#might really be absinthe

[tamara-kama]

The proper way to serve Hi•C Ecto Cooler 😎🚫👻🍊🟩🥤😋👍🏻💜

[mauricemylittlemeowmeow]

i should listen to the scheherazade song cycle more often....

[weebsinstash]

losing my mind over the idea of Lucifer being swerved every time by an oblivious reader. He “casually” drops how he used to pull wives at the drop of a hat and reader just goes “that’s great Lucy ☺️” and wanders off while bro is going through the stages of grief

I just love the idea of like, a Reader who GENUINELY IS oblivious and isn't trying to troll him by any means, you ARE just completely unable to fathom this man is coming on to you or legitimately means the things he says.

You're sitting there after Husker made you a tequila for the first time and you're sipping on it and Lucifer's just plopping down in the next stool over, "there was once a time in the past I shared a tequila with a woman, and, well, let's just say 9 months later my daughter Charlie was born!" and you reply without any hesitation at all, "yeah! you know, this is my first time trying tequila but I think it's really nice, although everything Husker makes me is pretty tasty so I've been trying lots of new stuff recently! like the other night I had my first shot of absinthe with Alastor and the taste was so--" and Husker is FACEPALMING and Lucifer is... honestly I think it would be really cute if he ADORES when you show your interests and passions when you start ranting about stuff, so he's like, even when he's mentally gritting his teeth with frustration, he'll be sitting there watching you doe eyed for as long as you want to talk, entertaining any of your long winded tangents or rapidly changing conversational topics

Ugh... you don't understand... the allure of being a tiny fragile human and he's. Well also tiny but he's this ancient inhuman creature who's also just A Silly Loving Family Man. Like. He's ALL POWERFUL. He can pull you into a singing dancing musical where he can make whatever he wants appear, he CAN basically warp materials and reality however he pleases, like... just...he's the small full package who probably HAS a full package if you know what I mean 😏 don't even look at me but characters like him n deku got me thinking about being fawned over by cute guys who are shorter than you but can absolutely easily overpower you without breaking a sweat and are more hung than nature should really allow

Seduction can be a fine line between sexy and cringey and can you imagine he says something to you that just, it just does NOT land. He's got you on your back in your bed and he's above you, with his hand directly under your chin, and he purrs that he wants to plant his seed directly in the fertile soil of your garden and you just LAUGH IN HIS FACE, like "BITCH WHAT?!" Like you CRUSH HIM, FATALITY, man is suffering psychic and emotional damage, you are chipping away at his health bar as you sit there "Haha, you're so goofy Mr Morningstar 🤣 you always know how to make me laugh" and he's HUFFING and laughing in frustration, "OKAY, let's try this again! When I'm done with you, Charlie might have a new sibling on the way!"

"Awww thank you! Charlie's already like a sister to me but I'm glad you're seeing it literally 🥰"

Can you imagine it. The ultimate cockblock. Giving him the ultimate swerve, hitting him with the ultimate grand slam, "YOU'RE LIKE THE FATHER I NEVER HAD" like, how can he possibly stick his dick in you now he knows you see him as YOUR DAD 🥺❤️ He can't VIOLATE his BABY (or can he 😳🤔)

Can't stop thinking about Reader who is completely unaware that this man is unhinged levels of Down Bad until the very moment he's wrestling you down to either fuck you or have a full on love confession. You're just goofing around and palling around and occasionally giving him hugs where you smush your titties or whatever in his face because he's the perfect height and you love to tease him and, then, to YOU, he's 'suddenly without warning' trying to kiss you, say all these passionate things to you, putting his hands in places they've never been before--

I'm still hung up on... the idea of Lucifer impregnating the Reader and you have your little you know cute apple womb tattoo and. I just know he'd be fussing and cooing and like ANNOYING levels of lovey dovey, baby talking your belly before you're even showing. He'd wanna get married with a big fancy flashy wedding to show you off. He'd wanna announce to all of Hell he has a new spouse and want everyone to fear/worship/respect/adore you. He's making this baby SO MANY GIFTS with his own two hands, you have no idea. Duck themed cribs, duck themed onesies, duck themed ducks, he'll make it all! In fact he'll make too many! But, still not enough to satisfy him! Everything has to be perfect, for you, for the baby, for his growing lovely family!

I dunno. Don't expect me to be normal about the fact the man can shapeshift either... he's about to slither right into my incognito tabs...

[akirathedramaqueen]

Stolas: A Gradual Descent to the Bottom of the Bottle

This post analyzes Stolas's situation with alcohol and discusses whether the show effectively represents this systemic issue, and what it implies about real life.

The take is certainly not unique, but I decided to post it anyway to spread awareness about how subtle, seemingly harmless, occasional drinking can seamlessly turn into a full-blown addiction over time.

TW: substance abuse, addiction, alcoholism

Is Stolas an alcoholic?

The answer seems obvious at first. You look at him—all posh, intelligent, and articulate—and you might think, "He doesn’t look like one." You won’t find him, Satan forbid, somewhere under a porch, or truly dependent on the bottle, like drinking during the day—or not absinthe, anyway.

Sure, he drinks sometimes, but it’s fine . . . right? Everyone drinks sometimes. Everyone deserves to feel a bit happier after something bad happens once.

Or twice.

Or thrice . . .

. . . Oh.

Not so obvious anymore, eh?

The real issue here is that the answer is kind of between 'yes' and 'no.' My TL;DR is that the show makes it pretty clear his drinking is becoming problematic, but it’s not quite there yet. And it will become alcoholism soon enough if nothing changes.

I think what we see happening to Stolas right now is an excellent, textbook example of how people end up there. So let’s get into his head, explore where he stands, and what it means for us and for him.

It starts easy

It doesn’t happen in one day. It's not like you get up early one especially glum morning and decide, "Hey, that's a good day to ruin my life!"

It's a vulnerability that makes you susceptible to drinking. Constant pressure. Anxiety. Depression. Trauma.

And you might find yourself wanting to do everything, anything, to get it out of your brain. Not think about it for one evening. Forget.

What a pathetic fucking man!

Her attacking you, whether physically, verbally, in public or private. You, having no one to turn to, having no way to mend it, having to keep up appearances for your kid.

We all have bad days. Bad situations. It’s not to say that one wild night is inevitably going to turn you into an alcoholic. But when you allow the bottle to be your crutch for life, when it becomes a habit to avoid uncomfortable, traumatic events, then . . .

Then it turns into a coping mechanism

You know, it’s . . . it’s simpler. It’s comfortable. Soothing.

You can’t kick her out of the house. You can’t make the man you love love you back. You can’t get a support network because she ostracized you from royal social circles and made a laughing stock out of you.

But you can forget. Forget that one excruciatingly humiliating night. Where not only was all your dirty laundry thrown out on the dance floor for everyone to see, but also, that said romantic interest made it clear it’s only about sex.

You used to have a smoking wife, a kid, you had it all! I hope you didn't give it up so you and him could get it up

Stolas, don't act like what we have is anything but you wanting me to fuck you, okay? You make that really clear all the time.

Forget well enough to fall asleep drunk on the floor among the only living beings who didn't run from you yet. Maybe only just because they are in pots and don't have legs.

And it spirals out of control

Things get gradually worse. Your only lifeline—your . . . uh, romantic interest and daughter—fall out of reach. He finds every reason to avoid you. She hasn't visited you since that LA incident.

Your only power move with a divorce request turns into a lengthy, exhausting proceeding and leads to an assassination attempt. Your—what are you even anymore?—romantic interest pretty much ignores your distress call, or so you think.

You go with a showdown. You can't stand the ambiguity anymore. You want to know whether there's something behind your transactional thing. It's either 'yes' or 'no,' and . . .

It doesn't end too well.

Lastly, you go to a party to try to unwind (or at least be polite, because it's rude to ignore invitations). But your ex's (???) ex acts cruelly, and you don't feel comfortable there. And the wound is still fresh, bleeding . . .

Fuck it, the absinthe won't cut it. Beelzejuice it is then.

And here we are, back to our starting question

Stolas wears a functional alcoholism guise. Or dangerously close to it. Because that's what I believe is going on.

He is still a functional member of society, but he is shown not being capable of processing his trauma without the bottle in hand. And, as things get worse for him, we see the bottle or the glass or any other alcohol container more often on the screen.

For now, he's hanging on, but it's just a matter of a flip switch—the moment when every second of his life will start to feel unbearable without alcohol, simply because there are no other ways to cope.

It's worth noting, though, that Stolas isn't the only character depicted struggling with the urge to drink away his problems.

The most obvious example is Verosika, who is a severe case of alcoholism. We won't delve deep into her character since I want to focus on gradual decline rather than the end result, but we rarely see her without a bottle. There are a couple of scenes where she doesn't hold one, but these moments are situational. She's also been to rehab at least once and only got out because of her reputation.

But there is another character I'd like to dissect, because this will answer the lingering question, "Is there a way out?"

Blitzø, and why he didn't fall victim to this

We saw Blitzø drinking too, at the Bee’s party. To a rather disturbing degree, actually.

But why does no one say he has an alcohol problem, even though he did use alcohol as a coping mechanism? 

Because Blitzø is an example of how the addiction might be prevented and what ultimately makes a difference, a turning point.

To start off, we first see him not in the bar. We see him at home with a pint of melting ice-cream. Dude sugar-bombed himself to sleep . . . after the already mentioned disastrous date with Stolas at Ozzie's, that is.

And then he gets a call from Loona, who asks to pick her up from the party. He has no plans to stay there whatsoever.

But what changed his mind? Pressure did. 

He was pressured by both Loona and an old acquaintance to stop by. (I stress that no one is wrong for this, by the way—he still had the agency to turn the invitation down.) He reluctantly agreed to one drink . . . which we know how ended.

It's much harder to keep it to just one drink when you're sad and alcohol makes you feel better. Nobody wants to be sad.

But with all that said, Blitzø is extremely resilient. In contrast to Stolas—who is strong in his own way but slipping despite all the privilege, magic, and immortality that Blitzø thinks make him invincible—Blitzø never let that one drinking occasion become a habit.

Because he has a support network. However closed off he is, he has his business to take care of, Loona, and M&M. He has things he likes to do and he has people he cares about.

Stolas has all the money in the world, but no friends or activities he could look forward to. He doesn't seem happy with his royal life at all, referring to himself as an owl in a gilded cage.

So the difference is, essentially, this: Blitzø has alternatives and doesn't see alcohol as an outlet. There is a wonderful post from @warblogs17282 which has similar points I make, but also, it shows another angle of Blitzø's relationship with alcohol—his, unfortunately, long history with addiction in family. So that contributes, too.

Is Stolas a lost cause?

Gods, no. But it’s definitely a problem by this point. 

Is he an active alcoholic? Maybe not yet. He isn't Verosika yet. But he is getting there, which I think is the point the show makes.

Alcohol might be a one-time patch on especially rough days, and you might wake up the next day strong and aware enough not to make a habit of it. But the problem is, Stolas already has a habit, and he doesn't have anything to replace it. 

To solve it, he needs just that—a replacement for the bottle. Someone who cares. My hope is that one particular red lizard will share his pint of ice cream and his love. And maybe then, grim days won't be as grim anymore, even when the absinthe stays in the store, or wherever these royals get their alcohol.

Closing note. Why it’s important to talk about this in real life context

Warning: Extreme TMI

I had an alcoholic in the family, and this topic triggers me because, for him, it also started as "no biggie."

He was still functional for years, coming to work regularly. But he was slipping. He drank more, skipped work, and eventually became unbearable for his family—my family, even if not immediate. His wife requested a divorce. He got isolated. He drank even more. Eventually, he got fired because it's not appropriate for a director to skip work and reek of ethanol. The smell was so strong that people couldn't be in the same room with him. He tried other jobs. He aced interviews thanks to 30 years of experience and a solid background. But he got fired again because he couldn't live up to his legacy anymore. At the end, he descended into what you would call full-blown alcoholism.

So, you followed his story, and my question is: Did it start here, when he couldn't help it anymore? Or did it start a couple of years before that, when alcohol became too comfortable as an outlet for struggles?

I've had rough months too—with the war in Ukraine and everything happening with my family—when I realized it became comfortable for me to drink my problems away. Because it works. Because it’s pleasant not to deal with anything, to force your brain to shut up and be happy for one evening.

And it's terrifying to realize I had (thankfully, I don't have anymore for a long time by now) those patterns of thinking: "Jeez, I just want to drink and forget this happened."

Because I saw where it leads. And the farther you go, the harder it becomes to say 'no.'

So please, pay attention to the ones you care about. Pay attention to yourself.

[myrxellabaratheon]

I might sound extremely European, but I don’t think Stolas is an alcoholic

After years and years of fandoms i realized there is a deep difference between “American-alcoholism” and “European-alcoholism” and a normal amount of alcohol for an European person is seen as borderline alcoholic behavior for Americans. (Like we could have this very same discussion when talking about Game of thrones to say something - or honestly real life to a certain extent).

But I’ll only focus on Stolas because I’m seeing this used as a trope in many, many fics and it’s something which I wouldn’t say “bothers” me, but makes me really uncomfortable.

Now, let’s focus on the occasions in which we see Stolas drink.

1) The “not divorced” party

2) After “Ozzie’s” (off-screen but heavily implied in the “day after” sequence)

3) Apology Tour

To these instances we can add a couple of implied ones

1) Ozzie’s at the restaurant when he orders wine

2) Apology Tour in the first scene where a glass of wine is showed on the table by Stolas while he’s chilling by the pool

Now, if we focus on the first three instances, two of them are parties, social situations in which people would normally drink just for the sake to get drunk (especially if they are not having a great time but want to fit it, something Stolas suffered his entire life!), and the third situation is right after things went incredibly shitty with the man he’s in love with!

As for the others two, ordering wine at Ozzie’s is a way to A try to get Blitzø’s attention and B get himself out of an uncomfortable situation with the waiter; and the beginning of Apology Tour is just another reiteration of the situation in The Circus (post breakup).

And even if the only moment he’s shown to be absolutely plastered is in Apology Tour and generally alcoholics drink to the point to completely forget themselves. Not to mention that we are talking about a universe in which heroin (AKA the most addictive substance ever) barely cures an headache! (source: Unhappy Campers)

Alcohol isn’t that addictive and I’d dare say in the Hellaverse wine could equal water?! Not to mention that it’s implied that powerful/royal demons have fastened healing which would clean their systems from alcohol as well.

Confirmed alcoholics in the show (such as Verosika) drink Beezlejuice instead of human alcohol which I suspect is stronger than absinthe. (And anyhow it’s only Blitzø who ends up completely drunk, not Bee, and I somehow imagine Goetia’s biology being closer to Sins’ than lower hellborns).

I don’t want to police anyone in their fanfics, but just express my opinion on the matter since I just think the term alcoholic is generally thrown too easily around.

* we can discuss Stolas has other issues which should be addressed when it comes to addictions (such as the random amount of Happy Pills he ingests) but simply alcohol isn’t one of those

[tari-makes-drinks]

Via dm's between @inneskeeper and I.

Hell yes, let's get to it. I couldn't find any pineapple vodka at the store, so I'm going to sub out 21% pineapple rum.

Anyways, I'm thinking 50ml pineapple and coconut rum, 15ml each blue curaçao and gin.

I literally missed the word "stirred" until I was pouring it into my glass of choice, so props to me.

It's uh. It's damn sweet. At ~24%ABV, the alcohol isn't overpowering, so the characteristic piña colada duo comes through first. They're both rums, so it's backed by a lot of sugar. No surprise there.

The blue curaçao isn't really present (except visually) so I think I should've increased it. If I try, I can identify its notes, but it's pretty shy.

Gin is a fascinating choice to add to this drink. It grounds the rums in herbal notes and pulls the flavor together. It's not quite enough gin to specifically taste the juniper, but I mixed a taster without it and I can taste the difference.

I like how this drink centers two sweet flavors and then uses herbal and bitter flavors to temper it. I kinda wonder how related liqueurs (e.g. Amaro instead of curaçao, or tequila/absinthe instead of gin) would play in this drink.

Overall, I really like it. I might have finished it before I finished this post and uhhh yeah 2-3 of these would have me acting unwise. It's probably going into my personal cocktail book as a staple.

[m4tret]

Some of the Batfam members if they were alcoholic drinks

Did somebody ask for this? Absolutely not, but I love drinking and I love the Bat-fam so:

Bruce Wayne as Amaro: It's a strong liquor, it tastes bitter, that's why it might be unlikeable to some people, but actually it has his benefits if taken after dinner, making you feel better after a long, stressful day.

Jason Todd as Absinthe: A spirit which is illegal in some countries due to his high alcohol content, if you're not careful, it can be fatal even after a few shots. It just reminds me of the brutal manners that Jason used to have in pre-52 as Red Hood. Reminds me also of the Painting "Absinthe" by Edgar Degas which represents my mood after reading UTRH.

Tim Drake as Midori: A really sweet and tasty liquor, not really strong, but quite unique considering his unusual colour, which reminds me of Tim as Robin in the early comics: someone who stands out with his optimistic personality and different backgrounds

Cassandra Cain as Wine: This one is personal, it's a drink that you can underestimate at first, but it's actually really strong, it's not a drink for getting drunk, it's something that you need to know to understand. It's also pretty versatile, based on the food you're eating or the event, you change the type of wine, similarly, Cassandra Cain adapts her fighting style based on her opponent

The other two that I don't want to explain too much:

Alfred as Rum: gives me old sophisticated man vibes

Stephanie Brown as Ginja/Ginjinha: idk funny drink

[echoesofriver]

Is it still cool to make character inspired playlists? I don't care either way. Have some songs that remind me of the trash king himself. Specific lyrics under the cut. I listen to a lot of Halsey and MARINA, sue me

listen on Youtube

listen on Spotify (minus Lessons because it's not on Spotify)

you should see me in a crown Billie Ellish 

You should see me in a crown; Your silence is my favorite sound; Watch me make 'em bow; One by one by one

Everybody Loves Me OneRepublic 

Head down; Swingin' to my own sound; Flashes in my face now; All I know is everybody loves me

Teenagers My Chemical Romance 

They said, "All teenagers scare the livin' shit out of me"; They could care less as long as someone'll bleed; So darken your clothes, or strike a violent pose; Maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me

Absinthe iDKHOW 

I don't believe whatever this is; Until you burn all of the witches; I won't believe whatever this is; Whatever they give you, stop drinking it down

Choke iDKHOW 

Now shut your dirty mouth; If I could burn this town; I wouldn't hesitate; To smile while you suffocate and die

Are You Satisfied? MARINA 

Are you satisfied with an average life?; Do I need to lie to make my way in life?

Ain’t No Rest For The Wicked Cage The Elephant

I know I can't slow down; I can't hold back; Though you know; I wish I could; Oh, no there ain't no rest for the wicked; Until we close our eyes for good

Do It All The TIme iDKHOW 

No reason why; I'm only doing anything I want to do; Because I do it all the time

Bittersweet Panic! At the Disco

Everything I do is bittersweet; You could tell me secrets that I'll probably repeat; I'm not trying to hurt you, I just love to speak

My Kink is Karma Chappell Roan

People say I'm jealous, but my kink is watching; You crashing your car; You breaking your heart; You thinking I care; People say I'm jealous, but my kink is karma

Oh No! MARINA 

One track mind, one track heart; If I fail, I'll fall apart; Maybe it is all a test; 'Cause, I feel like I'm the worst; So I always act like I'm the best

Lilith Halsey

You got me thinking that I was too mean; Well, everything that I say I believe; Tuck a knife with my heart up my sleeve

High On Humans Oh Wonder

Animate the air with a stone cold question; Do you have the time? Do you hate your life?; Now I'm locking eyes with a silent stranger; Don't run, don't hide

Ego Halsey 

I think that I should try to kill my ego; 'Cause if I don't, my ego might kill me; I'm all grown up, but somehow lately; I'm acting like a fucking baby; I'm really not as happy as I seem

Fake Happy Paramore

I love making you believe; What you get is what you see

The Kids Aren’t Alright Fall Out Boy 

Bad trip I couldn't get off; And maybe I bit off more than I could chew

Gasoline Halsey 

With your face all made up, living on a screen; Low on self-esteem, so you run on gasoline

Control Halsey 

I paced around for hours on empty; I jumped at the slightest of sounds; And I couldn't stand the person inside me; I turned all the mirrors around

Valley Of The Dolls MARINA 

Born with a void, hard to destroy; With love or hope; Built with a heart, broken from the start; And now, I die slow

Blame all your life on me

Blame Me The Pretty Reckless 

Outrunning Karma Alec Benjamin 

He's never gonna make it, all the; Poor people he's forsaken, karma; Is always gonna chase him for his lies

Fear and Loathing MARINA 

I've lived a lot of different lives; Been different people many times; I live my life in bitterness; And fill my heart with emptiness

Lessons Halsey 

I'm alive, that's a plus; But it's getting heavy, better lighten up; I'm a liar, I'm a lush; I don't think I'm ready to let go of the rush

Numb MARINA 

I feel numb most of the time; Lower I get the higher; I'll climb, and I will wonder why

Black Sheep (Brie Larson Vocal Version) Metric 

Now that the truth is just a rule that you can bend; You crack the whip, shape-shift and trick the past again

Ain’t It Fun Paramore

Where you're from; You might be the one who's running things; Where you can ring anybody's bell and get what you want

You’re Gonna Go Far, Kid The Offspring 

Show me how to lie, you're getting better all the time; And turning all against the one is an art that's hard to teach; Another clever word sets off an unsuspecting herd; And as you step back into line, a mob jumps to their feet

Don’t Threaten Me With A Good Time Panic! At The Disco 

The Outsider MARINA 

This night is heating up; Raise hell and turn it up; Saying "If you go on, you might pass out in a drain pipe"; Oh, yeah, don't threaten me with a good time

Don't get on my bad side; I can work a gun; Hop into the backseat baby; I'll show you some fun

I am not a woman, I’m a god Halsey 

I am not a woman, I'm a God; I am not a martyr, I'm a problem; I am not a legend, I'm a fraud; So keep your heart, 'cause I already got one

[atopearth]

Slow Damage Part 1 - Takuma Murase (Taku) Route

I thought I'd try my first Nitro+Chiral game so here I am. I personally love the aesthetics and how everything is presented already so I'm excited to see how twisted everything can be. It's also my first BL game! Very different from the usual galge or otome so I'm intrigued. It's kinda sad how Towa has no hope for his current situation and lives the destructive life that he does. It's nice that Taku tries to get him back on track but if Towa isn't trying to change things, no matter what Taku does, it won't change anything. If I was Arimura and had to come in allll the time because Towa always overslept, I would scowl at him too haha. It's kinda amusing how Towa looks like a thug with dyed hair yet works at a medical clinic haha. I guess since the clinic opens at 10am and closes at like 1am, it is unusual and fitting for him. It's crazy how this clinic employs quite a few part-timers etc but there's only one doctor! Can't say I don't understand Towa's desire for sex and violence to be his way to actually "feel" something in his life. Whattt! Towa's dad is the head of the Takasato-gumi who basically "own" this town of Shinkoumi? Not that it matters to him since he's an illegitimate son that got no care. This world really feels like a dystopia with the high crime rate, poverty and depression all around. Oh, Towa used to be a part of the Takasato-gumi?😮 I get dangerous vibes from Mayu, Kotarou and Eiji but I have to say, I do like Kotarou's and Eiji's looks! Oh wow, debt ridden people get "webtagged" so the surveillance towers in Shinkoumi can track them so they don't escape, that's crazy. I'm assuming Fraise was the one who picked up the blacked out Towa and cut him to take a photo but man, I'm surprised Towa is still alive with the way he lives.

Btw, the food in this game look so good, first the honey toast and now this ground beef tomato curry?? I thought it would be weird but it looks good lmao. Anyway, I personally feel like Rei and Taku match more than either of them with Towa hahaha! I think I especially felt that when they all treated that injured gang guy and you could see how Rei and Taku were concerned and cared about that guy leaving when still heavily injured and it just felt like their values aligned as people. I forgot to mention how interesting it is that Rei does body modifications, like there was one where they put a horn on someone's head?? Wild lol. They kept talking about absinthe so I had to Google and I didn't realise how strong it actually is! No wonder why Towa blacked out. I have to agree that the green colour is very alluring though, and the idea of having to dilute it with water and a sugar cube through a perforated spoon just feels so elegant in a way for something that could affect your senses so much.

Considering all the plants in the condo, I already suspected that Ikuina (flower shop guy) was Fraise but it's interesting to see him actually appear at Roost (bar) the same time as Towa. I have to say though, I love the ambience of Roost, I would definitely go to this bar! Ikuina is definitely giving obsessed creepy vibes though, especially when Towa said he got his scars because he liked them lol. I really love blue roses so when Ikuina gave one to Towa, I just had to google the meaning of it and I love it! The unattainable, unrequited love, mystery, yearning for the impossible really represents Ikuina's obsession with euphoria (Towa's artist name) and how his feelings will never be reciprocated. Hmm so as science progressed, the meaning changed to dream come true? Not sure about that, I definitely prefer the unattainable meaning hahaha. Honestly, I really love the variety of CGs, it really adds to the story. As for Ikuina, definitely certified creep especially with how happy he was that he might have a scar like Towa. He's probably sending the flowers and everything.

That poor Deathmatch fighter, how terrifying would it be to pass out and wake up sensing someone and then you notice your stomach had been slashed and you're bleeding non-stop OMG. Personally, I don't think Towa needs to apologise even though he was a bit harsh but he really should have told Rei how creepy Ikuina was! Then Rei wouldn't force him to apologise.. Considering all the clues and everything, Ikuina being who he is and his obsession with wanting to see inside cuts on a body was expected, and honestly I don't blame him for loving the scar on Towa's chest the most, that is a very interesting scar that I'm curious about how it came about as well. Wow, I didn't expect the cutting each other with the knife, that was crazy but also sensual at the same time lol. Honestly pretty insane. I grimaced looking at the cuts on Towa and Ikuina, especially when Towa cut Ikuina's chest, that incision sounded long and painful and very bloody. I'm definitely surprised that they're alive. It's pretty nuts that this is how Towa chooses his "models" and brings out their deep dark desires to give him the inspiration to paint. Honestly surprised he's not dead yet. I feel bad for Taku, he's the doctor so I'm sure he's the most concerned one knowing exactly how much Towa is destroying his body through these "models" and then when he paints and barely eats and drinks until he's done. I wonder how alive he would be if he didn't have Taku and Rei tbh.

It's actually kinda amusing how Towa is so interested in meddling in Doctor Asakura's life lol. I REALLY hope Asakura is not a pedo OMG, I do not want to encounter such a thing. EWWW there's a child brothel in Shinkoumi?! That is absolutely disgusting. It seems like both Taku and Asakura don't like the other at all with the way Taku suspects Asakura and the way Asakura only sees the "terrible" side of Taku back during school when he smoked and drank all the time and even tried to smoke in an operation room or something. Asakura was planning to do all this to Hayato?! I mean at least he drugged the kid to sleep but wtf man, he literally wanted to cut the shoulder blades and insert metal wings to create an "angel" that's solely his?? The bloodied angel look is truly upsetting to look at, it looks so painful. On the other hand, I'm very glad that Asakura isn't a pedo but I'm not sure how much better this is. Btw I actually had to google the screen flickering thing because I was worried that my gaming handheld had issues😂 Glad to know it's part of the game for some reason lol. OMG Towa is around 27 and Taku is actually 46?! I mean I knew Taku was older but didn't expect that big of an age gap! No wonder why he treats Towa like a baby, not only is it because he's reckless but it's also because he's been responsible and taking care of him for so long as a childhood friend. I guess Taku being in debt and having a tag on him so he can't leave Shinkoumi is the most tamed "flaw" we can have for the nice guy hahaha. He seems to be listening to Toono mainly to protect Towa though. I felt just like Rei when they put listening devices on Taku's phones, I feel so guilty! Anyway, I assume Taku is hiding Toono's drugs in the basement? I didn't realise the sex scenes are uncensored so I had the shock of my life lmao. Anyway, Towa getting aroused because of the drugs is typical BL stuff and I'm for it because I can't imagine Taku doing anything to Towa any other way considering how much he tries to restrain himself and care for him lol.

Ohh, Taku put webtags into debtors as well... His reputation would definitely tank if people knew that since he seems to do it for these people without them knowing. Wow, Taku loved Towa's mother, Maya.. Those hostesses are very pretty, at least Toono has good taste in that respect, but he's disgusting enough to control them with drugs so I guess not. Let me just say I'm thankful that Toono did not do anything sexual to Towa. I wanna say Taku was dumb for trusting Toono back in the day when they were classmates and borrowing his money to complete his degrees but honestly, he didn't have a choice if he wanted to become a doctor considering his change in financial circumstances after his family broke apart. That Toono crony is so freaking annoying for attacking Towa whenever he sees him like seriously?! Taku put a webtag in Towa? That's worse than Towa putting a bug on his phones! Honestly, this part is really dragging with Toono using Towa to convince Taku to finish the drug he wants, Taku constantly asking him to release Towa and not wanting to finish the drug etc. I honestly got terrified when Taku started swinging his scalpel at Towa trying to kill him like wth lol. I guess it's a bit more understandable that he feels too weak to protect him so he wants to kill him with his own hands instead of letting him continue to suffer but I still think that's pretty selfish because he's not doing that because he knows that Towa prefers that, he's doing it because he can't find it in himself to see Towa suffering because of his actions. It's selfish and takes away Towa's autonomy. I expected better from Taku.

Anyway, I think rather than spending time on how annoying Toono is, they should have shown us more about Taku's agony before it came to this. Dang, a shootout destroyed Towa's eyeball. I think it was sweet how it was around that time Taku opened his clinic so Towa could go to him for check-ups. I guess we should be happy Taku regretted losing his mind and putting the webtag in Towa? Although I don't really feel the romantic connection between Taku and Towa, I do feel how repressed Taku always was towards Towa so I guess he felt something but I'm not really sure I feel like Towa did at all haha. I do think Towa cherishes him and doesn't want to lose him though. I think his concern was evident when Taku got shot. Despite my apathy towards their romance, I think it was sweet to see Towa actually feel like sex was an act of making love rather than the violence replacement he always associated it with to make him feel a certain sense of satisfaction. I also thought it was nice to see Towa look like he really wanted it. On another note, did that crony really not come back to look for Towa and what about Toono lol. I am so happy Towa finally got some revenge against that annoying crony because I would riot if the guy got away with it. Considering everything, the ending to Toono was quite anticlimactic, I still wonder if Lisa was undercover or something. Taku getting a two year prison sentence and being let out after a year is definitely quite lenient but I don't think Towa could survive much longer without him and this place is corrupt anyway haha. The photo of child Towa is super cute btw. I also quite like Taku with a buzzcut, it gives him that hardened military look haha! Towa with longer hair is pretty hot. The Ikuina and Asakura Madness endings were pretty disappointing since nothing is shown other than a couple of words on what happens which is what you expect when you push them too much. Lmao at Mayu's room though, hardcore otaku to the max or just for that female character lol. Even the ceiling has Yukimi-chan lolll. OMG Mayu has a Yukimi-chan tattoo on his body too? Lmaoo, this guy. As for the treating Towa as Yukimi-chan roleplay because he thinks Towa and her are similar, I'm not sure what to think about that lolll. I seriously can't take the sex seriously when Mayu is going nom nom LMAO. Ignoring his fetish, Towa with long blue hair is beautiful, I love it. Lmao the tattoo of Yukimi-chan is next to his belly button, what a wild guy. I know it's what Towa wants because he likes not feeling respected and likes all the rough sex but dang was it painful to read with how Mayu just shoved himself in him, the biggest turn off was definitely him constantly calling Towa Yukimi-chan, I was about to smack him. Roleplay sex like this is definitely not it especially in a room filled with the anime girl's face lmao. How does Towa do it😂 I hope we get a Kotarou and Eiji ending because I'm definitely into sex with them instead LOL. Wow, the Taku Madness ending was not the kind of crazy I expected. Locking him in the basement room was expected but not the drugging and scars all over Taku's back because of Towa scratching him all over from the drugged up sex. Those colourful bugs Towa was hallucinating was pretty off-putting and honestly, considering how much Taku cares for Towa, I kinda expected him to treat Towa better than to drug him all the time to keep him there instead. Anyway, less disgusting etc than expected so I'm good with that lol.

Overall, even though I'm not too convinced with Taku and Towa's relationship, I really did enjoy the vibes of this game, and the route itself was not bad! I love the insane kinda life Towa lives where he's just about ready to die at any moment if it means he could feel something and be at the height of exhilaration for it, but at the same time he's not into meaningless deaths even if he's basically fine with dying. The food and everything in this game is so beautiful and I have to say, it made me make honey toast in real life lmao, not that mine looked as great. My favourite part was definitely Towa's encounter with Fraise/Ikuina. I loved the whole downward spiral of Ikuina getting more and more obsessed with cutting and slashing things and then it resulting in Towa and Ikuina letting everything all out and slashing each other like maniacs. It felt so crazy, I loved it. Asakura's arc was interesting and I reallyyy prayed that he was not a pedo and I'm glad it ended up the way it did as crazy as it was as well lol. I really like how this game creates the atmosphere for all these creepy people and how it ends up. Sadly, I think the last part with Toono dragged on for too long especially since we already knew everything that was going on and it really didn't add much in terms of emotions or plot to the story. I also think the romantic connection between Towa and Taku was rather lacking and didn't feel it, even though I could feel how much they both cared about each other despite their differences. I understand Taku's difficulties and how he was forced to do what he did, but I guess I would have enjoyed it more if we got to see more of his perspective and emotions instead of the explosive result where he was ready to off Towa and himself. As for the crazy endings, I enjoyed the Mayu one and the Taku Madness ending because they were wild in different ways. Mayu's one was hilarious and super weird but I could totally see it happening in real life which makes it all the more disturbing, and Taku's one was disturbing because you would expect more from him but I guess once they go to the far end, off they go lol. I am really enjoying Slow Damage though, I love how deranged it all is and how it's unafraid to explore uncomfortable and violent topics, as well as that permeating sense of wanting to die is just everywhere in nearly every character and I think it just makes it all the more alluring because of how depressing yet addictive it can be to see how everything will go.

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A Page from the Diary of Sam Manson

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@aggressivelyclueless

July 21st, 20XX

Thanks to our ~wonderful~ mayor, I now know that some plants do… things.  To ghosts.  Even if they weren’t grown by ghosts.  Between that and Undergrowth…

I’m going to start a log of different plants and their effects on ghosts.  I’ll be using ethical and scientific methods, unlike some people.  I won’t say their names.  

Jack and Maddie Fenton.  

Oh, no~ Did someone hear that?  Someone said some names, oh, no~

I’m never going to be able to let Danny see this.  

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July 23rd, 20XX

I did some research and I have some simple things that are supposed to affect ghosts.  Evil spirits.  Whatever.  I don’t actually believe this stuff changes what it does based on the morality of the ghost it’s being waved near, but who knows?  Ghost stuff is crazy, sometimes. 

I’ll make a list of what each thing is supposed to do, and then once I’ve tested it I’ll come back and make a new list.  Also going to count stuff that’s supposed to ward off fairies or witches, because why not.

Rosemary - Supposed to ward off evil spirits, the evil eye, and witches, sometimes dropped into graves to keep loved ones from being forgotten.  

Sage - Wards off spirits.  <- Apparently this is only white sage and it’s usually misused.  Hold off on this.  

Mountain-Ash (Rowan) - Keeps you from getting lost, wards off witches, fairies, or other supernatural things.  Works as a ‘portal’ between this world and the next.  Definitely check this out.

Wormwood - Wakes the dead.  Also in absinthe.  Hallucinogenic, maybe.  Ew.

So much crazy poisonous stuff.  I’m 99% convinced they only thought this had anything to do with ghosts or spirits because it would kill you dead.  

Also hallucinogenics.  

I’m not feeding Danny anything I know is hallucinogenic.  

Actually, I shouldn’t feed him anything at all.  

Elder - Makes ghosts angry if you burn it.  Apparently because witches live in it.  

I don’t know.  A lot of this sounds really stupid, now that I have it all written out.  

Ugh.  I’ll try it anyway.  

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July 24th, 20XX

Got Danny to cooperate.  

Rosemary - No effect on Danny either way.  Did not help him remember his English vocab.  Actually, he got worse.  Also, he ate it on a dare from Tucker.  

Mountain-Ash (Rowan) - Gave Danny a branch, which initially seemed to do nothing, until he started waving it around like a wand and said ‘open sesame.’  Then he passed out and a huge natural portal opened and didn’t close for an hour.  

I’m exhausted.  

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July 31st, 20XX

Convinced Danny to help again.  Bribery always works eventually.  Even if they say ‘never again’ at the top of their lungs a hundred times.  

It’s for his own good, anyway.  

Wormwood - Got Danny to go to sleep and then threw some on him.  He stayed asleep.  Even when Tucker squished some up and held it under his nose.  

Now I feel bad.  He doesn’t sleep very much.  

Shoot.  

I’ll leave elder for tomorrow.  

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August 1st, 20XX

Elder - Danny just stared at me like he was really tired.  His ghost sense went off like a second later, but I’m not sure that’s related.  

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August 2nd, 20XX

Rosemary - Handed some to the Box Ghost after asking if he wanted some.  No change.  Brought it home to his ‘wife.’

Since when is he married?  And why is Danny making that face every time we bring it up?

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August 7th, 20XX

Had a wonderful talk with Dora!  Got a few new things to try.  She said that funeral flowers make ghosts sleepy.  It might be a little hard to test this with Danny, seeing as he’s always sleepy.  

There are a lot of different funeral flowers, though.  I’m thinking I’ll get a bouquet of one each and see if that makes Danny fall asleep faster or slower.  I should probably test a few different times, too, to get an average.  

I want to test: lilies, carnations, mums, glads, roses, hydrangeas, and forget-me-nots.  

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August 8th, 20XX

Lilies - 10 minutes to naptime.

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August 9th, 20XX

Lilies - 30 minutes to naptime.  

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August 10th, 20XX

Lilies - 25 minutes to naptime.

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August 11th, 20XX

Danny has pointed out that we should measure how long it takes him to get to sleep without the flowers, first.  He has a point.  

Tucker’s going to set something up on his PDA to monitor things better.  I’ll still write the results in here.   

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August 27th, 20XX

THERE WAS NO DIFFERENCE I HATE THIS.

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August 28th, 20XX

Danny thinks the funeral flowers have to be ones from an actual funeral.  How do flowers know they were in a funeral?  That doesn’t make any sense.  

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September 3rd, 20XX

Apparently the funeral flowers from actual funerals do work as advertised.  Just.  Why.  

At least I got this before school started again.  

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September 29th, 20XX

Dora sent me a book on ghost herb lore.  She says she’ll try to get me some ghost plants, too.  

I really like some of these.  But others just freak me out.  

Ghost-nip - Induces euphoria in ghosts when they eat the stamens.  This somehow makes the ghost start producing pollen????  For the plant????

Tattoo rose - Grows under the ghost’s skin and bursts out when it blooms.  At least it’s not a perennial?  The heck?

Blood poppies - Blood blossoms, but they put the ghosts to sleep instead of torturing them.  Doesn’t sound completely horrible, but ghosts exposed to them don��t wake up until they’re removed.  Keep Danny away.  

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October 1st, 20XX

Turns out tattoo roses come in many different shapes, sizes, and colors.  In related news, guess who’s going to the Far Frozen for emergency surgery?  It isn’t me.  

We might be here a while, because he got really stabbed by that one guy, so the seeds are deep. 

Borrowing some books from the Far Frozen library.  

Winterbloom - Kind of like snowballs in the real world, but bluer.  Only grows when it’s freezing.  

Iceflower - Kind of flower that only grows around ice-core ghosts.  Apparently it is a flower and not just a type of ice formation.  Frostbite gave me some seeds.

Snow strawberries - Also called blood-on-the-snow which I like way better, honestly.  The yetis use it for deserts but also food dye.  They’re vegetarians.  All their meat is fake.  

Take that, Tucker.  Maybe I’ll eat some just to freak him out.  

Extra note: Tucker successfully freaked out.

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*Deep disappointed sigh*

I was thinking that I'll be sitting here at this time, writing about finishing another amazing drama, but instead I'm sitting here, absolutely baffled and beyond dissapointment and confusion.

What the hell just happened? That what what I've asked right after finishing the final episode of DFF. And the worst part is that I will actually never know what had happened.

Honestly, the drama started getting worse in episode 10. That was a whole mess (I've written entire post about it, read HERE ). Episode 11 was good in a terms of what it gave us, but it was at very wrong place. It was truly bad choice for the pre-finale ep, that was supposed to build up the tension for the final ordeal, so this Tee backstory felt anti-climatic.

And today, the finale came and it felt like I clicked on the wrong show. Am I really watching DFF? I asked in disbelief. I just couldn't believe what I saw.

I try to go one by one.

Starting with Fluke. That was actually the part I liked. He was the bywatcher. He just watched. So it was really good choice to let him stab his eyes out. But I hated that he didn't even know about it, since he died (most likely) while still being high on absinth. I HATE the choice of having him die. Him living blind, not being able to be a doctor would be such a great punishment for him.

Top ... Well, first of all, how are you still alive, buddy? But given the amount of people (1) that took way too long to die, I guess people in DFF universe are just slower at dying from very obvisouly fatal wounds. Him killing himself and taking Fluke with him was okay, I guess? I mean we know NOTHING about Top, so how could I know what is in character and what not?

Tee and White. Oh boy. I knew right away that us getting the emotional backstory of Tee is not a gift, it would come in an exchange of an inevitable traumatic experience. But this was not what I expected at ALL. If everything else was perfect, this would fit well. I feel like it's a good scene and great punishment for Tee to live with. ... If we KNEW what happened to Tee... but I'll get to that later.

(also like... White's character is so ... idk, he's just a random, innocent dude, who is there only for the purpose of dying ... not the mention he was really annoying to me at the beginning, like what was that about?)

Now here it comes. Jin. I ... I can't say much, because I think even Tumblr would ban me if I went into detail. Let's just say I did not expected Jin to be horny on main. I still don't understand how Jin was the one who posted the video (we had some evidence it might have been someone else), but if he did or thinks he did, it only makes sense his fear would be related to it. But even so, I think his fear should've been more about him not protecting Non. We know that Jin liked Non and wanted to protect him. So why is his biggest fear everyone knowing he's horny on main? We know from Copper himself that Jin should've been percieved as a good character, but him fearing that what he did to Non happens to him is sort of selfish and absolutely not something I thought about Jin. But let's be honest, bad writing was screwing Jin over since like ep 6 (and it was doing it even harder than Phee) (sorry for this one, I'm leaving the room now).

Now Phee. His fear is obvious and he's the only one getting out of the hallucinations and saving the day. (probably) I didn't understand his momentarily need to save New??? Like buddy, you are in this mess because of him??? But him getting the antidote, saving Jin and then coming back for Tee: amazing, hot, I loved it. Only sad that was like 2 minutes of this tragedy.

New. Oh, New. He was a guy broken beyond repair and I knew he will go. I mostly hoped he would end his life himself after realizing what he did and what happened to Non, but he was too lost for that. But I'm okay with his ending.

FINALLY the holy grail of dissapointment. The ending itself. It suddenly cutting to "2 Years Later" got me thinking That's it??? It didn't even have the shock point, because I was confused the entire time. I was thinking why on earth would you end it like that? Why are PheeJin having happy ending (not that I didn't want it, but not like this, not like this, mate) and why is Tee having the bad ending (really, why?) and like what happened? What did police say? Why we skipped two years ... and suddenly BOOM, they smacked me across my face with that "oh, how did we get out then and why is Non over there?" ending. Like WHAT?

HELLO?

REALLY?

Like you really made me sit through 11 episodes, making my judgement and assumptions about every single character, wanting their ending to be whatever I felt they deserve and instead of giving me the shock, happiness, sadness of what you cooked for them you GIVE ME NOTHING?! OF ALL POSSIBLE CHOICES, YOU GIVE ME NOTHING?!

Is this like write your own ending thing or-? WHY WOULD YOU JUST LEAVE ME HANGING.

Not to mention there are lot of things unexplained.

Was Jin the one who really posted the video? There were lot of contradictions to it.

How on earth did New manage to prepare everything and hurt Por? We just heard it from Phee, who couldn't have possibly known. And some things like weren't adding up, even if we have the hallucinations thing.

What happened to Keng? Like, is he dead? But we never saw the body. Really, what's with him?

Who are the survivors? We might assume Phee, Jin and Tee, but are they? Are they all dead? What happened to them? This was literally why we all were here and we don't even get that answer?

That ending was soooooo anticlimatic and out of place. This kind of ending can work, but in a slasher movie where we don't care about characters that much and we are there just for the blood and murders (A Nightmare on Elm Street does this wonderfully, for example) but not in a drama, where we spent HOURS learning backstories of each character (except Top, like who is he?) and want to know what is their destiny.

It's like if the ending of Harry Potter was Harry and Voldemort about to fight, then cut to the 19 Years Later scene, but Harry sees Voldemort on the platform and then cut to broken Hogwarts and then end credits. Like, nah, that doesn't work.

I don't want to make my or yours suffering any longer that needed, so I will end this here. I'm very sad, very disappointed and very confused. I feel like I was robbed. This drama was so good, but the writing team just gave up somewhere around episode 9. It's like when I think of good plot for a fic, but don't come up with the ending and have to write just whatever to not leave it open.

Yep, thank you for reading this. The best part about this drama was without the doubt being able to share my thoughts and theorize with everyone. Thank you guys for it.

Special thanks goes to my beloved friends @tbhimnoteasyonmyself @ayansbff @jeffsatursgender and @toonstuna, who were watching each episode along with me and today (and not just today, for like past month and half) were very nice, kind and patient to listen to me ranting about everything for hours (as they were all ranting themselves). Love you all, guys, really <3

Thank you everyone who has been through this with me. Hopefully next time we will meet again at something less disappointing.

Baya!

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Hangman / Adam Cole

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When “Hangman” Adam Page caught up to his ol’bunkmate, the bank robber Adam Cole, the fugitive turned his blue eyes upon the lawman and smiled.

“I’m glad it’s you who caught me, Page. You’re the only one who can grant my last request. I want to lay with a handsome man one more time before I die.” Cole batted his eyes like a bordello girl. Page rolled his eyes in response, kept his gun trained on the other man.

“That line ever work?” They were at Cole’s lean-too hideout by a brook. Page had tracked him there after spotting suds downstream: they smelled of coconut oil, one of Cole’s many fancy affections.   

“Used to work on you,” Cole said, his smile turning wistful. “Come on. One last roll in the hay. Your kiss is sweeter than the noose. though it feels a bit the same when you have whiskers, like you do now. When I’m hanging from that scratchy rope I’ll close my eyes and pretend it’s you kissing me.”

Page felt a twinge in his heart. Cole was a scoundrel, but that didn’t mean he wanted to see him dead.

Cole held up his hands, wrists together. “You can cuff me if makes you feel more at ease while we’re fucking.”

Page sighed, tried not to roll his eyes again. “That would actually make me feel worse about it all, actually.”

Cole shrugged, dropped his hands. He shot a sly look at the star-shaped badge on Page’s chest.

“I can’t believe Kenny finally let you be sheriff.”

“Kenny didn’t let me be anything,” Page growled, all of his sympathy and yearning for the other Adam dissipating with one little poke. God, he’d forgotten how good Cole was at getting a rise out of him.

Cole grinned. “Sure, sure.”

“You have to answer for your crimes, Cole,” Page said, putting the power of the law into his voice. It didn’t seem to intimidate Cole. The man just frowned, blue eyes turning glacial.

“And when are Kenny and the Bucks going to pay for their crimes? When are they going to pay for what they did to me?”

“What are you talking about? When they ran you out of town for embezzling from the widows and orphan fund? You deserved that—”

“No, not that,” Cole spat out. “What they did after that. What they did to me.”

There was an earnestness to Cole’s anger that made Page pause.

“What did they do?”

Adam looked away. “You don’t want to know.”

You don’t want to know. A sentence that managed to imply it had been something mighty awful, and also a phrase that managed to implicit Page’s complicity in whatever it was, his willful blindness to whatever awful business his best friends had conducted behind his back.

Page bristled at the unspoken accusation. Just ’cause his pals were ‘elite’, that didn’t mean they were above the law. Hangman could still set things right.

“Look, Adam, I can’t rightly help you if you don’t tell me—”

Cole turned his face back towards Hangman. As they made eye contact a mighty strange thing happened: Cole’s eyes changed. They went from true blue to green, the bright green of absinthe—no, of poison. A monstrous green. Then the green leeched away and his eyes were grey, the grey of coins on a corpse’s eyes. Then there were the chalky white of bone, of a dead man’s skull.

Then they were blue again, bright blue and alive, irises reflecting the flickering campfire light.

Page stumbled back. He felt an awful sickness in the pit of his stomach, like he was a couple breaths from expunging his dinner.

One side of Cole’s mouth quirked up.

“If you really want to know, ask the Bucks,” Cole said. “They might not tell you while I’m alive, but I bet they will when I’m dead. Again.”

Page swallowed down the acid bile that had been building up in his mouth. He didn’t know what the fuck was going on, or what had happened, but he knew two things:

1. His pals were capable of some awful things.

2. He didn’t want to know what exactly.

“Pack up your camp and haul ass,” Page said gruffly. “I’m taking the money you stole back to town. Be happy I’m letting you leave with your life.”

Cole sighed at got to his feet, patting the dirt off his pants as he stood.

“You sure you don’t want to fuck, for old times sake?”

“No,” Hangman said. He shuddered, imaging what it would be like if he looked into Cole’s eye mid coitus and saw those corpse eyes looking back at him.

Cole smiled sadly, as if he could read Hanger’s mind.

“Well, maybe next time, sheriff.” He tipped his hat, grabbed his pack, and melted into the darkness.  

[azirafuck]

ok i’m soooo curious what crowley’s plot will be next season though, cause the last two it pretty much always related to aziraphale. i can’t see him working with hell again?

oh the possibilities are endless, but no, i don't think he'll actually start working with hell again. only stuff coming to me at the moment are stupid things gjfdkngjfdks like

s3 will start with him looking out the window, the camera circling around him, showing the passage of seasons like he's bella from twilight fjgdksgds

and then we see he actually manages his time really really well:

monday - get blackout drunk at nina's, miracle absinthe in the six shots of espresso and ruin the mood for every other costumer as you pass out on the table. get yelled at

tuesday - get blackout drunk in the apartment that you can't bring yourself to make yours again

wednesday - sleep it through (might last more than 24 hours)

thursday - sneak in the bookshop and get blackout drunk while muriel pretends they're not seeing you

friday - get blackout drunk on wine alone at the ritz. make the waiters forget they were supposed to close 4 hours ago

saturday - get blackout drunk at the cottage you got years ago after the apocalisn't, just in case you and your angel needed to get away from london

sunday - sleep. cry

[isdalinarhot]

copypasting my extensive wine headcanons here in case anyone out in the world wants to adopt them

Pink: this is just juice of a plant. Like some soft drinks, there is a small amount of caffeine, but for the most part, it’s basically the same as apple or grape juice. Feminine drink.

Orange: structurally this is identical to kombucha, in that it is a nonalcoholic (or at least so negligibly alcoholic that it doesn’t count) beverage that is made via fermentation. But its cultural place is akin to ginger ale in that it is just a soft drink people drink when not drinking alcohol and that it has a reputation of soothing stomachs. This is the go-to beverage of people of any gender looking to have a sober drink.

Yellow: the default masculine drink. Made from lavis grains, it’s beer. It’s essentially beer. About the same strength as beer, drank from pint glasses, steins, and once Roshar invents cans it will be drank from those as well. Customary beverage to enjoy during duels. Unlike beer from Earth, people very rarely drink this to get any more drunk than a pleasant buzz.

Auburn: traditionally made from fermented simberries, but can be made from any fruit that when fermented ends up with between 10% to 15% abv, this is the default feminine drink. It really functions almost identically to wine on Earth. It is drunk from glasses analogous to Earth wine glasses. There is a large culture of auburn wine snobbery. Though it is concretely a feminine drink, it is not unheard of for men who are a touch effeminate to sneak a glass or two of it.

Red: you’d have to be insane to drink red wine on its own. It is used near exclusively in mixed drinks as the alcohol base to a fun fruity beverage. Mixed often with pink wine, fruit juices of all kinds, and occasionally wild card picks like sow’s milk or Shin creations such as “coffee”, it is there to provide alcohol to women who cannot stand the taste of alcohol.

Sapphire: wines of red strength or stronger are considered liquors, and sapphire wine is the unequivocal Man’s Wine. It is quite strong, but there is still a veneer of drinking it for the flavor. It is made of the same grains as yellow wine, but distilled instead of fermented. Traditionally drunk on the rocks out of what an Earthling might call a whiskey tumbler.

Blue: this stuff is not as strong as violet wine, but still quite strong. Its closest Earth analogue is a strong rum, made out of a sugarcane-like plant that naturally carries fruity undertones. This is the usual alcohol base drunk in mixed drinks by men; a popular drink will have two types of blue wine mixed with a couple flavors of fruit juice for a Vorin-friendly Mai Tai. It can also be drunk out of shot glasses as a party beverage, but this is less common.

Violet: violet wine is a gender neutral beverage, allowed to be drunk by both men and women. This is because the creators of Vorinism understood the necessity of all humans to have a surefire way of getting drunk quickly. It is roughly analogous to 100 proof vodka in both taste and creation, although in rare cases some violets can reach the 130 proof heights of absinthe. It is made from blackthorn berries, which on Roshar can get distilled to death like potatoes can on earth but like i dunno how that's possible i dont know jack shit about plants. sorry. This makes them perfect for creating the strongest liquors out of. “Glasses” of violet wine, drunk at feasts as a power move, are a mixture of violet wine, blackthorn juice, and lots of water. It is traditionally drunk hot, and nobody likes it like that but everybody pretends to. Nine times out of ten, violet wine is drunk out of a shot glass. It is known for tasting bad. Occasionally, it can be found in mixed drinks in the place of red or blue wine.

[marie-is-seein-stars]

KING OF WRATH (part 2)

Content Warning: This story contains explicit sexual content, profanity, mild violence, and topics that may be sensitive to some readers.

Rating:18+

Minors, please do not interact with this post, as I DO NOT want it to get taken down.

 

Chris’s brows lifted a fraction, and I realized I’d been so focused on his voice that I hadn’t responded to his request yet. Meanwhile Mary, the little traitor, had disappeared into the back room, leaving me to fend for myself. She’s never getting a condom out of me again. “Of course.” I cleared my throat, attempting to lighten the cloud of thickening tension. “But I’m afraid we don’t serve glow-in-the-dark gin and tonics.” Not without a black light to make the tonic glow, anyway. He gave me a blank look. “Because of the last time you overheard me talking about con—er, protective products,” I said. Nothing. I might as well be babbling about rush hour traffic patterns, for all the reaction he showed. “You ordered a strawberry gin and tonic because I was talking about strawberry flavored…” I was digging myself into a deeper and deeper hole. I didn’t want to remind him about the time he overheard me discussing strawberry condoms at the club’s fall gala, but I had to say something to divert his attention away from, well, my current condom predicament. I should really stop talking about sex at work. “Never mind,” I said quickly.

 

“Do you want your usual?” His one-off strawberry gin and tonic aside, Christopher ordered a scotch, neat every time. He was more predictable than a Mariah Carey song during the holidays. “Not today,” he said easily. “I’ll have a Death in the Afternoon instead.” He lifted his book so I could see the title scrawled across the worn cover. For Whom the Bell Tolls by Ernest Hemingway. “Seems fitting.” Invented by Hemingway himself, Death in the Afternoon was a simple cocktail consisting of champagne and absinthe. Its iridescent green color was also as close to glow-in-the-dark as a regular drink could get. I narrowed my eyes, unsure whether that was a coincidence or if he was fucking with me. He stared back, his expression inscrutable. Dark hair. Crisp lines. Dimples and a suit so perfectly tailored it had to have been custom made. Christopher was the epitome of aristocratic sophistication, and he’d nailed the Australian stoicism that went with it. I was usually pretty good at reading people, but I’d known him for a year and I had yet to crack his mask.

 It irritated me more than I cared to admit. “One Death in the Afternoon, coming right up,” I finally said. I busied myself with his drink while he took his customary seat at the end of the bar and retrieved a notebook from his coat pocket. My hands went through the motions, but my attention was split between the glass and the man quietly reading. Every once in a while, he would pause and write something down. That in and of itself wasn’t unusual. Christopher often showed up to read and drink by himself before the evening rush. What was unusual was the timing. It was Monday afternoon, three days and two hours before his weekly, precision-timed arrival on Thursday evenings. He was breaking the pattern. Chris Bangg never broke the pattern. Curiosity and a strange breathlessness slowed my pace as I brought him his drink. Mary was still in the supply room, and the silence weighed heavier with each step. “Are you taking notes?” I placed the cocktail on a napkin and glanced at his notebook. It lay open next to ’s novel, its pages filled with neat, precise black writing. “I’m translating the book into Korean.” He flipped the page and scribbled another sentence without looking up or touching his drink. “Why?” “It’s relaxing.” I blinked, certain I’d heard him wrong. “You think translating a five hundred-page novel into Korean by hand is relaxing?” “Yes. If I wanted a mental challenge, I’d translate an economics textbook.

 Translating fiction is reserved for my downtime.” He tossed out the explanation casually, like it was a habit as common and ingrained as throwing a coat over the back of his couch. I gaped at him. “Wow. That’s…” I was at a loss for words. I knew rich people indulged in strange hobbies, but at least they were usually fun eccentricities like throwing lavish weddings for their pets or bathing in champagne. Chan’s hobby was just boring. The corners of his mouth twitched, and realization dawned alongside embarrassment. Seems to be the theme of the day. “You’re messing with me.” “Not entirely. I do find it relaxing, though I’m not a huge fan of economics textbooks. I had enough of them at Oxford.” Chris finally glanced up. My pulse leapt in my throat. Up close, he was so beautiful it almost hurt to face him straight on. Thick black hair brushed his forehead, framing features straight out of the classic Hollywood era. Chiseled cheekbones sloped down to a square jaw and sculpted lips, while deep brown eyes glinted behind glasses that only heightened his appeal. Without them, his attractiveness would’ve been cold, almost intimidating in its perfection, but with them, he was approachable. Humans. At least when he wasn’t busy translating classics or running his family’s media company. Glasses or no glasses, there was nothing approachable about either of those things. My spine tingled with awareness when he reached for his drink. My hand was still on the counter. He didn’t touch me, but his body heat brushed over me as surely as if he had. The tingles spread, vibrating beneath my skin and slowing my breath. “Y/N.” “Hmm?” Now that I thought about it, why did Chris need glasses anyway? He was rich enough to afford laser eye surgery. 

Not that I was complaining. He may be boring and a little uptight, but he really— “The gentleman at the other end of the bar is trying to get your attention.” I snapped back to reality with an unpleasant jolt. While I’d been busy staring at Chris, new patrons had trickled into the bar. Mary was back behind the counter, tending to a well-dressed couple while another club member waited for service. Shit. I hurried over, leaving an amused-looking Christopher behind. After I finished with my customer, another one approached, and another. We’d hit Collision happy hour, and I didn’t have time to dwell on Chris or his strange relaxation methods again. For the next four hours, Mary and I fell into a familiar rhythm as we worked the crowd. Collision capped its membership at a hundred, so even its busiest nights were nothing compared to the chaos I used to deal with at downtown dive bars. But while there were fewer of them, the club’s patrons required more coddling and ego stroking than the average frat boy or drunken bachelorette. By the time the clock ticked toward nine, I was ready to collapse and thankful as hell that I only had a half shift that night. Still, I couldn’t resist the occasional peek at Christopher. He usually left the bar after an hour or two, but here he was, still drinking and chatting with the other members like there was nowhere else he’d rather be. Something’s off. Timing aside, his behavior today didn’t match his previous patterns at all, and the closer I looked, the more signs of trouble I spotted: the tension lining his shoulders, the tiny furrow between his brows, the tightness of his smiles. Maybe it was the shock of seeing him off schedule, or maybe I was trying to pay Kai back for all the times he could’ve gotten me fired for inappropriate behavior (a.k.a. talking about sex at work) but didn’t.

 Whatever it was, it compelled me to walk another drink over to him during a lull. The timing was perfect; his latest conversation partner had just left, leaving Kai alone again at the bar. “A strawberry gin and tonic. On me.” I slid the glass across the counter. I’d made it on a whim, thinking it’d be a funny way to lift his mood even if it was at my expense.