#my 5am brain is not good
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Being in a relationship with more than one version of the same skeleton should be a bit clashing sometimes. Especially if their personalities go different ways.
Imagine your sleep schedule is a mess and you just go to bed awfully late one night. You know you're bound to wake up past noon the next day, but you're too tired to care. There's nothing important to worry about tomorrow, anyways.
Hopefully, the one that finds you first is someone like Classic Sans, probably sent by Papyrus to pick you up for breakfast since he would be sleeping too if given the opportunity. He would see you there, hiding behind a comfy cocoon of your sheets, and would climb next to you to resume his napping in your company.
You two would happily nap the hours away if it wasn't for your next skeleton to appear.
Someone like Swapfell Sans would burst the door open (careful enough to not be too loud to startle you or to snap it from it's hinges, for that matter), probably thinking you were already awake. It's a surprise he didn't check on you earlier since he's the type of guy to be up and about at the very same hour you went to sleep, but he still didn't wait until noon to give you your 'good morning' kiss before going on his day.
He would wake you right then and there, complaining about how you shouldn't waste a productive day. He actually doesn't care if you use it to be productive or not, that's just his way to help you fix your schedule. And after all this time dating him, you know he means well.
From then on, your tired mind would have two options: leave the bed and fight the grogginess until you're functional again (and wait for him to sleep together at a decent hour) or fall right back into dreamland with the still sleeping skeleton in your arms.
Whatever you choose, if they're not to fight each other, you know someone will try to convince you to change your mind.
#That's just one thing#Not to mention they would do this all the time#With all choices at every opportunity in all scenarios#Brain will end up saturated having to choose between different things all the time#specially knowing both outcomes are good ones#It doesn't need to be Classic and Swapfell either they were just examples#It will get worse as you get more skeletons involved tho#Some would fight some would passively tempt you like in this specific combination#I kinda lost my train of thought here- I woke up after noon and have been writing this out since then#Felt like rambling in my own grogginess#I'm still sleepy#Anyways#5am random thoughts
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realizing ive been using. text format to upload some of my stuff instead of actually labeling them as photos. uhhh whoops.
SO reposting this one just in case. Very Good Sprite redraw friends. enjoy.
#lol sorry for resposting but I WOKE UP AT 5AM AND MY BRAIN WENT “WAIT IM STUPID”#BUT HES FIXED NOW ALL IS GOOD SORRY#my art#pizza tower#pizza tower fake peppino#you will look at my sons a second time and you will LIKE HIM (if you want. im not forcing you.)#love yous~
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i think being aroace has saved me from a lot of bad situations because i also am a people pleaser and an optimist about people's intentions and i've found myself in a number of pretty bad relationships that could have become a lot worse if i'd fallen for their advances instead of keeping them at arm's length and in the friend zone. i'm finally watching you and off the top of my head i can think of 3 men that i've been involved with in some way or other that were textbook joe goldbergs, and the only reason i didn't get in deeper with them is because i was "only" friends with them and never had any intention of dating them or sleeping with them, even when they clearly wanted to. and honestly being aroace is a struggle sometimes because you're so outside of society, but sometimes it's also a blessing. when i look back on some of the men i've been around i thank god that i don't date.
#not saying that those friendships weren't damaging to me because they were#i hate those men for what they put me and other people through#but i think it could have been a lot worse if i'd slept with them#two of my (male) best friends over the years were clearly narcissists and being around them was draining#and the third guy is actually a friend who was involved with our mutual friend and she was his victim not me#but he got it into his insane little brain that i was in love with his girl and wanted to take her away from him#when i was absolutely not in love with her but just a good friend who supported her when he started exhibiting red flag after red flag#that one ended with me and my friend packing our bags and running away from him at 5am one morning#(we all lived and worked together in a hostel it was a weird time in my life)#he was running after us and throwing things at us and insulting/threatening me in particular for betraying him and taking his girl#anyway yeah be careful out there#rain.stuff
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guess who worked all weekend again lol
#its bcus of computer trouble i had to get everything done fast#and now i have to borrow my mom's until the new one i need becomes available on the refurb market#so i had to spend today setting everything up on this machine#i was up until 5am yesterday backing things up and fixing up a usb to work on new files from#good news is i dont think im getting a lot of work for the next couple of weeks#so i can catch up on sleep and stare at computer store webpages like a FREAK#jk ziggys getting a long overdue bath tmrw#uh so thats what ive been doing#im rly frustrated bcus my laptop is only 5yrs old like even if we count tech age in dog years she's literally just carrie bradshaw age#that is young !!#i have a lot more troubleshooting to do w it but i cant start until i have a reliable computer that is mine to work from so :/#sry for being a nerd im upset and ive been dealing w it for the past month before it finally reached terminal status last night#*carrie bradshaw age means 35 all the satc women are forever 35 in my brain cant escape it#ok i g2g see u bye#del l8r
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what’s up with me and plane crashing dreams. perhaps my life long obsession with the show air crash investigations is hitting or smth
#this is the second time in a row#I slept like four hours but i still managed to dream something#and I dreamed all of this between this post and my last reblog.#basically it all started that I was reading a post (idk if it was Twitter) of a woman saying that she had to wait for 3 hours on a airplane#for the bathroom to free and she had to stay awake the entire time#and a moment later I was on that plane too. watching her. I was about to return to my seat (I think). also i was in first class. the only#way I’ll ever experience it) but OUT OF THE NOWHERE my last year surpervisor for an expo and her husband (which I saw once a picture) stand#up. and she starts screaming something about “something sweet coming for women”…? I have no idea what that means. but all the women/girls#on the airplane stand up (they were all sleeping before) and start to crowd in front of me and i start to feel like we are going down. DOWN.#and we were in fact. going down. crashing. and I was scared as hell so while everyone was laughing/celebrating (???) I was screaming of#horror. but just before we crash I wake up and I’m in my bed (but I know I’m still dreaming. because it’s like a slow downloading of the#image). I wake up and I decided I’m late for school (which i don’t have) and I get ready quickly and I march in full force to the bus statio#then I realize there is no school and I’m outside at 5am. I found a supermarket cart and idk why but I take it with me and only when I get#home I realize that the supermarket is nowhere close to my house (like irl) and now I have a freacking shipping cart and I decided to park#it in my garage#and then my mom woke me up as my alarm for 7am went off.#I feel like by brain has been fucked. I’m not used anymore to sleeping poorly because I’ve taken a great interest in better sleeping since#last year and I can’t stand this now ugh.#good morning people tho#dream
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I am gonna bite straight through STEEL I NEED to DRAW
#not just artfight but like. just in general!!! i have had such an insane week between work + the earthshattering realization#of how isolated i am as a queer trans guy; i was out of laundry for a few days + out of groceries for like a week#to cap it all off i woke up with mild food poisoning at like 5am and basically watched the sun rise through my curtains#i think I'm done being insane and i need to make art!!!! i got the ''why not take a drawing break with medibang?'' push notif#bc it's been so long since ive made art 😑 i need to draw pouf in ways that need a community flag 😳#amongst many other things as well but i have been sitting there empty brained at work like. i could be drawing rn..#shai speaks#i need to doodle.. not focus on how good it is or anything
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sorry i haven't been posting or reblogging much i've been cooking tged fics but like all of the premises i wanted to write hit me All at Once so i've been hopping around all of them like mad
for some reason they're all very consistently about lloyd Going Through It and then javier having to deal with the consequences and i think that's really funny
i'm really glad people liked my other posts btw, i like to think i am funny thanks everyone /gen
#tged#lynn misc#genuinely lloyd plagues me#he's kind of like a fly#buzzing in my brain and in my ears like a pest#but a good pest y'know? like. idk what counts as a good pest#anyway yeah that motherfucker torments me#there have been instances where my eyes flash open in the middle of the night with an idea because of him#and i already have a shit sleep schedule so it's like. damn wtf#like it's already 5AM and i'm tired as shit but there my ass is blearily staring at my screen#frantically texting my thoughts to myself before they slip from my mind#and it's ALL BECAUSE OF LLOYD FUCKING FRONTERA
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22 isn't very much at all, I think.
#5am rambles#anyways ignore this as per usual im just thinking in a post that i'll delete soon. i just worry and writing it helps.#you ever wonder when you'll “grow up'? and then realize youre not even fully grown?#that theres still more to learn in life and that the mistakes you make are just that? mistakes?#that you are still so very very young in a world that is so very very old?#im almost 23. barely a quarter of my lifespan. im still a child in a way- my brain not fully formed.#you ever wonder how many mistakes you can make before you figure something out?#I dont know much of anything really. that's the sad part. and the adults who were supposed to help me learn... didnt.#i was failed. and now im a failure. at almost not quite 23 years old. Maybe i wont be a failure in another few years.#i still have a while to go before I die. I'm not going to waste time thinking about it. im just going to try my best.#I have time. I can learn. Grace and patience are not endless but damn if i dont try to figure things out#first step though is meds and therapy tho. we're done with the pity party. some things you just have to accept are okay#cuz my whole life i was taught that being emotional is a weakness. its pathetic and stupid to be upset or angry about anything.#any time i wanted to show i was upset or angry i was 'wrong'. i was 'selfish' and 'dramatic'#so i suppressed and pretended i was fine. that i wasnt weak and pathetic. that i was good and not an annoyance or burden.#i am not weak. i am not pathetic. i am fine i am fine i am fine you dont need to worry about the inconvenience at your door.#sometimes the shame is so much that i cant look at myself or even think i deserve help. that therapy is for people with real problems.#that i feel like ill just be told im like this for attention or dramatics. that im such a disappointment and selfish too.#ive been a “problem” my whole life to the point i dunno if i CAN be fixed. that anxiety eats me alive every day.#therapy is supposed to give you methods to cope#i dunno if it'll work though. I forget my appointments a lot. i struggle to talk sometimes. i may be autistic but its hard to get diagnosed.#emotions are so hard to figure out.
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#cw vomit mention#good morning all i don't want to get too graphic but the weird mood i've been in all week + what happened the past 2 days#and then the questionable smoothie i just drank. my tummy feels off. in a i think i will throw up way.#brain is still bad in case u were wondering. btw. i wrote like 300 words last night for my fic though. :)#the fact that it was 5am and i was awake at 8am today is irrelevant.#they speak!
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#i dod nooooot fall asleep last night 🥲#was just on my phone... well in my defense for a while i was just playing sudoku & tetris so like not as bad as instagram doom scrolling BUT#it did turn in to that around 1 am 🥲🥲🥲 also like ~wow~ crazy anxiety and busy stress brain i couldnt turn off#hence.. the scrolling and no sleep#so i got out of bed around 5am. started a load of laundry. fed the cats. made coffee. and am now chilling before i FINALLY take my car to#the auto shop at 8am! (it is currently 6:03am)#i have no much work to do today so heres hoping i didnt just fuck myself over by a million 🙃#ugh. anyway. good morning yall <3
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#i am going to describe the state of being that i call: feeling unhinged#at least according to how i experienced it today. sometimes its a lil different#but i woke up at like 5am with racing thoughts. not racing in an anxious way but too much to think and trying to think all of it at the#same time. so much to think that it was hard to listen to anything because it was like my thoughts were a radio playing discordant sound#over everything else. so it was like i wasn't all the way in the present. most of me was in my head. and its like when i stop listening to#things my brain has echos. like someone's whispering in the peripherals of my mind. not in like a auditory hallucination way#just like in my head and ever so slightly out of control. its not bad. just kinda weird#and then energy. so so much energy. too much to hold in my chest. i could not be still so i ran and ran and ran and i still wasnt tired#and it was still hard to focus bc my brain was everywhere. around 1 i started to calm down and now im laying down#but i mean im not exhausted. for some reason i guess i was just possessed by a demon for a few hours. how am i supposed to get things done#bc like it would b nice if i could stop my brain from catching on fire 🔥#like idk what to call that tho. bc it didnt feel good. it felt like im holding my head together so it doesn't explode so i dont burst into#flames. ive got so many ideas but im just sitting here with my head in my hands#just kinda unhinged#unrelated
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#cool. awesome. wow.#just had the worst night ever wtf#could not sleep due to brain firing a thousand thoughts a second#anxiety spiking every second#and just had incredible hallucinations in the dark#pretty sure that was sleep paralysis#every fucking sound made me fear for my life#and i could swear there were people invading my house#that was horrible#and it's fucking 5am#holy shit i wanna die this was horrible#and i cant even try and sleep out exhaustion#because i have classes in like 2 and a half hours#or maybe i could skip today#doesnt feel good#but might be needed#im a wreck#and alone#fuck#bloodletting
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my head and my eyes hurt, and I'm unable to sleep, thanks to the never-ending myriad of topics my brain offers up for my anxiety which has apparently now become its favorite pastime </3
#i need sleep but my brain is not cooperating at all#this is not okay :(#i had a good energy level throughout the day and i need the sleep to function for tmr as well but oh no that would be normal and#healthy now wouldn't it how can we have that#sighs#i should try harder to sleep i guess#a small problem is that it's going to be 5am in 15 so um#hmm.
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me reading fight club and the talented mr ripley, back to back: “getting a lot of weird toxic gay vibes from this.”
#a similar vibe to both tbh#toxic gay obsession and violence and death#become someone else in vastly different ways and in one book you can be separate but you don’t want to and in another you are both the same#person if you like it or not#would go into a big whole rant but it’s 5am and my brain is gone imaoo#but i’ve had both rattling around my brain for a while now#more#maybe mr ripley bc of slight recency bias but also that book is crazy good#as is fight club and i’m rolling my eyes at all the film bros wanting to be tyler even more bc i have proper context#not just osmosis from over the years#need to watch both movies and lose my tiny little mind <3#but yeah been reading a lot lately and it’s making me so normal :)#gwen rambles#gwenposting
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mental health professional: nice coping mechanisms!
me: haha thanks my life is completely ruled by them it’s exhausting
mental health professional: sometimes that’s just how it is
me:
mental health professional: idk what you want from me you seem pretty self aware already
#origpost#bad brains blogging#me: yeah so i’m waking up once an hour starting at around 1am and by 5am i can’t make myself fall back asleep#therapist: sounds like a classic stress symptom. how’re you dealing with your stress#me: [lists my Methods]#her: yeah that all sounds pretty good :)
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ok why are job applications literally the worst thing ever to fill out. this is why i’m getting back on medication good lord
#dandy talks#my brain cannot comprehend#i’m p sure the only job of the three applications i have that i’ve got even a shot at getting#is only because the lady i talked to seemed pretty desperate to get someone willing to work the 5am-1pm shift 😂#and i’d be willing to at least for a while if the pay is decent because i would very much like to have at least some money to save up#i wouldn’t be able to work that shift every day because good lord first off second i have school#but like damn lmao
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