#my arcane dr.

[diedboys]

sighs loudly. i guess i AM making an arcane/LoL dr.

fell in love with these two.

[brainrotisseriechicken]

and id say i love you but saying it out loud is hard. so i wont say it at all (and i wont stay very long)

(Hi!! ive been in and out of bed this past month like sick as shit . food poisoning and THEN a fever and then allergies .barely even touched my phone. i am getting better though!! sorry i havent been active online !!!clefdraki 4 u)

[anendtopursuit]

ok. so. viktor is my favourite character in arcane. i am also physically disabled and hate the Magical Miracle Eugenics Disability Cure trope with a fiery passion. naturally i have a lot of opinions about where his character is going, but for now, here's a relatively simple one:

internalised ableism has always been part of viktor's character. he describes himself as "a poor cripple from the undercity" (yes, quoting how other people speak about him, but still); he shies away from the spotlight even when jayce encourages him; as a child, he directly acknowledges his disability as the reason other children don't associate with him.

i watched a video essay recently ("how arcane writes men" by schnee) that identified viktor's tendency to just suck it up and push through his problems rather than dwelling on them as a stereotypically masculine trait, which he is written to both subvert and lean into. whilst i agree with that to some extent, i think for viktor specifically it's more of an insight into a very common mindset for disabled people to have; a lot of us do not want to be pitied, and understand that acknowledging our hardships will often unfortunately lead to being treated as attention seeking. he doesn't dwell on things because he can't, unless he wants to be looked down on more than he already is; he's already had to fight to even be acknowledged as more than somebody's assistant, or respected as a zaunite living and working in piltover. i can't imagine he's keen to show any further "weakness"; he only ever cries when he's alone. it makes sense that he'd want to save himself rather than relying on anybody else.

the dangerous thought process of "fixing" people with the hexcore begins with that desire to save himself. at first he's just trying to stop his illness from killing him, but then he progresses to carving runes into his leg, seemingly in the interest of fixing his limp - which works, albeit temporarily. he seems aware enough of the implications of what he's doing to be somewhat ashamed of it (or, at the very least, enough to hide it from jayce). i've seen a lot of (mostly able bodied) people interpret the scene of him running down the pier as victorious, but it always felt bittersweet and scary to me; the dark, painful fantasy of "fixing" the thing the world has always looked down on you for, and the unsettling knowledge that you were never supposed to exist that way. a man experiencing a moment of joy only when he has detached himself from a core aspect of his being; self hatred disguised as progress. he only seems to register the horror of what he's doing when it kills sky.

it's not a leap to say that, with the hexcore dulling his emotions and blurring the lines of his ethical code, he would turn this externally. self loathing so insidious that he mistakes it for kindness and mercy and points the blade of it at the people he swore he'd help. before merging with the hexcore, he was desperate to destroy it and rid himself of its influence, hindered only by his physical inability to do so; under its control, he's seemingly lost all those inhibitions, wiped clean of his understanding of its danger. no longer "clouded by emotion", no longer human enough to know better, no longer suspicious of the arcane.

what viktor becomes in season 2 is, i believe, a hellish mix of his own internalised ableism and the hexcore's desperation to spread and survive. his genuine desire to help people has been warped into stripping people of their individualism, forcing them into some predetermined ideal in the name of healing (very "the empty child" from doctor who). it's his own character flaws mixed with the inhuman apathy of the hexcore. the road to hell is paved with good intentions, and also dressed up so nicely that you don't even realise you're headed downwards.

this is not what viktor stood for, but rather a perversion of his own insecurities, with a fresh coat of hexcore paint to stop him (or his followers) from scrutinising it too closely. they took the guy who dedicated his life to bettering humanity, and warped him into something doomed to destroy it.

(or something like that. idk. i haven't slept.)

[drayce-el]

Sinco Photoshop edit I did

[krautvan]

a fathers love

[samtheplatypus]

Happy Birthday Julian!!!!

I love this dumbass ❤️

You have no idea how much I've improved in one year

[cosmicarcanist]

A Human's Touch

kofi | twt | more of my art | etsy | prints

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

Blorbo Bleebi…

[ollikiwi]

I had a vision

[coastalshifts]

i love the differences in their animations here ! jayces eyes widening and darting and twitching as he immediately is captured by promises and hope, turning to look eagerly at viktor for validation in his excitement. and viktor looking more serious and still, not letting his excitement show until he looks at jayce for validation as well! its really cute and i just love the little details, like the bags under both their eyes, the way jayce and vik both clearly look tired but proud... ugh my boys :(

[sadamitusw]

new year jayviks!!!

[diedboys]

uh so i lied about my s/os for arcane / league of legends. this is my s/o & he is making me feel A LOT OF THINGS.

[stealerofthe2ndbraincell]

I can't explain it well, but Jayce Talis has the same kind of survivability as a Doctor Who companion.

[drayce-el]

Another Sinco edit

[always-just-red]

Heyyy everyone, sorry I’ve been awol immediately after saying I was coming back ahaha, unfortunately had some stuff come up— one of my cats passed away and while it wasn’t a shock I’ve just not been in a positive enough headspace for writing

Also my Arcane obsession has come back with a vengeance? 🫠 So I’m gonna spend a few days reeling over the season finale while holding my other cats super close 💕

Thanks for all your patience and support as always!!

[hauntingblue]

Rewatching act 2.... yeah ISHA WATCH OUT FOR THE CYCLE ISHA!!!!! NOOOOO