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For the @mysteriouslotuscasebookweek Day 6 prompt "Nature", I painted the trio hanging out at a waterfall
#mlcweek24#mysterious lotus casebook#of course to me this is a happy post-canon scenario#LLH gets to go fishing#DFS has found a new favourite waterfall to practice and meditate at (his favourite being whichever LLH is at)#where is FDB coming back from? solving a mystery or just getting new bait for LLH maybe#LLH will tell him to take hulijing next time b/c she needs the walk#my mlc fanworks#things made by me#watercolour painting#my art
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Hello, hello lovely Kaleb! One of my upcoming writing projects is about a queer Christian who grew up in a very strict Christian family. She is told that God doesn't love her and that she is going to Hell, but this girl has a passionate and loving faith.
If you are comfortable, could you please describe how faith feels to you. I imagine the whole concept must be very powerful and overwhelming at times, but it isn't something I've experienced, so I don't want to inaccurately represent the experience of being Christian. I'd be grateful for any small contribution, but again, if this isn't a question you want to answer don't worry about it at all :)
Thank you so much,
Sage
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Okay. So. For reference. Sage sent me this ask on May 19, 120 days ago. And I thought, "Oh, this'll be easy to answer." But then in June I was proven just how wrong that thought was. It was my best friend's birthday, and I broke down. Crying. Screaming. Shaking. Mad at God (told him to get over it) and asking him to kill me.
He didn't.
He sent me a frog. (This was actually very sweet and personal to me; it makes more sense in context lol).
And then I yelled at him for being kind to me lol. "Stop being kind to me, I am trying to be mad at you!"
What I'm trying to say is it's not easy and I am so, so sorry I ever thought it was.
The thing is tho, many people (queer non christians; straight christians) think it is. "Oh why don't you just stop being Christian?" "Oh why don't you just stop being gay?" As if it's that easy.
To quote G.K. Chesterton, "A religion is not the church a man goes to but the cosmos he lives in". My religion is not my aesthetic or whatever; it's my cosmology. It is the way I understand all of reality and is not separate from any aspect of my life. I cannot stop being Christian or stop believing in Yahweh, the God of the Bible, any sooner than I can change my skin color. Or my sexuality.
That said I should say there are 4 main theological views on this:
Side A: Affirming. Side A is the position that homosexuality is not in conflict with Christianity and that homosexual relationships can be pleasing to God. Sex between homosexual partners is no more sinful than sex between heterosexual partners and gay people should be welcome in the church. Gay marriage is supported.
Side B: Chaste. The idea that being queer is not a sin, but that the bible clearly says that gay sex is iniquity. That said, there is nothing wrong with calling yourself gay; you just couldn't actually be in a relationship with someone ss.
Side X: Orientation Change. This is the "pray the gay away" crowd. Conversion therapy advocates. You need Jesus to fundamentally change you.
Side Y: New Identity. These people also believe that that it's not just homosexual sex that's sinful but any homosexual thoughts or feelings whatsoever, however involuntary. You must live in complete celibacy forever and cannot even call yourself gay.
I'm Side B. I think. I'm side b the way I'm bi which is to say most of the time lol. I have many Side A mutuals and I love and adore all of them. People who are Side B and Side A (in my experience) tend to be some of the best bible readers and the ones most interested in theology. Part of that lies in the fact that we have to constantly justify our faith and identity to practically everyone. Seriously. It is why i avoid talking about my sexuality to Christians, and my faith to nonbelievers.
Side X is literal heresy. Anyone who says that God hates someone is a heretic because God is Love. 1 John 4:8. To say that God hates someone is to say God isn't love which is to change God's identity which is heresy. (You will not find my theology slacking)
I find Side Y ridiculous at least to me personally. I'm gay; you're a Republican. One of those is definitely worse and it's not the former.
As such I also have a firm conviction that no one is going to hell for being gay. First: I don't believe in hell as the word is not even in the mother freaking Bible!!! The word is Gehenna which is an actual physical place south of Jerusalem and that fact has serious theological implications that people need to freaking consider and I could go on an entire rant about this, but I will not for the sake of my mental health. *takes some deep breaths* Where was I? Right. No one is going to hell for being gay; and no one is going to the New Jerusalem for being straight. That is no where in the scriptures. And when someone says I am a sinner who is going to hell for being gay I'm like 1) You obviously don't know me as nothing is more important to me then my faith and 2) I don't trust your exegesis of scripture and am not really interested in your take.
So... I tried and I don't even know if I answered your question well T-T. Summary I guess is:
It's freaking hard but what else am I going to do? My God emptied himself, became a human, and died the torturous death of a slave so *shrugs*
Hamartiology sucks. Not as a concept but as an obsession that some people have. Do Justice. Love Mercy. Walk Humbly. This should be someone's obsession, not whether some stranger is going to hell or not. No one goes to hell when they die. Please find me a bible verse that says that *rolls eyes*
God is love and to say otherwise is heresy.
Surround yourself with loving and passionate believers from many different backgrounds and learn their thoughts. Nothing has made me a better Christian than that.
So... yeah.
I am going to regret posting this; aren't I?
#christianity#christian#jesus christ#keep the faith#faith#bible scripture#faith in jesus#bible#jesus#something to meditate on#liberal christianity#side b christian#christian tumblr#christian living#christian blog#progressive christian#progressive christianity#this is me#kaleb aesthetic#personal aesthetic
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#second night of trying this and i still have to say dmt feels like the most welcoming and gentle psychedelic so far#idk compared to shrooms at low doses or even acid theres always that gitteryness and anxiety at the beginning#not this tho#and idk maybe its because im spending so much time like meditating before and trying to b calm and eating clean and idk but#despite knowing this stuff is a whole lot stronger than the strongest stuff ive done i have so little anxiety with it#it feels like friend#🤷♀️ maybe its also bc i looked into it before but the time didnt feel right snd#i kept coming across ppl saying do not seek it it will simply come to u when the time is right#and i was like when will dmt randomly ever cross my path except it did when the time felt strangely right
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Fake Voyager Episode: Tuvok gets kidnapped and forced to compete in an arena where telepaths fight one another to the death for a shot at fortune and prestige. He was initially kidnapped as 'fodder' - the aliens who run the arena will grab any telepathic alien they can find regardless of skill and they're essentially just there to be killed by flashier veterans of the bloodsport. The episode is mainly Tuvok showing off his tactical know-how and combat skills. We also get several flashbacks to him as a young man, learning how to fight both on Vulcan and in Starfleet. There's a concern that he will lose himself when forced into this seemingly endless battle, surrounded by violence, but in the end he prevails and manages to escape without killing a single person. He leaves the arena after giving a message of peace. Patreon | Ko-fi
Unnamed Goon: [Laughter] That puny 'Vuulcan' didn't land a single hit for all his bluster. Once I sealed his telepathic powers it was over! Huh huh huh… If I keep up this pace I should have him crushed beneath my fists in- What...? I can't move...? Tuvok: By now you have surely noticed it.
You are certainly a formidable opponent. Most would assume you to be a simple bruiser but that is not the case. You are a knowledgeable telepath - able to not only bolster your own physique but nullify the telepathic capabilities of your enemies.
However. You rely too much on one tactic and are too proud to allow yourself to look 'weak.' This was the ultimate cause of your ruination. While you gleefully battered my body about the field I was able to locate twenty two out of twenty four 'kobat sfek' on your body - points which will render you immobile for approximately…four minutes. More than enough time. It was a shrewd precaution to nullify my telepathic ability. However. I do not need them to best you in combat.
Even now, I am ten times stronger than you. Unnamed Goon: T-Ten...TEN TIMES!? [Imagining the sort of gruesome end that might await him, the unnamed Goon faints - leaving Tuvok the victor.]
#the B plot of this episode is that Neelix is trying to make a certain Vulcan dish juuust right so Tuvok can have it when he gets back#(In the opening pre-theme Tuvok comments on how it didn't taste right)#the episode ends with Tuvok (after a long meditation) coming into the empty mess hall and Neelix being like OH!! You're here!! Quick - try#this! I think just about everyone on the ship helped me make this! I hope it tastes alright I mean I'd just (Neelix.) sorry! Of course I'll#be quiet. I'll just - sit here and won't say a word! (...) -Tuvok takes a bite- ...#-silence- Well????? (Well what?) How is it? It is...sufficient.#& Neelix cheers and sing songs that that's among the HIGHEST of your compliments Mr. Vulcan~! (Hm.) Hmm~....#Peaceful night isn't it? ...Indeed. (cut to young Tuvok looking at a similar star filled sky on Vulcan) END.#fake star trek voyager episodes my beloved#comix#Tuvok#st voyager#voy#star trek#Tuvok being cool...needed to see it <3#bea art tag#we only really see him show off his tactical skills innn that episode where Janeway chases a monkey on that one planet#and he's COOL!!!#art that makes it painfully painfully clear that the person drawing it read shounen manga as a kid
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ok i'm curious, what is this TGCFlike house divorce we've been hearing about?
-Terra
OK so play with me in this space: MDZS and TGCF are in many ways about the same things but their conclusions are almost opposite. Super briefly: Xiyao are doomed as hell in MDZS because MDZS is a story about among other things when decency is not enough to overcome the ways in which society is built, and how it fails. But TGCF is about the ways in which it can be. Xiyao cannot be happy together until the revolution and the revolution doesn't happen in MDZS's thematic paradigm but the end of TGCF it does – they deny the artificial divisions and calls to revenge that Jun Wu's heaven is built on and that gives them the power to win; gods and ghosts and beggars come together to build something new and start to forgive each other. The laundry of class disparity is resolved even
So my thesis is as follows: postcanon MDZS fixit straightforwardly doable by letting the world gently transmute into something like TGCF. This is not really a crossover as much as it is "this AU works on TGCF rules" but we DID recently mess around with letting Lan Xichen and the Shi siblings interact so maybe it is a crossover or maybe that isn't canon I don't know I haven't decided
But let us not forget that this AU is called house divorce and I'm constantly whining and also, crucially, TGCF has four books covering eight hundred years of abject misery. SO
Zewu-jun spent some years in meditative seclusion before finally emerging to take up his responsibilities again, wiser and more reserved than before; he led his sect, he cultivated, he was part of the effort to take down Nie Huaisang when the Nie cancellation hit, and in the slow twilight of the power of the jianghu his measured grace and surety and wisdom allowed him to pass his Heavenly Calamity and ascend to the status of the martial god possessed of all the virtues he once allowed his reprobate brothers to take credit for that many know and love to this day. If LQQ is here he's supplanted by Zewu-jun as the Martial God of the East or maybe they're different Easts idk if he's even here point is Gusu is obviously his place of power etc etc
(Lan Xichen spent years in what amounted to devastating clinical depression before, with a monumental effort and the support he did have and a lack of any other option and a desperate desire to not be Qingheng-jun 2, managing to let the snarl of love and care and responsibilityobligation drag him out of his room and slowly back into his duties as sect leader. His reputation recovers like how Jin Guangyao predicted years ago. He takes up the practice of folding his grief inside himself like he takes up Shuoyue again, with an almost physical pain, and he pretends very dutifully that being dutiful to this is something he believes he can do and tolerate, because of course it is, because what else is possibly there, because as harrowed as he is and as much as he has broken pretty much every rule on that wall he cares about them, cares about what they're meant to protect, this matters to him and if he's to have any say in where that bright paved road leads he must walk it; there's no third path)
He's very much on the martial god side of things rather than civil god; he's not a stranger to non-cultivator societal concerns obv and he has non-cultivator worshippers esp as the power of the great sects really declines but he is very much a cultivator god/of that society and worshipped as a cultivator warrior-noble etc etc. He's quite well-liked in the heavens and on earth; he's not really the top of the hierarchy but he's in the leaderboard, doesn't want for merits or lanterns or spiritual power and is generally possessed of a decent reputation if the subject of some envy even if Zewu-jun is a little bit withdrawn; they say he has been since he emerged from seclusion and he's pretty much always perfectly polite and functional. The picture of coping.
Anyway one day 200+ years postcanon he gets sent down to deal with something on the ground; this is possibly whatever NMJ has going on RN for plot economy but I'm still trying to figure out what NMJ's final role in this all is anyway. What I do know is LXC ends up in ghostly territory; once he realizes he is he's like Ah I'll just be surreptitious but he's yet quite quickly met with a clone that, with stiff movements like it's used to moving through debilitating pain but impeccable propriety and an unwavering smile, says that as the lord of this place he doesn't wish for any trouble with Heaven, and invites LXC to negotiate with the local official
Official?
The Ghostly Civil Palace is in fact styled after the heavenly palaces of civil gods. It's slightly more luxurious, but still tasteful and practical enough that it isn't ostentatious; it's large but ordered enough it's not sprawling; it's completely, desertedly empty, even the footsteps of the clone disappearing the second LXC takes his eyes off it once it leads him to the pavilion and dismisses itself
LXC has an impeccably polite and extremely reasonable and productive discussion with the disembodied voice of the Ghostly Civil Official, who is by all appearances pretty genuinely invested in ensuring the wellbeing of his domain and the dead in it and is also concerned about the thing LXC has been sent down to deal with, in this nice understated pavilion. There is a koi pond. There is a single tea setting.
It is against all advised practice to take food from ghosts but LXC is not inclined to be rude as hell to someone who has been nothing but genteel and helpful, even if that someone is a disembodied voice coming from everywhere and nowhere in an ethereal palace, and does in fact accept and praise the tea setting. It's nice tea
The Ghostly Official feels no ways about this unexpected courtesy and will be answering no questions at this time.
He doesn't know if he remembers something like it from when he was alive but spending 100 years as a fierce corpse will do that. It's very nice, and mostly he remembers his life as Jin Guangyao in the ways of raised undead – outlines of despair and rage and unfinished business. It was easier once, but having regained enough spiritual cognition to miss it makes it very much an inconvenience. Troublesome to only remember your own name, your mother, your death in agony. Perhaps remembering more people than the one man whose death haunted you the most would make the search for his mother's probably-desecrated remains more effective, but the outlines of resentment are certainly enough for him to sharply know that he's always been good at working from positions of few advantages
He's doing well enough for himself and has picked up further tasks along the way. The Ghost Realm has AWFUL infrastructure. He's implementing reforms. Well. Forms he's implementing forms. Just because one is dead doesn't mean that having no social safety net is a tenable state of affairs. There's ghost public transportation in his sphere of influence
Anyway as they recognize each other more and more they go more and more Wait. Hey. What the fuck. HEY
JGY recognizes Shuoyue before he recognizes LXC himself. Y'know how it is. They have to lose all hope and divorce 43 times. Return the favor wrt the homoerotic stabbing. LXC gripping the sink looking into the mirror like I'm NOT gay anymore I feel NO ways about how that clone smiles and I am NOT going to fuck that house
Other characters around:
NMJ has also recovered spiritual cognition though he's still very saberbrained and he's currently on a mission from his Nie ancestors to find and thrash some sense into his terrible AWOL little brother who drove their bloodline into the ground
COMPLETELY UNRELATEDLY JGY's social programs include awkward-encounters-with-people-from-your-past insurance and he's got a particular charge from there, a sect leader from ages past who's dodging the spirits of his ancestors, and he's a bit of a mess but he's fun enough company and JGY privately regards him as something like a friend. It's nice. He thinks vaguely he might've known someone like that in life
Wangxian are still around! They cultivated to immortality not in the god way just in the normal way and are Sanrening it up. Every day means every day! Not every day for a normal human lifespan! There's a lot of days in forever!
They are still in some contact with LXC! This is possibly the most genuine interpersonal relationship he has
I don't have roles for Song Lan & co. but I think they're also still around. Waiting in the wings as it were
Idk who the fuck is the heavenly emperor. Is it Jun Wu? Fuck if I know
Lmk if you want to see the LXC+Shiblings thoughts which may or may not be canon
#As always w/ my MDZS-TGCF posting I want 2 b very clear I do not mean that one of them is better or more correct abt its conclusions#They r differently crafted stories that talk abt different angles/facets and r both extremely real in their own ways#Anyway. Alexa play No Children#AFFIRMATIONS: I am Calm and Tranquil. I am /meditating/ and not ''spending days at a time in a depressed fugue.'' I am No Longer Gay.#AFFIRMATIONS: Everybody who killed me is dead. They WILL let me into the Heavenly bureaucracy one day. I am feeling NO ways about this.#This is so many words of no plot. Because I'm shit at events. This is mostly just the Xiyao premise#Of what they're doing
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Anybody have les miserables art requests?
#i don't remember what started it but im once again meditating on les mis#i read a enjoltaire fic for the 1st time in like 6 years and was like.... wait. i like these vibes#like i didnt used to write enjoltaire fics to exercise demons from my mind#and then im like.... mmm i like these vibes... but i need enjolras to b more inhuman#i want them both fucking weird and inhuman#anyway. i dont remember where i was going with this#unrelated
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Stepping into the new and letting the old fade away embracing the change like it was always meant to be!
#illustration#photography#art#style#me#picoftheday#fashion#ootd#love#right now#tumblraesthetic#fashionstyle#good vibes#new beginnings#ootdinspo#living in the moment#lips#social media#equatorial guinea#african beauty#be you#r and b#make up#positive energy#reblog#up close and personal#sun is out#strike a pose#wellness#meditation
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I just finished padawan by kiersten white and had a blast with it -- it was exactly the kind of thing my brain craved this week, just some nice character study and adventure story stuff for my brain to chill in. thoughts:
a) I love obi-wan and his poor anxiety-ridden teenage self so so much. peak a delight to have in class to the point of nervous break representation, someone help him. local boy manages to become parentified child to an absent father somehow. that part where he's so afraid he's so bad and useless that the force itself might just decide it doesn't want him after all........ heartbreaking. that's exactly what I would have thought at sixteen too probably. (also my personal headcanon has always been that obi-wan is on the ace spectrum, so that was a very nice thing to find supported in this book! canon is vast and can support any number of stances that way honestly everyone should go hog wild with it in whatever manner they please, but that's always been my vibe)
b) qui-gon fucking jinn if you don't step up and do something to help the child in your charge with his ACTUAL DEBILITATING ANXIETY DISORDER RUNNING HIM RAGGED other than ask him to meditate so help me I will come over there and do maul's work for him ahead of time I swear to fucking god
c) no, really, it says some not very good things about qui-gon's mentorship abilities that obi-wan really only manages to grow and be calmer when he's outside of his influence. I know this book means you to come away with the feeling that obi-wan takes a big step towards enlightenment and adulthood on this trip (and I do think that's also true to be clear!), but there is a part of me that also thinks that just as much as personal and spiritual development what we're seeing here is an avoidant attachment style definitively entrenching itself as a result of having no adult that can be consistently trusted to meet him emotionally. (which also makes a horrible kind of sense, thinking about what obi-wan and anakin's relationship is going to be like in the future -- obi-wan is avoidant and self-contained when it comes to trying to deal with his emotions, and anakin skews far more anxious and towards lashing out, and they never quite understand each other for all the love that is there. you can trace that all the way back here. sins of the master, huh.) obi-wan finds some agency and catharsis in being able to help a group of abandoned children, you say. hm. I'm sure this means nothing and has no parallels in his own inner world. you let the kid think you'd completely abandoned him instead of communicating with him openly for like five minutes. For His Own Good of course. Wow I didn't realize I was this angry about this but here I am once again livid on obi-wan's behalf, actually. 'I'm an incredible teacher and this lack of honest emotional communication I'm fostering in favour of (benign!) manipulation is never going to come back and bite the jedi order in the ass, surely'; the qui-gon jinn story
#as someone who has been asked to meditate to cure mental illness since I was like twelve: obi-wan should be allowed to kill. murder even#star wars#padawan 2022#obi wan kenobi#I may of course be doing some projecting here but knowing how it turns out..... I don't think I'm entirely off base either#I uh. I wonder a little bit at how the jedi actually approach mental health in general because obi wan is A Mess in this#and no one fuckign seems to notice or care b/c he's obsessive about not making it anyone else's problem lmao#he's been allowed to develop crippling eldest daughter syndrome among a bunch of enlightened force sensitives#there is so clearly a lot of warmth and wonderful things in the jedi temple don't get me wrong at all! but uh.#they've clearly got some weak spots that will also be there by the time it's anakin's turn with the generational trauma lol#star wars meta
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Old B/7 doodles
#B/7#b7#seven of nine#b'elanna torres#star trek voyager#star trek#star trek fanart#my art#she's meditating with tuvok#is she mad or horny?#the answer is probably both#b'elanna/seven#fanart#traditional art
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what pokemon do you think kamal n boris would have :o? pkmn and sfm me beloved interests
hmmmMMm that is an EXCELLENT question... what i am thinking is:
boris found himself visited by various ghost types during his college years, where they sought to feed off his negative emotions. he rejected just about every one--he doesn't raise pokemon. he especially doesn't raise grass-types, but that doesn't mean just any pokemon will do.
...except for one very tenacious gastly. boris found Teefs to be exceedingly charismatic for his kind, and his ability to put others to sleep might come in handy.. someday..... (they're still buddies post-habitat, don't worry 😊 oh, and--don't worry about that unusual lilligant, either. like i said, boris doesn't raise grass types.)
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kamal's current place of work is fancy enough to keep a few company-owned pokemon on hand, to help ease anxious clientele. they like to pair him with Sudsy the froakie, claiming that there's a "resemblance," but kamal doesn't really get it.
in his personal life, tho... i think we all know what kind of pokemon Mr. Bunnies66 favors (:
(he plans on applying for a scorbunny as a graduation gift to himself once he gets his doctorate. qualifying for a starter pokemon can be a pain for non-trainers, but he would love to have a running partner for his cycling hobby 😊)
#hyllo anon i genuinely did not mean to ignore u Forever and Ever....i had to meditate upon this answer.......like i was stuck bc i was like#well maybe a lilligant is a little too on the nose for boris isnt it. and then i read the pokedex description and was like ok it is#in fact the only option. i see now#so actually NOW what im wondering is: did boris' lilligant die? did he release it? did it ever grow to be lilligant at all and just stay a#petilil its whole life? does fk find a) the unevolved petilil? b) the abandoned lilligant? c) the offspring of his lilligant?#much to think about.#golly gabs#gollydraws#anonymous#sfm#smile for me#kamal bora#boris habit#dr habit#gengar#lilligant#froakie#buneary#bunnelby#long post
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#jhene aiko#jheneakio#beachlife#beautiful views#art pop#desert#horoscope#intuition#love#meditation#nature#pop music#fyp#pisces#swimming#louis vuitton#chill vibes#views#bridgerton#netflix#art#popularblog#pop culture#r&b#vintage#peaceful#self love#self care#happiness#tumblr fyp
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pouka doodles! I love these little fellas ♥
+them separately to see them better
#destiny#destiny 2#pouka#sketches#doodle#B)#I have adopted them all#pink#memorial#meditate#my guardian#bunny ghost
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like this guy.the star
(based on this post by artwheat)
#y is this my only astarion art ever. i should fix that#bean bart#yoru#i cant fandomtag this ..dont look at me guys#edit: ok thinking abt jt its even funnier elves barely sleep like hes absolutely stuck being clung to for the whole night#ast is NOT moving from that spot bc itll wake up yoru (semi-light sleeper)#i think i made yoru a halfelf so having him b kinda resilient to sleep is cute..mainly in terms of staying up a little later w ast to talk#mb ast teaches yoru some better trance/meditation techniques to help him calm his mind (selfishly its so they can stay up longer tgth)
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For The Birds 04
Intro 00:00 Mario Luciano, Lauren Santi-Lauren’s Astral Vision 00:11 arovane-Treut 01:28 Soft Passage-Radiant Dreams 03:33 MikeKSmith-Rain on the lines 06:39 Urban Meditation-Inner Circles 11:12 Beefus B-In Your Own Universe 14:40 Willebrant-Inlet III 19:49 Ruby Singh-Amrit Vela 29:38 CIALYN-GardenWall 37:05 Mitseliy-Blue Tape IV 39:35 Audio Obscura-Through Nuclear Skies 46:48 Outro
#Mario Luciano#Lauren Santi#arovane#Soft Passage#Lightwerx Collective#MikeKSmith#Urban Meditation#Beefus B#Willebrant#Ruby Singh#CIALYN#Mitseliy#Audio Obscura#Madlib Invazion Music Library Series#Dauw#Friends of Friends Music#Carpe Sonum Records#Triplicate Records#Neotantra#Subexotic Records#Los Angeles#California#Germany#Ghent#Belgium#Glasgow#UK#St. Louis#Missouri#Boulder
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#if theres one and rly only one thing that i dont like abt things like meditation or psychedelics is that they open u up#and they make me more sensitive and vulnerable#which. when living at home. absolutely suckssss#like when im more emotionally repressed and closed off and w my 50 walls up i give way less of s fuck#filter most of it out or supress it or dissociate or whatever#but when im more like this it rly makes me wish i wasnt here.#because when i spend time alone im perfectly fine for the most part but 90% of the time intrracting w my parents drainsssss it outta me so#much. the drama the yelling the vibes the fucking; history of all the bullshit thats happened#and rly i have to get better when im in states like this at just. blocking it off#and handling it and building a resistance to it ;;;; without completely shutting myself down and dissociating and then it just coming#back in the form of unhealty habits#:/#lol i wanna be in the middle of a forest in a little hut ://// thatd b so much less overwhelming and nicer
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helloooo hope ur having a great day :D why do u think u can be lgbt and christian? asking as a ex lgbt christian (maybe not ex. it's complicated.) so id love to know other opinions :))
Hello there, anonie. I am having a pretty good day, thank you <333
First, I want to thank you for the politeness with which you asked this question.
Second I would like the make clear that reconciling my sexuality with my religion has not been easy and is still not easy. I thought it was for a while, but boy did the Lord go out of his way to show me how wrong that was (June was not a kind month me).
That out of the way, yes I do believe I can be gay and a christian. And I believe this because I am. I'm gay, cause I am attracted to guys, not because I want to be or something (trust me. I do not want to be). And I am Christian because Christianity is true (I do want this to be true, because it's the best). I am also African American, not because I chose this, but because I was born this. I am 17 because I was born 17 years ago and etc etc etc. I think you see my point? I am not a believer that one's sexuality is just something one chooses, you're born it and you have to deal with it. I was born gay, that's it. Now I've gotta deal.
Now, I am side b so that means I 1) interpret the scriptures to say that homosexual relationships are iniquity however much that hurts to type but also 2) I do not believe that this means I can't identify as gay or that I need to expect God to change my sexuality. That's absurd, at least imo.
People will identify as Republican and then say I can't identify as gay. Uhhhhh one of us can't control it and one of us is choosing to side with Babylon, check your eye bro.
And I do not believe that Jesus will change my sexuality any more than he'll change my ethnicity. No where in scripture is such a thing suggested. I'm born it. I am it. I've got to deal with it, for better and worse. To be clear: I am not saying Jesus can't, only that he won't.
A final thought: Being gay is not a sin. And neither is being a gay relationship. Do a word study on the word sin and you'll find that the words we translate sin theologically mean "to morally fail at something." It is my conviction that as images of God (and since God is Love) that to sin is thus to fail to love. So, being gay is not a sin. Telling people that they're going to hell or that God hates them for being gay is a sin and also a heresy. That said, you could make the argument that gay relationships are iniquity (crookedness; something straight made crooked), and since I am side b this is unfortunately my position.
Also I am firmly and completely against Conversion Therapy and I am very disappointed in Focus on the Family, an organization that was very important to my childhood. It breaks my heart and I consider such actions to be grave sin, iniquity, and transgression (betrayal).
Also, also I love my Side A family <3333. They are some of the most faith filled people so the hate they get is absurd.
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