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Lance has unexpectedly passed. We suspect he may have eaten a toxic plant when he escaped a couple times recently, as he had been vomiting nonstop and was very lethargic and hiding.
My mom also keeps her lily outside. If you know, you know.
All of the vets were closed, even the ER (only 12hr) so I decided to take him the next day. He did not make it to the next day. Around three am I heard him yowl loudly and I knew that was the end. I stayed by his side and so did Leo and Bella while he passed in my arms.
When I saw his hiding behavior and how he slowly moved from room to room, constantly accompanied by his brother, not responding to catnip and barely to pets, I think I knew. But I wanted to believe. To hope. He was still young, after all. But by the time a cat shows symptoms, it is often too late.
This has devastated me and I genuinely don't know if I can keep going without him. He was like a child to me. When I held him, my wails of grief rivaled any sound he could make. I have never made a sound like when I saw him lying there before, nor did I think I was even capable of it. I've never even heard such a sound, except for videos of people in warzones holding their lost children. I have lost several relatives, pets, and friends, but I have never felt such a feeling. It's like I'm a ghost, drifting from room to room. I'm watching from the outside and often find myself staring at one spot for no reason whenever I'm reminded of him. I sleep with his collar nearby, and feel the phantom pressure of a cat on me. My limbs are always numb and my chest aches. My body isn't my own. I can't go into public yet, because I'll only burst into tears the moment his face crosses my mind.
He was buried yesterday morning. This blog will stay up in memory of him. I may post old pictures occasionally.
(most TWs mentioned in tags are right below cut. seriously, do not click if you don't want to read about my mental illness and grief.)
This is his last picture alive and well, taken a few weeks ago. (He loved feet and shoes)
And this is his last photo ever, before we buried him.
It's like he's sleeping. That's what I've told myself since he passed. He's just sleeping.
He was so soft. He was so warm. He was my baby, my son.
He was at the top of my list of reasons to live. I had picked three reasons. Now there are only two, both of which are substantially weaker.
I have people to care for Leo and Bella, and my affairs are pretty much in order. I will not kill myself (don't get your panties in a twist 🙄), but if I die from grief then I will die at peace, my final declaration of love. The ultimate proof that I loved him so much, that I physically could not exist without his love. I pray for death to take me as I sleep, for God to take me how he did Enoch. For this pain and void in my heart to be gone forever. For me to join him in eternal slumber.
We'll just be sleeping. But we won't be alone. We'll have each other.
We're just sleeping.
I love you.
#goodbye#for now#maybe we'll meet again#maybe not#but to live is to love#and to love is to live#i loved you#i still do#i just wish you were here to feel it#to see it#im sorry#no one will probably ever read this#still#he deserves this#and i need this#tw death#tw sui ideation#tw sewerslide#tw grief#tw animal death#tw cat death#tw depression#tw mental illness
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Today while I was out on my mobility scooter I saw a person in maybe their mid 20s with short pink hair, wearing this kinda puffy beige and white striped shirt tucked into beige formal trousers walking along with a cane in one hand and reading from an open book with the other. I can't draw people well enough to portray their sheer majesty but just know that they were so cool and I wish we were friends
#literally my first thoughts upon seeing this person was 'we need to be friends'#unfortunately they were walking away and also reading#maybe we'll meet again
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#t#i am sad that we're not each others first person anymore#but it is what it is#maybe we'll meet again
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ADAM JENSEN • DEUS EX: MANKIND DIVIDED (2016)
#just something quick for his birthday today 💛🖤#adam jensen#deus ex#deus ex mankind divided#dxmd#dxedit#gamingedit#dailygaming#mikaeled#refinedstorage#mydx#mygames#mystuff#flashing tw#still so sad at the news this IP has been abandoned#maybe one day we'll meet again 😭😭
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CSM #123 SPOILERS
Credit to Reddit user sebajun10 who explained why Fujimoto gave the Falling devil those specific powers.
#wonder if we can use that to figure out what the others can do#chainsaw man#csm#chainsaw man manga#chainsaw man 123#csm 123 spoilers#csm 123#falling devil#so like are we going to see hell again?#power???#maybe we'll meet her when the next herald of the apocalypse shows up#thought I'd share this here cause damn it seems like too good to not let more people know
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you have my soul, you have my heart ♡
#LUCY#Band LUCY#Shin Yechan#Choi Sangyeop#Cho Wonsang#Jo Wonsang#Shin Gwangil#LUCY fanart#take 2 because i'm a distaster and posted this on the wrong blog haha#still figuring how out to tag these lol#kitkatart#i did it!! it's finally done!! on time!!!#well maybe not on time but in time lol#2022 encore concert live clip of flare my love#flare really is one of my absolute favorite songs#no matter how many times i hear it i fall in love with it every time#but this version in particular is so magical :)#i was thinking i might make a few freebies of the individual member versions for the vancouver show#do you think people would like that? i've never made freebies before so i'm not sure!#i think i'd be too shy to post about it and then hand them out but we'll see haha#okay back to chores and concert prepping again#i cannot believe i'm going to two lucy concerts and then have a work conference like two days after#i was only going to go to one concert but was convinced to go to a second at the last minute. to be fair it didn't take much convincing#this really did take forever but part of that is probably bc i haven't drawn anything real in like more than a year#also was i testing the procreate layer limit or was the procreate layer limit testing me lol#okay i'm done now i'll stop yapping :D#i hope you're all doing well!!#UPDATE: i did pass these out as freebies and also i got to give these to the lucys AHHH#I will never be over seeing them live and getting to meet them oh my gosh#they were soooo amazing and so so so sweet 🥺 other walwals at the concerts were also so nice!!
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The one that got away (part 3)
....... hi. my exam's in a week. toriel has just received news on the kid she met for quite literally 5 minutes and then became a missing person's case. we are both experiencing the same amount of mental anguish.
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#..... how do i even tag this one#undertale bluebird#undertale au#toriel dreemurr#sans undertale#do i tag clover#eh fuck it sure why not#clover uty#clover undertale yellow#in my head sans and toriel first meet mayyyybe 2-3 years after clover fell??? or maybe just a year#once again uty makes my own timeline headcanons weird so shhhhhh we'll just wave off any time shenanigans
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exurb1a, from "Inventory" in Poems for the Lost Because I'm Lost Too
#lit#literature#typo#typography#fragments#light academia#dark academia#oops typo!#exurb1a#love#poetry#poem#quotes#aesthetic#i didn't have this one dog-eared for some reason but i still had these two lines underlined#something was pulling on me to look for this poem (bc truthfully i forgot that i even underlined this part lol)#im so glad i went back to look for this poem though#bc now i'm crying at 10:30 am :')#maybe we'll meet again under better circumstances#that's what i hope at least if you're reading this#240304
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zoraal ja just need a good dicking and maybe he'll be less evil and wont have to die
#my dick#zoraal ja#ffxiv#ffxiv spoilers#dawntrail#ive been daydreaming about the upcoming FFXI alliance raid#the raid probably wont reach that far but gulool ja ja and zoraal ja are on FFXI#so maybe... maybe#we'll meet them again#but how idk#hope they keep zoraal ja's big pecs
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I couldn't stop thinking about an AU where Daniel resorts to gathering vitae again, this time to 'cure' Hazel, after his Brennenburg adventure💫, thoughts all mainly derived from this loadscreen text that tells us that Hazel is still in hospice care by the time the game's story began.
As much as I love Daniel, I don't think he really learned all that much from his experience even in the most charitable ending towards him in which he saves Agrippa. I can very, VERY easily see him slipping back into old ways if it meant saving Hazel. The most he seems to approach viewing torture as bad is when he realizes he himself no longer counts as an innocent so he can't justify killing others to save himself anymore. But killing no good, horrible, bad people to save HAZEL? Now, we're cooking with gas 😀 💀
#amnesia the dark descent#daniel of mayfair#hazel amnesia#fan art#frictional games#curing hazel AU#is what i'm calling it 🤣 i have a lot of other ideas i've been brainstorming#i'm considering this a title page i guess idk 😐 i kind of want to make this a larger project i work on but we'll see how that turns out 😅#also the lighting here is only for the drama💫 i don't think hazel would actually drink bright blue tea even if daniel gave it to her 😂#other things i'd like to explore in this au maybe: daniel and hazel reuniting/daniel taking her to live with him in london#the orb coming back into the picture wouldn't it be funny if the shadow brought it back like 'here you forgot this' lmao#obvs not SAYING that but the vibe💫#daniel being a bad scary man again which is highkey heartbreaking to imagine 🥲#daniel almost getting caught by authorities and giving them the orb like 'here's all the info you need 😊' knowing damn well he just marked#those men for the shadow now rip#hazel living a 'normal' life not knowing what daniel be up to#hazel being healthy 🥲#hazel meeting the mandus she meets that is oswald's great grandfather?#i have IDEAS#and i know most of them probably won't get drawn which is why i'm word vomiting them into the tags 🤣
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🫖🐭☁️🍚
#so i did meet my old friend from years ago yesterday. i was sooooo nervous omgggg. and i was waiting outside the café we agreed on#and then saw them walk in and i was like omgggg. the anxiety... but then i gathered courage and walked towards it and thry saw me thru the#window and came out and immediately hugged me. then they were like 'omg i've been so nervous. even more than before like a date!!'#so that made me relax a bit. i feel like i dont really fully estimate what i mean to them. maybe they care about me as well haha !!#then we just got our stuff and i chose a smoothie and was ready to pay but they just got it with their stuff (they work at this chain so#they got a discount). i feel so so bad & anxious when someone else pays for me. like i feel like a burden#but i asked twice if i should send them money for it and they were like no that's fine. so i had to tell myself to just shut up abt it 🥲#bc if u keep asking u make it into a thing and make them uncomfortable etc. so i really appreciated that and it was nice even if i felt bad#but yeah then we just sat down and talked. and it was so much easier to talk to them than i had been worried abt#like it flew nicely and yeah.. i feel like i forgot a lot abt them. like they're good at conversating. so they kept it going & even if i was#awkward it was fine for them. i did however get swept up in my own anxiety so as they asked me questions i answered#but then was too whirlwindy so i didnt really ask as much back and there were things i wanted to ask but didnt :')))#then they had cards and a card game with them. so we played for a bit too. and it was a lot of fun!!! (i was anxious and kinda slow lmao#bc when i dont know smth or the rules etc already my brain stops working so yeah.. even if it was simple games i was like um um what do i do#felt stupid but yeah again they didnt do anyhing to contribute to me feeling stupid but i still felt slow >.<#but i still thought that was so much fun. i wanna do more of that T-T like yeah...that was nice#then we took a lil longer walk to a bus stop before hastily said goodbye bc the busses came T-T#it was really really really nice tho. i have missed them a lot#and i didnt .. think we would ever see eachother again. i really didnt think this could happen#im so glad i somehow got brave enough to message them and im so so glad they wanted to see me too#i cant help but wish i could go back to when we were younger#and we spent every day in school together and messaged during the days and evenings and spent sm time together#when we went into the city like several times a week and took long walks. ahh... well. im glad we got to have those moments#& idk what will happen now. i really really want to see them again. even if we'll never be that close friends again i'd *wish* that we could#still be in touch. but im so bad at replying which doesnt go over great with them.. i'll try my best to reply quicker to them#*if* they message me. sadly i cant erase my avpd but i'll try my best to reply faster if and when they message)#they also complimented my sweater i was wearing (which is my fav sweater) !!!! and yeah.. they looked so cool. which they always have#and i kept thinking abt how nice their eye makeup was (i was too shy to compliment it tho bc im really bad at like 'nice' affectionate and#anything feeling related. like im so bad... so i couldnt say anything </3)#ugh it was just so nice to sit and talk with them. im so glad i went despite my fears. bc this was so good and nice :')))
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2514.
I am so fucking easy, though. Dear Lord in Heaven I am so fucking easy when it comes to German metal. Swear to God the world is ending but if I get in my car and I hear "RATATATA" -- this is completely true -- if I get in my car and I hear "RATATATA" then that means I still can pull this shit around somehow
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#poetry#365#this is 9000% true though#i got out of county dems meeting tonight the vibes were tense#i got in my car#RATATATA started#because my current playlist is electric callboy citi zēni lion babe#and then one lingua ignota song to spice things up#but the point is RATATATA is a totally expected song to hear#and it still just like remade me#the world is gonna be okay#we have electric callboy and babymetal we're gonna be fine somehow#don't know how! listen to RATATATA again and maybe we'll figure it out#Youtube
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rip to the people who literally only just followed me this morning and then subsequently unfollowed me the very same day amidst my grief, honestly guys i don't even blame you 😂
#this made me laugh because i get it i'd unfollow me too maybe we'll meet again someday#some of you survived so thanks for that and i will get back to a somewhat coherent gif posting schedule i hope...
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i’m pretty surprised that you can be in a fandom without really checking the tags regularly for new content or discussions that’s pretty impressive
ive got twitter for that and twitter has shown me enough as is
#snap chats#i dont even check twitter specifically for rgg its just that my algorithms been formed that way cause friends send me tweets#on the real though jvALEKJEKL ive always. how you say. played with dolls alone#so being alone online isnt hard or anything particularly 'impressive' to me its just how i roll#ive always lived in my head i guess- with my interests that is. its fun up there vlkeajkla#i still like to hear from other people of course but for the most part im happy with just myself im not all that pressed for others#i think its also just. i have. other interests? so i dont really think i want to look at One Particular Thing that day. at least for tumblr#i MIGHT just cause thats how the day goes but i dont think 'i feel like looking at rgg art today'#whatever i see I See and that'll be that yk i love a lot of things and think of a lot of things#evidently SOME things take a hold of me more than others- or ill wanna be more public bout it at least#but thats jsut cause i just feel SO MUCH for Whatever Thing It Is At The Time that i want to share it. so then i do jvlskjs#with that in mind can i really say im 'in' a fandom when i dont particularly interact with it LMAO#again always happy to do so but im like an estranged uncle if anything#come over once a year to drop gifts off then i leave. ill still respond to holiday cards though if theyre sent#also for discussions ill usually just talk to my brother about it since he'll usually be The Main Sponge for my rambling LOLOL#god's strongest soldier i promise i try to hold back but im afraid i feel my brain physically tickle my skull#my brother always has to watch in real time me be consumed by a piece of media. like its a symbiote its really funny#cause at this point we'll meet in the kitchen and ill start like 'you know whats really funny..'#and he'll just. 'ok so who's it about today' LIKE PLEAAAASSSEEE. anyways prepare for my ninth 90 minute lecture about This Character#i also have a friend that i talk about my interests with- not all the time but enough that im like. Yeah Im Good Talkin Bout This#like the dopamine in my brain is activated JUST enough when i get to have quick short convos bout it with her#honestly maybe i should use my blacklisted main and rb ALL of my sideblog posts there#just so the people following that can Also witness me be consumed in real time <- will not do this
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i actually have not been able to stop thinking about the teaser im going completely feral . actually gonna die when i watch the new ep i think .
i've had sm on my mind lately that it drifts in and out i'm mostly excited for fyolai reunion i'm praying w literally all my heart that nothing bad happens to them on the way out of of meursault
#i think the doa is just meeting up again bc why else would they be in a helicopter?? they're probably going to join fukuchi#yea. everything is fine#but. that antidote was the only one in the world. if fyodor gets it dazai's a goner fs :(#even more so than he alr was#do i want fyodor to live just so dazai can die? no. do i want dazai to live but it will result in fyodor's death? also no.#nikolai cmon you should've made two antidotes what if there was tie😭#chuuya and dazai are unsupervised in meursault tho now.. so maybe we'll get some rly homoerotic shit next chp hopefully#lotus's asks
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posting this to save it, since they're shutting down pocket camp. this is my personal 9/11
#oh rudy we'll meet again soon... maybe. i dont like new horizons. i dont know if i want to play that#thoughts
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