#mennal

[maracllea]

WRAPPED 2022 videography | 35/101 | VINCE ft. OKASIAN Mennal

[hungerpunch]

do you know what i am having a day where i am like really proud of myself. i used to think that when my dad died i would just go with him. like i fully expected myself to be so consumed by the madness of loss that i would... just die. like maybe i would have a heart attack or something gruesome at my own hand. i could never conceive of existence that lasted beyond my dad. i could not imagine myself making a life after that.

but. it happened. during pre-vax 2020. and i was obliterated in many ways. but the physical shell of me that i give such a hard time just... hung in there. i mean not very well but it kept me surviving. and then a year later i started actually processing and recovering. becoming less of a zombie slowly, so slowly. three years on and i am, in some ways, more "alive" than i ever have been. i am here in the life i could not imagine for myself. here in the life i almost got rid of. here in a life where i am healthy enough to meaningfully engage with the loss of my dad and meaningfully engage with remembering him. without wanting to die. it's.... weird. surreal. at times it's very sad. but i can feel that sadness and have such a healthier relationship with both feeling and with sadness. idk. it took a long time. circumstances were unique and difficult. but it's pretty cool. i am glad i am here and alive. maybe that's my dad's parting gift to me ❤️

[stonerzelda]

Going 2 thee art store (well. Michaels) to see if they have any pet friendly paintsss and slash or figurine swag that i can impulse buy ✌

[sunsetdesire]

no one wants to take care of me 🫠🤪🫡🤪🤪

[claytonia]

Pearly everlasting (transplant), few flowered shooting star (nursery) and fine-leaved lomatium (from seed!!!) all sprouting ! Lets effing go.

[the-ellia-west]

POSTING HERE BC I LOVE THIS SCENE TOO MUCH

Alkain shoved Mennel back, sending him sprawling against the sand with a grunt of pain. “Are you even trying? Don't just wait to die! Aena's claws, You're softer than a sheep that's been beaten to death! Get up!”

Mennel gritted his teeth, bracing a hand against the bruise on his ribs where Alkain had slammed the butt of a sword into him. They'd been at this for hours, and Mennel was getting no better. He knew by the fact that Alkain hadn't stopped yelling at him for even a second.

With every shouted word and hit down, Mennel's temper grew shorter. And at that last insult, he was done. He leaped to his feet. “What is with you?!” He launched himself forward. “I've had enough of this! You pushing me around, thinking I'm worth less than dirt and you're worth more than gods!” He hammered the training weapon down on his mentor with relentless blows, and for once, Alkain remained silent, though Mennal didn't notice. “I'm meant to be some naturally amazing swordsman, but I'm not, and you keep rubbing it in! I don't know what I'm doing and you're not helping me! I'm getting no better!”

But then he froze just as Alkain grabbed his sword arm and pointed his own weapon straight at Mennel's neck. The young swordsman braced for an insult, but instead, a real, genuine, proud smile cracked Alkain's face. “Good.”

“Wh-what?” Mennel froze at the singular word.

But instead of responding, Alkain just tossed his weapon to the side and let go of Mennel, walking away. The young swordsman stopped as he realized. That was the first time he'd watched his teacher leave while standing on his own two feet.

-I hope you liked it! <33-

@corinneglass @sunglasses-in-the-bentley @sunflowerrosy @themortalityofundyingstars @fantasy-things-and-such

[circlehymn]

Who up being mennally eel

[oryst]

just realized that i typically pronounce the words "mental health" as "mennal elf". that's the thing that causes the mental health issues. it's the elf. living inside ur brain.

[thedanceronthestreets]

You know you have interesting mental health when in a work zoom meeting they very seriously discuss mental health resources but all you can do is say MENTAL HEEEAALTH📢📢MENNAL HEEEAAALTHHH💥💥 out loud to yourself over and over

[slenderfirebolt]

mennal illness sometimes gotta remind you that its there huh.

[hungerpunch]

help i can feel my answer to the dreaded "have you lost interest in things that you like?" question that i am asked every month changing to "yes"

[fanfic-g1-2022]

Männerfarm

Synopses:

The year is 1946, and now, humans enter the animal farm and dominate it, they don’t know what will happen. What if Mr. Frederick had dominated the Animal Farm and its surroundings? The animals now are forced to work and those who are the most against the regime, suddenly disappear. What will happen to Napoleon and Squealer? What is going to change in the farm? What will Benjamin think about this? That is what you are going to see in the fanfic Männerfarm.

Francisco Bertoncini and Fernando

fanfic:

Männerfarm

The animals, now terrified, saw the destruction of their reconstructed windmill. In shock, they could only throw themselves into the humans coming, there was nothing else to do. 

During the bloody battle of the Windmill, Napoleon and Squealer were just watching their brave animals, fighting for Napoleon’s farm which could not be placed under Mr. Frederick’s hands, otherwise, they would be completely massacred by the men and their guns. 

It is all lost, many of them died, Boxer, unfortunately, was shot in his guts by a man, and again, all were paralyzed watching the situation. Clover ran into him, crying for help, but instead of help, one of Mr. Frederick’s men comes next to him, and then, a bullet comes through his skull, being killed instantly.

 

Now, Napoleon turns into Mr. Frederick tried to enter into an accord between the two sides, however, nothing went forward, and now, Animal Farm is under men’s hands once again, turning his name to Männerfarm.

The next day, Napoleon and Squealer suddenly disappeared. Benjamin tried to look for both, but they are nowhere to be seen. Animals, again, enter in panic, seeing that there was no one that would protect them from the men, and now, a new men place orders in the house, Mr. Reichenau, which ends with the seven commandments, creating new rules within his power:

All animals and men must follow in Mennismus

All animals must be pure 

All animals must give men 70% of their crop as reparations

All animals All animals must salute for Mr. Frederick’s glory

From then on all the remaining animals on the farm had to work for the humans, without the food necessary for them, their life began struggling, and whoever disobeyed men or tried to run away from the farm, was killed in front of the destroyed windmill, to show the other animals how to obey men.

Even though the government changed, the animal’s lives changed little to nothing, old Benjamin started noticing it, which between Napoleon’s era and now, Mr. The Reichenau government, little to nothing changed, being the rations about the same, the amount of work of the animals, still was about the same, so Benjamin noticed that their poor animal lives would never change, rather it would be an Animal Farm, or a Men's Farm.

News now runs through the animal's hands, Napoleon and his comrade Squealer fled the farm during the battle of the windmill! Animals are outraged with the situation, they cannot believe that Napoleon ran out the farm at its most important time, Benjamin realizes that most of the animals were being manipulated by Napoleon and his comrades, something that no one could realize during Napoleon’s regime. The news seems to work, many of the animals seem to believe in the new “Mannismus” ideas.

Now animals just follow Mr. Reichenau's ideas, working really hard, but really tired for the reconstruction of the Windmill and feared something would happen to them. They now see Napoleon as a tyrant, a coward that didn’t protect their farm in the most important time, running away from problems. Many of the animals now reject their old Animalism to be placed in the new society, avoiding something worse.

Glossary:- Männerfarm = Man’s Farm (in German) (represents an German protectorate/Russia being dominated by Germans)

- Mannismus = Mennalism (in German) (Animalism, but for Men, representing in the real world Nazism)

- Mr. Reichenau = An ideal of a German Field Marshal who invaded the Soviet Union (Walter Von Reichenau), and now, commanding Russia.

[ohsharethekmusic]

Song : MENNAL (ft. Okasian)

Artist : Vince

Album {Single} : MENNAL

[kpoptimeout]

YG’s THEBLACKLABEL debuts their producer Vince as a male solo artist in “MENNAL” MV ft. Okasian!

Do you love this sexy RnB track?  For those who don’t know, Vince is the songwriter for SUNMI’s ‘Gashina’, G-DRAGON’s ‘SUPER STAR’, TAEYANG’s ‘WAKE ME UP’ and WINNER’s ‘AH YEAH’.

[the-ellia-west]

New Wip Snapshots because I HAVE ALL THE INSPO RN TO WRITE ALL 3 WIPs AT ONCE

But I can't edit TCOT unless I have a computer, and I'm waiting to write a J&R scene until the poll is over.

So HERE YA GO

Some small progression in Alkain and Mennel's relationship.

These are three completely separate small unedited scenes form different parts in the timeline, though they are in chronological order

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Alkain shoved Mennel back, sending him sprawling against the sand with a grunt of pain. “Come on softie! Are you even trying? Don't just wait to die! Aena's eye, get up! You're softer than a sheep that's been beaten to death!”

Mennel gritted his teeth, bracing a hand against the bruise on his ribs where Alkain had slammed the pommel of a sword into him. They'd been at this for hours, and Mennel was getting no better. He knew by the fact that Alkain hadn't stopped yelling at him for even a second.

With every shouted word and hit down, Mennel's temper grew shorter. And at that last insult, he was done. He leaped to his feet. “What is with you?!” He launched himself forward. “I've had enough of this! You pushing me around, thinking I know nothing and you know everything!” He hammered the training weapon down on his mentor with relentless blows, and for once, Alkain remained silent, though Mennal didn't notice. “I'm meant to be some naturally amazing swordsman but I'm not and you keep rubbing it in! I don't know what I'm doing and you're not helping me! I'm getting no better!” 

But then he froze just as Alkain grabbed his sword arm, and pointed his own weapon straight at Mennel's neck. The young swordsman braced for an insult, but instead, a real, genuine, proud smile cracked Alkain's face. “Good.”

“Wh-what?” Mennel froze at the singular word.

But instead of responding, Alkain just tossed his weapon to the side and let go of Mennel, walking away, and then the young swordsman realized. That was the first time he'd watched Alkain leave while standing on his own two feet.

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“You said I was doing good! But you didn't change! You're still rude, and disrespectful, and you still just beat me into the ground! You didn't even tell me what I did good that time! You're an awful teacher! You hate me and I know it! You just want me to fail so you can return to your own damn comfortable lifestyle and let me die at the hands of that freak! All I want is to do what I'm supposed to do and get this damn prophecy off my shoulders! You don't care about anyone here! You just care about yourself! It's worthless trying to reason with you because none of this even reaches you since you don't care about me or what I have to say! You don't care about me, You don't care about Euania, or Oirwyn either! Because they helped me, they're going to die with me because I'm untrained and you'll just be happy when it happens!” 

But suddenly, Mennel stopped, his training weapon a single inch from Alkain's neck. The old soldier had just caught it before it hit him. He glanced at it, a little bit of surprise in his expression, but no emotion was more prominent than regret. “Alright. Kid, you think you've learned nothing? Then how come you beat me right here? Your sword is to my neck. You've won. And I'm an awful teacher. Sure, I'll admit that. But you still beat me because of my training. Sure, you can insult me right back, call me rude, or selfish, and that's all true. But don't you even dare say I don't care about them. Euania and Oirwyn are my life. They're the only reason I'm alive, and they're the only reason you're alive. And yes Mennel, contrary to what you believe, insults do hurt me.” And with that, he forced Mennel's weapon away from his neck and left.

Mennel hesitated for a second and then looked down at his hands. Had he really improved?

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Mennel leaned against the wall as he heard voices from within, not wanting to interrupt. But instead, he overheard Euania speaking with Alkain.

“How's training going?”

“Not exactly well. He doesn't like me, but that was to be expected. He's not a very good swordsman, and he needs a lot of work…” he trailed off.

“I can hear a but in that sentence Kain. What is it?”

“He needs a lot of work, but kid's got grit, I'll give ‘im that. He can deal with me yelling at him every day, not many can do that.”

Euania laughed. “So is he improving?”

“Yes. Slowly. But the thing is, I can only really get his true skill to show when I make him angry. That's been my tactic because both times he's blown up at me he's improved greatly. The first time his speed was too overwhelming, but he had no real defense, and when I targeted his defense with insults, he’s improved there so much that he beat me. Every time I insult him, he takes it to heart, but because of that, he changes. If it takes him hating me to keep that feisty little kid alive, I can take it, even if he does have a right nasty tongue.”

“Ha! Does he now? Sounds a bit like you!”

And this time, Mennel heard the smile in Alkain's voice. “Huh. I suppose it does.”