#mind numbing

[haxnmor]

I sometimes wish I was smaller than what I am now. I understand that some people like to be tall and I'll admit it has its upsides. But being a tall loud guy isn't really an option where I live. I can't even wear what I like because people will just be more afraid of me (I dress in a punk like fashion).

I can literally wear a just a hoodie and jeans and some people actually try to avoid me. It's not everyone but it does happen. It's even worse when I'm singing quietly I just look crazy to other people.

I can't be silent but I also can't be loud so I'm sorta forced to be someone I'm not in public. Which sucks because the more I'm not myself the more numb I start to feel.....I'm tired of feeling numb.....

Ps: for those wondering my height, I'm 6'3

[elvendeity]

the only way to navigate the internet is to literally just ignore what doesn't serve you..what used to be an adventure through a dense forest now feels like walking through a crowd screaming at each other, unless you're very particular what you engage with. what used to be tall lush trees with the occasional tavern or inn full of a celebrating crowd now is a densely packed mass of people parroting each other's opinions or giving their opinions on others' opinions... everything lacks originality, and unless you meditate you cannot block the noise so to speak. focus on simply what you crave and follow it away from the crowd. to effectively do this you must let go. not everything needs to be reacted to, not everything deserves your time. you're not going to change the opinions of others nor are you going to effectively shush the crowd. ever. make your peace with it. all of this disappears when you shut your phone off, don't let it disturb your peace when you're on it. it can rot your brain.

[yourvenomwaslethal]

And the desire to be a surface to get people's cigarette stubbed out on, is overwhelming.

[i-ex1st-ig]

only thing keeping me sane

[splendidsinner]

Popping pills smoking weed boozing

fucking faking it ciggys extra dirty tequila

ain’t nothing but Melancholia in Bucholia

[2kyo7]

Im speechless

[hissugarsedatesme]

What my mind sounded like after getting that first hit

Also what my mind sounded like the first good day of recovery

[purpleisbeyondneutral]

Exploration kind of, going with what the scribble looked like

[kurazaru]

Whenever my mind starts thinking abt shit i dont wanna think about and i can't stop, i just put on my earphones and play IDOL by Yoasobi on FULL VOLUME. The song is already so loud, putting it on full volume on my earphones makes it so that i cant think about anything else lmao. Works like a charm lol, try it if u want

[dumbnotstupidfuck]

this photo will have pop culture significance for years to come holy shit

[sickrelations]

[i-ex1st-ig]

a never ending war

[aesha-101]

I had the most mind numbing conversation with someone recently, that being about horror.

They believed horror movies aren't meant to scare you, or at the very least try.

What the fuck?

Why the fuck?

How the fuck?

I don't understand the fucking thought process behind this

[lovelykil]

middle school Izuku is reallyyyy clingy !! He wants to hold your hand everywhere you two go, intertwine fingers, talk to you all the time, follow you everywhere, hold you, cuddle you, kiss you— anything that involves just being with you.

he's never been with anyone quite like you, well he hasn't ever been in a relationship period. You're the first person ever to show him an interest in his weird self, now he's addicted to your love, you.

he worries his ass off when you don't reply within seconds after he sends you a message, the overthinking consumes his mind. He paces around his room, mumbling nonsense until his phone finally dings.

y/n !! (gf!!)

HII SORRY I'm here now izuuu

he's quick to reply, practically almost dropping his phone when reaching over in excitement and anxiousness.

izu !! (bf !!)

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤit's okay! Glad you're here now :]

whenever you come over after school he's a mess of emotions, flustered, nervous, anxious, he's gonna for sure throw up when you actually step foot in his house. He actually has a girl in his home, and it wasn't just any girl... his GIRLFRIEND!

let's just say he avoids showing you his room for.. obvious reasons so you two stay put on the couch. The TV is playing, the TV he's supposed to be watching with you but he can't help but look over at you every second.

he looks at your hand, he wants to hold it badly. He looks at your lap, he wants to lay his head there badly. He looks at your chest...

you're quick to grab his hand and hold it with yours, no words are exchanged just a quick loving smile then you return back to the TV.

he blushes, you blush. He blushes for various reasons while you blush for just one in particular. You grabbed his hand, you took the first move. He stared at your chest was he a pervert? You grabbed his hand right when he kept eyeing it, did you read his mind? You smiled at him— you.. just YOU !!

his mind is mush, you completely broke him.

[incredubious]

WHAT'S ON THE MENU ?! (no actual knuckles in the special he's still stomping you to death with his hooves)

[ mini print with stand available here ! ]

[sidsinning]

The pure fucking ANGUISH on Ichigo's face remembering the last moment he thought he'd ever see Rukia,,,the GRIEF as if she died when she's actually fine but just can't see him anymore,,,,bro needs her in his life, he can't be satisfied with anything less,,,,

Yeah ofc he misses his powers for more reasons than Rukia disappearing, but the sorrow he felt from her absence was the catalyst for finally activating his fullbring,,,

Ichigo crying sobbing throwing up on the inside after she leaves while Rukia is just chillin in SS is so heiwiwjrfjshsjwj,,, lover boy relax she's doing fine,,,,pathetic (affectionate),,,