#maybe jeremy deserves rights

[hinamie]

mentor

[unproduciblesmackdown]

The Billions Showrunners Go To See Bway Bmc like lgw "the problem has always been me" and they look at each other approvingly and nod like now he's getting it :) and then the squip's deactivated and everyone's embracing the realities of being a person and rejecting the idea there can be, should be, and is a set of standards to meet to get everything you want and preclude yourself from being mistreated and they're like nooo what a powerful tragedy :(

[elene78-blog]

Do we all see Jeremy's dual use of sex? It's sad that he uses it to self-harm and punish himself, but it's even sadder how he started using it and continues to use it: desperately seeking affection.

His biological father and mother either ignore their children or use them as bargaining chips to get something, and they don't give them any affection at all. From the way Jeremy keeps his father's last name and expects him to call him his whole life, it's clear there's always been a serious lack of affection on that side. From the way his mother acts the same. This, coupled with the fact that Jeremy is gay in an obviously conservative and homophobic family (we don't know about his father, but being a decorated 45-50-year-old soldier in the US in 2008, I doubt he's very tolerant), we find a completely neglected, affection-starved, and lonely teenage Jeremy, with no one to talk to about his sexual orientation and what he's going through. With siblings with as many problems as he is, and not knowing how to deal with his mother's new marriage to an idiot.

The worst part? Jeremy is a naturally cheerful and friendly person. Loneliness must have taken a huge toll on him.

It's no wonder Jeremy turned to cocaine, given the circumstances, to forget.

And sex? A way to seek the affection and understanding he'd been denied, companionship in the face of loneliness. He desperately needed someone, and unfortunately, he didn't find anyone with emotional support (I think Laila arrived much later). He only found other boys who wanted to experiment, and he, a hormonal teenager with a sexual orientation he couldn't confess to anyone else, wanted to experiment.

Be careful. I'm not saying Jeremy only uses sex for this. Obviously, he enjoyed it back in the day, and I suppose he does now too, but… It's clear that his relationship with sex was cut short, and he began to believe that this was the only way he could get some of the affection he desperately needed. In fact, his trying to get Jean's attention by taking off his shirt and the way he goes about seeking sex with boys supports this. Jeremy only seems capable of attracting the affection he seeks (not friendship, which he's very good at) by giving something in return: sex.

The orgy and cocaine were means of dissociating from a cruel, cold, and loveless reality. Substitutes for what he truly needed.

Affection, caring, understanding.

The support and love of family.

And here everything got worse, and sex became a punishment. Noah died. He came out of the closet by force, under the worst possible circumstances, and was most likely ridiculed, shamed, and humiliated to inhuman limits for this. By the press. By those close to him. As if this weren't traumatic enough, his brother has died, and he can't mourn him because his entire family hates him and blames him for it. He doesn't even have the right to mourn because it was "his fault." He has failed his entire family (the one that has never given him affection) to the extreme.

When he leaves detox, everything gets worse.

Control, control, and control. Distrust. Resentment. Even disgust. The shame continues. And the worst part is that Jeremy believes he's justified. He brought this on himself. He failed them. He failed Noah. He doesn't deserve love or comfort.

But he still needs affection, more than ever, so he sneaks back into sex, but this time… desperately. And the people he has sex with notice, or maybe Jeremy subconsciously seeks out people who notice because he knows they're not good for him, that they can hurt him emotionally and physically, and…

The only thing that sustains Jeremy, probably, is his team and his responsibility as captain. His desire to take care of everyone. The Trojans.

So… We have two sides to Jeremy's relationship with sex.

Searching for affection that never comes (because the men Jeremy seeks also only want sex).

Self-harm (harmful sex with little self-control as a means to feel a modicum of "redemption").

How could he overcome this?La única opción (y el primer paso) sería separarse de su familia, lo cual le causa estrés y le hace sentir que necesita redención. Pero tendría que ser él quien lo hiciera para que sanara de verdad. Jeremy necesita entender que, aunque los ama, lo lastiman y merece respeto. Si sigue aguantando, acabará como Noé porque su familia no quiere redimirlo. No es que no puedan, es que no quieren.

Jeremy needs to have a breakdown like Jean had with Rhemann for this to happen, and understand it.

Understanding this will also extend to his relationship with sex, at least the self-harming part. If he understands that he deserves respect and demands it, he'll eliminate the damaging part of it.

Will this eliminate his toxic relationship with sex? No. Jeremy also needs to understand that he seeks affection through sex, thinking he'll get it that way because no one has ever given him affection without something in return, and this is where the love of his friends and a healthy sexual-emotional relationship can help him.

And, truth be told, Jean is perfect for that.

Jean, who has to rebuild his foundations regarding sex but is also interested in it. Jean, who is affectionately physical (as he's shown by hugging and kissing Cat, braiding Laila's hair, and caring for others) but respects boundaries. Jean, who is kind but calm, tough when he needs to be but also loving and caring.

Jean, who is Jeremy's type because of his looks, but also because Jeremy thought Jean would be cruel when he arrived in California (like all the other guys Jeremy sleeps with), but he's not at all. And he takes care of his people and wants Jeremy to be okay. In fact, Jean recognizes when Jeremy isn't okay.

Jeremy… You'll get better after you get worse (sorry, but you will), and then you'll rebuild. And then you'll rebuild again with Jean, because no, you don't stand a chance against him.

[ajesterwrites]

18. tiebreaker

summary: damon catches you in a vulnerable moment.

pairings: damon salvatore x fem! reader

warnings: mention of death

word count: 1.8K

YOUR BREATH WAS SHALLOW as you climbed into the SUV. You swallowed hard, struggling to hold back your tears, and slammed the door shut. The whole van shook. You stared ahead at the empty parking lot, your mind racing from this night's events. Everyone was still at the stadium, probably summing up Tyler's outburst to typical Timberwolf aggression, and carrying on with the game. Meanwhile, you were trying not to cry your eyes out.

You rifled through your purse for your phone and scrolled through the contacts until you found her name.

Holly.

You tapped on her name. Her number dialed painfully slow. "Come on, come on," You whispered desperately. "Please pick up."

Click. "You've reached Dr. Holly Bernard. I'm afraid I can't get to you but please leave a message and—"

"FUCK!" You screamed, throwing your phone against the dashboard. Nerves prickled your face, your heart ached, and your gut felt like it'd been sucker-punched by Mike Tyson.

Jeremy hated you. Caroline hated you. Bonnie would probably hate you too once she heard more of Caroline's perspective. Hell, even Stefan must've been regretting giving you that necklace.

You'd hurt them more times than you could count. Maybe you deserved to be alone. Maybe you deserved what happened to you in the trauma center. It'd only revealed what you'd always known: you were a shitty person not worthy of redemption. No one should be wasting tears over you. You wished you could fade away and give everyone the peace they deserved.

Knuckles tapped against the window.

You wiped your tears and looked up.

Damon waved at you innocently, but didn't even try to conceal his smirk. This was the real him. Not that good-natured, laidback, caring brother persona he'd projected at dinner. You scoffed. Unbelievable. God, he just didn’t quit.

Wordlessly, you flipped him off with both fingers and turned away.

He knocked again. With an exasperated sigh, you rolled down the window. “What?” You snapped.

“You look like you could use some company," He said smoothly.

The sheer audacity of people never failed to surprise you. "You know, usually when a woman slaps you, it's because she doesn't want your company. So thanks. But I'll pass."

“Oh come on…" He coaxed. You made the mistake of looking into his infuriatingly charming blue eyes. "I promise I don’t bite."

You stared blankly at him. Why did he always speak like he was trying to seduce you? And couldn't he read the damn room?

Before you could fire back a snappy retort, he help up a bottle of Budweiser. “I brought beer.” 

Reluctantly, you accepted the bottle. If this was Damon's idea of a peace offering, it was a useless gesture. But after the night you'd had, you longed to drink your misery away, though your mind whirled with suspicion. How convenient was it that he happened to have an unopened bottle of beer right on hand when you needed it most—assuming it was unopened?

You burned your hand twisting that damn cap off. At least you knew he hadn't spiked it. You raised the bottle half-heartedly just to be polite (which he definitely didn't deserve), and gulped it down. The sweetness danced on your tongue and burned your throat, but you didn't stop until the taste of liquor overwhelmed your urge to cry.

“Woah, easy there!” Damon laughed. 

You dropped the bottle from your lips and exhaled. “Thanks.” 

You hadn't had a drink since the night of the bonfire. When Vicki was attacked...and Ryder died. You decided that if you thought of him again, you'd raid Jenna's liquor cabinet when you got home.

Damon leaned on the car door, watching you intently. Your throat stung, leaving a warm and buzzing sensation, but at least your eyes didn't. "So..." Damon drawled, a seductive edge to his voice. You rolled your eyes. “Y/N Gilbert…defender of friends, drinker of beer….” 

“E,” You corrected. Damon squinted his eyes, puzzled. "If you're going to say my full name, you may as well get it right. It’s Y/N E. Gilbert.” 

“Your middle name," Damon realized.

You nodded. “It’s Elena. It means light.” Ironically, you could use some light right about now. “What’s yours?” 

He chuckled like it was a silly question. You stared at him expectantly, not letting down. He must've seen this as an "in" because a few moments later, he sighed. "Francesco," He admitted.

“Damon Francesco Salvatore," You enunciated. You couldn't help but laugh. That was the most Italian name you'd ever heard. "Wow. It has a nice ring to it.”

Damon scoffed.

“What? I'm serious!” You giggled. A smile lit up your face. Later, you'd blame it on the alcohol. “Thanks for the beer.” 

“Any time.” 

“What’s going on here?” A sharp voice cut in. You and Damon both looked up. Stefan was charging toward the van, his expression hard with disapproval. It was so unlike his usual smile around you. His eyes darted at the bottle in your hand, then to Damon's smug face. “Y/N, did he give you that?” 

And just like that, you remembered where you were…and who you were with. Oh, Caroline was going to be pissed. You hadn’t meant anything romantically, obviously, but talking to him after telling her that Damon was an ass? You were sure to lose friendship points.

God, why did you keep messing everything up?

Damon sighed, irritated, and eased off the door. “Relax, brother. A little drink never killed anyone.” 

“Y/N?” 

“Yeah, he did,” You said after realizing that Stefan was ignoring his brother. “But it’s fine. I probably needed it.” 

“I thought you said you wanted to be alone.” 

“I did," You replied, glancing away. You should've peeled out of the driveway the second Damon slithered in like the snake he was. "I'm gonna go. See you tomorrow?”

Stefan nodded, still glaring—but you were pretty sure that look was for Damon. “Yeah.” 

Against your better judgment, you eyed Damon. He regarded you with mischievous eyes like he knew where you'd look. You sighed quietly. “Good night, Damon.” 

He smirked. “Good night, Y/N.” 

With one last look at Stefan, you revved up the engine, pulled out of the parking lot, and rode home.

Admittedly, your hands shook the entire time.

And it took about half an hour to get there—even though there was barely any traffic and the house was ten minutes away—but you were relieved that you made it home in one piece. And that a deputy didn't pull you over to request your license. Or make you take a breathalyzer test.

When you arrived at the house, Jenna was busy running around frantically and burning a pot of macaroni and cheese in the kitchen. At least the smell of burning—well, everything—would mask beer on your breath.

Jenna blew hair out of her face and spun to face you. “Where’s Jeremy?” 

“He didn’t come home?” You asked, frowning.

"No..." Jenna replied. He hadn't taken the SUV to the game. Come to think of it, you didn't know who had brought him. You'd been so excited to tell everyone that you'd dropped cheerleading for the art club that Jeremy being at the football game hadn't even crossed your mind. At least, not until he got pummeled by Tyler Lockwood and almost killed Stefan.

Guilt tugged at your chest. How could have you let yourself be so happy that you forgot about your own brother?

Jenna narrowed her eyes and put a hand on her hip. "Why isn’t he with you?” 

“Ask him when he gets here,” You muttered, brushing past her. Drinking on an empty stomach was a rookie move, and you didn't want to explain to Jenna that you were one step away from vomiting on the floors. Between the beer and all the stress, your body was too weak to support you. And passing out in your room was better than passing out on the kitchen floor.

“Wait– Y/N–” Jenna practically tripped running in front of you. “What’s going on with you? Bonnie called asking for you. She seemed upset. And Sheriff Forbes called as well—said something about a fight involving Jeremy?” 

You pinched your forehead. “Um, yeah, he…I punched Tyler Lockwood.”

Jenna's jaw dropped. “You did what?” 

If Jenna knew the truth, the burned dinner would be the least of her worries. The last thing you wanted was to stress her further, but Jeremy was out of control. At least you had a grip...kind of. If Jenna thought that you were responsible for the fight, she wouldn't be as overwhelmed, knowing that you were reasonable, somewhat obedient, and likely wouldn't do it again.

“And Jeremy wanted to defend me so they got into it,” You added.

Jenna started at you, her mouth still agape. “Okay, just so we’re clear…Tyler Lockwood, Vicki’s boyfriend? And Matt’s best friend? The kid you punched in the second grade?” 

“That would be the one,” You mumbled, looking away. Everyone thought you'd done it because he rejected you. Really, it had been because he passed your love letter around the school, purposefully humiliating you. So you broke his nose in front of the entire school, purposefully humiliating him. Checkmate.

“Y/N, what were you thinking?" Jenna pursed her lips disappointedly. "Do you know how much trouble you could get into?”

You glanced at the floor. “I know.” 

Jenna exhaled. You almost felt bad for lying. But she'd be stressed either away. At least this way, you could minimize the damage. “Are you gonna ground me?” You asked quietly.

“No, I just…" She sighed again. "You’re a good kid. But…what happened with Vicki was bad enough. This can’t be a pattern. Do you understand, Y/N?” 

“Yes. I’m sorry.” 

“That’s not all.” 

Her voice was strained, like it took everything in her to stop it from wavering. You frowned. “What is it?” 

“Um…your history teacher…Mr. Tanner.” 

“Yeah, what about him?” 

Jenna hesitated. “He's dead.” 

You blinked. “What?” 

“The sheriff is saying it was an animal attack. I’m so sorry, Y/N.”  She reluctantly pulled you into a hug, but you stood still, frozen in shock. You feared that one movement would send you to the floor. But if you couldn't even pull yourself together by a comforting embrace, Jenna would know something was wrong and spiral even further into self-doubt. So you swallowed hard and slowly returned the hug.

Everything suddenly became clearer.

You'd written Vicki's accident off as an animal attack, but you couldn't deny the truth any longer.

Nothing seemed right—the two college kids mauled in the road on the first day of school, Vicki's attack at the bonfire. You'd thought that Ryder was responsible. But he was dead. There was no way he could've killed Mr. Tanner. This could only mean one thing.

There was a vampire in Mystic Falls.

[humongousgothskeletonfarm]

TGR CHAPTER 7 THOUGHTS

- oh! possible implication that laila has been assaulted before and that’s why she was so quick to realise what grayson did to jean :(

- jean working so hard not to give into the aggressive tendencies he learnt at the nest (slapping someone for not getting a drill right) he’s trying sooo hard he’s healing slowly but surely :(

- i think i said this when i was reading tsc but jean and aaron both sitting in silence during their therapy sessions with bee is so funny to me they r so similar but they hate each other

jean, aaron and neil could be the funniest, meanest and strongest friend dynamic if only they would all get over their disdain for each other long enough to realise they are all the same

- jean keeping his wristband on from the 4th of july party is so cute he had such a good time

- AARONS TRIAL IS HERE

- “Andrew threw it halfway across the street, and the look on his face said he had every intention of sending the journalist after it.” my shaylaaaaaaaa god i know this is kinda funny but it’s just so fucking devastating that he is about to have all of his trauma put on the stand for everyone to see and tear apart and make comments on just so his brother can be found not guilty

- WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN KEVIN AND ANDREW

- the guards having to physically move nicky away from fighting with his parents :(

- god laila i love u sm

laila brushing jeans hair while jean gives commentary on the match is so wholesome, giving each other comfort and a distraction to ground them

- FUCK YEAH AARON CLEARED OF ALL CHARGES MOTHERFUCKERRRRR

- “Andrew would have burned the judge’s house to the ground if he turned on Aaron. Maybe he knew that?” THIS IS SOOOOOO !!!! ANDREW LOVES AARON ALSO KEVIN CRACKING JONES

- kev complaining about the fact that mack cancelled practise is so funny to me

- as much as i say i would want to be friends with jean, i fear that (like andrew) he would actually hate me and be so mean to be and i probably would cry

- “They are scared of us,” Kevin noted. ​Kevin agreed, then: the cars were an attempt to buy the perfect Court’s discretion. “Should they be?” ​Kevin took his time responding, and then just sent, “Remains to be seen.” OH KEVIN I LOVE U U R SO MUCH BETTER THAN THE RAVENS U DESERVE TO TELL UR TRUTH

- 🤞🕯️manifesting andrew (and possibly neil) travel with kevin for the interview🕯️🤞 im begging for any crumbs of my faves

CHAPTER EIGHT

- kevin day jeremy knox friendship is so fucking wholesome,, jeremy just wants to give kev a tour of LA!!!

- YESSSS ANDREW IS HERE IM FUCKING SCREAMING THANK U NORA I NEEDED THIS IM ACTUALLY GRINNING AND KICKING MY LEGS RN CANT WAIT TO SEE SOME KEV/ANDREW AND ANDREW AND JEAN BANTER

- “Vodka, generally,” Kevin said, “but I can work with beer.” i snorted

- idk kevin and andrew sharing a suitcase is adorable to me

- “Dreadful as always,” was the sour response. “But they are twice as worthless off the court as they are on it, so I will suffer them for two more years.” oh kevin u love them really

- “Only if Neil develops a tolerable personality,” Kevin said when Jeremy asked, and Jeremy tried to pass a laugh as a cough. — again, kevin u love him really

- NEIL U LITTLE SNEAK LMAOOOOO JEREMY ACIDENTALLY PUTTING HIS FOOT IN IT BY SAYING HES SHOCKED NEIL DIDNT COME TO VISIT JEAN AGAIN

- oh god i forgot about andrew and california and it’s literally two weeks post trial jesus christ

- JEREMY RECOGNISING JEANS ATTRACTION/CRUSH ON KEVIN???

- “He will be Court,” Jean said. ​“So will you,” Kevin said. !!!!! AHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!

- laila wanting to talk to andrew coz he’s such a good goalkeeper is cuteeee

- completely unrelated side note, i’m currently in the middle of the chapter but my favourite reality tv show is on (married at first sight australia) and unfortunately i am unable to multitask

- “before Jean sent Kevin a sullen look and said, “Jeremy is studying for law school.” ​Kevin’s jaw dropped. “No.” ​He rounded on Jeremy,”

jean and kevin ganging up and taking the piss out of jeremy is hilarious

- JEAN DESERVES PEACE!!!!

- i’m now watching how to get away with murder aka my current hyperfixation, sorry tgr!! ur in the back burner for a sec

- ok we’re back!!

“I have no reason to fight,” Kevin said. “Everything I want and need still lies ahead of me; it is a waste of time to look back so long as that holds true.” THIS IS SOOOO DEVASTATING

and then he says

All I want in life is to play the perfect game.” After a beat he added, “And to know why you are applying to law school.

- kevin really does profess his love for his friends by telling them they deserve to play Court with him

- “Thank you. You’re a good friend, Kevin. I hope you know that.” ​“He and I are not friends.” ​“But you’re mine,” Jeremy said, and said again, “Thank you.” yeah this just stabbed me and kissed me lightly on the forehead at the same time

CHAPTER NINE

- “It’s in my contract,” Jean finally said, because what else could he do but bite his tongue and bow his head? “I agreed I wouldn’t misrepresent the Trojans in public. I will behave.” oh jean but you’ve been forced to do that your whole life :(

- i really enjoy how nora has written jean’s ability to speak english, she doesn’t gloss over the fact that he moved to america and was forced to learn and use the language with very little prior knowledge of it, or forget that plotline entirely and make him unreasonably fluent but rather there are words he doesn’t recognise or know how to pronounce, he falters at reading english even though he can speak it and he sometimes needs help with translating

- “ In quiet French he said, “I should not be here for this.” ​Kevin put his hand over Jean’s to hide the half-moon marks Jean was tearing into his skin. “Stay with me,” Kevin said, just as soft, and Jean forcibly relaxed his death grip.” IM CRYING THEIR RELATIONSHIP IS SO COMPLEX

- “I would prefer not to entertain such hypotheticals. I know it’s not your intention, but it puts the burden of his death on us: the Foxes for their spectacular victory or Andrew for doing what was necessary to save Neil’s life. And I will not argue on that last point,” KEVIN DAY GROWS A SPINE SO HE CAN DEFEND HIS TEAM HIS FAMILY HIS BEST FRIENDS

-“I grieve him, but I reserve my outrage for the system that led him to his death. You do not understand what it is like to be a Raven: the unrelenting pressure to perform to perfection, the suffocating legacy that weighs down your every move. It is that environment which cost Riko his life, as it did so many other Ravens this summer.”

“I’m sorry; it’s just an unexpected line of questioning. You’re the last person I expected to buy into the Ravens’ sensationalism, especially seeing how you’ve covered the Trojans for the last six years. USC’s endorsement should be more than enough to settle the debate, I would think.”

“The Ravens are out of line, and I am out of patience with their tedious antics. They should spend less time dragging Jean through the mud and more time rebuilding their nonexistent defense line. They’ve lost their major players,” he insisted. “Zane graduated, Jean transferred, and Grayson…” ​Kevin didn’t bother to finish that thought but gave a slight what can you do wave of his hand. Letting a camera see this heartless side of him was unprecedented; “

KEVIN DAY V INTERVIEWS

2 | 0

he is bolddddd tn we love to see it

(he learnt his mouthiness from neil aka king of interviews)

- i have to say, if there’s anything i take away from these books it’s a reminder that parasocialism and hero worship of celebrities/powerful famous people will end badly and always make u look a fool for defending someone who will never know u exist in spite of their horrible actions. i never want to be one of those dick riding diehard raven fans who chooses to look past all of the incredibly obvious warning signs

- OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT WTFJEANS PARENTS WERE ARRESTED OMFG NEIL WAS THIS UR DOING

- andrew asking jean if grayson ever touched neil :/

- oh riko u absolute sick fuck u fucking freak i hate u sm im so glad ur dead

- ANDREW ASKING “Spoil the surprise for me. Did Neil kill Johnson while he was in town?” IM GIGGLING IM SORRY HE KNOWS HIM TOOOO WELL

- “fair-haired rat” ANDREW IS COPPING TOO MANY STRAYS FRIM JEAN THIS CHAPTER FIRST JEAN CALLS HIM TINY NOW THIS

- “You are an idiot,” Jean accused him. “You were barely fast enough to save him last time. The next time someone takes a swing at him, you and your brisket lungs will have to watch him die. I wouldn’t have given him to you if I’d known you would just throw him away so carelessly.” BRISKET LUNGS TOOK ME OUT OMFG JEAN U LOVE NEIL U CANNOT HIDE THE FACT THAT U GUYS ARE BESTIES FROM ME UR SO CONCERNED FROM HIS SAFETY AND U KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO NEEDLE ANDREW

- “Our damage control needs damage control. I will never do an interview again.” ​“Don’t lie. You like the sound of your voice too much to give this up.” ​Kevin conceded with a light shrug. “

yeah actually they are so brothers coded

[wyattjohnston]

with the posting of the masterlist, the summer fic exchange 2k24 has come to an end! 33 fics written by 31 people. i am eternally grateful that these exchanges are still going strong and that people are having fun with it!

please read all the fics below, even if it's a player you don't normally read for. a lot of work has gone into these fics and they all deserve your time. make sure to reblog and leave comments when you've read it!

please respect all warnings at the beginning of fics. if a fic has been marked as smut or 18+ and you are younger than, do the right thing and do not read it.

i'm still unsure if i'm running a winter exchange or if i'm going to maybe reconsider the timing, but please come back and feel free to ask questions around november/december if i haven't said anything!

the summer fic exchange 2k24 masterlist

Boston Bruins

Jeremy Swayman

Indoor Cat by @nhl-stories for @ bqstqnbruin

Carolina Hurricanes

Andrei Svechnikov

i’ve been yours since you stepped through the door tonight by @writingonleaves for @ callsign-denmark

Third Time's the Charm by @typical-simplelove for @ kurlyteuvo

Frederik Andersen

But Baby, It Feels Like Love by @callsign-denmark for @ mp0625

Chicago Hawks

Teuvo Teravainen

I Think I Dreamed You Into Life by @kurlyteuvo for @ lila-rose

Colorado Avalanche

Nathan MacKinnon

hide the sun by @ohmyeyesmyeyes for @ wyattjohnston

Edmonton Oilers

Connor McDavid

i'm half-doomed and you're semi-sweet by @offside-the-lines for @ hiding-from-reality-56

Leon Draisaitl

… but you're going to by @senditcolton for @ thewintersoldierdisaster

Blue Hair and Pronouns by @hiding-from-reality-56 for @ nhl-stories

Florida Panthers

Matthew Tkachuk

always attract by @dunnerlars for @ sc0tters

truth or dare by @boqvistsbabe for @ ohmyeyesmyeyes

Montreal Canadiens

Cole Caufield

four weddings and a funeral by @thewintersoldierdisaster for @ prettytoxicrevolver

Juraj Slafkovsky

Summer Vacation by @prettytoxicrevolver for @ lam-ila

New Jersey Devils

Dawson Mercer

Baseball and Love by @lam-ila for @ hischier-papaya

Jack Hughes

CHASING YES by @puckology101 for @ tonsypep

Nico Hischier

home is just another word for you by @fallinallincurls for @ puckology101

felt like magic by @laurenairay for @ selfindulgentpoorlywritten

good luck, babe by @nol-pat for @ fallinallincurls

turbulent by @wyattjohnston for @ dunnerlars

walked in and dream came trued it for ya by @gravestrain for @ nol-pat

New York Islanders

Mat Barzal

First Time Feeling by @huuuuughes for @ ahockeywrites

truth or dare by @dunnerlars for @ writingonleaves

Matt Martin

I can't help it if I like it by @laurenairay for @ comphy-and-cozy

New York Rangers

Alexis Lafreniere

Romance in The Hamptons by @lifeofpriya for @ wildrangers

Matt Rempe

MEDICINE by @lila-rose for @ 2 manytabsopen

Pittsburgh Penguins

Anthony Beauvillier

one night standards by @comphy-and-cozy for @ offsidethelines

Tattoos of You by @bqstqnbruin for @ senditcolton

Ryan Graves

The First Time by @selfindulgentpoorlywritten for @ gravestrain

Seattle Kraken

Philipp Grubauer

Pfirsich by @mp0625 for @ huuuuughes

Toronto Maple Leafs

Joseph Woll

sunset by @hischier-papaya for @ lifeofpriya

William Nylander

I Wish You Would by @wildrangers for @ typical-simplelove

Vancouver Canucks

Quinn Hughes

somehow still stuck on you by @matthewtkachuk for @ boqvistsbabe

walkin' with his head down, i'm the one he's walking to by @tonyspep for @ laurenairay

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[klonnieshippersclub]

I love delena and Bamon and I really feel like they wrote Damon to be in the coffin for 3 years because they knew romantic feelings were developing for them. It's frustrating because Elena was gonna be asleep for along time so it would be okay if he developed feelings for Bonnie sure maybe it would make them feel a bit guilty but when has the show ever shyed away from that? I do like Bonnie and Enzo but I wanted Bamon so bad. I realize because of how season 6 ended naturally Damon is going to be with Elena but that's when Bonnie passes. You can have more than 1 epic love and right now it's just him and Bonnie and I would have loved to see them develop romantic feelings it felt clear it was there. Damon was even so jealous of Enzo having Bonnie. Ugh I want Bamon

IBamon had serious potential, but it should not have taken Elena disappearing for the writers to consider Bonnie as a love interest. Damon and Bonnie had undeniable chemistry. Their dynamic was full of trust, tension, and vulnerability. But the show refused to explore it.

I understand the love for Bamon, especially with how jealous Damon was of Enzo. But Enzo never felt like the right match for Bonnie. And Jeremy? He treated her like a second choice. Bonnie, this powerful, self-sacrificing witch, deserved more than being anyone’s backup plan.

That’s what makes Klonnie so compelling. Klaus shares Damon’s intensity, but he respects Bonnie’s strength and is drawn to her power. Their dynamic would be magnetic. Bonnie stands her ground, and Klaus never tries to dim her light. He is captivated by it.

Bonnie deserved someone who chose her fully. Someone who saw her magic and loved her for it. Klonnie gives her that.

[dusty-bookelf]

What’s in a name?

The man this coach had researched so carefully wasn’t real and wouldn’t exist much longer.

Neil Josten getting to renounce his given name because his name alone does not dictate who he belongs to. Neil Josten getting to keep the identity the foxes found that no disguise could change. Neil Josten getting to chose to be Neil Josten because he doesn’t want to run, he wants to be a fox because he was they’re family and they were his and they’re worth every cut and bruise and scream.

That which we call a rose by any other name

I am Jean Moreau. My place is at Evermore.

Jean-Yves Moreau getting to reclaim his given name because who he is can’t be taken away. Jean-Yves Moreau getting to use his too pretentious name because the rules have changed. Jean-Yves Moreau getting to take back the name and the language that was stolen from him because fuck what he deserves, what about what he wants and he will chose Jeremy, and Cat, and Laila, every time.

Would smell as sweet

Andrew Minyard who chose the name that belonged to the brother he claimed he didn’t want and Renee Walker who was gifted a new name when she chose a new life and Jeremy Knox choosing Knox because he’s not a Wilshire but Knox doesn’t feel right either so maybe he’ll change it to something else.

What’s in a name?

Everything. When it’s the name, the identity, the life you chose for yourself and chose to fight for.

[dustisus]

og trilogy things that might come up in tgr

idk am rereading the og trilogy and here are some things that could be relevant in tgr maybe. just as a reminder ig. (i don't have exact quotes or page numbers for tkm bc i listened to the audiobook so they are paraphrased but for tfc and trk the quotes are word-for-word). ordered by theme, my comments at the end of each theme

Fans (of the Ravens)

"[Kevin and Riko's] unconventional childhood led many to worry about their psychological well-being but also fueled a rabid obsession with the pair." tfc p20

"Riko's freaky fans" (said by Nicky) trk p75

The whole Kathy interview + "The only look in [Riko's] eyes was murder." tfc p219

Comments: We know fans of the Ravens can be obsessive and extreme, but we also know that even before more questions were raised about conditions in the Nest, people were concerned about the psychological wellbeing of Kevin and Riko. We also know that Riko has been on TV looking murderous, long before the finals, which was the last straw. I think people might start looking into Riko when they start looking into the Nest and start realizing he was never okay/normal/whatever.

Jean

"'Fun is for children,' Jean said" trk p91

"It'd barely left his net before Jean checked [Kevin] hard enough to knock him over." trk p144

"'A dog who bites his masters hand deserves to be slaughtered. The location and audience are inconsequential.'" (said by Riko) trk p282

TKM, loosely quoted. Wymack about Jean and Kevin: There's too much between them, good and bad and ugly, for them to ever make things right.

Comments: Just a few pickings. I hope Jean changes his mind about fun, though he may not find Exy fun. We know Jean can check Kevin to the ground, hope that comes up again. I sure hope that thing about the dog biting the master's hand doesn't come up again, but with all the starved dog imagery I think it's inevitable. For the final one; yeah as I reread the og trilogy I'm losing more and more hope about Jean and Kevin reconnecting. I think they may just need to heal separately.

Jeremy

Mentioned in TKM: Jeremy has a "toothy smile".

Comments: This was mentioned no less than 3 times, so it must be important. If you only remember 1 thing from this post, it should be this.

The Trojans

TKM, loosely quoted: The Trojans had never been caught by cameras saying something rude about an opponent.

Comments: But that could change? Place your bets now on who's caught shit-talking the Ravens.

Kevin

TKM, loosely quoted: Kevin looked contented just to be standing on the Trojans' court. [...] Kevin gave Jeremy one of his rare real smiles.

"I don't have perfect control over Andrew, but Kevin owes us his life and I can get to Andrew through him." (said by Wymack) tfc p53

"Kevin needs someone who can keep up with and challenge him. Fortunately she is also a Raven alumnus, so she knows the repercussions of getting caught with Kevin. Maybe they'll have more luck after we've settled things with the Ravens this year.'" (Renee about Thea) trk p181

TKM, loosely quoted, Neil and Wymack speaking: N: You don't think Kevin will tell Thea the whole truth? W: Unlikely. He won't put her at risk like that.

TKM, loosely quoted: "I know what he's like" [...] "Riko. If you want to talk" Kevin was known for his talent, not his sensitivity. Consideration and tact were foreign to him. That he tried at all was so unexpected it felt like a balm.

Comments: Kevin's so sweet to be happy just to be on the Trojan's court. I hope he gets to be happy for a bit in California, even if the interview goes to shit. "Kevin owes us his life" uhhhh I hope Jean doesn't inherit that mindset. I think if we do get more Thea interactions, it will make more sense why she and Kevin are together, even though Kevin may not be entirely honest with her. Will be interesting to see how long they remain unofficial. Also Kevin can show sensitivity! I hope he gets to in TGR.

The Ravens

"This was a dark and heavy tune, an intimidating message of death and domination. The Ravens took their image seriously. Neil guessed they had a lot of intensive counseling in their futures." trk 142

TKM, loosely quoted, during Thea appearance: It made Neil wonder how the Ravens fared after they left the Nest's hivemind. Maybe it took years to recover. Maybe they never did. Maybe they broke and carried pieces of Evermore with them the rest of their lives.

Comments: You know it, Neil! None of this bodes well, for any of the ex-Ravens. But I think that when TSC3 is over, Kevin and Thea might be the ones carrying the broken pieces of Evermore. Jean probably too but I think he will have healed better. But idk.

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hope this massive post interested you! (tell me if there are any typos) a week til tgr. wow. kevin voice: we're all going to die. yeah feel free to add anything or come with theories in the notes.

[sexierthanneilsjorts]

I've been on the give Jean Moreau a gun train and I'm not getting off anytime soon but I think some other people deserve a gun

Jeremy? No. As much as I think he deserves a gun, he wouldn't use it

Laila? Maybe, but I'm still not feeling it

Cat? Yes. This is just right. Cat and Jean get matching guns and are set loose. Add Neil to the mix and problem solved

[bambisnc]

      FROM THE START ♡

### . STARRING ⌢ n.rk. jeremy fragrance... ⋆ 0.5k // CRACKFIC AF ˖ ✧

🗨️ .. ⌞ XOXO ⌝ @rikisgeef enjoy >< + [m.list]

ruru and riki had been enjoying a peaceful afternoon at a cute cafe. sipping on pretty drinks, the two of them had been enjoying the calm atmosphere which provided them with comfortable silence. they’d both needed a break, and this was proving to be exactly it. 

suddenly, ruru sighed.

“riki… i miss him.” 

the male looked up at her, confused. “what do you mean, ruru?”

“you know who i’m talking about…,” her voice was soft, tinged with noticeable sadness, “fragrance. jeremy fragrance.”

riki’s face darkened. his eyes glared into ruru’s, annoyance dripping from the harsh gaze. he looked like he wanted to say something, but stopped himself. out of consideration, maybe? or perhaps he just didn’t have the words to express what he felt…

the silence quickly started decaying into an awkward shroud around the two friends. 

“riki?..” ruru finally spoke up, “is everything okay?...”

“no.” the finality and surety in his voice is almost jarring. “don’t look at me like that. don’t like at me like you actually give a fuck.”

“huh?! of course i do.” she said, “you’re my best friend-”

“shut up.”

“huh?........”

riki inhaled sharply, as if this was taking a physical toll on him, “haven’t you noticed yet? i hate listening to you harp on about how that fragrance mf is your soulmate. you keep going on and on about how perfect he is, blah, blah, blah. when you know full well he isn’t. 

and newsflash. i’m the only one who’s been here from the start. i’m the one who deserves to be with you.”

ruru couldn’t believe what she was hearing. her best friend just confessed to her?... how was she supposed to react to that?!

… honestly, she’d be lying if she said she hadn’t thought of riki in that way. and if it this were some other time, she’d have jumped at the chance to be with him. 

but… right now? she had to be true to her heart.

she knew jeremy fragrance was the one for her.

right as she was thinking about what she could possibly do in this situation, the door of the cafe burst open.

and in walked … jeremy fragrance?!

“baby,” he declared, walking straight towards ruru, “i heard what he said. i had no idea you felt this way about me…”

he got down on his knees in front of the girl, who now had heart eyes for the love of her life.

“jeremy… how are you- what are you doing here?”

he took her hand in his and kissed the back of it, “i’m here for you. you know because of my sense of smell being abso-fucking-lutely ruined, all of my other senses have literally surpassed sigma skibidi toilet rizz levels. i heard it all. all the way from my huge ass penthouse.”

before riki, who had been stewing in anger so far, could make a single move, jeremy spoke up again.

“so, baby. will you run away with me? i swear to always spray on 20 litres of dior sauvage for you every single day. forget all about that email of mine — you’re the only one for me.” 

and of course, ruru said "yes! take me, my love <3" how could she not, after all?

riki could only watch as his beloved best friend was taken in a princess carry by jeremy fragrance who kept spraying some bottle of perfume on himself every few seconds, as the entire cafe applauded and cheered the happy couple.

no. ruru was only his. and he’d do anything to get her back.

[elene78-blog]

When Jeremy comes home, trying to hide a swollen cheek and split lip, Laila starts to freak out.

"You promised me, Jeremy. You said only with people who respect you from now on!"

Jeremy abruptly tries to explain himself, which isn't easy to do over her screaming.

"I promise you, this time it wasn't his fault, only mine, really!"

Laila grows increasingly furious.

"You don't deserve anything they do to you, Jeremy! Nothing! How many times are we going to have this conversation? And on top of that, you're defending him! You saw Jean do that until he got better… How can you not see that? You deserve respect!"

"Laila, really, it wasn't like that. Listen to me…"

"No, Jeremy. Jean and Cat are walking Jab, and I'm sorely tempted to let Jean go after that jerk this time. Maybe this way…"

"Don't tell Jean, not Jean!" Jeremy yells, desperate. Laila sees the blush creeping up his face, his cheeks glowing. "I swear I deserved it this time," Jeremy insists.

Laila raises an eyebrow, hesitant. This is actually the first time Jeremy has made such desperate excuses when someone hits him. He usually acts downcast and downplays it, but this is new.

"And what were you supposed to have done to deserve this?"

Jeremy opens his mouth. At that moment, Jab bursts through the door and runs toward him, tail wagging and barking wildly, his paws raised on Jeremy's knees for Jeremy to pet him. Unable to deny him affection, he bends down to pet Jab and picks him up while trying to calm his joy with hugs and tickles.

Cat and Jean stare at him, mouths agape. Cat's expression remains shocked. Jean's changes radically to the most intense fury.

No, don't do that. Not you, please, Jeremy thinks as Jean strides over and scans his cheek, growing increasingly furious.

"You…" Before he goes mad, Jean searches for more wounds with his eyes, circling him like a dog. Jeremy tightens his arms around Jab, who has calmed down. "Who…?"

"Jeremy says it was his fault this time," Laila declares, cornering him.

"What nonsense is that? Jeremy…" Cat says. "I thought that was over." How could this be your fault?"

"Jeremy was going to enlighten me with that," Laila assures.

"Who did it?" Jean insists, growing increasingly furious.

And between the three of them, Jeremy has no choice but to say it.

"Laila would be furious if Cat said another woman's name while she had her knees on her shoulders, don't say no!" He shouts very quickly.

Silence returns for several long seconds at the incredulity of the three.

"You said another man's name while you were fucking a guy?" Cat asks, shifting from disappointment to curiosity, and from curiosity a little to mockery. "That's almost funny…"

"Except he hit you, and it isn't," Jean cuts in fiercely.

"Well, of course," Cat says, trying to recover her annoyance, but a little amused by the situation. "That's never happened to you, has it? What man keeps you up at night enough to make you forget the name of the person you've torn in half?"

Jeremy looks at Cat in horror. Then he looks at Laila pleadingly. Very, very quickly, he looks at Jean, just for a microsecond.

The girls look at each other with wide eyes.

Jean breaks the silence in a firm, aggressive voice.

"I want a name, and this time you're going to give it to me."

"It's… It's…" Jeremy stutters.

"It's Theo, isn't it?" Laila asks. Jean turns to her like a hawk spotting a field mouse.

"Yes… Theo…" Jeremy says.

"And he slapped you because you were thinking about that other guy, who's…" Laila continues. In Jeremy's opinion, she could have stopped right there, but she preferred to have fun getting revenge, the cheater "���Which is Boris. You like Boris." You know, that Boris you were with that time…"

"Boris? He said "ooh Jeremy" while you were fucking and you said… "ooh Boris"? What kind of name is Boris, for starters?"

If Jeremy remembers correctly, Theo and Boris are the main characters in Laila's favorite book.

"Yeah, I… I said Boris… That's what I said," he admits, and tries not to die of embarrassment as he does so.

"Theo," Jean repeats with a murderous expression. "He's a dead man. And Boris too."

Jeremy tries to say that supposed Boris didn't do anything except invade his thoughts the moment a man was nice to him in bed, but he doesn't think Jean would give up on her desire to avenge Jeremy's honor by searching for Theo and Boris on campus if he said so.

Laila and Cat move their lips behind Jean.

"You're finished," Laila says.

And Jeremy has to admit he is, because while no one hit him before, this is the fourth time Jeremy has said "ooh, Jean" during sex, and the third time he's done it when all that's involved is kissing.

Jeremy is completely finished.

[nostromo13]

I wish they hadn't killed Ian Doyle off. I wish they put him through trial, instead.

He had this whole illegal empire that we barely see in action. We so rarely get to see 'Valhalla'. Credit due - they do a good enough job at building up this big, powerful man through his stalking Emily. He acts initially as this invisible force taking out her friends one by one, so he feels unstoppable, so we only ever know a Doyle that's about revenge. And I think that makes him scarier. But s7 ep1, especially the interview room scene where he sees Emily as she is on the job (an intimate side to her he's never seen before and he's so curious), he goes from this big presence to just another perp in a wee FBI interrogation room. I wanted more of his curiosity, maybe. More of 'so this is the woman I wanted to marry' energy. Instead, the threat he poses is just gone in this scene. It would have so nicely paired the introduction to the grotesque man we meet in this scene who took away a woman's right to choose and what's more strapped her down for 9, sorry, 7 months.

With the limited background we get to see versus all we learn by being told, it makes it feel quick and easy everything Ian ever did. So when his death comes equally quick and easy on the airstrip, it's just like, "Oh, okay. Time for the next scene."

There's no grieving of the secret that she's kept for so long. I know it's a pretty well-known thing that Emily's trauma from Doyle isn't really acknowledged. Lauren gets swept under the rug. She was a gun runner, sure, a woman who probably did illegal stuff that would be unbecoming of the woman behind the mask, but Lauren deserved her moment and not just the little blip of a scene she gets in s6 ep18 and a blacked out file in a BAU drawyer.

If court had happened, we could have had Ian's past unpeeled more slowly. It could have made his presence in Emily's life more solid instead of season 6 Emily in a wig (a great look) and more feeling of the 31 year old Emily who actually handled Ian Doyle.

We could have gotten to know Lauren way more.

Maybe it would have crumbled the mysterious side to Emily, seeing her relive it all and willingly expose herself in court, but in practice I think we could have seen a reconciliation between Lauren and Emily and that that would have been even more powerful than the woman who herself tries to brush her alter ego away with 'Lauren Reynolds is dead'. I think Lauren was such a delicious and underutilised character. It would have allowed the viewing of an Emily from a time before she knew a family and a soft experience like the BAU. Doyle era Emily was so young yet outwardly appeared so steady. A young woman whose background is entirely an ambasador mum and dad, their world of political tactics, and the tenuous trust of her team with Sean, Clyde, Tsia & Jeremy. The woman who - as far as we are presented- has only known their world, and despite all of it is still such a well-rounded, good-hearted individual.

However, i can't say all of this without acknowledging what we do get. I know part of the beauty of Emily Prentiss' character (and Padget Brewster's acting) is how she tries so hard to stuff it down. We see so little on the surface, and the effect comes from the fact that we know there is so much more going on below the surface. The little shaken-ness we do see from her is just the tip of the iceberg, and you see in that how deeply she must feel it. The more Emily Prentiss holds back, the more you can count on that she is hurting.

Emily deserved a moment to break down after Doyle. She deserved to scream and cry and get held as she does so by Dad-vid Rossi or literally any or all of the team. (I single out David not just because he is team parent, but also because he thought he knew one of her biggest vulnerabilities through Demonology, so I can only imagine how much his heart broke when he realised she was carrying even more.)

This is a long post so the tldr of this is I would have loved a court case where Lauren Reynolds comes out to play, and she gets her moment through Emily on the stand. Though we get a great picture of it already, it only scratched the surface potential.

[xoxodropletsneedsmorefanfics]

Love Costs an Arm and Some Legs | Jeremy King x Fem! Reader:

I worked really hard to have a Jeremy fic posted on Everett’s birthday 🤭

Inspired by the Only One ending of XOBD

I included the set of scene for that ending for those who don’t remember/haven’t played the game

TW: Legs Getting Cut Off, Kidnapping, Typical XOXOBD Shenanigans

You’re lazily strolling through the campus when you spot a familiar head of green hair. “Not again…” You sigh, storming over, “What is happening here? Jeremy, I thought you were napping.”

Rex and Jeremy turn to you, “I was,” Jeremy sighs “This thing woke me up.” “Alright. Rex, explain. Why are you harassing the green munchkin?” You ask, Rex huffs, “We’ve got beef.” You stare a him blankly, “In what possible way?” You ask. “So, yeah, hear me out. His last name is King and my name means king. I can’t let him walk around like it’s nothing’. I’ve gotta show him who’s the real boss.” Rex explains.

You and Jeremy share matching dumbfounded expressions. “…Please let this be a joke…” You mutter “I’m dead serious. There can only be one and I’m the king ‘round here.” Rex states. Jeremy’s face squishes into an annoyed pout, “I have no hope for humanity.” He sighs deeply “What’re you saying?!” Rex shouts, Jeremy rolls his eyes, “Sigh. You can haven’t title. I don’t want it.” You crack a knowingly affectionate smile at Jeremy being the pushover he is. “See what a pansy he is?! Not when gonna put up a fight. He doesn’t deserve that name!” Rex scoffs. You snicker, “Uh huh, you know what? I deserve that name.”

Jeremy raises an eyebrow, but cringes when you blow him a kiss. “Don’t you think so, Jeremy?” You ask, he blushes and looks away, “Uh…I guess…if you want it.” He mumbles “I’m glad you agree~” You say, grinning confidently. “You’d rock a name like King. But we haven’t settled this yet! He’s still got too much of a claim to it.” Rex says. You laugh, “I think the point went right on over your head there, Rexo.”

Rex turns to Jeremy with determination in his eyes, “How are we gonna do this, Germy?” He asks, Jeremy shuts his eyes and sighs. After a moment, he opens his eyes, “I have a bottle of liquid cleaner, whoever drinks the most wins.” He says, holding up the bottle. “Pffft! Jeremy!” You laugh in disbelief, Rex snatches the bottle out of his hands, “You’re on!” He says “Rex!” You wheezed. Jeremy shrugs “Ok.” “You can’t be serious.” You say, Rex only grins “If they sell it in a store, it has to be safe. Let’s do it.”

Rex press the bottle to his lips and starts drinking, he winces, but continues to drink, pacing around as he does so, “That means it’s safe to clean with, not to drink!” You shout “I didn’t even say I got it in a store. It’s my own mix.” Jeremy tells you. “Oh my god…” You sigh with an exhausted grin. You both watch Rex chug down the cleaner, “Could he actually die from that stuff?” You ask. Jeremy shrug, “I don’t know. Maybe. Probably. Whatever.” “If he does make it, you’re still not gonna drink any are you? You’re just gonna concede victory to him.” You ask.

“Yep.” Jeremy says “Aha…this is such a disaster. It’s also pretty funny.” You snort. Rex begins coughing violently, he stumbles back over to you and Jeremy. “T-There…I…hurck…I drank…s-something.” He gags over his words, swaying side to side, “Yep. You did.” Jeremy says. “Poor boy. Punished by his own hubris.” Rex groans and steps closer to you, “I f…feel not so good…” He mumbles.

Rex lurches forward, vomiting on your legs and shoes, you let out a shriek. You groan in disgust, not even noticing the instant shift in Jeremy’s disposition. “That’s so dis-”

Jeremy moves quicker than you ever thought he could, stabbing Rex with a pair of scissors, you blink in surprise when Rex hits the ground.

“-gusting…” You finish, Jeremy stares at you with a crazed look in his eyes, panting heavily, “Welp, if he wasn’t gonna die from his stomach dissolving, he sure is dead now.” You chuckle once the shock wears off. Jeremy shuts his eyes, silently fuming. “We should cleanup. I definitely need a shower.” You sigh “No.” Jeremy says. You snort in surprise, “Really? You’re saying no to me taking a shower? Besides, body cleanup is like your favorite part.”

Jeremy’s eye twitches, “Your feet will never be sanitary again. They can’t just be cleaned up. He ruined them. He defiled them!” He explains angrily, he calms down. “I’ll cut them off for you.” He says “The hell?! No thanks!” You say quickly, backing away when Jeremy steps closer, “I have anesthetic and my room is cleaned to surgical standards. You won’t die.” He states “Did you prepare for this possibility?!” You shout.

“Isn’t it obvious? There was a pretty good chance something like this could happen. It would’ve been dumb not to be ready.” Jeremy says “That makes it even worse!” You sigh. Jeremy shrugs, unfazed, “Ok.” He looks at you with that crazed look again, “Come with me. I’ll have to cut off more if you keep letting it fester on you.”

You slowly step away from him, “Hey, hold on. When you think about it; he was spewing cleaning supplies so is it really all that bad…aha…?” You laugh nervously “It isn’t bad, it’s repulsive! It’s unforgivable! There’s only one way I can fix it…” Jeremy approaches you. You yelp, breaking out into a sprint. Jeremy shouts your name in very clear frustration, but doesn’t make much of an effort to chase you.

(That’s one thing about dear old Jeremy, he’s too much of a pushover to push the issue for too long. He’ll give into what anyone wants eventually.)

You head straight for the girls’ dorms, getting into the shower as fast as you can.

…

(Ugh, it’s times like this I wish I had my phone. Next time I’m see Shiloh, I’m gonna kick his ass until he gives my phone back.)

The sky is dark as you walk to your room. You managed to sneak in a two hour shower without anyone stopping you. Jeremy would be satisfied with how clean you were. Sadly, your shoes couldn’t be saved. Oh well, just an excuse to buy more.

You could drag Jeremy to the store with you and make a date out of it. Yeah, that’s a perfect plan.

You push open your door, wanting nothing more than to collapse into your bed and sleep off today. “Hopefully, Jeremy’s getting some sleep. I’m sure he’ll forget all about today by tomorrow.” You sigh, you turn to lock your door.

(Hey, wait a second…why wasn’t my door locked before I got here—

A large pair of arms wrap around you before a hand covers your mouth. A muffle shriek echos in the room and you dig your nails into the skin of your attacker, you slowly manage to look over your shoulder. Pran stares at you with his usual look of indifference, but there’s something else in his eyes, “Jeremy’s been looking for you.” He states. You stare at Pran with wide eyes as he pulls out a wet cloth.

Without saying a word, Pran presses the cloth over your mouth and nose. You struggle in his grip…slowly feeling dizzy as the world darkens around you.

…

You’re…cold. Really really cold.

But your legs feel so warm, you sluggishly move to touch your leg—only to come in contact with…nothing. Startled, you jolt into a sitting position, the act makes your head spin, but that isn’t what made you feel so nauseous…

“You shouldn’t be sitting up right now.”

Jeremy’s voice is muffle through the mask on his face, he watches you as he cleans off a bloody tool. “I had to chop off a lot more than I wanted too. I warned you to let me cut them off while it was still fresh.” He sighs, you look down at the nubs that were now your legs, “…What the fuck?!” You scream at him, you throw the closest thing to you at him…sadly the closest thing to you was a pillow, and you’re still too out of it to have a good aim.

Jeremy’s expression is unfazed as the pillow zooms past him, hitting the wall, “You should be happy. You’re finally clean of that idiot’s germs.” He says “I was clean before you did this! I took a shower—a long fucking shower!” You shout, mind buzzing in a panic. You knew Jeremy was crazy, but is he seriously expecting you to be grateful he CUT OFF YOUR LEGS?!

“How am I supposed to walk?! You know, live life?! See people?! Go on dates?! Kinda need legs for that, Jeremy!” You rant “Uh…actually. There are plenty of people who live just fine without legs.” Jeremy says. “Oh, really? And how am I supposed to angrily storm off right now? Am I supposed to use my hands and crawl?” You ask bitterly, glaring at Jeremy. His orange eyes darken, “You not going anywhere,” He says “You’re finally clean. Why would I let you go back out there and let you get infected all over again…?”

“You gotta be kidding. There’s no way, you’re actually considering keeping me here?” You scoff “I’ve already considered it. I’ve kinda wanted this for a while. Keeping you away from everyone, having you be forever clean and truly mine. It’s one of the things that keep me up at night.” Jeremy states, his tone’s so…nonchalant, like he’s telling you about his day. “I’m gonna leave eventually, Jeremy. You can’t just keep me here forever. Besides, you’ll give up and do what I want eventually.” You say.

Jeremy gently pats what’s left of your leg, you flinch a little. “Not this time. Today is the final straw.” He says. “WHAT?! Now is when you wanna grow a backbone?!” You shout, you glare at him, “Are you even thinking straight, Jeremy?! Did you forget that you’re not the only maniac that’s obsessed with me?!” “Of course not, they’ll be taken care of.” Jeremy says.

“Pran’s willing to share you. And he’s been wanting to take down Shiloh for months, Everett’s so stupid that he’s an easy target, it won’t take much to get Nate to kill Bae, and once he finds out Everett is dead, Nate won’t be stable enough to even care about you.” He says. Jeremy sighs, “Everything’s already been thought out. It’s up to you where we go from here.” Jeremy cold hands grabs your chin to keep your attention on him.

“Are you going to fight me? Or are you going to be a good girl?”

You take another look at your legs before looking at Jeremy again.

❤️…

The choice is yours…should you just give up and accept this?

Leaving it open ended for now, I’ll probably do a part two at another time.

[humongousgothskeletonfarm]

TGR CHAPTER 2 THOUGHTS

- jeremy “had been made to sorely regret that little rebellion” by his stepfather? we are finally delving further into jeremy’s family lore which i have been WAITING for. this line definitely makes me think that my theory about jeremy being abused by his family is true - his stepfather seems horrible from what little info we have

- CAT HELPING JEREMY GET OFF THE PHONECALL WITH HIS STEPFATHER BY PRETENDING TO TAKE HIS ORDER IS SO FUNNY I LOVE HER

- NEIL JOSTEN MENTIONED LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO

- COACH RHEMAN I LOVE U

- “He thought about Jean tugging the chain last night, rattled and worn. He wouldn’t have to lock the door today. How horrible of Jeremy, to feel such relief at that thought.” GODDDDDD

- “Jeremy didn’t have to elaborate on who Neil was. He doubted there was a single person in NCAA Exy who didn’t recognize the name.” I KNOW THATS RIGHT

- ok so we have learnt that jeremy’s dad is in the airforce, location unknown and didn’t raise his kids (but it seems jeremy still loves him/has a decent amount of respect for him considering he kept his last name and was so quick to answer the phone) also i can’t remember if this was stated to or just alluded in the last book that one of jeremy’s siblings had died? i haven’t reread it so i can’t remember if i was just reading into that but jeremy says his dad missed “all five - four - high school graduations” of his kids which, unless one of the didn’t graduate, it seems like one of the siblings died? which was my thinking from the last book

- “His mouth twitched again, but Jean dug his fingernails into his lower lip to stop the smile from forming. ​The self-censure was regrettable, but then Jean said, “Pop. How easily these monsters die in the end.”

STOP IT JEAN ADMITTING GRAYSON WAS A MONSTER OUTLOUD IS SOMETHING THAT IS SO IMPORTANT HES HEALING OMFG JEAN I LOVE U U DESERVE THIS U DESERVE TO BE HAPOY AND FOR UR MONSTERS TO BE DEAD

“good riddance, too” “yes” AHHHHHH!!!

- “you do not have to trust him” jean said “i do.” BE STILL MY NEILJEAN FRIENDSHIP HEART OMFG IM SIBBING I LOVE THEM SO BAD

- “that ill-bred child is not my friend” THANK U NORA FOR FEEDING ME

- WHAT DID JOSHUA SAY ALSO I NEED TO KNOW WHAT WENT DOWN IN JEREMYS FAMILY

- “are we adding you to the groupchat, or are you not ready to be that sociable yet?” ITS GIVING NEIL THEY ARE MIRRORS UR HONOUR

- god i love how funny jean is lmaoooo “i would also destroy my phone if it went off as incessantly as yours do”

- “A SINGLE WORD IS SELDOM RUDE ENOUGH TO MAKE A POINT” JEAN I FUCKINH LOVE U PLS BE MY FRIEND

- JEREMY BEING WILLING TO LEARN FRENCH OMFGGGG HE IS TOOOO CUTE

- “You were hurt yesterday. Kevin will want to know.” ​“He will not care,” Jean said again. ​Jeremy was flabbergasted. “He is your friend.” ​“He is not.”

“i just wanted him to die”

““I was glad when he lost his hand. Exy is all he has and all he loves; I knew it would destroy him to lose it. A month in the Nest without it, maybe two, and he would have no recourse but to kill himself. I was only alive because he made me promise to survive. If he died, who could hold me to that? I would have slashed the tires on his car before I let him escape us, and he knows it.”

GODDDDD I KNEW OF COURSE THAT JEAN AND KEVIN DONT HAVE A GREAT RELATIONSHIP AND THERE IS TOO MUCH HISTORY BETWEEN THEM TO UNTANGLE BUT READING THIS WAS SO DEVASTATING TO ACTUALLY SEE IT WRITTEN OUT AND ACKNOWLEDGED IS SO SAD. NORA U JUST STABBED ME

- cat telling jean they’re glad he is alive because they love him and they want him to be happy and him telling her not to say that literally killed me

- “most things about u are” “jean? i’m glad you’re here too. our lives are better with you in them” mine would be better if you would stop talking” THEYRE IN LOVE UR HONOUR

[the-other-art-blog]

This news about Jeremy Renner and how Marvel wanted to pay him HALF his s1 salary has reignited my anger towards the show.

If you loved the show, good for you. To me, it was a huge waste of potential even if I loved some scenes. Jeremy Renner said he was excited to make a six-hour movie, but that's not what happened. His screentime was reduced, and his backstory was completely ignored. I still remember that bts photo that showed a fortune wheel and getting excited cause they were gonna show the circus...fuck them. There was no mention of his childhood, family, training, involvement with SHIELD, relationship with Laura, fatherhood, NOTHING.

The deleted scenes showed Clint's mother as a morally questionable character, which could have been refreshing in the MCU, where almost all mothers are saints. She was young and lived in her car with Clint. Did she flee her abusive husband? Did she leave Barney behind? WE DON'T KNOW! She and Clint had dreams of a house. Hey, what a great idea to explain why Clint and Laura live on a farm just like the one her mother talked about? If only Marvel had deemed it worth exploring. I guess the background of an OG Avenger is not important.

She taught Clint to steal and took advantage of his perfect aim to rob people. But Clint didn't want to hurt people cause he was only a child and knew it was wrong, so he shot elsewhere, causing her arrest. She wasn't a sweet woman telling her child everything was going to be ok, she resented him! Imagine the guilt Clint had. Did his mother manipulate him more? How long did it take her to forgive him? Did she ever forgive him? I have only my headcanons to know what happened next, cause the show didn't care to explore this part of Clint's life!

(BTW, my headcanon is that Clint's mother continued to blame him and caused him much distress. Have you seen the show Dead to Me? Remember Judy and her mother? Like that.)

Don't you think this would have paralleled beautifully with Kate and her mom?

And then what happened to him? His mother went to jail, did he go with child services? Did he go to an orphanage? Or to the circus? They took Jack from his story to give it to Kate, so did the circus storyline ever happen? Plus, they turned Jack into a joke, so they didn't even used him well.

Now, Laura. Oh boy, I'm so mad about this. Laura and Linda Cardellini deserved so much better. The actress is always so gracious, but the truth is she was treated like shit. They created an entire subplot surrounding her identity and didn't care to explore it deeply. When did she quit SHIELD? How did she adjust to life on the farm after years of working as an agent? What the hell happened between her and Kingpin? You would think the main character's wife would have a decent role, right? A poster?

I guess the story of an OG Avenger is not worth telling. I mean, after all, why would you give screentime to a man who went through abusive parents and homelessness? A man who overcame his difficult childhood to become a loyal husband, able to maintain one of the healthiest relationships in the MCU. Why would you care about a male character who broke the cycle of violence? That story is irrelevant, right?

They didn't even explore his time as Ronin! 😭

This show killed my interest in the MCU because he was my fav character, and they did him so dirty. I never expected a movie about him, I know his limits (although wtf did Ant-Man got a 3rd movie is beyond me). This show was his only chance to have the spotlight.

My delulu mind hoped he and Laura would be in Daredevil because of Laura's watch, or in a season 2 of Hawkeye. Maybe MAYBE then we would have seen more of his backstory and Laura's. Now I know that won't happen and it's disappointing, but realistically, they were just going to sideline him AGAIN. I mean, the salary reduction would only make sense if his role was small and not as Renner implies is due to his accident. A company would never do that *sarcasm*.

I'll forever mourn Clint's potential. That Winter Soldier scene was already too painful to lose, but to have his own show deleting his scenes?!

Ok, rant over.