#misantrophy

[elsalvy]

i don't want anybody to speak to me @ school like no fuck off i dont have anything to say and im not interested in what you have to

[antisocialsharky]

Your blog has helped to put a lot of what ive been experiencing for years into words, hope i keep the motivation to go to a doc after I turn 18 to try and get a diagnosis proper.

Somewhat related, but is general misanthropy and seeking isolation common experiences in the ASPD community? It's as if the only time I can exsist is when im alone and the only way I talk to anyone else is at my own whims via phone

Hi, very glad to hear that! I hope you can access a professional at 18 to receive a proper diagnosis ^^

Regarding your question, I'll only refer to my own experiences with the community, so this might not be entirely accurate!

It seems to me as if misanthropy and isolation are very common among ASPDers yes and its also not really surprising I think? Many of us had traumatic childhoods, were dismissed a lot, had to focus on our own survival early and learned that no one will help you, were excluded from groups and friendships, had our traits and behavior demonized early and overall just did not have many positive experiences with other people.

That, along with potential jealousy that others had it better, a disdain for the ones who we see as "weaker" because they struggle with what we might see as "laughable tiny problems", not wanting to be hurt further and a lack of prosocial connections and emotions, is (in my opinion) the perfect recipe for misanthropy and the desire to just be left alone.

An overall negative worldview and a focus on negative emotions is also part of the PTSD criteria, which would support the theory, that traumatized people just do not develop that peachy positive outlook on humanity and life.

On that basis it also makes sense, that you prefer to only interact with others trough your phone and to basically do it on your own terms, as that is less likely to be triggering (in whatever shape or form), can be easily ended, is tied to less responsibilities, doesn't require as much energy (no faking facial expressions and tone of voice) and so on.

Its also overall easier to keep people at a distance that way, to keep yourself and your personal space self, to not get into a situation where you're not in control of what happens, etc. => which is also majorly a response to prior traumatic situations.

All in all: yep that seems to be common and makes sense if you think about the things that cause the disorder and how the symptoms influence aspects like social interaction and bonds.

[officinainfernale]

Iron & Sickness.

[nathanthemadscientist]

The worst pain is getting re-traumatized by someone you confide in your initial trauma.

[lisa-ivus]

"out"

30х40 acrylic on cardboard, 2022

[ivo3d]

'Misentrophy' - a random still frame

[pato-love]

[sentimental-darkness]

Maybe I should start recruiting people who wanna destroy and change this world

But then it wouldn't really work without proper backing duh

[dolls-blood]

leave me alone im being depressed hot and heateful mind ur bussines

[slightly-gay-pogohammer]

i’ve had enough of the bullying is normal anon i’m blocking them

[kerubimcrepin]

LIVEBLOG: Wakfu Season 4, Episode 2 [PART 1]

I miss the grittier, browner Bonta of older seasons...

Agardoes what Jorisn't.

(totally not a joke I've been making for months now)

Moooooom Yugo was MEAN to me. Ngl Qilby was so good in this season, his interactions with Eliatrope are filled to the brim with insane implications.

Even more movie asset reusage. Ughh. The tavern Kerubim talked to Bakara at would NOT still be standing. It's canonically underwater and underground and shit. Like the rest of Dofus era Bonta.

Kettle insulting a pan for being on fire.

Ush will only have the right to insult him if he can stop fucking cats. <3

Both of these are also asset reusages but I'm too lazy to track down from where. The woman is from Aux Tresors, and the man is from Wakfu season 2, is all I can tell without further inspection.

I'm sure there's more stuff I missed, but I'm already annoyed enough that they decided to cut costs at every single corner even without looking further into it...

He's still a catfucker. Sad, oh well.

My beautiful wife.

[start talking shit about Ush as loud as possible the second he is in a hearing distance, in an exaggerated, expository way]

This is some school locker bully behavior, made funnier by the fact that the person actually doing all the bullying is Ush.

The way Atch starts staring here, and Ush immediately says "not here to fight, lol" just confirms the fact that this conversation is 90% all about letting Ush know he is not welcome <3

Something that makes me extremely mentally ill is about to happen, chat.

When it's Wakfu cast, who are Joris's friends whom he wants to impress, it's all "Papa... you're being awfully selfish for not letting us go and fight together with you :))"

But when it's Ush, it's immediately "whether my little Jojo is home or not depends entirely on what the fuck you want from him." as if Joris isn't a 600yo politician and kind of should hear whatever Ush has to tell him, and as if there aren't huge eyes in the sky that he was interested in.

Conspiracy theory: one of the reasons Joris is still single (besides the aromanticism, horrible personality, misantrophy, 20 psychiatric disorders, not wanting to be in relationships—) is that 99% of people who have ever had a crush on Joris were afraid of disappearing under mysterious circumstances.

Kerubim's little mad, unamused look...

I want to point out, once again, that when you actually pay attention to the OVAs and this moment, Atcham and Kerubim always kinda... act like Joris is a child.

Joris expressed that the eyes in the sky concern him? They try to stop Ush from talking to him outright. Because they don't like Ush, because they don't want Joris to investigate this, and because they want him to stay home.

Joris expressed that he doesn't want them to fight Ush together with him because he doesn't want to see them hurt? They don't give a shit, and try to express that in the softest way possible that won't embarrass Joris in front of his friends.

It feels like a mix of holding Joris on a leash, but also trying to wrap him in a cotton wool. Sometimes it helps Joris, sometimes it's just patronizing.

Ngl they do have good reasons to protect their [checks notes] 600-year-old ambassador from this guy.

You have no idea what this moment means to us, Atcham fans. All three of us.

Kerubim's expression..... probably gauging how likely it is that Atcham might start screaming or clawing at something.

Words can't express how much of a Gift this entire scene is.

Atcham looks like he's about to lose his anger management badge. Kerubim looks like he's scared that Ush is going to die or kill Atcham in self-defense.

HE'S SO SCANDALIZED.

The anger management classes + not wanting to be arrested?

KERUBIM SO UNAMUSED.

Kerubim is probably so used to seeing Atcham freak the fuck out about things. It's his brother's special charm.

[wipes tear] He's learned to love the bomb.

...sorry for making references to the band glass animals. it will happen again,. if you dislike that maybe you should learn to love the bomb too.

[viridiave]

O Great and Powerful Viri I'm back again with flower language requests. I'm writing a drabble for Miguel/Darius and flowers are involved. Am unsure how yet, but would it be possible to give me a few flowers that describe them? If possible, some for Miguel, some for Darius, and some for both? 🥺🥺🥺🥺pls?

Heya Zazu! No praise necessary aksjak I might die before I can get to answer this question properly

To tell you the truth this was a challenge to put together because the Language of Flowers generally deals in sweetness and virtue so the ratio of good flowers to flowers that I would actually use to describe Miguel and Darius is like. 9:1. Plus I'm not overwhelmingly familiar with how this relationship tends to be portrayed outside of like. the Discord exchange we had a couple years ago - but I tried my best, so buckle down for the list I managed to cobble together from going through my dictionaries

MIGUEL Trying to look for flowers for a guy that's really more of a narrative tool than a character was tough. I'm not familiar with your game but this was the fanciest I could manage.

Anchusa - Falsehood Anemone - Forsaken Nettle - Cruelty Evening Primrose - Inconstancy

DARIUS Now Darius is a little easier and it did surprise me that at least in terms of what we actually see of him in-game, he has traits that can distinguish him enough from Miguel that I can compile a further list.

Adder's Tongue - Jealousy Corn-cockle - Peerless and proud Bramble - Envy Brunfelsia - Beware of false friends Calliopsis - Vanity Heath - Solitude Hollyhock - Ambition

If this looks a bit barren to you, don't worry - I took the liberty of gathering other flowers that could be used to describe them both because they have a NUMBER of overlapping themes, though I'm not sure how well they can fit into your vision:

Aloe - Bitterness and pain Aspen - Lamentation Bay leaf - I change but in death Bilberry - Treachery Narcissus - Egotism Darnel - Vice Tamarisk - Crime

And now as for the list that'll accommodate them being a couple, I've actually got a couple here that MIGHT help? Lemme try to do what I did with the Eisenbright list real quick:

All is not gold that glistens (Bartonia aurea), but riches (California Poppy) tempt (Quince) me all the same. It is a dangerous pleasure (Tuberose) to pursue its luster, but in my world there is little else to cling to (Monkshood, Misantrophy / Scabiosa, I have lost all). By hook or by crook (Argemone), glory will be mine (Laurel).

There is no unalloyed good in this world (Lapageria). You and I, at the bottom of the world - buried in delusions of rare worth (Achimines). You understand this intoxication (Heliotrope) better than anyone.

In the dead of night (Catchfly), cling to me (Chickweed).

Lemme know if none of this fits what you had in mind lmao I don't have 20/20 vision on this pair at ALL

[flower-often]

January 11

TOday's flower is Wolfbane, scientific name Aconitum napellus

It is also known as monkshood

Today's a poisonous plant will be familiar to those who have read Agatha Christie, as it appeared in 4:50 from Paddington. It is native and endemic to western and central europe. it is poisonous both upon ingestion and touch.

i must admit, i chose this flower for two reasons: its symbolism, and the fact that i have an interest in poison.

it symbolises caution, misantrophy and treachery. i first discovered its symbolism due to a story i read ages ago and when the author's note said they used this as foreshadowing, i fell in love with that.

i will try not to skip more days, thank you all for being gracious

[nathanthemadscientist]

"Do you like me being alive?

You can thank my cats for that."

[skruzdelynas3]

Ich weiß nicht, wie ich meine Gedanken sortieren soll. Es fällt mir unglaublich schwer, nicht die meisten Menschen zu hassen. Grundsätzlich fühle ich mich von den meisten Personen sehr entfremdet und nicht verbunden - die Art, die Kommunkation, die Prioritäten. Aber najay das ist okay - vielleicht ist das so, wenn man Autismus hat (wenn es bei mir wkrklich das ist). Entfremdet fühle ich mich trotzdem, aber deshalb versuche ich einfach großee Anhäufungen von Menschen zu meiden - sei es digital oder in echt. Ich spüre meine Agressivität aufkommen, wenn ich in einem vollen Zug sitze oder durch eine volle Stadt laufe. Dabei vergesse ich es, die Personen als eigene Individuuen zu betrachten - in solchen Momenten bin ich einfach nur erzürnt und überreizt. Ich beobachte die Leute und merke, wie fremd ich mich fühle und wie unwohl es mich denken und empfinden lässt. Es verwirren mich so viele Verhaltensweisen. Aber es ist okay, ich lerne irgendwie, nicht so zynisch gegenüber Leuten eingestellt zu sein. Ich versuche mir aktiv vorzustellen, dass es sich um Personen mit einem eigenen Wahrnehmen handelt, auch wenn ich es nicht nachvollziehen kann. Doch wie und wohin mit dem Menschenhass, wenn ich das Gefühl bekomme, dass der Großteil mein Dasein nicht in Ordnung findet und nie verstehen wird? Ich gehe auf die Straße und merke, wie ich mir denke, dass sehr wahrscheinlich unter diesen Personen Leute sind, welche mich für meinen Randgruppenstatus hassen würden. Sie lächeln einen harmlos an und scheinen gutherzig zu sein. Jedoch muss der Hass gegenüber "meinen" Personengruppen irgendwo her kommen. Sie sehen einen Mann, nichts anderes. Ich kann nicht behaupten, geschützt zu sein - mein Auftreten kann manchmal schon sehr auffällig sein. Jedoch habe ich doch den Vorteil, immer als iegendein Mann aufzutreten, obwohl dies mich nicht wirklich wiederspiegelt. Und was, wenn sie es aber erfahren würden, dass ich trans bin? Mit einem für die Gesellschaft verzerrten Blick auf Geschlecht und Sexualität, oder auch Normen. Und dazu noch neurologisch uns psychisch krank. Was würden sie denken? Es ist auch, dass ich so viel Hass erlebe. So oft werden solch unnötigen, winzigen Dinge zu so einem riesigen Problem gemacht, und es dient alleine dem Grund, Hetze zu betreiben. So viele Personen haben stets ein Feindbild. Sie zeigen ihren Hass, während sie aber ihren nahen Personen lieb scheinen. Das ist das ekelhafte - so ein großer Teil scheint so hasserfüllt zu sein, jedoch zeigen sich allw stets freundlich. Ich weiß nicht, wie ich aber meine Abneigung oder sogar Hass gegenüber Menschen wahrnehmen soll. Es scheint nicht so, als wäre das besser, auf solche Personen mit Hass zu reagieren - immer hin ist es ja genau das, was ich an den Leuten so unerträglich finde. Aber das ist mein Problem : Menschen ekeln mich in so vielen Aspekten an und entfremden mich, dass es sehr schwierig ist, keine negative Einstellung ihnen gegenüber zu haben. Es fällt mir wirklich schwer, nicht wieder tiefer in die Misantrophie zu geraten, denn die meisten Aussagen und Einstellungen von Personen, welche sich als misantroph bezeichnen, finde ich wiederum eklig und nicht großartig besser. Ich weiß es nicht.

Ich weiß auch nicht, was ich machen soll. Ich halte mich bereits wenig unter Menschen auf. Ich benutze nicht wirklich soziale Medien (ein großer Grund dafür ist, dass mich die meisten Personen darauf anekeln und ich wieder in misantrophe Gedanken falle), gehe wenig raus, studiere sogar im Fernstudium - einer der Gründe dafür war es, nicht mehr als nötig mit anderen interagieren zu müssen -, habe hauptsächlich nur Konakt mit guten Personen. Aber trotzdem merke ich den Hass und dass Menschen so viel zerstören, was sie anfassen. Naja, vielleicht ist es auch Kapitalismus, immer hin bleibt manchen Privatpersonen wenig Wahl.

Und ich weiß einfach nicht, wie ich damit umgehen soll. Ich meide Menschen, aber bin auch abgeneigt von ihnen (als ganzes, mir enge Personen betrifft es nicht) und will nicht hasserfüllt sein, weil es nicht besser ist. Ich weiß es einfach nicht. Naja, vielleicht bin ich nur auch zu müde gerade, um großartig zu denken.

Ein weiterer Gedanke: Ein Grund, warum sich mein Interesse von Sprachen eher auf Mathe und Technik gewechselt hat ist der, dass ich in dem letzteren wenig mit Menschen interagieren muss - oder eher, es hat wenig mit Menschen zu tun. Mathe ist Mathe und ich kann mich damit in Ruhe beschäftigen. Es sind nur Zahlen, Zeichen und Regeln. Sprachen sind anders. Um besser zu werden, muss ich entweder Inhalt mit Menschen konsumieren (vor allem in kleinen Sprachen. Viele Cartoons oder Spielübersetzungen gibt es nicht) oder mit diesen interagieren. Ich lerne über die Kommunikation von Menschen, die ich nicht mal mag. Das hat sich einfach seltsam angefühlt, obwohl ich die Struktur von Sprachen liebe und gerne Wörter sammel. Naja, ein Glück kann ich immer auf Mathe als Interesse zurückgreifen.

[justgotpunched]

I got my life changed by a path near a river near my house which I would take everyday during covid (I live in a forest it was social distancing safe) and I listened to the magnus archives and thought abt how I could be lighthouse lonely only to realize once that I dont want to be lonely and no amount of romantisation will make it pleasant. I thought, thr cynism and misantrophy will not make me content, being edgy for the sake of it will not make me happy, if I dont cherish the relationships and connections I have, the beauty of these moments alone when I would stare at the sunrays reflected in the river would become mundane and repetitive. When you dont spend time with others you focus on the world outside, so for me it loses this novelty. And I went back home and I befriended my sister, I talked to my father and gossiped with my mother and now when I go to the path along the river it always surprises me how beautiful it is.

Anyway I fucking love the magnus archives