#mun is anger

[a-hell-of-a-time]

((I think I'm going to put up a new rule for anons: If you want to rp hefty plots that border on godmodding (aka your muse has all these powers, is a mortal with powers wanting to gun it for my Andrealphus, etc.) I would prefer you have an rp blog for it and talk to me about it ooc.

These anons have been making me uncomfortable as of late, and I'm already on edge with my Andrealphus muse after the results of Mastermind.

Anons that engage in casual conversations with my muse (Ex. How are you? What's your favourite -insert thing here-? etc) are perfectly fine and welcome! Anons that have your oc's or whatnot with op powers that want to come after or harm my muse, however, are not.

Sorry, but it's getting to be too much for me and I will be deleting these anons as they crop up.

And what I mean by godmodding in this case:

Your muse (Oc or otherwise) knowing things they shouldn't about my muse. An example is you, as the mun, knowing ooc that Andre lied during the trial and using that to come after my Andrealphus (either to hurt, harm, etc). This has been annoying me as of late and I couldn't figure out why until I saw another ooc post by another andre rp'er who was getting a lot of godmodding shit.

Your muse having these op powers that they want to use to come after and harm my muse (which have been the anons as of late.)

I have it in my rules that I do not and will not tolerate godmodding, and while I know you guys don't mean any harm by it, it has been making me highly uncomfortable and it is time I become more firm with this boundary.

Going forward, I would prefer you have an rp blog and talk to me ooc from it (not on anon) if you want to do any and all plots that involve harming my muses. Also know that it is well within my right to deny such plots if I see fit (but if we can plot well and I am mentally up for it, that's different.)

I do not mean to cause or stir up any drama with this; I simply wish to put this out here because it is becoming an issue that, if left unaddressed, will only get worse.

Thank you for reading this!))

[lookwhatyoudidithasanxiety]

“I don’t think I wanna be Eclipse” is EERILY SIMILAR TO “I don’t think I’m Sun” or whatever he said rhhfhfhfjj

Disintegrating rn

:))))

[muertemismo]

ooc; good morning from your neighborhood ghost, i woke up thinking about the swiss explosion and now my rotted brain wants to plot

[ivycrowned]

tumblr recced a post and I had. Irrelevant thoughts. also it seemed like a vent post. but the neuro-whatever vibe to Explain sparkled in my brain so. i am indulging this in my own corner instead of on someone else's post.

i don't do near exclusively good runs bc im just so pure and good and/or want to be perceived that way

i do 'em bc i have anxiety and also bc helping ppl is my power fantasy but like the anxiety is so very real abt it.

[hyaciiintho]

♦ What was a mildly annoying thing that has happened to you rp wise?

Munday Meme | ✿

🌸｡*ﾟ+. Mmm... Probably the time someone had linked me to a ton of their muse's stuff before we started interacting, because y'know, I just had to know everything about their muse prior to writing, but then proceeded to not read anything on mine and assumed things.

We don't do that in this household. We respect each other. I read stuff on my writing partner's muse, and I expect the same to be done for mine. People are not going to just pull out whatever portrayal they want for my muse just because they don't want to extend the same courtesy to me that I gave to them much less if they're demanding I adhere to their muse but ignore mine in the same breath.

I just blocked and didn't respond to their thread.

[coolrpblog]

drafted for flea crimes....

[strawberry-metal]

💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚💚

[hells-greatestdad]

// the things we talk about on discord between plotting Lilith's temporary death

(Yes, we have a verse where Cain is Lucifer's son. In that verse, Luci and Lilith had a threesome with Eve. Birth control wasn't a thing and who would have thought that one time would result in anything?)

[taviokapudding]

Someone asked me why BTS haven't made an official statement and I-

My brothers, sisters, and pals in kpop hell, the SK military and government are besties with the US and Israel. Like SK solders could train in Israel and vice versa if both governments wanted. Also while all 7 are starting or in military service, they'll be monitored by a government who's had beef with them for 10 years and no protection from UN security on top of not being together 24/7 like they've been

Like I genuinely don't blame them for not making individual/a group statement (nor really any SK citizen who identifies as he/him and will do/are doing/just recently finished required military service) for their recent silence (they have like 10 years of making it clear + have a history of doing donations privately that get leaked) given the circumstances; especially after that one bitch pretended to be military medical staff & "vaccinated" Jin. Plus there's like 3+ decades of using SK celebrities being used as scapegoats by the SK government. There's socio-economic & political history around BTS & kpop as a whole that I don't expect locals and 70% of the international kpop community (who really only came about post Gangnam Style) to know because of the SK media propaganda + twitters downfall destroying access to 2 decades of it

Then you gotta remember BTS are a special case because they were invited to the White House to meet genocidal Joe & are still very much hated by the English speaking music industry- whatever they say can cost people across the industry their mf jobs; they, their lawyers, staff, and BH need to be all together & not under mandatory government surveillance to say something at the end of the day- and that's gonna take a while. This isn't a 1:1 situation of untouchable US citizens like Beyoncé, Rihanna, & Taylor Swift who can do stuff freely because of monetary protection & choose not too, SK plays by different rules.

The real question we should all should be asking is which SK celebrities/idols/infulencers have completed their requirements, have no ties to the SK government tourism division's money, and aren't in a unit who must wait for the rest to finish their requirements that are being silent? Those are the folks you should be actively not giving money nor supporting anymore.

I'm calling it now, BTS probably donated a fuck ton in secret like they did BLM and we won't find out until a leak happens or after all of them are done with their military service time.

[justshapesandshitposting]

with my new color headcanons in mind, here's the tweaked p1 design for it.

they're no longer completely blind, they can tell the difference between light and dark, but that's it, they're still essentially blind, so they rely on their other senses much more. at least they aren't giving ppl the thousand-yard-stare constantly when looking in their general direction.

also yes they are still a resting bitch faced, short-fused menace of a bastard. piss them off and you've fucked around and will find out only 'finding out' involves bodily harm being done to you. most likely mauling.

do NOT let their babyfaced/cute appearance fool you.

[shiroi---kumo]

tw; medical / generally uncomfortable situations / mental illness / work stuff under cut

Hi fam. We need to talk and my brain is labeling it as 'coming clean.'

So let's start with for those of you who do not know - I am clinically diagnosed with Bipolar 2 with Rapid Cycling - meaning I flip from depression to mania /hypomania at least once a month, sometimes more. Shit sucks.

So here's the dealio. Here's the newspaper update, shit ain't good right now. So before I get into this let me make one thing perfectly clear.

I'm not posting this to cry for help. I don't need people to fix my shit. I fix my shit. I'm giving you this so you have an update and an understanding of what is going on on the other side of the screen. This is a newspaper update. This is a "hey this is what is going on in my brain" update. I am not asking you to fix my problems NOR DO I WANT YOU TO.

Cool. We understand each other? Good.

Posting this kind of shit is hard for me so just - bear with me. I've been real quiet lately and not really online. I've put everything in the queue because then the blog stays rolling while I'm not here. I do like a massive update one day drop it all in the queue and then disappear again for days at a time.

Shit ain't good but it all came to a head yesterday at work.

I got unexpectedly drug into the HR office because my "hygiene was concerning". Guys, I'm a fucking custodian at a bar. Do you think I get dirty in a day? Oh I do. Apparently they don't understand the concept of a "dirty job". Anyway. I got cornered by HR and the head of facilities and told this was "coming from a place of love and concern for me" and being the info dumper triggered by trauma I am - I just started dropping shit on them and yelling.

I told them outright I've been struggling with suicidal ideation for the last week (longer but they didn't need to know that and it comes and goes. it's been super bad this last week.) But I just dropped that on work with no warning and my depression and a reminder that I am bipolar and they told me "you know you can come talk to us at any time." (HR and my Big Boss)

and It just triggered something in my brain and I snapped.

because my lead worker is not someone I can go to and has been bullying and threatening me for the last three years. So I went off about everything. How he told me I'm not allowed to talk to HR. How he won't stop ranting about how much he hates entertainment (department), how he used retaliation to punish me when I call in or do shit he doesn't like (like talk to HR). How I am literally too scared to apply for FMLA because I am scared of this man's repercussions.

I went the fuck OFF. I was cussing every other word. I held nothing back and even laughed in HR's face when she asked me if "I felt like I could be my true authentic self at work" to which she got me laughing obnoxiously and "FUCK NO."

And now they are all acting real squirrelly at work since I dropped the big bad S-word yesterday and they're watching me to make sure I'm okay and good and I told them I just lie to people and tell them I'm fine because my leader worker demands "positive attitudes at all times." to which I reminded them as someone who is bipolar asking this of me is literally impossible.

I explained I just want the ability to actually say at work 'it's no one's fault. My brain is just crashing so I'm gunna be quiet.' Because I am sick and fucking tired of getting told (by my lead worker) that "everyone says we're all grumpy" (as in all of housekeeping not just him)

I am sick to fucking death of it. So I went the fuck off and HR promised me there would be no backlash to this after they talk to him and I once again laughed in her fucking face.

"I know you don't believe me right now." "imma stop you right fuckin' there. No offense, but I'm scraping the bottom of the fuckin' barrel with my depression right now, so no I don't believe you and I don't believe fuckin' shit right now to be completely fucking honest."

So there's that.

My brain has been really upset about literally everything lately. I've felt on this weird island by myself and struggling with a lot of personal shit, but it's mine to fix. It's mine to set with. I just need a little time to sort my shit out.

The depression is bad. I'm here so much because I'm trauma blocking a lot of shit. Productive doesn't equal wellness. It equals me trying to cope in a way that makes it so I don't have to think about anything else. The "too busy to think" phenomenon. So yes my mind has gone suicidal in recent days. I won't lie to you but after getting fucking cornered at work about it, my brain is doing the "alright enough of that. Put the fucking mask back on and hide your shit better" game.

Guys I'm sick of hiding.

I write to cope. It's how I process. Art is my soul and it's how I function. I just want you to understand why you see so much shit coming out of me. It's not magic. It's overwork. I don't do anything else. Work just shoved me off a cliff yesterday and I got fed the "this is a safe space" line like six times and "we're doing this because we love you and care about you" and I realized my brain only translating it as anger wasn't where my emotions SHOULD be.

My crayons fell out of the box and the colors are all out of order. So if shit is slow I'm not ignoring you or it might be in the queue. If shit is lightning fast, well I'm probably coping with something.

Just - that's where I'm at right now.

[aethergate]

i have too many vanitas headcannons that i just have rattle around in my head

[korinthiakos]

You ever think that-- once Dream was trapped, Corinthian went back just to destroy some stuff? Just going feral. Smashing vases.

[dragonballnewstar]

{{ Hot new Spencer icons dropped so I'm taking dumb asks for him because I am LOVING how they're turning out!

[countlessrealities]

Rainbow series headcanons: RED || Accepting !

@dynamoprotocol sent: 🧨 — a long fuse! a headcanon about my muse and their temper, and a time when they lost it. (for Summer)

Unlike what one could think, Summer isn't quick at losing her temper. She can get emotional, very easily too at times, but that mostly leads her to be said and hurt. This is because, when something manages to make it past her detached facade, it usually goes to poke at her many, deeply rooted insecurities.

If you get on her nerves, she usually resorts to sarcasm and well placed jabbed. She makes a point of knowing where to hit, so that he can do it hard whenever someone has the bad idea of antagonising her or trying to attack her.

Her ruthlessness, however, isn't born out of anger. She gets annoyed, but it's always short-lived. The real reason behind her choice of tactic is that she has learnt that it's the quickest way to get the other person out of her hair. Most of the times, all she wants is to go back to her phone and to ignore the world around her, so she can mind her own business in pieces.

Her indifference, of course, is as much of a coping mechanism as Morty's anger issues are. At a first glance, it might seem that her way to deal with the shit her family has put her through is somewhat healthier than her brothers, but deep down they are not. Morty might be more destructive, but Summer bottles everything up, which just hurt her more and more.

And then, at times, it all gets too much and she explodes when certain buttons are pressed.

Having grown up as the reason why her parents are stuck into a shitty marriage, getting the bare minimum of love from them out of the fact that she is their favourite and their first choice compared to Morty, the one thing that truly sets her off is people giving shit to or hurting the few who are nice to her and who show that they truly care for her, unconditionally.

That's why she picked the Devil, literally, over Rick that one time and kicked her grandfather, the man she's always trying to impress, out of the shop. Mr. Needful was "nice to her", while Rick always ignores her in favour of Morty.

Speaking of Morty, one of the occasions when Summer lost her temper the most it was for her brother. The two of them don't always have the best relationship and, since they are both bad at communicating, they run into plenty of misunderstanding. Not to mention that they never shy away from berate and attack each other, especially when they are competing for Rick's attention.

However, with the passing of time, Summer has started to notice just how much Morty does to protect the rest of the family from the ugliest aspects that come with having Rick in their lives. Not just the tangible dangers, but also the emotional hurt. He shoulders most of it, quietly and discreetly, so that their parents and, especially, Summer herself won't have to.

While the girl never openly told Morty that she has noticed, she tries to return the favour, from time to time, by protecting and siding with him too.

That particular fight started as nothing new. Apparently, at least according to Rick, Morty had messed up on their latest adventure because he had gotten "distracted by a skirt". The boy had tried to argue that it hadn't been the case, that he had just being trying to help the alien girl out of a very sticky situation, but of course no one had believed it. Summer herself, at first, had just snorted, because it had sounded like very much typical Morty, but at one point she had looked up from her phone and saw the expression on her brother's face.

There had been no embarrassment on it, as she would have expected, nor he had been flustered. On the contrary, he had looked exhausted, bitterly resigned, frustrated and broken.

Summer had instantly grasped what everyone else was missing even if it was staring at them right in the face. Not only Morty was telling the truth, but they were all digging their fingers in a painful, ever gaping wound. All those comments about how he could never get someone to like him, how girls kept their distance because he came off as a horny little pervert, how he could never say the right thing without sounding like a creep. They were too busy laughing at him to realise what they were truly saying to him.

No one will ever want you. No one will ever like you. You're unlovable.

That had been the point where she had snapped. She had stuffed her phone in her pocket and jumped on her feet, green eyes hot with fury. She had yelled at their parents about how they had no right to judge because the truth was that they clung to each other and their poor ass marriage because no one else would ever stand to have a long lasting relationship with them. That they always ended up picking their shared misery because it was the best they could have.

As for Rick? Oh, she had had plenty to say about him too and she had told him as much. However, she had stuck to telling him how he should feel blessed that Morty gave him so much of his time and energy, because without him Rick would be just a lonely, sad, pathetic drunk. That said it all in her eyes.

Once she had been done, she had grabbed a stunned Morty by the arm and had dragged him up to her room. They hadn't talked about what had just happened. Summer had rolled up a joint and they had shared it in silence, before moving to play videogames.

Yet, she had known that she had been seen and heard when, the next day, Morty had come home with a beautiful bracelet for her, trying to shrug it off as nothing big, even if it was the kind of stuff that would get her the right attention from the popular kids.

[bhaalswn-arch]

Real unhinged behaviour: ripping off someone's earlobe with his teeth when someone gets too close and really rude/cocky towards him, thinking it's okay to get close to whisper into his ear