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songdrop · 3 days ago

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hello two months ago allegations were

0:03cast upon me about consensually chatting

0:06with a couple of adult women in the

0:08community one of them a moderator of

0:10mine these allegations were brought to a

0:13Hermit who then without my knowledge

0:15brought it to the hermitcraft group the

0:18hermitcraft group then summoned me for a

0:19hearing and gave me a deadline of 1 and

0:22a half hours time zones considered I did

0:25not have any interest in joining that

0:26hearing as I had at this point already

0:29contacted the police

0:30and a solicitor in regards to the

0:32alleged rumors and potential defamation

0:35they advised me to not comply with

0:37hermic Craft's demands I informed hermic

0:40craft of this and asked them to respect

0:42my privacy and wait to which they

0:45responded that if I did not join the

0:46hearing I would be publicly removed in 1

0:49and a half hours I decided to

0:53resign this entire thing has completely

0:56ruined my life I no longer as it stands

1:00have an income the rumors and

1:02allegations portrayed me as a predator

1:04and as an abuser I'm neither of these

1:07things the amount of hate and threats I

1:10have received has been endless and there

1:12have been days where I've had seen no

1:14reason to press on no reason to get out

1:17of bed no reason to eat or even breathe

1:21days where I've had to seek professional

1:23mental help you have to understand that

1:26making content has been my entire life

1:29where I've spent all all of my hours for

1:30the past 10 years it's all I know these

1:34allegations ruined that and at the end

1:36of the day I'm human I got emotions

1:39feelings and most most importantly a

1:42personal private

1:44life as I mentioned I took this whole

1:47thing the rumors the allegations and the

1:50defamation to the police the

1:51investigation is still ongoing it has

1:54gone through to a second tier of

1:55Investigations and several people are

1:58now being investigated I was advised

2:00against speaking in public which is why

2:02you haven't heard anything from me until

2:05now I know the internet plays by its own

2:08rules and moral High grounds based on

2:10rumors or tinted through selected Parts

2:13seem to be more valuable to a lot of

2:14people than the law common sense and

2:17respect pitchforks are shamelessly easy

2:20to equip they require no minimum level

2:23nor attributes just equip and Shout with

2:25the masses it seems to give some people

2:28the right to spread misinformation and

2:30hate I have learned during the

2:33investigation that one of the so-called

2:35victims who I out of respect for their

2:37privacy will not name have done this

2:40before to another influencer completely

2:42managing to cancel and ruining their

2:45life

2:45too this is why it is so important to be

2:48careful of who you trust who to call a

2:50friend and who to listen to specifically

2:53online it also shows that hermitcraft

2:55should have waited before hanging me out

2:57as some sort of criminal to millions of

2:59people both on their Twitter and on

3:01their

3:02Reddit I've already received endless

3:04amounts of hate threats including death

3:06threats and death wishes because of

3:08these non-criminal and highly personal

3:10allegations and I am expecting that this

3:13statement will generate more of that I

3:15will without further consideration

3:17report all of them to the ongoing police

3:19investigation I've had to increase the

3:21security of my personal private life and

3:23Tak other precautions privately and I've

3:25had

3:26enough I hope that enough people will

3:30see just how ridiculous and dangerous

3:33this entire deal is the world has gone

3:36absolutely mad and the cancel culture

3:38that I have now experienced firsthand is

3:41a toxic unjust and incorrect system that

3:45leaves people like me a naive and

3:47generous sports ball nerd who enjoys

3:50playing and creating video games online

3:53extremely vulnerable the cancel culture

3:56can be compared with the witch hunts

3:57carried out in the 15 and 1600s

4:00where people would attempt to drown a

4:02person and if they didn't drown they

4:03were deemed a witch and burnt on the

4:07stake the bottom line here is that

4:09allegations rumors were spread about me

4:12with the help of hermic Craft's Public

4:14Power and I was made to look like a

4:16criminal which I'm not and it completely

4:19destroyed my life everyone has the right

4:21to a personal life and privacy you do

4:24and I do neither you nor hermitcraft

4:28have any right to infringe in my my

4:29private life in today's society when

4:32information is at your fingertips

4:34without any further knowledge rumors can

4:36make anyone look bad this was designed

4:39to completely cancel and Destroy another

4:41human being so I urge you to think

4:45critically before judging don't believe

4:47everything you read too many people have

4:49their own agendas and in a time where I

4:52have always valued people's choices

4:54defended the small fought for the weak

4:57and lonely it is with great sad nness I

5:00see so many people forgetting to think

5:02forgetting to question and simply

5:04equipping that

5:05Pitchfork mentally this has been an

5:08incredible Challenge and I hope no other

5:11human being ever has to experience it or

5:14the loneliness it leaves you in as far

5:16as hermitcraft goes there are a lot more

5:18things behind the scenes that impacted

5:20my decision to leave and not join their

5:23hearing apart from the police advising

5:25me not to I've yet to decide what to

5:28share about hermit and my 8 years as a

5:31member but it feels good to no longer be

5:33told to keep quiet about certain things

5:36or be content moderated by them I think

5:39everyone will understand by now that

5:41things weren't exactly as they were

5:43portrayed during my years on hermic

5:45Craft I mean at the end of the day

5:48colors were shown when they posted the

5:50Tweet to spread the alleged rumors and

5:53when they didn't moderate their Reddit

5:55which is something they have done for

5:56every other rumor spread about the

5:58hermit in the past

6:00even when rumors have been spread that

6:03have incriminated a Hermit I know a lot

6:06of you are wondering what happens to

6:07Vault hunters and in the Discord I am

6:10aware that one of the developers has

6:12been calling shots and publicly trying

6:14to take over the project he has done so

6:17without my approval I'm fully aware

6:19about the back talking of me and the

6:21lies that have been spread Vault Hunters

6:25which I have invested several hundred,

6:27into is my project I own the rights to

6:30it and its further developments it is

6:33licensed under ARR which means that any

6:35continuation or use of code needs my

6:38approval the developers have all

6:41received more than fair compensation for

6:43their time spent developing it the

6:45person that seemingly now is in charge

6:47has received more money than most people

6:49I gave him the entire earnings from the

6:52community from season 2 and despite him

6:54ghosting me and the project for several

6:57months after he got paid I defended him

7:00publicly I took his side and I had his

7:03back and then brought him back for

7:05development for season 3 and

7:07four after hermitcraft helped spread

7:10these rumors and allegations against me

7:12five developers decided to write a

7:14document a document that according to my

7:16solicitor can almost be seen as

7:19extortion the document was designed to

7:21take full ownership of Vault Hunters its

7:23assets and all of its funds funds that I

7:26raised money that I invested over years

7:29into the the project I even drove my

7:31company to a loss last year because I

7:33really wanted to continue to develop the

7:35game we're talking hundreds of thousands

7:37of dollars here now it needed my

7:40signature and of course I did not comply

7:42and I did not sign it even if it was

7:45sent to me in my weakest darkest most

7:48horrible

7:49days it breaks my heart even more to

7:52know that five developers that I have

7:54cared for created jobs for created

7:56careers for have called friends Trust

7:59fully and even helped in their mental

8:01laws would sign such a document instead

8:03of at least giving me the benefit of a

8:05doubt one of these developers said that

8:07he didn't put much weight on the

8:09allegations themselves but since Herra

8:11got it spread so widely he felt like my

8:14reputation was ruined and he would like

8:16to take over in order to continue

8:18producing the game that's an admirable

8:21thought perhaps but at the same time he

8:23completely forgot about me now I will

8:26not be naming the five developers out of

8:28respect and their right to privacy but

8:31as of today they are no longer

8:33representing wal hunters or being part

8:35of my team I thank them for all the

8:38incredible work they have done over the

8:40years in the project and I wish them the

8:41best of luck I am going to do my best to

8:44continue to develop Vault Hunters to

8:45finish the plan we had for the game now

8:48this is going to be very very tough I

8:50know that other streamers have also

8:52tried to throw me under the bus and

8:54cancel me and the community we built but

8:57here's the thing Vault Hunters brought

8:59joy to so many people including myself

9:02and that is where my focus needs to be

9:05there's enough trouble and darkness in

9:06the world as it is and I want to bring

9:09light where I can here's the thing guys

9:12I am in charge of my own life despite

9:14what they might tell you or make me look

9:16like this cancel culture of guilty until

9:19proven innocent gives too much power to

9:22the wrong people it happens to people

9:24daily and pitchforks are easy to equip

9:27very easy to equip it's not world I want

9:29to be part of because behind every

9:32cancellation there's a human that gets

9:34hit and man does it hurt the goal here

9:38was clearly to delete me from the

9:40internet to make sure to do as much

9:43damage as possible to my person to break

9:46me mentally and to break every single

9:48window and burn every single bridge for

9:50me it's an evil inconsiderate course of

9:53action designed solely to harm and I

9:56will never lower myself to that level

9:59whatever will be will be I will wait

10:03patiently for the police to do their

10:05thing and to finish the investigation

10:08that I asked them to start and it's time

10:12for me to move on I have entertained

10:15people for years never before have I

10:18burdened you with my troubles or private

10:21life I am sorry that I had to do it

10:25today so here we go a burnt down World a

10:29fractured mental health situation and no

10:31Bridges to walk on luckily I am quite

10:35decent at Building Bridges wooden ones

10:37with Spruce logs Oak planks and some

10:38trap doors or stone ones which I much

10:41prefer thank you to all who have stood

10:43by me in this a big special thank you to

10:46all my patreons who are still supporting

10:48me I hope to see you again soon keep an

10:51eye out on my twitch and YouTube channel

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icarusredwings · 2 days ago

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"What's the dynamic of jake peter and layla?"

Here.

Peter: Ahem... uhm.. It appears that Jake's bed is broken again..

Layla: Again?? Parker that is the 3rd time this year already. How does it keep breaking?

Peter: uhhhhh...

*flashback to jake and him literally jumping on the bed. "Wont layla get mad?" "Im spiderman! People dont *get* mad at me!"*

Peter, blurting out: Sex... AHEM. I-i mean.. thats... it's a possibility...

Layla: *eyeroll* I know you got like super strengh or what ever but you guys gotta be less rough. Or get a super hero grade bed frame or something. We can't afford to keep replacing the normal ones.

Peter: Will do!

*rushes to jakes room*

Peter: Jake(!)

Jake: Que?

Peter, whispering: She knows

Jake: Gasps in spanish-! You told her?

Peter: Yeah, she knows. So we can't jump on the bed anymore

Jake: What? Oh.. I thought you told her about the other thing.

Peter: Oh, I did. Months ago.

Jake: W H A T

Peter: Turns out im not as quiet as I thought..

#spideymoon #spideymoonscarab #moonscarab #jake lockley #layla el faouly #moon boys #peter parker #moon knight #spiderman #No more spiders jumping on the bed #moonspider

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hauntingblue · 3 months ago

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CAUSE THIS IS THRILLER (bark), THRILLER (bark) NIGHT

Usopp's outfit is so funny for reals

He got the whole squad laughing

Luffy enablers at it again.... (Robin.... I know.....)

The humor panels so far have been so good!!! God this arc is so funny

HE SAID IT‼️‼️

They look like birds 😭😭

It's just too good... luffy taking cerberus and zombies what can't he do

It's just banger after banger what can I say

Franky feeling for other people because of his guilt complex and sanji lying through his teeth and pulling out the women excuse to seem unaffected... yeah

Look at them.... look how they ate

Omg joyboy reference?? (No)

Sanji is rubbing off on usopp.... also chopper noticing that is sogeking's weapon akdhaksjak

ANOTHER SLAY!!!!!

Their priorities: I'm not strong enough, there isn't enough food, and nami isn't here

Franky going from wanting to kill brook for his jokes to making a joke like his after he hears his backstory... exactly (Robin was already enabling him before the backstory even fdagjsfha)

Sanji is altering his body and actually being on fire to communicate to us how fucking mad he is..... I need more of him going insane I do I do

My god what is he doing ALDJALAJALA

AHSAHAHQHAH THEY ARE THE SAME!!! naaah sanji wouldn't force a woman to be his wife

You cant see me but I am nodding my head in agreement over and over

You don't understand he altered his body to communicate to us how mad he is. He inploded himself and then reconstituted again. Those germa 66 genes are insane

You tell em usopp!!!! The first of many girls you've scared into defeat!!! Akdjqknql

Zoro zombie regressed to not trusting robin akdjaks he's still in there

ROBI-CHO SUPLEX??? HELL YEAAAAAH

There is zosa- [GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT]

Super frapper gong.... he is doing combo shots with frobin... omg.... parents....

Everything is so fun I'm having such a good time reading.... and then zosan angst like damn I am being fed well here

#in the anime the guys didn't say they wanted to die aldjlajala for the kids luffy just wants to turn into a clam #thriller bark is so funny.... 'worst arc' my ass.... it's funny as hell and then we get zosan angst. best thing ever #same with skypiea but there we got really nice relationships betwen characters and nolan x calgara homoeroticism for the ages #and LORE for the ages. not like the kuma incident won't be talked about in the history books but yeah #everyone calling absalom perv salom... yeah #sanji in that fucking penguin never gets old.... also HELLO LOLA #moira fought against kaido and lost akdjsksnks is that why he became a warlord? just like whitebeard defeated crocodile?? out of spite??#also what is the land of ice where moira got oars? he also mentioned it before too... i thot he was referring to ryuma so it was wano but n #the legend of the continent puller who built a nation of villains.... okay okay oars....#oars was killed 500 years ago.... ✍️✍️ this somehow feels important bc of its closeness to the void century etc #zombie luffy oars wanting sanjis food.... 🚬🚬🚬 of course.....#oars luffy maintaining his dream... yeah yeah. also namis outfits for this arc are so sickening.... i miss them already #the zombie generals being at absalom's wedding... thats so funny..#luffy oars is so funny aldjslsn just making himself a hat and steering his giant ship... of course #you guys think they are going to make sanji mad about the clear clear fruit in the opla or completely ignore it bc his reasoning is bad #like it makes sense with the wci backstory it does but that would be spoilers lmao. so its either he wants to peep on women or nothing #i love the greek chorus of the two zombies telling the audience how they are both as bad in that regard. amazing #did ryuma use french for his attack.... there is zosan everywhere for tho-[GUNSHOTS]#zombie ryuma's design is also cool as hell.... his blood is literally fire.... come on now....#also zoro says he wants to act like this fight didnt happen... is that why he says fuck all in wano to hiyori? damn. he said i put shame #in you and your country but i will keep it quiet bc you gave me a cool sword and fight and i am actually so honorable. thats him yeah...#zombie zoro and sanji remaining tfait being that they hate (love fighting) each other... there is zosa-[GUNSHOT GUNSHOT GUNSHOT]#i forgot how much oars destroyed them... after enies lobby they seem untouchable but without their captain there... the gears are turning..#also btw i cannot believe im gonna get an answer about why the skypieans and the shandians have wings. thats insane #i am enjoying luffy oars so much it is so fun. trying to enjoy it bc i know i won't be laughing anymore once sabaody kicks in.... fuck me..#usopp and franky wanting to wait for luffy to beat oars down but zoro and sanji know... and they will KNOW soon enough....#i forgor kuma asked about ace to nami... what is going on. kuma coming from the warlord meeting too.... did he want to warn him??#he wanted to inform moria about balckbeard becoming a warlord omg here we go.... also moria being racist towards kuma hello???#and he strictly follows the government.... until here bc he lets luffy go.... christ.... he asks about ace bc he knew what blackbeard did..#reading one piece

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mumblesplash · 2 years ago

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do you ever end up accidentally getting super attached to a trope so specific and rare you don't even know how to look for it? 'space aliens failing to understand that a human showing teeth usually isn't a threat display' isn't even an ao3 tag. finding that shit in published fiction or tv shows is next to impossible

#<- guy who searches ao3 by the 'misunderstandings' tag without even specifying a fandom #mumbling #if you've been following me for a while you may remember my introduction to mcyt was when i started scraping the bottom of the barrel #looking for 'humans are space orcs' stories #but what you may not know is that was already a ways down a rabbit hole that began with *avatar the last airbender*#it basically went #'holy shit salvage is a good story' -> read every existing version of hakoda being a good dad to zuko ->#'shinsou hitoshi getting adopted by aizawa has the same vibes fuck it i'll read that too' -> 'why are they aliens in so many of these' ->#get addicted to the 'humans are space orcs' trope -> find a whole collection of fics about that exact thing ->#for some reason the collection is 80% dsmp fics -> i am not picky -> 'oh no they've got a crow-coded father figure' ->#still not rly interested in the dsmp source material -> minecraft kinda interesting tho -> wait what's hermitcraft -> and now here we are #all bc 3 years ago i wanted zuko to have a decent father figure #firelord ozai made me draw pinup art of goodtimeswithscar: the true and harrowing tale of my descent into madness #flameo hotguy or whatever the kids are saying these days

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bones-n-bookles · 28 days ago

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Why are jeans so expensive and why does caterpillar no longer make the same ones I have and love but have a growing crotch hole and why is the most similar type they have very different and also not made in denim

#i want love and need my 7 pockets and 2.5 loops #my front pockets can fit a field guide. easily.#im open to the knee area trio of pockets being just two and different but they STILL MUST EXIST #and i very much like having my dual tool loops and the extra lil mini loop one of my belt loops has #got these jeans at costco like. 3ish years ago. didnt expect theyd already be impossible to find again #im mad and frustrated #i love having all my shit on me without needing a backpack if im not going far/long enough #or just if i want all my shit easily accessible without removing my backpack!!! and that can just house Things I Stop To Get #right now i can have keys/knife/light; phone; treats; garmin [#on my waist bam bam bam bam #and then torchs leash; poop bags; AND A BONUS FREE POCJET STILL #torchs collar i clip onto my belt via caribiner lol #i love that hiking build!!!!!!!#backpack is for LAYERS and WATER and BOOKS and OTHER ITEMS THAT STRIKE MY FANCY and CAMPING/DAY VISIT GEAR #nothing on my upper body so i can shed layers as much as needed up top and not accidentally stuff the poop bags and his leash #into the backpack where theyre less accessible #i do not wish to negotiate pocket size number OR placement #if this journey leads to me buying a sewing machine and denim to make my own damned pair of jeans then #nobody be surprised except if it happens before i move #i dont want to lug a sewing machine across the country #maybe a local friend has one i can use #i need to go to bed

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brooklynisher · 9 months ago

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Furry

Initial sketches

#aaaaaaa #you guys were oddly encouraging when it came down to this #but I did it #I’m now a furry #I mean I kinda already was a furry if you count my animal jam phase but I DIGRESS #I guess it’s not too surprising though #with Isabella being a furry #and the overall association with furry haters and all these other things like homophobia. transphobia. ableism. etc.#(not a guarantee. but a common trait since people tend to hate all those things for very similar reasons)#it’d probably be MORE weird if yall got MAD about me wanting a fursona 😭#but yeah I’ve always vibed with furries #that’s what I get for getting addicted to animation memes all those years ago #my stuff #art #furry #reference sheet

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pondscummy · 11 months ago

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WILD to have been feeling like I was overreacting about my roommate for days and feeling like oh I'm just not giving them enough credit I'm sure they do care about me even though I'm usually pretty comfortable expressing hurt or need to friends and I don't feel safe doing that w them I'm sure it's exclusively a me problem. and then. scrolling back through this vent blog and it's just a log of various times they've hurt my feelings LMFAO

#pond.txt #man. we basically broke up today as friends bc theyd sent me this text a few days ago about how i scare them when I'm mad (bc i texted them #in the middle of the night saying hey i really need to be able to get sleep bc im going through x y and z can you corral your cat bc i know #he keeps you guys up too but like he is Your cat. and they decided that was scary mean lmao like i wish i hadn't deleted the text chain bc #like i Have acted up once before when mad and i can understand them feeling uncomfortable after it even tho it was a very odd situation #but usually i'm either rly conflict averse and avoid the subject and vent here OR I'm like mad-mad in a way i can't hide and i send myself #to my room without talking to anyone like idk why they found that message 'scary.' I'm gonna talk about anger management in therapy just in #case bc i don't want to be lashing out if i am and am just not seeing it but it was not a scary message)#anyway they sent a text about it and how i can always come to them and know it's safe and they don't like that they can't with me and they #don't want me to text when angry anymore and i read it and just was like yeah we're done bc i Can't go to you when I'm upset about literally #anything let alone something you've done and I'm well within my rights to be like it's 3 am and your cat is being So noisy put him somewhere #he isn't disruptive. and if you read into that idk that's on you. being tired and frustrated and explaining why I'm frustrated is not the #same as being scary angry i didn't even curse i was just like i already can't sleep bc i have one position I'm medically allowed to sleep in #and it's uncomfortable and they're fitting me for a brace soon and all day every day is physically exhausting rn i need sleep #<- sentences normal people are terrified of #anyway between those things and them taking potshots at me in the message i was like what is the point of being friends w you and i just #ignored and deleted it and soft blocked them and their gf and muted them both on instagram and today they brought the text up and they were #like are we good and i just kind of hesitated and they went it's also totally cool if you don't want to talk about it and i was like yeah i #don't really want to. i can be civil tho and they were like oh yeah same. i just figured you know we've got another year to go.#and i was like ahhhhh you want out of this friendship just as much as me huh lmao. nothing about repairing anything or getting on the same #page just. telling me that you're tracking the time too. and they seemed sort of relieved that i didn't want to discuss it.#so I'm like yeah we're dead to each other we probably have been for some time. we're just gonna get through now lmfao. be polite and distant #and then fully cut ties and never acknowlegde the other's existence ever again #oh no what a loss for me i won't be around to have me talking about having a seizure totally trampled over and interrupted by their gf #talking about her massive shits anymore. however will i survive.#i broke my arm trying to clear the ice for this girl so she could get to a lyft safely btw. worst move ever. a bitch is not worth this #good lesson in like. if people show me they don't care. my response should be okay they can get fucked then. from the start.#and not a bunch of desperate attempts to make them care. like she has been consistently mean and my 'friend' has consistently taken her side #no matter what and i should've just been like whatever happens happens if you do slip and hit your head again and die #well it was just your time 🙏 peace and love on planet earth

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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 1 year ago

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imo everyone on earth should be talking about Him (don't want this showing up in the tag even though it's not a diss) but everytime i go to the tag and there's only like 3 new posts i'm like. oh yeah almost no one cares except me and like 5 other ppl on here

i ran out of tags KFHSJENNXN i don't think that's literally ever happened to me before anyways don't read them because it's just me being insane as per usual

#most of his indirects on twitter are from people in diff asian countries as well and ik he's doing an asia tour soon(?)#bruh he's never coming back to the usa is he 😭😭😭 i need him in chicago i miss him so bad #i feel very ugly emotionally rn still bc i was reading all of the rando ass dating rumors of him last night LMAO and it pissed me off #i know i have no right to get mad and i'm being irrational but at the same time like. everyone is just like 'omg he's so in love rn'#bc his music has been very angsty and like. idk... conflicted? but his new song was very happy and sweet and very In Love Sounding #and i already know all his music is about one person bc he always talks about the same shit (he's very predictable i see right thru him)#and he's putting out a new song called 'shining' and he has been talking abt a person being his light/shining on him for the last 7yrs atp #so like. that's how i know it's about one specific person and i don't think he has moved on LMAOOO so unless he was dating the same random #7yrs ago i don't think he's dating any of the people they bring up tbh... i pay attention to these things not to brag or anything but like #being attentive to the people i love and noticing inconsistincies in their behavior and when they act diff is like. the only skill i have #at least irt other people LMAO like honestly i wrote all the lyrics he ever wrote down in a google doc and it shows a clear trajectory #that starts like... innocently and just gets more fucked up and toxic as it goes. and ppl say he's one of the most sane ppl they know #meanwhile he's been writing songs about 1 person for nearly 10 years and they get progressively more desperate and insane #I'M JUST SAYING. i completely forgot what my original point was but i guess it was most likely that. no one pays attention to him like i do #the songs started being about this person at the same time i started liking him and having dreams about meeting him btw #and they got progessively more uh. spiteful and desperate and weird as the years went on. did i mention i cast a spell on him 😐#and he literally says shit like 'it's impossible for me to move on' 'i don't care about anyone else' 'it's like i'm possessed' etc #and after we met at his concert he got really into saying shit like 'that one night wasn't enough' and 'the spotlight between us'#&the ever-famous 'i like the way you look at me' 'my eyes are on you' 'focus on me just look at me' when all i did was look at him all night #if you're reading this right now and thinking 'celeste do you seriously believe a kpop guy has been writing songs about you for 7 years?'#you should remember who i am and how i reacted to ***** having a gf (that i guessed exactly right months before he revealed it)#i'm schizophrenic 🤷‍♀️ but the guy i'm into was the one who started my fascination with soulmates and destiny and fate and shit like that #you know it's funny i mention that because he also started writing about that!!!!! in his songs!!! crazy #and he talks about the person making it hard for him to sleep and wanting to meet them in his dreams again and whathaveyou #i mean even in his two newest title tracks he says 'i'm frustrated in the studio the only melody that comes out is for you' and #'i want to turn everything about you into a song' in the newest one... hm.#and btw he announced his album right when i admitted i was in love with him again to my family (they know my insanity LMAO)#and he releases a song about being happy and in love and listening for someone's voice from far away to reach him/vice versa?????#right when i get back into him???#it's my fave color & his fave color & he's releasing it in my birth month like. i know billions of coincidences are a thing but it's crazy

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musical-chick-13 · 1 year ago

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Girl help, I talked myself out of writing a fic because I was worried about being Harassed™

#ugh maybe I WILL just post it anonymously. and not link it here at all. and only send it to my friends.#honestly it's like. not even That Bad. but I know how people get and I will ABSOLUTELY get accused of 'romanticizing [bad thing]'#which like. I don't think people have the best grasp on what that term really means but. also that's...not the purpose of what I'm doing #anyway. like I don't want to go into specific detail but 100% the point of this is to work through an o/c/d thing but I KNOW people #are not going to see it that way. and it's just...like I understand there is nuance here. because talking about the WAY people #write and represent various issues (in fandom and out of it) is helpful I think. and there are a lot of insidious holdovers from various #types of prejudices occurring in those overall trends. but also like...no one except me knows what's going on in my head and what #my intention is. and I can try to make that clear but that's not always going to translate and also if something is meant to Work Through A #Thing then......I don't want to tell people what exactly it is that I'm working through. that is very private information that I don't want #ANYONE to know. and I don't think I should have to put that on display to be ''''allowed'''' to write this thing I'm writing.#it's also once again very funny to me how many people are like 'oh h*nnibal/h*nnigram peak tv true art™' and then like. get mad at someone #for writing something that's equally fucked up but in a different way #like why does this keep happening.#(I have an idea but I already made that post 2 years ago and I got one of my few instances of actual genuine anon hate over it)#ANYWAY

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phagodyke · 2 years ago

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my graduation is supposed to be in august + im requesting to graduate in absentia but i feel terrible abt it bc im not telling my parents 😑

#just bc if i do tell them they'll probably pressure me into going. and i dont fucking want to its my degree i can celebrate how i like #i wont even be living here in august!! and its a wednesday which is super awkward + im only allowed 2 guests but i have 4 parents lmao #which means i have to choose between my mum and dad. which will end up in hurt feelings either way #and theyre making us pay for our own robes which is stupid bc they literally have like 40k from me already #i cant sit in a stuffy hall through a two hour long ceremony that i wont even be able to hear with no one i know ill commit homicide #no point in doing drinks aftwr bc none of my friends have the same graduation date and i dont drink #like theres not a single reason why i would want to go. so im not going to #but i can already feel how disappointed theyll be.... and theyll be more mad if i dont tell them beforehand but i dont want to debate it!!#ik this is such a stupid thing but its making me stress like hell #ugh #my current plan of attack is not to tell them until they ask abt it and then the decision will be made so they cant do anything abt it #even if theyre upset abt it. but i HATE lying even by omission im the least dishonest person ever this is making me feel sick #and i have to tell them eventually bc ill need to get my diploma delivered to them so arghhhhhh #i technically got my degree over a year ago anyway bc i dropped out this is so dumb #they shouldve just been like sorry no ceremony for dropouts!! and then it wouldnt be my problem #whatever. deadline for registering is at 5 so itll be out of my hands once that passes thank fuck #.diaries #i think im getting unnecessarily worked up abt it bc im just generally in a shitty mood tbh #gonna go for a walk and find somewhere to sit and read outside until i feel more sane i think

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idkimnotreal · 4 months ago

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i think a bi guy might want something from me. i don't know if he's closeted.

#bisexuality #he caught me smiling at him off guard #he tried getting my attention which a friend has said is too effortful to be just teasing and he also stares #i've been getting into this universe to see how bi people think #i found an alt account on inst@ where he posted poems #a lot of them definitely feel like 'closeted bi' energy #but poems are really ambiguous so it could be about a lot of things. and i'd already felt deep boy vibes from him #he has a gf #i don't feel like judging him because this might be the first opportunity he has had to do anything about it #in fact i feel regret for not noticing things before and thinking he was mocking me or daring me #he might be thinking about this for months now this was a while ago #it's definitely different if he's closeted #he might feel alone #in a way most people can't fathom #and he trusts me if he's choosing to let me know this but he is in a relationship #unless it's open i mean all possibilities are a thing which is why not judging is important #so i have a vibe too if he took that decision without knowing me #a similar vibe to his because he got me to smile at him off guard which for a gay guy is a huge no in most cases #i've been mad at him for months because he stares and i know he has a girlfriend since he brings that up in class #last time he stared i stormed off the room because i was already intent on changing classrooms for other reasons #but then i arrived late and i was confused because we had a new tutor and when i sat down he was staring #i felt exposed because he KNOWS i am into him. he's known since that first day when he saw me smiling #but this can't be mocking. i think it's mocking when i hate myself and i've hated myself every day for months this year #this changed recently #he's not evil and i'm definitely not the last person on earth far from it and i mean come on look at that face he's just not ev #so he can't be teasing and he can't be thinking about intentionally hurting his gf which leads me to think he needs help if he's so intent #on letting me know about this #he needs something from me and i cannot deny it to him #because that is who i am #also isn't this literally evak from skam

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thebuttsmcgee · 10 months ago

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so. um. 👉👈

hi guysies.

Ig I should just say like. Hi

I haven't been posting here as much cause. Idk. Might be depression? I keep thinking its cause I've been so busy, which also wouldn't be not untrue, but these past, like, 3 weeks I think so far? I've had some free time but I haven't cause. I dunno, then again, I haven't been doing too much in general? I gues, besides very mandatory things, hell I've even been lacking in my regular skyrim hours of playing.

That, and as said, I get super melancholic when I remember just how sad and bittersweet it is that t0h is. Actually legit over. The show and experience, that is.

Oh all that and also becuz my headphones broke! Fuck! That's like number 2 in my bare necessities for when I post, do almost anything really! It's seriously been painful this past month going without headphones holy shit. Dude I've been scratching at the bit for some relief for headphones, I NEED music legitimately. Even right now, as I'm typing this on my phone, my music is on low levels.

But yerp. Its been. Rough. Really rough. I really do appreciate yall, everyone of yall. Have a sweet week everyone, ✌️!

#the butts chronicles #ogh but yea. been rough.#as said I have no idea if we'll keep this house cause man shits been fucked #uhhhh. lets see. recently my sister got into a fairly nasty argument with her husband since they were both drunk and hes a bit of a. hm #quick to being mad guy? I spose? but yea they made up and he actually apologized to me and my family for that so. its okay?#OH YEA FUCK LOL a few weeks ago fuckin tecksas got hit nasty with a hurricane and GUYS. I FREAKED OUT SO BAD LOL #cuz there was hail with the rain but since. I dont think we even ever experienced hail here I was scared that my ceiling roof broke again #and that it was the rain leaking to my room ceiling and was about to burst my ceiling so I legit started hyperventilating and panicking #with like. short and heavy breathing and almost crying badly until I went to look outside and saw hail and only slightly calmed down #oh but yea it was nasty lol. then the next day almost the entire block lost power and apparently sparks were happening cause fallen trees #uhhh. lets see. hmmm. OH OH RIGHT DAMN I FORGOT WE GOT A PUPPY LOL #we've gotten a lil pup all the way back from dec? iirc and she is now older and a shit lol shes in her teething phase and whatnot #still p cute tho and very puppyish. oh yea also during dec our power went out and ogh man dec was so freezing literally.#almost as bad as the one from. uhhh I cant remember the exact year but I remember it being within these past 4 years at least cause I read #a t0h fic during it lol. oh yea speaking of. we also changed our light company and damn. its been not bad so far! we had to pay up to 300 #in our old company and now we dont even get to 200 so far! hope Im not jinxing it! hmm oh did I already say before that I had to get a new #phone? cause I did and I did not enjoy it lol. had it for a while and now and its arguably worse cause no damn headphone plug-in #I think I did mention this but in case. I did finish counseling. well more accurately they required payments again since things and whatnot.#I think? I mentioned the stuff I got for my bday and chmisas. I got mostly neat stuff. I guess. one of them has still yet to arrive lol #uhhhh. hrm. I did get Mr. Martinet's autograph as a present! hrmmm #my other sister got another surgery a while back and its been relatively the same since. hmm. my only other living grandparent passed away #me and my ex got into a. not great argument cause mistakes and whatnot. raccoons in the attic thats hopefully taken care of for now #aaaaand the plushes I ordered a damn near year ago have been technically canceled cause of unfortunate circumstances for the creator #who just kinda. posts things now lol ig.#but yea. lots. holy shit guys. lots has happened. fuck man. I think Ive been way more tired than I thought.#not to mention the past weeks of just. reflecting. man #uhhh #long post #LOL i gues #but yerp.

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713-4th-ward-g · 1 year ago

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#idk i kind of find it fucked up that my dad thinks it was a bad idea to tell me about his life insurance plan #he told my mom “ you think it was a good idea telling him ? you know people kill people for it”#almost if not is insinuating that i would do something like that #idk to me it speaks volumes on how he views me as a person to think i would even think of such a thing #it bothers me to think he would think id do that i definitely dont get along with the dude but i wouldn't do that 😂#like you really think that low of me 😂 bruh that shit is sad to me #i absolutely hated him when i was growing up; literally had everyone walking on eggshells #you literally quite literally couldn't say anything to him or he would get aggressively mad #literally so mad that his screams alone would make my ears ring and hed throw stuff around in his little shed #i would be so scared as a kid helping him with a car maintenance or anything around the house cause any inconvenience #would have the man screaming at me when I've done nothing but try and help and cuss me out for the thing he fucked up something #for years i couldn't hang out with my classmates outside of school near my house without him cussing at me and screaming at me to go home #if he saw me with them at the abandoned next door neighbors house he would literally scream at me and cuss at me to get in the fucking house #and would grab my arm and push me inside; i was just in middle school at the time and ive already been through so much mental abusive #i would get blaimed for anything he did wrong when i would try to help him fix something around the house and it wasnt my fault #screaming and cussing at me calling me fucking stupid in Spanish i hated him so much his excuses are work had him so stressed out #like if that excuses him for taking his stress out on my sister and i; its absolute bullshit the man he is now is just a toned down version #thats why when he did it again not long ago it triggered me so much it brought back so many horrible memories i didnt want to remember #he didnt even apologize to me he just told my mom he was embarrassed and didnt know what got over him like that's an excuse to scream #and cuss at everyone who had nothing to do with him fucking up the wall he had no reason of cutting and cutting a pipe in the process #he was cussing at me saying i dont want to be critique 🤣 like dawg all i was only giving him options to fix the problem #he took that as critiquing and he fucking exploded cussing and screaming in Spanish i was sure we were about to fight again #it wouldn't be the first time ive fought him before when i was a teenager cause he would scream at my mom and grandma #and i would stand up for them and just for that he would throw hands with a 13 year old me a 15 year old me a 16 17 amd 18 year old me #he was a horrible person and i hate it when people tell me he was a good person there that he was a good father cause he provided for my mom #like if thay excuses the abuse he put my sister and i through like fuck that dude he had not right hitting my sister in the face #and mentally abusing us its absolute bullshit and i still have not gotten over my childhood #literally the worst time of my life was my whole childhood for every good time i had there were 10 times more negative shit that happened #so i find it funny that he'd think i would kill him 🤣 for his insurance money i dont want his stupid money #he really thinks that low of me and it's quite sad honestly

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mabonkoraki · 1 year ago

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life update pls are you ditching tumblr

not ditching but also not active, I may pop up here occasionally like i am tonight but that’s about it. Tumblr just isn’t really for me anymore as of right now.

As for an UPDAATE; not a whole whole lot, Ya girl got hitched this year to her bff (obsessed the whole thing was my witchy forest spooky dream), have had so many amazing travel experiences, friendships,etc.

Other than that I’m honestly just really proud of myself, The past 2 years have been crazy and I wish me from 4-6 years ago could really see me now :’) she’d be shocked.

Part of me wishes i could reach out to old people just to hash things out from an older/ new perspective on life(and clear up false things holy shit there’s alot that i’ve learned about),etc. But the past is the past and all I can do is keep growing & healing as a person, and wish the same for them, no matter what animosity may still be there (rightfully so)

That’s all i got! lmao

#me from 3+ years ago literally feels like i’m watching a total stranger??#I wish things could be sorted out and cleared up #There are so many things that are false about both parties #things got extremely out of hand and it should have just been spoken about #but we were young and stupid and still learning how we feel and process everything #we are both guilty for different things #but we both have had false things made up about us to pit us against each other #there is no friendship to be rekindled but there is plenty of closure to be had #T if you see this for whatever reason #i seriously doubt you will but this post will sit here in case there is a time that you for some reason look at my account #You never have and never will deserve the horrible things that have happened and been said to you #I hope you are okay and healing #if you are i am so happy for you #genuinely.#you can be mad and curse me out like you already probably are lmao #just needed to put this out into the universe either way.#we both are guilty but we both had things put out that we said about each other that was completely false.#And ik yk who was definitely trying to spread fake shit and stir the pot lol #If you ever get to the point where you just need someone to vent to #I know i am the ultimate last choice but just know you can reach out to me to talk about anything and I will not bring up the past unless #it’s something you feel like talking about #if you don’t I understand. We are both old now and need to accept that we were both the bad guys in each others story but we were also both #the victim of each others lashing out #be safe and I truly truly hope you are doing well in life. Please stay yourself and always remember your worth Taylor #And thank you for helping me come out of my shell back in highschool. It is something I will genuinely always be grateful for

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gallavichsreddie1128 · 6 months ago

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FWB to Lovers w/ Logan

Description: How Y/N and Logan went from Fuck buddies to Lovers

Warning: Dirty talk

Ever since Y/N, Wade and Logan saved the timeline it has been a known thing that Logan and Y/N had tension and Wade always made it known: “UGH just fuck already Disney can just cut it out of the film.” “What?”

Y/N tried to hide her feelings at first knowing that Logan probably wanted someone his age and not a younger woman with little to no experience. Boy was she wrong: “Wade’s right. We should fuck.”

Though he said that drunk, Y/N couldn’t stop thinking about it. She was sure he wouldn’t remember saying that but the never next day when she just stared at him a little too long she was up against the wall in a second: “We need to hurry before Wade gets back.”

He was huge compared to her and the size kink was real. For his age he had a nice body and a dick that hit all her special spots: “Fuck. I didn’t even know that spot could be reached.”

He took her on everything in that house. The couch, the wall, the beds (even Wade’s), shower, counter and even on a chair. Wade found out and his reaction wasn’t even surprising: “You guys can’t just fuck on my bed and not let me watch.”

Y/N was falling hard for the man and Wade could tell. Her stares were no longer just filled with lust but love. She looked at him like he was the whole world and more: “OMG is the Y/N falling in love?” “Shut up!”

Logan was too and that showed when he found out that Y/N and Wade had slept together before. Though Y/N and Logan weren’t together and only supposed to be FWB, He got extremely jealous: “YOU GUYS HAVE SLEPT TOGETHER?” “Duh. Have you seen us? Two hot people fucking is the norm.”

Y/N and Wade both found it odd that he got mad about that given it was 2 years ago and before any of this. Logan stormed off to his room ignoring them calling his name. Wade looked at Y/N with a knowing look: “Seems like your pussy is a love potion and he had too much of it.”

Though it wasn’t the best idea, Wade went to talk to him about it. Y/N almost wanted to do it herself but Wade offered and said that he wouldn’t crack jokes about the situation: “Listen peanut, I understand that you have a bad boy reputation to stick too but that hard on you’re showing says you enjoyed the thought of it.” “WADE GET OUT!”

Y/N couldn’t sleep that night. Her mind was on Logan and how he just stormed out of the room after hearing that they fucked. Did he love her back? She needed to know. She walked to his door and knocked, not caring if he was asleep or not: “Do you love me?” “Y/N, It’s 3 am.”

He did in fact love her and he should’ve shown it better. Wade always wanted to get under his skin and that’s probably why he mentioned that: “I said that to get you two together. It’s annoying to see you guys act like Blind AL trying to find something.”

Ok Wade maybe a little too far?

Both of them were idiots for not just admitting how they felt but now it was worth it in the end and Wade was to thank: “I’m not thanking you with Tacos!” “Well aren’t you just ungrateful?”

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don’t embarrass me- l.norris

summary: lando and you have a fight on NYE

pairing: lando norris x fem! reader

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You were angry. Every five seconds you had a friend asking if you and Lando had broken up, all because Maugi (one of Lando’s friends) was trying to make it look like she was with Lando. It was infuriating.

“You alright baby?” Lando whispered as he leant against you, the party already in full swing. You looked fabulous. Silver and gold for the new year. You looked like a million bucks. Yet you felt like a fraud. Every time you saw them together you felt yourself… shrink. Like you had to make room for their friendship. Whenever you’d try to talk to him about it, you were met with more questions than answers, and a lot of aggression.

You didn’t care anymore.

“I’m good,” you smiled. “You?”

“I’m great,” he smirked, pulling your waist into his. “You look fucking gorgeous,” he whispered, dotting kisses against your cheek.

You grinned. “Thanks baby.”

His grip tightened but over his shoulder you saw him. Oscar. Lando’s teammate. Lando’s friend. You had a plan, and you were going to make Lando pay for brushing you off.

“Wanna get out of here-?” Lando had started to speak, but he was cut off when you walked away, and straight into Oscar’s arms. He assumed after a little while, you’d come back. You didn’t. You and Oscar spent all of New Year’s Together, while Lando was stuck with Max and Pietra looking every part the perfect couple.

“Why are you sulking?” Max laughed, clapping Lando on the back.

“She’s gone off with Oscar,” he mumbled, looking up as he leant against the balcony railing.

“He is her best mate,” he pointed out. “Join the conversation, or at least hang off her like you usually do.”

He huffed. “She’s mad at me.”

“What did you do this time?” P asked.

“The whole Maugi thing kind of got to her, and when she’d ask me… I kind of brushed her off. She's been off for weeks.”

“So you fucked up?” Max sighed.

“I fucked up,” he nodded. “And now she’s ignoring me, and it’s 3 minutes to midnight.”

“She’ll let you be her New Year’s kiss, surely,” Max scoffed.

Lando nodded, deciding to go find you, but the uncertainty in his stomach had settled long ago.

He caught you from across the room, the absolute picture of beauty. Dancing haphazardly with Lily as Oscar held both your drinks, you danced, somehow looking somehow carefree and elegant at the same time. He smiled. The anxiety in his chest settled momentarily. You were still you. You were still his. You were just upset.

“It’s almost midnight,” he whispered as he wrapped his arms around your waist from behind, joining you in dancing as Lily excused herself to the bar. The red flashing lights and alcohol in both your systems made your dancing look a lot dirtier than it had intended to be, but alas, he just enjoyed feeling you close.

“Oh yeah?” You asked, turning around to him. “Finding Maugi anytime soon?”

He rolled his eyes. “You think I’d want her over you?”

“You don’t make it look any different,” you scoffed.

“Baby,” he smirked, practically laughing. “You’re the most perfect, incredible, kind, woman I have ever met. I love you. You’re my everything. I’ll admit when you came to me about it, I could’ve responded better, and I’m sorry. I was stressed about the way the media saw it, and I didn’t know how to respond to you. I’m sorry.”

You smirked. “That’s all I needed.”

He giggled, pulling you into him. How had he ever pulled you? He was such a loser when it came to you. He’d do anything.

“Do I get my midnight kiss?” He smiled, his cheeks blushing.

“You’re such a baby,” you chuckled as the timer counted down. You wrapped your arms around his neck. “Don’t ever embarrass me like you have, ever again.”

You pressed your lips to his and bit down on his bottom lip. You made him scared. Is it bad that made him hard?

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