#misantrophy

[romangoldendream]

i don't trust in you

[elsalvy]

i don't want anybody to speak to me @ school like no fuck off i dont have anything to say and im not interested in what you have to

[antisocialsharky]

Your blog has helped to put a lot of what ive been experiencing for years into words, hope i keep the motivation to go to a doc after I turn 18 to try and get a diagnosis proper.

Somewhat related, but is general misanthropy and seeking isolation common experiences in the ASPD community? It's as if the only time I can exsist is when im alone and the only way I talk to anyone else is at my own whims via phone

Hi, very glad to hear that! I hope you can access a professional at 18 to receive a proper diagnosis ^^

Regarding your question, I'll only refer to my own experiences with the community, so this might not be entirely accurate!

It seems to me as if misanthropy and isolation are very common among ASPDers yes and its also not really surprising I think? Many of us had traumatic childhoods, were dismissed a lot, had to focus on our own survival early and learned that no one will help you, were excluded from groups and friendships, had our traits and behavior demonized early and overall just did not have many positive experiences with other people.

That, along with potential jealousy that others had it better, a disdain for the ones who we see as "weaker" because they struggle with what we might see as "laughable tiny problems", not wanting to be hurt further and a lack of prosocial connections and emotions, is (in my opinion) the perfect recipe for misanthropy and the desire to just be left alone.

An overall negative worldview and a focus on negative emotions is also part of the PTSD criteria, which would support the theory, that traumatized people just do not develop that peachy positive outlook on humanity and life.

On that basis it also makes sense, that you prefer to only interact with others trough your phone and to basically do it on your own terms, as that is less likely to be triggering (in whatever shape or form), can be easily ended, is tied to less responsibilities, doesn't require as much energy (no faking facial expressions and tone of voice) and so on.

Its also overall easier to keep people at a distance that way, to keep yourself and your personal space self, to not get into a situation where you're not in control of what happens, etc. => which is also majorly a response to prior traumatic situations.

All in all: yep that seems to be common and makes sense if you think about the things that cause the disorder and how the symptoms influence aspects like social interaction and bonds.

[officinainfernale]

Iron & Sickness.

[biksarddedrak]

Actually no one should be having sex. Have you seen human settlements lately? They slowly crawl and swell in size while destroying little nature we have left. Also city/town satellites are the worst. They all look the same and are absolute waste of space (single homes with no useful garden place, you need car to get to places. Worse version of commie blocks).

Actually no one should be having sex. All of us are aged-up minors and the passage of time is inherently problematic

[petitlupus]

Olá, larie. Sabe, soa até estranho dizer desse jeito porque não reflete mais o tamanho do meu afeto por você que agora é muito maior. Minha vontade é gritar "MEU FRUFRU", "MINHA LUA" ou "MEU AMOR". Ultimamente estamos tão doces e grudentos um com o outro e isso era tudo que eu queria até ano passado e, quem sabe, por muito tempo reprimido na minha existência.

Eu sei que por algum tempo você pondera o porquê eu fiquei assim e se eu "despiroquei" da cabeça completamente. A verdade é que, bem, sim! Faz um tempo em que eu me desprendi de muitas amarras sociais e, agora, principalmente as individuais da qual eu mesmo colocava contra mim que não iria de acordo com minha própria natureza construída e inata. Comecei a me permitir me indulgir no mundo. Só que não foi só isso, você, mesmo sem saber, pegou essa oportunidade minha e me encheu de afeto tal qual um colchão inflável e isso foi uma das melhores coisas que aconteceu.

Há alguns meses atrás tudo recomeçou com muita culpa, remorso e angústia. Estavamos meio desnorteados por não saber por onde ir, tentando resincronizar a mutualidade ferida sob visitas pequenas e sorvetes gelados. Nesse meio tempo, eu aproveitava sua maravilha de pessoa que não cansava de me apresentar conceitos novos e indulgir em qualquer tipo de conversa séria ou bobinha. Não conseguia parar de pensar em como você era diferente e simplesmente parava pra pensar nos problemas que eu tinha, em sua maioria sociais, e me ouvia dizer junto com as minhas próprias filosofias e sempre terminava me dizendo palavras de reafirmação "Victor, se tudo der errado, a gente compra uma casinha só pra gente", "Victor, a sociedade é complicada, mas é por isso que sou grata por ter você" e muitas outras frases que tornaram a minha própria existência mais amorosa para mim mesmo. Você acabou me trazendo uma segurança muito boa pra minha vida. Do fundo do poço até o fim do túnel, é tudo uma questão de perspectiva. Você é a observadora de muitos universos, pequena garotinha, mas por alguma razão, você adora o meu, saiba que é mútuo

Sem contar em como você faz desenhos e cartinhas pra mim. Até a pelúcia do meu pokemo preferido se tornou muito mais especial por ter você. Por algum motivo, você decidiu tirar uma foto sua com o mimikyu com a minha câmera e eu olho aquilo com tanto afeto que quase uso de wallpaper. Tudo isso tão dedicado, isso me deixa emocionado. Não há um único dia que eu não me lembre dos desenhos que você me envia, o quadro emoldurado do seu desenho preferido em que posso ver todos os dias molda meu caráter com mais afeto do que eu poderia imaginar poder construir. De verdade, seja pelo necessarianismo de Spinoza ou as escolhas que fazemos para ir contra o fluxo do absurdo de Albert Camus, seja o destino ou seja uma escolha, seja uma coincidência ou não, conhecer você foi um marco histórico pra mim e eu sou grato que o universo fez isso acontecer.

Nesse momento, só precisamos lidar com o constragimento passageiro de viver aquilo que queremos. Se esconder em lugares escuros, traumatizando vovós, se escondendo de pais, bem, acontece! Só que acontece tudo isso com você e isso é, a estrela mais brilhante desse céu, por isso, viveria tudo de novo. Sendo direto e reto, sem invocar o Lord Cavalcanti, eu te amo.

[biksarddedrak]

I very much get what do you mean, but also... THE JOKE DOES NOT WORK because it is also my experience and therefore people are a hubris and I am one of them. Save me ideals of humanity, save me.

[sentimental-darkness]

Maybe I should start recruiting people who wanna destroy and change this world

But then it wouldn't really work without proper backing duh

[kerubimcrepin]

LIVEBLOG: Wakfu Season 4, Episode 2 [PART 1]

I miss the grittier, browner Bonta of older seasons...

Agardoes what Jorisn't.

(totally not a joke I've been making for months now)

Moooooom Yugo was MEAN to me. Ngl Qilby was so good in this season, his interactions with Eliatrope are filled to the brim with insane implications.

Even more movie asset reusage. Ughh. The tavern Kerubim talked to Bakara at would NOT still be standing. It's canonically underwater and underground and shit. Like the rest of Dofus era Bonta.

Kettle insulting a pan for being on fire.

Ush will only have the right to insult him if he can stop fucking cats. <3

Both of these are also asset reusages but I'm too lazy to track down from where. The woman is from Aux Tresors, and the man is from Wakfu season 2, is all I can tell without further inspection.

I'm sure there's more stuff I missed, but I'm already annoyed enough that they decided to cut costs at every single corner even without looking further into it...

He's still a catfucker. Sad, oh well.

My beautiful wife.

[start talking shit about Ush as loud as possible the second he is in a hearing distance, in an exaggerated, expository way]

This is some school locker bully behavior, made funnier by the fact that the person actually doing all the bullying is Ush.

The way Atch starts staring here, and Ush immediately says "not here to fight, lol" just confirms the fact that this conversation is 90% all about letting Ush know he is not welcome <3

Something that makes me extremely mentally ill is about to happen, chat.

When it's Wakfu cast, who are Joris's friends whom he wants to impress, it's all "Papa... you're being awfully selfish for not letting us go and fight together with you :))"

But when it's Ush, it's immediately "whether my little Jojo is home or not depends entirely on what the fuck you want from him." as if Joris isn't a 600yo politician and kind of should hear whatever Ush has to tell him, and as if there aren't huge eyes in the sky that he was interested in.

Conspiracy theory: one of the reasons Joris is still single (besides the aromanticism, horrible personality, misantrophy, 20 psychiatric disorders, not wanting to be in relationships—) is that 99% of people who have ever had a crush on Joris were afraid of disappearing under mysterious circumstances.

Kerubim's little mad, unamused look...

I want to point out, once again, that when you actually pay attention to the OVAs and this moment, Atcham and Kerubim always kinda... act like Joris is a child.

Joris expressed that the eyes in the sky concern him? They try to stop Ush from talking to him outright. Because they don't like Ush, because they don't want Joris to investigate this, and because they want him to stay home.

Joris expressed that he doesn't want them to fight Ush together with him because he doesn't want to see them hurt? They don't give a shit, and try to express that in the softest way possible that won't embarrass Joris in front of his friends.

It feels like a mix of holding Joris on a leash, but also trying to wrap him in a cotton wool. Sometimes it helps Joris, sometimes it's just patronizing.

Ngl they do have good reasons to protect their [checks notes] 600-year-old ambassador from this guy.

You have no idea what this moment means to us, Atcham fans. All three of us.

Kerubim's expression..... probably gauging how likely it is that Atcham might start screaming or clawing at something.

Words can't express how much of a Gift this entire scene is.

Atcham looks like he's about to lose his anger management badge. Kerubim looks like he's scared that Ush is going to die or kill Atcham in self-defense.

HE'S SO SCANDALIZED.

The anger management classes + not wanting to be arrested?

KERUBIM SO UNAMUSED.

Kerubim is probably so used to seeing Atcham freak the fuck out about things. It's his brother's special charm.

[wipes tear] He's learned to love the bomb.

...sorry for making references to the band glass animals. it will happen again,. if you dislike that maybe you should learn to love the bomb too.

[viridiave]

O Great and Powerful Viri I'm back again with flower language requests. I'm writing a drabble for Miguel/Darius and flowers are involved. Am unsure how yet, but would it be possible to give me a few flowers that describe them? If possible, some for Miguel, some for Darius, and some for both? 🥺🥺🥺🥺pls?

Heya Zazu! No praise necessary aksjak I might die before I can get to answer this question properly

To tell you the truth this was a challenge to put together because the Language of Flowers generally deals in sweetness and virtue so the ratio of good flowers to flowers that I would actually use to describe Miguel and Darius is like. 9:1. Plus I'm not overwhelmingly familiar with how this relationship tends to be portrayed outside of like. the Discord exchange we had a couple years ago - but I tried my best, so buckle down for the list I managed to cobble together from going through my dictionaries

MIGUEL Trying to look for flowers for a guy that's really more of a narrative tool than a character was tough. I'm not familiar with your game but this was the fanciest I could manage.

Anchusa - Falsehood Anemone - Forsaken Nettle - Cruelty Evening Primrose - Inconstancy

DARIUS Now Darius is a little easier and it did surprise me that at least in terms of what we actually see of him in-game, he has traits that can distinguish him enough from Miguel that I can compile a further list.

Adder's Tongue - Jealousy Corn-cockle - Peerless and proud Bramble - Envy Brunfelsia - Beware of false friends Calliopsis - Vanity Heath - Solitude Hollyhock - Ambition

If this looks a bit barren to you, don't worry - I took the liberty of gathering other flowers that could be used to describe them both because they have a NUMBER of overlapping themes, though I'm not sure how well they can fit into your vision:

Aloe - Bitterness and pain Aspen - Lamentation Bay leaf - I change but in death Bilberry - Treachery Narcissus - Egotism Darnel - Vice Tamarisk - Crime

And now as for the list that'll accommodate them being a couple, I've actually got a couple here that MIGHT help? Lemme try to do what I did with the Eisenbright list real quick:

All is not gold that glistens (Bartonia aurea), but riches (California Poppy) tempt (Quince) me all the same. It is a dangerous pleasure (Tuberose) to pursue its luster, but in my world there is little else to cling to (Monkshood, Misantrophy / Scabiosa, I have lost all). By hook or by crook (Argemone), glory will be mine (Laurel).

There is no unalloyed good in this world (Lapageria). You and I, at the bottom of the world - buried in delusions of rare worth (Achimines). You understand this intoxication (Heliotrope) better than anyone.

In the dead of night (Catchfly), cling to me (Chickweed).

Lemme know if none of this fits what you had in mind lmao I don't have 20/20 vision on this pair at ALL

[beevean]

I've seen this fandom idea float around that at the end of every route in ShTH, (an increasingly irked lol) Silver sends Shadow back in time so he can go through a different route. On the one hand, it intrigues me: I find it a bit... disingenuous, I guess, that there's ten possible endings that all have to be seen before Shadow gets the golden ending, but Sega's statement on the matter is that the 100% Hero ending is the only canon one. But then on the other hand, I feel like some endings are so disastrous for Shadow's psyche that I think it's utterly impossible for him to go achieve a better ending after a timeloop. But I haven't played the game myself; any ideas for how this could work out? ^-^

Personally, I never had any issue with having to see all endings of ShTH from a story standpoint (from a gameplay one, I understand)

They're What Ifs. They show you how radically Shadow's life can change depending on his choices. They're not canon, obviously, because some of them end with implied planetary destruction. But you can see how Shadow would become if he gave in to his homicidal impulses, if he simply acted selfishly, if he prioritized his rivalry with Sonic, etc.

Anyway! As you said, a timeloop would be very hard to justify, because imagine sending Pure Dark Shadow back to Westopolis, when he sank to such levels of misantrophy that he basically out-evils Black Doom. Why would he pick Sonic's side? Unless Silver also gives him amnesia. Again :P

[flower-often]

January 11

TOday's flower is Wolfbane, scientific name Aconitum napellus

It is also known as monkshood

Today's a poisonous plant will be familiar to those who have read Agatha Christie, as it appeared in 4:50 from Paddington. It is native and endemic to western and central europe. it is poisonous both upon ingestion and touch.

i must admit, i chose this flower for two reasons: its symbolism, and the fact that i have an interest in poison.

it symbolises caution, misantrophy and treachery. i first discovered its symbolism due to a story i read ages ago and when the author's note said they used this as foreshadowing, i fell in love with that.

i will try not to skip more days, thank you all for being gracious

[justgotpunched]

During covid I went on a walk everyday (I live in a forest it was social distancing safe) and I listened to the magnus archives and thought abt how I could be lighthouse lonely only to realize once that I dont want to be lonely and no amount of romantisation will make it pleasant. I thought, thr cynism and misantrophy will not make me content, being edgy for the sake of it will not make me happy, if I dont cherish the relationships and connections I have, the beauty of these moments alone when I would stare at the sunrays reflected in the river would become mundane and repetitive. When you dont spend time with others you focus on the world outside, so for me it loses this novelty. And I went back home and I befriended my sister, I talked to my father and gossiped with my mother and now when I go to the path along the river it always surprises me how beautiful it is.

Anyway I fucking love the magnus archives

[miasma-my-asthma]

One day I was walking at night with my dog, but the sky was so fucking bright due to light pollution and someone was making a huge party like 3 blocks away that was so fucking loud I could hear it and I legit started having headaches.

It was so bad I could feel the misantrophy brewing within me, genuine hatred for humanity indulcing.

[inseparabiles]

Reddit is an interesting social experiment and I'm this close to giving up with society. I know misantrophy is not the answer to the rising alt right and the sociopathic nature of our conservative-capitalist society, but it is very hard not to wish for annihilation at this point.

I'm having trouble wishing well for a species that wants to erase my existence.

Also, if somebody can explain to me why the trans flags of this said social experiment are nearly universally untouched, I need to hear it because I can't wrap my head around an environment that is somehow perfectly okay with trans people but will ceaselessly attempt to erase homosexuality.

[sullenwizard]

hate going outside in the afternoons theres so many people everywhere... teens hanging out and kids free from school screaming all day in the streets and people getting off of work and elderlies sitting outside *list goes on with rapid misantrophy* but its the only time of day that stores are open where i also dont get scorched by the sun. i forgot how much i loathe summer for these reasons. dont get me startet on the construction projects and the weddings. theres so many noises