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the micolash and damian brainworms hitting hard i have work to do but i need to draw scary yaoi .
#madmansknowledge#its interesting. been exploring my ideas of damian#Oh.. Poor thing … Just looking for someone to order him around …….#to serve or to help ? He looks very sad . Maybe … something bad happened in his childhood#<- voice of guy making shit up about an npc with Notning about him#by the way its like. idk they arent dating exactly . its complicated#maybe they kiss but its more like? Its queerplatonic#micolash just doesnt love people in any traditional way ..??.
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So the most romantic in the relationship is Leo? Because...well, Yuichi is not one to call Leo names.
Can I give some flowers to Yuichi? I don't know what his favorites are.
i wouldnt say romantic since theyre both aroace and their love is queerplatonic ! they think of each other as their best friend above all else
Y: "wow you are my best friend and i'll vomit at the idea of kissing you on the mouth" L: "same bro"
but ehh i also Wouldnt say that hes the most ? passionate with it ? hes the most open with his affection , Shows it the most , sure, but i think yuichi is the more intense in his feelings yknow especially since leo has weird commitment and attachment issues issues BUT LIKE . basically id say yuichi is a Little more into it but its just shown more in private rather than openly , leo knows it well
however one doesnt love more than the other of course ! its just like . they show it differently ! theyre both equally dedicated 2 each other
"i'd kill for you. and die for you. i’ll love you like a dog. you don't need to love me back. i'll devote my life to you, lowkey. maybe." "can we do laundry together"
also yes u can give some flowers !! his favorites are skeleton flowers and bee orchids :] and he loves plants so so much so hes a happy fella
"thank you!! so much!! i've never seen bee orchids in person before, they're so cool, and--they're my favorite show of floral mimicry to attract pollinators, they do it so well, and i've never seen skeleton flowers outside of japan wow"
#dj ramblings#rottmnt#tmnt#dj art#rottmnt leo#fanart#save rottmnt#unpause rise of the tmnt#yuichi usagi#rottmnt fanart#leosagi#graves au#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#asks 4 dj#queerplatonic
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I was going to make this a poem but I feel inept in that regard right now so buckle up for Just a Rant
I'm 28 years old and I've identified as so many things that I've stopped counting. And I don't think that any of them truly were "wrong" and that just adds to my confusion.
I thought I was bi, I came out as asexual when I realized other people thought about "sex" and I did not. I came out as demisexual when I met my first girlfriend and I realized making her cum made me feel good. I came out as nonbinary cause I realized I'm not cis and that felt like the "less radical" thing to come out as. I came out as a trans woman when I realized I wanted to transition and I thought that estrogen was just for women. I came out as nonbinary and butch when I realized that people's well-meaning "womanhood 101" felt just as oppressive as the endless choir of "how to be a man". I called myself a bambi lesbian when I found REAL ADULT LOVE for the first time and I did realize that I quite liked the label and the things that it contained. I spent years skirting the edges of identity and listening to weirdos giving me exclusionist talks until I threw all that in the bin and stopped giving a fuck what other people thought about the divide between "bi" and "lesbian" and what that all meant about who was allowed to be what and why.
I came to realize that to me "lesbian" is more about my feelings regarding EVERYTHING that society expects of me in terms of gender AND sexuality and that maybe if it truly came down to wording it I was panromantic.
I started exploring polyamory more and realized that most of my relationships had at least been partly queerplatonic.
My relationship with one of my partners started as as non-romantic, non-sexual and then gradually started looking more and more that way. We started being horny for one another, we had so much sex one time they visited me that I injured myself a number of times. Eventually over the years they lost their libido and I spent some time crying in therapy cause I thought that meant they didn't love me until I realized that they obviously do love me and if they desire sex or not REALLY shouldn't matter to me as an ace person in the first place.
I got into another relationship, with one of my long time best friends, and that ended up involving sex. I realized I'm not exclusively a top and a dom, I realized that maybe I wasn't just stone butch after all. I started exploring all that more.
Eventually my partner of 5 years came out to me as aromantic and I thought that my heart broke until they told me that they'd always felt that way and they just lacked the words. When we sat down and mapped out common ground I'd never felt as happy and I came to realize that love could change and still be whole.
I started getting closer with someone and I realized that I wanted to hold her hand and maybe kiss her. That budding romance came to be one summer long and there were countless talks of what "romance" actually meant because after my partner's coming out I started to deconstruct all that. I entered that connection prepared to get my heart broken and then the heartbreak never came. We've been together for over a year and we've redefined what "together" means multiple times and what remains the same is that we love each other.
I'm a service top. I'm a power bottom. I'm a switch verse. I'm a soft stone butch. I'm a bambi dyke. I'm a transfem femboy tomboy drag peasant. I'm a lesbian but not in the way that society thinks. I'm asexual, I'm aromantic, I'm so in love.
Does it make sense? Maybe not. But love is like a living being. You cannot rightly cut open its skin and dissect it without killing it.
#queer#contradictory labels#labels#lgbtq community#lgbtq#queer labels#love#romantic attraction#identity#gender identity#queer community#lesbian#dyke#punk dyke#butch dyke#butch#stone butch#butch lesbian#lesbian love#queer questions#questioning#gender#unlabeled#transgender#trans#trans questions#trans questioning#nonbinary#nonbinary butch#coming out
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Also most forgot you asked me to make this a request!
Lu'tsunwi idea!
Lu'tsunwi with a human in a queerplatonic relationship!
Okay! I remember a certain headcanon one shot you made with Tonowari once! And I loved that!... what about a human who is almost like... sleepy spoken, their very kind and adore animals and plants. Maybe they get incredibly lost and distracted easily? For example:
"Oh my... I wasn't expecting this.."
"Oooohh, what's that- opp... I'm being carried again... guess a quick air nap won't hurt.~"
Lu'tsunwi is gonna have multiple heart attacks but God if he doesn't adore his human friend to bits. I can even see a scene where the human just... nonchalantly gives him cheek kisses out of nowhere out of affection and his brain is just on... rebooting mode!
I dunno... I think it be a cute dynamic!
Its been a hot minute since syawn got a new chapter. So here we go! Hope you all like this one!
Syawn series
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Syawn: Yare'o
Lu’law is loud and rambunctious, Lu’lafyon is loud and bold.
Li’tstunwi?
Loud and over stressed.
But not for his siblings, more than half of the time he is also part of whatever bullshit they get themselves into. If anything, Lu’tstunwi would most likely laugh at his siblings' stunts or make fun of them.
So why over stressed? Well that is reserved for one person, and one person only.
*CRASH!!*
“YARE’O!”
“Hahaha….oops…”
His childhood friend, the world record breaking clumsy, dutsy girl, Yare’o.
Yare’o by all means is a sweet, caring and very laid back girl. Part of the second generation humans live permanently in pandora. You think that living in a planet where anything and everything can kill you, humans would be constantly worried and be extra careful, to make sure they live another day.
Yare’o on the other hand literally lets fate decide where she goes.
Which is nice and all. But its an absolute nightmare to poor lu’tstunwi who cares for her overall well being.
“Its not that bad, dont worry about it” yare’o dismisses with a goofy smile.
Lu’tstunwi held in his internal screams, “not that bad?! My sister at heart, you WERE BEING CARRIED BY A THANATOR IN ITS MOUTH!”
His dearest friend merely shrugged.
“And? It got curious of me, and you know what? He looked so cute and cuddly”
Oh dear eywa, may she take him now.
Lu’tstunwi sighs tiredly, pinching the bridge of his nose.
“Thats it, from here until I say so, you are grounded! You are to not leave this human base until you learn your lesson! And to make sure of it, Im putting you right here!” he declares as he puts yare’o on a rubbery platform.
Yare’o weight was light compared to na’vi strength, so it was easy for lu’tstunwi to carried her anywhere.
“Learn my lesson? Lu, it just happens ya know? Just go with the flooooow~”
Not buying it, lu’tstunwi turns around to look for tape, but as he does he fails to notice a green blinking light.
“And to be extra sure, I'm taping you to the-where did you go?”
Yare’o was gone, and so was the table that he sat her on.
“Waaaaaa~! How fun!” yare’o smiles to herself and claps in glee. She clearly has no idea where she is going but wonders what happens next.
The trails that connected to the table she was sitting on were moving in odd directions. Left, right, right, straight, left.
“Oooooohh!! Hello!” yare’o waves at some stingbats that cling onto the outside windows. She never understood why the humans fear them, they are simply misunderstood creatures.
“YARE’O!!”
Quickly the girl looks up at the windows, she sees lu’tstunwi following her while shooing away the stingbats.
He looks clearly panicked and trying to keep up at the speed of the movements.
“Its going to be ok! I'm going to get you out!” he shouts as he quickly runs to reach the end of the trail.
“Take your time!” yare’o shouts back.
“Hm, getting a bit hungry though, teylu roasts with nuts and yerik kebabs sounds good right about now…”
Norm was getting too damn old for this, and his hairs are already grey and thinned out. He does not need another anxiety inducing problem. Too bad yare’o exists.
“In my defense grandpappy, he put me there” yare’o was quick to point fingers at her dear friend.
Lu’tstunwi stood stunned, while, yes it technically is true he put her on the moving table, “but I didn't know it was still operating!” He defended himself.
Norm rolled his eyes, “its barely the afternoon, please go outside or something” he pleaded.
Yare’o was all too happy to leave, wanting to enjoy some fresh air-oop there she goes.
“YARE’O!!!” norm and lu’tstunwi shouts as they just witnessed the girl be taken from a wild ikran.
The winds were delightful in the afternoon. Perfect time to ride ikrans. And so that is what lu’lafyon and lu’law along with their mother and uncle lo’ak did.
“Alright one more time!” lo’ak shouts, lu’lafyon nodding.
They align their ikrans parallel to each other, very carefully they support each other to stand up. To make it look like they are wind surfing.
“BE CAREFUL!” syawn shouts worryingly.
“DO A FLIP!!” lu’law encourages.
Lo’ak and lu’lafyon almost had it until a wild ikran was flying above them. While holding something in its claws.
It was yare’o hanging upside down while smiling down at them.
“How’s it hanging?” she said so calmly.
The four stared at her shocked.
“Do you need help?” lo’ak asks, quickly recognizing her as his other nephew's friend. Yare’o shook her head.
“Nope, I'm fine. Tell lu’tstunwi I will be home late!” she shouts before the wild ikran takes a turn.
Li’law and syawn were dumbfounded at what they just saw.
“You guys saw that too, right?” lo’ak asks, hoping he wasn't hallucinating. Everyone saw. How to even process it was another thing entirely.
The ikran flew for awhile before it hit some branches, making it let go of yare’o. She falls down to a nice patch of moss, softening her blow.
“Well, that was fuuuuuun~”
Calming her hair down after being blown for a long time, she makes her way around the forest. Not bothering with how far she is to the village or how long it will take.
“Oooh, pretty flowers-oh wait, what a cute bug-is that a banshee’s tail???”
So many things have captured her wonder and attention, its hard to keep track at all.
“So you saw her, and it didn't cross your mind TO HELP HER!?” lu’tstunwi scolded his siblings as his voice cracked a bit. He has been searching all over for her, only to be given some information by his oh so helpful siblings, of where yare’o went.
Lu’law and lu’layfon shared a look, their eyes hinting a bit of regret.
“She said she was fine” lu’law said.
“And that she would be back late” lu’lafyon answered.
Lu’tstunwi only groaned in frustration.
The other two looked at him in great surprise. He should get used to how wild and easily distracted his dear friend is. Yare’o lets life take her wherever it chooses. Yes there has been plenty of close calls but never anything that is certain death.
“Maybe just wait…? Trust in her bro, she will come back in some form or another” lu’lafyon tries to calm his brother.
Lu’law nods, “yeah, if she says she is coming back late, then she is coming back late. You can scold her then”
Lu’tstunwi wants to argue back but he knew they have a point. Only if that was easy.
“Oh my that was a good dinner” yare’o huffs out with her tummy full. She arrives at the village in great timing. It wasnt so late, she can see a few na’vi still walking about. No doubt she missed dinner time but she didnt walk all this way on an empty stomach either.
“Now to head ho-”
“YARE’O!”
There he is.
“Aaah, lu’tstunwi, guess what, I saw-”
“Share it later! I am very upset with you!” lu’tstunwi interrupted her with his anger still visible.
“Lu, if you continue to stress like that, you will start to age faster than your siblings” she points out.
“Stress isnt good for you, try to relaaaaaaaaaax~”
Lu’tstunwi wasnt going to relax.
“Relax?! How!? Im always worried whats happening to you, if you are ok, or if you are in any form of danger! And you let stuff happen! ‘Go with the flow’ my ass! Am I the only one that cares for your well being! Because its starting to look li-”
In the midst of his rant, he felt warm lips on his hand, he looks down to see yare’o pull away from her soft kiss. She looks up at him and smiles.
“You are so tall I cant reach your cheeks” was her reason.
Lu’tstunwi lightly blushed and looked away.
“Let's get you home, and I'm asking norm to put a tracking device on you” he grabs his friends small hand and leads her to the human base.
“Okaaaaaaay~ Hey, wanna stay overnight? I like sleeping on your chest” yare’o asks while looks at the pretty atokirina flying over her.
“Of course! Have to make sure you are not taken in your sleep” lu’tstunwi replies.
Yare’o doesn't doubt that.
Aaaaaaaaaand that is it for this one! I hope you all enjoyed it! What do you guys think of yare'o? leme know your thoughts! Until next time! see ya!
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yearning (g, Eddie pov, buddietommy)
my take on a queer/asexual/questioning eddie
“Eddie, I want you to do a little research” —
Eddie bit his lip to contain his groan at the word ‘research’. He had come to have the kneejerk reaction to it due to Buck’s insistent need to research everything. It was endearing, don't get him wrong, but he could easily get tired of the yapping.
—“on the orientation of Asexuality,” Frank suggested close to the end of Eddie’s therapy session. “Maybe its romantic counterpart of aromanticism, too, wouldn’t hurt. Whom you are attracted to does not garner the same amount of distress in you as much as the how. I think the asexual spectrum may be of comfort to you, considering what we’ve discussed previously of your views towards sex and dating feeling like you have to perform in those situations.
“Unfortunately, I cannot—and I would not—tell you what you should identify as, but I feel like, even if you’re not asexual, learning that it is a possibility may help you feel more settled. Furthermore, it may open the door to more exploration if you so choose. Once you have a baseline of information, we can discuss further, if needed, at the next session. ‘Sound good?”
At Eddie’s overwhelmed look, Frank gave a tiny chuckle. “Here, I’ll write it down so it's easier to remember for you.”
Eddie took the paper from the therapist and gave him a hearty handshake. “I will. Thanks again, man.”
—♠—
The paper sat on his bedside table for three and a half days until a restless and hot night after a whirlwind of saving people from themselves and other members of humanity left Eddie unable to get comfortable enough to sleep.
With a sigh, Eddie reached for the paper, illuminated red by his alarm clock, and his phone. Might as well do some reading at 3:37 in the morning.
“Asexuality,” Google read, “is the lack of sexual attraction to others, or the low or absent interest in or desire for sexual activity.”
Well, what a loaded definition.
Eddie’s head thunked against his headboard, dropping his phone to his chest as he stared at the ceiling. Yes, he’s described dating and sex as feeling like a performance. With Shannon, it was his first real relationship, them being so young. The Church and his culture told him to be a man he needed to find himself a good woman and only bed her after they were married. That was fine with him. But the act itself felt gross that first night. The noises, the sweat, the skin to skin contact, and the dirty talk always felt so awkward to him. And he hated the anxiety of making sure she felt good, that she was always satisfied. Eddie could stick his gloved hands in bloodied flesh all day long, but the thought of reaching into a woman just to find a bunch of nerves—no.
Then Shannon got pregnant, their marital-duty fulfilled, and Eddie found his out in the military where he went years without having sex, and truthfully didn't think much of it at all.
But touching he missed. And kissing. He could never get enough. The closeness, the intimacy, the soft caresses, the security of having someone or being in someone’s arms… His soul craved for it when he was gone.
Hmm, maybe the doc was on to something.
But what really caught his attention was queerplatonic relationships: a type of relationship, most commonly non-romantic, where there is an intense emotional connection that goes beyond a traditional friendship.
Well, damn, that was him and Buck to a tee. Buck, whose attention he sought out, whose comfort he craved (even more so than Shannon, truly), who had wormed his way into the fabric of Eddie’s life to the point that he felt secure in leaving Christopher to in the event of his death.
And Buck, whom Christopher had attached himself to like a leech moreso than any other partner Eddie has had.
But was what he felt for Buck considered romantic? True, Eddie had craved to press his lips against Buck’s after the tsunami, and the lightning, but was that inherently romantic? Who could say. For right now though, queerplatonic partners had a nice ring to it. He would ask Frank at their next session.
—♠—
Then Tommy flew into the picture and Buck was suddenly bisexual and what Eddie had wanted to label their relationship all went up in smoke.
“What Buck feels does not negate what you do.” Frank’s advice rolled around his head for days. “And you don't know what he truly feels until you ask.”
Eddie truly couldn't blame the guy. Eddie wasn't sure what his attraction level was yet, having settled on calling himself merely queer for now and quite possibly never having a specific answer was quite alright with him, but he had to admit that Tommy was an Adonis of a guy. The envy of straight and queer men alike, for their respective reasons. And Tommy was the epitome of cool. Flying his new friends to Vegas in a helicopter? Strong, intelligent, and witty? He understood the baggage Eddie carried of misogyny and the military. His arms were big enough to envelop anyone, making them feel absolutely safe and secure.
Eddie hadn't felt that way with another person since Buck.
Oh, shit.
—♠—
During a frantic phone call during a break in the activity of Eddie's work day, Frank said, “Eddie, yes, it is okay to feel like this with more than one person. You’re friends with more than one person, right? And we all have different needs that can't always be met by the same person.”
—♠—
Eddie’s stomach was in knots. He made uncharacteristic mistakes on calls to the point where Hen decided to body-check him out of the way while looking after a patient and it was obvious Buck noticed. Of course Buck noticed. And Tommy too, as Eddie fiddled with his wine glass the next time the trio had gathered at Tommy’s to watch a fight on ESPN.
“Spill it,” Tommy softly demanded, reaching over to rescue the fragile glass from his fingers.
“Yeah, you’ve been off," Buck agreed. His lips turned down in a worried frown. "Is it us? We have both been extra careful not to make you uncomfortable—”
Eddie groaned. “Buck, no. It definitely is not you guys. Well, it is, but not the way you’re thinking.”
“You can tell us anything, you know. This is all a whirlwind to us too,” Tommy assured and Eddie just yearned.
That's what it was. It all finally clicked in his brain. Eddie was yearning. He already had Buck and knew he always would, but he yearned for more. Tommy made Buck so happy in a way Eddie could not. And while that didn't truly matter to him, he was developing the feeling of being the outsider looking in.
“Eddie?” Buck urged so carefully, so softly, like he was terrified.
“I want—” Eddie breathed, clearing the lump of anticipation and anxiety from his throat. “I yearn for… both of you. I… relish in your hugs and touches, and I want… more. I’ve been talking to Frank and I know I'm not bisexual in the traditional sense, and I might be somewhere on the asexual spectrum but I don't care. I just know deep in my bones that I want you. Both of you, in my life forever. To talk to, to cry and laugh with, to take care of my son with. To have and to hold and to kiss… but nothing sexual.”
“So like we’re already doing, but with more of this?”
Eddie’s breath hitched as Tommy’s warm hand encircled his wrist. He gave a small tug and Eddie complied eagerly as the man wrapped his arms around him and tucked Eddie against his chest. His breath tickled his ear as he pressed chapped lips to his temple.
Eddie’s heart felt like it were to explode.
A small whine fell from Buck’s lips. “Don't leave me out!”
Eddie chuckled as he and Tommy opened opposite arms to make room for Buck, quickly bracketing the man into their shared embrace. “Aw yes. Lifetime achievement unlocked!”
“You’re a dork, Buck.”
“But you love it.”
“So this is good?” Tommy asked, locking eyes with Eddie and giving a soft but pointed look. Buck would roll with anything, they both knew, but Tommy had the experience to know he needed to step lightly with this.
“Yes, it and you.” Eddie aimed to brush a kiss to Buck’s cheek but was surprised to find Buck's lips instead, the attacker giggling as they separated. Eddie then turned his head to kiss the underside of Tommy’s jaw, ensuring the older man didn’t feel left out either.
Eddie gave him a firm nod, and delighted when Tommy brushed their lips together for the first time. The kiss was feather light but it made Eddie see stars anyway.
Eddie didn't care what he was. He loved Buck and Tommy and they loved him back and that's all that mattered to him.
#eddie diaz#asexual eddie diaz#queer eddie diaz#buddietommy#911#911 fic#buddie#evan buckley#tommy kinard#mywriting#im not exactly happy with how this turned out but here it is anyway
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MY THOUGHTS ON DBDA SHIPS NO ONE ASKED BUT I DONT GIVE A DAMN:
Paynland: sue me but I dont think they would work as a traditional couple. They'll kiss once a week AT BEST. Nothing will change when Charles realizes his feelings, except for maybe pet names and also now Charles understand that Edwin's lap is a synomin to chair, no more desk sitting unfortunetaly.
Cryland: GIRL! I got so many thoughts on these two cant even share 'em all, but to keep it short, queerplatonic with kissing cuz they like it. Ill have to do a post just for them BECAUSE.
Palasaki: at first I thought something would happen between them (DAMN YOU PARASITES) but yeah now I prefer them as friends. Niko seems pretty uninterested in finding herself a partner, and I enjoy the besties dynamic.
Catwin: I hate it, but they should fuck at least once.
Payncrow (i guess?) : Monty, dear, you need to realize you were never even an option to begin with.
Kashi + Night Nurse: they should marry and retire to a cottage by the sea. Btw the wedding should be inside that whale.
Esther Finch + Tragic Mick: I like it cuz its funny, but overall no, but maybe yes. And you can't deny that they'd be a hella good looking couple.
That said, Jenny and Maxine are the real ones/ j
#btw by traditional couple i mean an aloromantic alosexual monogamic one#in short polygamy it is#dead boy detectives#crystal palace#niko sasaki#edwin payne#charles rowland#cat king#esther the witch#tragic mick#night nurse#kashi dbd#monty the crow#jenny the butcher#maxine the librarian#paynland#cryland#palasaki#catwin#I advocate for a V throuple between Charles Crystal and Edwin#niko will be their throuple therapist#sorry gurl🫡
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biromantic asexual buck x aromantic alosexual eddie
like they start a relationship, but it's undefined. it's just them. they love each other and want to send the rest of their lives together. that's all that matters
buck had a bunch of sex with people because it feels good and he's wanting a proper romantic relationship and hoped one day he would
while eddie is sexually attracted to people and trying to make a romantic relationship work when he doesn't want nor need it
the relationship they make together is deep and out of love. they don't kiss because they both personally find it gross(too romantic for eddie and too sexual for buck, plus they've basically been forced by expectations into it and they don't want to and its always been bad), they have sex sometimes when buck (who's mostly sex-positive, or sex-neutral?) initiates it because he has used sex as a form of self harm in the past. but they cuddle, they have an emotional closeness and intimacy they crave in a comfort level they love
they talk about their boundaries, they talked about what they want in this relationship, this partnership. they don't call each other boyfriends, but partners, because boyfriends have a set rules and expectations that they don't want, nor need. if they ever get married in this (which they might for legal reasons, taxes, chris, etc) they'd still call each other partner
they probably have more and proper boundaries that they respect than anybody else they know. and their communication is the best because they talk regularly about what they want from the relationship
(i'm not saying that this form of relationship automatically puts you with good communication, but it's more likely because it's not one that society expects with expectations already attached to the relationship and label. it's easier to communicate what you want with your partner when your making your own relationship with your own rules. every relationship should have this type of conversation, but since 'boyfriend, girlfriend, etc' already have expectations it doesn't happen often. but, even with this type of relationship you can still have miscommunication, bad communication, no communication. it is not a guarantee for good communication)
no one around them seems to properly understand their relationship
maddie is worried buck will hurt himself
chimney understands enough to know it's what's for them
hen is a little worried (but more in the "it's not illegal or wrong to be boyfriends" aspect, she respects them though!)
bobby is a little confused over boyfriend vs partner thing (but still respects them!)
athena is happy for them
chris understands the best, but thats partially due to living with it
josh, love him, he gets it and helps maddie with her worries. he had an ex boyfriend who had a queerplatonic partner, so he knows of it, (even if buck and eddie don't use that term because they don't want labels. they just want to be them). maybe he doesn't fully understand what it means, but he knows it's a thing
josh tells maddie that they love each other, and that's all that should matter (to which maddie apologizes for getting upset when she should have been happy, buck accepts because that's his sister, and she trusts him)
paperwork wise would be a nightmare for bobby. he gives them a 'romantic partner' paperwork to fill out, they decline because it's not romantic. then (straight out of that one scene from superstore(am i remembering that correctly??)) they go on a call with hr because it's not romantic, but it's not friendship. they're partners in life as well as the job (maybe this is why they get married lmao)
its just them loving each other and not having to worry about labels or expectations from others. maybe i'm projecting my hopes and dreams, shush. romantic love isn't above all other loves, platonic, familial, alterous, etc, all that love is equal and should not be put above one another
this is a big fuck you to allonormativity
#911 abc#buddie#evan buckley#eddie diaz#qpr buddie#aromantic eddie diaz#allosexual eddie diaz#biromanric evan buckley#asexual evan buckley#fic ideas#just a thought#buck and eddie love each other#i want this for myself#and since i can't have nor find it i'm giving it to my boys#😭😭😭#i'm legit crying because it's all i want#i hope you can see my vision#i need 100+ fics of this right now
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To the SPN fans that are hating on good omens rn bc of the leak, I hope you choke. I've seen some really nasty shit today from some of my (now unfollowed) followers whom I followed for spn content. So let's make one thing clear from actual posts ive seen today:
-Saying that the "wrong angels kissed", is...homophobic. I was with destiel from beginning to end and yeah we were completely shafted, but it's not okay to then say that other gay couples in media aren't allowed to kiss just because they aren't the ones you thought were hot. Jesus christ didn't think I needed to write that one down for ya-bo burnham
-I saw so much fatphobia about how Castiel deserved a kiss more than Aziraphel bc "he has far more sex appeal." Wtf wtf wtf. How do you live with yourselves saying that shit?You can pry Micheal Sheens body type Aziraphel out of my cold dead hands, you CW brainwashed morons!
-hate against the author for some reason, no one is willing to give specifics about it, but I think the majority of them maintain that GO is not good rep because they didn't kiss and now they are claiming pandering or something? Honestly that guy has only ever stood with the writers guild and queer people his whole career from what I find so I don't think it's fair whatever hate they are spouting. He isnt even saying he is upset with fans that saw or shared the video. Hes being super nice about it!
-I will say, non of us SPN fans have a fucking leg to stand on when it comes to hating something bc of the authors, OK. I saw someone saying the writing for spn was better and I can say you did not watch the show. I loved spn but don't do the late Terry Pratchett like this. He did nothing wrong
-on that same ish strain, as an ace person who thrives off queerplatonic relationships in media, maybe they kiss, I dunno. I just have to wait until the season comes out. Not 1 SPN fan gets to bitch about GO asexualty rep when SPN never even tried that route with any of its characters. But also ace characters are allowed to kiss, so you can write them that way of you want and interpret them that way if you want still. This is your viewing experience.
-this leak is truly not the same as the SPN yo a ti leak, solely bc the episode hasn't aired yet. "None of you GO fans would have survived the yo a ti leak." No I think you wouldn't bc the spn leak was clinging to an already mangled straw, while the angel's in GO are queer already. Queer queer queer and no amount of kissing or lack thereof is going to change that. We have no idea what happens in that episode of GO, but we saw the creators butcher the only moment in the show that could have meant anything real for queer viewers in SPN.
-"SPN crowly was kissing dudes first so this one is not that impressive". I see two cakes. One was made with the intent to make gay people look evil, but over time got kinda funny and a little better bc gay people liked it, and the other was about telling an interesting story about how love is so important, especially at the end of the world, and gay people liked that one too! So for me it's YaY two cakes!
-again the anti aziraphel is so plainly just fatphobia. You have no excuses. Sorry you don't think someone who looks like a slightly chubby micheal sheen could ever get kissed by someone who looks like David tennant, but you are not only wrong, you are also childish.
OK I'm done. Go watch good omens s2 when it comes out for my fucking sanity please. Or don't if all you are going to do is try to rip it apart like you do to all media that tries to be better.
#good omens#good omens discourse#fatphobia#supernatural#destiel#crowly x aziraphale#they are ace to me your honor#im ace and i sometimes want a smooch#good omens 2#good omens s2 spoilers
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as an aroace, i dont understand the point or concept of marriage very well. to me its like making a contract with someone to be/live with them for the rest of your life?? if i ever actually got married, even in a queerplatonic way, that aint workin out for me, i would divorce them in less than a year. i need my space and i would just get sick of any partner (platonic or romantic).
also it's funny because when i was younger, i didnt like the idea of being married, even if i did have a crush on anyone. i didnt like the thought of marrying them and being with them for the rest of my life, or even doing things like kissing them or whatever else people do. there was literally one exception, just one, and i only even wanted to like, hug or hold hands.
and after a while i stopped getting crushes or the urge to get to know someone or talk to someone and i was like "why??" and then i sort of realized that the thought of me being with someone just disgusted me in a way that if something like that crosses my mind, i visibly cringe. like no.
and as an aroace who isnt out to their family, i am genuinely scared of when and if they'll start saying things like "you'll find someone eventually" when i dont get a partner by the time im in like, college because i know my anxiety aint letting me come out before then. and like, i do not want to have deal with shit like that. it will only make me feel more pressured to come out to them as aroace, and i feel like they have acknowledged (mostly my sister) LGBTQ+ sexualities and saying that they don't really gaf who i get with or marry or something, but they havent really acknowledged the fact that, maybe i dont want to be with someone, and i genuinely feel that they will just be disappointed if decide i dont want anyone. now, i feel like that would be mostly on my mom's part because she has been with so many people and been in so many failed relationships that i feel like she'll just be disappointed that she doesnt see me in a successful relationship. i don't think my sister will really care as much, she'd just be like "hell yeah, don't need someone else to be happy ehehehe."
and like i just dont get it. i dont get why the social norm is to date or marry or even just crush on someone. i dont get the reason and i dont get how people "fall in love" or get the urge to talk to someone attractive. i dont think that aros or aces get a lot of good rep either, and i dont understand why. just because they may not be interested in anyone romantically or intimately doesnt mean they dont have feelings or cant love. i love my family (mostly😐) and my friends, just platonically.
thanks for reading my rant
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on ougi tease flirts (araragi edition)



(also interjecting here this bit is a lot funnier in japanese. ougi is like "you're gonna be fallen in love with by me you know!" "uh" "it's gonna suck for you if i fall in love with you you know!"
like she's warning him. it's very funny to me
this from the onimonogatari commentary track is also significant:
now. nadeko says "too" (も) but when ougi replies she doesn't use that particle, instead saying 私は. は is the topic marker, so what ougi is saying is kind of like "well, as for me, i like araragi senpai." it's a subtle distinction ougi's making from her and nadeko here.
also, the translation for the next part is actually wrong here!
if you listen closely, ougi says GAKE, not KAGE. ougi does not say "i adore him from his shadow to his back," ougi says: お慕い申し上げているよ崖から背中を押したいくらい
which literally translates to "I adore him to the point I want to push his back off a cliff."
which sounds very scary and deranged.
and is. ougi wants to push araragi off a cliff. this is literally what she is saying. nadeko's "adore?" ("おしたいって。。。") should probably actually translate to "you want to push him...?" (they're homonyms) because ougi is being deranged and insane. she's so real tbh she only gets realer
but the idea of 背中を押す (to push one's back) in this case is also like, pushing someone forward, cheering them on. giving them the push they need to succeed. so, ougi wants to push araragi to where he needs to go, while also severely hurting him in the process. classic jeerleader ougi move
adore "慕う" is like... love dearly, adore, but can also be kind of like worship, honor, revere, idolize-- fitting because ougi is a big fan. she also says it very politely, because of course she is nothing but a polite and respectful kouhai. :)
but to me all this indicates ougi's feelings are something more platonic than romantic-- or maybe it's more like queerplatonic. ougi flirts teasingly but its not really meant to be taken as anything more than just that, a joke, hence ougi's strange almost non-sequitur response to nadeko's reaction. in other words, i think araragi is probably right on the mark when he says ougi is just teasing (or being malicious. never forget that a lot of (maybe even most of) what ougi does and says is criticism. it's entirely possible she's mocking him). though whether ougi would truly mind kissing araragi or not is left a mystery... what can be said for sure, though, is that she loves him very much.
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Im just rambling my heart out rn bc im like this but listen hear me out. I think Tim is aromantic. hot take I know but as an aro person maybe its just me but I see a lot of myself in his flirty chatter and playful gestures. In my head he does it as affection, as a way to stretch his wings and engage in a bit of fun banter, and of course, to get what he needs. I inherently see his tendency to draw the eye of people in order to obtain information as a gesture rather detached from the inherent concept of romanticism. it displays a nature in which one understands romance and appeal on a surface level, but does not feel it themselves. I think he likes traditionally romantic stuff. He calls himself a hopeless romantic. He kisses his friends on the cheeks and he treats Sasha as a lover would treat their spouse but they are not dating and both of them know this. He spends passionate nights with people and leaves feeling satisfied. But if you confessed romantic interest in him he would give you a horrifically awkward, apologetic look and let you down easy. I think he was devastated by the realization in his youth. I think beneath all his affection and smiles and toying remarks he knows he will never truly be able to have the romantic relationship he always dreamed of having, because what he desires simply does not exist. I think he indulges in the little things- passing glances, playful flirts, romantic comedies, nights on the town, to taste what he cannot have- and even moreso, to enjoy what he *can* have. To enjoy the fact he can do so comfortably, openly, without concern for what it may look like or if it's really romantic or not. Perhaps he has grown to be happy with the way he lives. Perhaps he is content to be in his lovely queerplatonic relationship. Perhaps he distantly wishes he could be a better partner because he knows he will never meet the standard. I think he loves so strongly, so powerfully, that it simply is not something that could fall into romance. It just isn't. But he loves all the same. He loves so passionately, like a fire, but it is not romance. it is simply love. Tl;dr personal hc is that tim is romance-positive aro (unless it comes to romance aimed at him) and is bisexual. Bc we need more alloaro rep. and more romance-positive aro rep. And i see myself in him.
#I am projecting so hard#but listen its such a comfort hc and i dont see many ppl talk about it#usually I see sasha as the aro one#and fuck yeah I love aro sasha.#but I cannot ever unsee aro tim bc thats just me bro#me too!#I love standard romantic gestures but get paranoid that peopl take my very naturally affectionate nature as romantic#and I think he does the same#bc i love him and therefore he gets the projection beam#also I adore hcing naturally flirty or 'sexually themed' characters as aspec#bc yeah sometimes they are#people have misinterpreted my friendly and affectionate gestures as romantic so many times#so i want to see a character who deals with that too#tma#headcanon#tim tma#tim stoker#timothy stoker#this is aimed at nobody at all but#part of me hopes one of my fellow aros will lay eyes on it and feel seen idk#I dont see a lot of rep for myself#timsasha QPR beinig a widely accepted hc is still so wild to me#ive never seen anything like that before in a fandom#like term and all#god its so nice. So i am sharin my thoughts on it#personally as an aro person in an qpr with an alloro person I also hc sasha as alloro but#any hc is valid as fuck i aint gonna judge#we're all just projecting here
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preface: dude i have never talked to someone, kissed anyone, hugged, held hands or literally anything romantic with another person. i have no idea how to date or talk to people i like. i barely even know how to talk to new people to just make new friends.
anyway, there's this boy i like at school and he doesn't know who i am (probably) and i have a huge crush on him. i doubt he would even like me back but i just want advice on how to approach this because for one,
we've never talked, and he probably thnks i'm weird. two,
i've never had a guy friend before and, again, i don't know how to talk to people (i'm really awkward and shy) and three,
i like him so BAD and i just want him to notice me maybe a little bit. i just wanna feel what it feels like to date.
maybe this is completely stupid because i need advice on how to get out there, pretty please!
(btw don't have any socials so i can't reach out to him like that)
*me perplexedly scrolling back through my memory to figure out how on earth I ended up dating people*
Aight, I really don’t think there is one perfect way to do this, so I’m just gonna give you some examples of what’s worked for me.
1: Smiling
I noticed someone around school I was interested in getting to know, so every time I saw them I smiled at them like I was happy to see them, cuz I was, then cuz I smiled they would smile back. Had never said a word to one another, did not have a single class together. But we passed eachother frequently enough that the smiling evolved into a sheepish little wave back and forth which became almost its own kind of inside joke to the point that when we finally found ourselves alone waiting in the same hallway for something, we laughed like we were already friends, sat down next to eachother, and he was like “my name’s _____, what’s yours?” Next time I saw him I offered to show him around the art building. We were friends after that and he asked me out in about a month.
2: Asking for Help
I had recently gotten an undercut and I noticed somebody else in one of my classes had the same haircut. So I went up to them and was like “hey, wanna cut each other’s hair” and she was like “… sure?�� So then we met up to cut eachother’s hair and just talked and goofed around and had a good time while doing it. It was a somewhat regular thing that needed to be done so it gave us a good excuse to hang out and get to know eachother. Her partner ended up hanging out with us and within a matter of months we settled into some form of queerplatonic polyamory.
This is a rather hyperspecific example, but I think the key thing is that I identified something we could help eachother with and work together on which is a really good way to form connections.
3: Yo! You Like Ninja Turtles?
First day of class I noticed someone I thought looked pretty cool so I sat next to them. They saw my ninja turtles cup and were like, “Yo, you’ve seen that movie?” And we just had a great time geeking out and seeing what fandoms we had in common. After that we chatted and doodled together before that class every week and they eventually invited me to come hang out with them and their friends and I invited them to come hang out with mine. This thanksgiving I asked if they wanted to come along with me for thanksgiving for some moral support (my family situation isn’t great) and as a way to avoid their family (their family situation also sucks). We ended up having a great time (us against the world is lo-key one of the best dynamics of all time) and got together the day after thanksgiving.
Baisically, look for common interests you might be able to talk about and then invite them to do stuff together. (This is easier to play off more casually if you’ve got a friend group you can invite them to hang out with, but it still works even if you don’t have one of those. Working on a school project, helping eachother study, or getting together for a movie/tv show are all good first hangouts for groups or one on one.)
I hope something in this is helpful! Feel free to ask more questions. Anybody else got any good dating advice?
#big bro advice#dating#dating advice#making friends#asking out#queer#lgbtq#queer platonic relationship#polyamory#relationship advice#friendship advice
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I'm reading and having feels so I wanted to make a post about Peter&Morgan, and a bit of Morgan with the rest of the crossover family. And a bit on Peter, Morgan, Tony and Pepper once Peter&Morgan return to their origin world.
Note: if you don't already know, this blog features Starker, and as Morgan's existence suggest, I do acknowledge canon aka Tony&Pepper were together, but I also write that, during their marriage, it turned queerplatonic then platonic, so they're not together anymore by the time Tony&Peter get together!
I decided to not settle down for a specific idea of when Peter and Morgan interact again after NWH, only that it ends up happening. And when Peter starts to work with Soul to launch the Rewind spell (which of course I wanted to speak of these two before I even explained what exactly Peter is doing that led him to being flung out his origin world), that is when he will have Morgan with him.
The reason is that her soul is attached to his. The Rewind will make time go back prior to her birth, and Soul will handle all the souls of everyone in the same case, but Peter wanted to personally care for Morgan's soul. But when they land in Link's world, she's actually able to be given physical presence, although she is still a soul.
Peter never tries to replace either of her parents, although neither of them speaks of each other as siblings. It's more so external people that can view them as such, but Peter&Morgan call each other family. "Dad/daddy" and "mom/mommy" are the terms she use for Tony and Pepper, so when she first calls him a parental term, her mind settles on "mamma". Fun hc: Morgan knowing what she's doing when she says "I have two mom and one dad!". But also fluffy: "There's my dad, there's my mom, and there's mamma who was there for me when dad and mom weren't able to".
Where Peter is like family and a parent to Morgan, the other four are like brothers to her and they happily call her their little sister. And there's a wide extended family, brothers and sisters in the sages, and Zelda, and Gan (name TotK!Ganondorf prefer to use since he's his own person now). I don't know yet where it comes from, but I also love the idea that everyone starts to call Morgan "little princess".
I mentioned earlier that Morgan is still a soul, just physically present, and she isn't the only one in that kind of situation. Ireth and Wei Wuxian both arrive without their body, as kind of spirit/soul. Them, and Morgan, stays as this kind of physical spirit/soul, as the crossover family figure out that, while they can give each of them a proper body back, they need to make it happen in their respective origin world.
So please now imagine when Peter&Morgan go back to their origin world, and imagine Tony's face when he discovers that, not only is Morgan not gone, Peter is kind of carrying her within his own soul, and he'll be able to pretty much give birth to her spiritually once he has the proper means to. I don't know which is better: that it happens before, or after they get together. Or that's how they get together, because Tony goes so feral with adoration that he just has to kiss Peter.
Make no mistake though: everyone will still treat Pepper as Morgan's mother. But now? She's able to say "I have two mom!" much more literally than she used to. Which is another thought: imagine Tony's face the first time Morgan calls Peter "mamma". Even better if its after Tony knows Morgan is still there (and she can actually still show up with a physical presence), but before he learns that Peter has a way to make her "be born" again. Maybe Peter didn't want to give false hope until he's certain? And/or it's because he'll have to explain about the crossover aspect and there are reasons to wait about that reveal, and so, the reveal that Morgan can have her own body back?
But yeah, imagine Tony's face if Morgan is able to show up, first by the sheer fact his daughter is still here, then by the whole fact she calls Peter "mamma" and also the sheer witnessing of how Peter&Morgan act together. Maybe that's when Tony is certain his feelings did become romantic? And then his face when Peter reveals that he kind of is able to spiritually give birth to Morgan so she has her own body back. And that's when they kiss for the first time.
Also that's like, need to be a whole post of its own, but Tony&Pepper do remember the old future, but I write them as growing queerplatonic during their marriage which discussions of seeing once Morgan is older if they want to have a friendly divorce or just stay as they are (either way they know they will always be there for each other), so when they find themselves in the past, they decide to not pursue a committed relationship.
However, everyone still very much views Pepper as Morgan's mother, and she's still part of Morgan's life, and Peter&Pepper gets along very well. Like mentioned, its a whole post of its own waiting to happen, since Peter&Pepper grew close after Tony's death and had discussions about how Peter's loss affected Tony, and the way Tony's loss had a similar effect on Peter (in short: they lived through the saying "you don't know how much someone means to you until you loose them").
So yeah, Peter&Morgan are family, Peter&Pepper are family, and Tony is forever awed that he was given such a happy ending: all his loved ones, alive and happy, and he's here with them, and to see his daughter grow up.
(Note: I did consider polyamory aka Tony being with both Peter and Pepper, however I personally wanted to explore this specific route of Tony&Pepper turning queerplatonic then platonic, and mirroring that, Tony&Peter growing from platonic mentorship to queerplatonic friendship to romance).
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Isn't Ike gay coded tho?
you've activated my trap card, I could talk about Ike's queer coding for hours so TLDR for those who don't want to read a text wall about some jrpg character they don't know, Ike is queer-coded, and both gay and aro Ike are perfectly valid readings of the text.
Ike's pretty universally agreed to be queer-coded. most of his coding falls into the "complete lack of attraction (to women)" area. (for instance, completely rejecting Aimee's advances and being generally uncomfortable with her seeing him in that light, or his utter disinterest in admiring pretty ladies with Gatrie.) because its coding (ie subtext) and not canon (ie textually stated) there's a level of interpretation required. there's a number of queer men that fit the specific divergence from heteronormativity that is "not interested in relationships with women." mostly gay men and aspec men.
one can easily read his relationship with Soren, for instance, as being romantic, because of some tropes present that are usually reserved for romance only in fiction. (for instance, his ending where he runs away with Soren is usually cited as being the closest Ike gets to a fire emblem protagonist's typical marriage ending.) but a stated-platonic relationship that's more important and committed than friendships are usually depicted as also pretty easily maps onto aromantic experiences of anti-amatonormative friendships and queerplatonic relationships, which leads his dynamic with Soren to be an extra check on the aro-coding list as well. actually, his relationship with Soren has less romantic framing than his relationship with Elincia, (which has similar amounts of More Committed Than Friendships (are usually depicted as) as well as multiple instances of characters commenting on its romantic subtext (shinon "you fell in love with a pretty little princess" and Ranulf "oh what a romantic atmosphere") which Ike doesn't respond to, and doesn't clarify on.) despite this, Ike and Elincia are pretty widely regarded as textually platonic, since they never do anything expressly romantic like kiss or confess attraction or get married or something, and if it was meant to be romantic they would've because there wouldn't have been any reason to encode a M/F romance. in my opinion, his relationship with Elincia kind of sets a bar for how committed, close and romance-adjacent his platonic relationships get, and none of his relationships with men really exceed that besides maybe Soren, who he's closer to but not more romantically framed than.
all in all, his coding leans heavily into the "confirmed bachelor" kind of queer, without giving much clarification on his attraction or lack thereof to men. what's important is that he's not interested in women romantically. so he's definitely queer-coded, but not down to a specific label. just a general vibe that gay and aromantic men share. both readings are supported by the texts, both groups have been known to relate to and project upon him, and there's room for both interpretations in fandom spaces.
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okay, okay, under the cut: a loose conglomeration of lore about my Warrior of Light. aka my best attempt at summarizing the key emotional beats of five expansions, which is not a summary at all, and also giving a brief overview of my Azem
Warrior of Light
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Name: Lelesu Lesu
Age: 27 during Endwalker, 22 at the start of ARR
Pronouns: she/her
Classes: red mage, sage (dabbled in marauder and white mage before drifting away from them for various reasons)
Relationships: Haurchefant (briefly), Aymeric; queerplatonic with Emet-Selch and Hythlodaeus
some lore about her:
Lelesu was born in Ul'dah and grew up as part of the wealthy merchant-noble class that makes up its high society. She absolutely despised the neat box of a life her parents tried to keep her in, and ended up sort-of running away from home to join the Adventurers' Guild in Limsa Lominsa, cutting all ties with her blood family and picking up adventuring and an axe to strike out on her own, in search of the freedom to define her own life. She joins up with the Scions willingly, happy to help make a difference, especially when it becomes obvious that she's one of a handful of people capable of facing primals, but it doesn't become really personal until the massacre at the Waking Sands, where she loses most of the first people she genuinely called friends.
She gets pretty close with Haurchefant while they're in Coerthas the first time, and in the aftermath of becoming the Warrior of Light she treasures that connection because it's one of the few places she doesn't feel like she has to be the responsible, duty-bound Hero version of herself the WoL is. Even with, maybe especially with tbh, the other Scions there's that sort of distance between them, because they're her friends and her coworkers but they also expect the same sort of miracles out of her as the rest of Eorzea, through no fault of their own.
She's actually furious with Midgardsormr when he removes the blessing of Light. Has no interest in proving herself to him at first, because she blames him for Nabriales breaching the Rising Stones, which of course led to Moenbryda's death. Eventually the blame shifts to herself instead - she feels like if she'd been stronger, she wouldn't have lost the blessing to begin with. This is a theme that comes back during Heavensward, too - she was a white mage before she picked up red mage, and so when Haurchefant (who she was very much in love with) throws himself in front of that spear for her, she's the one who tries to heal him, and she fails. In some ways, she blames the loss of the blessing of Light and her own weakness for his death. If she'd just been stronger, been a better Warrior of Light, etc, then he wouldn't have died. And he should've known better than to try to protect her, Hydaelyn wouldn't have let her die. Etc.
For a while here she completely stops using white magic entirely, which is a problem - red mage is all about balance, using white and black magic equally, and without drawing on both kinds of power you can't perform certain abilities, plus it has a whole mechanic where the further off-balance you get the harder it is to cast in the opposite direction and fix yourself. So she's off-balance in her aether, and that makes her even more reckless and emotionally off-balance, and she's struggling to grieve and sort of stuck living in the moment of Haurchefant's death, which makes her quest against Thordan a kind of revenge quest. She isn't really able to start learning to move forward again and recovering from that loss until she spends a bunch of time helping Aymeric build the new peace in Ishgard and teach the people to move on from their broken past, and that slowly leads her to work through her pain and trauma over the months.
Stormblood is...not really very much in the way of character development, but it is where she kisses Aymeric for the first time, just before she leaves to go to Doma, so it gets an honorable mention.
On the other hand a lot of insanity happens in Shadowbringers. She gets a nice new facial scar courtesy of Elidibus-as-Zenos when G'raha summons her out of her body during that fight (Aymeric is Deeply Freaked Out). Once she's in the First, she's dealing with a whole lot of confusing emotions and instincts related to Emet-Selch - her first impression when they properly meet is both that it hurts to look at him, for some inexplicable reason, and also wariness, the kind you'd have for a rabid animal, because there's just something so Wrong to her about the way he acts. This goes along nicely with the instinct she has to trust him that also makes no sense, so she's running around trying to save two worlds from the same calamity while dealing with the most confusing emotional state ever. This doesn't get much better when she gives in and starts spending time asking him questions and just talking to him, in a way the rest of the Scions won't do, because he feels familiar to her, like she should recognize him but can't.
This gets a thousand times worse when she drags her shattering soul down to Amaurot-beneath-the-sea to rescue G'raha, feeling like an absolute failure of a Warrior of Darkness the whole time. Amaurot itself feels incredibly familiar to her and also makes her want to cry because of the immense feelings of loss it evokes, she's already attuned to the aetheryte in the depths (I do not care if this is lore-appropriate or not it's fun), she feels like she knows Hythlodaeus, by the time they confront Emet-Selch again she's half-demanding half-begging him for answers he won't give because he's deep in denial and also wants her to remember him herself. She breaks down crying when she's forced to kill him in the end and doesn't know why.
Endwalker is just....A Fucking Mess. She's so done with Zenos's shit, her duty keeps weighing her down, everything is horrible. The body-swap bit really messes with her for a while and it takes time to recover from. Plus the whole thing with Zodiark - she didn't want to kill Zodiark, just weaken Him so the Watcher could bind Him again. She didn't want to permanently kill all those souls! She recovers bits and pieces of memories whenever she uses Azem's crystal to summon people, enough to be able to tell Emet-Selch, Hythlodaeus, and Venat that she is a reincarnation of Azem, but she doesn't regain her memories in full until Ultima Thule, when she summons Emet-Selch and Hythlodaeus to help her against Meteion at the end. With those memories regained she's able to convince the two of them to stay with her and give the future a try; moving on is something none of them knew how to do before but she's had to learn to live through grief and come to terms with it anyway and she wants desperately to show them both how as well.
She considers Ishgard her home, and the Fortemps family as her chosen family - she's actually sworn brotherhood with Artoirel. And she considers herself Azem still, in the terms of Azem is a duty to the people that she has believed in basically since she became the Warrior of Light, and she won't let go of it.
In the final fight with Zenos at Ultima Thule, she very nearly dies, and he breaks her glasses against her face, severely injuring her right eye, among other things. Though she doesn't lose the eye it ends up solid white from scar tissue and she's completely blind in it - but she does end up learning how to see the aether through that eye alone.
Azem

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Name: Seleukos
Class: black mage, has training with a sword thanks to Venat
Pronouns: they/them
Age: ohhh man idk probably somewhere around a century by the Sundering? don't ask
Relationships: queerplatonic triad with Hythlodaeus and Emet-Selch
if i get into my lore about them we'll be here all day so just read this fic I wrote full of the important flashbacks and whatnot instead
i also have a very fleshed-out AU where Lelesu is the WoL alongside @sunderedazem's Corrain, but this post will turn monstrous if i go into ANY details about that. so just know it exists and we'll both answer asks about it. lol
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Okay so because I’m normal I imagine being in a relationship with June/Hello/Goodbye sometimes for funsies (I can’t help it they’re just so good and coolllll) but i was wondering something-
I’m aroace and on the large spectrum of aroace, I’m the type who’s not really interested in kissing or anything further/more intimate than that if you get what I mean so I’m curious as to how the trio would react to that? Would they be willing to be in a relationship with someone like that? (Maybe a Queer Platonic Relationship for example?)
I’ve been told that not being to kiss or woohoo (thank you sims for that replacement word haha) is apparently a dealbreaker for a lot of people so that just made me wonder about the trio and how they’d handle someone they love being like that
Thank you and have a good morning/afternoon/evening!
Hgfhs thats so sweet!!
I imagine that if its the right person who's a perfect fit & they cant imagine their lives without, yeah of course!
Being ace isnt a deal breaker for any of them, though Hello would likely not really understand the diff between being very good friends & being queerplatonic
No matter what tho, love and support <3
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