#maybe im too obsessed about a fictional book and its characters

[demon-of-arts]

Tried showing my friends my Kevin Day key chains I just bought and like they left me on seen in our group chat wtf guys I was so happy about them too could've at least encouraged my delusions :/

[justlet-melive]

here’s a question :3 uh do you have like any favourite anatomy or reference books/texts. or any tips for doing study’s??

sorry if this is like annoying or weird idk i’ve just been a little obsessed with your art lately. the way you capture shape and movement is so fantastic. you have such a talent for capturing characters personality through visual quirks too. idk like the way you draw ellie tlou is so specific. it’s not exactly on model but it’s kind of better lol. i can instantly tell most of what you need to know about her. same with your recent astarions like idk you’ve just managed to capture a real physicality about him that i think can be hard. idk i’m maybe biased but i think without any exposure to the game you could probably guess how he moves and sounds from your art.

idk uh sorry if this is worded weird i feel like i always do that LOL okay though anyways i adore your art it’s just so distinct. i’d eat it if i could. i’d honestly do a lot to capture even a fraction of the magic you’re creating. okay hope this message finds you well BYE

no need to feel self conscious about doing me a kindness in the form of gratifying to read, thoughtful observations of my fanart!!!!

thank you. very late response because i wanted to respond with some equally thoughtful advice and also let my ego calm down a bit, but..

im 'lazy' and like to keep drawing for fun as easy as possible. So i dont have any reference books hm... You obviously look at art and are able to relay to yourself and others what you saw and felt. thats the skill you should always indulge. looking at all kinds of things youre drawn to and observing why. best ref! (thanks again btw, best feeling being on the receiving end of that. to be... astarion voice: Seen in the Eyes of Another)

I have studied (and continue to do so when i get the chance) figure drawing at my community college, which was a big leap. i ended up focusing a lot on the relationship between the ribcage/pelvis/flow of the spine at that time. still my favorite part of drawing lol. During my most recent artblock i started copying muscle anatomy pages from a Morpho book as a way to keep drawing without a proper fixation. which is great because i also love the weight of flesh :^D

if you'd like my 'woo-woo advice' it's to get lost in the process and less invested in the results. and never be embarrassed. it'll keep you drawing (behind every piece of successful fanart is a mountain of scrap drawings of Fictional Guy #2378 facing 3/4 left.) and its meditative!! cathartic? personally i like to have a song/playlist to keep up the emotion im trying to work out going throughout my drawing session. helps me tell if the expression im drawing feels 'right'

and on the topic of drawing off model--!! Anytime im onto a new character i do spend a few sessions tracing their proportions/copying their models. after i figure out more or less what about their original design makes that Character i like to lose the training wheels. artistic interpretation is more interesting for me to look at and create. and i think it frees you up to better convey a feeling. the more you draw something the more you settle into 'what works' but i never set out to draw the same way twice! usually never anyway

thank you again for taking time to observe my drawings, and relaying back what you saw and felt. it honestly makes my day(s) to the point i almost feel guilty about it

[comphetkoncass]

!! 10 people I'd like to get to know better tag game! tagged by @gnomewithalaptop !! i run in like the same circles so i will be repeat-tagging ppl even tho i know she already tagged em. perils of the itty bitty community of kon fans </3 you have to be loved TWICE.

last song: ...sk8r boi by avril lavigne...

favorite color: yellow!! but teal and vibrant pink have been creeping in as of late.

last book: redshirts by jon scalzi for my last fiction book, and nonfiction, 'the end of love: racism, sexism, and the death of romance' by sabrina strings!!

last movie: oh man... i havent watched a movie in months. maybe i rewatched one of the spiderverse movies or something? lego batman??? i have no idea, i just dont tend to watch movies. i dont even think about it.

last tv show: legends of tomorrow my beloved. im finally on season 4. lets go lesbians i love you avalance

sweet/savory/spicy: spicy! i actually cant do anything too sweet or too savory anymore. i have severe first bite syndrome after having a tumor on my salivary gland, which means the first bite of anything is extremely painful, but doubly so if its overly sweet, sour, or sometimes salty. spice is normal levels of pain though :)

relationship status: going on a first date this saturday! im very excited to meet her in person after texting and calling for the last several weeks! :)

last thing I searched: "nice hotels in new york" because i want to travel again next year, but i dont like air bnbs and sometimes i want to be a bougie lil fuck. but not even i have expensive new york money so maybe ill find a cheaper travel destination lol.

current obsession: LOVED arcane s2. aside from that, i have to be the main fan of my own WIP original series bc it's not done yet.

looking forward to: that first date on saturday! <3

bonus topics

favorite drink: i dont really drink alcohol anymore but oh god. margaritas are so delicious that it's unfair.

song playing on a loop in your head: random but earlier today weird patriotic songs were stuck in my head. so i put on avril lavigne instead. please ms lavigne save me

current favorite character: cass cain. or maybe koriand'r my beloved.

fun activity you would like to get into: skateboarding!!! i was just looking up cool skateboarder girls and i was overcome with envy. i have this power... i just need to find a skate park around here.

last video game: zelda echoes of wisdom!!! :)

last comic/graphic novel: regrettably, i started reading dc's beast world run. i thought i bought the actual RUN, like... with the titans. and gar. and whoever. but no i just got all the weird one-offs in other towns. apparently it was actually a super big crossover event??? weird. did not enjoy. but cass cain's first issue in her new run is GREAT. i love her and missed her :')

GENUINE NO PRESSURE but. hello ten people who i would like to get to know better and whose general online presence i appreciate: @magicalcreeks @franollie @sage-nebula @redpenship @peacheel @crimzoncrow @jonskory @theandysar @thesummerstorms @vinelark <3

[random-cryptid]

*crashes in here* ok ik i havent been here in a bajillion years and i am so sorry for that and unloading a small novel on you dgkdgkh

but i had the dumbest thought. imagine tryna teach the sanderson's modern stuff. cuz i just saw a selfship post that said something along the lines of studying with your fo (fictional other. like a significant other, but its a fictional character instead of an actual human sgshdh) and now all i can think about is attempting to teach winnie, mary, and sarah all the stuff ive learned over the years

im not sure who'd find which subjects the most interesting. i dont have any art textbooks but i do have some notes from art history and waaayyy too many art supplies and i'd be happy to teach mary and sarah about art history and how to use some of the things i have (assuming i remember how to use thems). i think winnie would be fascinated by science! theres some branches of it like chemistry that feel a lot like magic, but i.... dont have access to things like that nor the smarts to even attempt to do chem (i do have access to vids so theres that at least), so it'd be hard to teach her that. i do have some anatomy and biology books that i think she'd like, and i have so many space books and i am dying to share them with all three of them holy dhit.

as for history, i think all three of them would be fascinated by it. theres been so many things that have happened since they died the first time around as well as so much that happened before they were born or happened when they were young but on the other side of the world.

plus, maybe some of what im talking to them about would help stick in my own brain easier so thats a bonus!

I am SO SORRY I'm answering this right now, but the past few weeks have been hectic to say the least 😭 I started Swedish clases lol.

Anyway YES I AGREE Mary but Sarah especially would be so interested in art methinks. Actually I believe Sarah is interested in fashion in some way (I hc that she made her own clothes and helped make Winnie's gown). And YES Winnie is so woman in STEM to me 😩 however I failed Chemistry every single year of high school lol BUT I was top of my class on Biology 😎 and actually think Sarah and Mary would be interested in Biology, although for different reasons (one for cooking and the other well... torture 😅).

OH YEAH HISTORY THAT'S SO FUN I think maybe they have an interest in different eras, Mary is definitely more of a contemporary girl (the way she picks up modern slang??? Scary). Winnie might be obsessed with the British Royal Family ngl 😭 I wonder what she'll think of Princess Diana. Now Sarah I'm not sure what she would enjoy from History 🤔 I mean ig fashion history or something idk 😭😭😭

ALSO ACTUALLY I REMEMBER WATCHING AN ALCHEMY VIDEO and it's pretty much Chemistry so. I think Mary would enjoy Chemistry too but maybe a different branch. Medicinal Chemistry perhaps? While Winnie is more of a Environmental Chemistry girl (since she literally can shoot lightning from her fingers I wouldn't be surprised she wanted to make a contraption to... Idk shoot fire as hot as the fucking sun)

[demiro-ace-culture-is]

probably not the right blog to ask this but fuck it, im really quite lost.

so, im very asexual and i thought i was heteroromantic for quite some time (i still can only picture myself in a relationship with boys). but. im now questioning for somewhere on the aromantic spectrum, too.

not 100% aro because, like, im way too obsessed with the idea of romantic love, i think. that's not much aro-like, i know, i don't wanna intrude, it's just... questioning. somewhere like demiromantic, but shit, how would i know if it never happened??

i know some aro people want relationships but they don't feel the romantic attraction and that's okay, except some internalized shit makes me very sad at that idea. cuz i really, really want a romantic relationship, the vibe is just different from friendships (not more important, just different and i wouldn't know the difference, but i think there is).

i could never date someone unless i loved them, but im not sure im even capable of romantically loving anyone.

15 years of life and not. a. single. crush. im literally the only person i know that can say this. my own family doesnt believe me when i say it.

even when i find nice people it's never "i want to date them", it's like "they're nice. i wish i would find someone that nice that i could date, later. please, someone just have me" but its not personal.

there's just so long i can blame "no one is interesting" before the problem is me, so long i can claim being picky but even my literal perfect fictional characters in my most perfect scenarios are happily dating each other, maybe some faceless person with me, but the ones i really care its "they're perfect therefore i would die for them" and never "they're perfect therefore i wanna date them", there's just so long i can blame my asexuality while literal kids have purely romantic childhood crushes and me nothing at all.

it's so fucking frustrating cuz i want to feel the butterflies and love and be loved by someone like the characters in all my favorite books, but it just never ever clicks and i cant understand how easy it is for everyone else to see someone nice and start to feel things for them :(

maybe im too young to know? maybe it's my own self-esteem issues (although i dread the idea that thinking you are unlovable could be punished by actually being and the age thing feels like an aphobic excuse, it can still be true)

i know certainly no one has ever liked me, anyway, so its not like i ever rejected someone or dated to know if something feels off.

how do i even know i don't feel something or if i just haven't felt it yet with the right person? if i find a right person (unlikely) is it even aromanticism anymore?

it's just i do want the dating thing and i want it with a specific gender and i want not only the domesticity but actually all the love-sick puppy eyes cliche thing, i want to want someone as much as i want to ne wanted, but actual aro people would not be that crushed about missing out as i am specially since im so okay with missing out the sex bit ever since i learned about asexuality. aroace feels like such a heavy title, i don't know.

i really don't want to be offensive, im kinda just grieving at the possibility of never getting things i always thought i wanted just bc i cant actually want it hard enough.

god, romance seems so fictional, so out of reach, like even if i found something good i wouldn't recognize it but i also can't prove it because i never found something good.

so,,, anyone with a similar experience? or how did you find out you were 'actually demiro' instead of just picky or haven't found the one? im kinda scared of being right but i know I'd learn to own it, too.

it's ok to ask this here <33 if you have more questions, i can direct you to @qandgay !! i run that blog too and it's specifically for questions :) let me just break this down for you. but first, a few notes:

you are never intruding on aro or ace spaces by questioning! you're totally welcome here :) and even if things end up changing, you aren't wrong for it, and you won't be shamed

there's no box for "actual aro people". we all use the label that works best, and in fact, you dont even have to label yourself if it's too much!!

so let's start breaking this down and answering some of your worries :)

not 100% aro because, like, im way too obsessed with the idea of romantic love i think. that's not much aro-like, i know

you don't have to be 100% aro. aro people can like the idea of relationships and romantic attraction, or even want a relationship. you also don't have to be "aro-like"!!!!! as i mentioned, there is no box you have to fit into. i myself am demiromantic, and i relate to much of this!!! im still arospec :)

...i really, really want a romantic relationship, the vibe is just different from friendships (not more important, just different and i wouldn't know the difference, but i think there is.)

yes!! you're right! there is a difference. may i direct you to two things:

the existence of qpr's (queer-platonic relationships), which are different from both romantic and purely platonic relationships. my good friend @pat-e-cheese knows much more about this, and im sure he would be happy to answer some questions abt it!! i also recommend @aro-culture-is :)

15 years of life and not. a. single. crush.

it's totally ok to not experience a crush for a long, long time, or even ever. i was almost 16 before my first crush (im 17 now) and before i fully started understanding the different types of attraction and how they feel. don't feel like you have to experience these things just because others do. i promise, you aren't missing out.

even when i find nice people it's never "i want to date them", it's like "they're nice. i wish i would find someone that nice that i could date, later. please someone just have me" but it's not personal. there's just so long i can blame "no one is interesting" before the problem is me, so long i can claim being picky but even my literal perfect fictional characters in my most perfect scenarios are happily dating each other, maybe some faceless person with me, but the ones i really care it's "they're perfect therefore i would die for them", and never "they're perfect therefore i wanna date them", there's just so long i can blame my asexuality when literal kids have purely romantic childhood crushes, and me nothing at all.

i wanted to include all of this, because i wanted to address all of it. you don't have to be attracted to someone just because they're nice, or pretty, or perfect. it's ok not to. you can have a close friendship and it doesn't have to be romantic, despite what others may say.

but it's also ok to want to date someone. again, just remember, you're not missing out for not having romantic attraction. you're not unlovable if no one loves you romantically, or if you love nobody romantically. you are loved <3

you don't have to blame anything, or anyone. it's not your fault, and i can promise you're not the problem. your age has nothing to do with it, your sexuality is not a problem, and your lack of attraction is not something that can be controlled. you don't have to feel bad. your experience is unique to you, and that's a good thing!

...it just never clicks and i cant understand how easy it is for everyone else to see someone nice and start to feel things for them :(

hey!! i have a secret: for a ton of people, it doesn't "click" in the same way you might expect, or even at all. for me, it took a long long time to figure out if i was feeling romantic attraction towards my first "crush". it's complicated. you don't have to try and force something that isn't there.

maybe im too young to know? maybe it's my own self-esteem issues

there's no such thing as "too young to know" but it's also ok to want more life experience before you stick with anything :) waiting is ok!!

(although i dread the idea that thinking you are unlovable could be punished by actually being...

luckily for you, i know about this topic!! it's similar to the, "spiritual choices and ethical stances/karma can lead to worldly sickness" idea. which is not true. this isn't true either, but it's ok to have that fear. just know that you aren't being punished for thinking you're unlovable. you just need to work through it.

and the age thing still feels like an aphobic excuse, it can still be true)

i promise you're not being aphobic here :) especially when referring to yourself. if you feel you need more time to know, that's totally ok and valid!!

how do i know i dont feel something or if i just haven't felt it yet with the right person?

to be honest? you don't. but the good thing is you don't have to. get comfortable where you are! you don't have to date to be happy or loved, and you don't have to know if there's a right person or not. it's hard not knowing, but becoming at ease with it will help immensely.

if i find a right person (unlikely) is it even aromanticism anymore?

yes. yes yes yes yes!! if you still feel comfortable with the label, it's STILL aromanticism. my younger sibling @axellion is happy to answer questions regarding this as well!!! meow identifies as an aromantic lesbian :)

it's just i do want the dating thing and i want it with a specific gender and i want not only the domesticity but actually all the love-sick puppy eyes cliche thing.

it's ok to want this!!! in fact, even if you're aro, it's not unattainable <3 it seems like that contradicts, but it doesn't have to

but actual aro people would not be that crushed about missing out as i am specially because im ok with missing out the sex bit ever since i learned about asexuality.

again, "actual aro" people can experience this as well. it's ok to feel this way. whatever label makes you most comfortable is right

aroace feels like such a heavy title, i dont know.

you don't have to label yourself as aroace if you don't feel comfortable <3 questioning is ok, and mixing and matching with labels is ok.

i really don't want to be offensive, im kinda just grieving at the possibility at never getting things i always thought i wanted, just because i cant want it hard enough.

you aren't being offensive, i can promise you that! and it's totally ok to grieve, but i know you can still have those things. it's part of discovering yourself and having new experiences. i also recommend @tertiary-attraction-culture-is to answer some questions about tertiary attraction :)

i relate to a lot of what you said. i used to have tons of similar concerns. the number one thing i recommend: find someone to talk to about it!! a friend you trust, or even a therapist can help.

i found out i was demiromantic through experience. at first i identified as demisexual, but then i realized im sex repulsed ace and that the demiromantic label fits me best. as for my attraction, i just ID as queer, because i haven't found a better label for that!

you can simply ID as queer, or questioning, or explore some microlabels if that suits your fancy! this stuff can be scary and confusing, and that's ok!!

i have no singular solution for you, but there usually isn't one. you don't have to have everything figured out now! you're 15, and it's never too late to do some new discovering. i hope this helps <3

[semi-imaginary-place]

I started talking on discord about the rebuild of evangelion movies with some people so you are getting the same text wall as before just said in a slightly different way. I sadly can’t guarantee this is more coherent than the previous walls of text:

i just finished watching the evangelion rebuild movies and now im chewing on furniture like a dog. evangelion rebuild really be like: maybe touching grass would fix you. maybe if you touched grass you wouldn’t be like this. still going feral here. i started watching 3.0+1.0 at like 10 pm and didnt finish it until 3am

yes i really enjoyed the movies. i was rather confused how much world building the 2 continuities shared because they seem to share some parts but not others. overall an excellent experience. most of the changes i am in favor of. By different worldbuilding i meant how adam(s), angels, the seeds of life/wisdom all mean different things and have different relationship depending on the continuity. or how the whole second impact was different, in the anime it was contact with the one and only adam sealed in their egg in antarctica where as in rebuild there were 4 adams. and in the anime both angels and evas are made from adam (except 01) where as in rebuild there isn't that a direct connection angels are just prophesied. so what units 01 and 13 are doing is becoming adams/gods where as gods in the anime was probably referring to the first ancestral race. there's also stuff like how kaworu is only an angel in rebuild where as in the anime he's adam's soul shoved into a lilin body and the anime makes it clear that angel is an arbitrary label that nerv is using as propaganda to designate an enemy. there also doesn't seem to need to be the pilot's mother's soul fused to the eva, more just any soul in rebuild. there's various other small things but it meant i'd interpret a scene one way based on knowledge of the anime and then 5 minutes later have to rewatch it because woops i need to see it under a new perspective. confusing to constantly be analyzing what's shared and what's different worldbuilding wise. but its inline with rebuild's themes of this is all fictional and the story (and worldbuilding) belong to the audience so i do applaud the movies for pulling this off. The simpler remade worldbuilding makes rebuild accessible to new people and it makes the movies able to stand on their own with out 15 books of supplementary material.

rebuild went very post modernism with emphasis on how the interpretation by the audience forms the reality of the fiction, the acknowledgement of the characters that they are fictional. so it leans into the meta and takes the audience out of suspension of disbelief purposefully to remind us this is fiction. and this shift is reflected in moving the focus away from worldbuilding. on a conceptual level i don't think either concept is inferior. personally im a sucker for worldbuilding so that part of the 1995 anime appeals to me. however from an execution stand point rebuild did a far better job, not only with this theme but all of its other themes too. the 1995 anime was successful in delivering its themes too but wow was there so much other stuff in between to get through. Not to mention the actual production meltdown that gave us the infamous powerpoint slide show presentation. In the anime halfway through they just gave up on making events comprehensible and it was big shinji depression times for the rest of the show

the 1995 anime was really weird about women and it always felt really slimy having the female characters be defined by their relationships to the male characters, the strange obsession with pregnancy and a woman's reproductive capabilities and i am so happy rebuild toned that all down. while motherhood continues as a recurring theme its focus is shifted to human connection and family and like caring for one another instead of all the weird bullshit and impregnation metaphors like when gendo implants the adam fetus on his hand and sticking it in rei3 to fuse into one being and start instrumentality.

the shinji gendo fight very much was about the fictionality of the movie. the animation of the evas always made them bouncy and massive like they have a lot of mass but in this scene thye used live action capture so it looked like actors in costumes on set with a miniature town and then shinji crashes into the backdrop/greenscreen and oh they actually are on a set. big YES to the final "fight" of the big mecha action series being two emotionally stunted dudes having a heart to heart and talking it out (Even if i do not care about whatever comes out of gendo's mouth).

rebuild is more direct in its themes than the anime. in the anime shinji only really starts understanding right in the final scenes of end of evangelion that connecting and building relationships is extremely hard but worth it. the omedetou scene doesn't count because no one understood it. where as rebuild it happens in the middle of 3.0+1.0 so shinji has the rest of the movie to talk about how even though you can never truly know another person, its only as an individuals that we can get to know and compliment each other and that process is worth it. Everyone carries their own pain, its not just you. you are not alone. and the solution to pain and loneliness is reaching out to others about their pain and loneliness.

yeh... yeah idk what to make of the timeloops kaworu's been going through. there's so much massive unexplored potential. this and the time between the near third impact and the actual third impact we are teased and hinted at so much but shown like 5 lines. i remember like a decade ago (before i got into eva) when people were losing their shit over that one line in 3.0 where kaworu implies he's been on a journey through the multiverse to find a timeline and make shinji happy. and i mean anno more or less gave his creative blessing to derivative works with 3.0+1,0. but yeah interesting that it is shinji and the characters and evas as concepts that bind the timelines and multiverse together, it's not a shared history with diverging timeslines. I could say that evas are everyone's secret dead twin from the mirror universe that have crossed over and make asuka a talking dog and anno says that just as true an evangelion story a what was actually published. and the implication with the timeloops that by writing shinji’s name next to his in the book of life, kaworu made them and the other major character the constants in the multiverse, not the adams or the angels or any of the worldbuilding or the backstories of the characters. It's just them, the people holding the timelines together.

anyways i really liked rebuilt. I watched the 1995 anime a few years ago just because i was curious to see what all the hype was about and it was ok but i enjoyed thinking about it and reading wiki articles more than i actually enjoyed watching the series. but i actually really enjoyed watching the movies, it was fun, it was engaging, they're good movies. They’re Good Movies!

rebuild also adds environmentalist themes. in ... 2.0? when they visit the marine animal refuge laboratory the question of humanity's role is destroying, preserving, and rehabilitating natural systems comes up. stewardship of natural systems. In that marine species only survive in tanks now. this shows up is a couple more places but the biggest is when asuka, shinji, and rei visit village 3. theres also a discussion of purity and disease in relation to species of earth especially with seele's plans that impure life should be wiped out and replaced with pure lifeforms. the aquarium also acts as a character study for rei and asuka since they are both clones carefully monitored by nerv, their whole lives controlled just like the aquarium animals. rei literally can not live outside of her tank for long, and for asuka its about a place to belong and exist in or having no where else to go. also parallele to what happens to humanity later, in that they can only exist is non-corified areas that are maintained by a barrier.

asuka: the changes to her i find very interesting. they took away her parental issues of abandonment (mommy AND daddy issues wow) which drive her in the original anime to the point of breakdown and catatonia. Instead rebuild gave her existential angst cloning blues and hey wow she actually ended up with better mental health (most of the cast made it out better in rebuild actually now that i think about it). in the 1995 anime asuka is a direct opposite contrast to rei. moon/sun, color schemes, personalities, backstories. but here they gave rei and asuka the same backstory! and im still turning it over in my head (rotisserie style). also asuka shikinami was made for a purpose but made it her own in the end and found her reason to keep piloting. in the anime asuka is haunted by the abandonment by her parents. she tries and fails to weaponize her sexuality in an attempt to be wanted you see her try with kaji and again with shinji, she wants a boyfriend or at least the male attention without really understanding what it means to be in a relationship. and its implied this is partially out of her daddy issues. im not sure what to think about the asuka shinji relationship in rebuilt yet. hmmm i will need to think on this more.

[ruby-read]

mid-year book freak out tag! - 2021

best book so far

a court of mist and fury by sarah j maas - 5 / 5 stars

need i say more? it was just so good.

best sequel so far

bitterblue by kristin cashore - 5 / 5 stars

i don't think i have talked about the graceling realm series and how much i love it on here but here i am.

i loved every book in this series but bitterblue stood out to me because even though it was incredibly long, it kept me gripped throughout. there was an unsolvable mystery (maybe im dense though) that kept me guessing for hundreds of pages and just a glimmer of romance which i usually miss when its not there but this stood on its own without it.

i thought bitterblue was an extremely strong character and it was a great ending to a companion trilogy (before winterkeep was announced and continued it). also, loved seeing all of the characters come together at the end and seeing katsa and po pop in and out.

new release i haven't read yet but want to

the nature of witches by rachel griffin realm breaker by victoria aveyard

something about witches and elemental magic just sounds so awesome to me and i am just so drawn to this book.

and i am currently enjoying the red queen series and love a good found family so im hoping to love realm breaker. ive heard mixed things so im gonna lower my expectations a little but still excited.

most anticipated release for the second half of the year

these hollow vows by lexi ryan aurora's end by *** ******** graceling: the graphic novel by kristin cashore six crimson cranes by elizabeth lim the hawthorne legacy by jennifer lynn barnes

idk why i am so excited about these hollow vows but i am and i think it's just gonna be a (hopefully) exciting fantasy romance. im hoping for two sexy men and a bad BITCHHH of a main character.

ive heard only amazing things about six crimson cranes so i am very very excited! i've been waiting for this book i think since january and its almost finally here!

aurora's end (even though the authors are cancelled) i NEED to finish the series then they will officially never receive my money again. the cliffhanger at the end of aurora burning was so incredibly uncool and so now i have no choice but to see what happens in the finale.

the graceling graphic novel. do i need to explain myself?

and the hawthorne legacy is the next installment in the inheritance games series and i really enjoyed the first book! the mystery and the way patterns were worked into it really had me intrigued and i was itching to know what was happening for the entire book. so excited to see what happens in the next one!

biggest disappointment

the crown of gilded bones by jennifer l armentrout - currently on pause/possible dnf

this book was just so boring but also SO much happened in the first 50 pages that i was honestly incredibly confused? and there was just overwhelming info-dumping about the history of the world and an underdeveloped plot. idk i just couldn't get into it (which was really disappointing bc i loved akofaf). thinking of dnfing...

biggest surprise

crown of midnight by sarah j maas - 4.5 / 5 stars

ok so. i really did not enjoy throne of glass. after reading the acotar series and then jumping into throne of glass, i hated the love triangle, the intrigue wasnt enough to get me engaged until the last third, etc. sooo i was even considering not reading the rest of the series. but of course like the sjm stan that i am, i had to. and this one was so good. i wrote a review on it so if your interested in more in depth thoughts go take a peak!

favorite new author (debut or new to me)

kristin cashore!

the way that she writes political mystery in her world is so good. not a single time did i have a correct guess on what was happening. i also loved how her books had strong woman main characters, but they all had agency in a different way. and how the romance subplots were small but enough to keep the romantic in me satisfied, but also didnt take away from the main heroines story. ugh just so good! love u girly <3

new fictional crush

aaron warner (shatter me series by tahereh mafi)

ok i know hes kind of like super crazy and kind of creepy obsessed, but also like.... cmon. hes kinda super hot too. and i kind of love the i hate everyone but you trope....

art credit: @jessdraw.s

new favorite character

lara (bridge kingdom series by danielle l jensen)

her strength, her agency, her ability to unlearn everything she grew up believing, her power. an amazing and complex character.

art credit: @rosiesfables

books that made me cry

a court of wings and ruin by sarah j maas

if you've read this book u understand why. there was a happy ending for our two main characters at the end but the war that ensued at the end of this book was just fucking heart wrenching and so beautiful at parts i will never forget everything that happened.

books that made me happy

heartstopper vol. 1 by alice oseman

i feel like this series is great for young readers (12-17). it teaches about friendship, sexuality, mental health, asking for help, how to offer help, etc. and tons of really diverse representation throughout. i wish this existed when i was younger.

it made me happy to think about young people reading this series and feeling seen and validated. and about how openly alice oseman illustrates difficult topics and how to deal with them. just made my heart swell.

most beautiful book bought/gifted so far

the ones we're meant to find by joan he

i mean... its gorgeous!!

books i need to read by the end of the year

crescent city by sarah j maas

again as a stan i need to finish this before the end of the year bc i have only heard good things and the second book comes out jan 2022.

favorite book to movie adaptation so far

moxie, shadow and bone, brigerton lol (and very excited about along for the ride!!)

2021 reading stats so far...

45 books read

35,000 pages read

11 ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ reads

4.13 average rating

thanks so much for reading my mid-year update! happy reading! : )

[nebylitsa]

Do you have any unsual interpretation of Stoker's Dracula? How did you like the book in general?

thank you for the ask! <3 <3 <3

first off, i recently read it for the first time and i ADORED it. i pretty much instantly became obsessed with it. the mixing of formats (letters, diary entries, newspaper accounts) and points of view? the juxtaposition of “nineteenth-century with a vengeance” technology like phonographs and typewriters with medieval vampire legends? the homoerotic subtext? the rich interpretive possibilities re: gender, sex, religion, ethnicity, imperialism, the natural vs the supernatural, etc? pretty much every single character being engaging and well-written? amazing. fabulous. iconic. showstopping.

as for unusual interpretations, im not sure if this will be very coherent bc the idea itself is only half-formed in my own head so far BUT im very interested in exploring the connections between vampirism and asexuality. the usual image of the vampire in pop culture is that of a very sexual being - for instance, blood-drinking and bloodlust are frequently seen as the equivalent of sex and sexual desire. and yes, sure, vampires ARE sexy and there IS a lot of sexual imagery in the novel - jonathan’s encounter with dracula’s brides is framed as a scene of sexual temptation, the sweet and girlish lucy begins to act and speak provocatively as she slowly becomes a vampire, and the blood-drinking scene with mina and dracula is... surprisingly graphic for a victorian novel.

HOWEVER! consider this: corpses dont experience sexual desire or have sex. so i would imagine that being undead for centuries, feeding off nothing but blood, living in the cold darkness of the tomb, etc, would pretty much kill off one’s sex drive (and not just that, but all other human drives too, and replace it with bloodlust). contrary to the idea of vampirism as an exaggerated metaphor for giving in to bodily desires like lust and gluttony, i think it would be interesting if instead it represented being dead to those desires. vampires dont eat food - they dont need to, and they also physically cant (when she’s under dracula’s curse near the end of the book, mina mentions finding the thought of eating food repulsive). so i dont think it would be a stretch to imagine that vampires dont experience sexual desire and perhaps are even repulsed by sex, too.

another thing to consider related to this is the connection between vampirism and monasticism. christian monks and nuns are celibate, live isolated from the rest of society, and drink the “blood” of jesus; vampires also drink blood, and are also isolated - not so much in modern vampire media, but definitely in stoker’s novel. so maybe vampires dont have sex, either!

idk if this makes any sense at all lmao. mostly its just me projecting my own asexuality and feelings of otherness onto fictional monsters. i realize this interpretation/headcanon of mine might have problematic implications - like the idea that asexuality is abnormal or monstrous, or that it means youre “not truly living/alive” or something - but that isnt what i mean by it at all. i just think itd be interesting to think about.

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TASK001 : MUN QUESTIONNAIRE 

name  /  alias : caro / care / carebear gender  /  pronouns : female / she&her where  ya  from  ? : u s of a .  orig n y c. the  current  time :  9 pm ( when i started? ) , 1 pm ( when i finished ) job  or  major :  i majored in mechanical engineering and math. no, i canno favorite  thing  (  s  )  about  yourself :  i have some good one-liners.

why  you  joined  hqclouds :  ... i helped make it. also its felt like a long while since i got to play some of my favorite babes, and i just missed them, so i obviously had to jump at an opportunity to bring them back !!!

meaning  behind  url :  it’s uh...... next right thing ,  as in anna’s big song in frozen 2. and i just felt it like, FIT. 

last  thing  you  googled :  zac efron high school musical gif icons, bc i wanted to use for this, but then that account was flagged as adult content and i guess those beloved gifs are lost to the void now...

zodiac :  pisces in  your  opinion  ,  does  your  sign  suit  you  ? : yes. i am a crying fish. also i’m a pisces venus. it makes a LOT of sense. myers  -  briggs :  istj ??? i think?? moral  alignment :  i can be chaotic good, but mostly neutral neutral i think hogwarts  house : i used to be a slytherin, now i’m a hufflepuff. idk what happened to me.

three  fictional  character  (  s  )  you  see  yourself  in  +  why :  uhhhh... 1) bubbles from powerpuff girls. because i am baby. 2) juliet o’hara from psych. i’ve just been rewatching a lot of psych and i love how she’s such a serious yet funny / soft and idk why i just relate to that. 3) john mulaney in mulaney. because this is a cop-out to say i relate to anything / everything john edmund mulaney every does.

i  started  roleplaying : i first started on some fourms ??? on an app on my itouch ??? but my first tumblr rp group was percy jackson and everyone though i was this all knowing pjo fan... when really i was just fast to look shit up on the wikia. i had never read a single page of the series. types  of  rps  i  enjoy :  fandoms, typically ! i used to be exclusively love animated roleplays? like cartoons? but then i transitioned to musicals? like, exclusively playing musical characters??? at this point, tara is like the one exception nowadays... favorite  fcs  to  use :  um... olivia holt is a recent fave? joshua basset, also. my old faves are mary kate wiles and hunter parrish tho. real old. otherwise, i don’t know if i’d say i get attached to fc’s? fandom  (  s  )  you’d  like  to  write  in : i kinda wanna go back to some of my cartoon roots, maybe? i really haven’t deviated from the same 8 - 9 mostly musical characters in literally years...  fandom  (  s  )  you  aren’t  in  but  are  curious  about :  um... the raven cycle ,  miraculous ladybug  , uh..... everything else. i’m so randomly interested in everything.

share  a  funny  roleplay  horror  story :  my favorite is when i was in a youtuber rpf / oc rp, and this girl... made an oc... and made the fc... herself. she made a literal self-insert oc. with herself as the face. like low-res gifs of herself. why, you ask? i think she was trying to ship herself with dan howell. that didn’t age well, did it?

favorite  canon  muse  (  s  )  to  play : do i just list all the characters i’ve been playing for literal years? my recent faves are katherine plumber from newsies and princess anna. favorite  original  muse  (  s  )  to  play : i had a hunter parrish oc. he was in both the pjo and youtube rp. he was obsessed with hanging out with trees and pranks. don’t ask me why. canon  ships  you  can’t  help  but  love :  kristoff / anna , jack kelly / katherine plumber , jake peralta / amy santiago , orpheus / eurydice , && donny novitski / julia trojan. yes, most of these are musicals. who doesn’t love a good love ballad? trope  (  s  )  you  tend  to  be  guilty  of : uhh... adorkable, one of the boys, badass adorable

i  prefer  .  .  . angst  ,  smut  ,  or  fluff :  i am a massive sucker for fluff, but i’m so guilty of angst... i love pain. i don’t really do smut tho. sorry. long  or  short  replies :  i generally prefer short replies, unless we’ve somehow developed a thread into something long. or i’m feeling particularly inspired. pre  plotting  or  chemistry : i love chemistry with all my heart, but sometimes it’s fun to plot past connections that can reignite? idk. mostly chemistry sentence  starters  or  headcanon  memes : headcanon memes, because im never creative to turn a sentence starter into something that makes sense, esp between two characters who don’t know each other. single  muse  or  multimuse  blogs :  multimuse, because i spent too many years reblogging replies to the wrong sideblog and those days are over !!! gif  icons  ,  medium  gifs  ,  or  static  icons : i prefer gif icons for shorter replies and medium gifs for longer ones... or whatever my partner is using. i like some sort of consistency.

grab  the  book  nearest  to  you  and  pull  a  quote  from  it : ‘ what’s the rush? ’ repeat this phase when you’re feeling overwhelmed or stressed out. ask yourself whether somethings really needs doing immediately. are you ignoring your needs in order to do it?  - the little book of sloth philosophy. 

what’s  a  quote  or  song  lyric  that  speaks  to  your  soul  ? : “ did you fall? or did you let go? ”  -  connor murphy to evan hansen, dear evan hansen. ( idk why this immediately jump to mind but... )

top  current  celebrity  crushes :  jeremy jordan, corey cott, jordan fisher, claire saffitz, brian david gilbert. last  movie  you  watched :  bridal boot camp did  you  like  it  ? :  yes. i loved it. it’s absolute garbage and i loved it. favorite  movie  (  s  )    of  all  time : idk but i can always rewatch prince of egypt. godspell favorite  tv  show  (  s  )  of  all  time : uhh.... i keep rewatching psych.   favorite  tv  show  (  s  ) that  hasn’t  ended : brooklyn nine-nine, zoey’s extraordinary playlist. sports  team  (  s  )  you  rep : uh... grew up in a yankee / mets household. favorite  video  game  (  s  ) : pokemon, animal crossing  favorite  youtube  channels : drew gooden, danny gonzalez, jenna marbles.

put  your  music  on  shuffle.  what  six  songs  pop  up  ? :

greased lightin’ from grease live ; oh mother by hunter parrish ; nerds by bo burnham ; a miracle would happen / when you come home to me from the last five years ; just another day from next to normal ; who tells your story from hamilton mixtape. 

i haven’t listened to any of these in forever, but i am still, indeed, musical theater trash.

personal  aesthetic : demin overalls, scrunchies, the color teal, big stuffed animals. dream  vacation  ? : somewhere beautiful with people i love. dream  job  ? : perhaps like designing custom 3D prosthetics dream  car  ? :  i hate driving, but a big ol’ truck. like suv. big one. favorite  musical : gospell, dear evan hansen, bandstand, newsies, shrek the musical, mamma mia, i could go on... unwatched  stuff  in  your  netflix  /  hulu  /  etc :  sailor moon crystal, crash landing on you, locke & key, all the bright places, the half of it, younger, meteor, hello my twenties ...

what’s  a  subject  you  know  too  much  about  +  never  get  tired  of  talking  about  ? : musicals. so many musicals. i know both know too much and not enough.

[bagwormmulti]

GET TO KNOW THE BLOGGER.

can be used for rp   &   non-rp blogs to get to know a bit about the person behind the screen   !

1. FIRST NAME:            Milo!

2. STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:             I was a puppeteer for like 6 years when I was younger as part of the weirdest church program ever

3. TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON:              I like soft eyes, hair that gently frames a face, and a good booty

4. A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF:                Just one? If a broad category counts I’ll go with sushi, but that feels like cheating with so many types so if not then green bean casserole

5. A FOOD YOU HATE:                I’m not entirely sure there are foods I hate to be honest

6. GUILTY PLEASURE:              Oof. Ships. I love ships. I love good ships and terrible ships and crack ships. I love healthy ships and unhealthy ships (but like, don’t glorify them. Recognize they are unhealthy and should not be idealized for RL) I just love love, and I love the butterflies and coyness and excited uncertain that leads up to the very first time a ship admits their feelings most of all. I think that’s why I don’t pre-establish romance. The building and budding of romance is my favorite part.

7. WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN:            Either what I wore the day before, or just undies.

8. SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS:               I’ve never had a relationship last less than six months, so I guess I don’t do flings

9. IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE:               My last relationship was very abusive. I wish I hadn’t dated that person.

10. ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON:              Very much so once I breach my awkwardness and like understand that Im allowed to be. I'm very touchy and gushy and overly excited at all times!

11. A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN:              Heathers! Or behind the mask the rise of leslie vernon

12. FAVORITE BOOK:             Oof, hard. Alice in Wonderland is an obsession of mine, but I think its more bc of the characters and idea of Wonderland and how it’s been expanded since the beginning rather than the original book. Song of Achilles, maybe? Lord of the flies? 

13. YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE:                A Raccoon!

14. TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL]:             In no particular order bc no way I can pick top 5 Oswald Baskerville x Jack Vessalius, Rin Okumura x Shima Renzou, Touko x N, Henry x Ricken, Yaoyarozu x Jirou, Mayuri x Kisuke, I could go on forever I have so many ships orz 

15. PIE OR CAKE:            Cake, though I actually am not big on either? I like frosting and pie filling, but cake itself and pie crust doesn’t do much for me. I usually find it too dry. 

16. FAVORITE SCENT:                 Rainfall omg and cherry blossoms

17. CELEBRITY CRUSH:               alex hirsch for the longest time but none rn

18. IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO:              I want to see the ice cave in the Aokigahara

19. INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT:               Introvery

20. DO YOU SCARE EASILY:              I startle easily, but I don’t think I scare easily

21. IPHONE OR ANDROID:                Android 

22. DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES:               Yeah! I like LOZ and Harvest Moon, Pokemon obv, Dark Souls, All kinds of stuff!

23. DREAM JOB:                  Id love to be paid to write but I don’t think I could sustain myself that way

24. WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS:                Make sure all my loved ones had a permanent place to live and a car they owned first, then probably get a lot of high end crafting tools and materials, take some classes

25. FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE:             Motojiro Kajii. I don’t even know why? But I just hate the weird lemon man. 

26. FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER:                 I don’t think I’ve ever truly quit a fandom? Mostly I lurk.

TAGGED BY:  @hirako5hinji TAGGING:  @duoplicitous @archiiviis @gallowking @killtool @abyssloved (Totally ignore this if you don’t wanna do it!) 

[bo0zey]

Pick your favorite questions from the list.

i will do them all for u 0.o

1. Name cianna [see-ah-nah]

2. Nationality mexican irish german romanian hungarian french

3. Age 20

4. Birthday december 17, 1999

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign) sun: sagittarius; ascendant: leo; moon: aries

6. Gender female

7. Sexuality uhhhhhhhhhhhh idk but i will willingly kiss either gender

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself) /tagged/my-face or u could just google pictures of fat rats

9. What do you/did you study? I’m currently a sophomore nursing major!

10. What's your current job like?/What job would you like to have? I’m currently a microbiology TA and I love it :) My dream job would be something with animals, like a vet tech or veterinarian

11. Your birth order i’m the oldest!

12. How many siblings do you have? 2 younger brothers

13. Do you have good relations with your family? my mom was my best friend, my dad and i get along better now that i’m in college, my brothers and i get along pretty well & we’re staring to get closer now that they’re getting older n growing up n developing their own personalities lol

14. How many friends do you have? errrr idk this is a hard question. i have a lot of acquaintances but i’d say i have maybe like less than 10 real friends??

15. Your relationship status single :D

16. What do you look for in a SO? funny!!!!!!!!!must be humorous!!!!and sarcastic and a little weird w darker sense of humor so we can laugh n be dumb together!!!!!!! also i would like them to be kind to me and those around them bc mean ppl suck. also they have to like animals. also i would like them to be loyal and trustworthy and 110% in love w me. and for physical stuff idk kinda attractive but NOT CONVENTIONALLY ATTRACTIVE like i personally don't really like the typically ‘attractive’ person??? 

17. Do you have a crush? currently in love w the cute chinese boy who lives across from my dorm room even tho i have never even spoken to him n he is totally unaware of my existence!!!!!!!! hahah oops :D

18. When did you have your first kiss? i mean technically 3rd grade i think but that doesn't really count so like maybe 16????

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands? i mean in the long term i would definitely like to have a serious relationship but at the moment i’m only into casual stuff bc my heart isn't ready to be broken again sknfkjdbnkjd

20. What are your deal breakers? errrr i’m not sure....cheating is a no no, ppl that are interested in fucking every single person they see is a turn off, DUMB PEOPLE like ppl you can't even have a proper conversation with bc they're so DUMB, and ppl who r mean/judgmental/arrogant

21. How was your day? ok! accidentally slept thru my math class but caught a glimpse of my crush across campus when he was abt to smoke a cig and i got chipotle n i online shopped a ton from shein

22. Favourite food & drink deep dish spinach pizza from giordano’s & orange vitamin water

23. What position do you sleep in? i fall asleep on my left side hugging a body pillow

24. What was your last dream about? ate a braid of hair and inside the braid was bacon

25. Your fears not going to make it thru nursing school, not being financially stable as an adult, not having a family of my own, probably more but those r currently top 3

26. Your dreams i don't have any idk....maybe having like a house of my own and having as many animals as i want?? and i would like a loving partner with a daughter of our own

27. Your goals survive nursing school and lose 40 pounds and don't die before my cat

28. Any pets? i have a dog named cherry Cola, a cat named Leto, and a betta fish named Perc

29. What are your hobbies? writing stories about people in love, listening to music

30. Any cool places in your area? in my college town??? NO it sucks. in my hometown??? Not really it’s a small lil village with only restaurants and parks. but at home i’m near downtown chicago so that’s cool i guess

31. What was your last awkward situation? the first thing that comes to mind is my FIRST and so far ONLY encounter with my crush. we live in the same dorm building and i was wearing my nursing scrubs and had no make up on and about to go upstairs to my dorm, and then i heard footsteps and i was like ‘hahaha what if its my crush’ AND THEN HE FUCKIGJNG appeared from down the hallway to go back to HIS DORM [which is RIGHT ACROSS FROM MINE] and i literally STARED at him, then threw open the door and RAN UP THE STAIRS LIKE I LITERALLY DIDNT EVEN HOLD THE DOOR OPEN FOR ME AND HE WAS LIKE SO CLOSE BEHIND ME I WAS JUST SO NERVOUS MY FLIGHT OR FIGHT RESPONSE TOOK OVER AND I FUCKING FLED I LITERALLY RAN AWAY FROM HIM I AHTE MYSELF SO MUCH IM SUCH AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!

32. What is your last regret? errrrr idk i regret a lot of dumb things.......

33. Language/s you can speak English n a LITTLE bit of Spanish

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.) i’m really into zodiac stuff and i have got to say they are pretty spot on in accuracy idk

35. Have any quirks? ummmm ofc!!i am the quirkiest person i know hajnjfxbkjx like if u asked my roommates/friends they’d probably be better at answering this than me bc i don't see anything abt me as quirky but they always tell me i am quirky and do weird things but idk man I'm just existing 

36. Your pet peeves err idk currently its ppl that constantly brag about dumb shit

37. Ideal vacation somewhere warm with me + the ocean + the loml + unlimited alcohol

38. Any scars? yeah :D both emotional AND physical!!!!

39. What does your last text message say? ‘ok thats a more than fair statement’

40. Last 5 things from your search history how many carbs should i eat, chipotle bowl calories, is the grim reaper the angel of death, ceftriaxone adverse effects, red man syndrome

41. What's your [device] background? lockscreen is a peach-theme background i made and home screen is my weight loss goals

42. What do you daydream about? the characters in my stories.................and being skinny 

43. Describe your dream home pretty brick house??? flowers outside??? 3 floors--main floor, basement and upstairs??? 3 bedrooms n 3 bathrooms maybe??? master bedroom has its own bathroom!!! and open concept main floor. big kitchen and very homey n warm all around. as for like an apartment i want something cozy and aesthetically pleasing and warm 

44. What's your religion/Your thought about religion i don't have a religion but if ppl do have a religion then thats not my business

45. Your personality type entj but only bc i got 3% extraverted; i am very closely related to intj tho n i think i fit that one better

46. The most dangerous thing you've done uhhhhhh probably operating a vehicle while high out of my mind. definitely the dumbest thing i ever did 0/10 would recommend anyone ever doing that

47. Are you happy with your current life? its ok but it could probably be better. i want to be done w college and skip to the part where i have a successful career and my own home and i can lay up w the loml every night

48. Some things you've tried in your life alcohol???weed??gummy edibles....

49. What does your wardrobe consist of? sweaters/sweatshirts/leggings

50. Favourite colour to wear? black, maroon, peach, purple, gray, idk

51. How would you describe your style? oh jeez idk i wear whatever i want so like e-girl when i really try and basic white girl when i don't care

52. Are you happy with your current looks? no i hate everything about myself lol

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be? more freckles on my face....also be thinner n have longer hair

54. Any tattoos or piercings? my nose and septum are pierced!

55. Do you get complimented often? kinda by my friends but i always yell at them to stop so they don't compliment like as much bc they know i hate it but they still do it sometimes idk

56. Favourite aesthetic? i wanna be an e-girl yo!!!!!!!!! 

57. A popular trend that you dislike nobody has a crush on me and i hate it

58. Songs you're currently obsessed with? pied piper by BTS

59. Song you normally wouldn't admit you like. anything by BTS lol i used to like be embarrassed for how much i like k pop but now i don't really care lol #stanBTS2020

60. Favourite genre? rap/r n b/alternative

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? i listen to every genre except country sooooooo yeah i really like billie eilish, BTS, the weeknd, juicewrld, lil nas x, trippie red, post malone,

62. Hated popular songs/artists? i don't rlly like selena gomez or justin bieber or taylor swift

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5 only - RY X i.f.l.y. - Bazzi novacane - frank ocean jungle - drake bang! - trippie redd

64. Can you sing or play any instruments? no and no

65. Do you like karaoke? no but i like to sing along to songs when I'm alone

66. Own any albums? haha noooo i got apple music son

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations? errr RARELY i used to listen to r n b stations tho

68. Favourite movie/series? idk donnie darko?? i also just finished tharntype n that was really good. also i liked tokyo ghoul. AND GIVEN IS REALLY GOOD

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc i like horror/scary/paranormal/funny movies and i like love stories in books

70. Your fictional crush/es danny phantom, ken kaneki

71. Which fictional character is you? uhhhh idk...

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so frerard, ryden, taekook, mewgulf

73. Favourite greek god? idk they all kinda suck but maybe hades

74. A legend from where you live that you like i don't really know any:(

75. Do you like art? What's your favourite work or artist? i like to look at art! i think van gogh is cool

76. Can you share your other social media? ig: ciannnna venmo: ciannnna

77. Favourite youtubers? i don't really watch youtubers but maybe shane dawson and emma chamberlain

78. Favourite platform? twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet? too much time

80. What video games have you played? Which one's your favourite? i once played GTA5 that was fun!

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts) idk i don't really read anymore:/ i was into the hunger games and the twilight series when i was young. now i kinda read online manga and i really liked BJ Alex and killing stalking. and like for online books the unholyverse series, a splitting of the mind, the anatomy of a fall

82. Do you play board/card games? no but i like to play checkers and uno and cards against humanity

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema? nopee

84. Favourite holiday halloween is cool also christmas is alright bc gifts

85. Are you into dramas? i’ve been getting into thai boys love dramas lol sue me

86. Would you use death note, if you had one? um YES.

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to? everyone needs to be a little kinder and have a crush on me

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse? absolutely not I'm not physically fit and don't have useful skills

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be? vampire duh [or maybe ghost]

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death? i want to see my mom

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick? idk something cool ... i love the name Daisy

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week? idk probably kylie jenner

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo idk the alien? 94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true -im very productive with my time management skills -my favorite color is purple -i don't get nervous when I'm alone in public

95. Cold or hot? cold

96. Be a hero or be a villain? anti-hero

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme? sing if i’m good at it but if I'm not good then rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time? shapeshifting

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?immortal

100. ..... or .....? ......?

[thewritingstar]

I would ask you 1-100 but that's a huge request and doubt you'll do it, UNLESS🤔🙃

UNLESS....

1. Name- Deanna or as everyone knows me, Star

2. Nationality- American

3. Age- 19

4. Birthday- April 5th

5. Zodiac sign (or your primal zodiac sign)- Aries

6. Gender- Female 

7. Sexuality- Bi/Pan (im fine with either)

8. Your looks (add a picture or describe yourself)- Dark brown hair, greenish eyes and body of a 12 year old boy

9. What do you/did you study?- Animation

10. What’s your current job like?/What job would you like to have?- I work in an ice cream shop just as a job but i wanna be an animator or writer for shows

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11. Your birth order- Youngest of 2

12. How many siblings do you have?- One

13. Do you have good relations with your family?- for the most part

14. How many friends do you have?- I would say I have about 8 close friends and then just a ton of other friends

15. Your relationship status- single but accepting applications 

16. What do you look for in a SO?- usually a pulse and good hair 

17. Do you have a crush?- kinda but also no

18. When did you have your first kiss?- haven't yet :(

19. Do you prefer serious and meaningful relationships or casual dating/one night stands?- prob meaningful

20. What are your deal breakers?- smoking and drugs and how they treat others

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21. How was your day?- well i just woke up so i guess good. 

22. Favourite food & drink- Raspberry iced tea/Vanilla Lattes and Chowmein or burgers

23. What position do you sleep in?- either on my side or stomach. Im usually curled up in a ball so prime cuddle position...just saying 

24. What was your last dream about?- I think it was about cake..

25. Your fears- bugs and the overwhelming thought of me being a failure

26. Your dreams- being someone where others can be inspired by 

27. Your goals- to live a life with no regrets (i know typical right?) but also have a successful career. 

28. Any pets?- 2 doggos 

29. What are your hobbies?- drawing, painting, writing, video games, reading 

30. Any cool places in your area?- kinda but you gotta drive to them so not really 

31. What was your last awkward situation?- me stuttering over my words at work

32. What is your last regret?- idk 

33. Language/s you can speak- English and barely any French 

34. Do you believe in astrological stuff? (Zodiac, tarot, etc.)- hell yeah

35. Have any quirks?- i can make a guinea pig noise and can stand on my head for a while. 

36. Your pet peeves- having my neck being touched and mouth breathing

37. Ideal vacation- Any disney park

38. Any scars?- only mentally 

39. What does your last text message say? “Shes being a big girl and taking 5 classes.” 

40. Last 5 things from your search history- im to lazy to check but prob youtube or fics

41. What’s your [device] background?- Phone background is a painting from a museum and my computer is a bunch of Nintendo items

42. What do you daydream about?- being a voice actor or a pirate 

43. Describe your dream home- one that looks like a castle

44. What’s your religion/Your thought about religion- I was raised Catholic but i really dont practice it anymore. I think it its a beautiful thing and alot of good comes from it, however i dont like it when it is used to harm others or defend evil people

45. Your personality type- So i took a test based on the 16 different ones and I am an Advocate type which apparetnly is very rare and less than one percent of the pop are it. https://www.16personalities.com/ heres the link if you wanna take it!

46. The most dangerous thing you’ve done- I used to suck on batteries as a child

47. Are you happy with your current life?- for the most part 

48. Some things you’ve tried in your life- Snorkeling in Hawaii (which i almost died), Crystal Cave tour and donuts which i hate

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49. What does your wardrobe consist of?- hoodies and graphic tees 

50. Favourite colour to wear?- black

51. How would you describe your style?- comfortable and sometimes i look good 

52. Are you happy with your current looks?- ye

53. If you could change/add something to your appearance - impossible or not - what would it be?- I want blue hair one day 

54. Any tattoos or piercings?- have my ears and now my nose pierced but i do want tattoos in the future

55. Do you get complimented often?- usually for my hair and i find it happens often 

56. Favourite aesthetic?- Gothic and pastel 

57. A popular trend that you dislike- crop tops 

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58. Songs you’re currently obsessed with?- “Good Night Moon” by Go Radio

59. Song you normally wouldn’t admit you like.- My Little Pony and Sofia the First songs slap

60. Favourite genre?- pop punk or pop 

61. Favourite artist/band/genre? -Panic!, Taylor Swift

62. Hated popular songs/artists?- I wouldn’t say hate but im not really a fan of Billie Ellish, maybe i need to sit down and really listen but its just not my jam. I think shes a cool person and i love watching her on tv and what she stands for. By i hate Drake and Chris Brown for sure. 

63. Put your music on shuffle and list first 5- Head above Water, Happy when im sad, Love bug, Casual affair, I believe. So Avril Lavigne, Jonas Brothers and Panic!

64. Can you sing or play any instruments?- Im not the worst singer but im also not fantastic and i can’t play

65. Do you like karaoke?- sometimes

66. Own any albums?- like cds then yes

67. Do you listen to radio? What stations?- not anymore

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68. Favourite movie/series?- Any disney or pixar 

69. Favourite genre of movies/books/etc- YA like adventure books 

70. Your fictional crush/es- oh here we go. Juvia and Gray (Fairytail), Catwoman, Danny Phantom, Captain Hook and Regina Mills and Henry (Ouat), Steve (stranger things), Riddler (gotham) and Molly Hooper (Sherlock) and prob more. 

71. Which fictional character is you?- prob a mixture of Momo and Deku from My Hero and Honey from Ouran 

72. Are you a shipper? List your otps, if so. Am I a shipper? ha. aight Gruvia, Nalu, Gajevy, Jerza, Kiribaku, Kacchacko, Todomomo, tododeku, LadyNoir and the love square, Captain Swan, Outlaw Queen, The powerpuff girls and the rowdyruff boys (respected partners) and like five thousand others

73. Favourite greek god?- Hades and Persephone 

74. A legend from where you live that you like- literally nothing from where i live

75. Do you like art? What’s your favourite work or artist?- love art and i cant just pick one

76. Can you share your other social media?- i mean you can follow me on twitter at StarsnShortcake but all thats there is my shitty tweets and interactions with my friends and Voice actors lol

77. Favourite youtubers?- Mikes Mic, Macdoesit, Twamiz, Larri, Dan Howell, Amazing Phil, Jenna Marbles, Shane Dawson, Steph Inc, Garret Watts, and like a ton more

78. Favourite platform?- Tumblr or twitter

79. How much time do you spend on the internet?- too much

80. What video games have you played? Which one’s your favourite?- I love anything Nintendo

81. Your favourite books (manga also counts)- Kingdom Keepers, Suicide Notes and the Selection Series to name a few

82. Do you play board/card games?- Yes

83. Have you ever been to a night marathon in cinema?- nope

84. Favourite holiday- thanksgiving for the food

85. Are you into dramas?- ye

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86. Would you use death note, if you had one?- haha ye

87. What changes would you make in the world, no matter how impossible, if you had the power to?- no racism, sexism, homophobia and legal marriage everywhere. Also that no one goes hungry and everyone has a nice place to live.

88. Could you survive a zombie apocalypse?- probably 

89. If you had to be turned into a paranormal being, what would it be?- a hot demon

90. What would you want to happen to you after your death?- I turn into a goddess

91. If you had to change your name, what would be your pick?- ooo Celeste is a cool name 

92. Who would you switch your life with for a week?- hmmm Tara Strong 

93. Pick an emoji to be your tattoo- either the stars or the black heart or the fireworks

94. Write 3 things about yourself - only one of them must be true- Ive never eaten a chicken nugget, I can do the splits and I have cat

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95. Cold or hot?- hot

96. Be a hero or be a villain?- oooooo um im a sucker for villains

97. Sing everything you want to say or rhyme?- Rhyme

98. Shapeshifting or controlling time?- Shape shifting, i could be a plant

99. Be immortal or be immune to everything aside from natural death?- bold of you to assume i would wanna live forever

100. ….. or …..?- :0

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HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS ANON CAUSE IT TOOK FOREVER. 

[teddylawrence]

task 001 baybee!

PREFERRED NAME — bri

PRONOUNS — she/they either work fr me tbh

AGE — 22

TIMEZONE — est

HOW OFTEN ARE YOU ONLINE? — literally too much.......... like if i’m not online on my laptop i’m lurking on mobile it’s a Problem

HOW DID YOU HEAR OF WATERSHED? — i’m friends w the asshole who Created It /:

DISCORD — chocalety milk#0458

OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA YOU’D LIKE TO SHARE — uh my personal is here n my pinterest is here im always down to give out twitter n insta too if anyone wants it :B

MYER-BRIGGS — istp

HP HOUSE — slytherin

ZODIAC — gemini

DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY? — like a lot yes an embarrassing amount i am, in fact, that white girl that asks what ur sign is like 3 minutes into meeting them im not PROUD of it its jst me this is real this is me

DO YOU ENJOY ASTROLOGY? — i have the gemini symbol tattooed on me.

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU STARTED RPING ON TUMBLR — i think like 13?? or 12 i cant remember tbh

WHAT YEAR WAS IT? — 2011 or something i dnt wanna do math thts jst a random guess

NAME A RANDOM ROLEPLAY THAT STICKS OUT IN YOUR MEMORY — the magic returns, it was a next gen harry potter rp tht i was in fr im not kidding my entire high school career

WHAT WEIRD ANIMAL WOULD YOU HAVE AS A PET IF IT WAS REALISTIC — idk a kangaroo i think........ i kno they can actually b super aggressive and r jacked as fuck bt its rly cute when baby joey’s r in their mama’s pouches

WHAT PET DO YOU GENUINELY CONSIDER GETTING SOMEDAY? — i want another cat so bad and i’d like to have a dog again someday tbh

NAME THE FIRST SONG ON YOUR DISCOVER WEEKLY ON SPOTIFY OR THE FIRST SONG THAT COMES ON APPLE MUSIC / ITUNES SHUFFLE — the first song on my discover weekly is 2all by catfish and the bottlemen n i put my spotify on shuffle too n the first song that came up was imaginary parties by superfruit

NAME A BOOK THAT YOU READ IN SCHOOL THAT YOU SURPRISINGLY LIKED — i think besides to kill a mockingbird, brave new world by aldous huxley was my fave??

NAME A BOOK YOU HATED THAT MOST PEOPLE LIKED — i genuinely can’t even think of a book i hated......... maybe the great gatsby, its my english teacher’s fave n she was hyping it up sm but it jst kinda bored me??

WHAT TV SHOW DID YOU RECENTLY BINGE? WOULD YOU RECOMMEND IT? — i’m binging stranger things with my mom rn and shameless on my own, both r Dumb Good i’m quite obsessed.................

WHAT FILM DID YOU LAST WATCH? DID YOU LIKE IT? — i finished texas chainsaw massacre like the original with my bf and i thought it was rly boring NSDGLJSKDLGH film nerds everywhere b spitting on me rn /:

FAVOURITE QUOTE — i genuinely don’t think i even have one............ there’s been a few that’ve always Touched Me bt i can’t even think of one rn

LINK TO A VINE / TIK TOK / VIDEO THAT EXUDES YOUR ‘ENERGY’ — this bad boy right here

DO YOU WRITE OUTSIDE OF RP? WHAT DO YOU WRITE? — i’m attempting nanowrimo but it’s frankly not going well and other than that?? i haven’t in forever but should start again tbh

THREE YOUTUBERS YOU STILL LOVE & TRUST — noel miller, cody ko, chris klemens

A CELEBRITY CRUSH THAT JUST WON’T QUIT — harry styles until the day i die baybee!

EVER MEET A CELEBRITY? SHARE YOUR STORY — i met kurtis conner at the last 1975 concert i went to it was quite awkward i cld jst tell he did not want 2 take another picture LHSDGLKHSDG

WHAT’S YOUR PICTURE-PERFECT NIGHT? — tbh in the summer all my friends and i do is sit in my backyard drinking beers and playing card games so that

A CONSPIRACY THEORY YOU KINDA BELIEVE IN — the mandela effeect

ARE ALIENS REAL? — yes ofc u cannot look me in the eye and tell me we’re the only living species in the universe

PLAY ANY PHONE GAMES? WHICH ONES? — /: i have 4 diff versions of candy crush on my phone...............

PLAY ANY OTHER GAMES? WHICH ONES? — i was never allowed to play like any computer/video games growing up so i jst never did it was a sad childhood

WHAT’S A FILM YOU LOVED WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG AND RECENTLY WATCHED, ONLY TO FIND OUT YOU DON’T ANYMORE — i can’t think of one....... maybe surfs up i was obsessed with that when i was little bt i bet if i watched it now i wld hate it LSHDGKLHSDLKG

DO YOU COLLECT ANYTHING? — ticket stubs from the movies i go to, weird like vintage/homemade jewelry tht i never wear, old coins, etc.

WHAT’S SOMETHING YOU WANT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT BUT YOU��RE TOO LAZY? — politics tbh

THREE LANGUAGES YOU DON’T SPEAK, BUT WISH YOU COULD — spanish, latin, mandarin

MOVIE YOU’VE WATCHED MORE THAN 5 TIMES — tangled........ i went thru a phase fr 2 months where i watched it every day i was so obsessed...........

NAME A FICTIONAL CHARACTER FROM TV/FILM/MOVIE/GAME/BOOK THAT YOU FIND YOURSELF PROJECTING ON / YOU RELATE TO — rue from euphoria probs the most tbh

IS THERE ANY MEDIA (BOOK/MOVIE/GAME/TV SHOW) YOU FEEL CHANGED YOU IN SOME WAY? — maybe the harry potter series...... the biggest rp besides this one i was in was based off it n what not so

DO YOU FOLLOW ANY SPORTS? WHO DO YOU ROOT FOR? — like now tht i have a bf who likes sports kind of?? my whole family loves watched the blue jays baseball and maple leafs hockey games so i Sit There bt i dnt rly . care tht much JSDGKLHLDSG

HOBBIES BESIDES WASTING AWAY HERE? — /: reading?? fkin...... Drinking, i do some music stuff tht i need to . focus on again

PLUG A TV SHOW / MOVIE / BOOK / VIDEO GAME / ETC… YOU WISH MORE PEOPLE WOULD CHECK OUT — uh?? watch chris klemens on youtube if u dont

TEAM EDWARD OR JACOB? (IF NOT APPLICABLE, WHO DO YOU LIKE MOST IN THE TWILIGHT SERIES) — i was jacob when i was younger now? alice and jasper........ the Real otp of twilight

LAST MOVIE SEEN IN THEATRE — the lighthouse

DO YOU STILL READ FOR FUN? — not as much as i wish i did /:

IF SO, WHAT ARE YOU CURRENTLY READING? — the furies fr the watershed book club

ON A SCALE OF 1-10, HOW MUCH DID YOU HATE FILLING THIS OUT? – i didnt hate it rly i like talking abt myself quite a bit its jst the truth

[parklevi]

okay... here it is.... did a task for once i feel like it might rain all week just because the universe is in such a shock....

PREFERRED NAME — ani. my name’s ana but that’s for business transactions only.

PRONOUNS — she/her

AGE — twenty........ seven. god.

PINTEREST — here 

DISCORD — ani #0509 which is funny bc my birthday is august 5 so its almost my birthday

TUMBLR (PERSONAL/MUSE/RPH) — here i like being a mess and having everything in one place so it’s my personal but also has like. muse and ship tags. 

OTHER SOCIAL MEDIA YOU’D LIKE TO SHARE — i have twitter and if u wanna look at pictures of my cats im always happy to share my instagram tbh but maybe not. here.

MYER-BRIGGS — enfj

HP HOUSE — hufflepuff

ZODIAC — leo

DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY? — no but i guess it’s fun

HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU STARTED RPING ON TUMBLR — on tumblr i’d say.... eighteen? but i started rping on other sites at like twelve.

WHAT YEAR WAS IT? — when i was eighteen? 2010

NAME A RANDOM ROLEPLAY THAT STICKS OUT IN YOUR MEMORY — i was in a tvd rp for the longest time where there was one big clique that bubble rped and i was not in with the cool crowd but my sister was in it too and we had the best plots with each other. that was the longest i ever was in the same place until one lonely night of december 2017 i thought about joining a college rp and stumbled upon lockwood.

WHAT WEIRD ANIMAL WOULD YOU HAVE AS A PET IF IT WAS REALISTIC — what is considered a weird animal exactly... i always liked owls but only if she could be free and just like come hang out with me every once in a while

NAME THE FIRST SONG ON YOUR DISCOVER WEEKLY ON SPOTIFY OR THE FIRST SONG THAT COMES ON APPLE MUSIC / ITUNES SHUFFLE — i don’t miss you by eric nam 

NAME A BOOK THAT YOU READ IN SCHOOL THAT YOU SURPRISINGLY LIKED — one hundred years of solitude by garcia marquez but tbh i liked most books i read in high school except one we read about dolphins that could speak that sounds like it could’ve been great but it was very bad

NAME A BOOK YOU HATED THAT MOST PEOPLE LIKED — i couldn’t get past the first two chapters of the raven cycle and i feel the secret history is highly overrated

WHAT TV SHOW DID YOU RECENTLY BINGE? — good girls, i’m obsessed

FAVOURITE QUOTE — “Silence is golden. Words are vibrations. Thoughts are magic.” or like. any other WTNV related thought. those are good thoughts. 

LINK TO A VINE THAT EXUDES YOUR ‘ENERGY’ — this was an easy one

DO YOU WRITE OUTSIDE OF RP? WHAT DO YOU WRITE? — i’ve written more fanfiction than any human should and like. short stories no one will ever see.

THREE YOUTUBERS YOU STILL TRUST — i literally got back into the world of english speaking youtubers like a week ago but i guess drew gooden is good.... i have a friend who’s a youtuber? there’s a really funny one from my city that does summaries of movies and tv shows and has saved me from watching really bad stuff so if you know spanish he’s fun and i’m ngl baekhyun has a vlog and he’s the love of my life and his vlogs are perfect

A CELEBRITY CRUSH THAT JUST WON’T QUIT — i’m stupid in love with this girl

EVER MEET A CELEBRITY? SHARE YOUR STORY — hhhhh no i don’t think i’ve ever met anyone famous tbh unless famous scientists count 

WHAT’S YOUR PICTURE-PERFECT NIGHT? — watching tv... having a beer... cuddling my cats... i’m a simple woman

A CONSPIRACY THEORY YOU KINDA BELIEVE IN — tjere’s a lot of masonry stories that seem unlikely but there’s gotta be some truth to them i’m sure 

ARE ALIENS REAL? — probably

PLAY ANY PHONE GAMES? WHICH ONES? — i have stardew valley on every device i own and it’s the only game i will ever play from now on

WHAT’S A FILM YOU LOVED WHEN YOU WERE YOUNG AND RECENTLY WATCHED, ONLY TO FIND OUT YOU DON’T ANYMORE — love actually... sad

DO YOU COLLECT ANYTHING? — stress

WHAT’S SOMETHING YOU WANT TO LEARN MORE ABOUT BUT YOU’RE TOO LAZY? — so much. i wanna learn how to code websites for real but... lazy

THREE LANGUAGES YOU DON’T SPEAK, BUT WISH YOU COULD — japanese, norwegian, portuguese

MOVIE YOU’VE WATCHED MORE THAN 5 TIMES — serenity, wall-e, all the tinkerbell ones

NAME A FICTIONAL CHARACTER FROM TV/FILM/MOVIE/GAME/BOOK THAT YOU FIND YOURSELF PROJECTING ON / YOU RELATE TO — amy santiago sdlkfj

DO YOU FOLLOW ANY SPORTS? WHO DO YOU ROOT FOR? — no but i guess i watch football every now and then and root for our local champions boca jrs

HOBBIES BESIDES WASTING AWAY HERE? — do i look like i do anything else besides being on here.......... but i guess reading and binging every tv show on the internet.

PLUG A TV SHOW / MOVIE / BOOK / VIDEO GAME / ETC… YOU WISH MORE PEOPLE WOULD CHECK OUT — if you’re into podcasts i really enjoyed rabbits despite its faults

WHOSE BRAIN WOULD YOU LIKE TO PICK, ALIVE OR DEAD? — keats. so much happening in there, would love to hear it sometime.

TEAM EDWARD OR JACOB? — team rosalie she was the best

LAST MOVIE SEEN IN THEATRE — toy story 4 i think

DO YOU STILL READ? — yeah 

IF SO, WHAT ARE YOU CURRENTLY READING? — sci fi book called ringworld

ON A SCALE OF 1-10, HOW MUCH DID YOU HATE FILLING THIS OUT? – when i started i thought i’d have fun but i’m gonna say seven

[bigskydreaming]

Thanks to a friend I got my grubby little hands on a copy of the new New Mutants first issue first thing this morning, and I mostly really liked it? Maybe the most out of all the new Dawn of X titles so far?

Spoilers below:

The Bad:

Really really really painful clunky wow this is bad stilted exposition between Dani and Berto to catch new readers up to speed, like Previously on As The X Turns or whatever.

The Good:

Almost everything else? I know, I was surprised too.

But the characterizations were on point, Chamber and Mondo being tossed in with the rest of the classic New Mutants gang is kinda random but it works, I think.

The shout out to Synch and Monet being elsewhere doing stuff was nice, like, I would’ve loved seeing them too but its not really their book and I’m still riding the high of Ev just being alive again at all.

The New Mutants gang all living communally together in one big house on Krakoa IS MY EVERYTHING AND LITERALLY ALL I’VE EVER WANTED FOR THESE CRAZY KIDS I THINK IM GONNA CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT IT WTF. Like as many troubling implications as Dawn of X and Krakoa as a whole have, at least until I figure out how many of them are meant to be there as plot points and how many are just things that weren’t considered or else weren’t considered problems.....like, if Hickman keeps tossing out little gems like this, I am weak and I just. Its such a little thing but its SO GOOD.

Illyana being obsessed with the new Krakoan strain of coffee and willing to cut you if you try and touch her coffee is my new favorite trope.

Just Illyana in general. God, when she’s written like this, she’s one of my all time faves. Her replying to being called a demon girl with stuff like “lol its cute you think thats an insult” and her sparring match with Raza is just...gold.

Berto was my runner up fave in the issue. God, the classic Berto characterization, like this is him at his quintessential best. The casual arrogance but delivered with enough charm that its like oh Berto, instead of ugh, Berto....the assumption that he’s the one in charge in Sam’s absence, yet not even slightly offended when its later basically established that the others are just humoring him because none of them really want the job, and the second he makes an ‘executive decision’ they don’t agree with, they just go and do their own thing anyway, and Berto’s like....yeah, that tracks. Oh well.

Doug is the most interesting he’s been in...since like, ever, pretty much. And that’s even with the fact that I’ve always kinda liked him anyway.

The classic New Mutants style adventure. Like, this is the kinda thing they DID as kids, and that was like....what made them them. The X-Men are all about saving the world....the New Mutants were just a bunch of weird outcast mutant kids who were friends who never would have been friends if not for the mutant thing bringing them all together....and them just hanging out and stumbling into hijinks that turn into the most random adventures as just...them living their lives.

So to see them basically get involved in an epic space adventure that really just organically results from them being like, y’know what we’re missing? Sam. This place is awesome but its not perfect as long as he’s not here, and he’s off in Shi’ar space living with his new wife and kid, so obviously, the logical course of action is to go into space, bum a ride from Cyclops’ pirate dad, and then wind up arrested for crimes against the Space Empire because like...pirates, man. Effin space pirates.

Also, its nice to see them continuing with the whole thing where Sam totally got together and had a kid with one of the Shi’ar Imperial Guard. Like, every appearance of him since Hickman’s Avengers run basically acted like that never happened, and I didn’t read his Avengers run because eww, Avengers, I can’t do that even for Sam and Berto and I LOVE THEM, like. There are limits to even my ability to stan and thus stomach Unfortunate Canon Things. So I’ve literally never read a comic with Smasher, Sam’s new....girlfriend? Wife? Idk their relationship status. And I’m not at all invested in their relationship but I AM always a fan for any and all chances for X-characters to be allowed to have new relationships and GROW instead of cycling through the same half a dozen dynamics they’ve been stuck in for twenty plus years. 

So, I mean, I know that literally the only thing keeping Sam plus Smasher plus their new baby a thing is the fact that Hickman’s writing this title personally and of course he wanted to return to the plot point he established with Sam even if nobody since him has wanted to touch on it, but I’m not mad about it, and like. X-Men having kids is a THING with me, and Sam is A+ Daddy material and omg if you make that into a kink joke I will hurt you, YOU ALL KNOW WHAT I MEANT lmfao.

But srsly, the team being all ‘brb, we’re just going to a galaxy far far away to bug our BFF into coming back to live on Fantasy Island with us in our big communal dome house thingie’.....it honestly couldn’t feel any more classic New Mutants but still with them all grown up, like, even if I tried to come up with a more fundamentally THEM plot with all my might.

Also, never hurts to be reminded that even though Corsair is Scott’s dad, like....the dude is kinda a douche and always has been, and his characterization here is absolutely valid. Fuck that dude.

Last but not least:

The Bad but purely in an objective way that like, its not bad writing, its just I Don’t Like It, Fuck You:

As much as I’m happy to see Sam’s latest relationship status upheld and continued to be built upon, the Sam/Bobby shipper in me can’t help but be all awww, sad feels. Which Sam/Bobby, you ask? Drake or DaCosta? Either. Both. Whichever. I’m not picky!

I maintain there was room for Ev and Monet to be squeezed in there somehow if Hickman like, really TRIED, gosh darnit. And it IS a little weird to me that if he was going to mash together some members of the Gen X lineup with the classic New Mutants for this particular adventure....umm, where’s Paige? Did nobody think hey wonder if our Gen X teammate and friend Paige Guthrie wants to come with us to go see her brother and new nephew? I mean, I guess maybe she’s busy hanging out with her presumably newly resurrected little brother Jay, but given the story context, that could’ve used a mention somewhere. That’s just my personal nitpick though.

Too much focus on Rahne. With full awareness that it was only like, one scene of focus, a few pages at most, but any focus on Rahne is too much focus for me, sorry not sorry. Turns out I still hate her and like, look, I know its not actually her FAULT given that she’s a fictional character that didn’t write the story that made me hate her, but its a Thing and I think at this point I can safely say her character is ruined for me forever and I’m like....Magma should be around somewhere too, what if you just like....quietly air-lifted Rahne out of this story and dropped Amara in instead, like, INSTANT IMPROVEMENT, try it, you’ll see! I am not biased, this is totally impartial criticism!

[pea-milk]

Get to know me tag 🌙

I was tagged by the lovely @fourfinefreshfishforyou and @rosymiel . Thank you!

I tag @dafadolly  @early-grape  @simulationcowboy @bratsims @obi-uhie@crescentcrustacean @cupidlet @ridgeport @faaeish @herbalbrew and anyone else who would like to do it. (Also you dont have to do this if ya dont wanna. It’s a lot of questions lmao)

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? Eliav somethin somethin

2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? Eli...?? I sometimes go by ben

3. BIRTHDAY? 1st of September

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? None

5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? Aliens probably

6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? Toni Morrison or David Sedaris

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? NPR or this one french music station once awhile. 

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? Ah either spicy anything or a nice fruity flavor with vanilla

9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? “Oh Cool” or just literally great/wonderful

10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? Railroad Bill - Andrew Bird or Sabor a Mi - Kali Uchis

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? Orke / Gide or anythin with hard “ch” 

12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO? You Are The Light - Jens Lekman

13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? Uh Dark! I recently watched it and it was good!

14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN?  The Ritual. Its a good horror movie.

15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? Yes. But not like...hardcore? I dont like online multi player just like casual games. I will however become a hardcore gamer once I get my lil goblin hands on Red Dead Redemption 2. Yeehaw.

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Idk why but I think it’s bad luck to name your fears out loud. 

17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? Mm...Humour? 

18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? I lack...empathy ...and have a very hard time relating to people

19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? I like both.

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? Autumn.

21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? No.

22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? Being able to just be...loose? Just not have to worry about things.

23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? I’d like to say my highschool “bestfriends” but we havent talked in a hot while.

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? Hazel

25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? Dirty Blonde

26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? Hm.

27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? No one lmao

28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? Not a specific individual but just...people who’ve left my life? People I dont talk to or see. Just wonderin how life goes for them.

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? Uh, not in a longterm sense, but just being in the apartment alone and going to work.

30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? Small deviances.

31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? Courage the Cowardly Dog, Hey, Arnold or Country Mouse City Mouse.

32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? Hmm...No one? 

33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? Somewhat.

34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? No.

35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? Behind.

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? Gardening.

37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? Calypso - David Sedaris

38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Ballad of Buster Scruggs. 

39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? I used to play violin and clarinet.

40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? Wombats.

41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? I like just sorta weird aesthetic blogs or overall blogs with no general direction.

42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? Shape-shifting or just like bein immortal but the kind where, if for example, my head were to be chopped off from my body, I’d just be a conscious, bastard head.

43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? In my room or a quiet cafe while it rains outside.

44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? Small things. Nothin real specific

45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? I used to do track and lacrosse. I hated both.

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? Lavender Lemonade or a Cappuccino. 

47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? Yesterday. I write post-cards to a ceramic teacher that I still keep in touch with. He’s a very funny man. 

48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? Depends.

49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? Sloppiness. Just general disorganization. (Also loud chewing)

50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? Yes.

51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? I dont generally eat heavy meats. Especially red because I vomit if I do. I eat a lot of fish though.

52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? An Undertaker. I met one at a friends funeral, she was very interesting.

53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? Hmm. Maybe a rural-ized time locked town? Or a cabin in the middle of a foggy evergreen wood, not really fantasy I suppose.

54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? Health.

55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? No.

56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? If it’s a rock ballad in the middle a long road trip with friends, yes, but mostly I sing when alone.

57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? Yes. Alot.

58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? I’ve tiny places, or just moments that I enjoy.

59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? A lot of places. Mostly rural.

60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? Two Dogs. Zelda and Charlie.

61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? Night Owl.

62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? Both.

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? No. Im gay.

64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? Earbuds.

65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? Yes.

66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? No specific genre.

67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? ...No one

68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? Not recently.

69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? Selfishness.

70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? Physical copies are nice. I like the smell.

71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? I’m not in school but uh Math. Art.

72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? 1

73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? Vanilla Extract.

74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 179cm

75. CAN YOU COOK? Yes. I bake for a living. I make a mean puff pastry.

76. WHAT ARE THREE FOUR THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? Smelling spices, like cinnamon, red peppers, hard rain, when my dog snores.

77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? Sweat, being yelled at, alcohol

78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? More male identifying friends.

79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? Bi. More lenient towards male identifying individuals.

80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? The US.

81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? My Manager.

82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? Thursday.

83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? None really. Just the weird video once awhile. Like “will it blend.”

84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? Yes and no.

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? ????

86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? I get along with my mother when I can. Father could be dead for all I care.

87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? Any accent.

88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? Too many places

89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? I like 8 I suppose

90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? No.

91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? I was raised under a Jewish household, but as I’ve gotten older and more bitter, I’ve grown out of faith. However, I still identify as Jewish.

92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OR THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? Yes and Yes.

93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? Sometimes. Depends.

94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? Peanuts.

95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? Yes.

96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? No.

97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? If I act wrongly to someone I apologize right away.

98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? Both.

99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? None.

100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? Yes.

101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? Ravenclaw?

102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? Once awhile.

103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? Introvert.

104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? Not anymore.

105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? Yes and No. If its absolutely awful, then I’m quick to cut ties.

106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? If there’s cash, take it. Return everything else. Sorry. 

107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? Yes. As long as they keep accountability for there actions. 

108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? In certain areas, but hardly.

109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? Yes.

110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? I did, but they closed up.

111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? None really.

112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? No.

113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? Seeing a psychologist.

114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? Somewhat.

115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? Yes.

116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? Probably.

117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? The best friends I havent talked to in a while.

118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? There’s a lot.

119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? Yes.

120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOU CLOTHES? Black. Earth tones. Problem Patterns.

121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? Sometimes

122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? Yes.

123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 19

124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? None.

125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? Both