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Can you believe we live in a reality where David Tennant and Michael Sheen could be kissing right now?

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Lucky Aziraphale 😏

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I got a hognose snake on Thursday!!

Her name is Cheddar!

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Haha! I actually had a headcanon where Aziraphale is jealous because Crowley can enjoy spicy foods while he can't. But you know what? This is in character for Crowley. Pretending he can handle something and suffering in silence.

I think it would be funny if Aziraphale had a high spice tolerance and Crowley did not, like they’re eating something spicy together and it’s just

Aziraphale: This has a bit of a kick to it, doesn’t it?

Crowley, trying to hide the fact that his mouth is on fire and he’s dying: Yep.

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"Kill yourself" is basic. "I hope your fandom gets a new installment that is objectively a great work but also tonally dissonant from the previous ones in a way that generates a huge newbie boom of people uninterested and hostile towards the history of the franchise" is smart. It's possible. It's terrifying. It's happening right now.

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Sorry, vent ahead.

Ugh! This is me. Constantly! I've been having lots of bad experiences at my school. It's just weird! I could get away with being autistic in a retail setting. In fact, people started liking me! But these students? They just don't fucking like me!

I mean, it seems like I'm finally finding people I get along with, but I'm ngl, the environment here has kind of worn on me after a while. In fact, I sometimes wonder why I'm personalizing this. A lot of these people seem toxic/unhappy with everything. I mean, they don't seem enthusiastic about their major, as they constantly complain about everything to do with it school-wise. And always complain about the professors. And... I just don't get it? I literally see nothing wrong with the program or the professors. In fact, I get along with the professors pretty well!

A few girls sit near me during group work, course discussions, and extra credit assignments. Even when I try to get away from them! Because I know they're leeching answers off of me to try and make themselves look better! And yes, the professor KNOWS I come up with lots of correct answers. These girls will otherwise treat me like a disease and imply that I'm stupid. I've even been called r*tarded. Tbh, I don't see how these people are getting through. They don't seem like college material at all! And a LOT of people on campus are like this! This is just how the girls are. A lot of the guys like to talk over me and insult some of the things I say. And a lot of people here LOVE to turn conversations weird. Wtf is everyone's problem? Again... I just wasn't having experiences like this in retail? Okay, I had a couple supervisors who were kind of shit, but they certainly weren't getting anywhere with that and actually TRIED to control themselves.

I mean it. I don't understand what the issue is. I'm engaging in class and actually have enthusiasm for what I study. That's the entire fucking point of college? Oh, but I certainly get lots of dirty looks for doing more than the bare minimum!

So, yeah. Rsd! I know the people here can be toxic. I'm still experiencing rsd. I've still noticed a sharp increase in anxiety and frustration. I can't make it go away no matter what! At this point, I'll probably have to do something more to lessen it medically. I'm getting to a point where people walking near me is beyond overstimulating.

One of my professors is now my mentor for research. We seem to get along REALLY well! Psychology is not his area of study, but he's obsessed with neurodiversity and NT minds. I think he's pretty much admitted that he isn't NT himself (he's admitted to relating to LOTS of my autistic experiences and he certainly does show a lot of signs). Seriously, he hyperfixates on shit like crazy and he understands my weird life experiences. Like... wanting to have things a certain color because colors have a lot of meaning to me. Seeing letters and numbers as colors (I thought that was normal?) Being super curious about things to a childish extent. Having a vivid imagination. He doesn't care that I always stim. I mean, the guy makes lots of weird noises while explaining things himself! He can sometimes get pretty animated.

I mentioned one day that I find it so strange how a lot of people don't seem to get as excited about/invested in things as I do. I seriously don't understand how people can claim to like things, and then complain about the process a bunch and not show any signs of enthusiasm. People suspect I might also have ADHD. I mean... I get OVERWHELMED with energy sometimes when engaging with my interests. Like... how can other people not be like that? And additionally... how can other people not care about "simple" things like colors and shapes? I know it's childish, but I can't grow out of it! He was showing me advanced math modeling techniques for research (I have a strong math background), and I mentioned that I'm glad I never outgrew liking shapes because it seems to be pretty helpful. Not even kidding, it's half the reason I like math!

And he just gets it! He's read whole theories on it and everything! Like, apparently the NT mind dials down the curiosity by the age of three and becomes more focused on assimilating to their peers (it's a process to adulthood). The autistic mind literally doesn't grow out of childlike curiosity. So... he just thinks it's fine if I still like shapes and get super excited about things. He, too, wishes more people could be like that. He's known some really autistic people who made great discoveries because they were like that.

Ugh, this world can be rough! It's nice finding someone who can actually relate to you, though! My sister said that a good number of my professors are probably going to be on the spectrum. Uh, yeah! A lot of them do seem to be fairly ND. It's much easier to relate and talk to them than it is with others.

my Someone's Mad At Me senses are tingling

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And Crowley very, VERY reluctantly going along with it is a sign that he likes him back.

"Hey I know we have just reunited after a fight and 80 years have passed since, but will you please aim this RIFFLE at my head, yes ?

Oh and trust me. I might die of your very own hands tho (and the image of it will probably leave you traumatized for years), but trust me :)"

- Aziraphale, 1941 in a nutshell

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Guys now that we (finally) know who is in charge of GO s3 production, can someone tell me if the new Director and Producer are good ?

I don't know them at all

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These goofy gestures are what make this scene memorable for me! Don't even remember much about the serious convo, tbh.

Time for a rewatch, I suppose.

I notice everything.

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Yes! Agree with all of this! Those of us who were resourceful BEFORE the advent of chat GPT don't fucking need it for shit!

Okay, okay. I have found ONE useful thing about AI. I struggle with programming due to a ND condition which, as my professor put it, makes it difficult to think linearly. I tend more toward lateral thinking, so writing programs in the correct order is HARD. So... it does make programming a thousand times easier! Idk if it's because I suck at programming, but searching for help online for this kind of thing is genuinely painful. I'm super impressed with how AI can show me the CORRECT methods for the questions I actually asked.

However, I only resorted to it once. I'd much rather learn the principles behind writing programs because that would be much more useful in the long run. I don't think AI will be able to help you if you're doing something much more advanced than an intro programming course and never learned the fundamentals. I mean... you need to write a somewhat competent program in the first place if you want to use it for error checking. And again: I was only error-checking a simple program. I know of skilled programmers who can figure out some LARGE fucking programs on their own in such short amounts of time! Without AI. So... I won't speak on whether or not some experts find it helpful. I'm not a computer science student. I'm majoring in something tech-related for an AS, alongside my non-tech BS. My AS does NOT get that complicated when it comes to programming.

And that's it! That's the only thing that has impressed me about AI. Otherwise, it's just copying and pasting info... often from the first few search results! Also, some people act impressed by the writing. Idk... every sample of AI writing I've seen comes off as telegraphed IMO. Maybe I just didn't see good samples. But then, I've always been good at writing essays. I don't need AI.

I think a lot of what pro-AI people are really wanting is stuff that already exists but they don't know it's out there like

can't format a work email? templates

don't know how to write a resume? templates

writing a thank you card or a condolences card or a wedding invitation? templates templates templates

not sure how to format your citations in MLA or whatever format? citationmachine.net

summary of something you're reading for school/work? cliffnotes.com

recipe based on ingredients in your fridge? whatsintherefrigerator.com

there's a million more like, guys, we don't need AI, we never needed generative AI

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your bed is probably as happy to see you as you are to see it. ‘here comes the warmth slab’ it thinks

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Yes, this is no accident. In fact, I've seen lots of metas over this.

GET THIS: Good Omens is basically Romeo and Juliet except it's more tragic with 6000 years of pinning.

Please tell me I'm not the only one who sees this.

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I'm an introvert and this seems like a healthy dynamic IMO!

Like, even if they are sometimes in separate spaces and meet for lunch now and then.

Today, Crowley and Aziraphale spent the first day of the new year just existing in the same space together, doing their own things but also checking in once in a while to make sure the other was still there and still feeling happy.

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Sometimes, I have to wonder if my autism is actually that much of an issue.

There are some people I get along with REALLY well. We almost never have misunderstandings, and when we do, it's SO fucking easy to resolve them! In fact, it's so easy to just KNOW what these individuals expect of me. I can joke around with them and everything. They give me space to exist around them. They know I'm a little strange, but it really doesn't bother them.

Then there are people who seem to INSTANTLY hate me. Their communication skills fucking suck and they're always rude. They hold me to insane fucking standards that they don't even come close to meeting themselves. And, not to throw shade, but their social life almost always seems to be a disaster. Trying to make it work with them is often met with pettiness and personal attacks. I must have gotten unlucky because I've met LOTS of people like this on campus. Much more than usual! The only thing that has worked in the past is to become indifferent and not engage. It's hard because I've been socialized to see my neurodiversity as a hindrance and accommodate others so that I don't upset them. "They aren't the problem, you are! Stop blaming other people and stop making excuses! If you weren't so selfish, you wouldn't be having these issues with people!" And it's funny! When I'm "selfish" and feel confident about myself... I have fewer issues with people! It's when I start feeling insecure that people start treating me like I'm horrible! Well, not everyone, but THESE kinds of people!

It's easier to remind myself of all this when I get to spend time with people who actually respect me. Something I didn't expect to learn about the world: not everyone sees my neurotype as a problem. Some people actually DO see positives to me being this way. It wasn't just bs a therapist told me to make me feel better.

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Omfg, I didn't even know it was New Year's!

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Ineffable cookies!

So after I made the first sweaters I felt encouraged to make an entire Good Omens set! I also wanted to redo the sweaters to edit them and switch the colors around.

I had so much fun making these! Did a lot of things I never did before like the wings being more 3D looking. And I played around with layers a lot more. I hope everyone likes them!

Side note: if anyone wants, message me, and I can ship a set. I don’t know anyone who watches the show in person, so otherwise they’re just gonna sit around.

If anyone wants details or anything lmk 😊

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I've heard that lots of us ND individuals like getting into "strange" subcultures. For instance, I've seen an autistic woman say that she's goth because she needs to be scary on the outside to protect herself because she's soft on the inside. And others have said, "I'm weird and people give me a hard time for it, so I might as well dress in a way that repels normal people."

First off, I find this hella relatable. I too have sought out more "unusual" spaces because they tend to be more welcoming and I've been burned so many times trying to befriend "normal" people. This is also what has gotten me into STEM. People in STEM are also more likely to be ND or NTs who are open-minded and have nerdy interests. Sure, there are exceptions, but it's a much more welcoming space in general and we're all there because we like STEM subjects. I feel like being a STEM major/nerd is also a form of masking for me. Like, who cares if I'm a little strange sometimes? I'm studying cool science stuff and am good at math!

Secondly, these statements remind me SO MUCH of Crowley! He always acts like such a baddie, but we all know he's super soft deep down. Poor snek has been traumatized by the world and invented the goth subculture as a result. But let's be real, he still has a side of him that likes to squee over his special interests. A side that only Aziraphale gets to see.