#might also just be a fluke though idk

[kastillia]

[enbyleighlines]

Idk if I’d ever write it, but I have an idea for a fic that happens a few years after the events of Senpai wa Otokonoko.

Info under cut:

The three are in college together, and they’re still friends, but between classes and part-time jobs, they don’t get to spend as much time together as they used to.

Makoto and Saki are dating. Makoto still dresses like a girl most days. The two wind up making other queer friends, and getting invited into a LGBTA club. It’s eye-opening for them. They finally learn some language that helps them express their experiences. The club also provides them with resources on gender (for Makoto) and aromanticism (for Saki).

Meanwhile, Ryuji takes the opportunity of some distance from Saki and Makoto to process everything that’s happened. He still wants to remain friends, but it was hard for his broken heart to heal when he saw Makoto almost every single day.

With time, he begins to mend, and it stops being quite so painful to spend time around Makoto and Saki being all lovey-dovey.

However, Ryuji is still convinced that his feelings for Makoto were wrong. That internalized homophobia is still firmly rooted within his heart, and he even tries going on dates with girls so that he can feel more normal.

Eventually, Makoto and Saki try to get Ryuji involved in the club. It takes a while to convince him. Though he doesn’t say anything, Ryuji is nervous about what he might discover about himself. He wants to pretend he’s normal, but what if participating in the club ruins all that? What if he can no longer deny the fact that his feelings for Makoto weren’t a weird fluke, but evidence that he isn’t straight?

But Ryuji does wind up caving, and starts helping out with the club here and there, dipping his toe in but not committing to anything.

And it helps. It happens so slowly, Ryuji doesn’t even fully realize it’s going on, but it helps. His internal prejudices, that knee-jerk feeling that causes him to cringe whenever he sees gay men being out and open about their sexuality… it all slowly fades away.

And then, one day, Ryuji has a boyfriend. Saki is thrilled for him.

But Makoto is shocked and appalled.

Now, Makoto had their own internalized homophobia to work through. Though they’re dating Saki, they didn’t like going out on dates when they’re in “girl mode”. So they always dressed up as a guy on their dates.

Saki didn’t mind too much, but she did think it was a shame that they couldn’t be cute sapphics together.

Being in the club helped. Now, Makoto is more comfortable being seen as a lesbian couple in public. And so they start basing their outfits off of what they want to wear, not what would cause the least amount of fuss.

Still, some of that internal homophobia lingers.

But that’s not the only reason Makoto is upset. They don’t realize it at first, but that ugly burning feeling in their chest when they see Ryuji with his boyfriend… it’s not just that Ryuji is holding hands with a guy…

It’s that Ryuji is holding hands with someone who isn’t them.

Cue Makoto’s slow awakening to their own feelings. When did it happen? When did Makoto stop seeing Ryuji as just a friend? And how on earth are they going to explain this to their wonderful girlfriend Saki?!

Except, Saki is thrilled by the news. She loves Makoto, but she misses when it was the three of them. Her feelings for Ryuji have always been and will always remain platonic, but she loves him nonetheless. And like she told Makoto, there’s no reason they have to choose just one or the other. There’s always a third option.

Makoto is surprised by her stance, and says that Ryuji probably doesn’t even have feelings for them anymore.

Even so, when Ryuji breaks up with his boyfriend, and after a period of waiting for Ryuji to heal from it, Makoto pops the question for a second time. They ask Ryuji if he wants to go out with them.

Ryuji has no idea how to respond. What is Makoto saying?? Are they really going to go thru this song and dance again? Does he even still have feelings for Makoto?

But…

Of course he still has feelings for Makoto. Ryuji has been crushing on them since preschool, and his love for Makoto has only grown over the years. Feelings like that don’t just go away. They might have faded into the background, but they haven’t gone anywhere.

That still leaves the question, though. Doesn’t Makoto think it’s gross? Ryuji saw the way Makoto always looked like they were eating something sour every time Ryuji flirted with his ex-boyfriend.

And also… isn’t Makoto still dating Saki??

Makoto attempts to explain themself, but it doesn’t go well.

Luckily, Makoto has Saki to do that for him. She has a talk with Ryuji, putting everything out on the line. Yes, Makoto has developed feelings for Ryuji. Yes, she is fine if they go out. No, she’s still going to date Makoto, too. And no, Makoto wasn’t cringing for homophobic reasons. Makoto was jealous, and they want to kiss Ryuji, they told Saki so.

Also, Ryuji would be doing her a favor. Makoto is a romantic deep down, but Saki doesn’t really understand romance. She loves Makoto, yes, but her feelings are not romantic in nature.

Oh, Saki is physically attracted to Makoto. She is always down for makeouts and anything else physical. But she doesn’t get that pitter-patter in her heart, or the butterflies in her stomach. And while Makoto likes to go all out on dates and make them as romantic as possible, Saki feels bad that, deep down, she finds it all kind of silly.

And so, Ryuji decides to give it a shot. How can he not? He’s wanted this for so long…

Aaaaand, that’s pretty much it. The romcom would likely end with a time jump after they’ve all settled into their strange, queer polyamorous relationship.

Thank you to anyone who read all of that!!

[infamous-if]

You don’t need to post this but just so you know, it really does sounding like almost no one in the story who have witness to or have heard the MC’s work think it is very interesting at all 🫣, and just occasionally a person will randomly appreciate for some reason, such as Orion. I think maybe a lot of readers might had anticipated a type of MC that has the experience of undeniably suited for this and so on, in the way you have sometimes describe some others in the story, such as S

Hi ! Sorry but I'm going to post this mostly (and apologies that your ask is the one who is gonna get this long response, my ire isn't towards you because you're being very kind about it but others have, honestly, not been) because other people probably have this thought as well but I'm sort of confused on where this whole idea of MC being useless/untalented/not suitable is coming from?

I've said before there will be people who question MC's talent, but that's just natural--not everyone is going to think someone is worthy of their fame and attention. People thinking that there are better singers out there doesn't invalidate what MC is capable of. If I wrote a story where every person thinks MC is the greatest thing since sliced bread then that wouldn't be an entertaining story lol You need tension, and you need naysayers so every win can feel satisfying. Plus, doubters is a natural and normal thing in the business. MC is literally in a competition where other very talented bands are competing. Even though they're the main character, they're the main character of their story. Not everyone elses. Other bands believe they are just as deserving--if not more--of winning than MC's band. It's natural. To those bands MC is just another person they need to beat to win.

Seven being more famous doesn't mean MC isn't talented (the band literally voted for MC's vocals over Seven's). G being more famous doesn't mean MC isn't talented. Hell, if MC's band lost BOTB and went home empty handed, that doesn't mean MC isn't talented. It's part of the competition. Amazing bands and amazing singers get rejected all the time. There isn't room for everybody.

I do want to mention that people probably feel this way because I can not give concrete answers about an MC that is largely customizable. In the game, your MC can lack confidence. Or they can be arrogant. They can believe their skills are lackluster, or they can believe they are the best singer alive. People expect me to answer questions that have varied answers depending on what MC each player is playing. I can't give you that! I do my best.

Orion listened to MC once and quit his job to manage them.

2. August auditioned to be their drummer, and while August is largely indifferent, they admit themselves they were interested and they tell MC how good MC's voice is.

3. Maya is quite literally following MC's band around the USA because she's that much of a fan.

4. Seven dislikes MC, but Seven is not a liar: they will always stand by their opinion that MC is talented. That's one of the biggest reasons why Seven liked MC so much: their artistry.

4. This is spoilery but fuck it: G listened to MC once and wanted MC's band in BOTB.

idk why people think that people listen to MC and get bored when I don't think I've ever indicated that? The demo isn't even out lshshdhsahs

anyway this isn't an attack on you anon but it is kind of frustrating that people think MC is just this untalented fluke that didn't work hard to get to where they are today. Just as much as MC is yours, they're also mine, and I wanted to make it clear that MC isn't lazy nor are they someone who just does nothing and doesn't try. At least that part isn't customizable: MC works and has worked really freaking hard to be where they are.

sorry for the long response and once again, this isn't an attack on you, but this has been a topic in my inbox and i just dont get it--the demo is literally not even out.

[namtanlovesfilm]

GMMTV randomized shipping wheel pt.2

here we go again, I had too much fun with part one & a few of you wanted a part 2! so like last time, I put the current gmmtv cast on a virtual spinning wheel, spun it 20 times to create 10 random couples & rated them!

OFF X FLUKE GAWIN

I SWEAR I DIDN'T FAKE THIS LMAO 😭 so um... I did write a seandan not me fic & simply adore both of these babes, so... yeah of course I'm into this lol. I think they did have great enemies to lovers chemistry in not me, and them being work out buddies irl was adorable! they're also kings of having chemistry with literally anyone so I know given the opportunity they would absolutely SLAY 😌 also they would be such an attractive couple lol, sorry I need to mention that since both of them are two of my absolute ultimate celebrity crushes 🥰 and lastly since I've always wanted to see off in a ship with a guy who's taller than him this would be *chef's kiss* 9/10

FORCE X POND

hmmmmm... I don't really see it but to be fair, I didn't see force & neo either and that didn't keep them from absolutely eating each other's faces in the only friends mock trailer 😂 and I ABSOLUTELY didn't see pond & nanon together and that didn't stop pond from being so good at flirting with him in dirty laundry! so all of that to say that both force & pond have very flirty energies and are good actors so while I wouldn't pair them together out of my own volition, if it were to happen, I'm certain they would 100% make it work! 6.5/10

LOOKJUN X ARM

so I love both of these babes individually and they're both the king & queen of ig imo, but together on-screen? I'm gonna be honest, I can't really see it :( I do think if it were to happen they'd make it work bc they're both great actors, but idk why I feel like their chemistry wouldn't be great. 3/10

JJ X AYE

I... ain't mad at this in concept, but also can't see it at all?? I think it might be bc I've literally never seen these two interact before & they feel like they are just part of two very different worlds, but as a side ship?? maybe. I mean jj was really cute paired with neen in my gear & your gown and that was pretty random, and aye literally has chemistry with everyone, so... 4/10

OHM PAWAT X WIN

lmaooooooo I know this is probably some people's wet dream, but for me I'm like 😶😶😶 the nepo baby & the homophobic bully together?? to be fair, the visuals, acting & chemistry would probably be great, and honestly these two do have a common point: they both disappointed me on different levels lol 😬 4/10

KHAOTUNG X BRIGHT

so fun fact I am posting these pairings in the order they were chosen lmaoooo, this timing truly reminds me of that one very good fanfic that put sarawat, tine and fong together :'))) so anyways, I love khaotung & think he's an excellent actor who has chemistry with everyone, but... I think even him couldn't pull it out of bright lol. like bless bright's soul but even in 2gether it was a struggle trying to see him portray a queer character, and imo he's just one of these straight actors who is just too straight... 3/10

PLUEM PUSIT X DUNK

girllllllll 💀 be fucking for real lmao, I love pluem a fucking lot, bless his heart, but it's clear he struggles to portray good chemistry with another guy, and even dunk's good chemistry couldn't save it 💀 also physically they would look a bit weird together, idk I don't see it at all, 1/10

LOVE X CIIZE

NOW we're getting somewhere!!! so love & ciize would be amazing together imo, even though obviously I love milklove more. first of all, both of them have had queer roles before, love in bb and the upcoming 23.5 & ciize in my tee and waterboyy, so I know they'd do great! and also physically I think they'd be an adorable couple bc they're both pocket sized but look quite different which is great for on-screen couples imo! overall I will give it an 8/10!

KRIST X FLUKE PUSIT

lmaooooo, krist be collecting the fluke's of gmmtv at this point 😭 so as many know I love fluke pusit so fucking much & think he's an excellent actor who has amazing chemistry with everyone, but... even he can't save this trainwreck 💀 2/10

PODD X FAH

now THIS??? random yet interesting 😌 love them both, think they're both way too underrated & deserve a lot more, and I seriously think they could do a good job together! I also think physically they complete each other well & would look good together, and I could see them in a push & pull, enemies to lovers type of show. I'm sold! 7/10

NEO X MARK PAKIN

this one is obviously a bonus pairing bc they're gonna be a ship in both cooking crush & only friends haha, atp the wheel is getting too smart 😭 I'll give them an 7.5/10 bc I liked them from the trailers but I also do deffo still prefer neolouis

part 1

[serialeclipse]

muse no2 here we go! raising the curtains on miss lee rumi, who's just your run of the mill regular girl! also the most coach user of all time who just can't break the 85% compatibility rate </3 still no pages rip but regular drill, info / plots are under the cut & pls like to plot or ask for my d/scord! 💗

info

rumi is rlly the most regular person ever!! one of those terra users who's just chilling & living life yk she's got small dreams of getting her dream megabuilding skin & respectably medium dreams of finding her person, no big dreams

she also comes from smaller beginnings, born into the care of terrascape corporation & just naturally graduated at age eighteen. officially, her parents are unlinked & she's never really tried to find them. says she's just respecting their decision or whatever that way, but mostly she's afraid she might find them & realise they didn't want her for a reason. no thanks!

she thinks she's doing pretty well for herself though! minus the loneliness that occasionally takes over & the void of whatever that she gets late at night idk but doesn't everyone feel that way at 2 in the morning?

right now she's ur local barista who's lowkey like an npc bc she works at multiple coffee shops! hustling to survive & maybe have extra money for her dream megabuilding skin it is what it is we live in an economy

uses coach a lot. she's that friend who's been online dating for nearly a decade </3 kinda embarrassing but she's putting herself out there in tiny steps yk

( and? she isn't saying that weird things are happening to her. not at all!! she's regular!! but there's something about how she gets deja vu once in a while about a match she made on coach even though she knows for sure that she never met them

weird. maybe it's fate? it's not like terra has glitches! )

chart facts: libra sun cancer moon taurus rising, chill & goes w the flow most of the time. not the type of person to fight back but she might have some emotional walls up to protect herself! doesn't have a lot of ambition, she's happy with her slice of terra life as it is right now. likes being around people but is careful about who she lets in, clingy with the ones who stay. bad at keeping in touch. good at making coffee.

she's a work in progress & also pls pretend i didn't give my muses really similar names pls

plots

fellow coach users: a) 84%, the highest match she's ever had but it didn't work out even though she really tried; b) the 60%ers that she's matched on because what if coach was a little wrong but not totally wrong!; c) a 50% match she swiped on as a fluke (?); d) failed dates that she got a friend out of... or a blocked number rip

u think she's an npc after seeing her at multiple coffee shops & get a jumpscare seeing her out n about with thoughts of her own

found family, other people who grew up under the terrascape care or smth else? thee most important person in her life

other regular guys & gals just living their npc life

she's on the lookout for a megabuilding roomie to split rent but u disagree on what display skin ur flat should have

ur trying to get her to try real dating ( meeting ppl at the bar ) but it flopped

she's too cheap to buy the official cosmetic mod so she's begging u ( coder? reskin guy? ) to help out

regulars on the menu: besties, childhood friends, enemies, fwbs, exes! i also love a brainstorm too we should do that 💗

[jenyifer]

Dead Friend Forever ep 12 initial reaction

It’s over am I happy? Not particularly. It is interesting though. Let’s go over it and then I’ll make my rating post for the whole series

Disclaimer upfront I get triggered by blood so I did watch some scenes with my hands covering the top of the scene so maybe I missed things.

Okay so let’s get into the ep

I find it interesting that Top, Jin, and Fluke all include their ‘friends’ in their hallucinations. While White, Phee, Tee are more self solo focused. I imagine if Por was alive his nightmare scenario would be group based because he wanted to be cool or if it was solo maybe it would be man he’s a really big asshole personality wise. Probably good he didn’t live to this last scene would have been redundant or abhorrent.

So Fluke was afraid of being bullied by Top and Tee. He never really felt a hundred percent with the group. I find it telling that Por and Non convince him to take his eyes out because people felt like he had no guilt for both of their deaths. Realistically if Fluke had stood up to Top and Tee when the camera got broken I do think because Fluke and Por were good friends Por might have believed Fluke over Top but maybe not. Por was an asshole. But him doing anything in the other scenes won’t have really helped. He didn’t have any power in the group dynamic. He wasn’t even particularly close to Jin the reason they both found non and the teacher was because they were in the same class.

I started to get suspicious we might be in dream sess for Top’s he’ll scape. 1 idk how he is still alive 2 he’s still very much on drugs anyways. Also the fear of being betrayed by his friends them not listening to him was an interesting motivation. We saying top was a people pleaser I guess? Idk I wanted more from his character. Did find it poetic he and Fluke offed each other when their fears were so routed in their friendships their bonds. Then that’s what threw them down the stairs.

Tee 😭😭😭😭 even in the nightmare trying to help Non over and over trying to give him hope. Trying to do all that he could. Trapped and trying his best. Shows that he deeply fundamentally didn’t want to be a bad guy. A caged animal tortured animal doesn’t run when you open the cage you have to show it the way out first. I think Tee was hoping seeing Non escape would mean he could go for his freedom too. I cried during his and White’s scene. Also how beautiful are they? I hope Tee survives

Once again I think something bad happened to White to make him feel like he’s dirty that he’s automatically a slut for making friends. Yes Tee gets jealous but I won’t say it’s abnormally so White puts that pressure on himself. He desperately wanted to be Tee’s above all else a very sweet motivator. I once again cried watching what happened. I’m glad Tan had second doubts about his death at least.

Jin stalker/unhealthy obsession? Idk it’s just what the TV imagery and the cell phones make me think of Because my mind goes to BTS Suga’s solo MV for Shadow. Jin’s certainly ashamed of what he did. He also had his friends in there saying he was scared they’d hate me. Very interesting. Jin is MAJORLY insecure. He values his perception and hates who he really is and the pleasure he desires. I was disappointed to see him still alive but then again if he had that injury I was curious if he would survive just based on blood loss to the hospital. Really really hated the visuals on that so… maybe I missed something

Found it heartbreaking that New’s Non was a good little brother. Ugh I can’t imagine losing my sister and this scene really hurts. That New has done all this shit but deep down he knows what New really felt about him and New’s scared he’s done the wrong thing.

Found it sus we see New die of a gut injury when the shot hit his shoulder. But was sweet that Non came back to thank him in his head. A good end although doubting it happened.

Wow Jin being the human one in this scene of the future. I guess he’d be an idealized version of Jin.

Uhhhhh yes? In that Tee would need to accept what happened and seek help. But also no? Phee showing his double standard here. Phee didn’t you just learn you would have been there for Non if you could? Well if Tee was suffering like that Phee you should visit him even if it’s hard it’d be his duty. Phee is partly responsible for what happened. Phee you can care about people you ain’t fucking and or their family members. It’s okay to have friends naturally and support them.

Season 2!!!! Big reveal? So how much of this ep was a dream?? Whole thing? From when new used the gas? I also wonder would New’s protections for himself actually work? Yes he has those cure smoke things but the nightmare stuff is still in everything. I would like it if maybe Non had survived and some how drugged them all? I don’t think he did but 9th person Mr Keng? Non? White? Steps in and all of this outcome has been Phee’s interpretation of the truth ep 12? Maybe idk. I can’t wait for season 2

[shesnake]

ok saurrr i JUST finished ep3 of the Lazarus project so SPOILERS for anyone who hasn't seen it. i know a lot of ethical questions are being raised here but i wanted to know your thoughts on the absolute horror of that episode and the ethics involved because im so confused and conflicted and horrified (in a good way!) idk like maybe here are just some thoughts but: the way people react to each other's tragedies is soo fascinating. the way wes was cold about the rebrovs' son's death but cried when faye dies and when threatened of her own life. the way shiv cries but does nothing (and yet is the only one who tries to acknowledge the horror), the way archie saw it coming and the first thing she does is point it out just to prevent future heartbreak, the way janet knew the risks and did it anyway and that STILL doesn't negate the fact that it was still horrible that she lost her son even though everyone knew it was a real possibility. and the way you can read rebrov's breakdown as a possible empathetic response to archie losing wes even though he also partly blames them for not saving the timeline sooner. the way that janet knows the agony that can result specifically from turning back time and yet helps george anyway because despite it all, she still chose to give birth to her daughter every time.

hellooooooo babe I appreciate these messages so much I love talking about TLP. ok SO:

in relation to wes.. SO many questions about her and the project itself. we are supposed to assume they have no allegiances with any country and operate independently, but they clearly have a western bias which makes me wonder who's really in charge? is their job not just western imperialism? how is wes the highest they can go up the ladder but she doesn't seem to have much idea of what's going on? what does she know? who the fuck is she???? if lazarus isn't tied to any government what keeps them in check?? who's playing god here? because I don't think it's wes.

lazarus agents all seem to be conditioned to be fine violating whatever geneva conventions it takes to get the job done for the greater good. they're all selected from imperialist militant intelligence backgrounds. shiv was brought in at a VERY young age because he "did the right thing" in the eyes of lazarus/wes and the kind of loyalty that cemented in him, probably grateful to have an answer/directive to this thing that's been happening to him all his life. lazarus is the highest authority and the closest thing to god for shiv. and they let him in BECAUSE he "did the right thing" in their eyes, so he wants to keep doing whatever that is. even if there was something he could've done differently in those last moments before the first checkpoint of ep 3, would he??? I don't think he would've at that point before later character development.

(side note: george also got time loop consciousness by a fluke and already had a solid background in tech so that he could easily work in their intelligence. sometimes I wonder what might happen to a random person with time loop consciousness who had no existing skills or resources useful to lazarus. would they just leave them to go mad???)

then there's the greater good in question. dennis is such an insane character to me because I get it!!! I really do!!!! tom burke also played a character not dissimilar to rebrov in my fav show utopia. he's objectively evil for wanting humanity's extinction to happen, but he's written in a way where we can actually empathise with that pain, because what happens to him and janet is sure as fuck enough to make you question god.

then with janet... I think her decision to go through the first pregnancy despite the risky timing speaks to how much she loved and trusted the people she worked with at lazarus. they were all brought together by their shared time loop consciousness and their fucked up jobs they can't talk about to anyone else. your coworkers are all you've got when you're all working for god. you can't Not be loyal you can't Not care about each other. (even when archie loses ross and decides to never love again she is such a FIERCE friend, even to george. shiv is the same.) that silly exchange with the whole group "janet had a bleed" "I can confirm agent rebrov has pamphlets" like they were/are literally a familyyyyyyyyyyy she thought they were going to keep her safe and then they FAILED HER.

and then with choosing to have her daughter... I think it stopped being a choice after the first couple resets but one could argue it might never have been a choice because it's what she feels she owes/is owed after losing her son? the way the daughter is born time loop conscious as well is insane. CRAZYYY episode of television

[yuliangs]

hey! just wondering if you had thai bl recs? you seem like you have good taste :)

idk about having good taste but thank youuu 😭 actually this is the most perfect ask you could have sent cuz I was about to make a post about my favorite bls ajdgdjhdjsawq

ok so you might have already seen some or most of these lol but these are my picks. yeah this got a bit long so short version here long version under the cut

i told sunset about you

not me

bad buddy

my school president

the eclipse

until we meet again

i told sunset about you - first things first this probably doesn't even belong on this list because it is just on an entirely different level. it's a coming of age drama with incredible writing amazing actors and gorgeous cinematography. and I actually feel bad for not having watched it sooner but it was just so gut destroying to me personally so yeah highly highlyyyy recommend

not me - actually the first thai bl I ever saw and boy did it change the entire game for me. one of my ultimate faves. gun atthaphan is one of my fav actors and this is probably my favorite performance of his. action thriller romance. social commentary. twins. first kanaphan breakout role. putting each other in comas as a love language. it's great

bad buddy - there's a reason it's so popular ok it's that good. funny lighthearted but still the occasional punch in the gut. great performances. romance peaked. forced rivals secret lovers. whoever falls in love first loses. milklove debut. just trust me

my school president - soooo cute <3 i'm a sucker for geminifourth and they really shined in this one. funnyyy cute sweet romantic. mark pakin is there. i also really liked the boys' relationships with their parents. very pleasant. nothing too serious.

the eclipse - whew. damn where do i start. um firstkhao excellence. acting their asses out there without even a fucking boom mic to catch their sobs. um invented romance. you can be weak....at least with me. The Curse™. all-boys school mystery. gay repression. neo trai you will always be famous. truly enjoyed this one mostly for the romance but the plot was very interesting as well.

until we meet again - legally i have to rec this one. doomed lovers meet a tragic end but find each other again after being reincarnated. they have the chance to finally be happy together if they can beat the ghosts of their former lives. best bl of 2019. pharm the hydrogen bomb of bl protagonists. fluke natouch i love youuu. earth katsamonnat the ICON. i really just love this one

moonlight chicken is also very good. some other shows that i also enjoyed are triage (very cool plot), theory of love (offgun my beloveds), he's coming to me (boy x ghost also chimon <3 is there), and manner of death (i vaguely remember liking this one). if you want to have a laugh/like torturing yourself like i do i have an entire different list but pit babe is a show. that exists. and was fun to watch.

if you'll allow me to throw in some non-thai bls i have to rec semantic error <33333 and love for love's sake (korean). jbls could be an entire post for themselves though i haven't seen many but cherry magic and kieta hatsukoi are a must.

if you've already seen these im sorryyyyy. if you want to enable me further i could make a list of my most hated bls too. my blog is a safe space for haterism forever <333

[lamonnaie]

GMMTV 2024 Bingo

it's the eve of gmmtv 2024(.5) so perfect time for bingo. I made one for predictions and one for wishlist (there's plenty in the predictions that i'm rlly hoping for too, but i didn't want too many overlaps 😅).

credit to @icouldhyperfixatehim for the template! :)

Some thoughts about my cards because apparently i can't shut up:

I definitely think they have gl series planned for the near future but idk if they would announce them now given 23.5 hasn't even aired yet. The whole split announcement thing seems to be to gauge audience reception, so possibly gl in part 2 to ride off of 23.5? its in my bingo anyway

Winnysatang series is essentially confirmed and i don't think it's a high school series purely based on how much satang's been going to the gym lately lmao i mean it might just be his choice, but i choose to take anything and everything as hints 😌

I think most of us have seen the fk + p'new rumours which.. yeah 😬 (still not over what they did to between us &lt;//3)

i want a fluke pusit + thor comeback because they were insane in the warp effect, but lbr that's not happening lol. But I've been seeing the Thor + fluke nattanon (from project alpha) stuff lately soooo 👀? i'm honestly kinda hyped for that too

saw whispers of jossgawin and i'm so on board actually (didn't think and still don't rlly think joss would do a bl so they might just be in the same project, but still, the rumours are rumouring)

random marcpawin revival in 2023 surely wasn't for nothing right? i think they're gonna be a side couple in a show again next year (same for aouboom who gmm has actually been trying to rlly launch for a couple years 🤞 will they ever get to pillar status? here's hoping because i rlly like them <3)

i know jojo doesn't have any projects in part 1 and a couple of the actors i mentioned aren't even in the lineup, but i can't be bothered figuring it out so i guess some of this will just extend to part 2 :)

i really wanna see neomark again as leads, but i don't actually think we're gonna get mark in a bl (or at least as a cp) in part 1. Markford was obviously very successful because of msp, but i think neomark has more longevity (although idk if mark would be put in a set cp like that). Definitely think gmm wants to gauge the response to neomark more as only friends finishes up.

loved joong in the warp effect and i think he should just kiss everyone (hence joong harem) (joong dating show perhaps) i never rlly got into any of joongdunk's shows although i do love them as a pair outside of the series, so i kinda wanna see both of them act with different people (gmm give me ponddunk pls)

honestly joongdunk could be rlly good if u take them out of the same goddamn uni plotline every time 😭😭

lbr gmm's totally gonna try to recreate msp/gem4th's success with a new rookie pair. i do think msp was lightning in a bottle, so will this reach the same status? not likely, but only time will tell.

guys ohmnani look so good together you don't understand (i know the bl won't actually happen for various reasons but just look at them 😩😩)

i don't rlly have a lot of predictions nor wishes regarding actual concepts because i am uncreative and unoriginal 👍 Overall i do want something more exciting/less tropey though.

Also can you tell I just wanna see ohm in every show ever hajskdj

[bvannn]

Weekly Update February 9, 2024

The sick has returned. I took my medicine for it this morning but so far it doesn’t seem like it’s gone away, but admittedly my symptoms today could be the result of me having a bad day and it being cold outside, and not necessarily the sick. That’s also why I’m posting this update earlier than usual. If it persists tomorrow I’ll know it’s more surgery side effects, and maybe I’ll message my doctor if it stays throughout the week again. Last week went pretty well so I want to assume this week being messed up was just a fluke. I still got some stuff done, though.

I got a bunch of drawings done, most of them epithet erased and fanart rather than OCs but that’s fine. Fwiw I did get a few more comic pages done, though not one a day like I was hoping. I’ll try another tonight, maybe more if I’m in a good mood. I’m also starting to listen to more music, which should hopefully get inspiration flowing a bit better so I can do more OC art as well.

I still got an animation shaped void I need to fill but haven’t figured out what to do yet. I’d like to try something to music but I gotta get a song done first. So I’ve been trying to work on music but I’ve been so scatterbrained that it’s a bit hard. I’m hoping this weekend I’ll have time, but good chance I’ll try to spend it keeping my mood high instead. I guess I could do some OC animation tests, figure out how clip studio animation works too. Maybe.

Music: been toying with some slow ambient instrumental stuff, and that bigger edm one with the piano I posted a sample of a while ago. Turns out EDM is super easy, so if I can find reasons to keep doing it I will, although admittedly I’m not as big on it as I am on other genres. I’m close to done on that EDM one, partially because it’s supposed to be kinda short. I haven’t touched lyric stuff, I might have to soon though since my congenial medical bs is flaring up again too, and lyrics are luckily something I can do while bedridden. Idk I like how the instrumental is going.

I redid that melody I posted the other day for the ambient track, admittedly didn’t change much but I swapped the third measure out, dropped a few notes, and actually tried it on a lower bpm and with some reverb because I forgot to do that for the samples I posted (whoops), and it sounds fine. I need some other parts for that one still, maybe I’ll use placeholders and just figure out the rest of the instrumentation bc I got that half finished.

Haven’t touched vocaloid again yet. Maybe I’ll make some quick demos so I can understand how tuning works. I’ll probably pick a memey or old song and if I make anything presentable I’ll post it.

Been looking for more VSTs too, I compare it to looking for new brushes whenever you’re dissatisfied with your art. Vital has been good for EDM, basically fixed all my problems for me, again. Also started messing with decentsampler again and it’s probably going to fix my problems when I’m working on that ambient track.

I think this weekend and next week I’ll aim to get some time with the big fancy keyboard and just unload a bunch of recording at once. Force myself to finish shit. Tonight I’d like to as well, but that depends on how bad my homework ends up. And if I get flare ups again. I’m still working on dealing with that condition but I need two or three more surgeries before it’s really going to be gone. And I have to wait for those. I’m not worried about money for now since I’m pretty sure I can get a decent job after I graduate (and at a minimum I can go back to the job I had last summer which I liked and paid pretty well). Right now I don’t have a source of income but I think I’ll be fine, I just need to not spend money, which I’m pretty good at. Next week I’ll focus on music stuff first, throw in some drawings if I can, and keep at those comic thumbnails. Once those are done I’ll start on pages.

[lordelmelloi2]

20, 21, 22, 23, 24, and 25 for that ship ask meme on waverose

#20. Who would be the type to walk out of the bedroom all sleepy and tired and wrap their arms around their partner who's making coffee/tea or breakfast for them both?

joiwhghlsdkfj It might be neither. Both are the "sleep in until 12 pm" person and crabs-in-bucket-style will drag the other back into bed. Waver is better at getting up and doing stuff though because he's a tad more disciplined from 10+ years of Doing That because he's a teacher. Rosesona also generally loves wrapping his arms around Waver from behind ... Waver's only making tea and toast though, Rosesona doesn't eat for at least an hour after getting up.

#21. How do they always cheer eachother up during sad times?

This is actually kind of a complicated question because "cheering each other up" really ranges ... well it's more like the "sad times" range. There's the distraction level: the "let's go out to dinner, neither of us really want to cook and we need to get out of the house", there's the "Let's get in the car and drive, right now"... the desire to escape a Something is usually what has to be solved. Is it the crushing weight of being in debt in the 21st century? Or the idea that you'll never amount to anything, no matter what ability you have? Is it the idea you're a terrible partner for the other and you have a feeling that this whole thing is a miracle-- or a total fluke, which you can't tell is just anxiety or not?

If it's something simple like "Someone said something mean to me and I'm pissed off about it", that can be solved with a kiss and a treat of some sort. If it's something so much deeper than that, if it's something truly crushing and seemingly inescapable: we have to go to the ocean. We have to go. Right now. Come with me.

#22 Would they be the type to dress up in those funny/cute/hot matching couple costumes during Halloween or dress up parties?

Rosesona can hardly get Waver to do stuff like that without at least a day or two of bothering him about it -- But if it's funny enough, Waver will join in. It depends. I think the two of them are capable of doing that wire-mother-cloth-mother thing if they wanted to. It really has to be funny enough of an idea. If it's too on-the-nose or like a "turkey-and-stuffing" type costume Waver hates it and won't do it. They couldn't do a sexy doctor and sexy nurse thing unless it was for like, a photoshoot... Idk. If we're talking Chaldea, Waver's more likely to do something like that because of the Chaldea Vogue magazine shoots and the other fun things that they do in the media clubs and such, but if it's not in Chaldea, if it's in London, there's a lot more at risk. You can't really have a Lord of the Clock Tower with compromising photos like that floating around.

#23. Do they love playing board games or video games together?

This stupid ass video game couple is ruining my life (Im the couple). the video games thing is also particularly messy because Rosesona has better routes for importing Japanese games and more friends that can get more niche shit in so Waver is like desperate, always, constantly asking Rose shit like "Can you see if this game is available..." or even like "If you find a download..." "Rose, what does this say..." "Can you translate this for me..." like Waver is truly bothering the shit out of Rose all the time with this. All Rose wants to do is burn CDs of Aphex Twin when he sits down at his computer and then Waver will be like "Can you check that Japanese website to see if someone uploaded a ROM of..."

#24. What are their pet names for eachother?

They used to not even have pet names actually. I can't remember what film it was that they watched but something clicked in Waver's brain and he started calling Rose "sweetheart" and so now they call each other "sweetheart" all the time.

... there's also this running joke they have with each other where they will call each other "kitten" and themselves "mommy/daddy" in reference to like, the discord moderator-discord kitten type shit (this started during their time in Chaldea). They will not ever genuinely call each other kitten or mommy/daddy without getting a glare. hell they can barely even do the joke without looking at each other with a weird expression it's really funny to watch

#25. Do they like binge watching shows together?

Yes but it depends. Waver doesn't watch a lot of TV so Rosesona really has to be like "Okay you need to watch this show to understand the impact it has on greater society" to which Waver is like "What part of me indicates you think I'm attached to greater society in the slightest" rose: "Girl shut up and watch The Sopranos with me"

If it's anime Rosesona has an easier time (LOL) but he also never wastes his time with anything. He made Waver watch GitS:SAC because it was important to him. They watched RGU together. In Chaldea they've watched those and also PMMM and now they're both mentally ill about it. I'm just saying the Waver=Homura parallels are there even regardless of Roasze.

But I think the thing too is that since they're both pseudointellectuals heavy overthinkers that approach everything they engage with very seriously and genuinely, Rose usually tries to find something that he can actually Talk with Waver about on a serious level because he rarely watches something and is like "my brain musshhhhyyyy haauauahahaa" they're just not that kind of people.

Do I think they'd watch something stupid together: it depends. Rosesona can barely watch something stupid so Waver will steal some glances. Oh, but: if it's stupid but Rose wants Waver to watch it anyways he'll just quote Iskandar "You need to widen your horizons more and get more in touch with the people" and Waver will grumble and sit and watch it (and complain the whole time but it's ok).

[mangodestroyer]

I think I should study more about dissociation/derealization. I'm pretty sure a lot of what I've been dealing with mentally might have something to do with this.

And yes, I'm aware I'm not a psychologist and can't self-diagnose. It's just been something I've suspected for a while now but never really looked into. But I'm also not sure I fully understand it or what it entails. Or if what I'm experiencing is something else entirely.

All I know is that, ever since the age of 18, I just got really weird. Sometimes, I feel like I'm living in a very dreamlike state, or like I'm doing dr*gs even though I'm sober (like, everything looks and feels so different and trippy for some reason). Other times, it feels like I'm hardly even sentient. I'll just be doing stuff and talking to people and whatnot, but everything will just feel so dark and like I almost have no thoughts. Or when I do think, it will be like, "Oh, I'm alive? I'm here? I've been alive? There's a world around me? I exist?" And when I'm like that, I feel like I can hardly form sentences or even be consciously aware of my surroundings or others.

And like I said, the first time I really noticed I was doing something like this was when I was 18. And it didn't just last for a few hours or a few days. It was really intense and lasted a few months. I just remember being so obsessed with death/dying. Doing intense research on life after death (or lack thereof). Literally not being able to focus on anything else. It kind of just came out of nowhere, although things had been very stressful that year. And I stopped eating and taking care of myself. I remember everything looking so dim. The edges of my vision were dim. I HATED feeling cold because for some reason my mind was associating it with non-existence at the time. Animals and other people also just felt really robotic and uncanny. Everyone's movements just felt machine-like, as if they were just programmed and they weren't sentient. I started to question if I or anyone or anything else is actually sentient and if maybe this is all a fluke. Or something. And I remember in therapy just not being able to explain this at all. I didn't even know where to begin. So I kind of just would talk about random shit, ig while the therapist evaluated me. And the random shit really was random and kind of didn't make sense. And would sometimes just be invasive anxieties that came out of nowhere. I remember one time I started defending the existence of supernatural shit. Insisting that it's not invalid for people to believe or try to perform magic. That it just REALLY needs to exist. Yeah, idk why I was doing that.

And then... I snapped out of it. And unfortunately, I just stopped going to therapy without getting a diagnosis. At the time, ig I just thought it wasn't going anywhere. And I have mixed feelings about it now because idk if I was just being completely impossible to work with or if maybe they were noticing how weird I was being and needed extra time to work it out.

I've had a few other long term episodes (?) like this too. All of them very different from the other. I had a couple of them this past year, actually. At the beginning of this year, I was CERTAIN I interacted with supernatural entities in some way, even if I didn't fully understand the how and why, and that I accidentally tore the fabric of the universe in some way and opened up another dimension. By complete accident. I just felt like I "went too far" or something. And I was now experiencing and learning about things that were "too abstract" for me to understand, but I had a tip of the tongue feeling about it. I felt so strongly that there was something there and no one was seeing it. And I was just SO CLOSE to seeing it. When I told my sister, she said I was having a delusion. I insisted that it wasn't a delusion and would it really be so crazy if something existed but was invisible to us but would actually be very relevant? The other episode was very similar. Feeling like I fucked up the fabric of the universe in some way again. Oh, and also feeling like the Earth was unusually small and the atmosphere felt really low to the ground. It kind of felt like I was on a set. I also remember the sun feeling unusually white.

I notice it only happens when something really stressful happens in my life. Like, when there's intense family drama or right after I left my toxic relationship. Otherwise, it's not as intense as the months long episodes and it just feels like mild dissociation now and then. It feels really weird typing this all out and thinking about the fact that I really was thinking these thoughts and experiencing reality this way. And the more I experience it, the more shame I feel over it. I almost never talk about this because I feel like no one will believe me or take me seriously. Or they'll just write me off as someone to stay away from.

And yes, if it helps, I did have a traumatizing childhood.

[infinitelytheheartexpands]

Le prophète (Karlsruhe, 2015): Reactions, Part I

new (ish) filmed production of le prophète just dropped??? there go any other plans i may have had for this friday night

no loitering allowed

this chorus is essentially just “thank fuck that it’s sunny and not storming” which…i get it bc i live in tornado alley, but also as we come out of a VERY hot summer…storms are nice every once in a while

also: no room for sun in a neon capitalist/oligarchist hellscape

berthe’s got rocker girl vibes!

the waitress: “eh might as well listen to your story not like i have anything better to do on company time”

this does not feel very heterosexual on berthe’s part

edit: scratch that apparently that was fidès, in which case…why have her come in before she’s supposed to be there, director

also though: as a friend said, (paraphrased) “if y’all ship filippo and rodrigo i should be able to ship fidès and berthe bc it’s basically the same thing”

“tomorrow this place is ALL YOURS!!!”

(we love women business (co) owners)

she got all her papers in order, she’s done everything RIGHT, and yet…

THE ANABAPTISTS ARE HERE

also: i’m sorry but i find it so fucking funny that they’re dressed up like mormons. idk why that’s so funny to me but i saw a production of the barber of seville once where one of almaviva’s disguises was as a mormon missionary and i lost my shit laughing. anyway back to the opera

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA THEY WENT TO FIDÈS’ PLACE THAT MAKES THIS EVEN FUNNIER

(on the other hand, though: why is everything such a huge problem if fidès and jean live in the same town as berthe??? a big part of it is that berthe is asking to LEAVE oberthal’s domains. i wonder what the modern equivalent is)

“nah not interested” *slams door in their faces* yes you go fidès 

weird cuts but THIS CHORUS NEVER FAILS TO BLOW ME AWAY

the power of community organizing! (unfortunately done by people with…less than great intentions)

fun activities with friends: doing acrobatics and breakdancing on police cars

everyone reading each other for filth. it’s fun but they all suck

also, no picture but: LUCIA LUCAS IS IN THIS??? (she plays Mathisen) NICE!!!!!!!!

two brave women supporting one another we love to see it (also: one of the prettiest duets you ever did hear)

oberthal you little bitch

you’re just gonna leave her chained to that? 

WAIT OBERTHAL WAS IN THE BACK SEAT WITH BERTHE THE WHOLE TIME OH FUCK

talk about mood whiplash! (also: this chorus BOPS)

uh oh (also especially with the mormon missionary-esque costumes, their being at more or less a sports bar is hilarious)

jean is a tenor with no brain cells and he’s able to admit it, unlike most tenors with no brain cells

his dreams could be prophetic for real, or a fluke…but either way they are GOING to be manipulated 

“no sports. only our warped version of Jesus”

“guys. stop kneeling before me. i’m not Jesus or any warped version thereof”

(also i REALLY want them to start singing “hello”)

THE WAY HE LAUGHED AT THEM YES JEAN GET ‘EM

“DUDE, we’re not supposed to have beer”

“oh sorry”

he’s just a guy who really loves his mom and his rocker girl fiancée! 

so jean. about that marriage tomorrow.

oh HONEY

HOW DO YOU NOT SEE HER OH MY GOD

i’ll try to put the rest in a reblog bc apparently you can now only put in 30 images per post, which is STUPID and DUMB and i HATE it

[namtanlovesfilm]

GMMTV randomized shipping wheel

so I couldn't sleep bc I had a uni interview lol, so I thought "why not put the 100 current gmmtv actors on a randomized wheel to create random pairings that I can in turn rate & judge?" so,,, um... here we go 😅

here are the 10 first ships that were created, if you like this I'll make a part 2 bc it's too much fun:

LOUIS X ARM

honestly I don't think it would be a bad ship per say bc arm has proved with friend zone & never too late that he's a great actor who honestly should get more roles, and louis is also pretty solid & gets along with everyone, so... this is not a crazy idea in my eyes but also this would be a very unexpected ship so idk, 6/10

NAMTAN X MOOK

so here's the thing, I'm so desperate for gl I'd be down for ANY wlw pairing lmao 😆 also namtan & mook are both very good actresses so I'm sure they'd do amazing! my only issue is that they do look very similar & in general couples are more interesting visually if they kinda are opposites, but also queer people often date their lookalikes so it wouldn't be too crazy lol, 7/10

JUNIOR X CHIMON

hmm... I don't really see this lol. I think junior has tried doing bl many times before joining gmmtv & he's not that good in romantic settings imo (though I might be biased bc one of his bl roles was him faking a ship with yoon in the graduate where he looked like such an awkward hetero lol.) but the thing is, chimon also kinda has that vibe? I think he's definitely gotten better but the straight vibes are still poking through for chimon imo, so him & junior together would be too much. but honestly if they were given the chance I can also see them completely surprise me so I'll give them 4/10

THOR X GUNSMILE

bro 💀 this is the weirdest pairing ever lmao, first of all I've always struggled to see gunsmile doing bl, like I think it would require the exact right pairing for him to do great at it & not look awkward, so thor?? noooope! I liked thor in the warp effect but he gives too much hetero vibes for me once again, so him & gunsmile would literally make the straightest bl couple ever lmao 1/10

AJ X PRIGKHING

I love them both so much so I can see it! as an ajploy shipper, obviously they wouldn't be my ultimate pairing, but prikhing is adorable & I think they'd make the cutest little side pairing, 8/10

AOU X LUKE

........... actually? 👀 I don't mind this. like my first thought was "wtf" but then I imagined them next to each other & I think their height/size difference would be cute! I also think aou is a very good actor who has impressed me a lot in all the roles I've seen him in! as for luke, I'm gonna be honest I don't really see him doing bl & he needs to work on his acting, but I've seen stranger things happen in this fandom so never say never :') 6.5/10

WIN X TITLE

now, once again, my first thought was "wtf 💀", but then I removed win from his status as incredibly famous & placed him back right before 2gether aired, and? honestly that ship could work? I imagine them in an aepete from love by chance type of innocent relationship, and I think physically they'd be a good looking ship together. though I can't imagine their chemistry or acting together so I'll give them a 6/10

(also why did title fucking SNAP with this pic omg)

NICKY X MIX

💀💀💀😆😆😆 nah bro THIS is the worst pairing I've ever heard of lmaoooo 😭 mix could've chemistry with anyone but nicky??? doing bl??? I could maybe envision him as a side ship with his bff leo but HELL NO 😭 bless nicky he's a comedic icon but nope, 0/10

LEO X LUKE

listen idk why that wheel is obsessed with luke but NOPE. like I can't imagine these two even PRETENDING to like each other, like... it's just too random atp 💀 maybe as a comedic side side side side SIDE ship, but overall, 2/10

VICTOR X FLUKE GAWIN

LMAOOOOOOO 😭 like I can't see this ship at all but tell me why I would 10000% prefer this ship to gawinkrist 😭 5/10

[papermatisse]

your jun fic “False Pretenses” needs more attention!! i read it when it was still at less than 200 notes (iirc, since it’s been months) and i’ve been reading it periodically ever since. i open tumblr when i’m bored and it’s the first thing i think of rereading. the writing is just *chef’s kisses* so i come back to your account every now and then just to see if you’ve released a new jun fic or a period piece of another idol that i might be interested in reading 😂 anyway, please never delete your account, or worse, get rid of “False Pretenses” from the internet 🙏 it’s rare to come across a well-written full-length fanfic on tumblr nowadays so i treasure your account as a mine of gold.

tysm 🥹🥹🥹

as silly as it may sound, I also occasionally return to my jun fic just to look at it or reread a scene. primarily because it feels like a fluke to have been able to write it in the first place. it's the only story of mine I can look back on it without looking at it through a critical eye or simply cringing 😂.

so I do really appreciate this feedback, especially rn! it just put a smile on my face that'll probably remain for the next few weeks. idk if I'll ever be able to write something like I did false pretenses. I do hope I can one day, because I enjoyed writing it a lot and it feels nice to look back on it with pride.

as for wips, I don't have anything bearing close resemblance to the regency era. my closest one is a Seungcheol fic, though I'd say it's generally more 19th century as a whole than specifically regency. but like false pretenses, I intend to make it silly and fluffy with a touch of angst. I have a Wonwoo fic, but he's 1950s. and I also have multiple wips on the feudal system!

but thank you so much for your message. as I insinuated earlier, I've just felt rather monotonous the past few days. this really helped in putting me back to writing 😂. I really appreciate the time you took out of your day to send me this ❤️ thank you 🥹

[popontomarnie]

We're heading towards the end and I get some pieces of information from there and there, I get less brain rotted about DFF day by day and don't really care about pheejin so much (still love Copper and protect Jin though, hearts), so now I see this story as a whole. And I don't like it.

I'm not a professional script writer and have only a few fanfics on ao3, so, I'm the least qualified person. But as I always say when it comes to hockey games, if even I noticed it, it must be an obvious thing.

When pre-release trailer just came out, I was crying, screaming, throwing up for about a month. I still re-watch it every one in a while, because it's a beautiful thing and I could write a story based on it only.

But we've got what we've got and I have some questions and thoughts.

First, the evil five or whatever people call them. Throughout the flashback we see Jin not really getting along with Por, Tee and Top, who are, I personally believe, the original trio. Fans proposed that Fluke became friends with them because they used him for school, and I am all for this explanation. But Jin? The question is not why he became friends with them but rather why they became friends with him? I can only suggest that Por brought Jin into the company because rich kids (people in general) like to be surrounded by rich kids (people).

Another question is why Por attends this school? Why doesn't he attend blue pants private school like White and Phee? When I first thought about it, I explained it to myself that maybe Por's father wants to be this down-to-earth politician whose kid goes to a state school, but I don't think his mother would just allow it.

Also, as surprising it was for all of us that Por called out Keng, it is pretty reasonable for a politician's teenager son to know about sa and power harassment. At least it makes sense to me. Maybe his father had some scandals at his workplace and talked about it at home, idk. Just saying.

Second, Non's family. His parents in particular. I do understands that their behavior might be realistic, some people can act the same in real life, but we're talking about characters, and characters' actions usually have a narrative. So we have two neglectful towards Non parents. They don't love him, because he's not as good and hard-wordking as New, he dares to ask for money or whatever. And when the video is leaked they're ashamed of their son sleeping with a man, but don't even think about their son being groomed (and they know about his mental state, they must realize his son is vulnerable). They don't care about their son until he disappears. And what should we expect from a characters like this? That they probably gonna believe that Non run away with Keng and pretend they only have one son. But suddenly their focus shifts to Non, and this twist frustrates me so much. The parents are just plot tools, not characters, and it makes the audience even more fierce, but once you start analyzing?

I'm not sure about New's character, because for me there are some contradictions in him too. First of all, New, how the fuck could you not know about your mother's state? Okay, they didn't tell you bc they thought you were in England, but why didn't you send Phee to check on them or something?

Okay, this is the question I have for him as a person (who calls her mom every day) to another person. But to think about it in a context of a character? New just doesn't care so much? See, he get obsessed easily, first with his education, then with his revenge. And, yeah, as other people have already pointed, New does it all for himself, not for Non.

The problem that I have with DFF is that once you reach ship wars/wars with jin haters post clarity you come to realize how messy this story is. Hear me out.

I think there're too many characters. Yes. It could be Top who took and leaked the video. Why you make Jin do it if then you give no explanation of his actions (in the show, not by the actor) or don't even show some shift of his attitude towards Non if he's disappointed? Make him a jealous bully! Make him the reason Non loses it completely when the last person who's been nice to him becomes mean too. Or if Jin doesn't become the absolute antagonist, why don't you make at least one scene when Jin realizes he's fucked up? And if he's a manipulator as many believe, show his manipulative side! And if it's revealed he was not the one to leak the video, there will be even more questions. Again, I love Jin, I see so much potential for him, but at this point I think that Jin girlies developed his character much better that the writers.

I think it was possible to split Jin's character into two: Top and Fluke. Top takes the video. Fluke makes Non stay in the project as a fellow bullying victim.

And Phee's new love interest? Oh god, this boy could've lost his focus with anyone or anything. Send him into a university party life and he will forget Non just fine. Or make him fall in love with Tee, imagine how spicy it would be.

Anyway, my point and position when it comes to books, movies, shows is that if you don't/can't develop a character/plot line properly, don't do it at all. And this is exactly what happened with Jin; he's definitely not a secondary character like Top and Por (i mean their screen time and depth), but not main like Non, Tee, Phee or New either. He's stuck in this limbo, hated by almost everyone (and oh how funny it is that Copper started getting hate too, I though DFF fans were anti-bullying). Again, I love Jin, and I think about him just as I always think about things I love: you do it well or you don't corrupt it with your ass work at all (and BOC is usually guilty of this but don't let me start).

To conclude:

If I were given this idea, set of characters and asked to write a script (12 ep) I would go for an already proven method and make one episode per character from their perspective (other three for murder in the woods). Start with Top and Por' pov, then go to Fluke, then Phee, then Jin, then New, then Tee and White (not sure if Non's pov is better in the beginning or the end). Give each character a backstory, even Top who is literally just a guy (derogatory), show through his pov how the original five became friends and how stupid and evil teenagers can be.

P.S. My main suspicion is that writers created (poorly) some characters so BOC could establish their young actors, which, to put it respectfully, was a bad idea. What do you get in the end? Ship wars, actors being bullied, disappointment by both fans who want a revenge horror and fans who want a gray characters' story.

I hope I will be proven wrong and have to put on my clown wig again this week, but you should've seen me in January and see me now, the disappointment vibes are killing everything around me.

P.S.S. If White turns out to be Non but after surgery, my facepalm is gonna be so strong I'll have to go under face surgery myself. Non's face to White's face? He'd have to break his jaw and would not be able to move it for months, not saying that he'd probably have to wear braces!