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[sarascamander]

My favorite Sherlock x John retelling

1) Holloway Holmes & Jack Moreno from The Adventure of Holloway Holmes (book series).

- These two have the most special place in my heart. They are the healthiest, most adorable pairing I've ever encountered and I love them like my own sons. (And they are canonically together!!!!).

- they really said MISCOMMUNICATION WHO?? IDK THAT BITCH. Couple goal at its finest, really 😭🤌🏻 Jack will sit Holloway down an be like, "TALK YOU EMOTIONAL CONSTIPATED MF 👺👹 ILY 🥰💞✨😻

- HOLLOWAY HOLMES IS MY SAD MENACING CINNAMON ROLL AND HE NEED A HUG.

- Jack Moreno is really out there casually being Holloway's #1 defender. He needs a hug too let me give it to you, baby 😭 (and this is a SPOILER but he IS a Watson. He just didn't know that).

- again, they are just ADORABLE. SICKENINGLY DOMESTIC MARRIED CRIME SOLVING BOYFRIENDS. And Jack's internal monologue is so fun to read, he's hilarious!!

2) Ty Blackthorn x Kit Herondale from TDA (book series)

- okay this is not technically a Sherlock retelling but they have the vibe!!! Ty basically fancy themselves Holmes and Watson and I'd do anything Ty told me to do.

- fella is it gay that you're waxing poetry for this boy who held a knife at your neck the first time you met? Kit doesn't care he's dying. He was too shocked at how pretty Ty is (I am NOT EVEN EXAGGERATING)

- HOWEVER they are the KING OF MISCOMMUNICATION. KIT HONEY I PROMISE YOU TY HAVE A BIG FAT CRUSH ON YOU.

- the way Kit adores Ty is peak literature. I CANNOT deal with their angst. I wouldn't survive it.

- hope they solve more crimes (and kiss!!) in the coming books. I'VE WAITED YEARS FOR THEM OKAY.

3) Sherlock Holmes x John Watson (BBC Sherlock)

- the first two seasons of them are SO ADORABLE.

- they matched each other's freaks so much. What do you MEAN John shot someone for Sherlock just a DAY after meeting him???

- I haven't watched beyond season 3 but I know what was gonna happen and maybe that's why they're kinda low.

- THEIR FANFIC IS FIRE. I LIVED OFF IT. WHENEVER AO3 WENT DOWN ITS LIKE MY LIFE SUPPORT WAS PLUGGED OFF.

- they aren't canonly together tho 😭😭

4) Charlotte Holmes x Jamie Watson from A Study in Charlotte (book series)

- I ate them up when I was 14. Still crazy about them.

- their relationship is SO COMPLICATED and low-key toxic. It makes me want to tear out my hair, it makes me want to eat paper and scream and cry.

- they love each other, they truly do. As far as I remember, they're still not canon by the end because Charlotte wasn't ready (and what happened to her was heartbreaking. I understand why she isn't ready to be with Jamie but it still broke my heart) 😭😭

- Charlotte Holmes can be BBC Sherlock's daughter. They are so similar in so many ways. And they are so destructive 😭😭 AND CHARLOTTE NEED THERAPY PLEASE GIVE THIS CHILD A THERAPY.

- Jamie just... He needed a break. Give him a break, you guys. He's tired and sad. He's only 17, he doesn't know anything but he knows he loves Charlotte.

- (I can write a whole essay about their relationships and of Charlotte. I think I did at one point lmao).

- okay now that I'm writing this should be at least the top 3. I'm ranking it 2 but I'm too lazy to move it up. This book is the one that got me into the Sherlock lore in the first place, I was obsessed.

5) Enola Holmes x Louise Partridge (I don't remember the characters name sorry 😭)

- I watched this movie on my ex bestie's birthdays when I was like, 14 so in a way I have a special connection to this movie

- but honestly I think it's boring lmao.

[dramallamas]

The (unserious) notes of Beyond Evil. Episode Three Edition

Previous Episode || Next Episode

Cant wait to psychoanalyse this episode later with the scriptbook!

Jinmuk je te deteste dont even dare feel sad you monster

that shot of Juwon lazing on his sofa im down bad

He has nice handwriting tho

Honestly when is this man not thinking about Dongsik

The fly jumpscared me bc of my headphones

Dongsik you bastard (affectionately)

He is not ok rn

Juwon eavesdropping was me and my flatmate last night trying to find out the drama

The camerawork in this show is beautiful omg

Dongsik has no right to look this fine rn tho

Oop spotted!

Jihwa knew both of them were at the station lol

And bada bing bada boom we are in the recording room

And theyre off and Jihwa is so done

Juwon is so like WTF with this whole thing.

If looks could kill Dongsik would be dead 💀

why at 5am?! WHY WERE YOU UP AT 5AM?!

Bro Juwon doesnt hold back

Dongsik <3

Juwon could murder im sure of it. He has it ij him.

I like watching the gay men fight… because its fun :)

THE ONLY TIME I WILL AGREE WITH HAN KIHWAN IS RN “What a nut job. I like him [Dongsik].”

Juwon pissing off Kihwan is just so great at all times.

Theyre gonna find the wrong body and blow this case even bigger

Dongsik again <3 the onlt dilf of my life tbh

My heart breaks for him though. He masks a lot if pain

“What if I ran into older Yuyeon on the street, but failed to recognise her. That worries me a lot…” 💔

Fellas is it gay to stare at another mans smiling photo for a long time whilst in your room?

Juwon you have always been a crafty bitch and I respect that

YJG is a brilliant actor he is a master at subtle emotions which makes him one of the most expressive characters in the show

YAY you found a phone

Bad news for Juwon its Geumhwas phone that has his number.

Mate ur laughing like a maniac like dongsik does. You two arent as different as you think.

But my god you like to jump to the wrong conclusions

Watching the scene with nam sangbae and dongsik makes me cry but i cant because im in the living room with my flatmates. And the score in the background just 😭

Me 🤝 Dongsik : Laughing to hide pain

Man will stay in work just for Juwon

They back and forth in every scene like its all they do.

Mf going on about the culprit always returning to the scene and here comes JINMUK AHDKFMSP FORESHADOWING WE MISSED

Part of me think that Dongsik is suspicious of Jinmuk atp.

If you told them that they would be so close by the end of the series they would be fucking disgusted.

Oop juwon getting interrogated.

Juwon pausing before adding 요 at the end of his sentence like bro you are forgetting your respect conjugation

oh shit juwon not looking good for you is it.

"Given his nature, there is no way he [Juwon] would get involved in a crime" HYEOK YOU DONT EVEN KNOW-

Hyeok became his tutor in 2010... when JW was 17. does that mean that he helped JW in Korea rather than britain? or the tail end of britain onwards.

Hyeok you are such a kiss-ass

Do Haewon 🤢 she is so fake i hate it (which is the poing ig lmao)

LEE CHANGJIN. hes so funny for a bad guy

Jeongje is so frustrated with his mum (same)

Juwon is this close to slapping Hyeok at times.

aliens? rude much kihwan (what did we expect)

and there goes juwon loosing his cool.

annoyingly kihwan makes some points even if its for self centered gain. still hate kihwan dw

bro standing outside as ppl talk about him like 🧍

And then the eye contact between him and dongsik god having a whole silent conversation

Nice recovery juwon.

Them being nice to each other? NOT THIS EARLY BOIS

And boom personal space who? They dont know it.

Dongsik telling Juwon to go to therapy lmaooo

Juwon grabbing Dongsik probably became a… different thing later on yk? Hehe

This episode is basically Juwon and his terrible no good very bad couple days.

Bro you need to hike/walk more Juwon how are you already sweating.

You make think you have him, but nope he has you.

JUWON BREAKS INTO DS BASEMENT PART ONE HERE WE GO

The tiny bloodstain ofc. He def left it deliberately somewhat

And i am so hyped for episode four because of the incoming moments.

Juwon this isnt the victory you think it is trust me

see you all next episode! bye ^^

[georginasparkzztoday]

009 17, September 2024 8:10am

Today, I'm having my first psycho-therapy in 11 years.. I still don't know how to feel about it, idek what i'll say.. I'm excited for the drugs tho lmfao 😅🤣

Anyways, I fell asleep very early last night.. around 8-9pm? That was after taking 3 pills of doxylamine and a pill of hydroxyzine, lmfao. They still didn't manage to keep me asleep tho.. I woke up around 12am unable to fall back asleep, took to more pills and guess what? I'm still here, kickin' 😂 I am so fucking done with this tolerance hahahahhaha like, wtf does this body want? A fucking kick in the face? Nightly? Hahahahahhahahahaha fuck this shit 🥲

There's this guy tho.. I always seem to end up with him after my break ups.. This time around tho, he's acting weird.. like.. "good morning" texts weird.. hahahahhahaha I don't trust it. I don't trust him! If there's one thing I've learned in my days of dating? It would be to never trust a 6 foot baller, with the face of a greek god, who be trappin' and spendin it like a muthafucka! 😅🤣🤣 Like?? C'mon Jones! WTF is this broo?? HAHAHAHA whatchu outchea textin me good morning at 8 am for? You know how we do! Quit playin wit me, you know we're just supposed to distract each other from our shitty realities 😂😭 Hahahahahahahhaha bruh I am so done with these men 😆 He's a very good distraction tho.. I just hate how he turns more heads than I do 😂 mf

Heh, anyways.. as for the other dude? The one I keep beating myself up for even fucking caring about? FUUUUUÙCK HIM! He. ain't. shit. Hahahaha! I remember.. 😏 I remember how long he was textin his ex for after they've broken up, after we we're already together.. I remember all the shit he's done for her, that I never got from him! I remember it all, so.. FUCK HIM. I never got anything more from him not even a month after our break up. Meanwhile, he sabotaged our whole relationship, 11 years in the making.. Put me and my feelings aside, not once! not even twice! and goddamn was it not three times! He continued lying to my face for that bitch for mooooonthhs after they broke up. So fuck him. KARMA will get him.

I don't need him.. I never did! I just really don't understand why I even wanted him. He isn't even all that, and I knew that from the start!!! lmfao 🤣 what a stupid bitch I am sometimes.. I should've trusted my brain when it tried to stop me from going to him that night. He ruined my life! I can see that now.. I'll never go to a man again in this lifetime. They want me? They can come and fucking find me. And today? I vow, I will never let another man get in between me, and my life, ever again.

[projectdreamcatcher]

Not to love post about c! Tubbo again but. Rant under the cut bc i Love Him. /dsmp /rp

He’s such a good character because he shows how a peaceful character =/= nonviolent character. He shows how “nice” does not necessarily mean kind of morally good.

Tubbo is living proof of a cycle that perpetuates itself. A cycle of power grabbing, of hurt and pain, a cycle of destruction. He did his best to break that cycle, and almost succeeded. Almost.

Whats holding him back truly is his inability to acknowledge somethings wrong, that he needs help. Because if he asks for help, his pain is real. The first step to healing a wound is to acknowledge a wound is there, and tubbo can’t even do that.

So instead of wallowing in it or processing his pain he throws himself into his work instead. Build more walls, make more weapons, do anything necessary to protect your country and the ones you love. Even if it means he has to hurt others.

That being said, tubbo is not at all someone who revels in violence for violence’s sake. He has no qualms of commiting acts of violence if he believes there’s a Cause, a reason. This isn’t to say he enjoy’s it- most of the time, he wanted to do the opposite. However, it doesn’t change the fact that tubbo still commited those acts out of his own free will- with not much guilt about it at all.

Tubbo has worked so hard to get where he is now. Lost his home, his pets, his friends. Died twice, nearly died permanently again. Dealing with the aftermath of being dehumanized and treated more like an object than a person- to the point where tubbo has not only internalized it towards himself, but others.

Despite all this he... kept going. He has a new home, a new family that cares about him and that he cares for in turn- in his own ways. Tubbo just kept grabbing for any sense of stability and defense he could, so he couldn’t be hurt again. And... he did it, somehow he managed to do it. Had to break himself apart, but he did it.

Kids aren’t alright.

[sweetcafa]

Hey would you mind if you could do a Vtsom headcanon? Which character does like to be hug and able to give hug as affection to Y/N or Mc? (I don't know exactly how to describe it)

Ofc! I was surprised that I got a Vtsom request so soon since it’s pretty underrated. But ofc we love to hug some of these charters. Take ‘em to therapy while we’re at it 😔For the sake of it we will be doing are main 3 bois. 👹👌🏻

Order up!

Hug rating headcanons

Fandom: VTSOM

Charters:

Vincent Edgeworth

Victor Blake

Draco Edgeworth

Theme: fluff

Vincent Edgeworth

5/10

.This man sucks tbh 🫡

.He dose not seem to be a very affectionate person at first

. Or at least was never given that much physical attention in his life

. But if you normally show affection like hugs or cuddling he might try and sneak in a hug

.mostly his hugs can be stiff but once he gets use to it

.you might as well drop what you’re doing

. His hugs become really warm and you just melt

. One time you got scared when he hugged you from the back

. But when you felt his arms around your waist while his head was laying on your shoulder

. You never felt safer

.Its a 50/50 if his hugs are really affectionate

.But he normally gets stunned when you give him a hug

.He will just stand there one arm rapped around you while the other lays on your head

“good day love. I wouldn’t mind if you rest with me. I don’t want you overworking yourself. Not when I am here to take care of you.”

Draco Edgeworth

Slightly better then his brother 7/10

.Even tho like his brother he didn’t really get that much physically attention

. He is slightly more open to these type of things

.tho the main problem is that his normally to busy to give you hugs

. A quick hug or peck on the cheek is the best you can do

. So it’s normally you giving him the hugs

.But it’s really sweet when he hugs you

.like when he comes back home after leaving all day

. You were right there sitting on the couch reading.

. He walked over siting beside you

.Before you could of ask how he was-

. He wrapped his hands over your shoulders resting his face over your own

. He pulled you close hugging you there for over a minute or so before saying something

“I missed you love..can we stay like this for a little more.?”

“Of course Draco. You can rest all you want. Before you went back to reading. The silence was peaceful.”

Victor Blake

The best mf 9/10

.He is the one to hug you.

Day.afternoon.night

. His love language is definitely Physical touch

. He loves to hug you before picking you up bridesmaid style.

. It becomes a daily thing for him to hug whenever he can

. Tho he can be slightly flustered when you are the one hugging him

.Normal front face hugging and back hugging is what he dose

. Even those hugs when you run up and jump into his arms while he holds your thighs so you don’t fall

.one if not the most affectionate guy you have met

. It was a normal early morning . You were walking around the house looking for Victor

.And to your lovely surprised he was standing near the counter with lazy eyes and coffee

.You walked over wrapping around him while your still sleepy self, laying your head on to his chest

. You heard him place his coffee down

.Wrapping his hands on your neck. His arms lazying hanging beside your head. using your Shoulders as support

. Placing his head onto of your own resting his head and eyes

“Still sleepy? No worries love you can stay here with me. You and I can stay like this for as long as you want.”

.

.

.

Yipeee order is complete 👹. I hope anyone reading this enjoyed the headcannon. Even tho I am new at this I am open to ideas on how to make my writing better. But it was nice doing something wholesome for such a dark game.Hope you enjoy the little drawings. I am planning on using those for most if not all fanfics 🫡. I need to keep drawing since I have zero ideas.💟

Have a good day/night.

[feyda-forever]

Hello(again), this is the match up info for creepypasta.

Appearence: im 5'5, blonde(natural) shoulder length hair, hazel/green eyes, pale vanilla skin tone with scars on my shoulders, im a bit lanky in the arms, i have dark marks under my eyes, and i have a grunge aesthetic.

Likes: Nature walks, horror movies and games, fantasy, reading, science, flowers, Manga/anime, star gazing, cold colours, frogs, mushrooms, music(mainly punk/rock/emo/grunge), and butterflies.

Dislikes: clingy people, stupid phobias that make you look like a jerk, red meats, the color pink, pop boy bands(i will forever stand by MCR and FOB)

Personality: i tend to have trust issues and get spacy with people i dont trust, i also tend to be calm half of the time and energetic the other half, i have a dark personality with a tendensy to be mysterious(as of what ive been told), im good with people and emotions, im able to confort them easily, im friendly and open to people i like to be around, i get stressed easily and get paniced about some things, and im an insomiac, which makes me abit lazy.

Fu Facts:

-i can life a grown man.

-i am the therapist of my friend group(but need therapy myself)

have a wonderful day and happy(early) valentines day! <3

Heyooo

I'm still working on how i write the character's personalities realistic and I'm kinda proud of myself with this match-up so i hope you enjoy it :)

I match you with....

BEN drowned

Your friend thought it would be a good idea to dare you to mess with the cleverbot, didn't they?

He's not a clingy person and he does respect the fact the you have trust issues, he 'tries' to be patient with you.

He gets curious alot from your mysterious personality but he tries to control himself. you're not a victim for him to want to manipulate, you know.

After a long day you guys lay down next to each other playing video games, eating pizza or watching a new episode of you favorite anime.

He doesn't really understand the fact that how you can stand others getting emotional around you, this boy is a cold-hearted murder and kills innocent people cause he think 'its fun' "ʰᵉ ᶜᵃⁿ'ᵗ ʳᵉᵃᶜʰ ʲᵉᶠᶠ'ˢ ˡᵉᵛᵉˡ ᵗʰᵒ"

In my au BEN knows how to comfort others very well if he wants to, why you ask? couse this mf is master at playing with words and tickling other's emotions.

Sometimes you might even want to come to him for advice cause your classmate's father died a week ago and you don't know how to comfort them. what I'm trying to say is that you can learn from him not that you already don't know.

Sitting in the same room minding you own businesses, doing your own things is also a nother hobby of you guys. I mean, you two don't talk but just knowing the fact that you're with him and he's with you is a heartwarming moment.

He doesn't use nicknames, he thinks its dramatic and the way he shows affection is by spoiling you, by giving you things you never imagined having one day.

Don't be surprised if one day you woke up and you were in middle of your favorite game on Valentine. He wants to be unique, like, he wouldn't go get you a heart shaped box of chocolate and a stuff animal, no he really wouldn't. He wants you to never forget the time you guys have spent with each other.

At first he might be a little bit protective, but in the end he'll see you as the most trustworthy person he has ever met.

-How do you feel about art?

-I mean, you're pretty cool

-What's on your mind?

-You

-Why tho?

-cause ever since i met you, no one alse seems worth thinking about.

-What are you doing?

-Watching the air :/

-....

Allright it's finally done :D

It took a little bit long for me to make this tho -_-" but i hope you enjoyed it ♡

[Send me feedback if you don't mind]

[known-as-naya]

What’s your favourite thing about the Klebekah dynamic and your fave scenes? What was it that drew you to them

Thanks Yuki for asking this, it took me hours to think of all my fav scenes but it was worth it lol ❤️

My fav thing about the klebekah dynamic:

So, klebekah. I simply love them if it isn't obvious by now lmao, their codependent and dysfunctional toxic relationship fascinates me so much. They're litteraly the most important person in each other's life and I love that, I love how they understand one another with just a look, I love how they never gave up on each other for a thousand years despite all the betrayals, I love how they adore and worship one another, I LOVE THEM.

Rebekah was the person klaus loved the most in the world (besides hope ofc) it's actually funny how most of the fandom doesn't realize the impact she always had on him, she was his humanity for a thousand years, she was his constant (along with Elijah ) and he was hers, and as we saw on the show Rebekah was the person he showed affection the most.

As for rebekah, Klaus was the man she ADORED since she was a little girl, he was her big brother, the person she wanted to be like when she gets older, her protector, soulmate and best friend. Rebekah was the only person who never actually tried to change him, she loved him as he is during a thousand years and I LOVE THAT.

-The thing that drawn me to them:

Are a lot of things but THE CHEMISTRY was what made me fall in love, fun fact: but the first time I discovered klebekah I was watching a tvd scene on YouTube a couple of years ago and coincidentally it was their 3×03 Chicago flashback scene with Stefan, and I thought they were a sort of threesome of something lmao and when I knew they were siblings I was shocked but continued to ship them anyway cause why not.

What are your fav scenes ?

Oh boy, this is a very DIFFICULT question cause I practically love all their freaking scenes, but I eventually have to choose so there you go:

-I'll begin with tvd:

-There's 3×03, of course, THIS WHOLE EPISODE IS FULL OF INCEST. the "I'm not your girlfriend", the "choose him or me" Klaus' jealousy, the eye sex, the daggering session, the hand holding, EVERYTHING SCREAMED KLEBEKAH. This ep was such a strong introduction to their strange dynamic.

-3×04: my fav thing about this ep is Klaus taking rebekah to shop and being a child about it. He was so done with her already but at the same time so happy to have her around again. I loved the surprised expression on Stefan's face the whole time, he was not used to this side of Klaus, he was not used to Klaus being wrapped around someone's little finger. I loved their little conversation when she was trying that dress and she said something about women in the 21th century dressing like prostitues and that she got dirty looks for wearing trousers and then Klaus said you wore trousers so women today could wear nothing. Lmaooo it was hilarious.

- 3×15: "I hated you when I learned that you killed our mother but after a thousand years together as a family you're the only one who never left me "

" Aren't we a pair ?" THIS MF LINE GETS ME EVERYTIME. I don't have words to describe what it does to me but I love this scene and the fact that Klaus thought that rebekah was going to show him her torturer's skills makes it better.

-3×18: " you destroyed our family" "I wanted a family they just didn't want me, and now that we're unlinked we're no longer responsible for each other" "so are you leaving ?" "As soon as a get my stakes I'm gone..... I'm gonna make a NEW FAMILY of hybrids" "and if I choose to stay ?" "Then you're just as pathetic as Finn " THIS WHOLE scene was a masterpiece, them looking at each other like that makes me wanna give them a hug:

-3×20: it wasn't really a klebekah scene cause it was Esther in Rebekah's body but the way Klaus smiled at her and agreed to go to the dance JUST for her melt my heart.

-3×22: oh gosh this one, breaks my heart but love it so much " how dare you save Caroline over me ?" " You left me !" "it's always been me, not Finn not Elijah no Kol ME, I LOVED YOU through everything and you don't even care " and then he chokes her and say something he -IM SURE- regrets immediately "you know something rebekah you're right I don't care, from this moment on you're not my family you're not my sister you are nothing " and then he breaks her neck. I HATE THIS SCENE BUT I LOVE IT. these two needed couple therapy. Klaus was horrible, she watched him die, she mourned him, her heart broke. He could've told her about his plan tho ? I'm still wondering why he didn't but I guess he was just being an asshole as usual and took her as granted. And him saving Caroline over her was not it.

-4×04: the flashback hunter scene "YOU TRUSTED HIM OVER ME " "WHAT DID HE PROMISE YOU " "TELL ME REBEKAH " it was like he caught her cheating on him lmaooo. On the same episode there's the famous line "laugh at the girl who loved too easily but I would rather to live my life than yours Nik, no one will ever sit around a table telling stories about a man who couldn't love" the way he looked down after her saying that breaks my heart, cause Klaus could love, he LOVES her, then he daggers her -cause he's a paranoid bastard- and he cries about it.

-Let's switch to TO scenes:

-1×02: this episode is one of my favs but the best scene was when Klaus was choking Hayley after he learned that she wanted to abort the baby then, rebekah slammed him against the wall (it was hot tbh lmao) and she said "it's okay to care, it's okay to want something that's all Elijah was trying to do all he's ever wanted for you, all we've ever wanted." The way he looked her deep in the eyes gets me everytime, he was trying so hard not to cry. Then they sat together, exhausted, and Klaus told her about his plan -that involved giving Elijah to marcel lol- and if she doesn't like it, there's the door.

-1×03: one of my fav episodes too and it has so many good klebekah scenes, “that depends what plan you mean love my plan for global domination or rebekahs plan to find love in a cruel cruel world”  then she giggled and threw a pen at him so lovingly lol. They were teasing and all flirty with each other in front of Hayley and they acted as nothing happened the night before and Klaus never gave Elijah to marcel, after that they teamed up and everything was going fine but Klaus happened. then there's the masquerade ball scene when Klaus called rebekah " you really are a hideously evil little thing aren't you "

and them being jealous watching marcel and cami dancing. later in  this ep theres the famous “you disgust me” scene, the tension was so thick i acually thought they were about to kiss and have sex on that damn piano lmao but klaus as usual disapointed rebekah, she trusted him against all her better instincts and he choose to act against her back cause he thought his plan was smarter.

-I'm not sure in which episode this scene is but I remember Klaus telling rebekah "you were quite resourceful today..... sometimes I think I don't give you your due little sister" it was so cute cause Klaus knows that he doesn't give Rebekah enough credits, and she was so happy to hear him say that.

-1×14: the famous "YOU CANNOT HIDE FROM ME REBEKAH" this episode had me crying the first time I watched it, Klaus was so angry, disappointed and hurt, he could not believe that his baby sister did this to him, that he was in denial for almost a century and he for that she must pay. "Rebekah would not call my father no matter how angry she was " "enough of your lies" even after seeing the truth from the source he still couldn't believe it cause he loved her so freaking much and he thought she did too.

Then them fighting and Klaus getting turned on by her beating his ass up

-1×15: this mf scene.

The kiss, THE FREAKING CLOSE TO THE LIPS KISS. the sexual tension in this scene was HUGE, Klaus finally "set rebekah free" and he was DRUNK doing it. "We don't have to run anymore, we've found a home" and the look on Rebekah's face is priceless, she was shocked and almost guilty cause at this time she has already called mikeal and Klaus was a little too late.

Also in the same episode, THE BLOOD SHARING. Look at them just look at them.

-1×16:

THE BABY MIKAELSON FLASHBACK !! OMG, this scene melts my heart. "Don't be afraid I won't let it hurt you " "will you stay with me till the storm ends ?" And he did stay with her no matter what. I love this scene cause it shows how close and protective they were of each other since forever. Then he gives her the wooden knight so she can be brave. I'm soft.

Then there's this one too ! I love how Rebekah was actually the only one to ever stand against mikeal, she even tried to kill him, just for Klaus. So much devotion.

I'm still not over this one, the hurt on Rebekah's voice as she says those words, Klaus's tears, the whole episode was so angsty but this scene was IT. and then he realised what he did to her, that instead of protecting her he was hurting and suffocating her so he did something he's not used to do, being selfless, and he let her go.

The 1×22 scene: LITTERALY on top of my fav scenes list ! Klaus giving hope to Rebekah proved how much he trusted her "there's no one I would trust more with my daughter's life" and the fact that she came back just for him (and hope) proved that she never really wanted to leave, she just needed a little freedom. Then when he handed her the little toy I WAS IN TEARS OKAY, it was so soft. They were so happy and relieved to see each other again.

-2×09: "if anything goes south I'll be there to pull you out" "you and I on the same team it must me Christmas" he promised to protect her at any cost and she knew he will. Them teaming up against Esther was so great, then the "take me instead" , Klaus was WILLING to sacrifice his immortal life for REBEKAH, if this isn't pure love then I don't know what it is.

-2×17: another episode losing his shit because his wife-sorry sister is in danger. He let Freya enter his mind just to save her (and he was so suspicious about it cause he didn't want her to know his strategies but in fact he was just afraid she'll know about his questionable taste in woman lmaoo)

And this mf scene is so cute, look at their smiles, the forehead touch, his hand on her neck, here on his arm, FOR YOU FOR NOW. I can't believe this is actually canon.

-2×22: "family tradition!" "Minus the family."

"Well, you're here."" In the skin of your choosing, no less."

"Well, poor you. Because that body is such a hardship."

"You would hand over your crown? And do what?" "Raise my daughter... with the help of my sisters. One big, happy family."

" Now, that does sound grand-- minus the giant, Elijah-sized hole in the room. And, whilst your sisters raise your child, what will the child's mother be doing, exactly?"

"This, dear brother, is not what happiness looks like."

This scene was so important, Klaus was wrong and he needed someone to remind him that what he did was not necessary, that he hurt most of his family, and rebekah was there for that. He wished she'd stray with him to "raise" his daughter but after this scene we see Freya offering her Eva's body so she leaves.

-3×09: "you're always leaving" "and I always come back" THEN THE DAMN HUG. their hugs are always so good, the way they close their eyes and hold each other tight and they seem like they never want to let go of each other. Then she has to leave and make Elijah dagger her without telling Nik, cause she wants Nik to be happy for once.

-3×22: "wasn't you who once told me I could talk my way out of hell " and then they smile affectionately at each other and HUG tightly. After this he took her hand and they both walk to their possible end, and she watches him getting stabbed by marcel after she was forced to say all those things she did and didn't think. The whole trial scene was a masterpiece. I love it.

-4×02: this EP was full of klebekah soft scenes. There was the reunion HUG . the way she runs to him the second she sees him and the way he reaches to her and hugs her tightly to his chest.

The kiss on the cheek after "thank you for not abandoning me" and the way he smiles at her was so SOFT OMG.

-4×03: the goodbye hug "Nik you do not need me anymore, I know that I'm your fav sibling and of course I adore you" "you were the only one who never treated me like s misfit, for centuries my only place was by your side...." AND THEY HUG TIGHTLY AGAIN. this was the first time Klaus let Rebekah do whatever the hell she wanted without fighting or daggering and it was revolutionary to her. (The fact that she's his fav sibling and she KNOWS it makes me so happy lmao).

-5×01: their phone call about Elijah. They were both so lost and devastated without him it broke my heart. "How does he look?" "Happy.."

-5×08: "ah Nik always so dramatic"

They were so happy to be reunited after 7 years of being apart, look at them hugging each other so tightly. I LOVE this scene.

-5×12: then there's the goodbye scene, Klaus gave her the cure so he can make up for a thousand years of hurt, "live the life you've always wanted to live, MY SISTER" the way he looked at her so proudly, so in love makes me cry. In my opinion he gave her the cure so they can reunite again in the afterlife. Both him and Elijah can't live or die without her, they're supposed to be together, they're meant to be together and the cure will bring her to them, to him, again. It was such a good scene, the hug, the last glances, everything.

And that's it!!! I'm sure I forgot some other scenes but those are the most important. ❤️

[1-800-supersad]

weekly/monthly check up time :)

Q: what time did you wake up this morning?

A: 8:01

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Q: how's your day going so far?

A: not too bad but im in a bad mood rn

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Q: are you currently in a relationship? if so, tell me how you guys are going. if not, what's it like being single?

A: yeah, we're doin okie. we celebrated our 3 month anniversary today :)

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Q: how old are you?

A: 16

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Q: what color is your hair?

A: ginger with blond streaks in the front

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Q: What's your sexuality and gender identity?

A: ive kinda been questioning for a while if im actually pan or if im bi but for now im just gonna say pan and gender fluid

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Q: whens the last time you bathed in any way?

A: i took a shower this morning

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Q: what's an obsession of yours at the moment?

A: euphoria

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Q: whens the last time you did anything sexually?

A: earlier today

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Q: How much money do you have?

A: a few pennies

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Q: what are you wearing today?

A: sweatpants and a bra

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Q: hows school going?

A: the second semester started like 3 weeks ago so my grades reset so its not too bad but that mf angel start some random ass drama for no reason and ended up calling me racist for saying a slur im aloud to say 💀

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Q: what's your highest grade in school?

A: A

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Q: have you eaten anything today? if so, what?

A: yeah i ate some ramen and cookies earlier

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Q: have you gotten therapy yet?

A: no but i did go to a doctor about my mental health issues and if they think i need them, i might start taking some pills to help me feel better :)

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Q: when was the last time you felt loved?

A: today

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Q: how's your relationship with ang?

A: pretty good. i will say tho at first when i started dating jaykob she didn't really like him but was still friendly with him and now they're good friends and at first i thought that was so cute. my best friend and my boyfriend being practically best friends. until like last week when out of nowhere it just seemed like she was tryna get a lil too close with him. that shit pissed me off. see what happened was jaykob found out on thursday that he was switching schools and on friday it seemed like he wanted to talk to her more about anything than me and she kept telling him "remember, if you need anything when you switch just text me okay? anything. 🥺" like what 😐 bro i got so fucking mad everytime she said that to him like idk it's just giving very much "pick me, choose me, love me 🥺". but than again, my emotions have been going up and down really bad lately do i could just be overreacting but even just thinking about it makes me fucking furious

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Q: what's your dream job?

A: medical scientist

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Q: will you be able to get your dream job?

A: i hope so

Monday, 2/21/22, 7:11 pm

[shook-snatched-and-sad]

so i binged a show called ‘the owl house’...

and to say the least, i am OBSESSED! 

(this contains spoilers so don’t read if you haven’t finished the show yet!!)

aside from the fact that i’m a big old lesbian simp for Eda the Owl Lady, i really loved her storyline. it reminds me a lot of my day to day life as someone with a chronic illness. I want to focus on episode 4 ,“The Intruder,” where we learn of Eda’s curse and later episodes where it’s a prevalent point.

in the beginning of the episode eda’s exhausted to the point where king and luz end up carrying her to her bed (nest). she was already tired, but tried to show luz more magic bc she wanted luz to be happy and let her sleep. sometimes when you’re tired and want to lay down you still try to make others happy, and that can be too much for your already sick body. i am guilty of this 10 times over!

she has her elixir, which is almost like pain meds for me and others with chronic pain (or other meds for others in the chronic illness gang). her elixir has a tag reading, “an elixir a day keeps the curse at bay.” if she doesn’t take it, she transforms into something she doesn’t like. and i mean,,,, yeah, it REALLY DO BE LIKE THAT. even tho i’m still trying to find the right medicine for me, i feel like total GARBAGE when i forget to take my meds. i get snappy and irritable and anxious and everything hurts beyond comprehension; that’s all part of my “curse.”

she also took a little while to reveal her curse to luz, and king didn’t even know but has lived with her for a while. some people i’ve known most of my life don’t even know that i sometimes need a cane or that i even have a chronic pain disorder! you don’t want that judgement or others feeling like your condition is too much for them to handle (which is shitty, but people do say this); you can see that eda has had this happen to her time and time again and that it really left a mark on how she feels about trusting others. 

she also doesn’t remember who cursed her, and this fleshes out in my mind a few different ways:

1. it adds to her trust issues. she doesn’t consciously know who did it, so it could be anyone she interacts with and that’s scary. to her it’s traumatic, and she lives with the aftermath of the event everyday

2. not remembering? mega brain fog! sometimes you just have bad days where your brain is so cloudy that you low key forget someone’s name or a simple word to something (i once forgot the word “tv” and it’s technically not even a word). it’s almost like a tip of the tongue type thing. also, the figure kinda looks like fog

3. sometimes you don’t know what causes your illness. i have fibromyalgia and it’s just one of those complicated medical conditions where there is no determined cause for it. trauma? yeah, maybe. a few people in the fam with rheumatic stuff? could play a part. god spun the wheel and had to add whatever wacky thing it landed on? hell yeah, baby! 

later in the season eda needs some more of her elixir (her meds) and the guy at her usual place doesn’t have it in stock for another 2 weeks. she has to go to the boiling isles’s version of the black market to get it. when she gets to the black market guy, the price is outrageous and he just proves that this show is TOO SELF AWARE FOR ITS OWN GOOD. IDK WHO GAVE HIM THE RIGHT TO SPIT SUCH FACTS ABOUT CAPITALISM BUT GODDAMMIT SOMEONE HAD TO SAY IT!! sometimes you can’t get the name brand version of your meds bc insurance doesn’t cover it (even if that’s usually what you get) and you have to get the generic version but IT’S STILL WILDLY EXPENSIVE. and it’s worse if you don’t have insurance. i know other chronically ill people who just ended up smoking w**d for their symptoms until the insurance company stopped playing games, and honestly that says something about the wack ass healthcare system of america *sips tea*  luckily the rude mf that wouldn’t give eda her meds got his stand destroyed and that’s on performing magick without parental supervison

and what i especially like about this show is that they gave this character a curse (illness) and didn’t make it her entire identity for the show. any other time there’s a chronically ill/disabled character, it’s their only personality trait and exhaustively used throughout as a lazy ploy too add diversity. yes, eda has this curse and she lives each day treating it, but she has so much more substance to who she is: she’s a businesswoman, a friend, a mentor, a goofball, a badass, a powerful woman in her craft. eda had said her self at the end of “the intruder,” “no one likes having a curse, but if you take the right steps, it’s manageable.” and that’s exactly what it’s like being a chronically ill person who is able to manage their symptoms with medication and still do certain things that bring them joy. without her elixir eda wouldn’t be able to perform magick and have her business; without my meds and some physical therapy i wouldn’t be able to go to school full time for my photography degree and have a job as a photographer. 

could i possibly be projecting this metaphor onto a character that makes my little gay heart go uwu? maybe but that’s none of your business (unless you feel it too. in that case it’s our business <3). but i seriously cannot wait to see what else is in store for our #1 bad girl in the rest of the series!

(my attention deficit ass wrote this while being distracted from one of my final papers thank you for attending my TEDTalk)

[owohawks]

Fresh off the Drycleaner Dabi Headcanons

Of all the characters in bnha, I can see Dabi having the most romantic and sexual knowledge.

I hc that he lost his virginity at a young age, like 13 or 15 years old, and since then he’s had hookups and shit here and there.

They’ve never lasted because the people can’t get over how dabi loves his partner.

Despite what most of the fandom says, I feel like Dabi can’t have one-night stands. This man needs to know when he’s found the right person and commit to them for him to have sex with them. There have been times when he’s thought he’s found the right one but then they go and turn their back on him or they’re just incompatible together.

He’s chill with almost getting to second base tho, like making out? Hell yeah. Oral? Big fuckin mood, just watch out for his tongue piercing or his dick piercing. Shit without actually sticking his dick in them lower holes.

He has so much trouble showing affection. This has been a thing since he first started walking the streets.

Y’all most likely met when you were being recruited for the league of villains. Something about you intrigued him when you snapped back at one of his quips.

Y’all would constantly throw shade at each other and shit just bloomed like that.

One day he was like “hey y/n come get a drink with me at the bar” and y’all started dating that night.

Will absolutely tease the shit out of you. Get his ass back.

“Did you really just hiccup on THAT drink???”

“At least I’m not drunk enough to do stupid shit like that one time you sang the entirety of Old Town Road at karaoke!”

“That’s because I can actually tolerate my alcohol unlike a certain someone who once dunked a gallon of water on Shig and called him a chicken nugget after 3 drinks!”

(Cue rest of the banter)

S E X U A L T E N S I O N

That shit gets so intense with the two of you, especially when Dabi corners you or pins you against the wall after one of your word fights.

You’re gonna be the one expressing affection for him, my dude is emotionally constipated ok

Over time dabi realizes that you really are the one for him

Ok this boi has trouble expressing himself but when he tells you “I love you” he’s on some serious shit.

When he’s in love, he’ll be the one coming to you more often to hug you or kiss you, he gets more touchy-feely when he’s in love

Even more subtle touches like holding hands or putting his arm around you, or touching you back when he’s leading you somewhere

Y’alls first time happened just like this:

Dabi: Fuck you!

You: Fuck me then!

Dabi, with a smirk: Challenge accepted!

And he comes up to you, grabs your face, and crashes his lips into yours, forcing his tongue in and feels you from the inside out.

He’s pinned you against the wall and feeling you all over, he wants to know the body of the person he’s gonna fuck

His hands are nice and warm, almost like fire itself is licking at your body.

Sooner or later clothes are coming off and he’s feeling you ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) in and out

When Dabi knows you’re the right one, he knows it.

Y’all fucc like two or three times a month, dudes busy leading the vanguard of The League™️ like give him a break

D i r t y T a l k. This dude is charismatic and will use that shit against you

Reassure this boi that you love him!!!!

He knows that you love him, but yeah

Let him know that you love love him bc he has so many issues with people leaving him and then his past and everything

“Dabi, I know you’re not open about your past and you don’t have to be, but I love you for who you are as a person, I love you for you and no one else.”

This mf:

Will actually gain a bit of empathy for the people he harms and takes care about that then, it won’t stop him from being a villain tho bc society still needs to change.

Just wow

Edgy baby is edgy but break his walls down and he’s fluffy

someone give this man a hug and some therapy pls

[biblio-bitch]

Teen Titans 1x01 Blind Reaction

I haven’t watched the OG Teen Titans yet. Sue me. I wasn’t allowed to watch cartoons as a kid so I’m playing catch-up here. As usual, spoilers and cursing under the cut! Also. apologies for the short sentences, it was like 3 am.

A disclaimer: This is entirely for fun and a lot of the comments I make are based on my preferences for media as well as the way I, as a writer, would have written things.

If I say something you disagree with (more likely in my analysis posts than my reactions) then I am more than happy to hear your opinions so long as you are respectful! 

If you followed me for Detroit Evolution content I promise I’ll post the rest soon. Formatting and proofreading takes ages. I also might start liveblogging my adventures in screenwriting so look out for that!

That being said, let’s get into it!

[In brackets is added post-watch.]

Holy old animation Batman. It feels like Phineas and Ferb.

BB Sounds like Phineas.

The cheesy intro tho

Seriously which Robin is this cause I think it’s Dick but Idk

“Titans Go!”

The theme song is iconic

Love the OG Raven design

Is the theme Japanese?? It kinda feels Japanese

I love that Starfire’s outfit isn’t like literally a bikini it’s nice since she’s designed like a sixteen year old

Epic fight scene™️. Makes me feel like something’s going to go wrong.

“I am stronger than I look” fuck yeah Star get his ass

Honestly wtf Rob you’re like twelve and you don’t have powers??? Also is he wearing steel toe boots?? I thought they were converse at first. Seriously Batman, what’s with the child soldiers??

Cyborg?? I love him

Ouch that was a fail

Ok the bo staff is a Tim Drake signature as far as I know so wtf???? Which black haired mf is this???

It’s Dick. I googled. [I love DC and I realize that most of the Robins were designed before having diverse characters was a thing but literally they all look the same. Like personally I’d love to see a Romani or other non-white rep for Dick.

 {I gleefully return to this post with news that Dick is canonically Romani! He’s been played so often as white, including in the new Titans, which I will be making a post about, but he was confirmed to be poc in Devin Grayson’s Gotham Knights. He’s part Romani on his mother’s side. She, according to Tim Seeley’s twitter, is an immigrant. He was originally presented without a confirmed ethnicity! My apologies for being uninformed about this. I stated Romani specifically here before knowing because I had seen people talk about him as such and really enjoyed it.}

 Maybe a mixed Jason? I feel like Tim is white mostly bc he’s rich IN GOTHAM,,, but like I never turn down the possibility of poc characters. Damian is canonically middle eastern so if I ever see a live action Damian not played by a middle eastern brown kid I’m rioting.]

What a petulant child. Blaming each other. Now they’re fighting. [This part feels very overdramatic to me personally. I do think that if this wasn’t animated it would be toned down quite a bit. That being said? I do think it’s in character for Dick, especially late Robin-era Dick, to have outbursts like that, especially as a character that I see as needing a lot of control.]

Oh wonderful. He quit. That’s overly dramatic.

Oh goddamn it Slade.

I’m not supposed to know he’s Slade yet tho huh. [Rip the element of surprise with that, I have a habit of learning everything from things before investing my time in it, and my obsession with other versions of DC comics isn’t helpful in this situation. Also the 25 pages of AO3 I’ve read about the Bats gives quite a bit away.]

Oh ew that’s a plasma monster

He looks like fuckin,,, Underbelly! that mf from the Red Hood/Arsenal comics. [Underbelly is the personification of the criminal world. I got through four RH/A comics as of posting this so once I finish that storyline I’ll probably post about it]

“It’s pointless to get upset about Cyborg” breaks glass. [I personally really fw Raven being like ‘master of meditation i feel nothing’ but then these dumbasses get all up in her brain and she ends up loving them like honestly that’s amazing]

“I’m fine” fucks up that punching bag. Master of emotions this bitch. [I don’t think that this little tantrum is entirely because Cyborg left. Again, Dick was raised by Batman, and neither of them are too good about losing control and fucking up. This to me is very much a mix of guilt for having driven away a friend and teammate, anger at Cyborg for leaving, and also anger at himself for a perceived failure. Bruce really needs to get his kids therapy bc the complexes are really shining through.]

Now they’re sad like bitch ur the one who kicked him out???

He’s eating something and it’s gross.

“That stuff can’t be good for you” Robin,,, sweaty,,,

The puns. Jeez Louise.

Immensely powerful half demon lady and the best you can do is some cans?? [Again with the things you shouldn’t know, Theo. Yeah I get that she’s still a kid and the demon lady thing isn’t exactly revealed yet, but I maintain that the barrels -- which I realized that they’re barrels not cans -- could be improved upon]

“You giant zit”??? A Child [Seriously how old is he because it’s concerning that he seems as young as he does. @ Bruce wtf did you do to your kids]

Phase three what an ominous asshole

Again with the puns Rob like jeez just fight this mf

Star,, you’re an alien?? Why are you screaming??

Both eyes on the road while flying Raven

He just extends the bo again bro what kinda bat bullshit is this

Cyborg saving the day!! We gotta love that. “Still got the sonic if you still got the boom” what kids I love them

I love that he just,, brought Cinderblock with him. He’s just that powerful.

Wtf is up with this knockoff Alfred mf with Slade? Also?? What stereotypical villain shit Slade step it up. [Titans (2018) Slade is like,,, so much better at this. Hell, even Arrow Slade is more nefarious.]

[I know it’s stupid to say this about an antagonist from a kids show vs two YA/Adult shows but like?? Titans Slade had the Motive, and Arrow Slade was Deep. In my defense here, I’m only on Ep 1, I’m sure he gets more interesting as the show progresses.

My non-sleep deprived rating? 9/10. Points off for melodrama but points on for nostalgia and attention grabbing. I’m not really into kids shows so I did my best to be fair despite that. Personally I think it’s a little much on the fighting especially for a pilot and it definitely seemed a little bit rushed. But, the animation is fun, I love the way each character is distinctive in costume and personality.

Keep in mind I prefer watching things with writing/pacing like Arrow, The Flash, Captain America: The Winter Soldier, and the new Titans TV show and all of my ratings are going to be skewed based on a preference for stronger and darker material. 

With that in mind, I did enjoy the episode and I do want to continue watching. I think if I had watched this as a 10-11 year old, it would’ve been amazing.]

[mayalevesque]

{ sky ferreira ♔ twenty-four ♔ she/her } well, well, well if it isn’t maya levesque running around peach hollow. legend has it, they come from blueberry boulevard and have lived here for four years. if you’re wondering what they’ve been up to, i hear they’re a baker at get baked for a living. they have been known to be condescending yet charming. a word of advice to them, always look over your shoulder. you never know who is watching. 

(hi!! i’m bella :) i haven’t participated in an rp for a hot minute so i am still kinda re-learning some things etc., but overall i am super excited! with that being said, maya is a fairly new muse for me. the last time i used to rp, i always played the easygoing, sweet character. maya, however, is not quite as easygoing or sweet, so she is very different for me! she’s a tough girl, but she is sensitive and has a big heart. there is nothing i want more than to plot with you! i am literally down for practically anything. anyway, here is her intro + some wanted connections. thank u for reading <3) 

her birthday is september 10th, 1995

she grew up in santa cruz, california

maya’s parents were artists, but they were not at all successful. because of this, money was tight. her parents often “borrowed” money from other relatives

speaking of her parents, the two were both addicted to drugs and did not treat maya well to say the absolute least. in fact, they didn’t treat each other well either. they broke up at least a dozen times during her adolescence

in high school, maya struggled with her grades + did not participate in any extracurricular activities (although she enjoyed playing the guitar)

she never really had a close group of friends because she was scared of getting attached to anybody

she has never been in a **real** relationship either. she has slept with her fair share, but she never let herself get too close to any of them

she is a bisexual queen

if u have not noticed she kinda has a “trust no one” attitude lmao

she dropped out of high school with only six months left before graduation because she felt that school just wasn’t for her (she lowkey regrets it now but it’ll take a lot for her to admit to it because she stubborn as hell)

got her first job when she was fourteen, worked as a cashier at a touristy ice cream shop

she began working her second job at age eighteen. the work paid so well that she didn’t even need her first job anymore... she quit her second job only months after being hired, but she still added a shit ton of cash to her savings because of it

on a whim, maya used all of her savings to move far away from her toxic home to start all over. and here she is!!

maya thought that things would be different when she moved away, but they weren’t. she still had to deal with her trauma and her trust issues. to this day, it is still not an easy task to get close to maya

she puts up a somewhat mean front so people don’t try too hard to get to know her, but in reality she is very soft and caring<333

she has recently begun going to therapy because she knew that she couldn’t carry her burden any longer, and she knew that she needed help

works at get baked as a baker 

wanted connections:

roommate(s): a few roommates sounds so fun!! it would make sense too bc maya spent most of her savings moving to peach hollow and it would be realistic for her to have to split the rent. angst + tension? or a best friendship waiting to happen? plus adding the roommates factor into it? genius. also im likely going to make a pinterest for maya too so a collaborative bedroom pinterest board >>>>>

friendships: maya doesn’t make friends easily, but after four years of living in peach hollow, she is bound to make a few! they may not know everything about her tho, but she may feel inclined enough to enlighten them someday

someone who pushes her to get her mf GED: self explanatory basically! this would be a rocky relationship bc maya would def tell them to mind their own business etc. but only because she doesn’t wanna accept the fact that she’s unhappy, and getting her GED could help her in the longrun (mercy)

lover(s) and/or ex fling(s): people she has slept with or maybe even got attached to/loved but is afraid to admit. could be ongoing or something that happened in the past! we love the angsty/crying gifs don’t we??

The One She Falls In Love With: lmaoo this can be reciprocated or unreciprocated. either one will bring so much tension and drama and goooodddd i love the drama so either way it would be a Dream. help her trust people! or break her heart! or both??? the possibilities are endless

ex-friends/frenemies: maya can piss people off easily so if u feel your character and maya’s don’t mesh well, may i recommend a frenemy plot? i luv those..im also a sucker for rekindling friendships and frenemies to bff tropes so its perfect

regular customers: this sounds p standard but here’s a Twist: it would be cool if maya could like..talk to a drunk/high customer and the two end up oversharing things about themselves and then it becomes a whole big Thing the next time the customer comes back sober ya know?? then from there the plot ideas are literally limitless period. idk its 3 am what im writing no longer makes sense so i will end this here lol

NOTE: u can dm me on discord to plot but i most likely will get back to you faster on tumblr messages. i do not mind either though, just letting yall know! :) thanks again for reading!! (also one last note + fair warning i SUCK at starters. wish me luck :*)

[graevs666]

trauma and mental health system …

idk the most annoying thing to me sometimes is tht i used to believe my trauma unphased me. i was aware of my internal issues, but wasn’t aware of how my trauma affected others e.g emotional dysregulation… n idk, tht bothers me bc i wish i got help and therapy years ago when i continuously kept begging for it… n didn’t get it lol.

i was severely mentally ill for too many years. it’s like, idk, damage is done now. yeah im a lot better and healing way more than i was few years back, and im not perfect at all, but i have an anger and hatred towards the nhs for not giving me the support i mf needed AT THE TIME. if i got the help i should have gotten when i was like 17 maybe things would have been different and better. idk it makes me mad sometimes.

ik all i can do is just focus on the future and getting better from here, but idk, no one should have to wait 3 years for therapy, and prior to that, the constant begging for some help but not being helped. one nurse even told me to stop coming to the doctors and that i have to fix myself lol…. Like ok thanks I have complex trauma and that’s TOTALLY helpful.

and the fact no one seemed to recognise i had issues until my trauma came back to me … like why?? why didn’t no one notice, surely specialists should be able to pick up on emotional and behavioural difficulties … why didn’t the school? bc at the time it only presented as social anxiety and depression, but even then, I DIDNT GET HELP. it took AGES to acc be put on antidepressants and the very day I was given it I overdosed on pills bc 1. Breakup 2. I couldn’t cope lol. n even now I’m still not being given proper help. I had 18 sessions w a trauma informed therapists this year, still haven’t been formally diagnosed by anyone bc they can’t diagnose, even tho I’ve been sure for like 3/4 years now I have bpd (cptsd) and it’s like… fuck OFF. I’ve been told by therapists they think I have cptsd, but they can’t diagnose me either it needs to be a psych. I hate the system sm. n idk my depression was always a “sometimes I’m okay, then REALLY BAD, Then okay again” cycle and I feel like specialists don’t take this seriously bc my mood is not a constant … idk. im just upset and mad at it all

[asakamasanobu]

// nonsense ahead im incoherent

life update — my life is in flames! okay actually it’s not i’m just being dramatic but So Much has been happening including 1) me relying on ricchan and asaka to have the courage to have a silly little dream again 2) my dream getting crushed like a week later LOLOL 3) me rereading bits of otrfk for therapy and then getting Insane asaka insights that i really want to type out and probably will one day when i have time bc i cry to myself thinking about how similar we are but also how much i want to be like him 4) me downloading dick and balls game to # get over being crushed and unfortunately enjoying it more than i thought i would and now playing it nonstop oh no (for the record olivine is my beloved he is so ughehwhwhfh i want to SCREAM about him somewhere but i try to keep my accounts sfw so ..... also yes it’s bc he’s repressed as fuck and whenever i see a gay repressed mf like ricchan asaka and now olivine i Grab them and this tangent has gone on for so long fack) and finally ..... 5) me feeling like i can’t face ritsu rn bc i feel so bad about not being able to pursue things as 真っ直ぐ as he does (does not know how to translate in the most apt way but that’s him) head in hands

IT’S SO SILLY THO i realise i always do this same song and dance when i need him most but hate myself and feel like i shouldn’t rely on him in a state like this .... but it’s just that i am a ~ pussy ~ and could only psych myself up for something i wanted badly but was terrified of by relying on him and now that i fell through ...... i feel so guilty and about the fact that i failed even when relying on him. yeah it’s for the silliest reasons like i want to go kyoto prefecture bc of him specifically and also redacted bc of him and if i said it to my friends they would’ve just made fun of me bc they don’t understand the emotional gravity of his existence on me (or maybe they do but will still find my motivations dumb anyway which i kind of don’t want to deal with LOL) and how much he pushes me on when i’m scared and uncertain so now i feel like i can’t live up to his legacy and do the things that he inspired me to T___T i guess it’s not even my fault that i couldn’t go run after my dreams at full force and i braced myself for it so it didn’t hurt that much ...... i think instead of blaming myself for choosing something unrealistic i should be proud of myself for daring to step out of my comfort zone for once ........ for wanting to follow in his and asaka’s footsteps and wanting to become a better person ........ and even if it didn’t materialise, taking that step was something that i could only do bc of him and i shouldn’t hold failure against myself ....... hghwhehw oh god somehow typing that out really helped me process my feelings about that even though it’s been more than a week ;__; maybe i will go poke poke my volume 16 again bc i’ve been so focused on the fact that i couldn’t live up to the strength of my number one emotional support man that i didn’t realise that in a sense i did too ...... weh (also it feels so bad to admit that i’m holding myself back from him bc it sounds insane but it’s precisely bc i love him so much and hold him to such a high standing that i don’t want to burden him at my weakest . ok that sounds even more insane but LISTEN 

ok i was not expecting to finally have processed my emotions and overcome my guilt and regrets on this bus ride UMMMM I HAD SOMETHING ELSE I WANTED TO SAY OH YES i was thinking how ironic it is that this happened in the same time frame as my emotional breakdown last sem like literally i got the bad news on like the same day or maybe one day before i got emotionally fucked over and realising i managed to get through week 8 this sem without suffering was like wah ..... bitch you’ve grown !!!!! i think growth isn’t very visible most of the time which is why i don’t think i’ve grown that much since then especially since this time i was prepared for rejection unlike last time but when i made it through tuesday — where one semester ago i was just throwing up and crying the whole day # real # embarrassing # sorry for oversharing — without doing that and being completely normal i was really just ..... at peace. like i’m glad i got the closure i got from meeting asaka and knowing that no matter what life throws me i probably won’t go through such intense misery again and even if i do, i can pick myself up .... it’s great! it’s also funny that around that same time i was skirting around relying on ricchan until i did and he made me feel a lot better about my pathetic little self so maybe i haven’t grown that much in how i am a little (2&3?2&2 about relying on him but needing to at the same time u__u

in conclusion i think even if i can’t fly far, i’ll still continue on working on becoming a better person — someone who is strong enough to live up to ritsu and asaka and their legacies. maybe it’s silly to live your life wanting to be as strong and kind as some fictional mfs, but they’ve really pushed me to do things i would never have dared to do, even if they don’t come true. and i wish i had the time and energy to record down this past week in depth but alas uni is kicking my ass and kicking it hard! i knew i wouldn’t be able to keep up with my intense essays on my favourite gay media on here once break ended but well . not like i’m not on my gay shit at all (olivine shoutout at the end yet again i love that man)

[amorestevens]

I’m sorry but my girl Mara is tripping. I love but but I can’t stand her🙄. I understand y’all tell tell each other almost everything but dang, him having a convo with HIS cousin and not telling you shouldn’t be that big of a deal especially not when all 3 of y’all are close.

Also, while I understand her not wanting outside people to know about her abortion, DIDN’T SHE CONFIDE IN T’CHALLA WHEN IT HAPPENED? ALMOST 10 YEARS AGO? And then her having the AUDACITY, the mf NERVE to come at T talking about “Don’t gossip about me to Erik,” like bitch what?🧐🙄🙄 babygirl *in my B Simone voice* YOU and YOUR MAN decided to come to him and confide in him separately about y’all problems (and even then, he never shared your secrets/thoughts the other). He has NEVER once inserted himself in your relationship, y’all literally drag him into it and asked for advice... like girl bye... I’m REAL disappointed in her. It was unnecessary rudeness. She better apologize to my baby T before the end of the trip.

I lowkey feel like she’s lashing out because Erik didn’t react how she wanted expected him to. She wanted him to be angry at her so she can be mad too and attack/blame him for leaving with no choice but to abort their baby. But I feel for her tho. It be like that sometimes. “Please be angry with me so I can reciprocate for you having the audacity to be angry with me” headass😭. Lol Erik was so good this chapter but I still say they need individual therapy and a relationship counselor/mediator to help them communicate their feelings truthfully and calmly.

Listen, keep up the great work boo. I love it. Getting mad at Mara literally helped me get rid of my anxiety tonight so extra kudos to you😂😂💕

Will the Bell Ring? Pt. 8

[Erik Killmonger x Black!OC]

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