it, so here I go.Ā
Iām gonna take this time to shout out a little sub theory of mine that plays a bit of a part in my main point.Ā
For a little background, in populations of organisms, there are limiting factors on their growth and spread. Think of it as a series of funnels of different sizes: the rate of liquid that can flow through is going to be determined by the narrowest funnel. For example. if thereās a population that has ample food, space, and whatever else it needs, but has a restricted access to water, that water is going to limit how large that population could grow.
Before the Shape was dug up by the drill, it was probably dormant in the sea bed, doing its best to survive, the same as any other organism. Down where it was dark, wet, and cold, I think it had one main limiting factor: oxygen.
I donāt think the Shape can efficiently exchange gas underwater. Most of the untouched bodies Caz sees are only underwater, where an organism that thrives in air would struggle to access. Once it gets dug up and brought to air with plenty of organic matter to consume and grow with, its population explodes. When a limiting factor is removed, thereās nothing holding the population back any more until they hit a new limit. The Shapeās old limiting factor was removed, and it would only stop reproducing by running out of space to grow on the rig, running out of organic matter to use, or being killed (like, say, in a giant fiery explosion).
(I could go on and on about how the Shape potentially works, please feel free to ask me about it)
Now, Iāll get to my main theory:
I think Caz was dead the whole time.
Now, I donāt mean that in a āthe whole game is in his head, none of it was realā way; I mean it in a āthis man got Ethan Wintersāedā way.Ā
So, I started to do a little research into how tall oil rigs are to know how far Caz would have fallen off the helipad. I quickly learned there are many types of oil rigs and not every oil rig of the same type is the same size. Iām studying marine biology, not petroleum engineering like my brother, so I got tired of trying to guesstimate how tall the Bierra Dās helipad would be and attacked the problem with some simple math.Ā
Watching a video, I saw he fell for between 4-5 seconds; the acceleration due to gravity is 9.8m/s^2. Plugging that in a calculator while not accounting for air resistance to solve for distance gets me ~80-120m, depending on if I used the 4 or 5 second count, so Iāll guess around 100m. Iāve found many conflicting sources on what the tallest heights you can safely fall into water are, but I can safely tell you that 100m is much higher than any of them.Ā
Now, maybe the devs werenāt going with the mathematical exact timing it would take for a guy to fall off an oil rig, and didnāt mean for it to be implied that he fell from THAT high. Still, we can agree he fell from very high up, high enough to have likely ended in injury. Maybe heād just fall on and break a leg? Maybe an arm or some ribs?
After falling off the rig, the last frame before Caz blacks out shows the water at the top of the screen, meaning he hits the water head-first. He may be wearing a hard hat (that somehow stays on his head through the whole ordeal since he clips his flashlight to it), but he still should have cracked his skull open or broken his neck.Ā
When they pull him out of the water, heās cold and not breathing, which wouldnāt be unusual for a drowning victim in the North Sea in the dead of winter, but it would usually be a death sentence. They never explain how they dragged Caz out of the water, but it would presumably have taken a long time to get him out, and time is key when dealing with someone who isnāt breathing. The fact that heās able to cough up water and start breathing on his own is a miracle, since it doesnāt sound like Brodie or Douglas do CPR when they bring him inside.
So, fall damage, head and/or spine injury, drowning, and hypothermia. By several different factors, Caz should be a very, very dead man. So why isnāt he?
My theory is that, somehow, somewhy, the infection from The Shape healed and brought him back to life. We know for a fact it has amazing generative properties, basically able to double, triple, quadruple the amount of tissue and organic matter in the crewās bodies with no regard for conservation of mass, so whatās just a little regeneration of damaged tissues in a single body? Once Cazās body gets someplace with better conditions suited to life (inside where itās warm and thereās air), it just jumpstarts his body functions. The Shapeās presumably been dormant in the seafloor for a long time, so it could be able to go dormant and kinda ācome back to lifeā as conditions change, similar to a tardigrade, and potentially pass this ability onto its hosts.
And Caz mentions how his head hurts a lot, especially when he gets close to the Shape.Ā
Now, this might seem like baseless conjecture, and yāall might say āThatās a good headcanon, but thereās no evidence that The Shape could bring people back to life!ā to which I would say āOh, but there might be!"
After the helicopter on the starboard side, we get a call from Bruce, who is actively drowning. Through his gasps, he tells us that OāConnor hurt his leg and couldnāt swim, presumably drowning. And guess who we see still kicking as weāre passing through the pontoon? My thought is that OāConnor couldnāt swim, drowned, and drifted to the bottom, landing on a part of the shape. Once Caz and Brodie start working in the legs and they drain, it exposes him to air and allows the shape to start growing again, assimilating him and bringing him back to life.Ā
Obviously, heās not doing as well as Caz is. My thought was that, if Caz died as he was infected, the infection wouldāve had to put a lot of its energy into bringing him back, not leaving much for itself to begin assimilating him into the Shape. Since OāConnor was in direct contact with the Shape, it could hook him up to its network to help supplement that loss. Caz, meanwhile, stays as far away from the stuff as he can and doesnāt even get anything to eat all day; guy's running on empty. He has small things where the Shape affects him, like the colors at the edge of his vision, but most of his hallucinations only happen after the Shape attacks him through OāConnor. Before, Iām pretty sure the largest incident (other than when heās blacked out) is when we can barely hear Suzeās voice over the speakers when moving through the pontoon. Itās really only after getting attacked that he starts to hear her when heās awake, near the Shape, or over phone calls. He only hears her clearly over the speakers in administration after he runs into the shape many times when he gets swept away in the flooding.
With my main evidence out of the way, Iāll also mention that Caz sees the ālight at the end of the tunnelā from the end of the game in the oil flashes when he blacks out.
But hey, thatās just a theory.Ā
A GAME TH- I have received a cease and desist.
Man, this became a long read. Thanks for getting this far, and I hope you enjoyed!
#still wakes the deep#swtd#cameron mcleary#caz mcleary#swtd spoilers#using my half a marine biology degree to do something (while avoiding doing work that'll get me my degree)#I even busted out high school physics for this#and my scuba classes
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Thinking about @luckshiptoshore and her liveblog of watching Supernatural and how much I love following it and how great it is to watch someone just fucking ENJOY the show...
And then, there were a couple of people in my Discord who love the fic, but have never watched the show, and folks in there were trying to convince them that it was worth watching (duh!) and that knowing the show by heart makes the fic so much better and like yes, again... DUH! And then I was suddenly overcome with such a feeling of ENVY for all the people who still have the chance to watch Supernatural for the first time already knowing what happens in the end.
I mean, I watched 14 years of it in real time (after downloading and bingeing season 1) and at least I was clever enough not to be in the fandom trenches that whole time, and just enjoyed it for what it was, but the end broke my brain, and changed the whole show for me.
Because, like, here's what happens in Supernatural by the end: Dean and Cas are in love. It was not subtle. Dean can't say it because he never has a single moment of not being up to his pretty, pretty eyeballs in dealing with the ongoing and constantly multiplying trauma of being the man his father raised him to be, and god's specialest boy to boot, but in the end, Cas finally does just fucking say it. Not only that, he waits until he can use it to save Dean, and show him once and for all in an incontrovertible, undeniable way exactly how deeply and truly loved and SEEN he is.
When you watch it knowing that, knowing that the the whole story is going to end in that stupid bunker dungeon with Cas telling Dean who he is and dying to save him, the whole thing just HITS DIFFERENT, because the Dean of season one with his outcast liminality and pretty, pretty lips is the poor, lonely, weird boy who will one day be loved like that by Castiel, an angel of the lord -- an impossible Eldritch being who learned what love and selfhood are from closely observing Dean.
The consensus amongst most Supernatural fans is that it is trashy and bad and that its all evil queerbaiting, but I would contend that it's actually deeply entertaining, culturally rich and interesting (yes, even its flaws and missteps), often impressively well-written and acted, never puts on any airs about being prestige television or high art, but still manages to be ultimately epic and somehow sublime, and that it's a queer story, about queer love saving the universe, and it is so, so worth watching.
Like, my brainworms are not 'they strung me along all that time and then never let them make out', by brainworms are 'they told us so many times and in so many big and small ways, and now I need to watch every bit of it again and again and again so I can finally REVEL IN IT (and, friends, that is the Supernatural rewatch journey: realising it was ALWAYS THERE). My brainworms aren't 'but does Dean reciprocate??' they are: 'of course he loves Cas, and of course Cas knows that Dean loves him, and the one thing Cas can't have? That's just his chance at happiness and a soft epilogue with and for Dean, because Cas, impossible, cosmic, Eldritch being Cas, traded his chance at happiness for his family's lives and sacrificed himself for love of his son and Dean, because that is what you do when you love someone, and what he has watched Dean never stop doing for even a minute of his beleaguered life.'
And then, Dean dies (yes, it's stupid), and he cannot just go to heaven, drink a beer and hang out, he needs to climb into his magic soul vehicle, hit the axis mundi and tear the universe up looking for his angel and his happy ending in The Winchesters? Fuck me.
And like, it's the most romantic, and devastating story I have ever been told? And I love it so much?
#supernatural#anti-trashnatural agenda#I am sometimes overwhelmed by how much I love that story#and dean#fuck I love dean#and castiel#angel of the lord
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Splatoon was the first Nintendo game to push me out of my comfort zone of single player games, and with the closure of it's servers I wanted to draw a tribute to a game that really means a lot to me.
Some long rambles about the game under the cut.
When I first played the Global Testfire I was 15, and the only mutliplayer games I played were with friends in the same room.
Splatoon was also the first shooter I ever picked up, as I always liked bright colours over more realistic graphics in my games, and back then the only shooters I knew about were Halo(and that was only really a name to me!) and the CoD games.
Any worries I had about being bad quickly vanished as the sheer vibe of chaotic fun the game had, particularly when no one had played it before, got rid of any worries, and all I remember is having fun. And choosing to play as the guy instead of the girl for the first time, solely becuase I wanted a ponytail like in real life(I would continue to use the guy through the series as a tradition, a contrast to what I saw most people online doing).
When the game came out I binged the single player, and vividly remember the first time I fought DJ Octavio, and the first time I heard Calamari Inkantation. If ever a game was to convince me that a song could irreversibly change your life, it was Splatoon. Because to teenage me, in that moment, with Calamari Inkantation playing in the background while I fought an octupus DJ, it did.
It gave me terminal brainworms for this series. And here I am, 8 yrs later. Older and more tired, been through some shit, had some good times, tried, succeeded and failed in things throughout the years.
I've always been grateful that they made the decision for the player character from 1 to return, everytime they've shown up it's felt a bit like seeing an old friend, especially since as the games time skips have always had them close to my age(which probably helped my attachement back in the first game). So hi Three, can't believe we both probably pay taxes now.
I have the original two Inkling Amiibos, in a collection that is slowly building, I'm still attached to Marie, and yes I was on her team for the Final Splatfest.
I cried when it was over, just like I did in 2's Final Fest(I was team chaos, two for two baby!) and will probably do so for 3's as well. Something about this series just makes me super attached to it's world and characters.
So booyah Splatoon, my final online game of yours was well and truly years ago, but I replayed story mode to share you with a friend recently, and I think I'll refight Octavio tonight in honour of the good times.
You encouraged me to try out games I wouldn't have otherwise(hello Overwatch and Deep Rock Galactic), and outlasted one of the other major games of my teenage years(...Overwatch 1 I miss you). So thank you for that.
I'll miss Squid Jump, Inkstrike, the og kit for the NZap 89(why does it's new one not vibe with me ;-;), the Squid Sister's broadcasts and the more saturated colours. At least I can always return to the Plaza in 3, and that Spyke isn't dead like I was concerned he was when 3 released, and see the Squid Sisters perform during Splatfests again.
I have so much more to say in my heart about you but no more ways to word it.
You've been a fantastic game, and will always be a treasured experience that I am grateful to have been a apart of from the very beginning.
Now bring back Moray Towers in 3 damn it! It's in 2 but I DON'T WANT TO LOSE MY FAVOURITE STAGE IF IT"S NOT IN 4.
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wasg going to send a more coherent ask but it became. this. thanks for listening if you do and have a nice day :)
i really really dont want to assume anything but sincerely a lot of the gender discourse sounds really really fuckin american. like im not trying to say that everyone dismissing t-androphobia is american but it is sincerely kind of breathtaking how many people think bigotry is this kind of inherent brainworm that transcends culture, context, and all physical boundaries
when sometimes it is literally necessary to understand that a lot of this Is just a distribution issue. the world and people's lives are massively narrow and patchy. posts like "you never see x happening" drive me bonkers because literally doesn't mean anything? it's the black swan paradox all again. i feel like it's done me a world of good to realize that i could run around at a speed of 10 mph for the rest of my life and still not be able to see 90% of what people experience and know to be real
also a huge part of this debate leaves me scratching my head because there's this assumption that someone who does not experience some sort of oppression is forever unable to understand such oppression...and then as this idea evolves we get all sorts of fun varieties like "trying to relate to some sort of oppression with your own experiences is presumptuous appropriation" (odd to me because at least as i've been taught sometimes this can be helpful to comfort and connect to people) "doing so means you're jealous of the perceived attention oppressed people get" (this one is silly to me) "everyone different from you can never actually ever be your friend because your oppression is central to your identity and if they don't understand it they will tear you down" (just downright not true, in my experience, though of course, it's also entirely possible that for someone else's experience, it HAS been true.)
i donāt necessarily think that anyone who buys into the tma/tme divide is just someone who has never experienced oppression before, though. honestly, some of the blogs vilest towards transmascs are, from what ive seen, run by people who are struggling or isolated currently. i canāt help but feel like this rhetoric is preying on people who feel alone and perceived as an animal by everyone around them by telling them that this is true, but that this time their isolation can be self-imposed to keep all those enemies out. it all leaves a really fuckin bad taste in my mouth that it especially targets vulnerable people.
(failed coherent ask anon) more rambling idk if this would have fit into one asksā wordcount. people are bringing up past ace discourse and i agree. almost all of the posts are also phrased in a similar way, just kinda funny to me. anyways, itās actually a really cowardly maneuver every time. it goes like this: we have determined group A is mathematically less oppressed than the umbrella group we have determined that us, group B, are mathematically oppressed more for a multitude of reasons, we bully and belittle group A bonus steps: find discussions that are naturally happening around the oppression of group A and convince people that these discussions are silencing, proof of jealousy of oppression, proof of some uniting whinyness/cringyness/personality defect of the whole group, or proof of oppression towards group B people react to us bullying and belittling group A no matter how vile the bullying, no matter how harmful the bullying proves to be, no matter how much proof of real oppression group A may provide, you can brush it off because of the main mantra, āgroup A is not oppressed but group B is.ā we can structure every conflict between the two as inherently oppressive because A are always the oppressors, and B are always the oppressed. final step: if anyone from group A calls out the bullying, we can again go to bonus step 4 and use this as proof that A are trying to make themselves out to be oppressed, which is ridiculous, because A are and always have been oppressors itās such a lazy, automatic argument. ace attorney would eat those chucklefucks up. (i know nothing about ace attorney)
My Ace Attourney fan friend probably agrees lol. Such circular fucking logic.
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X-Men Origins Rewrite
Ok I guess this is a follow up to this post i made not too long ago abt rewriting this shit, the brainworms rlly got to me here so youāre getting a follow up sooner than expected lol
Before I actually do any rewriting though I wanted to lay out the big changes Iād be making and why, mainly for myself as a guide and to organize my thoughts both about the original filmās issues and how these changes could potentially solve them, but also to allow anyone else with some ideas for possible changes to add their own thoughts or suggestions by engaging with the post.
As for what kind of final product you could possibly expect these ideas to result in, i havenāt quite decided if I want to just do an in depth outline for the story with my proposed changes or do like a full length fic novelization. Itāll probably depend on how motivated I still feel about the exercise by the time Iām finished and happy with the cleaned up outline, but I digress. Lets just go ahead and get into the changes I want to make:
Proposed Changes:
First off, Iām removing Blob and Gambit from this cut. I like both of the characters and think itās cool they tried to include them but the cast is crammed enough as it is and those two serve very little narrative purpose that canāt be shifted to others just as easily.
Second, Iām adding Silverfox to Team X and letting that serve as the meeting point for her and Logan, it gives the audience more time to get to know her and come to care for her and Loganās relationship, while also harkening back to the comics where she was also a part of the weapon x program. Also I know this isnāt a real film but let it be known that if it were iād actually hire a Native American actress to portray her, iām still shitty they whitewashed her.
Third, Iām removing the third act āSilverfox wasnāt really deadā twist. I really shouldnāt have to explain why, that shit was dumb and completely unnecessary, not to mention introducing a shit ton of plot holes with that whack ass mutant ability they pull from thin air. In my version sheās human(as far as we know) and when she dies she dies for real, full stop.
Fourth, we are GETTING a biblically accurate Deadpool. They did my bro dirty and I refuse to compromise on this. His role will be larger to compensate for his big ass personality and the fact that iām affectively letting him take up Gambitās role from the original in addition to what he already had. Also I just think he bounces off of Logan really well and could serve as a really interesting parallel with having such similar trauma and very different ways of responding to it and seeing the world. Like just imagine D&W if they accidentally traumabonded over their similar origin stories.
Fifth, Iām making Victor our stand in for the films Weapon XI! He doesnt get adamantium or new powers like Wade, only the dehumanizing psychological torture present in the original Weapon X comic. I think it works great for his spiraling arc, gives me a chance to squeeze a faithful weapon X adaptation in here without upending the entire filmās structure, and helps to better position his character on a trajectory towards his more feral appearance in X1 where he doesnāt seem to fully recognize Logan.
Sixth, Iād like to include Dr. Cornelius as the head scientist in Weapon X. My current concept is that heās in charge of all the unethical mutant capturing and experimenting, working under Strykerās supervision but still an outsider to the government, being sent in by Strykerās most significant source of funding for his program in Nathaniel Essex. I know this has zero basis in canon I just think it sounds cool and makes sense for Sinister to have hands in a program aiming to create perfect mutant soldiers, as someone using mutants DNA to create a genetically perfect race of superhumans and become the ultimate life form. (Sinister would not play a large role, more of a looming presence pulling strings and fucking people over)
To get more overarching here, I wanted to hone in on the dynamics and themes present in the original that i thought had the most potential for further development. Victorās spiral to madness and eventual complete loss of self under Stryker, Logan learning to let go of Victorās influence and the violence that he let define his life only for both to drag him back after Silverfoxās demise. Really digging into that nature vs nurture shit, and adding more mutant politics (and their accompanying metaphors for the struggles of marginalized people) cuz honestly i feel like itās absence in the original is very noticeable, and ties in really well with Loganās arc of self acceptance and learning to see himself as more than the violent nature of his mutation.
Stuff I Still Want Changed:
Ok so hereās where Iām throwing my hat out for suggestions, because there are still a couple minor things present in the movie that iām just not a fan of or donāt really know what to do with. The difference is, with these I canāt really think of tweaks that could fix/improve them. So if yall have any ideas on what I can do about these, or maybe some completely unrelated changes that you just think could improve the rewrite, please let me know.
One, not really sure what to do with Zero, heās around for a lot of the movie but didnāt really stand out much to me. I just donāt know a lot about the character or what his deal is in the comics to find something cool to do with him. Iām going back and forth on if his role is ultimately necessary?? Does Stryker really need another henchman? Or should I use the space he occupies to hone in more on Victor and Loganās rivalry? Idk iām still on the fence so tell me what yall think.
Two, god I just fucking hate those memory wiping adamantium bullets. Itās such a stupid plot device that makes no sense conceptually and was clearly just thrown in as an afterthought at the last second like the writers forgot they needed to erase his memory by the end. Thatās not to mention the fact that the bulletsā function was retconned later in Logan. Genuinely though I cannot find another way to go about fucking up Loganās head without basically upending the structure of this movie in its entirety so any ideas on how to solve this dilemma are appreciated.
#dawg iāve spent way too long thinkin abt this fuckahh movie#iām cookedššš#xmen#x men#x men origins#x men origins: wolverine#xmen origins#xmen origins wolverine#x men origins wolverine#Wolverine#Logan Howlett#Victor Creed#sabretooth#deadpool#deadpool & wolverine#deadpool3#wade wilson#poolverine
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Okay, here we go, my interpretations and rambles about the 4th anniversary art. I know everybody is doing that right now and a lot of my thoughts might be the same as a lot of other people's, but the brainworms are active.
Let's start that it is brilliant that they went with a funeral theme for the 4th anni and to top it off they released it on the 4th of April. As a lot of you might know, 4 stands for death in Japanese (and various other asian countries), as it is pronounced the same.
My initial prediction for the art was, that it would be the funeral of the prisoners themselves and that we would see them lying on the frame of flowers (chrysanthemum, white lilies and white roses, all traditional funeral flowers). But as it turns out, we have the prisoners attending the funeral of their victims, so to speak.
So of course we have everybody in classic funeral attire, and sadly that doesnāt make for a lot of variety for the guys, sans the shoes, some buttons and different seams and pockets, but they all look splendid in it (and it stops Fuuta from combining it with some ridiculous fashion choices), so I can vibe with it.
For the girls we have of course a bit more to look at in terms of different clothes, the ones who are still visiting school in their respective uniforms, although in dark tones to fit in the whole composition, and Mappi with a simple dress as well as Kotoko with a chic blazer and trousers combo.
The wardens take the role of the priest who would attend a traditional Japanese funeral, how very fitting. Everybody is very pretty. I do still prefer akkaās art, but kee did a very good job capturing everybody as well.
Now the really interesting part is of course how everybody is holding their bouquets. I think the general consensus is that they stands for the victims, or in a wider sense the emotional stance that each prisoner has in regards to their murder. Letās go in order from left to right.
Mikoto: Very prim and proper. I am in the camp that thinks that Mikoto committed the murder, not John, but also that he genuinely doesnāt remember anymore (due to stress-induced amnesia etc.). So it makes a lot of sense that he holds it in the most neutral and normal way possible. He doesnāt know the victim, he doesnāt have any particular feelings regarding it that he can remember.
Kazui: Holding it very lightly, but not as careless as if you would have to fear it falling to the ground. Maybe symbolic for the lack of emotional commitment in his marriage, due to being homosexual? Somewhat fitting to the lyrics of Cat, āletās keep it simpleā, keep it casual, these feelings are not real and very fleeting.
Shidou: Oh, he is interesting. He is holding the flowers exactly like you would a young baby, proper head and body support with both his hands and arm, while being very gentle with it. Further evidence that his murder ended up being one of his sons. As I assume ending up braindead after an accident and Shidou having to give the okay to use him as an organ donor.
Fuuta: My angry little ginger. And his anger shines through, what are you gripping your flowers so tightly for, little man? He is holding it almost like a weapon, very much the hero of justice with his sword ready to strike. I find it interesting that he is the only prisoner not smiling. I thought maybe because he is the one who is the most terrified about what his actions have led to? He was deeply riddled by remorse from the beginning after all, as much as he didn't want to admit that.
Haruka: Oh Haruka, what are you doing? His is ā¦ interesting. My theory is still that the murder he is actually is in Milgram for is a suicide, and the way he is holding the flowers does a good job in supporting that thought. He is holding the bouquet upside down, with not much apparent care for its state, some petals falling on the floor, and more importantly, on himself. I think this might represent how he has little to none self-worth and care for himself. Another thing I did see a japanese fan on Twt talk about was the meaning of an upside down bouquet. Apparently there is a superstition about holding flowers upside down, so that they ā¦ absorb water faster. This is both a good way to show Harukaās innocence about the world as he would possibly believe such a thing as well as ā¦ very grim, as I think he drowned himself.
Yuno: Similar to Shidou she is holding her flowers a lot like you would an infant, and ā¦ well, that speaks for itself I would say. There is no ill feeling or disrespect towards the unborn life, is what just not meant to be with her.
Muu: Holding her bouquet behind her back, just like she does not want the fact that it might in fact have been her fault behind her victim act. Could also go very well with how she most likely did hide the box cutter out of sight until she struck.
Mahiru: She is holding her flowers very gently, delicately, with a lot of love, of course, itās Mappi after all. Maybe almost a bit too close to her, if she is not careful she could crush or squish them easily. As it is in line with how destructive her relationship ended up being.
Amane: Oh Amane, the disrespect, haha. Carelessly discarded behind her. Sinners are worthless and need to be punished, right? Nothing wrong with quite literally stepping over dead bodies. The little girl is quite savage, I have to give her that much.
Kotoko: She is a bit hard for me to read. Her grip on the bouquet is concealed, does she maybe not want to admit how tightly she is holding on to it as a parallel how she does not want to admit to her sadistic tendencies, because it is after all always for justice, nothing else. Hmmm.
#milgram#haruka sakurai#yuno kashiki#fuuta kajiyama#muu kusunoki#shidou kirisaki#mahiru shiina#kazui mukuhara#amane momose#mikoto kayano#kotoko yuzuriha#es milgram#milgram theory#moi rambles
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Okokok I've had brainworms over this for months so I need to share.
Hob's a history professor (real, cannon), and Dream's his student he has a questionable relationship with. One day, the class goes to a museum for a lesson, and Dream decides to wear a short skirt and intentionally distracts Hob the whole time so his plan for that day gets a bit derailed, which pisses Hob off greatly. Not that he'd show that around his other students, though. As punishment, once they get back, Hob manhandles Dream into his lap and spanks him blue, not even removing the skirt, just pulling it up, then makes him cockwarm as Hob grades test papers. He pays no attention to Dream aside from something like "you wanted my attention so bad, here it is. Enjoy it."
I think I just like kinda mean Hob and slutty student Dream.
You are very valid for this anon, I am also not immune to the teacher/student dynamic!!!!!!!
I love the idea of a class trip to the museum. First of all Dream insists on sitting next to Hob on the bus to the museum, instead of sitting with the other students. For the whole journey, Dream whispers and giggles next to Hob, trying to touch him, while Hob has to try and maintain a neutral expression. When they finally get to the museum, Hob still can't concentrate because Dream keeps bending over at every opportunity to show off his butt. When he's not showing off, he's raising his hand and asking silly questions about the nude statues. The rest of the students may be in their early twenties, but it doesn't stop them from giggling over Dreamās antics and derailing Hobās lecture entirely. Then Dream has the gall to beg Hob to buy him things in the museum gift shop!
Back in Hobās office, Dream acts all innocent and surprised when Hob grabs him by the hem of his flimsy skirt and pulls him close. Of course the skirt rips, and Hob feels a certain satisfaction. He has a perfect angle to spank Dreamās pale, pretty little arse.
Naturally Dream cries, and Hob has to gag him with his own tie so that the whole department doesn't hear Dream whining about how Hob is so mean and horrible to him. The tattered remains of the skirt hang pathetically around Dreamās thighs as his bottom throbs and his cheeks turn bright red. Soon enough Hob picks him up and stuffs his cock into Dreamās poor little hole with very little preparation. Dream can only sit there and quietly sob into his gag (while surreptitiously canting his hips to try and fuck himself on Hobās cock, earning himself a further smack each time).
Dreamās skirt is far too ruined for him to go home in, so he finally saunters out of Hobās office several hours later, wearing a spare pair of Hobās sensible beige trousers. He can't wait to wear them to Hobās next lecture for everyone to see...
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ok hereās the thing: Iām a fucking Hunger Games lore buff. Iāve read the books a million times and seen all the movies a bunch and read Songbirds and Snakes cover to cover. YOU ARE GOING TO TAKE OVER MY BRAIN.
Hereās a little brainworm for you: Tribute reader pulling a little Johanna Mason. Let me explain.
When Johnny and Simon get their hands on this years tributes, they can already tell theyāve got their work cut out for them. Simon takes over with the boy because the girl is quite obviously a pathetic sniveling mess. So Johnny gets to see through the trick mirror into Readerās actual plan: disguise herself as a weakling and then catch everyone by surprise. She trains privately with Johnny, and he gives her all the know how and information she needs to survive. All Simon ever sees, though, is the weepy little thing with no chance of survival. So heās understandably confused and agitated when Johnny insists that Readerās gonna win, and places all of their bettings on her. He expects her not to make it through the bloodbath, and he thinks heās right, until they play the faces of the dayās deceased and Reader is noticeably still alive.
A few more days pass. Johnny sends Reader some supplies to keep her alive and well-stocked. At midnight on the fourth day, Readerās plan begins for real.
Thereās about 14 tributes left counting her. Then thirteen. Then twelve. And then eleven. The cameras zoom in on Reader, covered in blood, with a satisfied smile on her face. Sheās wearing a splint on her leg because allegedly she took a tumble- she rips the damn thing off with prejudice and sighs in relief. The broken leg was an act as well.
Simon has never been harder in his fucking life when he watches Reader carve her way through the remaining tributes. The games end with a catastrophic earthquake and a cinematic finish, as Reader pushes the last competitor into a ravine. After she comes out of the healing bay good as new and ready to make her debut as the newest Victor, Simon and Johnny are waiting for her. They have to postpone the after games ceremonies while Simon pounds the Reader against the nearest surface and licks all the blood off of her face.
there's this moment in the first hunger games book where katniss recalls several past hunger games and why they were/weren't popular, and in one of them she mentions a games where the only weapons provided were "horrible spiked maces that the tributes had to bludgeon one another to death with" and it's my personal headcanon that that was johanna's year š can you imagine her going from being a little teary, a lot pathetic, to a killing machine with a fucking mace and winning the whole Games? ohhh my god
anyways i'm fucking obsessed with this take on a hunger games au and i would read several thousand words about it. tysm for gifting it to me
#i've only read the first book (starting the second today) so NO ONE tell me if johanna's games are revealed more in the 2nd#let me have this#asks and answers#hellshire-harlot#hunger games au
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