#more tests and meds.

[territorial-utopia]

Huzzah! It's birthday time! I'm slowly accumulating more and more things I like (latest additions this vest I made and a travel typewriter! Still need to fix the latter one though)

Sure has been a year.

[ejacutastic]

vaccines are magic like do you know how powerful it feels to have a rabies vaccine? I could go touch a bat right now if I wanted to!!!!!! I'm fucking invincible

[ur-favoriterecord]

Unpopular Opinion: ADHD Akechi

[the-forest-library]

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[taibhsearachd]

“Why am I so tired?” I keep asking myself, as if my doctor hasn’t been holding my “have a functional human body” drugs hostage for upwards of a month now.

I’m going to fucking cry. I just want to write, and clean my house, and walk my dogs, and instead I am stuck on my couch or in my bed, bone-deep exhausted and brainfoggy, sleeping badly for 12+ hours a day, while repeated calls to said doctor go unanswered.

[knifekris]

every day i struggle to make choices

[aro-culture-is]

quick note - this blog is gonna be sparse again for at least this week. trying new medications and tbh initial side effects are not super pleasant + actual effects build up. as a result: currently as if unmedicated for mental health, with anxiety+ side effect, extra fatigue, dizziness, and fatigue. it's uh, sure something.

totally recognize that most of y'all know we're absent at times due to health things, just wanted to give a heads up that this one is at least anticipated.

[mylittleredgirl]

the problem with having taken a sick leave last year and having so many people reassure me that it was necessary and okay and good is that it created some kind of pop-up error message in my head that says "actually all my responsibilities should wait until i don't feel sick" when the reality is that i feel a little sick all the time and will for the foreseeable future. i am nowhere near as sick as i was and i both can and must do things. my once notable skill of powering through with an inner well of silent smugness has been critically weakened, because in addition to the realistic necessary burden of the actual things while feeling uncomfortable, i also have the weight of the little gremlin in my head saying "we don't have to tho :3" yes we do!! like yeah sometimes pushing myself will make things worse but i gotta. and sometimes the work i do will be sub-par because i feel sick but i gotta do it anyway. and sometimes it won't even make things worse it's just me feeling like i should "rest up" for a magical wellspring of health that won't actually arise because the whole deal with this thing is that the fatigue is not cured by rest and the meds i'm taking have side effects and i just!! gotta do it!!!!!

[dermy-der-demp]

Damn,we (I) need more headcanons about Mera,she really has a good potential with dinamics and stuff

[lesbiangiratina]

Damn. The disorder really can be obsessive and compulsive.

[mooifyourecows]

Got a cardiologist appointment today 🥲 hope I get a good grade in high blood pressure

[strzygon-x]

hard day

my doggo is getting older and older and with each visit to the vet we find more and more health issues in her

[tj-crochets]

Once again no crafts to update, but here’s those fish I drew yesterday!

[besnouted]

now that i can give a more coherent update, the prognosis is basically that she will be in indefinite hospice treatment with symptomatic treatment where possible. the main concern is her platelet count, because her blood is unable to clot and so even a little bump could cause big problems for her. and then her appetite to ensure she keeps her weight on and strength up

we ended up at the kindest emergency vet we've ever been to and god i cannot even begin to get into how many traumatic experiences we've had with horrible emergency vets... but they were all amazing there and the main vet took so much time to break down what was going on and keep us informed on every single test they did and then afterward wrote up a super detailed report so we could go to a non-emergency vet to continue her meds if they improve her qol

and already a day and a half later she is seeing a huge improvement in her energy and comfort, like she's doing things i haven't seen since before the lethargy first set in which i am so beyond grateful i get to see again even if i know she isn't 'getting better'

[sevenangrybees]

Happy disability pride month!!! I'm celebrating by getting diagnosed with new autoimmune disorders!!!!

[painsandconfusion]

Thank you all SO much helping me out, I could cry- I don’t deserve you all

I’m like $30 away from being able to catch up on all my bills which I should be able to make tomorrow at work, then I can get my wifi back on and start working on those commissions

I adore you all. You’re wonderful and I love you. Thank you so much.