#mistys playlist lol but oh well )

[misquigley]

send me a number between 1 to 69, and I'll pick a lyric from a song from THIS playlist for a starter for your muse.

[prouvairesverse]

🥀📜 Jehanparnasse playlist for @lesmisshippingshowdown

my personal view on their relationship through songs :] haven’t revised this so if anything’s a mess uh. ignore it thanks <3

notes under cut

1. A Night To Remember - Beabadoobee

Remembering seeing each other in glances in the past and small meetings and being unable to forget each other's faces. Having a night together that’s unforgettable.

2. Bite The Hand - Boygenius

Montparnasse who isn’t as certain on their relationship (perhaps a bit insecure about it). The lyrics make me think of Montparnasse attempting to show off his most flawless parts and creating that mask of himself to hide his vulnerability from Jehan.

3. Fair - The Amazing Devil

UGH. I can’t express how much this song makes me think of them. it’s so sweet and sarcastic, the whole song is very domestic and a more calming view of what their relationship/life could be like together. i can so imagine them dancing together under the stars and just enjoying each other's company without any other care (and perhaps one of them breaking the moment with a dumbass joke). Seriously this whole song is just so perfect for them to me.

4. We’ll Never Have Sex - Leith Ross

Honestly i don’t have much notes to this song but i see it from either of their views and i just. think it’s really sweet and could easily work. “Oh, you kissed me just to kiss me”, for example, a realisation of just being there for the other without much going past a kiss.

5. Ordinary - Alex Warren

Honestly take one look at the lyrics for this, i can see it in either of their views and just an overall look at their relationship. This whole song has a theme of worship and well. yeah it works for them.

6. Work song - Hozier

They are DEDICATED to each other btw. Honestly think this hozier song really represents them and nothing really will break them up!!! (not even death) Also the lyrics mention not asking what wrong they did, and i see that as Jehan not asking Montparnasse of what he’s done unless he talks about it first.

7. Evermore - Beauty & The Beast soundtrack

okay please hear me out on this one. This whole song from Montparnasse’s view, “I never needed anybody in my life”, believing he doesn’t need love or vulnerability in his life past perhaps the patron minette and that he can get by just fine until meeting Jehan and they haunt him.

I very specifically imagine parts of this song in canon era (“Now i know she’ll never leave me, Even as she fades from view.” after Jehan’s death in canon era that even as they disappear they’re always with him). Honestly i could really go on about this whole song being Montparnasse’s view of Jehan i just adore it so much for them.

8. I See The Light - Tangled soundtrack

Okay ngl this one fully inspired by the fact i have a tangled au for them LOL but i think this song can show a meaning of them both having a realisation of their worlds shifting with a new view. Also Montparnasse is so eugene coded.

9. Real Love Baby - Father John Misty

Jehan! Take one listen to this song and try tell me they don’t convince Montparnasse to dance around their apartment to this. Jehan is just so happy to be in his company and having that feeling of freedom with one another.

10. Kill The Director - The Wombats

(Thank you Stevie for this one!) 100% Montparnasse’s view and feeling like being in a romcom for such a cliche love! “Kill the director” of disbelief that he fell for them.

11. Please Be Rude - Gigi Perez

This song is just. so them to me. Just an overall take on their relationship. Just being utterly in love through the course of time and wanting to be around the other.

12. My Boy Builds Coffins - Florence + The Machine

Just take a look at the song title. Montparnasse “building” coffins for all the people he’s killed.

13. Dancing Barefoot - Patti Smith

Honestly this song is just so Jehan to me, dancing barefoot and feeling intoxicated with their love and interest as if it draws them in and they can’t figure out why but deciding to allow it to happen.

14. Slide - The Goo Goo Dolls

Just the vibes of wanting to be around each other and admiring the other, considering living in their own bubble and running away as long as they’re with each other. Just sliding into place with each other, perfectly.

15. Touch Tank - Quinnie

Montparnasse having a different vibe around Jehan and being softer than he has been with anyone. Jehan viewing him as beautiful and unable to think properly around him. Wanting to be with each other every morning.

16. Ruin My Life - Zara Larsson

Jehan who’s more than happy to let Montparnasse ruin their life and always wanting to be with him, missing him when he isn’t around because he gave a spark to their life they hadn’t experienced before.

[sargewood]

IM STARING SOOOO INTENTLY AT canon(ish?), logan loves benny and later sarah but feels like a homewrecker

ok this one i can already tell is going to be my legit baby so here's a few pieces of it so far <33 i'll probably decide later on down the road if benny comes back after he leaves or not but idk yet! i might make him and sarah logan's wags and let elias keep his job lol

“But this is our dream?” (Logan) “No, Logan, this is your dream. I want to be a father. I want to be a family with Sarah.” (Benny) Logan reels back like he's been smacked. “Oh. I get it. I'm not a part of this like I thought I was then.” (Logan) “Logan, I didn't mean it like that. You have to know I didn't mean it like that!” (Benny) “I thought this would be better, but it’s not.” (Benny) “We tried, right?” Logan curls in on himself, feels impossibly small. Just wants Benny to say this ever meant something, anything to him like it did Logan. “We did try.” (Benny) “I know we were waiting to see if it would get better once we made it to F1, but it’s just not getting better. I think we both have to admit that.” (Benny)

“This is hard, but I think you were right. You should go be a dad to Kobe and Nala, spend time with Sarah.” “I won’t stop you, but are you sure Logan?” Logan nods. “Yeah, I can’t keep taking you away from your family. It’s not fair.” “You’re my family too, Logan. Whatever happens, I need you to remember that, yeah?” Logan nods to appease Benny, but he knows that Benny’s just saying that to make this easier, to make Logan feel better about essentially firing his trainer. Knows that eventually communication will peter out to obligatory texts and that Logan has to find a way to cope with that and move on. He can’t keep doing this to Benny or Sarah. He can’t destroy their actual family.

Logan’s phone lights up with the name ‘Sarah ❤️’ and the picture that the three of them took on the beach in Miami in 2023. Logan has a feeling as to why she’s calling, but can’t let it go unanswered. He couldn’t do that to Sarah, so he takes a deep breath and unlocks his phone. “Hello?” “Hi, love.” “Hi, Sarah,” Logan says. “You want to tell me what’s going on?” She asks gently. And something inside Logan breaks. Suddenly he’s sobbing down the phone with shuddering gasps racking his body, unable to catch his breath. “Hey, hey. You’re fine, babes. I need you to breathe for me.” He’s fucking trying, but his body just won’t cooperate. Sarah can hear him struggling, and it breaks her heart. “Do you need me to do anything?” Sarah asks. “No,” Logan chokes out. “Will you just talk? About anything, I don’t care.”

fuck it i'll include the playlist for this one too, it's more infidelity/guilt vibes but there are a few repeats

you signed up for this (maisie peters)

the blue (gracie abrams)

is there something in the movies (samia)

i know it won’t work (gracie abrams)

aeroplane (greer)

the other woman (lana del rey)

triptych (samia)

picture you (chappell roan)

coffee (chappell roan)

why did you marry (nataly dawn)

i don’t sleep well (hello saferide)

i do (reneé rapp)

high infidelity (taylor swift)

right where you left me (taylor swift)

go home (lucius)

don’t tell my mom (reneé rapp)

the kids don’t wanna come home (declan mckenna)

the one that got away (katy perry)

as long as we’re together (the lemon twigs)

why didn’t you say that? (the lemon twigs)

pool (samia)

to me it was (samia)

orange show speedway (lizzy mcalpine)

reckless driving (lizzy mcalpine)

called you again (lizzy mcalpine)

just dumb enough to try (father john misty)

nobody sees me like you do (japanese breakfast's version)

everybody does (julien baker)

your father (the front bottoms)

when u love somebody (fruit bats)

tornado warnings (sabrina carpenter)

things i wish you said (sabrina carpenter)

talking to strangers (maisie peters)

tough act (maisie peters)

bad decisions (bastille)

good lesson (bastille)

make me cry (noah cyrus)

fell in love without you (motion city soundtrack)

rewind (goldspot)

where’s my love (SYML)

meant to stay hid (SYML)

bottom of the ocean (miley cyrus)

not like the movies (katy perry)

grow as we go (ben platt)

same boat (lizzy mcalpine)

illicit affairs (taylor swift)

if you leave (orchestral manoeuvres in the dark)

also probably half of lizzy mcalpine's new album will end up on this list as well because that entire album is about logan and benny

[eldritchmochi]

yeah I am pretty young lmao, I'll spare you from another playlist by just naming some artists that gave me inspiration for god knows at some point

first off you mentioned Hozier, which I kinda only mention because he released a new album recently. Arctic Monkeys and Father John Misty are kinda in the same boat as him. More like the same lake.

The Amazing Devil and The Oh Hellos never fail to give me some sort of D&D/character inspiration. Ghost does?? something??? as well with characters, but specific ones. Same with Steam Powered Giraffe.

other than that, Library Magic by The Head And The Heart is very Wizard, along with The Magician by Andy Shauf. and because I just can't go without mentioning it, Queen is my favorite band. :)

that's all! with any luck it'll end up being useful somehow lol

hozier is one of those artists who i dont listen to on purpose like ever i dont thinki could name a single song of his with confidence BUT i know his voice starkly as one i really lusted after pre-t. i saw he just dropped a new album and i HAVE to give it a listen to especially the video of sssomething or other (full album mv??? pLEASE) because it stars domnall gleeson and i am still horny for that man even after all these years (he's the actor for hux for context lmao)

queen is also one of my long time favs, though definitely a band i dont know in and out the way i do with a lot of more modern punk bands lmao. freddie has and always will be Gender (god the video for i want to break free was IT for me in like 8th grade right around when i came out)

ive seen spg live before!! they are *great* experience even if you're not deep into the lore (i had friends who were big lore fans). i have heard precisely One And A Half Ghost Songs and im keeping it that way on purpose because its just sooooooo funny that im not into them because aesthetically they are way up my alley (and one of my sibs, a number of irl buddies, and MANY artists i follow are all nuts for them)

ive some passing familiarity with the artic monkeys, enough that i can pick out a number of their more popular songs on the radio even if i cant name them (i am garbage at song titles tho so)

i'll have to check out the rest, especially good Wizards Songs 👀

in response!! further things to check out:

FUNKY.FM - playlist by alexmoukala who is one of my FAVOURITE video game composers. i know him primarily through twitter where he posts snippets of remixed or reimagined video game music... but FUNKY (this one is particularly relevant to u based of ur playlist shared w me)

ye old spooky club 1995 - playlist by unnerving governess who i am 90% sure is gothic charmschool. i know i got the link thru her but i thiiink she also made it (another playlist that may vibe w u based off your playlist)

creature feature, especially the album "the greatest show unearthed" (ookey spooky rock with a lot of vincent price era horror camp and a lot of really impressive technical skill. i want it to be halloween damnit)

the mind electric by the miracle musical (behold, the essence of the inside of my brain but in tangible form. it is. incredibly ominous. do recommend headphones for max goosebumps (includes a lot of records played backwards type sounds and other distortions))

dance monkey by tones and i (one of my big essek songs since i get a lot of that vibe where he's beholden to his station for *so much* that its a disservice to his growth as a person)

bottom is a rock by mother mother (my m9 as a whole song. the chorus has a line for each of them i stg and if i could reliably draw i would do an old school lyricstuck to it)

my verdict on ur playlist btw is that it is very solid and cohesive a+, but *just* to the left of my tastes, largely because a lot of it skews 70s/80s which just by nature of the beast lacks the bass i like (because it was mixed entirely different compared to modern music, which is better suited for sounding big when played digitally through smaller speakers. ive heard some of these bands on big sound systems and theyre MUCH more in line with my tastes then lmao)

[dezmondmyles]

Tagged by @schmooplesthesecond oh boy here we go

5 Songs (from my 2023 spotify wrapped playlist lol)

A-Ha, "The Blood That Moves the Body

My Chemical Romance, "Cancer"

Megadeth, "How The Story Ends"

Des Rocs, "Used to the Darkness"

Disturbed, "The Infection"

Questions

1. Three ships you like:

Almond, duh of course who else would be here

My own OCs ships thank you lmao

Vulpes Inculta/F!Courier, but my courier in particular 'cause im a trash mammal

2. First ship ever: maybe Ash/Misty?? Probably??

3. Last song you heard: More like album, but "Paradise Theater" by Styx

4. Favorite Childhood Book: Holy shit I also actually really loved Bunnicula as well haha. My faves were all in series though, so like Magic Tree House, Junie B Jones, Tales of a 4th Grade Nothing, Captain Underpants.

5. Currently Reading: I used to read... Those were good times...

6. Currently Watching: That's not a twitch stream or youtuber? Uh- Oh! Well I am loosely watching Quantum Leap, trying my best since they moved the days and time it airs on, but I genuinely love it.

7. Currently Craving: Sweet relief

oh my goodness who will i tag in this? oh gosh ok i guess i will tag @wolfofwhat @seventhstrife @leonleonhart @punkasshunter and uh whoever else wants to do it and tag me as tagging them i guess idk idc im not your mom

okay thanks bye <3

[fandomsandfairytales]

Thank you for answering! And thereby feeding my craving for canon SotS stuff right now (I was going to say headcanon but realized no, this is pure canon) XD I've been rotating Riser and Annaáuchiwee in my head today a lot. And Billie specifically too.

Reading this just made me so happy and smiley—this is great and those tattoos all feel so right to the Sons' characters. And Willow. I exhaled in amusement at "Riser is just making sleepy innuendos so I'll ask him later". Birdie having angel wings is so extra but also very much him, and I can picture Cary with that kind of sleeve. ALSO, Riser having the Star over his heart makes me go 🥺🥹 And Max having the Star on his forearm makes so much sense to me. Idk if I could totally put it into words why they both fit so well, but maybe because the Star is part of Max's concept of duty/serving those in need/standing for what is right, and for Riser the Star means family and protecting them. (I could be getting that wrong, and I know the Star is important to them both—very likely for both reasons I listed—but I'm curious to hear what you think. That was my first impression and it's difficult to make the thoughts become words, lol.)

Other thoughts/ideas: I actually had the thought beforehand that Ken might have Silver's name somewhere (and thought maybe Max would have Misty's too) but didn't want to mention those ideas because I wanted to see what you'd think before giving you thoughts XD Maybe the twins would have matching tattoos? Or tattoos that reference the other in some way? Like maybe one on the outside of Red's left ankle and then one in the same spot for Russ but on the outside of his right ankle, so if they're standing or sitting together barefoot you could see them.

Ooooo, did you mention the rose vines & thorns tattoo yet in Annaáuchiwee? If so I might have caught that, but the main reason for this ask was because I was listening to Brother by Kodaline (one of the songs on the SotS playlist) and noticed the line "Oh brother, we go deeper than the ink beneath the skin of our tattoos". So of course I thought of the Sons and had to ask.

You might have mentioned this somewhere, but I'm curious: What kind of tattoos do the Sons have? I could totally be making it up in my head that they have them, bc I can't remember, but I really thought they did. If they have them, I'd love to know what you think!

You get the whole thing I originally wrote plus later edits. XD

Max – 8-pointed star, inside of left forearm Birdie – angel wings across his entire back Riser – (I dunno he's just making sleepy innuendo tonight I'll ask him in the morning) Cary – left sleeve Ken – his son's name maybe? Twins – don't know Cary's sleeve is flames and thorns and that sort of thing; no skulls – he didn't like the imagery – but a wolf dying in graphic detail up at his shoulder Maybe a dragon woven through the flames and thorns, or an eagle somewhere Willow has a little butterfly tramp stamp colored faintly in pink and blue She wants a rose between/beneath her bust but Cary doesn't want her going topless to get it done Riser’s got a dragon up his right arm and the Star over his heart

(Current edit: in Annaáuchiwee I added rose vines and thorns on Riser's left arm; will probably add this to the main plotline too.)

Thank you for the ask! ^_^

[amwritesitall]

Cordelia Goode Playlist

Masterlist

I’m sharing these so I have post schedullleeedd for my days oooofffff. They most likely won’t be popular but it’s all good :) I’m going to put little baby reasoning since this is a thicc list

Playlist link

Also if you guys want more character playlists go check out @make--your--life--spectacular​ ‘s playlists. Here’s links to Ally and Venable :)

“Dreams” by Fleetwood Mac

Now here I go again I see the crystal visions I keep my visions to myself It's only me who wants to wrap around your dreams And have you any dreams you'd like to sell? Dreams of loneliness

So the first few songs all kind of have the same reasoning and that is witchy vibes. You can’t have a Cordelia playlist without some Fleetwood Mac

“Rhiannon” by Fleetwood Mac

She is like a cat in the dark and then She is the darkness She rules her life like a fine skylark and when The sky is starless

The ultimate witchy vibes song

“Seven Wonders” by Fleetwood Mac

So it's hard to find Someone with that kind of intensity You touched my hand I played it cool And you reached out your hand for me But if our paths never cross Well you know I'm sorry but If I live to see the seven wonders I'll make a path to the rainbow's end I'll never live to match the beauty again The rainbow's end

We love our talented Supreme

“Has Anyone Ever Written Anything for You” by Stevie Nicks

Has anyone ever given anything to you In your darkest hours Did you ever give it back Well, I have I have given that to you If it's all I ever do This is your song

This song is so preetttttyyyyyy. I feel like this would be one of Cordelia’s favorites

“The Witch Queen of New Orleans” by Redbone

Dime or a nickel any one could buy Voodoo of any kind She had potions and lotions, herbs and tanna leaves Guaranteed to blow your mind Early one mornin' into mucky swamp dew Vanished Marie with hate in her eyes Though she'll never return all the Cajuns knew A witch queen never dies

This song talks about Marie Laveau and idk witch vibes. Cordelia is also the witch queen while Marie is the voodoo queen

“girls” by girl in red

I shouldn't be feeling this But it's too hard to resist Soft skin and soft lips I should be into this guy But it's just a waste of time He's really not my type I know what I like No, this is not a phase Or a coming of age This will never change

A lot of songs just make me think of bb Cordelia

“Loving Is Easy” by Rex Orange County

Loving is easy You had me fucked up It used to be so hard to see Yeah, loving is easy When everything's perfect Please don't change a single little thing for me

Soft gal loving. Prime happy Cordelia vibes

“i wanna be your girlfriend” by girl in red

I don't wanna be your friend I wanna kiss your lips I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath I don't wanna be your friend I wanna kiss your lips I wanna kiss you until I lose my breath

Teen AU Cordeliiiaaaa

“Glory Box” by Portishead

I just want to be a woman From this time, unchained We're all looking at a different picture Through this new frame of mind A thousand flowers could bloom Move over, and give us some room, yeah

HOW CAN I NOT PUT THIS SONG ON HERE?? This is one of my favorite songs they have ever used on the show

“you’re my world” by atlas

You were my earth You were the planet You were the grass The wind and tides And now that you're gone I feel so out of place And now that you're gone I'm just driftin' through space

Anngsssttt

“If We We’re Vampires” by Jason Isbell and the 400 Unit

It's knowing that this can't go on forever Likely one of us will have to spend some days alone Maybe we'll get forty years together But one day I'll be gone Or one day you'll be gone

I’m going to use my reasoning from my other post about this song.

Cordelia knows that one day she will die. There will be another Supreme after her and she can’t live forever. This is her coming to terms with the fact that maybe it’s for the best that she won’t stay around forever. Not being immortal allows her to live in the moment and savor all the time she has.

“Red (Demo Version)” by Miki Ratsula

Stars light up the sky, the clock strikes twelve Adventure in sight, the hours melt Ben Howard plays, she sings along I look to my left and fall in love

When she leans in for a red light kiss And places her love on my lips Hearts and lungs increase in pace Passion overwhelms our space But, the corner of my eye lights up in green This fragile moment woken by reality Our lips depart, our breathing slows as I wait again To kiss her lips, when the light turns red

Soft teen Cordelia vibes

“Planets of the Universe - Demo” by Fleetwood Mac

I will never love again the way I loved you You will never rule again the way you've ruled We will never change again the way we are changing Oh, you'll forget the chill of love but not the strain

One of my favorite songs. The demo is my favorite version of it because it feels so raw? Like the emotions in it and also young Stevie sounds like a cutie at the beginning and end when she’s talking to Christine.

In general this is also has Cordelia vibes too lol

“18″ by 5 Seconds of Summer

I'm not old enough for her I'm just waiting till I'll eighteen I think she wants to get with me But, she's got a job in the city And she says that she's always too busy She's got a naughty tattoo In a place that i wanna get to

Being a student at the Academy and having a thing for Ms Headmistress Cordelia

“House of the Rising Sun” by Lauren O’Connell

It's one foot on the platform The other's on the train I'm going back to New Orleans To wear that ball and chain

Witchy woman

“Bad Liar” by Selena Gomez

I was walking down the street the other day Tryna distract myself But then I see your face Oh wait, that's someone else Ohh, tryna play it coy Tryna make it disappear But just like the battle of Troy There's nothing subtle here In my room there's a king size space Bigger than it used to be If you want you can rent that place Call me an amenity Even if it's in my dreams

Nervous Cordelia trying to hide her feelings. Possibly Teen Cordelia?

“Nervous - Acoustic” by Gavin James

'Cause every time I saw you I got nervous Shivering and shaking at the knees And just like every song I haven't heard yet no I didn't know the words in front of me In front of me, and oh But I don't wanna know Who'll take you home?

Season three shy gal

“Mariposa” by Peach Tree Rascals

I can't wait for you To come my way I've been far away But I'll keep runnin' Just to find a way to you til' then

Cordelia will do her damn best to get to her love. Don’t mess with her b.

“Sweet Love of Mine (Acoustic)” by Joy Williams

When you found me I was all alone The whole world around me And nowhere to call home I heard your voice sing like heaven's choir Gathered up my fears and threw them in the fire

Oh my darling, sweet love of mine I'll hold you all through the night

I don’t think this is what the song is technically about but it makes me think of Cordelia finding someone that finally loves her and helps her love all of the things that Fiona made her self conscious about.

“Hurts Like Hell - OurVinyl Sessions” by Fleurie

I don't want them to know the secrets I don't want them to know the way I loved you I don't think they'd understand it, no I don't think they would accept me, no

I loved, and I loved and I lost you

Dreams fight with machines Inside my head like adversaries Come wrestle me free Clean from the war Your heart fits like a key Into the lock on the wall

This song makes me think of Misty x Cordelia or angsty teen au Cordelia. I can also cry on demand if this song is playing

“Waiting Room” by Rex Orange County

Our family reunion I'd rather be anywhere but here It's like a pain you shouldn't ignore But my uncle's here to open the door, and I don't like him This family reunion I felt so uncomfortable, I left They all decided to stay So it's just me and my mistakes And I'd like to know that you smile when you're alone And when you need time to yourself Remember me, I won't be anyone else I'm just the boy you love

And my lover, my best friend When I heard that you don't know why you're here I fell face down And became one with the ground And my lover's best friend

Cordelia’s hella dysfunctional family and just yeah

“Fancy Shoes” by The Walters

Let's go walking in the city tonight You wear the dress that makes you look so nice Like my fancy shoes I wore them just for you Tell me why all the good ones go Well I don't know but I want it to somehow change I'll be a better man if you just stay

This one I don’t have much of an explanation for besides vibes

“Common Sense” by Joshua Bassett

Common sense tells me kiss the girl goodbye Common sense tells me leave it all behind Common sense says the girl's not worth my time But common sense ain't common when you come to mind

Delia madly in love

“I Talk to the Sky” by Maddy Estelle

I write down things I wish I could say to you I talk to the sky I collect words I wish I could give to you I talk to the sky, I talk to the sky The sky doesn't say a word

Cordelia after she’s lost her loovee the annggsstt but sis is getting a happy ending

“Two Straws” by Also Joe

You've been on my mind In rain and sunshine You've got the sweetest smile that I've ever laid eyes on You make me dance And I make you laugh But nothin puts me in a better mood than being loved by ya This is the love that I've been dreaming of

Delia after falling really really hard

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[neshabeingchildish]

League of Extraordinary Geniuses || Chapter 8

@verified-dumbass @just-a-j-reallly @kiddangers @poppyville

I hope that everybody has been doing well. This chapter isn’t as long as the previous, but that’s mostly because these have been running together, and I’ve been trying to find stopping points for them. I wanted to fully get through this emotional journey that Charlotte is taking the guys on while she figures some things out and after I have the chance to do that, we’ll get back to the action and premise. This was a little bit of a fun break from some of that, even though it is very much so a Max stress chapter, Max is a person that doesn’t wear his upset on his sleeve.Let me know what you’re thinking. I’ve still got notes, but I’m running out of them. Lol. 

The Way I Danced with You

This was possibly the best tea that Chase had ever tasted in his life. Max didn’t order tea. He ordered a smoothie and added in a bunch of things that like… why didn’t he just get dessert? All of the sugar content couldn’t be good for him, plus… He mentioned planning on drinking later. How was he able to keep that physique and excel in hero duties with all of the sweets and alcohol he partook in? Chase didn’t do stuff like that. He made sure that his body was as immaculate as humanly possible. But tea would often be one of his guilty pleasures… Not that tea wasn’t healthy, but he ordered for taste and aroma, not so much the medical or spiritual purposes that Charlotte usually adhered to. He wondered how she was doing with “her guys.” He wondered if their presence at the cottage had made the difference that Max once hoped for with those guys. He wondered what it would be like whenever they reunited…

“Okay, so, we gotta go shopping. Gotta get some Dystopia clothes to wear and some supplies for the robot research. Then, it’s to the library, because there’s an entry way into Charlotte’s lab there and that’s the closest and easiest one to access. I’ve gotta look over the potential genius pool results for minions and get them started on one of my side projects, while I have the down time. Gonna swing through Maxtropolis and check in with Marx and Dougie - you can stay in the car if you need to…”

“I’ll be fine,” Chase said, but even thinking about it made him tense. 

Max brushed it off and continued, “Probably will be around lunchtime. So, gonna do that at The Bionic Brothel…”

“Brothel???” Chase repeated, clearly horrified.

“Relax! It’s a soup saloon.” His eyes grew misty as he stared into the distance, “There’s nothing else in the world like their soup selection.” Chase glanced towards where Max was staring off into the distance and this brought him back to the conversation, “And, they’ve got cool soup selections and other stuff too, so even though it’s hot outside, you could still enjoy something. One of the biokids Char plucked from your dad’s island opened it up about a year ago. It’s a bionic owned business with a bionic staff, with the exception of a few regular servers. Hostess is an android… Or was. I don’t know the status of the ones that were living life before this hellstorm…” 

Now, it was on both their minds again, but Max found his voice to say, “And after that, check in with Charlotte to see if she needs anything, and if not, head back to the Super Stay to wash up and get ready to go to Dance Off Revolution.”

“What… what is Dance Off Revolution?” 

“You really have got to get to Dystopia more often!”

“Something that 16 year old me never could have imagined anyone would ever say…”

“Dance Off Revolution is an underground club where dance crews have battles and soloists try out for crews.”

“Are you suggesting that we try to join a dance crew?” Chase asked, a little bit more excited than he intended to sound, but Max froze and looked at him with equal excitement.

“I wasn’t, but the tone in your question tells me that I was wrong! Hell yeah, we’ll try out for a dance crew!”

Chase smiled, cheerfully, then collected his thoughts, “Wait a minute, we can’t try out for a dance crew. We don’t have time to join a dance crew! We’re only here for a few days or so.”

“You don’t do things JUST TO SAY that you did it?” Max asked incredulously.

“I mean…” Chase smiled brightly again and gushed, “YES!”

“Oh man, I am gonna destroy you on that dance floor!”

Chase furrowed his eyebrows. For some reason, in his mind, they were about to do a thing together, not face off. But at merely the suggestion that Max could defeat him didn’t sour his mood. It made him competitive, “In your dreams Super Kid.”

Max’s eyes grew wide, “It is SO on!” He started mumbling something about, “Thinks he can defeat me in a dance battle? This boy don’t even know Beyonce’s catalog and thinks he can beat me in a…”

“What does Beyonce have to do with dancing?” Chase asked. 

Max almost crashed the car, then came to a screeching halt. People were honking their horns as he collected himself. “Tell me… that you just did NOT…”

“We are in the middle of the street…” Chase said, nervously, and mouthed apologies to angrily passing vehicles. 

“That’s like asking what Usher has to do with dancing!” Chase narrowed his eyes, not wanting to ask it out loud, but Max read his face, clenched both of his fists and yelled, “YOU’RE WONDERING WHAT USHER HAS TO DO WITH DANCING, AREN’T YOU???” Max shook his head and started driving again, making a very illegal U turn. “Plans are cancelled until further notice. You have to be schooled in the Church of Usher.”

“Is that another Dystopia landmark that the tourists don’t usually hear about.”

Through his teeth, Max chimed, “It is a lifestyle choice.” He turned on an Usher playlist and headed for his friend’s house.

.

Simone was giggling about Max Thunderman being in her dance studio, in front of the mirrored walls, showing Chase Davenport Usher choreography. It was extremely unexpected and cute. She loved this so much. AND they gave her permission to put any of the clips she recorded on her stories for the Kickbutt Dance Studios Company page. By the time they finished, Chase knew every Usher song with the choreography and was in the best mood that Max had ever seen the guy in. He took a call from Mr. Davenport while Simone and Max talked.

“So… This your new romance prospect?” She wondered.

Max furrowed his eyebrows, “What? Are you joking?”

Simone looked confused, “You asked me to open my studio for you to share Usher with him and danced for hours. You put together a routine for Dance Off Revolution! …If that isn’t a date, then I don’t know what is. Anyways, you like teacup people with bright eyes.”

“SHUT UP! I do not!” He did, but. He already had a teacup person with bright eyes. Charlotte.

Simone laughed and shrugged her shoulders, “I guess…” She looked towards Chase, then said in a lower voice to Max, “Just, be careful around the bionics. I don’t know. He seems nice and all, but they’re… they’ve brought a lot of controversy and contempt into our world.”

Max didn’t expect to defend Chase, but it flowed out naturally. It wasn’t even because he felt connected to him or that they had bonded over dance. He just knew that the things that people thought about Chase were probably misconstrued, after having spent some time with him.  “I know that, but he isn’t like that.”

“Kaz seemed to think so,” she said.

“Do you ALL know each other???” Chase asked, coming back over.

“Pretty much,” they both said. 

Chase fussed, “And why is Kaz ALWAYS talking to someone about me? Jeesh.”

Simone wasn’t EVEN going to get on that subject. “Look… I know you did a lot for the supers whenever the war started, and as someone who could’ve potentially been slaughtered, that definitely means a lot. I just still take issue with the fact that bionics are comfortable with taking the credit for supers’ successes.”

“The supers have told us that they don’t want your world uncovered,” Chase said. “I guess your buddy Kaz leaves that part out when he’s keeping a personal journal about my life.”

“That was years ago, my dude. People know that we’re here now, and yet bionics are still seen as heroes while we’re seen as freaks. The difference being because you guys are just nonsupes with technology and we were born this way. You can’t remove our abilities and that makes nonsupes dehumanize and demonize us. As someone who knows and works with us and even fought alongside of us, I would think you’d be more vocal about exposing the truth. No other bionic person has the platform that you do.” She shrugged her shoulders and said, “Just something to think about. Personally, I never really wanted to be a hero. I love being stationed in Dystopia. The Defenders do most of the work and I was able to open my own dance studio! So, I’m not insulted on behalf of heroes. I just watched my mom bust her buns to be a hero and never get to let the world know, and now that the world is evolving and slowly making room for supers, I think it’s important that our importance in history and in today’s formation is esteemed, as well.” She shrugged her shoulders. 

Chase nodded his head, until Max tried to answer for him. “Well, it’s not really his platform, so he can’t just start making statements about supers.”

“Who’s platform is it?”

“His dad’s.”

“I don’t know his dad.”

“His dad’s in charge. He’s just the poster boy.”

“Wait a minute!” Chase interrupted.

“Say no more. I know how that is. I was the Super President’s daughter coming up. No platform of my own to be found.”

“I have a platform!” Chase insisted.

Max smirked, “Yeah, that Daddy controls. Excuse me, Mr. Davenport…”

“I can put whatever I choose on my platform!” Chase fussed.

“Okay,” Max said, rolling his eyes, then laughed when Chase pouted about things.  A few more minutes, and they were finally off to do the things that Max intended to do before. Chase remained pouting. Max drowned out his sighs and groans with more Usher. Chase tried to resist moving along to the music. He couldn’t, but he definitely was able to hold his glare.

By the time they were shopping, he lightened up, but the implication that he couldn’t speak for himself because he represented Davenport Industries would continue to bother him. He picked up the tab, because he knew he had more money than Max did and he did feel like he owed him for being pretty generous with stuff like cooking breakfast and offering beverages and stuff. They would be working together and he had to get used to treating him like a person that he was considerate of. Super Stay was a hotel that supers tended to stay in, though there was other clientele. 

They were in the Maximus Suite, and the place had a bionic chamber. Chase was impressed with it. It wasn’t like the one that Charlotte kept for him, but it was pretty good for a hotel. Dystopia was extremely accommodating, now that he was visiting. He didn’t want to tell Max that he had quarters in the city, because Max was pretty comfortable with this arrangement of them being in the same suite and he didn’t want to seem ungrateful or rude. 

Once they were cleaned up and changed, they met in the common area of the suite and Max announced, “Sure you’re gonna be alright seeing Marx?”

“I’m not a baby, Max.”

“Okay. Well… it’s closer than the library now, so there first, maybe get soup with Dougie and then the library. He’ll probably wanna look over Char’s robot stuff anyways,” Max said.

As they headed out, Chase wondered, “Are you two like… really close?” 

Max thought for a moment, then said, “Well… I think so. Something that my family never really realized about my villainous days was that I was missing something.  I thought that there was no way that I could ever be as good a hero as my sister and I had a pet villain to motivate me in other directions. My parents never supported me unless I did something they approved of and well… I felt like I found what I was looking for in Dr. Colosso… and I mean, I ultimately made the right decision but I was so close to the darkness. Douglas went into the darkness and when he came out, he'd lost his family. Sure, he was able to get back in, but he still missed out on so much and can't fix what he's done. I empathize. I didn't go as far as he did, and if I had, who knows? My family might not trust me. It could have gone so much worse. Dougie helps me to remember to be grateful and I help him to have a connection with a son like figure that he can relate to. There's mutual understanding and appreciation that we haven't exactly been able to get from our loved ones that have never did the dance in the darkness that we've done."

Chase didn't want to talk about why he didn't trust Douglas fully or the tension and resentment he still felt, after years of work and trying, but, one thing was still true, "I'm glad he's got someone like that."

“He would trade me for one of his own in a heartbeat,” Max said, with a shrug, though the thought of Douglas ever turning on him shook him deeply. He was around when Colosso died… And honestly… he was the only person who was at all helpful. He… wanted to reanimate him as an android bunny, which no… I didn’t want to do, but I sure appreciated his desire to help me cope.”

“Bunny?” Chase repeated.

“I’ll explain later. Anyway, yeah… Dougie and I are close. He’s basically me, if I was old and lonely.”

“Lonely? With you, Charlotte, and Charlotte’s weird little friend?” Chase asked.

“Wow. You’re just gonna disrespect Schwoz that way? Yes. Even with a few friends, Douglas is still lonely. He doesn’t even get to be fun uncle to Naomi.”

“More and more, it’s sounding like you just hang out with him because you feel bad for him. Scared that you’ll turn out that way?” Chase joked. Now, it was Max’s turn to frown.

“Maybe,” he muttered. Probably, he couldn’t get himself to admit out loud.

.

“So, you ready to help me to create a whole new Dystopia?”

“I’m ready to watch your back while YOU create a whole new Dystopia.” 

“That works!” 

Thunderstrike smiled at Charlotte, his mask hiding half of his face, but not the eyes - old school style, as was the case with the heroes of his bloodline. That and a cape. He was ready to be the hero that she needed to do whatever it was she had to do. 

Charlotte was it for Max. He’d made that up in his mind before he ever met her. Sure, he’d done this before (with Cheyanne), but with Charlotte, it was different. First off - he apparently was drawn to her, because he admired her in each form she had, not even knowing she was the same person. And then, they became friends, and then he relocated to Dystopia during the height of its crime and then… he felt validation. 

She finally was starting to see him for who he was and he’d hoped, for who he could be to her. At that time, she’d been away for over a year and doing a lot. He could tell that she wasn’t as connected to her former partners as before. He could tell that she cared for him, maybe not as much, but enough for it to matter to her… enough for him to matter, for THEM to MATTER! 

The Super Stay wasn’t around yet, so he had a cabin on the campsite of the shelter he used to bring supplies for (Henry and Jasper’s shelter), and it was cozy and had every amenity needed, but sometimes, he wanted a bath. It was hard to get used to not soaking before he showered, and Charlotte was staying in the fancy place that Mr. Davenport provided, so whenever he’d mentioned this particular inconvenience, she suggested that he could do that at her place. Most of the time, she was either at work or at Henry and Jasper’s (which she was still calling “home” at the time), so she gave him the extra key and told him to make himself comfortable. 

He wasn’t going to impose. He just wanted to soak and think before he showered. Nothing else. Only, whenever he came over to do so, Charlotte was always there, despite having claimed that she was never really there. “Guess I just have bad timing,” he joked.

“Or good timing,” she said, with a bright smile and went to retrieve a pair of pants. She was just wearing panties and a crop top sweatshirt, with her locs tied up in a scarf. She didn’t seem uncomfortable with him seeing her that way, or maybe she presumed that he’d turn his head when he realized that she wasn’t decent… Or maybe, and he didn’t want to presume, but couldn’t help it, maybe she’d wanted him to see her like this. She pulled on the tight fighting, snug leisure pants and headed into her bathroom… where HE was about to go. “So, this is where the towels are,” she told him and he followed her voice, gasped when he saw how wondrous the bathroom looked, before even making it to the walk in linen closet, which was full, not only with towels, but soaps, skin products, dental hygiene supplies, etc, and had a little computer on the side. “This is Madame. If you’ve ever seen the episode of Fly Homes with the Dom, that computer system that he calls Eddy, this is like that, but for here and she isn’t obnoxious. She’ll help you with anything you need to set the tone. Oatmeal, honey, milk, tea, whatever you wanna add to the bath. The pressure of the rinse… All the details. You can program your preferences under your name.” She started showing him how.

It was dope. He stayed for a while, laying in the tub, not realizing how much he’d needed this and also hating the fact that he didn’t have such a fancy set up in his house. He’d have to change that at some point… But, that night, he simply rested and soaked, then showered and whenever he came out, ready to go home, Charlotte was closing her laptop, having just finished all of her assignments, and she smiled at him. “Nightcap?” She wondered. 

Of course he wasn’t going to leave. He didn’t plan on staying all night, but as it turned out, back then, it took less liquor to make her worry about him driving. So, after a few drinks and long conversations about their current projects and stuff, she let him sleep on the couch and she went to bed. 

They had so many nights like that, the first time that he showed up and she in fact wasn’t there, he was sorely disappointed. He went into the bath, put on an eye mask and soaked, steam coming off of everything. 

It was a while before he felt like he heard something and sensed someone there. He pulled off the mask and Charlotte was standing in the doorway, trying to quietly back out. She laughed at herself and shook her head, “Sorry. I didn’t realize that you were in here. I was gonna try to leave unnoticed.”

“No, no… This is your bathroom. Do what ya gotta do.” He put the mask back on and rested against the bath pillow. She bit her lip, but came into the room and sat on the toilet. She turned on some music because, maybe it’d be better if he couldn’t hear her peeing. She noticed his hand tapping the side of the tub to the beat of the music and was relieved when he didn’t react to her extremely loud piss. Like… she was only aware right now how loud it was. Was it ALWAYS that loud? She hugged herself, sighed and let out some gas. She groaned and quickly said, “I am so sorry.” She said it almost under her breath, because finding her voice in the midst of that shame was difficult.

“For being a human with bodily functions?” He asked, from beneath the mask, and then added, “In your own house?”

Usually she’d remind him that this isn’t her house and that whenever her stay here was over the Dom was gonna use it for something else, but that night, she just laughed at herself, cleaned off with the bidet and left the bathroom. 

The next time that they were both there, she was now more comfortable with stepping in on him, since she knew that he didn’t care, and she really wanted to do what she needed to do and get out of there. They bumbled around each other for a while, trying to be polite, but also to hurry. Max had an early morning and had to get to sleep. Charlotte had a date for the first time “in ages” with Henry and Jasper. It was controlled chaos and they laughed their way through it, and moved along.

Only… Charlotte spent the majority of her date thinking about Max and what was happening with them. How comfortable she was getting with someone who wasn’t Henry or Jasper… how… attached she was feeling. Max spent the entire night awake in bed, willing her to be somewhere thinking of him too. That wasn’t to say he believed that could happen, but the possibility of him being the only one who’s night was overtaken by emotions and thoughts just didn’t sit well with him. 

After that… they were solid. Neither of them mentioned it for a time, but Charlotte began to stay home more (calling her Davenport property home, by this time) and he began to stay over a lot. 

Jasper was upset. He didn’t feel like it was appropriate. “This friendship of yours is going too far,” he’d complained. Only to be overruled by Charlotte’s iconic, “You think that’s the farthest that I, of all people, can go?” and Henry quickly smoothed things over with, “I think it’d be cute. One of these days one of us was bound to like somebody else and want to explore. It’s Charlotte, so the most sensible of us and the one with the most moral fiber. That’s a good start for a relationship soft open.”

Soft open. She didn’t know if she liked that description, but further conversation led them to a conversation about opening up their relationship, but only with open communication about it. 

At 21, she didn’t have all of the answers. Even people who lived poly lifestyles and people in open relationships all had their own ways of doing it and she didn’t know which way was right. She was still learning herself at that time and to learn yet ANOTHER man seemed excessive, but it was Max. She knew that things were mutual. She knew that she could do this and she believed that she would enjoy it.

Whenever she next came in to find him in the bath, listening to something vibey - Jhene or Sza or something - eyes shut and head leaned back, she removed what she had on and joined. He stirred, but didn’t visibly panic whenever her toes touched the water. His eyes opened and seeing her settle in, her stared, but didn’t want to ruin whatever was happening, so he didn’t question her and he didn’t say anything. She sorta wished he did, even though she had no explanation for her bold actions. All she did was shift around through the bubbles and find her way to his chest. She laid on him and felt his arms move to wrap her up. He kissed her forehead and they didn’t say anything about it.

When they got out of the bath and he started the shower, she began her skin and hair routine. He got out, teeth were brushed, bodies moisturized, etc. Finally, the silence was broken, when he pointed his thumb and wondered, “Should I go to the couch?” She shook her head, took his hand, and guided him into the bedroom. That was the FIRST night that he slept in her bed.

“I don’t think you’ll end up that way,” Chase broke into his thoughts. “You’re someone who cares about others at this point in your life… I don’t know that I can say Douglas was that way at your age. You turned things around sooner, and made a good difference earlier in life. You’ve got similar feelings about your adolescent stages, but everything else, save maybe poor taste in fashion, is all different. You won’t end up like Douglas. You even have people who love you,” Chase said. He slapped a hand awkwardly on Max’s shoulder, and patted him stiffly. 

“Are you trying to open up to me about your true feelings, Bionic Boy?” 

Chase scoffed and removed his hand, “As if! I wasn’t even entirely genuine! You’re a lot like Douglas and both of you have terrible wardrobe. And feelings? For you? Gross!” Chase’s flustered stammering made Max laugh. But also, Chase was right. The first time. He wouldn’t end up with work friends and a few flings. He’d be happy someday with somebody who loved him and wanted him. Unfortunately, for Max… Charlotte was it.

[bmichael]

“Oh My Gosh”

2020-09-24 2 miles, 8:10 pace

According to SmashRun, this was my fastest 2-mile run in a year. This was by design. It marks day day 44 of a semi-planned 81-day running streak. My current longest run streak is 80 days (for the around the world thing). 81 beats it, and it's also sort of a Kobe thing I guess. (Kobe scored a career high of 81 points against the Raptors in 2006.)

Obviously there are some complicated feelings about Kobe.

So today I was listening to my "Awesome Songs" playlist, really a catch-all of songs I like, updated in semi-real time, over the last decade or two. (Yikes that's a lot of time.) I swear to god, there are like five Hold Steady songs out of like 500 songs, but one always comes up. One did today. ("Your Little Hood Rat Friend")

I usually listen to audiobooks. One(ish) audiobook in particular: The Malazan Book of the Fallen. Give me two hours and I'll just go run an 11-minute pace listening to Malazan as the miles melt away behind me like ice cream on hot pavement.

But I've recently come to think that I'm kind of wasting my runs. No, I'm not in a very well-trained state. When I was really into running, I did a half in 1:53:58 and a 10K in 47:56. Not worldbeater times by any means, but I was in my lower-mid-30s then; I'm in my upper-mid-30s now. And I essentially took two years off during my daughter's first two years of life. Smashrun makes a nice "Trailing 365 day miles" chart that illustrates the rise and fall and optimistic rise again of my running hobby.

Yeah, so the reason why this was a fast run. I usually go on either quite short runs (my rule is one mile counts for one day in the run streak) or pretty long (for me) eight to 12 miles runs. I had made up an informal rule of trying to run 20 miles per week (to achieve an informal goal of running 666 (down from 1,000) miles this year). But I don’t know if it were a new pair of Hokas or too much volume or quarantine pounds, but my lower legs and knees began hurting. I basically only ran seven miles last weekend, and one mile per day the last two days. Today, I wanted to open things up.

~ - ~ - ~ - ~ -

So I always used to get really great ideas when I was running. And at some point, I kind of stopped getting paid to have ideas? Sort of. And now I'd like to try to capture some ideas again. Thus, the ninety-eight-hundredth ressurection of this Tumblog.

LOL, I remember when I was going to review every Miles Davis album on Columbia.

Let me spare you: One can listen infinitely to The Complete Live at the Plugged Nickel and get entirely off for a lifetime. Then again, a lot of times I'm more of a Sketches of Spain type, or if I want to get nothing done I'll put the Cellar Door Sessions on random. That's it. That's all the insight I gleaned from 20 years of listening to Miles.

So yeah I guess this is an attempt to ameliorate that? I don't know. My thoughts are such a storm of constant change these days. Sometimes I feel so centered, but a moment later I realize I was anything but—I've just gotten extremely adroit at glazing over my mental eye and turning off my introspection.

The new Fleet Foxes album got a BNM. Meanwhile, yesterday I realized I hadn't listened to their 2017 album (although I pirated it), Crack-Up. I've actually gotten back onto a Father John Misty kick, which might allow me to back into listening more to Fleet Foxes. (Honeybear is brilliant. Pure Comedy is a complete flop, IMO, which turned me off from him entirely, although I think I understand what he was trying to do, now, I still hate it. God's Favorite Customer is extremely good.)

So of course, since I opened up this Sublime Text instance, I've been listening to Fleet Foxes S/T with the intention of listening to the entire catalog, culminating in the zeitgeisty and newly BNM'd Shore. Of course, I have three hours left, and there's almost no way this will happen. Why do these historical-arc-encompassing but knowling futile gestures appeal to me? It's quite literally reflexive. I'm halfway done with the act before I realize what I did, at which point I know it won't work. This could be said for a lot of things I do.

OK, I've gotten quite far from my very brief 2-mile run this AM.

[kvndeathmusic]

my favorite records of the 2010s pt 1 (the less great stuff/honorable mentions)

Neither this post or its followup are going to be in any particular order, however all the records I talk about here are, in my opinion, not as good as the records i will talk about in my part 2. they’re all fantastic but these ones slightly a little less fantastic than the ones in my “top 10″. none of this is based on stuff like 'influence' or whatever other critics base their lists on, this is solely how much I enjoyed these records. And keep in mind, I'm only human, I havent listened to a good lot of records I've heard others describe as top 10 worthy, these are just records I found and that I resonate with. long post ahead. 

Vacation - Bomb the Music Industry (2011)

If you asked me what my favorite band is i will either say bomb the music industry or jeff rosenstock, but considering those are pretty much the same things it doesnt matter lol. While Vacation isnt a perfect record, it is one I love. It lacks some of the ska elements that I love about earlier BTMI records, but at the same time, it is the first record where Jeff’s “””solo””” career sound starts to form in tracks like Sick, Later, Hurricane Waves, Everybody That You Love, Everybody That Loves You, and Vocal Coach. And these tracks are all fantastic, especially the absolutely explosive opener Campaign For a Better Weekend. Where this album suffers in my mind is the fact that it exists as a weird hybrid middle ground between BTMI and modern Jeff Rosenstock, it isn’t really ska like old BTMI and it’s not quite to the same standard as the tracks on We Cool?. And some of the songs are just, not as good as the others, like Why, Oh Why, Oh Why (Oh Oh Oh Oh), which is washed out almost entirely in reverb, and tracks like Savers feeling barren and missing additional instrumentation. But fuck man I can not dislike this record or just call it “ok” because despite this I still listen to this record a lot, it’s so catchy and fun and Im a bit too chronically addicted to btmi. 

Reflektor - Arcade Fire (2013)

i dont really get the hate/mixed feelings others have with this record. there’s so many good tracks dude!!!! sure theres a bit of a slump in the middle and it doesnt reach the same emotional heights as their previous records you gotta be ignorant to overlook this records strengths. while i do like The Suburbs more than Reflektor, man i just vibe HARD with some of these tracks; the title track, We Exist, Here Comes The Night Time, Normal Person, Awful Sound (Oh Eurydice), Porno, and ESPECIALLY Afterlife. Plus the cover art is cool and I like it. However Flashbulb Eyes is one of the worst tracks Arcade Fire has ever put out and I hate it immensely. And while far less offensive, tracks like You Already Know, It’s Never Over (Hey Orpheus), and Joan of Arc are just kinda boring and/or uninteresting. Now granted, I'm extremely biased when it comes to Arcade fire in general unless were talking about the trainwreck that is Everything Now. I started listening to Arcade Fire just before Reflektor came out, and I have a kinda sentimental attachment to the record. ill explain the feeling more when i talk about The Suburbs. anticipation oooooo.

good kid m.A.A.d city - Kendrick Lamar (2012)

i might get crucified by some for not putting this in my top 10, but whatever come at me i guess. gkmc is a fantastic record, but i do think the ending is weak, which is why it’s here instead of in the top 10. i mean, let’s be real, Real is a mediocre track, and while Dying of Thirst is an important track to the whole narrative of the record, it feels way too long. almost everything else about this record is fantastic, from the beats, to kendrick’s nasally flows, to the overall structure of the record spinning a tale of a young man battling demons both inside and out, and his eventual redemption. even if i find this record at times to drop pace, it really is flawless otherwise. it felt like a disservice to put this in the 20-10s, bc it’s a good record, but i had to make some compromises and this was one of them. 

RTJ2 - Run The Jewels (2014)

el-p and killer mike are a perfect duo, and the tracks they make together are always total bangers. and for me, RTJ2 is the best overall, with RTJ3 in a close second. it’s hard to put this on the lower half of the list, some of the tracks just don’t work as well as the others, but despite that there’s not really any tracks i hate or dislike on this record, minus maybe crown. the pure aggression in the opening track Jeopardy sets the tone for an aggressive yet highly focused record. This is some of the best rap out there right now if you want some music to fuck shit up to. 

Pure Comedy - Father John Misty (2017)

This record is both hilarious and extremely bleak. Josh Tillman is a master of satire and sarcasm, and Pure Comedy is the peak of his songwriting skills. The title track is one of the best tracks of the decade, period. And he keeps up the momentum on the following few tracks. The main problem with this record is its weaker second half, but even then it’s criminal to suggest that those songs aren’t good regardless. And despite the bleakness, the one line that sticks in my head after all this time is the line this album fades out to: There’s nothing to fear.

Knife Man - AJJ (2011)

Continuing on the trend of folky, satirical, and bleak records, Knife Man is AJJ’s defining record (next to their debut LP). AJJ blends loud, punky anthems with quieter, folk tracks that touch on sensitive issues in a way only AJJ manages to get away with. And there’s some genuine heart mixed in as well, with the final track Big Bird always striking a chord with me. However, I do feel the record is, let’s just say, padded at times in my opinion. Still, I can’t deny how much i enjoy tracks like Gift of the Magi 2, Hate Rain on Me, The Distance, and Skate Park. Speaking of which when I saw AJJ live recently they played none of those songs and that kinda sucked but hey it was like $20 I can’t complain. And speaking of not getting what I wanted...

You Won’t Get What You Want - Daughters (2018)

It was hard choosing between this record and their 2010 self titled record, but in terms of the overall narrative and variety this record shines through. If there was a number 11 spot in this unorganized list this would probably take that spot. It’s noisey, it’s abrasive, and it’s like nothing you’ve heard before unless you’ve listened to Daughter’s previous records. Tracks like The Reason They Hate Me are catchy in the weirdest and most unwelcoming of ways, Less Sex sounds like a long lost Trent Reznor NIN track, and Guest House is a masochistic and gut wrenching finisher. Fantastic record aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

We Cool? - Jeff Rosenstock (2015)

It’s obvious that I had to include this record somewhere on these list. It’s like a more refined version of the sounds that Jeff experimented with on Vacation. Definitely more punk than ska, but still some of those roots still shine through, especially in the track Nausea. Some of Jeff’s best songs are on this record, from the loud opening tracks Get Old Forever and You, In Weird Cities, to tracks dripping with bittersweet and moody lyrics like I’m Serious, I’m Sorry and Polar Bear or Africa. The main reason this record is on the back end of the top 20 is because the deeper cuts on the record do not match the energy and heights of the best tracks. Tracks like All Blissed Out, The Lows, Darkness Records and Beers Again Alone don’t feel like they belong and stick out a bit. They remind me more of the material Jeff put out on his 2012 EP I Look Like Shit. Mind you they aren’t bad tracks, but I’ll be honest I skip them often when listening to the record because i just wanna get back to the good good stuff. 

Sports - Modern Baseball (2012)

Sports is one of the best pop punk records ever, if you can even consider it as such. It’s like a blend of emo and folk punk, and it works so well. A good majority of this record is on my main shuffle playlist. Is it pushing boundaries? Not really, but tracks like Re-Do, Tears Over Beers, and See Ya, Sucker are undeniably catchy and memorable. I NEED MODERN BASEBALL BACK TOGETHER RN. There’s not really anything that wrong with the record, besides maybe lacking in variety, but at 30 minutes, it’s a record that feels nostalgic even on a first listen, and continues to feel that way even after numerous re-listens. Speaking of nostalgia...

The Suburbs - Arcade Fire (2010)

Some background, when I was 13 (circa 2013), I only really listened to whatever my parents put on for me. From my mom, I “inherited” a taste for classic pop and 80s new wave. From my dad, I got metal and hard rock. The first time I made the conscious decision to listen to a record fully, based on my own curiousity, was when I sat and listened to Sgt. Pepper in the summer of 2013, which broadened the scope of what I thought music could even be. And later that year, the first band I got into after The Beatles? Arcade Fire. When I think of my early teens, the memories are set to this record. I remember listening to Ready to Start in my brother’s old hot ass car while driving to the local fair with some friends on a chill fall night, eating tons of junk and staying up past midnight back when doing that was edgy and cool and not a symptom of my depression. 

If I was judging this record solely by its best tracks, it would easily be in the top 3. But I couldn’t place it in my top 10 because, frankly, some of the deeper cuts are lacking. I can’t say I like Deep Blue. I really don’t like Rococo. And Half Light I kills the pace of the record. But man, that title track, Ready to Start, Modern Man, Empty Room, Half Light II, Sprawl II... these songs defined my early teen years. I still tear up listening to the title track. Sure I have to skip a few songs when I re-listen, but I can’t place it any lower or my heart will break. It existing outside of the top 10 already hurts. And that’s all that’s left now. The top 10. 

But first, some random honorable mentions that didn’t make this list:

Sound & Color - Alabama Shakes

Black Star - David Bowie

Saturation II - BROCKHAMPTON

Melophobia - Cage the Elephant

Teens of Style - Car Seat Headrest

How to Leave Town - Car Seat Headrest

Daughters - Daughters

Sunbather - Deafheaven

Bottomless Pit - Death Grips

Year of the Snitch - Death Grips (should be on this list tbh)

Doris - Earl Sweatshirt

I Love You, Honeybear - Father John Misty

Helplessness Blues - Fleet Foxes

Plastic Beach - Gorillaz

Boarding House Reach - Jack White

POST- - Jeff Rosenstock

S/T - Joyce Manor

Firepower - Judas Priest

ye - Kanye West

KIDS SEE GHOSTS - KSG

You Were There - Kill Lincoln

Flying Microtonal Banana - King Gizzard

Infest The Rats’ Nest - King Gizzard

No New World - Mass of the Fermenting Dregs

Bury Me At Makeout Creek - Mitski

Puberty 2 - Mitski

Unsilent Death - Nails

Itekoma Hits - Otoboke Beaver

Morbid Stuff - PUP

A Moon Shaped Pool - Radiohead

RTJ3 - Run the Jewels

Angles - The Strokes

To Be Kind - Swans

Undertale OST - Toby Fox

Scum Fuck Flower Boy - Tyler, The Creator 

Igor - Tyler, The Creator

Weezer (White Album) - Weezer

nightlife - yuragi

[adotblog]

Brave Part 12

Pairing: LMM x Reader

Requested: If you’ve got to Part 12, you’ll have realised this is straight-up self-indulgence!

Summary: In which saying “I love you” is still very novel. 

Warnings: Smut. 18+ readers only. Cursing. So fluffy you may puke. I warned you.

Words: 3911 (what the hell?)

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@lin_manuel

Take the bull by the horns!

Carpe diem!

Other metaphors!

Tell them you love them, what’s the worst that could happen?

G’night

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@ytwitterhandle @lin_manuel

*ticks item off list*

@lin_manuel @ytwitterhandle

*says it again*

@ytwitterhandle @lin_manuel

Dork.

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Friday

Lin: I am a whole room away and all I hear is your phone pinging, have you gone viral with something lol?

You: Uhh no…that’s Jas…I told her that I’m in love with you.

You: I’ll turn it to silent lol

Lin pushes the door open, walks over to your chair and kisses you long and hard. “You’re in love with me?”, he asks, exaggeratedly cocking his head to the side. You roll your eyes. “Lin, stop while it’s still vaguely cute. Yes I’m in love with you”. He grins. “I’m so in love with you”, he says. “Get back to writing, lover boy”, you say as your phone pings incessantly. You click it to silent as Lin goes back to his study.

Jasmine: He said he loves you?!

You: Yup. Kinda slipped out.

Jasmine: like…in the sack? Because, girl…

You: HA! No, when I told him I made him a mixtape.

Jasmine: Good LORD you two are such nerds.

Jasmine: You love him too?

You: I do, I’m madly in love with him. I tried not to be, but I am.

Jasmine: I’m just gonna skip by the ‘tried not to be’ part, that’s a whole n’other conversation. Boo, I’m happy for you…honestly, I thought y’all were just doin it!!

You: Ha, well that too, but…yeah.

Jasmine: I gotta go to costumes, see you later?

You: At 6 xx

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Friday and Saturday feel like they’re on fast forward-Lin has lots of tv and radio stuff, you are super-busy with work. You see Jasmine for lunch and you actually sleep alone in your own bed. For one night. Sunday, day of rest, is a blissful reprieve.

“Lin?”, you murmur into your pillow. “Yeah?”, he responds lazily, honey-sweet voice drawing out the word. “When is that writing retreat thing? With Quiara?”, you ask. “Umm, this Friday through Sunday, why?”, he asks. “Hmm, Jas wanted to go to a show on Sunday. Might skip it if it’s your first night back”, you say teasingly. “Ha, well much as I’d like a welcome party…”, he pulls you closer, arm tight to your waist, “You should go.”. “Mmhmm”, you sigh contentedly. “Is it possible to get bored of just endlessly lying here?”, you wonder out loud. “Not so far”, he responds, his fingers grazing your thigh.

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“FOOD!”, you holler as you come through the door. Three people instantly appear in the green room. “Jeez, did you teleport?”, you joke. “It’s Wednesday, two shows today-you always bring snacks on two-show days.”, says an intern. You laugh as you wrap a pastry in a napkin. “And then you always take one and go straight to Lin’s dressing room”, teases Clare, who has seemingly materialised behind you. “Am i so predictable?”, you laugh. Clare looks at the napkin in your hand, then back up to your face. “Yeah, alright.”, you concur.

Lin is still in his #yayhamlet tshirt and jeans when you arrive. “Hey!”, he greets you with a kiss. “Rugelach!”, you say, indicating the napkin you’ve placed on his vanity. “Gesundheit!”, he responds. “Dad Joke.”, you groan. Lin shrugs, he’s grinning-unreasonably happy for a busy day. “What’s up?”, you question as you curl up on his couch. “So I’m supposed to be doing the writing retreat with Quiara tomorrow…”, he says as he comes to sit next to you. “Supposed to be?”, you ask. “Yeah, she’s sick.”, he answers. “Oh no, so you have to cancel?”.

“Well here’s the thing. It’s paid for-the house, it’s non-refundable.”, he says with a twinkle in his eye. “Okay…”, you say, not quite sure what he’s getting at. “So, do you want to come? Pretend to be a writer and have lots of sex at the beach?”, he asks with a grin. “Oh! Wow, umm, yes?”, you say warily. “Sorry, my mind is racing-am I working? No, only Saturday. I’ll need to pack. How cold will it be? Where are all my hats?!”

Lin’s eyes are wide as he laughs “Woah, chill, chill!”. You sock him in the arm. “Shut up! Love me, love my crazy brain!”, you laugh. “I suppose”, he mock-sighs, before kissing you lightly. “For real, do you wanna take a trip?”. “So long as I can swap days with Clare or Anika, sure!”, you say excitedly. “Go check!”, he insists, practically pushing you out of the door.

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Lin squishes your suitcase into the trunk and slams the lid down. “So that went well…”, he says as he climbs into the drivers seat beside you. “Oh, you mean the ‘impromptu’ meeting of your parents just then? That was, I assume, not at all planned?”, you cross your arms and throw major side-eye his way. “We are borrowing my Dad’s car, it was only polite to stop and say hello…”, he says with a wicked smile. “Ugh. Sneaky. But yes I think it went well”, you admit. “It did, Pa whispers to me on the way out ‘She’s a keeper!’”, he giggles. “No, really?! Yay!”, you do a little victory dance in your seat.

”Alright, ready to go?”, Lin asks. “Yup, I got snacks, water and a kick-ass playlist”, you confirm. He gives you a withering look. “As if you’re the DJ”, he scoffs. “But you need to concentrate on the road”, you say innocently. Lin rolls his eyes “It’s gonna be a long drive, isn’t it?”, he moans.

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“We need to do more roadtripping”, you say, twisting in your seat to curl up a little, facing Lin and close enough to reach out and tuck a stray hair behind his ear. He smiles at your touch. “Really, I have loved listening to your stories”, you say, leaning your head against the seat. Lin cringes “I haven’t really let you get a word in edgeways have I?”, he asks. “Nah, but it’s okay. I like learning stuff about you.”, you say contentedly. “Well then I should be learning stuff about you too.”, he decides. “Okay I’m gonna choose a topic…umm…why do you work in theatre?”, he asks.

“Honestly, it was an accident.”, you admit. “I was here for college, I needed a job when I graduated. My friend recommended me to a stage manager off-broadway and I accidentally fell into something I’m good at”. Lin just nods so you continue. “It wasn’t planned but honestly, I’ve never known what I wanted to do-I wish I were like you, with a calling in life, a god-honest talent and vocation. But it just never happened.”.

“Maybe that’s not what your life is meant to be about.”, he says. His eyes are fixed on the road but he reaches out a hand to rest on your knee. “Your thing is people, I think. The thing you’re gonna leave behind is how you make people feel about themselves”. You feel a prickle behind your eyes “Lin! That is such a sweet thing to say”. “It’s true, it’s what? 8 months since you walked into the theatre? I’ve seen you mentoring the interns, bonding with the ladies, picking on Groff”, he laughs. “You always find a way to build them up. I hear you say things that the rest of us neglect-you thank people for things that people don’t thank people for. You ease nerves, you give outstanding hugs. When you compliment people, you have a special tone to your voice, even and restrained-it oozes sincerity, it makes people feel valued. People are going to remember how you made them feel.”.

He takes his eyes off the road for just a second to give you a soft, sincere smile. “Well, fuck, that was lovely.”, you say, a little misty. “Just being honest”, he shrugs “Also, case in point, *you* would make sure to tell someone that about themselves-so you deserve to hear it too”. He gives your knee a squeeze and you drive in silence for a bit.

“I’ve never met anyone like you.”, you say. “You’re so…open. You give so much of yourself away freely…isn’t it exhausting?”. He snickers and shrugs “I don’t know another way to be.”, he says simply. “Doesn’t it open you up to getting hurt?”, you ask. “I guess, but doesn’t it also let amazing things in? Like you?”, he answers. “I’m only sorry that I was so cautious for the first few months I knew you-all that wasted time!”.

“Nah, we needed that-to build a friendship, and to get past the ‘Oh I’m sure it’s a fleeting crush’ assumption”, you say. “It is what it is, I couldn’t be happier with how things have turned out.”, you smile. “Me too. Alright look, enough sappy fawning over one another, get your allegedly awesome playlist on”, Lin jokes. “Allegedly? How rude. You’re going to love it”, you threaten as you hit shuffle.

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You glare at the GPS, willing it to make more sense, as Lin slows to a crawl to read the weather-beaten wooden signs which each point the way to one of the houses scattered along the beach. “Here!”, he announces after a minute or so. He pulls down the sandy track that leads to a covered parking space at the back of the house.

“Are you kidding me, this place is GORGEOUS!”, you squeal as he parks. “How did you even manage to get this place?”, you ask. “Winter-no one wants to be at the beach when it’s cold I guess”, Lin says. “Forget the cases, let’s explore!”, you say as he goes to open the trunk. You run to the door and wait for Lin to join you with the code for the key lock. He gets it on the second attempt and you rush through the door.

“Holy shit.”, you are stopped in your tracks by the view. The whole of the front wall of the living room you’ve entered is glass, giving a stunning panorama of the deserted beach. “LIN.”

“I know.”, he smiles. “Wait til you see the bathroom…”. You screw up your nose. “The bathroom? Why?”, you ask. “You’ll see.”, he says mysteriously. “Go explore, I’ll get the cases.”. You don’t hesitate, running down the long hall and picking a door to open. It’s the master bedroom, cosy but with a four poster bed in the middle of the room. There are double doors that lead outside and give another stunning beach view. There’s another door which you assume leads to the bathroom Lin thinks you’re going to be hyped about. You push it open and immediately see what he meant-there’s a huge corner tub. HUGE. Wait…

Lin appears in the doorway. “Pretty cool huh?”, he says. “Lin. Is that. A hot tub?”, you say. He walks up to you and wraps his arms around you. “Yup. I was looking forward to having it to myself, but I guess you could maybe join me…”, he jokes as he kisses the side of your neck. “Holy shit. I’m gonna need a minute, my brain is thinking all of the sexy thoughts concurrently”, you say jokingly. Lin says nothing. His mouth moves against your neck, his lips brushing against your skin just gently enough to send prickling shivers through you. “Lin…come on”, you protest half-heartedly.

“What?”, his tone is innocent, even as his hands wander down your body. “Shouldn’t we unpack or start on…Ohhhhhh”, your thought is unfinished as Lin’s hand slides inside the front of your jeans as he pushes his groin into your ass. He removes his hand and, placing it on your hip, turns you to face him. Your arms are at his waist as he lowers his face to yours. He stops millimetres from your lips and whispers “You’re right, lets unpack”, turning on his heel and returning to the bedroom-leaving you a mess of sexual tension. “Lin!!”

You head after him and see him walking calmly, leisurely back to the living area, taking a seat at the kitchen table. You walk over to stand beside him, hands on your hips. “Lin-Manuel, I’ve said it before-you are a fucking tease.”. He grins up at you ‘Yup.”, he acknowledges with a cheeky cock of his head. “But I mean just look at you, all flustered and worked up now…”, he says, his voice now husky. “Lin, you’re an idiot.”, you say, laughing. You pull him up to standing and press your chest against his. “You don’t have to tease to get me worked up, I already want you like…ALL the time.”, you explain. He chuckles. “ALL the time?!”. “I mean, I have to clear space for eating and working but yeah, I’m pretty much thinking about fucking you for a large portion of my day.”, you say as you go to kiss him. He raises his eyebrows. “Oh please, like you don’t know how hot you are”, you respond. He pretends to think for a second, “Yeah, you’re right”, he says. “UGH. Would you shut up and fuck me now please?”, you say as you pull his hips against yours. “Yes Ma’am”, he whispers as he brings his mouth to yours.

He kisses you hungrily and you reciprocate, unable to get enough of him. Overwhelmed with need, you pull him closer by the collar of his shirt, butterflies in your stomach as he bites gently at your neck. You gasp as he roughly grabs your breasts.

He lifts your shirt up and you pull it over your head, dropping it behind you. His lips are on your stomach immediately, frenzied kisses laid all across you. He unbuttons your jeans and yanks them down. You step out of them and kick them aside.

Lin already has his hands on your ass cheeks, pulling you back to him. He strokes you roughly over your underwear, hears you gasp and quickly starts to remove his own clothing. You unclasp your bra as he discards his jeans, comes back to you and pulls down your panties. His hands slide up your back as he kisses your neck and mumbles “I need you now, all of you…now”.

You pull his face back to yours, your tongue is in his mouth, your hands in his hair. You break away to hop up on the table, perching right on the edge. Lin comes to stand between your legs and as he kisses you, you take his length in your hand and stroke him. He moans against your mouth as you guide him into you, and you gasp as he buries himself inside you.

You keep kissing him as he lays his palm flat against your back to hold you in place as he starts to thrust up into you. You throw your arms around his neck and find yourself gripping his hair as he drives into you, each movement filling you completely. This is it, like a drug that you crave, that feeling of him stretching you, of your bodies joining. You bring one hand down to his ass, holding him closer still as he enters you over and over.

The pace is fast, not too hard. He’s not hitting that particular spot that drives you crazy but you don’t care-all you could think about was having him inside you, the need so strong. He moves to bury his face into your neck, his cursing indicating that he’s closing in on his orgasm. He tightens his grip on your back as he pounds his last few thrusts home and pants exclamations into your shoulder as he cums.

You wrap your arms around him as he comes down, dotting the occasional kiss on his neck. When his breathing has returned to normal he slowly untangles himself from you. He places a kiss on your forehead. “I feel bad that I didn’t make you cum, I just couldn’t hold back”, he says apologetically. “Don’t ever hold back.”, you scold. You kiss him softly, then bite his lip gently. “I’m perfectly satisfied.”, you say. “Besides, you can repay your debt later”, you wink. “Count on it”, he says in your ear as he wraps his arms around you and lifts you down from the table.

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You’re almost done unpacking when there’s a knock at the door. You open it to see an older lady, clutching a bottle. She offers a warm smile as you say hello. “Good afternoon dear, I’m the housekeeper-don’t worry, I won’t be interrupting your vacation-the owners just asked me to drop this champagne off and tell you a couple of things.”. Lin appears beside you as you say “Please, come in-coffee? Or champagne?”, you offer as you accept the bottle from her. “Bless you, coffee would be lovely.”, she answers as you take a seat in the living room while Lin finds pods for the coffee maker.

She tells you which restaurants are still open and explains that most amenities have closed for the season but the village store a mile away has all the basics. All the other houses are empty for now, so she leaves you emergency phone numbers for herself and the owners since you’ll be pretty isolated. She tells you to cut the last of the roses from the small garden to the side of the house “Nothing worse than wasting beautiful flowers!”, she insists. She’s thoroughly charming and you both pass a comfortable hour chatting to her before she says she needs to get back to her family. Lin offers to drive her home but she insists that the ocean air will do her good and trots off into the distance with determination.

“Jesus, she made me feel positively whimsical!”, you grin as you watch her disappear over the sands. “Man, there is someone who knows what they want from life and just lives it simply.”, Lin shakes his head as you both return to the table “Imagine being that together”, you laugh ruefully. “Aaaaanyway, most important thing is…she told us we’re alone. Like, we could dance around naked on the beach if we want to”, he raises an eyebrow. “Cálmate, Miranda. 1-It’s COLD. 2-If I dance naked on the beach, nearby whales and porpoises will think it’s a mating ritual performed by one of their own and we’ll need a Greenpeace team to deal with the sheer numbers beached”, you laugh as Lin nearly spits his coffee.

“Ok that was hilarious but I dislike the premise that you dancing naked would be anything other than delightful.”, he says-still giggling, but also running an appraising gaze over your form. “Neeeeeever gonna happen.”, you say. “Psssh, Alright.”, he relents “But I think there’s one winter beach activity we can agree on”. “Oh yeah, what’s that?”, you ask. “Fire, marshmallows”, he says. “That’s more like it!!”, you agree. “Alright, soon as it’s dark, man make fire!”, Lin growls as he puffs out his chest. “Dork.”, you say as you lean in to kiss him. “You love me”, he shrugs as he tilts your head back, his lips meeting yours.

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“Tea at Buckingham Palace with the actual queen?”, Lin asks “Nope”, you answer. “AND Tom Hiddleston is there.”, he adds. “Damn, that does sweeten the deal…but no. This is still better.”, you say. The fire is roaring, the three blankets you are sitting on and wrapped in are soft. As the sun paints the sky in hues of crimson and gold, Lin wraps an arm around you and kisses your temple. “Honestly, this setting is the most ridiculously romantic thing that has ever occurred in the history of ever.” you say. “It’s so perfect I could almost feel nauseous. If I weren’t ABSOLUTELY MOTHERFUCKING FREEZING!!”

Lin laughs before he grimaces and tries to pull his blanket up over his nose. His voice is muffled by wool but you make out “freeze my god damn balls off” somewhere in there. “Alright, let’s toast these marshmallows as quickly as humanly possible.”, you say with grim determination. Lin pulls his blanket down, steels himself and makes a run for the porch, retrieving the bag of marshmallows and skewers before running back and standing as close as humanly possible to the fire.

You get up to join him and curse at the chill in the air. The fire is wonderful but it has that unfortunate effect that fires do-leaving you with a reddened, scorching hot face, while your feet remain ice-cold. Still it is nice to just twirl your marshmallows over the heat, standing shoulder to shoulder and watching the sun dip under the horizon. As you peel of layers of toasty marshmallow and lick them from your fingers, you close your eyes and listen to the ocean.

Suddenly your eyes snap open. “Wait, are we allowed to light a fire here? If it’s dry won’t we cause wildfire?”, you say panicked. “Y/N, don’t be ridiculous-we’re putting it out. Do you ever just enjoy the moment without overthinking?” Lin asks, slightly exasperated. “Sometimes.”, you answer honestly. “I’m anxious-love me, love my crazy brain, remember?”, you almost plead, the fear that he’ll get tired of it all is still never far away. Lin sighs. “I do love you, Crazy Brain”, he says. He throws a bucket of water on the fire. “Let’s get in the warm and make you RELAX”, he says. You make a run for the porch.

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“Are you naked yet?” Lin shouts from the bathroom. You laugh and shout back “That’s about as romantic as the sunset-in-Antartica situation we had out there!”. His head appears around the door. “You are so dramatic.”, he chides. You raise an eyebrow. “Miranda…”, you warn. “Yeah, yeah, whatever. You’re not naked.”. “It’s too cold!”, you complain as you take his outstretched hand. He pulls you to his side and walks you into the bathroom, which kinda smells like…Christmas?

Lin sees your nose wrinkle. “Shut up, I found some kinda candle, I lit it…”, he shrugs. He points to indicate the huge robe you took from the wardrobe and tied around you. “Naked.”, he says.

The hot tub is throwing up plumes of steam and looks invitingly warm. You pull the robe off, rush past Lin and quickly get in. “Ohhhhhhhhh my god”, you groan, blissfully warm for the first time in hours. He strips off his clothing and practically leaps in beside you, causing a mini-tidal wave. You squeal as he pulls you into his lap. You wrap your arms around his neck as his espresso-dark eyes meet yours and he sighs contentedly. “I love you.”, you say. “Love you too”, he responds and presses his lips to yours.

“Feeling relaxed?”, he asks as he lazily moves his kisses to your neck. “Mmhmm. Very.”. “”Good.”, he whispers between kisses. You slide off his lap to sink into the warm water, low enough that it covers your shoulders. The faint flame from the candle reflects in the window, the beach lit only by moonlight. The waves lap at the sand and though you can’t hear it, you imagine the sound of the gentle crashes and swells.

Lin turns his head to look at you. Beneath the surface of the water, he takes your hand. You both lay there, lulled by the hypnotic motion of the sea. The only sound is the two of you, just breathing.

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[astarfilledsea]

tagged by @gayjakegyllenhaal / thank you lovely!

rules: answer 17 questions and tag 17 people you want to get to know better:

nickname: kristi is just a shorten version of my name lol but kristi is ok, k is ok too, i like k

zodiac sign: leo

height: 5′........i’m v short ok

hogwarts house: hufflepuff 10000000000000%

last thing I googled: coqui frog / to show my sis

song stuck in my head: rn? fourth of july - fall out boy

following: 830 lol i need to trim more, a lot are probs v old blogs

followers: 2214 but like.....y’all here for the rw content so i guess thats why

amount of sleep I get: oh god.........6 is like my baseline which is probably bad but, if i get that enough, i’m ok. 7 is nice, 8 is if i keep going back to sleep but that’s if i can get myself to sleep that extra. and now with my schedule changing, if i can get zzz’s then i’ll get as many as i can get. 

lucky number: 3

wearing: an old teal 2015 wdw tshirt, purple and white tie dye shorts, cozy mexican food fuzzy blanket :))

favorite songs: p much been listening to my pynch playlist which has a bunch of tracks, deliverance - ry x / things are better - pvris / o i long to feel your arms around me - father john misty

random fact: I uhhhhhh i accidentally fell asleep last night with a candle burning and woke up and was like oh shit! and blew it out. the candle is well almost done but like still has a bit more to go but lol..........oops.

instruments: back in the k child days, i played the flute. i don’t play anymore.

tagging whoever wants to give a shot!

[born2fart]

Tagged by @Skylotic

rules: put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs

oh god my playlist is 5 years old and has too many songs

Shether by Remy Ma

Krokodil by St. Vincent

All Night by Chance the Rapper

Gemini by the Alabama Shakes

La Isla Bonita by Madonna

See the Leaves by The Flaming Lips

Real Love Baby by Father John Misty

400 Lux by Lorde

X by 21 Savage (i’m basic i’m sorry)

Warm Blood by Carly Rae Jepson

Rules: answer all questions, add one question of your own and tag as many people as there are questions

coke or pepsi: coke

disney or dreamworks: Disney

coffee or tea: coffee 

books or movies: Movies

windows or mac: Windows b/c i can’t be bothered to use mac

dc or marvel: none superheroes are overplayed and trite

x-box or playstation: Playstation b/c i don’t hate myself

dragon age or mass effect: Dragon Age b/c i like dragonz

night owl or early riser: i love night

cards or chess: cards b/c chess is for fucken nerdz

chocolate or vanilla: vanilla

vans or converse: i own both but i’d say vans

Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar:  cadash b/c it makes me think of cash

fluff or angst: fluff?? i guess??

beach or forest: Beach

dogs or cats: doggos

clear skies or rain: fucken drench me in that sky water

cooking or eating out: i like to cook, but i don’t do it much

spicy food or mild food: Spicy, i’m not weak

halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: halloween my guy

would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: lil’ too cold so i can wear nice sweaters/jackets

if you could have a superpower, what would it be: the ability to manipulate probability.

animation or live action: live action

paragon or renegade: renegade b/c of fable

baths or showers: showerz

team cap or team ironman: I’m sorry, whom?

fantasy or sci-fi: Fantasy

do you have three or four favorite quotes, if so what are they: no

youtube or netflix: YouTube

harry potter or percy jackson: Harry Potter

when you feel accomplished: when people give me affirmations

star wars or star trek: star trek for my girl Uhura

paperback books or hardback books: Hardback

to live in a world without literature or without music?: Literature I guess?

who was the last person to make you laugh?:  myself

which is better: sour or sweet candy?: sweet

do you believe in aliens?: i mean, there’s probably stuff in space

dawn or dusk?: dusk

piercings or tattoos?: i don’t have a preference, but i see myself with a tattoo more than a piercing

girls? HOT?????: girls are def hot

snow or fog?: fog good

do you sleep facing the wall or the room?: ?? my bed is in the middle of my room

TRC or AFTG?: ?????

horror or drama? shit dude, give me a well written, suspenseful horror movie and i will bust a nut right then and there

ocarina of time or majora’s mask?: majora’s mask b/c i love anxiety and moons

would you rather live in an area of more nature or city?: city, fuck nature and people who live in it

what’s your addiction right now? can be from a tv series to a video game? nothing brings me pleasure anymore

hisoka, chrollo, or illumi?: Hisoka is that clown child from that anime

+ movie that left an impression on you?: La Passion de Jeanne d’Arc

Conquest or Birthright?: Fire Emblem mobile

Tobiko or ikura?: they literally look the same on google images so both

What’s one thing you’ve been wanting to make?: i wanna make a Princesstarte cake so bad, but it takes 2 hours and i don’t have the time right now

and i tag no one lol