#mostly bc i have none (ace)

[solarcitymelodies]

Hey this is the guy who reblogged the puppeting as a display of trust to that NSFW blog. It's literally such a good post. I'm holding it in my hands and shaking it around because it's so good

no genuinely thank you for understanding this post on the EXACT level I needed it understood. I am so deeply insane about puppetry (ventriloquism specifically and I was specifically thinking of ventriloquism when I wrote the post lol) and YES.

Puppetry as a form of trust. As platonic love familial love, romantic love, attraction, even. Intimacy. In every form it is perfect

And also I do love to tinker with the thought of puppeteers having a gay thing for their puppets.

[moonchild-in-blue]

I come crawling on my knees bc who better to ask this than the number 1 Espera fan. 🥺 I've just been thinking about Sleep Token (what a surprise lol), and I'm curious if there's any info on how Ves and the Espera ladies met? Everyone in this band seems so close, so I've been questioning how they all became colleagues and friends. 🥺❤️

AAAAAAAA Crow!!! Thank you sooo so much for this question!!! This is something I've been wondering myself for a long time now, but somehow never really delved into it - this gave me the perfect excuse to do so! 💙

I'm gonna preface this by saying we do not actually have much info about that. This is simply me connecting dots with what little information we have publicly available.

So! We can't really talk about Espera, without talking about Exploring Birdsong. As we all know, they were the opening band for Sleep Token on their first headliner ritual, the infamous St. Pancras Old Church ritual, back in 2018.

This is the first time Exploring Birdsong comes in contact with Sleep Token, and they would be their staple opening band up until January 2020. From there on forward, only their lead singer Lyns and the backing vocalists Paige and Mattie (later known as the collective group Espera) would continue to be performing with the band as live backing vocals (as of 2023 they seem to be permanent live members, as before they didn't tour with them every time).

Now, how did they meet? That's the big question here.

Exploring Birdsong were founded when Lyns, Matt and Jonny were studying music in Liverpool (in LIPA to be precise), back in 2015/16 if memory serves me right. Starting in 2017, they released a couple of singles and started to perform live (with the other 2 Espera girls, before they were a thing). Most (if not all) of their shows at the time were set in Liverpool, Manchester, or around that area.

Sleep Token at the time was playing shows mostly in London and around the south, opening for other bands and such. Quite the geographical difference, so it seems unlikely they would've met then. Even in terms of music, Sleep Token was more involved in the UK metal sphere at the time, while EB were very much in the prog-rock side of alt. music.

In fact, there's this one 2020 interview of EB, right after they finished touring with ST for the last time, that mentions that difference in public between EB fans and ST fans. Here's that excerpt:

To further emphasise that EXPLORING BIRDSONG are making waves they were hand picked to support the enigmatic SLEEP TOKEN on a handful of UK dates which gave them the ideal chance to test the waters and see how their offering would fare in a more metal focused environment.

“The reception was very warm!” Lynsey exclaims. “The crowd were really receptive to our songs. We’re not in a totally different vein to SLEEP TOKEN but I was intrigued to see how we would get on with a more metal oriented crowd. There are definitely elements of our songs which are similar but I was apprehensive how they would react but people came up to us afterwards telling us how much they enjoyed it so I’m really glad.”

Every publication dating 2020 and back that mentions Exploring Birdsong and Sleep Token together, references the fact that EB were hand-picked by ST to open for them (again, they were the staple opener for Sleep Token during that 2018-20 period, save for a couple of dates where schedules didn't align). Which again, is a bit odd given they were in very different scenes, both geographical and musical. As far as I know, none of them (EB) have any connection to any of the guys' past projects, so that can't be it either.

HOWEVER, back in March 2018, Exploring Birdsong announced they would open for the Welsh prog-rock band Godsticks in May 2018, in the Camden Assembly (London).

As far as I can tell from their FB page, this would be their first time as a band performing in London. As we all know, Sleep Token have performed in Camden in the past (Camden Rocks festival in June 2018 actually!) In fact, Camden is a known spot for alt music and culture, so it would make sense for locals (musicians and fans alike) to frequent these places and get to know bands that way.

Funnily enough, Enter Shikari have performed in the Camden Assembly, one of the first bands signed to Basick Records - Sleep Token's first label.

It is very likely that Sleep Token (and I'm gonna go on a limb and say Vessel himself, given the similarity in music influences he has with EB, as opposed to ii and iii who come from VERY different, much, much heavier musical backgrounds) may have seen their opening set, and got in contact with Exploring Birdsong then. They were only announced as opening acts for the ST Pancras show in September, which gives them plenty of time to get acquainted with each other and have that first ritual together.

Exploring Birdsong were already set to be in London in October to support Godsticks again, so it's possible they took the opportunity and invited them to the inaugural ritual.

Now, what's really funny too, is that even though EB would only release their first EP in 2019, they had quite a few singles/repertoire ready (including a few vocal-only covers on their socials).

The most notable is actually their (Don't Fear) The Reaper cover, which was recorded right after their Camden show, and released later that summer, which was recorded in Liverpool's Anglican Cathedral - that's right! They performed in a church months before Sleep Token did 😌

The cover itself is beautiful, the girl's voices are pretty much center stage, and the whole vibe feels both eerie and sacred, not unlike Sleep Token's (especially at the time). I've reccomended it here before, and really can't overstate how beautiful that cover is.

Would that maybe influence ST's decision to have them on board? Maybe 👀 This cover was also featured in Kerrang! Radio (which is a big deal given they don't usually feature covers), so you can say it definitely caused an impact.

This is honestly my best guess as how they came together. I can't find any more links between Sleep Token and Exploring Birdsong aside from this, and given their overlapping schedules prior to this, it seems unlikely they would've come across each other.

I think it's really sweet they heard this random band one day and went - "Yeah. These are the ones, this is it." And to see that friendship continue to exist (the girls now being a seemingly permanent part of their live acts; the guys still supporting each other) is really really cute.

Fun fact, although EB stopped opening for ST in 2020, they were actually all together in 2023, where both Sleep Token and Exploring Birdsong were playing Radar Festival. Given their history, and the fact that the girls were part of both sets, it's likely they were all watching each other and having a good ol' time 🥹💙

If anyone has any more info about how Sleep Token and Exploring Birdsong met, I would really appreciate that!! This is as far as I managed to gather.

I'm also gonna leave a link here to my Exploring Birdsong propaganda post, in case anyone is curious about their music and wants a place to start.

[dreamlandcreations]

• chapter 1 • ñuha dāria • my queen •

Daemon Targaryen x Stark!Reader

Summary: Daemon is about to meet his match...

Warnings (and some ramblings): physical description vaguely (?) described and implied by relation, not gonna spoil the plot but there's gonna be targcest (come on, it's Daemon), other canon stuff (violence, death/murder, sex, misogyny, calling children bastards), Daemon is about 21 (according to canon, you'll see what I mean), reader is younger by at least two years; twisting up canon: Alyssa died within the year of Daemon's birth, Queen Alysanne is still alive and the Daemon-Rhea wedding has not happened yet, the fight is basically the Geralt vs Renfri fight (if you want visuals bc I suck at describing it 😅), bit of insta love, enemies to lovers (sort of), it's mostly from Daemon's POV, not proofread at all

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• 102 AC • Winterfell • The tourney

Daemon was warned to behave before most of the House of the Dragon parted from King's Landing but he was called the Rouge Prince for a reason.

The tourney was held on the second day of their stay and he had not shown himself in public until then, content to spend his first day in the North reading under the heart tree.

Daemon always loved dramatic entrances, always seeking attention that he seemingly only gets when he is misbehaving. So he was ready to wreak havoc during the event that was supposed to be a friendly match between the great houses.

As a prince, he got to choose his first opponent, and who else would it be than a Hightower. He spared a smirk to that cunt of a Hand before he marched ahead to win with brutal precision, sending his opponent's horse and the knight himself to the ground.

The horrified gasps and then the loud cheering from the crowd only made his smirk wider. Daemon looked over the high seats from where the Targaryens, Velaryons and Starks watched the show. He immediately noted three empty seats, two besides Lord Stark - no doubt one of them was his brother's or cousin's whose helmeted figure Daemon had seen in the line of knights - and one by the King.

Since his grandmother, the Queen, was not present due to her illness, the only one who was sending him scolding glares was his brother, Viserys. The old king just sighed at the scene, while Corlys and Rhaenys sat there, amused, like parents watching a naughty child.

The next challenges were won just as easily as the first, although none of them was even remotely close to that savage end the Hightower boy had to suffer.

While the Prince usually didn't bother to watch the others, this time that Stark was drawing attention with his effortless wins. Prompting the people to make guesses and bets if a wolf could win against a dragon. Well, they were about to find out.

The first round shattered his opponent's shield but, to his astonishment, he stayed upright in the saddle. Daemon was smirking as usual but this time a tiny bit of admiration made his eyes glint in a softer light.

He could tell the little wolf would go down in the next round but he didn't expect to be taken with him too. The dragon prince's blood was singing at meeting a worthy opponent who was just as determined to win, no matter the cost.

The boy must have known he had no chance to stay on the horse, so instead of attacking Daemon as would be proper and expected, he somehow hooked his spear under his arm, yanking him back with the force of his own fall.

Both of you heavily landed on the ground, the impact crushing the air from your lungs and making it unable to move for a long moment. The spectating people were holding their breath, waiting to see if you were, well, alive or not.

The cheering was deafening as you got to your feet and proceeded to fight with swords.

Without wasting another second, you marched forward. Stabbing in his direction, aiming for his head and swinging at his neck with the same momentum once your initial blow missed its target.

The prince leaned away from each attack and his sword met yours at the third strike. He let you lead the fight for a few more clashes but he paused to assess you as he blocked a blow that meant to hit his legs.

Daemon straightened and stepped back, pushing your sword away with his and striking down with a high swing of Dark Sister. Your sword met his again, protesting under the finer steel.

To spare your weapon the worst of the hit, you focused on meeting the side of the blade while avoiding the edge and rolling the swords, trying to dislodge the weapon from his grip.

To unsuccessful stabbing attempts later you made a move at his head again. He ducked down, then didn't hesitate to use the opportunity of the few seconds you left yourself open.

You didn't expect a hit by his other hand and certainly not the following kick that sent you to the ground. Unfortunately, this resulted in losing your helmet.

Daemon paused at the sight.

It was no brother or cousin of their host, not even a boy as he suspected from the lighter build of the armour but a girl with the features of a Stark, the infamous wild beauty of the North, Lord Stark's niece by his late sister.

For the second time during this event, a unanimous scandalized gasp was heard from the crowd right before loud the protests of his brother and your uncle reached the two of you as they forbade you to continue the fight.

At that, your still bewildered expression turned into something Daemon was extremely familiar with. Blinding, all-consuming, untamed rage at being denied.

The Targaryen prince grinned wickedly at you but before you could turn your anger on him, he tore off his helmet, throwing it away and subtly nodding at you, giving you the approval to attack him and continue the fight. The answering spark in your eyes before you charged at him made his heart skip a beat.

It was similar to how you started the first time. He let you advance, then half-heartedly attacked back, ending the session with another backhanded slap before he pushed you backwards until your back met the edge of the fighting arena.

"You are holding back." You practically spat the accusation at him through gritted teeth while holding your sword to block his. Although with the way he took hold of your hand, making sure that your blade did not cut into your throat proved that you might as well let go altogether and would still be safe from any harm.

The world around you seized to exist as the prince pressed a little closer. Answering with an infuriatingly smug grin. "It would be unforgivable to hurt a little lady like you."

"You just hit me," you scoffed.

"You'll live."

"If you won't start fighting properly, you will not." The menacingly low threat made chills run down his spine, eliciting a low chuckle out of him that was definitely a mistake.

Then 'the little lady' pulled a knife on him.

Daemon grunted at the pain of being stabbed in his side. He looked at you with disbelief, the blade went through his armour like it wasn't even there. Valyrian steel.

It was enough distraction. You pushed him away, attacking with the dagger and the sword simultaneously and if you were a little less aggravated, you'd be impressed with the way he blocked your attacks with not just his sword but bare hand fight combined before he started to use his sword more like a shield.

Swords crossed, you paused.

Daemon could have swiped your legs, and you could have stabbed him with the dagger again but you were too busy trying to make it a show that you could overpower him and he was just too pissed to let you go easy.

In a blink of an eye, you were kneeling on the ground with your opponent's blade digging into your shoulder. Although he was careful not to cut too deep, he was not above the pettiness of giving you a scar in return for his.

A half groan, half gasp sound was the only indication of your pain and Daemon felt a moment of regret before he was consumed by flames from deep within that seemed to be seeded in the pull he felt towards you from the moment he laid his eyes on you. He found your rage and your inner fire, which was clearly visible in your determination and anger at the present, mesmerisingly beautiful.

He became distracted again. It was enough for you to be able to move and swipe at his leg, cutting him with the dagger before you stood and faced him with a challenging stance.

A few seconds of silent discussion followed, with him letting you know he will give you what you wished for if you continue, warning you that he will not hold back anymore.

You grinned, attacking him, again using both weapons, with some moves applying them like a single extended weapon.

Then he put you in a difficult position. Stopping the dagger by grabbing it, he was forcing you to stay still not by strength but by thrusting you that you would not want to permanently damage him.

If you pulled away now, he would lose at least a few fingers if not his hand altogether. Both of you gritted your teeth, mostly in pain but it showed more like anger, which made it seem like you were practically snarling at the other.

With barely clutching the handles, you pry his hand off enough to only graze him. And it leaves you vulnerable.

You almost lost your weapons when he immediately attempted to disarm you. Then he truly advanced, forcing you to defend yourself and back away. He was relentlessly stabbing and swinging with Dark Sister in your direction.

Then it was over, he took your sword. Holding you at the end of his blade, telling you to yield.

It was only then that you heard the crowd again. Cheering at the incredibly fast and hard-to-follow battle they just witnessed.

Despite the loud audience, Daemon still heard as you sighed with annoyance, keeping eye contact with him as you threw your dagger to the ground, refusing to do more or say the words.

He smiled, this time with pure amusement only. He stepped away, letting you breathe freely and to his further entertainment dropped to the ground to sit and rest or pout like a child. It was hard to guess and that made him enjoy the scene even more.

You were so busy with pealing away the suffocating armour where you could reach and the impending scolding that you knew was coming the moment you tied up your cousin and took his place, that you didn't pay attention when the prince received the flower crown or what he was planning to do with it.

Feeling the crown of winter roses placed on your head, you look up, wide eyes meeting with the Rogue Prince's mischievous gaze as he offers his hand and helps you stand. Without letting go, he bends a little, kissing the back of your hand as he murmurs, "My queen."

Series masterlist • next chapter

[pixelxgore]

hers a billfold wip as a treat i changed his face bc i have free will

The art is to encourage you to read my silly little insanity (you should totally do it btw)

I'm dyslexic so sorry if anything is spelled grotesquely wrong lol autocorrect sometimes has no idea what i’m trying to spell

Starting with my head cannon because every thing will make more sense with it (or it wont that's entirely up to you) Imma try my best to make this enjoyable

So I head cannon both bill and ford as aspec this is important for the rest trust (I'm Aroace myself so some of my words are based of of experience ) being aroace doesn't mean you can't have a toxic one-sided relationship with a triangle

(most of this is pretty vanilla but I still wanna talk about it)

I believe it started of as a one-sided relationship on fords part (wow shocker) but it wasn't really love because he's ace it was more of infatuation (this stems from the fact he is a science boy and like ooo demon triangle thing) mistaken for love (I'm pretty sure this is common among aroace people or I just had an original experience) and maybe bill had just a little bit of the same feeling but instead of infatuation it was just pure obsession and when they had there little “tragic break up” and bill finally came to realize his obsession and it consumed him (idk i think that how abusive obsession is) and he realized he can’t live with out ford (i man he can but unhealthy obsession) and thus bills one sided relationship with ford where he just tries to get his puppet back but can’t figure out why he needs him so bad so he comes to the (subconscious) cuncultion there in love (because of course that’s the reasonable decision) and then you all know what comes after

I think bill has major will wood music vibes so I have nominated three songs of his for bill ford (cuz I'm genuinely going insane over them)

This is for fun and based off my head cannons

All of my discussions are made purely of the vibes the song gives me and how cool than animation in my head looks so take everything you know about these will wood songs and throw it out the window cuz none of that is relevant :3

i saw someone say “Will Wood songs can really be interpreted in different ways, and most of them seem like wisps of similar thought rather than a concrete narrative, so you're always a little bit right and wrong when you take a guess.” and i think you should keep that in mined

(I'm gonna embarrass myself so hard (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) )

I'm not gonna elaborate much but just trust me ok I put it kind of in chronological order

fords one sided relationship with bill: ...well, better than the alternative

Ok so this one is the least perfect out of all of them cuz it only half what I want (obviously this song is a stretch but hear me out) It's mostly for the like the last half of the song (remember what I said about throwing out the meaning for get that i lied) this song about the struggle ls of growing up and is a heartfelt plea to be understood and accepted for who we are (which obviously ford was a wired kid) and this kinda ties into the one-sided infatuation because it also is about the romanticism of nostalgic love, and the pressure of society telling you to find someone and "settle down" as we get older (witch yk aroace can’t really do that) so he’s grasping at the fact that he is enamored with this demon he just summoned (because science) so he can come up with this narrative in his head of how he is in love and can finally fit at least one of the societal boxes (idk it sounds like something to me probly ooc but I'm having fun)

bills one sided relationship with ford: ¡Aikido!

obsession with someone and how people often use coping mechanisms such as drugs to help with their feelings of uncertainty and helplessness. (yes this is copied not fully of a site this is tumblr not an english assignment) it also explores the idea that love and obsession can often manifest in neurotic and even pathological behavior.(oooo oooo look i’m so smart like staring the apocalyps) i’m not this cool this whole thing started with the first like whit h is “I apologize for playing with your eyes But I’m obsessed with you” witch reminded me of how bill used for as a puppet and then yk fords whole world came crashing down (this one explained its self more i have to do less mental gymnastics) and he’s like im sooo sorry i can’t live with out you

there whole relationship from the deal to the end of bill: Misanthrapologist ("In case I make it,"

Outtake)

ok this one is the one that mostly made of vibes because the song is about an unhappy codependent relationship through metaphors of christianity, nihilism, outer space, and mozart (witch only really encompasses a portion of the relationship) the song stars with “I wanna meet your make Shake him by his ensanguined damask lapel Holler "Look what you've done Gave this planet a sun And made a man to wonder if he's more than the sum of his cells"” which makes me personally think of obviously the deal fore made with bill and how bill stroked his ego all the way through there partnership um you can see where i goes from here just go listen to the song

ok this one’s off topic and only for my imaginary animation but the line “So how could I stand a chance, let alone dance With the way you sweep me off these two left feet?” just like imagine this with me it’s bill (human probably cuz i don’t work with the triangle) and young ford in the minedskape thing and its bill dipping ford and when it goes down it switches to bill and fort in bills pyramid thing with ford chained up do you see the vision ok I’m done now (´°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥ω°̥̥̥̥̥̥̥̥｀)

[bones-of-a-rabbit]

the abandonment issues au,,

where Sun and Moon gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss their way into ur heart

and then turn into sad wet baby kittens when u find out and call them out on it <3

(copy and pasted from the space aces discord, sorry fellas lmao)

abandonment issues au:

ok what if. fucked up au time

where. reader is the new daycare assistant or a mechanic or smthn idk theyre working withh Sun and Moon thats the important part

i think it works better if theyre like, Sun n Moon's handler? Bc they r closer that way and it makes it more fucked up lmaooooo

so basically. this takes place right after Sun n Moon had their best friend-handler person leave bc Sun n Moon had been acting increasingly volatile n buggy n rlly just having issues but the more the previous handler tried to talk to them abt it and fix it the more they got anxious abt getting decommissioned and would cover up the problems n act like nothing was wrong

and eventually one day the previous handler nearly got rlly hurt and knew they had to leave bc it wasn't safe for them and they left a detailed warning/report for the mechanics

(and they didnt say goodbye, not out of malice or anything just bc they didnt want even more reasons for Sun n Moon to act up/potentially hurt them or themselves)

so. the mechanics did a total clean up of Sun n Moon's system, basically left their memories but scrubbed their data of a lot of the 'feelings' they'd had- mostly wiping away the feelings tied to 'good' memories, and the only thing Sun n Moon could do to fill in the void of 'feelings' was assign different feelings in their place, so when they once looked back and felt happy or nostalgic, now they feel confused and angry and sad and betrayed bc why was all of that happiness taken from them?? why did their handler hurt them like this??

so the scrubbing of their systems, which was one thing they really really didn't want to have done for fear of losing their memories entirely, DID work in putting their issues on a much lower level,, but it didn't get rid of the issues entirely. Now they're just,, easier to hide or play off or ignore. They're careful around the kids, of course, but they do at times have trouble with their motor controls or their speech will glitch slightly, etc

a few handlers come and go, never staying for more than a week or so- none of them really care about the job, don't see Sun n Moon as coworkers but more like fancy 'machines' with no real thoughts or emotions, they normally leave after Sun or Moon has a glitchy moment and nearly hurts them or, in at least one case, does hurt them by squeezing their wrist too hard. more often than not, the ppl applying for the position read the list of warnings n cautions and are like 'hell nahh' and bail immediately

then. in comes,, reader. local dumbass. most endearing of idiots. a bit dense. very much clueless. dearly beloved

you're the first one to really treat them like your coworkers, making small talk and being friendly and kind and patient and laughing at their jokes. you smile when you introduce yourself, offering your hand for them to shake- not afraid of them or their little twitches at all. god, how they missed that. you remind them of their previous handler, if only in how you see them like theyre people and not machines.

and they make a mutual agreement to do whatever they can to keep you as their handler. even if it means dodging around company rules and policies by doing something like crumpling up the confidential 'warning' forms, ortelling the occasional white lie, like forging your signature onto the papers when your back is turned and making sure it makes it to your manager without either of you noticing who exactly was putting it on their desk.

you've already started calling them your friends the first time they have a glitchy moment. you're doing detailing work on their endoskeleton, really just cleaning dust away and making sure everything looks the way it does in the manual, when they break something- a tablet, a pen, your phone, whatever it is, it happens in an instant and startles you.

when Sun n Moon come to and realize whats happened theyre terrified. what if you use this as some kind of excuse to leave? What if you abandon them, just like their previous handler did? What if you start treating them differently, or you tell the staff that they need to be scrapped

so when you ask what that was about, they're frantic, quick to come up with something, anything that might make you shrug and forget all about it,

"Well, you WERE just working on their insides, right? That must have been something YOU did to suddenly make us do something like THAT! There's no way else it could have happened. Right?"

You take the lie hook, line, and sinker, apologizing profusely, promising to try harder to make sure nothing like that happens again. The relief they feel is almost euphoric. They pat you on the head kindly, reassuring you that they know you didn't do it on purpose, it was just a little mess up! You're fine, friend, we forgive you.

From then on, they dodge blame and truth alike, most often redirecting your attention to something you must have said or done to make something so strange and out of character for them happen so suddenly, and you believe them, full of apologies and careful words and actions and nervous worrying about doing things wrong and hurting them somehow. It's cute, how anxious you can get. It's cuter, how you melt for their comfort and reassurance. 

They play the song and dance with you again and again, weaving doubt and guilt into you more and more frequently. Until one day, you mumble something about how 'maybe i'm not cut out for this, maybe i should switch to be on the janitorial team instead, or some other department, i don't want to hurt you guys, or-or be the reason someone else gets hurt, i clearly dont know what im doing, and it's only gotten worse, maybe i should talk to my manager,,' and they panic

don't be silly, friend!!!! you can't just leave like that, what about the kids, what about that puppet show you had helped them plan, did you really want to just abandon all that?? so what if maybe they had the occasional hiccup, you were always there to smooth it over, who cared whether they dropped things from time to time, or- or broke a toy or two, that didn't matter, did it??? You were getting so good at being their handler, your little mistakes were normal, come on, you don't want to leave your very best friends. Do you?

and you cave, agreeing to stay, and they are so, so extremely careful to hide their little moments from you for several weeks, making sure you don't notice their tiny twitches or split seconds of glitchy voices, maybe keeping a closer eye on you than would be comfortable, watching over your shoulder each time you type up a report about the day, giving the manager a loathsome glower behind your back whenever they happen by,, and every time you leave you say 'i'll see you guys tomorrow!,' they grab onto your sleeve and respond with 'promise?' so you always know that they really, really do want you to come back

and then. one day,, you decide to go looking in their files for something small and silly, like what kinds of updates had been added to their pick-up protocols, and you find the warnings and cautions forms

and you see your signature on them, but you would definitely remember this and you are absolutely certain you have never seen these papers in your life. and you take the papers and you go to ask them about it.

"i thought you said you never had any problems before? you told me you never had any issues before but this- this is full of things that you- and you, you've been having these problems for that long??"

they stumble over their words, frantic, panicked, backpedaling on everything theyve ever said, trying meekly to grab the papers from your hands, piling excuses on excuses 

"you knew? you knew you were having these problems, and you didn't tell me? and you- you told me it was my fault!"

you're close to tears, hurt that they lied more than anything. you keep backing away from them, dodging their attempts to get the forms. they don't know which is worse- seeing that look on your face, or when they were left without so much as a goodbye.

"you could have told me. i thought i was the reason for everything, i thought i was hurting you, and you just... you lied right to my face and let me think that."

theyre putting on their best soothing voice, movements slow and gentle, wanting to comfort you and wipe those tears away and reassure you somehow that this- this isn't their fault, none of it is, it never was, they're fine and you're fine and nothing was ever wrong, and everything will be fine if only you calm down and stay

you can tell they arent really listening. you take a deep breath and turn away from them, scraping the tears from your face. you tell them you're going to go home and write up a report about all of this and when you come back you can go over it together before you send it to management, but right now you're leaving because you need space to breathe and time to think

but all they hear is that you're leaving, and they panic.

they don't hurt you, of course! but right now you're not allowed to leave.

you try to shut out the sound of them crying and apologizing and begging, even if it breaks your heart, because right now all you want to do is go home and lie in your stupid bed and have a stupid cry in your favorite pajamas. but you try every door you can think of- none of them open. you've sstayed past closing more than once, but the doors aren't normally shuttered for another two hours,, and you're pretty sure the night guard isn't even here yet

the entire time you're walking around the 'plex, Moon is trailing sadly behind you, waiting with the saddest, most pathetic wet cat look an animatronic can achieve, for you to turn and face them again

and thus begins what is probably the longest night of your life, spent trying to avoid your animatronic friends/coworkers who are acting like the worlds clingiest ex who just got broken up with and who can't stop dropping sad love songs in ur dms

by the time morning rolls around, they agree to actually go to parts n services and cooperate and try their best to get whatever is wrong with them repaired, even if it means they might get decomissioned. in the mean time, you promise to come back once they're fixed and work with them to help them get back to their old selves- or at least, back to how they were before any potentially dangerous bugs

basically this is the 'sun and moon have abandonment issues and gaslight you abt it' au

idk what else would happen tbh idk why i thought this au needed to exist either but here we are *lays facedown in a puddle*

[meludream]

You said you do headcannons, can you tell me a few you have right now?

of course!! ill go by region but this is pretty unorganized/rambly lol. there are some archon quest spoilers in here, but nothing 'new'

to start actually: i imagine my party doing this story. THEY really did fight stormterror and childe, THEY had to sneak around inazuma to avoid the vision hunt decree, all FOUR of them really got stuck in the samsara... etc. the story follows the four of them plus the traveler <3

also almost EVERY hc regarding the traveler means either twin. theyre both bi to me.

anyways. LONGG post coming up :3

mondstat:

bennett, razor, and fischel are really close friends. mika is a newer friend of theirs but he's so anxiety riddled lol, he also plans ahead while none of the former do. a more unique (I think) headcanon with this is that diona is also close to them and sometimes adventures with them, even though shes younger. she likes to get out and adventure! she'll yell at bennett and then razor will give her the silent treatment until she feels bad and apologizes, lol. this hc is just bc my first and long-time team was xingqiu, razor, bennett, and diona :-) they're my babies

bennett has reoccuring pneumomediastinum and pneumothorax. i started hcing this after i got diagnosed with pneumomediastinum!

razor nuzzles his friends to show affection. bennett acts like its 100% normal too

bennett is taller than razor, mika is taller than bennett, fischel is taller than the three of them lol (diona is ofc the smallest)

liyue:

in my heart lan yan, yun jin, gaming, xingqiu, and chongyun are like teenagers / younger than other adults in liyue. theyre all friends and it makes me so happy (<- guy who loves lantern rite).

xiangling, hu tao, yanfei and xinyan are also like. younger than the adults but older than the previously mentioned group. idk this is my teyvat now

xingqiu and chongyun are like the middle school friends who everyone knows will wind up togetehr, but somehow they're both oblivious

also xingqiu is autistic but like, the type of autism to get diagnosed as a toddler and then put into gifted classes. this sounds crazy LOL but to me its like he was dx and his dad never told him and now that he's older he feels out of place and burnt out and doesn't know why. and then his dad tells him and hes like WHAT and he hyperfixates on psychology for three weeks during which he visits yumemizuki <- sorry crazed ramble but this is what my heart tells me <3

hc specifically bc of my team: xingqiu is well traveled bc of his family, and he KNOWS that everyone in the adventurers guild avoids bennett like the plauge. he is so hesitant to be on a team with him. and a lot of times bennett will say, "well it cant get any worse!" and xingqiu is like "STOP. SAYING THAT. IT ALWAYS DOES."

i remember minimal about liyue T_T but perilous trail/interlude 2 is one of my fave quests EVER. i loved it so much even though i dont care for the chasm

inazuma:

kokomi is autistic

yae miko and yumemizuki are LESBIANNSSSSS (and exes)!!! i think ei is aro/ace spectrum but like autistic-coded so complicated labels. she just likes miko <3

in my mind ayaka is crushing on the traveler (either gender) and thoma. thoma is also crushing on ayaka and the traveler. the traveler is ALSO crushing on ayaka and thoma lol. but ayaka and thoma end up together after the traveler leaves! i have a lot of 'passive relationships' (?) like this in my head i think its cute and realistic for people to be crushing :3

sumeru (mostly nahida oops):

waking up to tighnari after passing out... traveler had a big fat crush on that man!!! and i dont think its reciprocal or deep or anything. theyre just like DAMN hes pretty and smart .....

i also think collei kinda crushed on amber when she first met her. like shes this awesome girl who can do everything to her, and collei is REALLY embarrassed abt it. i think collei matures to just respect her but it starts out as a little crush. it was never reciprocated ofc

faruzan and citlali know of each others existences bc i said so ... idk enough about faruzan to know how they'd get along but i like to think they'd get on fine

nahida... my baby. i got her soon after i started playing genshin again and she was my first limited 5* :-) my team changed to xingqiu, razor, bennett, and nahida!

in my mind, diona left the team to spend some time in sumeru and then go back home to mondstat :3 nahida chose to join the team because of her drive to learn more and her affinity towards the traveler.

one time nahida pets razor like hes a puppy and bennett is like hey thats not cool okay he isnt actually a dog. but razor just gives her a thumbs up lol

nahida is fascinated by bennetts unluckiness!! she thinks its amazing how he can mystically make all situations worse, lol

xingqiu is fascinated by nahida.... obviously. after meeting furina for the first time, hes sort of mad *thats* his vision-provider and not nahida lol. but anyways with her on the team he tries to act sooo perfect and intelligent at all times, while razor and bennett are like :/ bc hes loosened up around them before. but nahida knows hes trying to impress her because.... mindreading. she tells him thats nice but she much prefers people being genuine. xingqiu is sort of distraught LOL but he gets over it and does prefer being himself on the team :3

xingqiu has suchhhh a hard time communicating with the aranara. he finds nondirect communication nearly impossible and gets really frustrated but he can't get mad at them cause they're just little guys

fontaine:

furina is genderless. also i hc that she has some vague vision issues before focalors death, since focalors worked through her.

ALSO in my heart furinas vision looks more unique because it was granted by a sovereign rather than an archon.

neuvillette can also walk on water T_T also he has more dragon-like features to me. please give that boy a tail

clorinde and navia are in lesbians

i think upon entering fontaine, the traveler is like holy shit this pretty boy (lyney). holy shit this pretty lady (furina). holy shit this pretty lady (navia). like its ROUGH for them lol. and then they get to the fortress and wriothesley is there and they're like DAMN!!!

i hc only lyney reciprocates during the story lol, he definitely has a crush on the traveler. lynette makes fun of him for it. however i think: navia can DEFINITELY tell the traveler has a crush on her, and she teases them about it. and furina grows really fond of the traveler as the story progresses (while the traveler starts to dislike her more until the end... lol.). i dont see it romantically or anything but i think furina really does love the travelers companionship

lynette and freminet are autistic. they like to sit in silence together.

lyney's only feline trait is cat paw pads, which makes sleight of hand easier... this is totally stolen from some fanart and im not sure of the artist. if anyone is, feel free to let me know <3

onto team-specfiic hcs. xingqiu HATES furina so much, he is so disappointed meeting the hydro archon, who provided his vision, and seeing she's like... that. obviously as the story progresses hes more sympathetic towards her and eventually really amazed by focalor's entire plan.

nahida and furina so get along. they're sweet together and friends, they share desserts from their nations :3 nahida feels so sympathetic towards furina she treats her like a kid sometimes

after finally leaving the fortress of meropide, witnessing the execution of a god, and surviving a great flood, bennett tells the team that natlan will definitely be better, it has to be! bennett is wrong and xingqiu knows it.

before leaving fontaine for natlan, neuvillette joins the team. i never rationalized this with headcanons lol. he replaced razor and i hc that razor went back to mondstat bc he missed home... everyone is fine with neuvillette but intimidated by him, except for nahida she just thinks he's nice. i think they have deep intellectual convos together and talk about humanity together.

natlan:

i love citlali and hoyoverse doesnt deserve her, i kill all her fanservice ...

citlali has albinism (OCA 1) and thus poor vision. she loves scroll weaving and unique color manipulation not just because of huitzilin, but also because it lets her see and feel the world in a new way

varesa is so aroace to me and idk why lol.

kachina and only kachina has permission to touch xilonen's tail. mauvika still does when she's mad at her though

my team? TRAUMATIZED. nahida is horrified by war and all the death around her and bennett finally stops telling people 'next time it'll be better.' i imagine that all four of them are just kinda. jesus christ what now.

my team shifts a LOT during this period lol, i got citlali, then clorinde on accident, gaming, and recently i've gotten sigewinne, furina, and navia... so yeah. i dont have any super consistent team hcs for natlan T_T

chasca and ororon are both autistic

[simpingresponsibly]

apologies if this is all over the place (or doesn't make a lot of sense) but the ask about dnf and hall passes tickled my brain as an aro/ace person lol

When I fully migrated from exclusively dsmp fandom stuff to a mix of dsmp and rpf the amount of weird puritan hostility I encountered was completely baffling. I know my experiences with and opinions on relationships are a little skewed on account of the aro/ace-ness (and the fact that I feel very little relationship jealousy) but to be honest I think the main issue here is that a good chunk of the fandom drank the amatonormativity koolaid.

This mostly manifests in the way people treat Sapnap (or I just notice it more with Sapnap bc I like him) and his relationship(s) with DNF. Adherence to a partner-centric relationship hierarchy leads to people treating Sapnap's relationship with DNF as lesser or not as important as their relationship with one another, when in reality it's just as important, it's just not romantic.

I think the mix of platonic and romantic there tends to throw people for a loop, but to me that confusion doesn't make any sense whatsoever because I've never considered romantic relationships to be more valuable than platonic ones. The whole DNF romantic vs Sapnap platonic baffles me to no end because people try to insert arbitrary jealousy into the dynamic where it doesn't actually exist.

The dteam all have a very close (borderline qpr imo) relationship with one another, and in a world where DNF are dating I can 100% see georgenap still having their regular insaneisms and it not being an issue because that's not how Dream understands his relationship with either of them. Sapnap is his best friend and George is his boyfriend and neither of them are more important to him than the other, which doesn't mean he wants to date Sapnap or that he doesn't love George enough.

A lot of my personal grappling with the dream team's relationship and the fics I write about them centers around this actually - I keep trying to figure out how to explain them, the way they have all these behaviors with one another that are romantic between two of them but platonic with the third member of their friend group. It's really hard to communicate this idea to other people (I think jealousy is the stress point because I don't understand it but other people certainly do lol) because I know what it looks like in my head but I don't know how to show it.

You calling it 'the christian missionary relationship' is so funny tho because that's EXACTLY how I felt when I first joined the fandom. I felt like I was insane for a week and a half there lmao

also the kink thing is just straight up weird tbh my only guess is that it's some kind of warped hold-over from the 'cc boundaries' era of the fandom?

tbh the cc boundary holdover might have some weight on the anti-kink angle

there's a couple of interesting things here. I don't think I completely agree with you on how I interpret them or the fandom responses but I certainly see where you're coming from

the first one is the jealousy angle. I'm a bit biased, given that I answered an ask a little while ago talking about how much I deeply LOOOOVE jealous dnf, but I don't really think that comes into it at all. theres plenty of different reasons to do it, obviously, but to me jealousy is at the core of what makes open relationship/hall pass stories so good.

slight NSFW under cut

whether that's Dream reclaiming George the second he gets back from a hookup or the slow build to possessive sex, THATS the good shit. or when there isn't jealousy, the absence of it is the point. the ultimate trust that goes into the act of George letting Dream go for a hookup, and knowing that George is always the one he's going to come back to. the knowledge that there's nobody out there George needs to be jealous of, because none of them will ever compare.

jealousy is the meat behind stories where they make each other crack and lay claim; George leaving hickies bigger and darker than the last girl Dream fucked. Dream stuck between horny and angry when George sends him a snap of a guy pounding him into the mattress. I even love the stories where they say they're not jealous (when they actually are) because they're so scared of losing each other over it that it explodes into a confrontation and desperate sex (even if the thesis of those stories ends up being that there was something they were capable of adding to their relationship to make them exclusive)

if you're not someone who experiences jealousy at all, you probably don't like the stories for the same reason which is absolutely fine!! thats the beauty of storytelling. but I don't think the reason people hate them is related to jealousy; jealousy is usually the point of them.

the other thing I think is interesting that you brought up, which sort of moves away from the original hall pass discussion, is the romantic dnf + qpr sapnap angle. people do tend to react badly to the idea that Sapnap could have relationships of similar importance and intimacy to dnf as they have with each other. generally the response I see is "well, yes, friendships can be just as important but Sapnap is straight and he wouldn't do [insert traditionally romantic/sexual thing] to dream or george".

which, regardless of if that's true or not, is sort of a moot point because qpr doesn't really take sexuality into account. it's a queering of the understanding of things that can or should go into a platonic relationship but you don't have to be queer to be in one. it's the framework you use to understand what is allowed or encouraged

[twistedwonderlandshenanigans]

Baby Photos HCs

You might need some context as these include some of my Family HCs if you wanna check them out ;)

Heartslaybul 

Riddle- Riddle is his mothers pride and joy. She has one or two photos from when he was a baby, but she keeps framed pictures of him from any time he received an award or exceeded the average for his age, with proof in his hands in the photo. They're displayed in the living room so guests can see them. 

Trey- I hc Trey with 11 siblings- despite that, his parents, (and his cool aunt) have managed to put together a full photo album of each kid from when they were little to their current age, but as for displaying them in the home? Nah, its just one family picture, and the Clover wedding photo. 

Cater- His mom has pictures of her and his two older sisters, but he doesn’t really have any baby photos. There are a few that his dad took, and that his...younger, older sister took, but they're on phones. Nothing is printed out. His dad did have a digital picture frame at one point though, but his mom kind of loaded it up with just pictures of her so he wouldn’t think about cheating again

Deuce- His mom wasn't able to print a whole lot of pictures, but I think that his mom has a really supportive older sister that's managed to get them a few really cute photos from when he was a kid. When he was maybe eight or nine (before his delinquent stage got bad) he was gifted a second hand polaroid and took some pictures of him and his mom, which his mom has stored somewhere safe.

Ace- most of his baby photos have his mom in them, and his dad doesn’t cope well with that, so they are locked away. Jack (his brother) took pictures of the two of them together whenever he could though, and his dad loves to see them on his phone.

Savanaclaw 

 Leona- he's in the background of a lot of Falena's photos. Falena tried to get him to take a few pictures with him, and a few of them turned out really cute, but only Falena really looks at them.          ****Cheka- he has quite a few professional pictures done, but my MC Vizzie loves babysitting him and thanks to Cater, takes great candid photos of the baby boy.

Ruggie- his grandma keeps her locket with a picture of the two of them when he was young, but its mostly stories she has to share than baby photos. There are a few, but they're kind of low quality. 

Jack- oh my god there's so many. His mom has a bunch in her room on her dresser. She makes makes her own calendars and has little pictures of all her kids on them. There are all sorts of pictures on the mantle. There are baby photos of each kid going up the stairs. Each kid, in their room, has a picture of them when they were like. Four, and with both their parents in it. 

Octavinelle 

Azul- he hates it. But those posed newborn baby photos? They are in plain sight. Luckily none of his older ones are bc his mom knows he doesn't want them up and 2 his Nonna says he looks too fuckin sad 

Tweels- They have all their school photos, but that's about it. Its now that they're older that their dad wants more pictures with his sons.

Scarabia 

 Kalim- He has a few, but most of them he's sitting in his dads lap with a bunch of his "aunties" around them and his mom. As the heir, he did get some photos, and every birthday, professionally done. But family priorities meant he didn’t really have any candid photos. 

Jamil- his parents were too busy attending to the Asim’s, he has one or two, and a few that Kalim may have insisted he get in on, but that's it. His sister has so many more. 

Pomefiore 

Vil - When it comes to personal photos, ones not meant for the media, he only has one. It's of him and his father at his mothers funeral. Nothing younger than that. Nothing older. Everything else is from professional photoshoots and movies. 

Rook - His parents also have a lot of photos, of their first hunt, the biggest fish they've caught, tandem hunts, etc. Has some Weird themed baby photos as well, but they like receiving pictures of their kids latest hunts and whatnot, has them pinned right up with all the taxidermy 

Epel - His grandma has them, but has them locked away as per his request after he came out as trans. She's supportive of him, and he understands she might hang onto those memories better if they're in picture form, but he doesn’t want people from school finding out before he's ready. (Harveston)

Ignihyde

Idia/Ortho- .This ones a little complicated. Long story short, yes, there are loads of pictures. No, nobody chooses to look at them.  Their mom has a couple physical copies of photos she adores, but she only looks at them when she’s struggling mentally. (Side note, totally believe his mom is the reason he’s obsessed with cats, and I think his dad hates cats but his mom and him and Ortho sometimes like to annoy their dad about it)

Diasomnia

Lilia - n/a 

Malleus, Silver, Sebek - Lilia has photos, he has "memory bubbles" to summon small "videos" recounting times when they were kids, but he doesn’t display them anywhere really.

----------- Masterlist

[autisticlalna]

less fun shitpost, more on the emotional side of things:

i dunno man. i think i personally am taking it super hard bc yellow was one of my favorites. like, a lot of people in the dominion fandom favored blue, but i really liked yellow and included a "i think he's neat" joke in the og version of the powerpoint (which i guess i get to write a conclusion to the sbk section of now)

the whole thing with me writing Yellow In Limbo was "nobody talks about this guy except for aces sometimes, i have a lot of emotions about him and how he died, what if he got to meet avoid". and literally while i was writing the first two chapters, when i hadnt even told anybody outside dnerds about it yet, we get the end of episode 12. the first ever canonical on-screen appearance of yellow.

(and even with a tiny snippet of crossing the rubicon eeeee ok i am still not over that. i was actually considering including that moment in the finished pmv but i had so much trouble trying to get the clip and decided it wouldnt work tonally/visually unless i reanimated it, and then my laptop died right after rendering and uploading, so. o7)

point is, i was thrilled for yellow to be here, and super into the mystery of How he got here. i dont remember if i really talked about my theories much bc they were very scattered, but ive been constantly trying to figure out What Happened To Summertime. bc the original thought i had after the reveal was that summertime was yellow's reincarnation somehow, but yellow had none of his memories and summertime seems to be completely Gone, and we still dont know why the gold farm caused it or what was the deal with the design of it (bc viking did hint the design was for a reason and related to it somehow!!)

we finally get to see a recap of the finale-that-never-was, we get the flash of "you're broken it didn't work you're broken", and then we got the book! holy fuck, the Book! volm just.. had the Book! and gave it to yellow! and egged him into trying the ritual! and like.. obviously the ritual wasn't going to work. it was never going to work, or if it did it was going to herald the death of the server. that was how it was in dominion, that was how it was here. of course olm was co-opting it for himself.

the fact that yellow doesnt get his memories back is something im undecided if im okay with or not. it wouldve been cool to at least get a hint of who dviking used to be, but mostly im stuck on trying to figure out if i think this is narratively satisfying or not. bc again, i knew the ritual was going to fail from how it was set up in both series. but i think the reason why im undecided is because dominion was going to be open-ended, and this is... very final. yellow doesn't get his memories back. blue is gone, never mentioned past yellow's recap. we dont learn anything more about the book, or how he got it. yellow has a whole-ass breakdown before being buried, and then the world is erased.

(and like, ive already talked abt how i dont like the joke abt the world being erased. those emotions are still very much present. but im trying to focus on the Rest of the ending rn)

there's this finality to it. yellow is gone. we finally got to see him after two years, and then he dies with no fanfare. book snaps shut. questions remain unanswered. there was over half a season's worth of build-up, starting from summertime's weird flashbacks, and then he's gone and that's it.

i don't know, maybe viking does intend to still do things with blue. whatever it is, it's not going to be sbk season 2 - he's confirmed a few times that it's gonna be somebody entirely new. which im excited for! i like new vikings. i like summertime. but this is an ending without an ending. its not a cliffhanger, like dominion's intended end, its not an answer to two years' worth of speculation, it is literally "rocks fall, yellow dies".

again, there is a bias here. i started writing yellow in limbo with the goal of making people care about yellow bc i only ever saw people talk about or draw blue. i found yellow, and what he represents, compelling-- dviking is a character that has always been paradoxical in nature and behavior, and examining that through the lens of his halves only works if you analyze both halves.

i just wish we'd gotten something. some kind of closure. or, at least, that yellow's final breakdown hadn't been followed up with a joke about how all of it was pointless.

[mahgck]

hi i saw your csm powerpoint a couple days ago as a new csm reader (nearly finished part 1 but ive been putting it off for a couple days bc i'm #scared) and your ace spectrum denji headcanon has Captivated me. idk if you've expanded on this elsewhere but if not would you be willing to delve into it a bit?

HIIII i have not i dont think ive ever talked abt aroace denji hc outside of delusional rambles to friends at 3am. ANYWAY! Im a few chapters behind at the moment so No Spoilers but speaking from my own perspective as a sex repulsed aroace person here.

I more hc him as aromantic then asexuality BUT its mostly just born from denji's idea of a normal life/relationship being so wrapped up in his idea of sex/love. he thinks that in order to achieve this normal life sex and romantic relationships are a requirement, likely born from his experience with the yakuza and later makima. doing tasks in order to "earn" love and affection and care, and the only affection hes received in this way is sexually/romantically coded in nature. and hes a teenage boy with a high libido of course hes gonna be like Woaahhhg PubertyBrain HORNY!!! like its not his fault. i am asexual as fuck and still was confused as all hell during that time as a teenager. but ANYWAY he wants to be normal so bad and if hes been taught that relationships = normal then its obvious that he would latch on to that idea, and people keep taking advantage of that while also further cementing it in his brain. AND ALSO!!! being aroallo/aroace but with a funkyweird relationship to sexual attraction just adds a whole other layer to the story to me and makes it even more compelling. my asaden heart needs them to aro4aro all up over the place. none of this probably made any sense.

[yeetushaitus]

answering @musikcore's question template!!

warning: this is really long! like. really really really long. im a professional yapper

1- hi im yeetus but just call me rin!! im black and japanese american and i speak english and japanese! im one of them they/them blue haired liberals i like to draw and sing and waste away in bed

2- i mostly do fanart and thirst over liszt lmao i dont know if ive even posted a full drawing of any other cl character i have a twt @/yeetushaituss but i dont really post on there i just repost ace attorney stuff, if u wanna see my cl fanart just search classicaloid on my tumblr page👍 im also in the cl discord server (im a stalker,., im too nervous to talk to ppl)

3- funny story ok so just to preface i go to school for classical singing and one of my friends from choir is in a church choir and she has a friend from said church choir who is. unhinged i love him/p hes a giant classical music nerd and he found it while scrolling through beethoven on google images i was at her birthday party (it was literally just the three of us and her parents having dinner at her place) and he starts talking ab cl so we watched s1ep1 and s2ep20 that night and i literally could not stop laughing omg i was literally rolling on the floor we had to stop watching for a few minutes bc my stomach hurt so much from laughing ive been in the fandom since october so like 9 months

4- LISZZTTT AAAHHAGAGAGAGH we're LITERALLY married no but srsly that boxing episode juyst like,.,. i love the message of the episode and it rlly resonated w me!! i feel like i keep overthinking everything and i think its good to remember that none of that matters and i should draw liszt all the time bc i love her and we're in love shes also hot and has good music!!!! also her and chochan make me want to explode shes so nice and understanding and pretty and shes so passionate about everything she does and i love passionate characetrs

5- yes?? i guess?? me and my friends friend grew WAY closer after that and i experienced peak and now i may or may not be joining that church choir sometime this year??? also now i like reading about composers every once in a while so!! also has genuinely helped me on my homework for my choir class

6- sigh i dont have any offical merch.,,.., yet hee hee but i do have super cute fanmade cl prints and keychains made by DeepDinoSpace on etsy!! theyre so nice omg im planning on getting the lightsticks for me and my friend, i alr have 2 listings lined up and im GATEKEEPING ughh i need these

7- tbh any liszt image but here r some of my favs from my liszt folder + misc favs

8- ALL OF BACHS AUAGUGAHA THEYRE SO GOOD ESPECIALLY BUT I STILL LOVE YOU omg. i could listen to that song for forever, even subete wa ai kara has grown on me i also like ai no kane (it was my 3rd most listened to song last year,..,,.), fool love rhapsody, mikan zombie march and shuppatsu shinkou!! peak music i fear also shoutout to claskey:klasky for having the most UNDERRATED SONGS FROM THE SHOW HELLO??? yatterannai kibun is SO iconic and hilarious btw if u havent looked up the lyrics pls take the time to theyre so funny salty salty is just. a good song. like this show has hoenstly some of the worst music ive ever heard even the musiks that i listed, i can admit theyre bad and i just like bad music!! but salty salty somehow manages to be good music?? in my classicaloid?? and obviously. ai dake ga subete janai. this song took a WHILE to grow on me omg when i first heard it in the show i HATED it but. idk ive come around to it its cutteee i also like the duu duu duu du du duuuu duuuu part idk how to describe it the weird edm deep part in the verses also the girls day out karaoke is peak also hadnt thought about the bgm but i actually rlly like it!! i sat down and listened to some of it and omg its like banger after banger honestly just do yourself a favor and go listen to it, i know i JUST said i like bad music but i also like good music

my personal favorites are boku wa umarekawattandayo, korette ai janai? and beetho konzen ittai to natte kanaderareru harmony ugh but bujika komusume is so good too,..,., every song is so good.,,. im also a big fan of instrumental music so this is going on loop 24/7 just listen to it. its peak. you wont regret it.

9- definitely s2ep10!! i think ive talked a lot alr abt why and how it endeared me to liszt but i also just think its funny! its also a s2 episode where wagner isnt very important therefore its peak if i had to pick a second fav, s1ep22 i never get bored of watching beethoven's stupid antics also every liszt episode. where like shes important.

10- not rlly, i think beethoven/mozart and schubert/mozart r cute but im not rlly here for shipping but if u mean platonic ships omg chopin&liszt r my WHOLE LIFE ugh theyre so diubhabjnakb liszt cares so much and chopin. is so me coded omg im ashamed to admit ive never related to a characetr more also tchaiko and bada!!!!!!! theyre so important to me despite how little i talk about them i LIVE for their arguments

11- mozart turkish march i yearn for that much aura

12- everything liszt says in s2ep10.,,. ok i swear this is the last time im bringing this episode up but i have a weird relationship with pride i used to try and prove i was the best all the time and i would humble brag and stuff but once i grew out of that, remembering how embarrassing it was only made my self esteem worse now im stuck in this weird spot of "im the best" and "wow i suck" and that kind of translates to whenever i post stuff online, it ends up just feeding into the im the best mindset and then i feel really bad about feeling that way and that feeds into the wow i suck mindset her dialogue before and during her musik in this episode just made me like. think. a lot. specifically "clear you mind of the mundane, free yourself from worldly desires" like JESUS that hit really hard so i decided to stop worrying about how to get more reach and whatnot bc i started drawing because i was a fan of undertale, fanart is my life and i dont want to draw if my hearts not in it

13- hello fellow soldiers thanks for reading through my unhinged rambling even though ive only been here for a few months i feel really at home (despite my shyness) so thank you for being welcoming! you classica and i loid lets classicaloid

14- honestly this might be more costly than a season 3 depending on how they do it but id want a classicaloid game! theres SO many ways you could spin that like. i would 100% play a cl dating sim or a hack and slash game where you battle with musik or smth?? or a rhythm game since the show is about. composers. and if they made a gacha game they could introduce new composers?? like magia record/crk style and even if they dont the cast of cl is big enough and stupid enough that i feel like they dont need to add new guys if they dont want to or a strategy game?? i dont know what a cl strategy game would look like but its my fav genre so i would love it and ofc i want another rebroadcast!! i need to show this to my grandparents ik theyve been doing concerts recently where they play classicaloid versions of songs and the bgm and whatnot and i think thats so fun!! honestly any new cl news makes me happy!! it makes me feel like the team hasnt given up on the show yet (even though they kind of have lmao)

[mermaidslabyrinth]

Maelyra Targaryen

Born: 145 AC at the Red Keep in King's Landing

Parents: Aemond Targaryen and Helaena Targaryen

Other Name(s): Lyra

General Appearance: Back-length, white/blond hair. Lilac eyes. 5'6”. Female version of her father.

Personality: Clever. Cheeky. Talkative. Stubborn.

Special Talents: Painting.

Facts: She isn't afraid to say a comment here or there that may be a little crass. She knows she has plenty of brothers and cousins to come to her defense if needed. She has a little area dedicated just for her and her paintings at Strongsong. She likes to paint mostly flowers or her siblings and cousins.

Face Claim: Junia Rees (Firebrand)

Spouse: Westyn Wylde [Heir to House Wylde/Lord of Rain House] (Jasper Wylde's great grandson) {Ferdia Walsh-Peelo [Vikings]}

{Married in 162 AC; Maelyra was 17. Westyn was 21} (Lives at Rain House in the Stormlands)

Children:

B) Parry Wylde [Heir to House Wylde/Lord of Rain House] {163 AC}

G) Jassie Wylde {168 AC}

Little Notes:

Fun fact: Maelyra was supposed to be Jaehaera's name in Fire and Blood but it was changed. So I used it

I chose Junia bc that smile reminded me so much of Aemond's little :3 that I couldn't resist

Jasper has 29 kids but none are even mentioned by name

So it was easy to make a great grandson

Their marriage is a sweet one...most of the time

Maelyra is just too much like her father to be idle and let others dictate to her

While Westyn may seem easy going. He'll snip and bite back just as strong

There's passion but like a heated passion

And they only have two kids bc Westyn grew up with so many relatives he was like 'f*ck that'

Their daughter was a surprise since they had their son and were considered done

[samthetrekkie]

I have been watching oitnb for probably 10 years now which is the longest I have ever taken for a show (and I still have 1 season to go). and the weirdest thing is, it's not bc I dislike the show in any way, I actually really enjoy it, but it's somehow one of the most exhausting things to watch, mostly bc there is so much plot condensed into a time frame of like a few days to a few months at max. I personally am not a fan of this bc I like 1 season = 1 year, but me watching this show so slowly is mostly due to the fact that I have to be in a very specific mood to handle it. I don't quite know why, but it's similar for me with got (even though I'm clearly more often in the mood for that than oitnb).

anyway, very long prologue for wanting to say that season 6 was great, probably my favorite so far, next to season 2 I think. I only didn't enjoy the one with vee (was that season 3?) too much, but I generally liked all of them for different reasons. and season 7 is said to be one of the best overall tv show seasons, so I'm excited for that.

I particularly liked 6 bc the plot was very organized in the sense that we had a premise from about episode 2 onwards and there was a conclusion at the end (even though it was different than expected and I loved that it was for once an almost happy ending). I personally loved carol and barb, it was such wonderful dark humor, and the little 80s flashbacks were a treat. the other minor characters like the new (esp alvarez giving autistism rep) and the old guards (esp the mormon one) were great as well (not as in nice people neccessarily, but they made a great backdrop) and generally none of the new characters felt forced and I'm glad they will all return next season. and who thought caputo and fig would be the cutest couple of the season?? I also liked alex and piper, but I was so certain piper was gonna do something stupid again and mess up her early release. but yay she did it!

it's also worth mentioning that there were some really sad and dark things again that were really well done, like daya's abuse, the trial around taystee, and flores' deportation at the end. oitnb is just one of the few shows that ace dramedy so perfectly by balancing hilarious and devastating scenes.

[plutos134340]

hiii pluto :3 you wanna tell me about ur ocs sooo bad /nf (also is calling you pluto ok ?)

Ooooooh i feel like i wanna tell u about them soooo badly (and yes im ok with being called pluto, it technically isnt my name- that which is natalie, but i am chill with pluto as well)

Long text under the paragraph bc i dont feel like subjecting the random viewer to a long post:

Ok so some background for the way my aus work: i suck at making my own characters, but i can like give traits and personalities to existing characters that dont have much in canon, or just replacing a pre-existing characters personality, so thats what i do time and time again. Then i make random characters for funsies

First au concept and darias place in it: So basically i had made some cliche fnaf au where like none of the kids ever died- ig i wanted some happiness in life. And i then made Daria to go along with them and she was Henry's kid and an older sister to Charlie. They also had another younger brother but he is irrelevant. She is best friends with michael afton, and was also closest to fritz and jeremy (foxy and bonnie) She is like a random oc but does has a lot of my traits bc i found it easier to cope with myself through a character with fake friendships rather than actually think about myself and the people i know.

Traits (physical and personality-wise): She is white and has pale-ish skin, and shes got shoulder-length, curly, brown hair (like 2C); she is white, and she is pretty tall. She has hazel eyes (the green and brown being separate kind of hazel because i have that eye color and i like my eyes 💀). Shes queer, specifically being bisexual and ace-spec, and is a cis girl. She is pretty down-to-earth, and is mostly a realist. One thing that has stayed true throughout her many forms is that she often forms intimate relationships with people quickly but can end up starting fights with the same people quickly. Idk where that came from but thats her.

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And now the second au and all that jazz. I know you dont know much at all about cccc but basically there are these characters Heart, Mind and Soul, who are all technically personified parts of the singer's (chonny jash) brain. In this au they are all human and like half related to their original identities. They go by the names Juno, Keene and Atlas, respectively, with the collection of their names just coming from random sources in the songs (juno and atlas) and then i just picked a random name i saw for the last bc i didnt want to pick two similar names (it would have been Apollo if i did). Bc i love music oh so much, they are all basically in a band. I loooove cliche little tropes it just soothes my mind ig, idc how basic it is and its also just easier for me to imagine. Anywho, this brings Max and Lily into the picture, along with another girl i forgot originally bc i forgot that i created her (that being Terra). Terra is the creator of this band, and Max and Lily originally come from their school's regular band.

Max: He is mixed white/southeast asian, and has tan, freckled skin and short black hair. He is around 5'11. He has a pretty chill and kind personality, and can come off either quiet or loud/intense depending on where he is. He often pokes fun at people but never really crosses the line. In their little band he plays most woodwind instruments, mainly the saxophone. He is bisexual and a cis guy.

Lily (full name being Liliana): She is a Latina and is 5'2. She has long, wavy, black hair, tan skin, and dark brown eyes. She is very sweet and is very in-tune with her own and others' emotions, just overall very emotionally intelligent. She can be the life of the party and lively, but is often the first person to realize if someone else is having a bad time, but also wont jeopardize her own mental health in sake of someone else's just to please them. As said before she came from a general concert band before, and plays the trumpet and the flute mainly. She is straight and cis, but doesnt really put too much thought into her identity anyways.

Terra, who i somehow forgot when answering the ask: She is 5'11 as well, and is a Black woman. She has curly hair, which she keeps at around chin length, and it is black with dyed brown highlights. She was originally more reserved than the others, but has opened up to all of the group members and is pretty talkative. As mentioned before, she is the creator of this little band, and plays the drums. She is a trans girl.

Ok so yeah those are them. I kinda just picked a few categories (that being how they look and basic identity things, some personality stuff, and any sexual or gender orientations) to talk about for each and i hope i stuck to that setup well enough. The other three from the second one are like technically not ocs but i like hijacked their actual personalities and gave them new ones but i did not talk about them bc i do not need to ramble THAT much.

[chromotps]

YOU MENTIONED ACELU MODERN/GANG AU. but what about — I know it’s cursed but please listen — supernatural AU? I don’t mean like the entire thing (monster hunting maybe, but not the entire angel/demons plot) but just consider the vibes of the first two seasons?? The “road-trip” thing. Struggling to get by (I’m such a huge sucker for “Ace struggling to make ends meet but he always makes sure Luffy gets food and clothes even if it means he’s not eating as much himself”-dynamic in modern AUs. God). Sleeping in shitty motels + having to share the bed more often than not. Taking care of each other’s wounds in dimly-lit, dirty bathrooms. The general, ever-present worry of how things are going to be in the future or the terrifying scenario when one of them doesn’t make it (except Ace just worries about Luffy, bc of course he doesn’t consider a future where he lives and Luffy doesn’t. Neither of them can think about it too long either way bc it makes their brains shut down). They’re blood-brothers, they think of each other like that, they call each other that except. Taking physical comfort from each other is also a thing, because that’s what they’ve been doing all their lives, because there’s always been just them, and it’s all they ever had. They kiss and sleep together, bare skin pressed against bare skin because it’s always been like this, and it doesn’t feel the same with anyone else (mostly on Ace’s side, because he did try — with barmaids, waitresses, men in shady bars, because he felt responsible for Luffy’s upbringing and well-being and it felt like an older sibling thing to set and maintain appropriate boundaries. But nothing ever compared to Luffy, even in the slightest). Both of them having to play so many social roles they kind of start blending into one another (because again, there was never really anyone around long enough to fill them in for them) - bc yeah they’re siblings, but. They’re also friends except it goes way beyond that. Ace, as the older one, has been Luffy’s caretaker too, he had to think and plan ahead for them both. But there were times when Ace was hurt they the caretaking role became reversed and Luffy had to take on all the responsibilities, until Ace recovered. Obviously none of it is how a healthy sibling relationship should look like, but god, I’m just soooo weak for the developing co-dependency, especially in scenarios where clearly unhealthy/potentially harmful behavior becomes a source of physical/emotional comfort (and tbh I’m pretty sure it also translates well into in-canon Ace/Lu because they didn’t really have anyone else either, for a couple of years in their lives. And Luffy needs social interaction like he needs food and sleep).

Oh man, anon, I was shipping and reading smut for Wincest like WILD back in the day, so. This AU is perfect. I'm eating up all the details of it just being the two of them, and a car, and a map. On a good day they'll get to jam out to music for a few hours on the road before pulling into a diner, and Ace splurges on treating him and Luffy to a meal of steak, burgers, shakes and pie.

But on a bad day. They get out of a rough fight, Ace with a nasty gash down his chest but they can't get help between all their papers being forged and being wanted for a crime they were framed for anyway. So for once Luffy drives them back to the motel, and sets Ace up in the tiny bathroom tub to clean out the wound and patch it up. The whole time they're just quietly saying stuff to each other like "thank you. you didn't have to take that hit for me. it saved my life" and "you're the only reason i do any of this. nothing else matters." "you matter. it's always been just you and me, right? what would I do without you?" and then... idk MaybeTheyHave"Thank God You're Alive"Sex or something who can say?? you know???

but omg yeah I LIVE for some codependency in my ships. I do have this weird thing where whenever I write headcanons it's like I'm in denial. like, I can't totally commit to calling it unhealthy even though it totally is, bc.... they're happy together!! Maybe they learn to accept help when they need it from some kind of Uncle Bobby figure (Jinbei?? Rayleigh??). but when it comes down to it, they only really care about staying with each other and keeping their brother safe.

I'm not really sure what's up with me today but I'm sort of in a horny mood so. I'm still thinking about what you typed with "They kiss and sleep together, bare skin pressed against bare skin because it’s always been like this," and I know you probably meant literal sleeping together. But I love thinking about the slippery slope Ace and Luffy took in the AU from "pressing each other close for comfort when they're shaken" to "Luffy noticing how good it feels when Ace holds him and Ace unable to stop his eyes from lingering on Luffy's lips" to "one time in the dead of night in the hotel, their breaths are mingling and their mouths are almost touching until, it isn't 'almost' anymore. and then somehow ace is on top of luffy and the orange glow of the streetlight outside is falling on where their arms are wrapped around each other. and even though that night should have been shocking, what they can't admit out loud is that it felt completely natural. it's just another part of everything that they are to each other, and no one else needs to understand this, either."

ANYWAY UH I can. talk about other aspects of this AU since I'm sure there were other things you meant to focus on but uh. I was in a mood. oops!

[koipalm]

20 questions for fic writers

@anorlondo00 u tagging me in this is so funny bc i barely think of myself as a fic writer.. i could be 40 fics in and still be like idk man not really my thing

1) how many works do you have on ao3?

10!

2) what's your total ao3 word count?

60,348 omg...

3) what are your top five fics by kudos?

1. i've been far away 2. the stance of the sea in the absence of green 3. slaves to any semblance of touch 4. rage, rage against the dying of the light 5. night garden

4) what fandoms do you write for?

hades, orv, & one piece mostly... i should really write another immortal days fic

5) do you respond to comments? why or why not?

yesss i went to reread some of my older stuff a little while ago & got so confused why i didnt reply to anything...??? idk! but i love love talking to people and hearing what they think about my fics so yes absolutely it makes my day ^^ come talk to meeee

6) what's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

hmmm... none of my stuff has very hard endings bc i only really tend to write something that id read lol... if anything i think my zagnos one night garden depresses me the most. two guys stuck in a place that hates them and yeah they can kiss about it but nothing is really resolved? damn!! theyre such horribly tragic characters i cant think about the house of hades without getting upset HAHA

7) what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

objectively... maybe don't stare too long? id say running off into the night with your new bf is pretty happy hehe

8) do you get hate on fics?

yupp it doesn't bother me though i just laugh and delete it :] not that serious

9) do you write smut?

nowadays yes my bad guys.... its like all i do now 😔 to be fair though even if its really raunchy (or the age gap is huge lol) i put a ton of thought into how the couple functions and how to balance the relationship. like for the deuceace one... ace was willing and receptive to deuce because hes a pretty reckless thrillseeker BUT also because he trusts deuce not to take it too far or to apologize if he does. explicit stuff is fun to write but its also a fun exercise in doing this for me!

10) do you write crossovers?

i've been far away is the only one so far ^^ im willing to do more but it has to be really clear in my head. creating aus is usually more fun for me!

11) have you ever had a fic stolen?

not that i know of! honestly i might care if someone did that but no real guarantee.. id probably just laugh lol like what possesses someone to do that

12) have you ever had a fic translated?

i've had someone ask before! not sure where id find it tho

13) have you ever cowritten a fic before?

hmmm... best i can say is that i have written mini fics with @pepsiiwho in her dms that she has compiled before so sure! maybe one day we'll put those somewhere

14) what's your all time favorite ship?

oh man im really not sure... there's so many i adore. i will say that liushen from svsss holds a special place in my heart

15) what's the wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

one day i want to go back to rage, rage against the dying of the light... i started that years ago in high school and then so much happened it was really difficult to go back... but i dream of one day completing that fic

16) what are your writing strengths?

im a stickler for grammar if only bc if i write something thats off or misspelled itll break my concentration & its rly hard for me to write like that! aside from that im not really sure. i do love trying to balance exactly how i want readers to picture my scenes tho! i like seeing how little detail i can add that will still create a clear enough picture, like writing a character's left hand holding their glass, so if they use their other hand to pat someone next to them, the reader will probably imagine that person on their right! it matters so little yet means so much to me

17) what are your writing weaknesses?

for some reason every time i write dialogue i feel like im dragging it out for one william years. & then it wont even be that long. also i often catch myself repeating phrases bc they get stuck in my head. & of course everything i write always feels repetitive & redundant but that may also just be the nature of writing

18) thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

im very bad with learning languages so if i do end up doing i try to be deliberate & sparse so im very clear on what im writing & how im using it

19) first fandom you wrote for?

mmm either bnha or fma i think

20) favourite fic you've ever written?

ill admit i had the most fun writing don't stare too long it was just so amusing to me... something so funny about a guy who thinks hes straight being 100% willing to fuck his gay friend & his gay friend whos completely bewildered by this. i rly want to write this dynamic for deuceace again i keep laughing at it

@pepsiiwho @sctir and @trans-yllz i would like to hear it from yewww