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Ok sooooo, hi again! (I asked about your rules. We respect boundaries in this household). So, I have a little request (if your ok writing it of course!), with a reader who's like bad at understanding other peoplee emotions, reaction and most importantly how they feel towards them in like not knowing if they even like them as a person, friend, ect. If you do more then one character maybe with Ren, Sho, Romeo, Leo and Jin since they are either cold, easily say something that rubs the wrong way or anything but in reality they just care a lot about them but they just never realized that reader thinks that the guy's can't stand them and tries not to bother them. If you only do one then with either Ren or Sho. :3 (btw happy Sho is a close second place for characters you like <3)
oh noooo, I have to write for all of them, (minus Leo i’m so so so sorry… i cannot see him saying anyone is not a bother or that he cares…) now legally obligated since you included them and once i get to thinking i HAVE TO WRITE IT DOWN 🩶🩶🩶 ty for asking for specifics & also for sending this in. hope you enjoy!!
Leo fans - I have something special cooking for him in the slow cooker ♡
dense/oblivious reader × ghouls who have sharp tongues but are soft underneath mmgmfnfm
.°•°.Jin °.•°
The brisk chilly air hit your body immediately freezing you down to the bone once you stepped foot into Frostheim. The house is fitting for its name and the captain also being the embodiment of ice itself. He had a barbed wire laced tongue, lashing out at anyone while he was in a mood. According to Tohma he was far nicer, more lenient with you… but you didn’t see it. You never seemed to dodge his sharp comments, or glaring daggers, “get out. now. don’t piss me off again.” You took everything so literally and internalized it. “I’ll just.. go then. sorry for bothering you…” you sniffled, fighting back tears. Jin didn’t think you were being serious. Until you stopped going over to wake him up. Hell, you stopped talking to him altogether. Tohma on the other hand noticed Jin’s foul mood, growing worse by the day and would sigh. But alas, he cannot apologize on behalf of him, so he convinces you to deliver some papers to his room that he’s DEFINITELY asleep at that time just to walk in to him wide awake, laying on the sofa with a lit cigarette in between his lips. He immediately puts it out and drags you towards his bed by your wrist before you could run away again. “Don’t ever ignore me again.” was all he said before pulling you close against him, breathing in your scent. “You told me to leave you alone… so I did. I thought you hated me,” you admitted quietly. He squeezed you ever so slightly, his tone annoyed. “I don’t. Don’t do that ever again.”
°.•.°Sho ♡°.•.°
You were happily helping Sho prep for the food truck before the busiest hours. The last thing you wanted to do was make it more difficult for him. You weren’t a terrible cook and knew basic knife skills, Sho knew this as well, which is why he accepted your help so readily. That combined with enjoying your calming presence in the kitchen with him. Unfortunately today was different, you kept making mistakes, apologizing profusely before attempting again. Dicing carrots as opposed to julienning, mixing the wrong seasonings together, and par-cooking the wrong vegetables together… These were all minor headaches, but nothing Sho couldn’t work around. “What is up with you today? Something wrong?” On edge from messing up so many things in a row, hearing Sho’s questions pulled your focus from your mind and the task in front of you, causing you to cut your finger. Blood now dripping onto the cutting board you dropped the knife and ran over to the sink. Sho immediately rushed to ensure you were alright and properly bandaged. You apologized profusely for the millionth time in the past two hours. He sighed while throwing away the tainted vegetables. “Are you sure you’re alright?”
“Yes, I’m sorry-” After your confirmation and final apology, Sho ushered you out of the truck. “You’re banned from helping me with the food truck from now on.” You couldn’t blame him, after all you really hadn’t helped much with all the mess ups he now had to fix… As much as it pained you, you stayed away. After a few days of not seeing you in the line during lunchtime or around campus he sought you out. “Listen, I banned you from the kitchen for your safety… you’re still allowed to eat at the truck y’know.” He joked trying to ease your nerves.
°.°.•°.Ren ♡°•°.°•.
Ren’s targeted harassment allegation really got to you. You never had intended to make him uncomfortable, that was in fact the last thing you tried to do. So when he brushed you off saying leave me alone. I’m going to report you for harassment. God everyone is so fucking annoying in this place. You took that seriously, apologized profusely and proceeded to keep a ridiculous distance apart... He just was overstimulated and socially drained, he didn’t mean to snap at you that day. Even when you came to help Haru, you both would make fleeting eye contact before you averted your gaze either fixed on the ground or to pretend to be focused on other things. Hearing him sigh and groan loudly, you felt like it was directed at your presence so you retreated, mumbling an excuse to Haru you were going to wait outside - for fresh air or something… Ren hated conflict and things that required work whether physical or emotional, but you always would play games with him - helping him get precious resources! You ease his burdens; be it with the never-ending chores by helping Haru in his place (which he finds you to be an idiot for doing so…), you listen and actually… show you care about him. More so than anyone he’s ever known. He’s been lonely for a long time so losing one person he actually CAN tolerate being around really pissed him off, even though this was self inflicted... So, he followed you outside as you scurried away. “Can you fucking chill out…” He said while frowning, he’s not the best at expressing his emotions but he attempted anyway, “I uh, didn’t mean to snap at you that day so can you go back to acting like a normal person?” That’s the best apology you’re going to get from him…
°.•°.•.Romeo ♤°.•.°.
The insults Romeo hurled at you made you recoil. According to Romeo, not only are you a BB! But you’re so careless! Can’t do anything right! All due to the fact that you had sprained your ankle while carrying too many things…
Well, he didn’t expect you to leave him high and dry like this! Having Ritsu deliver any necessary forms in your stead. Oh boy… When he caught a glimpse of you on campus he was charging like a raging bull over to you. “WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU??!? WHYB? IF YOU COULDN’T HANDLE IT YOU SHOULD’VE MADE SOMEONE ELSE TAKE CARE OF IT, BUT YOU DON’T SEEM TO UYB!”
“According to you, I can’t do anything right. So I thought you would be better off finding someone who can.” Romeo couldn’t help but pinch the bridge of his nose in a dramatic manner. “YOU-!! You’re more competent than others!!!” His tone softened after letting a deep exasperated sigh. “Next time open your mouth and tell someone before you hurt yourself again.”
#tkdb#michi's room!#tokyo debunker#jin kamurai#jin kamurai x reader#shohei haizono x reader#shohei haizono#ren shiranami#ren shiranami x reader#romeo lucci#romeo lucci x reader#tokyo debunker x reader
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Every time someone, whether in-universe or in meta tries to say that Jason's a "loner" I think about two things:
First of all, the fact that Bruce is frequently referred to as a loner, both in universe and out, as if he doesn't literally constantly have his emotional support child and a rotating cast of lovers (sometimes multiple in any given story at once). In this instance, it's used to try and make Bruce seem "cool," which whatever ig.
Batman #359, which, is so fucking funny to me because this is before Batgirl and Talia showed up in this story. Catwoman too. It was a real fucking ensemble. He's berating himself for snapping at Dick, and sending some civilians (The Todds btw) to die, against Dick's advice, because he's being bitchy about Catwoman. Like, my man, you have a mental breakdown every time you're truly alone. You're not a loner but maybe you should be.
Secondly, is Jason a loner or is he just always alone and isolated? Is he a loner or does he just not know how to be any other way? Jason consistently through both pre- and post-crisis express a lot of desire to be around other people/build connections, as well as referencing factors that isolate him from them. (I'm not sourcing every incident here but here's Jay trying to bond with Bruce right after he gets taken in, and some stuff wrt Jason at school)
Detective #527 (Pre-Crisis)
Batman#395 (Pre-Crisis. This is him being jealous of Catwoman, sure, but given how often in this arc it's referenced that he's isolated from the other kids in school- despite being on some kind of presumably sports team. I think it's baseball? I'm trying to find the exact issue that it actually SHOWS him on said team but it is referenced in the issues leading up to when they switch over the histories.)
Batman Annual #12 (This is Post-Crisis)
In Brothers in Blood Jason's trying to reach out to Dick. I'm not saying he did it the right way or that Dick was wrong for rejecting that, but he did literally expressly say that he was trying to reach out to him. in his brief period that he worked with the Titans, it's explicitly stated that he'd had to sneak out from under Batman's nose to join up with them. Jason has a sparse few interactions with mostly adult heroes in Pre-Crisis and the only hero his age he gets to meet is Kid Devil/Eddie Bloomberg and that's nebulously canon or not since Pre/Post-Crisis was a soft, slowly rolled out reboot where they changed a lot of things in retrospect but also implicitly kept others. (N52 was also like this but I get the impression Crisis was marginally more organized.)
UtH was Jason reaching out to Bruce for connection. Again, not really the right way to go about it but he pretty obviously/expressly wanted affirmation that his relationship with Bruce DID matter to someone other than himself because he felt it had been stripped from him and false.
Someone who keeps reaching out to other people, but gets rejected because they did it wrong, is not a loner.
When those attempts fail and he reaches out less and less, that's not loner behavior, that's lonely behavior, maybe even a dash of self-loathing. When he starts sabotaging his relationships further he thinks they're already fucked, that's not loner behavior, that's bad coping mechanisms for childhood trauma. I don't care that they state it exactly that he's some kind of "loner," his actions don't agree with that statement.
Is his status something of a self-fulfilling prophecy at this point? Yeah. I keep seeing people refer to him this way and, jesus. y'all wanna ostracize him so badly sometimes. You don't want him here you don't want him there. You use the "loner" rhetoric to enforce the idea that his isolation is a good thing that he wants. They use it IN UNIVERSE from the mouths of characters who have biased views about him.
If he's such a loner why does he keep going back? Why does he answer every call? Like a beaten, but unfortunately faithful dog that can't help but return to their abusive master.
#ax rants#Mashing Meta Bones With Axel#Jason Todd#Despite the fact that I DO study a lot about psychology and do generally view Jason through lenses that align with various disorders.#I'm reluctant to use the exact diagnoses in my own metas. Other people like Glitter-Stained & so on have written that so much better than I#And I've had such a stressful week so far I fear I would be utterly incomprehensible and say something that interprets wrong.#I could probably say more but I have to leave for work now oops#Got too invested#I keep having this issue where I'm worki9ng on one meta and then I go off on tangents about something else and making that a separate post#while I'm still not done with the first one lmao
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Hi! I know this has been said before but thank you so much for running this blog, you do a huge amount of work for free and make it available to everyone and it's a phenomenal resource.
I wanted to ask you for feedback on a couple of story details. I'm developing a fantasy story with supernatural creatures and such. One of the main characters is Black and a vampire. (If it matters - the story takes place in a semi-fantastical world, the characters don't really have real-world nationalities, so he isn't specifically Black American.)
All of my characters are on the move often and have fairly 'basic' low-maintenance clothes and hairstyles, including him. Additionally, (I haven't quite decided how yet but it's there) the being undead thing slows hair growth quite a lot. I decided to give him a short afro considering both of those things, do you think this is realistic? (...or as realistic as it can be, in terms of this fantasy story lol)
There's no bigotry directly about anything real-world (like skin color), but there is arguably a fictionalized version of police discrimination. The story has a supernatural creature hunting association and one character mentions having left it because it was corrupt, cruel, and used underhanded methods to excuse taking innocents captive. I didn't originally intend it as an allegory for real discrimination and police brutality but it very quickly became that. The rest of the story is pretty lighthearted, so I'm not sure how much I should lean into that aspect (I'm also white so there's probably a line to how in-depth I can get about it). Do you have advice?
How do I address the maybe awkward implications of him being admittedly dangerous to other people? He's sort of an antihero that the audience is supposed to root for, but if we're already going into symbolism, then it's awkward that supernatural hunters have a genuinely good reason for going after him (he DOES kill people, although the narrative doesn't really take murder super seriously when the main characters do it), even though they do so often unjustly. I'm already aware of cultural uses of supernatural monsters as allegories for 'undesirable' minorities, and I want the audience takeaway to be 'that was a fun supernatural story' and not 'this story is encouraging me to think of [insert minority] as dangerous parasites'.
Well, it doesn't change anything that it's a fantastical world bc the character is still what we know to be Black. I do that with my stories too, but that doesn't change context outside of your story, no 😅 sorry.
1. An afro is fine; I don't see why it wouldn't be.
2 & 3. These two tie together, unfortunately. You can't really say that this world has an equivalent of police brutality and that these people who enforce said police brutality and bigoted discrimination are hunting down your character... That is Black... That "deserves it"... But it's a "light hearted" story. Because as a Black person, I'm not just gonna forget you said that 😅 ESPECIALLY when another character used to work for em! It reminds me of Twilight, when Jasper used to be a whole Confederate and as Black readers we were supposed to just... Get over that 😅
The connection there is that this bigoted entity could very well do those things to this character, and so while we can root for him to not be caught, that will still hang over our heads. And then for the narrative to unironically say "he kind of deserves it" nah I'll pass, personally.
Is anyone else on your main team Black, or at least of color? Or are we looking at this one guy who is a target of some of the worse that the story can hold, while everyone else is just... Not? Because that doesn't look great, no, if you have that and then don't treat it as important.
I will say, lightheartedness amongst a serious topic has been done! As weird and questionable as Quentin Tarantino is, the scene of the Klan being fucking jokers is admittedly one of the only times I've ever laughed at hardcore bigots.
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But the rest of Django also treats the story as quite serious; his revenge narrative against racists and their violence is central to the story. So I think that if you're gonna bring that part of the narrative up, you need to commit to what that means or let it go.
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Your Elphaba soul post got me thinking about just how different bookverse Elphie is vs movieverse Elphie. I don't think movie!Elphie would ever say she doesn't have a soul! I think it would be utterly offensive to her. Maybe I'm just not in the right fandom circles, but it seems like no one talks about how, dare-i-say woobified movie!Elphie is. I would love to hear your take. I've seen Cynthia saying they wanted to give Elphaba some innocence to lose so that her character arc would mean something, but it also just kind of seems like the easy way out to me? I know the musical and the book are two very different animals, but I think even in the musical Elphaba is a lot more Daria-esque than movie!Elphie is.
Oh they're wildly wildly different. It's the first thing I noticed when I watched the movie, and at first it put me off Cynthia Erivo's performance. Her Elphie is sweet and quiet and gentle where book Elphie is abrasive and rude and loud; poised and dignified and intensely feminine vs off-putting and strange and gender non-conforming (and intersex); open and vulnerable and easily lovable vs provocative and difficult with defense mechanisms for miles. It's basically a completely different character who's unfortunately found herself in similar circumstances.
It took a second watch to let go of my expectations for the character and just let myself fall in love with this version of her on her own terms. Of course, she's much more easily digestible, with more broad audience appeal, and this inevitably removes some of her complexity. Woobified is a good term for it; she really is just the most huggable sweetie pie put through hell through no fault of her own. But Erivo really portrays her with so much pathos and genuine heart and charisma that you just can't not love her. I am not immune to big puppy dog eyes and a bright gap-toothed smile and a warm little chuckle at Galinda's antics lol.
I'd say the musical characterization is equally simplified/homogenized for broad appeal. Maybe she's a little more generally sarcastic and standoffish in the musical, but I kinda like this more genuine version, I think Erivo's Elphaba seems more heartfelt, especially in her relationship with Galinda. You can see this particularly in Popular; in both versions this is the comic relief song, but in the musical Elphie is generally long-suffering and uninterested while in the movie she's an active participant and genuinely seems to be having fun playing along, mimicking Galinda and giggling like a school girl. It's really cute.
Also there's the issue of race. In the musical there hasn't been a full-time Black Elphaba until now with Lencia Kebede, who was of course cast only after Erivo. I think it's easy to see why they'd choose to make the first major depiction of Elphaba by a Black actress more unimpeachably lovable. Of course they shouldn't have to, but that in itself is a commentary on its own.
Unrelated but a major improvement of the movie over the musical is the handling of Nessa and her disability, which was just atrocious in the musical. In the movie they make it a point that pushing a wheelchair without permission is a serious violation, and in general give Nessa a bit more personhood and genuine chemistry with Elphie.
It's never gonna be as interesting and complex and political as the book, but for what it is I think the movie did a fantastic job and had a lot of love and care obviously put into it. Bookverse Elphie is still my number 1 though.
#Wicked#Elphaba Thropp#Thank you anon for the chance to ramble about one of my favorite characters of all times love this ask
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200 Follower + Hana, Dul, Set Q&A
OMG y'all, we hit 200 followers I’m literally screaming ! Thank you all so much for the love and support; it means the world to me! To celebrate, I've ask you all to drop from questions about my book and anything else you wanna ask and here are my answers
QUESTION ONE (ANON) :
Hii omg I jsut wanted to say I love you and your writing sm !! Do you like writing fluff or smut more? Can you write more older groups too like big bang shinne and exo and what's your top ten groups right now?
ANSWER : Hi, my love ! I love you too, thank you !! I would say I'm between both. I like to write fluff most of the time because I'm always in the mood for some sugar, but also smut takes me a lot longer to come up with because it's not fun to write the same scene, positon, all that.
Yes ! I am currently planning on writing for older groups. I've been in the kpop fandom for a decade now and I do get a little nervous about writing for older gens mainly because I'm not necessarily sure anyone knows who I'm talking about lol. But I abosuluty have Exo, Bigbang, and Shinee members on my WIPS.
And my top ten groups are constantly changing lol but I would say:
ACE
EXO
GOLDEN CHILD
VICTON
ONLYONEOF
ONEUS
OMEGA X
CIX
WAYV
SHINEE
Honorable mentions (BTS, Verivery, Ateez, SKZ, VIXX, Xikers, 4Miunte, SNSD, PIXY, NU'EST, & 2NE1)
QUESTION TWO (ANON) :
ANSWER: Of course ! I watch both GLs and BLs ! I've been watching Thai BLs since Lovesick 2015 came out on Netflix, then I watched Bangkok love stories, The Underwear, and then fell into the Tharntype hole on YouTube to officially start my bl journey lol.
My favorite BLs are:
To my star (Korean BL)
Method (One of my favorite Korean moive ever)
I Told The Sunet About You
Twins (Thai BL, my inspiration for Hana, Dul, Set)
Goodbye Mother (Vietnamese BL movie)
QUESTION THREE (ANON) :
ANSWER: Heyy, so I live in the U.S ! And I took Mandarin Chinese from the 6th grade all the way up to 11th grade. I'm not fluent anymore, unfortunately, because I dropped out of that class because I wanted to pursue something different and I learned I wasn't getting that advanced diploma lol. Right now I am starting my Thai learning journey to prepare for college in an exchange program so maybe in a year or 2 I'll be fluent lol.
QUESTION FOUR (ANON) :
Why did you start writing?
So, I originally started writing as an outlet early on to becuase I always had these scenarios in my head. I used to write in a notebook stories then show them to my parent (Yes, I showed Jungkook fanfiction to my parent... they were amused lol)
Then when I started high school I hit major depression, then COVID happened and I just needed to get it all out there. Half way through I decided I wanted to take this all seriously and am still to this day pushing for a real career in fiction writing and maybe make a movie or tv show. Just ambitious little Tati lol.
QUESTION FOUR (ANON) :
ANSWER: Well as I've been told, the drama will continue and things get really dramatic in the second book. But prepare for sugar teeth rotting everything, sugar honey ice tea. And I will not say much about Sunoo ofc, but I will tell you Sunoo does find love, but... it may be M/n or it might not be idk gotta read the book babes!

QUESTION FIVE (ANON) :
ANSWER: So, I am proably gonna make a quick little post for y'all to see on my pinned post for this as well as a wip tab that I'll update ! Sit tight !!
QUESTION SIX (ANON) :
What are your favorite albums? Non kpop and stuff too.
ANSWER: These are just some
Ok so I just realized I can't put anymore pictures of the asks lol, I'm so stupid. I will answer the rest separately, thank you all so much for your asks, please if you have anymore you are very welcome to ask in inbox and messages !!
#kpop x male reader#kpop fanfic#kpop x reader#kpop bg#kpop#enhypen x male reader#kpopidol#male reader fanfic#male reader insert#x male reader#q and a#q&a#q&a session#q&a questions
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OK, I finished! Some spoilers follow, in case any of you still want to read this book unspoiled after all this. (So far I haven't actually called out the book by name, but it's Murder in Westminster by Vanessa Riley.) Also this got a little long on an already longish thread, so I'll cut.
First, have this transcribed sentence from the epilogue where the murderer is finally being confronted with his crimes (we've jumped out of first person and are in third limited from the baddie's perspective):
All the arguments and passion spent in this house swirls in head with visions of Juliet. She was...is his obsession. "No could have her."
There are no typos there - that's really what the page says, missing words and all. (The ellipses are in the text, too.) I reread it a couple times because...what?
Interestingly, the man saying "No could have her" is the butler, who did do it after all! As soon as the main character remembered the big obvious clue, I also remembered the big obvious clue and thought, "Oh right, that's why I thought he maybe did it." (All the issues detailed in earlier posts have nothing to do with the clue, though, they're still just bad writing.) I don't feel super bad about not figuring it out earlier, though, because...
None of the characters in this feel like real, consistent people, and therefore none of their relationships with each other are fathomable, either. There's a lot of telling instead of showing, so I know that the main character, for example, feels strongly about abolition, and misses her runaway younger sister, but there's none of the small things in her movements and interactions that would really convince me of these facts. I just flipped through trying to find examples of shown emotion and there really are few - but when they come, they're usually exaggerated, like clutching things, pacing in circles, trembling.
It's also a hard book to follow because none of these emotions or thoughts seem to last very long - the narrator sort of jumps from one topic to the next without any apparent connection, which could maybe be played off as a character trait except that it happens in conversations, too, no matter who's talking. There's never tension in a scene, even when people are being shot at, or a man has just thrown the protagonist over his shoulder. (It's the one I think is set up as an eventual love interest - I guess in future books - not a bad guy.) Things just sort of...move on.
So. Not a book I recommend! And I will bring into the post something that I've been saying in the tags, which is: this is a shame, because the idea isn't bad! I'm not saying the butler-did-it plot is great, but it could be good combined with everything around it! The main character is a Black noblewoman, with a moneyed father (not sure that he's noble), married to a baronet who is off exploring. Her godfather, her cousin, and a childhood friend are all other non-white characters, along with some of her servants. (I think the godfather isn't white. Not actually 100% on that one.) The cousin also works with Mary Edwards (real historical figure) doing calculations for the Navy, despite being (like Mrs. Edwards) a woman. (I do have additional complaints about how "likes math" is used as a character trait - not the use but how it's done.) A whole B-plot involves the protag trying to get eyewitness accounts of the horrors of slavery overseas (sent by her husband) to well-known abolitionists in London to try to restart the fight for abolition. Lots of potentially neat stuff here! But unfortunately. The writing is bad.
I'm struggling a little with getting into this book and unfortunately I think it's because the writing is bad. Like for example:

"The closer I came, I realized it was the butler" - I don't think this is how sentence structure works, sorry! Try "As I came closer, I realized" maybe?
I am by no means a historian but I feel like the dialogue in this isn't trying well (or consistently) to be of the time - not as relevant in this passage, but would a butler really tell a titled lady to "Drink up"? Even if he did catch her snooping earlier.
(Speaking of things on which I am not an expert: the story is set in 1806, and I could be wrong, but I feel like two years is like a minimum to age Madeira.)
Finally, the tense switches: "That was an hour away. The service and then burial will be very late." I had already thought the author was struggling with tense a little; this was the most egregious example so far.
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like there's just something about characters who get their identity STOLEN from them you know? Like specifically losing your sense of identity because people have given you a new name, have twisted who you were supposed to be, it convinced you you were the person they wanted you to be. And when you finally learn the truth the old identity is like a ghost that is haunting you. It's not even a true self anymore because you've grown so much into this new identity that was forced on you -- but it's a ghost of all the what if, of all that could have been if they hadn't pushed you this far to the point you forgot yourself and embraced the harm that they convinced you was good for you.
they killed the old me and faked my new life and now i am staring at my own corpse with no way to return. i am poisoned by what they made me. i'll never be my true self ever again - i was never truly mine to begin with.
who are you if not the shell of who you used to be filled with what they wanted you to become to the point of betraying yourself. a ghost that never even had the time to ever be alive. you'll never be alive again.
the loss of identity and the ghost of who you will never be able to ever be again
#so many of my favs enter this category and it's discussing Mordred that really made it click#bc i don't mean identity crisis in a way that can be solved as easily as just 'oh they lied about who i was but i knew all along'#it's really just 'there is no coming back there is no me anymore'#maybe it also says a lot of unfortunate things about me-#but like. Mordred. Cloud. Allen. I'd argue even Solas to some extend mister 'i had to take this new name as a badge of pride'#oooh fenris and cole also!! DA feeds me so well on this#ichatalks
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if i said i picked up this issue for anything but drunk erik i fear i'd be lying
(Wolverine (2020) #3)
#xmen#xmen comics#krakoa#magneto#ok fine logan can get a tag too. this IS his story after all ja/lkLAJVEAVKLJ#wolverine#snap scans#i should read the rest of this run but its like 47 issues i think so. gonna take some time with that#spliced up the panels so its easier to look at everything. and so i can frame drunk passed out erik on my wall#someone uploaded some of the first page some time ago but 1.) i forgot to rb it 2.) it didnt include the rest of the scene#it ESP didnt include erik fallin face first on the table and his lil sleepin face on the next page like please im gettin cuteness aggressio#im so miffed that these are printed on the same page cause i woulda framed this spread otherwise like PLEASE#this shit got me GIGGLING SO BAD i cant. 'dare i say it .......' he's so unnecessary i love him so much#he's so silly ..... also someone said it best in that whenever erik's drawn like a bug it's the best thing#like look at him. that's a beetle. that's my little beetle and i love him i need to put him in a terrarium and watch him#honestly theres a LOT of things i have scanned and wanna share however i have to do it. Reasonably so to speak#in that i dont want to accidentally drown out all my doodling with comic scans jvEALKVJEAKL#maybe i'll do it sandwich style ... art -> scan -> art -> scan etc etc#that does remind me i have a doodle i wanted to do today. so maybe ill do that and share another thing i got scanned ....#unfortunately i do very much love reading the comics. a troublesome thing cause theres so much i wanna share and talk about#like from this issue too i love how hank describes what charles' mutation feels like#its not a grand thing but i love it whenever charles' telepathy is described and how it effects him physiologically#maybe hank was just Theorizing what it feels like but still ... i love that insight so much .....#i'll share that quote another time- i prob won't scan the page cause it's just a text log but i will say it was from here dont worry#ok ive rambled long enough BYE im gonna go draw charles
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Something I've been thinking a lot about lately is how everyone thought Egon had gone insane. What Happened that made them think that. They've fought a gigantic Stay Puft Marshmellow Man TWICE (counting the 2009 video game because iirc it's canon? Correct me if I'm wrong), fought an interdimensional god, fought a blood thirsty ruler that killed thousands and was hated by all that was trapped in a painting (and managed to get in to beat him by making THE STATUE OF LIBERTY start walking down the street with slime that reacted purely based on vibes), found an underground abandoned transit system full of the moodslime, had a bathtub try to eat Dana and her baby, fought a giant murderous black widow lady, fought the fisherman ghost who turned an entire hotel floor into the bottom of a ocean, and that's not even mentioning them getting trapped on an island that randomly raised up from underwater that had been abandoned for decades created by Ivor Shandor who worshipped Gozer. So what did he do or say that made everyone else think he'd gone insane?? All I can think is maybe he was acting strange / eratic before, but he's always been like that to some degree.
I don't know. It's something that I've been thinking about. The correct answer is 'it's not that deep and they needed a reason that the others weren't together anymore and weren't aware of Egons death or know what was going on,' but also. What Was He Saying that prompted everyone, including Ray, to think he lost his mind when he'd been right almost every time before that.
I'm genuinely so curious as to what he was up to before this. What was he doing. What insane idea was working on prior to this or was he even working on anything at all??
Also want to clarify this post isn't negative 😭 I really love the newer movies and their lore / the newer storyline / characters, I just like thinking about small stupid things like this. Gives me something to think about / speculate about / figure out an answer to.
#ghostbusters#egon spengler#nikolas posts#I have so many thoughts on it because I've just been rewatching the two movies on loop for the past few days.#All we got was Ray saying that he'd started talking about the end of the world (IIRC) and that he went insane and took everything#when he eventually left to deal with it on his own#which for the record it's extremely impressive that he would've stopped Gozer from returning BY HIMSELF. The only reason it hadn't worked#was because of the electricity issue#Hiding all the traps and setting up the proton packs to fire at the hell pit?? Insanity. He's just on a complete different level of existin#Like they were aware of Ivor Shandor and his plans long before??? They found his ISLAND DEDICATED TO GOZER who had full intention of#BRINGING THEM BACK#it's really Really REALLY not this deep but I have thoughts and I wanted to share them. Maybe someone else might have an idea I#couldn't think of or might have something to add.#I guess it could be a 'they beat Gozer once and assumed they were gone' but that wasn't the first time Gozer 'died' so??#if I missed something Please tell me. I haven't watched the newer movies as much as the older ones (I grew up watching them / playing#the game so I'm more familiar with the older lore and haven't had the chance to rewatch the newer ones 1000 times over unfortunately)#so it's entirely possible I missed something#I'd think maybe it was just because they were older but I really don't think thats the case. I have reasoning for it but I need to do#the math to make sure I'm getting the ages right by the time AfterLife happens.#really need to make a chart / timeline of all the events that happened and what year / month / day they happened. That's a project#for tomorrow perhaps.#anyways if anyones reading this sorry for the insane rambling and congrats for making it to the end#also this post isn't negative I adore the newer movies so much. I love them a lot and I genuinely don't really care about this at all#just a thing to think / ponder / speculate about if that makes sense#I enjoy thinking about stupid irrelevant stuff like this#so so so many thoughts
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much to be said about how it’s kind of unfair to try navigating life while Touched, but also i think it’s just a normal facet of life that you can’t always get what you want,, so it’s hard to justify bitching Too much sometimes :/
#N posts stuff#wasn’t joking about bringing back ‘touched in the head’ as terminology btw#was thinking that i’d like to go back to studying to convert#(i spent a little over two years studying judaism and then it triggered a psychotic episode that scared me off studying Any religion/theolog#theology for a While) but then when i was mentally drafting an email to the shul i went to#i realized that i feel comfortable Now but there aren’t really any like. supports to keep the same thing from happening again#and there’s a real chance that once it’s time to go back to studying the high holidays again the Exact same thing will happen#so i was trying to figure out what Could maybe be done. and i think working one-on-one with someone would help#but. Problem. : it’s a lot to ask of someone no matter how you look at it. and it’s likely that any guy running the intro classes at this#shul don’t have any kind of mental health background so that’s even More to ask of someone (its a Really small synagogue)#BUT on the other paw any kind of therapist i could find that is Jewish likely doesn’t necessarily have the capacity to run an intro class#in lieu of a typical session. arguably i could try to balance both a typical class and one-on-one therapy but i have a sneaking suspicion th#that bringing psychotic symptoms into a therapists office will lead them to encourage medication which i have NO desire to be on#and also i generally don’t really have the capacity to balance full time job on top of classes on top of regular services on top of therapy#so it’s like. well. maybe you just don’t get to do that then. it’s a little unfortunate :/#but also hey. maybe one day i’ll move again and ill wind up somewhere that’s actually perfectly equipped to help me one day who’s to say
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My therapist hasn't killed me yet 👍
#unfortunately i actually. like i had so much to say that i couldn't get an in-depth response#sometimes that happens.#so like. not a negative 'oh you are going to die badly if this continues' reaction. just very thoughtful like#'oh... yeah... that's heavy. but it makes sense' response. which is. honestly. i feel better#even just w that. like. coming from the insane paranoia jumping to conclusions thought crime religion#one million guilt one million years. and also something Wrong w you. die. one thousand deaths#like. it's maybe gonna be okay. maybe i can explore heavier topics w care and consideration#without being shot on sight. or at v least knowing that if i am. i'm not necessarily The Problem here#feels. like an oversimplification. but you know. you know how it can be.#never ever ever wanna get into discourse though. ever. idk if it's irrational but i have always had an intense fear#that someday i'm gonna post something and then get lolcow'd to death.#like. it's not just my upbringing i don't think. it's the whole culture surrounding certain fandom spaces#which is honestly why i don't even consider myself a fandom blog. i'm an autism blog.#you get whatever i'm fixated on. forever. and nearly 100% of the time it's askr siblings#idk i also just think it sucks. that you need to have 'valid' reasons to explore certain subjects#which firstly require you to be a victim and secondly requires you to be a perfect victim.#which puts people in terrible spots where like. what is this a confession booth. i wasn't even cathlolic. get OUT of here!!!!#sorry i still have a lot of Feelings. about it. and ultimately that's what it is. i have a lot of very intense Feelings#they are my own. to protect. to process. i don't want to get confrontational about it. that's stupid.#already this feels like a confession of guilt. is it the christianity? is it the way some online spaces just Are?#i don't know. all i know is i want to make art. it means so much to me. to say what i need to say.#and to be heard. that's been the craziest part. all these things i've been terrified of. but sometimes. i'm heard.#idk idk idk. no more emotional vulnerability. ass hurt. done.
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i just want to draw jules being very excitable & silly bc he IS or at least he tries really hard to be & then exhausts himself so sometimes hes not but god why is it HARD
#like he IS very twitchy & easily startled & he DOES get very passionate about his interests#but also he really really puts in a lot of effort to seem cheerful & easygoing. this man is stressed as fuck he is scared out of his mind#he just usually hides it. and quite well!! but it does wear on him u know#but he tries his best. & like its not like its entirely an act he genuinely does like to have fun & joke around#& he doesnt really see the point in stressing over things that are out of his control. but like. easier said than done#unfortunately this means he often feels bad for. feeling bad. so he tries to hide it#this got away from me i think i wanted to say more but i really am tired lmao. maybe tomorrow if i remember#ig i can put this in his tag#oc: jules#maybe later ill compile these tags into the actual body of a post bc. the post itself wasnt even about that lmao
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finals need to end so i can stop focusing on rubidium-strontium dating of pottery used to store fucking pearl millet in 250 bc or indulging my professors incrediblyyyy freudian interpretations of monumental architecture or something when i suddenly have artistic motivation the likes of which i haven't experienced since like 2019.
#although radiometric dating is very fun i just don't care about ancient grain crops all the much im sorry#i wanna do biological / forensic anthropology and unfortunately i have a hard time forcing myself to care about tuber cultivation#my professor thinks a lot of things are penis shaped when they really aren't#like i think it says more about you that you're interpreting this stone monument as a giant penis than it does the monument itself#next semester save me#anatomy osteology bio of human sex behavior medical anthropology#finally something that's gonna interest my brain and make me enjoy studying until 4 am#dreams of forensics and paleopathology#and also deep regret of not double majoring in clinical lab science#oh well if i don't fuck up the next 3 semesters maybe they'll let me into anatomical science grad program pretty please
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Why did my cooking dream get hijacked by my brain making a William Afton oc and au what was that about.
#luly talks#my dreams#I'll peace like i can recollect it was weird#bc it literally was ME BUYING GROCERIES W MY DAD but then the line between when we ended and Michael and William started blurred#i remember the grocery store very well also bc it was very similar to the one i go always to but smaller and more sepia#it was dark for a grocery store like it was just letting sunlight in#pears were half off like some black friday offer so all the products were suuuper cheap#i saw one bottle of milky pear juice for like 1k. and the same w these 4 stacks of frozen waffles who were like 1070.#or this bottle of pear pancake mixture that had 2 or 4 lts#it was kind of when i went away that thr lines started blurring so let me tell you what i remember about this Afton:#he didnt seem. murderous. he was grocery shopping w his kid for fuck's sake 😭 i think he was even sitting somewhere while i ran back and#forth taken aback by these offers? like kinda dismissive at best#uh. Henry was brought up believe it or not. it was like... they broke up or something? like he was kinda upset about the mention but like#in a i dont want to explain why im not with him rn sort of way#very insecure he seemed. like he run into this woman who might've been someone but idk who was whom asked sbout henry and bro was SWEATING#you'd say dream william was a fucking loser he just got locked in thinking like what do i say and HOW do i say it#to make it sound casual but also not weird.#bc on top of all he also seemed to have some weird gender things going on bc he first instinct when trying to explain himself to the woman#(who i cannot stress enough was super friendly like a fucking neighbor or something just going hey hi! hows da family? ^_^)#was to refer to them both as girls as this jokey comradery Let's Ignore The Topic thing before going No That's Bad I Can't Say That#this whole internal monologue in my dream happened in a sort of comic panel thing btw where shit went from these warm browns and greens and#shit from the grocery store to jarring black and whites and reds as William tried to have a straight thought#looks wise unfortunately not a lot going on.though considering this was literally my dream getting turned over can we say my Afton is argie#something something my turn stealing from them etc etc or whatever#uh. brown hair. but not too dark. it was greying and that was making it lighter. also very angular face as you'd expect#high cheekbones pretty eyebrows no facial hair. hair was a bit longuish tho? like a messy ear length maybe?#he had a button up w buttons lose bc it's so hot and humid rn also sunglasses which i know 100% was influenced bc the last design i rbed#a little.before napping#also he had age makes too though his age was most visible in his scrawny long exposed neck#me/mike change was minimal bc we're both pale and brunette hit tag limit so hope y'all like my brain's oc i guess 😭
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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today my coworker turned to my mentor and told him there was something about him that was just inherently likable and turned to me and told me i should work on being less giggly if i wanted to be taken seriously in life
#there's very very little she could say that could offend me at this point. cause i know how she is#but it was quite funny#after that she went 'have you ever had anyone dislike you?' to him#and he went 'hmm. maybe when i was like 6'#(she's not wrong he's probably the most charismatic person i know)#(and i'm glad he's on my side. that boy has convinced management to do SO many things on my behalf that would have taken forever otherwise)#unfortunately i do believe that charm is something people inherently have and can't be learned. otherwise I would Steal It from him#i would be Unstoppable if I had just a lil bit of charisma in me#unfortunately. i do not. so instead. i must communicate instead of manipulate my way through life#: / one of them is a lot more boring than the other#also he's an ASSHOLE. he's genuinely a dick like 70% of the time#it's just that he's also horribly horribly likeable/charming#so people don't notice/ don't get mad about it#i was telling him this earlier today. he asked me something and i was like 'u know ur an asshole right.'#just cause no one else is brave enough to tell him doesn't mean i WONT.#i just. i'm so jealous of That part of him. where he's so fucking mean but people still bend over backwards to help him#it's also the pretty privilege. cause he looks like an Abercrombie model.#ok goodbye#daily tumblr rant for my mental health#(not daily i prommy. like. biweekly)
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