littlelambdrgnfly

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are you okay😭?

Hey! I’m so sorry I’m just now answering this, I’ve been logged into my other account for a couple of weeks and I’ve barely been on at all. Honestly though, things haven’t been great. I’m either very depressed or dealing with a secret mold infestation, because I’m having additional symptoms that make me think that it could be the latter. But in any case, it’s been really hard for me to feel like posting. Even when I do feel like posting, I lose the energy before I can even do it. It kind of feels hard to do anything if I’m being honest, and I don’t know how to fix it. ��

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I just found out about Oral Allergy Syndrome and Jesus fucking Christ, I can’t eat anything anymore! You mean to tell me that my grass and tree allergies can affect my fruits and vegetables?? I keep getting an itchy mouth but I wasn’t sure why until now. I also found out that certain foods are high in histamine, like bacon and cheese and eggs, which explains why I feel kind of gross after I’ve eaten them. I don’t think I can prove all of this started as a direct result of my old dishwasher poisoning me with mold, but goddamn I wish I could sue my old landlord for how allergies have ruined my life. At least I have a proper excuse for my endocrinologist when he asks about my diet… He wants to put me on a medication like Ozympic but it’s so expensive and I’m scared of negative side effects. Fucking PCOS and allergies, how’s a girl supposed to live under these conditions?!

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https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNd5mApc3/

Feel like you'd appreciate this one 😁

Lmao, I LOVE that quote! I swear to God my fics and my fantasies didn't just spring up out of nowhere!

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i've been fantasising about johnny being abducted into an adult baby adoption centre. He's given a few days training, and john, to his horror, actually enjoys the treatment, sucking his little dummy to sleep in a thick nappy thats changed lovingly when he wakes. he of course would rather die than admit this and constanly causes issues. the centre is about to consider letting him go before paul comes into the picture and insists on adopting him and turning him into his perfect adorable little baby despite john's embarrassment about the whole ordeal

i know this is weird im sorry just had to get it out

If this is weird, then call me Mrs. Weird lmao! I love this fantasy, it's so hot! I have a soft spot for institutionalized regression fantasies, especially forced regression. John would have the biggest tantrums when he realizes where he is and what's going to happen to him, and the first experiences of his training, but he'd tantrum just as hard when he realizes how much he loves it. He'd see other boys and girls who very obviously despise every second of this, but he has to force himself to stop from smiling and giggling at his baby toys and shows, sucking his thumb without thinking about it, mindlessly wetting his diaper and getting turned on by it... Paul would instantly be obsessed with baby Johnny! It would also be hot if Paul was the one who hired the center to abduct John and regress him... John would feel so betrayed, but also humiliated because he realizes that Paul knew what a baby he was before he did.

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Hi you don't know me and this is really out of the blue but I've thought about sending this for a while.

I was the person who bullied you on your account a few years back. I made comments about your legs and I would pop up to troll you. I was 14 at the time and me and my friend thought it was funny because you were a weirdo or whatever. I am so fucking sorry girl. I feel so bad about now. I'm 18 now and to be honest I relate to you from your posts, I even remember at the time thinking you were an interesting/cool person I just didn't understand I guess. I really have no explanation as to why I bullied you because I'm also fat and lonely. I'm just sorry. Been wanting to say that for a while so now that I'm an adult I want to say something. Also low-key I'm really really into this and I found your fics hot and still do 🤕 I'm SO sorry girl I understand if you don't want to reply to this i promise this isn't a troll idk how to prove it was me but I made that one account as well . Bye . Sorry

I didn't expect to get a message like this, so thank you for apologizing. I know it's easier to do anonymously, but it's still tough to own up. Part of me figured that you were just a kid, but there was also a part of me that was paranoid that it was actually someone who said they were a friend, so at least I can lay that worry to rest. It's basic human psychology to attack people who are outside social norms, especially if you identify with those people-- it's pretty common for closeted gay people to bully openly gay people. If you're already feeling othered, and don't want your normal friends to think you're into weird shit, you make fun of it. I won't lie, some of the shit you said to me really hurt my feelings, but I get it, and I forgive you. I'm just glad you learned from the experience and it sounds like you aren't going to harass people like that again, too many people nowadays love being mean. I hope you find contentment.

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Hi all, sorry I've been MIA for the past few weeks, I really haven't been feeling well. The suckiest part is that I can't really identify *why* I haven't been feeling well... Allergies are definitely a big part of it, but allergy symptoms are way too vague and commonplace to definitively say that's the only reason why I feel lousy. I'm just hoping that I don't have Covid, or that there's mold somewhere in my house, or something else worse than allergies. I'm a fucking hypochondriac, every ailment has got me convinced that I have Covid or cancer. I'm going to put in a maintenance request for my AC ducts to be cleaned, maybe that will help somewhat.

I've also just been really depressed. It took me a while to realize it, even though I've been depressed since before I hit puberty. For most of my life, depression has come with intense feelings of self-hatred and suicidal ideation, but it hasn't really been a factor with what I'm feeling now. Sure, I still have my bad days, but overall, I don't want to kill myself, and that's a victory in my book, but that's why it took me so long to recognize that I'm massively depressed. I'm finding it so hard to talk to people, even my closest friends, it's hard to find joy, it's hard to push myself towards self-improvement, it's hard to conceive a better life or better world is possible. The thought of meeting new people or participating in anything exhausts me. It's hard to make myself take a fucking shower until my hair is greasy af. I'm also just in a state of anxiety basically all of the time now. Like I'm afraid of everything from nuclear war to floods to a fucking airplane falling through my house while I'm in the shower.

I should probably find a new therapist, but that's also exhausting (and expensive). And I do not want to go back on anti-depressants. I don't remember what I used to take, but the several types I tried didn't work for me, and when I stopped taking them, I had terrible vertigo for like three weeks. I just don't know what to do. All I do is work, clean the house, take care of the cats, watch tv, mindlessly scroll my phone, and read maybe one book a month. How do you find joy in life when there's so much evil in the world? The knowledge that I'm not doing enough, but not knowing what to do, has paralyzed me. Everything is just so fucked up right now. I just want to fantasize about going back in time to the 70s so I could hang out with John (and k*ll D*n*ld Tr*mp).

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John Lennon on the set of How I Won The War at the Desierto de Tabernas in Almería, Spain | September 1966

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john’s couch slouch real life vs cartoon

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Paul at the premiere of How I Won The War. October 18, 1967

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John Lennon at Chiswick House in London, England | 20 May 1966 © Robert Whitaker

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Cynthia & John Lennon enroute to Cannes, France | 20 May 1965

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John Lennon & George Harrison at Chiswick House in London, England | 20 May 1966 © Robert Whitaker

But then would come a real moment, and the real Beatles would be joyful, taking a schoolgirl who had broken through the park's security under their arm. This was a knee-melting moment for her, and so refreshing for them. Whitaker recalled the scene fondly. "You can imagine how thrilled she was. It was quite touching - the Beatles were so friendly towards her and behaved like perfect gentlemen."

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I’ve been feeling so lonely lately 🥺

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New fic idea: John finds out that Paul has an ageplay kink. Maybe John already has a daddy kink and Paul shares his own desires, or perhaps John reads Paul’s diary, or something like that. Whatever the inciting incident, John decides that he’s going to do whatever it takes for Paul to have his fantasies fulfilled, so he starts having accidents constantly, and acting more and more like a baby. He has a big wet accident in the studio in front of everyone, and before he thought he was just going to play-pretend how upset and embarrassed and babyish he is, but when it’s actually happening, he can’t help but sob and wail and beg Paul to help him. Paul would be so sweet and loving and once they get to the bathroom to clean up, they’re all over each other. John never dreamed it would turn him on so much to wet his pants in public, and he quickly becomes addicted. The problem is, soon enough, it becomes like second nature for him to go potty in his pants, even when he doesn’t want to. He’s acting like a baby without even realizing it, and everyone is treating him more like a baby too. He only realizes how far gone he is when Paul insists on putting him in diapers full-time, and even though it humiliates him to the core, he loves it, just like Paul loves his big baby. 😳😳😳

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Trust me bro dry humping just elevates the hang-out experience you gotta believe me man

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where’s my ticket to ride