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look i barely made $17 last year from my red bubble sales but their new policy is literally theft and it's going to kill the site
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I’m replaying act 1 (for the fifth time) and when Gale is explaining his condition to you he mentions he’s “never told another living soul” about it, except for Tara. You’re telling me this man shut himself up in his tower for an entire year and didn’t tell anyone why and no one ever bothered to find out? He has so few people who care about him in his life that he fell into a depression and disappeared for a year and NO ONE thought to go and check on him and find out what was wrong? He’s had no one but Tara providing help and support until he meets Tav???????
#I’m just#this is my Astarion run but holy shit GALE#like no wonder he’s a little bit insane#how isolated has he been his whole life that he has no one but his cat who cares enough to take care of him#the way he speaks about his mother I thought they’d be pretty close but even she never found out about the orb??#either she shrugged off her brilliant son turning into a depressed recluse or she never bothered to check on him at all#and tbh Gale might not even realize that’s Not Ideal#maybe he’s always been held at a distance by his family#I have hcs about this actually#anyway that fucked me up this time#the way he begs tav for help finding items to feed the orb like he’s fully expecting to be shot down and left behind#ughhhhhhh I am Upset about the wizard again friends#bg3#baldur’s gate 3#gale of waterdeep#I didn’t even go into how Mystra also abandoned him at the same time#so he was going through a break up and a crisis of faith and being a human bomb all at once#🥲
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top 5 fandoms?
oooh, okay! so my top 5 to hang out in (which is not necessarily the same as stuff I draw fan art of, but ones where I’ve gone to group meet ups at conventions, attended watch parties/events for, actively seek out the tags for on twitter, etc) are probably
-Kamen Rider
-the bitter Sam fan side of SPN
-DMBJ
-Pacific Rim
-Guardian/Zhen Hun or the Yakuza franchise
#I avoid a lot of fandom spaces now because the vibe isn’t super fun and I dislike the elevator pitch trend people have adopted#when talking abt media like I fully did not give a shit about dunmeshi until a friend convinced me to read it bc the way everyone#on twitter talked about it was boring as hell so I’m not interested in going beyond talking to two friends abt it#and generally keep it down to the tried and true system of ‘find five friends and chat about it offline’ method of enjoying things#but the above five things are things where I actively go out to engage with or talk to other people about#tbh fan art is a lot like shaking loose thoughts from my brain and forcing them to take a coherent shape on paper#ANYWAY I think the JSAMN fandom might replace one of these at some point. everyone is very nice 🥺
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how do you cut someone off
#like without drifting apart gradually bc tbh i dont wanna be close friends anymore#i feel constantly misunderstood and perpetually weighed down in this person's presence#we're close friends but i dont even like her anymore#and i feel BAD about it but i just cant stand their ass! everything feels like a competition with them. everything feels miserable.#it's definitely partially my own fault bc i do a lot of comparing due to our laundry list of similarities#but it's partially their fault bc shes always adding fuel to the fire#like we can never just agree on things#and whenever i try to balance myself and stop being so competitive here she comes with her damn#need to make even more comparisons between us#also like. they cannot just shut up about how hard life is#Trust me i know! i take 3 pills daily for psychological issues. i have been since i was 18#like they always have to talk about how haaaaard having ADHD is how difficult their life is like#it's one thing to open up to your friends and vent every so often and another to make your illness your entire personality#i rant about all my issues in depth on tumblr BECAUSE i know better than to dump all that onto my friends who are already struggling#im not saying it's Trauma Dumping to talk abt ur problems but holy shit in moderation#like i dont have the mental or emotional capacity for this!!!!#that might sound really mean and god forbid extremely individualistic but it's truly because#im trying to HEAL im trying to RECOVER#and with someone constantly messaging me about their ailments and symptoms and struggles! well it makes me feel like we're both bound to be#stuck foreverrrr#also apart from that i dont enjoy their company. they used to be interesting and now they're just negative half the time if not more and#constantly playing the devils advocate for seemingly no real reason#im not perfect either in fact i can be a real asshole in friendship im aware. but this one particular friend has been pissing me off for#over a year and that has to mean something#like why now and why for this long?#if it really is a Me Problem then okay! like i fucking suck im horrible or whatever lets not be friends so that she can be happier!#idgaf anymore maybe im the bad guy but either way we're better off apart#z.post
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my outfit for if i go into ng+ with this guy.
#changing it up a bit i need the helmet for poise and it looks kind of nice but i might change it#i don’t want to just dress the exact same as the npc LOL even though all his armor boosts shit…#i liked my uh blood soaked thing but tbh it was showing both my eyes when he only has one.#sote spoilers#anyway official review of the dlc: IT WAS GREAT!!!!!!#i think the balance was fine tbh i didn’t even have max scadutree shit i had like 15 at the end and it was okay. i didn’t follow any guides#for obtaining them either.#i do this gaius specifically needs some work not because of difficulty but because pretty sure him taking 99% of my health was a bug#think*#probably similar to the old bleed dogs.#so hopefully they look at that. outside of that i know radahn was a bit much but once i started using the deflecting tear#the fight genuinely became fun to me i was having a blast and it was effective.#but it is a bit much… and it’s definitely not my favorite boss LOL he’s probably one of my least favorites out of the dlc#but still he wasn’t too absurdly difficult once i got that down but that’s such a specific set up that i do wish it was more fun for#literally any other build as well.#anyway i think a solid 8.5/10 for me! i had a lot of fun and in terms of the lore it’s don’t think it’s That bad#but that’s not really my department so#gray.txt#i’m excited to play it again and actually be able to follow npc quests as well since i kinda fucked it up this run😭
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the amount I've been hoarding away some of the memes I've seen on the dash over the last week or so is so not okay for someone with as many drafts as me ashfjdh
#me: i want to focus on getting through all my drafts when i get some energy back#also me: but good & juicy memes........#I'm thinking I'm gonna lean more into doing whatever the hell pleases me once I get back to writing tbh#but I'm almost definitely throwing all the drafts into a paused queue that I won't start posting until they're all finished#will I reblog a meme or two to play with as I do that? probably. almost definitely.#fresh stuff always helps get my brain going again ahdjgsg#but know that drafts will be happening!!!! I did delete some stuff but like. not enough lmfao. I have too many great threads#that I can't bear to let go of and i've kinda accepted that at this point#sorry I'm so slow y'all pls know that me taking forever to get to shit has nothing to do with how much I'm enjoying our threads#the fact that I'm clinging to them despite wanting to start completely fresh & dump everything says a lot more about how much I love em all#anyway. may or may not write tonight? I'm going with the flow tonight & rn the flow is telling me to keep reading#I finished my reread of the second book in the millennium series last night (& stayed up way too late in order to do so ahdgksg)#& I've started my reread of the third today and I just. I can't stop. it's too good.#if I find the willpower to put it down at some point I might dabble in poking at smth but. if not perhaps tomorrow uvu#(also want to note I've been marking the books through my reread with pink page flags#whenever smth really smacks me in the face with how much byan was inspired in some way by lisbeth lmfao)#ANYWAY. love u guys!!! I'm lurking & hoping you're all doing well!!! 💜💜#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.
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also i turned 26 today and it was mostly just like. A Thursday. Got to work from home tho if i had to come into the office on my birthday i would've.............. prolly not done anything drastic but i wouldn't have liked that at all lol
pros: we ordered some Special Cookies (if u haven't tried alfajores u r Missing Out), hung out w partner, & their family sent nice messages. finally dipped my toes into franchise mode in planet zoo (so not following a set Theme but starting my own park from scratch with a Likely Overambitious habitat for Spectacled Caimans with an underwater viewing gallery. it's gonna be rad if i can avoid running out of money hhhh. i'll post pics when i've added foliage / rockwork / the actual critters lol) & we're about to do this week's destiny story update thing rn.
cons: my family was A Bit Weird abt it esp my aunt on my mom's side like she typed a whole thing in whatsapp which started with "I think about you almost every day" and then she deleted it when i didn't look at it within a few hours haha.
#viitalks#oh i also got some messages from Facebook Simps bc i forgot to turn off birthday notifs on my anon streamer acct lol#i felt very tbh creature abt it like not terribly high highs or low lows but it was good overall i think?#i think it's the same thing abt our Living Quarters (dark damp literally uncleanable) and my Undxed Whatever dulling things down but#if things continue to take their present course we might get Significant Help in the living situation department#as in. an apartment#bc the only way ppl in my generation get a place 2 live is if they're connected to older ppl with privilege or luck or both. and my partner#is. via their dad. so.............#yeagh#ig things seem like they'll turn out alr in the long run for us. barring like. the total collapse of society or the city running out of-#water. etc. lol#but uhhhhh Short Term im still v surprised at how bad i am @ coping with everyday routine shit#& by that i mean my complete absence of a routine#self dxed possibly fake adhd and autism which might just be laziness & social ineptitude instead FIGHT#coughs
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#guess whos sis might be pissed off at them despite me begging for help and explaining that im struggling and in pain#nobody gives a shit about me and my needs do they i never ficmong asked for his bullshit it wasnt supposed to he like this#stepsis promised she wouldnt flake but that stupid fuckong asshole hasnt responded to any messages im so done#she hasnt payed me for taking care of her cat AT ALL even tho ive been holding her for longer than was agreed on#it was supposed to be a simple job only take care of them until they were weaned and rehomed#she was supposed to get her cat aleady she keeps saying she has homes for them and changing her mind why the fuck is she doing this shit#plus the damn cat chewed my headphones in half so she owes me a new pair but i fuckong know she wont pay that back#tempted to rehome her cat since she ONLY asks for kitten pics and doesnt contact me for anything else not even to check in on her cat#im so fucking tired and done with everything especially since its gotten so much worse since the toe infection#i tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and tried and failed#and now moving at all is pure suffering so i definitely cant keep up cleaning after her asshole cat who apparently likes to shit everywhere#im tempted to hunt that stupid bitch down and force her to clean up every mess her fuckong cat made im so fuckong done with everything#doenst help i barly have any ebergy eber since he doent wanna be maets anynore xant even eat or sleep mucj cnat even love rogjy#so tired so pain juat eanna die i cant keep this shit up nothing is worth living for anymore tbh and now my sis is gonna make me feel worse#im going to lose my own cats befause of that atupid shitstain of a stepsister and uer cat im going to fuinkig vomit and kill so dnoe
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i'll try to finally start trying video game development as i am currently getting more space on my desktop lol. + i'll try to make more time to write originally again and also for music!
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#all while i study and review and do a bunch of other stuff like stuff with friends and wasting my time with nothing happily and yeah#admittedly true life is all about purpose. as in. purpose gives us a meaning to live no matter the purpose#and that's an interesting thing and unrelated but i am obsessed with hozier holy shit#idk the guy. really. speaks out to my heart with the way he does music and the way he thinks and. yeah#aaa hi good afternoon from me! i hope you all are well but if not i love you okay? <3 take care mwah!!#life is a mess rn but i prefer it this way than it being stagnant lol and it's both a good and bad mess yeah#anyway no more thoughts but i will make my theme soon. hopefully. and interact more once again#theme... fe3h brainrots have died down again oops so i think gbf fr! or maybe even ak or something else <3#might do a kaveh theme one day tbh. i am very indifferent about genshin now lol i just think the characters are a bit neat
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#hi sorry to ventpost on the poetry blog again#but i gotta write this out so i can get my brain to SHUT UP and maybe sleep. anyway.#its just so interesting because like. i fear there is something wrong with me. i fear i am in fact fucked up for no good reason#smth smth imposter syndrome except im the actual imposter#and like. the issue i keep coming back to right. there are two options.#either this is just The Way That I Am or it's some chemical imbalance in my brain that i inherited#so either i have to do work to change as an actual person or do work to find myself treatment#because again. no one is coming to save me. there is no miracle cure i can take to be a different person.#and the thing about me. i had changing. i hate doing work. i dont want to do any of that.#tbh the problem right now is i dont really want to do anything except read and sleep and stare at the wall so you know. par for the course.#but even under the best of circumstances im just. a lazy person. i dont want to do things and i dont.#and re: there are two options right. like fundamentally it doesn't matter because this is still something i am. who cares if its my fault.#i still have to deal with that. i still might just fucking torpedo my career and my life and every opportunity ive ever been given#because i simply can't be bothered. because i would rather waste my money and my time just fucking rotting.#and what gets to me the most is the opportunity part too. i am SO FUCKING LUCKY to have the people and the life and the resources i do#and yet im still like this#if it was just a question of me i think i'd be able to bear it#but thinking about all the people who took a chance on me and believe in me and like me for some fucking reason is crushing#and admitting i cant get it together would be letting them all down#but keeping on like this still feels horrible bc im similarly letting them down by lying and allowing them to believe im a good person#I KNOW THIS SOUNDS DRAMATIC but do keep in mind i am in fact actively lying and hiding and making up excuses. i promise there are fr issues#and like i know the important ppl will stay regardless but thats almost worse somehow?#im just so scared of going from a loved-because to a loved-despite#even though i think that's the best kind. but Its Different When Its Me because obviously it is#if it turns out i just need to switch meds im gonna feel so fucking stupid in a week#except this has been a reoccurring theme for much longer than that so. re: i fear this is just the way i am. sigh#okay enough this isnt doing shit time to pass out woooo#to delete
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If I ever see god, that christian bastard, I'll stab him in the eyes and throat.
#piece of shit god#ungrateful#i hate it here#and my life isnt even that hard so i imagine how other people must feel#its like he cant just make life worth living otherwise people might not kill themselves#this fuckers got a quota i guess#too bad i know for sure that my fiance went down if either of these two shits even exist#as if he would willing work for the upstairs#tbh hope one of the other religions took him in#they better take me too or else ill be charged with celestial patricide
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Oh to have an otherworldly being freeze time and help you figure out your shit. Wish that would happen to me forreal.
same <3 no but the concept is so funny if you think about it. some otherwordly being is like wow this guy (gender neutral) is absolutely hopeless. time for extreme measures to get them back on their feet lest they spend the rest of their life in this pathetic state.
#just the idea of an guardian-angel-like being (no specific religious association) being like#dude i can't have ANOTHER human soul spend 95% of their time on earth in misery#and have their flesh body die bc of some depression-induced illness and/or suicide#do you know how bad that'd be for my quota???#big corporate (no specific religious association) is already threatening to cut down my departments funding and i do NOT want to lose my jo#and if my boss (no specific religious association) finds out i'm taking such extreme measures to help you i'm dead#but whatever desperate times etc etc. and if i manage to help you i'll get a raise and might get promoted so it's a win win situation.#so. trauma-dump on me. let's start with your mother and how she never loved you...#ask#anonymous#tbh the more i think about the concept of frozen time to figure out your shit the more i think it wouldn't actually work sgdskj#like sure it'd be nice to have some time to relax without actual time actually passing#but how are you gonna figure out interpersonal problems if everything is frozen#also the problem is always CapitalismTM and that is not something that can be solved on a personal level...
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#one thing that has certainly not changed as i’ve moved from the b*ddie side of the fandom to the b*cktommy side#is the arrogance of some fans that look down on others because they have concerns about the show or think they missed some opportunities#that was very present on the b*ddie side when i was there (would imagine it still is) and apparently it’s also a theme over here lol#it’s pretty jarring when i compare it to my one of my other big fandom experiences (tvd)#like people were constantly shitting on the storylines and the writers and julie plec 😭#so many steroline fans were worried that they would ruin the ship once they got together lmfao#it’s just very different compared to this show and i don’t know if i really understand why?#because there are plenty of things to criticize this show about lmao#maybe because this show is clearly for adults and tvd was a young girl’s show? idk#it’s weird and both kinda suck in their own way ngl#anyway#oh and i’ve been thinking about the promo for episode 5 and there’s no way t*mmy is in that episode either lmao#i just don’t see where he would even fit in#know better than to even hope for a mention atp… lol#boy was i wrong in taking tim seriously when he said he liked t*mmy because he would be easy to incorporate into the dynamic of the 118#because he’s being treated like every other li b*ck and edd*e have ever had so far#which is really disappointing tbh!#the way he was treated last season sure made it seem like he was gonna be different but alas#certainly doesn’t seem to be the case anymore#i have some Thoughts on why that might be that might get me excommunicated so i’ll keep them to myself for now lol#anyway people have a lot of good reasons to be concerned because ik i am lmao
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fun fact: I actually have not 1, not 2, but 3 dedicated playlists of OST-style music for my various Guild Wars 2 AUs, and... that, of all ways, is the closest I get to "outlining" my stories. every sequence has a dedicated track that I picked out according to what I'd imagine playing in-game if it was an actual playable story arc in Guild Wars 2.
Regrowth's playlist has 59 songs and Flourish has 28.
then the Tideturners have one too, with a grand total of 22.
......... I don't have a problem,
#my posts#someday i might share some of them tbh#though at the moment there's so little context for these AUs that it'd probably not be particularly interesting yet lol#the boss battle and character themes are some of my favs#I'll give you one for peeking down here in the tags: Saoirse's main battle theme is 'Unforgiven' by Two Steps From Hell.#it's especially good because it even has 3 versions that would perfectly match up with her progression through the fight;#orchestral version is phase 1. instrumental is phase 2 adding drums. and final phase is the main version which adds a choir.#okay i'll give some more too if you're still down here lol but spoiler alert they're like 99% songs by Two Steps From Hell#'We Will Bury' You is the initial betrayal/encounter theme between Pirkko and Saoirse just before the battle starts#'Tragic Dragon' is the theme for Oblivion... Dragon of Null and Void. his true nature has always been a pitiful one.#'Science' is Pirkko's theme and I still love it a lot tbh#then there's 'Prelude to a Nightmare' as a general theme for Scarlet's ghost while she's still tied to Saoirse#'Gamechanger' and 'Where's Waldo' have to do with when Scarlet is in control of Saoirse and takes over the fight#when the latter starts playing you KNOW shit's about to get real. all inhibitions are out the window. it's do or die.#but on the flipside: Ceara post-Oblivion has some really emotional themes too. 'The Mechanical Heart' by Shannon Chiang for one#with that one having to do with when she starts trying to reclaim her identity and find a new path forward#all of these playlists are still WIPs though; Regrowth actually has a lot of defunct tracks from scrapped scenes in the Alpha version#and Flourish and the Tideturners need a lot more lol mostly Flourish tho since the Tideturners are more of a setting than a story#anyway. i think i've rambled enough to no one in particular lol#i am putting absolutely none of my tags on this. rolls away
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man i have been trying so hard not to panic but last night i was talking with my mom and she was like “yeah hopefully in a year from now, we’ll have moved back to live near family” and like. i knew that was their eventual goal but i didn’t realize it would be that soon. and i was trying to be happy for them but i hate that all i can think about now is “oh god where am i going to live” like i was Already stressing about this anyway but now it’s got a hard time limit
#like. i do not want to pick up my whole life and move#i don’t have many friends and so i don’t want to lose then ones i have#and i also don’t want to keep tagging at my family’s heels like a dog#but i also. cannot find a place i can afford where i am now so i may have no choice#ik i said that shit about trailers and condos being more affordable but i’ve actually been looking into it and it’s like#$700 lot rent. HOA fees anywhere from $300-$600. ON TOP of whatever mortgage you would have#so even emptying out my savings to make a down payment (and putting to bed any idea i had of going back to school) wouldn’t be enough#that or. once again picking up and moving to a different state because an internet friend keeps joking we should live together#i’ve even browsed facebook marketplace bc i hear that’s how you find roommates and it’s shit like#‘an 8x10 room for $800/month. no pets no smoking prefer female college students’ and i’m like hooo boy that person is fishing#i am. really starting to regret taking in these cats tbh. i might have to start thinking about finding them a better home#fuckkkkkkkkkk i can’t cry i’m at work lmao
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ive had many Thoughts about tmagp but i feel reluctant to share any of them since i feel silly trying to speculate about a show that barely even has any episodes and tbh i think im justified in this bc last week i was gonna post like "i wonder if the fears only started manifesting in the protocol universe around/after 2018 since all the incidents so far happened in 2022 👀" and then this week we immediately got an incident from 2009 -_-
#kinda had a feeling that was the case anyway (which is why i Didnt post it) since only having a span of like 5ish yrs#that incidents could possibly take place could be super limiting but like....i still am wondering when manifestations started#my bet is that is was probably when/around the time the magnus institute burned down (why the fears went into The Past of this universe#also has me 🤔) which tbh im hoping for bc i feel like if its much earlier than that then its just sort of. stupid#like i think whats really interesting about the fears being in a new universe is that theres no real history attached to them yet#the oldest avatars have only been around for like a couple of decades at this point. what few cults/groups there might be are very new#nobody knows shit about fuck yet and theres so much potential for how things go. and thats just so much more#compelling imo than 'oops! all established groups and people and frameworks!' again#blathering#got on a bit of a ramble sorry. like i said i have a Lot of thoughts. none coherent of course lol
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