#micro dreaming

[contemplationofapoint]

Below are the poems from the image above:

Contemplations (Of A Point)

The grinning prophet provides once more an open relation to a closing door.

Dramas in mind, maimed by today transcend through soft memories each ‘morrow.

Moved to introspectives sparked by each darkness, smile on smile on through the hollows.

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Roll shut the drawer another body deceased. The spiral decapitated diffuses in space. Seclusion delusion fixing a place. Presuming control, a ridiculous weight.

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Decorations of utility used not once today. Purchased promptly, I know not why. Wasted worry, money and time. Trained to perpetuate, consume, and die. Why stand in line, waiting to try?

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Cursed by illusions lost in delusions dreaming the dots in my mind.

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Transition through a life today, trained to find a reason. Remain too long, lingering happy honored to try the plays. Perhaps we devour a way.

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To spiral realities inferred from a line, thanks for the grins conceived out of time.

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Crunching Krispies, killing worlds Each bite a destructive decision.

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“Time is money” a world insane. Brainwashed since, “How much for fire?”

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A world to speak to, silence produced. Peopled by beings indifferent. Insanity hastened through gospel endeavors. Ending as is etched in my skull, “Send now your money prayer of faith.”

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Infinite realms of repetitive dribble concerns for a moment in time. Questions eluded as points are passed through, lost on a circular line.

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Diffusion from the thought intended. Focus found from feeling free.

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Plainer life in fields of green. Graze on regularity. Spend a life, to carve a door. Never to pass through.

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Alone in the darkness sifting my mind, feeling the gladness of love without bound.

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I am happy. I am happy what a life I have found. I Know. I Know. --- I know how it sounds.

Below is the story of the models - the contemplation - etc.

The origins of this post would have to be Second Year Fall Semester in Architecture School at VA Tech circa 1988. In retrospect, it seems I may have been conducting a sleep patterns study on myself. For the better part of the semester, I would stay awake for three days straight, then have a normal sleep, and then stay up for another three days straight.

Near the conclusion of the semester, I pushed and was seemingly able to stay awake for five days straight or so. I say seemingly because although I didn’t commit to sleeping, I do know that I experienced some sort of ‘micro sleeping’ moments where I probably seemed to be basically awake however I would drop periodically into a deep dream state.

From outward appearances less than a minute of time would pass but within the dream state I experienced vast expanses of time elapse.

During the course of the semester as each third day occurred, I recall that the world was generally funnier from my perspective, and I enjoyed the humorous focused feelings.

Over the span of several days and weeks I would arrive in Lab at the Warehouse behind Lane Stadium around 10 each evening. We weren’t in Cowgill due to a lack of space.

Upon arriving at Lab, I would put on my music, get out my cutting board, plain white index cards, precision point X-Acto-Knife, and white Elmer’s Glue. Then I would proceed to make one of the models (images of which I have shared again earlier today) and leave it on my desk in the morning prior to departing for other daily obligations prior to return to Lab for the regularly schedule 1PM to 5PM Monday, Wednesday, and Friday Sessions.

I don’t recall discussing the models with anyone nor do I recall anyone asking me much about them however I got the distinct impression at the time that perhaps some discussion about them occurred in my absence.

What I believe was going on in my mind at the time and continues to thread through my thoughts is what can best be described as ‘The Contemplation of A Point’. The poem ditty verses mostly written during my undergrad years are likewise manifestations of ‘The Contemplation of A Point’.

The Text 'Point (geometry)' about Euclidean Geometry is relevant to the past and present. The first sentence “In classical Euclidean geometry, a point is a primitive notion that models an exact location in the space, and has no length, width, or thickness.[1] In modern mathematics, a point refers more generally to an element of some set called a space” says it all though the remainder of the Wikipedia post is instructive and helpful.

Particularly helpful is the second sentence: “Being a primitive notion means that a point cannot be defined in terms of previously defined objects. That is, a point is defined only by some properties, called axioms, that it must satisfy; for example, "there is exactly one line that passes through two different points".

It is interesting to me that such a complex and comprehensive concept as A Point is coupled with the phrase ‘Primitive Notion’ though in reading through the second sentence it occurs to me that the use of the word ‘Primitive; is perhaps intended to be synonymous with the word ‘Primordial’.

The definition of A Point as “That Which Has No Part” wholly lacking in dimension while at the same time being both infinite and finite and somehow seemingly fully occupying a specific and unambiguous X,Y,Z,Time Coordinate is in essence the starting point, journey, and conclusion.

A Point is One, Many, All, and One. Within A Point, the rules of reality breakdown and are pervasive. A Point is self-sufficiently-referential while being defined by external definitions of perception seemingly lacking in existence without them.

A Contemplation of a Point concludes that finite perceptions are constructs construed of the infinite and thus illusions committed to by the limits of life …

And Yet … And Yet …

Friday Feeling Bike Ride Wheeling Living The Dream and Grateful for Life Rules The Day in Every Way.

Time for my Morning Walk - I hope you all have a lovely, wonderful, and delightful day, weekend, week, month & year.

[ukgk]

Kikka (bonus DLC for UkaSmash EX)

[toyastales]

A gorgeous mermaid dress.

[5thcult]

[domquixotedospobresblog]

I had three big frustrated dreams, I wanted to be a car driver, but I never wanted to learn to drive, I wanted to be a great swimmer, I also never wanted to learn to swim, I wanted to be a great dancer, but I never wanted to learn to dance, dreams are not requests made by genies in lamps, dreams do not come true if you do not take the first step, which is to learn about what you want to be someday.

Jonas r Cezar

[invisiblegarters]

(Absolutely not) Micro BL and GL Reviews

I spent the last couple of weeks being ill in bed with very little energy. Not great, but also it meant that my limited ability to get up and move around much gave me endless time to catch up on a bunch of shows that I'd let fall by the wayside (or never even started in the first place), and now I have thoughts to share!

Joy? Joy! Welcome to yet another set of my talks about shows that is supposed to be small but never actually is.

Completed

Wandee Goodday: This wound up being way sweeter than I expected from the promo material, but I'm not complaining. I genuinely love shows where most of the people are just trying to get alone while being decent, and that was certainly the vibe here. I was happy with the sex positivity and the introduction of Kao being ace, although I will admit that I felt like it was a little too "let me educate you" about that bit at certain points. That said, it's a topic that maybe needs that kind of thing in this context? I also really really loved that Dr. Dee and Yak got it together and spent a bunch of episodes just being adorable and dealing with struggles that had nothing to do with their relationship. It's so refreshing to see adults being in an adult relationship and actually acting like it. There were several times when the show could have just manufactured drama for drama's sake and chose not to and I really respect and love that. It was also fun to see Title appear in a role that wasn't to cause problems. And Char and Yei were fucking adorable my god. 8/10

We Are: Way better than I expected, if I'm honest. It got a little draggy for me at the end, but Pond and Phuwin always give solid chemistry and I finally got to see what everyone likes so much about Winny and Satang paired together. I never watched MSP and I never will because it's just a little too young for me, but Toey and Q were fucking cute so I get it now, guys. I especially adored Toey - Satang plays endearing brat very well. I also really liked Tan and Fang - their teasing dynamic worked for me. Also Boom is so pretty my goodness. I do think that it was trying to juggle too many couples but as I already said it dragged a little for me at the end so I think they could have done it with better pacing. It seems to me that New has a thing for dramas driven by internal conflicts, and that was We Are all over. The plot advanced as the characters did, which I can understand might be frustrating but I find that if I'm in the right mood I eat it right up. Especially ones like this, with mostly sweet people just living their lives and trying to do right by themselves and each other. Cute, earnest, a really good friend group. It probably won't be something that I revisit much or that sticks in my mind for a long time, but I had a good time. Giving it a 7/10, mostly for the pacing stuff I already mentioned. It kinda lost me towards the end.

My Marvelous Dream is You: idolfactory's second GL and I think I wanted to like it more than I wound up liking it. The chemistry was good and I love the cast (even if I think my girl Silvy was way underutilized), but the plot was a little...not great. I'm still not entirely sure what it was going for, or why the shared dreams were important. I really liked Ae (Kim's mom). And Wan was my favorite. Girl was messy and brash but my kind of messy and brash if I'm honest, and I cheered aloud when she went off on Mawin's family. They were awful. Awful, too, was Mawin in the end. I get being hurt but I always get a little (a lot) irritated when people mess with someone's livelihood out of pettiness, so him fucking with Kim's business because she broke up with him (and yes, in a really shitty way but also lbr here he knew she wasn't into him in some ways he did that to himself) was never gonna do anything but piss me off. It does amuse me that Heng has now played 2 dudes in idolfactory GLs who very nearly marry one of our heroines when she really really doesn't want him and he's very aware, though. I find myself wondering if he's gonna go for the third in The Loyal Pin (I hope he does). 7/10

Love Sea: I loved this one. I knew I would. The premise had me from moment one, lol. And frankly, Fort and Peat deliver on chemistry so it was kind of a no brainer for me. I knew that Trongrak was gonna wind up being really messy the second love came into the picture, and I was absolutely right. I love how he was perfectly fine with Mahasamut holding him and defending him against his shitty dad and following him around and getting all jealous when he implies he's going out to fuck other people (and whether or not he'd have done it is up for debate - I think he would have forced himself to try and failed miserably because that's my favorite lol) and take care of his niece like family, etc...but the second the word "love" actually makes its way out of the dude's mouth he can't handle it. My only quibbles were Prin - why was she so awful for no reason, MAME? The dad - he was not an effective villain to me. I wish that he'd been a little more menacing but I guess it works that he just let Tongrak think that he'd done a lot of things that he hadn't, and I do like that he was basically squeezing money out of both Tongrak and his mom just by showing up on occasion and assuming that they wouldn't talk to each other (which they weren't, both trying too hard to protect their family from his sliminess). I also like that it was finding that out that made both of them snap out of it. And last but not least - what the FUCK, MAME. How dare you give me that lesbian side couple and make it SO COMPELLING and actually get me invested than then not actually offer a resolution because oops, we're on episode 10 now and it's time for the love issue between Tongrak and Mahasamut to rear its head? How very very DARE you. Genuinely this made me the angriest and dropped my personal enjoyment a lot. I haven't seen the special yet so maybe that gets addressed (it SHOULD I was INVESTED), but while I would probably have given it a 9 (I really liked it a lot okay) I am dropping it to a 8/10 for that. Tempted to drop it to a 7 because I am petty.

This Love Doesn't Have Long Beans: Another one I really liked! The chemistry between Sailub and Pon is absolutely scorching and while I have noticed that actors are getting a lot better about it in general, I always take notice when they are so entirely comfortable with not just the steamier scenes but the emotionally intimate ones as well. I love when I am watching a show and I can believe that the characters want each other and like each other, and not like a part of them isn't flinching at the very idea of it (unless that's the character, but just go with me when I say that there's just a very specific vibe you get when one (or both) of the actors isn't comfortable and I think it actually happens more with the sweet, couply stuff than it does the steamy stuff. But I digress). Chemistry like that can help me forgive quite a bit.

I liked how obnoxious Wan was in the beginning - I did not expect that and it was annoying but also kind of delightful. He grew on me despite my initial annoyance. Oab was a little different - he annoyed me right out of the gate by not calling Kao Suay and telling her about her dad. I get the respect thing, I do, but also what if he died and she was abroad, none the wiser? How would everyone have felt then? Keeping it from her was NUTS, and I don't even care that Kluer called her and told her for nefarious reasons. Someone had to. Oab's wishy washiness with her when she came back annoyed me too - a personal failing of mine has always been that I don't have time for that kind of waffling. I just wanted him to make a choice and stick with it (and was doubly annoyed as it became clearer and clearer what his choice was and he still couldn't just say it). Thank goodness he had Nubnueng there to gently prod him into finally doing the thing.

I wish Kluer's turn to villainy had been more evil, but I guess that wouldn't have made sense for this show, since no one really was, not even Enemy No. 1 Methas. Speaking of which, I wanted to like him and JJ more than I did in the end. I did like them, but I guess I just wanted more development there than I got in the end. They were cute though JJ was hands down my favorite character. I understood Methas so much. I also really enjoyed his relationship with Wan.

One thing that I thought was utterly hilarious was Oab's pettiness. As a petty person myself I can't help but find opening a new restaurant to steal all of your ex's customers because he wouldn't just apologize for, you know, deceiving you for most of your relationship and initially planning to sell your restaurant to the one man in the world you emphatically never wanted to own it absolutely hilarious. No notes Oab you keep rocking on. 8/10

Currently Watching

The Loyal Pin: Everything in this show is so damn pretty it's hard for me to think about much else. Especially Freen, and it seems like all the show wants to do is remind us of her beauty at every moment. Which, well. I am not complaining the woman makes my breath catch.

But this week I finally started paying a bit of attention to something more than oooh pretty, and I am genuinely wondering if this show isn't going to be all pretty dresses and gorgeous women falling in love and carving mangoes and if maybe there aren't some extremely serious things swimming in the waters.

Watching Anin wield her power this week hit me way way harder than all the ways that she'd been doing it before, and in a way that made me think a lot harder about how she'd done it before as well. I think it's because usually she sticks to manipulation to get what she wants - she's charming, she smiles, she talks people around - but last ep she dropped all pretense a couple of times, and we watched it cut more than once. Anin is a woman who knows exactly what she wants and she has the means to get it, she is spoiled and she will do whatever it takes. Other people have talked about it better, but I will say I am absolutely fascinated, and am genuinely curious to see if this is going to be addressed or if it's just the way it is. I also want to see if there's something that will butt up against Anin's frankly terrifying amount of power. Something she can't either manipulate or brute force her way through (although in the end I bet she manages to do one or the other anyway).

Also, kisses. Teach Pin more things Anin! She's a good student.

The Trainee: This show was not really on my radar at all, and I'm genuinely not sure why I decided to pick it up. Maybe because I was finishing up another GMMTV show and it was next in the youtube queue?

Whatever the reason, I'm so glad I did because I fucking LOVE this show. it's my favorite thing airing right now and that I never would have expected or believed.

It really is so good though. I think for me it's that it feels realistic - maybe in a way that can be uncomfortable for some but I love it. No one here is perfect, it's not just the mentors constantly schooling the kids because even though they are older, they are still growing too, and still have things to learn. Especially when it comes to Jane, who is my favorite character in the show I think and is hands down the best Off character I have personally seen. I am so iffy with Off normally that my adoration for Jane is confusing me, but he's so good. He's an adult and he handles most of his problems like an adult (which frankly I think is sometimes missing from these shows), but still has moments where he fumbles because he's still human. And I like that when he does fumble, he apologizes. I'm also really in to the whole deal that happens in the workplace where people think he's a certain way and judge him for it, but he's really just...dedicated. Strict, yes, but not entirely uncompromising. I dunno he's just a great character.

I also really like how this feels like an ensemble show with the romance not at the forefront. I don't always want that but this is so well done that I'm happy for it. I like that we have gotten to showcase each intern, their struggles and their achievements and just...growing up and learning to handle that scary point in life where you're really starting to enter the adult sphere, with all it's responsibilities, but still not ones that are entirely on your shoulders. If you do things the more traditional way, that is - I know a lot of us were in that world well before college. Still, it does resonate with me.

I am also enjoying the insight we're getting into the background of production. Such as how much work and effort goes into even the smallest change in filming even something that seems as simple and straightforward as an ad. Imagine how hard it would be to reshoot scenes from something like a TV show, especially considering the stuff like location, OT, cast and crew...I had already guessed a lot of it, but it's always nice to be proven correct. I like being right, what can I say? And the Ryan's awkwardly trying to draw people out without directly asking them how they are After Work Corner is very charming. I like that it gives insight into the business but also Ryan, who I do sometimes feel is the weakest of the interns. Which is insane because he's played by Gun Atthaphan, but there you go. I did like that he was brave enough to ask Jane about his feelings last ep, and I'm looking forward to seeing him more in his element (or at least what he's used to) next ep.

I really hope this show continues to impress.

1000 Stars - This is a rewatch for me as I roped a friend into watching for the first time. I warm up to this one more each time I watch it. The first time I was annoyed with Phupha's everything but I feel like I get him more and more as I go on. I also love a show that has heart (heh, this show has heart ror sure (and this is why we can't take me anywhere)) and this has a ton of it. It also amuses me whenever Phupha and Tian start doing their intense staring thing and there are other people around. I bet they're all just like "welp there they go again we've lost them, best go about our business" and leave them to it.

I also always forget Khaotung is in this one. Every time I watch I'm like "oh yeah" when he shows up. It's so funny to me.

Looking Forward To:

Peaceful Property (28 Aug) - Is it BL? Is it bromance? Who knows. Do I care? I...don't think so. Whatever the romance situation it looks like a ton of fun, and I am excited to see Tay back in glasses and to see this cast, especially doing comedy.

Kidnap (06 Sep) - This one also looks like fun. I love Ohm, Leng looks like he's doing a good job matching him, they seem to have good chemistry from the trailer. And pettily I'd watch this anyway because some of the shenanigans of certain fans have made me that annoyed. Good for me that it looks like something I'll like regardless, I guess.

Pluto (???) - GIMME GIMME GIMME GIMME. It has been 84 years I am DYING here. If it doesn't get released this year I might actually cry, but I am hoping that it will.

There are others I am looking forward to (honorable mentions if you will): My Golden Blood, The Heart Killers, ReVamp (still a stupid title), Friendshit Forever, Hide & Sis, Us - but all of these are either not filming yet or so early into their schedule that I'm not letting myself get too excited for them. And for The Heart Killers especially I don't want this to be an Only Friends situation where I got really hyped and then was inevitably kind of disappointed (at first - I shook it off and came back around eventually lol). I just wanna go in there and have a good time - I'm excited to see that entire cast do a romcom, I think it'll be fun, and that's about all I want to expect out of it. I'll get excited when we get an air date.

Also thinking of picking up 4Minutes since it's on Gaga now, apparently. And maybe trying to find My Stand In since it's over and I can inhale those deliciously toxic fumes all in one (or two) sitting(s). And maybe, just maybe, poke around for BL and GLs outside Thailand, lol. I feel like it's been all Thailand all year for me when I used to watch JBLs and KBLs too.

Any recs?

[jis6n]

summer productivity challenge ; day 6

met my water drinking goals

woke up early & picked up breakfast for my family

listened to fernanda ramirez’s podcast about self perception 🤍

Bible reading

finished editing & uploading my video for tomorrow (youtube channel here)

language study 🇯🇵🇳🇬🇫🇷

washed my hair

practiced speaking in french with ash <3

created another to-do list for tomorrow

washed the bathroom & tidied the garden

photos from pinterest.

[caliburn-the-sword]

if someone wrote an urban fantasy ya 4-5 book series set in australia with a bi second generation chinese immigrant as the protagonist, which both allegorically and literally explores the immigrant experience, as well as allegorically depicting how alt right groups groom well meaning good people into their ranks by exploiting their fears,,, would you read it 👉👈 just asking for a friend 🥺

[onlylonelylatino]

The Legion of Super-Heroes by George Pérez

[magnusbae]

I wanted you to stay. I wanted you to love me.

[adhd-merlin]

Awake

Fill for @merlinmicrofic prompt 'Awake’, Morgana & Gwen, Gen, 100 words

When Morgana opens her eyes, there's darkness.

At her back, a cold wall. Water trickles down her manacled wrists. Something shifts against her thigh, whining pitifully.

Then stone grinds against stone, uncovering a crescent of night sky.

In the feeble moonlight, Morgana meets the gleaming eyes of a skeletal creature.

She screams.

“Morgana!" A familiar voice — a beloved voice. "It's a dream. Only a dream.”

Later, as she observes Gwen's sleeping face in the moonlight, Morgana savours the memory of Gwen saying her name — not “my lady”.

It brings her a peace she could never hope to find in slumber.

[hyunpic]

i have these xmas chocolates that my grandma gifted me last december and they taste so weird. like idk how to even describe them but im so determined to eat them even tho i don’t like them.. cause i feel like my grandma would know and feel it spiritually if i threw them away

[someweirdladybug]

Drawn nudity and esoteric gender/body discussion below cut;

Based on a dream I had that a couple months ago that left me fucked up on a shockingly more emotional level than I ever expected given how tightly it played into my hyperawareness of my body. Sometimes I feel too clumsy and bullish because of how my sense of balance and dexterity are thrown off so easily by the slightest things. Sometimes I feel unapproachable because I look intimidating to some people. In that dream, all three got solved in this weird pseudo-monkey's paw way. I was absurdly small and couldn't really knock much over without actively trying. I had way better balance because my standing base was, well, this, so once I got used to moving all the legs I didn't feel like I was going to fall over any time soon. And I was definitely not that intimidating due to the combination of the two. Would someone be concerned? Yes, but not because I would pose any potential threat in their mind. And like, once that initial panic rush of feeling helpless and exposed was over?

It felt nice. Kind of relieving. If I had a safe way to get around, I probably wouldn't have even panicked the initial time. I just felt cute and dainty.

[domquixotedospobresblog]

I met a boy once, he told me that he would never be able to enjoy the great dream of his life, as soon as it came true he had no idea what would happen next, if he would smile or cry, if it would hurt, bleed, if there would be sound or silence, if he would be alone or accompanied, I asked curiously what dream it was that he had, I was anxious for him to answer me, but it hurt my soul when he said that his dream was simply to die.

Jonas r Cezar

[miitgaanar]

Requested by @serpenthyne! Thank you for indulging me :3

Send me a number and I’ll write a micro story using the word or phrase

7. silent fury

"What troubles you so, my dearest?" Cassandra pointedly ignored the question, her eyes fixed on the vial she had been about to pack away in her satchel. It was empty, only the barest remnants of a violet-hued residue still clinging to the sides of the glass. How she had come to loathe the color. "He yet lives," she said, the words caustic and cutting. She shoved the vial into her bag, a frown pulling at her lips. "Yet another failure to add to your tally, I suppose." The Dungeon Master stood tall and unmoving, his arms crossed over his chest as he watched her. The room was dim, naught but a single candle lit upon the bedside table to illuminate the space—and yet still she saw how the corners of his lips twitched downward. "He will meet his end," the Dungeon Master said, his voice smooth and calm. Almost comforting in its timbre. "He has but delayed the inevitable." "He'll come back for me," Cassandra hissed, desperation undercutting the anger in her voice. "Surprise was the only thing I had over him—and now he knows my face. He won't stand for this slight. He won't let me live to regret my folly. He—" The Dungeon Master crossed the distance between them in two strides, his hand gripping at her chin and stilling her tongue. It was his touch, more than anything, that stunned her into silence. So used to his strength, to the raw power flowing through his veins, that she had braced for pain—but his grip upon her was gentle, used to simply angle her face toward him. To ground her before panic could set in and render her senseless. "That man will not lay a finger on you, my dear." His thumb caressed her cheek, the well-worn leather a balm on her frayed nerves. The sensation soothed her, enough so that she lifted her gaze to meet his own, and was surprised to see a cold, silent fury burning within those ice blue eyes. "Should he dare to try," he continued, his voice a low rumble, like that of distant thunder, "he will quickly come to realize that the gods he so eschewed are not as indifferent as he believed."

[jis6n]

summer productivity challenge ; day 5

met my daily water drinking goal

slept in and had a “cheat” day, was still very productive but it was so needed after the exam period 🥲

skincare & flossing habits

finished editing youtube video!

practiced french, japanese & yoruba

planning to book tickets for the haikyu movie, i truly can’t wait for when it comes out

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