#me: no i don't want to do mundane chores in a video game. this is boring and insulting. fuck off

[echthr0s]

your guess is as good as mine as to why it took me -- me! -- so infernally long to play Cult of the Lamb, but while I expected to enjoy it for obvious reasons, what I didn't expect is how much divine euphoria I would get from micromanaging my cultists' little lives

[anonymouspuzzler]

Hey, Puzz— hey!! Look OVER hERE

Get QUESTION GAUNTLET'D! ! !

• Between Buck and Davey, who's the neat freak and the messy partner of the relationship (or like. Who is. The one who. Cleans often while the other makes a mess lol)?

• How does the trio personally unwind after a long day of work?

• What's their favourite chores if they like doing em?

• Who would be most likely to get excited abt buying new sponges and dishwashing soap...... (I personally am very guilty of this LMAOOO)

• Who is most likely to impulsively buy. Things?

• Does any of the trio collect things? Ik Minnie likes animals a lot but I'm talking more of. Trinkets and stuff. And if so, what would they usually collect? (Can they show me..... /Nf)

Found myself suddenly thinking of domestic fluff for your OCs while I was washing dishes woops ehehehe. I'm also a sucker for. The mundane and the sweet little things that can happen during that 👍

THE BLORBOS FRO MY HEAD HAVE INVADED YOURS AND NOW I GET TO REAP THE BENEFITS BY TALKING ABOUT THEM ON PURPOSE!!! HAHAHA YIPEEEEEEEEEEE

Generally speaking, Buck's the neat freak of the two - Davey isn't exactly a mess by any means, but he's pretty laid-back about stuff, whereas Buck likes things A Certain Way and spends a lot of his free time on chores and tidying stuff up. (It's exactly the opposite in their workspace, though. Davey's Actually Professionally Trained and tends to try and keep tools and supplies properly cared for and sorted and such, and their tech and whatnot maintained as professionally as he can manage, whereas Buck is full. yeah yeah just slap some duct tape on that bad boy. put another fan down there to deal with that thing that keeps spewing smoke. it's fine. don't be a baby about it)

Davey's big on just putting something on TV or playing video games to unwind, as is Minnie. Buck kind of does the same, but he's more about just kind of sitting back and having something making noise in the background vs. actively watching or doing something, if that makes sense. Minnie also enjoys doing some reading (as does Buck on occasion, but to a much lesser extent, and not usually after he's been working and is already exhausted), and Davey will occasionally take a jog to wind down if he's got the energy to spare. (Buck and Davey are also big on some good ol' fashioned post-work Casual Physical Affection, but less so now that Minnie's living with them. They Will Not Be Making Out In Front Of Their Niece Actually)

Buck, despite complaining, actually generally likes most if not all chores. He likes getting his living spaces Clean and In Order! Davey and Minnie, by contrast, are pretty ambivalent at best to chores - I don't think there's any they'd say they "like." (Secretly Minnie's come to enjoy helping to keep the workshop clean, though.)

Buck. One Hundred Percent Buck. Davey and Minnie Do Not Understand but like Davey at least is happy his boyfriend's happy.

They all have their weaknesses for this, with asterisks - Minnie's both an impulsive shithead 13 year old and actually Very Recently comes from a background where she Could just kind of buy whatever without consequences, so in that respect she's the most likely. Davey, meanwhile, likes little useless trinkets and such and can be a little bit driven by impulse on occasion, but 1) he's a reasonable adult who has learned, sometimes the hard way, that he doesn't need and shouldn't have everything that briefly strikes his fancy, and 2) if he decides he wants it anyway he's a supervillain he's just gonna steal it. he don't have money lmao. Buck is the least likely EXCEPT that he's very susceptible to like... dark pattern type marketing-slash-game things? What I'm trying to say is Buck spent a lot of money on Cookie Run until Davey got it off his phone and password locked the app store

Davey collects video games! especially older ones he played growing up. He's also got a soft spot for weird old technology in general, but doesn't actively seek it out so much, though occasionally Buck or someone like the Junkyard Queens'll gift him something they find along those lines. Speaking of I guess technically Buck collects junk and scrap and such to tinker with. Like i Guess that counts

[cringelordofchaos]

Flicker Eduardo headcanons!!

I know almost no one cares except maybe that one flicker fan scrolling through the flicker tag, but idc

(some of these are weird and stupid)

(also when I say "into ___" I don't mean it in a romantic or s##ual context btw)

pansexual demiboy, he/they, name means "Wealthy Guardian" (only thing canon in this post)

Into rock and heavy metal

Introverted

Into cryptozoology

Into 80's horror movies

Teenager, bout 16-18 y/o

Into werewolves

obsessed with stranger things

Deadname is Valentina (based on the fact that he was initially supposed to be called Valentina and have a different design)

Engages with risky (??) and rebellious behaviour

Divorced parents, father had abandoned both them and their mom and his infant sister

Hispanic

Used to be best friends with Alex, drifted apart and now Ed feels bitter Abt him

Not satanic but they are into studying satanism and people devoted to it

Atheist

Into murder mysteries

Quiet in groups at first until he gets to know others in the group better

Plays the guitar (both acoustic and electric)

Horrible at singing, still likes singing

Used to be in a band with Alex, Amethyst and Prasiddhi

Gets absolutely horrible grades in school besides in literature and Spanish

Theater kid

Dumb#ss nerd

Has sooo many earrings and necklaces

Obsessed with many bands (I can't specify which ones bc i don't know sh#t about music,)(actually screw it I'll name a few that my mom likes

Into Metallica, Radiohead, Queen The Door, and other crap like that (I only listen to Radiohead out of these)

Has one of his eyebrows pierced

Has wolf as their fave animal

Kinda insane (don't ask)

Into paranormal stuff

Brave

Determined and stubborn

Street smart

Skateboards

All about self expression

Known as the quiet kid or the weirdo in school

Likes to go outside at night

Halloween is their fave holiday

Quiet in relation to his negative opinions regarding others

Secretly a MLP + STH fan

Can get bored and distracted easily

Into parkour and tree + rock climbing

Spiritually in the 80's

A really good older sib figure

Attachment issues, fears being abandoned so sometimes they push other people away first, other times he is a bit clingy and desperate

Uses the peace ✌️ and rock 🤘sign quite often

Embraces weirdness

Will always protect and defend people he cares about

Can be kinda rude but also really kind?

Often does the chores in the house, kinda tired from that + schoolwork

Now that Alex isn't their friend anymore, they're just kind of the loner in their class (before he gets sent to the Flicker game)

When the flicker game first starts, he like most people just think it's a run, fake murder mystery game, but one night (a bitttt early on) when they were supposed to get killed they managed to flee and escape into the woods, everyone thinking he's dead

Always puts up a fight when needed

Used to crush on alex and still cares about him as much as he refuses to admit it

Swears a moderate amount

Winks often (ok these HCs sre getting very mundane... um)

Ends up getting along well with most of the flicker players

He constantly feels like HE has to work for everyone (like their mom, having to do chores and upkeep his grades), and although they're very loyal they're also reasonably tired

The start of the flicker game has actually been one of the happiest periods in his life in some time

Can be impulsive

Fidgets often

In classes they barely do anything

Master at solving Rubik's cube

Pretty chill most of the time actually

Into video games too, primarily indie horror and visual novel

Him and Rosalie bicker often

Really wants to be independent, competent and responsible to prove they don't need anyone

They give me Lucas Sinclair and Drew from TMF vibes for sum reason??

Is neurodivergent (bpd, adhd, maybe sumth else idk)

...

Wtf even is this... I'm literally the worst flicker fan to ever exist I'm so sorry

[mysidaesm]

I'm 16 and on summer vacation from school right now. I haven't left the house once. I've been off school for over a month now. I mean, I've gone places with my family when they go out to do something, like go to a restaurant, but I haven't visited any friends. I have no car nor license, so I can't get to them in the first place. The most exciting thing I've done this summer is walk to Walmart (which is like a mile away) and buy chips for myself. I was so fucking happy over buying the chips. I felt like I was a "real teenager" doing random things. I'm starting to realize as I write this that the reason I romanticize mundane, everyday chores and random errands is because I don't get to experience those. I've never gone to a party that wasn't holiday or birthday related.

I really looked forward to starting high school because I thought my life would be less empty. I would hear my parent's stories about doing things in high school, or see people online talking about parties and drinking and doing risky stuff. But now I'm entering my junior year (grade 11), and nothing has changed. All I do is stay inside, watch youtube, play video games, read webcomics, and occasionally voice call my one really close friend. I seriously thought this was a me problem, something I was doing wrong, until I read this post. Jesus Christ.

No wonder I'm such a fucking mess. How do teacher's expect kids to have motivation when we're being forced into an empty present and an empty future? Even if we get straight As and take AP exams it means jack shit.

"Kids these days are always on their phone," "Kids these days never go outside," etc etc. We fucking want to. I want to go outside and go to parties and do stupid things and ride my bike around and hangout with friends with no prior planning and all the things my parents and the generations before us did. But we fucking can't. Gen Z is so depressed because we have every reason to be and no reason not to be.

Writing this made me realize how fucking bleak and empty my life is, fuck. I'm a heavy mixture and angry and sad right now.

Anyway, that's my addition.

Maybe this is the wrong platform to pose this question given the average tumblr user but

Is it just me or did our generation (those of is who are currently 20-30 ish) just not get the opportunity to be young in the 'standard' sense?

Like, everyone I talk to who's over 40 has all their wild stories about their teens and 20s, being young and dumb, and then I talk to my friends and coworkers and classmates, and we just... dont.

[keldjinfae]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox of the last 10 people who reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers ♡

The opening video for Kingdom Hearts II. No, seriously. I cry happy tears every single time I start up a new playthrough just because of that video. But that aside, all of Kingdom Hearts II is and always has been one of my favorite games to play. Hades, in particular, made for a fantastic "we're mutual thorns in each other's sides" villain.

Clothes shopping, particularly for outfits. Most of the time I prefer the bare-minimum combo of jeans and a graphic tee, but I also flail like an idiot when I find the perfect pair of tights to go with a dress.

"Spa days." I don't actually go anywhere (except for when my sister and I very occasionally go to a salon for pedicures) so they're stay-in spa days, but every few weeks I mask up from head to toe and read or write smut while I listen to a show or music or whatever.

Cleaning. Being able to clean areas of the house. Before my back noped out, my "moment of zen" was mundane, mindless chores like washing the dishes or vacuuming--I could tune out everything except the repetitive motions while my thoughts went wherever the hell they wanted. After my spine started twisting, it took me longer and longer to manage simple tasks, and I still can't really do them as "mindlessly" as I used to, but I'm still figuring out ways to do them.

My neighbor, and the numerous interactions I've had with him over the years/the resigned way he announces over the fence after overhearing me say something outlandish yet again, "That's fucked up, Nix."

[hetalia-reacts]

PLATONIC HEADCANINS !! PLATONIC HEADCANONS !! HOW ABOUT- a doting touchy-feely PLATONC reader with the allies?? Friendship headcanons :3 (do Axis if u can but PLEASE don't do that if you are tired or busy PLEASE don't ♡♡:))

America

I feel Alfred is also a bit of a touchy-feely kind of friend too

Especially with best friends and whatnot

Is either always at your house or telling you to come to his

He just wants to watch movies or play video games with you

Heck he just wants to exist in the same room with his bestie

Will Alfred wake you up at 3am to do something with him?

Yes

Y’all will either be doing mundane things like going on a store run or literally committing a crime

There is N O in between

Since the both of you are both touchy-feely and likely clinging to each other you bet you’ve gotten the same question 1000x

“Are you two dating?”

You both either go for the ewww hell no or a straight faced but sarcastic yes we totally are

But it’s 50/50 if you both actually go for the same response

It’s a game at this point to see if you guys can read each other’s minds

You guys usually make an awkward situation for the person that asked because one will say yes and the other says eww and neither of you will back down and explain that you guys are just sarcastic and teasing jerks lmao

England

Arthur isn’t the most touchy person so having a friend that is can be tough sometimes

He does appreciate the hugs and physical comfort/support but he just gets kinda awkward

Well at first anyways

When you are certified besties he’s used to it and one can often find him gravitating towards you to just be close

Will never admit he likes it though sorry he’s a hard head

No one dares ask either of y’all that dreaded question though because they don’t want to deal with his sarcasm and the lecture that’s sure to follow

Arthur is a chill bestie though

Often invites you over to just be together

He doesn’t care if it’s just to talk, do something, or simply enjoy the presence of someone else

Help him cook maybe?

Even if you suck at cooking he enjoys attempting to cook with someone else

And that also means having fun in the kitchen and being complete dorks the whole time

And also having to order food or eat a sandwich because unless you can cook it’s going to be inedible

Will make you watch and read Sherlock, even if he has to be there or read it to you it’s happening

France

Francis is very touchy as a friend unless he knows someone dislikes it

So having a bestie that is like him is perfect

People probably think y’all are glued together at this point

No one would ever think y’all are dating either because Francis acts completely different with his bestie than a love interest

He’s kind of a mean ass ngl

He likes to jokingly bicker and fight with you

And definitely likes to cling and be dramatic with you to the point it’s annoying to others

Francis drags you with him everywhere

His house, the gym, the store, England’s house, etc

He cant just go alone anymore it would feel wrong like he’s forgetting something

If you’re bad at dressing or have no style he’s got your back

Literally shops for you but also constantly says things like you’ll never look as good as him

You are also one fo the few that will ever see Francis get serious or down in the dumps

It’s just something he doesn’t wear on his sleeve and reserves for those closest to him

Canada

Matthew is not used to having people cling to him

He’s not really used to having people notice him so having a someone that’s his bestie, that notices him the most, and always clings and talks to him is a strange and wild concept

Doesn’t mind the touchiness and honestly rather prefers it

He’s kinda touch starved :/

Matthew is likely always at your house with Kumajirou

Movie marathon and cuddles yo

Also as his closest friend you come to see his ‘secret’ side of being sarcastic and a complete savage

This boy does not hold back with you either

Maybe at first he did but when he realized y’all are in this friend stuff for life he won’t censor or sugar coat things if it’s not necessary

Makes you play and watch hockey with him

Will teach you everything if you know nothing

Matthew is the type of friend to invite you to his families holidays/vacations and come to yours

He knows and is cool with basically all of your family

I mean who could hate or dislike this polite boy?

Russia

Ivan is not used to friendship either as people usually tremble in fear before him

so having a friend that is touchy on top of having a close friend can be a bit much at times

But he’s happy!

He loves the hugs! Loves the contact! Loves having a friend!

Loves cuddles most of all he won’t lie, Ivan loves the feeling of comfort and support when you cuddle him

People do often assume you two are dating because most people assume someone would only put up with him if they were in love with him

Neither of you mind the rumors since y’all know the truth

Ivan is the sweetest friend

He shows up unannounced with food or groceries all the time

Always helping you out without being asked

Like oh your washing machine broke I fixed it/bought you a new one already or oh you suck at this let me explain it and teach it to you

Does this completely unprompted

He’s always over at yours or always inviting you over to his

Wants to do classic friend things?

Like things he sees in movies and shows that friends do a lot or things he’s overheard from others

Late night store runs, hanging out at parks, showing up unannounced to crash at your place, those kind of things

You’re the only person he confides in, you know all his secrets, his sadness, everything

Honestly, Ivan is the person who needs a touchy-feely friend the most out of everyone

China

Yao is happy about having a touchy friend but will always play like he hates it

Not in like a tsundere “I totally d-don’t need friends baka” kind of way but a really dramatic “omg I can’t believe you’re so obsessed with me haha loser” kind of way

He’s only joking of course and apologizes if you get hurt by his teasing or he crosses a line

Only a brave few would try and ask if y’all are more than friends

They have to listen to a lecture with an angry Yao explaining that people can be close and not want to date and how immature and inappropriate they’re being

Totally the type of friend that mothers you

Constantly says you look skinnier than last time and forces you to eat because he’s worried for you

Will not sugar coat anything for you

If you ask for his advice then I’m sorry but you’re gonna get it even if it makes you cry or get mad

Yao wants you over at his constantly

He’s lonely man ㅠㅠ

And he doesn’t want to leave the comfort of his house

Expect a lot of his gifts for your birthday/holiday to be cute plushies he found

Germany

Ludwig act differently depending on when y’all become besties

Like before Italy, he’s nervous, confused, and slightly annoyed by all the touching and notion of being besties

If it’s after Italy he’s used to all the touchiness and has figured out how to show his friendship to you in other ways

Like making you things! Or simply inviting you to hang out!

Ludwigs is always gonna be a bit awkward though

Always shy about hanging out and inviting you over

Many people assume you two to be dating because of his awkwardness but he is the first to start defending your friendship and it’s pure nature

He develops a sixth sense and now answers people’s questions about the two of you without even looking at them

He can just feel the nasty vibes

Asks you to do mundane things with him

Like shopping or even chores

Asks you to come bake with him a lot

It was embarrassing at first since not many people know his love of making sweets but he’s over that now

I know I say this a lot, but please work out with him _(:3 」∠)_

My guy just wants a work out buddy, a spotter, a n y t h i n g just please pick up the smallest dumbbell and pretend you want to work out

If you ask for advice expect him to be straight to the point about it but comfort you afterwards

Italy

Feliciano is a god tier bestie if your touchy-feely

Doesn’t matter if that touchy-feely emotionally and/or physically he’s down for both

Like please hold his hand, hug him, give him head pats, cheek kisses or any form affection really

No one even thinks anything of it, it’s just Feliciano being himself

If anyone did ask if you were dating he might get self-conscious of his actions, he doesn’t want you to feel uncomfortable or like he was trying to be something more with you

He’s easy to calm down though

Feliciano invites you out all the time

Restaurants, wine tastings, farmers markets, gondola rides, just about anything he can think of that he thinks you would like to do

Always at your house

He eats all of your food too, but he makes you some in return so it’s okay

Gives really good advice

Like for his bestie he’ll get super serious and thoughtful about your issues, even spending days thinking of solutions

Tries not to sugar coat things for you but ends up doing just that

He doesn’t want to make his friend cry or even more anxious

Will comfort you though if you are upset about anything he’s said and apologizes profusely for it too

Japan

Kiku is overall one of the ones who needs a touchy bestie but is the most challenging with receiving or giving the touchiness back

He’s a man who enjoys personal space and alone time, so he’s honestly surprised anyone considers him a true best friend

He knows he can get a bit feisty and shut himself away when he gets uncomfortable and that makes it hard to truly befriend him

But he’s really happy you stick around and deal with his awkwardness and rejection of your affection

Tries his hardest to at least accept your friendly affection

No one would dare ask if you two are flirting or together because my god it’s taking so much of his effort to just sit less than 2 feet away from you at the start so they don’t want to ruin his progress by making it awkward

Kiku definitely asks for your opinion on anime and manga

Gets into heated debates with you over certain ones

Is shy but asks you to come over a lot

Likes to have tea and snacks with you while you guys talk

Y’all can talk for literally a whole day

You sleepover a lot, he insists and even got you your own futon with a cool custom cover

Gifts you a kotatsu at some point because he loves them and he thinks you should enjoy them all the time too

When he gets over a lot of shyness he loves when you do simple forms of affection with him

Like ruffling his hair or holding onto his arm or even just leaning against him

He enjoys those the most since they aren’t too physical and mentally taxing on him and it still let you physically express your friendship with him like you love to do

If you ask for advice either get prepared for a harsh wake up call or a stumbling mess of words

It’s 50/50 if Kiku gives you the stone cold truth or tries to spare your feelings

As your friend he thinks you deserve the truth but he doesn’t want his harsh advice to ruin your mood or make you hate him

[zero00kiryu00]

MHA Unhealthy Habits Headcanon Pt. 1

▵ This headcanon dawned on me while I was thinking about my own unhealthy habits.

▵ You don't have to agree with what I'm about to say here, but please be respectful.

▵ TW for topics relating to mental health and dysphoria. ▵

▵ Deku never allows himself to be a priority. Why would he? As the successor of the former number one hero, Deku has an immense amount of pressure and expectation resting on his shoulders.

▵ Everyone else is more important than him — everyone else’s needs go above his own.

▵ For Deku, coping with stress and anxiety is practically a non-existent concept. The boy doesn’t know when he needs to take a break and refuses to do so when other people suggest that he should relax for a while.

▵ Everything, including himself, is a project for the benefit of others based on external expectations.

▵ Bakugou needs to hydrate, and he knows he does — his quirk is reliant on his body’s sweat, which of course is produced by the water in his system — but he rarely drinks water at all.

▵ He will drink literally anything else before he drinks water, making him the most dehydrated out of any of the other 1-A students.

▵ He won’t get angry when someone reminds him to drink it, but he will absolutely do so begrudgingly and glare at whoever it was the entire time he’s swallowing down the glass of water like a kid after playing outside on a hot summer day, gulping and gasping when the glass is empty.

▵ He won’t drink a second glass of it afterwards for at least a while.

▵ Uraraka likes to give herself small rewards when working on tasks. One of these is food.

▵ She uses it as motivation to complete a task, but because of the nature of things, her so-called motivation is more punishment than anything.

▵ “I’ll eat as soon as I finish this assignment!” She’ll say, working on an essay for class that takes twice the usual amount of time because she can’t stop thinking about Mochi and grilled eggplant, listening to her stomach growling as her focus disappears.

▵ She eventually finishes the essay and goes to eat, but it took way longer than it should have.

▵ Denki’s internal body clock is practically non-existent.

▵ His sleep schedule is so horribly messed up that he can nap anywhere at any given time because of how exhausted he is.

▵ He finds himself staying up late, initially to work on schoolwork to help his grades or to keep socializing with friends.

▵ He doesn’t realize that what he’s experiencing is revenge bedtime procrastination — he just thinks that the nighttime is the only time he can do whatever he wants.

▵ He stays up playing video games, reading comics, or just about anything else to delay his sleep to avoid acknowledging the reality of needing to go to hero training in the morning.

▵ Kirishima’s experience at Fat Gum’s agency was definitely one that helped advance his career as a hero, and he was very thankful for the opportunity.

▵ But with that advancement into his career came a change in his body type — to the point where it was noticeable to other students at UA who commented that “Fat Gum must’ve taught you to eat well!”

▵ Kirishima hates when people point out that he had gained some weight. He knows that it was actually beneficial for his quirk not to be pure muscle, but he can’t help but feel less manly with the bit of pudge on his stomach now.

▵ So he resorts to yo-yo dieting — off and on restricting certain foods in order to keep his muscle mass up and his body fat down, switching to “healthier” alternatives that really just disregard the necessary amount of nutrients he needs.

▵ Iida has an immense amount of respect for himself and the people around him. He admires his fellow classmates, other heroes and mentors in his life, consistently striving to be a better version of himself and a better hero.

▵ On top of that, Iida holds a lot of responsibility, both to himself and to his classmates as class president, which makes it difficult for him to decline something when his plate is already overflowing.

▵ Setting boundaries for himself, letting both others and himself know that he has too much going on, is one of the most difficult tasks.

▵ He'll miss out on social interactions with his classmates to get through whatever extra chore he agreed to do, putting himself at the top of the pedestal for reliability and responsibility, but well below the lowest rung for social growth.

▵ It started out as a joke. A petty way to get back at his dad for being a generic douchebag with lots of cash sitting away in a bank account. Taking Endeavour's platinum credit card didn't seem like that big of a deal.

▵ Todoroki would treat his friends to lunch one day, flashing the bright silver coating on the credit card as he handed it to their server that day.

▵ From there, it became treating his friends to lunch more often, buying things for them that they would complain about needing no matter the cost (especially for Uraraka, who had only basics due to her home life), which then spiralled into buying things for himself that he liked purely on impulse and without thinking it through.

▵ Todoroki's impulse spending became an even bigger problem when he graduated UA and became a pro-hero, spending every last cent of his paycheque on mundane items after paying for his basic necessities.

▵ After all, he has an issue with impulse, not responsibility.

▵ Mina does very well to keep herself presentable and stylish when spending time around people. Her bubbly and flashy outfits are proof enough of that.

▵ But what Mina projects -- a bubbly outgoing personality and a clean appearance -- is not necessarily what takes place behind her bedroom door.

▵ While she keeps herself clean, her space is always a mess, to the point where walking through her bedroom is impossible, unless she's the one navigating through it. There is just enough space for her to walk through an endless sea of school books, costumes, outfits, accessories, and takeout food packets strewn all across the floor.

▵ Since Mina enjoys spending time with friends in their rooms or homes, or at the mall or movie theatre -- literally anywhere aside from her bedroom -- she never cleans her space.

▵ Her school desk, locker, and even her purse are an absolute disaster zone. Denki swore he found a two-week-old sandwich in the back of Mina's locker once.

▵ Part 2 can be found here. ▵

[my-reality-my-rules]

hello! I’m loosing hope in shifting and I’m starting to think that maybe I will never make it//it’s not something I’m able to do…

How did you get over times like this and thoughts like these? If you have been through it

Thank you! And I looooove your content ❤️

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[thanks for the submission!]

(1) 'I will...'

so, i had just come across this post on amino, and it reminded me of another one i saw on tiktok! just to reiterate a few lines from the amino post, know that you're not a failure for not yet shifting, nor are you doing anything wrong when you haven't done so.

i follow an account named shiftingwithreva on tiktok, and she had given a small tip that I've been trying out lately.

basically, before you do anything, say the words I will, before actually doing said thing. for example; when you're about to fix your bed, say, I will fix my bed, then do it. start with little stuff!

this can be: I will brush my teeth, I will wash the dishes, I will answer my messages, I will listen to subliminals, I will continue my Duolingo streak, I will do my laundry, and et cetera. as she mentions in the video, do it until you pick up the pace and your mind gets used to following the 'I will' command. so far, it's gotten me on my feet when it comes to performing tasks. i wouldn't say it forces you to get motivated, but it does give you some energy and a sense of urgency.

and, when the time comes, you can start saying things like, I will now shift or I will wake up in my waiting room.

I've only recently tried it out, but so far, it's going quite well for me. i take less time when doing mundane activities and I'm actually set on doing them efficiently. to add, I'm planning to do this until the phrase 'I will' becomes 'I am'. i don't actually know if that would work, but it's something that just occurred to me.

(2) game of association

another thing you could try is this thing i call a 'game of association'! lmao i just didn't know what else to label it; it's basically taking any sight, smell, sound, taste, or feeling from your CR and associating it with related things from your DR. that, or pretending they came from your DR. it's more a form of visualisation than actual motivation, but it does immerse you in the place you want to be in.

i mostly do this when i do chores. for example, I'm in the kitchen washing the dishes, and i hear some noises from the living room, where the television is. everything i hear from there, i pretend are from my DR. if it's some reality show, I'll think it's drama that i overhear on the street. if it's music, I'll think I'm watching street artists perform. sometimes, i also pretend that the cold hands i get from washing dishes isn't actually from that, but because I'm somewhere cold in my DR. and so on and so forth! pretty much anything goes for this one.

(3) stop yearning and start living || law of assumption + attraction

around the same time in 2020-2021 (late dec/early jan basically), i had to put all shifting-related activities (ex. scripting/manifesting) on pause. it felt...cluttered, at some point, and I'd realised I'd been worrying too much about a lot of things.

what if i don't shift tonight? what if the symptoms I'm getting aren't enough? why am i still not shifting? what if i never make it? no. it's alright to have those thoughts, but you need to know you can do more. if you can have the confidence to talk to others, or the energy to get up in the morning, you also have the power to overcome your own doubts. assume you can. go about your life as if you're already awake and living that reality.

you talk to people to socialise, to communicate, to connect. you get up in the morning to start your day, whether to live or to survive. so go on and do the same with your own thoughts on shifting—instead of focusing on why or how you can't shift, direct your attention to the things in your DR: how do you feel when you wake up in your DR? what are you going to do once you get there? what are some things you need to tend to (ex. plants, homework, dates, mail)? think about your companions, don't you remember they're waiting for you? what fun activities are you looking forward to? shenanigans you'll pull off?

synchronise with your heart. take what you want and get it. I've said it before; there's a time where you just have to let go of your CR. as this article states, imagine the feeling of your desires, and assume they've already been fulfilled.

i apologise for the late response, but i do hope this helps! much love and happy shifting ❤️❤️

[agapaic]

hey i was the one who requested the timeline! it's awesome, thank you so much for taking your time to do it. there is something else i want to ask. i heard rumours (don't remember where) about 19 days ending soon... but someone else said "not the entire manhua but the current arc" might be ending, but i'm still really bothered. what do you think? hope it's still long before it ends, everything feels incomplete also if casually-inlove sees this can you share ur opinion too i couldnt send u an ask

Morning, lovely! 

Not a problem at all! I hope it’s useful for you and others!

Hmm, I hadn’t heard that - but I’m usually a bit behind on those kinds of things. The only reason I could see the arc ending is because, as stated in the very first chapters, Jian Yi gets taken on the first day of high school. I’m not sure how long the boys have left in middle school, but there have been recent moments where high school/acceptance grades are mentioned (e.g. some girls ask jian yi and zhengxi where they’re going to go), so presumably the end of the year is approaching soon, and it seems to be summer in the storyline. 

But then there’s a whole summer vacation period before high school should start, which in the public system in China is around 2 months. According to my timeline (which I would really only take with a pinch of salt in terms of how many days have passed, since there may be bigger gaps between some days than we know), around a month of time has passed, and that’s taken 6 years of Old Xian’s work - I cannot genuinely fathom that they’d spend another 12 years to write about the boy’s summer holiday period. I feel like a vacation period is also a period where time is… much less exciting. Days can pass without anything interesting happening (boys sleeping, doing chores, lazing about playing video games), and when you create/draw/write/etc. you really only want to focus on the moments where things are happening. 

This is not to say it’s not nice to see some mundane slice of life panels where they’re are just lazing about, but I think Old Xian tries to make something happen ALL the time - it seems like so much has happened in the story, but it’s only possibly been 24 days because, in most days, they pack in so much. 

I would assume that Old Xian would end the school year should end some time this year, the summer period taking another year and ending in 2021 (although maybe they’ll only spend a few months on it and be quite particular with what moments they show, helping to streamline the story), and then we’ll have the start of high school by the end of next year/2022. I would hope Old Xian takes a well-deserved break by then haha, and then it’s all completely up in the air. We’ve already had some future panels, but I don’t know if Old Xian will fill in any of the time that Jian Yi is missing, or if they’ll pick up on the time as soon as Jian Yi returns (and Zhengxi is in college) - perhaps with some flashbacks to the time he was missing for all four boys - or if they’ll just call it a day there and begin something new. 

Their original readership is now also six years older; like Harry Potter, Old Xian may want to age-up the story to be more relatable (having the characters be perpetually 15-years-old creates some challenges, hence the flash-forwards to the boys being college-aged), or they may want to begin a new project.

As for feeling “incomplete”, I know what you mean. Going back through the timeline and revisiting chapters made me see just how many odd moments there are that we still don’t have any answers to. A few being:

who kidnapped Jian Yi and why - they said they knew jian yi’s father, but it was an odd episode and nothing more has come of it

why did He Tian go back to his father’s after guan shan’s hospitalisation? it’s suggested he cheng thinks he should, but then He Tian later says something to the effect of ‘i wanted to ask my father something, but i’m not hanging around anymore to wait for him’ which makes it look like it was his idea for visiting? idk that whole visit doesn’t make sense to me

what happened to guan shan’s father and/or the restaurant

does zhengxi have any connection or is he beautifully “normal” in terms of how he grew up/in which environment he grew up (and, indeed, is part of why jian yi loves him so much because he’s desperate for the same nucleic family that zhengxi belongs to).

why is jian yi staying at he cheng’s, and why has his mother not appeared like she said she would? is this an order on behalf of jian yi’s father? has jian yi’s mother approved this whole arrangement? 

what happened to he tian’s mother? was that her grave on the mountain? was she involved with the explosion on the water that he tian dreamt of?

Of course, not all of this needs to be answered. But some of them are plot holes that might benefit from being resolved. The final line here is that, of course, no one knows! We can suggest what might make logical sense, but that’s rarely what happens haha - best thing is just to enjoy what we’ve been given and what will be released in the near future, and then see how things go from there with an open mind! Don’t worry too much about it - whatever happens will be the best thing for Old Xian.

@casually-inlove penny for your thoughts? x