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God my language classes annoy me so much. Both are such busy work yknow? I finished all my German assignments when they were due so that's fine, but it got so low effort by the end cause ik he doesn't really read them. But with Russian, I have a lot of unfinished work and I'm kinda tentatively doing it even tho the semester is over đđ she's so lax and disorganized, so I have no idea what her grading will be like. It's like, will she just give me an obligatory 100(as was practice the prev classes) or like should I do these as assurance yknow đ
#most confusing class ever#at least the german one has strict guidelines and due dates#so im like okay i def have to do this even if im bullshitting it#but russian i have no clue????#sometimes she'd ask us to do somw assignment to bring into class#and then never talk about it again ;;;#i did do the final project which she was very clear abt#so thats fine thats clear#but all these random other recording and quiz assignments#i guess ill do them???? jjst in case???#shes not graded anything and all of the due dates are just. wrong.(ex. some of them literally say 2021)#theres just this guilt and fear eating away at me that she'll randomly decide to be accurate and itll fuck my grade#theres just absolutely no way to predict what shes gonna do and when shes gonna do it#its scary đ#well anwyays#i got my grades back for my actually enjoyable classes#and the little note from my one professer was so sweet đ#she siad basically: keep in contact! ik youll do great things#and i think i got like an 100 in the clas???? im confused abt it but ill take it đ#<- not that i did badly but the way she explained the grading was a bit confusing to me ig#catie.rambling.txt
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my aesthetics :
the second quarter quell generation, pt one (aka the generation with all the principal charactersâ parents, and then also haymitch)
#thg#hunger games#haymitch abernathy#Katniss everdeen#Peeta mellark#maysilee donner#thgedit#okay so in order this goes#Haymitch Haymitchâs girl katnissâs parents Peetaâs parents and then the donner twins#i will make a part 2 with the characters if I can think of more than gales parents#if I canât hazelle and her husband will be retroactively added into this one#myaesthetics#myedit#ya lit aesthetic#ya lit edit#and yeah this may be shameless promo one day for my lil 2nd quarter quell ficcy#which is why the little title for Mr E is confusing !!! because a lot of this is about my made up lore!!! his mom is Maude ivory but she#disappeared when he was a child#which is why Katniss knows nothing about her own gramma!!!#ok anyways if I ever write it all the little titles will make sense but for now theyâre confusing because I made this specially for me for#my made up headcanons that make no sense to anyone else lololololol#oh oh oh also I put black eyes in both Katnissâ mom and Peetaâs momâs edits for a reason!!!#ok so like I always interpreted it that abuse in the merchant class was more common#like what Peeta obviously went through at home was actually normalized in his circle#and itâs also implied Katnissâ mom was shunned by her parents for marrying Katnissâ dad so I figure they couldnât have been good parents#and then Peetaâs mom Ruby also has blood on her own hands because we know she one day is abusive to her own kids so itâs like#she experienced abuse and then continues the terrible circle#but obviously Katnissâ mom lavender does not! she has other issues though but the young version is so fun to play with#also young Haymitch and his girl here would be the most judgey pretty couple#I have lots of headcanons for them some of which Iâve entwined already into at least one of my fics
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apparently it's way easier to plan scenes and plotpoints for a fanfic if i draw them first, so here we are <3 featuring me rambling abt this scene under the cut!!
i was specifically thinking about Haym and Rikki's entire relationship?
especially very early on, right when Rikki is properly assigned as Neon J's apprentice and whatnot. this was meant to be the moment Rikki realizes they're not coping very well with leaving Ban behind in Beachside Archipelago, and how they're actually gravitating towards Haym because of how similar he feels to Ban - yknow. being the same model and all
cause Rikki has some serious issues with needing absolute control over every aspect of their life. and right now, they're stuck with a job they don't exactly care for, trying desperately to suck up to Neon J so he'll actually promote Rikki to a DECENT job designing security bots for Vinyl City, not BABYSITTING 1010
(which isn't even babysitting, moreso than being monitored 24/7 in a localized space where they can't be shady since Neon J doesnt. trust them. at all. for various valid reasons)
so witnessing Haym pull some stupid but well-meaning stunt to force Rikki show off how good they are at fixing and repairing shit makes Rikki go????
A LITTLE FERAL????
BECAUSE THEY UNCONSCIOUSLY PROJECT ALL THEIR UNRESOLVED FEELINGS ABOUT BAN ONTO HAYM
but they only realize this when their body shuts down and cannot act the way they would've wanted, seeing Haym entirely fucking wrecked being very similar to how they found Ban when they first met makes them spiral a little
Haym doesn't even KNOW he's not the original Yellow model, he has his suspicions but is overall kept in the dark. befriending Rikki is something he does entirely out of genuine curiosity, motherfucker has no clue he's in the middle of a 4 year long unresolved break-up between two losers who are constantly pining after each other both romantically and platonically
im thinkingggg Haym might be seeking out Rikki's presence mostly because he's noticed that they treat him slightly different than the others. not necessarily better, just different enough to get him curious. so the need to build an identity away from 1010 as a group/unit and his inherent curiosity just gets him into this mess
#no straight roads#no straight roads oc#nsr oc#nsr yellow#nsr haym#rikki nsr#ban nsr#purinsu art#this was meant to be my selfindulgent fanfic where the polycule is happy and shit#but its the most annoying slowburn ever bc 80% of the time is dedicated to just.#everyone sorting out their emotional baggage and learning to tell the difference between who they are#vs who they want to be vs what the world expects of them#haym and rikki probably have? the most confusing dynamic out of all#which is so fucking funny to me because aside from these really loaded moments?? theyre chilling most of the time#the total opposite to rin and rikki's dynamic. where they wont stop arguing and never see eye to eye#but are one of the healthiest dynamics in this mess. cause they get each other on a level that they CANT understand#anyway its pretty hard to portray a genius engineer when youve never. touched a wrench in your life#ALL I DID WAS WOODWORK IN SHOP CLASS LEAVE ME OLONE#anyway rikki's workplace is not osha compliant bc they dont care abt electrical hazards#bc they Cant Be Affected By Them
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You know, sometimes Iâll think âoh I really liked reading as a child but there werenât any books that really molded my personality.â
And then Iâll look at a self insert character Iâve made and realize itâs literally a fucking reskin of Sydney Carton from A Tale of Two Cities.
#because Iâm just#the model of good mental health.#complicated relationship with love? check#complicated relationship with alcohol? check again#I literally said in front of my whole ninth grade English class that I felt this man on a personal level#and was CONFUSED WHY MY TEACHER WAS WORRIED BY THAT#me in 9th grade: yeah this man with the lowest self worth Iâve ever seen and is willing to throw his life away for the ones he loves?#me: yeah I aspire to be him because heâs just like me fr#my English teacher: *that Walter White gif of him falling over crying*#*shaking my fist* curse you Dickens you ruined me literature wise#I will never be free of this fucking English cuntâs ghost#donât even get me STARTED on the run on sentences that bastard has kindled in my writing#if I could go back in time only once Iâd use it to personally curb stomp Charles Dickens#anyways. this is the most Iâve ever talked about a self insert to someone whoâs not my bff or partner#will I ever mention them again or even in more detail? weâll see#captain's log
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Days since last cried in class: 0
#my bilingualism class is fine and good and great and easy whatever until we get to exams in which case it is hell on earth and the most#stressful thing ever and i break down#its not even that i do bad i got a 100 on the last exam and have a 100 in the class but it is just the most stressful experience ever#this time was less bad then before bc i didnt have a girl coughing in my ear and everyone talking DURING THE EXAM but it was still hell#she brought in earplugs and i took a pair of those but jesus christ#i just hate the way she writes them its confusing and shell ask for small details from fucking forever ago#like literally âwhat does this word meanâ in a language i dont fucking speak. ok it was a spanish creole language and that was one of the#examples when we learned abt it but i got my dates mixed up and didnt study that unit and FUCK!!!!!#just supreme talent to make me feel stressed and terrible. and i think she thinks im a stressed test taker now which is not true lol im#great at tests. i only start crying when i dont know the answer lol or feel stupid#which is crazy bc i do good on her tests. just think she has the unconscious talent of writing a test that makes you feel like youre#not doing it right and are going to do horribly as you do incredibly well#or maybe im just crazy#or maybe she needs to stop fucking scheduling her exams the same day as my fucking portuguese exams theres literally 2 of them how did she#go 2 for 2 because it turns my entire morning into a study craze with pockets of exam taking and crying#and once i start im raw all day so i end up crying like 3 times before noon#anyways need to get off tumblr im burning time to cram for my port exam in 2hrs hate you all goodnight
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You out here hookin for cheeseburgers again Randy?
mans gotta eat.
You know how Ricky love weed so much ? That's me with food ( and weed )
I'd say I'm more like that with food than randy. While I respect Randy's love for fast food, I am more of an entrepreneur of sorts with it. ( For lack of a better word. ) It is an art craft for me as well as a general source of enjoyment and relaxation. I love breaking down the flavors and taking a moment to appreciate and acknowledge them before moving on with the experience. ( Especially if the chef is present ! )
Which is how I feel Ricky is with weed given he is a plug and a grower. Because I'm not just a feedee, I'm a cook as well đšâđł .
#MY FIRST TRAILER PARK BOYS REFERENCE IN MY ASK BOX I MUST CELEBRATE#my non tpb watching followers are likely confused yet intrigued by my choice of TPB gif#if you are transmasc this show is for you BTW especially if you come from the lower class#u don't even have to be grom a trailer park to understand it bc im not from one and I understand them and their ways but im Floridian so#maybe it cancles out that im not from a trailer park specifically because I feel like all of Florida is just one big trailer park maybe#that's why I love the show so much#also every trans man ever is either Ricky bubbles or Julian i dont make the rules#maybe randy#my old roomate is a transman and he acts very silumar to julian#it's great because I act like Ricky in terms of personality so we have a pretty good dynamic#I don't often make shows about personalities but you can't deny that there's a bleed over from TPB and lower class queer culture#you cannot tell me that lower class American queers especially from the South and Midwest don't relate to that show#its ok if you don't but i feel this show is massively slept on by the queer community#TEHRES A TRANS WOMAN IN THE SHOW TO#and from what i remember they dont misgender her?#remember this is a Canadian show not an American one.#I noticed most of the shows that I have to worry about bigotry popping up and giving me whiplash are American baised#ALSO U SHOULD DM ME ABT TPB I LOVE THAT SHOW !!!!!!!#also sorry for the yapping i just havent seen TPB in so long bc it's not on hulu ):#sad face
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can i say the craziest thing for comic students at my school at least is some of them literally dont understand how to read comics for the language we are writing in and they will forget basic bubble flow. ppl will go i didnt know you were supposed to read left to right up down it's insane. u can present them the easiest most clear cut panel flow ever also and they go i dont know how to read this. i think this might confuse a reader. i will kill us both
#and before u ask these are very much english as first language and usually only language ppl. like it's literally u think they dont know how#to read. they are trying to be the reader u get warned about when considering everything where u go theres no way someone wont understand#what's going on. and then they will. they will misunderstand. u can show it to someone not in comics and they would get it but then ur#classmate in ur mid level comic classes will go Huh? it is astounding. impressive even.#and then they will go make some crazy more difficult to read layout. it's amazing.#but also most of the ppl arent going to the big 2 making the most confusing hard to read layout ever school of comic reading so then again#sometimes i cant hold it against them. they arent witnessing some of the insane difficult terrible layouts of anywhere from the 70s to 90s.#but they will make layouts in the same realm of difficultly. and then look at a grid layout and go i dont knowwww QUIT IT.#static.soundz#also not to say im not guilty of weird bubble and panel flow. very much someone who does this at times. but i understand the basic way to#read... a comic... in its typical format... when a layout is not insane i remember z flow. some of u should remember z flow.
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#2nd year in my program has a reputation for being the absolute worst part of it#itâs orals year (the exam is at the end)#but we still also have a full course load and a research project and workshop commitments and (for those that need it) language classes#plus. I have publication commitments. two dictionary articles (blessedly done). and a chapter#and I will lose my ever loving mind if I donât get to go the gym every day#so itâs a lot. (a lot on a good day. hell on most really)#the unsurprisingly result of this is that I have been exhausted and stressed to the max#when I got back from one of my orals prep classes today#I was working on the research paper for my Maimonides class and got a call out of the blue that I had a DHL delivery#which was very confusing#b/c the only things Iâve ordered recently were coming via UPS#lo and behold#one of my best friends from LSE who still lives in London#sent me surprise birthday gifts from harrods#a moleskin and a box of their Knightsbridge blend tea!#I adore the gifts of course#but it mostly just made me feel very grateful to he remembered and loved in that way#(my birthday is actually the Saturday after this coming one. the vagaries of international shipping are not her fault though)#me stuff#not the stones#(((also please excuse the tea cupboard. my collection does in fact take up an entire large kitchen cabinet and go three rows back on the#bottom shelf. I may have a problem)))
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Really really struggling with college lately and having the good ol, maybe this isn't for me, thoughts again.
#its worse when I have any math related classes#but the tail end of last term and so far all of this term have been incredibly hard and burning me out so much#i feel so lost and stupid#but if i don't get this degree or any degree then I feel like I'll just be stuck in the same rut I've been in for years#don't mind this. i've just had another absolute breakdown over coursework and need to vent into the void#it sucks because i have moments where I'm super confident and feel so great about everything#and then the next I feel like I don't understand anything that's being asked of me. even if its probably the most basic instructions ever#and then i'm too afraid to speak up about being lost or confused because I worry they'll just think I'm stupid#idk anymore. i just feel like utter shit
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having a midlife crisis atm i think i might start reading [redacted] this is rly scary for me keep me in your thoughts
#i dont know yet. i might not#its been tempting me lately ............ which is weird bc ive never much been interested in the genre like at all its just been sticking i#my head like fungus lately. We will see i suppose#im blaming like 8 of my oomfies for this#rly not that big a deal if i do ig its not like a bad thing im just confused as to why ive recently become interested in it. it was like i#saw one post and its not like the first post ive even seen abt it i see them always but i saw one and then i went in the tags for ages and#i just have been thinking abt it non-stop....#i havent like spoiled myself for anything idt ive been like passively spoiled for years bc its hard to avoid. i cant elaborate anymore.....#IDK im just confused bc like i said ive never much cared for [genre] aside from like ... [well known example of movie in genre]...... and i#have like known abt it my whole life obviously im just very confused. this post isnt vague enough its probably quite obvious#yep thats right im reading. um. fahrenheit 451. joke#that was assigned reading once i think its the first assigned reading ever where i didnt read it but that was bc it was like. it was so#weird how that teacher did the assignments bc they didnt Hand out the books they just like . expected ppl to read them on their free time ?#like none of us received the books sometimes on google classrooms theyd post A chapter of the graphic novel version#and the assignments were all rly unclear and like. Idk maybe i was stupid but i remember talking abt it with my friends back then and nobod#knew what was going on At all#and it wasnt like. they didnt post every chapter on google classroom itd be like. an excerpt from chapter 13 and then chapter 5 and then on#page from 24 and then wed go in and the questions were abt chapter 8 like. it was rly confusing#all those chapters or we r made up idr. ots all quite fuzzy#but yeah. so despite being assigned it kn class and i think passing i genuinely know absolutely nothing abt f451 aside from i used to get i#mixed up w 1984 alllll the time and i still do a bit. but 1984 is the one with bigbrother and f451 is um. bookburning ... i assume#sry i sound rly stupid . im not trying to diminish them or anything i just dk#also when i say midlife crisis yes i know typically 19 is not considered the middle of your life and it prolly isnt for me lol. but im#saying midlife 1 as a joke 2 it could be like Amid life which could be like any point during my life it could be if i turned 70 and had a#crisis itd still be mid life#and rly if you consider it as like. life is everything between birth and death then its all in the middle of tour life bc the middle is jus#thing in between those 2 things ok#sry ive always found it mildly annoying and also quarter life crisis sounds stupid and my ass is not living to#76 are you kiddingggg. 50s at the latest most likely#<- not planning anything or like not wanting to grow old i just have exclusive info others dont have (cant talk abt it LOL) abt that stuff
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studying for this midterm has been soooo interesting (sarcastic) because on one hand shakespeare's plays have basically infinite resources to Teach Yourself so it's not hard to learn things. on the other hand i should have been learning this in class. so.
#my prof simply will not teach in a comprehensible way#he basically shows up to class assuming that we (40 undergrads who have just read this play for likely the very first time)#have the exact depth of knowledge and understanding of the history plays that he (an old man with a phd who's been teaching this class#probably for decades) does#and then puts up the most confusing slideshow you've ever seen and just tells us about things he (old man with phd) thinks are cool#instead of actually. teaching us (40 undergrads who cannot remember the entire plantagenet family tree). about the play.#we also have spent about 0.75 classes on henry iv 1 because dr [redacted] cannot stick to the schedule he made#and yet#its on the midterm#at the very least i am good at in-class essays so i should be able to pull this out of my ass#would've loved to learn things tho from the class i'm paying to be in tho#uni tag#abby.txt
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Saw a post that had nothing to do with this and yet somehow reminded me of this:
I had a substitute professor one day for my 2D design class in college. My professor had to go give a talk somewhere and decided to have her friend teach us instead.
This lady introduced herself by telling us about her artâŠ
She would go up to people in grocery stores and ask them if she could fight them. And record it.
She said it was mostly like an aggressive hug that knocked them to the floor. But she also didnât show us any video, only told us she did it.
We like collectively agreed that if we saw her at a grocery store, we were going the other direction.
I have no other memory of what she even talked about.
#my prof was the dept chair so most of the adjuncts were also her friends#or her husband#or his brother#her husband taught the most confusing class Iâve ever taken. I still donât know what it was about but I got an A
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Jealousy, Jealousy with Sylus
Plot: Reader becomes jealous of Sylus and MC's closeness, distancing herself and seeking comfort in another LI. Sylus notices her growing distance and takes action. Based on this request. Pairing: Sylus x Non MC reader Content Warning: Insecurities, injuries, mention of blood, jealousy, angst, hurt/comfort Note: Reader is not the MC of the game. I think I got quite carried away writing this because I am a sucker for angst. [ A disclaimer note - Please be respectful of the request ]
The faint hum of the air condition echoed through the Onychinus base, its opulent, luxurious atmosphere doing little to distract from the knot twisting in your stomach. You stood across from Luke and Kieran, their crow masks tilted slightly as if to gauge your reaction.
"Boss isn't here today," Luke said casually, his hands tucked into his pockets. "Heâs in Linkon, Boss manâs got other things to handle."
Kieran, his mask tilted slightly to the side, gave a confused grunt. "But I thought he was meeting with her...?"
Luke raised a brow, correcting him. "No, no, he was meeting with Miss Hunter."
Miss Hunter.
The words hit you like a sledgehammer, even though they shouldnât have. You were a hunter too, an informant who had been feeding Sylus critical intel on the associationâs movements for two years now. But she was different. Special.
Captain Jennaâs star pupil, with her rare Anhaunsen-class Resonance Evol, was someone Sylus had spent weeks trying to connect with, both literally and emotionally. You werenât blind to the necessity of it; resonating with her was crucial for his goals, ones he hadnât entirely shared with you but that you trusted him to pursue.
Trusted him. Loved him.
You forced a tight smile. "Thanks for the update. I'll let you two get back to it."
Luke and Kieran exchanged a glance, but you were already walking away, the echo of your boots swallowed by the hum of the base.
The ride back to Linkon was supposed to clear your mind. It didnât.
The cool wind whipped against your face, but all it did was sting the tears pooling in your eyes. The road stretched endlessly ahead, yet the pressure in your chest only grew. Sylus hadnât seen you in two months. Two months of unanswered calls and messages reduced to half-hearted responses when they came at all.
You understood why he was focused on her. She was crucial to his plans. She was everything you werenât: poised, pretty, powerful, and, most importantly, someone he needed.
But understanding didnât make it hurt any less.
The world blurred around you as your thoughts spiraled. You had always known your place in Sylusâ life. You were the informant, the quiet insider who helped him stay two steps ahead of the hunters. Somewhere along the way, though, you had fallen for him. For the man who wasnât as cold and calculated as others believed. It had been two long years since you started working with Sylus. Two years filled with secrecy, lies, and hidden truths. But over those years, you'd found yourself tangled in emotions for him that you couldnât shake. Sylus, with his cold authority, his dangerous smile, his complex nature⊠He was all you could think about. He wasnât as dismissive as people thought. He had a way of looking at you when no one was watchingâa fleeting softness that you cherished, even if you couldnât be certain if it was real.
And now, it felt like you were losing him.
Your bike screeched to a halt near Meowâs CafĂ©. You hadnât planned to stop, but the sight of the familiar storefront tugged at you. Perhaps a coffee and a moment to breathe would help.
The glass windows glinted under the midday sun, and your breath hitched as you looked inside.
Sylus was there. With her.
They sat at a small table, a deck of Kitty cards spread between them. He was leaning back, his smirk in full display as she laughed at something he said. It was the kind of laugh that reached her eyes, the kind of moment you had only ever dreamed of sharing with him.
You froze, your hands tightening on your helmet.
For a fleeting second, you wanted to march inside and demand answers. To ask him why he had time to play cards but couldnât return your calls. To tell him how his absence had hollowed you out.
But you didnât.
He looks so happy... you thought bitterly, swallowing the lump in your throat.
The truth gnawed at you. Every interaction, every ignored message, every unread notification on your phoneâit was because of her. Because Sylus had more important things to do. She was the one who mattered now. She was the one who he had to resonate with, had to bond with, had to make fall for him.
And you? You were just a pawn, a toolâforgotten. And there you were. Alone. Watching through a window, the warmth of the cafe contrasting the cold, empty feeling in your stomach. He hadnât even bothered to let you know he was back. He was with her. You couldnât bear to watch any longer, but you couldnât look away either. It felt like the world was spinning faster than you could catch up, and you were left stranded, dizzy, and abandoned.
Instead, you turned away, your chest tight and vision blurred. The world felt suffocating, the weight of your unspoken feelings dragging you down as you climbed back onto your bike.
It was for the best, right?
You couldnât keep doing this. You couldnât keep waiting for him, couldnât keep fooling yourself that there was something real between you two. He was busy. He had her. And you.. well, you didnât even know why you bothered anymore.
The ride back to your apartment was a blur of taillights and muffled engine noise. The cityâs glow that usually brought you some sense of comfort felt glaring and alien tonight. By the time you made it inside, the suffocating silence of your small space was overwhelming.
For someone who prided herself on being strong and independent, you barely made it to your couch before the sobs overtook you. Hot, angry tears streamed down your face as you clutched a pillow to your chest, trying in vain to keep your cries muffled. It felt as though something within you had been ripped apart, leaving an aching, hollow void that throbbed with every thought of him.
You replayed the image of him at the café in your mind, over and over, as if some part of you wanted to punish yourself further. His smirk. Her laughter. The ease of their interaction. It contrasted so sharply with the heaviness that now weighed on your heart.
Every chime of your phone made you flinch, hope briefly sparking to life, only to be cruelly snuffed out when the screen lit up with messages from othersâwork updates, pointless notifications, or friends checking in. Nothing from him. Of course, there wouldnât be.
You wiped at your face, your chest tightening as you scrolled through the last few conversations youâd had with Sylus. They were short, clipped responses. A "thanks" here, an "Iâm busy" there. Youâd convinced yourself for weeks that he wasnât brushing you off, that his focus was just elsewhere. But deep down, you knew. Youâd always known.
You werenât as important to him as he was to you.
That realization settled over you like a heavy blanket, suffocating and final. And yet, you tried to convince yourself it was okay. He doesnât owe me anything, you told yourself, though the thought only twisted the knife deeper. Heâs free to choose who he spends his time with.
But it didnât stop the tears.
The days that followed were a haze of exhaustion and numbness. You threw yourself into your work, spending long hours tracking and confronting wanderers. The physical exhaustion helped, even if just a little. At least when you were in the middle of a fight, the pain in your chest was drowned out by the adrenaline coursing through your veins.
Still, the nights were the worst. Alone in your apartment, the quiet crept in like a suffocating fog. You tried to distract yourselfâreading, cleaning, even organizing old mission reports. Anything to keep your mind from drifting back to him. But it was impossible.
Each time you saw his name in your contacts, you hesitated. Your thumb hovered over the call button more times than you cared to admit, but the fear of hearing his indifferent voice stopped you every time. What would you even say? That you missed him? That you wanted to see him? That youâd fallen for him, even though you knew it would never be mutual?
No. You couldnât do that to yourself.
You worked harder, pushed yourself further. Every wanderer you fought became a stand-in for your frustrations, your insecurities. You told yourself that if you could just stay busy enough, the ache would go away. But no matter how many missions you completed or how many late nights you spent staring at your phone, the weight in your chest never fully lifted.
By the end of the week, you were exhaustedâphysically and emotionally. But you were surviving. Barely. The bell above the door jingled softly as you pushed into the chocolatierâs shop, the rich scent of cocoa and vanilla wrapping around you like a warm embrace. The day had been gruelingâhours of chasing leads, a narrow escape from a particularly aggressive wanderer, and not a single bite of food since morning. Your stomach growled in protest, a sharp reminder that youâd been running on fumes for too long.
Rows of meticulously crafted chocolates gleamed beneath the glass counter, their perfect swirls and shimmering finishes almost too beautiful to eat. Almost. You leaned forward slightly, scanning the display, your reflection ghosting over the pristine surface.
Dark chocolate truffles. Raspberry ganache. Caramel hazelnut clusters. The options were overwhelming, and your indecision felt heavier than it shouldâve. Your chest still ached from the lingering emotions youâd been suppressing all week. The quiet joy of the shop felt alien, like stepping into a world you no longer belonged to.
Just pick something and go, you thought, your fingers tightening on the strap of your bag. But the choices seemed endless, each one whispering promises of sweetness you werenât sure you deserved.
"If youâre struggling," a soft, measured voice spoke behind you, "the pistachio crĂšme chocolate is an excellent choice."
Startled, you turned, your gaze falling on a man standing a few steps away. Tall and lean, he exuded an understated confidence that was both intimidating and captivating. Dark hair fell in against his forehead, and sharp hazel-green eyes, softened by gold flecks peered at you from behind thin-framed glasses. His white doctorâs coat was open, revealing a simple black shirt beneath, and he held a small paper bag in one hand.
You blinked, caught off guard by both his suggestion and his presence. "Oh, uh⊠thank you," you stammered, trying not to sound as flustered as you felt. "Iâll⊠Iâll try that."
The shopkeeper nodded and carefully packed your selection as you stole another glance at the stranger. There was an air of calm authority about him, a quiet assurance that made you feel oddly exposed, like he could see straight through you.
He waited patiently as the shopkeeper handed you your bag, but just as you were about to leave, his voice cut through the quiet againâthis time, more direct. "Chocolates shouldnât be your first meal of the day."
The statement was delivered without malice, his tone stoic and matter-of-fact, yet it hit like a stone to the chest. Your lips parted in shock, the question forming before you could stop it: How does he know? But before you could say anything, he was already moving toward the door. The bells jingled softly as it closed behind him, leaving you standing frozen in place. The strangerâs words lingered, intertwining with the rest of your messy emotions. Your fingers clenched the small bag of chocolates as you tried to process the brief encounter.
A soft gleam on the floor caught your attention, breaking your spiraling thoughts. A wallet, its sleek leather worn but well-kept, lay just inches from where the man had stood. You knelt and picked it up, your heart thudding as you opened it to check for identification.
The name embossed on his hospital ID was like a jolt: Dr. Zayne. Your eyes widened. Doctor Zayne? The name was familiarâa renowned surgeon whose skills and precision were legendary, often described as a miracle worker. Youâd imagined someone older, more weathered, not⊠this.
For a moment, you stared at the ID, piecing together the puzzle of the composed, enigmatic man who had called you out so effortlessly. You tried the number listed on a card tucked into his wallet, but it rang unanswered, the sterile monotone only adding to your frustration.
"Of course, he wouldnât answer," you muttered under your breath, chewing your lip as you debated your next move. The idea of keeping his wallet overnight felt wrong, and leaving it here in the shop seemed equally careless.
That left one option.
The hospital loomed ahead as you approached, its towering structure illuminated against the evening sky. Anxiety gnawed at your insides, twisting with every step you took through the sterile white halls. You werenât sure why you felt so on edgeâmaybe it was the overwhelming sense of inadequacy that had been haunting you lately, or maybe it was the lingering impression of Zayneâs knowing gaze.
At the reception desk, you hesitated, gripping the wallet tightly as you cleared your throat. "Hi, um, Iâm here to return something for Dr. Zayne. He⊠accidentally dropped this."
The receptionist barely looked up, taking the wallet with a polite but indifferent smile. "Dr. Zayne isnât in right now. Iâll make sure he gets this when heâs back."
"Oh," You nodded, murmuring a quick thanks before retreating back toward the exit. You thought nothing of this interaction as you left. You did what you thought was right and left the hospital back towards your apartment.
The days blurred together in a haze of work and routine. You buried yourself in assignments from the Hunterâs Association, throwing yourself into dangerous missions with a single-minded intensity. Anything to keep your mind occupied.
Sylus messaged you once during that time, his tone professional as he asked for updates regarding a lead he was tracking. Youâd responded quickly, sticking strictly to business. No pleasantries, no banterâjust the information he needed. He didnât press, didnât call you out for your uncharacteristic coldness. Maybe he didnât notice. Or maybe he did and chose not to say anything.
That night, you jogged through the dimly lit streets, your breath fogging in the cool air as you tried to exorcise the restless energy gnawing at you. The rhythmic slap of your sneakers against the pavement was grounding, steady. Jogging had always been your go-to, a way to clear your head and silence the endless stream of "what-ifs" and "if-onlys" that plagued your mind.
But no amount of movement could completely shake Sylus from your thoughts.
His voice, his presenceâit clung to you, even now.
Why didnât he ask how Iâve been? Why didnât I?
You shook your head, annoyed at yourself. There was no point in dwelling. Sylus wasnât the kind of person to give you what you wanted, and even if he did, could you trust it? Could you trust him?
The sound of skidding tires yanked you out of your spiraling thoughts.
âLook out!â
Before you could process the warning, a cyclist veered wildly toward you, their momentum too strong to stop. There wasnât even time to brace yourself. The impact hit like a freight train, and suddenly, you were on the ground, tangled with the bike and its rider. Pain blossomed sharp and hot in your knees as the asphalt scraped them raw.
For a moment, you just lay there, stunned. The world tilted unsteadily, the city lights smearing together like a watercolor painting.
âHey, you okay?â The cyclistâs voice snapped you back. They were scrambling off you, helmet slightly askew but otherwise unscathed. You shook your head to clear it, wincing as you sat up. You pushed yourself up, shaking the dizziness from your head, and checked on the cyclist who had crashed into you. They were already scrambling to their feet, looking slightly dazed but otherwise unharmed, their helmet and guards having done their job.
âIâm fine,â you managed, even as your knees throbbed in protest. âAre you?â
âYeah, thanks to the gear,â they said, pulling off their helmet to inspect a small crack along its surface. âGuess it did its job.â
Relief washed over you. âGood. Let me justââ
âWait.â A different voice cut in, firm but calm. You stood there, still trying to regain your bearings when a figure appeared beside you, moving with a grace that immediately caught your attention. Your heart skipped a beat when you saw who it was. Dr. Zayne. The same man who had crossed your path in the chocolatier's shop just days ago. His sharp eyes locked onto yours, and for a split second, everything else seemed to vanish. His expression shifted from mild surprise to something more concerned as he took in your state.
Without saying a word, he immediately began assessing you, his gaze narrowing at the blood now staining your knees. You winced, feeling the sting of the cuts that had begun to bloom with a fiery intensity, but you were determined not to show it. You were used to painâused to the sharp discomfort that came with being a hunter. You didnât need help. You could handle this on your own. Youâd always been able to.
But Dr. Zayne wasnât having any of it.
His voice, low and steady, broke through the haze of your thoughts. "Youâre bleeding. Those need first aid," he said firmly, his frown deepening as he glanced at your scraped knees. "Sit. Wait here. Iâll be back in a minute."
You opened your mouth to protest, to tell him you were fine, but the words caught in your throat. He wasnât asking. His tone, though gentle, was authoritativeâdemanding in its own quiet way. There was something about the way he carried himself, that calm, unflinching presence, that made it impossible to argue.
"Iâm fine, I am a hunter." you managed to say, your voice rougher than you intended. "I can handle it at home. Really." You tried to force a reassuring smile
âIs this a hunter thing?â he interrupted, one brow arching skeptically. âAre all of you this stubborn about basic care, or is it just you?â
The words should have been biting, but his tone was almost... patient. Like he was accustomed to dealing with difficult people.
You flushed, suddenly hyper-aware of the sting in your knees and the heat of his gaze. âIâm not being stubborn,â you muttered. âI just donât want to bother anyone over something so small.â
âSmall injuries have a way of turning into bigger problems,â he said, folding his arms. âAnd Iâm not bothered. As a doctor, Iâm asking you to wait here. Iâll be back in a minute.â
Without waiting for your protest, he turned and strode off, leaving you no room to argue.
You sat stiffly on the bench, gripping the edge as the minutes dragged on. The ache in your knees was nothing compared to the gnawing discomfort blooming in your chest. Anxiety clawed at you, whispering insidious doubts.
Heâs wasting his time on you.He probably thinks youâre pathetic and weak.Why couldnât you have just gotten up and left?
Your fingers curled into fists, the tension radiating through your body.
The sound of footsteps interrupted your spiraling thoughts, and Dr. Zayne was back, carrying a small first aid kit. He knelt in front of you without a word, his hands steady as he cleaned the cuts on your knees. The gentle pressure of his fingers as he worked felt almost surreal. His silence wasnât uncomfortableâit was just⊠calm. You found yourself drawn to it, to the quiet that seemed to settle around him.
"Youâre lucky," he said, glancing up at you as he bandaged your knees. "That couldâve been a lot worse."
You nodded, the words caught in your throat. There were so many things you wanted to say, things you wanted to ask him, but you didnât know where to start. So you remained silent, watching as he finished his work, his hands moving with the practiced precision of someone who had seen too many injuries to count.
When he was done, he straightened up and met your gaze. "You should be more careful," he said softly, his voice a little lighter than before, though there was still a note of concern underlying his words. "Next time, donât run so late at night. You never know what could happen."
You forced a tight smile, the words feeling like they were coming from someone else. "Iâll keep that in mind," you said, your voice quieter now.
Dr. Zayne took a step back after finishing the bandages, his sharp gaze softening ever so slightly as he packed the first aid kit. You glanced at him, your mouth opening to thank him, but before you could get the words out, he said, almost in unison, âThank you.â
Both of you froze, the simultaneous expressions of gratitude hanging awkwardly in the air. A surprised laugh slipped out of you, breaking the tension.
âYou first,â he said, a faint smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.
You swallowed, trying to ignore the heat creeping up your neck. âI was just going to say thank you for⊠you know, helping with this.â You gestured vaguely toward your knees, the bandages clinging to your skin. âYou didnât have to.â
The moment stretched between you, awkward yet somehow comforting. Zayne gave a small, almost amused smile at the simultaneous gratitude, but his gaze softened when it landed on you, his concern still present.
"Thank you for returning my wallet," he said, his tone steady but with a hint of appreciation.
His words caught you off guard. âOh, right! That. It wasnât a big deal, really.â You fidgeted with the hem of your sleeve, avoiding his gaze. âI found it at the chocolatier shop. I figured it was better to bring it to the hospital than leave it lying around.â
He nodded thoughtfully, his eyes lingering on you for a moment longer than necessary. âI appreciate it. Not many people would go out of their way like that.â
You tried not to let his kindness throw you off, but it wasnât easy. There was something about Zayne that made you feel... small in a way you didnât like to feel. He was kind, yes, but that kindness made you wonder if you were deserving of it. Why should you be the one he cared about?
But before you could dwell on that any further, his voice cut through your swirling thoughts.
"Have you eaten today?" His tone was light, but there was an edge of sincerity beneath it, one that made your stomach twist in a way that had nothing to do with hunger. It reminded you of that conversation in the shop, of how he had so effortlessly read through your tiredness.
The sheepish look that crossed your face mustâve been obvious, because Zayne sighed, the sound so deep that it almost felt like a reprimand. He pinched the bridge of his nose in a gesture that was both familiar and surprisingly endearing.
âYouâve got to take care of yourself,â he said, his voice almost too gentle for the weight of his words. âItâs not healthy to go without food, especially if youâre going to keep running around like you hunters do.â
You opened your mouth to protest, to tell him it wasnât a big deal, but Zayne didnât give you the chance.
"Thereâs a diner close by. Itâs the least I can do to thank you for returning my wallet."
You shook your head instinctively, trying to backpedal. "Itâs really not necessary," you said, but Zayne wasnât having any of it. His eyes were firm, and there was an undeniable warmth behind them that almost made you feel guilty for refusing.
"Yes, it is," he replied, his tone steady but with a hint of finality. "Now, come on.â
You hesitated for a moment, the unease building in your chest like a brick wall, but the thought of Zayneâs calm, commanding presence made it impossible to say no. So, with a quiet sigh, you relented.
"Iâll pay," you muttered as he led the way, the words almost reflexive. You always felt like you had to pay your wayâlike it was your responsibility to do so, especially with someone who had helped you, even in the smallest of ways. You were used to standing on your own two feet.
Zayne only gave you a side glance, his lips quirking up in the barest of smiles. "No, you wonât. Itâs my thank you, remember?"
The diner wasnât far from where you had been, a cozy, low-lit place with a soft hum of quiet conversations and the clink of silverware against plates. The familiar scent of warm foodâsteak, mashed potatoes, and the unmistakable aroma of fresh breadâimmediately filled the air as you stepped inside. You followed Zayne to a small booth in the back, the vinyl seats creaking under your weight as you slid in.
You wanted to say somethingâthank you, maybeâbut the words felt stuck, trapped somewhere in the pit of your stomach, along with everything else that had been piling up for weeks. Zayne didnât seem to notice, his focus already turning to the menu as he gestured for you to pick something.
You wanted to ask him more, to understand him in the same way you understood the empty streets you ran through, but you couldnât shake the feeling that youâd just end up looking foolish. So, instead, you stared at the menu in front of you, unable to focus on the choices, as your mind churned with questions that had no answers.
Zayne ordered for both of you, his voice low as he made his choices, and when he looked at you, you caught a flicker of somethingâperhaps curiosity, or was it concern? It was hard to tell.
"You should eat more regularly," he said again, as though the words were a reminder he had to repeat for his own peace of mind. You nodded, letting the silence fill the space between you for a moment.
The food arrived, warm and satisfying, and you took a bite, surprised at how hungry you were despite the earlier denials. Zayne watched you for a moment, his gaze softening as you ate, but you couldnât bring yourself to meet it. His concern, his careâit felt too much. You werenât used to people worrying about you.
But as the meal went on, you found yourself starting to relax, the initial tension loosening from your shoulders. Zayne was easy to talk to, his calm, steady presence settling you in a way you hadnât expected. By the end of the meal, you felt... lighter.
"Call me Zayne," he said when the check came, his voice quiet but sincere.
You blinked, a little caught off guard by the request. "Zayne?" you echoed, testing the name on your tongue.
"Yes," he replied with a small, patient smile. "Itâs easier than 'Dr. Zayne,' donât you think?"
You blinked, taken aback. âAre you sure? I mean, youâve earned the titleââ
âAnd Iâll still have it in the hospital,â he interrupted, amusement flickering in his eyes. âBut here, itâs just Zayne.â
You nodded slowly, testing the name in your mind. It felt strange, almost too personal. But there was something grounding about it, too.
By the time dessert arrived, the knot of anxiety in your chest had loosened considerably. The warmth of the diner, the steady cadence of his voice, and the shared laughter over a poorly made joke had a way of pulling you out of your own head. For the first time in what felt like weeks, you werenât obsessing over your failures or doubts.
As you finished your meal, Zayne pulled out his phone and slid it across the table. âHere,â he said simply. âAdd your number. In case you ever need anything.â
You hesitated, the gesture feeling far more intimate than it probably was. But his expression was patient, expectant, and you found yourself entering your contact information before you could overthink it. When you handed the phone back, his lips twitched into a faint smile.
âThanks again for returning my wallet,â he said, his tone lighter now. âAnd for the company.â
You felt your cheeks flush, but this time, it wasnât entirely unpleasant. âItâs not a problem,â you murmured, a small smile tugging at your lips.
As you stepped out of the diner and into the cool night air, a strange sense of calm settled over you. Zayne walked you to the corner where your paths would diverge, his presence steady and reassuring.
âTake care of yourself,â he said, his voice softer now, almost intimate.
âYou too,â you replied, your voice barely above a whisper.
The dinerâs warmth lingered even as you stepped into the cool night air. For the first time in what felt like weeks, your chest didnât feel as tight, the oppressive weight that had been bearing down on you now lifting slightly. You still felt the ache of Sylusâ absenceâa hollow, gnawing sensation that seemed to creep in whenever you let your guard down, but it wasnât as suffocating as it had been. Instead, a new sensation fluttered in its place, tentative and fragile: excitement. It was strange to feel this way, to look forward to the possibility of a friendship formed under such unlikely circumstances. Zayneâs calm demeanor, his steady presence, had surprised you.
As you walked, the sound of fluttering wings caught your attention. Instinctively, your heart skipped, your mind jumping to Mephisto. You tilted your head to the dark sky, half-expecting to see the telltale silhouette of his familiar. But it was just a cluster of pigeons, their wings catching the faint glow of the streetlights as they soared away.
Right. Of course. It was unlikely that Sylus was watching you tonight.
You exhaled, a breath you hadnât realized you were holding, and forced your thoughts away from him. Zayne had offered you a rare moment of normalcy, and you werenât about to let your memories of Sylus overshadow that.
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The following weeks were a blur of activity, and before long, you found yourself stationed at an outpost on the outskirts of Linkon. A metaflux surge had disrupted the area, and the temporary makeshift hospital was bustling with injured workers, hunters, and even a few civilians caught in the chaos. The air was thick with tension, the metallic tang of metaflux faint but persistent, a reminder of the unseen dangers that lurked just beyond the safety of the encampment.
Zayne was assigned as the doctor for the outpost, and you often found yourself crossing paths with him. At first, your interactions were briefâa nod here, a shared glance thereâbut over time, you began to talk. It started with simple pleasantries, discussions about the metaflux readings or the influx of patients, but it wasnât long before the conversations deepened.
You learned that Zayne had a dry sense of humor, his sharp wit often catching you off guard. Heâd tease you about your stubbornness, and youâd retort with a quip about his overly serious nature. Despite his professionalism, there was a warmth to him, a quiet compassion that made him easy to trust. And though youâd never admit it, you found yourself looking forward to those moments of shared laughter, those fleeting glimpses of something lighter amidst the chaos.
But even as your friendship with Zayne grew, Sylus lingered at the edges of your thoughts, a shadow you couldnât quite shake. The conversations you had with him were sparse and strictly work-relatedâupdates from the Association, bits of intel you passed along to him. It felt transactional, a far cry from the intimacy you once shared. Yet, every time his name appeared on your screen, your heart still raced, betraying the fragile boundaries youâd tried to set.
One evening, a message from Sylus broke the monotony of your routine.
âCome over tomorrow night, Darling. I have an exquisite wine Iâd like you to tryâprocured it during a recent deal.â
The invitation was simple, almost casual. For a moment, you imagined itâthe rich scent of wine filling the air, his sharp yet alluring gaze fixed on you as he poured you a glass. But reality quickly crept in, dragging you back to the present. You couldnât go. You couldnât risk it. Not when your heart was still so fragile, still aching in ways you didnât want to admit.
You stared at the screen for what felt like an eternity, your fingers hovering over the keyboard as your mind raced. The truth was, you wanted to see him. But you knew better. You had to keep your distanceâfor your own sake, if nothing else.
âIâm tired..'
You typed, the words feeling hollow as they formed.
'Busy day tomorrow. Maybe another time.â
You hesitated before hitting send, the weight of the message pressing down on you. When his reply came, it was as simple as his invitation.
âOkay.â
The finality of it hit you like a brick, and for a moment, you felt like your breath had been stolen away. He didnât push. He didnât argue. That empty âokayâ hung in the air, leaving you with the quiet realization that, once again, you had lost yourself in the haze of someone elseâs world.
You tried not to read too much into it, but you couldnât shake the feeling that he had already moved on. That he didnât care enough to fight for your attention. Instead, it felt like you were just a passing thought, like an aftertaste that wasnât worth savoring.
Miss Hunter. The words echoed in your mind. You squeezed your eyes shut, willing the tears to stay behind your eyelids, but they pressed hard, a sting that never seemed to fully fade. You rubbed your forehead, trying to push away the thoughts. But even as you did, you couldnât escape the suffocating feeling in your chestâthe one that always came when you were reminded of how little you meant to him. You felt foolish, but you couldnât help it. It was like you were always waiting for the other shoe to drop, for him to come back, to pull you back into his orbit with that practiced charm, that voice that made you feel wanted, if only for a little while.
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The dinner with Zayne had been a welcome reprieve. It had been two weeks since you last saw him, the demands of work pulling both of you in different directions. But tonight, seated across from him in a small, cozy bistro, you found solace in the familiar rhythm of your conversations. The mellow lights softened the sharp angles of his face as he recounted a mishap earlier in the week involving a particularly irritable patient.
His dry humor, paired with the subtle lift of his brow, drew a laugh from youâa genuine, light sound that felt foreign after the weight of recent days. For a while, the world outside blurred away. You werenât Miss Hunter; you werenât anything other than a person sharing a meal with a friend.
As the meal wound down, Zayne looked at you over the rim of his glass, his expression calm. âYouâre doing better than when we first met.â he remarked softly.
You blinked, momentarily caught off guard. âAm I?â
He nodded. His calm demeanor always had a way of grounding you, and tonight was no exception.
The meal wrapped up with the two of you trading small updates and light banter. You paid for your half of the meal, Zayne insisting it wasnât necessary, but youâd insisted back. There was a sense of normalcy here, something you werenât willing to let go of easily. When you parted ways outside the diner, the night air was cool and quiet. Zayneâs warm farewell echoed softly in your ears as you waved goodbye and headed back toward your apartment.
As you walked, you felt lighter somehow. The stress of the past few weeks hadnât vanished, but Zayneâs steady presence had reminded you of something importantâmoments of peace still existed, even in the chaos.
The faint scent of lavender greeted you as you unlocked your apartment door, a hint of the candle youâd left burning earlier. The lights were off, and the air felt too stillâunnaturally so. Your heart skipped, the hairs on the back of your neck standing on end. A lump formed in your throat, panic curling its fingers around your chest.
You flicked the light switch, and the sudden brightness flooded the room, revealing the figure sitting on your couch. Sylus.
You froze. Your body stiffened, caught between fight or flight.
Your yelp of surprise filled the space, your pulse racing as you clutched the doorframe for support. âWhatâSylus? What are you doing here?â
He was sitting on your couch, one arm draped casually along the backrest, his other hand resting on his knee. The dim light of the room softened the sharp edges of his face, but his expression was anything but gentle. His eyes, sharp and unyielding, tracked your every movement as if he were dissecting you with just a glance.
âHowâwhat are you doing here?â you stammered, your voice shaky as your pulse raced.
Sylus didnât respond right away. Instead, he tilted his head slightly, his gaze dragging over you slowly, deliberately. His silence was louder than any words he could have spoken, and it made your skin prickle.
âDarling,â he finally murmured, his voice low and smooth, laced with something you couldnât quite name. âYou look⊠exhausted.â
You blinked, still standing frozen by the door. His tone was soft, almost tender, but it was the way his jaw tightened, the way his fingers tapped against his knee, that betrayed his underlying tension.
âY-yeah,â you stammered, your voice wavering as you took a cautious step forward. âItâs been a long day. What are you doing here?â
Sylus leaned back, the leather of the couch creaking faintly under his weight. âA long day,â he echoed, his lips curving into a faint smile that didnât reach his eyes. âYet you had time for dinner.â
âIâŠâ you faltered, scrambling for a response. âIt was justâŠâ
âJust dinner,â he interrupted smoothly, his tone unreadable. âWith⊠someone else.â
The air felt thick, charged with a tension that made your skin prickle. You opened your mouth to respond, but the words stuck in your throat. His eyes narrowed slightly, his expression still calm but his body language telling a different story. The way his fingers drummed against his knee, the slight clench of his jaw, the flicker of something dark in his gaze.
Your heart pounded, your thoughts racing. Why was he here? What did he want? And why did his presenceâhis very existence in your spaceâmake your chest ache in that familiar, suffocating way?
âI didnât thinkâŠâ You stopped yourself, your voice trembling. âYou didnât say youâd be coming by. You canât justââ
âCanât just what?â he asked, his voice dangerously soft as he rose from the couch, his movements fluid and deliberate. âShow up to see whatâs wrong?â
Your breath hitched as he closed the distance between you, his height and presence suddenly overwhelming. âNothingâs wrongâŠâyou managed to say, your voice barely above a whisper.
âIs that so?â he murmured, tilting his head slightly, his eyes boring into yours. âBecause from where Iâm standing, it seems like youâve been avoiding me, Darling.â
The accusation hung in the air, sharp and unyielding.
âIâve been busyâŠâ you said weakly, your voice lacking conviction.
âBusy,â he repeated, his gaze flicking over you again, this time with something close to disdain. âToo busy for me, but not too busy for⊠him.â
Your hands fidgeted at your sides, your breath coming in shallow bursts. You wanted to move, to put distance between you, but your legs felt rooted to the spot. âI didnât think dinner with a friend would..â
âFriend?â he interrupted, the single word slicing through your sentence. His lips curved into something that might have been a smile, but it didnât reach his eyes.
Your heart pounded painfully against your ribs, the anxiety swirling in your chest mixing with something elseâsomething raw and painful that you didnât want to name. The memories of your last exchange with Sylus came flooding backâthe curt messages, the unspoken finality of his âokay.â You had tried to convince yourself that it didnât matter, that you didnât need his validation. But standing here now, under the weight of his gaze, you felt every crack in the fragile walls you had built to keep him out.
âI donât understand what you want from me,â you said finally, the words trembling as they left your lips.
His eyes softened slightly, but the tension in his posture didnât ease. For a moment, he looked like he wanted to say something, something important, but the moment passed as quickly as it came. Instead, he reached out, his fingers brushing against your cheek in a gesture so gentle it felt almost foreign.
âDonât make me feel like Iâm a stranger to you.â he said quietly, his voice carrying a hint of vulnerability that made your chest ache.
Donât make me feel like Iâm a stranger to you. The words echoed in your mind, repeating, twisting, until all you could hear was the raw edge of betrayal laced in his tone.
You let out a bitter laugh, the sound sharp and bitter, a little too loud in the quiet of your apartment. Your chest tightened, and for a moment, you felt the space around you grow smaller. You couldnât breatheâcouldnât think. All you could feel was the heat of anger building inside of you, raw and unrefined.
âThatâs rich,â you scoffed, finally managing to find your voice. âThatâs really rich, coming from you of all people.â
Sylus blinked, a subtle flash of surprise crossing his face, but it quickly masked over. His lips tightened, his brow furrowed ever so slightly, but it wasnât enough. You had to push, you couldnât hold back now. The words were tumbling out before you could even stop them. Your breath hitched, a strangled sob lodged somewhere in the back of your throat, but you refused to let it spill. You wouldnât let him see you breakânot like this, not in front of him. You knew the truth. He knew the truth. It hurt, yes, but you werenât the one to blame.
âYou've been treating me like a stranger for months,â you continued, your voice trembling with anger you hadn't fully realized was there. âBarely responding to my messages, not answering my calls, and when I do see you, itâs like you canât be bothered. You donât even see me.â You felt the weight of every unreturned message, every unanswered call, every promise left in limbo. âIâve had to hear from Luke and Kieran that youâre in Linkon. But you couldnât even make time to see me.â
You felt the ache deep in your chest, that familiar, suffocating knot forming. He didnât deserve your pain. Not anymore. You wouldnât let him have that. Not this time.
You took a shaky breath, suddenly feeling raw, exposed. âYou donât have to feel obligated to check on me, Sylus,â you said, your words clipped and cutting through the thick silence between you. âYou donât have to feel pity for me. I know where I stand. I know my place in your life.â
His expression, that unreadable mask, cracked for the briefest of moments. His lips parted, his gaze flicking to your face, then back down to the floor. His jaw clenched. But his eyes⊠They werenât the same as theyâd been earlier. The hardness was gone, replaced by something far more dangerous, something even more intimate. The storm was gathering, but it wasnât just in the airâno, it was inside him too.
âYou know where you stand?â His voice was quieter now, but there was an edge to it, a slight tightness you hadnât noticed before. He took a step forward, his body closing the space between you, like a wave of raw energy crashing toward you. His proximity only made your pulse race faster, but you couldnât back down. Not now.
âIâm just an informant, right?â you bit out, every word feeling like it sliced through the night air, cutting through the tension like a blade. âYou donât have to pretend you care, Sylus. So donât stand there with that look on your face like Iâm some important thing you need to check on.â
The air between you grew heavy, thick with unsaid words and stifled tension. Every inch of your body was telling you to get away, to shut down, to stop this before it tore you apart. But your feet felt heavy, stuck in place. Sylusâs presence was like gravity, pulling you toward him.
"You think that's all you are?" he murmured, his voice dangerously low, like the calm before the thunder. The way he said it made your heart stutter in your chest. It was both a question and an accusation or a challenge.
But there was something else in his voice. Something you couldnât quite place. His eyes were intense, too intense, and they searched yours like he was looking for the answer. The truth.
âI didnât want to hurt you,â he continued, his words clipped, as though they were difficult for him to say. âBut I couldnât....couldnât make sense of it. Of you.â
It was the first time that he seemed genuinely vulnerable, and it left you breathless and confused. You had always wondered if there was more beneath his cold exterior. You had always told yourself that he cared. But you had never dared to confront him.
His hand was close enough now to reach out, his fingers barely brushing the edge of your wrist. The air between you was still thick with everything unsaid, everything unhealed. And yet, despite the words that had been thrown between you, there was something undeniably magnetic in the tension. The ache in your chest, the rawness, the feelings of betrayalâthey didnât wash away just because you said them out loud.
God, you hated him for this.
But part of you yearned for him. That part that still felt tethered to him, despite the distance.
Sylusâs fingers hovered over your wrist, his touch like fire against your skin. For a moment, the storm between you calmed, leaving only the faintest echo of it behind. The weight of his gaze, the force of his presenceâit seemed to drown out the rest of the world.
He said nothing for a moment, his lips parting as though he wanted to speak but couldnât find the words. His eyes darkened further, not with anger now, but with something you couldnât quite define.
You took a breath, your body suddenly feeling too small beneath his gaze. The storm was still inside. You had to move away. Your heart pounded as if it were trying to escape your chest, desperate to flee from whatever was stirring inside you. You couldn'tâno, you wouldnâtâlet yourself get caught up in whatever this feeling was. You were not some fool, ready to throw everything away for the temporary pull of his presence. You knew better than that. You had to.
Every instinct screamed at you to retreat, to put some distance between you and the mess of emotions bubbling under your skin. His sharp gaze was enough to make your knees tremble, and it took everything in you not to look back, not to let him see the quiet devastation that flickered inside you.
âYou need to leave⊠Sylus.â You whispered. You staggered back a few steps, your breathing shallow, desperate. Your feet felt like lead, yet you forced yourself to walk away. You turned your back to him, willing your legs to move, hoping to escape before you got sucked into whatever dark vortex of feelings he was drawing you into.
He didnât move. Instead, you heard the familiar click of his boots against the floor as he took a single, deliberate step forward. âWhy?â His voice, low and curious, sent a shiver down your spine. It was almost too intimate, as if he were searching for a piece of you, trying to understand what you couldnât explain.
You didnât want to look at him. Didnât want to see the quiet confusion on his faceâthe faint flicker of disappointment that stung like salt in an open wound. You couldnât let him see your weakness, couldnât let him know how badly it hurt to be around him, how badly it hurt not to be around him.
âIs it so you can run back to your precious âfriendâ?â The words dripped with something unspoken, something that made your stomach twist.
You couldnât look at him. You couldnât. Not when his voiceâthat voice, the one that threaded through the air like silkâwas digging into your mind like this. The word echoed in your ears, almost mocking you, and you felt something fragile snap inside you. The weight of the years youâd spent keeping distance, of guarding your heart against him, against whatever he made you feel, started to unravel. But you couldnât let it.
You took another step away from him. One more step, you told yourself. Just one more. You didnât need this.
Dark tendrils wrapped around you as you move, pulling you back. He was using his evol to pull you back. You didnât need him pulling you in again. But then it came. That touch. He pulled you to him, forceful yet intimate, and your breath caught in your throat. You were too close. Too close to the edge of losing yourself, of falling into his presence.
His hands...no, his fingersâsnaked around your waist before you even knew what was happening. You gasped, body going stiff in surprise, but his grip tightened, pulling you back into him. You tried to keep moving, tried to pull away, but it was useless. His hold was ironclad, his presence consuming. His grip tightened slightly, but there was an almost comforting pressure there, a subtle reminder that despite the dispute between you, there was something undeniable between the two of you.
âWhy are you running?â His voice was a whisper against your ear, the words smooth like silk, but there was something jagged beneath themâsomething urgent, raw.
You struggled to hold yourself together, but the more you fought it, the more it pulledâthis unbearable need to lean into him, to give in to the chaos that his proximity stirred in you. You knew you shouldnât, but everything in you wanted to. You felt the ache of wanting something you couldn't have, the sting of the distance you had put between you and the thing that was somehow both poison and relief.
His hands tightened slightly, his thumb brushing over your ribs in a movement that sent a jolt through your entire system. The words you wanted to say, the reasons you needed to get away from him, all felt so small and pointless now. How could you possibly explain this? This tension, this pull? How could you say that being near him felt like the most excruciating thing in the world, but also the only thing that made you feel alive?
âYouâre not just an informant to me,â he breathed, his words slipping under your skin, curling into the tight spaces of your chest. âI didnât realize I was hurting you this much. That youâd want to distance yourself from me...â His tone softened at the end, but it only made everything worse. The tenderness in his voiceâhis tendernessâwas like a dagger in your side, making the blood in your veins freeze. You wanted to say something, anything, but all you could hear was the deafening rush of your own heartbeat. You tried to stay composed, but the words were caught in your throat, and your body was still pressed so tightly against his, your breath shallow, your pulse thudding painfully against your ribs.
Why was this so hard? Why couldnât you just say itâsay that you couldnât let him get close again? That you couldnât survive another wound, another aching, empty feeling in your chest because of him? But the way his hands tightened, the warmth of his body against yours, made everything you were feeling a little too real.
You could feel his heartbeat against your back, the rhythm in sync with your own, and the pull of him was growing stronger. You could feel your anxiety bubbling up, the gnawing fear at the pit of your stomach. Was this just him toying with you? Was he trying to pull you into his world of darkness and manipulation? Or did he really care?
Your head was spinning. The emotions warred within youâanger, confusion, guilt, and something else. Something that made your heart race faster and your thoughts scatter like leaves in the wind.
âLet me go,â you whispered, your voice barely audible over the storm that raged around you.
But you didnât pull away. You didnât push him off.
Sylus' grip on you tightened, his arm like a steel band around your waist, pulling you closer until there was no space left between you. His chest rises and falls against your back as his breath brushes against your ear, warm and heavy. Itâs as if heâs afraid, like if he lets go for even a second, heâll lose you forever. You can feel the tension radiating from him, but also something softer, something desperate.
âNo, Darling,â he murmurs, his voice low and thick with emotion, his tone possessive, as though the very idea of you slipping away shatters him. âYouâre not going anywhere and neither am I.â
"Youâre going to stay," He pulls you even closer, his lips brushing the shell of your ear as he speaks again, quieter this time, but laced with something raw and vulnerable. "...and youâre going to listen to me. I wonât let you walk away from this."
You can hear the flicker of something beneath his wordsâregret. And then, his lips ghost over the sensitive skin of your neck, lingering just a little longer than necessary. He slowly spins you around, to face him. His voice softens, almost apologetic. âI know I was a dick. I know I didnât respond to you, and Iâm sorry for that. I didnât know how to handle it⊠handle us. It confused me, and instead of facing it, I pushed you away.â His breath catches slightly, and you feel his chest tighten against your back.
His hand moves to cup your cheek, tilting your face slightly toward him, his thumb brushing over your skin as though itâs a promise, an apology. The weight of his gaze is intense, but thereâs also something tender there, something that wants to pull you back in, closer. âI know youâre still hurting, darling. I see it. And I... Iâll spend a lifetime making up for it, because thatâs what I want. A lifetime. With you. Not as some informant or some... thing, but as my beloved. You. By my side. Always.â
He pauses, letting his words hang in the air between you. His voice drops, the quiet sorrow of his confession sending a twinge of guilt through you. "I donât have the right to ask this of you, I know," Sylus continues, his voice thick with emotion. "But seeing you push me away⊠Itâs harder than I ever thought it would be. Harder than I want to admit." He presses his forehead lightly against your temple, his breath shaky. "Iâve never needed someone the way I need you, and I didnât know how to tell you that. But I do. I need you."
You can feel him tense slightly, the shift in his demeanor telling you that his thoughts have turned darker. His voice lowers, the jealousy evident in the way he speaks, though itâs wrapped in a softness that almost makes it harder to bear.
"And Dr. Zayne... I canât stand the thought of him being so close to you," Sylus adds, his voice low and thick with a possessiveness that unsettles you in its intensity. "It kills me, you know? Watching him with you, hearing you laugh like that with him, as if I donât even exist." His arm tightens again, almost painfully, as if he needs to remind you, remind both of you, where you truly belong. "I know I have no claim on you... but... I can't help but feel like thereâs a part of you that wants him in a way that... I can't compete with." His voice hardens, jealousy dripping from every word. "It eats at me, knowing he has a part of you that Iâm fighting for."
"Sylus..." Your voice cracked slightly as you repeated his name, your breath hitching, caught in the tension between you. His name felt heavy on your tongue, like it was both a question and an answer. You had never said it so quietly, so vulnerably. The memories of earlier came rushing backâhim with her, that delicate smile he gave her, the way she leaned into him just a little too comfortably. It had burned in your chest, the jealousy creeping in with a venomous ache.
The words tumbled out before you could stop them, too fast to gather, too painful to hide. "I felt the same... when I saw you with her," you confessed, swallowing thickly. "I felt so... so useless, Sylus. When I saw you with her, it felt like... like she was everything you needed. Better than me. And that... it broke me, Sylus. I felt like I wasnât enough, like I wasnât... worth it.â
The words stung, bitter and unrelenting, but the weight of them was finally lifted as you let them spill out. You felt exposed, naked in your insecurity, but somehow, it was all you could do to stand there and wait for him to respond. You could feel the weight of it, of how small youâd felt in that moment, how unworthy you had become in your own eyes. The self-doubt gnawed at your insides, each thought of her with him twisting like a knife in your gut.
Sylusâs expression softened, his features melting into a tender sadness, as though he were seeing you for the first time, truly seeing you. His hand reached out slowly, almost hesitantly, as if afraid to shatter the fragile space between you. His touch was a gentle comfort, his fingers brushing against your cheek, his voice a low whisper, "Darling, you're none of that... none of it, I swear."
You shook your head, feeling the tears threatening, but you couldnât let them fall, not yet. His words were kind, but the ache in your chest was still there, an unhealed wound.
He continued, his voice steady but thick with something deeper. "I didnât know you felt that way... about her, in the same way I feel about Zayne." His gaze met yours, and for the first time tonight, it wasnât uncertain. It was so gentle, so soft, tender. "But you need to know, you're it for me, DarlingâŠ" he murmured, his fingers curling around yours, grounding you in the quiet storm of your emotions. "Yes, I want help from her, but..." He paused, as if weighing his words carefully, "...I need you more." His words were a balm to the wounds that had festered within you, but the tenderness in his eyes was what finally reached you. His hand slid down to your shoulder, his thumb grazing the skin there. His warmth surrounded you, and you let yourself sink into the comfort of his words. The jealousy, the insecurity that had burned so fiercely in you when you saw him with her, melted in the face of the tenderness he was offering now.
You swallowed, trying to steady yourself as your heart raced, the intensity of the moment almost overwhelming. âZayne⊠Zayneâs just a friend,â you said, your voice fragile but firm, âsomeone who helped me... helped me see past the stuff in my head. After everything, I just... needed someone to remind me that Iâm not broken.â
Sylus's eyes softened even more, the depth of his gaze sending shivers down your spine. He nodded slowly, his expression filled with understanding. The tension between you didnât disappear entirely, but it was now laced with something more tender. More real.
âYouâre not broken, Darling.â he repeated, and there was a quiet strength in his voice, something that made you believe him more than you ever had before. âYouâre everything Iâve ever needed... and more.â
"I... Iâm sorry," you whispered, a lump in your throat as you looked up at him. "I never wanted to make you feel like I didnât care. I just... I was afraid youâd choose her over me."
Sylusâs fingers brushed against the nape of your neck, pulling you closer, his forehead pressing gently against yours. "You never have to apologize for that, Darling." he murmured, his voice warm, his breath mingling with yours. âIt was my fault and I accept that.â
The room was quiet, save for the soft sound of your breathing, as Sylus stood before you, his face drawn with intensity. The flickering light from the lamp cast soft shadows across his features, but his gaze... his gaze was sharp, focused entirely on you.
"I love you, Darling" he said, his words lingering in the air as though they were the first time he had allowed himself to say them out loud. "Iâm in love with you," he confessed, his voice steady despite the raw emotion that tinged it. "Iâve been in love with you for a while now, and Iâve tried to deny it. Tried to hide it from you and myself, but I canât anymore. I wonât. I love you, and I need you to know that."
The breath you hadnât realized you were holding caught in your throat. Everything in you froze, then splintered. The confession, so pure, so vulnerable, hit you with a force you hadnât been prepared for. You stood there, unable to move, a mix of surprise and relief flooding your chest.
He loves you. Sylus. The one you had longed for, yearned, and hoped for in silence. Your heart stuttered in your chest, the world around you growing impossibly still.
"IâŠ" you whispered, voice trembling, and you had to stop, had to steady yourself before the words could spill from your lips. "Iâve love you too," you said, your voice barely more than a breath, but it carried all the weight of everything you had kept inside. "Iâve loved you, and I never told you because I was afraid. Afraid that I was asking too much. Afraid of the rejection. Afraid that I wasnât enough."
Sylusâs expression softened, his lips curling into a frown as he stepped forward, closing the space between you. His hands reached for you, but not in the way you had feared or expected. They were gentle, his touch a plea for understanding. "Oh, darling," he whispered, shaking his head slowly. "Iâm so sorry. Iâm sorry you ever felt like you needed to hide it from me."
He reached up, brushing his thumb along your cheek, and you flinched slightly, your emotions suddenly overwhelming you, raw and untamed. "Weâre both idiots," he continued, his voice almost tender with the weight of the admission. "Weâve been skirting around each other, afraid of saying the one thing we both needed to say."
Your laugh came out soft, almost fragile, the tension in your chest breaking for the first time since Sylus had walked into your home. It was a quiet sound, but it was the first time youâd laughed all night, the first time youâd allowed yourself to feel something other than fear or uncertainty in the past few weeks with him involved. But that laugh didnât last long. As soon as it came, the tears followed, the ones you had been holding back for so long, finally slipping free. The dam you had built up crumbled, and before you could stop them, hot tears streamed down your face. before you could even reach up to brush them away, his hand was there, steady and warm against your cheek.
"Donât," you whispered, your voice thick with the ache you could no longer hide. "Please, donât look at me like this. Iâmâ"
"Stop," Sylus interrupted softly, his hand holding yours gently, his gaze unwavering. "Donât hide from me. I want to see all of you⊠everything youâve been hiding. I know you think I donât see it, but I do." His eyes locked onto yours with such intensity that you couldnât look away. "I see it when you think Iâm not watching. I see the way you pull back, the way you hide the parts of you that you think I canât handle. But I am looking. Iâve always been looking. And I donât want you to hide anymore. Not from me. And Iâm here and I want all of you."
His words were a medicine to the parts of you that had been bruised, the parts that had feared being exposed, vulnerable. But in his eyes, there was only love. No judgment. No pity. Just... love. And it was enough. It was more than enough.
The tears that had slipped down your face slowed, but they didnât stop. You didnât try to wipe them away this time, allowing yourself to be seen for the first time in ages. The sobs that followed were soft but trembled with relief, with something finally breaking open inside of you.
Sylusâs arms were around you in an instant, pulling you close, holding you in the kind of embrace that made you feel as though you could finally breathe, as though the weight of everything you had been carrying could finally be set down.
"Iâm sorry," you whispered, almost broken. "Iâve been so scared, Sylus. Scared of this, of being cast away... of losing you."
"Youâll never lose me, Darling." he murmured, his voice firm and unwavering as he pressed a soft kiss to your forehead.
You tilted your head back slightly, your face still damp with the remnants of the tears that had fallen, and through your wet lashes, you searched his face. Sylus held you close, his arms wrapped around you in a way that made you feel safe, even as the doubts lingered in your heart. You wanted to believe him, but the fear, the uncertainty, was still there, buried deep beneath the surface.
He must have seen it in your eyes, the way you still hesitated, the uncertainty you couldn't quite shake. Sylus made a half-frustrated sound in the back of his throat, his hands tightening around you for a split second, before they slid up to cradle your face. His thumb brushed against your cheek again, a tender, pleading touch, before he leaned in, his lips finding yours in a sudden, urgent kiss.
The kiss was unlike any other. It wasnât slow, it wasnât soft. It was intense, filled with desperation, as though he needed you to understand just how deeply he felt for you, just how much you meant to him. His hands cupped your face, holding you as if you were the only thing that mattered in that moment, as if the world had stopped turning just for you. His lips pressed against yours with a kind of fire, but it wasnât angry, no. It was passionate, desperate in its own way, like he wanted you to feel how important you were to him, how much you had been wanted, loved.
Your hands trembled as they reached up, gripping the collar of his shirt, pulling him closer, wanting to bridge the distance between you, as though the kiss itself could erase every lingering doubt in your heart. Your breath hitched when you felt his pulse quicken under your touch, his heartbeat matching the frantic pace of your own. Each breath you took seemed to echo in the stillness of the room, mingling with the heat of his kiss, our lips moving together with a quiet urgency, the world beyond the two of you fading into a distant blur. You felt everythingâevery brush of his fingers, every subtle shift of his body against yours, the way his chest rose and fell beneath your palms, how his breath felt against your lips as if he couldnât get close enough to you.
Your chests rose and fell together, the world spinning around you. You could feel the heat of him, the urgency that still lingered in his touch, the way he kept you close, almost as if he were afraid to let go.
Breathing became an afterthought, both of you gasping for air when the kiss broke, but neither of you pulled far enough away to lose the connection. Sylusâs forehead rested against yours, his breath hot against your lips as he whispered, voice still heavy with emotion. âEvery day, from henceforth, I will work to make sure you never feel the need to doubt yourself. Not in my life. Not with me." His words, slow and deliberate, sank deep into your heart like a promise he would keep.
The intensity of the moment hung between you both, the room still, save for the soft sound of your breathing as you both slowly came back to reality. But in his eyes, you saw nothing but certaintyâcertainty that you were enough. That you always had been.
His hand found yours again, fingers weaving with yours, and he gave it a gentle squeeze, as if the simple touch was a quiet reassurance.
"You are everything to me," he murmured, his voice steady now, grounding you as much as his embrace. "And Iâll make sure you never forget that.â
Your eyes fluttered shut for a moment, absorbing his words, his warmth, his certainty. In his arms, you could feel the truth of his promise, somewhere deep inside, the doubts began to fade.
For the first time in a long time, you believed him. And when he kissed you again, this time softer, it was like the beginning of something new.
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trying to figure out whether my high school was weird or not
(bonus points if you tag with your age and whether you went to public or private school)
#I'm genuinely curious about this#home ec was mandatory when I was in junior high in 2016-ish?#although they called it Family and Consumer Sciences/FACS at that point#we learned how to cook and sew and budget and generally manage a household. good life skills honestly#but apparently lots of schools no longer have these classes at all#which I found out today when someone was like âugh school is stupid they should teach us how to learn Adult Skills like cooking and taxesâ#and I was like ????? they did??? it's called FACS?#and he was like what on earth are you talking about#and nobody else in the entire class had ever been forced to take home ec in school. they were so confused by it too lmao#it made me feel very old even though I am younger than most of them
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guys, let me tell you, this essay im writing right now is not good
#last essay of school ever and the instructions were the most confusing ive ever read#thank god it doesnt need to be good i think I need to get at least 14% on it to get a 50% in the class#and i know its at least more than that#but its not good#at all#cait.txt
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currently thinking about bakugo âitâs not that deepâ katsuki.
katsukiâs got a temper that makes him more chalant than not, but when it comes to everything else the blonde is relativelyâŠunreactive. itâs not like he tries to be that way, he just has to be. when youâre surrounded by idiots like denki & sero on a daily basis, you eventually learn to choose your fucks & allocate them wisely.
âbakugo, class 1-Bâs been hogging the hero equipmentâhow do we train now ?â
âitâs never that deep, tape face. just go later yâdumbassâ
âbakubro, i think my situationship just blocked meââ
âliterally just move on. really not that serious.â
the phrase has practically become katsukiâs signature one liner. so itâs a shock when his friends make you realize youâve never actually heard the words from his lips.
âkatsuki ? and nonchalant ? in the same sentence ? you must be joking.â
mina & sero are watching outer banks with your laptop while denki & kiri glance at each other in confusion. âyouâre serious? heâs never said stuff like that to you ?â
âlike ever?â
ânever.â you run a brush through your hair. âthough i guess i could imagine him talking to you guys that way.â
âdouble standards go crazyâ mina mumbles. âreal.â
âno, guysâall hope is not lost. it could be that y/n is really rational so he never has to say it, you feel me ?â
you scoff, but denki keeps talking, âwe can test this out. just get y/n to act really dramatic and see how bakugo reacts.â
sero pauses the episode, ignoring the scowl that graces minaâs lips. âfifty bucks there really is a double standard and bakugo wonât act all nonchalant.â
âfifty bucks ? thatâs half my salary!â
ânot my fault you work at mcdonaldâs dawg. you guys in or what ?â
kiriâs quick to strike the deal on kaminariâs behalf. denkiâs about to protest when the fiery blond walks in.
âdisgusting. why are you all sitting around like degenerates? not you baby.â
âwhat happened to âhello, how are you?ââ
âhi âsuki.â you purr, ignoring sero. katsuki dips his head to peck your lips, a quiet âhey prettyâ mumbled into your cheek.
sero snaps his fingers at the display of affection. âexcuse me? in front of my obx?â
âthe one youâre watching with my netflix subscription?â bakugo snaps the laptop shut and mina protests with a mouth full of popcorn. youâre about to playfully defend the duo when kirishima nudges your elbow. he cocks his head towards bakugo and you understand immediately.
âkatsuki,â you tug at the hem of your boyfriendâs sleeve & look into his eyes with the most tender expression you can muster. âiâm out of lipliner.â
âokay ?â
you hear a snort and you know itâs from sero.
âthereâs nothing âokayâ about it âsuki. i need a new one or else iâll literally die.â
bakugoâs brows knit in confusion. âis this your way of begging me for money?â he begins to dig at his wallet and you swat his arm away.
âbeg is insane.â
âi donât need your money.â you snap. âi need my lipliner. nowâ
âjust orderââ ânow.â
âwhat do you mean now? itâs almost nine pm, where the fuck are you going ?â
ânowhere. i just need it.â
âdo you have a fever ?â âkatsuki!â
âi need it now âsuki,â you hug your arms around his body and place your chin on his chest. âif i donât get it right now iâm literally gonna cry.â
your lips jut into a pout. you can tell heâs about to protest so you take his palm into your own. âitâs not thatâfuck. whatever. where the hell are my keys ?â
he gently nudges you off him before grabbing the car keys off the front table, a string of grumbles leaving his lips as he sets out on the side quest regardless. he shuts the door behind him & suddenly the room buzzes back to life.
ây/n your pussy cannot be that good.â
âliterally what iâm saying bro.â
âho did you use rose quartz on him ??â
âi always knew you were a witch for real.â
âthis whole interaction just piss me off.â
âiâm going home. denki and kiri, you owe me fifty bucks each.â
âEACH ?â
( bonus )
itâs nearly half an hour later & katsuki isnât back so youâre starting to get worried. sero and the gang have already left, leaving you to deal with the growing anxiety by yourself. you finally decided to text your boyfriend only to find heâs sent you several messages already:
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