#misogynie medicale

[selkie-on-land]

LITERALLY MY ENTIRE LIFE 💀

Since I'm child, I suffer from the medical Misogyny. It's always in my head, stress or an act. No matter the medical conditions : broken bones, genetics disease/conditions, neurodevelopmental disorders, endometriosis, Stroke, epilepsy, infection, Papilloma virus, Dislocations and subluxations, sprains, dislocated or displaced bones, scoliosis, head injuries/trauma, brain damage etc.

From ALL the medical and paramedical staff that I have encountered in my entire life only less than 5 persons never sexually assaulted me, raped me, or violated me in other ways. LESS THAN 5 PERSONS SINCE I'M A LITTLE CHILD. And one of them is my mum's friend I grew up around.

I'm 29, I suffer from more than 40 disabilities, almost all of them are genetics and yet I'm still not fully properly diagnosed. The rare Dr that would diagnosed me willingly only verbally but they won't note or write it anywhere. And if I ask them to, suddenly it never happened and I'm gaslit.

I can't work, but I don't have government income for disabled (i don't know the correct word for that in English), so I have a small one but not because I'm disabled but because I have the right age and it supposed to be there to help me find a job and it's way below The poverty threshold. So in order to keep that, I have my Dr putting me in sick days. But even this is not supposed to work, so I'm waiting for when it will stopped. My mum can't work because she has to take care of me. So the few that I can have is supposed to be enough for both of us. Spoiler: it's not.

I tried to get medical help since I'm a child, I'm an adult now. My entire life I was forced to behave/live as if I don't have any disabilities, which I failed to do and I make everything terribly worse by still trying. All of the abuse I suffered since baby also worsened all of my disabilities and created new ones. Because of that, I get really really really worse, too worse that the Dr won't receive me anymore. So when it was ''manageable'' I was faking it, or it wasn't that bad, but now that it get THAT bad, they won't receive me because they don't receive people in those stage. I'm too disabled now. I live in a bed, I can't stand, can't walk, can't talk/speak, can't fully understand audio conversation in my native language, so if I must attend a medical appointment, I must be in a charriot, the wheelchairs doesn't work anymore, I fell from it.

A year ago, 3 neurologist consulted each other and agreed to recommend me to a fourth one so he would make the test I needed. Unfortunately, the 3 previous doctors were women, the paramedic who accompanied me was also a woman, my mum and I too. He was a man. An extremely misogynistic one. He only talk to the one paramedic male who stayed in the corridor. And screamed at us. The women paramed. was a useless piece of trash. He sexually assaulted me, tried to removed all of my accomodations and medical aids, he screamed that I was stealing his time and denying a real patient (a boy or a man) from medical care and that i should be putt in a asylum especially in isolation. He didn't looked at my files, or my medical records. He just screamed at me and all of the women with me in the room how useless, trash etc we were and how we were making him loosing money and his time and blablabla. I even had to pay for being denied of medical care. The ''appointment'' last 5 minutes and I still had to pay him. He was very disappointed to learn that I was fully covered by a program for poor people so I won't have to actually pay with my money but still.

Luckily the staff and my mum supported me and comforted me on the trip back to home but it still traumatised me a lot.

And one of the 3 Dr was the Head of neurology department of the building ... But she was a woman.

And now my nerve damage is worse, as long as the rest, and it's too late. I seek for help since the beginning of the symptoms, since the new symptoms etc but was always denied care because I was born female.

And now the damage is too far and it's too late. Some of the damage are at the end of the line of what they can do and there is no fixing for this.

I'm broken with a damage broken body that barely hold it together.

I went to wanting help because I was not okay -> to wanting help to have accommodation -> to wanting help to have recognition of my disabilities and have financial support -> to wanting help to be recognised, financial support and accommodation, plans to get better -> to wanting help to have recognition of my disabilities so I could enlist myself on euthanasia list because I'm too physically disabled that I can't even unalive myself so even that I need assistance with -> to not wanting help because I know that if I see another Dr I will be for sure s.a/raped etc and I can't bare it -> to okay there is nothing I can have, the only thing I can do now is to wait until my body fully stop functioning -> to my mum is aging and she won't be able to help and take care of me for much longer so when she won't be able do to so, what is going to happen to me ? I can't have a proper medical assistant as I'm not recognised and I always been denied access to medical care, I can't cook, I mean I can't even feed myself or go the bathroom by myself so I will probably have to starve, being dehydrated, and live in my own Excrement and die in a lot of pain and isolation. And this, terrifies me.

AND ALL OF THIS IN A COUNTRY WHERE WE ARE SUPPOSED TO HAVE UNIVERSAL ACCESS TO MEDICAL CARE. But I wasn't born in the right body with the right sex to have access to it. For example, my horrible brother got all of his diagnosis max a month after the first apparitions of symptoms. For the same genetic disability he is diagnosed since kindergarten when I had to fight for it and didn't even knew that it was a disorder in the first place. (I learned that it was a thing at 26 y/o) I was bullied for it and he was cattle for it by the same persons in our own family, persons that were working in the medical field !! I cut them off but it just proves how bad the double standard is in the medical systems.

I hate medical misogyny with my whole body and soul and heart and everything.

Have you ever had a medical experience when your treatment and/or the outcome was directly worsened by sexism from your doctors? Meaning a male in the same situation would have had a different, more preferable outcome

Yes, and it’s an ongoing problem

Yes, a previous experience

Yes, but it’s because of female conditions being neglected in terms of research or funding higher up rather than the actions towards me

I suspect this was the case but it was subtle or isn’t something I could prove

No, but it has happened to a woman in my life

No, this isn’t something I’ve encountered

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[just-a-queer-fanboy]

Also what do they mean by "non medicale views are misogyny"

Sure, taking E won't change your voice.

But taking T doesn't remove tits, either.

Taking E won't reverse facial hair.

But taking T won't make me taller.

To act like E doesn't cause changes to a body during puberty is misogyny. To act like it's "easy" for trans men to transition is misogyny.

I've been on T for over a year, though some of that time it was low dose. I've been on a higher dose for 8 months. If T was the miracle some people describe it as, I'd have a full beard and huge muscles and I'd be passing 100% of the time.

I don't pass at ALL.

Stop claiming trans men have an easy time passing. You're invalidating and erasing our experiences.