#maybe i should rewatch hannibal to cheer me up

[hermioneismyrealname]

HOW THE FUCK DID I END UP IN A SITUATIONSHIP!

Listen. It's nice and all to have someone to flirt with but I dont like the feelings that come with this! Mutual friends caused this and I wish I had never met him. Honestly, I wish I wasn't so fond of him because now I feel absolutely pathetic waiting for him to respond to texts. At this point, I'm actually just sending memes to him hoping it'll make him smile. He's going through his finals. THATS WHY I HONESTLY DONT BLAME HIM FOR GOING GHOST CAUSE I DID THE SAME WHEN IT WAS MY FINALS.

I'm just ranting into the void because I feel sucky and crave specific attention which made me realize two things.

1. A love language of mine is words of affirmation. I never thought this was possible.

2. I am emotional. I dont like this at all. NOt OnE BiT!!

The thing that makes it all worse (but also barerable) is that my BFF is 9500 km away from but I feel so much love and care from her. Also, I'm sick of seeing couples on my campus and I'm getting hormonal again. So, this emotional longing and pining is temporary and will pass once the bread I ate is digested. I'll soon remember that I myself is a blood red flag and I need to deal with the crushing weight of my issues before I take on any responsibility of a relationship. Heck, I managed to kill a succulent and they thrive on neglect.

*sighs* time to cook my brocolli.