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Neydi Güç, kimler için vardı kimleri sevindirirdi? Güç.
Ben, ben bu zamana kadar çok ezilmeye çalışıldım. Bazen sesimi kıstılar, bazen ses tellerimi söktüler. Ama ben hiç bir zaman enkazın altında kalmadım. Enkaz, enkaz ve enkaz.. Soğuk,çamurlu ve acımasız enkaz. Enkazlar bazen insanın evi olabilliyormuş Albay. Enkazlar üstüne yıkılmaya devam ederken, zevkle izleyeceksin enkazları. Kadehini kaldıracaksın. Zafer, bazen görülmeyendir. Görseler zafer olmazdı zaten,onu da çalarlardı. Arkana bakmayacaksın. Arkanda olanlara, arkandan gelenlere. Gölgeler etrafında olacak fakat sen gölgelere bile aldırış etmeyeceksin. İstediğin her şey, avcunun içinde olacak. Zor olan yok,imkansız olan yok. Başaramamak, vazgeçilmez kılmak yok. Bu gezegen sizin gezegeniniz ve kimse sizden izin almadan oraya ayak izlerini bırakamaz. En güçlü sizsiniz. Enkazın altında kocaman bir şehir kuracak olan siz olduğunuz gibi.
#spotify#architecture#art#artists on tumblr#booklr#authors#books & libraries#design#gecenin şarkısı#black and white#keşke yanımda olsan#we love to see it 😌#get laptop suggestions from geeks that know#books and libraries#landscape#kebetu#yüzyüzeyken konuşuruz#şarkı alıntıları#şiir sözleri#şair#literature#şiir#geceye bir şarkı bırak#love#long reads#keşfet#oeuvre#lana del rey#kim bilir#bu kalp seni unutur mu
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Dünya hassas kalplilere cehennemdir. 🫧❤️🔥
#egeninincisi#spotify#kitap alıntıları#ay benim gece senin#gelmemeyeegitmisim#kesfet#my post#3391km#beyzalkoc#lana del rey#sözler#seni özlüyorum#ilkvesonaşkım#iyi kiii#kırık kalpler#bu kalp seni unutur mu#kalp hanım#kalp kırıklıkları#kalp acısı
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Just updated my Top 100 albums topsters chart.
[The only ones that are in order are the first 10 ones👍
#indie music#mu core#rateyourmusic#topsters#topsters chart#ethel cain#lana del rey#aoty#alternative music#mitski
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It kinda makes me laugh, runnin' down that path
When you're good as gold⭐️
#lana del rey#margaret#kitap sevgisi#kendime not#sozler#karalama#bu kalp seni unutur mu#ruhum yoruldu#duvar yazilari#hissizlik#hayaller#insanlar#mutluluk#gece ve müzik#müzik alıntıları#müzikler#mutsuzluk#müzik dinle#tumblr milestone#Spotify
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This is the realest thing ever
Beefleaf are parmore gays (decode) and fengqing are lana del ray gays (doing time) no more questions
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Dreamer
-a/n: so these have basically been cooking for like almost two years, but uh im stuck in temptation & asm era 😓. also takes lofs of inspo from other fics and just watching their vlogs <3
yj x g/n headcannons + some drabbles ♪(^∇^*)
-- groupie love - Lana del Rey
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-I feel like the odds of him being into another idol would def be low, I don't think he'd like the drama that comes with it. So he'd probably fall for someone at a coffee shop to a local store.
-He'd often stop by and sometimes ask for you, sometimes talking about mundane things. Or perhaps a little about his work, or just recommendations for new coffee or fashion tips!
-As your friendship develops he opens up more, about being an idol (whether you knew or not) he'd bring up upcoming projects and even talk about fans he really liked. Or even dance a bit for you
-During all this as your friends, he'd definitely nervous around you. Constantly giggling and rubbing his neck ( biting his lips).
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You were standing around, as the morning rush died down and you finally had time to relax. Looking at the time, realizing he was later than usual. 'he might be busy' you say trying to reassure yourself. Until it happened
again
and again
and again
"is he avoiding me?" you ask out loud. Scratching your hair as you mop the floor, upon that thought the door opens. Revealing yeonjun in a casual outfit, he walks up to you with a small blush on his face.
"can I have your number?" he asked sheepishly, looking away and shoving his phone in your face with the new contact screen on it.
'cute' you think as you type your phone number into his phone with no hesitation .
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-He spents time at your apartment bc.. have you seen the txt dorm..
(bonus if you have a pet :3)
-He'll defiantly try to befriend your pet.
-giving it treats and hugging it. pouting if it ignores him.
-on his off days he'll sneak away into your apartment, to laze around and eat your ramen. As well as critique your wardrobe.
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'those patterns don't go together' he commented as he laid on your bed eating popcorn. 'I have nothing else thats clean 'jjunie' you pout trying to sift through your parcially empty closet. 'if your so picky about it come pick out mu clothes!' you shout eyeing him.
'fine' he groaned getting up and investigating your closet.
'this one.. and this one' he said giving you shorts and a long sleeve. As you eye him suspiciously.
'fine' you give in and finally wear the outfit and he finally lets you go out into the world, because he'd never let you go out looking unfashionable.
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-lots of cute dates!
-around cafes, thrifting, high end fashion stores, and whatever curious stores he can find he'll find any excuse to take you.
-he loves sleeping over at your place, he likes waking up next to you.
(like his vlog from last year 😭)
-he'll take you to k pop stores just to show off their new album 😭
-bonus if you buy it & pull his pc
-He'll either invite you to concerts or you surprise him at them, you probably refuse and just buy the tickets anyway to support him :3
-he'll secret dedicate stuff you to you, like songs if hes asked to reccomend some. And secretly has a bunch of matching items with you.
-matching hoodies, shoes, plushies, phone cases, anything he finds for himself he will buy you one too q(≧▽≦q)
-he'll also buy you promise rings, so it doesn't look like hes taken to the public js wearing a ring /_ \
-and in public he wears sunglasses and a hoodie, no mask bc then he can't kiss you😔
-hes really clingy towards you, finding any excuse to be close to you.
-also he likes good luck kisses before his performances
-he prefers pecks, sometimes more drawn out kisses but he likes bothering you with his kisses.
-he'll share his headphones with you!
-hes very chronically offline 😭, so if you show him something he probably won't get it. (mama a girl behind YOU 💜) but at the same time I feel like he goes on instagram reels... maybe youtube shorts..
-he'll show off new songs he likes to you texting them to you or letting you listen with him
-as well as showing you previews of their new songs
-you like tracing his features, his lips and nose (he giggles bc it tickles)
-he likes being touched, especially being pet on the head. Or just feeling you close
-he defiantly lets his intrusive thoughts win
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he giggled to himself as he scrolled through instagram reels, showing you some ones he thought were funny. As you try to laugh along side him, even though you'd seen them before.
'look at this one' he laughed, showing you the video of the cat going across the han river. You forgot to laugh and just smiled, he notices and pouts. 'you don't like this one?'
'oh, I just saw it already. Its a trend' you add poking his cheek and tugging on it. 'your cheek is like mochi' you comment poking it as he pouted. 'nuh uh'
'yes uh' you giggle moving down to watch the reels with him.
'you goof' you utter kissing his cheek and taking his phone. he doesn't mind as you scroll through photos, and take pic .5 pics of him.
A small smile on his face the whole time as he uttered a quiet 'i love you'.
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(ノ*・ω・)ノ
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small headcannons (bc i forgot most of the ones i had)
might edit later too :P
also yj solo debut :D (pray for my wallet)
happy b-day (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)
thanks you!
🫧
#choi yeonjun imagines#choi yeonjun x reader#yeonjun x reader#🫧.yeonjunnieelovr#yeonjun fluff#yeonjun#choi yeonjun fluff#choi yeonjun#choi yeonjun fanfic#choi yeonjun scenarios#yeonjun txt#txt x moa#txt x reader#txt post#txt x y/n#txt x you#txt headcanons#yeonjun headcanons#yeonjun drabbles
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SYNOPSIS: Faes and humankind are never meant to be together, but Coviello has plans to prove that wrong.
TW/S: Yandere behavior, non-canon to original Coviello, variant of twst! Coviello (huge inspo to Malleus from twst!), stalking, somno but not the sexual kind??, major character death/s (debatable but if you squint, you can see it), huge reference to the original cover of Once Upon a Dream by Lana Del Rey, delusional mindset, lol they're pulling some sleeping beauty shit here.
NOTE: Coviello is not from me, its from Meirin (@zhongrin/@meimeimeirin)! Also, this was something that hit me so hard after hearing the cover of once upon a dream... And drawing Coviello as Malleus did not help my delusions.
As a dragon fae, Coviello is no stranger to the waking of death.
They have attested this by seeing how humans can only live for so long, be it by decades... Or a few years, if they were unlucky. Some were even unfortunate to have their lives snuffed before they were given the chance to live.
To them, they were birthed from an egg, and although they had the temper worse than of a common fae, their family took care of them. At least... To the best of their abilities.
As they grew up, their eyes have witnessed tragedies. Some fell on their kind, while others fell on themselves.
It was when they achieved their signature spell: one that is so tied to the song that they heard their mother sing. However, there was a catch to that spell.
That is... Coviello must know the person's name, for this spell needs it as a payment of it's own.
If it doesn't... Well, they didn't need to remember. They knew what the payment was in return of the lack of name. Who's to say they didn't experienced it themselves?
And so, they lived on. They've watched as times change, but they remained the same. If anything, they were quite displeased with how things seem to happen so quickly.
There was nothing to catch their eye. Nothing that could make them slow down, to admire, aside from the sweets they get or from admiring the simple scenery... Or even with their animal companion.
That is, until they met you.
Housewarden of Ramshackle and Crowley's little helper.
You were the light of their life, something that made them stop to look twice.
And you two met at a time where they thought it was impossible, which was Night Raven College.
At the time, it was a simple nightly stroll for Coviello. They were out to see the abandoned ruins of Ramshackle, to simply get away from the chaos of Diasomnia. And in such a time, they had simply thought they would get a sliver of peace.
However, they were displeased to see that they weren't... And it was because of you.
Still, they held their tongue and became cordial. In their mind, you were simply there to be like them: to escape from whatever dorm you were stuck in, or to get your bearings over something else before heading back to rest.
However, they were gravely mistaken. They realized that, no, you weren't doing that... And you were an insomniac.
That, and you LIVED in that abandoned, dilapidated of a dorm.
Coviello had to reel in the urge to ask you to repeat yourself. That was a shock they never expected, and they were one to have witnessed the horrors of it all.
And yet, from the look in your eyes, you weren't kidding. And you were even more bold to ask them of their name.
In the folklore and basic knowledge of faes, one mus not tell them your real name. This was so to limit the possibility of them taking some form of ownership, a title of their claim on you.
However, Coviello what they didn't expect was for you to willingly give up your name, and even give them a nickname of your own.
You called them 'Vii'. A playful iteriation of their name, but they had no heart to correct you.
You were a peculiar being, but maybe... It was better you stay oblivious.
For their sake.
That day, Coviello was not the same as others had noticed.
If anything, it would seem as though they changed. The once feared leader of Diasomnia had their heart softened over someone that no one knew, but those who did were left confused.
Who knew that one human could make them feel like this? And yet, they did.
Every time Coviello was with you, you made it clear that it was simply to be with them as a friend. You weren't going to restrict Coviello for what they should or shouldn't do, and you were there to support them.
You made the fae feel human. Someone who was worth hearing out for.
And for them, they got addicted.
However, it wasn't long till they have witnessed your struggles. You were still human, so it was clear that you had your own issues, too.
One was how people took advantage of your kindness.
You have your heart on your sleeve far too many times, and Coviello had to witness that happen. It was almost like you never learned how it feels to be used, and when you did... You were hurt.
They hated it. They hated seeing just how miserable you are sometimes. And they hated how you seem to act like your misery was not a big deal.
Still, you trudged on, just like a soldier is to the sight of a war.
As for Coviello, they stayed... Waiting.
Waiting for your walls to crumble.
What they lacked back then was patience, but oh, Coviello had enough time in the world to remain patient. They knew in themselves that the time will come that you'll admit defeat.
And each time that things happened, the burden was placed on you. Each time you try to justify it wasn't your fault, people never believed you.
You were a magicless human. You don't deserve to have a voice, they told you.
And each time, you swore to yourself that you felt someone was on you. Someone who kept watching you from a distance, far from your untrained eyes.
Coviello truly didn't mean to scare you, but they were curious. They wanted to see if you were able to understand the predicament you were under, and how each one of them would let you take the blame.
They were all cowards. You and Coviello knew that. But did you believe them?
No. No, you didn't.
And to see them resort to it after all the warning they gave you was... Disappointing. But maybe it was worth for the beauty that they've seen.
That in some way, you were stubborn to prove their words wrong.
However, Coviello has seen it. Each time that you went through it, they could see how difficult it is to remain the same perception.
Which leads them to now, with cradling your body in their arms after they had the entirety of Night Raven College under their control. Under their power, slumbering as peacefully as they can.
"... But if I know you, I know what you'll do," they whispered by your ear, pulling your body closer to them. "You'll love me at once, the way you did..."
"Once Upon a Dream."
And just like that, your body went limp, your rushed breaths becoming quiet. Coviello could only imagine what pleasant dreams you have under their spell as flowers bloomed, traversing to cover your eyes to keep them 'closed'.
Once Upon a Dream— a signature spell only they can wield, which renders whoever hears those words in a deep slumber. And the worst part?
All they need is a name of the recipient for it to work.
@.throw-letter-away | do not republish or repost my works anywhere | 2023
#💌 ;; message delivery#💌 ;; from: coviello#💌 ;; post: ocs#💌 ;; to: gen. neutral reader#yandere x you#yandere drabble#yandere writing#yandere x reader#yandere oc#yandere#yandere imagines#yandere insert#yandere text
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*Fezco and Lexi meeting with a wedding planner*
Lexi: You'll love my fiance, he's really chill. He has a unique style though so he might have a few thoughts on things
*1 hour later*
Fezco: I'm sorry I thought we were talkin' flowers but I mus' be hell-a wrong because this ain't a floral arrangement, it's a JOKE
Lexi: *hisses* Fezco!
Fezco: Eucalyptus ain't a flower Lexi! And I swear to god Barbara if you even suggest Rose Gold accents I am walkin' out of here so damn fast!
Barbara the wedding planner: I mean rose gold IS considered a new modern classic...
Fezco: ... you funny Barbara. How hard is this? We want 1920's elegance with a 90's hip-hop flavour with a 21st century twist
Barbara: What I'm hearing is 'I want my wedding to be like if Kanye was the Great Gatsby and he's marrying Spike Lee'
Fezco: We are so close here Barbara. Now cover it in Greta Gerwig and add a dash of Lana Del Rey...but we will still need them personalised M&M guest favours
Barbara:
#fexi#fexi hive#fezco and lexi#fez x lexi#fezco x lexi#fez and lexi#lexi x fez#lexco#lexi howard#fezco
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Some Nights
Some nights it's quiet The air is soft and still And the scent of wildflowers is sweet and strong and I lie in bed reaading books I've read beforee with a Lana Del Rey record spinning lazily I hum along as I read enjoying those few hours in the early morning where the night just feels right
Some nights are violent there's voices in the walls and I can't turn off the light If I turn off the lights it only lifts up on the shadows and I can't hold them off and my walls move close and closer tightly pressing themselves against mu bones I can hear the cracking even though on some level I know what's happening but nothing makes sence only when I answer them back
I guess it's time for bed
#writers and poets#poems on tumblr#original poem#poem#poetry#spilled thoughts#spilled feelings#spilled writing#writing#my writing#spilled poetry#spilled emotions#spilled words#writers on tumblr#poets and writers#creative writing#writerscommunity#writer#crmsnmth#Some Nights#bipolar#schizophrenia#delusional
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Day 27: “Playlist/mixtape” for @bloodmilk x @cchelseawwolfe #octoberchrysalis.
There was a time a decade or so ago when I would dedicate every Sunday to making playlists of the new music I had discovered. You can find hundreds over of them on 8tracks, still. But that was, as I often say, another life, certainly a much more solitary and sad one, and I had a lot of lonely time to fill.
These days, I get around to curating these compilations maybe once a year— if that.
I'm over on Deezer now and that's where you'll find today's atmospheric playlist of haunting siren songs. All artists + songs are listed below. BEAUTY CONSISTS OF ITS OWN PASSING Dusk, Chelsea Wolfe Heresy, Emily Jane White Vuoi Vuoi Mu, Mari Boine Strawberry Moon, Alela Diana Carolina, Taylor Swift From Vapor to Stardust, Marissa Nadler Night Terrors, Spelles Like Human, Myrkur Where did you go, Nicole Sabouné Nightcall, London Grammar Perpetual flame of Centralia, Lingua Ignota Desire, Aeseaes Hear me, HÆLOS Stories, Eivør Everything matters, Aurora Cassandra, Florence + the Machine Persefone, Anna von Hausswolff Mona Lisa moan, Eartheater Body, Emma Ruth Rundle Tears as fuel, Louise lemon Gibson girl, Ethel Cain Candy necklace, Lana del Rey Myopia, Agnes Obel Leave behind, Sarah Cripps Sticks and Stones, Smoke Fairies Looking for a ghost, Fever Ray Shinigami eyes, Grimes Lipstick on the Glass, Wolf Alice Bood and butter, Carolina Polachek The body is a blade, Japanese Breakfast Quiet Eyes, Sharon von Etten What was I made for, Billie Eilish Stay soft, Mitski Sea of love, Cat Power
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Hiii! Can we request name suggestions with this themes?
Storm/Lightning/Rain/Thunder/Thor themed
Nature/Forest/Lake/River themed
Hip Hop/Trap/Rap/Street Art/Graffiti themed
Punk/Chaos/Chaotic/Rebel themed
Roses/Pink/Lana del rey music/Queer/Rat themed
Thank you!
oki so didn’t know how to do lana del ray music or queer themed but here’s names 4 the rest:
Storm/Lightning/Rain/Thunder/Thor:
Blizz, Cloudburst, Whirlwind, Thunderbolt, Drizzle, Rainstorm, Rainfall, Thunder, Procella, Imbrem, Nebulosum, Fulgur, Fulmen, Pluvia, Inber/Imber, Nebula, Aer, Pluviam, Nimbus, and Tonitruum/Tonitrum/Tonitrus
Nature/Forest/Lake/River:
Woodland, Backwood, Timberland, Wildwood, Basin, Lakelet, Estuary, Tidewater, Rivulet, Natura, Silva, Saltus/Saltu, Nemus, Arbusto, Flos, Silvestria, Lucas, Lacus/Lacum, Lacuna, Piscine, Flumen, Fluvius, Flovios, Aestuarium, Amnis, and Rivus/Rivulus/Rivolus
Hip Hop/Trap/Rap/Street Art/Graffiti:
Rhythmic, Rhyme, Synth/Synthesize, Monophonic, Melodic, Melody, Graffiti, Rithimo, Melodicis, Melodiam/Melodia, Melos, and Recordum
Punk/Chaos/Chaotic/Rebel:
Anarchy, Disarray, Discord, Ataxia, Revolt, Chaos, Licentia, Chaus, Discordia, Tumultus/Tumultuari, Tuari, and Rebellis
Roses/Pink/Rat:
Rose, Rosette, Roseata, Rosi, Rat, Rosa, Roseus, Chsia/Fuchisa, Mus, Murine, and Mouse
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hejka, może zacznę, może jutro mi się znudzi.. zobaczymy. Chciałabym może pogadać i poruszyć temat życia, może komuś pomogę.. bo główny zamysł jest taki tego bloga i to, że nie mam jak i komu się wyżalać ponieważ jestem „skłócona” z moim jedynym powodem życia, no cóż napisałam mu coś w stylu, że jak coś to zawsze tu jestem. Może i lepiej by było, gdybyśmy już mieszkali razem, ale jeszcze 2 lata i w końcu możemy kupić mieszkanie.. no nie możemy bo ja na minusie.. mam 10 zł na koncie, bo nostalgia mnie wzięła i w końcu kupiłam całe life is strange i tak właśnie straciłam 200 zł (prawie) na jedynkę i dwójkę. Liczę, że dziś napiszę bo mija tydzień i już prawie chciałam wrócić do papierosów, bo już nie wytrzymałam ale.. life is strange trochę mi pomogło bo skupiłam się na graniu i byłam zafascynowana całym przekazem, jak zawsze.. wiecie? Wiem, że możliwe iż wszytko jest okej bo repostuje filmiki z naszymi inicjałami i słucha piosenki, które mu sama poleciłam.. miłość, bo oddałam mu moją płytę cry baby i the smiths… odrazu mówię, to ze to metalowiec który jest największym mitski stanem.. jej płytę mu też kupiłam. Proszę, nie nazywajcie go gejem bo się załamie XD.. gdyby nie ja to był by aromantyczny (czyli nie czuję miłości) jest moim technikiem informatykiem dla mojego humana, więc ja otrzymuję programy i gry za darmo, on dostaje listy i porównania do piosenek Lany Del Rey.
Dla was i waszej świadomości, on to metalowiec z długimi włosami czarnymi i blond grzywka, koszulka ryby dzwonią muszę iść. Czasami na nasze randki ubiera się na Lolitę..
Rzadko! Ale czasami.. ja wolę się podawać za gothke.. prawda taka, że lana del rey 2012 albo lizzy
Tęsknię za nim 😔🙏
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Intro post because I am SILLY.
My name is Barkster or Barkstim (my alt) :3 calling me things like Copepod or Ranger is cool too, any nicknames are wonderful :)
“Erm what abt your pronouns….????” Errrhhhhhummmmm my pronouns are he/she with any neos or xenos, my gender is up to your imagination, I only really like they/them when you’re referring to me as a plural
“What do you like?” I like the Mystery Flesh Pit, marine life, specifically copepods and isopods as well as sharks and SHOEBILLSSSSSS shoebill storks :3 Insane Clown Posse, dogs (I’m a pet regressor), and homestuck
I am autistic with BPD :333 I’m also catgender because fuck you.
DNI.
Basic DNI criteria, don’t talk to me if you’re like racist or a pedophile ……….
Proshippers + comshippers
DSMP fans, I js don’t tolerate racism. (Unless fictives in systems!!)
Battleaxe bisexuals, you annoy me so much dude like do you ever shut up….. (o_O)
Anti-furry or anti-therian, let people live their life….
ZOOPHILES PLS LEAVE ME ALONE!!
Anti-xenogender or neopronouns, nobody cares abt this irl!!!!
Transmeds
No DDLG… NSFW accounts are okay ig .. it’s just that DDLG people are like totes pedophiles…
Lana Del Rey fans tbh, ion like you!! (`皿´#)
Flag discourse, ermmmm shut your up!!!
PLEASE INTEracT!! (>_<)
Neurodivergent people!! I am autistic!!! :3333
Silly goobers…
Anyone not on my DNI tbh I’ll fw anyone and anything
SHOUT OUT TO MY FURRIES AND THERIANS PLS BE MU FIRNEDn!!!!
People who use typing quirks, ¥0V’r3 <00|_ @zF ! (you’re cool asf)
POC, I love my fellow people of color!
Otherkin, woah!
Non-humans, I myself am a rotting walking corpse..! (゜∀。*)
Certified losers !!!!
Age + Pet regressers
Systems
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Ş. Yeni tanıştık Ş ile. Değişik davrandı bana, değişik hissettim. Gözgöze gelmekten korkmamıştı bu sefer. Asansörün kapısını 1 km uzaltayken benim için tutunca ve benim için endişelendiğini düşündüğümde değişik hissettim. Uzun zamandır hissetmediğim kelebeklenme geldi. İlk aklıma geleni durduramadım ama o senden zayıf. Yanyana nasıl görünürdük kim bilir. Boyu da benim kadar. Çok önemli bu sizin için biliyorum. Biliyorum ah biliyorum. Benim kimseden hoşlanmayı bırak beğenme ihtimalim bile yok. Çünkü dünyada sizden daha fazla yer kaplıyorum ve geri kalan hiçbir şey önemli değil. Aynada katlantılarıma baktım. Kilo vermiştim, evet yeni yaşım için. Yansımam bembeyaz aynada. Kafamda tek dönen şarkı sözü Lana del rey, ∆But I wish I was dead.∆
Gözyaşlarım göz pınarımdan ne zaman ayrıldı ki?Bu sefer kafamda ne senaryolar kurdum, ne konuşmalar yaptım seninle. Olmayacağını anladım, ama o hissiyatı atamıyorum. Yeniden 18li yaşlarımdaki gibi hissettim ve buna çok ihtiyacım varmış. Sahi neden olmuyor? Yaptığın planları kimseye anlatma yoksa büyüsü bozulur. Anlatmazsan da bozulur. Altı üstü bi mesaja cevap yazacaktı saatlerce bekledim.
Kimi kandırıyorum ki? Tabi ki yazmak isteyen yolunu buluyor. Her şeyden midem bulanıyor.
Ş nin beni değişik dünyalara götürmesi, maruz kaldığım mobbing, yapayalnız olmak.
Allahım bana neden gerçekleşmeyecek şeylerin duasını ettiriyorsun, günlerdir yalvarıyordum? İsyan etmekten başıma gelenleri kader olarak kabullenmek? Kendimi inançsız boşlukta hissetmeme sebep oluyor. Arayışım çok döngülü.
Belki de açık açık cevap aramam lazım?
Neden bu kadar çirkinim, sevilmezim, şişmanım, iticiyim, suicide meyilliyim, depresifim, kızgınım, yalnızım, sesim çok cırtlak ve ellerim tombiş. Neden katlantılarım geçmiyor ve vücudumdan nefret ediyorum, antidepresanlar etkisiz geliyor ve telkin olmıyorum. Tekrar tekrsr soruyorum işte bu kadar zor mu beni sevmek?
Yaşamak acı çekmekten başka bana ne getirdi?
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Ok since @artblock-tm told me their ahit au characters’ music tastes i thought I’d share mine!!!!
Snatcher — 100% purebred Metalhead. Nu-Metal, Thrash Metal, Metalcore, just Metal. Likes bands like KoRn, Slipknot, Secrets and Metallica. Also enjoys My Chemical Romance, Pierce the Veil, and Three Days Grace.
Moonjumper — Soft stuff. Soft Indie, grunge, whatever Lana Del Rey’s got goin’ on. Likes (as I said) Lana Del Rey, Cigarettes After Sex, and Suki Waterhouse a lot. Also enjoys some goth musicians/bands — Johnny Goth, Bauhaus, Depeche Mode, and Camlann — and classical piano.
Monochrome — Pretty much the same as Moon, but also has a sort of nostalgic enjoyment in alt rock bands like My Chem and Sleeping With Sirens.
Alexander — Alt rock. Emo rock, Pop Punk, and some good ol’ grunge too. Likes My Chemical Romance, Pierce the Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Three Days Grace, Green Day, All Time Low, Pixies, idkHOW, and The Brobecks. Also likes Apocalyptica and a good lot of classical music, though more intense than what Moon likes, and Lindsey Sterling (he loves violin.)
Hattie & Bow — Their music taste is so diverse that I literally cannot name all the bands they listen to. They’ll listen to pretty much anything you show them.
Mu — Metal, metal, and more metal. Also some scene stuff. Same band prefs as Snatcher, but along with that is 6arelyhuman and S3RL.
I’d do more but 99% of my AHIT OCs haven’t been introduced yet lol
And if I felt a little bit more insane I would’ve put vanessa too. But I’m currently enjoying mcdonalds milmshaje so mental state is currently at a solid 90.
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