#mix of sad quotes bc i'm sad lol

[asoftepiloguemylove]

HOW DID I GO FROM GROWING UP TO BREAKING DOWN? // ON GROWING UP

Mother Mother Mamma Told Me // unknown // 어른들은 몰라요 Young Adult Matters (2021) dir. Hwan Lee // Kristin Chang Churching // unknown // Salman Rushdie East, West // Lorde Ribs // Cameron Awkward-Rich The Child Formerly Known As _____ // Lorde // unknown // Leanna Firestone Least Favorite Only Child // リリイ・シュシュのすべて All About Lily Chou-Chou (2001) dir. Shunji Iwai // Richard Siken Crush // unknown // Hala Alyan I'm Not Speaking First

[mad-hunts]

there is nothing so cruel as memory — and this not only applied to the jarring snapshot that barton was given of a much happier time in his life through the photograph he found. he couldn't help but start to reflect upon how both louis, as well as matilda, weren't even six months old whenever marceline died. which meant that they would only ever and still do only know of their mother through barton's word of mouth. with that, the level of sorrow that came from knowing that he had everything one day and the next, he only had but a fraction of that was something he was convinced would kill him back then.

but the fact of the matter was, barton knew deep down that that was something he couldn't let happen. because matilda and louis needed him. so making peace with marcy's death was, unfortunately, a harsh reality barton had to face. the doctor did contribute finding winslow, his surrogate father, mostly all up to luck after all. and so giving up on them was not an option. but the toxic point of view that barton's bio father likely would've enforced upon him (to simply 'pull himself up by the bootstraps' as if it were that easy) wasn't going to work. so, therapy seemed like the most viable option to help him cope with the massive amount of grief he felt.

thankfully, going to it was the right decision in the end. the funny thing about grief, though, is that it isn't linear. and like the waves of an ocean... the feeling that you're missing someone fundamental to your life comes back in to hit you when you least expect it. barton flexed one of his hands repeatedly as he tried to get his mind off of it. he supposed that, eventually, doing nothing in this space would end up making him and possibly jervis as well lose their marbles anyhow. barton's work. before he had gotten into their current mess, he was working on a new 'piece,' he thought.

well, the deadline that the doctor had to finish it by before was hopeless for him to reach now. they wanted it in just two weeks time and who knows how long they'd have to be camping out in the old car warehouse? but that could easily be explained away. just like artists couldn't be rushed, barton didn't produce his 'dolls' well under a lot of pressure. nerves and skin alike were delicate. it made him wonder whether jervis still remembered the woman who'd been on his autopsy table when they met.

for even though the horror of it all was something barton was used to by now, even relished in... he was a very empathetic person and so barton could see how it could haunt the other in a way. so the expression 'different as night and day' might as well have been created for them all things considered. barton scratched at the IV in his wrist, mentally figuring out if he could give jervis more pain meds than jack had administered to him. assuming his son had given him the proper dosage. barton hummed noncommittally before deciding to consult jack about it first.

❝ i suppose my son's bedside manner was lacking a bit when he gave you that tea, then. i mean he obviously meant well, but i think it would've been easier for you to drink it with a straw, ❞ an amused snort left barton and pretty much guaranteed that he wasn't mad at jack for it afterward. he was still young after all - and he was still trying to drill all of the 'in's and out's' of medicine that he could teach him into his head. but it didn't seem to be where jack's passion lied, the line the other uttered aloud being what ultimately broke barton out of his thoughts.

the room proceeded to become deafeningly silent at that moment. squinting at the other was the doctor's immediate response, trying to recall where exactly he might've heard that. maybe it was biblical? barton was surprised that jervis would recite it, though, in that case because he didn't peg him as the 'religious type.' it sounded like he was expressing to barton that he supposed he might've felt like he wished his suffering could be quantified, however. categorizing his misery in those years seemed like an impossible venture though... but perhaps that was the point of the whole quote?

barton didn't want to be considered a 'victim' of his father, and from the way this was sounding, jervis almost seemed to be implying that. he could acknowledge that wesley put him through pain but he didn't want to redefine who he was in the process. heat began to rush to barton's head, and it was like he felt like he wanted to jump out of his own skin. ❝ yeah. you don't know anything about me, because even if you witnessed everything my father did? you wouldn't understand how it made me feel because you'd still be separated from it all. ❞

barton admittedly sounded a bit bitter as he spoke, but didn't care to address that right now. jervis was comparing their situations and it made him inhale sharply whilst he covered his face with both palms. he had nothing to say about that, though, but when what he guessed were babies were brought up... he ran his hands down his face to finally reveal it once more. ❝ mm, well, i could discuss how senselessly out of control some of the events that have happened to me and to others around me have seemed all day with you. but i don't want to. its depressing, but yes, my son is adopted but he's still mine. and that's better than what would've happened if the two of them remained abandoned for longer. ❞

barton stated this in a very 'matter-of-fact' tone before he turned over all the cards that he pulled for jervis. then, seemingly right on time, jack came back into the picture with breakfast for dinner for him. that plate was gently set on the bedside cabinet. barton looked over to his son as if to check on him then. yes, he actually did appear to have taken on a pallor. barton tilted his head and promptly inquired to jack about it, ❝ are you feeling okay, punaise d'amour? (lovebug?) ❞ his son scratched the back of his neck and gnawed on his bottom lip.

❝ yeah. i probably just need to eat, like jervis said. i'll be right back, ❞ jack stifled a smile and subsequently left, not even giving barton a second to protest. he shook his head only partially jokingly afterward while saying, ❝ ugh, that boy... if he was feeling bad then i easily could have got it for him. but i guess we're starting with the 'wheel of fortune' card. ❞

Bright domes of blood welled up from the corner of Jervis' mouth; his earlier, absent worrying with his teeth had succeeded in breaking the thin skin yet again. The yuja tea took on a faint ruddy tint, a visual stimuli preceding the taste of iron on his tongue. He tried to lick it away as discreetly as he could behind his cup, still chewing meditatively on the rind, bowing his head and letting his hair cover his profile for the briefest of moments.

Better my lip than my cuticles or my hair. The last thing I need is to start wearing knit caps all the time, or to pick up a fungal infection from this wretched place. One more reason to scrub myself raw and bury every possible inch in a hundred layers of clothing, eh? Old habits died hard; kicking and screaming as they were buried. Some were easier to tame. Others proved more obstinate, harder to shake; their roots sunk deep.

Trauma and time changes us all.

Barton's agitation swirled around him like a dark cloud; foreboding. A marionette with scorching strings, desperately trying to maintain his center of gravity. Those talons he called fingernails were restless; always moving, always touching. Somehow, it reminded Jervis of a hawk keeping vigil. That thought wasn't exactly comforting, if he were being completely honest. He flinched as the memory of their first encounter, so many weeks ago in the other man's workshop, came bubbling to the surface; ripples in a cistern, deep and dark and unfathomably placid. The kind of quiet that said, "Don't look away."

Jervis' stomach pitched as he recalled the corpse Barton had uncovered; what he had done to her face.

The scalpel had glided with precision, following the intricate pathways of the supraorbital and supratrochlear nerves—key branches of the trigeminal nerve, those delicate conduits that carried every flicker of sensation from the scalp and forehead to the brain. Though that was a moot point, considering none of these nerves or even the skin itself were alive any longer.

Just atoms and molecules; a patchwork of bone, blood, muscles and sinew; dregs of various neurochemicals and hormones long halting as the vitality they once sustained shuffled off the mortal coil, grown stagnant. But still undeniably a person. Human. Utterly devoid of dignity in death; an affliction all suffer, in some shape or form.

Each was duly severed, spawning an unseen fire in their wake. Dispassionate. Meticulous. Gloved fingers swept through the woman's hair, clearing the path; dyed a dishwater-blonde, slightly curly.

A miniature gardening knife plowing through equally Lilliputian stalks of wheat.

Jervis swallowed hard, the chill cutting deeper than skin; positively algid. Barton’s boots scraped faintly against the concrete, his IV pole swaying in tandem. Under the flickering lights, his tousled curls caught the gleam, fair strands shimmering like fragile, golden lacework. He paused beside Jervis' own IV, studied it.

"A bit of both, I think..." No sense in hiding it. It was plainly writ in the overwrought cast of his shoulders, the tension in his jaw; the dim light in his eyes. Jervis tightened his grip on the blanket, on the teacup. Cast his eyes about the room. Wary, half-hooded. Dark gray irises shone against the whites, through his lashes, landed on the cards Jack had cut and dealt.

Rabbit feeling the snare brushing against its hind leg, desperate to escape being baked into a pie.

His heart sunk, as Barton spoke of his son. Paternal instinct and empathy flared again; a gleam of recognition, in a sense, too. A soft, rueful, humorless sort of chuckle escaped him, quick as a hiccup.

"'Oh, that my vexations were but weighed, and all my calamities laid in the balance.'"

Barton's hand froze on the IV. The absence of those pearly white lenses or that hideous mask did nothing to temper the intensity of his gaze; a blonde lock fell across his forehead as he tilted his head; scrutinized him, features as blank as if they'd been scrubbed clean of any nuance by unseen hands. Not quite anger, or so it seemed; not quite amusement at his extemporaneous rehash, either... curiosity? Confusion? Consternation? He couldn't tell. But it rolled off him all the same.

Jervis' ears flushing were the only signs he had any blood still circulating in his system, his pallor was so pronounced. He bowed his head; shook it softly. Shrugged in apology. Forget it. It's nothing; I meant nothing by it. Tapping his nails anxiously against the porcelain saucer clutched loosely in his fingers. Bloody hell... did I really just say that out loud? "Sorry... it's the first thing that came to mind... I didn't mean for it to slip out, wasn’t trying to come off..." He sighed, cheeks expanding; breath whistling faintly; eyebrows bunching together.

"... like I told you when we first met, I'm not insulting you. I'm not pretending to know anything about you, and I'm certainly not pitying you." His free hand curled back into the blanket; followed the demarcations of each colored square. "But I do know something about living in fear; of uncertainty, displacement." His lips thinned, twitched; a subtle rictus stretching along Jervis' cheek and nostrils for the space of a couple heartbeats. "People like to say everything happens for a reason, but not all events can be considered blessings; not by any stretch... especially when bairns are involved."

He turned back to the tarot deck. "In any case... scotching the snake, breaking the cycle... that's brilliant."

Silence fell. Barton gave him another long stare.

Jervis stared back and did not move.

Barton turned away, headed to the cards and drew three painted images. A wheel, six swords stretching upwards. A sun. His eyes roamed along their features; sharp, incisive.

Jervis' ears pricked up at another set of approaching footsteps; smelling eggs and jam preserves. Ahh...

"I hope there's enough left over for yourself," he murmured faintly, not unkindly, as he turned his head to look at Jack. "You look a bit peaky."

[youredreamingofroo]

top 5 quotes from the passenger? (i haven't even watched it but i see how much you like it LOL, i support it)

ASIUHGD I love this streak of getting The Passenger asks because of my obvious obsession with it LMAO THANK YOU!!

honestly quotes is HARDD cuz theres not only good lines but theres also just scenes with multiple lines that are good alone and together if that makes sense?? So i'm just gonna kinda do a mix of that idk :)

I dont have any particular order of favs (scenes is a different story...) so this'll just be in a random order, I also retrieved these from the script someone posted on AO3 + This is all gna be spoilers so LMAO

1, Benson: "Bradley, I could’ve killed you a hundred times by now. Will you get in the fucking car?" - He says this while Randy is standing frozen outside his car, frozen because he just witnessed Benson murder 3 ppl, i just like it cuz its good delivery and funny asl LMAO 😭 2, Benson: "Seven hours. Man, who knows where we’re gonna be in seven hours?" - He says this after talking about how he did the math for how long it'll be before he [benson] gets caught. It's a fav only because it makes me MEGA sad and I think about the end of the movie :') 3, Randy: "Well, I was only seven." and Benson in reply "Still." - This is after Randy talks about how he was held back in second grade, not explaining why and only saying his "mom didn't think he was ready", a fav bc of the way Benson says still and bc of bensons backstory, it literally breaks my heart :( 4, Randy: "[You know] why I ate that cheeseburger today? Because nothing good comes from me making my own decisions. The one time I let myself react the way I wanted to, I ruined a person’s life." - Randy says this after telling Benson about his second grade incident, Benson is the first person that hes told about this incident. A fav because it hurts my heart (lots of angsty lines 🧍‍♂️) and also bc the scene that follows this involves Benson punching Randy in the stomach after asking him about no good coming from reacting to things at all (which is also a fav and will be clumped into here) 5, Randy: "You’re still in charge, Benson." and a few moments later after retelling a story, Benson: "I was never in charge, Randy." - this is at the very end of the movie and UGHHGHG i could go on and on about why these two quotes break my heart, and they hurt so much (im an angst enjoyer, could you tell??), and theres sm about just these two lines, that they are an IMMEDIATE fav <:( also this is seconds before Benson goes and gets shot to death by cops 🥲 (remember quote 2? yea...)

[flyinghome-againstthewind]

Writer asks: 13 and 21??

Hello friend!

13. Describe your writing process

I think what I've figured out works best for me is having a solid outline of where I want the story to go, but leaving a little room for inspiration to shift the story a little. If I try to write the thing without an outline or try to write the whole thing before I even start posting, I feel like I lose steam. The rest of this process is just... what works for me lol. I usually have the following types of files for a multi-chapter fic: 1) "notes" - literally just all of my notes that usually come to me when an idea is first forming so it's a mix of plot ideas and random quotes and descriptions of scenes. 2) And then there's "scenes"! 😂 This is for the random burst of inspirations for a scene that is beyond the chapter I'm working on so I don't know where it will be slotted in the story yet but I want to capture it right away before I lose it. The first scene for Seaside was Faith playing under the front desk when Claire and Fergus arrived at the inn 😊 3) outline - this is where I try to organize my plot notes into a rough breakdown by chapter. 4) timeline - I throw important dates like birthdays, marriages, etc in there and then usually also keep track of what date it is in each chapter bc I am supremely weird like that! 5) [I bet you are regretting asking this question by now aadjflksdjflksdj I'm sorry] "Extras" - this doc is where I throw any bit of writing that I am scrapping from a chapter just in case I liked how I worded it and want to repurpose it for later lol. I did actually do this at least once with TBBFIY - the scene in chapter 17 when Jamie speaks to the spirit of Brian while Faith is sleeping was originally going to be in chapter 13 and didn't really fit but I was sad about cutting it altogether so it made it back into the story later. So I guess my writing process is to hoard an outrageous amount of word docs for each story 😅 I use the notes and outline when starting each chapter and then usually have the "extras" doc open along with the chapter I'm working on.

21. What aspect of your writing are you most proud of?

I think I tend to want to just live in the small moments within a story that make my heart swell but in writing longer fics, you usually have to actually make things happen too! And that's something that I've definitely grown in, over the last few years of dipping back into writing fanfiction. I was so heckin nervous and panicky writing the separation arc of TBBFIY bc it was so far out of my wheelhouse (my outline was pretty much just "Claire, Murtagh, and Fergus... *gestures vaguely* look for Jamie and Faith??"). Even if it's not the strongest part of the story, I'm really proud that I actually got something down and managed to write a coheasive story in the end.

[Writer Ask Meme!]

[invisiblegarabgetruck]

Ooo I love these ask thingies. Thoughts on #4 and #19????

ooohhh I already answered them here. so I'm gonna extended it instead!

4#

I'm bad at naming stuff. but I believe that Birdperson would be bad at it too-- so I think if their daughter was named with something like, just their names mixed together would be pretty funny. also, I lowkey just want their daughter's name to have 'tammie' in it too :)

19#

I really like Jerry's quote here in the season 2 final where he fights w/ beth. idk why, but this line sticks in my head a lot. Its like both a called-out and a summary of the family dynamic with Rick (which is sad lol)

and this scene is what made me like Jer more and see him more than just 'dad who is funny sometimes' lol (rick even agreed w/ him there!!!!!)

Also i guess bc the lines were brought up again in the comic from Dofus Jerry, contradicting to what Jerry said in the s2 final. i really like that.

Jerry has a lot of good quotes tho. almost always the best in the show tbh-

[taegularities]

idk if these songs are on the list but !!! today was a rough day for me so I was listening to sad tunes to cry it out LOL (we are okay now🤭) couldn’t help but think of our faves <3

on a happier note !! I couldn’t help but imagine da besties (eun, tae, & jimin) cheer her up by going out to karaoke ahahha - I think it’s bc I’m watching business proposal (again) with my niece

abee :(( i'm happy you feel better now, but can we still cuddle up with good food and drinks and watch your favourite movie for ultimate comfort? 🫂

and... first of all.. the besties taking oc out for a night out? this is actually so accurate omg, like you'll see why but wouldn't it be so damn cute if they did just anything to bring her smile back?! :(

and ah yeah.. the songs. it's almost 3am here, and i'm listening to them and crying, so... thank you for that :'') putting some lines under the cut bc i'm very fkn hurt

as i am.. special mention to "take me with the good and the ugly. say, "i'm not going anywhere"" bc she's ready to stay... she is :(

secret love song... special mention to "i don't wanna live love this way, i don't wanna hide us away". THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE TO HIDE RIGHT!!!

nights like this.. this quote above has MAJOR cmi8 (or cmi9 in case i need to split) vibes and you'll see why. holy fck abee, it hurts what do i do :''''')

[twstedtales]

Sorry Athy for resent this again cause maybe tmblr decided to purged it soo ...

Hi Athy! Chapter 6 is coming up and sksksksks all the emotion bagged with the VDC, Grim, the kidnap then Idia is somehow connected with all of those dramas with S.T.Y.X and Jupiter ... I really want to hear your feelings about the recent event happening with Twst chapter 6 cause I think people right now are very confused, cram with theories and having mixed feeling about many, many things.

Oh and I also that anon chan had accidentally sent you the art museum reqs so ... I'm so sorry about that! Hope you're doing fine and pls remind yourself every day that your writing is not cheap pls <3

Jwjeje hi!! tumblr probably purged your first question 😭 I just received this one last night but i couldn't get to it immediately because of some personal shenanigans but here we go! 

Episode 6 spoilers, unprofessional screeching, long rambling with a few curses under the cut! Proceed with caution because i won't be able to contain my feels 💦

Soooo, I've read the last chapter the first hour it was released because of excitement lol, but it was only through rereading it the third time that day I had finally be able to organise my thoughts about it shsjs.

First of all, I am quite sad that we only got a scratch on our hand xD sure, i'm glad we're safe but come onnnn disney, the last chapter of Episode 5 had us fainting and stuff and I expect the worst to happen to us ehwhwj. though that scene where Ace and Deuce had come to us when we called them even though its thd middle of the night warmed my heart like OMG BESTEST FRIENDS EVER 😭😭😭😭👊

Cue Ace insisting we should treat our injuries first before asking what had happen made me adore him even more like wtf, man, you usually cause us trouble but at times like this (and that scene in Ep 4 where they rushed to the desert thinking were in trouble) had me fangirling over him 🗿🗿🗿💦

Anyway, I also didn't expect Crowley to call all Dorm Heads bc AZUL AZUL AZUL 😳😳😳 even though he called Grim a problem child uwu. And Leona was so funny that time too 😂😂 Ortho best boy in finding lost stuff, maybe I should ask him to locate my things later too /j

Probably my favourite part of the first Ep is Vil apologising to everyone. I mean, technically, no one in the VDC team had blamed him anyway, but he still owed up his mistakes. That's a big plus for me hshwhw that even though he was a prideful teen (which, let's admit, most teens have high pride nowadays and i'm gonna tell you i am one too ehjekw) but Vil just knows when to apologise and admit defeat. Irl, that takes up a lot of courage and character growth, especially to lower down your pride and I admire that about Vil. HE WAS A TRUE QUEEN 🙇‍♀️👑 (you forgot your crown on my back, your majesty ejshw)

BUUUUTTTT, THE ROBOTS MAN. I am very surprised the first time I've seen em crashing in ramshackle LIKE DUDE, OUR DORM JUST GOT RENOVATED AND YOU HAVE THE AUDACITY TO RAMSHACKLED IT AGAIN 😤😤😤 I hope Idia pay us for property damage bc honestly, if it was me, i'm gonna storm right in ignihyde and vigorously demand compensation for the damage his robots caused us sjsjw 🙄🙄💅

And yooow, those freaking charon robots(? Is that what they call it in english?? hwnw idk man) had kidnapped Vil and Jamil hwhwhwhw fuck it. Though, Vil and Kalim displaying their "leadership" had me go WOOOW bc that's the first time I've seen them take on full action and protect the first years djsjsksjw LIKE OMG SO COOL 😳😳💅

Riddle going "ugiiiii" after so many episodes brings back the memories of Ep 1 😂😂💦 I honestly missed the other dorms taking action, and THANK DISNEY, they all have had them appeared then and there (well, except jack rip) HSJAJAJ 😭😭👊 

Lilia and Malleus know what's happening (esp about the STYX) is prolly bc they're royalty and retainer? Cause Leona knows about it too and he quoted that "i had seen them roaming in the palace before" that prolly indicates that Leona had seen Overblot before, which brings me back to that particular scene in Ep 3 after Azul's OB when Leona asked us if "the furball has always been eating black stones all this time". Leona prolly knows what that is but doesn't have enough evidence to support his claim (similar to Crowley who, "apparently", never seen Blot stones) so he just dismissed it before.

AND HELP EJEDHSJW LEONA'S NEW POSE IS MAKING ME LAUGH HE LOOKS LIKE A CAT THAT'S BEEN JAILED LOL 😂😂😂 tho his smirking expression when he was raising his hands and that "pls handle me gently im delicate" vibe is making me cackle so hard 🤣🤣🤣👌👌 

Tho jokes aside, i like his character development here 🤔 like, we rarely see Leona (tbf, we RARELY saw him in his OWN episode sjwbw) so I was highly impressed at his development here. From him saving Ruggie from the falling glass, leaving Savanaclaw to him while he was gone, and to the fact that he was surrendering bc he knows that it was futile to struggle further dhejw. I mean, Leona here shows that he knows how to pick his own battles and calculate the situation, and him being careful with his actions and entrusting the welfare of Savanaclaw. For me, tbh, that's a plus for him. Because most people irl (obv not all!) just charging recklessly and mindlessly to battle despite knowing that they would lose the war djehs (the others doesn't include here bc they dont know who those robots are anyway and they are protecting their campus and fellow schoolmates so that's okay, i guess)

AZUL AZUL AZUL 🐙 i also like how he was about to stand up for his schoolmates too, esp to his underclassmen, since he was a leader uwu. And Idia being sus...tbh, I've suspected his family belongs to some group that does shady stuff (like the tweels and they had somehow that shady vibes) and I think most of my predictions had come true??? jwjwjw but fuck, I didnt expect their family is as rich as Kalim's lol. That's definitely a surprise.

I also laughed so hard when I read that "Leona let Riddle sleep on his lap for three hours" LIKE IT WAS SOFT??? EVEN THOUGH IT WAS BEGRUDGING AND LEONA WAS BEING GRUMPY AFTERWARDS MADE ME FEEL *AFFECTIONATE* qwq 

Anywhoooo, I'm not really into reading theories a lot xD so perhaps I haven't read lots of em that was circulating bc I have a memory of a goldfish shahab i'm gonna forget what is "canon" and "theory" at times sjsjwjw but if you want to talk to a particular theory with me, FEEL FREE TO HOP INTO MY INBOX OR DMS, whichever you prefer ehe. I always like talking to my followers and mutuals about our favourite boys ejshw.

And by the way, you need not to worry about that request 😘 if you want to resend that again, feel free to since my requests are open again! I won't definitely reject such a cute idea hahaha. 

And be sure to drink plenty of water and take care too, Rei-chan (can I call u that ehehe?). Hsjwjehe thank youu for wanting to hear my thoughts about this even though it's stupidly long hahaha😳😳 and thinking my writing is good enough lol.

[ionicexpressions]

🌸Doublebounce, ❄️Light Stream, ☀️Hare! maybe a little 🌲/☀️Merry or a ✨Speckle!

🌸 Double's relationship with all of Tideclan interests me tbh. Given that it was her birthclan and she left them after feeling like an outcast and burden for so long...theres a LOT of tension there to play around with. Of course, her relationship with Tenderheart will always have a special place in my heart bc Anon and I had it planned for so long and have finally been able to rp it. There's so much guilt and hatred and desperation mixed in with those two...

Largely Double's relationship with her mother created all the relationships she had with other Tideclan cats as well. She would have never become close to Orca and her adopted kiddos if her own mom had been there more. They would have never had such a poor falling out. And the mentor/apprentice relationship between her and Mako would have been better had he not been so focused on playing the middle man and protecting Tender's feelings.

It's always a lot with Double and I really appreciate how much COTM has allowed me to develop her. She's one of my favorite ocs.

❄ Light

"It's rather hard to forget a cat as brilliant as you- looking like a nymph yourself in all this pretty fashion. You gave them a right scare, I imagine." (I just like the poetic nature of this quote)

"So many good things have been happening for us - for me - and I can't even appreciate them like I'm supposed to because I'm so focused on losing her..." (Sad mom hours)

☀ Hare's ideal friend would be someone who he can confide in. Who listens and doesn't judge. And tbh he's already found this in Turtlesplash and Jasperchasm! Clawsplash is another good friend of his but Claw reminds him a lot of one of his siblings so they can get testy with one another sometimes.

☀/🌲Merry...Cousin Merry...I want Razz to be closer to you in rp. They haven't talked much in regards to the twins' mom disappearing or Razz's "adventures" on her own and I wish they would! In terms of shipping...I don't know if I have any specific cats? I havent seen Merry interact with too many his age.

✨Intial thoughts on Specklestone: Mean little baby!!!! She called Ladybug a "pretender" (in her head but still lol). Lady got her chance to teach some manners though. I'd like to talk to Speckle again and see how she's grown since they last talked, considering Lady has been with Creekclan for many moons now and is an official warrior.

[reylooo]

Hello! I'm French (so sorry for my english ^^') and I saw TLJ yesterday! I don't know what to think about the movie honesly, and I feel very weird... But I absolutely love the relation between Kylo and Rey. It was my favorite part. I ship them since I saw TFA the first day of its release two years ago x) and I followed you shortly after. I read some of your answers to the reylo community and I don't agree with some of your theories ^^' 1/5

It’s clear reylo it’s not happening and will not happen. I’m a little sad about it because I did really want it to happen and I still want. But we’re wrong and we have to accept the truth. In the movie, the connexion between them was false and made by Snoke. Kylo manipulated Rey: he made her believe that he would eradicate the First Order but it was false. He played with her kindness to achieve his purpuse: to kill Snoke and his gards with her help and to rule the First Order. 2/5

He asked her to rule with him, bc he’s alone and he’s suffering bc of that. But I don’t think he fall in love with her, finally. And she doesn’t either. He turned against her and said it was her the one who killed Snoke and then, he took the throne. For me, Kylo will die in SWIX: he’s the only bad guy now, he’s the enemy. There will be no redemption arc, because it would be to similar to ROTJ, and scriptwriters understood it’s not the good solution to make a good story and please the fans 3/5

It’s not reylo and yet, I love this evolution in the story. Kylo Ren is my favorite character and I think he’s the best caracter in SW universe. Adam Driver is INCREDIBLE as Kylo Ren. His feeling explode at my face at each scene. He’s soooo tortured and confused and consummed with pain. He’s attracted by light but killing Han Solo destroyed him and I think he will not be able to go out the abyss. 4/5

I don’t remember exactly what you said about Rian J… Did you say he hadn’t understand the bond between Rey and Kylo? If not, ignore this: I think there multiple explanations to the relation of Rey and Kylo in SWVII. The reylo explanation is not universal. Rian doesn’t read their relation romanticly, that’s all :-) But maybe I’m wrong! Maybe he didn’t manipulate her, maybe the bond between them is true (at the end, there were connected again!) What do you think? 5/5 (it’s so looon sorry ^^’)

Hello there!^^

I think this has to be the longest ask I’ve ever received. Thanks for sending it and being enthusiastic!=)

I still have mixed feelings about TLJ, honestly. I loved some scenes and disliked others. But I think I was overhyped too, and that can happen when you’ve been reading hundreds of Reylo fanfictions for 2 years with endless theories of what could possibly happen in the future. In order of storytelling, I truly wished that Rian would’ve taken MORE risks! Yes, Reylo is a risk but I’m talking about Rey’s family and Snoke. I wanted to see Snoke being more powerful but after seeing TLJ I felt like his character lost all it’s meaning because he was killed off so easily. I also wished we would have gotten MORE interactions between Reylo where they actually talked more, because I felt it was a bit rushed to see Rey being infatuated with Kylo that soon after seeing him kill his own father, lol. I also had problems with the timeline. When The Resistance needs to escape from the FO, Finn and Rose have a span of a few hours to fix the tracker, meanwhile we see what feels like days or maybe even weeks pass between Rey, Luke and Kylo’s storyline.

Yes, Adam Driver is truly amazing!=)

Of course you don’t have to agree with me!^^ We’re all entitled to our own opinions and theories.

And when it comes to Reylo’s storyline, I don’t agree with you.^^

Kylo is in love with Rey and she is infatuated with him. Their attraction to each other is genuine but they have to overcome their obstacles which are different views and goals. That’s why Rian called this movie a romantic drama.xD

No, I did not say that. But I wish he would have filmed their scenes a little different (like JJ did in TFA). And when I wrote this earlier, some of my followers thought I meant that I wanted subtlety - NO, JJ gives more time and confuses a lot more on Reylo’s faces when they interact. He’s a master in this area, I think. Because somehow it feels even more intimate and real, and I think Rian didn’t quite capture that in TLJ. BUT that doesn’t mean that their scenes were horrible, not at all, they were good, I just wished he would have taken more time with them.^^

Well, Rian sees TLJ as a romantic drama (if I remember that quote from Japan correctly). So no, he does see Reylo as romantic, but they’re not perfect romantic right now. I think Reylo will end up together. Because WHY would Rian plant so many romantic seeds in their scenes in TLJ? It would be pointless if they didn’t have some kind of meaning to them. Reylo have a forcebond, in my opinion, so that wasn’t “manipulated” or made up by Snoke.^^

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