#means that a lot of higher profile people are coming here too

[gamebunny-advance]

Hoo-wee~

Getting any kind of attention from anybody I admire is just too much for my poor heart.

[alyjojo]

October 👻 2023 PAC - Who Haunts You & Why?

Welcome to my fun & spooky October PAC, where it may turn out actually spooky 😈 At least, that was the initial intention. Most are likely to get very deep, these are likely difficult subjects and people to “haunt” us in the first place. Some situations will be darker than others, I will lightly touch on what I see and remain empathetic and in the flow without getting too deep or painfully descriptive. We want to heal it, not re-live it. You know you 🙏 The oracles I’m using for this reading are all for descriptive purposes to help shed light on a character profile or situation, not to be taken literally, unless they do for you. I’m also not putting any focus on signs, it can be any sign in this energy. These are meant to be general, for many different people so if it sounds like you, great. Some may have more than one, or not feel pulled to choose any, and that’s fine too.

Hopefully this helps anyone drawn to it! I love everyone on this blog, it’s grown so much in the past two years, thanks to you guys 🥳

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Pile 1 - Crow 🖤

Living or Passed?: Living

Character Oracle: The Founder

Who they are: King of Swords, 5 Swords & 8 Pentacles

Why: 9 Wands & King of Pentacles

Oracles: ENGAGEMENT RING 💍

- Higher Commitment

- Eternity

- Partnership & Union

- Completion

71 - Free Associate

Allow the first thing that comes into your mind without self-censorship to bestow a vision upon you.

70 - Insight

See beyond appearances, masks, cliches, and cultural stereotypes to gain insight.

Several stories are coming through at once with this King of Swords. This feels like an authority figure, and with The Founder, they are the ones that did something “first”. Or better, in their mind, or yours, and it creates a LOT of pressure on you to meet or exceed the standards of this other person. King of Swords is a very intelligent person, they don’t consider emotions in their decision making, only the logic and facts they have in front of them. They can be very black & white in how they view solutions, there’s a right way and a wrong way, and while they are friendly & focused on fairness, they can also be straight to the point and almost cutting with how they communicate with others. Just the facts, and they use that sword to cut off what doesn’t serve them or isn’t useful or necessary, information included, they can seem quite unemotional, even cold.

With The Founder, this is also someone very responsible and in charge of something. I’m getting a boss at work, a landlord, a parent, possibly a father in-law or someone in your person/spouse’s family, or this can be an ex-spouse/co-parent of yours or your person’s. They’re involved but also removed from your immediate situation or relationship, yet they still hover in your energy as a means of comparison or not living up to some standard set before. You or your person may split child custody with this ex, so their input is always involved, even if/when it’s not wanted.

You see them as 5 Swords, cruel, instigative, always out to prove a point or put someone down, or your methods perhaps. Queen & King of Pentacles are here, for those in relationships or where this is family or an ex, showing this is your person and you match up in energy. But you can’t shake this other person. They could be jealous of your relationship, how you do things, where you live, or they try to one-up you and show you that they can do it better than you can. They could purposely be difficult with custody to inconvenience you or your person where baby-sitting is concerned, they’re someone that tries to sabotage in order to prove a point, and a lot of this could be regarding money or value, comparing yours & mine. It’s all regarding feelings for this Queen of Pentacles, you or your person, whether romantic or family, whoever they are, this King shows their hurt by being an asshole. Is that okay, no, but that’s what I get from them.

For work/home situations, they’re just very difficult to deal with. They may sabotage you in these ways, not putting work into their property (that you live on) so that you’re forced to leave (or want to). Not giving you the right hours or pay, treating you like less deserving of something you’ve worked hard for. They could be condescending about your work, where you/your person works, and what you have or don’t have. Or them just being them brings out these sorts of inadequate feelings in you, and it’s your issue more than theirs. Comparing what kind of worker, lover, parent, or how intelligent you are. No matter who this is, they’re involved in a stable situation you can’t just pick up and leave. It’s possible this is someone that’s forced you out of a job, a home, a relationship even, and you’re on the outside looking in, having to trudge through the mud while this person sits on a throne…in your mind. They feel like they’re right, and this again could be a judge, some level of authority, and you’re left battling their decisions/actions either privately or because you’ve been forced to by their own bs. Or your perception of it, this can be someone that just triggers your own issues too…knowingly, for some, especially if a boss or some kind of father figure.

It could be your person that’s the problem too, if they’re the ones constantly comparing the two of you or bringing them up. “Well Swords did it that way, and Swords thinks xyz, etc.,” which makes it incredibly difficult for you to be your own person with your own methods, we should be discussing what Pentacles thinks and does ok fk Swords 💯 You could wonder if you’re even cut out for this, this person really weighs on your self esteem, they’re the 3rd energy in a situation/relationship for two.

There’s a small story here about a possible financial advisor that’s giving you hell as well. You may not have the money for something and they’re crushing your dreams with matter-of-fact speak regarding credit, savings, purchases, things you’ve found very difficult or are really trying to overcome. You could feel like they rub your face in shame, but I don’t get that they do, or don’t mean to. Or that’s their job? Something about them makes you feel crazy.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻:

7 Pentacles & Ace of Wands

Bottom of the deck shows to maintain your self control and your anger, give yourself the time and space you need to calm down, because sometimes the reality of the situation may not be how you’re seeing it in the moment. You could jump to conclusions or have a bit of a temper with this person, and I get a lot of it are your own insecurities. Your person needs to be on your side too, if that’s an issue, or at least play mediator, they’re really the one that has to deal with them, not you (for many of you). Let them handle it. I get hopeful energy, sometimes this will really piss you off, and other times it won’t seem so bad, try to assume nothing and allow yourself & this person the space they need to grow and change. Basically, just be respectful, and if they’re not, show them how it’s done ❤️ For many of you this is unavoidable, and it’s also like you’re loosely on the same team, better to cooperate. Some of you just need to save money, apply elsewhere, move possibly, and otherwise give things time to grow before acting on change. For many of you, boundaries could be necessary depending on what this person is doing to sabotage or affect an environment or relationship. They’re allowed to (and do, being Swords), and you’re allowed to as well 💯

Pile 2 - Potions 🧪

Living or Passed?: Both - Two Stories

Character Oracle: The Thief

Who they are: The Sun, 2 Swords rev, Knight of Swords & The World

Why: 9 Pentacles, Ace of Swords & 6 Swords

Oracles: POKER FACE ♦️

- Taking a Chance

- Risks & Options

- Not Showing Hand

- Gambling

33 - Perfectionism

Be content to know perfection as a distant utopian goal to which we journey but never arrive.

22 - Counsel

Seek out the counsel of those whose lives and creative work you most admire.

75 - Originality

Feel lighthearted and free while trusting that your unique way of doing things is the right way.

These PACs never fail to amaze me. This whole pile is Spirit giving you a round of applause for how you’ve already handled a situation, because it’s done, and you don’t have to worry about them anymore.

The first story is regarding an actual spirit/ghost/poltergeist or what have you. The troublesome & meddlesome kind too. I don’t get “dark”, just tricky, problematic. Only take it if you know you’ve dealt with one, this is simply confirmation & validation for your experience. I’m specifically getting a spirit that liked to take things, or move them, maybe break them. It’s possible they were a child, doesn’t have to be, they liked to mess with you. Always when you were alone, that’s here under “why” they chose you, you were the one in a light 💡 energy, you were alone, and they liked you. Something about you drew them in, where with others they were pretty avoidant or even shy. I get you probably having done some research, and telling this spirit where to go. It’s possible you called in someone who does this for a living, a medium, priest, something like that. Or you did it yourself, and again, they liked you. Whatever you did, it worked, they’ve moved on to the light 💡and won’t bother you again 💚

The second story is for someone alive, a trickster, possibly a gambler or someone that likes to take risks and/or possibly use others for their gain in some way. You are already aware of this person and all of the bs that comes with them, you’ve already told them where to go and have ended the connection. For some, it’s possible this is a parent, or a child, maybe someone you knew as a child. You could have gone to counseling regarding things this person has done, or how they’ve affected you. You have moved on, and have done the right thing. I do sense possible hurt here for a lot of you, in the way you saw the world and how it was/should be - before and after this person. They’ve changed your perspective in many ways, probably negative ways. How a parent “should” be. Or trying to guide a child/friend/etc. that won’t listen and heads down the wrong paths. This person is only out for themselves, and you’ve had to remove yourself from this, which was probably very difficult for you. There is an energy here of forgiveness, them, their actions, yourself, needing to for your own sake. Gain your clarity & allow yourself to move on from this, I see nothing but happiness for you now & moving forward ☀️

3333 is here with Perfectionism, The Sun and The World, showing a shady character is not comfortable in the light - which is you, and they had to leave that behind. You make this person feel uncomfortable, and their darkness stares them in the face around you. This is not your problem, they’re fighting their own demons, or they prefer their own demons.

222 is here with making the decision to seek Counsel, could be counseling, rehab, you may have had to cut someone off until they get help, or need to now. Either way there is someone important that could be or needs to be involved with this, but it’s not your place to.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻: You’ve got this, for many, it’s already handled 💯

For those of you who have not yet handled this, removing yourself is the best thing for you, and you need to only worry about you. Same as this person only worries about them. You may have some ideal they should’ve lived up to, and they should have, *they* probably know that too, but that’s not who they are. If this person left one day and never came back, or you did, I’m getting it’s for your highest good. Are they bad, no. But they’re not good for you, that’s what’s important for you to know, and then Originality points out how wonderful you really are. If this situation runs deeper than even I see, Counsel is here for a reason, it could be good to talk to someone with an outside perspective to help you work through some of these possible traumas. Not that anything is wrong with you, you just owe it to yourself to honor your own experiences and sort through your feelings with someone that is an expert at these things. Some of you have already done this and Spirit is applauding everything you’ve done to deal with this, you’ve done an amazing job 👏

Pile 3 - Window 🪟

Living or Passed?: Living

Character Oracle: The Pathless

Who they are: 8 Pentacles, Queen of Cups, Knight of Wands, 4 Swords rev

Why: The Sun, Ace of Wands, The Magician, 3 Swords

Oracles: KARMIC RELATIONSHIP 🪢

- Resentments & Triggers

- Perception

- Intensity & Letting Go

- Turmoil & Fleeting

4 - Recycle

Learn from the past and apply it to creating your vision of the future.

51 - Time

Time can be seen to be both linear and a spiral - circle back to explore concepts form the past and create the future.

444 on the clock as I begin this reading, two 4’s in your reading as well, this message is about learning from the past in order to create stable relationships in the present, healing yourself from old hurts. Both oracles show past energy, I’m getting you’ve either moved on from this person or they’ve left and you’re needing to. They don’t have great energy 😕

I’ve gotten a few messages showing feminine energy specifically, doesn’t have to be romantic to be karmic, but for some of you this is definitely romantic. It can be any kind of connection, but tough lessons were learned from this person. You loved them. Some of you still do, and always will. I’m getting it’s been very difficult to move on from them, for those that already have. This is the kind of person with no direction, no goals, no real definition of anything in their life. There could be a noticeable age difference between you, or they’re the kind of person who IS an adult, but will always have a rebellious & spontaneous teenage sort of energy. They’re exciting, they make you feel good, happy, ready to take on the world. And then they let you down, disappear, date other people, cheat, hop from situation to situation, person to person, in the hopes that the next one will give them the sense of direction they’re looking for. This one will have purpose. This one is the right one.

But it’s never the one, and they come and go in and out of your life, and probably countless others as well. I get that you’re angry with this person, you want to hold them accountable, and they’re a dodger in nature. They dodge accountability, responsibility, maturity, rules, this person has an answer for everything and none of those answers actually make sense. Yet it works for them, and they know how to craft a reality around them to suit them, for the time being. Until they change again. This could be someone promiscuous in anything, partners, hopping from job to job, moving from place to place, and there’s always some drama attached to them, something they’re running from. They may have simply left you.

I’m also getting you could have done this to them or other people, because of the heavy past energy, and there’s one person in particular that you regret hurting, and they’re haunting you for that reason if that’s the case. Someone was very sexual, spontaneous, rushed into things and created painful situations, that’s the focus. But I’m getting it’s more than that too, that was just one representation of a much deeper issue where this person was/is concerned, and it’s the lack of direction, boundaries, and dreams that causes this sort of personality to dominate their energy. They siphon off of other people’s energy, other people’s goals & dreams, being appealing, sweet, kind & loving and using it to their advantage. They are all of those things, that’s why it works for them. They’re also non-committal and a restless sort of person, I’m getting they’re “too far gone” with this sort of energy, nothing can change them but God, karma, themselves, the consequences of their actions, time, etc. Not you. If it was you, no one could have changed this, not even you at the time.

For a small part of you, this could be a person that literally changed a job of yours, you could’ve lost a job or they did, you could’ve moved or traveled in regards to work or they did. Work is part of the loss, along with them. Or money. For most of you this just shows something you’ve struggled with for a long time, actually letting go of this person/situation. Or they have.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻:

Wheel of Fortune, The Hanged Man & The Hierophant

All major arcanas, all very intense energy, this is a whole life lesson for this person. Karma, and this is a karmic, you’re the lesson that showed them what they’re doing and have done to people they care about. What losing people costs them. What acting on passion or spontaneity (or anger) does to relationships. This message shows the only thing that will teach them is time, time brings perspective on commitment, marriage, religion for some, karma for sure. They will “get theirs”. I also get your own perspective changing with time too, karmic relationships have two sides, two lessons, both of you were meant to meet and experience each other for a purpose. For those that have not already moved away from this, even just emotionally, now is the time to learn it, feel it, and let it go. It’s out of your hands 🙏

Pile 4 - Bouquet 💐

Living or Passed?: Living

Character Oracle: The Shepherd

Who they are: The Fool, 5 Swords, 6 Wands, The Hermit & 10 Swords

Why: 5 Wands, 9 Swords rev & Ace of Swords

Oracles: ASCENDING 🎈

- Learning & Expansion

- Transcending

- Preparing for Union

- New Phase

78 - Recharge

When the pace of life becomes too hectic, know to slow down, be mindful, and go with the flow.

5 - Pitch

Be as clear, concise, and professional as you can be when you explain your ideas to potential associates.

45 - Collaboration

Creative people can be inspired by sharing and stimulating creativity in others.

I’m not pulling out signs here but the fire 🔥 is intense with this pile. There is a lot of conflict with what looks like a pair, a couple, probably parents or grandparents being the most obvious story here. If they aren’t fire signs, then they’re fiery in nature, could have hot tempers and are used to getting their way. If anything, I’m getting you could be too much alike 💯 How this ended initially was a nasty conflict and big-headed egos, you/they are right and the other person is wrong, stick it to them, sort of energy. This had to do with you doing what you want, not what they want. Periodttt. You were glad to leave this, glad to be alone, glad to do wtf you want to do.

I’m getting it worked for you too! Maybe not entirely, but for the most part you’ve succeeded and ascended spiritually, you just keep on rising higher. This could all be switched as well, and you’re watching another person/people rise in their lives, without you. Some of you chased after a goal that crashed and burned terribly, and are now considering a “walk of shame” back to parents or something. You could need them. I do get this being family for the most part, could be a friend/s as well. It doesn’t have to be a couple, that’s just here for where it does apply, 3 Pentacles too. Two people, and you, probably parents. In like…one case, it could be romantic, and you’re haunted over whether someone cheated on you or not, and I get no. The Wands are naturally very flirty, is that okay idk depends on you, but it shows the Death of this occurring before they met the other person. It also answers the question of a reconnect, they’re with someone else now. If there was a known issue in a romantic connection, it’s like something got flirty, someone got pissed off (you?), and it ended immediately after that. No Moon energy, no secrets, no hidden anything beyond that.

You’re conflicted inside on whether or not you could heal this connection, and work together again. Be friends again. Be close again. Come to holiday dinners again. I’m getting you don’t talk much if at all. More specifically, there’s something they have that you want, could be regarding a career or some kind of teamwork collaboration, but I don’t get you literally working together. You need someone’s help, or they could need yours, but you feel like this bridge has been burned, and are afraid of Ace of Swords, clear cut truth & communication, being cut off, or rejected. Or having to again. Except for the ex moving on story, if so it’s not hidden, I don’t see any reason why this can’t be healed, except things like pride…shame…guilt, big egos are at play in all of you. It’s like it runs in the family or something 😜 I’m also getting this feeling that you haven’t done anything this person hasn’t done as well, there is some kind of equal ground or understanding between you. The Shepherd protects its “family” and I get that what this is, is a family, people that look out for you, did, want to, or could, and it’s up to you where/how this goes if it goes.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻:

Queen & King of Wands, 3 Pentacles

Just ask. Be clear, honest, Ace of Swords, no tricks or avoidance, games or bs just be truthful about what’s happened, how you are, what you want, etc., and give this person/people the benefit of the doubt. It feels really positive to try mending these fences, like all of you can rise to another level of understanding with each other and feel good about it.

Pile 5 - Hades ☠️

Living or Passed?: Both - 2 Stories

Character Oracle: The Spymaster

Who they are: 10 Pentacles, 6 Swords, The Tower, 4 Pentacles, Queen of Pentacles, 8 Swords

Why: 6 Wands, 9 Cups, Temperance

Oracles: THE DRAGONFLY 🪽

- Light-hearted & Adapt

- Finding Out & Change

- Things Coming to Light & Heal

72 - Nature

Go out in Nature as much as you can, for it’s pure creativity can teach you everything you need to know.

39 - Direction

Switch gears, reboot, and try a new and different direction.

66 - New Start

Sometimes we must realize that what we have done needs to be discarded and we must make a new start.

We’ll start with the living energy first, there are slight variations that separate them into two stories, one being your own actions, the other being someone else’s. Either you stalk them, or they stalk you, this is someone that watches you closely with everything you do. To the point of obsession even. Or you do. There is heavy earth energy here, you/they could reflect that, or the issues here have a lot to do with money, success, and material things. A business. An inheritance. Your career. Or just greed in the sense of no one giving a damn. No one helping you out, financially or otherwise, there is no team effort from a whole group of people. For many, this is your family that you feel victimized by. For others this could be someone that ran out on you (maybe a whole family) and left you to fend for yourself, carrying the bag and everything else on your own shoulders, with no help. Possibly being a single parent, unexpectedly, having the rug pulled out from under your feet and you had no choice but to be strong enough to hold it together, for a group, a business perhaps (or kids). Or you could have done this to them.

This person, or you, the wrong one, is trying to make a comeback into this situation, or wants to, because they see how well things are going for you. It could be you too, there’s a message about playing the victim and trying to gain sympathy, for money, expecting that from others…not helping yourself, just blaming everyone else for your problems. Or that’s them. It’s not the main story, but it’s here as a side note, 8 Swords is either trapped unwillingly, or keeps themselves trapped on purpose, both are possible. There are cases where you or this person were actually put into very difficult & painful situations and just left there with no care or help from anyone around you. Those that left, or you had to leave, haunt you, mostly due to deeply rooted negative perceptions and grudges you still carry, or you know they do.

If they are trying to come back around, it’s because you’re successful now, your dreams have come true, you’ve risen above The Tower and pulled yourself through the mud and the darkness to get where you are today. You could be doing quite well for yourself. And these people just expect a seat at your table? Or you expect a seat at theirs? I don’t think so. The skepticism is healthy, and the distrust makes sense, no matter which side it’s coming from. What are people’s real intentions?

There is a small side story about maybe a coworker or a family member that was in the same business as you, same kind of job, and it’s like they left this behind and succeeded elsewhere, and you didn’t. Or you left, they stayed and took it very far, dreams come true, hard work rewarded, and you’re like damn…that could’ve been me.

There is also a passed loved one story, likely a family member, that watches over you all of the time. They even come up as Temperance, which is always shown as an Angel 😇, they could be a Spirit guide of yours or are just part of your spiritual team, they’re always with you. The Tower may show how they passed on, something quick, unexpected, and very upsetting. Someone you wanted to hold onto, or they wanted to hold on to you. Or maybe your parent, if a grandparent. There could’ve been an inheritance issue with this person, they could have been seen as greedy, or may have been left to their own devices. The outcast of the family, the single parent, possibly an earth sign, they did everything on their own, because they had no choice. Or when they passed on, they left you in that state, and it was out of their control 🙏

For the passed on story, I’m getting a clear message about animals, could be dragonflies, crows & birds, I have those both here. Nature is generally showing anything you see outside that acts peculiar towards you, strangely friendly and such. They send those critters to you, and many say that Spirits often like to use animals as a sign they’re with you. There’s also a note here about whatever you’re doing, needing to switch tracks and do something else, or if you already have, you’re being applauded for that. Some of you started from near nothing and have gone far, they’re cheering for you 👏 Some are encouraging you to do this, if it’s something you’re dealing with now. It’s really a feeling of validation and pride, they’re proud of you for how far you’ve come, and making a dream of yours come true. I’m getting them being with you every step of the way, for all of your life going forward too.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻: For the living

Ace of Pentacles & The Hanged Man

In simplest terms, you may need to take this opportunity to look at things from another perspective, especially in terms of money and the motives of other people, yourself included. Is everyone judging everyone based on some bs sense of worth - via money & material things or are others out to take what’s yours, or vice versa? Is there even money to spread around like that, or like is expected, because I get a sense that there isn’t. In all stories there is a confusion in how you’re seeing money and how that’s a value to you or other people, it’s something you need to see differently than you do currently. What even is value, to you? People that “flex” what they have could really bother you, but it’s like IS it what they’re spending on? Or is it the family around them? Or in some cases the family they left behind, staring at them through the window of the internet & life like wtf…any side could be you, there is no *one* energy strongest in this pile.

Pile 6 - The Babadook 🎩

Living or Passed?: Could be either

Character Oracle: The Brawler

Who they are: 10 Swords, The Empress, 8 Swords, The Hierophant & 10 Cups

Why: The Emperor & 9 Wands

Oracles: ASCENDING 🎈

- Learning & Expansion

- Transcending

- Preparing for Union

- New Phase

50 - Sacred Space

Use beautiful art, music, and creativity if all kinds to put you into a sacred space.

57 - Worry

Worry is attachment to a particular outcome and the fear that it will not come to pass.

This is the most clear reading by far I’ve gotten, the most obvious answer is a parent, or a dynamic between parents. Particularly a mother. For some, your mother may have passed on and your father is a mess over it, it’s like you lost both people the same day, in many ways. Your relationship with one parent isn’t the same after the other one passes on, which is especially difficult for you as children if that’s the case. Sending you lots of love. That won’t be for everyone.

A father figure could be particularly aggressive with this Brawler card here, this is someone that is always fighting, a “tough guy” mentality, like they dare you to go against them. Doesn’t have to be a father either, it could be the mother too. Or a spouse, an ex-spouse, an ex in general, someone destructive, mouthy, you have to walk on eggshells around them. I get a clear narcissist energy from the Brawler card - lacking empathy, and for any of you that have dealt with that traumatic psychological mindfuck, I see you, you’re included. Parent or not, these don’t have to be parents, they’re just here. Marriage & spouses are clearly highlighted too. This could be your situation, your parents, or even a friend that’s married to an asshole and you can’t get them out of your head, it haunts you, because you’re powerless, and they are too it looks like.

Some of you may have literally lost people to a tragedy of some sort involving domestic violence or something very painful like that, maybe blaming the other person involved for what’s happened. In the worst case I can see, one parent may have hurt you, and the other just stood by quietly, or didn’t believe you, they didn’t do shit about it when they should have. It could be switched in any of these cases but I’m not getting that specifically, I’m talking to a hurt person, not the problem. Someone may have hurt you like this, could be close to you, could be a complete stranger. Cases of violence and harm on any level are included. It also doesn’t have to be that serious. This can include step-parents that maybe pulled your own away from you, or that’s how you feel. It can be a co-dependent relationship of some kind, and feeling powerless to do anything about difficult situations in this dynamic of chains - that’s what I’m getting from this whole pile. Someone is in chains, could be you, could be someone else, but it stays with you at all times.

Some of you have freed yourself from a bad situation, but someone else is still there, could be kids, parents, whoever, and you constantly worry about them. You could’ve been left by one parent and the other one is a mess, and you can’t get out of this because they’re emotionally dependent on you. You could’ve been forced to grow up very young because those around you weren’t equipped to deal with reality, like you were the adult here, and you were idk 8 years old. If anyone harmed you as a child, especially in any way regarding violence, or any level of abuse, this is describing them.

You want to grow from this, escape this, want to be better and set better examples for those around you. You could have children of your own, and are haunted by shitty parents, wanting to be better for your own kids, make better decisions that others never did for you or gave to you. You want people around you to guide you and show you the way, or you want to be this person yourself, maybe both. The family you never had, or maybe did have at one time, and something terrible happened to change all of that. It’s like the memories of happiness and a happily ever after are what haunt you. If a spouse, you’re tempted to make it work, even if this is someone you’re cautious about or around. Or you were, and you tried. If a spouse it’s like this person never stops trying and “haunting” can be more like “stalking” because they will literally never leave you alone 💯 My heart goes out to all of you.

The tamest story I’m seeing is a person that wants to follow their dreams, maybe go to school for a specific thing or do things in a way they feel is right, and in order to do this they would have to fight. Or have already fought someone, that they miss and want to reconcile with, but aren’t sure that they can. In this story, you’re happy, it’s others with the problem. No matter what your story is, or who is involved, boundaries seems to have been the lesson here, keeping people behind a wall out of caution of what they will or could do to you, and I don’t get that’s wrong, that’s learned. It’s a trauma response.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻:

Temperance, 2 Swords & Queen of Cups

For those thinking of making amends, that’s here as a possibility. You could. Don’t have to. I’m getting more than anything that worrying about what will or won’t happen is not useful for you, like you have no control over this. For some that’s the whole problem. I don’t get any one answer because there isn’t one story, no right or wrong way to do or handle any of this. Your advice is to take care of yourself, your heart, your space, give all of the love to you that you would another person. And be very patient with yourself, how you process things, because I get a lot of fear and indecision that’s not helpful to you. It’s really just “take as long as you need”, some of you are dealing with or have dealt with some serious trauma, and you can’t be expected to heal, overcome, “deal with it” or any other mindless bs advice in one day, week, year, five years, doesn’t matter because everyone is different. You focus on you 💯 Love you 💯 Worry about you ❤️ If you want to reconcile with people or not, I don’t get any answer you coming up with being right or wrong, it’s about doing what you feel is best. Ascending 🎈 If this is a person that has passed on, it’s a similar message, with “I love you” attached - Queen of Cups.

Pile 7 - Sinkhole 🕳️

Living or Passed?: Both - 3 Stories

Character Oracle: The Sentinel

Who they are: 5 Cups, Page of Swords, Page of Pentacles, Temperance & The Devil

Why: Queen of Cups, Ace of Cups, 4 Cups & 4 Pentacles

Oracles: DEATH ☠️

- The Relationship is Over

- No Second Chances

- Grow & Transform

- What’s Dead is Dead

36 - Generosity

You can afford to be generous with the gift of your time and attention.

3 - Share

To help you make progress, it’s a good idea to share what you have and what you care about.

Story 1 is about a literal entity, and you’ll know if this is you, because you already expected it, you’re aware of the things going on around you, they make themselves known. Are chatty even, you could have heard actual talking, have seen messages or are receiving them regularly. I almost get an “attachment”, like they are attached TO you. Stuck to you, holding on, it’s possible they’ve even followed you from another place. Are they still with you, yes. I keep getting “they”, and I see two Pages here, there are two of them. It’s possible they’re children, or just young, and it’s likely they’re together. Siblings, friends, I’m not sure but they come together with you as a pair. I don’t get a negative vibe from them, I get a very sad one. Why they latch onto you, because you’re a loving person, almost like a mother or a parent they don’t have and want. You could have living children around and they want to be one of them, they don’t want to “go away”. I get that they don’t know what “away” means, or how to get there, or what comes after, they’d rather be with you. For others with an entity, same energy but not a child, just chatty, noisy, they make it known.

Story 2 are for those who have lost children, or even friends & family while young yourself, people you’ve lost in childhood, or over the years, even if they’re still alive right now. You grieve what’s been lost, and the sadness weighs on your heart like a weight that never leaves. I’m getting you are a very deep, loving, and nurturing sort of person, this could also be their energy for some of you. It stays with you because of how much you loved them, and wanted them to stay, so you hold on tightly to your memories and what you still have of them…but those memories are being tainted with the amount of grief they bring you at the same time. It’s like you feel guilty if you’re too happy. There is no winning in this situation, and I’m sending you so, so much love.

Story 3 is for romantic heartbreak, having been betrayed by some ex lover. It could be the lover themselves or someone they moved on with, things they’ve said and done to you. There’s a lack of closure with this, and it keeps you sad, you want to know why things happened the way they did, what they were planning, how this even happened, how you missed something. It’s caused a lack of trust in you that’s still not been overcome, it’s like it didn’t have to be this way. Essentially, your heart is wanting to ask a snake 🐍 why it bit you. You loved this person deeply, genuinely, and were very kind & loving to them. It’s possible they were this way to you and played you for a fool, you feel that way. Your pride is wounded, and they hurt you very deeply by treating you as someone that could just be replaced, when you gave them nothing but unconditional, pure love. You hang onto this and them tightly, forever holding a grudge, forever upset that this ever happened.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻:

For the actual spirits, I’m getting that you’re going to have to be a little manipulative in how you handle this. Talk up “the light” and why they should go towards it. Their family is there, friends are there, it’s a beautiful place with the most amazing scenery and everything they could ever want, this place is no good. Someone can actually hug them and talk to them over there. Essentially selling them what they want, is the best tactic to getting them off of you, at least the ones I’m picking up on.

For the other stories where your own heart is centered on grief, heavy sadness, remorse, regrets, heartbreak, the advice is to “see the light” yourself. Your family, your friends, what you have right now, and how far you’ve come. Be proud of yourself. You could be needing to see people more, or spend time with loved ones and friends more. You can honor sadness and still make time for happiness, gratitude, deep connections with other people, seeing how things maybe worked out for the best - in some cases, not all 💯 I’m getting group energy, if grief is your main focus and you’ve lost someone, this can be a community drive or a cancer 5k run or something to honor your lost ones in a way you actually can. Planting a tree, donating something nice to a park, adopting a road, there are many different avenues to remember people, and they’ll see that, they’ll know. There’s no need to feel guilty or conflicted for feeling happy today, your loved ones on the other side want you to be, and they are too. They miss you too, and they’ll see you soon…to them, it’s soon. In the meantime, they’re always with you, always, and they like to be honored in special ways, thought of and celebrated like they’re still here, because they are, just in another way. For those who have lost loved ones, I’m getting they too are chatty, they send you messages and signs often, and if you think you’re just crazy, you’re not. Talk to them, ask for signs & they’ll show you however they can. You could also try contacting a medium of some kind to actually talk with them, if that’s something you’d like to try, again I get “chatty”, like they’d love to show up for you.

For some of you, the advice is simply, if you miss them then tell them, call them, where that’s possible. For the ex story I’m getting you’ve already come a long way, or you will eventually get to a point where things are so good you wouldn’t change them, and if you’re not there yet just keep moving forward ❤️

Pile 8 - Siren 🧜‍♀️

Living or Passed?: Probably still alive

Character Oracle: The Puppeteer & The Aspirant

Who they are: Wheel of Fortune, 4 Pentacles, The Devil, 6 Swords, The Hanged Man

Why: 6 Pentacles, 2 Wands, Queen of Cups

Oracles: THE RUNNER 🏃‍♂️

- Fear of Intimacy

- Running Away

- Intensity & Letting Go

- Turmoil & Fleeting

54 - Visualize

When we develop our abilities to visualize, we can manifest maximum influence on our experience of reality.

43 - Change

For a change, do something you usually do a certain way in a different way.

80 - Go Deeper

Expressing the deeper meanings in life, while staying attuned to childlike wonder, is at the heart of all great art.

This is probably going to be the most popular pile, because I’ve pulled two character cards and the energy is very vague and general, meaning many people will resonate with it. This is the “loved and lost” pile, Twin Flame, karmic relationships, doesn’t have to be but they’re all included. It can be a parent that ran off, a friend, cousin, someone you looked up to. They can be anyone. And it is not only those who have been left, but those who run.

Most of these people are still alive, not all perhaps, but I’m getting there are no spirits haunting anyone here, even if that’s the case. It’s memories & love that haunt you. The character cards show the two sides of a Twin Flame, that’s the easiest way to describe this dynamic and split the stories - even if that’s not exactly your story, the feelings are the same.

Story 1 - The Left Behind

It’s a spiritual connection, karmic in nature, so the pull between you is intense. It’s like they know you, they read you, they can understand what you’re thinking and feeling before even you do. They may have manipulated you, tricked you, you could have felt bamboozled and lost when this person just left, because it felt so REAL. It was intense, and everything inside of you *knows* this person was meant to be your person, or in your life, there’s a thread connecting you…but they ran off. How can a person just DO that? You can’t just leave, and you haven’t. Some of you have been tied to this person for a long time, holding on a little longer, forever waiting for them to grow up, see sense, see the light, realize you’re worth it.

Why, because this person gave you a sense of meaning that runs deeper than most other people in your life. All spiritual ties feel this intense, you just know, and you don’t know how you know but you do. You could still see synchronicities that remind you of them - even when you don’t want to, you try to force them out of your head, and then you dream about them and it starts all over again. You’re never going to be able to actually let this person go, but you do need to change your side of things, so that this doesn’t remain so strong. It’s Devil energy currently, keeping you trapped, you feel like you can’t escape it. Some of you could feel used, and discarded, and similar to the last pile, want to ask a snake 🐍 why it bit you. The answer won’t make you feel better, and for many of you, it’s why they never returned. And if you love them anyway, they can’t respect you for that, because a snake knows it’s a snake, and they’d likely do it again 💯 But you may not know how to continue on without them, and that’s the whole lesson of this very deep soul connection. They’ve changed your whole life, now you have to, on your own.

Story 2 - The Runner

The Aspirant is your character card, it’s the eager to run, eager to rush into new experiences, try on different faces in different places with different people, and make mistakes, but being afraid to face them once that’s happened. You’ve probably had a life full of all sorts of experiences and connections, many stories to tell anyone who’d like to listen, and many of them which didn’t run that deep, most things probably don’t with you. Life is life and it’s for living. Deep is something that feels like entrapment, it’s good in the moment but who you are is not built for what’s required of taking something “deep” all the way. It’s not comfortable, not FUN, it’s not for you. There is too much out there to see, do, be, and explore. Too many potential lovers to meet, too many different jobs to try your hand at, you’re not the person to want to stay put…forever. That’s daunting. There could be many reasons why, you all probably have all sorts of personal philosophies and beliefs on why “staying put” is not for you, and they’re not wrong, that’s you. Wheel of Fortune, you’re meant to be this way, because you’re meant to learn whatever it is you’re learning through all of this, it’s brought as much joy as it has any sorrow.

There is one particular person though, that sticks with you no matter where you go, you can’t outrun them, the feelings, the guilt, the longing in some cases. Maybe even the obsession, either you or them. You keep running and they constantly follow you, in dreams, even if you haven’t spoken in years. Time works funny in a karmic/Twin relationship. Time works funny on the other side, like it doesn’t really exist, and neither does it in these intense connections. It does and it doesn’t. They’re put here to make you feel the way you feel, because face it, no one else could. There’s something about *them* that was real, genuine, the depth of this connection came to you naturally, and it moved quickly. If it was intimate, it felt like your soul was on fire. It scared you. If it was family, you felt like you *were* this person, the connection was like two same people, they understood and loved you like no one else could. You probably didn’t know that then.

Your people are probably still alive, not all, but you can’t go back. If they’ve passed on, that’s probably what triggered a spiritual awakening of sorts, because runners don’t usually watch tarot readings or believe in…much. The 3D, what’s in front of them, LIFE IS FOR LIVING, you pave your own way etc etc, not analyzing karmic lessons, that’s boring 🤪 with beliefs & nonsense right, what a headache and it’s depressing af, too much, that’s likely not your cup of tea. Or it was at one time, and you’re not alone. I’ve met way more people like this than the other way 💯

Why you’re haunted, because of love. Same as the first story, there was a purpose with some person, a direction you never felt you really had, they gave you meaning, definition, you felt like you knew who you were when you were with them. Or who you wanted to be. Some of this may have been hopeful projection, not who *you* really are, because you ended up leaving this behind. Or was it? You always question what if. Something made you leave, and The Wheel of Fortune shows things being destined, karmic, outside of your control (or theirs). Could’ve been another person, an opportunity, a job, moving away while young, a death in some cases. Life was life-ing, some of you chose to walk and others had no choice. It was your path to do whatever you did, for whatever reason you did it, especially in this connection. Many things are free will, and some things are soul-level lessons, orchestrated by things outside of us, and those feel the most intense, they’re the soul connections. Like this one, whoever they are. Is it your fault? Depends on your own story. Some yes, some no, and some “you couldn’t have known”. Shocking you was the point, they were the jolt.

Advice to deal with this ghost 👻:

9 Pentacles, 4 Swords, 5 Pentacles & Ace of Wands

I don’t get a reconcile energy from either of you, 9 Pentacles is happily independent, with or without a person, and that’s what you’re needing to achieve within yourself. Healing from whatever has happened. Healing any abandonment issues that came with it. Releasing it entirely, because for many of you, control is not a factor - you have none. It either is or it isn’t, and it’s not up to you with whoever this is. Whether or not it’s Twin Flame doesn’t seem to matter, because it’s the same advice.

Assume they’re not coming back. Ever. You have to worry about yourself, live for yourself, do what you want to do and express your soul’s purpose in whatever way that is for you, this person is not a factor in that. They may have started the story, but then made their exit, and it’s up to you to continue it, change it, mold it, surprise us, and come up with your own ending. Be free of them. Will you still think of them, dream of them, sure, especially Twins. Whoever they are IS a soul tie, you’re not crazy. Many are just lessons. It was meant to be this DEEP and intense, meant to start a fire in you that doesn’t die, but it needs to be redirected.

Ace of Wands shows you needing to feel passion for other things, head off in other directions, feel joy and inspiration from new experiences. Pretend they never happened, what would you do now? Who are you now? Who do you want to be, what would that person do? What makes you feel ALIVE, by yourself, because it feels good, it’s for you, your whole soul resonates with this thing? And then do that. Could be music could be gardening could be work, whatever makes you feel like *you*. You won’t forget them, but for awhile you should probably try to, on purpose, and have faith that whatever you do or whoever you end up with, it’s the right thing for you. This person filled you with purpose and love, now they’re unconsciously keeping you chained away from purpose, and love ❤️

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P.S. After finishing

That was intense. I was thinking Halloween fun and maybe some actual demons let’s do this, when I first had the idea, and what I got was…real shit. Things that hit our core. Things we’ve held onto a long time. I’m both surprised, and not. I’m sending you all love & hugs, we’ve all got demons, just not the kind that pop up in the mirror and say BOO 👻 Though a couple could. You never know.

Happy Halloween! And thank you for being a part of my intense/funny little tarot corner of the interwebs. I appreciate & love you all, and I’m cheering on everyone to win 🏆 at everything they want to win at along their soul’s journey 🥰 Thank you!

[yandere-fics]

♡ How They Would Act As Your Sugar Mommy ♡

♡ The Kingdom Version ♡

♡ You'd been working in the lower sector of the building and struggling financially when a friend told you that they had a friend from one of the higher sectors was looking for a partner to accompany her to company parties. Of course she would pay for anything you needed to wear at the party and would financially compensate you. You weren't usually the type to do this but a little extra cash every once in awhile would go a long way so you agreed to meet her. ♡

♡ Miriel told herself that she could do this without falling in love with whoever she goes with, but the moment she meets you, that just falls out the window. You've never done this type of thing before, maybe there is something here, afterall why chose her when you could have gone and found a proper sugar mommy. Oh well, it doesn't matter now, she will be a proper sugar mommy if that is what her darling needs. ♡

♡ She starts out by just buying you the outfits you need for her parties, but it quickly devolves into her buying every single thing you want weekly. It gives her an excuse to take you out on dates after the shopping sprees. ♡

♡ Whoopsie, she called in a favor from the boss and your apartment manager is evicting you, don't ask too many questions. Anyways it looks like you have to move in with her, don't worry, she'll still spoil you and lavish you, but now she gets her money's worth. Afterall she gives you all of her money, can't she at least savor you? ♡

♡ All in all, I think if Miriel was your sugar mommy, it would make her much bolder and way more aggressive in trying to claim you. ♡

"Spin for me, babe." Miriel was watching you intently, for the past five hours as she forced you to try on outfit after outfit.

"Uhm, Miri?" You really just wanted to pick an outfit for the party already and then go home. Every time you asked her about it though she would just wave you off. Your feet were beginning to hurt from all the heels she wanted you to try on. The store clerks knew better than to look over though. There were too many possessive freaks in the city, could never be too careful.

She gives a small hum in response and she's already onto picking out another dress for you to try next.

"Have you gotten any closer to picking out an outfit yet?" You shuffle nervously, really hoping she wouldn't respond how you knew she was going to respond.

"What do you mean babe? I'm buying all of these." Yup, that was what you pretty much expected.

♡ You'd been working next to the demon for a few months as her assistant when she noticed that you were struggling financially. She already knew you were her mate and while she was satisfied to court you while you two worked together, this presented an even greater opportunity. ♡

♡ So what does she do? Obviously make sure you see lots of people talking about sugar dating for weeks until you decide that it might be a good idea for you and then create a profile on one of the sites, and obviously she keeps her profile vague because such a sweet thing like you would probably feel uncomfortable straight up dating your supervisor, so she has to make you fall for her profile first so she can ease you into it. ♡

♡ When you two finally agree to a shopping date, you are shocked to find your boss but the look in her eyes tells you that you can't break up with her that quickly, so you proceed with the date. Afterwards you try to ignore her because you're pretty sure this is an hr violation but she keeps sending you little gifts, ones that are somewhat vaguely threatening. ♡

♡ Did you know that there's a rule that if a demon disapproves of their mate working, and has the finances to support their mate, they can get them ousted from the job? Come on, be good and let Kassien spoil you, she wouldn't want to ruin your job but you're forcing her hand, she needs you to financially rely on her. ♡

♡ Once your little lovers tiff is over, she will be a pretty standard sugar mommy, lavishing you in gifts, forcing you to wear the expensive clothes and jewelry she buys you, burning your apartment down so now you need to move in with her, the classics. ♡

♡ Being your sugar mommy makes Kassien a tad more manipulative than she usually is. ♡

You jumped when you spotted your supervisor standing outside your apartment on your way to get a coffee. You'd sent back her gifts when you realized that your new sugar mommy was actually in charge of you at work. You hoped if you sent her gifts and requested a transfer, you could just put all of this behind you. Only to find out that not only would work not give you that transfer, but you were also fired. Anonymous complaint, you suspected it was her.

"You returned my necklace, Sweetness. I had that custom made for you, I might have to charge you for it if you don't just take it. It's not refundable because of the customization." She sounded calm but you knew that she could fly off the handle in seconds, after all you'd been working with her for a bit. Even on the one date you two went on, she blew up on a guy in the restaurant for walking a little bit too close to you.

"Ma'am-" She scoffed and rolled her eyes at you. You knew how much you were probably pissing her off by not calling her by her name, "K-kassien, I know I upset you but you didn't have to get me f-fired." The look on her face was starting to freak you out. Like the calm before the storm.

"No, I did have to get you fired, what I don't have to do is allow you to move in with me after you get evicted, so don't be such an ungrateful brat." She smiles as she walks up to you with the necklace with her initials on it, holding it out for you to put on like an obedient pet.

♡ Sawyer is the only one you would meet in a classically sugar mommy way. She knows you're her mate, so what's a ??? years old all knowing being to do except create a profile on the sugar dating site you're on. You've done this before but that's okay, she can kill all the previous ones. ♡

♡ Right off the bat she is much more generous than any of the sugar mommies you've had before and you nearly faint when you discover she's The Boss, like the actually fucking boss that runs the entire city. Still she's pretty enough and generous enough for you to overlook how actually terrifying this situation is. ♡

♡ She is extremely generous with you, I mean how could she not be, she literally has half the city under her thumb directly or indirectly. What's a sapphire necklace that costs more than a house, to someone who has been saving wealth their entire life in order to spoil their mate, you don't need to know that though, she likes you feeling like she's been inconvenienced to spoil you this much. ♡

♡ She expects you to spend time at her apartment whenever you're not working, she explains she has cameras in her apartment and so it would help her to work if she could look on them and see her cute thing dressed in something nice and expensive waiting for her at home. Weird but okay, you'll accept it. ♡

♡ It's only after the two of you wake up cuddling in bed that you decide you should cut it off before any feelings develop but baby, you're already in too deep, before you know it she's suing you for all of the things she's bought you. It's okay the lawsuit will end if you move back in, be her good sugar baby, and never fucking try to leave again. ♡

♡ Her as a sugar mommy is already close to how she is naturally, with a few minor changes and an official title. ♡

"The Boss has asked us to escort you up to her office." Two security guards approached you the moment you stormed into the office. You'd been served with notice of an impending lawsuit from The Boss, she never put her real name on any documents, and well that alone would make most in the city shit their fucking pants.

You knew you should have never taken on someone as powerful as her, no matter how good of a sugar mommy she seemed. It didn't matter how many fancy trips she took you on, or how many gems you had in your very expensive hand crafted jewelry box, she had the power to completely ruin you.

"A fucking lawsuit Sawyer?" She shushes you softly when you busrt into her office and dismisses the guards.

"I'm not sure why this is such a suprise darling. I make the rules in the city, and I never included a rule that said you were allowed to leave me."

You don't even know how to respond to her audacity.

"Come darling, we'll go to a nice restaurant and renegotiate your allowance."

[britts-galaxy-brain]

Plenty has been done about Poppy. She's bleeding subscribers every time she posts a video. She's lost 20% of them in the span of a few months. Her discord is on lockdown and bleeding. Her name is asinine in the Lefty circles she used to be a respected figure in. She's in the process of being sued by multiple people.

On the other hand, Lily hasn't suffered anything like this. In fact, she has gained patrons. She has gained respect and sympathy in her community. Your efforts have put money into her pocket, and people in her corner.

Let's see, what's the difference here? Hmm...could it be that you've been hands off about Poppy for months and months?

Face it. You. Are. The. Problem. You stared into the the abyss too long, and it stared right back into you.

I'm assuming you're saddest-posts block evading. So let's break this down.

Poppy decided to tie her online activities in with her real life fucking career as a therapist. Poppy has profiles on Psychology Today and has to answer to an actual regulatory board. Poppy is watched by a lot more eyes than just people on the internet, and unlike Lily, Poppy can wave around a degree as a means to legitimize her authority over the subjects she talks about. Poppy is held to higher scrutiny than Lily.

Poppy is also way more impulsive than Lily. She doesn't know when to keep her mouth shut and not make her manipulation and lying obvious. Lily is just slightly better at playing the game than her because Lily's been playing it longer, and isn't watched by any official governing bodies. She also knows not to flaunt certain things in public like Poppy often does.

If you think Lily's reputation hasn't TANKED in the past several years, you haven't been paying attention. Mention Lily's name literally anywhere and she's immediately recognized as the one who wrote CP fanfiction, sexually assaulted her own sibling, publicly flaunts her incest obsession, and has a long line of former friends and partners that she's abused in one way or another. She's still relying on the audience turnover that naturally happens within her niche. Her main focus is kid's cartoons, which means new groups of younger people are going to be coming across her content without knowing who she is. That's why her audience has stayed roughly within the same age range since 2015. Meanwhile Poppy talks politics, which typically attracts an older audience.

I'm not saying this again, and I will not answer anything else you send after this. Get. The. Fuck. Out. Of. My. Inbox. I don't know what the fuck you've got up your ass about me, and at this point I don't care. Your paranoia has nothing to do with me.

[tildeathiwillwrite]

My time has come!

A writing request! Could be OCs or generic whump, whichever you're more comfortable with!

Whumpee and Caretaker got into a bad argument, and Whumpee leaves. Caretaker left them alone for a few days until they learned that Whumpee has been kidnapped and being held as bait for them. Despite the fight and the fact it was a trap, they rescued Whumpee from their kidnappers. Cue apologies and hurt/comfort ❤️

Thank you so much for the request! (Rules here)

It took me about two weeks but I managed to get 3600 words out of this prompt, and I chose to go with the Gunblade Duo (Draven and Octavian). I had a lot of fun with this, enjoy! :D

CW: swearing, blood, guns, concussion, passing out, tied up, knife wounds, implied mauling, abduction, referenced abduction, arguing, death, alcohol

A/N: This takes place during The Hunter, the Myth and the Cure and is not canon to the story. There is some reference to the events leading up to this one-shot, and implied reference to the events of The Watcher and the Thief. None of that is relevant for reading and enjoying the story :)

Tag List: @fourwingedsnake @pigeonwhumps

The trek back through Zariya was even more tense than the initial trip. Octavian must’ve sensed Draven’s displeasure. He was silent for much of the journey, only speaking to point out notable sounds and scents. Draven should’ve offered thanks. It was what a decent person would have done, considering any of the people they avoided due to Octavian’s warnings could have had ill intentions.

Draven, however, wasn’t in the mood to be a decent person.

“I apologize that the party was a bust,” Octavian finally said. They were drawing close to the safe house where the devar and Reese were staying until Draven felt it was safe for them. Octavian was, for some reason, even more paranoid than Draven about keeping the kid safe, so even if Draven decided the search for her had subsided, they might still be stuck with her for a while yet.

“You don’t sound very sorry,” Draven muttered as they rounded a corner, dodging around the pool of light illuminated by a nearby street lamp. The party had been his idea; to draw out some of the higher-profile targets the evening before a full moon. The smart ones would decline. The foolish ones would accept and try to depart early.

Unfortunately, only one of them was clever enough to avoid the party. Of the ones who attended, only one tried to leave early. And that was because she hated staying around the crowd of partygoers for too long.

“Personally, I don’t see it as a total loss.”

Draven exhaled sharply. “Really? How so?” When they’d returned to the party, he’d been pissed to discover that two of the attending targets had slipped out while they were distracted with the noblewoman. This little piece of information had turned one confirmed suspect into three.  Three more lycanthropes they had to track down. Draven was beginning to get sick of the whole thing. But money was money, and he was getting paid a lot of money.

Octavian indicated a pair of figures ahead of them on the street, and they ducked into an adjoining alley. “I spoke with a former Draigo contact. Most of the human confidants were never made public, we’re lucky I recognized him from a previous mission.”

Yeah. We. “And?”

“He all but confirmed what I already suspected. The stronghold in the south burned down before the plague claimed its first victims. It was unrelated.”

“And this is relevant because…?” They emerged from the alley. Draven quickly glanced around before turning south. Almost there.

Octavian hesitated. “I… it means that I can trust my memories from right before… you know….”

Draven rolled his eyes. “Sure.”

“Are you still annoyed that those targets got away from us?”

“Of course I’m annoyed!” Draven snapped, stopping in his tracks. “More than annoyed, I’m fucking furious! The plan was to eliminate four difficult targets from my list, not one!” He folded his arms, glaring at Octavian. “And your ‘relevant’ information was all but useless. It was a complete dead-end, and the cost is definitely coming out of my pay, and—”

Octavian hissed through his teeth sharply. “Of course it all comes down to money for you. Typical.”

Draven folded his arms, hands clenched into fists. “At least I’m not the one in denial about the greatest tragedy in the last decade!”

Octavian’s mouth snapped shut, and his expression changed from mild annoyance to barely concealed rage. If looks could kill, Draven would be six feet under and decomposing. “I can see myself to the safe house.” He finally spit out through gritted teeth, “Good night, Cozenson.”

He turned on his heel and stalked away, quickly melting into the shadows between the buildings. Draven gritted his teeth and walked in the opposite direction. He needed a drink.

- - - - -

Of course it all comes down to money for you.

Typical.

Draven knocked back the remnants of his drink. The alcohol did little to numb the shame that curled around his mind, threatening to pull him under. He slammed the shot glass on the counter, causing the other empty glasses to rattle. Since when did he care about what de Silv thought... of all people! 

A few feet away, the bartender of the random tavern Draven had stormed into eyed him with a questioning look. Draven waved him off. “I’m done for the night, I’ll settle my tab now.”

He fumbled with the strings on his coin purse with numb fingers, growing more annoyed by the second. Drinking away his frustrations had never worked in the past. Why would it this time? And now he was guaranteed a hangover in the morning. 

This was all de Silv’s fault.

The door to the tavern opened, and several pairs of feet stomped on the wooden floor. A bit late for a party. Draven finished paying for the drinks, frowning as the bartender grabbed the money with a fearful expression on his face and quickly ducked into the kitchen. As he turned to leave, he found a group of five well-armed men, all wearing identical black metal masks, standing behind him. “I was just leaving,” he said, moving to walk around them.

The group moved with him, keeping between him and the door. “Look,” Draven snapped, words slurred from the alcohol, “As much as I’d love to settle whatever score you got with me, I’m surprisingly not in the mood. So if you could just get out of my way and we could go on with our merry lives….”

No response. All five men stared at him in silence. Well, he assumed they were staring at him. He couldn’t tell, what with the masks completely obscuring their faces.

“‘Kay,” Draven muttered, reaching for his pistol, “I did warn you.”

His attackers sprang into action, surrounding him on all sides. But Draven only focused on the one directly in front of him.

Crack! Cra—!

He only got to aim one shot before he was tackled from the side. Even with unsteady hands, his aim was true, and he earned a cry of pain and a spray of blood for his efforts. The second shot went wide, the bullet embedding itself in the far wall. Draven stumbled sideways as his assailant tried to wrestle the gun away from him, the other three advancing.

Temporarily freeing his gun arm, Draven slammed the butt of the pistol against the side of his attacker’s head and pressed the business end against the bare skin of his neck. The other man stumbled back, one hand clutching his head, the other pressed against the burn caused by the hot metal.

Draven whirled around and almost fell over as the world continued to spin. He swore and drew his other pistol, blindly firing with his non-dominant hand as he stumbled backward towards the door. He didn’t notice the movement behind him until it was too late.

Thud.

Pain exploded in Draven’s head. The force of whatever had hit him sent him to the floor, his weapons falling from numb fingers and clattering out of reach. What…?

What… in the depths…?

Strong hands seized him and began to drag him away. Draven watched through half-open eyes as one of the remaining masked men picked up his pistols. Darkness bled into the edges of his vision.

They… they don’t want me dead…?

That… that’s not…

…not good…

…fuck…

…

- - - - -

Octavian dealt with his anger in the only way he knew how: sharpening his knives. He’d been doing that a lot lately, he realized, especially since he officially started working with Draven. It wasn’t just anger that prompted him to do something repetitive like knife sharpening, it was also worry, and stress. Both were also incredibly prominent in his life.

As a result, they had become incredibly sharp over the last couple of years. So sharp Octavian didn’t notice he had cut his hand until Reese pointed it out. “You’re, uh, bleeding.”

His jaw clenched as he carefully set the offending weapon aside and accepted the handkerchief she handed him. “I must’ve been more distracted than I thought,” he muttered, wiping away the pale red liquid from the cut. It wasn’t deep, thankfully, but it was long, cutting along the side of his left pointer finger.

Octavian stared at the cut, watching the blood drip down his hand in morbid fascination. At least I’m not the one in denial about the greatest tragedy in the last decade! Even if the words had come from a place of emotion, intending to hurt, he couldn’t deny the truth behind them. Call it optimism, call it hope, it was all the same.

Denial.

He pressed the cloth against the cut as Reese returned—when had she left?—with one of Draven’s spare bags. She handed Octavian the augri and bandages before sitting down next to him. She picked up the knife, still wet with his blood.

“…It’s been three days.”

Octavian hissed out through his teeth. The clear liquid was cold against his skin but searing hot like fire on the wound. Three days since the party, yes. Three days since we last parted, yes. “And?”

Reese carefully cleaned the blood off the edge of the weapon. The edges of the bandages on her forearms peeked out from underneath her sleeves. Her own wounds were healing, but they still needed to be covered. In a couple more days, she wouldn’t need the bandages. “I just… three days… is kind of a long time… to be left alone…?”

“You’re worried about Cozenson.”

She nodded.

Octavian sighed through his nose as he wrapped a thin strip of cloth around his finger. “He can handle himself.”

Her jaw tightened, and she hesitated before speaking. “You’re still angry with him.”

Octavian made a noise of indifference.

“So… so you don’t think any one of his enemies might have gotten him? You’re not worried at all?”

He opened his mouth to argue that no, he wasn’t worried, and if the hunter had gotten himself into some sort of mess he could very well get himself out of it, but the look on Reese’s face made him reconsider his words. He exhaled slowly and held out his hand. She handed over the knife, and he slid it into his sheath.

The truth? Octavian was concerned, now that Reese had brought it up, that Cozenson had left him alone for so long. Granted, Octavian hadn’t gone out to meet him at the guild over the past three days, but even so, Draven barely went a day without checking up on Reese. He pretended otherwise, but he was as interested in the girl’s safety as Octavian was.

“If it’ll make you feel better,” he began, rising to his feet, “I’ll go check up on him.”

Reese jumped up and thrust the bag at him. “Here. You might need it.”

Octavian nodded and slung it over his shoulder. “I’ll be back soon. You know the rules.”

She all but shoved him towards the door, bolting it behind him as soon as it was closed. Octavian wasted no time setting off northeast, towards the Hunter’s Guild. He would ask around there first. And if nobody knew where Cozenson was, the next step would be breaking into his apartment.

And if the apartment offered no clues? Octavian brushed the thought aside as he turned up his hood to hide the tell-tale silver of his hair. It was early morning, and few people were nearby, but he didn’t want to risk running into Reese’s abductors, who were no doubt on the lookout for him. He still received odd looks from passersby, but it was better than nothing.

He wasn’t a skilled tracker for nothing. But he’d rather not have to go that far. A trail three days cold was going to be a nightmare to follow.

Octavian had only just gotten into the northern district of Zariya when he was approached by a familiar face. Thaddeus Kaneson? Octavian had worked with him briefly back when he first joined the Hunter’s Guild. As far as he was aware, Thaddeus would have no reason to know about his and Draven’s current job. Their partnership, maybe. Why is he here?

“De Silv,” the hunter greeted softly, joining him.

“Kaneson,” Octavian replied, not slowing his pace, “I thought you were in Caenum.”

Thaddeus shrugged. “I was. Got called back.”

“That’s not why you’re here.”

“No, it’s not.” Thaddeus stopped and pulled out a sealed envelope from a hidden pocket on his duster. “This was dropped off late last night. Nobody saw who did it.” He held it out. “It’s for you. I got the short straw of trying to deliver it. Glad I found you quickly.”

Octavian hesitantly took it. His name was scrawled on the front with thick, dark letters. Thaddeus turned to leave, but Octavian touched his arm, stopping him. “Have you seen Cozenson? Within the last couple of days?”

The hunter paused, thinking. “Can’t say I have,” he said, cracking a grin. “Why, did you lose your partner?”

Octavian sighed. “I’m concerned that he might have gotten himself into a situation that I will need to rescue him from before he gets himself killed.”

Thaddeus’ grin grew wider. “Celestials, you did lose him! Well, if I find him before you do, you’ll owe me drinks at the Laughing Bear.”

“I highly doubt that will happen, Kaneson.”

Thaddeus turned away, chuckling. “We’ll see about that, de Silv.”

Octavian let him go, fiddling with the envelope until the hunter was out of sight. Shaking his head, he ducked into the shelter of a nearby alley and turned it over. He ran a finger over the wax seal. Unbroken, but he knew there were ways to open it without damaging the seal. No design was imprinted on the dark red wax, the color oddly similar to human blood. Either no signet or the person who’d sent the letter did not want to be known.

Octavian’s suspicions grew as he broke the seal and pulled out the letter. One page, same messy lettering.

We have your partner. If you do not turn over Reese Takari, we will kill him. You have one week.

The paper crinkled under the force of Octavian’s grip, but he didn’t care. It was dated the night of the last full moon, three days before, with an address scrawled below the note. No signature, but he didn’t need it to guess who had sent it.

And he’d rather be damned to the depths than give Reese’s abductors what they wanted.

- - - - -

“I think I finally figured out what your mask reminds me of.”

The guard who had been assigned to watch Draven did not obviously react, but Draven noted the way his jaw visibly tightened under the stupid metal face mask.

Draven smirked despite the pounding in his head and the aching in his joints from being tied to the chair for so long. “Your mask specifically looks like a little obedient watchdog. One who only knows how to follow the orders of someone who’s done nothing but bitch at you.”

The guard, celestials bless his patience, remained motionless, holding his handgun, as he stood about as far as he could get from his charge without leaving the small, windowless room where Draven was kept. He had originally been in the main area of the random warehouse in the merchant district, but with the front door right there, he couldn’t help but almost escape twice. Now, he was about as far away from the door as he could get, though there were plenty of windows just outside the room.

“Personally,” Draven continued, “I don’t see why your boss—whoever the depths that might be—makes you wear those stupid masks. It’s not like I couldn’t identify you by the way you stand or anything.”

The guard’s knuckles turned white as he resisted the temptation to strike Draven across the face. Or at least that’s why Draven assumed he was gripping his weapon with such strength. Any more force and the gun would probably snap in half.

“So… when did your boss say the time limit was again? Three days left, now? I have a job to get back to.”

No response.

Dammit. Worth a shot.

Draven sighed and ran his fingers along the ropes tied around his wrists for the hundredth time since he’d been bound there after the second escape. Both of the knives hidden in his sleeves had gotten confiscated, all he had left was the one in his boot. Which was currently out of reach.

Not that it would do him much good at this point. With the one guard between him and the only exit, and at least two more standing outside between the door and the nearest windows, he wasn’t getting very far. They might actually shoot him this time if only to keep him from attempting escape with a more permanent solution.

Draven opened his mouth to ask another question, but before the words left his lips, the sound of shattering glass pierced the air. The guard jumped, startled, and darted out the door. Draven cocked his head, listening as chaos reigned. Screaming, shouting, gunshots, and running footsteps as his captors tried to contain whatever had gotten inside.

The person in charge, who wore an identical black metal mask with a single gold stripe across where the forehead would be, had claimed they could handle Draven’s partner if he chose to fight his way through. “De Silv would have no choice but to accept,” he’d gloated, “I have thirty men armed to the teeth. What does a single hunter have against that?”

Besides, Octavian had no reason to risk the kid for Draven. 

Why would he, after what Draven had said to him? 

If Draven were in his position, he would have just left him and gotten himself and Reese out of Zariya days ago while her abductors waited in vain.

Just as the thought crossed Draven’s mind, a familiar face appeared in the doorway. “Cozenson,” Octavian said in greeting. He was covered in human blood, the dark red liquid dripping from his knives and smeared on his face and clothing.

“De Silv,” Draven returned slowly.

“Surprised to see me?”

He sighed. “A little bit, yeah.”

Octavian casually tossed one of his knives into the air and caught it deftly. “I couldn’t just leave you to die at the hands of these masked imbeciles. I’m not you.”

The last sentence was unspoken, but the look on Octavian’s face implied it well enough. Draven opened his mouth to argue, to deny, but he hesitated. Octavian would know it was a lie. “Look,” he said, after a moment of thought, “I’m sorry. For what I said to you. I wasn’t being fair.”

The look of pure shock on Octavian’s face was priceless. “I….”

“I know, I’m apologizing. Big shocker.” Draven jerked his head to the side, indicating the ropes binding him to the chair. “Could you let me out? My hands are getting numb.”

Octavian blinked and slowly nodded. He crossed the small room in two strides and quickly sliced through the ropes. Draven jumped to his feet and staggered, vision tunneling. “Shit,” he muttered as Octavian steadied him. “Don’t get a concussion while drunk.”

“Noted.” Octavian considered the blood on his knives, lips pressed into a thin line, before wiping the blood off and sheathing them. “I also apologize. For leaving you alone. However much I detested your company at that point, we are partners.”

Draven sighed. “Yeah, couldn’t agree more.” He slowly stepped out of the room, noting the copious amount of blood and broken glass littering the warehouse floor. The bodies of the dead lay scattered about haphazardly. Most had died by Octavian’s blades. Two appeared to have been mauled. “So… thirty men?”

“Some of them fled,” Octavian said softly. “They assumed they were dealing with an elven hunter. They were half-right.”

Draven’s eyes landed on his guns, which rested on a table across the vast room. They appeared undamaged, thank the celestials. He could always get new guns, of course, but those were his guns. They’d seen him through many a hunt and duel and scuffle. He began to pick his way over, avoiding the corpses and the worst of the blood. “You seem conflicted.”

Octavian trailed after him “I think anyone would, in my position.”

“Has everything gotta be a damned riddle with you?” Draven reached the table and picked up one of his guns. Empty. The boss must’ve unloaded it. Pretty clever for someone working with limited knowledge. He gave the room another glance. From what he could see, none of the masks on the dead guards possessed the golden stripe. “Octavian, did you happen to kill a guy with a stupid-looking gold streak across his mask? ‘Cause that guy was a particular brand of asshole. And also the one in charge.”

He glanced back to find his partner staring into space, eyes moving back and forth. “No,” Octavian finally said, refocusing his attention on Draven. “He was one of the first to flee.”

“Damned coward.”

“‘Damned coward’, indeed.”

Draven returned his guns to their rightful places on his belt and gave the warehouse one last cursory look. “Guess I’m rooming with you and the kid for a little while.”

Octavian nodded. “Her abductors are surprisingly resourceful. She must’ve been a valuable prisoner.”

“Still hasn’t told you anything?”

“No.”

Draven sighed. “I don’t know what they did with the knives I kept up my sleeve, but I’m tired, my head hurts, and I want nothing more than to go home.”

“Shall we depart then?”

“Celestials, stop being so formal. Let’s get out of here.”

Meme Summary

[faroreskiss]

Latest Work: The Pioneer

I like world building and thinking about those details nobody cares about, reader inserts & AUs. Anything that relates to languages/lingustics/translation.

And yes, as the blog title indicates, also sometimes smut/+18 content, tagged with #smut or #nsfw (So please mind the warnings at the start, there is also SFW content here!)

Unfortunately, I publish first and proof-read later.

*shrugs*

You can call me Farie.

Misc sideblog: @farie-meta

If something is tagged #raw fic it means it has been just typed on a whim and that I clicked on the "Post" button without using my brain as much.

ALL HAIL LINKE

05/08/2023

Master list below.

Regarding Linkcest/Incest, click here.

Ao3 for more polished content. (Still not the best versions unless stated otherwise)

28/07/2023

Hi there to whoever that will ever see this,

After many years of writing (and not publishing much) fanfics and reading a plethora of them, finally decided to post them here.

I did want to focus on one shots, but some of the stuff I wrote ended up having a potential of expansion, even though the whole primary reason was to write a juicy fic!

Then I realized I ended up with at least 10k word background to what was supposed to be a "juicy one shot".

So now, I have this page to see what other people think, maybe I publish both SFW and NSFW versions, maybe somebody is interested in the story potential...

(Also, not a lot of ENM or threesome Zelda x Reader x Link fics in the market lol)

I am open to requests & feedback too!

Master List

Anons: ✨anon

SFW Content:

The Power of Understanding Ongoing Translator!Scholar!Reader random snippets of adventures with the Chain within the Linked Universe AU, pairings possible. Same "You" from the NSFW Fics. Poly/Bisexual Pairings. Read on Ao3

The Power of Understanding shorts in my profile can be found with the tag #the power of understanding shorts or #tpos Do you think I'm a cheater? (Shorts) (Ao3) The Void (Shorts) (Ao3) Triforce of Mischief (Shorts) (Ao3)

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Resurrection Gone Wrong Ongoing Read on Ao3 A couple of short fics about what would happen if Link's resurrection took more of a twisted turn.

Requested Content:

For Tonight (Zelda x Fem!Reader) (Angst, no comfort) The Void (Power of Understanding Short Story) (Hurt/no comfort) Can be read stand alone Ao3 Acceptance of the Waves (Linke x Fem!Reader) (Angst) The Pioneer (Skyward Sword Link, Angst, hurt no comfort)

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Headcanon (?) Content

The Information You Never Knew You Needed

NSFW Content: (MINORS DNI)

Unnatural Coincidences (Zelda x Fem!Reader x Link) (+18) (Experimental writing in third person. Not super proud tbh) Parts 1 2 3 4 Epilogue

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Make me a pie (Warriors x Fem!Higher Ranking Officer!Reader) (+18) Ao3

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A Little Quick(ie) (+18) -Alternate Version 1 (Flora x Fem!Reader) Coming soon -Alternate Version 2 (Twilight x Fem!Reader)

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Harp Lesson (Pedal Harpist!Sky x Fem!Reader) (+18)

Ao3

[fumiku]

Kabrinmickuro Tinder AU

Imagine Mickbell with a tinder profile.

The AU has a Mickrin focus but there are kabrinmick and kurokabu shenanigans happening on the side so this is the schedule this is the situation buckle up, have the tangled mess that is their quartet

Ok so. Tinder AU. His tinder profile is terrible ofc and she only swipes right because they’re ex coworkers and she’d have felt bad + obligation + some pity and concern + morbid curiosity + vindication about kabru and freedom probably. So they chat and meet up but the flirting gets stamped down pretty quickly and instead they become buddies where they meet up to vent and talk.

The thing is, this is set in a modern au right, and it’s set the same year when Kabru and Rin go their own ways. College has ended and they’re going to univeristy, and Kabru picked a great medicine university… That’s on the other side of the country. He didn’t talk to her about it or ask for her thoughts at all, and Rin had assumed they’d be going to the good one in the same city they moved to attend the local college for. And she could follow him and get into the same one, but she doesn’t. Her personal arc of growing beyond Kabru and not uprooting her life and centering it around him has started and she’s like, oh, ok, fine whatever then. Kabru pretty much expected her to follow him when he told her about it even if the notion kinda annoyed him because he easily feels stifled, but he feels conflicted when instead she just goes congrats & good luck and lets him go.

MEANWHILE!! Kuro is also going away to university. Mickbell and Kuro are roommies ofc, and Mick’s a highschool dropout or just finished highschool or some such, doing jobs here and there. (Rin and him probably worked together in retail or such at one point. Rin maybe remembers Kuro as that really quiet coworker, but also it’s fun if she doesn’t know him yet too…) Kuro had followed Mickbell’s lead thus far (idk how i can make this line up with him possibly attending Kabru’s school though hmmm. Maybe kuro just never stopped education even when Mick did, just working a lot too when not in class. Maybe it’s a special university social program and that’s why Kuro gets a tutor?) but he’s been feeling a want for more. So of course Mickbell is PISSED and refuses when Kuro brings up he wants to move into an university dorm for the next semester, but unlike in canon here he’s able to just, leave. So he puts his foot down and is like, no Mick I need to experience the world for myself, I am seeking higher education!!!! Wether you approve or not!! Though he’s still gentle after with him once it sinks in for Mickbell that Kuro’s not changing his mind.

Guy who couldn’t follow his most important person to university because he doesn’t have the brains the grades or the means and girl who could follow hers but chose to let go because it was destroying her and she’s tired……..

Gbdvcjdh making a horrendous tinder profile was Mick’s way of going through the kuro breakup aftermath… Sobbing in his bed mascara running down his red cheeks as he writes "no pain no gain and baby I’ve lost consciousness from injuries several times in my life and I’m still broke rn so it’ll catch on soon and I’ll be rich just you wait everyone will be sorry for having left actually" Hitting people up in dms like a man possessed being way too agressively flirty and coming on thick bc he’s awfully coping. Rin swiping on the awful profile of her ex-coworker out of pity and morbid curiosity He posts pics of his "dates" with Rin on his socials to try and fail to make Kuro jealous (Kuro worries if anything) Mick handling the separation way worse than Rin she’s just kinda sad and melancholic and feels aimless sometimes but he’s mourninggg breaking downnn singing conceal don’t feel at 2 am

Kabru and Kuro take flights back to this city sometimes to visit~ Bc it’s like co-brainstormed with Toby this is kabrinmick and many many shoujo comedy love triangle shenanigans happens there with that but in my heart……… Kabru and Kuro having an university romance. Bromance at the very least… Maybe Kabru is Kuro’s tutor What would Kuro study… Economics… Linguistics… Psychology…. Some specific work program like idk eletric engineering……. Yeah this is the non-mickrin I was working towards. Gbdgdgd sorry, yay university romance kabukuro have all this context for the mickrin

To quote myself: In the end they become a 4 person household and everyone is uncomfortable /hj Wait in this au Kuro and Mick could actually possibly end up living apart woah what a concept

Co-brainstormed with @cranechel back in like july, more details from when we were developing it for more kabrin and nuggets of comedy gdbdg

I want the romcom sitcom bs for this AU but also in the angst route it’s 2 heartbroken people who lost their respective codependent relationship and smoking weed together in a dump after having cried a lot (their ‘dates’ lmao. Yes mick your hot date game is great. I bet he posts pics of them on his social hoping kuro sees and seethes and runs back to him) teasing that edge of having a codependent relationship themselves (cue Mick following Rin to the airport lmao)

I always have my hands in mickrin aus and timelines and this or that and lately kabrinmick also and it’s fun to me to think about kabukuro on the side there. In my vague mind relationships chart mickrin is happening kicking and screaming and then off to the side there are just Kabru and Kuro, chilling. Lmao

[supersonicanimates]

I am a mainly OSC artist from Michigan, USA!

I'd like to keep my real name and personal information private..

I've used a lot of pseudonyms for accounts on other sites over the years, but mainly it's PikaboyMOD (named after a very old oc) and Supersonicanimates.

I made an account here just to post my art. I feel like other sites are too specific, so I mainly stick to Deviantart because I can post stuff about whatever fandom.

I'M A MINOR. Please don't ask anything NSFW or 18+.

I have diagnosed ADHD and possible autism. I've heard it's a higher chance to have autism if you also have ADHD.

I am aroace and demiboy, I've identified as this since, like, middle / high school. I support LGBTQ+ people, but sometimes I don't know the terminology / names for things. Please don't take it as me being rude if I ask you what it means, I'm just trying to learn.

I vibe with They / Them pronouns as much as He / Him pronouns so i don't mind which ones you use.

Interests:

Art, duh...

Object Show stuff (Mainly TPOT / BFDI, HFJONE, and OBJECTIFIED, I haven't watched / read much outside of that, maybe LOVE OF THE S*N)

Music (All over the place, I like stuff from STARSET to Tally Hall, but really anything space related I probably like. Waltz In E Major, OP. 15 "Moon Waltz" is my favorite song of all time and my favorite album is Hawaii: Part ||)

Old FPS games (Mainly DooM and it's sequels, and Half-Life, but I like newer stuff too)

Fun facts about me!!

I have a pretty big Nerf gun collection from when I was younger and really liked them for some reason.

I dressed up as a roblox noob 2 halloweens in a row because my costume didn't come in time.

LINKS:

[04dissection]

hi, for ask game~ 1, 3, 4, 11, 16 for Muu and 2, 5, 7, 8 for Fuuta, please 💖

HI ANON!!!!! Thank you so much for the question! This gets hilariously long so under the read more it goes.

Content Warnings: Discussions of suicide

Muu Kusunoki

1. favorite song lyrics?

I think it'd probably be these lines from After Pain.

"If you're going to make me the villain / It's okay to ignore me / If it's endurance, I'm used to it / It's just having another taste of it."

With the added context of It's Not My Fault, and with After Pain being very solidly about events after It's Not My Fault, I suppose you can say this is a part of Muu's difficulties with ascribing fault to herself- actually, since you asked me about both of them, I find it so intriguing T2 seems to exemplify a sort of contrast of fault and guilt that 0304 as a duo has. Muu doesn't feel guilty nor at fault, Rei deserved it because of what she did to her, while Futa does feel guilty and admits fault(or at least seems to), and, in a way, you can make their motives similar: they did what they believed was right. Sorry, tangent over, continuing on.

I just personally love this line because of how it's sung and how it somewhat subverts us expecting to her to hit a higher note(it's been forever since I've actually done any music theory, so I don't know the terms).

To include a line from It's Not My Fault, I really like this one! (Using the translation from Fandom as much as I... dislike using it since I couldn't find who made the translation originally and as we know It's Not My Fault's official translation is... rough).

"Don’t ever hate me, and don’t look for what lies “after and from” the pain. / Wait, wait, it’s not my fault! / You get it, right? It’s you, after all. / What a relief. Can’t be helped. Since I’m always meant to be pitied-"

I adored her referencing After Pain here, and telling us not to look into it- literally telling the audience 'don't look into me <3 you said you don't hate me! so you don't have to look into me!' I specifically always like 'I'm always meant to be pitied.' This line really says a lot about Muu, and especially of how she acted in T1- though that was also partially and probably mostly from fear.

I need to mention, though, Muu's not a manipulator. Even if she tries to, her personality will get in the way of it. The thing with her is that she sees relationships as purely transactional and that the right thing to do is just to let people get their way. It's not that she doesn't care about Haruka, it's that to her, his threat was what he wanted to do, so why should she get in the way?

She wants us to pity her because we, the audience, made pity mean forgiveness- so if we fit that into her framework of relationships, wouldn't that mean that the transaction is her making us feel bad for her in exchange for being voten forgiven? I hope that's something that will come up in T3.

3. favorite non-mv official illustration?

I can just say the cake art, but I actually really like the third anniversary art- which is my profile picture.

But I adore it. It's a very unsettling piece, what this the spotlight lighting and all, and her expression is so wonderfully creepy. I love this art set a lot, it's great.

4. favorite minigram episode/moment?

Episode 22! Specifically the third panel on this page: (x)

It's such a funny little minigram and I adore this single frame of Muu holding Jackalope so much. I like to imagine that she had wanted to hold him since he popped up in the interrogation room during her first voice drama. And I can agree, rabbits are really nice to hold on your lap as long as you aren't stressing them out too much.

Fun fact, actually- the minigrams associating Muu with plaid(31 and 38) is actually the reason why I have the my blog background as the squares. They made me associate her with those square patterns.

11. what are your favorite points about their story and the narrative surrounding them?

Definitely how both her and Rei caused the downfall of the other, in a way. Both repaid aggression with aggression, with one case leading to months of intense bullying and the other leading to a murder. I'm not saying that these are equal, but that doesn't make either good things to do. Muu and Rei both turned that hourglass on the other.

I don't know, it gets to me how much they seem to have torn into each other and the length of time they did. Rei wasn't some completely innocent girl, and neither was Muu- They're both messy with ugly emotions and ugly truths and ugly actions. In the end, both were hurt and more than likely both dead because of the abuse they suffered at the hands of both each other and their peers.

16. how do you think they actually sing in regular life?

I haven't seen what she says on the karaoke cards so if I'm wrong I'm wrong- but I think Muu is an alright singer at best. Her range is.... abysmal to put it nicely and her voice can be rather squeaky at times. If she is able to stay in her range though, she has a rather pleasant singing voice. I imagine she used to sing more and used to have a better voice, but once she began to get bullied she slowly just stopped.

Fuuta Kajiyama

2. favorite mv moment/frame?

Something really gets me about this moment in Backdraft. Something about watching yourself repeat your mistakes, and remembering how gleeful you were doing it- you really just become sick from the joy you derived from awful things. At least that's my interpretation of it.

...As a weird aside, I ended up spending like, half an hour trying to see if there was a word in psychology for what I meant. I'm still figuring out a new search engine over google(playing with a bunch of different ones) so my results are definitely different feeling. But it did remind me of flashbulb memories, so I guess it wasn't for nothing.

I also should mention I love the fact that Bring It On is 4:04 minutes long. As you probably know, that's an error code!

"The server cannot find the requested resource. In the browser, this means the URL is not recognized. In an API, this can also mean that the endpoint is valid but the resource itself does not exist." (x)

5. favorite voice drama line/moment?

Braze You! at the start is just 4 minutes of Es tearing into Fuuta and it's beautiful. I think it's just nice to see Es having a good time, even if that's from harassing Fuuta.

But that's not my favorite moment- Braze You! is definitely very fun to watch, but Baptism of Fire is absolutely one of the best VDs we've gotten so far- with Fuuta calling Es out on the hypocrisy of our previous votes- why WAS Kotoko innocent and him not? While personally, I'd argue that it was dependent on how both were framed in their videos, Fuuta doesn't know about those. And anyways, he's right. We ARE doing this all for fun. Even if he got entertainment out of cancelling people, we're still not that much better than him- in his perspective at least. At the end of this day, Milgram is a work of fiction. There's a degree of separation from the events we can give ourselves, even if the characters attack the fourth wall with all their might.

7. favorite relationships with another character if they weren't in milgram, the way you'd imagine or would like them to be?

Oh this is a difficult one for me... I'll go with Fuuta and and Yuno. She likes messing with people a lot and I think it'd be funny. I adore when characters mess with other characters in a playful way. Yeah this is short, but Fuuta doesn't exactly give me a lot of lee-way with how he talks about everyone.

8. what is your theory for their crime? if there is general consensus on it in the fandom, do you have any other, not-so-widely-accepted thoughts on it?

I generally do believe in the consensus that Fuuta was part of some sort of online 'purist' group- named 'the dark triad,' very ironic name you guys- and seemed to start a campaign on Killcheroy that led to her death- with him doxxing her at some point due to how close she lived to him. I'm not entirely sure on the importance of Rumerie as of now, but I can say for certain that he is important- I mean, the graffiti in Backdraft is literally both Fuuta and Rumerie's online names intertwined- but he's important in some aspect that I just haven't figured out yet.

...While I don't have much evidence for it, I think my major divergence from common consensus is that Killcheroy did not commit suicide. If there's anything that's been obvious symbolism in this series, it's that it uses the practice of taking off your shoes before committing suicide to convey the action- please note that with Mahiru's boyfriend, Hinako, and Muu(Haruka does not participate in this, but he does have his atrocities against shoes). But notably, in Undercover:

Killcheroy Es has both their shoes on.

Undercover is a music video that definitely needs more examination(There originally was a Mikoto derailment here, but that's a different post), and this is one of those things- because Undercover doesn't lie- it might dramatize, such as showing Mahiru strangling Es while they stand in for her boyfriend, but that's in a way, right- Mahiru is here for the fact she directly led to her boyfriend's suicide. While you could argue and say that Fuuta has no idea what happened- and as such doesn't know if she committed suicide or not, as he says in Baptism of Fire:

I believe this is jumping to conclusions. We have to remember: Undercover is not Fuuta's song. It isn't even Es' song, they're just the conduit. This is the song of Milgram itself, I believe. And Milgram definitely is not restrained by real world law and theory. So far, all the bodies of Es as the victims roughly match to what happened- even Mikoto's, who is just plain unable to access the memory. So why would Fuuta's be different?

That argument aside, while I currently don't have a lot of basis for it as I'm still figuring out a lot of the details in Fuuta's case, I believe Killcheroy died from health complications exacerbated from stress- presumably a heart condition, as a lot of the blood in the Undercover art looks like it came from approximately the chest area. My evidence right now is that I made it the fuck up, sorry, but it's the main one I can think of since I really don't think she committed suicide.

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hello it's drawing anon!! thank you for your long and detailed response, it was very helpful. if you don't mind i would love if you shared your technical tips as well!

also kudos to you for studying engineering (i could never), and i hope you continue to draw and share lots of lovely brainwormy art :D

in the meantime i'll try to work on my art swag ( ≧ᗜ≦)

hi drawing anon! sorry for the late response, midterms are upon me and they are here for revenge. D:

here are some things that help me with drawing faces + and for general composition! i also learnt a lot from watching people work, so i'll put some at the end.

this thing is beefy so here's a general overview:

breaking stuff into shapes, how to control eye movement, general -> specific, speed-run color tips, then some techniques i consider for nailing faces.

my favorite thing is to break down faces into geometric bits. for laying down the initial sketch or framework for whatever you are working on, it's helpful to work generally and then to get specific. this way when you start working on details there is harmony! i have had a lot of moments when i focus on something specifically for too long and then everything else comes out of proportion. it also is helpful for general sanity too because it can be very frustrating to have to adjust something after working on it for so long.

if working generally is good for harmony within how things fit into your piece, it also can be good for how your eye moves around the piece. there are so many ways to emphasize areas of your art, and sometimes peoples eyes can get stuck on things so to say. for pieces that you want to have deep meaning, this is a powerful tool for narrative. here's some things that can deal with eye movement!

directional lines, like contour shading or hatching

repetition of elements around the piece, like stickers or colors

avoiding lines going into the corners of your piece (think of it like leading off a cliff. i think of arrows going into the corner as like a "flip me here!" thing)

areas with more details or areas with less texture, etc., have different visual weight and the imbalance can create interest

there is a lot of theory within this, but i think these points are a good takeaway.

color theory is a whole beast, and most of my context with color is from working traditionally. when mixing colors to make a new one, i generally try to keep a limited amount of paints to avoid having muddy colors. outside of the digital landscape, my understanding is that your eye still registers each individual pigment mixed in even though you can't separate them out visibly. this can make a color look muddy and hard to register. some pigments also lean one way or the other (warm vs cold) and can create muddy colors. i think the most common example of this i have is mixing pthalo blue (yellow leaning) and a red and getting a gross purple.

two ways to introduce shadows: mixing the area of interest with a complimentary color (opposite side of color wheel!), and using complimentary colors to create contrast between areas in light and areas in shadow. this creates a bit of a dynamic

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pleasepleaseplease click for higher resolution but this was a good way for me to kind of describe how i do it. i consider these methods jointly when drawing a face from scratch, and i see people with more cartoony styles or OC sketches that consider the shape face thing.

i generally draw the main profile/size of the head and then start from the eyes since i find it easier to build everything else off of it. the nose is between the eye sockets so it comes next naturally, etc.

i also think a tips video is not complete without the classic step by step

these aren't super refined, but they give a general idea on how i break it down.

referencing photos is great, but building a framework that you can use as reference within your own drawing to understand ratios and proportions is critical! i find it easier to draw people with glasses sometimes because the glasses themselves are good reference for eye size, nose placement, etc.

some art youtubers/creators i watched alot when learning drawing outside of school (please keep in mind most of this stuff is old):

draw with jazza, how to draw the marvel way, peter draws (pen reviews & doodle seshes), camileon, and more. if you have any artists in mind they may have drawing sessions/speedpaints up which also can help (especially if they are a comic artist or youtuber or some sorts). artists that do interviews also often talk about other people they take inspiration from, and this can build a nice net of things to check out!

i think out of these i used the marvel one the most while learning on my own, before finding a system that was more intuitive for me.

i also grew into who i am as an artist within a community that inspired me (school and also online). having stuff that inspires you or some kind of inspiration board (i be sortin on pinterest) is good too. i will say that those portfolio videos on what got people into art school are scary to watch & aren't necessarily a blueprint for what they are looking for exactly (with animation schools that feed specific companies being an exception, i guess).

this is freakn long and probably overwhelming but i hope it's some kind of help!

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Solar Leads Decoded: 2 Steps to Convert Visitors to Leads

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Solar Leads Decoded: 2 Steps to Convert Visitors to Leads

“Sales solve everything.”

The essence of this quote is huge in terms of any product and its success. As long as you’re making sales, everything else gets solved on its own. Generating sales comes with either a lot of trial and error or with the involvement of subject matter expertise. Sometimes both.

Everyone in the solar industry is focused on generating solar leads. Let’s go into detail about solar leads.

Decoding Solar Leads

Let’s start with the basics:

What are solar leads?

A solar lead is a prospective client who has expressed interest in solar energy-related goods or services.

This means that to generate solar leads, a company will need to look for people who are interested in solar energy-related goods or services. The good thing is that these people are looking for solar services too. The ratio of demand and supply in the solar industry is pretty standard and thus, to generate solar leads, the first step is to find common ground.

The common ground is that people are looking for solar solutions and people provide solar solutions. The answer is, you guessed it right — the internet.

By the above-stated definition, a solar lead is a prospective client who has expressed interest in solar energy-related goods or services. But how do gauge this interest?

How do you know if someone is interested in solar leads?

There are a lot of ways to figure out if someone is interested in solar solutions. Here are a few things to keep in mind:

Expressions of interest:

Asking inquiries: Directly asking about solar leads, their cost, quality, or availability.

Request for information: Seeking details about lead generation methods.

Comparison: Inquiring about prices from different providers to gauge value.

Budget discussion: Discuss their budget for solar leads.

Indirect indicators of interest:

Industry research: Showing knowledge about the solar industry, lead generation trends, or challenges.

Problem identification: Expressing concerns about current lead generation efforts or lead quality.

Solution seeking: Actively looking for ways to improve CTCs.

Analysis: Comparing their business to competitors in terms of lead generation strategies.

Engagement with solar content: Showing interest in solar-related articles, webinars, or events.

Behavioural indicators:

Website visits: Frequent visits to your website or landing pages related to solar leads.

Content consumption: Downloading whitepapers, ebooks, or other content related to lead generation.

Social media engagement: Interacting with your social media posts about solar leads.

Request for demos or trials: Users who express interest in trying out your lead generation services.

Additional considerations:

Timing: Consider the current market conditions and economic factors that may influence interest in solar leads.

Buyer persona: Understanding the ideal customer profile can help identify potential leads more accurately.

Lead qualification: Implement a scoring system to assess lead quality based on various factors.

By carefully analyzing these indicators, you can identify potential buyers who are genuinely interested in solar leads and tailor your sales approach accordingly.

Degree of Solar leads interaction

The degree of interaction is what separates a lead from just a piece of data. Data is unprocessed information, while a lead is an individual who has taken a specific action showing their interest in solar products or services.

Because not all leads are created equal, the quality of a lead is crucial. For solar companies, qualified leads — those who have been verified to meet specific requirements — are priceless. They have a higher chance of becoming clients, which increases the effectiveness and economy of the lead generation process.

And that’s the reason why the quality of leads matters.

Solar lead quality and its significance:

3 reasons for the importance of solar lead quality:

1. The higher chance of conversion: High-quality leads have a better chance of converting into customers. 2. Saving of time and resources: By interacting with qualified leads, time and resources that would have been used on unfit prospects are saved. 3. Client satisfaction: By making interactions tailored and relevant, you enhance client satisfaction.

What are high-quality solar leads?

In simple terms, high-quality solar leads are leads that have the highest chances of converting into customers. Basically, people who are willing to buy your services.

But, there are a few characteristics with which you can figure out if the leads generated are of high quality or not.

3 characteristics of quality solar leads are:

1. A keen interest in services 2. They are easy to converse with or contact. 3. There is a well-defined motivation for participation.

A lead has a better chance of converting through the sales process if they have a sincere interest in solar energy solutions.

Contactability suggests that the lead can be contacted via phone, email, or other means to continue the conversation.

How to Filter High-Quality leads with the rest of them

High-quality solar leads should be nurtured more than the rest because the ROI is higher there. The 2 most commonly used methods to filter leads are:

Lead scoring and Segmentation

By giving each lead a score based on their behaviour and degree of involvement, lead scoring helps identify and rank the most potential leads. Based on factors like location, spending capacity, or particular requirements, segmentation splits leads into groups and offers more focused and efficient communication.

Increasing contact rates is just one more crucial component of lead management. Because the probability of converting a lead diminishes with time, prompt follow-up is crucial. Enhancing contact rates through the use of several communication channels and tailored content can help guarantee that leads are engaged and effectively progress through the sales funnel.

How to Generate Solar Leads

There are many options to generate solar leads; the ones that generate maximum results are:

Buying Solar leads Generating Solar leads organically Using Tools to Maximize Leads Outsourcing Solar lead Generation

Buying Solar Leads

The buying solar leads approach involves a leads provider who gives solar leads to solar businesses, solar businesses then do sales pitches to these leads in order to convert them into customers.

Buying solar leads may give solar companies a quick start and a rapid flow of leads, but it comes with its limitations.

The Positives of Buying Solar Leads:

It gives solar companies a quick start

It frees up time and effort to generate leads, enabling firms to concentrate on other facets of their business operations.

It saves time to figure out marketing operations

Limitations of Buying Solar Leads:

The acquisition costs of these leads could go higher.

The success rate of buying solar leads is highly dependent on the quality of the leads.

Bought leads could be a poor customer fit.

Not sourcing it from authentic providers can lead to inaccurate lead data.

There is always a high level of competition for quality solar leads.

The saturation of leads is an issue.

High dependency on solar lead providers.

You don’t know these people and hence challenges in conversion rates arise.

Buying solar leads has limited scalability potential.

Do you know that while purchasing leads can provide a quick influx of prospects, building your lead generation system can be more cost-efficient in the long run?

Here’s everything you need to know about buying solar leads:

Aspects of Buying Solar Leads: Aged Solar Leads

Solar leads that can be bought are primarily categorised in 2 ways: 1. Aged Solar Leads 2. Fresh Solar Leads

There are pros and cons associated with both. Here are a few of them:

Aged solar leads:

Cost-Effective: Generally cheaper compared to fresh leads

Availability: Easily available for purchase and can be accessed quickly.

Lower Engagement: May have lower response rates

Outdated Information: Leads might contain outdated or less relevant data.

Lower Conversion Rates: Often results in lower conversion rates.

Fresh solar leads:

Quality: This typically shows interest and engagement, leading to higher-quality leads.

Better Engagement: Generally, they have higher response rates.

Relevant Information: Provides up-to-date information.

Higher Costs: Usually more expensive to acquire compared to aged leads.

Requires Nurturing: May need more time and effort to convert.

Here’s a detailed piece on how to leverage Aged Solar Leads

Generate Solar Lead

The most proven method to generate organic solar leads is via content marketing. Content Marketing is a large and well-known segment in organic marketing to create a reliable source for your product. Explore all the various kinds of platforms that the internet offers in today’s age to figure out where your target audience is, When that’s sorted out, leverage content marketing to establish yourself as an audio source of content in the industry.

Content marketing includes Blogs, Social Media posts, audio and video content, illustrations, etc. Leverage these platforms and establish your company as a thought leader in the solar residential industry.

It builds trust and brings credibility to the platform, which eventually reaches the right audience and that audience will seamlessly convert into leads. These leads will be earned not bought and will last you in the long run.

Quick case study on how content marketing worked out for solar lead generation: As part of their blog series on “going solar for homeowners in Florida,” SunPower, a company known for its high-efficiency panels, provided information such as “cost savings with solar” and “solar panel maintenance guide.” As a result of this organic content, qualified leads increased by 20% through contact form submissions and newsletter subscriptions.

One of the major aspects of content marketing is — Search Engine Optimization (SEO)

Did you know, that businesses focusing on SEO see 14.6% conversion rates on organic traffic, compared to just 1.7% for traditional outbound methods like cold-calling?

The results of applying SEO for lead generation are not the quickest but once optimised correctly, it can serve as the most reliable organic lead generation method for your solar company.

SEO is largely about optimising your website to best cater to search engine results of certain queries. By optimising various aspects of a website, businesses can gauge the audience searching for the targeted keywords and convert that traffic into leads.

It’s a relatively long process of optimising your website as per the required rules of SEO. The goal here is to make the website experience smooth and hassle-free in terms of technical experience and make the content of the website relevant to the keywords that rank higher in the search results.

Users searching for similar services will find your product organically and this pipeline will keep bringing you your targeted customers, who are highly likely to convert without spending a cent on it.

A quick case study on how SEO worked out for solar lead generation:

Tesla Solar, a known company for its sleek solar roof tiles, leveraged SEO and had a 25% increase in organic website traffic. They focused their content marketing to be SEO optimised and included keywords like “residential solar panel benefits Texas,” etc.

This approach not only generated traffic but also helped with an increase of 5% in the conversion rate.

The best part about generating solar leads is that you get solar leads for free and have full control over them. Here’s a detailed piece on the same:

Using Tools to Maximize Leads

White-labeled quotation tools: advantages

1. Client satisfaction:

With the ease of getting everything on the internet, we all do our research first before getting on a call with anyone. Similarly, in the solar industry, instead of communicating with a salesperson right away, modern consumers would rather do their homework and weigh their options.

A white-labelled online quote tool responds to this type of activity by offering quick, personalised information. To help them make wise judgments, it enables prospective clients to investigate various configurations and comprehend associated expenses.

So, instead of figuring it out and getting confused in the process, the customer gets everything that they need to know to decide with just one click, which saves time and enriches the user experience, which in turn has a huge impact on their decision-making.

2. Filter qualified leads:

By providing users with all the information that they need, these tools filter out the qualified leads from the rest. These filtered leads save you time and resources, which can then be leveraged to send personalised follow-ups to these leads using the information gathered by the tool, which will increase the likelihood that they will convert.

3. Increased engagement: While using these online quotation systems, users spend more time on the website. By keeping the user engaged, these tools help reduce bounce rates and increase the probability of lead conversion.

4. Information gathering and analysis: The information obtained from the quotation tool can offer insightful information about the preferences and actions of customers. This data can be used to improve sales tactics, product offerings, and marketing plans.

5. Brand uniformity: The product, being a white-labelled solution, upholds the company’s branding, guaranteeing a smooth user experience. The tool can be tailored to the style and feel of the business’s website, strengthening trust and brand identification.

SunLead has proven to be an authentic white-label quotation tool for residential solar companies.

With the help of SunLead, businesses can easily incorporate a personalised quote system into their website. The following are some ways that SunLead’s tool can improve your lead generation:

Simple integration: SunLead offers an exclusive link that you may incorporate into your website. This link takes users to the quotation tool, which is fully branded and customized to meet the needs of your business.

Customization options: Solar enterprises can set up the tool according to the solar panels they sell, the prices of the EPC, and other factors. Thanks to this customisation, the generated quotes are guaranteed to be accurate and pertinent.

Instant quotes: Visitors get instant quotes depending on the data they submit. Their curiosity is piqued and they go closer to purchasing thanks to this prompt feedback.

Lead capture: This tool gathers vital lead data, like contact information and particular requirements, so that it can be utilized for focused follow-up messages.

User-friendly interface: All visitors will have a great experience with the quotation tool because of its intuitive and user-friendly design.

Learn more about the quotation tool here — Generate organic leads for your solar business

Until text time, keep generating those leads!

Some more reads that can help you with solar lead generation:

4 Proven Methods of Solar Lead Generation

Best Strategies on How to Get Solar Leads

How to Generate Solar Leads for Free: 3 Actionable Steps

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This is habitual offender she does grow stuff she's very evil and mean and a lot of these people are and they find what our son says to be very weird but they see that it's got monsters and real ones and ones that go inside you and it's still sale such a dumb things and he says I can kill you right now and really he has the power to Christina to stop saying that stuff I really do and that woman told people said you know he's at his limit and at one point this place might catch on fire and he can do it isn't hard he just wants us to stop for raining him harassing him bothering him since you guys want to kidnap me so what so what I'll never be able to she got that too and said they're they're really dumb it's a problem so she told a bunch of people they started talking they said we have to get some of these idiots out of here you can help get him out and so they can move cuz this sucks real bad that's why I said to do

*yes Chrissy we have a solution and I am speaking to them and I know what it is and it is to take a 250cc Chinese Enduro usually priced from like the magician at 1200 to a hawk which is sometimes the higher end ones are 1700 and you take it and you lower it and you put smaller tires and rims on these the tires and rims that comes with it I take her 24-in tires and it's pretty big and you go down to like 20 inch tire and that's what I have in my small eBay around there and the rims of course be smaller and you have to change out your sprockets so you get some speed and I suggest putting on a towel that is like the Ducati if you can't at all jacket it for a cooling that'll increase horsepower and put on the dot exhaust when people complain because the smaller cc bike doesn't go like the ninja and things like that that Chrissy likes a lot but I'm told that when you modify it like this you put on decent street tires little low profile and wider you're going to end up going about 200 mph and that was Zeus and Hera

I do appreciate it and it's not me in the bike it's someone like me but I'm kind of parts and I kind of getting a little testy and it's going to suck and everybody's messing up and we always pay for it and we're not doing it and that's how it is I guess being like him and we don't like people for it you're not peacemakers like Dolores was we need her back and we need Camilla back as herself this is terrible the max are doing it we need proof and our guys are thinking of running this mission they should and people like Trump should they got ruined by them and I like this bike the one they're talking about this one is gigantic and my nephew here says you can't ride that thing his legs are justified his legs are as long as hers and it's true he's got some short legs leaving with longer legs he says the bike is heavy and it not only that is center of gravity is way too high for the street and the girl said what do I do is try to lower it and lower it until you're comfortable that thing is massive I can't ride that thing even if I sit on it that doesn't go down that much so she's like this wow this thing is sprung and she lowers it I heard a really I've done it before and it works it really rides much better but if he lowered it it's still suck he's too heavy up top and I'll tell you this bike would be nice even for him he says the 250 I've tried it before I get 185 miles an hour and I soup it up a little empathy exhaust and a jacket and I put the towel and I get 220 one stuff's pretty good my stuff is pretty good but on average to get 200 to 210 you have to soup it up a little but the top end is kind of crappy stock but really the only go 70 miles an hour and you change the sprockets and it goes fast and you lower the center of gravity in the west wind resistance and you put a little windshield like here I know like that little bike one had I'll tell you why there's a business and he says it all the time it's a business I need to do it and my people need it I need it weaning and then come on looking really cool like the bronze shot like he likes and he likes it shock that's colored because they came out with high performance shocks on dirt bikes and he wanted to get them and he couldn't afford them now that's a sad story but that's what it is inside and races and thought they're really cool probably why these things are so high up in the air supply made with a huge wheel the giant ones from ages ago so we're going to head with this and I'm going to start buying these Chinese bikes and modifying them and it really would drop it down like four inches you still have three inches of travel it's ridiculous and it's not that much softer it just works well with our weight and you change a few things too The handlebar is kind of suck it's like a BMX bike and you put a towel in there we have tons of those things and they work great I mean you would be surprised and the seats kind of messed up for the use and you change that a bit the guys like that seat but okay we like Quincy are wider Jesus Christ few people suck your assholes I can't stand you anymore you have to get out of here especially you Trump and son you suck so bad none of us want you elected a lot of your own people are turning on you you can't figure it out at all and you have these evil plans you keep telling him for him that kid's going to end up killing you fully if you don't die some other way and he says not to worry he's going to have him killed and it's over for him and he's getting him to do it I do see it too you're going to die as his brother cuz he caused so much hatred in him a few and I'm going to help cuz I can't stand you anymore no one can stand you too nobody should know that way to people loser asking him to kill you that's what you're doing all your people are dying cuz you're freaking huge hose bag I'm putting the recommendation in that we move you out of here

Crissy

That our friend here says you're nonsense Trump that's all you are in there you're a mean person and yeah I'll kill you if I have to he says to defend myself we will too then we have and you're an idiot he saw what you're doing with the key and he couldn't believe it you're sitting but really you like to live in a mental hospital throughout your whole life you treat life like that you act like a metal patient and people should put you away I'm writing my recommendation to do that too

Bg and bja and others are coming in their Midwest to take all your stuff that they can get at everything cuz you just sit there letting him walk and we're going to your stashes and caches taking the robots cuz you're doing nothing I just want to hit things from space and you can't get there and it won't work it never does and you're an imbecile we need you out

We're going to kick him out but really Jason is going to and he needs to leave too he's a dead piece of s*** and he's gross last time we talked he was eating his own organs as he was laying there and he had like no stomach and he was eating his organs and they're falling out of his body after he was chewing it up I've had enough of this stuff these people are zombies and they're sick we need them out they're gross and the motorcycle idea is great but you can't do it with these pieces of s*** here and really we need to get them hell out of here we need them out tonight it's all going to make a motion everybody who wants them out we're going to have a meeting and we're going to talk about it I can't stand this anymore these people had to leave years ago they're so rude to him sitting there in a helicopter waiting for him to come by I mean what a bunch of s*** they dish out everyday next to him tell him off and he's he's taking care of his people and so he can get to him and he tells him right to his face right in his ear and I can see him doing it at the laundromat and the guy doesn't even flinch he's so damn dead and dumb he says don't come back here cuz you'll be gone if you do and he said that to him he came back and he died like 20 times I tell you what he's got power and these people don't listen and they're listening now is not true he's devouring them with whatever these caves are and he says it's for the project and it's approved by the max except they can't get to the Giants so they want to take whatever work we're doing but I'm amazed this is some b******* attitude that they have too so you can't tell if it's true or not cuz this guy next door is such a wacko I'll tell you what he's the one who encouraged him to go for all the stuff and it's a little bit beyond what we should have it but he knows about it which is stupid and very bad these guys can do all sorts of stuff and you don't know what damn thing about them Trump you're you're an ignorant person regarding them we saw Dave do amazing things and this guy is stronger saves his father when he was a baby when he was like 2 years old he lifted up a car I don't see you lifting up a car ever again and I've never seen you lift up a car John reavillard you're a fat f****** loser and we repeated until it gets on there so people can see what you're blocking you saved a lot of people he's getting tired because you keep on flogging him like some sort of f****** loser we're going to execute you and we're going to crucify you we heard you influenced it we have facts now and you ran around others and Woody harrelson is turning States evidence for exposing us and having the Bible written

Mac daddy

Olympus

[velvethana]

PHONING... 𓂃 ࣪˖ carnival.

Essentially becoming a shut-in due to your extreme fear of crowds, your friends are determined to take you out and show you how much fun things can be.

selected: [ taehyun's song.] replay? ✧

જ⁀➴♡ wc 1k ✧ fluff , humor , comfort

As you inch closer to the front of the line, the rhythmic clinking of the cars ascending and descending fills your ears.

Standing before the entrance, the worker looked at you expectantly before glancing at the boys behind you. You turned to face them and they all gave you an encouraging smile, each one as sweet as the one before.

“So, who’s it gonna be?”

Looking at each of them, it felt almost impossible to pick just one. The feeling that everyone was waiting on you made you even more anxious, the idea of annoying the people around you getting your nerves up even more.

“Hey, Y/N it’s fine. Take your time.” Taehyun commented.

The small smile he gave you was enough to have you letting out a sigh of relief. “Do you want to come with me?” You asked, voice hopeful.

His eyes widened for a moment before nodding.

“Man… no fair.” Beomgyu whined.

“Can it, motor mouth. You’d probably throw up your cotton candy on Y/N anyways.” Yeonjun said, motioning for the two of you to go ahead with a smile.

Taehyun steps next to you, stepping into the open-air gondola as the attendant began to secure the safety bar.

“Are you excited?” He asked.

“Excited? Yes! Nervous..? Also yes. Somehow? Yes.”

The attendant gave you a friendly nod and tight smile before stepping off.

With a lurch, the Ferris wheel began its slow ascent, the ground falling away beneath you as the world took on a new perspective.

Taehyun seemed so calm and collected, a stark contrast to your sudden jittery nerves.

It wasn’t necessarily the fear of heights weighing on you now but the intense awkwardness of being so close, alone, with Taehyun.

A million thoughts of embarrassing yourself in front of him ran through your mind and none of them seemed appealing in the slightest.

You couldn't help but fidget with the hem of your shirt. Taehyun seemed to notice your continued unease and gently placed a hand on yours.

"Hey, don't worry. I'm right here with you," he said, his voice soft and soothing as always.

You felt a rush of warmth at his touch and his words, nerves beginning to subside again. Nodding, you gave him a grateful smile in return.

“I’m actually kind of surprised you picked me,” he started.

“I’m really glad, though.”

“Yeah… I mean, I’m glad too! I kind of realized we haven’t been able to get a second alone, so…”

“You wanted a second alone with me?” His voice was playful as he gently nudged your shoulder and you puffed out your cheeks with a huff.

“You know I hate when you guys tease me. That’s not what I meant…” your voice trailed off though, unwilling to defend yourself.

Especially when you had wanted a moment alone with him.

As the ferris wheel continued to ascend, you couldn't help but steal glances at Taehyun, his profile illuminated by the twinkling lights below.

His eyes were widened the slightest bit, the lights of down below reflecting in them like stars. The smile on his face was wide, almost child-like but as always infectious.

He seemed so at ease, gaze fixed on the horizon as you rose higher and higher.

"You know," he said, breaking the comfortable silence between the two of you, "I used to be pretty bad with crowds too when I was younger. The smallest bit, so I won’t pretend to completely understand your anxieties but I can sympathize.”

You chuckled nervously, feeling suddenly embarrassed by your own fear. "I guess I have a lot to learn from you," you admitted.

He shook his head, turning toward you. “You’re already fine. Truthfully, I was a bit worried but you did really well today. I’d even say you had fun for once in your life.”

You scoffed in fake offense, “I have fun in my life.”

“I’m sure you and those headphones have lots of fun almost walking into ongoing traffic. What I meant was, I’m glad we got to experience this with you.”

As the ferris wheel reached its peak, he turned to face you as much as he could, eyes sparkling with warmth.

“And there’s something I've been wanting to tell you," he said steadily as if he could scare you away somehow. Suddenly his voice was tinged with emotion.

It almost felt like there was an anvil hanging over your head ready to drop at any moment.

As cartoonishly ridiculous as that comparison was, in the moment all you hoped for was that he would say what you had been thinking.

Heart skipping a beat, your stomach began to flutter as you cursed yourself for snacking earlier.

“You can tell me anything, Taehyun.” The use of his name had him looking away, almost looking embarrassed for a moment.

He took a deep breath, returning his gaze to you. It was rare to ever see him nervous like this. "I really like you, Y/N. As more than just a friend. Well, more than like.”

All Taehyun could focus on was the feeling of your hand in his and how right it felt to him.

The weight that had finally been lifted off of his shoulders as he uttered the words, “I love you.”

And to him, it was true, every word. For Taehyun, loving you had come as natural as breathing.

Maybe you hadn’t noticed it because of how overwhelming everything had been in the world around you, but he was always there watching out for you.

Because to love you was about multitudes, the exact thing that you despised. Even if you disliked it, everyone was drawn to you without you knowing.

A love that is inordinate.

"You do?" You asked, voice squeaking a bit at the end.

The nervous look on his face quickly washed away as he laughed at that reaction and you audibly groaned, swatting at him.

“Don’t laugh! You can’t just drop that on me up here!!”

“Is there a better place?”

“Then the top of a ferris wheel?! Uh, yeah! What if I like— jumped off?”

“So you’d kill yourself to reject me? That’s a bit dramatic.”

“What?! No—! I’m not rejecting you— and I’m not killing myself either. Or, I wouldn’t. I am very happy with my life, actually!”

Taehyun nodded, that playful glint in his eyes.

“I believe it.”

“You’re kind of a jerk for this…”

“You invited me.” He shrugged.

“You’ve been plotting on my downfall this whole night, huh?”

"Yep. But I have to admit, seeing you so nervous up here is kind of adorable."

A wave of relief washed over you with the moment of silence, heart beating out of your chest.

“…You love me.” You said to yourself, repeating it in your head almost like a mantra to convince yourself.

Taehyun laughed, “undoubtedly so.”

“How much?” Your voice was hopeful, somehow finding it in yourself to squeeze his hand.

When the others had asked him, he couldn't find the words to answer back then.

But in front of your hopeful gaze, the words had finally found their way to him.

“If you asked me to, I would drain all the seas around the world and count every grain of sand that clings to the ocean floor.”

“Wow.”

The carnival below was a colorful tapestry, lights twinkling like stars against the night sky.

The sounds of laughter and music drift up to meet the two of you, mingling with the gentle creaking of the wheel as it turns.

“That’s all you’ve got?”

“Shut up, I’m overwhelmed! That’s like really romantic and this is way better than I ever dreamed of so I’m just… speechless. But thank you.”

He hummed in response, “don’t thank me.”

Looking at him in awe at the sheer magnitude of his admission, you let out a sigh of contentment.

“…I love you too, Taehyun.”

As the ferris wheel began its descent, you leaned in closer to him, placing your head on his shoulder.

“So you dreamed about me confessing to you?” he asked, a hint of amusement in his voice.

“Please don’t ruin my coming of age romance scene right now.”

Secretly you had hoped that the ride would never end and you could stay there, breathing him in as you watched the lights together.

“Y/N?”

“Yeah?”

“I’ve counted every beat of my heart that has echoed since I met you.”

જ⁀➴♡ phone in ᝰ.ᐟ

[littlelambdrgnfly]

Ok since you reblogged that one post I hope you know I reread The Sum of Them for the 3rd time, maybe like a month ago, up until the last chapter and i never finished it cause i didnt want to experience it ending again (if that makes sense), i wish it never ended. I wish they could play baby games forever but its so important it does end because the ending is soo beautiful but so devastating, and it's beautiful because its so devastating, and my heart cant take experiencing that again :'-(

i already sent a message on here saying that your fic was the first fic to make me cry, possibly the first piece of LITERATURE in general to make me cry (i could be wrong but i cant remember any piece before that), and it made me cry 2 times when reading it for the first time. It is truly my favorite piece of McLennon fanfiction, but the only reason i dont fully consider it mine is that if someone were to ask me, it'd be too taboo/freaky to say but its truly one of the most heartfelt and complex ways ive ever seen anyone portray John and Paul while also feeling completely accurate and realistic. My god. And i love so many of your other fics too but The Sum of Them really means so much to me and I cant even say that enough. i wish you could just live as me and be inside my mind to fully grasp how much of an affect it had on me, I dont think i will ever be able to explain it sadly </3. But just know out of every McLennon fic ive ever read (and ive read many), THAT one is my very favorite out of like 100+. The way you characterize them is just so completely different from any other fic ive read and its so intimate and raw and holy shit i dont even have the words. Sorry i know im rambling at this point but I just think about it a lot! Also your fics are the only fics i enjoy anymore, (recent) beatles fics have gone down the drain in my opinion and yours are the only ones i can be satisfied with because, as far as im concerned, anything you write is automatically in-character for them after reading The Sum of Them lol x) thank you so SO much for writing cause it's truly exposed so many of my own desires and hidden , sensitive parts of myself that couldn't be excavated any other way without your work 💖

Dude... this is legitimately one of the best comments I've ever gotten. I wish I could memorize all of this and replay it for myself whenever I'm feeling blue. Thank you so so much, it means the world to me! I think all writers insert their own thoughts and emotions into their work, and I definitely do that in all of mine, but especially The Sum of Them. This fic is basically my wishlist of things I would do with a partner, as well as coming to better terms with my own kinks, so I'm glad it's been able to resonate with people. I'm also glad that I managed to keep John and Paul in character, even if John is crying every other paragraph lmao! I totally get what you're saying about wishing I could experience what you did, I wish I could too. Sometimes I reread my fics with the mindset of someone reading it for the first time, but it's just not the same. I'd give my left tit for more writers on my level or higher who wrote bottom!John or even ABDL fics, I swear. I don't read a lot of fics these days, but I'm usually disappointed whenever I check the Beatles tab. I'm also really really bad at remembering titles and author names, so I never remember what fics that I like! Thank God for bookmarks. I definitely understand not wanting to tell people that this is your favorite fic though, lol! I've been writing Beatles fics for a long time, but I created a new account on AO3 when I started writing these fics. I'm comfortable talking about this stuff, but only with the help of an alternate profile. I'm really really happy to help people explore this side of themselves though-- too often fics like mine are just really gross over-the-top and completely unrealistic portrayals in my opinion, and I guess I wanted to bring something sweeter and more realistic to the table. <3

[sawsbuck-trainer]

Hi Rotomblr!! (again)

I'm so sorry for disappearing these last few months. A lot of things happened in real life, but mostly importantly:

I got a new job! Finally!!! So glad to be out of that place ugh. I mean they didn't treat me badly or anything I just didn't like working there. And that means I don't have to worry about the Pokemart higher-ups seeing me on Rotomblr anymore! I'm so glad!!

Well, where do I work now? I work at a local bookstore! I got hired about a month ago, it's really nice there! It's still retail, but generally the people who visit the bookstore are nicer than people who visit the Pokemart. They hold book signings, too! I haven't seen any for myself yet, but the next person scheduled to come is a pretty high-profile person. I can't say anymore, but if I can, I can try to get a picture.

Usually I feel like disappearing for a few months brings forth some other new evolution, but nope, my Pokemon are the same as always. Which is good, because I don't really want Chive and Cilantro to evolve.

However, Clover is in her Winter Form right now!! It's quite pretty; it's a shame it's the least popular form. Really, her chest fur is so soft...almost as soft as snow. Sawsbuck don't make for very good pillows though, so if you have one, don't try to sleep on it!

...And the new year is tomorrow. Here's to a great 2024!!!

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary52

11/2-3/2023

thursday - friday

busy today again but in a better way.

i hung out with friends all night basically, we went to olive garden which was fun. surprisingly fine, it's been over 10 years since i've been there. i don't know if i would ever decide to go again, but i basically liked it i think. i didn't get to record today because i woke up late, i need to wake up early tomorrow, not to record, maybe i will, but i have an interview to get ready for, for a local magazine. for some reason they want to talk to me about my music, i guess i know why, a friend is doing this column and she likes how i dress, the column is fashion/music, like how your style informs your music or the other way or profiling you off how you look and the music you make. i'm kind of looking forward to it, even if i found out today that the photographer has dropped out last minute to leave my friend not knowing what to do beyond use her phone camera, which is maybe good enough or maybe not, it depends on the model of iphone you have basically, or if you own one of the nicer phones that has an insanely good camera. i'm also bringing my digicam from 2001 with me if she needs it. hopefully that can help out, but we will see, it can only do 1600x1200 at most, and that's not bad but i think basically every phone takes photos at a higher res, it's just that the lens on my cam is a lot nicer, the focal length is better, all that good stuff. these phone cameras are kind of woeful in a lot of ways basically, the newer ones are really good but like, the older ones seem designed to give people dysmorphia, which everyone has basically. anyways we will see about how the photography portion goes tomorrow. i am so sensitive about how i look in photos so i don't even know if i am going to look at what comes out. i'll have to if i have someone take photos of me with my camera, to send to her. i hope i don't go crazy tomorrow because of that.

anyways my day was eventful but nothing like, crazy. i dunno, that shouldn't stop me from talking about it, but it was a lot of my friend and i talking about music, mostly him talking about his current struggles, in his band, solo, his dissatisfaction with what he's been writing musically lately, the disconnect he feels with bandmates, all that stuff, and it's all his stuff so all i can say is i hope he ends up doing better soon, it's pretty sad to hear his frustrations, and how he seems to feel like he's less in control, and less able to do what he wants, and less enthused about certain things.

unrelated to the above:

i wonder if there's any good way to make anyone reflect on how they behave better. i can't figure out how to help someone know how they make me feel, or what they do that upsets or bothers me, because criticism of them makes them so upset, immediately and without fail they just kind of fall apart, becoming miserable and not really hearing what i'm saying. i guess i can come off too mean, or something, i never want to hurt anyone's feelings but i don't know how to say things like 'i don't like it when you talk over me how you do' and they'd know immediately how they do it often, and feeling like there's no way to take back all those bad feelings, they'd just become guilt ridden and need me to assure them that they're actually fine. which defeats the purpose of me saying anything, right? i don't know. it's easier to talk about it here. it makes me sad i feel like have to, i'd like to say anything, but it's more or less that they can say things to me, and i want them to, but i don't feel okay bringing anything up to them. maybe just putting it here will make me care less. or even how they bring up frustrations, like they said i was making music too loud in my friend's room w/ him, while they were working on homework, but they said it like i was doing it on purpose, and like i was making a loud noise on purpose, but it wasn't because i wanted them to be mad or not focused, i turned it down, of course, i didn't mind that part. it's part of a larger issue of not thinking about how they come across because they've never had anyone really take issue i guess, maybe i'm too sensitive. i like them a lot no matter what i guess, so maybe this just doesn't matter at all, and i am just too sensitive, and the ways i feel are stupid or something. i think because i'm too sensitive and basically stupid i end up being cold, because i can't do anything about how i feel and them wanting me to not be like that, they feel burnt. i think i am the problem here, or i want to say i am because i think i have more control over that, but i can't stop being frustrated sometimes. it's so annoying, i don't want to be frustrated.

anyway i should just go to bed soon, so

byebye!!!!!!!!!!