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and just for my enjoyment you will suffer suffer, suffer, until you dieeeee
close ups hiiiii
#listen to this song NOWWWWW ITS THEM#im thinking abt a spies are forever raincode au but the 1st half of this song fits yomi regardless#more info on that in.. the future. maybe#rain code#yomi hellsmile#yakou furio#yomiakou#master detective archives: rain code#mdarc#master detective archives#catfood art#shout out to szol btw my good friend and saf mutual szol
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I’ve played ahead in game to moon 60 and I have SO much knowledge.. would you guys like a sneak peek of a future character with no context for funsies? I’ve been in the mood to design future characters so I think this would be fun :3c
#I’d just post the png of the character art with no info#though I could possibly be convinced to share the cat’s prefix.. possibly :3#to be quite honest there’s so many future cats it will be hard to choose which one to draw early hehe#so maybe I can do this more than once#we’ll see!#clangen#clan generator#warriors#warriors oc#warrior cats#cutieclan#foxy rambles
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Liam telling stories about him and Yuki on the Red Flags Podcast
Source: Red Flags Podcast - WE INTERVIEWED F1'S LIAM LAWSON!!! (edited down and transcribed by @press-f1-to-grieve)
to @2bluetwo85: i read your tags from that yuki and liam post. thank you for letting me know this exists (and for reading my long tags). i hope i got the right podcast you were talking about.
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full transcription underneath beware, it's long. and i'm not familiar with the podcast (my newbie is showing) so i'm not sure which voice belongs to who. please excuse me if i got them mixed up. i listened to the episode on a podcast app and only found out they have a youtube channel later, after i had already finished everything bar hit the "post" button. the visual would have helped greatly with knowing who's speaking but alas...
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Matt: Ye so, I wanna talk about another teammate of yours, Yuki Tsunoda. So we've read that you and Yuki go back. He lived with your parents in New Zealand?
Brian: (laughs) No! He didn't live- He didn't live with- Liam: He came to- So this is a series called the "Toyota Racing Series" in New Zealand, used to be like, really really big, especially before Covid. And basically we were both competing in it as teammates, and so he came to New Zealand. And we've been teammates a year before that in F3 and Euro Formula, so I've spent a lot of time with him already. So when he came to New Zealand, he basically just hung out with us. A lot. Like, I basically just drive around with him. Matt: So like step-brothers a little bit? Liam: Honestly, ye. (laughs)
Matt: What was your favorite thing to do with him, growing up?
Liam: It was always away from the track. Cause away from the track, he's a really funny, genuine dude. So, obviously, it's harder. When you are competing, with Yuki, (...) competing for the same seat. So, it's like, at the track, it's real intense. And then, away from that, it's real cool.
Matt: How're you able to maintain a friendship when it's just like, you know, blood sport out there for these few seats?
Liam: At points, over the year, (stammers) you know, it's not a friendship. And then he- Like, obviously, his journey was pushed a lot earlier than mine. He went to F1 quite early so, then I was- I wasn't really in competition with him anymore so- Matt: Right. Does that help your friendship? Liam: Then we are like, pretty chill again. And then we are put in competition again.
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Brian: I think in one of the earlier seasons of Drive to Survive, you were in his room, and his room was like, all messy, and he was annoyed that they put it in.
Matt: Did you catch him on a bad day or is that just is? Brian: Is his room just a mess always? Liam: That's literally- I don't know now. Oh actually, I went to his house recently and it was a lot better. Both Hosts: (relieved) Okay! Liam: He has improved. (stammers) I remember, well, it wasn't really- (vocally winces) It was fierce because you shouldn't live like that anyway. BUT!- Both Hosts: (crying laughing emojis in audio form) Liam: But I remember, he had just moved into this apartment at the start of, I think it was the start of that year, and I- Oh no, it was the year before! But same thing, Covid, here, basically. I went to New Zealand because I was about to be locked out of the country. There was no racing. And Yuki stayed, in Milton Keynes for months. Just on (his own), he didn't go back to Japan. Like he just stayed in this apartment. Brian: Like Cast Away Liam: But I had to move into this brand new apartment and it was sick! And I went to New Zealand and I came back 3 months later. Matt: He has got a beard. Liam: And I walked into this place and it was just like DUUDE. It was bad, like it was real bad. Brian: (hums of understanding) Like takeouts and- (all three make noises of agreement) Liam: It was just food everywhere. Like, the laundry basket was just like, overflowing. Matt: Yuki was basically all of us during Covid. Brian: (enthusiastic YE's)
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Matt: So, what are you most competitive with Yuki off the track? Like what do you guys like to-
Liam: Awe, dude, everything. Both Hosts: Ye? Liam: No, like, everything. We're like- At the moment, we've been playing table tennis. Just little disc. Matt: Oh you'll just make- Liam: M-make one! Ye, just make it. (...) not a proper one. Matt: Who is up? Liam: He plays a lot more, to be fair, but- Matt: So he crushes you. Liam: (cute babbles) No no- Both Hosts: (laugh) Liam: So, we played in Japan. I think I had him in Japan. And then we played last week and he beat me. Matt: You don't keep a serious tally? Are you better on certain surfaces? Like if it's a dinner table, you got him. Liam: On a smaller table, I have him. But on a slightly bigger table- Like depends on what table we get during race weekend.
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Liam: But one thing with Yuki that was real funny that we did back when we were in New Zealand.
Liam: I don't know how this is a thing but you can rent a boat, at like 15 or 16 years old. And just take it out, to Lake Taupo. And so me and Yuki were like- I was probably 17 or 18 and he was like 19 or 20, and we just rented this boat, and got like, you know, biscuit, or tube? What do you call them? (...) And we just took it out and basically- It started off like real fun. Like we were just towing each other around. But then it just got like, who could throw the other person off like, the biggest. We just like, tried to kill each other on this little tube, in the middle of this lake. Matt: Just the two of you? Liam: Just the two of us. Just out there in the middle of a lake. Brian: Just the two of you tried to kill each other. Matt: It's like a fucking thriller. Liam: Honestly! I've got videos of like, him and me, like, in the air. Like, meters in the air. Matt: Who won or lost that game? Brian: "We both lost that game." Liam: Actually, I lost pretty hard on that one, to be fair. Matt: He threw you- Liam: I went off like, big time, ye. Brian: It seems like, that's the common experience of tubing, is that. It's like, it's fun and then you're like, am I gonna die? (...)
Matt: So Yuki was a master at flinging you?
Liam: Well, he would like- Sometimes I feel like it's on accident. He would like, get a lot of slack and it will just build up real fast- Both Hosts: Sure, he said it was on accident.
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Liam: We're drivers. Everything turns into a competition.
Liam: We had a rental car, again in New Zealand with Yuki, that we like, basically would like, make a little track and just set time trials off the side of the road. Matt: Like with a Camry or something? Liam: No, Yuki had this little Mitsubishi ASX. I don't know if you know what it is, it's like a boxed car. And we, with like a couple of drivers, basically made like, a little track, and, basically goes until somebody- until Yuki crashed it. (...) The funniest thing, it wasn't even in the- He had finished his lap. It was afterward, he tried to be cool and do like a flick spin, and just totally sent it into a bank. We had to go to a store to get one of those plungers to try and plunge out the dent in the front of the- Because we had to get the car back. Brian: Right, of course. Matt: Renters insurance, man. If I see you or Yuki walk into an enterprise or something, I'll just like, go somewhere else.
#YAAAAY IT'S FINISHED!#this was meant to be posted yesterday but by the time i finished it i got too tired and just reblogged some cool posts and called it a day#left the proofreading reading for today (it's just me again anyway so not really effective)#i originally thought it was just the first one and a half minute so that's why the transcription idea happened#i like being able to quickly glance at text when i'm searching for info#but then i realized what a horrible mistake i've made the more i listened#there goes my afternoon but it was actually very fun doing this ngl#this is like my second time ever transcribing anything#hope i got everything accurately#liam lawson#yuki tsunoda#formula 1#vcarb#or what i prefer to call them#racing bulls#lawsonoda#is apparently their ship name?#i found that out while in the “are yuki and liam friends?” rabbit hole lol#does the lawsonoda shippers want this in their tag? does this count as crumb? i personally would if i ship them#i don't ship them... yet anyway idk what future hold#but tagging cause maybe they would want to see this?#*ensiyap#about yuki
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So far by playing the game, I haven't seen anyone mentioned or talked about Salvador moreu yet. Why's that? 👀
Because we were mostly focused on the ladies. Karl is the only guy in the game 😄 But Moreau does exist. He lives by the lake where he boats and fishes. Sometimes the sisters come to visit.
Arla
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A friend is trying very hard to convince me to start donating plasma (he gets a referral bonus if he signs someone up) and ngl the idea of using it to pay for less important things like books and art commissions is appealing if only for the fact that I get to say "Yeah I'm paying for this with blood money"
#Seta Speaks#My disposable income is gradually being syphoned off by the slew of wedding-related things I'm doing this year#Bachelorette parties wedding gifts travel costs.......it weighs on the bitch y'know?#I'm always money-conscious but the desire to funnel money into superfluous purchases is STRONG lately#Though-- and I did tell my friend this-- the sell on getting me to donate plasma sounds very much like getting signed up for an MLM lmao#But he did say he made $500 a month last month so idk many getting a blood-based debit card might be something in my future#Another bar for art commissions specifically-- I am a lot more private than I think people give me credit for#And I hate giving out my personal info as a result. Literally the biggest bar in not already getting a commission is because of this#I don't want you knowing my real name I don't want you knowing my email I want none of it#Unless we're very close and then MAYBE you get first name rights only but that's a BIG maybe#Musings at 9 AM I guess lmao
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Thinking about... The future au I did a while back... Vbs disbanded after Kohane left to go with Taiga in the US... An is incredibly bitter about Kohane leaving but cannot move on... Years pass....
#Tragic old woman yuri#VS slow burn old men yaoi#I need to write or draw more about them#Maybe I should do an info dump post#Scribbles#Prsk future au
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Origami 2b I didn't post sooner despite finishing. One sheet of black and white double tissue paper, around 50-60 cm.
Honestly struggled with the shaping but friends liked it so I will post her!
Have not played this game myself but got to watch a friend play part of it and talk about it.
#origami#paper folding#not certain of more info about the designer?#kind of a mystery crease pattern in my folders#I couldn't find much info about it#I enjoy the layered sleeves of this design#and the skirt was fun#really wished I could have shaped her better!#maybe in the future#the arms on this model were a little short#nier 2b#lots of character origami lately!
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The combo of York and the seraphim is too cute... they are getting their asses handed to them by cutie pies
#they made s snake paler.........................#i cant hate them.... sorry..... shaka shoukd have tried showing his face... try to out serve them... but alas....#now who tf is the three heades skull jolly roger#it looks like blackbeards boat tho. like a raft bc he started in a raft etc. i dont remember if we ever saw his actual ship later#kid pirates is such a weak name considering the fucking style they all have#like they have a theme.... the punk pirates at least... like damn....#the burgoisie pirates are part of shanks crew???!!! HE REALLY IS A TRAITOR!!!! A CLASS TRAITOR!!!!#THIS IS ALL THE PROOF I NEED. LUFFY!!!! BRING HIM DOWN!!! DONT TRUST HIM!!!#yasopp has some horrendous outfit like damn. there is no saving him#hongo???? lmaoo#shanks has info on all the pirates and is on the lookout for blackbeard... okay....#oh shanks is gonna be mad about that lmao#is he seeing the future??? jesus#so the strawhats gave kid and law the poneglyph in zou too???? like kid wasnt even there lmao#one shot 💀#and then brogy and grogy for the fatality.... jesus christ shanks#KID GET UUUUUUUUUPPP#SHANKS!!!!!!!! IT'S ON SIGHT!!!!#like i dont even think luffy would approve like if he took the poneglyphs thats even more rancid like damn#and i say that bc he defended his crew okay but if they werent ready for the smoke then dont pull up!!!#and even after that the hokaku??? come on now#maybe it is bc of what shanks saw on kids info file... bc he has done some stuff (most of whag we havent seen....)#i may be coping and seething..... but i dont care.... shanks you are on my list.....#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1112#blackbeard is going to egghead so garp is after them??? everyone is going to egghead??? or are they going to rescue koby first#how does this work i need the timeline
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THIS IS A JACKS LORE DUMP. VERY, VERY LONG OVERDUE, JACKS LORE DUMP.
This is a certified out-of-character post (also, small irl update)
Jacks was born in the 1700s, specifically 1789, October 31. Jacks is one of the time displaced kids at Camp Half-Blood, and is still getting used to how to use devices. They were kinda confused when Leo [Valdez] handed them a talking brick that made beeps and music.
After one day, after getting claimed by Apollo, they ended up becoming a medical assistant in their village. They were amazing at healing people. Some called them a "healer." Other said they were a witch that immediately needed to be executed by cutting off their head.
They (they being the village, not Jacks) ended up deciding to go down the witchery path when Jacks healed someone's arm, which was mauled by a Lycaon disguised as a regular wolf, and reattaching the dude's arm back onto his body without stitches. Not the smartest move, but then again, the person who got mauled was Jacks's first (secret) boyfriend.
(Quick b-t-dubs, Jacks is descended from Erebus and Hephaestus)
So, when they strapped them to a log, surrounded by spears and tinder, Jacks wasn't sure what to do. They could control small amounts of fire due to being a descendant of Hephaestus, shadow travel because of Erebus, and heal themself if they needed a way to fake dying (somehow).
They decided the safest option was hiding in the Underworld, shadow travelling down there. When they shadow travelled into the underworld, they were immediately met with good news, and bad news.
Good News? There was no longer a bloodthirsty mob after them with flaming torches.
Bad News? They were stuck in Erebus's pocket dimension in the underworld.
Now, I'm not sure if you have been stuck in utter, and complete darkness from 1802 to 2021 (~219 years), stuck at 13 and not being able to think properly, going insane due to isolation for what felt like eternity. But for Jacks? They mentally and physically stayed the same age for years.
They never grew up, they were alone and afraid, forgotten by everyone else until they were able to escape (somehow, idk, I'm working out the details on that as we speak).
When they managed to get out, Nyx and Erebus decided to have Mercy on Jacks, giving them a bracelet that transformed into a small, beaded bracelet, where if you snapped off a bead, the bracelet would transform into a Stygian Iron sickle, kinda like those farmer ones where you can hold it in one hand.
Not that it helped Jacks's situation, but at least they had a weapon to protect themself from everything around them.
Fast forward a few months, specifically a month (and a day) before their birthday, they make it to the rumored Camp Half-Blood. They've heard of it during school at some point through myths and rumors. Also, supposedly George Washington was a demigod, but they never taught that in their school (the teachers were so uncool for that tbh).
When they got there, a teen, around the same age as them, with vitiligo and pink hair. He introduced Jacks to Chiron, and showed Jacks around camp, then introduced himself as Tyler (if you followed my blog for a bit, you know where this is going ;] ).
Tyler was a cool, awesome son of Demeter, descended from Aphrodite (his grandma's side). Jacks was from Pennsylvania and Tyler was from Canada. The two weren't too different either. Jacks, inevitably, started developing feelings for Tyler. Though the feelings were small, and sometimes went away completely, Jacks really wanted to date Tyler.
Tyler ended up asking Jacks out two years after they met, and have been happily dating ever since.
Jacks was afraid of the dark, because of the shadow dimension in the underworld, so Tyler made Jacks a candle that would never go out or melt so Jacks would never be in the dark ever again.
Present day, Jacks spend their time with their friends Nico, Percy, Thalia, Jason, Hazel, Annabeth, Magnus, Toast n' Donut (yes, they're frogs, again, idc), Koi, Xea, Tyson, Ella, Mrs. O'Leary (dogs count, idc), Leo, Will, Hilal Khalil, Tyler, and his adoptive parents Davey M[atten]. Red and John H[arriet]. Red
If you read this far, holy crabs do you have a large attentions span. Either that or you're a nerd like me :) (or you're one of my mooties)
I love y'all (platonically), be safe, and I'll try to upload more often every other weekend. I have school stuff and I'll try to post around 6-7 A.M. EST. Also, thank you for tagging me in stuff on both of my accounts ( @ghostkingdiangelo) and this account. I'll catch up on all mah schtuff soon.
Thanks for reading again!
@bright-side-of-the-moon
#Jackson Blackburn#Tyler Rosemary#Davey Matten Red#John Harriet Red#Ella the Harpy#Tyson#Will Solace#Thalia Grace#Jason Grace#Hazel Levesque#Annabeth Chase#Percy Jackson#Magnus Chase#Hilal Khalil#Toast and Donut#Mrs. O'Leary#Xea#Koi (the person not the fish)#Info dump on character lore#sorry for tha yappathon#again.#I get very passionate talking abt Jacks#there's entire lore that I haven't even touched yet#Am I done? Nope. Will there be contradictions and confusing plotlines in the future? Yep.#All good story tellers have to backtrack at *least* thrity times so the changes you made can make sense#I love my two gay bois sm#Jacks and Tyler were#Quite literally made for each other#I missed doing this (for almost a week now? maybe more)
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Oh my god it is actually staring to hurt how little there is for greyghost 😭😭😭
Ao3 has over 200 fics of them, I read almost all of them already (some twice) except the ones I can't physically stomach, I went to fanfic.net cuz I thought "Hey, that place existed before Ao3, should be more, right?"
WRONG!
Seems like Greyghost is a recent phenomenon or something cuz fanfic net had only 33 fanfics in total, most actually being recently and already reuploaded to Ao3 and I've already read them too
Unless I fucked something up in the filters cuz fanfic still kinda trips me out a little gkdksja
I so wish this ship had more attention and love tbh 😔 and I barely got time in my hands to contribute, I wrote like one fic and that's it, I gotta revisit my DP lore cuz man some thing I do not remember happening gkskska
#is this me not so subtly trying to ask more fics for them?#maybe#actually#guys if youre reading the tags drop some greyghost prompts in my ask box#for fics or art#and I'll share them!#anything greyghost just drop it and I'll share them and call attention to it and maybe give inspo to people#hell! this is just an excuse for me to be updated on greyghost lore quicker than having to rewatch the whole show 🥲👍#which btw if any of yall willing to info dump about the two and every little detail that i could potentially use for future fics#feel free to cuz itll make me be able to get out fics of them SO MUCH FASTER I BEG!#i just need people to brainstorm its hard to do that alone and nunna the people i regularly talk to are into is as i am 😔😔😔#THIS IS A PLEA AND CRY FOR HELP PLS PLS PLS#danny phantom#danny fenton#valerie gray#greyghost
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He can't focus on getting those combos if he keeps thinking about his cute barista friend who also happens to (secretly) be a underground rockstar
#my art#self insert#hi fi rush#chai#Not shown: Peppermint calling out to Chai to focus lmaooo#Cries this took me all day to draw hhh I'm proud of it#I wanna draw more but hhh not skilled enough T.T#ill maybe make a post of info about her in the future n stuff yee
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ichiro’s new outfit is kinda cute!!!!! 🤭
#this is vee speaking#the arb chronicles#like i can see ichiro as a flag boy next to one of miku’s racing figurines or maybe as the racecar driver lol#i may not be able to spend shit in arb for the far foreseeable future lol#but i’m trying to play it more!!!!!! i don’t particularly miss it but i also kinda do lmao#in the occasional times i did log in to play i managed to get enough sudden scratch coins to buy ichiros new card but only one of them lmao#so at least i have it lol!!!!!!#the story is shaping up to be very nice lol ichiro just got really swamped with requests and resolved to get shit done by himself#esp since his bros were in school but the story ended just as he heard ‘nii-chaaaaaan!!!’ and ‘ichi-niiiiiiiii!!!’#baby bros coming in with the assist lol let’s go bb let’s go bb!!!!!!!!#what is that symbol on ichiro’s jacket tho lol?????? it looks kinda korean but it can’t be right???#a 9 for rei’s secret online identity lol??? some brand we haven’t seen yet???? or we have in the bg of some shot that i haven’t noticed lol#if it isn’t new i’m sure some jp twitter user with encyclopaedic info will recall it lol
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I think there have been translations for the runes, but that's so cool!! I don't have the conversion on hand, but people have translated the text on the door art (its a line from dantes inferno) and stuff like that! I send this not to rain on your parade but hopefully help with your discoveries -- this account has made it into a font matching it up with english characters at least :)
https://www.tumblr.com/archeia/706452634739130368/milgram-google-drive?source=share
Thank you so much for sharing this with me!! It's not raining on my parade at all - in fact I'm happy to know people figured this out (and I can see what the other 10 letters are). I expected it, and would've been sad if the mystery of those runes hadn't been explored!
I'm so curious to know how those people figured it out though 👀👀 I'll show you what I used!
Goddamn airpod cases. My Rosetta Stone was... airpod cases. Thank you Milgram merchandise team, truly.
These things have each prisoner's name in runes. It's all consistent, and the only definitive proof I've found so far from an official source of what the runic alphabet is. Again, how on earth people figured this out BEFORE merchandise like this showed up baffles me in like, the best way. I wanna know the secrets! But even the resource you linked doesn't directly show how they got to those results... whoever figured it out a year, two years - maybe even three years ago... I love you and you're so smart holy shit.
Anyways here's my deciphering work again from these airpod cases (this is for my own reference but the link in the ask literally has the full alphabet okay bye-):
#milgram#analysis#meta#runes#this was SO much fun to fiddle around with omg... I have more rune info which I'll have to get around to at some point!#it's not ground-breaking stuff because I have to remember I'm like. 2 months new into a 3+ year old fandom asdfghjkl#but still!! I'm having so much fun and want to make resources for myself (and maybe others on tumblr) to refer to in the future 💜#reference
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So I may or may not have spent a good chunk of my day trying to learn how to look into onis code and while I may not have yet succeeded I will likely keep fucking around with shit tomorrow and if I manage to succeed it'll spell great doom for my sanity as oni becomes the interest I've officially poured the most effort into analyzing
#rat rambles#oni posting#for now I must sleep but hopefully tomorrow Ill figure out how to decompile files#the real question is going to be if Ill be able to do this on my shitty ass laptop or if Ill need to figure smth else out#I just want to be able to view stuff so ideally it won't make my laptop chug too bad but rly Im more worried abt space#I might have to try to do some cleanup and delete some shit maybe Ill go scan through the shit that came pre installed#and hey maybe if I can get this to work I can go mega hacker mode and tweak some stuff for funsies#probably wont since I don't wanna break my game and I dont trust myself but yknow#itd probably help if I actually retained any information from the Two programing classes I took when I was younger but alas#one of them was even specifically a video game programming class and lemme tell you I remember absolutely nothing#also from what little I was able to view without fancy applications I have no new info but I can finally fully put jean in the we 100% know#their last name zone cause while we definitely already 100% did Technically we only got jea- for first name confirmation#but theyre referred to as jean in a note in a bio bot story traits file ty whoever added the notes there#god I hope theres other notes in the files I want to read those so bad#btw this was all spurred by that one nails log that disappeared cause I have found a file that looks like it but I cant fully view it#and I desperately need to view it I need to view it#also if I can look in the code then in theory itll make copying down all the lore logs easier#also the datamining thread of the forums hasnt been particularly active so who knows maybe I can become a proper dataminer#(<- will not do that probably unless it turns out to be easier than I thought)#but admittedly I am interested in hunting for potential future update content even if I probably won't hunt too hard for it#again Im mostly just hunting for lore#hey maybe if Im lucky Ill find some genuinely new and usable information in that department#maybe the secrets of b363 and dr. holland lie in the files ooooo (they probably dont)#man it'd be nice if I had a proper pc itd make my life so much easier and my desk feel less enpty lol#in a world where I get to play videogames at a higher framerate than 10fps#I mean we do have some older computers laying around the house although theyre probably also crusty pieces of shit#idk maybe I can see if I can salvage one itd be nice to have a proper computer to fuck about with#Im sure my mom wouldn't mind as long as its one that hasnt been touched in years#which tbf I dont know how many options thatd leave me but we at least have one computer that could theoretically be usable#albiet its definitely packed with viruses from me and my siblings being dumb kids
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If you want grad school apply anyway. I've seen so many cases where technically they're not eligible but they got in anyway
Thanks for the advice!! yeah, I am not sure it is what I want because I don't think it would solve my problems but I DO think it would create new different problems and sometimes that's the best you can hope for? idk
#replies#I'm rethinking a lot of stuff this year based on the relatively new info that i'm not going to one day switch personalities#groundbreaking. shocking even#i had assumed one day my social challenges and the whole way the world is would simply go away but after 27 years#i'm forced to admit one cannot simply reframe repress recant one's way out of personal characteristics#shame. it was worth a try#now i'm faced with the dilemma that i need to find a job where i work in a cave alone or suffer the health consequences#a problem i'm not sure grad school would fix at all#maybe before i experienced the horrors i could have held a more collaborative position but it has historically not gone well to plan based#on past or future versions of myself
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#woof. if all goes to plan Tomorrow is the last day i have to take measurements forever. if all goes to plan. if all goes to plan. but im#not holding my breath bc thats asking for chaos. i think this week ive done a good job of not pushing it#in terms of not torturing myself and making myself insane. which is good bc its exhausting taking measurements with the ambient stress of#apartment hunting from across the country. ive toured 2 places from afar and applied to them. and im meeting with someone to talk abt#potentially being roommates tomorrow. which is terrifying bc i really just wanna beg them like pls pls like me so i can stop looking pls#like i have to rely on my charisma i guess when im a bit asocial and odd. not unlikable but idk maybe they want someone more normie idk#its exhausting. ive sent so many emails and so many places r like no u gotta physically visit. ugh#and i have to clean my whole apartment by Tuesday for my landlord to inspect bc i had to give them a 30 day notice or else they wouldn't#release my info for like referal on background checks. there should b flexibility in when i can leave tho. its just stressful#at least im doing this when im pretty stable and i stop taking measurements tomorrow but i haven't taken a break since last Saturday#and haven't really had time to properly draw which annoys me and apparently i wont get a break this weekend with all the cleaning i gotta do#but oh well. at least im better off than the other person i kno who is moving Tuesday across the country and currently doesnt have a place#to stay. so i guess theyre gonna b living out of their car for a while. im stressed enough a month out from leaving#sigh. im just v tired and my heart is beating too fast and i wanna start cleaning now but im sleepy#whenever we go sampling we joke that we have to make sacrifices to the weather gods for good conditions. i guess i gotta make sacrifices#to the housing gods 🙏 ugh. pls. i dont wanna still b doing this for another week when i wont have time bc ill actually have to focus on#things. ugh. cant wait to b in the future where i dont have to deal with this#unrelated
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