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MS ⰠBewitched ⧠CS
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contains â ïž smut!, strong language!, suggestive remarks!, obscene descriptions!, polyamory, hint of overstimulation, p in v (unprotected, use condoms irl), threesome, oral (m! receiving), size kink, light s&m, bondage, toys & idk a bunch of kinky stuff °~° â ïž
sum. Switching their clothes for a video leads to new sexual discoveries.
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note. English is not my first language!
You watched from your place on the living room couch as Matt and Chris paced back and forth between their rooms. Seemingly exchanging clothes, laughing and talking about some type of tiktok theyâre gonna film. You were only partially paying attention nowâthe fanfiction you were reading on your phone suddenly taking an interesting turn.
"Hey, ma?" Your head shot up at the sudden interruption, your eyes widened by a fraction when you saw their attire. They had exchanged clothes, and even their jewelleries were of the other. Itâs not like they donât wear each otherâs clothes, youâve seen them share hoodies or pants, but never fully dress as one another.
"Yeah?" You breathed out, your voice coming out a bit too shaky for your liking. "Can you please go into one of our rooms while we film a tiktok? Yâknow... we canât really show you yet." Chris said apologetically, and you nodded. "Yeah, yeah, of course, tell me when youâre done." You stood up and made your way towards Mattâs room.
"Sorry about this, sweetheart, we wonât take too long âpromise," you chuckled quietly to yourself before replying with a soft "okay" and closed the door behind yourself. Immediately plopping down on Mattâs bed as you opened your phone, ready to continue reading the fanfic.
Some people might think itâs weird to read fanfictions about your boyfriendâ or boyfriends in your case, but you couldnât deny how hot it was, how much it turned you on. The suggestive part of the fanfic began and just as you got comfortable on the bed Matt walked inside the room.
You looked up from your phone, raising an eyebrow, "you done already?" He chuckled and shook his head no, "Chris is filming his video, Iâll do it after him." You nodded, and motioned for him to come sit beside you. "You should wear bracelets more often, it suits you..." Your voice trailed off as his hand landed on your thigh, giving it a small playful squeeze, and the seemingly innocent gesture sent shivers down your spine.
"Yeah? Maybe I should get a similar oneâ" he paused, raising his eyebrows in surprise when he saw the Tumblr logo on your phone, the fanfiction left open and abandoned on the bed beside you. You looked at him confused before following his gaze, a small gasp escaped your lips before you quickly turned your phone off.
You sat up, flustered and embarrassed to have been caught red handed reading such a frisky fanfic about him and Chris. Stammering as you tried to find a good excuse as to why you were reading a smut fanfic in broad daylight â even if you could â but it only made it worse. "You read things like that? What was the name again?"
You looked at him for a solid minute before opening your mouth to speak, only getting out a flustered "what?" in response. The corners of Mattâs lips twitched into a small smirk, "whatâs the name?" He repeated himself, his smirk threatened to grow wider with each passing second. "Simple solution," you whispered.
"Hm? And what happens in it?" You gulped softly, feeling your face heat up. "Do I have to? I mean, you can just read it yourself, I know youâve got Tumblr on your phone." Matt laughed, the sound rich and amused, "yeah I do, but I wanna hear you tellinâ me about it, sweetheart." You couldnât help but fidget slightly at the pet name, it was one of your faves.
"Uhm... Itâs like, well," you stammered, "itâs about how much you and Chris look alike when you wear your caps backwards." You finally blurted out, biting your tongue as you waited for his reaction. "Thatâs... Interesting? So yâlike it when we look alike huh?" He chuckled, thoroughly amused.
The bedroom door opened, and Chris peeked his head in. "Iâm done," he walked fully inside the room, grinning and putting his hands on his hips in a mock attempt of display. "So, how do I look, ma?" You chuckled and sat up straight, "So fine, Iâll give you that, the kisses tee is just chefs kiss."
Chris grinned wider, "pirate girl tank or kisses tee?" Your jaw dropped, "how do you expect me to pick one? Also, why didnât you wear the 'iconic' pirate girl tank?" You nudged Matt playfully, "weâre not recreating outfits... well, basically, but itâs more like how we dress and allâ" you cut him off with a laugh, "okay, whatever you say, kid."
"Are you two done filming yet?" Nick popped his head in, looking annoyed, "âcause Iâm so fucking hungry, and you keep telling me to stay in my room like what am I? One of your secret girlfriends?" Chris scoffed in faux annoyance, "weâve only got one girl fyi, and no, Matt hasnât filmed yet, but go ahead and eat if youâre about to starve to death."
Nick huffed, raising his eyebrows in dramatic disbelief, but didnât say anything else as he walked away, mumbling under his breath about how ridiculous everything was. Suddenly, Matt spokeâbreaking the silence. "Iâll be back," he gave your thigh one last squeeze before standing up to film the short video for tiktok.
Chris smirked and sauntered over to Mattâs bed where you were â still â laying on. Sitting on the edge as his hand absentmindedly started to caress your calves, "so, real talk, how do I look?" You hummed thoughtfully, "real talk? I think you look hot, like 'makes me wet' kinda hot." He let out a surprised yet amused laugh, "bold now ainât we?" chuckling as he leaned closer.
"Mm... 'makes you wet' kinda hot huh?" He teased, a wolfish grin on his face as his gaze raked over your body appraisingly. "So, you gonâ show me how wet it makes you or do I have to see it myself." His tone wasnât one of questioning, more like a commanding one as if you were obligated to show him either way. You felt pleasantly surprised, the fluttering in your abdomen growing tenfold.
However, Matt walked in before you could respond. Raising his eyebrows with a small smirk as he sensed the tension in the air. The room seemed warmer, more electric. Thatâs when Nick opened the door again, "Iâll be out for a bitâ" he paused, having sensed the tension as well.
"Well, uh... Donât be too loud? We donât need another noise complaint from our neighbours, thatâs just borderline embarrassing." With that, he closed Mattâs bedroom door, leaving you three alone. The front door clicked shut a few minutes later. Your mouth hung agape at Nickâs words.
"Damn, kid has no filter whatsoever." Chris chuckled, taking the fanny pack off and tossing it on Mattâs gaming chair. "Hey, easy with it," Matt said as he took off his cap. Putting it on his gaming desk before turning to look at you. Sensing their eyes on you, you suddenly felt a strong heat in your lower abdomen. Their gazes were enough to make you squirm.
"So, now that Nick is out," Chris looked at Matt before looking back at you, "weâve the house all to ourselves," Matt continued for him. You nodded subtly, shifting slightly on the bed, trying not to show how in need you were. They werenât stupid, knowing exactly what was happening with you as their handsome faces lit up with amused grins.
You squirmed, a muffled moan exiting your gagged mouth as your hips bucked and jerked when Chris pressed a button on the small remote, making the vibe in between your legs buzz louder. The intense sensation of the vibe, bound to stay precisely on your clit, was enough to make your eyes roll back.
Your ankles were bound as well as your wrists, making you unable to move much as the pleasure coursed through your body. You bit the gag, your back arching and hips rolling as you tried to get the vibe at least a millimeter away from your throbbing clit, but Matt held your hips down and Chris positioned the vibrator so it was exactly on your clit again.
"Aw, too much?" Matt pouted, jutting his bottom lip out in obvious mock sympathy. Your eyes glazed over as a tight knot formed in your stomach, your body trembling as you tried to fight the impending orgasm â knowing it would turn you dumb from how powerful it would be.
Just when you thought you couldnât hold back anymore, Chris pressed the button until the vibe buzzed at max. An immediate jolt ran through your body as your eyes widened, tears of pleasure threatening to fall as you shut it back closed, loud muffled noises penetrating through the gag.
Your mind blanked when you felt the knot snap, the orgasm so powerful that you wondered if you could stay conscious. Noticing the slight overstimulation, Chris turned the vibe to a low buzz â the sensation bordered on overstimulating in your oversensitized post-orgasmic state â even if it was barely there. Matt chuckled as he took the remote from Chris and turned the vibe off, your body immediately limping into the mattress as the sensations stopped.
Chris gently untied your ankles from the bounds, but kept your wrists tied over your head. His fingers working deftly to remove the bounds from your pelvic area and tossed the vibe somewhere on the bed. Seeing your inner thighs quivering, covered in your juices, and your swollen, glistening folds on display made their cocks twitch.
They were already naked, not seeing the point in having clothes on, but kept the bracelet and rings on per your request. The tips of their hefty lengths were already dripping with precum from how aroused they were, swollen and taut with unfulfilled desires. Matt suddenly stood up from the bed and walked towards his closet while Chris took off the gag.
A few seconds later, Matt was back on the bed, now beside you as he helped you into a sitting position. Your gaze fell down to his hand that held a red silk blindfold before taking it back up to his face, your eyebrows raised. "Where did you even get that?" You asked with a small hint of amusement.
Matt just grinned, "bought it a while ago, been contemplating whether to use it or not, but I think nowâs the best time to use it." Chris chuckled, "dude, I canât believe yâhad all this stuff in your closet, laying âround like that." Matt chuckled and scooted closer to you, his erection bobbing obscenely as he moved. "Câmon, sweetheart, lemme blindfold you." You eagerly closed your eyes, not denying how much you liked this.
The blindfold cut off any source of light, making you feel a shudder of excitement. It was designed for plays like this so it wasn't a surprise that you couldn't see anything. The inability to see only heightened your other senses, every graze and touch of their hands on you seemed to make your body tremble and jolt.
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Your mind was a haze as Matt pounded into you with hard, deep strokes, and the slight difficulty breathing from Chrisâ length down your throat added to the haze. Your mind fogging with pure unadulterated pleasure as they used your holes. Matt held your bound wrists, keeping you from moving as his other hand gripped your hip with bruising strength.
The obscene sounds of squelching from your sopping pussy being filled over and over again by Matt and the slurping sounds of your mouth working Chris filled the room along with the bed creaking underneath you. The position you were having intercourse in was a new one neither you, Matt or Chris had tried before.
Your neck was supported by the edge of the bed, but your head hung down itâallowing Chris to use your mouth. Mattâs pace quickened as he felt himself growing close with each spasm of your inner walls from your previous orgasms, the aftershocks still coursing through you.
Chris moaned as he felt the knot in his stomach growing tighter with each thrust down your throat, the sight of the bulge he was creating with his cock on your throat proving to be too much. You felt them twitch in your holes, their paces quickening and you knew they were close.
With guttural moans they came, one after the other. After a few seconds of shuddering over you, they finally pulled out, leaving you filled with their releases, but you knew better than to think it was over. Your suspicions were proven right as they coaxed you into a different position, but you werenât complaining. After all, who could resist? They seemed to have you under their spellâbewitching indeed.
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ps. The fic mentioned in the beginning is actually one of my chratt fics. I know, I know, sneaky mf, but here's the link in case you wanna check it out<3 «Simple Solution»
Also, the beginning part of the actual smut was inspired by this «p link»
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Who here had âThe reason why Asmodena is an amateur demon â despite having the life experience of 500 years + is demon royalty â is because she was lobotomised by Billyâs dad back in 1995â on their đœđ bingo card?
#asmodena abibaz#billy bbeg#alex basics in biology and zoology#alex basics#abibaz#billys basics#billys basic educational game#off-topic: I have an Instagram acc. now but I donât know how to use it#I mean I figured out a general idea of how Instagram functions (idk community netiquette and culture though so give me some time on that)#But what I really mean is that I donât know how to convey my informations there#Iâve had my presence on Tumblr & Twitter long enough that people can get a general or vague idea of what my stuff is about#But on Instagram my acc. is totally clean and Iâm a newborn#so itâs like hmmm⊠I kinda wanna take this oppurtunity to make my Insta acc. like a hub for Basic Issue exclusively only#Like what Ronnie does for OWM#But then that brings into question of what order I want the stories to be published in⊠Also Iâd have to wait yntil I produce more pages#since I donât really like publishing on Insta a cliff-hanger comic LMAO#or maybe I could do thatâŠ#Idk! Tahtâs why Iâm still figuring it out#Thereâs also the matter of Basic Issue Lore so⊠Hm⊠Should I post that too or leave that as a Tumblr exclusiveâŠ#Bleh â I will figure it out
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Anyone else remember the little 88x31 buttons from older internet days? I've been remembering them a lot lately.
I make ffxiv ones in msp when I'm in queue or my bf is flying me around between quests.
#shoutout to anyone else who actually uses leg graze#i originally did just the two korpokkur but i made the yukinko this afternoon and its easily my favorite of the 3#and i love the moogles but they dont really fit as a button? maybe i should just make a few more stamps as a series#im not happy with the tomestone - the circuitry feels out of place to me. i want to find some other way to frame it in the button#carrots was last night because we were working on lopporit msq :3#i love the goobbue. i love goobbues ever since ffxi they're so chill#i wanna make a version of the rotting goobbue in amdapor#i love that one too#my art#88x31#idk what to tag this... its technically pixal art but i always have imposter syndrom bc i see people do INCREDIBLE pixel art illustrations#and this is just like... myspace webring hobbyist stuff#ffxiv#ill post them on twitter and bsky when i do a few more i think - right now theyre only in my carrd#and carrd makes them look really crunchy. im scared what tumblr is gonna do to them when i hit post#and i just really really really hate the sound /sweep makes - i think it should count as griefing to afk in public spaces doing it#but thats just my unpopular opinion as someone with audio sensitivity. the emote should not loop
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Should I ignore Man or should I hear him out
#he sent me some song rec on spotify and i dont even use spotify. so to entertain him id have to pull it up#completely independently... and THEN go through the labor of entertaining him by formulating a response to whatever the hell it is#what is with him lately? doesn't he know i have a silly work crush that i only talk about passively in tumblr posts#it's funny bc with Man i had the same exact sorta silly crush on him like 5 years ago#when he seemed completely unattainable to me but he hasn't been that for a long time#he's so disgustingly human! admittedly rather pretty though#this guy if you follow the Man saga on britneyshakespeare dot tumblr dot com used to be a model like 10 years ago#he retired years before i knew him#i met him through poetry and he's written some good stuff but he's really rather silly#perhaps i reject him solely on the grounds that he genuinely admires me#to some extent. and not entirely incorrectly but often a little bit incorrectly.#i think he idealizes women. not just me#also he used to talk to me about other girls!!!!!!! lmao#stupid Man#tales from diana#all this instead of opening up the link he sent me. wow im funny#maybe i should tell him about work crush and pay him back for hearing about those dalliances he had when i was 21#nah i wont do that. im more of a gentleman than him lol
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HI TUMBLRR itâs me
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mass mcsr migration to bluesky is wild im getting follows from people ive never interracted with and i didnt think even knew i existed
#like hello? why am i being percieved im not used to this#maybe i should start interracting with the community outside of tumblr more#tinins says stuff
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i NEED more acrylic charm keychains
#i have four now and i need to get more. i just need to set up pypl stuff but i am a coward#one day i will have the means to comm a MS Pop Muzik charm.....[staring longingly]#my never ending agony is having money but not having a way to order things with my own money#which honestly is probably saving me from impulse purchases but MAN#i have gotten the occasional friend gift of one of my pals ordering gifts for me#which is very sweet and appreciated but like ;;;; i feel BAAAAAD ;;;;;#i should be giving gifts not receiving gifts what the hell man!!! /silly /lhj#maybe i'll ask our mom to help us get shit set up after the trip next month i'm just also very scared bc i often hear bad things abt pypl#i keep wanting to open comms myself but again Scared#i just have to eventually do it scared i guess [< said while shaking and crying and screaming(/silly dra)]#bee shouts#forgot how much i love rambling on tumblr#my diery :)
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In a post that was⊠a long time ago, you put in the tags:
âi JUST wrote an essay on this omfg i have SO many thoughts about sir gawain and the green knightâ
The post was about how Gawain literally had no way to win in SGATGK. You were talking in the tags about shame culture and the instability of the moral culture and symbols and identity and the like, and I was wonderingâŠ.Do you have a link to that essay or something?
If not then thatâs totally fine, I just ALSO have many thoughts on sir Gawain and the green knight and love not only the poem but the essays and academic articles and stuff surrounding it, and that essay honestly sounds really interesting and cool! So I thought Iâd ask, but yeah!
Hey Anon! First of all, thanks so much for coming into my inbox to talk Sir Gawain with me - a very unexpected but very welcome surprise! I'd completely forgotten about that post I reblogged, but yeah, I took a Middle English paper in my second year of uni, and the Sir Gawain essay was my favourite one to research all term. It's just such a fun poem, and like you said, there's so much great discussion to delve into for it. It's been a little while since I thought about it though, so it's so fun to have a reason to shift my brain back into medieval mode again!
It was just a weekly essay (we had to write an essay each week on a different text/author/group of texts), so it was rather frantically researched and wasn't something I was able to spend loads of time on. I don't think I came to any particularly new or interesting conclusions, and I didn't post it anywhere or anything. That said, given that it's pretty short, I'm happy to copy and paste it here for you if you'd like to read it! Like all my uni essays, it was written the day before the deadline in a slightly sleep deprived haze, so it's not the best thing written on Gawain by a long shot, but it'd be lovely to have someone outside of my supervisor read it! Obviously just please don't use it anywhere or plagiarise it, but I assume that goes without saying lol
If you do get around to reading it, I'd love to hear your thoughts! But no pressure at all ofc - honestly it's just super nice to be asked! I'll put it below a read more, along with my sources - thanks again for the lovely message anon :)
âFor man may hyden his harme,  bot unhap ne may hit, For there hit ones is tached  twynne wil hit never.â What do you understand to be the meaning and significance of Gawainâs last words?
Despite Gawain's confidence in asserting the green gridle as a signal of his fundamentally flawed nature, Sir Gawain and the Green Knight deliberately complicates the reader's ability to interpret the girdle - and by extension, the poem's moral - in such easy metaphorical terms. Gawain's initial symbol, the pentangle, embodies an honour system which sees morality as intertwined with reputation, making Gawain's apparent goodness into a static symbol whose worth depends on its ability to be interpreted by others. By replacing it with the girdle, the poem alludes to the instability of a community-based chivalric moral code. In offering the reader multiple interpretations of the girdle, with Gawain's held in no higher narrative esteem than Arthur's or the Green Knight's, the poem suggests the limitations of relying on community for moral validation, which ultimately leads to a performance rather than practice of morality, and therefore stunts any opportunity for personal growth.
Gawainâs certainty in labelling the girdle a metaphorical scar, to âremorde to myselven/ The faut and the fayntyse of the flesch crabbedâ (2434-35), is immediately challenged by two alternative perspectives â the Green Knightâs, and Arthurâs.[1] The Green Knight suggests Gawain take the girdle as little more than a trophy, âa pure token/ Of the chaunce of the Grene Chapel at chivalrous knightes.â (2398-99), âpureâ acting in direct antithesis to the charge of sin that Gawain lays against it. Arthur and the court, meanwhile, have an emotionally opposed reaction to Gawain, greeting his morose confession by âLaughen loude thereatâ (2514), and appropriating Gawainâs symbol of personal shame into one of communal honour: âFor that was accorded the renoun of the Rounde Table,/ And he honoured that hit had evermore after.â (2519-20). The poet presents the reader with three inharmonious definitions, with no individual appearing the obvious source of authority. Thus, Gawainâs attempt at using the girdle to signify a universal truth in his aphoristic statement, âman may hyden his harme, but unhap ne may hitâ (2511) is radically undermined. Through offering, and refusing to discredit, alternating interpretations, the Gawain-poet makes his own description of the girdleâs âabelef as a buderyk bounden by [Gawainâs] sideâ (2485) ironic in the passivity of its phrasing â Gawain may say that âunhap ne may hitâ, but Arthurâs swift reinterpretation of the girdle repositions it from absolute symbol to simply a belt that Gawain has tied to suit his subjective purposes, and may just as easily untie. This ending marks a significant transformation for the readerâs understanding of the Romantic world Gawain inhabits, previously one in which symbols and epithets can be interpreted to indicate moral truth about an individual; a transition made clear in the movement from the pentangle as Gawainâs symbol, which Ralph Hanna describes as âthe emblem of a world where meaning is clear and exemplaryâ to the girdle, âto which meaning must be assignedâ.[2] The Gawain-poet upholds the pentangle for its symbolic potential, pausing the narrative to interject, âAnd why the pantangel apendes to that prince noble/ I am in tente you to telleâ (623-24). The and the details provided in relation to the pentangle â âHit is a synge that Salomon sette sumwhyleâ (625)â, âEnglych hit callen/ Overal, as I hereâ (629-30) appeal to the desire for a symbol with absolute meaning. The interpretation that follows of the pentangleâs application to Gawain, representing his five virtues, associates the accuracy of historical and linguistic information about the symbol with the apparently also objective information it relays about Gawainâs moral character. As Putter and Stokes suggest, âethics and aesthetics come very close together in this poemâ; in a reputation-based society, a kind of metaphorical vision is encouraged, which allows symbols like Gawainâs pentangle to be correctly interpreted as indicative of his nature.[3] Thus, the Gawain-poet provides the reader with the girdle as an alluring signification of an absolute moral truth, only to complicate this moral to such an extent that the girdle comes to signify the opposite, replacing the pentangleâs moral idealism and certainty with the suggestion that morality may be subjective.
Fitting to his interpretation of the girdle, the Green Knight disdains the kind of performative morality that underlies the reputation-based structure of Arthurâs court, associating it with the pride he has apparently come to test. Thus, he announces, âWhat, is this Arthures house [âŠ]. That all the rous rennes of thurgh ryalmes so mony? Where is now your sorqudrye and your conquests[..]/?â (309-311). The Green Knightâs condescending tone relies upon the inevitable tension between the hyperbolic tales he is aware of, and the disappointing reality. There is a metatextual element to this speech, as the contemporary reader, too, would have heard tales of Arthurâs courtâs âconquestsâ, and thus what is within the text a challenge to the pride of Arthurâs court becomes an implicit challenge of the implausibility of the Romance genre. As Ad Putter suggests, in Sir Gawain, the poet appears to deliberately use this fantastical genre to pose âan interpretative challenge [âŠ] how can we take it seriously?â[4] His response is to explore the psychological ramifications of existing as a character within this canon. As Gawainâs despair at the end of the poem indicates, this mythological society in which reputation is paramount has a fragile moral core. When Gawain flinches during the beheading scene, the Green Knight chastises him by saying âThou art not Gawanâ (2270), alluding to his famed reputation. But what this truly reveals is that no one can be âGawanâ, who would not fear his head under a falling axe â within a genre predicated on hyperbolic acts of knightly courage, the Gawain-poet radically asserts the humanity that underlies Gawainâs character and makes living up to his generic reputation impossible. In doing so, the poem not only further undercuts Gawainâs shame at not fulfilling this reputation, but it discredits the entire notion of morality based on chivalry â based, fundamentally, on how good one is judged to be by others, rather than by an internalised moral compass. As A.C. Spearing suggests, the ramifications of this society manifest in a âcriteria of conduct [âŠ] not fully internalizedâ: thus, Gawain âfails to recognizeâ that his initial retention of the girdle âis a sinâ until it infringes on his reputation â that being, until the Green Knight reveals his knowledge of it.[5] Like Arthur, who responds to the Green Knightâs challenge of the courtâs reputation by blushing â âThe blod schotte for schame into his schyre faceâ (317), Gawain, caught out in his lie, feels âAll the blod of his brest blende in his face,/ That all he schrank for schameâ (2371-72). Their identical responses betray how Gawainâs embarrassment at his contradicted reputation, rather than actual feelings of moral guilt, lie at the core of the shame he associates with the girdle.
The poem thus exposes the flaws of a communal morality system, in which morality becomes more rigid and absolute â either the individual does, or does not, maintain their idealised reputation. Hence, Gawainâs assertion that if he is flawed, he must be fundamentally flawed: âNow am I fauty and false, and ferde have ben everâ (2382). In this sense, the poemâs ending is further unsettling, as Arthurâs absorption of the girdle as a performance piece into the mythos of the court signifies his ignorance as to the dangers of this [MS1] structure. He continues to assume an externalised identity predicated on reputation, and as such, will continue not to scrutinise himself internally. Gawain may view the girdle as a metaphor for shame, and Arthur for honour, but, as David Aers notes, ânone of this is of much consequence since nothing much will change anywayâ; the absolutism of the Arthurian court prevents moral development.[6] The poemâs ending becomes bathetic, as the self-destruction inherent to the Arthurian court is stressed in the charactersâ ignorance to their need for moral progression. Indeed, this is made all the more tragic as Gawain has already demonstrated within the poem that he can progress towards his idealised reputation, even if he can never truly fulfil its requirements. When he initially places his head down to receive the Green Knightâs blow, Gawain â[shrinks] a little with the schulderes for the scharp yrneâ (2267). As the Green Knight notes, such an act is contrary to his hyperbolically brave reputation, as âGawan [âŠ] that is so good holden,/ That never arwed for no here.â (2270-71). However, Gawainâs response demonstrates his ability to grow towards this role, as he determines not to flinch a second time, and successfully âgraythly hit bides and glent with no memberâ (2292). As Ralph Hanna suggests, the beheading scene is heavily charged with symbolism connoting rebirth, from the New Year setting, to the description of Gawain âNever syn that he was burn born of his moder/ [âŠ.] half so blytheâ (2320-21), to the spilling of his blood onto white snow, which Hanna calls âa tabula rasa on which Gawain must learn to write what he [âŠ] is now.â[7] If Gawain has emerged from a metaphorical death morally absolved and able to discover himself anew, then the positive potential of this revelation is immediately squandered in his curt refusal of Bertilakâs invitation back to his castle. His identity is still wholly externalised, and therefore his first instinct upon gaining an apparent greater self-understanding is to return to the court to vocalise it.The Arthurian court has a holistic and restrictive grip on individual identity in Sir Gawain, inescapable not because there is no opportunity to do so, but because the knights themselves â represented in Gawain and Arthurâs definitions of the girdle as still performatively signalling their reputations, just as the pentangle did â are ignorant of the very ways in which their potential is stunted by the structures they inhabit.
In showing the multiple, often conflicting meanings the girdle is given, the poem uses Gawainâs quest of self-discovery to destabilise the very moral structure at the core of the Arthurian court. In doing so, Sir Gawain and the Green Knight suggests the limitations of an external moral compass, and instead encourages the cultivation of the kind of more nuanced, internalised mortality that Gawain fails to realise.
Sources I quoted from: These are definitely worth reading in their own rights, since they express everything I had to say, and do so far better than second-year me ever could! You might have already read it, but if not, I'd particularly recommend the Spearing. I loved his interpretation, and it ended up forming most of the basis for my argument.
[1] The Works of the Gawain Poet: Sir Gawain and the Green Knight, Pearl, Cleanness, Patience, ed. by Ad Putter and Myra Stokes (London: Penguin Classics, 2014), p.401; all further references to this text will be made in the body of the essay.
[2] Ralph Hanna III, âUnlocking Whatâs Locked: Gawainâs Green Girdleâ, Viator, 14 (1983), 289-302 (p.290).
[3] Putter and Stokes, âForeword to Sir Gawain and the Green Knightâ, The Works of the Gawain Poet, p.246.
[4] Ad Putter, An Introduction to the Gawain Poet (London; New York: Longman, 1996), p.45.
[5] A.C. Spearing, The Gawain-Poet; A Critical Study (Cambridge: Cambridge University Press, 1970), pp.224- 25.
[6] David Aers, âChristianity for Courtly Subjects: Reflections on the Gawain-Poetâ in A Companion to the Gawain-Poet, ed. by Derek Brewer and Jonathan Gibson (Woodbridge, Suffolk: D.S. Brewer, 1997), p.99.
[7] Hanna, pp.295-96.
#asks#life stuff#need to change that tag to something more fitting#like...idk....#talking about stuff#or something#anyways thank you anon! i hope you enjoy :)#lol love that the first place ive ever posted an essay of mine is tumblr#feels fitting tbh feels right#i still havent watched the dev patel green knight#shameful of me ik#man maybe i should reread it now#middle english i miss youuuu#for our paper the eng department asked us all to teach ourselves middle english and then just proceeded to teach us as if we were fluent#which was kinda hilarious ngl#some of the stuff was pretty intuitive but some of it was uh....less so#the putter and stokes edition has really good explanatory notes though#i owe them a lot lmao
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me, wondering why ive been having panic attacks at night recently
#cancer cw /#your mom has cancer you idiot of course youre gonna have episodes of anxiety and panic#we wont know until after she has major surgery if its spread anywhere else#and even if it has spread elsewhere it should be manageable#shes not gonna die suddenly from it but like#we still had to have the 'if something happens this is what i want to happen with my remains' talk#and holy fuck that shit is scary man#and its completely reasonable to feel this way#but ive been working on emotional regulation & accepting reality stuff in therapy lately#to not make myself go through prolonged suffering and worry#but also not to ignore it completely and go right into fantasy escapism#i need to be able to feel the thing when i need to but not shut down#and let it out reasonably before doing something more productive#maybe i should make nightly posts on my dreamwidth site#since i do find it helpful now to dump out my thoughts in one go and leave them there#i used to have full on panic attacks almost nightly and liveblog them the past like 10 years on tumblr#which isnt good good but i find it helpful to stream of conscious type stuff like this and feel it#and leave it there and go on to my next task#yappin
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bonerattle arena fucks severely. i was not expecting it to rival my love for jammin' salmon junction, but wow. this map feels like a love letter to people who love and enjoy salmon run. (i ended up playing the rotation for around 3.5 hours... which you can watch here if you like!)
the map's circular shape on normal/high tide effectively makes the spawns from this map come from every angle. it's a test of awareness and movement skill- and the walls + inkrails really, really make rotating around the map feel so fluid and easy.
and low tide's hexagonal two-ring design is so fascinating too! instead of testing movement, it tests your team's ability to make judgment calls on luring and making sure you don't overwhelm basket from luring too much.
i also feel that every special in salmon feels really rewarding to use on this map- even reefslider! i've played enough to see that most specials bring so much utility and value, and i just love that no special feels like it's "useless" on this map.
there's also a few flyfish tech on this map that echoes the bomb tricks on jammin' salmon junction and spawning grounds (and i guess gone fission too), it feels really intuitive on what spots can pop two baskets at once (it's the grates and the rails) and i just? feel really rewarded for playing as much salmon as i do.
i feel that the map's inclusion of the ink rail mechanic evokes a lot of similar vibes to ruins of ark polaris- and i really liked that! there's definitely some things i want to fine tune and understand better about them, but they're really fun.
i still need to see how other weapons feel on this map, but it feels like both mobile and stationary weapons can exceed here- there's nice perches for long range weapons, lots of walls for quick weapons to use to escape situations... it's so swag...! a very good final map, i think!
#lizzy speaks#OOOUGH I LOVE THIS MAP SO FUCIG MUCH I NEEDED TO MUSE ABOUT IT ON TUMBLR#i streamed it on twtich cos iknew that i lked the weps and what i saw of the map.. oh its so good it made me so talkative#i won like 91% of my shifts (21/23) and idk I JUST FEEL LIKE MY practice on other maps and every weapon has paid off#the only real waves that i had trouble with was the night ones mostly in respects to quota. i think it was grillers/glowflies that made-#me have those losses so it wasnt a full sweep to evp 450#but also the map's new so i can forgive ppl for that. i definitely felt i needed to pay more attention to snatchers on night waves#there's also the question of whether or not using the ink rails as a wall clinging equivalent 4 glowflies is a good idea (eggs inthe pits)#ough. i love video games. this map feels so polished TO ME... anyone who likes salmon should give this a try#ALSO THE NEW DUALIES. GOOD STUFF. i really enjoy it's turret mode against king salmonid it helps shred soo nicely#it feels like a nice hybrid of dualie squelchers (the range) and dapples (the fire rate) like OHHHH. idc if its bad in pvp if its good in s#ok thats all :) im gonna play more tomorrow :D maybe i can get to 600.... or 999 (if i am lucky) (i am over my head)#splatoon scratches an itch in my brain for sure this game is soo fun.... YIPEE! i hope everyone has smthn that makes them happy gn!!
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i have srsly had irl queer people make fun of me for being queer + liking sports and tell me that is like, not gay or something. like ok just say youre chronically online. womens soccer is the queerest thing i have ever been a part of hands down. also youre an awful person
#tobin talks#ITS ABSURD. HOW CAN YOU BE THAT MEAN#this was when i was 15 so maybe thats why. but like..... its so awful. like 15 yo's always gonna act like that#but come on. lots of us online are older than that. we could be better and NOT teach this behavior to 15 yo's#because you know they learned this shit online. the specific person who did this to me was most active on tumblr.#not even tiktok or twitter this was a tumblr gay. begging you guys to change the culture đđ#this goes for more than just sports obvs its about general pushing stereotypes#which is how you get queer people sacrificing parts of their identity in order to be accepted into the community#as opposed to sacrificing the queer parts of their identity to be accepted into queerphobic communities?#like tell me how thats morally sound. accept ppl as they are and not just for things theyre systemically discriminated for??#be a nice fucking human being??#the queer community can tear each other apart lately i wish we would go back to the pure love of it all#bc like for me it is not worth it to be close with most queer people anymore. my friends are mostly all cishet#because guess what even though they dont understand my queer identity at least theyre not assholes about my entire personality otherwise#its so awful Like. can we all agree to not be cliquey#you dont have to be a paletable aesthetic gay. you dont have to be chonrically online and never go outside. you dont have to not drive#you dont have to be bad at math. what other fucking stereotypes are there man#its so fucking stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!! like 'let people enjoy things' goes for all things not just online stuff like this is a two way street#yes non online/gay/neurodivergent people should be kinder about 'cringe' interests. but hey that doesnt mean we get to be dicks to people#with more common interests or like... idk man im talking in circles here. but god when did the lgbtq+ community turn into a clique#do this do that if you dont we'll ignore that part of you or actively make fun of you for it.#STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1#non rebloggable im just ranting here this is not one to rb. but like. ITS SO AWFUL AND MEAN. STOP
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Made a Cohost. It's @/liminal.
#Cade.Txts#Can't post yet cus there is a two day wait.#idk if im going to be very active on it? no idea how to really use the website or how to find people rly...#if anyone on there has cool accounts i should follow lemme know.#im specially lookin for aesthetic stuff mostly.#Fuck tumblr n its staff n the owner. remindrr for people to just back their blogs up.#if i end up being more active on cohost eventually- i'll probably just keep my stimblog#active on here? because I dont think there's a way currently to post gifs n such like we do on here there yet.#other then that probably keep my comfort blog active here too#i am NOT going away from here fyi. maybe- but if u wanna keep in touch ask for my discord?#anyways. fuck tumblr. fuck it for claiming its the ~queerest place on the internet~ and then being#transmisognistic to transfem/trans women and deleting their entire Blogs.#at this point i hope this site rots.
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Ahoy!
I'm currently sailing the oh so rough seas that is exam time, so I'm going to be away for a bit longer. I just once again have to express how happy I am every time i see interactions with this blog, even though I've been very inactive recently. It really has helped strengthen and keep up my resolve in wanting to help make digital privacy, piracy and computer knowledge more accessible for as many as I can. So again, a big THANK YOU to you all for being here!
I've been considering if there would be any interest in me trying to create a more in-depth resource for finding ways to improve your quality of live when using computers and the like?
While my first thought was a simple list, I know that those can get overwhelming really quick. So I've been playing around with the idea of a "clippy"-like addon to the blog that can offer you directions to common issues (such as, "How do i remove the 'search on the web' results on Windows 10?", "What browser-addons should I have?" and "How to speed up YouTube on FireFox?"). I think I would also want to have it be accessible through a GitHub-page, so that mobile-users also could easily access it, and so you all have other options than to only have it accessed through a Tumblr blog.
#The sailor's thoughts#Piracy#Privacy#Computer tweaks#tumblr polls#I need some fun and useful coding project to look forward to during these last weeks of exams#I'm gonna claim that this is warming up for the essay writing I've gotta do next#University really has been the best school-experience I've been through so far. Closing in on that Bachelor's degree in Digital Culture#Currently taking three classes in an attempt to catch up to my peers because they've been very sweet to me.#Been learning a lot about both accessibility and dark patterns in web design and I also want to share what I've learnt at some point#Knowledge is for sharing and I want to make it easier and maybe even fun to learn about digital culture#Because that shit is so important in this digital age of ours#And I think a bunch of the stuff that I've learnt should be more common knowledge and to do that the material needs to be more accessible#And with that I attempt to return to writing about self-representation on Tumblr. Because apparently I could write an essay about that???#Also that ADHD-medicine drought going on has been pretty bad. Sending some extra love to any and all affected by it <3
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past me thought that if i just reverse image search i could find a source for anything. biggest mistake of my life you cant find shit on the internet: image searches don't seem look at tumblr? (i'm pretty sure they used to?). even if its not deleted and a lot of things are. i don't know man it's really frustrating for me. just another reason to reblog stuff more i guess
#its not even funny how often i find myself in a situation like this#esp with gaster stuff since a lot of things i liked with him are old and from before i started using tumblr the way i do now#or like from a time when i was into something else#maybe i should go outside more lmao#image searches dont look at vk anymore either and im certain they used to... and thats not a recent thing#also link rot is really sad to me
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Hello !
A bit of info about me :
My name is Jay
Iâm 23 years old
Iâm a gay trans guy (he/him pronouns)
Iâm neurodivergent
I love video games a lot
Iâll reblog fandom stuff & funny stuff & cute animals & other random shit and occasionally post my silly thoughts on here idk ! I donât engage in discourse itâs a plague tbh I just wanna chill lol like the word already sucks without shitty internet drama and whatnot bro
Side blogs
@froggyf4g - super gay blog (not very active rip)
@ivycrownedpanther - helpol/witchy blog (pretty active)
secret blog??? mayhaps.
DNI if:
Youâre racist/homophobic/transphobic/misogynist/anti-semitic/etc. (basically go fuck urself if ur bigoted lol)
Youâre a MAP/pedophile
Youâre a minor. This blog is mostly SFW but I do like to reblog funny haha sex jokes sometimes and I donât tag them
Youâre anti-kink/u kinkshame
Youâre anti-paganism
More things will probably be added as I think of them lol
#been using tumblr for a few months now but just decided maybe I should have some sort of introduction thingy lmao#Iâll probably add to this more later idk#jay says stuff
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I just need to vent.
#Iâm in a weird mood again#feel like maybe I should delete tumblr and just disappear from the fandom and enjoy it passively again like I used to#thereâs all this pressure of having to interact because otherwise youâre not supporting the fandom#but in return you get nothing?#Iâm also not in the right headspace to read new stuff#especially WIPs because thereâs so many WIPs already that Iâm invested in and I donât think I can handle more#guess Iâll just go and re-read old favs and reblog those#also Iâm still upset that I lost the one Christmas fic that had a good start and then the app crashed and I havenât found that fic since#and Iâm really not in the mood to write a Christmas fic myself#but I want to read one where the reader isnât obviously white coded with happy family traditions#Iâm not Christian but enjoy Christmas for the vibes#not all that other stuff#and that fic had it! and I canât find it#also my tumblr recap thingy was pathetic#all my own posts have fewer than 5 notes#which I knew#but itâs sad seeing it thrown into your face
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