#mmy mom and dad... i love you still

[rosyhoneydew]

🍎 + bucktommy

yay I love this one! Thank you for the prompt, Lorri 🫶!

🍎 apple & pumpkin picking / future spec | Bucktommy | G | 1,249

Buck only barely manages to get the door open before Jee nearly launches herself out of his arms and into Tommy.

“‘mmy!”

Tommy lets out a small ‘uff’ sound and reflexively reaches out to grab Jee, smiling big as his brain catches up to the last 10 seconds.

“Hey kiddo!”

“I made a turtle!” she says. She���s still got little bits of clay stuck to her fingers.

“Wow! You wanna show me?” Tommy asks, setting her on the floor as she nods and wiggles to be put down.

Buck huffs a little laugh at the way she half-runs half-toddles into the living room to grab her clay sculpture. Then he leans over to kiss his boyfriend hello.

“Hey,” he says. “Sorry, babe, I meant to text you but the morning got away from us.”

“Everything good with Chim and Maddie?”

“Yeah, yeah, they’re fine, just some last-minute court meeting for Mara. I think Hen’s there too,” he explains.

He’s not sure how these things usually go, but it seems a bit like all these lawyers and social workers are expecting them to drop everything the second they’re needed. It feels a little like Chim and Hen are always on call, that way.

“Rain check on the movie?”

“Of course,” Tommy says, moving to rest his hand on Buck’s lower back before he ducks down to see the monstrosity Jee’s clay turtle has morphed into. He ooh’s and ahh’s over it for a minute, asking her questions about the colors before turning back to look at Buck. “You two have big plans today?”

“Working our way through the arts and crafts mom and dad packed, for now.”

Tommy hums. “There’s an orchard up in Thousand Oaks, how would you two feel about some apple picking? I think they have a petting zoo up there too.”

“I think we could do with some fresh air,” Buck says, pleasantly surprised. Tommy loves Jee, but Buck hadn’t really expected him to stick around and co-babysit all day, much less drive them out anywhere.

Tommy turns to Jee, then. “What do you say, Jee? Want to go pick out some apples to bring back for mom and dad?”

“Yeah!” she shouts, dropping the turtle to the floor where it smooshes.

It’s quick work getting everybody packed up and loaded into Tommy’s car. Jee’s snug in her car seat, and she’s busy with some kind of interactive board book but still demands to hear the Encanto soundtrack for the whole ride. Tommy surprises him by knowing most of the words already. Saw it with my nephews when it came out, he explains when he catches Buck smiling at him.

The orchard isn’t too far from Buck’s place but it’s L.A. so it takes them just under an hour to find the farm and grab a parking spot.

It’s not too busy today. One advantage of the odd hours of the job is being free on random Wednesdays to go to some of the more popular spots.

There’s a quick stop at the entrance to get their bags and directions and then they wander into the rows of trees. Jee starts picking right away, grabbing any apples within her reach and plopping about half into her bag, the rest falling to the ground before Buck gently tells her to only pick the ones she’s sure she really wants.

He’s on the hunt for some baking apples himself, so they meander into the Braeburn rows.

“I want that one!” Jee calls, pointing at a branch about a foot over Tommy’s head.

“This one?” Tommy asks, pointing.

“I wanna pick!”

Tommy just chuckles a little. “Okay,” he says, and lifts Jee up onto his hip before asking, “you alright with going on my shoulders?”

Jee nods, eyes focused on her apple.

Tommy lifts her up, plopping her onto his shoulders and laughing a little when her hands instinctively go to the top of his head and press down for balance.

Buck is absolutely taken with the sight. He’d be laughing too at the way Tommy’s face is smushed under her tiny hands if it weren’t for his own eyes getting rounder and a little wetter and his cheeks flushing. Tommy looks over at him for a second, locking eyes like he’s about to say kids, huh? but then he sees Buck’s face and he just smiles bigger.

Jee shakes the tree a bit with the force of pulling the apple off and promptly bites into it.

“You get it?” Tommy asks.

Jee takes another bite.

“Alright let’s hop down,” Buck jumps in before Jee tries to stay up there all afternoon.

Tommy bends to the ground and helps her off his shoulders.

They wander for a while longer. Buck decides on Cortlands instead after Tommy offers him a bite of a particularly sweet one that he picked. He manages to get his bag filled up enough that he’s confident he’ll have plenty for baking an apple cake with later before Jee gets bored with the picking and walking and runs over to the tiny, farm petting zoo.

They only have a few goats and chickens, but she has a good time feeding them little pieces of cake cones, giggling when their mouths tickle her fingers.

Buck and Tommy watch her for a bit, chatting idly. Tommy’s hand found his as they left the picking area and they haven’t let go since. Like this, Buck finds it all too easy to think about what their future could look like. Taking kids to the orchard. Making plans to visit the pumpkin patch in a few weeks so they can teach them how to make a Jack-O-Lantern. It just feels easy - inevitable almost - and it makes a wave of contradictory calm and excitement wash over Buck. He can’t wait for that.

Jee starts to look ready for a nap after not too long, so they gather everything back into the car and make their way home. She’s asleep before they even hit the 101.

The rest of the day into the early evening passes in a blur of nutmeg and batter and can we watch Coco, please?

It’s nearly 6 by the time Chim and Maddie stop over in a flurry of Sorry, sorry, we didn’t realize it would be such a long day!

They come in for a slice of cake and share the news from the day. Things are finally smoothing out for Hen and Karen and it makes them all breathe a little easier.

Maddie reiterates their apologies, mostly to Tommy, at being a wrench in their plans. Tommy just smiles and assures them I love kids, Jee is great! Buck, for his part, has no idea how to tell Maddie how nice of a day it was without sounding like some kind of lovestruck lunatic who wanted to propose to his boyfriend right there in the middle of the Granny Smiths; so he mostly nods along.

They say goodbye after they’ve finished eating. Tommy hands over the bag of miscellaneous apples that Jee carefully curated, and she gives both of their legs a big hug goodnight.

When they close the door a cozy quiet fills the apartment, and Buck leans against the frame for a minute, looking at Tommy.

Tommy smiles back at him, reaching up to fiddle with the hair behind Buck’s ear.

“Good day, huh?”

“Yeah,” Buck leans in for the kiss and mutters against his lips, “good day.”

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[buddiebeginz]

What we are looking at this all wrong. Stay with me. Let’s say all the deleted scenes, were deleted on purpose. We have 2 now deleted scene where they both occur in the same episode. Episode 9. In the past; we never got deleted scenes. Also, we know how Tim felt about the fans asking for deleted scenes and now we are getting deleted scenes???? That’s suspicious. That’s weird, close to filming. The first deleted scene was regarding T*mmy and Buck and their relationship and Henren wanting to know T*mmy intentions. There we found it, it was “very slow”. It was a bad scene for Tommy, let’s be honest. The second deleted scene is regarding Eddie and Shannon’s relationship. Again, deliberate. They could have chosen any deleted madney or henren or bathena scene from the season. I’ve been seeing and reading peoples ideas of the scene with Eddie, and i kinda agree with everyone. He went on to say to Chris “We spend the rest of the day hanging out, talking, sitting on a boat out on the water, away from our friends. To be honest she did most of the talking. I was just happy to be near her. We talked until it got dark and everybody went home." That’s why, Chris leaves. The night prior, he was talking to his dad about his mom about their favorite spot. The lake. In the final scene, Eddie mentions how Christopher went to the lake with his grandparents. That’s why Eddie was with Kim. He continued to attempt to recreate his relationship. His continued to idolized it. That part of him BEFORE Shannon becomes pregnant. When they first met, nothing mattered. Now let’s put on our buddie clown glasses. Both scenes are important. It shows us the audience to look closer and deeper into their relationships. What if the next deleted scene is from the SAME episode but this time, it’s the buckleydiaz table scene? AGAIN, Epsiode 9. What else happened in one particular episode 9 of season 3? The infamous kitchen scene💀💀🤣. But no, all jokes asides, these are two deleted scenes from the same episode. Regarding four people (yes Christopher) the fandom discusses the most. I have a feeling, the closer we get to the first episode; they will release the karaoke scene.

I definitely think Tim has deliberately chosen which scenes to hold back and when to release them going into season 8 (as I wrote about in this post).

I think you're right there's a good chance we will see the karaoke scene at some point. After 706 I wasn't sure because of the music rights and how Tim was being about it but at this point I think we will definitely see it.

I agree about Eddie trying to recreate stuff about his relationship with Shannon with Kim and I do think he sees his relationship with Shannon through these rose tinted glasses. But it's not just his relationship with Shannon he's not looking clearly at it's also himself. He thinks of Shannon and their relationship as this amazing love story and it's only gone because she's gone when that's not true at all. Their relationship was messy and likely would never have worked in the long run if she had lived. He's using Shannon as a way to explain why it's never worked out with anyone else when she's not the reason. The reason is because he keeps pursuing relationships with women when a man already has his heart.

Not sure if they'll give us that deleted scene with Buddie and Chris at the table because I think Marisol is in that one and it could make the audience wonder if she's coming back. Also I'm not sure how contracts work and all that. Like I'm not sure if the show can still use her on their social media if she's no longer working for them.

You made a good point about Chris and why he left. He likely went to the lake he had been talking about with his dad the night prior. I wonder if we'll get an episode when Eddie goes to Texas to get Chris and we see the lake. Maybe we'll get some flashbacks of young Eddie. Maybe that's where we'll find out he had a crush on a boy.

Having Chris go to Texas as sad as it was in 710 provides some good things for season 8. Eddie gets some time to figure himself out where he can't hide behind Chris. Plus since he's in Texas the show can then have an episode where Eddie goes home to get him or maybe talk him around into coming home and that's where we learn more about Eddie's sexuality.

[echowithpain]

Alright. I know this is like super fucking late but I can ✨explain✨:

I got sick 😘

ANYWAY IM LESS SICK NOW 💃 SO HERE WE GO!!!!

Before we get into the breakdown of the episode, one question that popped into my head that I never got to type out is "How are the body cams gonna work if they're in a fire?" I know it's been a bit since the 118 has responded to any 5 alarm fires and had to go inside, but were the cameras heat proof or fire resistant?? What if the footage got burned up or you couldn't see anything because the lenses got smoke damage? Even though they never acknowledged that possibility in the show (besides the "you break it you bought it" line)/the body cams might never come back, I just wanted to bring it up

Okay! Captain Asshole taking Buck "under his wing" was funny as fuck and I loved how uncomfortable Buck looked through the whole thing 🤣 Oliver Stark is one hell of an actor 🥰

Next, the male cheerleader being ass backwards storyline was actually great for Eddie. The kid as he's getting wheeled away telling his mom not to call his dad before passing out, and for the first thing he did when he woke up was ask for his dad 🥺🥺🥺 Eddie needed to see that. To see that even though the kid was saying he didn't want to see his dad, he didn't really mean it. Just like how Christopher acts like he doesn't want to talk to Eddie, he just doesn't know how to after what happened (also fuck that storyline last season wtf), and being with his grandparents isn't helping that either

For the Hen and Karen storyline: Fuck that councilwoman 🖕🤬🖕 (also fuck the writers) I'm glad they were able to fuck over the councilwoman and get Mara back, but can we please finally have a break from these kinds of storylines for the lesbian couple? First the cheating, then Karen not getting pregnant, losing Nia, having Denny meet his biological father behind their backs, and then losing Mara and getting their foster care license revoked. Please let it end.

You know what I wanna see more of? I think it was the FOMO episode in season 5 when someone stole Karen's purse that was in their car and was using Hen's credit card that was in it. They tracked down the person to a club and ended the night dancing. THE ENTIRE TIME THEY LOOK LIKE THEYRE HAVING A BALL!!!!

GIVE US MORE OF THE WIVES BEING FUN AND HAPPY GOD DAMMIT!!!!!!!! 😤😤😤😤😤😤😤😤

*sigh*

Anyway moving on to the tiger storyline, OH MY GOD IT WAS SO CUTE!!!! 💖🐯💖🐯💖🐯💖 I don't know if it was the lighting or just because tigers are naturally beautiful, but all shots with the CGI tiger were really pretty! I wanted to pet it 🥰 especially when it was a cub 😭💖😭💖😭💖

Also real quick, why didn't Maddie tell the woman to move away from the bathroom door? I know she told her not to open it, but I'm talking about earlier when she was telling her how to stop the bleeding in her leg. Why not say "make sure you're as far away from the door as possible"? I know Maddie probably didn't know she was right up against it, but you'd think she'd say it anyway because in case first responders need to break it down, you don't wanna be in the way of that. -1 point I guess?

Now, I feel like I need to clarify this. When I said this I meant I accepted Gerrard's "apology" for talking shit about Hen with the councilwoman. He's still a bigoted racist misogynistic asshole as shown in the previous episodes and the golf scene. He hasn't done anything to attone for that, and the fact that he gets to be comfortable in an easy job with his man crush is unfair. I understand he switched jobs with Bobby so the 118 could have him back, but still, feels like he was let off easy. Kinda like how some people are ignoring the fact that T*mmy acted the same way because they think he's hot 🤮

-1 point for unfairness

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Was that all? I think that's all. Oh wait, I loved Bobby and Athena going house hunting and Athena not liking any of the homes. I was a bit worried when we could clearly see Bobby wasn't on board with rebuilding the old house, but they quickly eased my mind when he sat her down and explained that the old house was for her and Michael and they agreed to build a new house together 🥰💖🥰💖🥰 Love them 💖

Also Maddie and Chim are still amazing and I need to see the 118 + co playing paintball with each other. Maybe they go to a place and everyone has fun and there's some humor only for something to happen to one of the other teams and they have to help. Idk, I'm not on the writing team, but I will say this: Athena, Eddie, and Chim need to be on a team and absolutely DOMINATE everyone. That is all. 💖

Episode Rating: 🐯7/10🐯

-1 point for Maddie not telling the woman to move away from the door (she could've told her earlier and the woman easily could've moved back to it when the tiger was trying to get in), -1 point for Gerrard getting off easy and being comfortable in a job he likes, and -1 point for vibes. Idk man but something's keeping me from rating this an 8/10. I can't figure it out now cause again, still sick, but once I do I'll come back and yell it into existence lol

I'd say I'm excited for the next episode (I mean, I am), but I'm worried about what might happen to Denny 🥺

Guess I'll find out in a few hours 🤪

Thanks for reading and I'll see y'all for my liveblogging 😘✌️✨

[nityarawal]

Notes to Cybertruck models & Singers I manage:

Remember when you felt most Beautiful in your life? Bring her back in your pictures.

I never thought I'd find that Nitya again but I did in my 40's.

Somehow we have to love that little angel Mel; one of great beauties of globe; and show what happened. Even now in 50's.

Dad's always there. Even in Unified Field hoping for this as every parent does.

Natural starlight is always prettier than plastics. Salsa & Tango for camera.

I know there's a Epic Diva in there that deserves to be divine in light of film for Eternity. Xo

#DarkEyes #Red #BlackHole #Eternalists #SistersOfMyHeart #OtherFromAnotherMother #Nancy

Amazing meteor leonid showers tonight/tomorrow.

With love,

From Leo's & Romeo- of course.

Cat God's amongst us right? (:

I really need to work & capture my kids. I have a very short window. Prayers! Send my photo notes to your team. Mommy managers. Xo

I wish someone would clue in my kids & parents. Ridiculous.

Space Junk appears to be a criticism from fish people. Moi.(: lol

Moms are asking if you're cleaning it up? #PowerOf2 xo

Gemini Mercury Buddha can be Jekyll Hyde but not as scrutinous & mean as Kyle/Sunil/Keith Virgo Mercury Buddha.

Jyotish lay terms are easy to study w/ James Braha, my bro & astroglyphics.com - it's much more accurate than western. Moon sign. Xo

I bet Paul is double Buddha too.

Yes. So is Brotherly. DFK.

I did ask he avoid Kauaii because of hurricanes. Near Kauai I heard; then Hawaii. That would be better. Ask Haydn!!!! Turd my brother is. He should settle this shit. Dick. He's Circumcised FYI! Lol

I did ask you to avoid Kauaii because of hurricanes. Near Kauai I heard; then Hawaii. That would be better. Ask Haydn!!!! Turd my brother is. He should settle this shit. Dick. He's Circumcised FYI! Lol

My Rahu shadow apparently works like a magical black hole for Geminis.

Bizarre.

Lakshmi Yoga.

David knew.

Vampric Zionists!

I still love my Jewish Santa's. Feels better.

But the boundaries and debts go up and up and up.

Starside. Xo

Yes. He really wants to blow. He postponed. Bless his heart.

Yeah. Luna, Taylor, Ukulele.. xo

#Mahalo #Maui #Mahalakshmi #Rockets #George

Do some action shots in water too. #50ShadesOfGold prayers for #4BillionMothersStrong

Mahalo!

#Rockets is landing by Kauaii tomorrow. His jyotish is best its gonna be for 10+ years- until he's 69' I think she said! Lol

Say a prayer! Xo

Soft light is always best. I love sunset glow.

Pick your favorite illumunous light/time.

Shadows are good if fully shaded- not spotty.

Hard Sun is only good if you beat the shadow. Xo

#Rahu #Eclipses #Lights

Both. Video gets good stills sometimes. Just play. Heaven and Earth line comforts viewer and mazes for the eye.

You could spread feathers around head too. You're a good Gypsy type too. Boho.

Filters. I like mood series. 7 shades of Gold kind of ideas! Clowns. 3+ moods. Xo

1980s Gorgeous Andy Warhol "Marilyn" Limited Edition Lithograph by CMO

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Cool. Just focus on hair, eyes, laugh, bust and dancing- hips etc.

Close up movement but get your face in focus.

I do like whirling dervish vibe.

Chi.

Feet on ground head in sky/Heavens is goal, MMY said.

Or Ansel? Lol

Maybe you do one with each devoted band mate. The death drop at mojomana temple! Lol

The Warhol series in various colors?(:

Oh yeah! Hot hot! Can you teach Todd & son?(:

So romantic!!!!

Yeah- smiling through tears- eyes always go to the dark eyes. Drama.

Yeah. Elon cuts his own hair too. Skate punks were hot! Lol

I like to sing/dance Mambo Italiano for that vibe too.(:

Rifkin's mom was photographer for guess. His Step dad was the hot model.

I was trying to think of my favorite blonds on Halloween.

Daryl Hannah in Splash. Britney Paris.

Cher.

Kim.

Maye Musk.

Project something yummy I didn't know I had. Jaimas baby sister Shawna is perfect Christie Brinkley dimpled blonde.

But what a sacrifice to surrender their dark side. That's boys candy. Mommies have soul; that's attractive to each other. Boys love us regardless. Depth/mystery= Gravy. Aspirational light.

Demi Moore, Natalie Portman; Charlie's Angel's. Peel back your Goddess onion. Take tons of pics and just choose best ones too. Safety In numbers!!!! Lol

I was obsessed with little mermaid as child.

The legs transforming for true love. You reminded me of Ariel... lol

Could go with mermaid emerald vibe too. (:

Selfies- w/ guitar hiking/playing etc good too. Koa probably brings out alot you don't realize. Isha actually really understood my best look. Art eyes. Vibes. Xo

When in doubt- sing Paul into camera!(:

Laying down in flowers with hair all over the place is fun and get fruit & flowers behind you.

Frida inspires me with your look too.

Abundance Mamma Maui vibes. Xo

Creek & flowers/falls/ocean/woods- your lucky Goddess temples- for backdrop.

White.

Light.

Lona said her mom told her she'd always be protected in white light. We all have that.

Toby was pretty rough on her but she has that & stands for that.

Throw a few punches/kicks.

Medetate on your pulse; beat.

No one is fucking my Mel or her family/sisters. Right? IKR!!!!

Ninja Mel. Love dark red lipstick & close ups/dark Claudia Schiffer eyes. And denim/cowgirl/70's gals!

I was self conscious about freckle, but they're an interesting palette artistically.

Most gorgeous women own them.

A map of your face.

Angels kisses when they're healthy.

Tell your skin. Stardust.

Self love is best cure.

So radiant.

Every little girl needs assurance so you're doing them all a favor; shining secret of your inner Marilyn/Native/Yogini/Mommy quest.

Did you know how pretty you were as a kid? I didn't until 10+ when I found Mammas Persian eye Kohle. Then Vikas, Kyle, Grant, Chandra etc let me know!!! Lol I really thought Hollie & blonds were the lucky beauties. We had to make a new beauty. Remember an old classic flame. Before Forgotten In Cyber plastics.

Surf shots would be hot if you could get a gf or Koa to help? (:

Isha is an amazing photographer. We can't all be good at everything! I like Todd's shots but Sunil sucked!

Completely ignored my muse!!! Lol

Xo

Pretty but you look a bit stressed. Are you ok?

I know we all are Stretched.

Work out/hot bath/juice/pamper self love- rest medetate. Impassion.

Write your dream song- hearts desire.

Than pull mommy glow out just for a 2nd after your groomed/nourished/rested.

One instant to tell Melissa story of Star Light.

Why does she laugh?

What is that ah-hah in the Warrior Goddesses eye?

Who is love of life?

Ultimately YOU are.(:

Even though Todd is amazing Trojan. He shows up 'cuz you do.

You're own best fantasy- spun- now.

Is it something Grandma said?

A bf as a teen?

When did you feel Prettiest?

Who loved you most you remember?

What makes your heart overflow with God given privilege?

Tick???

It's for them.

That's all we want Mamma. Xo

Click!

Mothering 4 Eternity xo

Godmammas'

Nitya

PS I love Guess ads, Cindy Crawford; Julia Robert's.

Whose your favorite model/actress?

I remember thinking you were most beautiful sister in "boyfriend" and dancing tango.

I know all your bfs felt extremely lucky.

Even if your bro is a deluded ass now. He had respect and does deep down under war games.

You are the boss for a grascious reason.

That's your Why.

Tell it.

Blackbelt at 51 still hot is a great story. (:

Laugh out loud. It's a privilege to even see that.

Anyways. Hope that helps you get your commission & help me help you. Xo

Well your Elon Bond. I'm sure you can achieve any dream with Venus light on you. Any Elon brand you want.

Hope we get my daughter. We're cheering you on!!! #Rockets all the way!!!! Xo

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[birthclod]

never forget this power couple

[fuckingfuckityfuck]

Confirmation

Pairing : Negan x reader

Warning : angst

Plot : Negan had done a mistake by treating you like you're nothing to him.You were tired from the constant fights you had with him everyday.You finally decided to leave him and now he wants you back.

I loudly shut my door close,not wanting to hear his empty promises and reasons.

It has been days since I broke up with Negan,being tired as one of his wives.Yeah sure,sex is great and the perks are awesome but if you really love him,like really really love him,you'd not want to be one of his wives.

He treated his wives like toys.Once he's done,he's gone.He'll surely toy with your emotions,always making you feel like it's your damn fault.

He is the master manipulator and he fucking knows it.

"Open the fucking door,y/n!" Negan shouted at the other side of the door.I rolled my eyes,not even moving from my chair.

Minutes passed when I hear the lock click.He is mad as hell.His eyes are furious,burning through me like fire.

"You don't fucking listen to me,do you?You always do these damn things like a teen fucking queen." He roared loudly,each step he took was loud enough for everyone to know that he is mad.

"Well fuck you too,Negan.I sure as hell am not your fucking wife anymore.There's that and who the fuck cares if I dump you?It's not like you like me or you have feelings for me,right?So fuck you" I screamed and signalled him to not move close to me.

He shook his head and glared at me.

"You're not done with me unless i fucking say so,doll.I fucking own you,you are under my damn rule" He said.

I crossed my arms and tried to tell myself to not cry in front of him,not wanting to look weak and him taking advantage of that.

"You know what?I am so done with you,Negan.I am so tired with all of these.I can't spend another day with you or living here if that's what you're saying.I don't owe you anything.If there's anything,you owe me.You owe me everything.I fucking made you the king,the ruler of the saviors.I fucking gave you everything and after that,here I am." I screamed,hitting his chest as he tried to hold me close.

I wiped away my tears and shook my head.

"Not anymore.You can't continue treating me like this,goddamn it,I'm your fucking wife before all of this.You treat me like I'm an invisible rag just for you to use and spit on.You never look at me the same way before.Fuck you.I regret wasting my life here.You sure as hell don't fucking need me anymore so just let me go" I said,trying to calm myself before having a panic attack.

Negan just looked at me.Analyzing what I had just said.His face gave out no emotion.No sadness.No fear.

No nothing.Just staring at me like.

Then he looked down.

"This is a mistake,I-" Negan started and I laughed.

"Hell fucking yeah it is.You made sure to show me how much of a mistake I made by marrying an asshole like you" I laughed and he didn't even move.Just looking down and massaging his jaw.

A thing he does when he's stressed out.Good for him.

"You don't understand my point here,y/n.You really want to know why I did what I did?You want to know everything?Because it feels like you're telling me that you know everything when you clearly don't." He gave out a loud sigh and looked at me again.

Tears are threatening to spill from his eyes.Before,it was red with fury and anger.

But now,his eyes are red from sorrow and sadness.

"I never wanted us to be like this.I made a promise to myself to never let the same thing happen again.You know how it went with Lucille.I was a bastard sleeping around while my wife was sick." He started to cry,softly.

Tears are already streaming down my face.

"When I met you,I knew that I had to protect you.I had to keep you safe,I had to have you.So I did.You put up these walls around you so high.You lost your mother and that was the hardest part for you.I made sure to be there by your side always.I pursued you.I wanted to have you so fucking bad." Negan said as he looked at me.

He gave out a small,sad smile.

"Then I had you.You said the damn word too.You love me.You cared for me.Slowly,your walls are gone.You let me in.And then someone saw.Someone knew that you're my weakness.They blackmailed me.They wanted me out of the top.I didn't know what to do or what to choose,y/n.But I know,I should've chosen you like you've chosen me multiple damn times."He touched my cheek and I flinched away from his cold touch.He cried.

"I don't hate you,doll.I don't resent you.I don't want you to be gone.You are the only thing that keeps me going with everything that's been going on with Rick and his people.I did this to protect you.Or that's what I thought I was doing.I didn't know I was breaking you apart.Maybe I should just let you go and give you a chance to be free again." He murmured as he cried.

Can I still be with this man?Everything he said made sense now.But can I trust him enough to be with him again?

"I left you because I don't feel your love for me.You always scream at me,telling me how useless I am infront of everyone.I felt like shit,Negan.I just wanted you.You promised me that I will be your only one.You have 4 other wives.You can go on without me.I love you but I don't think this is going to work for us.Not anymore." I said while staring back at him.His eyes are pleading,telling me to stay.

Suddenly,I felt his arms around me.Holding me close to his chest,feeling his heart beat against my face.We are both crying now.

"Promise me you'll stay alive?That you'll carry on with your life and not look back?If you think that I don't love you anymore,this is me letting you go.Fuck,I love you so damn fucking much that I will let you go.I will give you what you want." He cried as he softly touch my hair.

We both cried our eyes out that night.Our last night.

I remember him touching my face,telling me how much he loves me.

I remember pulling his face and kissing him.

He kissed me back and I remember that night,we were both calling out each other's name.

I turned off the stove,pouring down the hot water on my mug.I opened my tea packet and put it in my mug.

I smiled as I felt arms around my waist.

"Good morning,sweetheart.You seem so happy today?" He asked,swaying us both side to side.

Then I heard the little footsteps around the house.We both turned around to see Hope carrying her bunny toy.

"Mom-mommy?Dadd-y-y?" Hope croaked out while rubbing her sleepy eyes.

I looked up at Negan and smiled.She looks so much like him.

"You want some cereals,baby?With fruits on it?" Negan asked Hope as he walked towards her.She nodded and put her arms out for him to carry her.

Hope giggled as Negan playfully tried to throw her up in the air.

"Ye-yes dad-dy.What about mom-mmy?" Hope asked and looked at me.They both look at me with the same face.

I laughed and rolled my eyes.

"Mommy can take care of herself,darling.You change your clothes first and we'll go out and play with Judith outside,that okay with you?" I said.

Hope pouted but signalled for Negan to put her down.She kissed him on the cheek before walking away to get dressed.

"She may look like me but she does have your attitude and sassiness.Also the pouting." Negan chuckled as he walked towards me again.

"Yeah right.I forgot,Rick came by earlier.He said he needed some help fixing the gate." I said as I put his face between my hands.

"You know I love you,right?" Negan asked while looking me in the eyes.

I smiled.

I smiled like a chesire cat.

"I do and I love you so fucking much too." I said and kissed him happily

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[celestialflamesme]

| MER-MAID FOR EACH OTHER | A Stashi One-shot Mermaid AU | Fairy Tail Next Generation |

Ships: Nashi Dragneel x Storm Fullbuster (Magma mermaid x Sharkboy)

Dedicated to @primaverafrog @luna-chan00 @biorckstudios18 @cxndy-stxrs and that random fact I read about sharks thriving in volcanoes.

If there was anything Nashi's dad taught her, it was this.

It was her mom that had sat her down and told her about how she couldn't play with the other mermaids and the do's and don'ts and safe spaces and creeks that reeked of danger and bad merfolk. Nashi nodded half-heartedly, too upset to barely talk back like she usually did.

But Nashi's dad, bless his soul, beckoned her to him one fine day and said, "No matter what you are and what you can do, don't hide a single part of you. Fight for what you want and what you deserve no matter how ridiculous it looks in the grand scheme of things. We'll always be here," he poked at her chest, "supporting you. Always."

Of course, turns out it was regarding a 'big, juicy mackerel' he lost to a 'dumb, fucking orca of all fish', but she liked to think it applied to other aspects of her life too.

The mer peered at the children giggling and trying to outswim each other across the reef and sighed.

As amazing as living in a volcano was, it sure was lonely sometimes.

Magma merfolk had several restrictions because of the seething temperatures their bodies possessed. Basically, if she touched a mer, they'd get burnt (super bad). It wasn't like there was a chance of that happening anyway, considering how scared merfolk were of them.

Pearl (a curious whitefish she'd come across on one of her hunts) swam in circles around her, obviously in a playful mood. She slightly smiled and brought a finger to her lips.

The children screeched as they spotted her swimming rapidly towards them and scattered away. The pinkette chortled at them.

"You'd think they'd have learnt by now, eh, Pearl?"

Pearl made a noise of delight, wading amongst the reeds. She huffed. "I knew you were hungry, you silly little fishy. Which reminds me, I have a date with destiny!"

Her best friend clicked. (Sorry hun, a mermaid has needs. Sweet, sweet protein; sign her up please!) She squinted, scanning the waters for her next meal. Her eyes registered a faint figure.

Tapping her tail thrice to get Pearl's attention, she swam ahead at a careful pace, ducking behind giant kelp to get a closer look. The figure continued its path, paying her no notice. Which was when she realised what it was headed straight for.

Pearl.

Her heart beating violently, she let out a war-cry and flexed her tail harder. Her vision saw red as she rammed into-

"WHAT THE FLIPPING HECK?!"

Both the bodies crashed into a boulder and Nashi let out a small groan, her sight blurry. Blinking back into consciousness, she tilted her head up.

She wasn't going to lie, the first thing she saw was his jaw filled with sharp canines. Her blood ran cold as she slowly, carefully, looked up only to gaze at perfect cerulean blue eyes.

She blinked. He blinked. Then the screaming ensued.

"WHAT'S A SHARK DOING IN MAGMA REEF?! AM I GOING TO DIE?! HOLY FLIPPING MAVIS-"

"WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TACKLE ME LIKE THAT?! DO YOU HAVE A DEATH WISH, YOU CRAZY MER?!"

6 minutes later, Pearl floated by, unimpressed by their shrieking. The shark-guy (shark-man, shark-douche, whatever) reached out to grab her and Pearl and Nashi collectively squeaked, the latter smacking him at the back of his head. He snarled.

"I'm trying TO CATCH MY NEXT MEAL! DO YOU MIND?!" He yelled.

"YES, I MIND! PEARL IS MY FRIEND, NOT FOOD!"

"Oh dear Triton, she's one of the vegan loons...." He muttered under his breath. She clicked her tongue.

"Even if I am, that doesn't explain the fact that YOU'RE ON MY TURF!!" She retorted, and he flinched at her tone.

"I DON'T SEE A SIGN ANYWHERE!!"

Nashi growled at him, "You have 7 seconds to run before I burn you to ashes!" Which is when she noticed that she was still on top of him.

"Wait, you aren't- what?" She furrowed her eyebrows and inspected him. "You're- wha- how?"

"What is it?!" He frowned. "It's considered rude to sta- HEY!"

She frantically patted and touched his chest and arms for something, anything and let out a breath of bewilderment. "You're- You don't feel anything?"

"Well, you are a little warmer than the others," he admitted. The shark raised an eyebrow curiously, "Uh- why?"

Nashi blinked out of her stupor, then pointed at herself, "Magma mermaid."

"Oh." He blinked back. "You're not as scary as they make you out to be. Unless," he held her shoulders and scanned her (Uhhhhhhhh....) "You're a baby!"

"WHAT! NO, YOU DUMBASS!"

"So you're saying that you're old?" He teased.

"I'm the appropriate age!" She huffed back.

"Appropriate age for?"

"Uh, stuff?"

"Yeah huh."

"YEAH HUH!"

He bit his lip, fighting back a smile. "Now, what am I going to do about lunch?"

Nashi's eyes widened. "Kelpsicles, I have to hunt too!" Both met each other's gazes before he shrugged. "Truce?"

"It's Nashi, actually," she smirked.

"Cool, I'm Storm."

............

An hour later, Storm managed to piss her off again.

"What do you mean you don't like burnt fish?! It's flipping amazing!"

Storm sighed (The audacity!) "Have you even tried raw fish?"

She spluttered, "Of course I have-" At the disbelieving look he shot her, she mumbled, "Not."

"Open up then."

"Excuse me?!" She shrieked indignantly. "I barely know you! You could poison me for all-" she choked as he shoved a piece in her mouth mid-sentence.

"I don't wanna hear it," he interrupted her before she could yell at him, "So? How's it taste?"

"I still like burnt fish." She mumbled, flustered.

"D'aww, is the iddle widdle mermaid embarrassed?" He cooed. "How ador-" Now it was his turn to choke as she shoved the entire fish down his throat.

She snorted, "Now that's peak humour." He shot her the middle flipper.

.............

"Damn, the humans are at it again."

"What's new?" Storm grumbled.

Nashi's grin widened, "Wanna check it out?"

"I don't know Nash, this bunch looks- Nash?" He groaned at her figure wading upwards, "Woman, get back here!"

Nashi was too busy taking in the sun's warmth to pay him any attention the first time. The second time however, she swivelled around only to register his panicked look. The third time, she found her tail stuck. In a net.

"STORM!! FLIPPING- HELP!!" She screeched, pushing, propelling herself out, trying anything, everything. She was getting dizzier by the second.

A giant thud resonated from behind her, and the net shook back and forth but she waddled undeterred until Rip! She was free!

"Oh thank Triton!" She gasped, trying to catch her breath. The humans were yelling but she didn't want to stick around and find out.

A pair of arms wrapped around her making her flinch. Storm had a dark look on his face as he pulled her against him and swam forth, not uttering a word.

He'd rocked the boat. He'd- he'd saved her from-

"Don't ever leave my side again." He murmured against her hair.

.................

"Nash, stoppppp," Storm whined, "It's only 15 minutes awayyyyy."

"You said that 15 minutes ago! And what's the big deal anyway?" She snickered, reaching out for his fin again, only to be swatted again, "Ticklish?"

"Very much so." He raised an eyebrow, daring her to try again. "You can't stay one minute without trying to feel me up, can you?"

She spluttered and even Pearl (dumb fish!) joined Storm as he chortled at the indignant face she made.

"We're here!" He cheered, only to be tackled by a bunch of sharks. Nashi felt her breath quicken.

"Storm?" She blinked. The group turned to stare at her in awe.

"STORM BROUGHT A GIRL HOME!"

"SHE'S PRETTY!"

"ARE YOU TWO MARRIED YET?!"

"Uhhh..." What was happening again?

Storm laughed at her confusion. "I figured you'd be lonely up there so I thought you'd like to stay with my family for a change. Don't mind Kai and Gale," he shot them a look. "They're dumbasses."

"If you won't date her, I might," Kai smirked at her. She nervously smiled at him, confused.

Storm growled, "Back off, she's mine!"

Nashi choked. Even Pearl cheered as they proceeded to carry her into their coven? Cliff? Ridge maybe....

"Since when am I yours?" She inquired, bewildered.

"We'll work on the specifics later. For now," he wrapped an arm around her torso and grinned at her, "Yeah, you're mine."

.................

Bonus: (that no one asked for)

"Sing it with me, River! BABY SHARK DO DO DO DO DO DO! BABY SHARK DO DO DO DO DO DO! BABY SHARK DO DO DO DO DO DO! BABY SHARK!"

Storm grumbled, "If his first word is baby, it'll be your fault."

Nashi shrugged, "As long as it's not Daddy, I don't mind at all. Say mommy, sweetie! Mo-mmy! See!"

The tiny shark ("He loves raw fish! He's a natural predator!" Storm cheered, making funny faces at his giggling son) paid no heed to his parents, distracted by Pearl swimming in circles around him.

"Pearl, you're going to make him take his first paddle before he says Momma at this rate," Nashi warned.

"You mean Dadda."

"Momma!"

"Dadda!"

"Momma!"

"Dadda!"

"Ma- da," River giggled, clapping his hands. Both of them blinked at him.

"Well that solves that," Storm smiled.

"Yeah...." Nashi sighed. "Who's a good little sharkie? Yes, you are!" She cooed, carrying him in her arms. "I love you!" She poked at him.

"What about me?" Storm pouted. She rolled her eyes and pecked him on the lips. "I love you too, Snarky."

He flicked her on the nose.

.....................

[artemuerto]

Cat’s out

The Cat was out of the bag.

Read on AO3

Peter could feel the heavy staring as he kept walking by the long halls. He was late. He wasn’t usually late, not anymore as the younger version of himself who would struggle to keep up the early schedule of high school. Now, he felt confortable in his own skin and that confidence slowly found his way into his looks, his smile and even the way he talked and walked.

It was said confidence that helped him go through the silently stare contest that was being held on his account. He knew it would be impossible to escape them but still— had anybody any type of decency anymore? It’s not like he was walking around school naked, it wasn’t that bad, right?

He just had a baby in his arms.

His baby.

A baby no one knew about and who he would protect nail and tooth until his last breath, but after a last minute lecture he had no way of avoiding and no help close enough available, Peter was conscious his only option was to take his baby with him.

Ben was a happy, quiet little baby. Had his father’s eyes and long lashes while Peter gave him his curly messy locks and chubby, rosy cheeks; Ben had been a miracle. An absolute impossible miracle that not in millions of years they would have thought it was happening for real. But, again, what were their lives about?

Fighting aliens in distant galaxies, sharing food from unspeakable planets and coming back on time for a presentation at Stark Expo or the mandatory family dinner on Thursday nights.

Discovering he was with child had been a disconcerting surprise. Yes, he hadn’t been using proper protection for about a year, but he never had to worry about the possibility... and a cold morning in January he got sick.

They thought it was just his spider sense going wired due to temperature but after bloodwork came in, both soon-to-be parents stared at each other in eerie silence.

Months later they welcomed Ben in scared tears and shaky, open arms. Peter had lost so much blood, had passed out that the doctors were honestly to god praying for his powers to kick in and bring him back.

Now, the warm peanut of joy was never out of his sight and even the Peter tingle was even more sensitive.

Peter reached the classroom for the special lecture, it was a far auditorium at the edge of campus and it was buzzing with eager energy, laugh and half conversations. Ned waved happily at the sight of them and Gwen was waiting for them at the end of the stairs, they had saved a seat for him, not so high near the exit, closest seat toward the door next to the stairs.

“How’s my beautiful godson?” Gwen talked in whispers not wanting to awake the sleeping beauty and cooed at his tiny hands curled in a fist.

“He refused to sleep almost all night. Turn in around six, so I think he should sleep through the whole class.”

“He’s an angel.” Gwen smiled wide as Ned came closer to look at Ben.

“That’s my spider baby giving his dads some trouble.” Peter looked at his friend so unimpressed and finally sat wondering what was the fuzz all about, he hadn’t had a chance to see who they were listening to.

“You know Ben is perfect. He doesn’t give us any problems.”

“Wait until a couple of years. He’ll be a heartbreaker, I can tell.” Peter scolded and Ben moved in his sleep winning their attention in a breath.

“Either way—“ He hushed his baby. “Who is coming today? Why were you so damn persistent on me coming today?” Both his friend gasped loudly with a tint of fake-ness.

“No cursing in front of the child, Pete. We taught you better.”

“Idiots.” He murmured. “Your godparents are idiots, love. And I hate them so much.”

“Not for long.” Gwen leaned into him and said half smiling.

The doors came in wide open and everyone else attention was caught. The one and only Tony Stark was standing proud in a three pieces suit and pink tinted glasses, smiling with both arms extended as he made his way to the center and started his conference.

It was one of his annual shows-up at random moments to see everybody’s brilliance and finance some projects he thought had a future and would love to see come to life under his wings.

In between his entrance, Tony couldn’t help to pay attention to Peter and the sleeping form of a baby in his arms, even still, the boy wouldn’t denied himself to be close to Ben; Peter needed to feel the warmth coming from his form and if he focus, he could hear him breath and was on the verge of synchronizing their heartbeats. Tony’s features relaxed for moments and smiled softly. A group of girls behind them giggled and for a moment Peter worried Ben was about to wake up but his boy stayed safe and sound.

Later on— the class continue. Mister Stark was smart, funny, witty and flirty, but they already knew that. The Class laughed at his jokes and shyly answered his questions, Peter imagined Ben would stay the same through the whole lecture.

He was wrong.

At the back of his mind Ben knew he was safe. In the softest cocoon surrounded by his mommy’s scent, he could grasp him with his hand and feel him in his palm, Ben could sleep forever.

Until he heard it—

He heard his daddy’s laugh.

Ben sighed opening his eyes, Peter was too attached to Tony’s to realized Ben was up but even blindly, he moved so his son could be free from his embrace.

Trying to sit was how Peter saw Ben awake and instantly smiled kissing his cheeks.

“Mommy—“ Ben whispered sitting back so he could focus better on the person walking around. “Daddy?” He questioned looking at Peter with curious eyes and for a moment Peter feared.

They had never—

“Yes, sweetheart.” Ben giggled stealing attention and some classmates melted unable to not love the pureness of the baby in Peter’s arms. “That’s Daddy.” Ben had seen Tony’s conferences before, usually backstage and away from the noise. The boy kept still just looking at his dad with gleamy eyes and pleased gurgling. Peter thought it was gonna be the same.

Wrong.

Ben hadn’t seen his father in over five days and it was the longest time ever. Yes, he had pictures, videos and calls but nothing compared to be in his father’s arms.

Doctor said Ben had developed a case of attachment. Since birth he had never been away from any of his parents for more than mere minutes, both being scared of loosing him.

“Daddy!” Ben spoke with such clarity that being a different time Peter would be static, but now? In a room full of strangers, it was not the best.

Tony stopped in a heartbeat at the sound of his son’s voice and for seconds Peter and him held a silent conversation. Nobody knew about them, about their relationship and much less about Ben, and they wanted to keep it like that for a long time. But it seem his boy had other plans.

Tony could see Ben wide awake and aching to reach his daddy, Peter had him secure in his grasp but never tight enough to hurt or make him wiggle. He had two options:

Ignore Ben request and Peter would try to calm him but eventually Peter would leave, Ben was persistent.

Or he could pleased his baby boy and have him in his arms.

It seemed Peter was about to flee out in option one when Ben called for him one last time looking distress, then and there Tony knew it would be impossible to ignore.

“Mo-mmy—“ He complained. “DADDY!” He called eager and chirped as he saw his daddy coming his way. Peter looked troubled in what to do so Tony safe him.

Tony held Ben in his arms and languidly kissed both his cheeks erupting a joyful laugh.

“Hey, baby boy” Ben hid under Tony’s neck and shyly looked at his mom as if feeling guilty for leaving him alone. “Hey, sweetheart.” Tony smoothly said as greeting, making Peter laugh.

Soon after the shock was gone and people started talking bringing questions. They still had twenty minutes of class.

“He missed you.”

“Did he?” Playfully winked at Peter to turn to the class.

“Alright everybody. We gotta wrap up fast.”

[ellas-cottage]

Do all the pride month ones

🌈 I don't identify as anything other than a moose, I am a bisexual woman

❗I realized I was bisexual really early on, I always had crushes on girls (disney, this is on u, u made me bi) and then i was kinda like "no but im straight", and i actually officially came out over 2017-2018

🚪I'm pretty out to everyone except parts of my family (mom's parents and siblings, dads siblings, dad's parents)

📘My coming out stories aren't very interesting haha. To my mum and dad, i jist told them that i liked both. Same for my friends. I'm open about it online. As for my classmates, i had to do a monologue for drama last year so i included "'so do u have a lil boyfriend' 'no, grandma, i still dont have a boyfriend, im still into girls, just like last year' nah i didnt actually say that, she'd have had an aneurysm"

😳 After my monologue, two guys came up to me (separately) and asked me if i was actually into girls "yeah, im into both" "cool" and then they left. Other than that i get the classic "arent u pan?????" Or "how do you.... know if you've not dated both?" Or "youre too young" online

I was at Montreal Pride last year and tbh never again. I went to the Village too with friends but not during the parade. I went to other events two years ago.

I went in drag to a drag show in 2017

🏳️‍🌈 I have both a bi and a pan flag respectively from 2018 and 2017. I also have a Canadian flag but thats unrelated

🤔 I had crushes on literally so many Disney women ohmygod (like Esmeralda, Megara, etc) also i didnt realize being LGBT was a Thing until a girl said lesbian in a negative way in elementary. I just thought everyone was kinda bi tbh cause i saw my uncle with his bf, so i was like "yeah this is normal". I thought my grandmother's sister who is a nun was in a lesbian relationship with another nun

❓ When i was 12-14 because i kinda knew before but then i realized it wasnt "normal" and i was confused so yeah

👚 as y'all know i have claimed "Moose", which is between stag (masc) and doe (femme). "A bisexual female beween doe and stag whos also just a fuckin mess"

😀 i dont know if my favs are LGBT im sorryyyyy. I really love Stephanie Beatriz (i hope i didnt butcher that) and i know she's bi...

📚 Idk... i dont really have one..... i..... mmy own art I guess??????? Is that narcissistic.... maybe.

👎oh ya know... just the typical people being dicks... nothing too interesting

Thank you!!!

[rarestnicole]

Everything I Didn't Say

Happy birthday, Mommy Maits.

Dear Mommy, happy birthday. I love you, next to God but above anyone else. Both of us love music, so I'm using the lyrics of songs that I find fit to everything that I wanted to tell you whenever I hear them.

You are my world.

🎶 There's so many things I wanna say. I will always love you, I would never leave you alone. 🎶

Hindi ako madalas mag-message sa'yo ng ganito, but I always want to talk to you. Remember how I always tell you everything that I do, everyone that I know, and all the things that run into my mind whenever we talk through the phone and in person? LOL. I always think that it's nice to tell you every thing that happens in my life kasi you're not just my Mom, you're also my best friend and my safe haven. Napapanatag ako kapag sinasabi ko sa'yo ang lahat. Yes, I want you to see how obedient and honest I am for you to trust me enough when it comes to my decisions. But also, I want you to feel that I love you. That I love you that much to tell you the truth even when I know that you won't like some of it. Kahit po alam ko na mapapagalitan o mapagsasabihan mo ako sa ibang pinaggagagawa ko o sinasamahan ko, I'd still tell you honestly how and why I did it because I love you to the point where I can't seem to lie to you. You don't deserve my lies. You never will. So I'm assuring you always that I'll be honest. I am even telling you who my crush is. LOL, medyo big deal siya but hey, you're my Mom. What's wrong with telling you who makes me blush whenever I see him, right? Haha! Just don't think that I'll be having a boyfriend soon 'cause I don't think that I'd have one this year. Ask me again in 2019. I don't tell you that I love you because we weren't really that sweet to each other, but I am making ways to make you feel it. Hahaha. Could you tell whenever I'm trying to? I hope so. I'll never leave you, Mommy. How could someone live if she'll leave her world? She'd probably die or be miserable until death.

🎶 Sometimes I just forget, say things I might regret. 🎶

I'm sorry if I make you upset, Mommy. Sorry po kasi pinapairal ko ang katigasan ng ulo ko at ginagawa lang ang gusto ko. Sorry kung nagtatampo ako sa'yo kapag hindi mo ako pinapayagan sa ibang gusto kong puntahan. Sorry kasi dumadagdag pa po ako sa mga nagpapasakit ng ulo mo when I should be comforting you kasi ang dami mo na ngang inaasikaso at iniisip. Please know that even when I'm being a brat, at the end of the day, magsisisi pa rin ako kasi I don't feel good kapag hindi tayo bati. :3

🎶 It breaks my heart to see you crying. 🎶

I'll never get used to see you crying and I don't even want to try. I don't even want to see you crying, more so, hear you sob because I always want you to be happy and comfortable. I have seen you cry more than the times that you allowed me to see. I also heard you cry and that's the most horrible sound that I have ever heard. I cried with you silently without you knowing. Alam ko po na hindi ko mapipigilan ang mga pag-iyak mo, that's normal. Tao ka na napapagod, nasasaktan at nalulungkot kaya hindi maiiwasang umiyak. Ang gusto ko lang po gawin ay damayan ka kapag dumating ang oras na iiyak ka. Even when I'm far from you, I want to comfort you and tell you how you mean to me even when you're flawed, even when you failed and even when you're broken beyond repair. I'd love you still. How could I not love the person who showed me how to love? You are the best example of a loving daughter and you inspired me to be one. After all, the best mother deserves the best daughter, so here I am!

🎶 I don't wanna lose you, I could never make it alone. 🎶

Natatandaan ko pa po ang sinabi mo noon na "Kapag ako namatay, kakagatin mo ang siko mo." Alam mo po bang simula noon, sinubukan kong kagatin ang siko ko? Hahaha. It's not because I want you gone, I just wanted to know kung kakayanin ko ba kapag namatay ka na. I'd probably be miserable my whole life. I can't imagine my life without you, I'd be lost forever. Here's a little secret; when I was young, nasa mga prayer ko ang mauna sana akong mamatay sa inyo ni Daddy kasi hindi ko kaya kapag iniwan ninyo ako. Haha. Pero nung iniwan naman ako ni Daddy, kaya ko naman pala, hindi naman kasi kami ganun ka-close at mas kailangan naman kasi kita at mas mahal. I dunno pero kahit mas spoiled ako kay Daddy and kahit you were always strict, I'd always choose you over Daddy. Strange. Strange kasi he's my blood and I thought that it'll always be thicker than water. Hmm. Maybe because you're the best among the rest of them. Kaya siguro hindi ko magawang sumama noon kay Daddy kahit mas sweet siya. HAHAHA. Alam ko po siguro deep inside me na mas mahal mo ako, mas ramdam ko siguro kahit hindi ko naririnig. I could never make it without you, Mommy. Don't leave me, ha? I'm a bit scared kapag naiisip ko po na magbi-birthday ka kasi tumatanda ka po. Thankful naman ako kay Lord kasi may isang taon kami ulit na kasama ka but still, it's freaking scary to think about you getting older. Hindi ko pa rin po kayang kagatin ang siko ko up 'til now and I probably won't be able to, kaya don't leave me, Mmy, ha?

🎶 You keep me standing tall, you helped me through it all. 🎶

When I'm insecure about myself, you'd always tell me that I could do it, except dancing. Sabi mo sa akin lagi, "Sus, kayang kaya mo 'yan." And I'd believe that I could do anything kasi kasasabi mo lang po eh. But when it comes to dancing, wala yata talaga kasi sinabi mo rin po eh. Haha. Whenever I'm having a hard time, you'd be there to guide me and tell me what to do. I appreciate all of that po.

🎶 I have always needed you, I could never make it alone. 🎶

I'll always need you kahit saan po ako mapunta kaya please be there for me always. I'll always be with you, too. I'll be your best friend and your daughter. I'll take care of you and I'll love you more because you deserve to be taken care of and to be loved more than you think you do. You're precious, Mommy.

You are my light.

🎶 Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart, it's the end of the world in my mind. 🎶

When I was a younger, I usually think that this world is better off without me because I shouldn't be here in the first place. I always thought that I was Mama and Papa's mistake, do tou know that Mommy? I thought that I ruined their lives but I never wanted any of this. I blamed them for being irresponsible and almost held a grudge against them for that. I always thought that I wasn't enough for anyone to stay just because Dad chose to leave me... He left us. Whatever, it's his loss.

🎶 Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call. I've been looking for the answers somewhere. I couldn't see that it was right there. 🎶

Whenever I feel worthless, I think of you and I feel useful. I always wanted to be useful for you. Gusto ko po makatulong lagi sa'yo para hindi ka po masyadong mahirapan, I think that's the reason why I was born. I think I was born for you to become the best mother. If that was actually it, then I'm glad to be Mama and Papa's mistake just to be your ray of sunshine. I hope that I'm one of your rays of sunshine or even just the color orange in the rainbow of your life.

🎶 But now I know what I didn't know: because you live and breathe, because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help. 🎶

You're my one-man cheering squad. Your happiness is also my happiness. My success is invalid without you because all of it is because of you. Dearest Mommy, if some days I'll turn again into your bratty daughter, please know that at the end of those days, I am regretting it wholeheartedly but I'm just too shy to say sorry. Even when I'm shy to say sorry, I'd always try to make it up to you. I'll always appreciate how you defend me and how you take my side when you know that I'm right but please don't do that often because it makes me cry. Hahahaha. Just tell me how I'm tough to ge through it and just be there for me always, like forever. Haha!

🎶 Because you live, Mom, my world has twice as many stars in the sky. 🎶

I put so much into this letter for you because you deserve it. I'll leave all the tears and emotions that passed through me here, in this very letter, and hope that you'll feel how much you are loved by a person you named Anne Nicole. You make my world even brighter, Mommy. You make anyone's world brighter. Your love is so precious to the point that some people are scared of it because they know that it's too much for them to deserve.

Cheers to another 50 years ahead!

[dino-boyo-agere]

1. Munchkin, Silly/ silly boy, lil dude, Bud/Buddy, Tiny, little man/ little guy, cutie, Darling, Muffin, Pumpkin, Sweetheart

2. Idk what's meant by "how deep", It depends on my current situation. I often involuntary regress, when I'm in a bad mental state. I often choose to regress beforehand, whenever I feel everything is getting to much, to avoid involuntary regression happening at a bad timing. But sometimes I can't find the time and it just happens bc everything is just to much.

3. The former mentioned bad mental state (unfortunately), Stuffiest (specifically two I had since I was a Toddler) and a build a bear my best friend from preschool bought me (we are still friends, she knows I'm a regressor & the bear was her saying 'I support you and your regression'), bubble baths, cartoons, coloring, some YouTubers (mainly crafting/ art type YT), reading agere Ff's about my comfort characters, a playlist I made on Spotify, making/ eating specific food or snacks (Mac 'n cheese, PB&J, etc.) and my little clothes/ gear (Footed PJ, Onesies, Pacies, Bottles, Sippy cups, etc.)

4. Something in my hands, a plushie, a toy, a crayon, anything I can stim with, aswell as music (or TV/ Radio) playing in the background!

5. Loud and crowded spaces are super scary and overwhelming.

6. Overalls with cute patches on them and a colorful tee-shirt. Bonus points if a paci clip (& paci) is attached to one of the overalls straps!!

7. My little age ranges from 3 to 6 yo, tho mostly I tent to be 5/6. I like to do things on my own and focuse on myself, but I enjoy food and other necessaries being brought, especially since I otherwise often forget to eat/ drink. I'm also inconvenient (medical reasons), so I do need changes. I often go nonverbal when I'm little tho, bc social interaction is really draining for me.

8. Just be chill, don't scream, don't try to entertain me, tho you should definitely keep an eye on me! I like to draw on everything (sorry walls) and I get list fairly easily (I tend to run off and can't find back on my own when little).

9. Anything nostalgic really. Movies like: In a land before time, the brave little toaster, the Iron gigant, etc. and Shows like: Momo, Art attack, The backyardigans, etc.

10. The plushies mentioned in No. 3, some stim toys/ chewing toys and a toy dinosaur.

11. Not really, I'm just way more sensitive about my dislikes and way more excited about my likes.

12. I love wearing comfy clothes (onesies n PJs), using sippy cups, coloring books and the previously mentioned comfort Items, I also have Pacies but rarely use them.. I just love decorating them!

13. Yes, most of my closest friends!

14. I don't have a preference, call it anything you want.

15. Anything really except for m*mmy and d*ddy, those two terms make me really uncomfortable because I associate them with k*nk. I mainly use: Pa/Pops/Papa/Dad or Ma/Mom/Mama/Momma. I never had an NB Cg, so idk what I would call them.

16. DINOSAURS 🦖 🦕, Space 🚀🌌, and Comfort characters from different shows

17. I'm not sure, since I'm mostly nonverbal.

18. That depends on the mental state I am in / was in before regressing. Sometimes 15 minutes of coloring is all I need, other times I need a few days of being tiny to cope.

19. Also heavily depends on my mental state, I had months of not needing to regress and I had weeks where I felt the urge to regress every day.

20. See No. 7 ("My little age ranges from 3 to 6 yo")

sfw agere asks :)

Favourite nicknames/pet names?

How deep is your regression? Is it voluntary? Involuntary?

What helps you get into headspace?

What's something you absolutely need to have when you feel little?

What are things you need to avoid when you're little? (or things that pull you out of headspace?)

Best little outfits?

Do you like being taken care of? Are you independent or dependent?

What should someone know if they're going to be around little you?

Favourite show/movie to watch in headspace?

What is/are your comfort item(s)?

Do your likes and dislikes change depending on whether you're big or small?

What kind of gear do you prefer, if you like any? (Remember, having no gear is okay, and using things that don't match up with your headspace age is also okay!)

Does anyone irl know you're a regressor?

What are your preferred terms for your headspace/yourself when you're small? (e.g. small, little, tiny, regressed etc)

What cg names do you like calling someone/the ones who take care of you? (you can answer this even if you don't have a cg)

Any obsessions?

Do you use a different voice when you're in headspace?

How long do you need to be small for to feel better?

How often do you need to be small?

What's your headspace age/age range?

[mingi-bubu]

Watch “Boys Over Flowers” with Me!

Episode 1

i just started boys over flowers and wow

that is certainly a memorable opening

oh what could f-4 mean i mean oviously theyre going to kill that kid but

oh damn that is

blood

jesus you would think that

aish nevermind theyre probably being paid to not say anything

wheere is he heading

please oh no hes going to die

is she riding a bike inside???

ma’am???

this is very much early 2010s im getting whiplash from the hairstyles

oh this lee minha guy is gonna die isnt he

she’s just pushing through people

oh no this is really sad

oh no please sir

she really did just interrupt his death sequence

girl he is bleeding????  what the fuck how do you say

i love him despite this whole dramatic thing

i really dont want him to die

damn she has strenght strenght

oh SHIT THEY REALLY SAID WE PROTESTING NOW BABES

the filming of this is really uh

yeah this is definitely 2012-3

jandi really said i will end these hoes

good for her

im assuming this lady is head of shinhwa in some way

the

the prime minister is just casually on the cell phone christ on a cracker

i love her sweater so much

oh my

this uh

is certainly intersting

their family dynamic

la;sdfjlsd her littele brother is killing me hes so funny

the kid has a mullet though

i think my younger brother had the same haircut when he was that age too

yikes asian kid hairstyles ammiright

did she just try to threaten the pr guy ??

like subtlely??

this kid is cracking me up oh my god

im trying to think about why her mom would have poodle hair but like no famous actors or shows are coming to mind for what she would do that

the comedic timing of her dad and brother is incredible

i love her dad so much tho hes definitely trying so hard

i really hate some of how the filming in this works

shinee minho??  is that you??? kja;dfskjds;f

like the hair im

that looks like henry oh mmy gOD

is she going to bump into her saved buddy?

can i see minha again?

damn the campus is beautiful

is someone deadass just playing violin out in the forest?

fucking okay then

not to be all haruhi voice rich people but

literally getting whiplash from the hair i cannot stand these people

im gonna guess that violin boy is one of the flower four

really???  people be storming the gates to see 4 boys?

and theyre not even idols????

cannot relate

damn she really did just be do talking to violin boy who is one of the F4 huh

damn

curly here is a horrible person

glad we’re establishing it now

oh my god

literally for why

what was the point of that

OH HELL YEAH JANDI GO OFF

oh my god that was so embarrassing to witness

god i want to slap them

just like, real quick on the back of the head or something

akldjfaklsd her brother knows about them ohmy god

so we have turtle, not-siwon, violin boy!,  and then curly

the absolute bastard

i hate how i feel like ive heard all of the songs from the ost before aldkjfs

jalkds;fjas oh shes so dramatic i love it

violin in a cardigan tho

i appreciate fashion

hes also a bastard

i will collectively kick all of their asses

alkdsfjaskld i love her facial expressions oh my god

where is the “oh.  my.  god.  tarrahbile” from oh my god it sounds so familiar

theyre literally douchebags how can you be so excited about that

i love the girl she works with shes so funny

girl you have interacted with one of the flower boys, the terrible trio, and a girl witha  hibiscus in her hair

how can you call yourself a loner

this little kid is so cute oh my god

i wonder what hes up to now

i hope its still doing comedy

god her expressions are fantastic

oh no she’s gonna have an agenda huh

i mean of course she is thats the point of the story right?

but like damn

WHY IS HIS COAT SO EXCESSIVE

ITS OBVIOUS THEY HAVE A DRESSCODE

IDGAF IF HE IS THE SON OF THE SHINHWA PEOPLE

oh no sweetie

oh my god

honey

oh my god

she really is doing that

SHE DID THAT

in her mind

maybe next time champ

violin looks charming when he smiles but i would hit that man with his own instrument

hes rich he can get a new one

oh she swim

hey it’s hibiscus!  she has a bow this time

i love her

im suspicious of her

but so far i love her

minji

minji and jandi

im only remembering the names of important characters

OH NO

OH NO NO NO NO

MINJI

i keep rolling my eyes oh my god

he is truly a bastard

they really are making me hate his character

throw your ice cream at him

I AM PROPISING OH MY GOD

I AM IN LOVE WITH JANDI

HOLY SHIT

PLEASE BE REAL

PLEASE NOT BEIN HER MIND PLEASE

BEALSE

no its in her mind....

it has to be

WAIT DID THAT ACTUALLY OH MY GOD

SHE DID THAT

SHE DID THAT DID THAT

I AM IN LOVE WITH ONE (1) WOMAN

that is a really lame party im gonna be honest

not-siwon and curly must be good friends or something??

what the FUCK is not curly weraring

oh no

her family’s business

shes gonna have the sign hm

shes wearing doc martins thooo

love that for her

they really put her book on a string huh

curly has it what do you think

wow they went to town on the desk

THEY EGGED HER O HMY GOD

oh no

she let her dad down

damn

yeahhhhhh hibiscus let me down

salkfjasdlkj his timing was not good

no sweetie

this is

this is embarrasing for you

yikes

turtle is like :)

i am marrying one (1) woman

again with the violin guy aish

why is he willingly talking to her

and i love how ovious it is that that is a background

now iknow that this isnt the main ship of the show right

like hes just going to play her like a *hehehe* violin right

no no put the doe eyes away

i am

suspiscious

and she should be too what the fuck

also i guess oh issa lil lamb

its from minji

perhaps i will respect her again....

not-siwon is dating their head chef or soemthing???

EWWWWWWW IF A MAN SAID THAT TO ME I’D SLAP HIM THAT IS DISGUSITNG

literally wht isup with the fucking ascot he has on

i literally cannot relate to this oh my god

the son is iconic tho

oh noooo

her dad maybe knows

damn people be throwing their garbage and a can of unopened pringles in the pool huh

violin and i have one shared braincell and its falling asleep wherever we can

oh no

oh no please dont do this

oh theyre awful

OH MY GOD???  WHAT THE FUCK???  like i know theres not a lot of self awareness in some shows but jesus theres like a line when it comes to women being cornerd alone by one or more men what the fuck

anyways

so like,,,thats fun.

um

yeah

hm

so that was episode 1....

*kermit and christian bale nodding gif*

thanks for reading!!!

stay safe and stay healthy <333

[crvelgod]

85 Questions Tag

rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people tagged by: @queenoffantasy thank you so much for the tag :)

tagging: @tragically-broken @runesandfaes @acourtofrosesandbooks @aelinfireheart-shadowhunter @iranau @purple-haired-wannabe @tacmc @fuzzballsheltiepants 

and anyone who wants to do this, feel free to do it. 

1. drink: cherry coke 2. phone call: my best friend 3. text message: telling my mom that there wasnt electricity in the house 4. song you listened to: Louvre by Lorde 5. time you cried: yesterday, i was watching a documentary film about Lions. they stories are pretty sad. 6. dated someone twice: hahaha, no. 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yess. 8. been cheated on: nop. 9. lost someone special: fortunately, no. 10. been depressed: yes, i’m still dealing with that. 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: not to be proud but yes.

(12-14 are missing?) So I’ll do some book themed ones

12. Author? hard to choose, but J.K. Rowling, Cassandra Clare, Rainbow Rowell and Rick Riordan.

13.Trope? cliché stories but well writing. 

14.Character? Cassian, Minerva McGonagall, Nico Di angelo, Emma Carstairs, Will Herondale.

in the last year have you…

15. made new friends: Yep. 16. fallen out of love: i don’t  think so. 17. laughed until you cried: yessss, and its the best thing that could do. 18. found out someone was talking about you: i really don’t know. 19. met someone who changed you: nop. 20. found out who your friends are: yess, thank to the mother that i’ve never had trouble about this. 21. kissed someone on your facebook list? sadly no, but maybe … 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them, i don’t accept friend request from strangers. 23. do you have any pets: nooo!!! i want to adopt a lot of animals but mmy house its small and my parents wouldn’t let me have them. 24. do you want to change your name: when i was young, i want it  so badly to do it, but know i’m very happy with my name. 25. what did you do for your last birthday: went for drinks with my friends and a meal with my family and friends. 26. what time did you wake up: 9:15- 25, maybe… 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching How i met your mother. 28. name something you can’t wait for: working in something that i love and live alone. 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: last night. 31. what are you listening to right now? : someplace by Jake Bugg. 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: nop. 33. something that is getting on your nerves: when people write wrong the words or make abbreviations of them. 34. most visited website: Tumblr. 35. hair colour: light brown. 36. long or short hair: always long. 37. do you have a crush on someone: yes and it sucks. 38. what do you like about yourself: my sense of humor  39. piercings: ears only, i really want more but i’m a coward 40. blood type: A+ 41. nickname: Nardy. 42. relationship status: single af. 43. zodiac: Aquarious 44. pronouns: she/her 45. favourite tv show: Supernatural, Law and Order, Skins, Outlander, How i met your mother, the walking dead, and more. 46. tattoos: soon. 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: when i was like 2 months old. 49. Siblings?: one big brother. 50. sport: i don’t practice any but sometimes i like running. 51. vacation: another state of my country. 52. pair of trainers: vans. 53. eating: anything with chesse. 54. drinking: green tea. 55. i’m about to: answer the next question and continnue with my reading. 56. waiting for: the delivery of my glasses i ordered for internet. 57. want: more money for books. 58. get married: i don’t have plans for this, but i don’t know, maybe in the future(? 59. career: biology.  60. hugs or kisses: depends (? 61. lips or eyes: eyes 62. shorter or taller: me ? (5,3) but i prefer taller  guys 63. older or younger: i feel old, in guys? older. 64. nice arms or nice stomach: stomach 65. hook up or relationship: depends (? 66. troublemaker or hesitant: none 67. kissed a stranger: twice 68. drank hard liquor: sometimes  69. lost glasses/contact lenses: nop 70. turned someone down: all the time … 71. sex on the first date: nop. 72. broken someone’s heart: i think i haven’t (? 73. had your heart broken: no 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: nop. 76. fallen for a friend? thank the mother no. 77. yourself: mmm, no. 78. miracles: i don’t really know about them 79. love at first sight: hell no. 80. santa claus: my dad told me. 81. kiss on the first date: i haven’t be in any, so no. 82. angels: probably. 83. current best friend’s name: Alex. 84. eye colour: mine? brown, in other people? i love blues eyes. 85. favourite movie: Scott pilgrim vs the world, HP movies, Batman (Nolan’s) Mulan, Anastasia, Tarzan and Hercules.

FINALLY! \o/

[mitjo-deactivated]

5 Times Mitch Wanted To Kiss Jonas and One Time He Did

submitted by: @pasiiphaes

okay, so im relatively new to tumblr and submissions and whatnot, so sorry if this is formatted weirdly or anything!! i’ve been working on this randomly for the past week or two, and it’s finally done :P hopefully it’s enjoyed!!

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I.

It had been raining, yet Jonas had insisted that yes, of course they needed to go out and catch that Gengar, whatever the fuck that was. After around 17 minutes (Mitch had counted each dreadful second, though the smile on Jonas’ face was worth every one.) They rushed into a dingy gas station, an uninterested, acne-infested teen sitting boredly at the counter. Mitch was sure that there had never been anything more soft and beautiful than the moment Jonas had shook his head gently, a few droplets of water flying off his hair. He shivered softly, so of course, Mitch did the only thing he could think of, quickly shrugging off his jacket and shoving it into Jo’s arms. “Go grab a fuckton of food, Spots. And warm up.” He said quickly, hoping the younger boy wouldn’t notice the angry warmth rising to Mitch’s face. And when Jonas smiled at him gratefully, Mitch figured that was the first time he might have actually kissed him.

II.

The second time they were at the cove. “Why do you even like that Carmen bitch?” Mitch had exclaimed loudly, and the soft yellow lights surrounding Jonas had quickly shifted to a much more aggressive red. “Don’t call her that… You don’t know her like I do.” “Spots, she’s just using ya! I dunno how you can’t see that! Are you fucking blind?” He’d spat back angrily, raising his hand in a wide gesture. Only when Jo flinched back, covering his face with his hands and letting out a barely audible whimper did Mitch realize. “Wait, no, Spots, I’m sorry! Fuck, fuck me in the fucking ass I’m sorry!” He said quickly, trying to soften his voice as he rushed over to Jonas and pulled him into his arms. “No, Spots, I was just mad, ya see? I’m sorry, Spots. I’m a fuckup, okay?” “I don’t think you’re a fuckup.” Jonas had replied intently, looking up for a split second before shifting his teary eyes downwards and burying his face in Mitch’s shoulder. He had never wanted to kiss him more, not even that time at the gas station, when he’d felt more helpless and head over heels than ever.

III. 

Technically they weren’t even together the third time. Jonas was with his respective “friends,” Mitch waiting for him against a wall around a hundred feet away. He wasn’t sure how he felt about Joey’s friends. They all hated him, but surely they were doing something right if Joey liked them. He’d never admit it, of course, but part of him was envious. It didn’t take him long to hear the nervous, venom-laced words dropping from Lewis’ mouth. “Dude, are you seriously going with him again? I still think he killed his mom. He could stab you too! And what about his dad?! People don’t go to jail for no reason, Jonas.” Of all the rumors made about him, none of them bothered Mitch more than ones about his mom. His beautiful, trashy, loving mom. Mitch couldn’t even stomach the thought of stabbing her, much less killing her. He was about ready to just roll his eyes and walk away when he heard his Joey retort a bit angrily. “He didn’t kill anyone! That’s just a rumor… You don’t know him the way that I do. I’m going now.” And when Jonas came rushing over to him, he’d done something he rarely did to anyone, unless it was a joke. He hugged Jonas tightly, ruffling his hair and chuckling. “Took ya long enough, Spots.” Jonas laughed softly, and Mitch was seriously thinking about kissing him. He grinned, leaning towards him, maybe to kiss his forehead or the top of his head or something when Jonas looked up. He quickly blew on Jo’s face so his hair would stick up, and the younger boy quickly recoiled and scrunched up his nose. “Aw, Mitch! Your breath is bad!” “Only for you, Spots.”

IIII.

Mitch figured the fourth time hurt him the most. He’d never hated anyone more than he hated Carmen and Neil when it happened. He’d been okay with Carmen, if not uncomfortably jealous, with only an average hatred for Neil. Of course, that had changed when Jonas ran up to him after school, bleary-eyed and smiling weakly at him. Mitch frowned, opening his arms as Jo went to hug him. “Hey, what’s wrong Spots?” Jonas frowned, and hell if Mitch didn’t know that look- whoever hurt him would fucking pay. “Oh, it’s- it’s nothing. Doesn’t matter.” Mitch raised an eyebrow, scowling at Neil as he made eye contact with the boy standing a bit aways. “Spots.” “Look, Mitch, it’s fine! I’m okay, I always am. Neil just shoved me around a little for talking to Carmen. It’s fine, I’m used to it.” That elicited an eyeroll on Mitch’s part, though he looked back to Neil after a moment. “What’d he say to you, Joey?” “What? No, don’t do anything… he just called me a fag and some other stuff, nothing new…” He watched, looking away pointedly as Jonas bit his lip, and he felt a hand on his arm. “Joey, I gotta go.” Mitch drawled for a moment, then quickly stormed over to Neil. He doesn’t remember much of anything, other than Jonas and Javi pulling him off of Neil, and some people recording. And Joey wiping down his lip, looking down as soft red and blue lights floated around them. “Mitch, I… I told you not to! You got suspended, in case you didn’t hear. For a week, I’ll add! Look, I don’t want you to get in trouble because of me. I…” Mitch sighed, leaning in some as Joey’s fingers brushed against his lip. Inches- inches apart, and Mitch’s heart was racing faster than it had since he blew up a bounce house and someone called the cops. He instinctively jumped away when he heard the door open, and looked awkwardly at Sidney. “He needs to go, Dean said.” She said pointedly, crossing her arms. “He says he doesn’t want “criminal blood” staining the furniture.“ Mitch nodded as she walked out, then looked at Jonas with a smirk. "Thanks for cleaning me up, Spots. See ya.”

IIIII. 

The last time was Mitch’s personal favorite. They were, of all things, grocery shopping. It wasn’t much of an activity, but any time he could spend with Jonas, he’d take. Even if Jonas did happen to be scolding him. “Mitch, you can’t live off of frozen spaghetti meals! Those have no nutrients, at all! Jesus, no wonder you’re so skinny…” Mitch frowned- was he too skinny? Did Jonas find it unattractive? He wasn’t normally the type to worry about people’s opinions of his body (let him do the judging, thanks.) But this was Jo. His Spots. “Eh, they’re quick and easy! Just like-” “Mitch.” “Okay, okay. Sorry.” He smirked, watching as Jonas piled random food into the cart till it was about the same height as him. “That’s… This is so bad for you! You need to eat healthier! When was the last time you ate anything of substance?! What the heck, man? I-” He grabbed Jonas’ shoulders after a moment, giving him a stern look. “Joey. Shut up.” “You’re going to die if you keep living like this.” Jonas whispered back, and Mitch noticed him blushing at the little space between them at this point. “I’ll be fine.” He mumbled, and he could swear Jonas was leaning in too. He was so close- so, so close to resolving the tension that they had ignored for the past 6 months. He could feel Joey’s breath on his lips, and he could almost-. All of the groceries in the cart came tumbling down, like Mitch’s will to live when Jonas jumped back and let out a yelp. “Oh, uh… Must have put too much in the cart, you know me.” He muttered awkwardly, and Mitch raised an eyebrow though he didn’t comment on it. He let out a soft chuckle, helping Jonas pick up the fallen food and put it back in the cart. “Ya know I’ll probably just get McDonald’s right after we buy all this healthy food, right Spots?” “Yeah. I do.”

IIIIII.

“Mitch?” Jonas piped up, voice soft and hazy with something Mitch couldn’t quite understand. “Eh?” “What is this?” Jonas said softly, and Mitch looked up at Jonas’ phone for a minute, heart dropping. “Fuck, fuck, Joey, you weren’t s'posed to… Shit, no, I don’t fucking…” Words spilled quickly out of his mouth- how could he have been so careless? Jonas had, of all things, looked at his tumblr. Inbox flooded with asks about the younger boy, blog filled with him gushing over him and… Other things. “Fuck, Joey, you said you never wanted to look again! Why did you?” “I don’t-… I don’t know, Mitch, sometimes I worry, and I thought maybe you’d be venting on your tumblr or something!” Mitch bit his lip, running his hands through his hair. “Wait, Spots… You worry?” He questioned gently, glancing up for a moment. “Well, of course! I… You never eat enough, your mom isn’t around right now, you seem really panicked sometimes… I notice these things, Mitch! I notice a lot of these things! I- I notice every time you try to kiss me, and every time it gets interrupted! Other people notice, and I just wish you’d get it over with so I don’t have to notice anymore!” Mitch’s eyes widened, and he noted the mix of red and pink lights floating around them. Jonas was never able to control his lights very well when he got emotional. “Mitch.” He turned, looking questioningly at the younger boy. “Please… Please kiss me. Just get it over with.” And he did. He did, and he didn’t stop. He cradled Jonas’ face in his hands, pressing their lips together with the intensity of every time that it had been ruined. Mitch pulled back after a moment, leaning back and crossing his arms as a smirk grew on his face. “You’re a pretty good kisser, Spots.”

SOBS INTO MY ARMS OH MY GOD ANOTHER FIC

I ADORED THIS SO MUCH, IT WAS SO SWEET AND EVERYTHING ABOUT IT MADE MY HEART HURT. MITCH IS SO GONE FOR JOEY… AHH H HH.. ..I LOVE 5+1 FICS SO MUCH, MMY WEAKNESS!!

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!