#mike logan law and order

[laneysmusings]

At Ease

₊˚.༄ Pairing: Mike Logan x GN reader

₊˚.༄ Synopsis: you get a phone call and suddenly, everything around you is spinning and before you know it, you're calling the only person who knows how to help — or, essentially, the one where Mike comforts you through a panic attack.

₊˚.༄ Warnings: explicit mentioning of a panic attack, medication (assumed sedative or anti-anxiety medication, explained no further beyond a little white pill), talking down and breathing exercises, words and language describing the feeling of a panic attack and the sense of doom (written partially by my own experiences having them, but if there are any flagrant inaccuracies let me know so I can better depict this in the future) use of pet names/terms of endearment such as sweetheart, mentions of food

Everything’s in a haze after that call and suddenly you can’t really breathe. 

The way your chest feels like it is both being cleaved apart and wedged in a trash compactor makes you reach for that unlabeled orange pill bottle in your bag in desperation, catching the way your hands tremble at unlatching and unzipping and rifling through the junk at the bottom of the bag you didn’t get a chance to clean out to find it and quickly pop the top. Three perfect white little pills are tipped from the bottle onto the lid and then dropped onto your awaiting tongue. They turn to a sticky-tacky feel the second they meet your spit from your slick mouth, clung to your tongue. 

The tip of your tongue presses to your teeth before flicking back those little tacky white pills into your throat and swallowing, followed by deep gulps of water that are more than you need but it's better to feel your throat seize around the water than around nothing. 

Your hands are moving on their own accord, forgetting to lock the doors to your office, pacing and trying to think of what to do as you just sit in the panic as you wait for your medication to kick in and bring ease blanketing over you — you’re calling him before you can stop yourself or even realize that you’re methodically dialing his number, muscle memory and a greater sense of preservation taking over as you continue to shake, nearly misdialing before you put the call through. 

It's not like what they say when the doctors or your friends ask if you feel that you’ll die or that the world is going to end. You feel like everything is disintegrating, like you’re drowning inside yourself while you remain a vessel, a husk. It's all hot but it's all freezing your skin is too warm and you can feel the sweat under your sweater that’s clinging to your skin and you want to peel it off but the second you do you’d freeze and shake even harder and everything hurts but its not pain pain its this weird sense and — 

“Yeah sweetheart?” 

Fuck. 

Fuck, fuck fuck fucking fuck. 

Barely getting your voice to work, you manage a stuttery hey halfway through him asking what was up and he knows, of course he knows.

He’s seen this go down before and watched as you dissolved before him once about who knows what, and you can hear Mike’s tone change and that he’s going to call you back in just a second, “just one, gotta’ get to a place I can hear you. Hold on, I’ll be right back I’m not goin’ anywhere,” and hangs up. 

You wait, just hovering by the phone and feeling the sense of panic begin to just gnaw at your innards like some weird internal manifestation of a dread-vulture, picking you apart, a weird spin on guilt and the tale of Prometheus but instead of your liver the cursed bird just rips and tears at your stomach and all the soul in you. 

Mike calls back, and you jolt at the shrill noise, forgetting how quiet it was in your office barring your faltering, panting in and out breath before you pick up and he’s softly asking you where you are and if he needs to come get you. You’re shaking your head even though he can’t see it but you know he can just sense it, see it even though it's over the phone and Mike’s miles away and god it hurts. “Got it, ‘kay? I’ll stay on as long as y’need.”  

“It’s okay, you’re going to be okay,” he’s immediately carrying on and the tears are welling at your eyes because no it does not feel like anything’s okay, that nothing ever will be okay but you sniff and hum out a note in response so Mike knows you hear him, “you safe and sound right now?” 

“Y-yeah, in my of-office.”

It’s like forcibly pulling teeth to get you to talk right now and not like you don’t want to, it's just like wrenching into yourself to find the ability to even speak, and sure his voice is helping it always does knowing that he’s here for you, that he’s not judging and is just concerned and cares and you get to tell that little voice in your head that sounds louder than normal that no, he does care about you and does not think of a burden. he loves you and that’s real, this isn’t real — but he is. 

“Did’ya take your meds? Water and snack?” 

“Took meds ‘n water, no snack,” you murmur into the phone receiver, the cord wound around your finger until it's tight enough to indent your skin, now feeling the pulse in your digit. It's nearly childish the way Mike phrases it but it's true — your attacks roll through you so much worse when you don’t take care of yourself and run on low energy. 

You know he’s going to ask if you can get one and tell him before he even questions that you’ll grab a spare granola bar from your desk in a second but after sitting by the phone you don’t feel like you can even move let alone get up. 

“Stay put then for a bit,” Mike pauses and you can just picture his furrowed brows and him sitting somewhere quiet or standing out in the hall, away from the casual chaos of the precinct’s bullpen, but you still hear muffled noise. “Want to do that breathin’ thing or the senses exercize you do wit’me when I call you after a nightmare or a panic attack?” 

It's quiet for a beat before you get the words out, your voice soft in a way that hurts his heart through the phone. “Yes please.” 

You hear him inhale into the receiver before shuffling. “Breathin’ first, ‘kay sweetheart?” 

You’ve noted that Mike’s heavy-handed with the terms of endearment and it makes your heart cease from its panicked seizes to flutter every once in a while, bringing a watery smile to your face, eyes still stinging from the tears. “Inhale for me, four seconds, I’ll count you down.” 

He pauses and waits for a moment, and you tilt your head back and feel your throat bob tight. “Four.” 

Inhaling slowly, your breath stutters as you begin to breathe in gradually. 

“Three.” 

The milliseconds pan out and you make it to two and shakily inhale to him saying one. 

“Hold it, counting down.” 

“Four.” 

Your nostrils flare as your lungs start to fight. Mike can hear you through the phone and he’s weaving through people while glancing down at his watch and marking the seconds. 

“Three, y’got this baby.” 

Tuning out, you don’t hear the signal for two or one second left and already start exhaling when he tells you “Exhale.” 

Your head feels more solid compared to the hollow bees-nest feel of earlier and your lungs no longer shake so viscerally, you follow along with the countdown and follow when Mike asks you to repeat and repeat and repeat until he asks “How’re you feeling?” 

“Better,” you blink, still not really present and now regretting not asking him to come and get you but you’re not going to say it, you’d feel worse if you had to ask after assuring him that it was not needed, “not good, but a bit better.” 

“That’s a start, alright, what can you feel? Five things if you can manage.” 

It takes you a second, thumb swiping the plastic of the phone receiver in your hand and you tell him that, following with the desk beneath you that you’re sitting on. The soft itch of your sweater is said next, then you falter when your hand brushes against your skin and you tell him you feel the ring on your finger, the both of you noting the slight lift in your voice when you say it, and you end with the feel of your skin under your hands. 

“Good, taste anything?” 

“The mints I had earlier, my meds slightly. Salt?” 

He laughs a little at the way you question the taste of salt, knowing it's from the frenzied panic tears but the way your voice lifts amuses him. “‘Kay, smell?” 

You sniff, nose upturning. “Must.” 

“C’mon now.” 

“Must and dust,” you mouth back before sighing, “my perfume a lil’bit and my hand lotion.” You’re moving finally into the chair behind your desk and ease into it, scooting close to the desk and toy with the cord on the phone again, curled around your finger just like he is.

“Alright, let me know what you see.” 

You oblige, not noting the sounds in the background on his call and how it muffles at some point but you look around your office, “I see the books on the shelves, the flowers I was given last week,” you list off, tilting in your chair to look away and you hear steps nearing your office. That seize in your chest constricts and you’re now on alert and it feels like you’re about to regress back and before you can tell him that you need to hang up, the door opens. 

Sighing and then grinning, you tell him one last thing before the two of you hang up. 

“And I see you too.”

[mikelogan]

LAW & ORDER SEASON 2

Mike Logan: Smirky Edition (Part 1)

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LAW & ORDER 2x16 Vengeance

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The law and order fanart that caters to no one's needs but my own

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NSFW ALPHABET

THE MIKE LOGAN EDITION

A - Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Mike is attentive, he wants to make sure you’re feeling good and how you’re feeling after it. He doesn’t want to go too hard or let anything he does affect you too much. He’ll cuddle you if you want his cuddles, wrapping you up in his strong arms and will carry to your en-suite bathroom, where he’ll be so gentle yet affectionate as he helps wash his cum off and massage your sore muscles. Mike will then carry you back to bed and watch as you fall asleep in his arms.

B - Body part (their favourite body part of theirs and their partner’s body)

Mike obviously likes his hair (is that even a body part?) but he likes his tongue and his large hands as he can do so much with them both, leaving you a puddle… and he’s a typical man who knows how good his dick is. Mike is a guy’s guy and he is totally open to a nice pair of breasts or a nice ass, he is going to love on your body as if it’s sacred to him.

C - Cum (anything to do with cum basically…)

Again, Mike is such a guy so he loves cumming on your breasts or ass or tapping his cock against her open mouth as he cums and seeing your tongue painted white. I think when it’s a more serious relationship, Mike isn’t against cumming inside without protection too.

D - Dirty Secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Mike is known for being quite the ladies man, and something he’s never done but always had an interest in doing is a threesome with you. Mike also is a fan of stripteases.

E - Experience (how experienced are they, do they know what they are doing?)

Oh Mike is very well versed in the bedroom, he knows exactly what he’s doing and knows exactly how to leave you absolutely wrecked.

F - Favourite Position (again, pretty self explanatory…)

Cowgirl, as it allows him access to every part of your body. But he also enjoys doing doggystyle with you.

G - Goofy (are they more serious in the moment or are they more humorous?)

Mike is quite flexible in this aspect, but it takes a while before he can be truly himself with you and this in bed too. As your relationship with him progresses, you see Mike becoming more and more goofy and more playful too.

H - Hair (how well groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes?)

He’s a guy who takes good care of his hair up top but he isn’t as particular down below and only trims it so it’s not unruly or too much. He likes his body hair, and so do you and your hands are quick to roam his broad chest, running through his chest hair.

I - Intimacy (how are they during the moment? Are they romantic?)

Mike is more and more romantic as you date longer and longer. That’s not saying he ain’t romantic, he knows how to wine and dine and how to treat a woman very well. One night stands are still treated with well and with respect, but he opens more and more as he knows you’re the one for him - he doesn’t open up that easily and when he does, he’s a lovesick puppy head over heels in love. Mike is 100% a gentleman throughout though in many ways.

J - Jack Off (masturbation…)

Oh this guy has a high yearn level and he’s loyal, so if he can’t be with you or you’re not in the mood or something, Mike jacks himself off. He likes it a lot when you do a striptease for him, his large hand working his cock as you shimmy for him in itty-bitty lingerie. Sometimes he’ll jack off in the shower or over the phone to you. Oh he also loves mutual masturbation, he gets off seeing you reach your own peak.

K - Kink (what are their kink/s?)

Mike doesn’t like anything too kinky or risky, he’s a cop. He loves seeing you in lingerie and you giving him stripteases, oh and he has a food kink for sure. Roleplay is also a kink that Mike has, and his handcuffs have found their way into your sex life on multiple occasions. Dirty talk comes so easily to Mike too. He loves cumming into you without protection, but he doesn’t quite have a breeding kink? Also with the stress of his job, Mike ain’t against giving up control in the bedroom and loves bathtub/shower sex.

L - Location (where are their favourite places to do the do?)

Oh Mike will do it primarily in the safety of your home or somewhere away from prying eyes. He’s a cop and can’t risk getting blackmailed or caught, and won’t risk your reputation either. Hotel rooms are a good place for him, or if you’re on vacation together somewhere where nobody knows you both. Jacuzzi sex has definitely happened once or twice…

M - Motivation (what turns them on, what gets them going?)

Anything you do gets Mike raring to go. He’s just that kind of guy! He loves seeing you wet for him or you holding back your moans. You in lingerie is a huge biggie, same goes for swimwear and pretty dresses. There have been galas or parties where he’s been hard as a rock seeing you all dolled up in a slinky dress. Also you taking care of him, showing him love and affection gets Mike so loving on you.

N - No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs?)

Mike is big on consent, he won’t do anything you’re against or anything too painful. He’s never going to do anything if you’re drunk either as he knows your inhibitions are lowered from the alcohol.

O - Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill etc)

Mike is a god when it comes to giving you oral sex, you feel like you’ve been sent to heaven when his talented tongue brings you to orgasm after orgasm. He loves it so much when you suck his dick. You’re both giving people, and so you’re both well taken care of!

P - Pace (are they fast and rough, soft and sensual?)

It depends, and it can depend on his caseload on how Mike fucks. If he’s stressed also, he isn’t a just fuck fast and rough, he sometimes needs t that soft sensual sex to relax him. When you’re more serious about each other also, the soft sensual sex happens just as often as the rough fast fucks.

Q - Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often etc.)

100% a fan of quickies. Mike knows he has an unpredictable schedule due to the cases he works as a police detective and that he doesn’t always have the time to fuck you as long as he’d like and so quickies do happen. But he is sure to be attentive and gives 110%.

R - Risk (are they game to experiment? Do they take risks?)

Mike does like a risk, but he knows to make educated risks? The riskier stuff happens in the privacy of your own home or away on vacation, like that time where you both skinny dipped in Barbados or did a stranger roleplay in a bar in Manhattan. Mike isn’t against experimenting either. He doesn’t do pegging at all.

S - Stamina (how many rounds can they go? How long do they last?)

Mike goes to the gym to keep fit for work, and therefore has a good amount of stamina that he uses to wreck you in bed. He was quite the ladies man before he met you, and therefore also built up a great recovery period. Mike isn’t against using viagra either as he ages, so that helps also and he isn’t against using his hands or mouth to keep you cumming as he recovers from his own.

T - Toys (do they own toys, do they use toys? on a partner or themselves?)

Mike isn’t the biggest fan of toys being used on himself to be honest. It’s not that he’s against them, it’s just he isn’t that experienced with them and prefers to use them on you. However if he had to choose one, it’d be that vibrating cockring you bought for him to try out. As a gift back to you, he got you a remote control vibrator, which he loves to use on you nonstop.

U - Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Mike Logan is the king of teasing. He’s quite the typical guy in that regard, not quite a playboy but just so boyish? He knows exactly how to get your body riled up and then leave you literally so wanton for him.

V - Volume (how loud are they, what sounds do they make etc?)

Dirty talk is easy to Mike, and he loves it when you do it. He can be surprisingly loud at times but also surprisingly quiet at times, it depends on what is going on in his life and career. Oh he grunts and groans a lot, burying his head in the crook of your neck or in your cleavage as he does.

W - Wild Card (random headcanon)

He absolutely adores it when you ride his thigh or sit on his lap. It seems so vanilla seeing how much more you do together, but it has Mike crazy for those moments.

X - X-Ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Have you seen the size of this guy? Mike Logan has a big cock, and he knows how to use it! He’s thick with nice sized balls that aren’t too big and he’s cut, which surprised you. Veiny as heck too.

Y - Yearning (how high is their sex drive)

A high sex drive without a doubt. Mike isn’t an addict so to speak, he’s just a guy who loves to use sex as an expression of want and love. He finds it hard at first to use his words in relationships so sex is an easy way for him. But when he experienced you for the first time, felt actual love and depth… well sex became even more of an expression for him even though he opens up more with his words.

Z - Zzz (how quickly do they fall asleep afterwards)

Mike isn’t one to fall right asleep, he is somewhat sleepy but will take care of you and make sure you’re well taken care of before thinking about himself. Sometimes he’ll wrap you up in his arms and snuggle you, watching as you drift off to sleep before doing the same himself.

[galcake534]

This entire scene lives in my head rent free.

No wonder this episode was named “mayhem” when you have Mike Logan losing his temper like this.

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So the big thing I kept laughing at as I was editing these post-scan was the fact of when I put it up next to the actual references? I kept underestimating how LARGE THIS MAN'S HAIR WAS IN THE 90'S... so I kept having to fix things and rescan them, oi.

I really like the pink and orange undertones in this one, really the range of colors period is super pleasing to me.

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[laneysmusings]

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! I'm glad I was able to provide some joy!

Secondly: PLEASE expand on those intimacy issues, I've got some popcorn (and maybe some tissues) ready 🍿

Based off this headcanon: ₊˚✦ cuddle bug but doesn’t look like it immediately — like sure he’s probably got some weird stuff with intimacy beyond sex (I can do a WHOLE other set of headcanons about this man’s issues with intimacy, both sexual and non sexual)

₊˚.༄ Mike Logan Intimacy Headcanons

₊˚✦ he’s presented in the show as a womanizer or a tomcat, not settling down and more-so dating around and sleeping with women casually. In my brain, that frequency of sex with no nonsexual intimacy makes me think he’s had little to no experience with genuine care

₊˚✦ not as if life never handed him opportunities, but Mike doesn’t attach well and hates change even more, seen in his handling of changes in partners from Max to Phil and Phil to Lennie. (The former has more trauma involved but it’s neither the place or time to get into that mess)

₊˚✦ Mike’s just too closed off to comfortably/easily involve himself with a partner and be intimate nonsexually, like being open and talking about things, communicate. I think he struggles with how he views himself and treats himself, and in turn can’t really give everything when he’s got nothing he can even give himself if that makes sense?

₊˚✦ he's had such an unkind home life, between his abusive father and even more abusive mother, any attachment or closeness others seek with him I can see Mike fighting off. Biting the hand that's trying to feed him, y'know? We see it with Lennie when he takes Phil's place and Mike dismisses him and bickers, biting at him. Initially, he's not willing to open up for fear of being vulnerable enough to get hurt again.

₊˚✦ But when you do get him to open up? that luxury of getting to know him slowly and intimately, taking down the walls brick by brick, it's beautiful. I just know that you have to take time, in words or actions, to show him that you aren't going anywhere, anytime soon. That does mean having to trudge through the casual stage of dating and being something different, something more and real with him than the flings he's been known to have (I'm in love with a slut, so what)

₊˚✦ The loyalty Mike shows? his dedication to others around him once he knows that they are not leaving is so vast and deep. It's shown with his partners and those he works with. He entrusts his life with them, working where he does and as he does. Mike eventually entrusts his life with you too.

₊˚✦ with the sexual intimacy, he's not all too hesitant to fuck first and ask questions later, my beloved hoe, but Mike can hold out depending on his relationship. A monogamous king with questionable taste, he can wait a moderate time at least until getting to bed. But not the most chaste partner you'll have. He's got energy, gotta' be spent somewhere.

₊˚✦ when he is attached, with a whole established relationship, he's spending his weekends at your place until the two of you eventually rent and live together. A small apartment with big windows, probably in Brooklyn. He's at your hip when he realizes you aren't going anywhere, and most of your time is lazing about in either of your apartments, in bed, in bed, and on outings where he can wrap his arm around your waist with his hand in your back pants pocket.

₊˚✦ Mike's a bed hog and there's specifically a scene in Sex and the City where a character played by the same actor that plays Mike tugs his love interest back into bed when getting up. It lives in my head rent-free, it should live in all of y'alls heads rent-free, and I say with confidence that Mike sleeps in on his weekends and refuses to be the first to rise from the sheets unless he's back beneath them within several minutes.

₊˚✦ he will invade your personal space, when you're working at home or doing a craft, and will either participate or be near you while you're doing things if he can't help or join. Mike just plays but eventually can learn the concept of parallel play and sharing the space instead of needing to be literally on top of you.

₊˚✦ when Mike gets home from a long or bad day, he usually goes to your shared home and changes into softer clothes then joins you on the couch. You thread your fingers through his hair and massage his scalp and temples, making him bury his face into your stomach as he lays his head on your lap, groaning as you manually shed the day away and send him melting into you.

₊˚✦ Before you two shared a living space, he would go to yours on rougher days or just pick you up on his drive home, eager to be with you and around the comfort you bring. Mike can isolate but you know when to press him to talk and when to just let him decompress in quiet.

₊˚✦ overall, he's hard to get to open up but you won't get him to leave once you do. You put in the effort, the time to getting to know him and gain his loyalty and adoration — you're the one that's stuck with him. And you couldn't be happier.

[mikelogan]

EXILED: A LAW & ORDER MOVIE (1998) dir. Jean de Segonzac

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LAW & ORDER: CRIMINAL INTENT 5x06 In the Wee Small Hours Part 1

Mike Logan & Bobby Goren: Major Case Squad's Frank Sinatra Experts

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Law & Order - ‘ The Originals’

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Mike Logan and his love of plaid ties.