#my brain produces thoughts

[sendmepicturesofthemoon]

i keep seeing it everywhere so friendly reminder to those who need it: charlie spring is not depressed! he has ocd and anorexia, not depression. those are different things and you can’t just call any person who is sad and has a mental illness “depressed” hope this helps

[pixlatedvampire]

god help me

[tanasha-not-yet]

[wishchip106]

i recently organized my xmfc photo album to follow the sequence of the film and it made me look at this scene again and now i’m going insane and curling up into a ball again

“There’s so much more to you than you know, not just pain and anger, there’s good too I felt it. When you can access all that, you’ll possess a power no one can match. Not even me.”

it was at this point in the movie (when i first watched it) that finally had my brain click and say “Oh they’re gay 🤯” i was uming and uhing about it since i wasn’t sure if they were really good friends or something else entirely up until then😭

god i’m in constant battle deciding if i love or hate these guys they’ve made me so insane they’re all i can think about 24/7 365 SOMEONE SEDATE MEEE

[moonikabear]

so apparently even when I'm playing a card game with my family i cannot turn off the brainrot 💀

[dramas-vs-novels]

Do you think the finale episode of TBNW will come up with an original NC scene since they skipped the bigger ones already? Or is there one from the book they could still use? Also, it there’s no final NC, imma be pissed lol

There is so much to get through, I would not be too surprised if there is no NC at all...

There is still one NC from the novel they could technically use, but they might also save that for the special episode.

Honestly, the way the ep was cut, I wouldn't be surprised if the box set had the missing NC scene. It had everything leading up to it and cut right before it would have started.

That being said... Boss said they spent around 5 days filming NC scenes, and so far what I have seen... my professional opinion, as someone who has worked in TV for 11 years, is that what we have seen would probably be done in 3 days of filming or less...

[mispatchedgreens]

wrist? limp. canine? crooked. boy? acquired

[herefortheships]

No but I gotta share something with you all 😂

Listen, you know that weird dream I had about Beetlejuice 3? (I totally shared it in detail here if you're curious 😂), that it was pretty bad up until the third act when Betelgeuse finally showed up? Well, I had another weird dream about Beetlejuice 3 the other night and in that dream it was ALSO awful! It was terrible 😂. I don't remember the details as vividly as I did after that other dream, because the focus of my dream this time around was that I was at the movie theater with my sisters and my mom and dad (which it was so weird that both my mom and dad were there lol).

Anyway the one detail I do remember was that I was telling one of my sisters quietly "Ok the way this is going, either Betelgeuse will die in the end or he's gonna sacrifice himself for Lydia", and the movie wasn't even funny. It was like more dramatic than the other two and it was moving toward a sad ending.

And then this stupid girl (I am sure I've seen her on TikTok 😂) showed up late to the movie and she had already seen it, but she was meeting a friend, and from the entrance she started yelling at her friend about the ENDING. Something like "Oh! I know how this movie ends! Do you want to know how it ends?!" Like her friend was at the other end of the theater and instead of going up to her she was just shouting to her for some reason (I think her friend wanted her to spoil the ending for her and that's why she was even there??). She was just yelling from the door and even though I covered my ears I could hear her say that the movie ended with Betelgeuse dying. And I was so mad! Even though I totally knew he was going to die in the end, I was still mad I was spoiled, obviously.

I don't remember if he was actually going to sacrifice himself for Lydia but he was definitely dying at the end, and I think it would have made the movie a little more bearable if he did sacrifice himself out of love, but the movie was so terrible, it didn't matter. It wouldn't make up for it 😂.

Ah! So that makes two dreams (nightmares lol) about Beetlejuice 3 being awful. One of my sisters said "those might be premonitions at this point" 💀. I hope not! Like, I rebuke! 😂 In that case we're better off with a sequel with an ambiguous ending than a third movie with a terrible plot that ends with Beetlejuice and Lydia forever separated. I repeat: rebuke, rebuke, rebuke. My sister said my dreams are preparing me for the worse 😂. I personally can take a terrible plot Beetlejuice 3 if it has a good ending (and Beetlejuice x Lydia are endgame), but if it's gonna be terrible AND end up with Beetlebabes separated forever, then nope, I don't want it. 💀

[plenilune]

keep going "man I am really confused and disappointed that I haven't managed to do ANYTHING in days." like can't read, can't make stuff, sleeping a lot, haven't been doing The Exercises That Make Me Not Wince Whenever I Stand Up From A Chair. brain full of wet felt. got new computer for the first time in almost a decade and have yet to Write Prose or Play New Video Games or do art or anything.

then I remember that it is the week before Thanksgiving, and I work at the grocery store. sometimes this week I work eight and a half consecutive hours of my one wild and precious life, at the grocery store.

[sendmepicturesofthemoon]

i really love how the first clip they gave us is the new years party

i know it’s to avoid spoilers and i’m also 99% sure what i’ll say here was not the actual intention but to me it serves as a reminder to those who’ve been fixating more on the angsty aspects of the season (of whom there are even more now after the stills have dropped)

like, yes, it’s going to be sad, but this is what it’s all leading to. no matter how dark it gets, they (and we) are going to get here:

and isn’t that just great

[miodiodavinci]

i saw that you used to hint at oc stuff on twitter (don't ask me why im digging im looking for zola stuff lmao) why don't you post more about them?

i am simply terrified that if i post oc things online someone will steal the concept and run with it faster and better than i ever could have and then i will be devastated forever and ever

more seriously i have very little to show for any of my oc things (adhd brain making life difficult as per usual awawawawawa) and every time i've shared oc things in the past i've ended up never following up on it and it makes me feel bad and guilty so i've just convinced myself i will Never talk about my ocs until i have something substantial i can put out there

[itspileofgoodthings]

adult wins, adult anxieties and fears and frozenness.

[stormbreaker-290]

🧊

Shes defrosting,,,,,,,,,

[beigetiger]

Discussing Valduggery and how it reflects disagreements in generalized fandom shipping ethics (I wrote this on a dare, thanks @vividvermilion)

Gonna preface this by saying that I do not ship Valduggery, nor do I necessarily approve of other people shipping it. I think that there’s some legitimately fascinating discussions that could be had surrounding it though, but any sort of nuance usually gets flattened and it’s pretty disappointing. So this essay is gonna sound a lot like me defending the ship, I’m not, but I was thinking about it.

Like I said earlier, nuance often gets cut out of the conversation, likely due to a variety of factors. One would be a knee-jerk disgust towards it (which I’m not saying is inherently bad) and another is probably that people really, really do not want their fandom to be known as the one that defends a borderline pedophilic ship (I say borderline because I’ve only ever seen Valdug stuff set when Valkyrie is an adult, but I’m also only on Tumblr and have no idea what’s going on in other forums). Again, not a bad thing to want, but outside social pressure is how a lot general fandom policing takes hold, which then makes the fandom more of a toxic space.

Now, this fandom in particular is pretty relaxed and I appreciate that, but getting into fights, bullying others over their ships, and just generally spreading vitriol against your fellow media enjoyers is never ok and it makes the fandom spaces so much less enjoyable for everybody. And since so many people on social media feel the need to insert themselves into everything regardless of whether or not they enjoy it, it’s always a good reminder that if you dislike or disapprove of something, keep your mouth shut and block it (I know this is a pretty general thing taught on Tumblr, but I’m still going to reinforce it here). This also means that experiencing some form of shaming from someone outside the fandom is very much within possibility, but the people who do that are stupid and you should internalize the idea that you shouldn’t take that seriously.

I’m also gonna point out, no matter how already-talked-about this point is, that none of these people are real people, or even based on real people. These guys are about as fictional as you are ever going to get. It’s a fair thing to point out that allowing yourself to become accustomed to this particular flavour of fictional abuse can allow you to become more accepting of it in real life, and that might be vaguely correct (don’t quote me on this, I’m not a psychologist), but the thing is is that if that were true, than that standard would have to be enforced on all types of fictional abuse.

And here is where I discuss the big double standard of abuse in fandom spaces. I’m gonna have to use some other fandoms as a reference for this, and I’m dead certain that everyone reading this can come up with a few of their own as well. Abuse is depicted in media pretty often, which means that the people who consume it are then desensitized to it (to a degree). But since some flavours of abuse are shown, discussed, and joked about more often, this leads to a sort of fandom dichotomy between “acceptable abuse”, which is abuse that is allowed to be drawn, enjoyed, and romanticized, as opposed to “bad” abuse, which will get you demonized for enjoying and sometimes even depicting. If any of you have seen Gravity Falls trending recently, Billford (the reason it’s trending) is an abusive ship, but it’s considered “acceptable” abuse. Bad abuse usually involves sexual assualt or pedophilia (and often other topics as well). It’s all abuse, but the fact that some forms of abuse will get you harassed and threatened while other forms are extremely popular signals to me that some amount of discussion regarding double-standards and basic self-control should probably be had in general fandom spaces.

Because if we were to enforce the idea that all types of abuse (romantic or otherwise) are Very Bad™️ and need to be demonized, none of us are actually allowed to enjoy Skulduggery Pleasant because it’s a series about a child soldier and the four-hundred-year-old guy she has a toxic codependency with. Again, I do not ship them romantically at all, but I really do enjoy thinking about and analyzing fucked up dynamics, so I’d much prefer to be able to enjoy this series without being shamed for it (and wish to extend that courtesy to others because if there’s anything I hate, it’s being a hypocrite).

But going back to shipping, shipping something abusive or generally fucked up (such as Valduggery) is not the same as endorsing it, even if the person does enjoy it. Enjoying/appreciating is not endorsing either. In fact, writing or depicting something that’s already messed up in the canon can be a creative way to analyze and then extend that abuse, which gives fans more food for thought and gives writers and artists good practice thinking about social implications.

For example, there’s probably an unholy number of variations of Valduggery ships (I’ve seen two here on Tumblr but I’d be shocked if there’s not more) due to there being so many variations of both Skulduggery and Valkyrie (four each, I believe). Each of these pairings have a slightly different dynamic and writing about those different dynamics is interesting! I have fun thinking about the different possible dynamics between the duos (hello, every SP au I have ever made) and doing that same analyzing but in a romantic sense isn’t inherently evil (sometimes it’s really funny). Fandoms are supposed to be places for creative self-expression, and policing what people are allowed to do with themselves (while also enforcing a double standard) isn’t good.

On a more general note and not necessarily tying into the SP fandom, sometimes people write or draw toxic ships (or other things that aren’t necessarily ships) as a way to work through and express trauma or other negative emotions. And these people don’t deserve to be harassed for doing that (again, self-expression). They also don’t have to defend themselves to you or specifically state that they’re doing what they’re doing to help themselves handle trauma, because that’s on par with asking for the medical history of a trans or disabled person and is a fucked up thing to do. Not that I’m blaming this fandom in particular for doing that, you guys are great. This is just my general ranting about fandom spaces with my limited experience handling fandom (especially toxic fandom).

Now, as I said earlier, I actually don’t interact with the SP fandom outside of Tumblr, so I could be wildly mischaracterizing Valduggery shippers in other spaces at the moment (I’ve heard horror stories about AO3 but I’m not on there so I have no opinions of my own). Intentionally making light of abuse is always bad, but again, please do not harass your fellow fans.

This was a REALLY long post and I’m sorry for bringing up something that I know is a bit of a touchy subject for this fandom. This idea started out as a lot more specifically about Valduggery but then I decided that so much I wanted to talk about regarding the ship is a trend reflected across nearly all fandoms, so I ended up talking in much more general terms.

If anyone has literally any thoughts please share them, because I’m slightly in disbelief that I actually wrote this out about this subject. I also want to know if I missed any important factors while writing this because I hate doing that. Thank you all for reading my soapbox rant.

[connecting-the-stars]

Friend asked me what my Roman empires was I obviously responded literally and scanned through my most recent fixations and jumped on the one that I believed was mainstream enough to share,

“Star Wars. The clones and how it explores individuality in people that are meant be copies of one person.”

They blinked at me. And the sense of dread kind of sunk in my stomach for a minute. Like damn - did you do this bit wrong?

“You made it philosophical.” They joked and turned in kind with a fact about the stormtroopers and the relation to German armies.

Then they said their Roman Empire was Yung Gravy and red heads.

Lmao. Our conversations are always something.

[nepnepian]

Upon rewatching some Overture cutscenes, its made me realize just how close Paradigm was to getting a Ride the Lightning directly to the face when he suggested killing Dizzy. Like that is the love of his life that Paradigm keeps calling a weapon. Anyone would get agitated with that just by itself, I can only imagine how much rage Ky was physically holding back at the doctor's idea. Its also reminded me why the "Ky Kiske hates his family" bs that people insist on spreading around pisses me off as much as it does. This isn't a matter of lore being hidden in other sources, if you look in Overture in that scene, you can clearly tell Ky is not only seeing red at the idea of Dizzy being killed, but if Paradigm persisted, there is a good chance there would be hands being thrown. The part where Sin mentions that Ky could never look him in the eye is what I've seen most people cling to about him supposedly hating his family, but I have a counter argument. Think of who Ky Kiske is as a person, he's a man who values justice and protecting others at all costs, even if it would cost him his life. Now, I want you to remember why he's a king in the first place, the position was in the end forced upon him by the conclave to be their puppet of sorts. Ky is arguably one of the strongest people in this game's Canon, even SOL FUCKING BADGUY was afraid of him for a time. If Ky didn't have anything to lose, the conclave wouldn't have anything on him. Cuz what would they do? Use force? Against the man who was running the Holy Order since age 16? Talk to the P.W.A.B. and they can tell you how well that one worked for them. Even with Ky’s battle data in Robo-Ky it still paled to the original.

What makes this situation much different compared to the Bureau is that this time, Ky DID have something to lose. His family.

The conclave knew that Ky was a threat to them. The P.W.A.B. had no chance of truly stopping him at the time because Ky Kiske is a stubborn bastard that only had himself his entire life. Ky didn't have anything to lose before Dizzy and Sin graced his life. The conclave couldn't hope to silence him directly, so they went for the next best thing and held a metaphorical gun to his wife and child's heads. It no doubt killed Ky inside that Dizzy and Sin were being used as bargaining chips to a bunch of masked assholes that wanted to make sure he played nice and stayed in line. He finally had a chance to have a family, after being on his own for so long, only for the threat of it all being taken away looming over his head. Combine that with the general population still fearing Gears as intensely as when the Crusades were taking place, Ky most likely felt like he failed both Dizzy and Sin, as they were forced to live in hiding and Ky was powerless to do anything about it.

I realize I'm just theorizing on it, but given Ky’s character, it makes sense in my mind.