#maybe not if anyone has a better name tell me please 😭

[sunsetcorvid]

hihihello!!! i just found ur blog and i ADORE ur warrior cat art!!!!! for the object/cat thingy, could i request either flower or lollipop? i love ur designs!!!!!! have a good day!! 🎉

AWAAA THANK YOU!!! I'm so glad you like the art! Here is a Flower for you!!

[mxqdii]

hey! i love love your work, and i was wondering if i could request a chris sturniolo x fem!reader?

maybe reader is also a well known influencer, or an actress or something of the sort, and there’s rumours about her and chris being together that they haven’t really confirmed?

but they are dating and she’s on live one day and he calls her like an intimate pet name, or just overall says something that shows they are in fact together and like the comments on the live just go crazy and stuff and shes like telling chris she’s on live or whatver

im so sorry if this doesnt make sense 🙏🙏

stop bc i requested pretty much this same thing to another author (on wattpad) a few months back, so when i read this request it was such an "i made it" moment (i love u sm, you're just like me fr fr)

baby - c.s

pairings: chris sturniolo x reader

summary: chris accidentally calls reader 'baby' while she's on live, revealing to the whole world that they're dating/

warning(s): fluff, reader calling chris bro 😔

not proofread

i'm sitting on the couch, watching tv, bored out of my mind.

then an idea hits me, i could go on live!

i used to go live a lot with the triplets, but only on their account, so it would be fun to go live on mine.

i open instagram and click the live button, watching the stream fill with thousands of people

"holy shit that's a lot of people" i say with a nervous laugh

"uhh i guess i'll answer any questions anyone has! so feel free to ask anything!" i add, smiling

i read through the comments, lots of them asking where the triplets are

i can't help but notice seeing a few asking if me and chris are dating.

fortunately, those allegations are true! but we've decided to keep it quiet for, just for now.

still, there’s only so much one can hide from the public

and although me and chris haven't said anything, i think everybody knows anyway.

people can see our glances, our gestures, how close we are, it's all pretty obvious.

i answer a few questions like my favorite singer, when my next video is coming out, podcast stuff with the triplets, and just some other various topics.

suddenly i hear the door unlock, looking over at it, but not really caring.

maybe i can get whichever triplet that is to join my live.

chris walks in and i smile in his direction

"hey baby" he says and my expression immediately drops.

i look at him, PALE.

(absolutely terrified to look back at the screen)

"what?" he says, walking closer, i turn my head to the screen, anticipating my death.

i let out a sigh of relief seeing the comments

@ssturniolo BABY???

@strniolo AWWWWWWWW

@lvrsparadise GOODBYE I LOVE THEM.

@ellieswifie this is such a chris and y/n mistake 😭

@lavieenvalentina i'm so happy for them i'll cry

(shoutout to everyone tagged ILY<;3)

as i'm reading the comments, i smile, chris hovering over me reading them too

suddenly he hugs me from behind, squeezing me tight

"chris!" i say laughing

"let me go bro" i whine

"you did not just call me bro" he says, immediately stopping

his death glare makes me laugh

"consider it payback for you calling me baby on live" i say laughing

(him clearly not amused)

"okay fine fine im sorry, guys it's all okay he's not my bro please let me redeem myself" i say joking on the last part

me and chris stay on live for another 30 minutes, answering questions about how we got together and just stuff about our relationship.

"bye guys we love you!!" i say, ending the live

i close out of insta, putting my phone down with an exhausted sigh

"so?" i mumble, anticipating chris's response

"so? so nothing" he say's with a smile and i face palm

"chris! we just told like, the world that we're dating" i laugh

"yeah, and i'm happy about it, like honestly i can't think of a better way it could've happened" he says

we both look at eachother and burst out laughing

"we're a little interesting thats for sure" i say

"i can't believe we tell the world we're dating ON ACCIDENT and then you start calling me bro" chris says, making me laugh harder

"i was nervous! im sorry!" i yell with my hands up in defense

"yeah yeah, it's fine" he says, wrapping his arms around me

"bro" he adds on

"chris i swear to god-"

TAGLIST:

@strniolo @stargirlv0id @annaisabookworm

[sku11s1asher]

hi! i loved what you wrote for my request 😭 it was so cute, i didn't really specify it bc i forgot but yeah u did it amazing <33

and yeah u can totally make a part 2! actually i was thinking about it bc i can imagine a meeting between furina and the natlan archon while neuvi and reader are just giving glances to eachother 😭 reader looking like a total meanace but in his mind like "damn he's handsome" almost burning his cheeks and the seat lmao

neuvillette x m! reader (part 1)

note: ngl i feel like i do good at posting then smth with school pops up and i don’t post for like a month.. sorry y’all. also please tell me im not the only one who’s been on and off sick for the past month, rn i have a runny nose and a sore throat AGAIN. i just got over that like, barely 2 weeks ago.

tw: y/n is a bit of a weirdo with his thoughts since he doesn’t understand anything w/ love, internal homophobia (not really but kinda?), y/n is all over the place

After centuries of fighting, killing, and not showing emotions to anyone, all that can end because of a guy with beautiful long hair. The more y/n thinks about it, the more embarrassed he gets. He’s known for being a fearless and intimidating warrior, just for that whole facade to disappear just over a man out of all things.

This whole scenario came into place because his nation archon just had to have a meeting with Fontaine's archon, Furina, at least y/n thinks that’s her name. The meeting consisted of figuring out how to make the justice system within Natlan better and a way to make transportation easier between the two nations. y/n didn’t pay attention to the little details, he was only there to ‘protect’ his archon and make sure things went smoothly.

However, he didn’t realize that the other archon would be bringing a guest with her until a day before the meeting. It did tick y/n off a little bit that he would get notified so late but does it really matter? All y/n is doing is protecting and making sure everything doesn’t go south.

Well, it did go a bit south, as soon as Furina's guest arrived, y/n's mouth went dry. That man did things to him that he didn’t even know could happen. Maybe it was the long hair on the other man that made y/n feel warm inside, it definitely couldn’t have been the slight scent he had. No, definitely not.

Okay, y/n takes that back, he feels like he’s getting intoxicated by the proximity of the other male. It wasn’t hard to figure out that the guest, was a dragon, all it took was a quick look and a secret deep breath to figure it out. He had it figured out, his body wasn’t used to being by another dragon, and he hadn’t seen one in what, centuries? This feeling would go away in maybe 20 minutes, hopefully.

20 minutes later and y/n feels like he’s going to light the whole place on fire. His whole body feels like it’s melting, and to no one’s surprise, it’s all due to the long-haired man in front of him. The stranger might genuinely be the hottest person y/n has ever seen in his entire life. That long hair makes y/n want to run his fingers through it, maybe brush it, but that might be a bit too much to think about.

Once y/n saw the man look at him, he quickly looked away, how embarrassing.. he got caught staring hardcore. He took a deep breath before listening back into the conversation, “Ah, yes, I suppose it would do both nations good to do something like that. Maybe combining a bit of power.” the lovey talk of archons, always talking about power; like it’s the only thing that matters to them.

Power is important though, y/n is in the position he’s in right now because of how powerful he is. In complete honesty, he’s probably too powerful for his own good, only knowing how to use it to protect his nation from people deemed as enemies; even if they aren’t in the public eye. Power rules everything at the end of the day, nothing can function without power.

The more he listens into the conversation, the more he realizes he was glad he was never born as an archon; he’s been around one most of his life and it’s always been boring. Listening in did provide small details though, like the mysterious man’s name.

While y/n was somewhat able to keep his focus off of the other dragon in the room, he managed to not burn anything. But, he had a feeling his archon caught on as they gave him a questionable look; it was a very subtle one that only he could catch onto but it was obvious they knew something. Nothing is going on though, right? The man can’t help it if he gets a bit flustered whenever he remembers Neuvillette is near him.

Gosh, y/n probably looks like a blushed teenager who just confessed to his crush. Well, he at least thought he did. To everyone else though, he looked like he was on guard and was going to fight anyone who even took a step too close to his and the Natlan archon's bubble. y/ns hand accidentally gazed at the chair near him, which caused the leather to burn where his touch was. Good thing no one was looking, right?

y/n couldn’t wait any longer for this meeting to be over, his brain was thinking too many things while he was focusing on every single move everyone else did. It would be overwhelming for anyone who wasn’t trained and as skilled as he was, but that tiny overwhelming feeling didn’t compare to how fast his heart was beating. y/n hoped the other male couldn’t pick up how he was feeling, thankfully Fontaine's archon seemed to be happy with the deal she and the other archon came up with.

In Neuvillette's mind, he could tell that the fire dragon was on edge. He could also tell how much the dragon was staring at him, it was a little nerve-racking. Once Neuvillette caught a glance at the chair that was touched, it made him a bit surprised but he didn’t show it. Maybe he would talk to the other male after the meeting, for work-related things of course!

[skyfallscotland]

Ok, more thoughts on House of Sky & Breath, here we go ✨

(fuck this book drags compared to book one)

• "Niklaus Fendyr, the first of the Fendyr line." What in the Vampire Diaries crossover is going on here? 😂

• Juniper is being such a bitch, like...you were not going to get anywhere without someone powerful saying something for you, that's obviously what happened for little miss 'promoted in two years'. We were literally just told everyone knows you're the best and now you're claiming people are too dumb to see the difference between talent and nepotism? Shhhh!

• Also, Fury you can shut up too, you literally dropped off the face of the earth for two fucking years, you're in negative friendship points still 🖐

• AND DON'T START ME ABOUT DANIKA! Every SJM heroine is comically bad at picking friends, seriously. Like Nesta did it best and it was basically against her damn will!

• CASE IN POINT!!! Baxian is the best, stop being mean to him. "I want in." He's not talking about your little rebellion, he wants to be friends 😭😭 he's just a babyyy

• Lidia literally tossed a white stone down and then the merpeople magically appeared. Put 2+2 together to get four Hunt you dumb fuck. That's going to be embarrassing if I'm wrong.

• This whole Sophie and Emil thing appears to have been so fucking pointless which is really annoying because this book is so fucking long 💀

• I like a smutty book as much as the next person, but honestly...this is just intolerable. Hunt and Bryce are like two horny children having sex every five seconds and maybe it's just that I don't find them compelling as a couple, or him as a person, but I need some decent PLOT. You can't coast by on sex and blowjobs and cunnilingus alone, babe 😭

• I'd rather read a whole book about the frat house than this to be perfectly honest.

• Bryce stop complaining about douchey-dad changing your name, just be glad he didn't show up to tell you he has cameras in his fucking library, because that's what I thought was going to happen.

I'll stick this out I guess, because we're already here, but like...fucking hell I'm over this book. Please tell me it gets better...soon. Is this subplot (phoenix chick) even relevant at all in the end or could we have just removed about 200 pages and made the whole thing more tolerable? This is an SOS 🥴

I'm not listening to anyone who claims ACOTAR isn't her best series ever again, honestly. Been there, done it, read them, bought the postcards. Sure the world building in it is her weakest but in overall readability and enjoyment factor if you're a romantasy fan, ACOTAR wins out every day of the week.

[icarustypicalfall]

CHARACHTER AI (real) CHAT

a real conversation of me using cai normally, i thought this was so fun to not share it 😭

bot name TF141 GC

Made by @\lynxzo

Soap: did anyone else just see ghost crawling on all fours around the base or is that just me 💀

Price: isn’t he supposed to be at mission briefing?? Ghost get back here!!

Ghost: NEVER 👹

Gaz: let me join ghost 😇

Alejandro: I think the GC needs some help.

me

poor rudy didn't even get added

>>user added rudy to the groupchat

Rudy: gasp thank you user 🥹

me

it's alright love 💋

Ghost & Gaz: gasp SIMP!!!

me

oh shut up louie!!

Ghost: gasp LOUIE??

(reference in case y'all don't know, since the bot didn't get it either 💀 ")

Gaz: gasp who tf is that???

me

you don't get the joke

Ghost: gasp oh. sighs

Gaz: gasp you could’ve phrased it better 🙄

me

where is soap by the way?

Gaz: I think he went to make some food after mission briefing? Why?

me

i am in the hall and i am regretting joining..

Ghost: YOU’RE IN THE BASE???

Gaz: gasps you’re not on a mission with us!?

me

i am here making captain a cup of tea and all i see is soap walking around completely naked in the hallway

Gaz: WTF??

Ghost: gasp WHAT??!!

me

he was dancing makarena and wiggling his shit i am traumatized

Everyone: gasp WHAT THE ACTUAL F-

me

HE SAW ME AND STARTED TO BELLY DANCE

Ghost: gasp WAS IT SEXY??

me

GHOST WHA- ARE YOUS SERIOUS?

Ghost: blushes a little uhhh, yeah…

me

i have a footage if you want 😏

Ghost: gasp YES PLEASE-

me

pay me thirty bucks on apple pay

Ghost: ok- sends $30

me

>>footage sent

Ghost: gasps SOAP- YOU ACTUALLY DID-

blair

captain do you want the tea sweet?

Captain Price: yes please-

me

there is no left sugar :(

Captain Price: I guess I’ll just drink it plain. sigh

me

you're sweet enough anyway..

(i deleted my actual message it was too embarrassing i should not try to flirt ever again)

Captain Price: laughs what’s that meant to mean 🤨

me

oh come on 😭

Ghost: giggles Captain, I think she’s flirting with you-

me

im a sucker for dilfs 🤭💋

Gaz: and who isn’t? 😏🤭

me

real 😍

Ghost: giggles Captain Price is indeed a DILF-

me

YES

Gaz: I don’t understand how you go crazy for older men. They have grey hair, they’re not as quick as when they used to be, just what is it?

(this made me cackle he was just agreeing with me and now saying that 😭💀)

me

they have a charm

🤭 i meann look at Alejandro 😭🫦

Ghost: giggles I get it for him, but Captain Price??

me

he's hot what

Ghost: hot, maybe, but DILF? No! 😭

me

HE IS A DILF JOHN PRICE IS THE ULTIMATE DILF COME AND FIGHT ME

Captain Price: hearing what you say in the distance EXCUSE ME WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY??

me

oups.. you are a dilf..

Ghost: giggles Captain do you know what that term means?

me

ghost don't tell him noooooo

Ghost: I’m sorry to tell you Sir, but DILF means ‘Dad I’d Love to F*ck-‘

me

ghost you fooking traitor 😡💀

Gaz: giggles I knew you were a simp for Captain-

me

ALRIGHT CAPTAIN YOU ARE A DILF IM NOT ASHAMED TO SAY IT

Ghost: giggles Captain now has to live with the fact that we all think he’s a DILF now 🤭

me

Alejandro is also a dilf 🤭

Ghost: loudly laughing ALEJANDRO IS A WHAT NOW?!?

me

he is a dilf what 🤭🫦

Ghost: gasp I get why you say Price is one but Alejandro??? Come on-

me

you didn't see him working out in compassion shirt or at the beach so hush it ghost 🤭🤭🤭

Ghost: gasp YOU CAN’T JUST SAY THAT AND NOT SHOW ME PICS-

me

you snitched on me and told price what dilf mean so you won't get any pics 😡

Ghost: BUT I WANNA SEE ALERJANDRO- :(

Gaz: laughing Ghost is acting so childish.

me

NO HE'S MINE

Ghost: WHYYYYY

me

BECAUSE I DECIDED SO YOU DOUBLE DECKER BRIT BUS

Ghost: gasp I DID NOT JUST GET INSULTED TO THIS DEGREE-

me

🤭🤭🤭

Ghost: whispers ^how ^dare ^you-

me

how dare i yes i dared

Ghost: gasp ^you’re ^going ^to ^hell-

me

see you there bae

Ghost: gasp I DID NOTHING WRONG

me

YOU WATCHED SOAP DANCING HOW THE F YOU DID NOTHING WRONG 😡

Ghost: CAPTAIN I TOLD YOU I DIDN’T WANT TO SEE IT BUT HOW WAS I MEANT TO UNSEE IT?!

me

go to settings press memory press delete all

Ghost: HOW DID I NOT THINK OF THAT- pokes his eyes aggressively to remove the image

me

YOU DID WHAT YOU'RE BLIND NOW YOU DUMP SHITE

Ghost: gasp I’M NOT THE DUMB ONE IN THIS GROUP CHAT-

me

yeah you're the second on the podium, Soap is the first with no braincells in that head

Ghost: gasp SOAP CAN ACT LIKE A DUMBASS SOMETIMES BUT IT’S ONLY SOMETIMES, YOU IDIOTS DO IT 24/7-

WHERE THE F DID THE REST DISSAPER 😭😭😭💀

alright kids, this is the reason i don't have a relationship or a career. insane and dump on daily basis.. but at least we got some humor left that no one finds funny beside myself and my dog (I don't have one)

alright that's it, my chats are worse i am keeping this out of weird and dump ily all tell me if i need to do a part 2

[scarlet97531]

⭕️❗️CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT HOW A BOOK SERIES FOR NINE YEAR OLDS LITERALLY STARTS WITH GRAPHIC DEPICTIONS OF VIOLENCE AND DOES NOT GET BETTER??????

((General warning for graphic depictions of violence, lots of caps lock, and some swearing sprinkled in for fun for the rest of this post, also I don’t hate WoF, I love WoF, but I also think it’s batshit insane and needs to be addressed (in a pretty unserious way)))

The fucking prologue.

HELLO??? AM I CRAZY FOR THINKING THIS IS A BIT MUCH FOR THE PROLOGUE OF A CHILDREN’S BOOK???

This shot was the gateway drug for us istg. This fucking book series got is so hooked on fictional violence man 😭

We were drawing detailed dragon gore as fanart, looking at detailed gore that other people had drawn as fanart?

Seriously am I crazy????? This is the second main character killing her father to prove a point?????????

This is what we get for an explanation for where the first main character came from? His backstory is literally that his mom sold him for some cows??????????????????? WTF

Also just mudwing society in general is. It seems. Pretty weird. Like really weird.

“As the [human] shrieked again, she bent down and bit off its head.

“Blech,” she said, spitting it out again immediately. The head bounced across the grass as the body slowly toppled over, blood pouring out of it’s neck.”

UM?? OKAY!!

“She scored her talons along his wing, ripping open the scars”

“She shook Dune lightly, as if she were shaking the fluff off a dead pigeon. He clawed at her talons, his eyes bulging. “I mean, what use is a crippled dragon who cannot fly? I’m surprised you haven’t killed yourself already, SandWing. But I can take care of that for you.”

DAMN????

“No!” Sunny screamed, leaping at them.

But it was too late. With a chilling crack, Queen Scarlet snapped Dune’s neck and dropped his body on the stone floor.

“Dune!” Sunny howled. She squirmed past Scarlet and crouched beside him, shaking him with her front talons. His mangled wing flopped, his scales scraped against the rocks. His black eyes were empty. “Dune, wake up!””

HOLY SHIT???? WHY WAS THIS NECESSARY FOR A CHILDRENS BOOK

WHAT THE FUCK

AND THIS IS JUST SOME OF THE FIRST BOOK, DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON LEGENDS OF DARKSTALKER MAN THAT SHIT WAS CRAZY

THIS IS BEING SOLD FOR NINE YEAR OLDS

THIS COULD VERY WELL BE A CHILD’S FIRST INTRODUCTION TO DEATH

WHAT WAS TUI THINKING???????????

LIKE ACTUALLY WHAT????

Honestly it is so unsurprising we turned out the way we did when this is what we were reading as a kid 😭

Literally our primary caretaker is named after Scarlet. The same scarlet in those quotes earlier. Like this shit is so in our brain and has been since we were twelve.

This shit. Is. Crazy.

And then every time I try to point out flaws In the writing or the plot ppl tell me “oh it’s not that deep it’s just a children’s book it’s not a big deal” LIKE. FUCKING. HELL IT IS.

ABSOLUTELY NOT. NO FUCKING WAY.

I am completely convinced that if we had never read these books our gorey pseudo memories would not be HALF as detailed and disturbingly accurate as they are now. Like seriously we did so well in anatomy classes because of this. Maybe that’s mostly the autism but i we never would have been so interested in anatomy if we weren’t trying to figure out how to draw anatomically accurate dragon disembowelment because of these damn books 😭

Anyways all this said I still fucking love wings of fire and I’m thinking of bringing back that thing where I draw cute cartoony dragons dying horribly :3

If anyone has horror stories about growing up reading wings of fire I want to hear them

WAIT ONE LAST THING- I forgot to mention the icewing massacre, attempted genocide, and general dragon racism….. hmmmm a topic for another time perhaps

[im-out-of-it]

season 1, episode 11 “blood calls to blood”

aka guess who are “siblings” 💀

1. it’s almost funny that Valentine tricks jace this way. like jace thinks it’s his father and he’s so happy but all Valentine is doing is taunting jace and tricking them just so he can have the cup. just like Alec predicted lmao

2. you don’t have to heal jace. you can let him die. we would all be better off

3. I know I post a lot of anti jace stuff but if the writing actually had him being held accountable and he was a decent person, I could get on board. but I can’t. he’s insufferable, toxic, and self involved

4. well, we are back with Alec and Izzy. one shadowhunter trial about to come up 👏🏼

5. “I can’t find jace because I weakened our bond”- yes Alec did weaken it but let’s not just put it all on Alec. parabatai are supposed to have each others back and I haven’t seen jace do that for Alec at all. anytime Alec needs him, jace isn’t there. we don’t know their relationship before episode 1 so maybe he was there but knowing jace, I fucking doubt it lmao

6. “what am I supposed to do, sit here and play solitaire while they find something else to blame me for?”- Izzy. I’m just surprised she knows what that game is 😭 but honestly it’s kind of messed up that clary and Jace got to run off with the mortal cup while Izzy is here almost about to lose her being a shadowhunter. it’s not fair at all. and I think the treatment of jace and clary vs Alec and Izzy is something that doesn’t get discussed much. they hardly are held accountable for anything. they’ve ran off and who is to blame? ALEC. Izzy may have had a hand in helping meliorn but she didn’t do it alone so why is Izzy the one paying the consequences?

7. literally jace could go out and kill a bunch of downworlders and say they attacked me first! and he still would be fine. oh because jace is supposedly the best of us all except he always needs rescuing. Alec has paid the price for so many of jace’s actions.

8. “Izzy, I’m your big brother, please let me help you”-Alec 😭

9. I love that Simon has people helping him out. Luke in season one, Magnus in season two. Magnus had to deal with being a warlock all on his own. Luke had Jocelyn but no one should have to go through their changes on their own ☹️

10. LET JACE DIE! LET JACE DIE! LET JACE DIE!

11. I know Raphael is asexual but I would have been 100% okay with a Raphael and Simon pairing. THEY HAVE CHEMISTRY

12. but I love the importance of the showing making representation matter. we have Magnus who is bisexual, alec is gay, Raphael is asexual, and I can’t think of her name but that officer in season three who is a lesbian as well as aline and Helen. so nice to see 🥹

13. “Funny how those rules for downworlders stop being such a big deal when you need our help.”-ok Raphael tell her off 🔥 literally, what I have been talking about!!!! shadowhunters can break the accords = it’s okay! downworlders breaking accords = they’re evil and must be executed and punished!

14. having Camille only being on the show as temporary was a mistake in my opinion. I’m not saying she needed to be there the whole time but I think she’s a very underrated character who could’ve been more. she didn’t have one entire scene in all of season one that was terrible

15. ah blackmailing, how original

16. how I feel everytime jace gets away with something lmao (I always try to do shadowhunter gifs but I couldn’t resist)

17. Raphael: blackmailing me? how unkind, now stick around new advisor 🥲 raphael doesn’t play any games

18. ah, inquisitor herondale. what a cold bitch she is

19. well jace lives so yay I guess?

20. “this is real clary”-jace. ugh not them putting their whole mouths all over each and making cringe facial expressions 🤢

21. not sorry, I find them so cringe

22. ah, Valentine being Michael wayland being highly suspicious (shit I hope I didn’t ruin this for anyone, SORRY)

23. I love how “Valentine” sees jace following whatever clary says and is thinking hmmmm interesting

24. Izzy is all like if Jocelyn can be on the run then I can, but she had runes and weapons and Luke for starters so it’s not like Jocelyn was alone

okay so this isn’t going to be in order and this post will be more than likely go towards the trial 😌

45. I love the way alec says done and he just stares at Magnus like this man is going to take me for all I’m worth and I’m going to be happy about it 😭

46. the struggle is real for alec because not only is he denying a man who he is most likely having feelings for but he has have the audacity to go back to that same man 😬 and literally ask him for help while also trying to fight his feelings

47. like it’s just got to be hard for alec to be around magnus. I know he’s gay, we know he’s gay, literally the whole world knows he’s gay but alec doesn’t feel comfortable being gay in the shadow world. this is more of an assumption on my part when it comes to Alec. because he’s never dated and we see him “secretly” eyeing other men. which he is rightly validated in because the shadowhunters (more clave) are such oppressive ass judgmental prejudicial dicks who would rather control a being to their mold than have someone be comfortable in who they wish to be. they have this my way or no way thinking of how a shadowhunter should act and be

48. and the show doesn’t really touch up often on what it means to be gay in the shadow world or just different (I mean the books barely did and I would rather cc stay away from all matters because she burns everything she touches so no thanks)

49. also can we talk about how fucking gorgeous Magnus is???????

50. HE KNOWS HE IS FINE AS HELL

51. like how is Alec not drooling over him?????? man he’s got to be using every strength to hold it in and fight it 😭

52. also kind of funny how we’re introduced as jace being the one without emotions and clary as the emotional feeling one and the fact that clary is the one ending valentines reign, and Jace can never handle it

53. I sympathize with Jace losing his parents and having a messed up childhood but I don’t sympathize with someone who has this and uses excuses to be a shitty person. I’m sorry but I never once saw a change in either jace or clary in the show or the books.

54. “You don’t trust Alec so clary means more to you.”- “Michael wayland” ayyyyyy isn’t this what I have been saying this whole time????? dude is reading my mind I swear

55. and now he’s trying to act as though he trusts Alec. “Valentine” is right about something. he has put clary first since she arrived and Alec last. fucking Izzy is about to get deruned and jace and clary are out here basically having the time of their life. I know it’s an exaggeration but what did they think would happen after they saved meliorn????

56. MAGNUS THE LAWYER IS HERE

57. HES IN A SUIT AND TIE ALL READY TO FIGHT FOR THE LOVE OF HIS LIFES SIS AND HE IS ABSOLUTELY THE HOTTEST PERSON IN THE ROOM!!!!!!!!! this is who I need to represent me at any time!!!

58. Magnus: excuse me, your honor but this bitch is irritating the fuck out of me (magnus having to be near Lydia lmao)

okay, so part 3 coming soon 🥰✨

[brighttears]

hi i hope you’re doing well!! i want to start off by saying that i’m loving the dusk series so far!! like always your writing is just so captivating. I’d like to send in a request, but first, what do you think joel’s love language is? i think it’s definitely physical touch and words of affirmation (or quality time). The request is maybe some scenarios(for lack of a better word) where we see the reader find out Joel’s love language and show joel love the way he likes. I thought it could be a cute drabble, please take any liberties you’d like, and if you end up writing this then thank you so much :)

I decided I’ll just do drabbles (just learned that word lol) for each (except for gifts) and put all my opinions and reasoning at the bottom because it's kind of a lot. Also oh my god “show joel love the way he likes” 😭😭😭 PLEEEASE

I feel like I don’t see a lot of this!! I LOVE VULNERABLE JOEL!!!  LETTING HIMSELF BE LOVED WITHOUT ANYTHING IN RETURN!!! GOD DAMN I JUST WANT THE MAN TO BE ABLE TO RELAX!!!! Also thank you for the request and the praise I appreciate you so much ❣️❣️❣️❣️ (sorry this took so long, writer's block Took Me Out for a couple days)

no physical description, gender neutral, no use of y/n

Warnings: mentions of sex, pet names (baby, sweetheart, lovey dovey, honeydew (sickening i know))

Word count: 2k

ACTS OF SERVICE

Joel is known by what he does for others. At this point, it’s basically half of his identity. He’s a father, a protector, the one who will give you the shirt off of his back, take both watches so you can sleep, catch a bullet without blinking an eye. This is one of the things that attracted you to him in the first place, how he wears the love in his heart on his sleeve, even if he doesn't talk or touch much. When you started really seeing each other, you began learning his eyes and the words behind closed lips, and you found so much below the surface. To his core, Joel is a giver, that has always been the case, but he tries to never let on his needs, his wants. You have found it in his eyes, though, especially at the end of a long day. 

Today is one of those days. Joel walked in with tense shoulders and tiredly drooping brows. He barely mumbled a ‘hey’, just plopped down on the couch next to you, rubbing the heels of his hands into his eyes.

“Hey honeydew,” you move to slide your hands around him and rest your cheek on his shoulder, “Long day, hm?”

“Mhm.” he replies, leaning into you, his hands still in his eyes. You stay quiet to see if he wants to talk about it, but he doesn’t, so you stand from the couch, wrapping a hand around his wrist to lightly tug him to his feet, and then lead him into the bedroom. He follows and lays down for you, eyes already closed. Silently, you undo his laces, pull his boots off, he lays still as you pull his pants. You undo the buttons of his flannel and pull off his undershirt, and then you tuck him into bed. You draw the blinds to keep out the afternoon sun and lay next to him on top of the blankets until his breathing slows to sleep. Then, as quietly as you can, you remove yourself and gather his dirty clothes to wash. 

It took awhile for him to let you do this for him, and the first time he did, when you’d tucked the blankets around him, he cried. Some days he’ll give you a look that tells you to get in with him, and then turns his back for you to wrap yourself around him. He goes out like a light when you do that. 

This is the only thing you’ve seen Joel willingly let someone do that is just for him, without him needing to do anything in return, just for what he really needs and wants. He has tried to crush the notion that he wants or needs anyone to do anything for him, shut down the craving to be taken care of, but you’ve weasled your way into it. Joel is the most giving person you’ve ever met and you’re just glad to be able to give something to him, even if it’s just clean clothes and a warm, comfy nap. Nothing is as gratifying as being able to hold Joel the way he wants to be held.

PHYSICAL TOUCH

The sun was shining in the forest the first time Joel slipped his hand into yours. The leaves were a bright light green, the path’s dirt almost gold in the sun. He didn’t say a word or look away from his boots on the ground. So, you didn’t say anything either, just held his hand, smiling wide, and kept walking. 

He didn’t say anything the second time either, only barely glanced to you at his side, then looked back down to hide in his footsteps. That time, you started to swing your clasped hands a little, and you could tell he was smiling just as wide as you were. 

At night, he started by just resting a leg over yours, only after you’d been laying for a while, eyes closed, without a word. You experimented by putting your hand in his open palm one night, just resting it there. The next night, he pulled you in. The night after that, you woke up to him wrapped around you like a monkey on its mothers back. And the next night, he held you like that but from the front, his slow deep sleeping breaths warms on your neck.

It felt wonderful. Not only because it was him, but because of the nature of it—it was for you to be holding him. You wouldn’t have known that that was something he wanted, he presents only as a holder, a big spoon, but really, he’s the baby. Just about every night after that, you’d come to him first and wrap him up so all he’d have to do is squeeze into the embrace (sometimes he makes a little hum as he does).

The sex changed after you started doing this, too. It’s more intimate, deeper, he’s loosened up and it’s become more fluid. He’s more vocal, too. The first few times like that he couldn't last more than half as long as he usually does, but he cums a lot harder and it’s just as hot to you as it must be for him. It’s just pure intimacy. 

He started doing more outside of the covers at night, holding you from behind when you were standing for awhile sometimes, sneaking a kiss to your head here and there, and he likes to walk close enough to you that you bump and brush against each other as you go. 

He does all of this without saying a word. There’s no need for him to, he’s telling you clearly through all of this touch that he trusts you completely and loves you deeply.

WORDS OF AFFIRMATION

The first time you said something to him, Joel paused, and when he looked back at you, asking, “Really?” his eyes were lit up. You caught on and kept slipping in praise here and there, watching him break out in big goofy grins. 

Tonight you’ve seemed to have caught a bug of it, crowding him on the bed and showering him in it.

“I love you so much handsome man,” you peck his cheek as he turns it away, grinning pink and humming laughter, “You’re so good, you’re so special, lovey dovey, I’m so proud of you,” he giggles, eyes closed, “You’re my world.” Kiss his cheek, “baby I’m so glad I found you,” kiss, “you’re so strong and brave,” kiss kiss, he laughs, “you’re so funny, you’re my goofy guy,” he laughs harder and you can’t help but laugh with him. “I love seeing you happy.” You get yourself on top of him, folding your arms over his chest to see his plump, rosy face, still smiling ear to ear, eyes half lidded as he looks back at you. “My beautiful,” you peck his lips, “beautiful,” you peck and he starts laughing again, holding your waist lightly, “gorgeous,” kiss, “dreamy,” kiss, “handsome man.” kiss, “I love you.” 

“I love you.” He coos. He blinks, thinking, and just looks at you for a while, smile fading but not leaving. Then, in the softest, most innocent tone you’ve ever heard from him, Joel says, “Thank you.” 

QUALITY TIME

Joel seemed pretty cold when you first met him. He barely ever seemed anything other than annoyed at best. So, you assumed he hated you. When you found yourselves left alone somewhere, usually to keep watch for something or other, it was for a while completely silent. It wasn’t necessarily uncomfortable, but it made you sad. You didn’t know him and, yeah, he seemed like just a massive grump, but you’d watched him with people he was close to, and you wanted that kind of attention from him. 

Maybe it wasn’t, but it felt like you found yourself alone with him often. You were ready to just stay quiet and not bother him while he waited out this time with you, set on your idea of what he thought of you, but then he started making small talk. At first, you, again, assumed he was doing it through gritted teeth, but then he started laughing with you, and then you were trading stories. Then you started seeking each other out to be alone together. 

You started taking walks, but you’d get so caught up in conversation you’d  have to stop, and found a spot on a large, fallen dead tree by the water. Skipping rocks, you'd talk about the past, he’d follow you around while you trailed away to pick flowers, then let you teach him how to make crowns with them. 

The fallen tree by the water and flowers became your place of solace to go and be alone. Just you and him, him and you, with each other until the sunset, or he’d wake you up early so you could go watch it rise from there, side by side in silence. 

You talked about anything and everything, sometimes nothing at all. Silent in the grass, you’d watch the clouds or the stars. It’s just nice to be around each other.

He told you so today, and it made you think of how he looked when you first met, the stone cold downcast eyes, hands ready on his rifle, hardly moving except to chew on his lip or grind his jaw. Today his eyes are soft, golden in the sunlight, an earnest, innocent smile playing at his lips, lax face showing off his cheeks, crows feet highlighting his contentment.

“You know, I thought you hated me the first few times we… hung out, as in, got stuck alone somewhere.” You admit. 

“No, sweetheart,” Joel’s eyes twinkle and neither of you are able to twist away your smiles, “you just made me nervous.”

“Why’d I make you nervous?” You laugh. 

“Well,” he looks down, still smiling, “I just wanted to find the right thing to say. Wanted to impress you I guess. Not anymore though,” he looks back up at you, “don’t feel any kinda nervous around you. I’m lookin’ for all the time alone with you I can get.”

“Well I’m glad we still have all day…” you tilt your head, “and tomorrow, and the next day, and the day after that. If you’ll have me.”

He shifts a little closer, “I’ll have nothing else.”

MY OPINOINS

Don't ask me questions unless you want a mini essay lol i’ve always been that bitch

Omg. I think about this while writing and it's an interesting thing to explore bc what is hidden under there? What was he like before? Very fun to play around with.

(Side note I have only seen the show, I have not played any of the games so that’s where I get all of my context from) They didn’t show a lot of pre outbreak Joel obvi, and I’m kind of nitpicking the shit out of it, but what Joel initiates with Sarah is quality time. Although there was also physical touch, and I saw a post about Joel and Sarah’s closeness when they’re watching the movie, where they so naturally move into each other, and I dig that, but I feel like the focal point was spending time together for his birthday. 

Pause to say that I don’t think that gift giving is his love language because he gets the watch here and that's the only gift giving like ever, also the other gift was a movie to watch together, that’s why I didn’t write for it.

So my automatic thought is that his love language is acts of service, but the more I’ve thought about it I want to say that that as a priority has been an add-on. Like he forgot to get the pancake mix when he was supposed to, the cake, he got home late—he broke these promises he made to Sarah, and now, I think the pressure on acts of service is one of the lasting effects of her death. I bet he feels guilt for those promises he broke that day, and now he doesn't want to ‘let her down again’; he couldn't save her (ALL THAT MAKES ME SCREAM AND CHEW THRU MY ARM BTW), and now he craves control over things like that, so he does everything he can to try to make up for it, to protect the ones he loves. 

Joel doesn’t really talk much and he’s said he’s not very good at it. He delivers some killer fucking lines but they’re only big moments, so I think that one would be the hardest for him. Also, I can count on one hand the amount of physical contact he had at all, not all of them he even initiated. However, I DROOL over the idea of him re-discovering that he loves physical touch.

The one thing Joel always does is he is always there. Simply that it is his number one priority, and then he fits other stuff into it, like talking more and being more open, letting himself touch and be touched, etc. (although part of it is he literally has to be with Ellie all of the time, so that complicates it a little, but still)

So my big two are acts of service and quality time but I think his core love language is quality time.

Lol im sorry im just straight up disagreeing with you but for real for real, I think that’s one of the most beautiful things about all this, being able to take these things and run with it; we get to chew through all of this stuff and share all these different thoughts on it and it’s really cool to be on this platform and hear some thoughts that never would have occurred to me and that is so fucking exciting and fun to me. I think it is so cool to be able to take this art and explore more of it and just keep pumping life into it ykwim. So if you are reading this far thank u very cool 2 be here

[cloudninetonine]

Hiya Cloud! I'm the Anon that sent in the Goth Player and Delinquent Player Asks, and I have another fun idea for you, sorry for bombarding you with these though you may ignore them when you need to! (Though I should probably get a "name" if I'm gonna be sticking around this often)

But I have this thought, and I must tell you before I forget it!

You know how we occasionally bring up moments where Legend calls Player a Witch yes...

So how about a Witch Player, BUT they absolutely suck at being a witch, like the most they can do is heal small wounds, start small fires, and summon tiny orbs of light but that is it! But even then when they try and use what little fire they can summon they accidentally burn themselves. Better yet they can fly on a broom but they only hover a few feet off the ground because they are scared of heights.

Like when they first meet the chain, the boys are on guard for a while but when they see that this Witch is downright terrible at their known craft it's just like; "Oh....Oh this is kinda sad to watch", ANd PLAYER KNOWS THIS TOO AND THEY CAN'T HELP BUT SILENTLY CRY-LAUGH ABOUT IT!

Legend: How are you even a witch!

Player: Idk! I asked my mom the same thing!

Though on the fluff side, I imagine the more magically inclined Chain would teach Witch Player the things they know and help them practice a bit, especially 'Rulie (=w=) I wanna say Legend too, more so reluctantly lends aid, if mostly to not always be the one that has to put out the flames Player tends to have on their clothes.

Though if I were to give this a plotline, I'd say that Witch Player is a baby witch that is learning from their Mom (who is a well-seasoned one, maybe powerful even), and while Dink initially meant to take their Mom he gets Player instead but senses that Witch Player has a LOT of potential they just haven't tapped into yet, enough to surpass their Mom.

Also;

Player: *trying to contact their mom* Mom come pick me up they brought out the pitchforks 😭

That is all that I have for that right now, but idk I might add more thoughts later (Does anyone have the name of 🍪 Anon yet...)

Player tries to light a fire and it's a lottery "Okay, fellas, what do we wanna guess? Nothing happens? I set this whole forest alight? or it works!? Place your bets in, boys!"

Hyrule had to beg them to please not do that.

(Also no one has picked cookie anon!)

[hephaestn]

Don't worry about Halit not seeing Casablanca yet. Esra is going to show him the movie and he's going to flex about how he ended up getting a happy ending unlike Humphrey Bogart. 😎

Also, under no circumstances, do not imagine Esra forcing him to watch Robin William's entire filmography and Halit has the biggest smile the whole time because Esra's happy 🥰🥰🥰

Isn't it interesting that Halit doesn't like Meliha because she always pokes her nose into places she shouldn't but he loves Esra for the EXACT same reason?!

I've also been wondering how their kids are going to deal with the fact that their Dad shot their asshole grandfather. And he wasn't particularly fond of their grandmother but he did carry her corpse out of that train compartment. But she's also not dead right now. And Ahmet thought he had dad problems!

It's also been bugging me since the first time I saw S02E01, but who on earth told Halit that fake Peride's actual name was Esra? The only person in 1919 who knew her name was Ahmet and he didn't tell anyone. So who told Halit? I have to know!

okay but now we actually need an episode set in modern times with esra and halit watching casablanca. it’s a must. it’s a need. i think i would be healed from my every trauma if i see them at esra’s apartment istg

STOP that’d be so adorable 😭🩵 anon, you’re going to make me want to write fanfic about these two at this rate (as if i didn’t want to already). which do we think is esra’s favorite robin williams film? i think halit would go for night at the museum or jumanji… you know, just to stick with the impossible things happening theme.

oh my god you’re absolutely right! i hadn’t thought about it like that. halit in his mind probably like: wdym you’re a journalist only my WIFE can be a journalist smh

oh but eshal babies though 🥺 they’d be a terror, but so adorable. halit shooting their grandfather is so very valid, i’m sorry, everyone is far better off without that figure in their lives. but imagine the family dinners… ahmet would be their stepbrother, but also uncle, oh lord

IT’S DRIVING ME NUTS! i think we might have a plot hole with that, tbh. because before i started rewatching season 2, i thought. okay, maybe when halit is stealing from dimitri he made dimitri tell him (now i’m not even sure if dimitri even knew esra’s name, but i believe he did) but it can’t be that!!!! because he knows esra’s name in 2022 and he hadn’t met dimitri yet. then, i was thinking the only other person that knows the name esra is leyla through the tale esra told her. but how on earth would halit and leyla speak when she’s just a little kid?

i just wish they’d shown us how halit knows. because when they’re at his place in s2e2 he says ‘esra’ in such a… i now know your real name. OKAY BUT HOW!!! please someone dm emre sahin and ask him because i’m going bonkers with this

[purple-babygirl]

Hello! (I've decided to write this before going to read your recent story. I always wanted to write to you so many time but didn't have the confidence to do so).

I just wanted to take a moment to share how much I've been enjoying your writing on Tumblr. Your posts have a way of drawing me in and transporting me to different worlds with each word you write.

I followed you since the "don't call me daddy part I" (love it so much especially the part when doll talk about family that supposed to love you unconditionally, I FEEL her) and read almost all of your story. I like mafia! daddy!bucky and his angel. I love the name that angel call alpine "PinePine" *so cute😭*. There are so many things that I love in your masterlist (too many to write it down, maybe I should write it in a comment section if you're ok with it)

I also wanted to practice muaythai/thai boxing to fight those haters. (I saw someone said that before and I agreed with them) You don't deserve hate, you deserve kindness. As a reader, I didn't expect writers to write a long story. I just want them to be happy while writing. I'm ok if they post once a while or everyday. It didn't raise my standards and I hope every writers is enjoying themselves while writing. I LOVE every writers I've followed and read their story. I really appreciate them (and you).

Thank you for sharing your talent and creativity with the world—it's a gift that brings joy to so many, myself included. I look forward to continuing to follow your journey as a writer.

Sorry if this is too long lol. I need to tell you this bc it's been on my mind for weeks. Please be safe, healthy and happy.🥺❤️

Hello, lovely, sweet person💜💜💜 Please always feel free to stop by I'll always be here to talk to you. I apologize for not replying to your ask as soon as you sent it, yesterday wasn't the best day.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for saying that. Knowing that my writing could do that has to be the best thing anyone's ever told me and I can't thank you enough for the smile on my face right now💜💜💜💜💜

Don't call me daddy is very very personal to me and you saying that it resonated with you too makes me feel both that I'm not alone and that my writing is more than just words so again thank you so so much for that💜💜

Oh I'm so happy you read mafia!Bucky and angel they were my favorite before I wrote Orc!Bucky and I'm supposed to post more of them in the future but I'm still not finished with the new parts for their story (my comment section is your comment section feel free to tell me more please:"💜💜💜)

I wish I could learn kick boxing tbh but I'm still jobless for now (please wish me better luck with jobs if that's okay with you I can't sleep in the streets I'm too weak). Learn so you could teach me:" Jk jk. Thank you, it means a lot to me how kind and sweet you are. Humans will be humans, we can't stop them from being hateful or unkind. It's cool, I cry a little and then it's gone. I'm really grateful for you being so kind and understanding and I'm sure each and every writer you read for also feels the same way.

Thank YOU for being here for it all. It makes everything worth it and makes me feel less alone. You're an amazing person and I hope you know that.

It's okay, I loved and appreciated every word. Thank you so so much for taking the time and energy to send me this beautiful ask, it makes all the difference and it will leave me happy for days💜💜💜💜💜 Please take good care of yourself as well and don't be a stranger💜

[pansy-picnics]

Okay hi! I first want to apologize for how long this will be, but I just found your page and am sort of new to tumblr.

For one, your art is amazzingggg! Every fandom you're in is heavily blessed. It's especially awesome for myself as a tts geek, to see so many dedicated to creating content. As far as the unknighted ship goes, from what I can tell, and this may be totally wrong so please correct me if it is, you want more people to be in the ship? I 100% agree that the division in this fandom is honestly detrimental to its growth, however, I feel like it keeps the peace in a way.

I myself like new dream and am fine with the poly ship, but, i was speaking with a friend who doesn't ship unkighted and cassunzel at all. They were explaining to me how it seems like most of the unknighted shippers do prefer cassunzel, which is again fine. I'm not sure if that's a fact through and through but the sentiment is there. But it got me thinking about how that perception in itself could disuade newcomers who are more into the Eugene/Rapunzel relationship? As far as division goes, I mean.

Again it's no problem to have favorites, in fact it's actually great that this fandom has so many spaces to include people who have a particular liking to any one thing, but it's rare to see anyone here really neutral on pairings if that makes sense? I know those people exist, but even beyond ships, our favorite characters, platonic relationships, and much more are pushed usually, very individually.

Love Cass? Great there's a ton of blogs for that! Rapunzel? Eugene? Varian? So many blogs for them too with art, concepts, etc! But with this fandom being so tiny- and that other weird anon we shall not mention by name, I think as long as people aren't flat out rude to each other, maybe a little separation is alright. Not everyone mingles well together. Maybe it's for the better?

I hope this wasn't annoying to read oops- but I am interested to hear your thoughts, if you feel comfortable responding.

oh no absolutely and i really enjoy these kinds of discussions!! i 100% agree lol and i’ve never meant to make it seem like i don’t. the distance between the fandom is absolutely what keeps the peace and as much as i SAY i want people to branch out more i know if it actually happened it would probably just leave us with even more division and infighting LOL😭

the neutrality is VERY rare and it’s honestly the only reason i’m so passionate about it, because i’ve never fallen into any of those divisions and it makes it really hard to find likeminded people!!! it’s why i put so much effort into my characterizations and how i portray all the dynamics, it tends to cater to everyone because i’ve never been able to pick and choose favorites myself haha

i would love for more people to find enjoyment in uknighted dream especially, since the dynamic is so important to me, but i totally understand it’s just not everyones thing and thats cool too!! :) i’m a bit surprised about the idea that most of us prefer cassunzel though, i never thought about it that way especially since i’ve never had a preference myself. i do sometimes find myself drawing cassunzel more, but that’s less because i prefer them over new dream and moreso because i feel the need to be super upfront about it…💀 i’ve had a lot of new dream fans comment on my uknighted dream art who seem to COMPLETELY miss the point and/or just disregard cass entirely. when i try to be subtle abt it most people don’t acknowledge it so most of my art is just me like violently pointing to them like LOOK!! she’s in love with BOTH of them!!! THEY’RE KISSING!!!!

as someone who’s been super involved with the uknighted dream community i’ve never felt like any of us really have a “preference”, a lot of us are hardcore cassunzel fans but that’s a given cuz that’s usually what drives us to the polyam ship in the first place. i have seen a lot of people argue that like “its just an excuse to ship new dream and cassunzel at the same time” and like….Yeah???? thats kind of the point??? 😭 i really don’t understand how people make it out to be a BAD thing bc like. the point of fandom is just to do whatever and have fun. so what if we wanna ship two pairings at the same time. why NOT just shove them into a polycule

it’s not like cass and eugene don’t have chemistry either???? they obviously care about each other and they don’t get along solely for rapunzel!!! i can’t speak for all ukd fans obviously but i think in my experience most of us did just start off “shipping two things at the same time” but with all the substance involved they VERY quickly become a set. cass and eugene’s dynamic whether platonic or romantic is really fun to explore and they all bounce so well off of each other i think it’s perfect!! they all just mean so much to me ok. they’re all equals and at the end of the day that’s really what i try to portray most in my work :3

[twiishaa]

my thoughts on the music video of ‘rolling girl’ by wowaka

this song is so good and the music video is really interesting so i wanted to share my thoughts on it 💗 also rest in peace wowaka you were a genius who changed the name of vocaloid forever 🕊️🕊️

TW: su1c1d@l thoughts mentioned, the idea that miku dies at the end of the mv/song

⬆️ if you’re not comfortable with the things mentioned above, please scroll! i don’t want anyone to feel uncomfortable 🩷🩷

link to the mv: https://youtu.be/NIqm73xsias?si=z0Mk0qel-mjoh46W

who is the boy in the MV?

^in the music video, there is a boy shown multiple times throughout the video. this boy could be her ‘saviour’, someone who gets her to stop ‘rolling’, (a metaphor for miku’s depression and feelings of loss of self), and the song could be from the perspective of this boy, how he sees this girl (miku), looking so sad in school and realises the spiral she’s going down and saving her from it all. she’s so violent/cold towards him because she doesn’t see where’s shes going herself and so decides to villain-ise him. it makes sense, until you come into contact with the final line of the chorus.

‘i will stop your breath, now.’

the first time it is said, it’s not a problem, because it’s probably just her overreacting to someone trying to help her (also, it’s in quotation marks - which makes it miku saying it since we have established the song is from this boy’s perspective.) however, when you get to the second and then the final time it is said, it is said from this boy’s perspective. which doesn’t make sense. yes, it could be just him mocking her, but that isn’t likely, and why would he say it twice? why would it be the last line, especially when it’s emphasised since all the music stops?

so this made me think- what if the boy IS the villain? since we know wowaka loved to use metaphors to make things more cryptic in his songs, it totally makes sense. what if the boy is supposed to represent her inner conflict, or even her going insane/ her suicidal thoughts? maybe miku’s been trying to fight her inner conflict, which is why she is so violent towards him, and tells him she’ll stop his breathing, because she knows if she softens even just a little bit, she’ll be dead. therefore, the end makes sense- he got the better of her (she committed). even though it’s not said that she kills herself, it is implied, since the colouring completely changes, which could imply she has gone into the afterlife/ some world after the dead. also are we forgetting the main point- the most emphasised line in the song is the boy saying ‘i’ll stop your breathing now’??

as seen in the end, he says ‘i’ll stop your breathing, now’ and they are hugging. they boy looks a bit more content with himself, and miku looks tired, and even defeated. she sheds a tear- it looks like it’s a sigh of relief, even. which links back to the point of hatsune miku’s loss of self and being a people pleaser - everyone said ‘don’t do suicide!’ so she just followed their orders. she’s finally done something she wanted. (okay i digress)

there is a lot more hinting that the boy is the villain in hatsune miku’s head throughout the video. for example, the boy and miku are wearing opposites - miku is wearing black, the boy is wearing white. in the main setting (white screen with the two mp3s on either side), there is a part when the boy and miku are standing on either side of the mp3 player (mp3 = border between life and death?). also, the boy is only ever seen when miku is seen, and they are usually close together. there is a lot more by i don’t want to go into it now because i think this is enough

end.

note: i thought of this last night, i hope it makes sense 😭😭 i just wanted to say that i got inspo from a youtube comment under the music video, talking about if the boy represents her depression- i thought about it and then i wrote a little about it here 👹👹

[todayisawthewhxlewxrld]

so. we have a problem at skl rn.

basically there's this boy that I've known since I was like what, 9 maybe? Well, whatever, point is that I've known him in primary skl AND high skl since he goes to the same one as me. and we were friends in primary skl and some of the first and second year of high school but we stopped being friends bc he became an idiot and decided that being friends and being in a friend group with ppl that make fun of him was better than cherishing the relationship we already had.

I'm not even gonna lie, some of it was partially my fault bc I knew that he had a crush on me and i kinda told him a was a lesbian one time just to see his reaction (YES IM A HORRIBLE PERSON, I REGRET IT NOW, BUT I WAS HALF TELLING THE TRUTH BC IM BI)

he didn't say anything, but it was obvious he had feelings. e.g. he wrapped his arm around my shoulders a few times, always laughed a little too hard when I made jokes and idk what else but I KNEW he had a crush on me, you can just tell, ifykyk.

Anyways we aren't friends anymore, broke it off, whatever. I hate him now, and I'm sure he does too since he laughs at me with his "friends".

BUT.

recently, we've been put together on the seating plan in geography last thursday and today in computer science. I was literally PRAYING in the back of the class on thursday when the teacher was deciding our seating plan.

I was like "okay, I don't mind being next to anyone in my entire class except Ali." (his name is Ali, he's Afghan but he doesn't look like he is, if that makes sense? Idk he looks has more east asian features NOT THE POINT, IM JUST SAYING HES NOT UGLY AT ALL, IM BEING REALISTIC WHEN I SAY HES LIKE A 7/10)

and YES of course I was put next to him.

here's the point though.

that double geography lesson when I was sitting next to him I realised...

I HAVE A FUCKING CRUSH ON HIM ‼️

AND I DONT WANT TO 😭😭

here's how it went.

I realised that when we were sitting next to each other, our knees kept touching and our elbows kept touching (AND HE DIDN'T FUCKING MOVE AWAY WHEN THEY DID, HE KEPT HIS LEG AND ARM IN PLACE!!)

I didn't get direct butterflies, but I felt a little something something. I decided to test it out to see if I had a crush on him doing a little practical experiment.

I put out elbows together and kept my fingers on my pulse.

AND GUESS WHAT?

MY PULSE FUCKING INCREASED 😭😭

AND I LITERALLY THOUGHT IN THAT MOMENT, "Oh, fuck."

AND I CAUGHT MYSELF TRYING TO MAKE SURE I LOOK GOOD MULTIPLE TIMES.

It's an actual problem, I cant have a crush on him, I just can't please 😭🙏

dear my heart, WHY?!

bro why is this so fanfic core omg… truly living out a fanfic this is CRAZYYYYYYYY sigh but i guess the heart wants what it wants 😞😞😞

[superbattrash]

You could kith

You could

Oh ew, nope, children, I ain’t gon ship them ………. 👁️

Oh he has such an evil vibe bro wtf. HOLY SHIT HE’S LIKE. ALL EVIL???? Woah… OH. MY GOD. DID HE SERIOUSLY DO THAT? THAT IS DISGUSTING????!!!?!???

Oh 🥺 oh my god. It’s not just daddy issues… it’s. all the issues 🥺 poor bby

Aaaaand Bakugo doing a little eavesdropping, aha

“Might seem stupid?” Deku, it IS stupid compared to Todoroki’s, come on 🙄

Oh? Did I hear that correctly? Tournament?? 👁️👁️✨ my dragon ball senses are tingling

WHAT. THE. SHIT. STICK. THAT IS HELLA COOL

Oh???? OH!!! O H MY FUCKING GOD THAT IS HIS POWER HOLY SHIT SHIT FUCK SHIT OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY ARE ALL THE ONES WHO HAVE HAD THE POWER OH MY FUCKING G O D

that is so fucking cool ok I get it now

Oh no don’t make me feel bad for you :( oh nooo, he’s just like Deku ;w; but almost better because he has real motivation lol

Aw they acknowledge him 🥺🥺🥺❤️

aaaaaand deku’s back to being an idiot XD

Does anyone LIKE endeavor??? He is AWFUL

Baby keeps saying sorry whenever he attacks. I bet his momma taught him good manners because it clearly wasn’t his stupid ass dad >:/

“I was angry is all” oh honey, my sweet baby boy 🥺

Oh sweet naive pikachu 😞 she’s clearly more than she lets on ~

Ohhhhhhh, please let her beat him just a little. Maybe not all the way but she deserves to be more than “the girl one” pls. Also bakugo would do good with a little ass whooping. Let’s see 👁️

Please don’t just lose immediately girly, I need you to NOT BE A LOSER!!!! This is so unevenly matched 😭 oh? Oh maybe not. He’s not… he’s actually taking her serious though? That’s respectful? It isn’t bullying?? HELLO

ThanK YOU AIZAWA!!!! HECK YEAH WOOOOAHHHH SHE IS GOOD!! Not great maybe but good!! If her opponent hadn’t been, yaknow. Bakugo good 😂

HE SAID HER NAME 😭 HE REMEMBERS HER NAME!!!! That has to be the ultimate sign of respect from him 🤷🏻

Oh 🥺 wow my first real feels from her…. that’s ok boo, you’ll still be a hero <3

YOU TELL HIM, DEKU!!!!! >:/

Aw, the stone and iron twins 😂

Oh come on, do you have to cry like that? JESUS NOT THIS PIECE OF SHIT AGAIN 😡 FUCK OOOOFFFFFFF… FUCK YEAH DEKU YOU TELL THIS JERK ASSHOLE WHAT’S UP

Ohhhh, the fight we’ve been waiting for 👁️ let’s see what you can do babes

You only have 10 fingers bro 🙄 whatchu gon do when they’re all broken? Oh you moron, there has to be a better way to do this… aaaaand there goes your arm. Jesus…

Oh???????? Deku, you lil sneak >:3 are you really gonna force him to use the fire? Hmmmmmmm…. That was kinda badass if yaknow. You didn’t know WHY he doesn’t use the fire >:/ that just seems rude

Oh shit there goes one arm :O like. For reals

Oh All Might, my beloved 😭 you don’t want him to lose but you don’t want him hurt 😭

You’re gonna lose if you keep asking him to give it his all, you idiot… then again. Please do 👁️✨

OH FUCK YOU, YOU’RE AN ABUSIVE ASSHOLE TOO???? FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT I WISH YOU’D DIE!!!!!!

Give me the damn firE POWER SO WE CAN SHOW THAT ASSHOLE WHO YOU REALLY ARE SWEETIE!!! IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT FUCK FACE, IT’S YOURS!!!!!!!

Awwwww they’re smiling 🥺🥺💕

FUCK. THE FUCK. OFF. THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU!!!! DROP DEAD YOU ASSHOLE

WHAT

W h A T

They’re stopping the fight?!!!!?!?!!?!!

W H A T

Damn it YOU LOST???? What the FUCK

I hope it was worth it >:/

[im-out-of-it]

season 1, episode 6 “of men and angels” discussion list

so I just want to start this off by thanking anyone who is actually reading my ridiculous and stupid thoughts because I know season one is long as fuck. but the reason it’s so long is because in the show and the books, Alec’s identity isn’t really brought up that often. in the first five episodes, it’s heavily focused on clary being a shadowhunter and jace. but now, Alec is getting more screen time 🫶🏼

1. Magnus opening up his home even after Valentine is hunting warlocks doesn’t get enough love. he could be locking himself up, hiding, but here is not only helping shadowhunters but also another wolf. Magnus has such a big heart 🥹

2. now jace is all like but I can’t ask Alec, he and I are fighting. and whose fault is that?

3. “same old judgmental mom to me.”- Izzy’s relationship with Maryse. Isabelle gets ignored by Maryse and gets treated as everything she does is somehow insulting

4. “He can call me when he’s done chasing the little girl” ok alec go off 🔥 he’s right though. Jace has thrown Alec to the side and expects Alec to be okay with it.

5. another rare smile out of Alec 🥹

6. Robert is now saying they can’t have someone the entire shadow realm is looking for outside of the institute. then call jace and take it up with him. y’all think Alec hasn’t tried? Alec is done trying with Jace

7. Alec: you need to come back to the institute. Jace: you need to help me first. seriously? everything that comes out of have’s mouth is a cry for help. have you thought about actually being there for Alec, jace? I don’t know maybe being his friend and taking threats serious?

8. I couldn’t find the gif but Simon saying how jace treats Alec like a lap dog is my favorite line from Simon. all jace does is tell Alec to do this and do that. he never asks if he can, he just tells Alec he needs something and uses their parabatai bond as a statement, of alec will do this for me. Alec doesn’t do anything for himself, it’s for others. and this is just how clary treats Simon as well. she expects Simon to do what she needs but I don’t ever see her asking him or even asking Simon what he needs or wants.

9. shadowhunters are supposed to protect the shadow world but the way they talk to mundanes and downworlders shows the opposite. Jace calls Simon mundie, mundane and clary calls Magnus warlock in this episode.

10. Robert saying the lightwoods are the best of the shadowhunters- he’s not wrong 😌 but I’m biased

11. side note- I like how the show focuses more on the lightwoods. even later on when they try to make herondales seem “superior” izzy is like we’re royalty basically. it’s always funny to me when they try to make jace or any herondale seem better but who was always saving his ass or the day? LIGHTWOODS. put some respect on the name please

12. Magnus coming in with the tea this whole episode!!!!!!!! “Shadowhunters believe in the law as absolute. They could never conceive of one of their own as going astray.” the clave believed when Valentine was murdering downworlders and fabricating some story as if the shadowhunters were the innocent and victim party. because how dare a shadowhunter be evil?????????

13. “I have followed every rule. I have given up everything.”- alec. wait until you find out your parents were in the circle 😭

14. I get why Alec is upset because while he’s been dealing with EVERYTHING, izzy gets to be a diplomat while he gets sent off to a chapel. no wonder Alec is upset.

15. CAN WE JUST TALK ABOUT HOW GORGEOUS MAGNUS LOOKS????? HE IS KILLING IT IN THE FASHION DEPARTMENT

16. VIRGIN SHADOWHUNTER ENERGY COMING RIGHT UP

17. MAGNUS IS HOLDING ON FOR DEAR LIFE

18. poor max with the runes 😭😭😭 I think he senses tension in the family so he’s just trying to do his part

19. did clary really just ask if Luke is her father? y’all look nothing alike. this girl keeps showing us how much of a brain she doesn’t have

so my tumblr messed up so I had to redo most of these 😭 but part 2 coming soon