#missed tumblr though my og favorite social media

[apositives]

rises from the dead

[marriedtoadisneyaddict]

Hi everyone, we’re Matt and Krystle and were so excited to get started here on Tumblr! Married to A Disney Addict is our Disney fan community and we wanted to invite all of YOU to be part of our Ohana! So we figured what better place to start than the beginning. We really want this to feel like a family community and the best way we can think of helping to create that sort of feeling is dedicating our first blog post to the story of us so you can all get to know us a little better.

My name is Matt. I was born and raised on the Jersey shore to a large Italian family (yes, we all met at Grandma's every Sunday for dinner). Growing up, my family was never that into traveling, we'd visit a few places once in a while, but we tended to just go to the beach. My parents did take us to Disney World twice growing up and we found it fun, but honestly it never really was our "thing." Meanwhile, in northern NJ, Krystle was living the opposite life...the DISNEY life. Her parents and younger brother frequently visited Disney and it dominated their travel expereince. I imagine her childhood bedroom filled with stuffed Disney dolls, posters of her favorite Disney movie on the walls, and Mickey Ears everywhere (she confirms this was basically true).

In September of 2007, Krystle and I met at a concert while attending Kean University. We quickly fell for each other and before we knew it, we were dating. Krystle quickly began talking about how much she loved Disney, but that her family hadn't been in a couple years. That's when I knew what to do. I visited a travel agent and booked a Disney vacation for our 1 year anniversary. She cried when I told here we were going and seeing just how happy she was in Disney made me start to grow to love the magic of WDW.

It was obvious that she was the one and before I knew it I had an engagement ring stored in a safe at my parents house. She had always told me of ther dream of getting engaged in Disney with her family, so I knew I had to wait a little while to make that dream come true. The trip finally arrived in the Summer of 2009 and I'll just say, while riding Tower of Terror with the most expensive thing you have ever purchased in your pocket is a little nerve racking, seeing her face as I proposed in front of the castle was the best day of my life (until we got married...and then had Lincoln...and the.man Landry). Our wedding, while not overboard, was definitley Disney inspired (we had Fast Pass tickets as the table numbers and a Mickey ears cake topper to name a few) and of course we had to honeymoon at WDW (although she did let me take her to Aruba a couple months later).

Ever since our first year anniversary and first trip to WDW together, we have been fortunate enough to go almost at least once a year. We may have missed one or two (especially during the pandemic), but we also threw in a couple multi-trip years to make up for it lol. We have occassionally gone just the two (three) of us, but we mostly travel with Krystle's family who purchased Disney Vaction Club (DVC) shortly after we met. Up until this point though, Disney was still definetly Krystle's "thing" as I mostly enjoyed going becuase of how happy it made her.

About 7 years ago I started an Instagram account called "married to a disney addict" as a bit of a joke to both document our Disney adventures and to share my "pain" as Krystle dragged me to another visit to hot and humid Florida and the Mouse House. It was fun to intereact with others who also had a significant other who was more into Disney than they were, but we all seemed to share 2 things in common. 1) We loved how much our partners loved Disney and 2) we all seemed to be turning into bigger and bigger Disney fans ourselves (why else would I have created a social media account basically dedicated to it)?

While we still refer to Krystle as the "OG Disney addict," the truth is I started giving her a run for her money about 5years ago. Not only was I simply enjoying Disney more myself, but on May 20, 2017, our son Lincoln was born. I had always said that I wanted to wait until our kids were about 5 until we brought them to WDW...Lincoln went for the first time at 15 months (well technically the baby bump went too), and then 3 more times within a 1 year period! After seeing how he literaly ran to Mickey on his first trip and how much he loved being there (yes, even at just 15 months old), I knew I was stuck. I would never, not love Disney. On his very first trip, we bought into DVC for ourselves to ensure we could always bring him back. I started to enjoy Disney more and more for myself and well, now here we are... both of us able to say that we are "Married to a Disney Addict."

Thanks for reading along and we hope everyone will follow along with the fun and become part of our Ohana! We invite all of you also join us on IG and FB (@marriedtoadisneyaddict) and on our website marriedtoadisneyaddict.com!

See Ya Real Soon,

Matt and Krystle

http://marriedtoadisneyaddict.com

[tippenfunkaport]

My Top Ten Favorite Glimbow Week Fics (Not Written by Me)

It's been a month since Glimbow Week @glimbow-week-2020​ and I have read every single fic for both the countdown and week itself so you don't have to! (I'm kidding, you still do have to! Go appreciate everyone's hard work!) All of the Glimbow Week fics are listed here, BTW, if you too would like to read them all!

But there are a lot of new fics and it's kind of overwhelming so I thought it might be nice to do a Top Ten of my favorite fics to give you a place to start.

And now, in no particular order...

My Top Ten Favorite Glimbow Week Fics (Not Written by Me)

(Because, uh, a lot of them were written by me.)

Come with me by caramelaire  

I am obsessed with this one. OBSESSED. This is how Cara and I became friends because I read this and was just like, "Cara, Horde Bow." and she was like "Yup." and then I'd dm her again the next day like, "Horde Bowwwwwwww." He lives in my head rent free. It's just such a cool take on Bow and Glimmer's dynamic and I think about it constantly and I hope we get more someday!

two slow dancers by glimbows

This is one of my favorite Season 4 Missing Scene fics, set at Glimmer's coronation. Aunt Casta and Bow's dads are trying to play matchmaker, Sea Hawk has a near death experience, Glimmer is sad and then there is mutual pining goodness. Love this one!

Glimmerella by  brightmoonprincess

This one is cute and silly but has a lot of laugh out loud moments and I find myself thinking of it randomly even though I read it ages ago which is always the sign of something good!

Sick of Losing Soulmates by caramelaire

When the list of prompts came out I said I did not vibe with Soulmates and would skip that one for sure because it was not my thing. Then this fic came along where Adora and Catra make their friends Bow and Glimmer participate in an experiment where they have to kiss a stranger and they realize they are soulmates and I loved it!

Re-Princess Prom by StarcastNight

I loved the concept behind this one which is that there was Princess Prom do-over sometime during Season 4 and Glimmer went with a badass punk princess who seemed like her type and Bow had some FEELINGS about THAT which always makes for quality pining content

ghost of you by caramelaire

This one is angsty and painful but in a good way (though TW: for thoughts of suicide) and is Glimmer just having an absolute breakdown after Adora and Bow leave for Beast Island during Season 4

In Our Bedroom After the War by Betterzoid

This is a really sweet post war fic that actually functions as a sequel to the one listed above it (there's also really nice art for it) of Glimmer and Bow coming back after the fall of Horde Prime and dealing with the past and future.

perhaps we were friends first  by  unbelievably62 

This is a catch all collection for all of  unbelievably62's Glimbow Week fics and I really liked two of them especially, Princess Prom (A future Princess Prom and Glimmer is being jealous again... but this time in a sexy way?) and Family Reactions (Aunt Casta is the OG Glimbow shipper and is awkward about it).

Invisible Wall by EleenaDume

This is a sweet but sad missing scene fic set after Boys Night Out where Glimmer and Bow's relationship is a mess.

Glimbowweek Fall 2020 by HaroThar

This is also a catch-all of all of HaroThar's fics and I particularly loved the Horde Glimmer one because it had the new (to me anyway) twist of the Horde having landed in Bright Moon from the start instead of Scorpia's kingdom and I like the ways that changes the dynamic between the characters and also the Fright Zone itself. 

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I’m not sure of everyone’s Tumblr handles but the ones I know for sure are @caramelaire  @gllimbow @brightmoonprincess @i-just-love-spop @haro-ra @notlighthope @klingonne

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So the part that stinks about doing a top ten list is that there are SO MANY amazing writers that participated in this week and I know I didn't list everyone so I have to offer the following disclaimer that this is just one Tippen's opinion from the running list I kept of my favorites as I was reading through the collection. In general, we share a lot of posts on this website about how we should be giving fic writers more exposure and reblogs but I think one of the absolute best things you can do for a fic writer you enjoy is just recommend their stuff on your own blogs and social media sites and so that's why I wanted to make sure I highlighted my favorites from this collection.

There was also a TON of really great art but I can't think of how to showcase that so you'll just have to go check it out on the Glimbow Week page.

A big thank you again to everyone who participated! I got so spoiled in September with all the new Glimbow content and now I miss it!

[ikdrama]

≫❥ hi, hope everyone's doing good. so um i've been inactive on tumblr for a long time for many reasons; whether it was 'cause of losing interests, life getting in the way, etc. i neglected this blog and kept leaving and coming back. i've been on this platform for years now and kept switching between other platforms for the times i've been mia on here. i've tried out instagram, then came back to tumblr, but switched again. i changed between interests—from photo editing to gif making to graphic design to video editing and now back to using photoshop again for making gifs, hopefully. for topics from kdramas to kpop to western back to kdramas, etc.

≫❥ however, i feel like tumblr still holds a space in my heart closer to home unlike instagram. perhaps because it's where i initially started out that i grew more attached to this platform. also maybe i'm getting older and most people on here are the og ones, they're more at the same age range as me, unlike instagram. age has never been an issue to me, i have friends who are much younger than me and those who are older (but mostly young ones) and they all are very dear to me. but i guess i just needed some friends with a closer age range too.

≫❥ i have made some lovely friends on here and i'm forever grateful for those sweet times. however, over the years when i abruptly left tumblr, i had also lost touch with them. so, i might have no friends left on here which saddens me a little but that's all on me and it's okay, i can always try getting in touch with them again, right ? but i'd love to make new friends and reunite with my old ones, so please feel free to message me anytime you wanna be friends, my dms and askbox are always open <3 (doubt anyone's reading this at all lol but it's worth the try i guess heh).

≫❥ anyways, what i'm saying is, i'm coming back this time for real, or at least try making a better effort into taking good care of this blog. i used to be a content maker (mostly creating gifs) but stopped at some point and only rb posts now. frankly, over the time dramas would have a less impact on me, i wouldn't be as much interested in them as before and switched interests but then again came back to them, just now i'm not up-to-date with the on-air ones, i would watch a drama that i find being interested in, so it's random and inconsistent, i don't watch a lot of dramas like i used to (surely my list of watched dramas became quite poor too oof). but i do watch some every once in a while when i find the time and am in the mood for it. my personal favorite genres nowadays are thriller/action/fantasy/comedy dramas with slight romance (teenage romance makes me cringe now when watching those, idk maybe i'm just getting old lol).

≫❥ but another reason to why i stopped creating content was also because i was too focused on whether my post reaches a wider range of audience ? i would get scared it wouldn't get much attention compared to the time and effort i would give into working on my original content. surely, this would bring the content creator down but at the end of the day i chose to be here because i find joy in making the content i wish the world to see and it's still okay if the whole world wouldn't see it as long as i shared it on my blog and me myself am satisfied with what i'm posting. this applied to all the platforms i would use as a content creator. so, one day i just stopped looking at the numbers. and my mind was much more at ease. now every time a post of mine blows up or it would get more recognition than usual, it would make me happy inside and i would be grateful but on the other hand if it would flop, i wouldn't care anyway and still be okay. and why is that ? well, that's because life comes in the way. other things happening irl outside of social media would keep my mind busier than having myself wasting my time by sulking over some digital numbers online. and i guess that's when one's perspective on wanting to gain more recognition on social media changes.

≫❥ anyways, i went a little off topic there heh. so, my blog would mostly consist of the dramas i've already watched or the ones on my watch list or if i find a pretty gifset, i'd rb it too :) i'm rambling on for too long now, oh god, my apologies (i mean i doubt anyone's reading this but that's fine, it's like more for me to get this off my chest).

≫❥ i guess with this post i'm trying to announce that i'll be back to this blog being more active with rb posts and i will also start making content again, but this time it'll be mostly different from the content i've been making so far. my usual content would be creating simple gifsets of scenes/dialogues but i've come across so many artistic and beautiful gifsets that i'd like to give it a try. also since i'm not up-to-date with on-air dramas, making gifsets of the dialogues and scenes from those dramas wouldn't happen—by the time i'd start those dramas people would have made gifsets of the scenes already anyway. this would mean for that kind of content i would give in a much greater effort into making the gifs looking more artistic/aesthetic and that's why i'd post less of my original work. but i'll still try to keep the blog active by rb other people's posts in q of course. however, right now my life is a little bit of a mess, i'm standing on a thin line between education and career, so i'd need some more time to sort this mess out first and then i'll change things up with my blog. i'm excited to come back though; this blog is still getting love from people even at times when it was completely dead and it's still growing which surprises me a lot and i am truly thankful for each of your support. i feel like i don't deserve this, i've been a terrible owner. but i'm willing to change that once i get my life atm together hahah.

≫❥ though i'm not sure how tumblr works now with the changes over the years, i'll just do me and somehow try and revive this blog again. i come back on here because i feel content browsing my dashboard seeing all these beautiful posts on here and i truly wish to come back to being a content maker like these wonderful artists too.

≫❥ ngl, i miss getting on/off anon asks in my askbox (although i wouldn't get that many but it still made me smile every time i received one no matter what it was about as long as it wasn't offensive <3). i missed talking to my friends and people on here. i missed rb ask game posts and get excited whenever someone reacted to it. i miss posting original content and reading other users' tags and them fangirling about a certain topic. i missed the times when i was interactive with my followers/mutuals. i miss the old times on tumblr. when i would have friends on here and a community that was warm and supportive. i wish to experience all of that again.

≫❥ lastly, thank you for listening (if you're still here, doubt so though hah) and so sorry you had to read through this all, i rambled on too much i guess oof. but if you're reading this please know that you're an amazing person. hope we could become friendsʕっ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっ~♡

。.❁stay beautiful:·ﾟ*

·☾ﾟir。

[lovemesomesurveys]

Has anybody ever stole your happy? More like life stuff and health issues did. And depression is a real bitch.

What does your Facebook/Myspace status say? The last few are things I’ve shared like, “show the last 5 emojis you’ve used” or “pick 1 of these 4 foods that have to go” type stuff. 

Have you ever played games with someones head? I don’t think so. I’ve had people play games with mine.

Have you changed throughout the years? Yes. A lot changed these past 6 years and not in a good way. And also a lot hasn’t changed that really needs to.

Are you doing anything important tomorrow? No.

What are you wearing right now? I’m wearing leggings and a long-sleeve shirt.

What do you currently hear right now? I’m watching Teen Mom OG. Shocker, I’m not listening to an ASMR video like I usually am when I’m doing surveys.

Do you get creeped out from people who have lazy eyes? No? 

Do you need to forget about someone right now? No.

Do you answer blocked calls on your phone? I don’t answer calls from unknown numbers.

What color is your cellphone? Gold.

How much money do you have on you right now? I don’t have any on me.

What type of survey do you refuse to take? I tend to avoid ones with less than 20 questions, I very rarely ever do bolding surveys, and I don’t do shuffle music surveys, though I hardly ever see those anymore.

Are you a good speller? I think so.

What is your favorite song of the moment? I don’t have a particular current favorite. I haven’t been listening to music, lately. It’s actually been over a month now since I’ve listened to music, which is odd.

When was the last time you ate ice cream? It’s been a few years.

What are you eatting right now? I’m not eating anything right now, but I need to soon.

What do you currently smell? I don’t smell anything at the moment.

Have you ever snuck out of the house? Nope. 

Do you like to run? No.

Do you think you could run the mile in 10 minutes? Absolutely not. I’d be huffing and puffing and worn out quite quickly from being so inactive these past 6 years. Let’s be real, I wouldn’t even attempt it at all. I don’t have the energy for that.

Where do you plan on going this summer? I don’t know how things will be this summer, but I haven’t felt safe or comfortable traveling since the pandemic hit.

I won't take a survey if it isnt more than _____ questions. It’s gotta be at least 20 questions. 

One thing that can make you smile no matter what. My doggo.

What is something special about your town? My town sucks, ha.

How many surveys a day do you take? Usually, like 5 or so at least. Some days more, some days less.

Do you think people should make more surveys? I hope people keep making them and I’ll keep taking them.

What were you doing before this survey? Another survey while watching Ghosted.

When was the last time you logged onto Facebook/Myspace? I stay logged in, but I last checked my Facebook like 20 minutes ago.

What are you craving right now? Wingstop.

I am gonna get something to drink, do you need anything? I have my coffee, but thanks.

What was the longest movie you watched? A little over 3 hours.

Do you really think the world will end in 2012? Welp, we’re still here in 2021.

When cheese gets his picture taken what does he say? HAHA That was cheeeeesy.

Have you ever been to a job interview? No.

Do you wear a lot of makeup? I haven’t worn any makeup in a little over 3 years now.

Do you love soft pretzels? Yeah. It’s been years since I’ve had one, though.

Do you use IM anymore? Just Facebook Messenger now and then.

Who was the last person to call you? My mom.

Tell me about the last movie you watched. It was that Disney movie, Soul. 

Have you ever played 21 questions? Yeah.

When was the last time you talked to your last ex boyfriend? Like 6 years ago. 

Is your dog mixed or full? She’s a German Shepherd and Lab mix.

Do you like kool-aid? If so, what's your favorite flavor? I loved it as a kid. I haven’t had it since then.

When was the last time you sent a letter through the mail? Several years ago.

Do you know anybody in prison right now? Yes.

What was the last thing you and your mother did together? We caught up on some of the shows we watch together.

Are you attending any parties this weekend? No.

What are your plans for the weekend anyway? Same stuff I do everyday.

Do you take good pictures? Ew, no.

Am I your friend on Bzoink? I don’t have a Bzoink account.

Do you add people for their surveys or for friendship? This is my survey blog so I follow other survey blogs.

What is your display picture on myspace/facebook right now? Same one I have on here.

What is going on outside right now? I don’t know.

Do you miss anybody right now? I’ll always miss my loved ones who have passed away.

Who was the last person you kissed? Joseph, like 8 years ago.

Will you have sex tonight? No.

What color looks the best on you? I don’t feel I look good in anything, but I feel most comfortable in black.

Have you ever bought the wrong size because you were too lazy to check it? No.

What was the last thing you bought over 5 dollars? Takeout out the other day.

Do you have any mag subscriptions? No.

Do you know anybody who is going to the marines this year or next? No.

Have you watched Dear John? I’ve seen parts of it.

I can't leave my house without _____ My phone, wallet, mask, and hand sanitizer.

What is something you're not scared of but a lot of people are? I feel like I’m scared of a lot of things so I don’t know.

Would you ever have a threesome? No.

How far have you gone? I’m a virgin.

Are you an U.S citizen? I am.

How old will you be in 2012? I turned 23 in 2012.

Do you think you'll be married someday? I don’t see that happening.

Do you have any candles lit right now? No, I don’t have any candles. I’m not a candle person.

When was the last time your parents ordered pizza? We had pizza last week.

Do you loooove chicken alfredo as much as I do? I don’t care for it, personally.

What color computer do you wish you had? I like mine.

How many inches is your screen? It’s 13 inches.

Do you have any step siblings? No.

If so, how many? -

Do they annoy you? -

What color camera do you have? I just use my phone, which is a gold iPhone 12 Pro Max.

How many times a day do you talk to your mom on the phone? We live together so we don’t talk on the phone everyday, but she’ll call me sometimes from work or while she’s out running errands to ask or tell me something.

Who is somebody you haven't seen in a long time? A lot of my extended family. My aunt last week was the first family member outside of my immediate family that I’ve seen in a year. What are your school colors? I’m done with school.

What did you wear yesterday? My usual attire of leggings and a graphic tee.

What color straightner do you have? I don’t have a straightener anymore. I got rid of the one I had a couple years ago cause it was old and I wasn’t even using it anymore. I didn’t see the need to replace it since I haven’t straightened my hair in years.

How many times a day do you brush your grill? At least once.

Who was the last person to IM you? I think it was my aunt on Facebook Messenger.

Is your closet organized? It is. My aunt helped me do that last week. She helped me clean up and reorganize my room. I really can’t even say helped cause she did literally everything. 

Do you need to clean anything in your house right now? Nope.

What should you be doing? I don’t have anything I should be doing, I’m doing what I want to do. 

What would you rather be doing? I’m perfectly content with this. I just finished eating dinner and I’m feeling full and sleepy.

Do you listen to music really loud or really low? I listen to it at a reasonable level. I wanna hear it obviously, but I don’t need it blasting.

Do you live with anybody other than your siblings and your parents? My doggo as well.

Who was your last crush? Ty.

How many tattoos do you have? Zero.

What is the weather like down around where you live? It’s currently 54F.

What is your favorite thing to do? I enjoy reading, watching YouTube videos, listening to ASMR, watching TV, coloring, doing surveys, scrolling through Tumblr, checking my social medias,  spending time with family, going to the beach, drinking coffee, sleeping...

How many pets do you own? I have one doggo. 

Are you close with your parents? I am. My mom, especially. She’s my best friend.

What is your favorite song? I have a lot of favorites.

Where do you shop the most for your clothes? Boxlunch and Hot Topic.

Have you ever read a whole series of books? Yeah, I’ve read many series.

When you tell someone you love them do you mean it? Absolutely. I don’t say those words loosely or a lot, but if I say it, I mean it.

Do you have a guy best friend? No.

Are you going to walk at your graduation or just pick your diploma up? I participated in all of my graduations.

Do you think the Tiger Wood's cheating thing is annoying? That’s super old news.

What is your favorite food? Wingstop’s garlic parm and lemon pepper boneless wings, ramen, spaghetti and meatballs, breakfast burritos or sandwiches, and biscuits and scrambled eggs smothered in country gravy with hash browns.

Do you ever eat anything everybody else thinks is gross? Probably my scrambled eggs and ranch combo.

How many tattoos do you have? Zero.

What did you do for your last birthday? Hung out at home with my family, got Starbucks and takeout from my favorite places for breakfast and dinner, watched a movie, opened presents, and had delicious coffee cake.

What do you plan on doing for your 18th birthday? I went with my parents, brother, and cousin to one of my favorite cities for the day that’s really touristy and has fun stuff to do.

Are you excited for anything coming up? No.

Do you still have the same friends as you did when you were younger? I don’t have any friends anymore.

Is there a friend you never get to see anymore? --

Do you have to type with good grammer? Yeah, using proper grammar is important to me.

Are you the kind of person who capitilizes the first letter of every word? Nooo. I don’t like that. Or when people type in all lowercase or a mix of the two. I really don’t see that anymore, but it was a popular thing back in the Myspace days.

What is your favorite quote? There’s many.

Are you allowed to cuss in front of your parents? I’m 31 years old so I certainly could, but I choose not to. *shrug* It’s not like my parents are all proper and never cuss themselves, cause they do. My mom loves her f-bombs haha. It’s just how I am. 

How long was your last phone conversation? Just a couple minutes.

Who was you talking to? I was talking to my mom.

Which one of your friends annoy you? --

Have you ever lost a close friend to death? No.

Do you know someone who suffers from addiction? Yes, several people.

How old are you? 31.

Do you have a lot of pictures in your room? I do now. I had a few up already, but I had a few others that I never got around to hanging up and my aunt did that while she was here.

Do you have facebook? I do.

Do you update your status with a step by step guide of what your doing? Uh, no. No one would care to see that and I have no need to share that.

Have you ever found a dog/cat on the side of the road? Yes. :(

Do you go bowling in your town? I have a few times before back in the day. The last time I went bowling was over a decade ago.

Do you have a drive in theater. No, I wish. I really think those should make a big comeback now.

What are you wearing? Leggings and a long sleeve shirt.

What brand is your favorite shoe? Adidas.

Is your best friend's mom like your own? My best friend is my mom so yes? haha.

Do you have aniexty or depression? I have both, yay. -____-

How old do you think you will be when you get married? I don’t plan on ever getting married.

What is your favorite fast food resturant? Wingstop.

What do you usually order? Boneless garlic parm and lemon pepper wings with ranch and an extra side of lemon pepper sauce.

Do you own a pair of brass knuckles? No.

Don't you think the diamond ones are b-a? Huh?

Do you know what b-a means? No.

Have you and your friends ever made up a word? My cousins and I probably have when we were kids.

Don't you hate stomachaches? Ugh, yes. Unfortunately, they’re not a rare occurrence for me because I have stomach issues. :/ Heating pads are a must.

Have you ever gotten a stomache at the wrong time? yeah it always feels like the wrong time. like it's always at night when i'm trying to sleep. the worst. <<< Same. 

What is your favorite memory in life? Childhood.

Do you have any embarassing baby pictures of yourself? I don’t think any of my baby photos are embarrassing. I actually love those photos haha. Then I got older and ew.

What is the worst smell in the world? Shit? ha.

What is your favorite smell? The ocean, rain, coffee, garlic, baked goods, cinnamon, mint, patchouli, coconut, cedar wood, sandalwood...

Do you dye your hair a lot? Yeah. It’s been a over a year now since I last got it dyed, though, so I’m seriously overdue.

How do you style your hair most of the days? It’s always up in a messy bun. I don’t have the energy or motivation to do anything else with it. I’m just at home all day anyway.

Do you have any fox racing clothing? No. I remember that was a popular thing in high school.

Do you have anybody in your family who rides dirtbikes/fourwheelers? Yes.

Have you ever rode a dirtbike/fourwheeler? Nooo.

Tell me how you got one of your scars? Spinal surgery.

Have you ever had a friend who cut themselves? Yes.

What is your favorite thing to do in the summer? The only thing I like about the summer is being able to go to the beach. Otherwise, I hate summertime.

Do you go tanning or do you lay out? I only ever get a tan when I go to the beach cause I’m out there for hours.

Do you have a beach towel or do you use a reg one? We have beach towels.

If you tan, what kind of lotion do you have? I don’t use any tanning lotion.

What is your favorite skin lotion? I don’t really have one. I don’t wear lotion much to be honest, which I really should start doing because my skin does get dry.

Have you ever used 3 minute miracle by aussie? Nope.

Do you use a lot of hair products? No, just shampoo, a detangling spray, and dry shampoo.

Why did you pick my survey? It was long and looked interesting.

Are you glad it's long? Yeah.

Or did I bore you? Nah, it’s fine.

What is your longest relationship? Whatever it was Joseph and I had went on for 3 years.

How long have you known your best friend? Since I was in the womb, ha.

Who is your favorite aunt? I’m really close to the aunt that came and stayed with us last week.

Do you have a cousin you dislike? No.

Do you own a pair of chanel earrings? Nope.

What is your favorite band? Linkin Park will always be one of them.

Have you ever heard theroy of a deadman? I think so.

What is your comfort food? Ramen.

What is your favorite color? Pastels, rose gold, sea foam green, coral, and yellow.

What color is the color of your walls? White.

Do you own anything zebra striped? No.

What kind of straighner do you have? I don’t have one, we’ve been through this already.

Are you obsessed with your hair? No. I don’t do anything with it. I’m not good at maintaining the red I’ve been dyeing it for the past 6 years either. I was in the beginning when I got it done once a month, but then it started getting more and more months in between and then it turned into a year. I’m currently a little over a year overdue. Sighhh. I just don’t have the energy or motivation to do that or much of anything else. I barely get outta bed most days.

[assbestos]

how I figured out I was trans

TW for self harm mention (not graphic)

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I haven’t known I was trans for my whole life.

When I was little, I liked dressing up in dresses and wearing heels, playing princess and house, looking after baby dolls and so many other stereotypical “girly things”.

I found out I was LGBT when I was in seventh grade. Around that time, I had started to become interested in the LGBT community on tumblr, and I knew I wasn’t straight. I liked girls and boys (and aliens). So, I figured I was a pansexual cis girl. But being cis didn’t feel right. I didn’t feel like an actual girl, and I never related to other girls with their experiences. I figured I was just gender fluid, right? I’m a girl because I like to wear makeup and dresses, but I’m also a boy because I can’t relate to girls.

Then I got an app called Paper 53.

I’ve always been a creative person. I draw, paint, song, dance, act; you name it, I do it. So I drew on paper 53. They came out with a social media platform called “Mix” where you could share and “remix” other people’s art by altering it. We were close knit, us og mixers. I started going by the name Jake on mix. It felt right. I felt I wasn’t hiding who I was to my friends! They all thought I was a boy, and it felt okay! That was the first step in my discovery of myself as a trans man.

Another thing that made me realize I wasn’t remotely a girl was fandom, surprisingly. I was a fan of a ton of shows and anime’s, and I blogged about them constantly. I had so many favorite characters, but they all had one thing in common: they were all male. Weird, I thought, you would think that being born a girl would let me sympathize with characters of my same sex, but it didn’t. I liked male characters because they reminded me of myself. I started going by the label demiboy. I told my friends, and they called me jake, and used they/them pronouns when we were outside of school. Then came my last year of middle school.

People were relentless. They asked me why my name was different on Instagram or on Snapchat. Why did I want to be a boy? Everyone seemed weirded out by me being open and out, so I inverted. The only place I had was with my friends and mix. I was weird, creepy, gross. My peers laughed at me and ostracized me and my friends. Turns out, all my friends were basically LGBT, so we were in solidarity to each other. I also hated my body. I only wore leggings and an oversized sweatshirt. I cut my hair short and stopped playing with makeup. But I was still a girl I’m my peers eyes.

I didn’t want to give up the feminine side of me. I LIKED wearing cute dresses, I LIKED putting on makeup and jewelry. I just wasn’t a girl! I didn’t understand, why couldn’t I have just been born a boy!

I wore a dress to my middle school graduation.

Then, we had a graduation party. I didn’t want to get in the pool because I didn’t want to change in front of anyone and have people look at my feminine body. I eventually gave in though, donning an unflattering one peice that compressed my chest. Then the worst thing possible happened. “Come on! Jump in the water, jake!”

Someone had outed me. It was a boy who I was only acquaintances with. Everyone stared at me. I felt like a freak. I just jumped in so they would stop staring. I was furious. My carefully kept secret was exposed to the whole class. I got out and changed back into my clothes, trying not to cry from anger. The one thing that made me feel better was my best friend chewing out that guy.

Freshman year was supposed to be a new start. It wasn’t. I was trans and in hiding. My only joy was theatre, wich was full of the most wonderfully supportive people I’ve ever known. I loved them all. Sorry if this gets rambley, I’m a bit emotional now. I still hid from them though, wich I regretted. I regret that every single day.

Honestly, high school was a blur until senior year. Mix, my safe haven where I could be who I wanted, was shut down. I lost contact with my internet family. I spiraled. Theatre was taken over by the teacher who hated my guts. It became work rather than my passion. I was failing. I was crumbling. My only hope was college, and how was I going to get there now that I was digging myself a hole made of missing assignments and failed tests? Eventually, I cracked. I started self harming. I just wanted the pain that was inside to be outside, I wanted to purge and get rid of it. I was caught one day and I was sent to the hospital for a wellness check. They suggested I go to a thing called a “partial program”. It’s basically group therapy with other teens who are in similar situations. I loved it there. Mid way through my stay I came out as trans, and they all accepted me. I finally was out. So much pressure was off my shoulders and I could be who I wanted to be. They all called me jake. They used he/him pronouns. I was finally happy. I came out to my parents, who supported me! They still don’t quite get it, but they’re trying and I appreciate that so much.

Now I’m much happier, I’m 3+ months clean, I’ve been out at my college and I may possibly start t this year! Im an open, feminine, gay trans man! I’m so excited for the journey ahead of me and just know that all you bbs who are having a hard time, just know it gets better. It will get better and I promise you that! I wear dresses again, i wear makeup for fun, and I do all the things I was afraid to do while closeted!! Again, I promise it will get better. Anyway, I’ve got to go now because I’m crying so hard I can’t see my screen, bye!

[purplesurveys]

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Tumblr, whatever this new color scheme you’ve got going on is ANNOYING. 

What is one thing you've realized or discovered lately? I was driving this morning and was listening to a radio program when I heard the DJs talk about how Disney employees have some sort of hierarchy among them. Apparently the princesses are the It Girls, and they have their own rooms and stuff, basically the top of the pack. Next is anyone who dresses up as a human character, say Gaston; then it’s followed by people who have to stay in the mascot outfits. It’s pretty cool information but also kinda sad? Do you know anyone who is colorblind? If so, who? I don’t think so. I do know someone who’s legally blind but I know that doesn’t count :(( Is there anyone you suspect of being colorblind? If so, who? No. When was the last time you cried, and why (if you want to share)? I haven’t cried in a while–which is surprising and also a good thing–so I don’t really remember, but I think it was from a fight with Gab. Who was the last person who was rude to you? I was at a presscon last week and while no one was particularly rude to me, people from media have absolutely nooooooo manners. It’s mortifying. It was a presscon for a ONE (an MMA promotion) pay-per-view held in a really fancy, 5-star hotel in Manila and there was a buffet for those who were invited to the event–me and my classmates included. These media people were absolute barbarians IN A 5-STAR HOTEL and kept cutting in front of the lines even when the staff kept telling them to line up. I saw one of the staff roll her eyes and I smiled sheepishly both in agreement and like an empathetic kind of way.

Do you wish you were in a different social class than you are? No, I’m fine where I am. What's something that scares you? Being alone with my thoughts. What's the one thing you want more than anything?  I want to go to Thailand and India and have their authentic cuisines. Do you have a relationship with God? Never. Have you ever vlogged or blogged? I’ve blogged before but it was boring for me. Microblogging is much more hectic and is more my style. Who do you call when you have a problem? Gabie. But I go to Angela if I have a problem involving Gab hahaha. Do you have a best friend? Of course. If not, who do you wish you were friends with? Is there someone that you miss? Yes, I miss both of my best friends. I never get to see Anj anymore and I’m in a perpetual state of missing my girlfriend. What was the last date you went on like, and are you still with the person? I had early dinner with Gab at Chocolate Kiss. I had spare ribs and she had pesto penne. That was just this Tuesday, so yep I am definitely still with her. What is your favorite thrift store find? I don’t go to thrift stores. Do you keep your room organized? I try to, but I think I’m more messy-organized than anything. Like I’d be really messy with all my stuff, but I memorize where everything is. I know there’s a copy of Hamlet stashed at the back of my closet, and I know I have a chunk of childhood books in my bedside chest, and if I need a mug on short notice I know there’s one in the middle rack of my bedside drawer, ya feel? Which YouTubers do you feel like you could be friends with in real life?  Shane Dawson, without a shadow of a damn doubt. Have you ever met someone in person that you first met online? Yes! I’ve met 3 out of 4 of my og Filipino wrestling friends from the internet. I’ve met Javi, who turned out to be a real ass and I never talked to him again after that; I met Jila, and we both screamed when we realized we came across each other; and I met Raf, who got me tickets to my first and so far only wrestling event and he was a real sweetheart. I met Jila while in line for the WWE show, so I only got to interact with her for like 15 seconds, but it was a blast.  The only person I’ve never met is Gabbie, which is ironic because we STUDY IN THE SAME SCHOOL. But we’ve never been classmates, never been in the same building, never passed by each other. How good are you with shades of colors? Uh I guess I can identify a number of them. Does it annoy you when people call teal "blue?” It probably would annoy me. Would you describe teal as a shade of blue, a shade of green, or a mix? It’s just a fancy way of saying blue-green to me. What is your favorite color? Pink. How many other people do you know with your favorite color? Very few. A lot of people are still ‘ew’ when it comes to pink, I’ve realized. Do you fall asleep with your laptop open on your lap? Hahahaha it happens sometimes, but I always try to avoid it because my laptop is freaking expensive and my dad probably won’t get me a new one if I break it. Which do you use more: a computer or a phone? Phone. Have you ever taken a test to see if you are colorblind? No. Which family member did you inherit your hair color from? Filipinos are pretty homogenous. We have black hair. Do you hate your nose, love your nose, or have you never thought about it?  I never really thought about it. What was your favorite Barbie doll?  I didn’t have a favorite, I just got gifted Barbies as a kid and played with them for a bit, but I always preferred my cousins’ toy soldiers. Would you ever want to look like your favorite Barbie doll? Do you like your hair better curly, wavy, or straight? Wavy. Do you ever worry about running out of make-up and not being able to buy more? Hahahaha that’s like everyone else I know, but no. I don’t care for makeup. Do grammatical errors annoy you?  Only when the situation strictly calls for grammar to be proper. Who do you know who is dyslexic? I don’t think so. Do you prefer kisses or hugs? Kisses from my girlfriend, hugs from everyone else. Describe your dream wedding in five words.  Elegant, formal, ORGANIZED, white, huge. Do you smoke weed? Nope. Is weed legal in your state? No but I think they’ve been having hearings in the Senate about legalizing it for medical purposes. We’re the Philippines though so I highly doubt it would go places. What are your secrets? Share a few if you want to. I don’t have any, I dump my entire life on this Tumblr hah. Have you ever thrown up in class?  Oh my, no. I’ve done other things though D: What is it that you want to talk to someone about?  I’m good. What is something that you used to be ashamed of, but now you're not? I used to not want to be associated with Tondo (I grew up there) but now I want nothing more than to live there all over again. Do you have anyone who cares about you? Yes, luckily. What was the last good book you read about?  Chris Jericho’s books are always a good read. Where do you next want to go on an adventure? Thailand or Cambodiaaaa. Do you need a vacation? Kind of. I haven’t been to the beach in almost a year. I haven’t gone trekking or went tourist destination hopping for much longer. How long has it been since you've been on vacation?  Four months-ish. We only go on vacation when my dad is home. If you could go on vacation right now, where would you go?  We’re going to Pangasinan in two weeks for a short vacation, and I can’t wait for that. Have you ever walked outside in below zero weather? Nope. Is watching youtube videos one of your hobbies? Yes. I was literally just watching videos before this survey. Does it annoy you that people get denied for disability who really need it? I haven’t seen this happen but I’d imagine I’d be upset. Have you ever held a newborn baby?  Not newborn, but the baby was weeks old. Are a ton of your facebook friends getting married and having kids now? SURPRISINGLY!!! I’ve had two batchmates from high school–one is engaged and the other already has a kid. Teenage pregnancy/marriage is not so much a thing in the PH’s middle class bracket so both instances were definitely a small shock when we all found out.

What is a trend you haven't followed? Getting bangs. What's something you believe in that most people don't?  Non-belief. At least in the Philippines, a population that’s 90% Christians. Do you think for yourself? Yes but I tend to get afraid as well. Sometimes I’d ask other people to decide for me too. What's the last supernatural thing that happened to you? Nothing of that sort has happened to me. Have you ever had anyone bully you because they were jealous of you?  No, I don’t think so. What's something most people don't know about you? I have a faint scar on my left eyebrow because a distant cousin tried to get me blind by throwing a glass bottle to my face. What's a hidden talent that you have? I wouldn’t hide any of my talents... If you're a Christian, how long have you known the Lord? Who is someone you'd really like to talk to? Angela, because I miss her. Is there anyone who's dear in your heart who's going down the wrong path? No, I think everyone I know’s headed the right way. Who has your heart?  My dog. From your experience, which is worse for bullying: adulthood or childhood? It’s awful either way lol. Do you wear sweaters often? No, I don’t really have to. How often do you burn candles? ...Never? Do you live in an apartment, condo, dorm, or house? My parents’ house. Do you have a sibling with the same first initial as you? No. It’s they that share the first letter (J) in their names. What's a word that rhymes with your first name? Noggin. ...Middle name? Shell. Do you get enough sleep?  I always try to because the moment I get less than 7 hours of sleep, you can guarantee that I’ll be a monster for the rest of the day. How many cups of tea do you drink in a day? I’ve never had tea. Don't you hate it when people give advice when you want support? I wouldn’t hate it especially if their genuine intention was to help. I’d still appreciate the advice. Which magazine is your favorite to read?  I don’t read magazines–even online ones–anymore. Do you cut out magazine clippings to use for projects? If I have to. Do you ever eat kids' food (as in, meals made for kids)?  I’d still get corndogs. I’d say I also get mac and cheese but I usually order gourmet mac and cheese so that won’t count haha. What's something you wish you would have known sooner? That I didn’t have to fake who I was to my blockmates who were way too different to who I was and what I wanted to be. I did it for a whole schoolyear and was miserable because I knew that wasn’t where I wanted to be. What's something you wish your doctor would have told you? No? Are you happy with your life right now? Not completely, but aren’t we all? Is it cold where you live?  It’s more chilly because it’s February, but watch this quickly go away by March hah. What's the next big project you plan to start? Making a physical photo album for me and Gab, because we’ve been together for three years and we’re shit at documenting memories. Do you enjoy taking on new challenges? Depends on the challenge. Do you have acid reflux? Nope. What's on your heart? Blood. Are you naturally optimistic or pessimistic? Optimistic. Would you rather wear pink or blue? I don’t have a lot of either in my wardrobe so tbh I don’t know what I look better in. I’m guessing blue. What are the names of your first cousins? Jereth, Elijah, Cholo, and Toffe on my mom’s side. Bianca, Lei, AJ, Kesler, Kent, Sam, and Liam on my dad’s. Do you know what you want to name your children? I have ideas. Do you like what your parents named you? I hated it as a kid but I’ve grown to appreciate it now. Do you think you were cute in your baby pictures?  Sure. What color was your baby blanket? I don’t remember anymore. Do you remember pre-school? I have memories here and there. How old were you when you made your first friend?  I guess pre-school, so I was 4. Are you doing what you were created to do? Still figuring that out. Do you find a lot of peoples' facebook statuses to not be relevant at all?  No. I don’t shit on whatever people post buuuut I don’t care about them either.

[fallforjungkook]

like a butterfly~ pt.46 | THE END

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- Epilogue : Star pt.3 -

Scrolling through my social media as I come out from the bathroom after preparing for dinner tonight, I stop when I see Jungkook lying on the bed with his arms thrown over his head. As always he's quiet when he wants to be, so quiet that I hadn't even heard him return even when I wasn't playing music that loudly. He had been gone for a few hours since early morning again and whatever exercises they did, it made him tired enough to doze off now.

Lowering the volume of the song playing on my phone, I give an excited Bobo some of my love and affection before walking over to the bed and lay myself to him, putting my head on his bicep. Moving in his sleep, Jungkook turns towards me and throws his other arm around my waist, nestling his head into my shoulder. He does that often when he's asleep, he will either pull me to him or find his way to me. That had surprised me at the very beginning of staying over at each other's homes. Jungkook didn't appear to be the kind of guy that enjoyed cuddling, but he is quite the koala bear at times.

'~To be honest, it wasn't easy to confess first~'

One of my favorite songs he has sung and even though he has so many beautiful ballads, this still makes me feel some kind of way just like when I first heard it. It's a very heart fluttering song.

'~My love will hurt~'

"It's this song again." Jungkook murmurs against my skin and I wonder if he was even asleep, to begin with.

"I like it." He isn't really fond of me listening to this particular song because he didn't do well enough he says. I glance down at him but only see the top of his fringe. I give him a few rapid pecks to which he smiles at.

"You smell good." He kisses my neck and then pushes up. "It's the one I bought, right?"

"Hm." For a while, I stopped putting on fragrance because I got sick of the overly flowery and sweet scents which was when he offered to find me something cleaner and more soothing rather than irritating. Let's just say that Jungkook knows his scents very well.

He props one elbow under his head and plays with the necklace around my neck. Three, two, on— "Hold on, didn't you lose this?"

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(A/N: everyone here! thank you so much for reading! This is it! This is the end! It’s a wrap haha! I feel horrible that it took me so long to finish the story and I know I post the full chapters on AFF and AO3 but Tumblr is where I started and I got to know so many lovely Anons <3 I miss you guys and am forever thankful for your support! Thank you for hanging with me ^^ If you any of the OGs are still here please message me, I would like to thank you personally ^^ and anyone that is new-ish, I will also thank you! Much, much love ~K)

[somethingprettyndunique]

I’M BACK BITCHES

okay, so i know i am completely irrelevant, not only to the entire internet, but also to my followers on here; especially bc i disappeared for a million years. but i wanted to make this post anyway mostly for myself just to look back on the depressing black hole i went through this past year thinking my tumblr days were over (i'm so dramatic oml). it may have been almost exactly or a little over a year ago that i realized i hadn't used my tumblr in probably three months. i have a tumblr bookmark on my browser where i am ALWAYS logged in. this time, though, i was logged out. like okay fuck you but whatever i'll just log back in nbd. without consent, tumblr just decided that when i would try to log in that i had to suddenly change my password. k. so it says it sent me an email to reset my password and shit. dope. for the record, the email i use for my tumblr is SOLELY used for my tumblr and my tumblr only. needless to say, i basically never ever log into that email. i went to log into my email, and lord knows i didn't remember the password. luckily, i have a file dedicated to all my bullshit emails and passwords. i found it, went to yahoo, and signed in again. lol nope. apparently, when you don't use an email account over whatever bullshit amount of time, yahoo's entitled ass has the right to terminate your entire account without the option to revoke your email. so BASICALLY, the "reset your password" email got sent to a, now, nonexistant email, and there was no other way to log into my precious tumblr account that i had cared and nurtured for over 5 years. i nearly cried. the amount of effort that i put into trying to regain access to my tumblr was unreal. you would have thought i lost my child. i contacted both tumblr and yahoo trying to do everything to get my baby back. clearly, no one cared as much as i did bc i never recieved an answer. i was forced to do the unthinkable...... create a replacement tumblr. ;o; after years and years built up finding the perfect blogs to follow, gaining my folloeers, gaining notes on og posts (not v much tbh but i was proud let me be), and, most importantly, building up all my favorite memes that i would look back on when i was having a bad day. i have never even changed my url once since having her in 2012. this love was real. my blog had been through everything with me: my ugly, emo wannabe, awkward stage in muddle school; lonely afternoons after school in high school when i had no friends; that's honestly kinda it bc i didn't have a life really lmao. it's v sentimental okay. that's my point. but none of that mattered anymore. everything just thrown out the window like it was nothing. time to say rip and move on. i made a new tumblr and attempted to make it feel like home. i tried finding blogs that were equally funny to the ones i used to follow, but also ones pleasing enough to want to reblog onto my blog. but none of it felt the same. it was like that feeling you get when you sleep over a friend's house for the first time and you wake up in the middle of the night just staring at the ceiling hoping to fall back asleep so it can be morning so you won't have that uncomfortable, unfamiliar feeling anymore. yeah, it was like that. i felt guilty; like i was cheating on my boyfriend, just living a lie, but what else was i supposed to do when i got bored? tumblr had always been the answer. it was the only social media that didn't make me sad or jealoud when i went on it. i was forced to just keep going and hope for the best. the best never happened though. i still felt uncomfortable. i still wasn't getting the satisfaction i was used to. i was still bored. fast forward to today, 12/15/17. boredom had struck again. i went to log into my wannabe tumblr, and it did that stupid thing where i had to reset my password again. unfortunately, this one actually worked. i got in and started going through my dash. but i was thinking about my og tumblr again. i thought to myself, "fuck it" and i tried logging into my og tumblr. it did the reset your password thing again, so i had to go to yahoo and attempt logging into a terminated account yet again. slowly, it starts asking me questions to update my account. i didn't get too excited, bc i thought the universe was fucking with me yet again. but i went along with it. after i updated everything, it. said. i. had. successfully. logged. in. before celebrating, i wanted to test the tumblr email first to reset it. so, i did. and guess what? i'm here typing my lengthy, irrelevant story. i genuinely have never felt this amount of happiness i think ever in my entire life. so, what have you missed? i graduated high school, went through my first breakup, discovered my love for zucchini, went through two semesters of college, dropped out of college, made some progress on my youtube channel, procrastinated on my youtube channel, got 3 tattoos and 2 piercings, went blonde, then went brown after three months, went to my first college party, turned my favorite number (19), went on one too many tinder dates, and found a really sweetie guy that i now call my boyfriend of 4.5 months. (: so, now i'm going to give my child (tumblr) a glow up, change her url for the first time ever to match all the links i have sprinkled on the internet everywhere, and then cuddle with my really sweetie guy. if you read this entire thing, bless your little heart, bc i know this was the most irrelevant post to ever be typed in the history of everything. i love you v much for that. (':