#momocon law

[missing-wires]

[tacitusauxilium]

((I forgot to upload these after almost a month.))

[powerfulkicks]

would encourage anyone who's at momocon to make a complaint to the ada about the disabled elevator connecting the GWCC and the Omni being out of service for over a year (the only other accessible route is outside)

[hiriajuu-suffering]

ACen debrief

I went into this feeling it's the Texas scene that's treated me so miserably, the Southern weeb community is generally reared with so much internalized conservatism that's clearly why I got ACen and not MomoCon, right? right? I don't necessarily need to romanticize being treated with less otherization, I just need to feel it.

But what makes me care for all the pathetically needy and unkempt creatures is the challenge working on them, the sense of accomplishment in knowing you pushed someone so well they started to fear just how much you could change them, in your view, for the better.

I think I was convinced I need to remake the "wrong type of Asian" panel that was so jarring I was a part of back in the day with just how much contempt a straight, cisgendered male of my heritage is looked at when he dares step outside of his native community: the unchangeables I carry around with me at work, in my hobby spaces, and my future in-laws still treating me like a delinquent teenager sneaking behind their backs to see their daughter just because I haven't been enough to help her grow a spine. We demonize fetishization so much, but if all these white, black, and hispanic otaku looked at race equitably within the Asian demographic, not putting the orientalist physiological perception as a pivot point of masculine idealization, maybe I'd have a chance in hell for being treated as anything more than a sexless object whose only value resides in his capital production: the way even my own race sees me.

Being a South Asian Muslim, you receive every negative that comes Asian typecasting while receiving, at best, the fringiest benefits of the identity in that you're on the in-crowd with other Asians but they never see you as worthy of crossing boundaries for. My late aunt chaired our local Asian Cultural Society and Chamber of Commerce and lamented just how little she could do in mitigating the fixed forms of self-segregation Asian communities practice when creating our own spaces in the west.

Working to set things right with my sister was a far bigger priority than anything I am at conventions. For the first time in decades, it feels as if we're getting back to having each other's backs like we used to back when our parents were treating us equally, equally negligent and tigerish, but equal nonetheless. Maybe I'm finally being forgiven for being so different, so weird, something she had to explain and keep her friends away from. Or maybe she just has too much life to deal with now to bully me anymore, who knows.

Maybe my issues have nothing to do with internalized prejudices and methodologies of discriminatory human attraction, maybe I'm just too thoughtful for all the headcases I try to adopt. Performing the Peaches song feels like an easier way to get an eye through the door than delivering a real message. TikTok attention span? Trying not to be ageist but holy hell does it feel like the entire unmarried drinking-age population has at least 70% less of the attention span than the demographic did prior to the pandemic. Only things I've seen that hold attention like that are Overwatch, Roblox, and Minecraft ... I still think all three are kinda cringe to be obsessed with.

Leaving all that behind, how did my ACen really go? Well, it was an escape. How likely was I to really find a persevering connection just by not being in the social hellscape of what I call "cowboy logistics" when it takes a significant amount of time commitment to develop a sense of friendship but impermanently. Can't hold much credence to the concept, but there was a lot of upside. Not having a con charge and working around some cosplayer's schedule who couldn't give a rat's ass about me was a nice change of pace. Can't help but be reminded of how alone I felt around my 30th, though. Damned if I do, damned if I don't, I suppose. Could just be fantasy to be treated as valued, more than what I'm able to provide for someone, but there's always hope - no matter how hollow it ends up being.

The most fun moments in any big event for me are when I got to sit down and talk to people, a big reason why I started paneling because it used to prompt a lot of great narrative in the 00's North American convention culture. My excessive optimism had me hope there would be a flame to be made readily available, I get this terribly dumb tendency being hyperromantic of putting amorous connections above platonic ones, but dismissing some of the platonic ones for naught just because I didn't get flirted with is my misanthropy talking and I have to remember that. There was something nice about the lack of pressure, not that I'm treated as desirable with any regularity.

If there is opportunity for me outside of where I am, I need to put less stock in if I seek it out, it's bound to happen. The notion itself is true enough, but making it an objective devalues its capacity to permeate. What happened the last two times was clinging to a breath with how fleeting there was no choice for it to be. I was always going to be left behind when I prompt growth because I hadn't been either of their first choices and accepting I never could've made myself be will let me have the peace for myself I need. It's just tough having to play demiromantic when you're on the other end of the spectrum just because my nature is to gravitate towards those who need the most help, only advancing otherwise when clearly prompted by the other party. I'm sure I encountered a lot of could-be interests this past weekend, but I always keep safe distance until I get normatively obvious indication the feeling is mutual...admittedly a high bar, even for an empath.

I need to focus on myself. I need to stop trapping myself in the mindset of: if I'm not helping someone, I'm nothing of value. I need get back the ability to just exist without needing to produce an outcome. I think that's something I lost in the process of healing a decade ago, just being comfortable existing for myself alone since my pleasure has become inconsequential, more of my decision calculus being tied to the avoidance of pain and capability rather than hedonistic ideations in their own right. Heck, that's probably why I still won't have gone to Japan by the end of 30, too much of my social behavior being risk-averse.

There's a reason Haruhi Suzumiya hasn't been supplanted after all these years as the fictional character I feel the most in my soul. Life doesn't feel worth living vulnerably unless it's truly interesting. What's interesting about a person who's basically been stuck in Texas his whole life? What's interesting about a late millennial struggling to juggle finishing graduate school while getting enough hours out of work to live on? What's interesting about a competitor that never seems to find himself in the conversation of respected? What's interesting about the life I have now? Being 30 and no prospect for a marriage materializing in any reasonable timeline? Being touted as someone great to on the side of but easily discarded? Even just being a good person but constantly judged for his otherizing appearance? Something has to happening in my life for me to feel alive, something has to be changing, or I don't feel much desire to carry on for my own sake alone.

In a lot of respects, my behavior is a walking paradox. I'm hyperromantic so I restrain myself by treating everyone as demisexual; I'm a schizromantic so no sane mind could be anything other than a romantic to me; I'm a recipromantic because every time I gave more than was given to me, I got betrayed and gutted for whomever I trusted just to take without remorse. I look at humanity with disdain yet put all my principles into improving the human experience. I pride myself on never depending on anyone yet I'm considered a nuisance and the black sheep of my own family. I'm in an upbringing and position of privilege yet I barely have the faculties to feed myself most days.

Well, I have nothing of particular note happening until the end of the month. Play the cards I'm given, test if I can win with them. My ethical impulses force others' actions to be how I extract value out of the world, it's so dismal when not a soul acts towards you. I miss the feeling of receiving unfounded faith, maybe I never really had it at all.

Well hey, at least I know now Chicago can be a place of comfort as long as I use some discretion. Now to just make said comfort something inherently desirable to return to.

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[momocon]

We are very excited to announce that Matthew Mercer will be returning as a guest to MomoCon 2017! Matthew is known for characters such as McCree in Overwatch, Cor Leonis in Final Fantasy XV, Leon Kennedy in Resident Evil 6 and Resident Evil: Damnation, Captain Levi in Attack on Titan, Trafalgar Law in One Piece, Leorio in Hunter x Hunter, Aloth & Edérin Pillars of Eternity, and Gangplank in League of Legends to name a few.

Matthew is the Dungeon Master for the hit Twitch show Critical Role on Geek & Sundry, where he runs a group of other accomplished voice actors through a campaign of Dungeons & Dragons LIVE every week at 7pm PST. Matthew is also known for his on-camera and production work, having directed the hit webseries There Will Be Brawl (where he also played Ganondorf, Kirby, and Metaknight), as well as directing the viral hit School of Thrones.

[recentanimenews]

Discotek Announces "Devilman" OVA, "Angel Cop," and New Lupin Dub

Discotek Media announced a bunch of licenses at Momocon this weekend, including some oft-requested licenses that should have long-time anime fans excited. The latest additions include the Devilman OVA, Angel Cop, All Purpose Cultural Cat Girl Nuku Nuku, The Law of Ueki, Cardcaptor Sakura: The Sealed Card, and a Lupin III: The Legend of the Gold of Babylon, complete with a brand new English dub. 

  Discotek's Blu-ray release of the remastered Devilman OVA will pack in the Japanese language track with revised subtitles and the original English dub, as well as a newly-translated audio drama. Angel Cop is getting a digitally restored release on Blu-ray with its old dub, vintage trailers, a text interview with the dub writer, and a new historical essay. 

  Yes, that's right, it's ANGEL COP ON BLU-RAY with an essay from me! And other things! Thanks, @discotekmedia! https://t.co/ImmDuBdMb8

— Todd C (@kidfenris) May 26, 2018

  All Purpose Cultural Cat Girl Nuku Nuku is coming to SD Blu-ray later this summer with the OVA, TV Anime, and DASH! OVA, all with Japanese language and English dub options. All 51 dubbed and subbed episodes of The Law of Ueki will be on SD Blu-ray this summer, and the Cardcaptor Sakura: The Sealed Card movie will be remastered in HD on Blu-ray with Japanese audio and the Bang Zoom! Entertainment dub. 

  On top of that, there will be Blu-ray releases for Mazinger Edition Z: The Impact! and Babel II this summer. As for the company's planned SD Blu-ray release of Cyborg 009 The Cyborg Soldier, it's coming out sometime this year, with all 51 episodes along with restored openings and endings.

  Here's a trailer for the newly-dubbed release of Lupin III: The Legend of the Gold of Babylon: 

  You wanted more dubbed Lupin… and we’re giving you more dubbed Lupin. #LupinThe3rd: The Legend Of The Gold Of Babylon is coming to Blu-ray starring @TonyOliverVA, @RichardEpcar, @LexLang, @MichelleRuffvo1, @DougErholtz & @ellynstern as Rosetta! pic.twitter.com/4djMssjNxg

— Discotek Media (@discotekmedia) May 25, 2018

  Thanks to Crunchyroll user tglover157 for the tip! 

  Additional info via Anime News Network

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Joseph Luster is the Games and Web editor at Otaku USA Magazine. You can read his webcomic, BIG DUMB FIGHTING IDIOTS at subhumanzoids. Follow him on Twitter @Moldilox.

By: news+feed@crunchyroll.com

[monarchsthoughts]

April 20, 2017

Yet another mobile post because sometimes starting up my laptop just seems like such a hassle. It’s actually turning out to be a bit difficult for me to keep up with the online posts because personally it is just easier for me to write by hand. Anyways, I’m pretty sure in my last post I had mentioned posting more often. Well… quite a bit has been going on. I’ll go in order.

Initially I’ve been stressing over trying to get a cosplay done in time for Momocon which is at the end of next month. It’s a bit of an ambitious cosplay and it’s only the second one I’ve ever put together for myself. I say myself because I put one together for my husband once but it was relatively simple. This one will require me to sew with a sewing machine and I’ve never done that before. Anyways, there is quite a bit for me to do and putting together a cosplay isn’t cheap.

There has also been the stress of me transitioning out of Job A and into Job B full time. I am actually really happy to be done with Job A and I feel like a weight has been lifted. It did scare me a little because it was a gauranteed gig. They needed me there, I was arguably the best person in my position there, and I was well liked. Job B, even though I have 7 years of previous experience at that company, is a new store with new people that I am not quite used to yet. Everything send to be working out fine with it so far though.

My husband’s birthday is also coming up at the end of the month and I’ve been stressing over making it a great day for him and what to get him. Here’s where it starts to get out of control though. As if all of that wasn’t already enough on my plate to deal with…My father-in-law passed away. It has been a devastating blow. On one hand, we are all glad he doesn’t have to suffer anymore but it’s just hard to be okay with. I wish I could have known him for longer than just seven short years. I hate that he will never get to meet my future children. I hate that they will be deprived of having a wonderful grandfather.

So my husband and I rented a car and drive back to Florida that day. The day we found out. I had to leave work early and miss more work. We went down there on a Tuesday and helped plan the funeral with his mom. I drive back home that Friday and returned the rental car then worked Saturday and Sunday. When I got off work Sunday I drove down to Jacksonville to stay the night at my aunt’s house then drive the rest of the way the next day. I got to my husband’s parents’ house on Monday afternoon, the viewing was that night, the funeral was Tuesday morning, and by Wednesday (yesterday) we were driving back home. We got in around 11pm and then I had to be at work this morning at 8. And I won’t be of until Sunday. I’m exhausted. I’m tired of crying. And to top it off while I was on the way back from Florida, when I was about an hour away from home, the fuel level sensor in my car went out. Now I will never be able to tell exactly how much gas I have. This is the same car, mind you, as the one I was having issues with before.

So now I’m back home and back to work. Back to worrying about my cosplay getting done in time except now with a bit more urgency because I’ve lost a solid week of working on it due to this shit storm. For now I think it is time for bed. I’m seriously lacking sleep and have to get up early again.

-M.M.