#maybe i overread

[icharchivist]

MEGUMARI SUMMER LET’S FUCKING GO THAT’S MY GIRLS!!!!!!!!

[shining-scion]

I.

Really needed to hear this myself.

[galaxiesinadot]

In the Inazuma Eleven GO Dark version, Natsumi helps the Resistance, and in Chrono Stone there's an NPC conversation which says that Natsumi is the chairman of the Raimon school. (I guess this means she replaced the chairman who worked for Fifth Sector in GO.)

That's actually a really cool fact about Natsumi in the game! You know, the whole time I'm watching GO I was just wondering why Natsumi wasn't playing a bigger role. She has so many contacts that I know could help them (she literally got them to bypass the police during the aliea invasion in the original Inazuma Eleven). I was worried that they wouldn't do anything with her after that. From what I know, the games seemed to delve deeper into some characters from what I've seen. Like I know for other characters like Fubuki, they actually gave him lines that show how well he is bonding with the new Inazuma Japan team after the aliea arc which they didn't really do in the Inazuma Eleven animated series. Tobitaka, Fudou, and even the more minor characters like those from other teams (Edgar and Fidio) also come to mind. Still, I won't say that I'm totally satisfied because many of the girls still lack in screen time even in the games compared to the boys.

As for Natsumi's portrayal in Chrono Stone, that's some yummy info for lil ol' me. I'm glad she's still out there being the boss she's always been. I love to see the Inazuma girls flourish, especially because, while they are shown to be extremely helpful, they are still put on the backburner most of the time (I'm looking at Rika and Touko, the only two girls who actually got to play in all of the original and GO). I haven't watched Chrono Stone yet, only the original, the movies, and I'm almost done with GO. Still, I do wish they show her and the rest of the girls more often, doing important stuff for the plot.

[pinkydoggy83]

SPOILERS FOR THE DOGMAN BOOKS! HIGHLY ENCOURAGE READING THEM! THEY ARE SO CHARMING!

With that out of the way, I just wanna rant because I picked up the series again. I wanted to read it before watching the upcoming movie. Think of this as a Dog Man appreciation post <3

I stopped reading the series at "Lord of the Fleas" in elementary, so I started my binge read there.

I honestly wish I had never stopped reading so soon because this book is already a banger. I just love the way Petey is slowly accepting Li'l Petey as his son. Even without realizing it, he has grown so attached to his son and cares so much about him. Like, come on, that's hecken sweet.

Not only that, but I wanna mention George and Harold (I also used to read Captain Underpants back in the day). Back then I thought it was cool that it established that they were now fifth graders and were creating Dog Man as their next story after Captain Underpants. Now that I'm older, I feel this fuzzy feeling watching these goofy fifth graders try to be "mature" and in turn try to add some mature themes into Dog Man.

I find that really sweet and amazing! You really don't often see fictional authors of a story grow up like this. The authors themselves are characters. It's one of the most special things about this franchise. I really do appreciate this detail a lot more now. You get to grow up with them…or, I suppose, see them grow up. And in turn you see how the series changes!

The next book has a lot about Petey and Li'l Petey, but I want to cover this Dog Man part before talking about the cats.

Yeah, it's pretty strange to rationally realize that Dog Man is just a normal dude's body with a dog head. So in that way, Dog Man is a bit of an outcast (I can definitely use this for my own character exploration of Dog Man in a hypothetical fanfic). But the words used against Dog Man is"misfit," which I found interesting. Obviously, they are not outcasting him for his looks (that's not the main focus) but how he can't behave like he's expected to.

Dog Man isn't the most perfect hero. He can be clumsy, and his canine instincts can get in the way. It wouldn't be such a problem for him as a dog; however, he's not just a dog. He's a dog with human responsibilities. He's been given expectation ever since becoming Dog Man.

Don't get me started with the whole angst of his owner dying because that's already so much...but you have to realize that he's taking over Knight's job. Which the idea is hecken mind-boggling!

The thing that makes Dog Man overcome these problems is his golden heart. In the end, Dog Man wants to do the right thing and save the day. That's just Dog Man for ya. That's what makes him so much like a dog and a man.

I'm really overreading this all, but I love this idea for Dog Man. It's kinda hard to put it into words, but I hope this all makes sense.

OOOH BOY! This scene actually made me stop and put my phone down.

The sweet, sincere words of Li'l Petey as it sinks into Petey while Grandpa is just breaking stuff in the background. Guys. I wasn't expecting this from Dog Man. I was so shocked reading this part. Like you can see how much Petey loves Li'l Petey but has such a hard time seeing the world like his son does. Which, by the way, is literally his clone, so it's like him arguing with his inner child. That single hug speaks so many words. Petey just wants to protect him.

I love their dynamic so much. You got this old, disheveled cat who became realistic about the world in a sad way, and this young, wide-eyed, optimistic cat who has so much to learn about... but at the same time can teach so much. That's beautiful, man. That's beautiful.

Anyways, there's so much to talk about Dog Man (that's just how fantastic the books are), but I think I'll just end the post here for now. I'm still busy catching up, so maybe I'll share again. I'm just so glad I came back to this series again <3

[etheries1015]

Sorry, I overread it (It's currently 10pm where I live, I've been up since 4am, and my anxiety is kicking. Requesting things from people I never requested before is hard >.<)

May I request Riddle, Kalim, Idia and Malleus reacting to finding out their crush is trans-masc? Either by reader telling them or them finding out by accident

Never apologize for asking questions and sending asks! Please take care of yourself, get lots of rest, water, and sustenance <3

Finding out you're trans-masc

Featuring: Riddle, Kalim, Idia, Malleus

WARNINGS (please read): I'm a cis woman and I CANNOT stress enough that I may not be able to portray this as well as someone who actually identifies as such! I did do research ahead of time to make sure I try my very best to capture the essence of someone who identifies as trans-masc, but everyone's experiences are different. If I, in ANY way shape, or form, used incorrect terminology/representation or mistakenly offended anyone, please educate me so that I become more knowledgeable and can build my understanding. Other than that, I hope I did well in writing this for you to enjoy <3 Thank you for your time and for the request <3

Riddle

The topic came up during the first time you had gone to an Unbirthday party. Being misgendered by Riddle, you spoke up gently to inform him of your disposition.

"I'm...well, I don't use She/her pronouns." You shrugged. Riddle pursed his lips in frustration at his own confusion, he hadn't met someone falling under the LGBTQ umbrella before, he was incredibly sheltered and closed-minded for a long time due to his mother's teachings.

"I see..." Riddle nodded, "Then, please explain it to me so that I may not make the same mistake twice." He was eager to learn more about people and their experiences, especially learning about someone he found himself becoming more and more attached to.

Spends an entire night reading upon such topics- he was very quick to adapt and correct people around you whenever he found they did not address you properly.

"Does it bother you?" You had asked him once out of pure curiosity, and his response was with furrowed eyebrows and confusion.

"And why should it? It does not matter what you identify as. You are still (y/n). You are not your gender, and not your sex. You are..." He blushed deeply, you smiling to urge him on. You knew about his crush on you, of course, yet he seemed to be far too shy to admit it yet.

"You're..." He hesitated, "failing this class. G-get back to studying! quit getting distracted with silly questions or it's off with your head!"

You loved seeing him open his mind to many different concepts and treat you no differently than anyone else (minus some favoritism, hehe <3)

Kalim

It was actually Jamil who brought it up in conversation. The topic of "LGBTQ" came up, of course, Kalim understood the basics of people who identified as gay, however when the term "trans-masc" came up in regards to you, he was incredibly eager to learn more.

"Trans-masc? I thought they were (y/n)?"

"Kalim- no-"

It didn't take long for him to easily come around to the new terminology. You maybe gave him a 10 minute crash course before he accepted it face value.

"I see...so one day you're going to be by my side not as a queen, but as my royal spouse!" You were flabbergasted at his brazen comment. With a red face, you hadn't time to react before his hands were already around you in a deep hug.

"Haha! Oh, right! The pop club has a new song, wanna listen to it?"

He loves you no matter what. The most understanding and unconditionally in love person to exist, the definition of sunshine

Might overshare sometimes. He will bring it up sometimes to other people (if they misgender you) and give THEM a crash course on it! You love that he is so passionate about you, though. xoxo

Idia

He knew. He is chronically online, he knows all about it. When he first met you, he even asked what your preferred pronouns were.

I don't really know what else to say for Idia, he honestly doesn't care who you identify as. You play video games with him and give him love, that's enough for him!!

Can take it incredibly seriously If someone misgenders you or tries to bully you about your identity, his hair turns a fiery red and he turns gives them a whole one hour lesson while belittling that person calling them as intelligent as a soggy piece of bread.

The other person is crying by the end of it, but honestly nobody deserves to be treated disrespectfully like that.

actually how he confessed his crush to you, lol. In a fit of rage to someone who wasn't being very kind... "How dare you treat the one I love like that, you stupid normie piece of-" Realizes his mistake, face turns red, turns to you (whos face is also red)

"ummm.....Nevermind!" He runs away, but there was no getting away from you heuheu

even though he can be shy and kind of tsundere in public, he can be really passionate and will defend you at a moments notice and educate other people who are, as he puts, less than him.

In private? Sitting in his lap playing video games

Malleus

Actually, learned this from Idia. It was during class when the topic of LGBTQ came up, and when speaking among the students he over heard Idia telling ortho about your disposition as trans-masc.

Immediately came to you

"Child of man, what is 'trans-masc' and why did Idia use this term to describe you? Could you elaborate?" You two decided to take a stroll around the forest where you spent hours talking about all sorts of different people and the terms they used, explaining to him about dysphoria and how you discovered that the pronouns you were born with just didn't sit right with you.

Nods in understanding, but ends up purchasing a bunch of books Idia and Lilia recommended to him to increase his understanding.

Even though there are indeed things he will never be able to sympathize with properly and understand, such as the effects of dysphoria, but he will respect you full heartedly and not treat you any different despite still growing to learn about such topics.

All in all, it does not matter what you identify as. He finds himself completely enamored with you, loving how you teach him new things about anything and everything with humans- he will treat you the same as you treat him- impartial due to status, class, gender, pronouns, human or fae. He knew you were the one he wanted to rule Briar Valley next to one day- as his lovely spouse.

~~

I hope I was able to answer your request satisfyingly <3 Please let me know if anything needs to be changed and I shall update accordingly, I myself am always learning and growing every day! Please be kind <3

[adarafaelbarba]

Hello there,

So I was the one with the Judd Ryder Ask's maybe you could still write them without mentioning a Age. Or you can also write it with Ages you are comfortable with.

I'm Sorry I must have Overread that.

Thank you in Advance !

a/n: This is an au where Grace and Judd never met. It's easier that way for me to write this, as I absolutely adore him with Grace, and couldn't see them divorcing. Anyways, enjoy ❤️

a/n 2: Also this is the first time I'm writing for him and for this fandom, so please judge fairly 🫣❤️

The ambulance rolled back into the garage after another grueling call with more casualties than you wanted to have ever, especially in a single call. 126 seemed so quiet, the trucks not back yet, meaning the hug you needed from Judd would have to wait some more.

Some words had been said between you last night that you wished you hadn't said, and then all morning when you wanted to talk to him, you'd both been interrupted by the bells going off every so often, leaving no room to talk.

Telling your partner you'd been getting some rest until the next call, you went into the sleeping area and curled up on Judd's bed, dozing off until you finally let sleep overcome you.

Not sure how long you'd been out, you woke with a start when you felt a hand on your waist, looking up to seeing Judd sitting next to you, looking at you with wonder.

"Wasn't sure you'd want to talk to me, darlin'," he murmured, helping you sit up.

"I thought the same. Listen, about last night--"

"I shouldn't have blown up like I did, I was just--scared--scared that you'd see I'm no good for you, and you'd want to leave."

You took his face between your hands at that, looking at him like he was the only person in the world. "Listen to me, Judson Ryder, you are the best man I could ever hope to fall for. Sure you have some flaws, but we all do. Nobody is perfect, but you're perfect for me."

Tears welled up in his eyes at your words, and you leant up the rest of the way to kiss the tears away before they could fall too far.

"I don't care that we're a few years apart, Judd, all I care about is if you love me."

He looks up at you, tears still in his eyes. "I love you, y/n, I love you so much. And I can't stand to loose you."

At his confession, you pulled him in for a kiss, showing all your love for him, and your willingness to stay with him, for however long or little you had on this earth together.

[sideblogdotjpeg]

feeling like. ep 60 was such a fantastic arc finale battle ep. and auugh. like so many things. LIKE .

the slow build up of tension over the ep felt really good and perfect, as it escalates from alexandrite being silly and goofy to. gargantuan cyberflesh horror. and how the dice were UNCANNILY perfect for it all. like. the nat 1 vs nat 20 roll for the town and suddenly the entire mood shifts and the stakes are so much realer, and personal. followed up by the nat 20 for the town! followed up by TWO callie crits and her dealing 130 DAMAGE like each turn!!!! like!!!!! AUGH... the. just the beats of it all was soo good and.

tying to that .. the character moments for this ep were so good !!! every character got their moment to shine in the battle. already discussed callie absolutely whomping fucking ass, but of course the smaller moments as well. offering to go and defend calders town. seeing the faewild sky and "i think i needed to leave to become worthy of it" - like and as the culmination of callies arc. from someone who was so scared and running away to. staying, standing, fighting, protecting. AND ITS GOOD.

then of course theres calder. i mean also the . ARC. of the only thing he wanted was not to be overprotected. wanting to be useful - like his brothers, people who had strength and value in the eyes of their people, big enough to defend their town. and he has come all the way here. he changes the tides of the battlefield in the town - and he does it with the attachments of his friends and the love of his family. and like... god. really crystalising his ethos in a way that is foiled so well against gowan. gowan who was too proud to ask for help. vs "i cant do it without you" "but damn does it feel good when your friends have your back" ... !!!! AYYEARGH. like. hes becoming the protector of his home! but maybe now, his home is so much bigger than the ice knife, and hes not fighting alone .... YOU KNOW.

AND SOL!!!!! sol to my knowledge only deals 30 damage this battle but. as a resident sol enjoyer i !!! am VERY MUCH CLAPPING AND CHEERING!! at the deeply supportive role he took on for this fight. like hes the first to get the ice knife away from alexandrite, he gives callie an extra smite, silvery barbs.... ! like the short rest realisation of how different the battle wouldve gone without that silvery barbs is .... ! SO ITS GOOD. and at the end that he was the one to get the final blow on alexandrite and it was for swag is ...

and! that part was obviously a joke! as is the entire "keep em guessing haha alexandrite cant predict what were doing!!!" thing. HOWEVER. relistening to the ezry arc, and their first interaction w alexandrite as we now know her ... i just. REALLY feel like this is the spiritual successor to "were duck team and were messy and were friends and we do everything together and we absolutely suck shit all day long and all night baby". theyre so fucking stupid is the thing. and theyre messy and stupid and constantly saying things that are weird and make no sense and completely and utterly baffling .... and thats DUCK TEAM!!! (theres also a point here where im overreading somewhat. but the part about Keepin em Guessin... one could POSSIBLY argue it interacts in a MAYBE DEEPLY INTERESTIGN WAY with . the idea of the calculated certainty of the AI, the calm and cold prediction of the diviners, and the wild freedom of the peregrines. idk!!! maybe!!! maybe you cld even say that what lies at the heart of duck team is their messiness and outofplaceness and love and care and refusal of the tragedy!!! even!! maybe!! but YEAH. lol random XD ! keep em guessin!)

also the thing that made me write all this which is like. ! the final victory lap scene is just. so wonderfully cathartic, esp with how tense this entire arc has been. its just. fuck yeah we won and all our friends and family are here and safe and riding on mammoths!!! i mean. FUCKING ALBINS BACK!!!! GREGORS HERE AND KICKIN ASS!!! THE MA GOBLIN BRIGADE!!! A WIN. and ... that bit of callie just sitting on the roof playing a guitar as she stares into the fae wild sky is ... its good.. its good..

and all that is maybe. half the reasons why ep 60 is so good. i didnt even get around to talking about the fucking EMILY AXFORD SONG WHICH IVE BEEN PLAYING NONSTOP ALL DAY SO. yeah. so i like this ep i guess

[hysel-e]

☀️ A Vacation to Remember ☀️

"Last year, I wanted to invite you to the beach, but you immediately shot me down without even hearing me out,” you said, pretending to wipe away imaginary tears. “You wounded me, you know. Oh, how times have changed.”

“I had better things to do than to spend my summer break with you,” Orter deadpanned, adjusting his glasses as he spoke.

“So you were just shy. I get it. Since you agreed to go this time, I'll take that as a sign we’re growing closer~”

“Do not put words into my mouth.”

You, Orter, and Alex were currently at the beach for summer break. It took a lot of convincing from both you and Alex before Orter finally agreed to be abducted to the beach.

However, while you and Alex were playing in the ocean, a certain four-eyes was seated in the shade, reading a book.

Noticing this transgression, you made your way over to him. "Why are you reading at the beach? Your habit of overreading is precisely the reason why your eyes turn into 3s when you take your glasses off,” you remarked, casting a playful glance at him.

Before Orter could respond to your cheeky remark, Alex approached with something in his hand. “I brought a slaughtermelon!"

"Why would you bring that here?" Orter asked, a trace of revulsion colored his face.

"It's times like these when you gotta smash melons, dummy!" Alex exclaimed enthusiastically.

"'Tis the season," you concurred, eyeing Orter mischievously.

"Speaking of smashing melons... Orter's pretty hard-headed. We could smash the slaughtermelon onto his head,” you suggested, half-jokingly. “I doubt he would sustain any brain damage due to that skull of his.”

Immediately following your words, you were pulled into the sand, finding yourself eye-level with Orter's feet. You had forgotten that you were currently in his natural territory.

“Did I lie, though?”

As night descended, you found Orter by the shore, his nose buried in a book as usual.

Approaching with a playful smile, you asked, “Mind if I join you?”

Without lifting his gaze from the pages, he replied, “What’s the point of asking? You’d do so regardless.”

“You’re so right, Orter. I can’t believe you know me so well,” you chuckled, earning a slight “tsk” from him.

“So, what brings you out here at this hour while Alex is fast asleep?” you inquired, settling down beside him.

Orter, as dry as ever, responded, “I went out to get away from you, but it appears that plan failed."

Without skipping a beat, you flashed a wide grin. “Then I’ll have no choice but to make you enjoy my company~”

At this point, he had completely abandoned any hope of reading in peace.

“What makes you think I want that?” Orter glanced your way, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose.

"I mean, who wouldn't want someone as charming as myself for company?" you remarked confidently, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.

Knowing that arguing with you was only a waste of time and breath, he let out an exasperated sigh and resigned himself to your presence, listening to your ramblings while gazing at the scenery.

It was a night of the full moon, the sky adorned with countless stars.

They say that the company you keep can enhance moments like these...

Though Orter was not one to appreciate the natural beauty of the night, the scene tonight was particularly alluring.

At some point, you fell silent. Resting your head on your knees, you watched as Orter absorbed the view before him with his usual expressionless face. His presence alone had a way of making your heart skip a beat.

Opportunities to silently enjoy his company like this were rare, so you were savoring every second.

The scene of the ocean and sky illuminated by the full moon was breathtaking, and yet… you found the concentric rings in his eyes far more captivating.

“Quit staring,” his voice interrupted your trance.

“Oh, was I..? Maybe because the person I’m looking at is too mesmerizing to avert my eyes,” you teased.

Your comeback left him momentarily at a loss for words. Never before had he had to deal with anyone this... brazen. “You and your jokes. Your shamelessness knows no bounds, does it?” he said, adjusting his glasses.

"Yep. Since you already know how shameless I am, I'd like to take a picture of you; it'll last longer," you replied with a wink.

"A camera would be required for that," he remarked dryly.

"Don't underestimate me. I come prepared for every situation," you said, producing a camera out of thin air.

"Let's take one together," you suggested, closing the distance between you.

Orter didn't mind the proximity, per se, but it was the sudden closeness that flustered him. “Fine,” he relented, “but just one photo.”

With a click, the picture was captured.

The photo was a success. "It's perfect! I'll make sure to cherish this picture forever," you giggled, filled with genuine delight.

Turning to Orter, you added with a grin, "Oh, and just for the record, I'm only this shameless when it comes to you."

Orter averted his gaze, his ears tinged with red. "Hand me a copy. I need to make sure you didn't make me look foolish."

As you handed him a copy, you noticed a subtle softening in his eyes. “You don't look silly at all. It’s impossible to make you look silly. The camera likes you just as much as I do,” you teased, nudging him playfully with your elbow.

“I suppose it’s an acceptable photograph,” he reluctantly admitted, as he carefully placed the photo into his book, marking the page he had been reading.

In that moment, you felt grateful for the scenery that lay before your eyes, for the cool ocean breeze that caressed your skin, for his presence that comforted your very soul, and you hoped Orter felt the same way too.

With softened eyes and heartfelt sincerity, you expressed, “I’m truly glad, Orter, that you’re part of this photograph and this precious memory of mine...”

[peppeppeppepperoni-pizza]

Genuine Thoughts on Gino Show 1

Oh my god, okay, I'm finally gonna say words about it now that it's sat for a few days.

I'm glad to see that Khonjin's humor has not left at all, it feels like he never stopped making Khonjin House. The fucking bit with the agents protecting Danielle, which was funny in and of itself, but the bookend being Gino trying to kill himself only for someone to jump IN BETWEEN HIM AND THE GUN is such a fantastic visual gag.

I'll also say, it seems interesting that we're attempting a serialized story again after KTAB, which was, as we all know, obliterated to hell and back thanks to The Purge. Feel like we're seeing a genuine look into Khonjin's head with this idea that Khonjin House can't die, and he feels like he needs to make the worst season ever. Or, yknow maybe I'm overreading this, maybe it's just the story Khonjin decided to make.

I WILL SAY I wanna see if we get any other major story stuff. Maybe Khonjin will stop being so scared of having Supermental stuff in his silly pizza show /lh.

Also, our new antag Danielle is fun! If I can call her a real antag, still seems like all this was Khonjin's fault at the end of the day, but also I can't stay mad at him. ALSO WHERE'S SPAGGERS I MISS HIM I NEED MY GAY SPAGHETTI CEO.

[6starsart]

Hi sorry to randomly bother you again today but I as I said earlier I went looking translation differences since you got really interested to see how many there were but I couldn’t find any that were ‚big‘ only ‚small‘ ones like slightly sentence structure changes and slightly different wording

So I was wondering if I was simply overlooking/overreading some of them. So I directly compared the English translation and the German translation of the first volume and have found a few that I can’t believe I missed while first looking for them

1.

I have to be able to read Lady Kate's every wish from her eyes

2.

No no —> oh, not at all

Hit —> pushed

3.

Maybe I need to be oiled

4.

That's a shame

5.

you have a really sunny disposition

6.

Let‘s get along—> I'm pleased (as in I'm pleased to meet you)

I hope we can get along —> I am also pleased (as in I'm pleased to meet you too)

7.

technically translated it would be „it's been dealt with“ or „it’s done“ but in this context it’s more like „forget about“

DONT APOLOGIZE!!!!!!!! IM VERY GRATEFUL YOU'RE GOING THROUGH ALL THIS EFFORT JUST TO SHOW LITTLE OL ME ALL OF THIS,,,

this is the best ,, small changes here and there are always so fun to see. Like how Mia's laugh gets changed from "ufufu" to "tehehe" or with Emilico thinking she needs to be oiled like a machine (save her. save my poor girl emilico...)

ALSO THANK YOU FOR THE ADDED CONTEXT.. The direct translation makes sense (since the soot did deal with itself) but if Emilico is just going "Forget about it" is WAY funnier.

Again thank you so much I am LOVING these little finds you're doing. They're so interesting and cool and gaaahhh T0T

[pm-my-beloved]

Binah, My Favorite Sephirah and Librarian

Recently, on Discord I gushed on why I love Binah as a character, and it was exhaustive enough that I decided to post it here, albeit with additional editing and information. Hope you enjoy~

So At the beggining, Garion was embodiment of how much City can break and remold someone, she was someone who dealt with her own fear and misery by surpressing those feelings in herself and focusing on causing that in others, seeking to see faces distort in terror just to feel semblance of control and power in her life, despite having really none, even as an arbiter.

In lobcorp, she is simmilarily resigned to her fate, not even being that resentful because there isn't anything she could do about it, she couldn't even go insane, prevented by the robotic body she was put in, instead, she was forced to endure hundreds of years of solitude simmilar to angela and Hokma, with full belief that nothing will ever change. Even her primary theme, Awake in death, musically implies that any attempt of rise in hope is quickly cut down into further and deeper misery, than if no hope was there to begin with.

When she meltdowns, she finally gains chance to just, go insane for a moment, to feel that relief, and what is her musical theme at that time? Its childish, whimsical. In violence and brutality she can finally feel some semblance of joy, just like Garion did, even if that joy is sort of a childish one, made up to cover her inner feelings, and grew so thick she no longer knows whats inside.

But after being surpressed, after finally being able to basically vent out and let go, and after being shown, that this man, X, was able to stand in face of a catastrophe such as an unleashed Arbiter without power of someone like Red Mist, broke the utter apathy Binah was mired in, she saw, that maybe, what this man is doing was not as hopeless, that he is able to stand in face of fear and attempt to break the cycle, or maybe at least, what he would do would be like a circle spinning, rather than a meaningless threadmill. She saw chance for something to change for the better, and decided that she desires to witness that struggle, even if it were to fail, just as she witnessed the well.

Inbetween ruina and Lobcorp, Binah stood on the side of Angela, she said it was because Angela was yet another of Ayins creations, and extension of his will, and desired to be able to see it aswell, though I believe that she also felt sympathy for the poor girl, with how she herself was stripped of any freedom in lobcorp against her will.

In Ruina, she had chance to think through what happened back then and in the events preceeding her floor opening (Which took like, several months lol), as well as, while I don't think she felt particularily remorse for her actions, she still clearly decided to be someone better to those around her.

Starting with her being gentle, yet firm towards Roland, not giving him answers he wants, but rather, questions he needs to be able to move forward, she teaches him just as she was taught by her experiences in lobcorp, to see reality beyond ones own prejudices and preconceptions. Not only that, she presents no judgement. As opposed to Garion, who literally was THE JUDGE, Binah simply lets others be, only pointing them towards directions using questioning, never forcing a conclusion, only telling Roland what to do straight when he was truly lost, when he needed that direct advice to be able to make a choice.

She also presented kindness towards Gebura and Hod, specifically trying to make Hod more comfortable, and going out of her way to provide a type of tea that while she herself does not fancy, she thought would put the girl at ease. And that kindness doesn't extend only to Patron Librarians. This may be a mechanical overreading, but, the abnormality fight where Binah enters to help her librarians, is specifically against judgement bird, embodiment of what she no longer is, AND the fight where judgement and sin is ascribed onto someone. And with her speed, pages and slash resistance, she specifcially is the best target for birds to hit her and inflict her with sin. She literally takes on sins, so that nobody else has to be judged.

Ruina Binah puts on a front of someone stern and distanced, but at her core, she is a caring person, almost motherly in how she treats others. That does NOT mean that she no longer is someone who enjoys violence. She clearly does as seen in her sprites for getting hurt, that is something that has become core of who she is, yet simmilarily to Gebura, she is able to channel it towards protecting those who are close to her.

I want to also express additional appreciation of what Binah is in Kabbalah, and how it helps us understand the character better.

Within Kabbalah, Binah is understanding, she represents our ability to interpret reality and intuition and wisdom through intelect. She is described as a place of infinite mirrors within which the light of creation is understood through variety of perspectives, and simmilarily, our Binah seeks to understand world without judgement, appreciate its beauty for what it is, and for what people see it as (This also is expressed through Kabbalistic Binah having connection to Tiphereth which stands for beauty).

She also is described in a form of a nurting mother, who cares for those close to her, which is visible, albeit more subtly, in PM, as well as her having connection to Gebura (literally strenght), giving her ability to protect those close to her.

And lastly, the Qlippoth (Shell) of Binah, aka who she was back in lobcorp, represents understanding ending in rigidity and lack of compassion, certainty of correctness of ones own perception of the world, lacking desire or even capability to take others perspectives. I love Binah.

[soft-pine]

spn20rewatch: 1.15 the benders // cn csa

in my head this episode is a companion piece to 4.11 family remains. while the presence of incestuous CSA is not nearly as prominent here, there's still the uncomfortable lingering of one of the brother's hands on missy's hair and back. there's still dean picking up on it and saying "how about it's not nice to marry your sister." i have to admit that as a survivor of paternal CSA, i can get a little jumpy at the mention or implication thereof and maybe i'm overreading. but it's clearly not a stretch to say something is deeply, worryingly, desperately wrong with how this family is operating and how they are treating their children.

so here we have again the theme of family as the true source of monstrosity. it's come up a lot a few times this season so far and it's a lot to encounter it once again right after 1.14. wholistically, i wonder what it means? the millers relied on secrets. the benders rely on isolation. where does that leave the winchesters?

overall this is a good horror ep. the benders house is deeply creepy with all its trappings of trophies and human remains. there's dramatic tension and unexpected turns and a cop whose only able to help by breaking the rules (wahoo acab).

plus we get one of the best shots in all of spn.

plus ps we get one of the second best shots in all of spn

plus pps while i can maybe write off the wink, i simply cannot account for dean being in the men's room for an hour? like okay sam leaves the bar; dean's goes into the men's room. are straight-dean-truthers just like oh he left the bathroom and was just hanging out in the bar without sam? or like he left right away but sam wasn't there so he was asking about the parking lot for the last hour just to get more context? like okay i know straight-dean-truthers are literally not paying attention but like i baffles me? he winks a... someone... and then goes into the men's room for an hour.

[adasknife]

maybe i am overreading ada, but this trope is kind of funny with ada. she is a bit cocky for surviving and boom, she needs leon's help

[hinamie]

I didn't truly write that thinking "the fandom will be happy with more content!", though that is also true, or about how people will look swiftly at your art and not give it as much thought as you did. They may! It was more that... it would be lovely even so? haha I love to look and look again and use as loxkscreen the art I love, and sometimes it makes me start noticing that maybe some things are weird. Maybe that hand is a bit strange, that nape is too plain, that shadow makes the arm a bit weird,... but that is often a consequence of the unique aspect of a piece and many times linked to the specific artstyle of an artist, and thus part of what makes the art charming. And it's something logical for nothing to ever be perfect (though I totally totally get the drive to at the very least try). Not even the big classic artists do everything perfect. You know Raphael's sixth finger? Honestly I 100% think it's people overreading a perspective that turned out to be a bit weird and a hand that was drawn a bit too wide perhaps (the supposed sixth finger is so clearly the hand to me). Caravaggio is wonderful but at times I've thought there's a forearm that looks a bit strange if I look at it a lot. Leonardo has some very weird stuff at times too. Just to name a few haha. I don't know. Humanity is intrinsically fallible, perfection is but an utopia we can try to achieve but never get to, and a piece of art is a neverending process but by decision. And that's part of its charm too. Like Duchamp's broken glass, or how rain makes petals fall and damages the flowers, even though it looks so beautiful. I don't know haha. I didn't want to try and push you into posting more stuff, I hope it didn't came off that way. Just that. Know that some people do stare intently and do like to deeply analyse fandom pieces, and it's great, even with the small imperfections. They're bound to happen. Of course they haunt us haha it's always haunting. But what would life be without ghosts I suppose haha

Sorry to bother you again but I truly wanted to make sure I didn't come off as pushing for you to post more stuff or made you feel your effort to make things perfect and deep would be unappreciated, or turn out to be unimportant because no one would give too much time or thought to art, just look at it. It's definitely not what I wanted xD Hope you have an excellent day!

you're no bother, I didn't read your previous ask that way at all! I ws moreso like. adding onto what you were saying as more examples of reasons why my anxieties r probably unfounded. and i was generalizing a bit yes ghjsdf i know there are people who look at art for longer than the time it takes to hit like or reblog, and I appreciate the love they show my pieces dearly!!

as for the mistakes/quirks in art that show an artist's unique touch or serve as a reminder that there is a person behind every piece I do agree !! i love when you can see evidence of the person who made a piece of art n recognize those little markers of humanity. it's like that meme tho, the "you don't have to be perfect to be loved. me on the other hand," n the fact that I Am My Own Worst Critic i wld throw hands with the bitch i see in the mirror in a Heartbeat. most of my issues boil down to the fact that i have trouble giving anything less than 100% in what i do or being proud of products I don't see as reflecting the absolute best of my abilities. i've definitely gotten better over the course of this year but i still have a long way to go so baby steps for now ig :')

[ph-cutie]

controversial take and i get where these posts come from maybe im overreading but i do genuinely feel like some tumblr activists need to be reminded that usually having your marginalized identity Invalidated by your coworker who just kinda doesnt care is really not worse than like. facing active bigotry because you CANT hide said marginalized trait

[postersofleon]

huh. like maybe i'm slightly overreading this. ideas and stories will never be original, and i personally understand this. but like- there's a story so similar to one of mine. i don't know. like details are different, but it's nearly the same thing