#more than words mieko

[wlrsna]

the beauty of aroaces characters that have SO MUCH love, that irradiates care on they own special way, that love the people around them SO SO SO MUCH that they can't barely say a word about it-

[starrgaziinggg]

all I need is you

Hyunjin x reader, established relationship, fluff

-> 1.4k words

You almost don't notice the space beside you being filled. It had been hours, just staring at the city below you as the wind forced goosebumps to rise on your arms. Being alone had never bothered you much until today. Watching groups of friends gossiping around campus on your first day back only fuelled your desire to have a friend group of your own.

Girls you could talk about anything with. Guys that teased you lovingly. A firm body of people around you. It wasn't as though you'd never had friends, it was more so you couldn't find the place you naturally fit in. You were never any good at long term friendships, finding the forced nature of them disconcerting.

Hyunjin drops a hoodie on your lap before nestling in beside you, the make shift outdoor sofa you'd created one bored night being the only source of comfort on your rooftop. Until Hyunjin, of course. His warm aura brings you comfort even on your darkest days.

"Figured you'd be freezing to death up here," he chuckles, grabbing both of your hands in his to warm them. His freshly dyed black hair (a shame to you, since you'd loved the red, but his boss did not) blows into his face as he turns to give you a lopsided grin.

It's almost comical how at ease you feel now he's by your side, your feelings of loneliness evaporating almost instantly. He was a stroke of luck, Hyunjin, seemingly finding you when you needed him most. An art student, working long shifts in a local cafe to get by, who'd become a recluse voluntarily.

The bookstore you'd first met in was always desolate. You'd no idea how the small gem managed to stay afloat, since you were almost always the only person that bothered to give it time. It was one of your favourite places, the sole owner knowing you by name.

Six chapters into rereading your favourite book and there he was, nudging your foot with his as he flopped onto the beanbag beside you.

"Heaven, by Mieko Kawakami," he read aloud, tilting his head at you inquisitively. "Any good?"

A couple seconds after the shock of a gorgeous man interrupting your evening routine, you nod slowly.

"It's my favourite," you had replied in a small voice, confused as to why this god crafted human being was in a run down bookshop behind your apartment block, and why he was giving you the time of day.

"Tell me about it," he's said, shrugging his shoulders and leaning back, patiently waiting.

So you delved into a ramble about the basis of the book and why it meant so much to you, the premise of morality and why people do the things they do. And the whole time Hyunjin, as you'd come to discover his name, sat listening intently, nodding along without interrupting once.

When you'd concluded, realising you had been speaking much longer than you probably should have been, he raised his eyebrows.

"You know, I was never any good at English in school. I slept through every book analysis my dull ass English teacher ever attempted. And, I actually only came in here because it's one of the only stores in the area that has this art book I need, but I could probably listen to you talk about how to tie my own shoelaces and still be entranced."

The shellshock of Hyunjin's immediate interest in you took weeks to dissipate. You'd talked until the owner of the bookstore told you (lovingly) to beat it, and then some. The next day, you'd completed your summer university coursework in the cafe he worked at until his shift finished and then walked aimlessly around the area, never running out of topics to discuss.

And that was that. Within months you knew everything about each other. He took you to his favourite museum one day, explaining the intricacies behind every painting, and all you could do was watch him in awe. He walked you home, told you you were his favourite person in the universe, and kissed you because he meant it.

You'd never thought of yourself as a lucky person, but in that moment it was as though all your good karma had willed itself into existence.

"What's going on inside that head, pretty?" He says now, tilting your head up with his finger to meet his gaze.

"Nothing majorly substantial," you reply lazily, kissing his nose lightly and making him laugh. You tug on the jumper he'd brought you, a thick hoodie he'd bought recently, as he pulls an arm around your shoulders.

"Every thought you have is substantial," he says matter-of-factly, turning back to look at the view. The city noises dulled as he spoke, car horns and music white noise in the distance. "Even the ones about cats and why they're better than dogs."

"They are," you glare at him, which he just rolls his eyes at. You sit in silence for a couple minutes, enjoying his company as he traces circles on your bare legs absentmindedly. "How was your shift today?"

"Same old," he replies, pulling a hand through his disheveled hair. "You should come in after your classes tomorrow, sit with me behind the counter."

"You're lucky your boss likes you," you chuckle, bumping his shoulder lightly with yours. "I'm there every other day."

"Chan doesn't care," Hyunjin assures with a smile. "He likes you. He actually invited you along to our work night out next weekend."

"He did?" You ask, your attention piquing.

Hyunjin hums in response. "Yeah, but it will be a whole lot of Riki terrorising everyone and risking getting himself fired," he laughs. "That kid is a menace."

"Do you want me to come?" You ask sincerely, doe eyes blinking up at the man you were wholeheartedly in love with. He looks back at you with such adoration your heart physically swells in your chest.

"Of course," he answers instantly, his brows furrowed. "Everyone I work with probably likes you more than they like me. In fact, they've stated it more than once. Plus, I'd get to show off my pretty girlfriend, and I need you for morale support against Riki."

The grin appears of your face quicker than lightening as you nestle your head into Hyunjin's shoulder.

"Sometimes I think I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have you in my life, you know," you mumble. "I don't know what I ever did to deserve you."

You feel Hyunjin shake his head above you, before reaching for your face with both hands and making you stare at him.

"You're perfect, love," he smiles, rubbing his thumb against your cold cheek. "You can be a stubborn thing, but I love you for it. If you could see yourself through my eyes you'd understand why I'm so infatuated with you."

You can't help but to roll your eyes, a natural instinct to any compliment you receive. He shakes you gently as you laugh, as if attempting to rid you of all your negative thoughts.

"Now, get your ass inside your apartment. It's fucking freezing out here, and I'm shattered," he groans, standing up and pulling you along with him.

"You're staying over?" You ask excitedly, knowing he was going to classes early in the morning.

"Duh," he says sassily, leading you through the fire escape after intertwining your hand with his own. "I missed you like crazy at work today. Chan's new no phone rule is kicking my ass and I need a cuddle."

You laugh, following him down the stairs in your apartment building like a puppy. "You're cute today."

"I'm cute everyday," he counters, turning to tilt his head at you. You stop for a second, just staring down at him.

"I love you, you know?" You say, as if he's not already aware of how deep your feelings run for him. He just grins back at you, tugging you down the stairs and into his embrace.

“I love you too, angel,” he replies whilst wrapping his arms tightly around you.

Maybe you would never have the amount of friends you’d always desired. Maybe those deep rooted feelings of loneliness would never fully dissipate. But with Hyunjin by your side, you felt as though you didn’t need anything more.

I wrote this last night and wasn’t going to post it but I think it’s cute so here you go :) sorry for the inactivity, I am swamped rn but I’m trying my best!

[writingmochi]

motion picture soundtrack | a trailer

cast: heeseung ✗ fem.reader

synopsis: a teenager with tormenting demons following behind her moves to a new school when she encounters a boy who has his own set of demons. together, they confide with one another's similarities as well as through music when the boy introduces the teen to his current obsession: the dreamy pop soundscape of moonstruck.

genre: coming of age, realistic fiction, bildungsroman, slice of life, drama, romance, high school au, early 2000s au, angst, fluff, mature content (bullying, harassment, explicit smut)

inspired by: music radiohead's "motion picture soundtrack" (2000), movie all about lily chou-chou (2001) and literature “heaven” by mieko kawakami (2009)

word count: 568 (teaser)

taglist? drop a comment/reblog or send an ask!

release: (hopefully) late january - early february

the green exit sign shines above you as you push open the door to the rooftop. another gush of wind, albeit harder, blows against your face and body as you carefully let go of the door so it doesn’t slam into the frame. you could see the view you saw from the lower floor, but it was much, much smaller and blurry. stepping more onto the open space and underneath the noon sun, you walked towards the edge of the rooftop fenced with fences even taller than you, much different from the half walls you see on your previous schools’ rooftop. your hand reaches for the fence, feeling your fingers wrapping around one of its holes as you can visualize the cage changing into the sight of the skirt-wearing girls’ legs that were also caging you as you don’t want to look up. memories that seemed so long ago, even though it was from months before today.

sighing, you turn your head to walk towards the side of the door so that no one can see you when they arrive at the rooftop. pressing your hand against the walkman that is between your armpit, you put on the headset and cover your ears as you walk towards a wall: a barrier from the box containing the staircase down. turning around, you glance down and hold onto your walkman as you slowly slide down against the wall. your finger pressing the power button as you see the light turning on alongside the whirling of the cd inside. you press the rewind button as the cd rapidly spins before a sudden stop, and then you are met with the sound of a subdued synth piano coming.

you rested your head against the wall, closing your eyes as you let the breeze blow against you as you breathed in and out the clear air. the beautiful sound going on in your ear captures the moment so well that you can sense the weight of rest landed on you, making your body calmer as you capture the notion of sleepiness once again from the hard nights of not even getting a minute of sleep. your legs stretched in front of you, feeling your muscles relaxing as your body releases the tension it endures on nearly every muscle.

letting out an enormous sigh, you open your eyes to find a silhouette right across from you. blinking away the blurriness, you tuck your legs closer to your chest as you stare at the figure. a figure you recognize.

a boy with his own pair of earbuds inserted into his ears, connected to the cd walkman he has lying beside his body. the school blazer opens more with the gust as you find more of his broad shoulders. the hair fallen by his forehead blows along with the wind as he watches you. his wide eyes on you.

here you two are, sitting on the walled area beside the rooftop entrance where the rest of the roof is barricaded by the fences. music enters each of your ears with both your headset and his earbuds on. you wanted to stand up and walk away to find another place, but you stayed as you eyed him. his gaze looks between your face before towards your blazer, scanning your name etched there. and you do the same.

the boy sitting on the desk behind you: lee heeseung.

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[saburaii]

              サブ — the living dead, 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐚 𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐩𝐬𝐞 - 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐡.

                                     can't you see that i'm busy .

                                        — 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.

                                        english - speaker, 21+.

                                   high - activity & high - muse.

TRIGGER WARNING: nsfw & violence; blood will be present.

SABU IS SHIPPED WITH MIEKO @tsunoii.

𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄.

✞ ( FULL NAME ) - saburai ito. ✞ ( NICKNAME ) - sabu. ✞ ( AGE ) - 18 - 43 ( verse dependent ). ✞ ( SPECIES ) - human. ✞ ( GENDER ) - cis-male. ✞ ( BIRTHDAY ) - october 13th. ✞ ( OCCUPATION ) - yakuza heir.

✞ ( HAIR ) - deep, crimson red - dyed, spikey & longer on the top, short on the sides mohawk. REF. ✞ ( EYES ) - golden - brown. ✞ ( HEIGHT ) - 6'6". ✞ ( OTHER ) - full body yakuza - style tattoos, lion - themed. including the back of his neck, down the knuckles, ankles and all else. multiple ear piercings, gauges on the lobes. three jacob’s ladder piercings. severe facial wound, ripped from the lip to the top of his jaw on the right side, will only keep uncovered around people who he trusts. otherwise, covered with a face - mask, or a bandana - depending on the day.

raised from birth in a family of yakuza, sabu is considered a yakuza prince. he has no real want the lead the group that he was born into, despite having all the rights to its assets. prefers to be a silent leader, rather than an up - lifting, present one. very off - putting to those who talk to him. not apt to give away personal information, he holds the rights to all of the riches his family passed off to him. will only give his name as SABU .

early life, high - school.

in youth, sabu was less of a quiet, level - headed person. filled with lots of rage towards his family, especially his father for the way he was raised; constantly thrown into ever - growing dangerous situations. as the second - oldest son in the family, he held little worth in their eyes, lacking the potential to become the next head of their family business. being tossed into underground fighting rings, learning to fight for himself at a young age - his anger was constant. lashing out in different ways, whether it was wreaking havoc on the maids or picking pointless fights at school. he acquired a love for all things violence - filled, horror movies, rock music, degrading pornographic imagery - occult paraphernalia.

when he was nineteen, his face injury occurred - the product of an illegal underground fight; where his opponent used his teeth to rip the skin from sabu’s face. tearing on the right side, from the top of his jawline to the chin, ripping half the lip. the worst pain that he had ever felt in his entire life. with a family that did not believe heavily in the support of doctors or hospitals, he was left to at home remedies, with little care from his parents if he lived or died. relying on heavy pain - killers & incredibly painful methods to ensure that it scarred up enough to keep from infecting.

soon after his facial injury, he became reliant on the painkillers - taking them more often than he didn’t; mellowing out his personality a great deal. a relief to anyone that had to withstand him working at his parent’s mansion.

the death of his older brother became the conspiracy that had many thinking of him as a monster. convinced that he would kill his own sibling to solidify his place as the heir to the family business, giving him all of the rights to the family fortune. the truth behind his brother’s murder remains a mystery, and he refuses to say a word on it; his younger sister taking the side of believing that he had a hand in it, but he remains apathetic.

present.

after many years, sabu still retains his favored gothic aesthetic; considered to be quite extra about it. his home is decorated in blacks & reds; his two favorite colors. most of his business remains a mystery to those who are not involved - only keeping few close acquaintances.

his only real close friend is a single right - hand man, with a child who he quite openly treats as a niece. estranged from his own family, the yakuza that he maintains is closer to a family than his true blood to him; not that he openly admits to such.

at forty - three, he no longer possesses the same aggressive personality that he once had. becoming someone a lot more cold & calculating over the years; be - fitting of a leader

[johnnyraine]

Top Shows I Watched in 2023 (not of)

SPOILERS!

7. Loki (Season 2) - 6.5/10

I don't have much to say about Loki other than I loved the final episode, Natalie Holt deserves some kind of award for her music and it makes me cry.

6. One Piece (Live Action) - 6.5/10

As everyone has already said, this should not have worked. I didn't have much faith in it, but I chose to watch it anyway. And I'm glad I did.

Though there were moments of stiff acting and/or line delivery, I still like it overall.

Though I still liked Roger's anime death more than here.

5. My Beautiful Man/Utsukushii kare (Season 2) - 7/10

I don't remember much considering I watched this months ago. But I do recall wanting and waiting for this for a WHILE. I was not disappointed and Utsukushii Kare stands as my favorite BL series. Minato's Laundromat would've been on the list, but it failed me, Utsukushii Kare hasn't. So yeah.

4. Jack O' Frost (2023) - 6/10

I have issues with the whole "an MC has amnesia" plot and considering this has happened 3 times in the same year is crazy to me.

But do recall I Fucking LOVE the music! OOOOHHHH, Shit! I love it. As soon as "Winter Days" started playing during episode 2 or 3, I immediately started looking for the soundtrack.

I also have yet another celebrity crush in Kyoya Honda.

3. Taira no Kiyomori - 8/10

This is unfair given the fact I started this last year and left for a month, making me finish this in January or February. But I still finished in 2023, so it counts!

As per my previous review, I was fucking bored with the first 6 to 9 episodes. After them, however, I loved this show. I love the music, I love the characters, and I like some of the comedy. There are so many great moments that I absolutely love.

Despite knowing how it ended, historically, I was still upset at the characters' deaths.

2. More Than Words (2022) - 6/10

I heard this was a Japanese BL, my favorite type of BL, and I guess. But as others have said, it's mostly about the relationship between Makio and Mieko. Though perhaps not for the second part of the story...

Anyway, I loved this show. It fucked me up, but I did stay up all night till 12 or 1 am to finish it, and I couldn't stop thinking about it for a month. So yeah, despite the score, I am putting it up here.

1. Kamakura dono no 13 nin/13 Lords of the Shogun - 7/10

HERE COMES THE MAIN MAN HIMSELF, KŌKI MITANI!

The main man himself, the man who wrote my favorite Taiga Drama, SANADA MARU! No wonder I was fucking addicted to this show. For first time in A WHILE I watched and finished this entire show in a week.

I was drawn into this show by the fucking neck. I just was.

I remember seeing You Oizumi as Minamoto no Yoritomo and thinking, "Nah." I couldn't get behind him, I simply didn't see it at first. Then he died and literally episodes later, I was missing this man.

All my favorite characters died. ALL! And since I don't know much about the Heian nor Kamakura period, I was taken out. Fucking Kazusa, dead; Minamoto no Yoshinaka, I knew this was so it's my fault, but dead; fucking Wada Yoshimori, I fucking loved him, and I didn't know it! DEAD!

They killed my pathetic twink, Minamoto no Sanetomo. And he was gay! FUCK! I was heavily upset.

And the fact that it ends with Yoshitoko's death via his sister not giving him his medicine and watching him die! Gods dammmmmnnn!

Kōki Mitani you heavenly fucker! Ah!

I also love the music, one of my favorites Taiga drama themes.

Now, that wasn't all I watched, but simply all I felt should be on the list. I refuse to put ten shows up here if I don't care enough for them.

Here's to another year.

[night-dark-woods]

2023 Book Recap!

i really figured out this year what i like and don't like in a book i think, at least for scifi/fantasy books.

that ursula le guin quote about genre: "Ignoring all this, our novice is just about to reinvent the wheel, the space ship, the space alien, and the mad scientist, with cries of innocent wonder. The cries will not be echoed by the readers. Readers familiar with that genre have met the space ship, the alien, and the mad scientist before. They know more about them than the writer does."

& something one of the boys on the stephen king podcast said, where he described being familiar with a genre or medium as seeing the seams, and then a bit later as being like an erector set, where you can see all the pieces.

and that's really it, like bc i have read so much scifi and fantasy, every novel is an erector set. i know what the pieces of the kit are, and what they're supposed to build, so i can recognize when its built well and when its built poorly, and i can recognize when someone does something really cool and different with those kit pieces. but if someone doesnt do anything good or interesting with them, its just a pile of pieces, and that's not enough for me.

so, in descending rating order, books i read this year:

5/5:

The Broken Earth Trilogy by N K Jemison: spectacularly original worldbuilding, heartwrenching story, delightful narrative devices. getting added to the favorites shelf with Baru.

The Three Body Problem by Liu Cixin: very fun hard scifi book. if i don't have to google a math concept while reading your scifi book im not interested. i have not yet read the sequels but will.

Machineries of Empire Trilogy by Yoon Ha Lee: great military space opera with REALLY cool novel worldbuilding (the technology of the empire functions because of a high calendar maintained by ritual sacrifice!!!) and very neatly executed plots.

4/5:

How The Light Gets In by Louise Penney: perfectly enjoyable mystery novel i read to bond with my mother. old ladies who saw it sitting next to my register at work were at first delighted i was reading it and then aghast that i was reading one from the middle of the series out of order.

Dead Silence by S A Barnes: fast-paced scifi psychological horror, delivered exactly what i was expecting.

Mistakes Were Made by Meryl Wilsner: doctor mechanic fic with the serial numbers scrubbed. also exactly what it says on the tin.

Plain Bad Heroines by Emily M Danforth: fun gay story that jumps around in time and has several cool narrative styles including whatever it is where there are in-universe texts included with the story narrative.

The Luminous Dead by Caitlin Starling: scifi cave-diving survival horror with a homoerotic relationship between the caver and her handler. loses a star for an underwhelming ending but overall it ruled i love survival books.

Blindsight by Peter Watts: this book made me the maddest a book has made me since i read The Word for World is Forest in high school and got so upset at one of the characters that i made myself nauseous. on the one hand the worldbuilding was very intricate and interesting and its a truly fascinating first contact story, and on the other hand i want to fight the author in a parking lot for how eco-fascist and misanthropic the thesis statement is. this book pissed me off but its also going to be something i will reread and also think about for a long time, and for that it can get a 4.

3/5:

The Archive Undying by Emma Mieko Candon: cool far-future post-apocalypse with ai gods, about bodily horror and autonomy when youre dealing with high tech divine possession. good book but not for me.

This Is How You Lose The Time War by Max Gladstone and Amal El-Mohtar: fine, underwhelming. novel equivalent of a montage and the prose didn't wow me.

Acceptance by Jeff Vandermeer: made me realize what i want from him is an actual ecology book i would love that but i hate his fiction.

The Cartographers by Peng Shepherd: would have been higher if it had a stronger conclusion, fun concept though and it was fun to see the ways it referenced Hill House. speaking of:

The Haunting of Hill House by Shirley Jackson: alright, i havent read enough horror to know what i like but this wasn't it, im glad i read it though.

2/5:

Stories of Your Life and Others by Ted Chiang: fine, none of the story concepts were compelling to me so it was hard to like any of them, though the Tower of Babylon was fun.

The Long Way to a Small Angry Planet by Becky Chambers: no stakes, boring, no thought put into the politics of the setting or the plot.

Authority by Jeff Vandermeer: absolute fucking slog of a book with a boring protag.

She Who Became The Sun by Shelley Parker-Chan: i dont like historical figures rewritten to be lgbt, i think the pacing and tone was inconsistent, and if youre going to write a book about a military campaign you need to actually care about writing military engagments and logistics. also as my friend Jake said. for a novel trying to do something with gender, there sure arent very many women.

1/5:

none apparently!

[artandpunishment]

listennnn i know haruki murakami is not a great guy. the interview he had with mieko kawakami did not help is undermining women streak (which he has practiced in 99% of his written works). but god damn does he have a vision and sticks to it!!

to be completely honest, killing commendatore was a much better approach to creativity than 1Q84. 1Q84 is definitely one of his more disgusting works. at least in killing commendatore there was no actual sex with a minor and any explicit discussions of doing so. yes, there was a dubious dream pregnancy, but at least it was more ominous and didn't sideline and be little the only female protagonist in the novel.

novelist as a vocation was an amazing insight into writing. finally, a book about writing by an author that didn't read as gimmicky or fucking pretentious. the essays were comprehensive and well structured. and his words, don't write unless you can no longer fight the urge to is incredible. i read the book a year ago, maybe slightly more than that, and i have written a solid amount. i am much more confident and secure with my writing as well. days of stagnancy will pass. i will bite my tongue, beat my thighs, and begrudgingly sit and begin to type. and now I am writing this with admiration and surprise.

i have become so overwhelmed with enamor and awe at this surge of thoughts splaying out. it is suffocating and motivating.

[saburaito]

care, sender takes care of receiver when they're sick.

HE DOESN'T OFTEN SHOW WHEN HE IS SICK, disliking the idea of having to show his symptoms of being human. not being able to move from his bed is something that he finds to be more of a hassle than anything else. he has work to be done, he can't put it aside because of illness. work never rests, and neither can he. despite being in his bed, he still has an array of papers scattered around him. sitting up as much as he can to look at them. MIEKO DOESN'T SEEM TO TAKE 'NO' FOR AN ANSWER, she wants to show that she cares for him. he finds it demeaning more than anything else, but he can't appear that he is rude. feeling the need to be accepting of her help. though, he would much rather hide himself away & be alone while he is sick. the last thing that he wants is for someone to witness it. hiding is so much more difficult when the person in question lives with him. she caught on from the moment that his patterns changed; because SABU is a creature of habit. the moment that he is not out of bed like usual, she knew that he was feeling unwell.

looking up from his paperwork when she enters the room, in her hands: a hot drink. it's TEA. for his throat, and to soothe his stomach. he reaches out with both hands to take it, bringing it up to his lips. he tilts his head cautiously, not wanting to spill it all over his bed in the process of drinking it. he can only take cautious little sips. ❝ thank you, mieko. ❞ his voice is raspier than usual, struggling out the words with his throat agitated. pulling away a pile of papers, he makes some room for her on the bed, in case that she wants to stay. it is the closest thing to an invitation that she wil receive from him.

[winter-cheshire-writings]

Echoes and Experiments : Chapter 14

Mieko stood over her uncle with a deadly look in her eyes. “If you continue to force the issue in front of me, Uncle, I can guarantee that I will absolutely not hold back.” she stated. “You are NOT the head of the family, and therefore you are in no position to ‘force’ any marriage contracts.” She added, tilting her head to the side. Klee and the other children had been taken outside by Traveler well before this started. “And how dare you insult me by saying I'm no longer the first daughter. My parents never disowned me.” She added, Amane sitting on the side, eyes wide in surprise. “Another thing. Stop grasping at straws. Calx owes you nothing.” she added. 

“Mie, dear, calm.” her aunt said, pouring tea for her niece and the others. “He's been drinking. It was a slip of the tongue.”

“Are you condoning him trying to force all 3 of your daughters to marry? And his attempt at swindling my darling out of mora?” Mieko asked, the woman looking up at her. 

“No. But you're clearly upset.”

“Azusa is 16, Aunt Saku. Emiko is only 13. Amane may be 24, but she's also busy working. Are you saying a woman's worth is only in the worth of the husband she marries? And are you saying that we owe you anything?” She asked, tilting her head. “Because if you are, you're just as bad.”

“Now, now.” The woman chuckled. “Calm down before you ruin your kimono. Your partner bought it for you.” She said, Mieko stopping instantly. 

“I honestly don't mind if she does ruin it, but I find it highly inappropriate for a child not much older than my own sister to be propositioned for marriage.” Albedo stated, Ayato smiling at the answer. 

“Agreed. Ayaka is only 19, but I would never force her to marry.” he added, causing the house patriarch to freeze. “Do watch your words, Akazawa-san. You might offend our very special guest.” he chuckled. 

“M-My apologies, Kamisato-sama.”

“Very good. Mie. I think you should go.”

“Gladly.” She said, offering her hand to Albedo before heading for the door with Ayato. Albedo had never seen Mieko get so upset before, but he supposed she had good reason. He walked out with her, telling Traveler to get Klee back safely before walking with Mieko in the opposite direction of the place they were staying, to allow her to calm down. Finally, when her anger settled after they had walked for a while, he turned her to face him. “Forgive me, Albedo… I didn't mean to-”

“It's alright.” he kissed her cheek. “I agreed with you fully, a child of 13 should never have to start accepting proposals of marriage candidacy.” he stated. “Your Aunt just wanted to keep the peace.”

“Still…” she leaned her forehead against his. “I snapped at Uncle… I caused a fuss infront of Ayato…” she sighed. “What's wrong with me?”

“You're irritable from your insomnia and your exhaustion is causing your temper to have a short fuse.” he said honestly. “But you notice… It's only in the heat of the moment that you have trouble controlling it.” he kissed her cheeks more, lifting her face with one hand. “It's alright.”

“It's not…” she replied, letting him move in and kiss her lips slowly, leaning into him. “I'm a mess…”

“You're beautiful, even if you think you're a mess.” he smiled, cradling her cheek. “Once I'm done with work, let's go on a date around the festival, okay?” he smiled. “I want you to try and rest in the mean time.”

“I… I'll try, for you…” she replied, Albedo nuzzling her and allowing her to relax. She really was falling apart in his hands, but all he could do was comfort her. The potions and remedies only did so much. He hoped a date and lots of affection might mitigate the issue, but he also knew she was burning out. There was only so much he could do for her there. 

“Once we go back on the way to Mondstadt, would you like to do me a favor?”

“A favor?”

“Let me work on a business plan with you, for Echoes.” He stated. “I want to help, even if you won't accept my financing.”

“Albedo…” She stared at him, biting her lip. “You… Would do that for me?”

“Of course I would.” He smiled. “And if it fails, then you don't have to shoulder the burden alone.”

“You spoil me.” She smiled, tears flooding her eyes. “Ah, look at this, I’m such a crybaby…” she closed her eyes, laughing a little.

“You're fine, Mie.” Albedo leaned in and kissed the tears away. “Everything will be okay.”

-

After the whole fiasco of the missing books, Mieko was better rested. Thankfully her family had left her alone the entire time, she assumed Ayato gave an order, considering he had come by to see her twice. She thought, at one point, she had seen her parents while outside with Albedo as he worked. However, she hid behind his canvas, and he didn't say anything. She had also been experiencing dizzy spells when she moved too fast, but she hoped that was just the exhaustion catching up with her. She got herself ready in the outfit Albedo had purchased for her, sighing as she did her best to replicate Albedo's hairstyle, a little embarrassed by the thought. He had taken to, while they were here, doing her hair for her in the morning. So she hoped this would be a nice surprise for him. She took a deep breath, checking herself in the mirror. She had put on the nice set of lingerie underneath this, since she knew Albedo would appreciate it, even if he hadn't been doing much to her because Klee was around. Albedo was waiting, so she took her pouch and headed to meet him outside. When she arrived, he was talking to someone from the publishing house, so she waited for a moment. The publishing house worker noticed her and smiled, motioning to Mieko and had Albedo turn around to see her.  His eyes went wide and he walked right to her, taking her hand and lifting it to his lips. “My Mie… You look stunning.”

“Do I?” She smiled. “I'm glad you think so…” she held his hand after he squeezed it, leaning over to kiss his cheek. “I'm looking forward to spending time with you properly.” 

“Oh… I look forward to it as well.” He replied, staring at her for a moment, in mild awe. She seemed more confident, like how he wished she could feel all the time. But the feeling she was giving off also made his heart race so intensely that his legs felt weak for a moment. Albedo lead her down to the festival area, but once there Mieko took the lead. They enjoyed the night together, soon coming across a little booth. 

“Care to tie your string of fate tonight, young ones?” An elderly woman asked, smiling at them. 

“Oh? String of fate?” Mieko asked, smiling. “Now there's something I haven't heard since I was young.”

“Oh? What is it?” Albedo asked. 

“The red string of fate is one that ties you to your destined, your soul mate.” The old woman smiled at them. “You two look like good candidates.”

“Do we?” Albedo chuckled. “I do recall hearing about this during one of my previous trips, however… The version I heard was more… Intimate.”

“Ah, so you have heard the version the younguns started telling more recently in their novels.” The old woman chuckled. “A very superficial version.”

“Yes, I recall.” Albedo smiled, Mieko tilting her head at him. “I think I would like to try anyway.”

“Very good. Your hands, dearies.” The woman said, tying their hands with a special know together, Mieko smiling. “If you two can manage to not break the string until morning, then you two will be bound together until death do you part.” The elderly woman said, smiling. Albedo handed her some Mora and Mieko bowed to her before they went off, walking hand in hand. 

“I didn't think people did this anymore.” Mieko said, cheeks pink but a smile still on her face. “Most people see the red string as just a fairy tale.”

“It's a very interesting story. The original was a little more harsh, but…” Albedo squeezed her hand as they headed back to their lodgings. “I think… We should try the more… Superficial version for ourselves.” He chuckled, pulling Mieko against one of the walls outside of the building and holding her against him. “You really are stunning in that outfit…”

“Oh… But my dear, wait till you see…” she chuckled, leaning against him and pressing their hips together, Albedo's cheeks coloring at the sudden show of initiative from his partner. “What I'm wearing underneath.”

“Oh?” Albedo smiled. “Then let's go.” He lead her inside and right to their room, pinning her to the wall upon entering the bedroom. “Mie…”

“Yes, Albedo?”

“You're beautiful.” He said, holding her hand tight before kissing her, helping her slowly out of her outfit with one hand. Albedo felt her tangling her fingers in his hair, gladly leaning further into their kiss while undressing her. 

-

The next morning, Mieko was still asleep when Albedo awoke, the ashy blonde smiling as he noticed a few marks he had left on her. “Sorry, Mie… I didn't realize how badly I wanted you.” He said, petting her head with one hand. He glanced down at their hands, which were still tied with the red string, his heart feeling lighter than air again. “Ah… It stayed intact.” he smiled, playing with her hair as she slept, admiring her sleeping face. “Does that mean you're mine, forever?” he asked. “Or at least until death comes for one of us?”

“Albedo…?”

“Yes, Mie?”

“Nnn, you're up early.” she rubbed her eyes, blushing as she realized they were still tied together. “Oh…? It's still tied…”

“It's not a bad thing, is it?”

“No, not at all.” She smiled at him. “It's… Nice…”

“You don't sound too pleased.” he clung to her hand a little. “Are you still tired? You should try and get more sleep.”

“I'll try.” They took their time getting up, finally undoing the string and packing it away to take home with them. Albedo made sure they took their time, and tied up her hair once she got dressed. They spent the morning with Klee, then handed her off to be watched over by traveler at their insistence after lunch. 

“You two need to spend more time alone.” Traveler said simply, giving them a sly smile. “Go have fun. Go on a walk or something, away from all the crowds, since there’s no Dragonspine for you two to go escaping to.” They took the opportunity after thanking Traveler and telling Klee they would be back, walking hand in hand towards the main island of Inazuma. They chatted about small things, mostly enjoying one another’s company and the chance to have some quiet time alone. They stopped a few times on their walk to take in the view and sketch, or just to sit with one another. 

“We should get something for Traveler, to thank them.” Mieko said as they began getting closer to the city.

“Yes, we should. Perhaps we'll find something in Inazuma city?” He lead her on the path over to the City, but along the way they encountered a situation. A group of ronin were bothering an elderly couple, but not just any couple. They both had some traits that made Albedo stare a bit. The woman had purple eyes, and though her hair was blackish-blue, it was strangely familiar. And the elderly man, though his hair was greying, had a familiar gradient to his hair and a disposition of protectiveness that Albedo recognized even at this distance. “Are those perhaps…?”

“My parents.” Mieko said as she began walking over, drawing out her weapon. “Don't interfere, Albedo.”

“Whatever you say, darling.” He smiled, watching her walk right up behind one of the ronin, slamming her weapon into the back of his knees. When they turned to confront her, she slashed at them and took them all down quicker than Albedo had ever seen her go after any other enemy. 

“Mie?” The woman asked, Mieko taking a deep breath before turning to look at them with a small smile. 

“Hello, Mother. Father.”

“You were here. I assumed you would be, if your favorite artist was here.” Her mother smiled kindly, reminding Albedo of his darling when she was happy. Her father's face was stern, and he could see where Mieko got her usual expression from. He walked over, clapping. 

“A stunning job, Mie. I don't think I've ever seen you fight so well.” He smiled. “6 ronin all at once is quite a feat.”

“Please, it wasn't…”

“Oh? Isn't this Calx, Mie?” Her mother pointed out, chatting with Albedo a bit as Mieko stood on the side. 

“What took you so long to come home?” Her father asked.

“Why were you out here with mother with no escorts?” She retorted. “You aren't young anymore… Stop trying to show off.” She added, her father not replying to her. Albedo noticed and moved to take Mieko's hand, making her cheeks burn. 

“I think we should tell them properly, don't you?” he smiled, Mieko staring at him, biting her lip. He turned to her parents and explained that they were dating, giving them his name rather than his alias and thanking them for allowing her to stay in Mondstadt after everything that she had gone through. “If she hadn't stayed, I wouldn't have met her.” He smiled. 

“Oh, no need to thank us for that.” Mieko's mother chuckled. “Mie would have run away if we had tried to bring her home. She loves Mondstadt.” They talked while walking towards Ritou, Mieko hanging back and keeping an eye out on the surroundings. She was tuning out most of the talk, just chiming in when addressed by Albedo or her mother. But when they arrived, they said something to Albedo that made Mieko freeze in place. 

“Please take care of our daughter.” 

“Of course.” Albedo smiled, waving them off. Mieko just stood stunned until they walked away. “Something wrong, darling?”

“Ugh…” Mieko held her face in her hands. “I can't believe them…”

“What's wrong?”

“That's essentially them asking you to take care of me for the rest of our lives…”

“And?”

“Meaning they want us to get married.”

“Oh?” Albedo took her hand. “Does that trouble you?”

“It does… I can't burden you like that.” she shook her head. Albedo just held her hand and let her grumble to herself. “What are they thinking?”

“Perhaps… They're just worrying about you in a way that doesn't impede your personal goals?”

“Is… That what it seemed like to you, Albedo?”

“I cannot say for certain. But it is clear that your mother, at least, just wants you to be happy and write to her more.” He smiled. “You weren't paying attention during the conversation, shall I fill you in over some dessert? Or are you not hungry?”

“I… I'll eat if you do.”

[reviewsthatburn]

THE ARCHIVE UNDYING by Emma Mieko Candon hits my brain like an achillean version of THE TIGER FLU by Larissa Lai or THE ALL-CONSUMING WORLD by Cassandra Khaw, combining viscera and technology to create liminal immortality in an ongoing negotiation, tenuous and vital. 

I love stories with worldbuilding that is immersive, not waiting for the reader to catch up, but just letting the story unfold; only explaining things that someone in the world would need stated, more explicitly. THE ARCHIVE UNDYING provides explanations late, intertwined with regret. 

Full review at link

[fizzingwizard]

Also stopped in on an English book sale at Kinokuniya.

It was fun, but I struggled to find something to buy. Modern trends in literature treat any sentence longer than eight words as purple prose. I'm so sick and tired of writing that just states and never conveys. Let me feel something! Let writing be artistic.

I feel like so many modern writers rely on first person POV to do all the emotional heavy lifting. There are many very good books in first person that I love. But I think some writers who use it don't know why they're using it: they just know it's trendy. There's more to first person than just writing "I" a lot.

And I don't need to be slammed in the face with flowery emptiness, but I do hate the current popularity of the minimalist approach. It can be useful when the purpose is to create distance between readers and characters, or reflect the characters' apathy for life. But I swear it's just everywhere now. I read a book jacket and it's some version of "After losing her job, Sarah is forced to move back home to quiet Nowheresville, Washington, but her world turns upside down when upon arrival she's accused of murder." And then I start reading and can't care about Sarah at all. Midway through she could disappear from the text and I wouldn't even miss her. Too bland to remember. A murder can't make a character interesting. Only the text can do that.

Speaking of murder. The other reason I struggled to find a book was because everything was about a murder! Or a war, especially a fantasy war. Even books that weren't thrillers had some deadly "thrill" involved. I love action stories and thrillers, and most stories need a plot, but my gosh, can no one think of anything else to write about it? Once again it seems like a go-to "This will hook the audience!" but it fails to hook me. Every hero is jaded, every heroine is strong, every dead person is more interesting dead than alive, and all are forgettable to me.

So what I ended up buying was Heaven by Kawakami Mieko. And the reason I bought it was because I opened it and instantly felt I could relate to the characters. Their emotions hit me on the page without melodrama. I know your capacity for that is a matter of taste, trend, and culture. It's not like there's a true right and wrong in terms of how much emotion is too much (or too little). And while it might be tempting to say it's because "women's writing is emotional,and men's writing is about action," it's clearly not true. No one can read Goethe or Kafka - let's not even get started with poets - and come to that conclusion. If anything, it's about trends in men's writing, which are no more than trends. It's incredibly silly to say women's writing is bad because it doesn't follow the trend in men's, especially since when things trend the other way, we'll get some variation of "men have more emotional depth than women who are just hysterical." Seriously, there is nothing you can do as a woman to "win" through the lens of patriarchy. Don't even bother.

I've just begun the book, so I can't say for sure what I'll think of Kawakami in the end. Obviously, this book is translated, but a good translation reflects both the skill of the translator and the artistry of the writer. I also found this article in the New York Times about Kawakami, and there were a few bits I wanted to share.

I'm a fan of Murakami Haruki. He's popular for a reason, and it's nice that that reason isn't that he writes bland, toneless stories. There's so much individuality and voice and deep characterization in his books. But he does get critiqued for his one-note female characters. According to the Times article, Murakami praised Kawakami's work, and Kawakami is a fan of Murakami's. They had this interaction:

This sort of thing is the exact point where men and women find they can't understand each other. For so many straight male writers, a women is sexuality, because that's what women meant to them growing up as men and what effect such a comment from a woman could have. And women are left to wonder what these female characters do when there isn't a man around to make strange sexually-charged comments at, because they don't seem to have any other traits. A woman in men's writing is often more symbolic than she is human. It's not inherently wrong. Anything can be a symbol. But it is noticeable (to women anyway) when a writer uses female characters over and over in the same way without also offering women characters who clearly exist as themselves even when men aren't around.

When you read a romance novel, written by straight women for straight women, you'll probably find something not too dissimilar: a male lead who is more a symbol of the female protagonist's desire, both in a romantic/sexual sense and also in a practical one: if he isn't able to offer her emotional support at first, he learns how to. He fills the gap. He's something of a fantasy more than a human, and he may have interests outside of his lover... but he'll certainly pick her first.

But that's romance novels. They tell you right off the bat that they are a fantasy. They aren't pretending to be deep, raw, philosophical studies on society and the human condition. Novels which aspire to something so lofty should have a higher standard for how they depict their characters, regardless of gender or any other supposedly distinctive descriptors attached to them. You can have your symbolic Sexy Woman, fine, but only if you're clear that that's what you're doing and have other robust female characters who aren't the literary equivalent of the statue of Venus de milo.

The article goes on to say that Kawakami wanted to distance herself from the label of "feminist writer," and to do that she created a male protagonist. It's hard to miss the parallel: Murakami writes male protagonists and leaves symbolism to the females, while Kawakami writes female protagonists and generally avoids male ones. It's only natural that a man would write mainly from the point of view of a man: it reflects his life and growth. And equally, it's only natural that a woman would write about her life and growth as a woman. Neither Murakami nor Kawakami are at fault there. The difference is that Murakami's works don't get labeled "the male perspective" - instead they're held to be intriguing and enlightening to anyone. While Kawakami's works have been called "the female perspective," interesting only to feminists, and garner comments from men such as this beauty:

I think it's important for women world-wide, regardless of where you live or your culture or your privilege, to know that there are men like Ishihara. And that they may be politicians capable of legislating against you. Many men are wonderful and as able to admire a talented female writer as they are to write captivating, reflective novels themselves. We can love them while also being wary of the ones like Ishihara, the ones who throughout history have wielded sexuality, pregnancy, and motherhood as tools to keep our perspectives anything but mainstream.

Many a timeless male writers has written with love and eloquence for humans. Women writers, even when they write exclusively about women, are just the same.

Finally, a slightly unrelated quote, but one that made me smile:

like my goodness, isn't this the point of art? To have Breaking Bad as well as "Breaking Bad but not a macho drama." What's art if you can't break it into pieces and put it together again and have it come out completely different? Th experience of gender isn't immaterial, but is no more than an experience. Not a wall. Why do people limit themselves in what they read (or admire) because someone's "experience" isn't the same as their own? I still remember the revelation to me that was a la mode. Always loved pie, so I thought, what does it need ice cream for? One bite opened up a whole new world. Whenever I hear of people like Ishihara, I figure they must hate pie a la mode.

[saburaito]

𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐋𝐘 𝐇𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐎 𝐀𝐃𝐌𝐈𝐓 𝐓𝐎 𝐀𝐍𝐘 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒, she would have never gotten him to admit to being jealous over a mere story from her day. mieko talked about the cashier in high esteem, just like she would have any one else who helped her out. the fear that she felt in public over the most minor of situations was not shared. SABU didn't fear having to approach someone who was simply doing their job. he lacked the ability to get so frightened over minor social situations. his voice didn't often shake, nor did it crack. he spoke at one baritone level, and he never tended to raise it when he got angry. that was one of his most frightening qualities, his ability to maintain a calm head when he was pissed off at someone. listening to her adoration for the man who had helped her during the day, he couldn't help but feel a twinge of jealousy. having wished that he didn't have such a busy day. if that was the case, he could have been the one that was there for her, instead of some random cashier at a store. they were programmed to be polite to any one that entered the door, but for some reason, the impression that it left on her had him feeling some type of way about it. squeezing his stomach tightly, making him feel nauseous as he read her texts.

she must have picked up on it, from whatever change of tone - or simple lack of ability to answer as quickly, because she had felt the need to apologize for her wording. he had already denied that he was jealous about it. though his words might have been more defensive than they were anything else, he was doing his best to seem as if he was content with her speaking on for longer than she needed to about a random boy that influenced her day. SABU never liked when she could catch onto his emotions, even if it was through text. he tried to keep everything as emotionless as he possibly could, even if it came off as rude when talking about her day. fumbling over his texts back, he knew he had been caught here. don't be dumb, i'm fine. it was a busy day is all, i'm tired. he stops for a moment and considers the rest of his reply, knowing that he is simply making up excuses here. keep telling me about how your day was, i was listening. his day was truthfully far from over, it was only about five p.m. at the moment, which meant that he had plenty more to deal with, depending on how competent that his men felt like being for the night. if things went off without a hitch, he wouldn't have to do anything, just a bit of paperwork. if they decided to make errors left & right, calling their boss for the solution, he would have a night full of talking on the phone, sorting out the details.

❛ you think i’m jealous? ❜

𝐉𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐎𝐔𝐒? 𝐇𝐈𝐌? the idea of it seemed so silly to her, she shouldn't have dared even bring it up. mieko loved to tell him about her day, that was nothing new between the two of them. it was every day, whether he asked or not, he got an in-depth story about how her day went - only today, it might have been more annoying to him than anything else. the long rant about the nice man at the store who had helped her went on for a little bit longer than she had meant, though it was really because she was glad. in public, doing things on her own, mieko always tended to be a little bit overly anxious. he had gotten long talks from her before about being happy over a particularly talkative cashier - but his tone had changed some when she was texting him now. it was always hard to tell with sabu, considering how bland he always was over text. at first, it was impossible to tell when he was mad at her & when he wasn't, when he had never been mad at her before. now, something just seemed off.

maybe her accusation that he was jealous was a little bit extreme, but she hadn't expected him to react so strongly. shooting the question back at her over giving her just a simple no - that was how she was all too aware she was correct. no matter how stupid it felt to assume he may have been jealous, it really seemed like it. when mieko was always so quick to respond to him, the amount of time she was taking now only proved he had intimidated her with his answer, but it wasn't even really that. any time he showed emotion through the way he usually acted - it was so shocking to her. she saw it as him being vulnerable with her. if she reacted the wrong way, he was going to pull away from her & she would never get to see this part of him again. getting emotional over her - even if now, it seemed a little scary... it was a good thing. what she wanted. i'm sorry, finally comes her response to him, likely the exact one that he expected from her. she was always quick to apologize, especially when it came to him. i must have been mistaken, you just seemed upset. how was your day? did something happen?

[whilereadingandwalking]

Breasts and Eggs by Mieko Kawakami, translated by Sam Bett and David Boyd, is a vivid, honest look at contemporary womanhood. It centers on Natsuko, a young woman whose sister Makiko and niece Midoriko are visiting her in Tokyo. The two are in the midst of a fierce mother-daughter battle, and Natsuko is caught between them. In the second part of the novel, we jump forward to see Natsuko as a writer, coping with adult friendships, and quietly thinking about motherhood. 

Single women cannot adopt or use fertilization methods to become pregnant in Japan. And yet Natsuko's life is saturated with strong single mothers, all doing their best to provide their daughter with a good life. It's an honest text, that investigates whether we can actually judge a child's life by their potential parents or parent. Is it a given that a couple will provide a better life for a child than one parent? Does a child have a right to know if the people who raised them aren't their biological parents? 

Natsuko, interestingly, seems to be asexual (she could also, with some imagination, be read as queer). She is averse to sex with men. It makes her desire to be a mother even more complicated, and she talks about the other difficulties—of other people not understanding, of her desire for a romantic but not sexual relationship. It was a compelling addition in a book that dwells quite a bit on bodily autonomy and how we inhabit our bodies as women, from Midoroko's terror at the idea of getting her period, to the dizzy dreams Natsuko has while drunk, to Makiko considering breast implants. 

It's the small touches and connections of the book, Natsuko's tendency to let words wash over her, and her struggle with her past and her future, that make this novel so well done. The themes of sisterhood, motherhood, and female friendship were explored by a cast of real-feeling, vivid characters. Kawakami's writing had me completely hooked—I couldn't put this one down. 

Content warnings for mentions and/or discussion of domestic abuse, sexual assault, child abuse, pedophilia, suicide, cancer, and substance abuse, as well as for transphobia (misgendering) and depiction of sexual harassment.

[dreamescapeswriting]

Full Moon ~ JJK [M] [Request]

➳➳➳Word count: 6.1K

➳➳➳Genre: Smut, AU, fantasy, tiny microscopic angst,

➳➳➳Pairing: Werewolf!Jungkook x Reader

➳➳➳A/N: I changed it a lot as I had just recently read a fic in the same way you asked me to write it and I didn't want to get into trouble by having something similar. That being said I fell totally in love with this and now I'm obsessed with werewolf protective jungkook like wtf. This is a genre I haven't tried before though and I know you said Hybrid so I hope this counts? I know people sometimes say that you still have your tail and things like that but it's not something I would be comfortable with. Hope this is okay. Love you

➳➳➳Warnings: Mentions blood, biting, smut (obviously), breeding.

"There's been another attack!" Someone screamed as they walked over to you and your friend, you were walking through the college campus you turned to look and see Mieko one of your closest friends rushing over and panting out of breath.

"Another attack?" You questioned as you pulled your bag off your shoulder and dug around inside for a bottle of water that you always carried around with you, you were the mum of the friend group so everyone knew they could come to you when they were in dire need or something. A snack, a drink, band-aid, first aid kit, pocket knife and the occasional cheat sheet to a test that you'd stolen from your history teacher when he wasn't paying attention to you. 

"Thanks," She began downing the liquid before leaning against your shoulder for some kind of support, she whipped out her phone scrolling through her Facebook timeline to show you what she was talking about and you rolled your eyes, 

"You know, not everything you read on Facebook is-Oh." You stopped yourself once you saw that it was a real report from a real news station, you began reading through what the article was talking about, apparently, the attack was one of 20 in the last two days. All of the attacker's victims lived to talk about what happened to them, talking about how a man would lore them to an old parked car or they would feel like they were being watched all night before waking up the next day in pain from beatings remembering nothing from the attack itself. It was nothing if not strange to you that so many people had been attacked without recollection of the actual attack happening.

"They're calling a curfew for everyone in the university, we have to be back at our dorms before 9 pm or it'll result in expulsion." She had finally caught her breath and was walking without leaning against you so you handed her phone back to her. 

"Well, sucks to be me because I have to help Mr SeokJin with Art History grading and then I have night classes in the library with English teacher Mr Kim Namjoon." You told them pulling the bag back on over your shoulder and looking down at your schedule for the day, 

"Why do you have to be so good at everything? God, you're exactly like Jungkook." Mieko mumbled rolling her eyes at you, they always mentioned this boy. Jungkook. But you'd never seen him before, probably because you both had super tight compact schedules that neither of you liked to stray from though apparently, you had one class together not that you would know if he was there because you had no idea what he looked like.

"You're always going on about him, why don't you just ask him out?" You teased poking Mieko in the side but she scoffed at you, 

"He's an idiot, cold to everyone he meets and just shoves everyone off unless you're in his close friendship circle." You made a fake pitty face at her and she shoved you against the door of the entranceway to the Art building, you were running late for class and if you were late one more time that week Mr Seokjin would have you fired as his PA and Jimin, the teacher's pet would gladly take your place.

"I'm late! I'll see you back at the dorms later, save me some dumplings!" You called as you ran off back down the hall not paying attention to where you were walking and rushing straight into someone's arms, you could have sworn they growled at you so you looked up to see who it was when your eyes landed on another pair that were staring you down. 

"Sorry, Jungkook! She wasn't looking where she was going, she's a clutz!" You shot Mieko a glare and she ran off in the opposite direction of her class, probably skipping to go and find someone else to torture. 

"I am sorry, I'm just late-"

"You should watch where you're walking then instead of barging into everyone with your back!" He snapped making you flinch a little, you nodded gripping the strap of your bag tightly and going to walk the rest of the way to class. Jungkook stared you down as he watched you walking down the hall, trying to see where you were going when he heard Taehyung calling his name. He shook his head and walking over to his friend who was rubbing his stomach, 

"I'm starving, what time are we hunting tonight?" He grumbled at the older alpha who was staring at him, Jungkook hated that he was the leader of the pack that they had especially since Taehyung was older than him and so were the rest of the boys with them but it just fell down to him since he was born a wolf, it was his birthright according to his grandfather.  

"After curfew and I have the perfect bait for us tonight." He smirked darkling putting his arm around the Omega walking him down through the halls to go and find the rest of his pack. 

"Are you sure you wouldn't like a ride home Y/n?" Mr Kim Namjoon asked as you walked out of the library together and into the hallway of the History building, the whole place was deserted except for a couple of guards on shift and tutors who were heading home for the day. 

"It's fine, I'm just a three-minute walk away sir," Namjoon said goodbye to you and walked in the direction of the car park. You pulled the strap of your bag over your shoulder and took out your phone to text Mieko to let her know you were on your way when you heard something moving behind you. You slowed down something everyone screamed at people for in horror movies but you were curious about what it was, then images of the news article flashed through your head and you clutched onto your bag tightly picking up the pace to get to your dorm. 

A twig snapped and your head span around to see something blur in your version darting into the nearby woods near the college, you should have taken the ride. You regretted it instantly and you couldn't type on your phone because your hands were shaking so much,

"Shit." You whispered as you came towards the alleyway you needed to go down to get to your dorm. You prayed whoever it was following you would just leave you alone as you walked down the alley but whoever it was wasn't giving up, they proceed to follow you until you were deep inside the alley where no one could see you if they looked inside. 

You felt a hand clutch onto your wrist before a loud growl sounded through the air echoing off the walls and making your legs shake. You were dragged onto the floor and you tried to beat whoever or whatever it was off your body but they were ragging you about from side to side. You opened your eyes to see bright red ones glaring back at you, attached to the eyes was a huge dog with black fur that was growling heavily and biting into your side repeatedly, you began screaming as loudly as you could hoping someone would hear you and try to rescue you but no one was coming. You started hitting the beast with your fists, bag and phone anything to get it off you but it wasn't budging, you could feel a burning sensation in your side where it had its jaws around you. You jammed the beast in the eye with your elbow and it let out a yelp, letting you go just enough so you could scramble off down the alley and towards your dorms where you banged loudly for Mieko to come and get you.

"Look, I'm telling you I don't remember anything." You said to the policeman who was interviewing you, you were sat up in the University's hospital wing after a nurse had patched you up and called them to report a crime had happened. 

"You don't remember anything?" You shook your head and the man grumbled something before leaving you alone, you laid back down against the white sheets and stared up at the ceiling. What were you going to tell people? That a giant dog came out of nowhere and decided to use you as a chew toy? They'd lock you up and throw away the key, at least now you knew why everyone who was attacked before you said they forgot. You wished you'd forgotten, you had the image of the giant red eyes burnt into the back of your head, giving you a headache whenever you thought about them and the way he moved you around. It was bigger than the average dog and known wolves in the area, it was as if it was something straight from a fantasy book but fantasy books weren't real...were they?

Jungkook walked along the hallways with Taehyung and Jimin either side of them, giant smirks across their faces walking around as if they ruled the place. 

"Did you hear about Y/n?" Jungkook heard someone mutter behind him, thanks to him being a wolf he had different abilities in and out of his shape. The heightened hearing was just one of many and he used it wisely, 

"What happened?" A concerned voice rang out, 

"Mieko found her bleeding out on the curb of their dorm, whimpering about something attacking her." Jungkook looked at the Omega's to see if they'd heard anything but they were either not bothered or hadn't heard what the girls were whispering to one another. 

"Stay here." He mumbled leaning against some lockers so he could keep an ear on the conversation, he wanted to know what had happened and why you had survived much like all the other people someone had been attacking at night.

"She's in the hospital wing, they're going to keep her overnight until she's stable again. Mieko said it happened right in the alley near their dorm." Jungkook took off in a sprint leaving Jimin and Taehyung alone and confused in the halls, Jungkook hated the fact that he couldn't use his speed ability out of wolf form but he was fast enough without all four legs he knew where your dorm was, he'd heard Mieko talk about it enough in the classes they shared together.

Hissing as you sat up you looked around the hospital room for something to entertain yourself with, your phone was missing along with your laptop so you were awaiting the college to send you a replacement until a new one could be funded to you.

"Miss Y/n?" You looked over at the door to see the nurse who had stitched you together was standing there, 

"A guest." You nodded and she moved out of the way letting Mr Kim Namjoon into the room, he walked over to you and sighed. 

"I'm so sorry Y/n if I'd have insisted I take you home this never would have happened." He grumbled looking at you with pitty full eyes he felt terrible for not insisting you get into the car with him. 

"It's not your fault sir," He nodded and held up the roses that he'd brought along with him, he knew how dreadful the hospital in the university could be and he wanted to liven the place up for you.

"I'll put these in here and go, I have a class." Just as he was reaching for the door handle the door swung open and Jungkook stood there, your eyes widened as he stared at you from the doorway. 

"Ah I see you have another visitor, I'll see you next week back in my class." You looked down not wanting to make awkward eye contact with Jungkook but if you had looked up you would have seen the two of them having a stare off while Namjoon left the room. Neither of them blinking until the door was shut and the other was out of sight and out of mind.

"How are you feeling?" You stared at Jungkook once again as he stood beside your bed, your eyes locked onto the bag he was carrying and you realised it was yours. 

"Where did you-"

"I went to the alley you were attacked in, your phone is a little broken." He handed you the red iPhone and you groaned looking at the smashed up screen, you put it down on the bedside table reaching for some water when Jungkook noticed the bandage around your waist.

"Why didn't you tell the police the truth?" You stared at him and he poured you a glass of water, handing it to you and watching as you carefully took it from his hands. 

"I told them everything I knew." He shook his head at you, 

"No you didn't, you told them you don't remember anything and trust me no one forgets something like that you went through." You stared at him with a blank expression, he pulled a chair up to your bed and checked the watch on his wrist. 

"You can pretend all you want but we don't have all day." You looked down at the cup of water in your hand trying not to think on the fiery eyes that stared at you, your eyes began to tear up and Jungkook knew what you were feeling. He'd seen the same thing with Jimin and Taehyung but he'd never had a female before,

"It was huge," You started, you had no idea why but there was something about Jungkook that made you feel as though you could trust him with everything and he wouldn't think you were crazy. 

"It had these giant red eyes and then it-It's fur it was black and matted." Jungkook knew instantly who and what had attacked you the night before and he knew there was nothing he could do to prevent what was going to happen to you that night.

" I can't explain it all here, it's not safe but we need to get you out of this hospital bed and to my place as soon as possible." You scoffed in his direction and put the cup of water down, 

"It's that how you get all the girls Jungkook?" He was shocked at how you were speaking to him at first, normally girls would swoon at his feet and obey whatever he told them and he put that down to the wolf charm but not you. You didn't seem to care about it but he figured it was because you would be changing soon, 

"Listen to me, did that bite burn when that thing did what it did?" You thought about it for a couple of seconds before nodding, he leant forward and moved the bandage away from where the bite should have been but it was completely gone. 

"That's-"

"Impossible? Yes, it's called healing and I'll tell you more if you come with me." Your mind was telling you that you couldn't trust him or anyone else but there was something about him that was luring you in, your heart and soul both screaming at you that this was right and this was what you were supposed to do. 

"How do I know you didn't do this to me..." 

"Do I look like a giant wolf to you?" You shook your head at him but remembered all of the old folk stories, 

"Wolves shift in the day." He smirked at you for knowing your stuff, you weren't as stupid as he first thought you were. 

"If it was me I wouldn't have let you go so you could become like us...No one deserves this life, it's hell." He sat you up in the bed and handed you one of the University hoodies from the shelf and then some sweatpants. 

"Like us?" He sighed promising to explain everything once he got you to a safer place, 

"Am I going to die?" He felt his heartbreak as you stared up at him with tearful eyes, he shook his head at you. 

"Not if I have anything to do with it." 

If someone had told you that you would have been changed up in a basement by the end of that day you never would have believed them,

"So what happens when the moon is up?" You questioned watching as Jungkook walked around the basement to make sure the chains were secure, there was one on each of your ankles and then one on each of your wrists keeping you in place. 

"You change...Into one of us." He answered looking over at the basement door as it opened, Jimin walked down the stairs to give Jungkook a case of water and he spotted you. 

"Y/n was the one they attacked last night?" You stared at him as he placed the water down on the floor, he dropped to his knees and walked closer to you taking a sniff of your hair and pulling back. 

"She's not mine." He smirked looking over at Jungkook who was looking away from the scene in front of you, 

"What? You haven't checked?"

"Checked? Checked what?" Your voice came out panicked and Jimin tutted shaking his head and turning to look at you, 

"You could be his mate or Taehyung's mate who knows, everything happens for a reason Jungkook." With that, he left the basement slamming the door behind him, 

"Mate? As in..." Jungkook nodded and you bit down on your lip ignoring the tension that was now filling the air, Jungkook didn't need to check he'd known since you'd walked into him yesterday that you were his mate. He should have walked you home last night to make sure nothing happened to you, he should have been there to protect this from ever happening but now here you were getting ready to change into what he was. 

"How come you're not in chains again?" You questioned trying to get rid of the awkwardness that was hanging in the air, 

"We can control out shifting, we can change whenever we want but you're new and it's going to be a long time before you can learn to control anything happening inside of you while you're in your wolf form." He walked over to you and looked at the watch, it was almost time. He attached another chain around your neck and you stared at him through your eyelashes. 

"Is it going to hurt?" He stayed silent wanting to spare you of the gory details, it was something he'd hated when he first transformed.

"That's a yes." You whispered leaning back against the cold concrete wall behind you,

"I'll change as soon as you do, we can communicate through thoughts so just pay attention to me." 

Jungkook watched as you screamed out in anguish, another crack sounded through the air as your arm broke in several places the chains clanging against the floor. Your back arched away from the ground and you let out a shriek in pain as it snapped in one place only to do it again in several other places, your whole body was on fire and you could feel every muscle shaking and bending as something took over inside of you. Then within seconds, the pain was gone and you were staring at Jungkook at a new angle, 

"You're okay, it's over." You stared at him as he shook his body once falling down onto all fours and becoming a huge wolf creature in front of you, you tugged at the chains with your paw to get out but it wasn't going to budge. Jungkook had used the same ones wit Jimin and Taehyung and they were triple your size.

"I'm hungry..." 

"You will be, Jimin and Taehyung will be back soon. Try to suppress the thoughts with something else." You thought back on all the assignments that were due in next week and you heard Jungkook chuckle from inside of your head, 

"You're thinking about homework?" 

"Always, it's important."

"You're worse than me." Jungkook went on to explain that that was why he was taking all the extra classes, the extra work kept his mind off of wanting to rip everyone's head off and eat them. While it also kept it from having a social life outside of the pack, he never wanted anyone else to go through this. 

"Dinner is served." A deer's body was dropped down on the floor in front of you by a brown-haired wolf with black eyes, 

"That one's Tae, he's shy but he'll get used to you." Taehyung left and changed back into his human form upstairs complaining to Jimin that you weren't his mate either. 

"Do I just-"

"Let your instincts take over. Once you've fed it'll be easier to control yourself." You threw yourself down biting and tearing into the skin of the animal and he was right, it was as if your body knew what to do without you telling it to. 

After that night of changing things changed at home, you couldn't live with Mieko anymore and started to shut her out Jungkook had convinced you it was for the best if you stayed away from her. You didn't want to accidentally kill her or change her into what you were, you moved into the house Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook were living in and started to only interact with them at school. That was a month ago and the full moon was coming up, Jungkoo still hadn't told you what he knew you were to him but he knew it was going to be hard to hide this time around it was already hard enough as it was to keep his hands off you and to stop himself from jumping on anyone that came near you. The alpha instincts around his mate were always stronger than anything else inside of him and it was hard to control but you didn't know he was your mate and he didn't want to tell you.

"Y/n? You ready?" Jimin asked from the doorway watching to see if you were following him,

"Be right there." You called back to him sliding everything into your bag, it was getting late and the moon would be coming up soon so Jungkook wanted you back at the house as soon as possible, it was going to be your first change without the chains on.

"Miss Y/l/n?" You looked over your shoulder to see Mr Kim Namjoon watching you and Jimin closely, 

"May I speak with you a second?" You flung the bag over your shoulder and he walked over to your desk, leaning against it and staring down at you. 

"You ought to be careful with who you associate yourself with." His hands traced along yours as it rested against your chest, you snapped it away from him feeling uneasy about the touch.

"Jimin and his friendship group they're not exactly the best of their kind," His eyes flashed a bright red colour and you stumbled backwards knocking a chair down in the process, Jimin was by your side within seconds and he was staring at Namjoon who was staring back at him. 

"The pathetic little alpha sends an Omega to collect his cum rag, that's funny." Namjoon chuckled deeply without another word Jimin pulled you out of the classroom both of you rushing in silence to get out to Taehyung's car, 

"Cum rag? Who the fuck does he think he is?!" You let out a growl by accident and your eyes were starting to illuminate a little as you got angrier, 

"Y/n," Taehyung warned reminding you you were inside of a car and no the basement where it was safe to change, but the anger inside of you kept growing inside of you as you thought of him insulting Jungkook like that. 

"What happened?!" Jungkook yelled as you were walked into the basement by Jimin and Taehyung, you sat against the floor growling into your hands at the mere thought of Namjoon. 

"I think he changed her as well, his eyes Jungkook...They were red and he seemed to know that you were her mate." Your ears picked up on that word again and you watched as Jungkook tensed up. 

"I'll fix it, go and hunt for something to eat you haven't had anything all week." You'd managed to feed your cravings by eating a copious amount of beef burgers and steaks when you didn't have to change.

"Mate?" Jungkook turned to look at you and nodded, he knew the time was coming where he would have to explain it all to you but he would rather go off and find Namjoon first, kill him for doing what he did to you. 

"Namjoon did this to you, he's the reason you're in this mess." You looked up to see his eyes were filled with tears and you walked over to him taking his face in your hands to make him stare at you, 

"Jungkook I'm fine, look at me." He stared at you, the urge to kiss you was growing stronger and he could tell you wanted him to by the way your legs squeezed together and the way you kept licking your bottom lip. 

"You're perfect." He mumbled before crashing his lips against yours, his hands gripped onto the back of your neck pulling you closer to him there was something that changed inside of you and it was like you were feral, you never wanted him to stop kissing you ever again but your body was craving more from him. His lips moved down to your neck and you moaned out in pleasure at the feeling of him sucking along the exposed skin,

"Fuck, we can't." He pushed you away and you whimpered looking at him with hurt in your eyes, 

"Why not?" He looked at you and then at the watch realising you hadn't even changed yet and then checked his watch again maybe it was too fast there was no way you had control over your changing abilities yet. 

"Jungkook kiss me." You whispered to him bringing him closer to you, he took one sniff of your scent and almost fell to his knees ready to take you but it was too dangerous, you were in heat and the moon was full anything could happen. You weren't stable,

"I need you," You whined out in his ear and he grabbed you once more kissing you roughly and slamming you against the wall behind you, you shrieked happily as his hands worked their way up and down your body tripping the shirt from your chest.

"My favourite shirt," You fake pouted against his lip, 

"Shut up," He mumbled against your lips biting down on your bottom lip and dragging it with his teeth, everything inside of him knew this was wrong and it could fuck everything up but he needed you and you needed him. 

"I need more." You whimpered and he knew what you wanted, what you both wanted but once you started there was no stopping. 

"Oh god, I want you to...I want to fuck you until you're full up pup but-" You kissed him once again to shut him up and he relaxed a little more letting your lips relaxing his body, you pushed him back and dropped to your knees in front of him. 

"I want what I want," You whispered to him undoing his jeans and pulling them down his legs, he nervously looked up at the basement door and prayed Jimin and Taehyung had left to hunt and weren't going to come down and find this scene unfolding in front of them. 

"Shit." He grunted as you took him into his mouth, there were no words to describe how he was feeling the way your tongue worked around his member, licking and sucking every bit of him you could but what you couldn't you used your hands to massage, he was letting out whimpers as his head fell back. 

"Just like that, shit." He grunted his hand going into your hair and biting his tongue resisting the urge to slam his cock down your throat, he knew he had to be gentle with you he could smell it on you that you'd never done something like this before. 

"Lay down baby." You took him from your mouth with a pop and he smirked ripping your jeans off your body and throwing them somewhere within the basement, he didn't care all he cared about was you. Tasting you and having you all to himself, he licked a stripe up your folds and you moaned at the new sensation, all of this was new to you but it felt right, 

"Jungkook." You whined out not wanting to be teased, you wanted him to mount you and not stop until you were screaming out his name, 

"I know baby but once I've started I won't be able to stop until I'm done." You nodded at him as a sign that you understood and it was what you wanted and he kissed you, slowly easing himself into you as you whimpered out. You could feel him stretching you out from the very first push and your nails dug into his back dragging down and you were positive if you didn't have super healing powers it would scar him. 

"Fuck you're so tight." He grunted as he finally submerged himself all the way inside of you in the missionary position, not something that was common among your kind, holding himself in place until you were ready for him to start moving. You gave him a nod and he kissed your forehead promising you he would be as gentle as possible with you but once you felt you were used to his small and light thrusts you begged him to go faster, 

"F-Faster Kookie, I can take it." You whispered in his ear but he shook his head, 

"I can't, you'll break." You whimpered as continued his tiny thrusts, you knew there was something to make him move but you didn't want to risk him stopping altogether. 

"N-Namjoon called me your cum rag, said you were a 'pathetic alpha'." You managed to say through grunts his thrusting stopped and he stared down at you, he knew what you were trying to do and it was working. 

"Fuck, you're going to kill me." He grunted pulling out of you only to slam back into you at a rough pace making your back arch back as he finally hit the spot you'd been needing him in. 

"Right there." You whimpered within a matter of seconds already feeling yourself coming to your first orgasm, there was a pit in your stomach that was starting to grow with every thrust,

"Don't stop." You stuttered out as his thrusts became faster, he smirked watching you come undone underneath him he'd never imagined for a second you would be like this with him. He thought you would be a shy and fragile girl like you were before but this was something else. 

"I think- Ugh fuck- I think I'm close." You panted out and he could smell that you were, you began clenching around him and he grunted picking up his pace a little more so he could get you to the edge, he bit down on your neck drawing blood and smirking as you let out yelps of pleasure. 

"Cum for me pup," You yelped out as you felt your orgasm rush through your body sending shock waves throughout you, your legs were shaking and your hands were shaking as they latched onto Jungkook's hair tugging a little as he continued his vigorous thrusts into you not stopping just because you'd come around him. You screamed out his name as he continued to thrust into you, the pain from just finishing was slowly starting to be subsidised by pleasure once again as you felt the belt-tightening once more, 

"J-Junkookie." You whimpered and he smirked down at you kissing your lips and pulling back, he pulled out of you and flipped you over onto all fours, he couldn't take the human position anymore, he needed you on all fours so he could fuck you properly like the dogs you were inside. 

"Shit." You hiccuped as he thrust into you hitting spots that were left untouched before, you gripped onto the ground as his hips pushed into yours, one of his hands gripping onto your hips and digging in so deep it was drawing blood. 

"I'm close Y/n." He grunted as he continued to fuck you in the way it felt natural to him, you whimpered in agreement letting him know you were too by clenching around him and he smirked, 

"C-Cum inside me, please." You whined out underneath him arching your back as you felt your release coming nearer and nearer, he faltered for a second before picking up his pace again not wanting to stop, hearing you tell him what you wanted sent him closer to his edge.

"What do you want little pup?" He asked coaxing you into telling him again you let out a whimper as you were going to have to say it again, 

"Finish inside me, I need you inside of me. Everything, just-" You couldn't finish because he pulled your hair so he could kiss you as he fucked into you, 

"There's no going back if I do this Y/n." He warned as he felt himself getting closer, he kissed your neck lovingly wanting nothing more than to finish inside of you and claim you as his own but he had to make sure you were sure first. 

"Make me yours," You whimpered and he pulled out once again bringing you back to the human position you had started in, he wanted to look at you as he claimed you and made you his. He wanted this to be romantic and not as though he was stealing something away from you, 

"S-Shit I think I might." He grunted throughout his sentence staring down into your eyes as you stared back up into his smirking at him as he brought you closer for your second and final orgasm of the night. 

"You might what?" You giggled up at him and it was like music to his ears, he felt his balls throb as he almost finished at the sound of your giggle. 

"Shit, d-do that again." He begged, watching as you giggled beneath him once more his thrusts picked up once more as he felt his pleasure coming to an end,

"I'm g-gonna cum, cum for me okay?" You nodded at him and he smirked kissing your lips softly pulling away to make eye contact with you as you begged him to fill you up, it's what you needed and what your body was begging for. 

"S-Shit." He grunted hitting your spot in just the right way that you clenched around him tighter than before, like a vice and he stuttered his thrusts spurting into you but continuing to fuck into you so you wouldn't miss a single drop. 

"Shit I think I love you." He grunted out as he continued to thrust into you when you didn't say anything back he felt his heartbreak a little but he continued to thrust.

He stayed in place above you as you both came down from your high, once he knew it was safe for him to pull out he did and dropped down next to you smirking as he looked at you. 

"That was-"

"Yeah," You finished looking at him with a smile on your face, you rolled over and laid your head down against his chest.

"I love you too by the way." You whispered looking up at him as you rested your chin on his chest to make eye contact with him.

"Can you guys warn us next time?! Fuck!" You heard Jimin yell from upstairs you looked over at the door and back at Jungkook, 

"Why didn't I change?" Jungkook looked at you and took in a deep breath, 

"I think you have better control over your instincts than I first thought." You hummed and bit down on your lip, 

"I want you to do that again." You whispered to him biting down on your lip as you stared up at him, 

"Trust me, you're not going to want to stop now you've had one taste." He chuckled knowing how hard it was to keep yourself from stopping once you'd had the first taste of an orgasm like that. 

"But let's go upstairs since you're not changing, there are much comfier places then the basement floor." He whispered in your ear, roughly biting down on it with a fang and smirking as you whimpered out to him.

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Japanese Fashion and Society Glossary

Some words are universal. There's no need for me to explain what's a "fashion magazine" or a "trend." But, when it comes to Japanese fashion and societal trends, a few terms are specific to the country. Here's a quick look into some of them.

Dokusha moderu (dokumo)

Dokusha moderu, often abbreviated to "dokumo," are members of the public that appear as non-professional models and influencers on the pages of fashion magazines.

Despite decades of "dokumo" use in fashion magazines, the definition of the term can still be a bit blurred. Some girls represented by major entertainment agencies and with showbiz careers define themselves as "dokumo" for branding reasons. On the other hand, conventional wisdom is that a "dokumo" is a reader model that appears regularly in a magazine. But is a singular appearance in a fashion title enough to consider yourself a "dokumo"? What about several appearances, but all of them relegated to the "street snap" session? Some will say that's enough, others will disagree. The rules aren't clear.

But elite university students and fashionable OLs have been prominent characters in fashion magazines since their inception. However, many point out Mieko Hamada's popularity in the early 1980s as the surge of the dokumo phenomenon. Mieko was a stylish student in an elite private high school spotlighted in Magazine House's influential conceptual teen magazine Olive. She became popular with readers, and the publication hired her as an exclusive model.

Teen publications have heavily relied on dokumos. In the 1990s, the gyaru phenomenon revolutionized teen girl fashion with gyaru magazines exporting the style from Shibuya to high schools around Japan. The models in those influential magazines (egg, Popteen, Cawaii!) were all non-professional readers models, often plucked from the streets of Shibuya. From 1995 to 2002, the unisex Tokyo Street News magazine gained immense popularity featuring hip and attractive "real life" high schoolers.

But the phenomenon went much further than teen fashion. Regardless of the category -- OL, college students, luxury brand aficionados, fashionable housewives -- most fashion titles have their dokumos.

The appeal of the dokumo is that they're more relatable than professional models. Most magazines have gorgeous models as their "muse," but the dokumo is a closer reflection of the average reader. This relatability helps fashion titles' two main objectives: propel trends and stimulate sales.

Plenty of dokumos have parlayed their popularity with readers into profitable careers. Some have created their own highly successful fashion brands. Others entered the entertainment business and became TV personalities. More recently, the most logical path is to use magazine exposure to establish yourself as an influencer and get followers where it matters: Instagram.

Fashion buildings

Alongside traditional department stores, some of the most influential retail spaces in Japanese history are "fashion buildings." The Shibuya 109 store that revolutionized teen girls' fashion; the avant-garde Shibuya Parco; Harajuku LaForet. But if they are not department stores or shopping malls, what are they?

"Department stores" is a concept found around the world. Popular in Europe, the USA, and elsewhere, department stores where you can find a mix of domestic brands with luxury goods and cosmetics are a staple in Japan, usually built near or inside the biggest train stations.

On the other hand, shopping centers were a rarity due to strict regulations on the size of commercial facilities. However, by the turn of the 21st century, the law got amended. As a result, big malls started popping up in residential suburbs across the country.

Until then, busy districts in the city center were the go-to shopping destinations. And, with no malls, the alternative to the department store was the "fashion building." Fashion buildings are centrally located and have individual stores but are considerably smaller than traditional malls. It is common for most stores to target a specific audience (i.e.:teen, girls, young people, OLs, etc.) Overall, the experience is different and more curated than a traditional shopping center.

The most iconic fashion buildings (Shibuya 109, Shibuya Parco, LaForet) are still standing, and this type of commercial facility is a fixture in every central shopping area across Japan. Some of the most successful retail spaces of the last decade are the fashion building attached to Tokyo's (and the world's) busiest station, Shinjuku Station such as Lumine, or the (relatively) newly-built NeWoMan.

In the last few years, these somewhat modest buildings have lost a bit of space to flashier urban commercial complexes such as Ginza Six, Omotesando Hills, and the renovated (and expanded) Shibuya Parco. However, they are still a vital part of Japanese fashion history. And, as the booming Shinjuku Lumine makes clear, still part of the present.

Office lady (OL)

The expectations for middle-class men and women in post-war Japan have been somewhat straightforward. After graduating high school, you'll move to university. If you're a man, you'll eventually become a salaryman, a faceless white-collar worker dressed in the traditional dark business suit. You will marry, have kids and work your way up in the company, earning enough money to provide for your family.

If you're a woman, you'll become an office lady. Commonly referred to as an OL, it's usually lower in the hierarchical scale than its male counterpart, the "salarymen." OLs usually perform clerical or secretarial work. Traditionally it's the job women hold before getting married.

The term office lady was coined by women's weekly Josei Jishin in 1963. Before that, they were referred to as "business girls" or "BGs." But the term was too similar to "B-girls," which is how English speakers would refer to nightlife workers known as "bar girls." So Josei Jishin proposed some replacement names. Readers decided, by vote, on "OL." And since then, the term has entered the Japanese lexicon.

Females are the driving force behind Japan's consumerism. And unmarried OLs, with disposable income are at the center of that. So countless consumer crazes were fueled by them, starting with the notorious popularity of luxury Louis Vuitton bags in Japan from the 1970s forward. The best-selling and most influential fashion titles in the 90s and early 2000s also targeted them.

In the present, Japan is a very different country than it was in the past. Salaries are lower, job security is much scarcer, marriage rates are declining, and the economy is nowhere near as prosperous. Luxury brand goods are nowhere near as accessible as in the "bubble period" of the economic miracle (1986-1991).

But when it comes to trends and consumer crazes, OLs' impact has been historically immense. And to this day, they remain among the most influential consumer groups.