#maybe i need to self reblog more but also maybe that annoys people

[fantastic-mr-corvid]

probably should have spread out my art posting more. its ✨Burnout Time✨ bc it turns drawing enough to be posting almost daily is fucking unsustainable and just a burst of energy that would not last.

[beddybites]

about the infantilizing Giyuu and motherly Shinobu post, 100% yes.

So many people baby Giyuu and make him a sad uwu baby who needs someone to take care of him. He isn't. If anything, he's the one doing the caring, esp when it comes to Tanjiro and Nezuko.

And Shinobu doesn't need to be made a maternal figure to him! She's younger than him, for one, and two, the whole reason she has a "maternal" aura (if you could even call it that) is because she's trying to emulate Kanae. It's not a healthy reason.

(sorry if this is worded badly!)

YESSSS this is a really good point anon! thank you for sharing!!

giyuu’s relationship with tanjiro and nezuko is really really sweet and i agree that i see him more in caregiving roles!! someone on the original post reblogged and mentioned wanting to see more tired dad energy from giyuu and i absolutely agree

and to your point, the maternal vibes people get from shinobu are her projection of kanae );

at the end of the day everyone has their own preferences and that’s totally fine!!! @kny-agere makes a great point on the post and notes people may put giyuu’s in these roles to cope with their own things or simply because giyuu’s the favorite, and thats fine! i do that with obanai and muichiro all the time… but to their point self actualization can be good esp if you are always putting the female character in these roles

i dunno… i was raised by a stay at home dad so maybe i have personal beef with the concept of the mother always taking care of the kids :,D part of it too is shinobu is still very young ): girl get behind me

maybe im also just annoyed by mischaracterization of characters. even in non baby situations giyuu is infantilized a lot. take sanegiyuu for instance— i feel that people take typical yaoi cliches and apply them here, with sanemi being this tough sexy man and giyuus just 🥺 and submissive.

guys i have bad news but if sanemi even was a tough sexy man and he said something to giyuu that giyuu doesnt like, sanemi’s getting sassed back or ghosted because giyuu walked off fully knowing it would aggravate sanemi

i dunno. the fandomification of these characters is really interesting. everyone applies these traits to sanemi not realizing tengen is right there with said traits already, for instance. infantilization. stereotypes. etc

[sayitaliano]

Hello, I’ve been trying to learn Italian for a few years now (it’s been an on and off thing, depending on how frustrated I get lol), I feel like my discipline is not the best, and the fact that I can’t find a native to practice and ask for help is also pretty discouraging. Could you please give me a few tips as to what I can do to learn more in my current situation? Thank you 💕

Ciao!

For as frustrating as it may get (and I know what you mean here as a languages student myself), my main suggestion is to try and keep up a constant pace that allows you to study at least 15 minutes everyday (or a bit more 3-4 times a week, all according on your schedule ofc). I noticed an improvement once I started being more consistent in my practice (even writing just a sentence per day is better than doing a whole paragraph each month -eg. I've been writing a diary everyday, not just about random stuff but inserting different things like descriptions, answering questions, grammar stuff/sentences practice...). And ofc, the moment I decided I wanted to be more consistent, I had to start from basics again (and I'm suggesting you the same).

Set easy goals, plan reviews of what you have studied (even the week before), write in and listen to your target language (and also talk to yourself in it, like eg. describe what's around you or try to tell yourself what you should do; immerse yourself in the culture as much as you can -youtube is so of help with its many vlogs and shows and music...): I understand you want to run fast towards fluency but it's not said you need to reach it in a certain amount of time. Allow yourself to have days in which you see no progress or even think you're taking step backward. It's okay, it's all part of the process (we also have bad days in general, so be kind with yourself). We need for stuff we learn to settle a bit here and there, and therefore not making moves even for a week or two (or more) is normal. Go slow: moving fast is enemy when we want to learn and really assimilate what we learn.

Even if it's annoying to study, grammar is fundamental. And Italian grammar is not easy to learn so again it may take time according on what you are studying (nouns' genders, irregular verbs, articles, pronouns, adjectives.... try to start as easy as you can). If you rather, I'd suggest you buying a book for foreigners (I'm leaving you the resources masterpost, maybe you can find studying books but also other resources for your self studies)

I have collected LOADS of studying tips in the years on this masterpost (lemme add this since i cannot edit that post now) and... actually I know of a native who's trying to practice English (this said you can write a post about needing a "Penpal" and tag me, I'll happily reblog it here: many Italians follow me or you can use some other app). Don't give up on a native's help: being corrected when we make mistakes is so very important. It helps us remember the mistake we made and not do it anymore (or be more aware of it). Or find studying pals! I'm sure other Italian students would like to share and help you. Having others studying with us, may also help when it comes to consistency: we have no excuse but to practice at least every week and then we can practice together too. There's nothing bad in asking for help: if you don't know something, you cannot just try to solve it yourself, as you may not find the solution (or find a incorrect one): that way studying a language can really become frustrating to say the least as you may feel like you're in a hole and you cannot get out of it. Don't make it more difficult for yourself, make it easier. It's plenty of people who'd like to help you out and find themselves in your same position. You're not a bother, js.

All the best!! And ofc here I am if you need help :)

[hotpinkboots]

jealous mando x fem reader please? reader meets someone while they're out and the guy starts flirting with her

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I don't think you darlings know that I am audibly speaking to you because when I get a request I love it's an immediate "I LOVE YOU OH MY GOD" or a giggle and wiggle from me. I AM SPEAKING TO YOU PEOPLE OUT LOUD

THIS RIGHT HERE MADE ME GASP AND JUMP FROM MY SEAT THANK YOU

*insert more whining about how my black text option on Tumblr is still broken* so yeah it's boring and colorless :(

⭐REMEMBERRR THIS IS ALL PART OF THE MANDALORIAN SEASON 3 EVENT THINGY! Any requests I get with Mando will be done BEFORE any other requests in my inbox! This goes all week long!⭐

~Enjoy~

★★★★

𝕯𝖎𝖓 𝕯𝖏𝖆𝖗𝖎𝖓

★★★★

~So you finally were able to pull Mr. Metal Head out of the ship-

~But then it went downhill.

~Let's say the guy was just chatting with you because he thought you were cute and not because he was a pervert.

~Din, as soon as he saw, walked over and just looked at him, trying to be intimidating but not cruel. Just a warning.

~Guy got the point and backed off, sulking a little and feeling embarrassed because he didn't know you were taken. Oops :(

~But let's say this guy will NOT stop trying to chat you up.

~Maybe you're talking back because 1. he's a funny guy, or 2. because you're humoring him.

~Either way, Mando's way more sensitive than one would think. He feels a sense of abandonment that he always has to deal with because people are always tryna betray him or be like "if I do this for you then you need to do this for me", and his parents, and now you look like you're having fun with this guy so like

~Are you happier?? he wants you to be happy :(

~He knows how God damn AWKWARD he is too and how he's not good with words really.

~So maybe you think he doesn't love you?? What is it?

~Not to mention the fact you aren't even allowed to see his freaking face.

~He's overthinking and watching from afar

~But then jealousy starts bubbling up

~And he's like

~Who does he think he is talking to her she's way out of his league

~Totally glaring and trying not to let jealousy control him.

~Eventually the dude leaves, and Mando comes back. He doesn't say anything yet but he's obviously way more stiff than he usually already is.

~So when you're both walking back to the ship he's silent and weird. Not because he's angry at you but because he's self conscious and wants to bring it up but doesn't want you to think he's saying you aren't loyal.

~"...He liked you."

~It's blunt but straight to the point. He's not gonna tip toe around the subject like it's something that shouldn't be talked about.

~Din ends up getting real close to you and looking down at you like the intimidating bitch he is. In your personal space. Like drop everything you're doing because he's serious rn.

~"Did you like him?"

~Don't tease him about it. If you start teasing him that he's jealous he'll hate it. Makes his chest heat up and his jaw clench, and he just ends up walking away from you.

~Also sorry but purposely trying to make your boyfriend jealous is gross behavior that just makes people self conscious and upset c'mon man

~So it's best if you actually explain the situation and reassure him about it. Communication is key to a healthy relationship. Din wants you to talk to him about stuff even if he doesn't really know how to respond. He'll try his best.

~So yeah overall he's overprotective and might immediately glare daggers at someone if they try for one second to flirt with you. Jealousy makes him self conscious and sulky, maybe even a little annoyed at you for entertaining it and causing it to continue on rather than just speaking up that you're taken.

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I have the biggest FATTEST URGE to write a oneshot for this darling oh my gosh

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~Love, PinkBoots

[franki-lew-yo]

Two rants, one family

As someone who was scammed just last year by actual bots because the help I hired didn't know what they were doing, and then by actual grifters who told me everything I wanted to hear and took my money for my project promos and gave THAT to bots ---

I'm a little fracking tired of this idea that any online donations or transactions to small-companies MUST be scams because 'it's spammy'. Well then call it a 'spammer' then, not a 'scammer'. That's not the same thing.

It's not that scammer hand-outs don't exist. They do. They suck, but also they also don't last long. BUT- if you are ever in a situation where you've needed money asap and you're NOT an influencer with a huge audience, you have to get on track with dayly reblogging and self-promoting as much as possible. Otherwise, if people are anything like yourself when YOU feel like donating, people forget about you, they overlook your struggles, and they never even know you were having a 'sale' or a 'deal' at all!!

One thing that a lot of *bad* entrepreneur websites try to tell people, especially vulnerable people who can't pay for services that give them online marketing tips cuz that money needs to go to rent or food or pets or not dying, IS to flood people's inboxes from any blog they have (and any blog their friend has) to get the word out. They (crap companies who make all the 'free advice' or marketing garbage) tell a lot of people to do this and it's why a lot of n00b donation holders get dismissed as scams and/or bots -> because we get it, we're annoying and you don't want to be seeing us. Cept, UNLIKE actual scammers and bots, we don't have access to all your private information and we also don't want it. We don't have access to emails we get to fill up with crap. We/I have to do EVERY. SINGLE. THING. MANUALLY.

E V E R Y T H I N G-

Tumblr is the easiest website to use (at the moment) because of my queing system. You have to pay to que thing up on Instagram and Facebook. Yes. You do. Look it up. You do. In order to promo myself, my work, my brand, with little to nothing on me, I HAVE to do things manually. I hate it. I can't get good at it out of no where and with not professional training or, again, paying.

Just this last year I've had people on my TNBC comic blog be all "ugh can you not post this" or "can you just post tnbc". Quick solution to those folks: Use my tags -available to EVERYONE- if you JUST want to see my TNBC submissions. That's my blog as much as this one is and PARDON ME for wanting to promote my original artwork that I hope you'll give some attention to as much as my fanart for. I know it's hard to do/care about people's original work when you don't know/don't want to give money to something you don't know. I shouldn't act entitled to the reaction I want, and I'm not trying to.

But, personally, as an artist - nothing tells me "I don't care about you personally or your health/wellbeing" more than asking 'when's 'x' thing coming out?' again and again and AGAIN . . . And frankly, I've been slacking on reblogging as many people's fundraisers, commission prices and MORE because I was afraid of this kind of behavior. I'm sorry I have a life and maybe need a little help sometimes. I'm sorry my friends who are also writers and artists have lives. In the case of my TNBC blog specifically, I made that blog because I felt at peace and in love with my hyperfixation in Nightmare Before Christmas. Don't make me dread of associate these kinds of feelings with my hyperfixtion. Don't make me a moody-proody Jack Skellington who feels like no one understands me and just wants me to 'keep dancing'. Don't take this passion away from me.

You know that crapphrase that everyone says is Marilyn Monroe when it isn't: "if you can't take me at my worst you don't deserve me at my best" or however it goes? That one. The thing that sucks about that phrase, besides it not being from Marilyn, is that it's used and weaponized by shiddy gaslighter-type when it's not supposed to be about the right to be mean and get away with it. It's SUPPOSED to be a plea of acceptance. It's one of many philosophies that can be used for toxic self-care/self-harm, but in itself is not about forcing people to tolerate your bull. Believe me; I've been screamed at in real life and goaded into letting someone trashtalk me online because I was gaslit to 'sit there and take it' because 'I deserve it' one too many real times. I know what someone who truly does the "take me at my worst = me hurting you;disregarding your feelings" ACTUALLY acts.

If you can't take me at my self-promoty-cringey-social-justice-gawker awkward-autistic self, than you don't deserve me at my creative ~autistic gurl~ aesthetic self.

DM or PM me if you're having a legit problem and think something is wrong or I'm hurting myself/others/making an unwise choice. Other than that: cope. My blogs are my blogs.

[cabeswaterdrowned]

Adam Parrish + 2 😈😈(for the ask game)

How would you rewrite this characters canon arc?

Partially answered with my tag rant on this reblog https://www.tumblr.com/adanseydivorce/751040074340286464?source=share

I don’t really have much I would say about changing his trc arc because I think overall it’s a very good arc one of my favorites. I did reblog a meta post about both trc and tdt and how Adam generally isn’t allowed to *fail* in a sense, when he overworks himself in a variety of ways manually academically magically etc. and that feeding into the weird way he’s a sort of capitalistic success story when you take in all seven books, and I think they’re right and there are places in both trc and tdt where that could be interrogated or altered a bit. But the emotional beats of his arc are well handled imo and I wouldn’t really change them. I would have liked some additional resolutions to some of his relationships in TRK but that has more to do with issues I have with TRK in general and less Adam’s role in it specifically (although I think if I could change one thing there I would have him actually apologize to Blue for some things about how he treated her; but also I partly feel that way more for fandom reasons than in text ones since in text I think their bitchy Ninos argument is a fun resolution. And then the Adansey shovel talk scene is the opposite: I’m not a huge fan of the scene itself as resolution / would prefer Gansey to actually voice his feeling hurt by Adam so it could be unpacked, but fandom was overdramatic and annoying about the scene so that’s pushed me to acceptance.) much more to say about td3 for obvious reasons so moving on:

Basically I like the set up in cdth of him wanting to reinvent himself, of course being who I am I love the fucked up trying to be Gansey 2.0 part of it lol and I don’t think he should have a smooth sailing path to success / suddenly be content at Harvard so him being a bit miserable there and the whole crying club thing made sense. I do think we should have gotten more details about the crying club like I said I think some actual characterization from them could have helped the storyline. But my problems are largely after cdth, how this never really leads to him reckoning with his identity issues the way we need to see on page for this arc to be satisfying (that one pov is good, but it is not nearly enough to carry that to conclusion).

I think I would have written him trying to explicitly reflect or invert his individual relationships with the Gangsey with the Crying Club, maybe he gravitates towards one character who is a mirror (lol) for Blue that could be really fascinating, there could maybe be one character in the group who is a scholarship student and he projects onto them / tries to kind of reverse engineer his dynamic with Gansey with them to work through some things. That’s a way to explore a kind of complicated dichotomy of him feeling victorious he made it out of Henrietta while also missing “the things that were important to him in the past”, it would also effectively mirror some of what Ronan was doing with Bryde and Hennessy since he transposes elements of Niall Adam and imo Gansey onto Bryde + recreates parts of his dynamic with Kavinsky with Hennessy. (I’m torn on whether Ronan should have an explicit mirror in this version of the crying club because on the one hand I feel like the ‘you were the place I stored all that reality’ would hit harder if he’s the one person Adam didn’t try to replace there, on the other hand it could compliment the Bryde plot like I said… (also ik there are a lot of people who don’t like the Bryde plot at all I’m kind of neutral on it tbh I don’t love or hate it but anyway this is not a post about changing Ronan’s arc so writing this assuming that’s p similar to canon and only changes in response to Adam’s). Yes maybe part of this is self indulgent because it plays on some themes it’s well documented on my blog that I’m obsessed with but also this series is literally largely about clones and doubling and this verse has been concerned with identity/mirroring/masking since trc, so I do think it would fit, self indulgent or not! Also getting to see Adam be crazy like this would make him and Ronan ‘forgiving each other’ seem a little less unbalanced at least to me… I still would want like. Actual resolution to the Pynch arc where they talk, break up for at least a week (I would prefer more, but bare minimum that), work through the issues MI poses… particularly I’d want them to have an actual conversation about Ronan’s insecurity about the role Cabeswater played in their getting together and Adam could respond with the fact that Cabeswater is a separate entity from Ronan in the same way Mathew and Bryde are or how Jordan is separate from Hennessy; the deal he made with Cabeswater was of his own volition, is a separate one from their relationship though it may have played a role in it (at least I think this is what we’re supposed to take from that dropped thread?

I just think it’s something that should be discussed). ((I do realize a big part of why Adam’s arc feels off is the audience feedback loop influencing both Maggie’s willingness to write his pov and in how Pynch was ultimately treated, but this is how I think I would want it written)). In terms of the resolution to the Harvard thing it matters less to me if he stays or transfers like I said on that post but I would like a resolution for the crying club either he came clean and was rejected or accepted by them either one would I think be better for that arc than him just ghosting them (at least I think that’s what he did?) And whatever happens with him and the I would want him to actually develop a community outside of the Lynch brothers + The other Gangsey members to some degree, also obviously he is not going to be a cop in this… idk what specific profession I’d want him to have but I would like to think he actually finds something he wants to do / a new goal to be ambitious about rather than just winning at capitalism. Maybe that latter part is wishful thinking… but anyway. Not a cop at the end that’s the number 1 change I would make obviously everything else is of a lower level of importance than that. Pynch can break up then work through their issues and get back together or they can have a proper divorce arc either one works for me but they can not go on Like That… I mean I think Maggie also feels that way but again Audience Feedback Loop (I rbed a really interesting post about how break ups are treated in ya adjacent lit so I do think if nothing else this got me thinking about that on a meta level in a way I didn’t before… still don’t think it was worth it 🫤. Also this is all a word vomit / theoretical, want to remind ya’ll that I first read Greywaren like a month and a half ago, after a reread spiral of the all the other books in the verse (which basically was a first read of td3 since I read cdth and mi for the first time with High Quarantine Brain and remembered basically nothing about them due to that) so maybe some of these thoughts could change … but currently these are my takes xo!

[yallemagne]

This year, I'm not doing Dr*cula D*ily

Or any other substack but DD is the biggest. I have numerous reasons for this decision that none of y'all are gonna particularly care for, but ya know, just so we got our expectations in order: I'm not gonna participate in DD this year (maybe never again), I'm probably not gonna reblog many posts related to it (doing so would be counterintuitive), but I am holding myself to finishing Orice (at LEAST the base fic).

Now, why?

TL;DR: Mental health crisis brought on by internet harassment and overprioritizing social media. It's not fun anymore, folks.

DD just... it completely ruined the novel for me.

It was a nice phenomenon, but it took a wrecking ball to my mental health and self-worth. Now, I'm not saying DD's creator personally did something to spite me (or maybe I am, he knows what he did /j), but this whole thing? It wasn't good for me. It was never good. It was sometimes fun, but most of the time it made me want to end it because of thumblr notes.

That's fucking stupid. My life is not worth internet validation. My art is not worthless just because my numbers are not as big as the biggest big shots in the fandom. I'm not a horrible person when other people handle personal disagreements regarding headcanon with defaming rumours and impersonation. But hell! My view of reality was horribly skewed.

A while back, I unfollowed all the gothlit tags I previously followed because 1) Some people (active and popular members of the fandom, mind you, not bots or trolls) were posting honest-to-god name-dropping harassment in the tag because "it's a popular tag so more people will see my callout post" and 2) I reached a point where seeing anything related to the novel on my dash just set me off. It didn't even need to be drama-related anymore. Mentions of the characters, mentions of popular AUs, just the very content of this book became triggering to me, and I really didn't miss the content when it was gone, as sad as that is.

And the kicker? I've come to realize that I probably dislike more things about the novel than I actually like about it. Not only is it tied to some of my darkest moments in recent memory, but it's also just... a book with many flaws that I could go on and on and on about. Sometimes, it straight-up made me furious, like seething mad, and I think I'd rather just be happy. But even when I would try to channel that energy into being happy, I always felt I had to over-clarify or else I’d get bombarded with anonymous messages. If you’ve seen any of my posts from during that time… chances are there is a passive aggressive “btw people can have opposing opinions from you about an old book and it doesn’t give you leave to stone them” or several tags of “#this is a joke #a jooooooke #for the love of god #if y’all don’t stop”. I bet it was as annoying for y’all as it was for me.

P.S. Mutuals/friends, do not worry. Y'all keep doing y'all. I can and will block tags if seeing your posts triggers me. So, I suppose my only request is to properly tag, but I've been saying that from the very start.

I just want to move on to other things.

I took a break for Lent. I needed it terribly. And... not gonna lie? I almost didn't want to return. I never got an itching to just log on and "check in". I very successfully avoided tumb altogether. I came back because "I gotta come back eventually" and also like, this is my main hub where I update when I've written a fic, and ya know... I'm not gonna let toxic fandom bs rule my shit.

During my break, I got back into gaming. More specifically, I started playing Hades again. And listening to Epic the Musical. Aaaand boyyy did that bring me back to my Greek mythology phase. I have a Greek mythos/Hades sideblog btw: @areopagusimp. It's cringe, if you can't tell by the blog name.

Back when I was into Hades game and general Greek mythos, my expectations were so much smaller, but yet, my goals and will to create seemed so much bigger. I made art that no one gave a single solitary shit about (except for my friend), but I was happy. Maybe I'm wearing rose-tinted glasses, but... even if I wasn't as happy then as I remember being... haha at least I wasn't receiving threats and insults in my inbox back then :))). That was the most fun thing about the gothlit fandom. I hope every single chickenhearted angry anon is proud of their behaviour.

But yeah, whatever I end up doing, I’m striving to not let it run me into the ground.

But... What do I do now?

I have so many WIPs (art and writing) for the novel, and it's very disappointing that I didn't get to finish them before it all turned sour. Hopefully, I can still finish them, it just won't be with the same distress I worked with before. Hopefully, I can post that stuff and fully manage my expectations, not crash and burn when only a few people like it. Because hell! A few people liking my stuff? That's amazing, really. I shouldn't take that for granted. At the same time, I'm setting a boundary for myself. Placing my self-worth into the hands of people who I don't know, who don't know me, and who aren't even paying for the art? I need to stop that. Who the hell is that gonna serve? Absolutely no one.

My number one goal is to finish Orice. It is somehow untouched by my aversion to the novel; it is my safe space. I want to honour it and honour the longtime readers who have stuck with me. It's gonna be hard, but it's gonna be worth it for me.

This feels attention-seeking, and it kinda is. I'm not tagging the main subject and I'm not allowing reblogs because I want this to stay isolated (and hopefully prevent backlash/misunderstandings), but ya know, no matter how much I try to keep this small, I'm still posting it online. But I just feel like I needed to get this off my chest. I don't really owe everyone an explanation, but I want there to be one for my own sake... also it's much easier to generalize and make a post than contact each of my friends/mutuals on here and unload stuff onto them that I'm not sure is too personal or not.

For those of you who are reading: I love y'all. I love the good people I've met through all this mess. I want to keep the good apples, not throw out the whole harvest, alright? Dunno how much you'll care for my art when the subject is different, but... eh. If y'all are willing to try?

[dykelawlight]

you're one of the best nsfw writers writing lawlight at the moment what are your tips for being explicit without giving people the ick

Oh wow, thank you ⁠— this is really really sweet!! Let me see what I can think of that's like...concrete building blocks

First things first: if you don't know, research! It's always great to pull from experience when possible, but there have also been many nonfiction books and such written about like, basically Kink Rules™ that can be very helpful to pull from when you're trying to plot out how a scene would go or what you personally find really sexy. (Of course, there are plenty of these that are cringe and icky too because the ~kink community~ is vast and contains many people who are very annoying, so take what works and leave the rest.) I once read an entire book that was just about bootblacking/shoe stuff because I didn't know a lot about it and thought it sounded hot. As a broader example, I write and prefer dom/sub stuff (as you well know!), so I like Dossie Easton & Janet Hardy's The New Topping Book and The New Bottoming Book, both of which can be kind of hokey but which have a lot of sexy things to say from the perspective of people who engage in d/s relationships and scenes irl aimed at people who may be new to one or both. (They're also both available digitally but they're pretty easy to secure hard copies of if you think you'll get any significant use out of them.) I would say I don't need to refer to these personally as a source of actual new knowledge at this stage of my life, but specific concepts or scenes that resonate and/or that I've never personally tried can bloom into fanfic stuff later.

I write things down immediately as they occur to me. If I'm fuckin standing in the elevator and I experience a vision of a character I'm writing like moaning a specific phrase or some shit I'll straight up jot it in my notes app so I don't forget and can build on it. I also often will write when I personally am already kind of warmed up because I find that's when the least inhibited and therefore hottest shit hits the page, to be cleaned up and edited into presentableness by my less-revved self in the future.

Stick to basic terms for most things 99.9% of the time. I find that "cock" and "cunt" etc., while sort of standard and definitely something you'll probably see a lot of if you ctrl+F your fic later, are basically the "said" of porn. Not everything needs to have an explicit description all the time. I will also slide into use of "dick" and "pussy" when I feel it's raunchy and hot to do so but I generally don't come up with any shit other than that. Never talk about anybody's "pearl" or "flower" or shit. I'm not saying you can't make comparisons to those things, but it can't be The Word you use to talk about someone's genitalia.

On the opposite spectrum, too much use of "moan" to describe sounds and sentences gets very repetitive very fast! People make a lot of different noises during sex and describing more of them than just moaning adds depth and sexiness. Much like "said," that's not to say it doesn't have its place and not every word should be "yelped" "whimpered" "sobbed" etc. (though I am partial to the latter), but it doesn't need to be every sound, either.

Don't be afraid to write shit you like even if you feel like you might be the only person on the planet who finds it really sexy. I'm writing strap sex for this next fic I'm working on and, while it's obviously a very broad category, I know it's not everyone's cup of tea and some people are actively averse to it in lesbian fic. That's fine, but I know what I like and what I like is to get my silicone dick wet, so that's what's going to happen. I guarantee other people will find it and enjoy stuff you wrote just for you even if they maybe originally didn't think it was for them.

That's everything that immediately comes to mind!! I welcome feedback/comments/reblogs etc. here because I have some HOTTTT writers following me who I think frankly put me to shame 🙇🏻‍♂️

[persmo]

Our syscourse code

Just to make sure, we're open about asks about this and maybe some debates, but if you're not respectful we're just gonna delete it, and if you feel our stances bad or shit like that you're free to block us and unfollow our sideblogs, we're just doing this because we feel like and so the answers are gonna have some more in depth explantion

This is not meant to be a place for attacks, any kind of comment about that would be deleted and reblogs doing with that kind of thing I will block the account without hessitation

Also, endos DNI, don't care if this is tagged with the syscourse tag, it's just because it has to do not because I want you to interact, I gift free blocks yk?

[Syscourse code link]

Question one - Do you believe in endogenic plurality

🤚(NA) - I believe in it but am against it / 👇(NU) - Other

To dive a bit better I do believe in the possibility of experiencing something similar to plurality without the disorder, does this means it would be the same kind of plurality than systems with CDD? Of course not because they're not the same thing, even some people with the disorder don't consider themselves plurals/systems so saying is an only CDD experience it's kinda wonky

I don't believe there's such a thing like "endo system" because system in the context of plurality has been use to explain the CDDs so using it for another types of internal experience that has nothing to do is straight up ableist

I'm also against the endo community because of the way the present and handle thing

It's more like, shit the non CDD "plurals" ruined themselves LMAO /vneg

Question two - Opinion on tulpas

💛 (TC) - I think it is cultural appropriation, and other terms are better

Like if you practice that for real good use it, but many people that use the term tulpa is straight up appropriation and they can find better terms for that :/

Question three - Do you think endos just don't remember their trauma

📘(NETR) - People sometimes misunderstand their identity, it doesn't mean everyone is misunderstanding / not remembering.

It's a big it depends case yk? Understanding yourself it's hard

Question four - Opinion on shared spaces

🔸(NSP) - Shared spaces are good but there should also be specific spaces for disordered, traumagenic, endogenic, etc spaces.

It's good to have shared spaces even outside the plural things, but it's' also important to have specific spaces for the ones who don't want to be in more general ones or want to be in a more specific side if they need to, just like any other space it's good to have the general one and the specific one and respect each others boundaries

Question five - Do you think endogenic plurality is comparable to transX

🟢(TXU) - Not unless the person themselves considers their plurality transX

I believe that transX or trans-ID as I called them is one of the worst shits and I can't believe it's possible to be "transplural" in any kind of way, so yeah don't compare something that can happen with a shit thing

Question six - Do you think you can have DID/OSDD/UDD without trauma

🌑(DTNO) - No

No need to explain myself lol

Question seven - Do you think introjects from other cultures should be able to use that culture's names if they aren't bodily part of it (eg. Japanese introject using Japanese names, while in a white body)

🟦(CNNU) - Other

It has been brought to my attention that people don't really understand what a closed culture is and it's really annoying me, they're policing something they don't fully understand and most of the time is for moral superiority or social pressure especially in the system community which is fucking toxic and shit

Names that are really closed it's not ok to keep them if not given as their disrespectful to the culture, but even with some cultures being close that doesn't mean the names will be closed

So it's more of depends on the name context rather than "the name is from x culture?"

Question eight - Opinion on researched self diagnosis

🌳(SDXI) - If the person has done extensive research it's okay / ☘️(SDXNU) - Other

I don't believe one can diagnose oneself as the disorders are very complex and has a lot of things going on, specially when a lot of things go an overlap with symptoms and conduct behavior on the individual, not just when talking about complex dissociative disorders but for any kind of mental health disorder

Just like physical things you can't diagnosis with some body sickness, sure you can have your suspicions and recognize you might have something based on what you know about it but you can be correct or incorrect about your suspicions, the same happens here

I don't believe you can diagnosis yourself, I believe you can self recognize to have a complex dissociative disorder but using medical diagnosis names while it's just a suspicions I think is wrong, doing enough research like a very good one that takes you several reading months I see that the recognizement of the symptoms can be explained by the system phenomena, but don't claim a specific type of CDD please, that's something only the professionals can do

Question nine - Sysmed as a term

🗯(IDN) I do not want to have an opinion on this

I'm still forming my opinion on this one and therefore I don't want to be in the opinion discourse about this

Question ten - Traumascum as a term

🥖(TSH) - I think it's harmful / 🥧(TSA) - I am against it

This is harmful and ableist as shit, why do people even think this is ok to use? Wtf 💀

Question eleven - Endogenic systems using the term 'system'

🦎(ESD) - If they are diagnosed / 🐲 (ESO) - I think they should use other terms

If they have the diagnosis of a complex dissociative disorder they can use the term system just for describing the alters, if they're gonna describe another part that isn't dissociated and therefore a symptom of the disorder use another term, just like using two different terms at the same time to be respectful with the disorder, yk what I mean?

Question twelve - Endogenic systems using the term 'alter'

🐛 (EAD) - If they are diagnosed / 🐝 (ESO) - I think they should use other terms

Is the same explanation as the above just change system with alters and that, doesn't have lot of backup explaining outside that

Question thirteen - Xeno-origins

🐬(XEN) - I don't understand their purpose

I genuinely can't understand them

So yea that's all, probably I'll make a blog just for talking about syscourse if I feel like or if I have a lot of asks surrounding this post in my inbox because I don't want this to be a syscourse blog because I'm honestly stressed as fuck when it comes to the stupidity of syscourse talking

That's all byeeee

[cupcakes-and-contemplation]

so so so many new friends around here, so I thought I’d reintroduce myself!

My name is marie (LOWERCASE m PLSS), and my pronouns are she/her.

I mostly post about the 9-1-1 fandom but I love basically anything so I reblog a lot of other fandom stuff

About me!

My favorite color is gold or grey

I’m a huge swiftie and I will find a way to relate every song to a fictional character

I want to eventually become a writer (maybe?)

I love Oreos more than I love anything else in the world

I’m a dog person! Surprisingly.

I’m a SUCKER for punctuation. Me and the Oxford Comma are like this 🤞🏼

I used to be obsessed with Steve x Eddie from Stranger Things, so if you knew me back then, I’m sorry

9-1-1 is my comfort show but I also have high functioning anxiety so I have to watch it in doses

I have anxiety, depression, (possibly ADHD but I am NOT self diagnosing), and a rare genetic disease 💕💕

My dms? Asks? inbox? are always open and I love chatting so if you need to rant hmu (SPILL THE TEAAA)

Uhhhh, I once started a small Reddit war because I said Bobby Flay was annoying and I kinda hated him (the people of Food Network Reddit are big ole softies smh)

Anywho, I’ve now formerly introduced myself, and basically dumped way more info than you ever wanted to know…

Toodles!!!

xx

marie

[cipheramnesia]

Hey I know GBG doesn't have as many notes as your funny posts but.....I've been really enjoying it, and I haven't interacted with it the same way I do your joke posts. The joke posts feel like an implicit invitation to the audience to do spinoffs. The serious stuff doesn't.

I mostly just hope I get more reblogs on stuff that's more like, me trying to write in a serious way, like how anyone wants. The same with art, which it doesn't all even need comments I think, just sharing around. Like I generally don't leave much commentary on art when I reblog it, usually it's just something I think is good and maybe doesn't have a lot of notes so I hope a few more people see it and stuff like that. Nothing all consuming, just sharing around other people's work and maybe they will find more people who like their work and they will feel a little nicer, mainly. Passing it around the communal fire n such.

Which usually I don't bring up for me, or I try not to because it goes where it goes and it sees who it sees. But generally also what I hear tell is if you do want art in front of eyes you just gotta accept being a little annoying about with sharing constantly and asking other people to share it. Also only sleeping four or five hours a night has by reduced my normal self conscious self restraint, plus my personal mental illness has gotten very weird and demanding about writing more. I might pass out in sec

[visualnovelzombie]

Furry Visual Novel Book Club: Echo Week 16 SPOILERS

Hi everyone, here is the SPOILER discussion post for “Echo - TJ’s Thursday”

Links: Previous - Next - Original - Spoiler Free Version

Feel free to respond in reblogs/replies/or asks :D

Thursday starts with Chase waking up with a lingering headache.. The motel trio eat breakfast and discuss their plans for the day, Chase siding with Tj’s thinking and point of view. Carl texts Chase, asking him to go over to his place. Tj and Chase head over to Carl’s while Jenna stays to do homework. Tj asks Chase to walk over instead of drive, and despite the otter’s protest of the heat, he agrees.

Chase is going further and further into his Hysteria, wanting nothing but to please Tj, even over his own self interests, changing even casual conversation and passive thinking for the lynx.

As they pass Janice’s house, Chase tells Tj that he needs to start saying ‘no’ to people, and not let them take advantage of him. Tj reacts negatively, making the situation tense, saying that he’s trying to make himself feel good for a lot of things.

A very... foretelling piece of advice.

Chase is racist against Canadians, which diffuses the mood. The pair arrive at Carl's house to find the ram crossfaded out of his mind. Carl is glad Chase is there, and in his glee, carry’s Tj bridal style into the house. Carl motions for Chase to sit next to him, but the otter elects to sit a bit away.

The trio order a pizza and Tj invites Carl to help at Janice’s later. After a movie, pizza, and some beers, the three decide to play ‘Never Have I Ever’. Carl tries to get Tj to drink, but Chase bails at the lynx out to do a sober-alternative instead. Carl start’s off with a sexual question, angering Chase for Tj’s sake. Chase and Carl argue the definition of sex, Tj turning more red by the minute.

For Chase’s turn, he says he’s never been in a fight, Tj once again saying no…. When we’re met with a choice…

Hysteria drones over Come Over as we’re left to pick an option… each of which lead to Carl shrugging, the drone fading out over time after selecting a choice… Carl say’s hes never kissed a dude… shocking Tj and upsetting Chase. After Chase is the only one to lower a finger, Carl kisses him on the cheek, chugging more beer for bravery afterwards.

Interesting note here: This doubles the implication that Carl and Flynn do NOT kiss in their hookups, and Carl is in want for that intimacy... especially from Chase.

As the game progresses, Carl becomes more and more annoyed at Tj’s questions all being directed towards Chase, seemingly ignoring the ram. It comes to a head when Tj says he’s never been in a car accident, a somewhat recent and traumatic event for Carl that he had shared with everyone at the start of the week. Carl, now drunk again and upset, goes after Tj personally.

Absolutely jaw dropping in it’s own regard... doubly so when you find out what Chase did, and how Tj is covering for him with his own guilt...

The three sit in silence, until Carl starts to dig at Tj over it. He blames his life going downhill on Sydney’s death, the event traumatizing him deeply. No one responds meaningfully and after a bit of silence, Carl mentions finding a letter from Sydney in his crawl space. It’s directions to a ‘Treasure Hunt��, a game Sydney would play with the group when he was alive. It’s a series of scavenger hunt like clues. Carl says they should play, maybe it’ll help them all move on…

This mainly reads to me, that some Echo is speaking through Tj, with it not ‘sound’ing like him being the most telling in that train of thought. As we’ll see a bit later, I also believe it’s some Echo of Sydney.

Tj’s response is uncharacteristically cold, not even sounding like him. Tj tells Carl to stop blaming other people and to start blaming himself. Tj storms out the door, Chase following after him. The lynx is about to cry, but Chase hugs him, calming him down. The two decide to head to Janice’s now instead of waiting for the evening, Tj hugs Chase tight before they head out.

They arrive at Janice’s house and knock on the door. She answers pant-less... The coyote squishes Tj’s face, and is insistent and heading outside in only a shirt and her panties to tell the boys what to work on for the day… Janice tells the boys to dig a 5x3x3 ft hole in the backyard.

A proper grave for the man she feels guilty for killing...

Janice peels off in her car, Chase jokingly asking whose she’s on her way to murder someone… After digging for a few hours, Carl texts Chase saying sorry. Intimate begins to play, as Tj says he should apologize too. The boys discuss how to respond. Tj says he wants to reconcile by doing the treasure hunt together, that it should get everyone back together to start working on what’s been eating at the group for all these years. Tj asks if Carl and Chase have messed around or kissed before today, feeling better once Chase tells him no. Chase teases Tj with an offer of a kiss. Carl asks them to go back and the duo return to the mansion.

Carl and Tj both apologize, realizing they both messed up during the game. The three decide to partake in the scavenger hunt, heading to the motel to open the letter with Jenna. The group decide to meet at the diner and go over the plan. They all decide not to tell Flynn, and Tj says Leo doesn’t want to revisit the incident after pretending it doesn’t happen.

The group open the letter, Chase hallucinating darkness pouring from it as he does.

To me there’s a few possibilities for an explanation here and these two are my favorite:

1. Chase doesn’t truly remember the handwriting and Tj is able to recreate it well enough.

2.Tj channeled Sydney’s Echo through him to write the notes. Based on time-place of stuff later this makes it harder, but with all the information I think this is most likely the best ‘explanation’, and I’ll dive into it later. We know these notes could not exist in a non-supernatural sense if placed by Sydney, and there’s mountains of evidence to denote that Tj did it... there’s just a few roadblocks that I’ll dive into as we approach them.

The letter is old, and falling apart. The group figure out the location the letter is sending them… but Chase realizes the clue doesn’t match up with the timeline of Sydney’s death… Janice interrupts the thought with their food. She apologizes to Tj and Chase, and tells the pair to swing by her place to apologize in private for how she’s been acting.

The letter being old calls into question Tj or Flynn setting it up recently, but my explanation at the end will hopefully cover that. Janice recovering and acting normal is... interesting. Especially because we know she usually ‘snaps’ on Friday, killing someone in the diner (My money is still on Dale...). Perhaps the hysteria has been ‘decided’ to all occur within Chase and Tj at this point in time, helping her out mentally as we progress?

The group head to a nearby clearing of trees, ‘The Forest’, in Chase’s car. They split up looking for the ‘birdhouse’, Chase reminiscing about the group playing here together in 2002 in the meantime. He then remembers seeing a dead body hanging from a tree when he was around 10 that vanished.. The memory cements to Chase that the ‘hint’ couldn’t have been written by Sydney at all, due to the event happening AFTER the other otter had died... Before being able to delve into it more, Tj exclaims he’s found the next clue. Jenna disposes of spiderwebs covering it, and Chase reads the next part… with a bit of an interruption from the familiar spirit. The clue tells them to go to the old school building, to room 301, and the gang heads out.

*insert injy shocked face here*

Jenna acts as lookout in the car while Carl, Tj, and Chase break into the school. The group make their way to the correct room, teasing each other about the creepy nature of the place on the way. Tj finds a toolbox containing the note, the handwriting matching the other notes. Carl and Chase are dumbfounded, surprised no one has taken it in the last 11 years… The clue calls out Chase for a third time, instructing the group to go to Sydney’s house.

Fascinating... Tj or Sydney is taking specific shots at Chase, trying to drag him down. If the result wasn’t so direct... there might have been a chance they could have succeeded, but the forwardness of the implication is what causes Chase to act before the final note... They lost to their hubris in crucifying Chase for his actions instead of taking him out swiftly or effectively...

Chase inspects the note, finding it just as old and of the same quality as the previous two, despite how unlikely it would remain where they group find it. Chase is hesitant that the next note would be in the same house, as Sydney’s family moved out just after he died. Tj insists they try. The group return to the motel, the mood tense due to Tj’s attitude.

The scene cuts to Chase being unable to fall asleep at night, lying in bed next to Tj. Chase suspects one of his friends set him up, but doesn’t recall telling any of his friends about seeing the body in the forest. He also speculates Tj set it up a long time ago too…

Now this is basically what I think happened. We know it isn’t possible for the notes to be left by an alive Sydney and that the notes are in fact old. Assuming we believe that the handwriting IS Sydney’s and Chase isn’t misremebmering, this leaves the Tj-Possession theory the most likely.

Steps:

1. At some point in time, most likely at the point of drowning, an Echo of Sydney entered Tj. If the Echo is Sydney’s, it would give Tj the ability to copy his handwriting, and know intimate and specific details of scavenger hunts in order  to re complete them to the degree he’s able to.

2. Sometime after Chase saw the body, Tj found out somehow. We are specifically told that Jenna’s parents told her, and Chase assumes one of his parents told them. We are shown in Route 65 that Tj’s mother is... a little gossipy/forward with everyone’s business, and if the trailer-trash Begay’s found out from the Hunters/about the Hunters, I think it’s extremely likely Mrs. Hess would know. She’s also VERY forthcoming with Tj, leading to the possibility of her telling him

3. Tj DID write these notes a long time ago, possibility after finding out about the incident. Some grief or other trigger spurred him into setting everything up.

4. While Tj created everything long ago, he kept the notes on him/stashed. They were possibily a way for an actual child (young Tj) to cope with the traumatic knowledge he couldn’t convince anyone of, and one he was forced to keep hidden. We know Tj wasn’t allowed to fully express his ideas behind the incident due to the arrival of Socket Man, and his truthful depiction of it, causing all the adults not to believe any part of his story.

5. Coming back to Echo has triggered his guilt fully, or allowed the Echo to take control and set the ‘trap’ up for whatever reason. If it’s Sydney’s, it is very clearly ‘avenging’ himself and letting people know the truth... The intervention of Mirror-Man/The Entity along the way feeds into this IMO... The Town Needs Secretes after all...

Chase isn’t sure if Tj would do it, and suspects Carl and Flynn set it up somehow due to the first note being found in Carl’s basement. Chase is determined to do something about the scavenger hunt based on the next note…

We’re treated to a flashback scene.

Tj, Carl, and Chase are playing outside of the abandoned school as young children, Chase and Carl egging on the lynx to go inside. Chase brings up Sydney’s father’s somewhat recent death, and spreads a rumor his mom told him: That Sydney was the one to kill his father. Sydney arrives back at the playground with popsicles, but notices the other children treating him differently due to the rumor Chase had just shared. The kids fight, Sydney running off from the group and the dream ends…

Again, this reinforces the Hunter’s being gossips (I blame Mr. Hunter for being a messy bottom)...

(No this isn’t IN the VN, it’s in porn McSkinny commissions because he has a thing for dad’s and fucking your homie’s dads... what a king!)

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[thewritinglotus]

Ren's Guide To RP

Terms to Know

Muse- A character you write for in RP/Fanfiction. A character that inspires you to write.

Plot- A storyline you plan to write. In RP, this is typically done with another person.

Thread- An RP between two or more people.

OC- Original Character. A character YOU created. Or maybe an alternate version of a canon character

Ship- Slang for relationship. Typically of the romantic kind.

Fanfiction - Solo writing done usually for self-indulgent headcannons, ships, alternate endings or alternate plotlines Can be collaborative but not in the same way as RP

AU- Alternate Universe. A universe not related to canon

Headcannons- Your own ideas for a character. Things you think a character would like, think, wear, say, do that isn't in Canon.

Canon - Base material. A show, movie, book or piece of writing that AUs, headcannons and plotlines come from.

Canon-Divergent- Anything that isn't quite canon but still complies with Canon material

Verse- Similar to an AU but it can apply to a certain universe you created with someone else or just for your character.

Tips for Plotting {RP}

Communication is key! Tell your RP partner your ideas, show them your muses, make connections! Get to know their character and let them get to know yours!

Don't overwhelm your partner! When plotting, it's best to follow the simple rule of K. I. S. S {Keep it simple, Sally}. Your character has an elaborate backstory? Cool! Make sure you find a way to connect them to your partner's muse! They can't interact with yours very well if you don't leave room for them to make an appearance/ meaningfully interact with your muse.

Don't Godmod! Remember when you were a kid and other kids would still your toys and butt in to what you were doing? Annoying and rude, right? Yeah, that's just what it's like when you Godmod. Don't do it!

Questions to ask yourself before asking someone to plot/RP

What is my Muse's connection to my partner's muse? Can there be a connection made? How can they meet?

When our muses meet, what kind of relationship will they have? Remember, take into account the personality and backstory of BOTH muses. Why do they have this kind of relationship? Have they interacted before? What do they have in common?

How will they react to certain things said or done to them? Are they an asshole? Are they nice and meek? Would they kill you for merely breathing in their direction? Take this into account when you pick a character to play with. 9/10 people aren't going to change how their character acts for you. They are not your personal fanfic writers!

*And remember, if you aren't sure or you need help, ask your partner about their ideas or any advice they might have.

Communication is key!

If your partner can't work with what you're throwing at them, take a step back and ask yourself why. Ask them why. Work with them. This is something you're writing TOGETHER. They need to be able to respond. Think of it as if you were in their shoes. Could you respond to what you're about to send them? If you're having a hard time writing it, they're probably going to have issues with responding to it

Check yourself before you ask someone to RP. Also, don't be afraid to talk to the Mun OOC too. Usually, if you two vibe OOC, your characters probably will too but not always.

Did I miss anything? Have your own tips and tricks to add? Reblog this and start a conversation!

[schismusic]

Redecorating

I've done some pretty stupid shit in my life but this, this whole thing (imagine I'm gesturing around indistinctly with a ghastly look on my face), totally takes the cake. Is it funny if I do the tapping-the-mic-to-check-if-it-works gag in a written post?

It started when I was about to turn fifteen and trying to bed a girl - she honestly dodged a bullet when she said no, I cannot lie to you all. Anyway I guess I absolutely had to find an outlet for being an annoying teenager and being an asshole irl simply didn't cut it sometimes, you know how it is, most of us are here for that exact same reason.

A number of things have happened since I last posted on this hellsite. The short version is as follows:

I had an identity crisis, or two, or five;

I got a driver's license, somehow;

a worldwide pandemic hit, but I guess this is another one of those things that make us equal on this postapocalyptic landscape of a microblogging platform;

just as inexplicably as my driver's license, I also got a beautiful and lovely girlfriend of almost three years now;

who knows, I might even get a degree before 2024 is over.

This is all fine and dandy, of course, but sometimes a dude just needs to scream into the void, wherein "the void" in this case is about two hundred (!!!!) strangers on the internet, which probably includes you, dear reader. Thanks for sticking with me over these troublesome years of absolutely nothing happening on this blog.

What's new then?

Number one: "what the fuck kinda name is schismusic?"

Hi, my name is schismusic. I thought of this ungodly name when I was, as mentioned, a very pretentious fourteen-year-old, and it absolutely shows. However,

one could argue it's part of the charm in a way;

it grants a bit of relative anonimity compared to my other, more beloved Internet alias (which will inevitably come crashing against my inevitable post concerning my band and the record we made a while ago - more on this later);

somehow, it stuck. You people will eat up just about fucking anything, really!

(Another thing that happened: I learned a tiny bit of HTML, because Letterboxd is yet another hellsite I'm not-quite-proudly a part of. Gotta catch 'em all. I love being annoying with HTML formatting as a matter of fact, it's quite liberating to pretend to know that you can code in front of a billion strangers on the Internet.)

Number two: "so is this asshole gonna post fake hipster music on my timeline yet again?"

Not really, or at least not just that. First order of business is that reblogging is fun, but it overstays its welcome when you do it irresponsibly. It also quite literally goes contrary to this blog's original self-appointed mission and this cannot go unchecked. Pretension is law! Bad taste is every single one of this blog's ten commandments! I hate you all more than I hate myself!

Jokes aside, my point is exactly that I want to be a bit less annoying on the Internet for once. Consequently, I have decided to extend the range of posts on this blog beyond the relatively usual songs and reach into short- and medium-form writing (fiction, nonfiction, maybe even reviews: anything goes), pictures I take (the true OGs might remember I used to post my own drawings from time to time: that's not entirely out of the question for the future, it's just that it's been a while since I've last drawn anything worthwhile) and obviously shameless self-promotion (remember me mentioning my band a couple paragraphs above? Well, here is our record on Bandcamp, Spotify and YouTube; and no, my dear OGs, this is not the same band I used to talk about back in the day! This is a whole new project for you to check out), both in Italian and English, and maybe even some Spanish if I actually take my Spanish to a functional level.

As a corollary of this final point, I will not be deleting my old content, so that the new people on here can get to enjoy a whole cornucopia of cringe circa-2014 content.

Finally, since this is primarily a music blog, the obligatory soundtrack to the writing of this post:

Shoutout to literally every single one of you people for somehow not getting tired of waiting through these years of inactivity, or maybe you just forgot that I existed. If it's the second one, I hope this post was a fun throwback, and that this time you remember to unfollow me for good like you probably wanted to do back when I was active and annoying on here.

It's good to be back.

Love,

schismusic

[anotherghoul666]

I want to know the answer to so many of those questions for the ao3 wrapped. I'll settle for these though: 3, 9 and 28

Buddy, please, you could ask all of them and I'd jump for joy and answer every single one. Engagement is author food and I hunger like nobody's business XD If you want to know the answer to anything else, please send them over. Never hesitate to engage with me. I'd wager most authors would also love the engagement but I don't want to speak for everyone, so maybe check in first, but I LOVE it. I don't find it cringe, I don't find spam likes or reblogs annoying, I love asks, do your worst!

3. What work are you most proud of (regardless of kudos/hits)?

This Could All Be Yours! Because this beast was an ORDEAL to make. I actually pushed through and produced something that I can legit enjoy now that I've stepped away from it. So much shit happened while I was actively writing the stripper!AU. I wrote it through an insane work rush where I'd do 10 days in a row no breaks spent between my two jobs because of the stupid holiday season, have a day off to recover, then get shoved back in it again. I wrote it through a covid outbreak in my residents at job 1 from which we were not properly protected. I wrote it under the threat and stress of maybe catching covid again, maybe giving covid to my partner, maybe ruining the holidays for everybody cause both our families have immunocompromised members so we had to isolate preventively besides going to work. I wrote it through a good ol' bout of the Spicy Sad. I somehow managed to write Rain to a satisfying standard where I love how I wrote him now but while I was doing it? Holy shit did this cryptid stump me and made want to pull my hair out xD Every scene with him did not flow while I wrote, it was slow and painful and like pulling teeth. Many people have had me in their DMs complaining about why is our water boy so fucking hard to write XD And in the end it worked out so good and I love himmmmm but my god, I had another Rain fic planned right after this and NOPE XD I need a Rain break, I can't put myself through that again so soon hahaha. I can write him well but he's the ghoul I struggle with the most. So yeah. Through all that shit, I wrote almost 20k of what I find to be a very well build verse I'm excited to go back inside of, and I'm proud I managed to get it out in these circumstances!

9. Favorite pairing you wrote for this year?

Besides the obvious answer of polyghouls because I ship them all as a poly unit, my favorite dynamic is Swiss/Dew. These two together are magic. They're a fucking forest fire. They are so much fun to write, they're natural, they flow so well, they're painless, and I can push shit with them. Swiss is my go-to sadist, Dew is my go-to masochist (even if I 100% plan to make them switch, because all my ghouls are switches, and Dew has a mean sadistic streak too). I'm a fervent follower of the Hurt Dew 2k22 agenda and I shall pursue some version of Hurt Dew 2k23 too, honestly. It's just, right on target for what I love to write the most, these two. The banter, the back and forth, the meanness, the issues, the humiliation and shame sweet spot, the pain and shared delight, that manic electric energy they get into, on a backdrop of so much love and care and trust. They're the pair I realistically see pushing their kink the furthest in terms of edge play and real heavy shit that teeters lines and limits and I love that vibe. I cannot wait to write more of their brand of tender violence. I want to see see how much I can push with these two in the future, how far I'll take them in terms of the more niche or "extreme" kinks and edge play. That's the kind of exploration that really gets my experimentalist kinkster mind going!

28. Favorite work you wrote this year?

Drought or Euphoria probably. It's the most self-indulgent work I wrote for sure, in terms of saying fuck it, this will not be for everybody, but it's what gets me off, and I will write something I'd get off to if I found it in the wild. Turns out, more people than I had expected have suddenly found themselves with an sudden new interest for leather boots hahaha. Yall are welcome for the sexual awakening btw ;) But yeah. Most of the key elements in this fic are self indulgent. It's me pressing my own buttons. The gratuitous descriptions of Swiss and his salt and pepper facial hair that makes me weak in the knees. The whole "consensually twisting someone's arm and tricking them to make them do what you want" dynamic Swiss enacts on Dew. The descriptions of the smell and taste of leather, that's for me to have the scent in my nose and the taste in my mouth while I write. The boot worship. The obedience. The devotion. The humiliation. The shameless projection of my own oral fixation and enthusiasm for blow jobs on Dew, which is now something I've kept on his character for good and will write more of. The monstrous tongue which is me displaying my inner monster fucker. The denial ending. This shit is like, my own kryptonite. I will happily write for kinks that aren't my favs or aren't even kinks I have, for requests or exploration's sake. But oooh boy, when I get to just make an entire fic to be a collection of *my* shit, it's pure fun and it goes to the top of the favorite list real fast hahaha.

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BASICS ! Name / Alias: Soda, SodaCat, also some variety or deungnamu or deungnamuart Pronouns: he/him, becoming more comfortable with they/them Blog type: single muse | Multi-muse | non selective | semi selective | selective | mutuals only | private | other Type of muses: canon | OCs | both (i have single muse blogs of canon muses and OCs) | other (specify)

GENERALITIES ! Triggers people MUST tag: non-con/rape, the c-slur (please) Interest tracker / checker: I have it and it’s mandatory | I have it, it’s not mandatory but I’m more likely to follow back / interact with the people who fill it | I have one and I prefer it if people fill it in | I have it but it’s up to people whether to fill it or not | I don’t have one | other (specify) Reblog karma: I practice it | I practice it sometimes | I don’t practice it | I always reblog memes from the source | indifferent | other (if i cannot find the source/the source is deleted, I will TRY to reblog from a diff blog but you know what- sometimes I don't wanna have through dig pages of a stranger's blog JUST for a meme, then I'll reblog it from mutuals.) Rule passwords: I have one and it’s mandatory | I have one and it’s optional | I don’t have one | I send passwords | I don’t send passwords

3-5 ESSENTIAL RULES PEOPLE HAVE TO RESPECT Don't rush me.

Do not try to manipulate me emotionally or monopolize my time/energy.

Sometimes I am very slow and distracted, I appreciate patience.

3-5 IMPORTANT PET PEEVES TO KEEP IN MIND Respect my interpretation. If my mutual is just collecting my muse to shove into a mold, I get very annoyed.

Love-Bombing when the muns have never spoken. It makes me uncomfortable because some really fucked up people have tried to become my 'friend' this way and were usually hiding something.

Communicate. If a mutual bugs me to plot and then doesn't respond at all (like PERIOD/NEVER after approaching me first, I have had that happen before), I will consider that a waste of my time and energy. 2-5 THINGS THAT WILL LEAD TO INSTANT (SOFT)BLOCKING Vaguing. Venting is fine! But if the mun is like 'oooh ppl be smutting calm ur asses down horny ppl smh', maybe grow up? This is something I personally see as 'acceptable' in a lot of RPCs and it's just obnoxious. Constant negativity and self-depreciation.

Rapid-fire posting, sometimes I get REALLY overwhelmed. 2-5 THINGS THAT LEAD ME TO UNFOLLOW / SOFTBLOCK A MUTUAL / SOMEONE I INTERACT WITH Not being up front. If I directly ask if there's a problem and my mutual lies and says "nothing", then I find out about it later- Boom. I cannot STAND this kind of behavior. My ex gaslit me all the time by acting like I was being "crazy and paranoid" when I knew there was something wrong and it really fucks with me. I have a very good intuition, so lying and making me question my own judgment because my mutual can't be an adult and talk is a no go.

The mun turns out to be possessive/territorial about their rp partners. We're not married, we are collaborating on fiction together.

The mun doesn't roleplay ever despite being an RP blog.

The mun turns out to be extremely insecure or needs constant validation.

I suspect the mun is sending themselves anonymous hate messages for attention.

2-5 REASON YOU DON’T FOLLOW (BACK) SOMEONE The mun is a jerk from a different rpc.

The blog is a personal and has no rp information or side blog.

The muse has no information/anything I can work with.

The mun's rules are worded kind of asshole-y/like 'tagging is so hard and I NEVER do it why r u trying to censor meee i WrIte maTuRe tHEmES'

The mun seems bigoted in some fashion.

tagged by: @duunswitch! tagging: STEAL MY HEART, PHANTOM THIEF STYLE