#me to everyone i know: can i please study you like a bug 🥺

[a-memory-a-distant-echo]

i'm going to bed because it's past daybreak in my timezone, but this seems like a time that many-to-most other people will be awake, so:

if you're someone who has multiple fiction projects going at once, do you keep track of them somehow? are they all so different that it's just not an issue for you? do you do the whole scrivener thing for them? do you just chuck it into the online word processing deal of your choice and figure it'll work itself out? do you use some sort of project management software? do you have an incredibly complicated spreadsheet?

this is a sincere question. i would genuinely love it if you reblogged this and fully infodumped about your process. if you know where to reach me off tumblr, one thousand percent please feel free to answer this there, because i will ask you follow-up questions.

[snucius]

(Please excuse my poor English!)

Okay, hear me out! Everyone always saying Draco is dragged into darkside, it was because of his family, he just want to please his father, he was just obeying Lucius and things like that, right? And of course I don't refuse any of them, he was a poor victim of war just like Harry and all the other kids. He was just a boy 🥺.

But how did Lucius get involved in this mess? You know there is little official information about Malfoy Family so what i'm going to say will be just assumptions and they are not going to change anything, but i like to think of Lucius this way.

I don't think Lucius got the Dark Mark just because he wanted it. Let me tell you about what's keeps bugging me for a while now.

Firstly, I would like to start by stating the obvious: Lucius and Voldemort have a huge age difference (we'll come to this in a min). Lucius was working in the Ministry after Hogwarts but probably he became a Death Eater way before Voldemort could even laid a hand on Ministry. Even though he can be considered as one of his early followers (as far as we can tell from Sisters of Black House fan movie) Lucius was scared of Voldemort to the death. And being around him clearly and noticeably affected his health both mentally and physically. (I know Azkaban did the magic trick but his fear always looked beyond normal to me)

(Again, I'm not saying these are proving anything or they are the truth, facts, canon, whatever)

On the other hand, Abraxas Malfoy was presumably born before 1936 (actually he must have been born much before if we consider Lucius was born in 1953-1954. He might even have studied at Hogwarts around the same time with Tom Riddle. I'm not saying the same year but they may have lived in the castle without knowing each other, due to class differences) so naturally there is no significant age difference between them, they even might be peers. And soon afterwards Voldemort's return from his disappearance in 1967, "Abraxas Malfoy was widely believed to have been part of the shady plot that forced Nobby Leach, the first Muggle-Born Minister Of Magic, to leave his post prematurely, in 1968" (Quoted this from Fandom Wiki) Coincidence? Might be, but I don't think so.

I'm going to give an example based on Sisters of House Black, again. It's up to you evaluating these or not.

During the scene transitions Lucius says "You could join us" to Narcissa (15:12). And in the same scene, just a few seconds before his line, a news reporter from radio saying the date is 1972. Meaning, he already was a Death Eater at the age of 18 (approx).

In the next scene, Bellatrix is trying to convince her parents to open their house, the Black Manor, for Voldemort's Death Eater meetings. Andromeda disagrees (for obvious reasons), Narcissa sides with Bellatrix by saying "So many influential people are following him now, including the Malfoys" (See that, not just Lucius but Malfoys, plural).

And after Narcissa said that, Lucius is joining the conversation with "It truly is a shame that too many Ministry officials come by our Manor" (What I understand from here is that someone already considered hosting Death Eater meetings at Malfoy Manor but didn't think it's qualified because of Ministry visits. Now, this someone could've been Lucius but I don't think an eighteen-year-old Lucius would have a say over the Manor, especially about something this important)

Before I come to my point, I would like to clarify that I'm not trying to acquit Lucius' actions.

He was a bad guy, he did bad things, probably killed and tortured some Muggles/Muggle-Borns, he was a Pureblood supremacist, he was supercilious and Death Eater or not, he wouldn't have been a nicer person anyway. (Arrogance suits him ngl)

But do you think he might be just his father's Draco? Dragged into darkside, because of his family, always wanted to please his father and just obeyed Abraxas? Become a Death Eater because his father was one? Sounds familiar, isn't it?

He might have embraced things way more willingly and gladly than his son ever could because he has been taught about the pureblood supremacy since the day he was born and unlike Draco, he believed in them wholeheartedly.

And he might have enjoyed (or thought he was enjoying) at first, thinking that Voldemort is sharing the same interests with him (more precisely with his father) and The Dark Lord looking like a invincible symbol of victory (while he was just a unstable mutt) but still I think he was quite young and vulnerable to manipulations when Voldemort began to rise.

I can't think of him as a boy around the age of 17-18 saying "yo let me get that tattoo and join this higly illegal cult" without someone else's influence. I know there was no proof that Abraxas was a Death Eater but still.

What I'm trying to say is, in my opinion Lucius was a product of his father too, just like Draco.

Pureblood families are sad, really 😪.

What do you think?